#So the conversation waits till I am in a headspace to not be a dick

[conspiracy-crows-vent]

Sometimes everything is fantastic and wonderful except like

1 thing

But that one thing causes you enough frustration, irritation, or other bothersome emotion that it kinda ruins the fantastic for a bit.

[sssssssim]

I did that thing again. Where I re-read a series and took a picture of all the things that caught my eye. Be it funny, surprising, or just things that I forgot...

...from The Raven Cycle. Let’s talk about them. 

This is going to be a long post, with 141 pictures. This is also going to be filled with spoilers. Enjoy :)

I really like this quote. And I remember I named one of my sterek fics after it :)

THIS IS THE FIRST THING NOAH SAYS. LIKE JESUS. FUCKING. CHRIST. I am so mad. Because I remember the first time reading it, half way through the first book, I thought “I don’t think Noah is alive”, and then I thought that it was such a ridiculous thing. But I kept thinking it, and doubting it, and how the hell could I have ever doubted it, considering HE SAID IT FIRST?

I love this a lot, really. Because this species is poisonous is such an interesting way to refer to Ronan. It’s true, but it’s also kinda beautiful, because when I think of a species, I think it needs to be protected. Also, yeah, of course this chapter was Adam’s pov.

Now, what you need to understand is that I love Ronan Lynch. I love him something stupid, really. I fell in love with him later in the series, but this is heartbreaking now. Because at this point, we didn’t know anything. At it says a whole fucking lot about him, about his headspace, considering what he knows right then.

#quote. He’s so old. I know people keep saying that in the book, that Gansey is an old man in a teenager’s body. And it’s mostly a joke, but it’s really not.

Again. This is so funny considering what we find out later in the books. Really, Maggie did so much foreshadowing, it’s ridiculous. Also, Noah knew. He’s always known.

so. much. foreshadowing. it’s frustrating, how much I’ve missed.

I got my sis to read the books. The first thing she told me was “they get so much funnier after they actually meet eachother”.

Blue’s relationship with Ronan is hilarious.

And brilliant, to watch its evolution.

He’s talking about when Adam took the Camaro and went alone to do something with Cabeswater. What’s interesting is how Gansey sees Adam. It’s complicated, sure, but he sees Adam as someone... pure. 

One of the best mother-daughter relationships ever, to be honest.

Oh, how that line hurt me. Probably as much as it hurt Whelk, tbh. Noah wasn’t a character I liked a lot. He was just... there. Until the very end, when I started crying at the chapter written in his pov.

There are so many beautiful quotes in this books. (I tried reading the Shiver series. I gave up halfway through the second book cause it was nowhere near as beautiful as this.)

I connected with Blue a lot in this moment. Cause. Same.

THESE TWO. Love each other a whole lot, so of course they hurt each other a lot, too. At this point, Gansey didn’t understand Adam very well. The conversation is still about the Camaro and Cabeswater thing, I think. And Gansey doesn’t understand. But, to be fair, Adam didn’t really explain it. 

It’s horrific and hilarious, how in the scene of a murder, Gansey thinks about how they’re not allowed to drink alcohol. ... Sorry, an alcoholic beverage. Old man.

That’s a big fat lie, though. Being real. Ha, no.

I can’t remember if this is Blue or Gansey, but either way, it says a lot, about how they just... moved past this information. I feel like Ronan did SUCH A FUCKING MASSIVE THING, with punching Adam’s dad and helping him move out and finding him a place. And yes, it was about Adam, not about Ronan. They friends should have focused on Adam, yes, but they should have realized something about Ronan, too, right then. And I don’t think they did. 

I don’t know about you guys, but when I read this, I fucking screeched. Like Chainsaw. I closed by kindle, took a deep breath. I needed a fucking moment. (Ronan kind of ruined me, in the best ways.)

#quote. Put that in your YA post-apocalyptic novel.

THIS JESUS CHRIST THIS. If there’s one line to define this series, it’s this one.

Ronan and Noah are the bros that, if they lived in student housing, everyone would hate them and stay away from them. Because they’d be the obnoxiously stupid bad boys.

He was so fucking broken. Think about it. THIS is his most dangerous secret. This, not his bff or his brothers finding out he liked boys. Not his brothers finding out he was a dreamer, like their father. But this, the horors of his dreams. 

I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THE BEGINING. I hope we get flashbacks in the new Ronan series. Also. Flowers. How sweet.

ELEGANT is not a straight term to use in relation to another boy. Also. Dream-Adam was disdainful towards Ronan. Because of course he was, that’s how Ronan saw Adam’s oppinion of Ronan and ouch. It’s the worst thing, having a friend and thinking they don’t like you. It’s even worse when you’re crushing on them.

foreshadowing. damn it. Ronan knew it, but he was too afraid to acknowledge it. 

I need that on a tshirt, Spock.

AMAZING. These five are just... amazing.

DID HE, NOW.

This thing, that Adam does. This heart attack thing. It’s amazing. Intense, man. 

#quote. Beautiful and painfully depressing.

Gansey really did have Adam up on a pedestal. Neither of them realized it.

Seriously. These two. 

What a ridiculous thing to say. ... No. Not really, considering who Blue’s father is. I���m... kinda cyrious, actually. About what the trees dream of.

I also need this on a tshirt. (also, fyi, me doing vodka is always a great idea. Tequila, tho, that’s a horrible idea)

Handome isn’t a straight term to use to describe a boy either, Adam. Savagely handsome is something else entirely. 

Declan knew, JFC. Yeah, ‘his expression tightened’, but he didn’t say anything. He never said anything about Adam-and-Ronan, which gets him bonus points.

That hurts. Gosh, that hurts.

THE BEST WAY A CHARACTER EVER CAME OUT EVER NOTHING WILL EVER TOP THIS IN MY WORLD NOTHING Alec Lightwood’s got nothing on Ronan Lynch. Also, this is one of those things, that I wish I could read for the first time again.

“something warming”. Ronan, you’re ridiculous. THEY’RE BURYING A DEAD PERSON FOR YOU, and you think it’s warming. ... tea is warming, not... that.

, as the Doctor would say.

Gods, these two together. We need more of these two together.

Ronan sees babies of “contents of the baby carriage”. Same, tbh. Same.

I love how Maggie made sure to remind us that they were still, in fact, teenagers. Who thought about sex and who got jealous even though they weren’t supposed to.

#quote

Tru dat. (thinking of Jughead Jones, tbh)

That’s reassuring. (Also, Maggie wrote the adults in this series just as nice as she wrote the teenagers. .... I’m still frustrated about Shiver.)

I need this on a tshirt, as well. I’d like to wear this on a shirt, and the vodka one on a hoodie. At the same time.

BLUE AND NOAH. Gods, they all fell in love with eachother a little bit. Jesus. 

Adam sees himself as so alone, for the longest of time (till Persephone, prolly). It breaks my heart. 

fucking Kavinsky, man. Ronan spends so much of the series being afraid.

It’s hilarious, how Gansey reacts to a Ronan dick pic. GROTESQUE DISPLAY OF NATIONALISM jfc. But, on the other hand, talk about Kavinsky and non-con.

Kavinsky channeling some Percy Jackson. 

Chainsaw is the cutest, though ??!!!

The thing I liked the most about the Grey man was how “seriously” he took himself.

That’s a nice way to say that Ronan faceplanted.

THE THING IS. Ronan had so much fucking potential to be like Kavinsky. Or even worse. I respect him a lot for not turning up like Kavinsky.

Do you think Ronan got some courage from this? From finally coming out to someone? Even if that someone is fucking Kavinsky? ... I really fucking hated Kavinsky. He made me sick to my stomach. Seriously. 

This relationship. Still amazing to watch. Throughout the whole series, really. Also, the fact that it was a draw says a lot. 

And it’s fucking beautiful, because Ronan’s first instinct towars Blue was to hate her (because Adam had a crush on her). Ronan’s second instinct was to hate her (because Gansey liked her). But, still, he didn’t even hesitate. They were at that whole in the cave, I think. When Gansey fell and Blue almost fell. 

They all love eachother so much. So fucking much. I’m certain, that this isn’t an exaggeration on Ronan’s part.

FORESHADOWING. the worst. (this was Adam, by the way, Adam mockingly talking like one of his colleagues, jfc)

YES

THEY WERE ALL IN LOVE WITH ONE ANOTHER

JESUS CHRIST

YES YES YES

YES YES YES YES YES YES

YES THEY WERE

THEY FUCKING WERE

AND IT’S BEAUTIFUL AND HEARTBREAKING AND GLORIOUS AND OUCH

so. fucking. beautifully. said. #quote

THE THING IS. Adam never talked about.... how he realized Ronan was crushing on him. It’s just there, one second. There’s no... transition. At least, we don’t see it. We don’t see Adam slowly realizing and seeing it, that Ronan cares about him. We just kinda see him... accepting it. 

He cares so much =). It’s like that part in the begining, with Gansey (I can’t believe I didn’t take a picture of it, but I still remember it). R: You missed English lit, I thought you were dead in a ditch. G: Did you take notes for me? R: No, I thought you were dead in a ditch.

Lies, Blue. Lies. Also. Who’s willing to bet that Ronan was expecting to hear a ‘yes’?

THE FACT THAT GANSEY LET BLUE DRIVE THE CAMARO

Is... is Henry straight? (or sexual at all). Cause that’s not a really straight thing to say, Henry.

I CANNOT BELIEVE GANSEY SAID THAT. ... thought that. and that he really didn’t think balls. he’s an old man even in his head. 

#QUOTE

NOW ABOUT THAT TV SHOW I can’t wait to see this scene

I don’t know why everyone gets a thrill from Ronan swearing. I mean, yeah, he’s Catholic, but he’s also Irish.

BLUE WAS PRETTY SURE SHE’D HEART THAT SOUND IN THE HALLS OF HER HIGH SCHOOL. I’ve said it before: they’re (still) teenagers

Adam’s self-worth is as rich as his bank account. 

Adam seeing Ronan as a god is just so... okay nice, in terms of their crushes, but also like... intense. Adam is so intense in his feeling towards all of these people. It’s amazing.

THE MAGICIAN IS POWERFUL JESUSFUCKINGCHRIST

ohmygod, Gansey. See? Adam sees Ronan as a god, Gansey has problems with seeing Adam as human.

Ronan, ever the sensible one.

He’s so... complicated.

So this is at Adam’s dad trial. Which Ronan tucked his shirt in for. That’s... sweet. 

I want this on a shirt too. 

Five: Gansey, Ronan, Adam, Noah, Blue. Three: Henry, Gansey, Blue. Adam, Ronan, Opal.

After Persephone died. It’s a... dismissal. “The fuck would I talk about?”. But it’s also kind, and intuitive. Ronan knew what Adam needed: just his presence, not his words.

OKAY SO there was already something happening between Adam and Ronan. But this is how they acted. In the middle of a dangerous situation. Like children. Married couple. Banter. Amazing. 

Same, Ronan. Same. (even though, no)

So is the cake. Also, Ronan pulling Blue back, again, from disaster. Yup. 

So. sweet. good. GOSH.

I, also, took great pains reading this. 

I love these two together the most, I think. He’s a big brother. 

... that’s... putting it mildly. 

heheheheheheehehe

AGAIN. That’s true friendship, right there.

!!! !!! !!! !!!! !!!! !!!! !!!! Gansey is gonna be Adam’s man of honor. And Blue is going to be Ronan’s.

Such a big brother. Asshole of a big brother.

FRIGHTENED, not frightening

Seriously, he’s so fucking intense and dramatic. I kinda love it.

A HEART ATTACK, ADAM? Now, where have I heard that one before? Hm. HM.

I like that a lot. His pupils were pinhole cameras to another world. 

so beautiful it makes me cry.

They know eachother so well. And this, really, is a typical thing. “I don’t wanna ruin our friendship by turning it into something more”. It’s just... extra. Cause it’s Ronan and Adam. 

I wonder, if he learned all of this from Nial. I mean, did they talk about it while Nial was alive? Did he teach Ronan how to work with his dreams? Or did Ronan learn on his own? ... it’s that why he went to Kavinsky? I mean, Ronan said he went to him because he wanted to learn how to take out something big from a dream, but... But. I want to know more. 

I WAS HYPERVENTILATING RIGHT ABOUT NOW

THE THING IS. Ronan dreamt Cabeswater. Adam made a bargain with Cabeswater. Because it accepted him, as the magician. ... of course it did. Because Ronan. dreamt. Cabeswater. 

Ronan never pauses before plunging head first, in order to save the people he cares about. This was a little bit extra, though. Because this was a pool of acid. And because it was Orphan Girl. He cares a lot about her, that much is clear. Again, I wanna know more.

He’s ridiculous. BUT THE THING IS. Every time there’s an awkward, emotional silence, Ronan breaks it with something ridiculous and difuses the tension. It’s pretty smart, tbh. 

And again. 

Dick, out. Literally. Forfuckssake. 

This is flirting. ... in their books, anyway. 

SO. FUCKING. BEAUTIFUL. I. CAN’T. COPE.

a... supernatural beacon, you say?

I want to know what pushed Ronan over the edge. To finally do it. Was it Declan and Matthew leaving? Was it the upcoming apocalypse? Was it the fact that it was his birthday and he deserved something good, for once? Was it something Adam said, or did?

Adam took a plunge too, with/for Ronan. 

F I N A L L Y

They’re adorable now. 

Gansey, finally figuring things out. Good.

That was a pretty good reaction. Considering.

A STRANGE CONSTELLATION, yes

I don’t think I’ll ever forget the way Ronan describes the kiss.

Same, Artemus. Same.

Opal is so cute with Adam. She loves him just as much as Ronan does. 

“Nightmares were real” is a terrifying sentence.

EVERYONE gets a little weak around the knees when they see their dude-crush with a child. I don’t even like children, but when I see a hot dude with a child, I melt into a pile of goo.

Same, Blue. Same.

Every king has his right-hand knight. You’d think it would be Adam. Nope. Adam is Gansey’s consultant. Ronan is Gansey’s knight. And this, btw, if after Aurora died.

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING ABOUT PYNCH. REALLY. I CAN’T EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN.

That’s... That’s... Henry, man. Okay. ... Gansey, you... old. man. 

They’re ridiculous. 

Ronan’s been rubbing off on him.

SO THIS IS THE MOMENT when you realize that Glendower was as important as the notebook in Arrow was. (or the latch?? in Lost, idk, I haven’t watched it). Which is to say. Not at all important. 

What hurt me the most, I think, was that Gansey knew. He knew, all along, since that very first St Patrick’s Eve night, he knew he was gonna die. And he hasn’t said a single word. 

YES YOU DAMN RIGHT ARE. YOUR MAGICIANS. (Gansey’s, ofc)

Just when you thought it couldn’t hurt more... this fucking happens. 

IT WASN’T MUCH OF A CHOICE for fucks sake that hurts me deeply

She’s so sweet, jesus, with Adam. I can’t. How is Ronan gonna handle ALL THE CUTE?

Are we gonna hear more about Velaquez and Mackey and Xi in the Ronan chronicles?

BLUE PETALS. I really want to know more about this dreamer’s early years. And yes, full circle, like a (raven) cycle, YEAH.

SO ABOUT THAT TV SHOW. This was written in Adam’s point of view, and he couldn’t see anything because he was blindfolded. I want to see it. I want to see this, visual, cinematography, music, acting, everything. Because I like to torture myself, obv.

I god without magic is a king. (American Gods starts soon). I would have loved to see more of Persephone and Adam.

Ronan crying hurt me more than Gansey dying.

And, ofc, the last pic of this spam is of Ronan. Because, as I have mentioned, I love him something stupid. I can’t wait for the new books. I hope they’re gonna be as good as these. I’m praying for it.