#Selene speaks

[curseofhecate]

Also I kinda want to start writting for Anthony Lockwood from L&Co but I haven't made up my mind yet

[its-all-stardust]

Guess who has an unhealthy sleep schedule, poor writing motivation, and yet finished a fic request today?

this bitch!!

[faeriegardenz]

oh i'm sure bibi netanyahu will change his war plans because boygenius wore ceasefire pins to the grammy's..., guys boygenius did it... they really did it... palestine will be free, thank you boygenius 🙏

[artisticdysfunction]

dissociation.

the repetitive numbness

of being too too cold.

your head in the clouds

can't bring yourself to care as your body gets scalded.

head in the clouds

as the bridge down gets soured.

can i ever get back to the ground?

[tiredtwstoutt]

Netflix started that only one active household per account thing. So we about to drop it 🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️🏴‍☠️

[starsforselene]

I feel this a lot lately. I love writing and sharing my fics even if all they are is little smut one shots. It feels a lot like I'm writing for no one lately and I do appreciate likes and reblogs but a "thanks for writing" or "I really liked this" would do wonders for my motivation.

Truth is I don't write for just me, I write to share and to create a sense of community even if we are just screaming about our kpop boys you know? They'll always say "no one owes you feedback" but I guess now it's like "well I guess I don't owe anyone a fic then?" Writers will start to leave, I see it every day. Don't ask for better content and then not support it, please.

not to be That Person but when people are like “why isn’t there a big fandom culture anymore?” umm…

maybe this is why???? That an author can spend hours (if not days or weeks or months) on something, have 1,800 people read it, and only have THREE people willing to take a few extra seconds out of their day to comment. Not even something as simple as “thanks for sharing” or “second kudos” or “❤️”

I’m not the internet police. You decide what you do with your time. Just don’t be surprised if the result is that creators leave your fandoms. I’m not writing to scream into the void. If that’s what I wanted, I wouldn’t bother posting. Fandom is a community. It’s an exchange of enthusiasm over this thing we all love. And who’s gonna keep showing up at your house with a goodie basket if all you do is take the basket, slam the door, and leave them outside to watch through the window while you eat?

[selenethewinterangel]

Boop boop!!

[starsforselene]

I’m going to let my queue run out and then I’m done. Maybe I’ll be back maybe I won’t. It doesn’t matter. I’m tired of writing fics for no one.

I hope fandom gets it together someday.

[literallyjusttoa]

Hey guys crazy idea but like Artemis and Apollo are Dipper and Mabel right? Right? Yeah I got carried away big time but like I think Gravity Falls + Greek Mythology is a banger idea so it's fine.

[faceglitchsworld]

OH NO, HE'S USING THE DRAMATIC ZOOM AGAIN It's super effective

[curseofhecate]

Am I the only one who favors Castles Crumbling a bit more than the other vault tracks? All of them were masterpieces but something just feels so right about that song.

[its-all-stardust]

i probably shouldn't but i want to write dragon age fanfic :(

[faeriegardenz]

i dream of reading

[herearedragons]

happy storyteller saturday! v specific lol but tell me about watcher selene! I keep seeing the tag in my notifs and now im curious 👀

yes hello hi I would love to tell you about Selene! also I'm making this the "Selene for people who don't know Pillars of Eternity" post, if you don't know the videogame but want to understand who the blue girl is. this is the place

the basics are that she's my Pillars of Eternity (videogame) OC, she's touched by Ondra (goddess of the moon, sea and oblivion) from birth which made her blue and glowy with horns (rather than a normal elf like her parents), and she's psychic! she reads minds! she hears everyone's thoughts, especially the painful ones, and she can't make it stop!!

(also she's kind of my main guy (gender neutral) right now and I love her)

more points of interest about her that might explain why I tag the posts I do with her name:

(cw for religious cults, abuse and suicidal ideation)

raised in a cult of Ondra, grew up in a temple. never knew her parents. it was just assumed that since she was marked by The Goddess obviously she was meant to be a priestess. and the thing you need to know about Ondrite worship is that one of its main things is the tradition of Giftbearers, people who collect mementos of traumatic events from people who want to forget said trauma and throw those mementos into the sea. because all forgotten things belong to Ondra and all that belongs to Ondra is forgotten. the idea is that once the reminder of the pain is gone you are free to move on

when Selene was like 12, her psychic powers manifested and she discovered that she can literally erase painful memories from people's minds. which was assumed to be a gift from The Goddess and she was immediately was hailed as some kind of super-Giftbearer. from this point on, people would come to the temple specifically to see her and to have their bad memories taken away. one problem with that: everything Selene erases from someone else's mind, she gets to remember instead of them. after a few decades (pillars of eternity elves live for hundreds of years btw) of doing that, she kind of ran out of room in her brain, and the memories started to overwhelm her

eventually Selene realized she can't do this anymore and that she wants to stop. at which point she was informed that she should ritually drown herself to "complete the cycle" and release the memories into oblivion. Selene refused, on account of she wanted to live, at which point the same priests that raised her attempted to drown her by force and she had to use her psychic powers to kill for the first time to save herself. after killing them she fled her community and spent the next couple of decades living in the wilderness before eventually deciding to try civilization once again, at which point the events of the actual game Pillars Of Eternity find her (which is where the 'watcher' part comes into play. a Watcher is someone who can see soulsa and the game is about you becoming a Watcher. even more voices in Selene's brain)

falls in love with a guy who is a farmer and a war vet and going through his own crisis of faith related to the god of the sun and second chances he used to worship and then kind of helped kill. hey what if we were both temple kids and my god wanted me dead because I have served my purpose of absorbing other people's pain and there's no use for me anymore and your country wanted you dead because you fought in a war to protect it but at the end of the war you had to help kill your god. and what if you had no purpose and my only purpose was Survive and you needed someone to follow and ended up following me. what about it

Ondra tries to kill the farmer war vet guy at one point because she hates to see Selene happy and THAT'S how Selene realizes she loves him in the first place. because Ondra decided to go after him specifically

Selene then proceeds to silently pine for like three years because she doesn't want to find out what Ondra does if she confesses

the farmer guy confesses to her first and Selene goes "well I can't NOT do this"

this is them btw (thank you @layalu I am cherishing this art forever)

also. after the events of the game she joins the country' Psychic Secret Service and becomes a cool telepath spymaster detective kind of deal. also deeply important to me

[tiredtwstoutt]

When I opted out of ads on 5 advertising databases, I get this for ads on this app now. Maybe I should just let them take my data 😩

[selenethewinterangel]

Hey everyone, just letting you all know that I won’t be continuing the Tickletober prompts due to lack of motivation and I want to make more characters, their reference sheets and lore.

Hope you understand