#So sad rn

[cursedcola]

Actually tweaking why’s he so perfect hnghhhh LeonAaAaAaAa

…..born to simp

Forced to be poor and admire from afar

[days-since-rogue-dw]

September 15 2024

99 days since Rogue

[bryqe]

[greeen-bean]

Bad day to be dead and a boy and a detective smh ✊��😔

[x-h3kk3ning-x]

Oh ok I feel bad all the sudden

[fetishizeyourself]

i wish i was a comfort eater instead of a lose my appetite sad person. think of the easy calories

[grimnmm]

I'm actually so scared that I'll never hit rock bottom. That I'll just keep being more depressed with no end in sight and that I will never have the moment where it gets better.

Like is this it? Is this what living is?

[crackhead4]

I just finished The Excorsit.

...

(They make me ill, but in a good way, yk. Like a cough that I don't wanna go away)

I'M NOT OKAY.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

WHY. Just why did they have to break up? They had a good thing going, helping people, having those small touchy moments between each other, Marcus trusting someone, Tomas loving someone without the guilt.

Just WHY did they have to spilt up, and WHY DID THE SHOW END THE MOMENT BEFORE THE CLIMAX.

Like it was building up so so SO MUCH. MOUSE AND TOMAS GOING OFF AND PROBABLY BONDING OVER BEING HEARTBROKEN AT SOME PIONT IN THEIR LIFE BY MARCUS.

BENNETTE HAVING BEEN INTERGRATED WITH A DEMON AND IS NOW ON THE OTHER SIDE.

MARCUA FINALLY, FINALLY HEARING GOD VOICE AND THE FIRSY THING HE SAYS AFTER IS TOMAS NAME.

I was so close to hitting the next button cause I was ready for season 3, BUT SILLY ME. THERE IS NO SEASON 3

I was ready to see Marcus begging for forgiveness, and Tomas finally for once not having a bleeding heart for everyone and let's Marcus grovel for his forgive. CAUSE GOD DAMN HE DESERVES IT.

I was READY to see more of Mouse and Tomas dynamic and their friendship blossoming. Maybe figuring out Tomas's gift and what it is, what his limits are, and what his strengths are: in other words, what else can he do with it.

BRO, I WAS READY FOR SO MUCH LORE TO DROP, THE CHURCH TO BE DELT WOTH IN NOT A 10 EPSISODE SEASON BUT A CLASSIC 16 EPISODE SEASON. ( cause I remember when shows used to push so much out for just one season, and really we were spoiled with them 😔)

But all in all, I just want MORE. More of tomas and marcus moments, the moments were they're not relying on anyone but each other.

I want more of Marcua opening up about his childhood to Tomas.

I ant sweet, sweet domestic moments between them. One tending to their wounds making their coffee, practically memorised they way the just like it.

I want them just happy.

[hagenwo43]

Pain

[17-fastest-lap]

Sadly it wasn’t a lestappen 1-2, it’s like they’re cursed 😭

[caspianscabinet]

I finished Given yesterday night and my third rewatch of A Silent Voice 15 minutes ago.

Safe to say… I’m not ok at all 🥲😭

[puddingdream]

crying shitting pissing and screaming rn

[morethanabelieber]

This Liam Payne death is hitting me pretty hard. I keep trying to stop crying but it’s like the tears won’t stop. It’s sporadic though, while I’m driving, when I’m waking up in bed, in the store. Like this tumblr isn’t my first one and if you seen my other account y’all would know that I was and still am a really big one direction fan. I honestly feel like I having a hard time just breathing….Louis is my favorite but Liam had such a beautiful soul and kind personality. See even typing “Liam had” is making me cry. Can’t believe he’s gone.

I’m trying to read different ao3 fics, just to pick up my spirits but I only read a few paragraphs then I just get sad again. Like I said it’s sporadic. My feelings are really all over, and I’m really sad.

Liam leaving this earth so soon was not something I expected and it makes me so sad. I know it been a few days and everyone’s like moving on with their lives but I still feel like it Wednesday October 16.

I know my account is mainly Loustat, Hannigram and Gallavich but I’m really struggling here. 😞

[kvtnisseverdeen]

hakimi watching chelsea fumble ziyech’s transfer to psg: 

[sharpvst]

˙ɯıɥ pǝʇɐɥ ı

ꮖ ꮋꭺꭲꭼꭰ ꮋꮖꮇ.

i hated him with every fiber of my being. i hated him to the point where i would suffocate him , than myself. i hated him , i hated him. i loved him. so much.

i deny myself the pleasure of admitting that i loved him , i deny it ever even happened. i refuse to believe that i ever loved him , that i ever cared about him. it makes it easier.

but i can't get him out of my mind , years have passed but all i can think about is him. he tore me apart and ate me alive. i think i did the same thing to him.

he loved me , not in the way i loved him , but he loved me. he loved me because i was easy , i protected him , i loved him. i loved him more than anyone else could.

but that doesn't matter anymore. i don't think a decomposing body could love you. but i do believe they can hate you. i know he hated me at the end , but i refuse to believe that there wasn't a time and or place where he didn't love me.

i saw it in his eyes , i can't explain it but i saw it. i heard it in his voice , i heard it every single time he called my name.

i miss it.

but what happened - happened , and i cannot change it. he haunts me , isn't that punishment enough ? i see him when i close my eyes , the bastard. he's in my dreams , i relive our last moments over and over again trying so desperately to do things differently , but it's always the same.

i don't know what you are , but i do know you make my fucking blood run cold.

i crawl to my knees like a crying child , i beg him for forgiveness like a saint. i cry , i beg , i scream. but the look on his face. fuck.

it made my own blood run cold. there's nothing i could've done to change the outcome , i've tried.

" felix , you don't understand — you're all i have please — i'm still the same person. you know that. "

silence.

i couldn't convince him then , and now i'll never be able to convince him.

i hate him.

i hate him for not giving me another chance , i hate him and everything he stands for , i hate him , i hate him , i hate him.

but some parts of me still loves him.

he haunts me every night , and i pray to him like he's my god , begging for him to leave me alone. but he never listens. i see him everywhere i go , i see him in everything i do.

fuck you felix catton.

i

love

you.

[pantone-palette]

One of my friends died two nights ago from suicide. Her vigil is on Sunday.