#Sam Winchester and parenthood

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Thinking about Dean's perspective on meeting revived mary is always top tier, but u also gotta consider how wild it was for Sam.

I mean, you finally have a Mom, but she's not what you'd imagined, not what you'd been told. And as you watch your brother grow more and more openly critical of her, more open about what he'd done to take her place; you come to realize that you may not have had a Mom, but you have had a mother your whole life.

[saltandburnheathens]

Good morning Miss Winnie.

Part II

Pairing: Dean Winchester X Reader.

Rating: Gen.

Summary:

You've just given birth to Dean's baby and are a enjoying a quiet family moment in the days afterwards.

Notes: Non-canon, no time line. And I don't ever want kids. But I just became an aunt and I sort of need to get this out of my system! Short and I'm not promising that I won't continue this. Who knows really. Finally this was written after I'd taken my usual nightly gummy.

The bunker was quiet first thing in the morning except for the usual hum of the circulation fans. You’d been there so long that they barely registered anymore, and you were extremely thankful that the consistent noise wasn’t a problem for the baby. That would have been a horror show. Trying to navigate parenthood with a baby awoken by the simplest of sounds. 

You shuddered at the thought. 

Life was always loud when you lived with Dean Winchester and his posse of colour characters. Between unexpected visitors and the brothers coming and going at odd hours, there was something new every day and often that new wasn’t good. 

But in that moment things were perfect. The monsters outside didn’t exist and you were a regular mom with a new baby and a husband who loved you. His bother Sam and best friend Castiel were an added bonus, the former serving as an unexpected asset when both you and Dean needed some rest.  

You crept carefully out of bed, your body still feeling weak, and quietly crossed to the crib by the wall. A set of hazel eyes stared up at you and your heart melted. 

“Good morning Miss Winnie.” You cooed, “Let’s get you up and at ‘em before you wake daddy.” 

You heard a small scoff followed by the shuffling of blankets. 

“Winnie?” Dean asked with a sleep-laden voice, “We ain’t calling her Winnie, sweetheart. I’ll accept those new-agey-hippy-names like Kendell and Kloe with a K before I’ll take Winnie.” 

“I’m just calling her that until we choose a name.” You laughed, lifting the little girl up into your arms, her head coming to rest on your chest, “And Winnie is short for Winchester in case you hadn’t pieced that together.” 

“I don’t care if it’s short for ‘daddy’s-little-angel’, it ain’t happening.” 

“I’ll cross that off my list then shall I?” You sat back on the bed, Dean coming up to nest beside you and his eyes immediately going to the baby in your arms. 

He smiled, creases forming at the corners of his eyes. 

“You’re not a Winnie, are ya’ princess?” In that voice he seemed to only have adapted five days ago after the birth of your daughter; that voice reserved for her. 

“Maybe not. What about Meghan?” You suggest. 

“Oh nope. No can do. Knew a Meg once. Demon.” 

You nodded knowingly. No one wanted to name their child after a monster. 

“Stevie?” Dean carried on, his eyes still fixed on the baby.

“Like Stevie Nicks?” You raised an eyebrow. 

“Yeah?” 

“I’m not seeing it. Samatha?”

“Already got one Sam in this bunker and that’s more than enough. Alice?”

“Can’t do it. All I’ll keep hearing is ‘who the fuck is Alice’, and I don’t want my kid to be subjected to that for the rest of their life.” 

You both laughed, interrupted only by the whine building in the little one’s chest. You quickly jumped to action and proceeded to the morning routine you’d been adjusting to since getting back home. Dean followed you, rubbing at his eyes. 

“I don’t think I’ve had hangovers that made me feel quite as bad as waking up five times at night.” He yawned. 

You handed him a dirty diaper and smiled as he grimaced. 

“You can go back to bed if you want. I can manage by myself.” 

“Sweetheart, you just damn near broke your pelvis giving birth to my kid a few days ago. I’m in this from start to finish, and if that means running on caffeine and a prayer, then I’m game. Even for the diapers.” 

Dean rummaged through the first drawer of their dresser and pulled out a small onesie covered in colourful dinosaurs. He held it up in front of him and smiled. 

“It’s hard to believe how small she is, huh?”

“She didn’t feel so small coming out of me.” You quipped, taking the clothing from him to finally cover the squirming child on the changer, “I’m pretty sure my vagina will never be the same.” 

“That’s blasphemy.” Dean gasped playfully, “But seriously, baby, the doctor said that it’ll take a few weeks before you start to feel normal.” 

“Normal is subjective when you’re postpartum.” 

Holding his baby tight to his chest, Dean lent down and kissed you softly on the lips. His green eyes fluttered up to meet yours. 

“Let’s face it, ain’t nothing normal about either of us in the first place.” 

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𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐞. ophelia. early twenties. she/they. multi-fandom. horror enthusiast, cozy gamer, swiftie & daughter of cain. here to indulge in my slutty fictional fantasies.

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𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 | 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐬 | 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐬: 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧 (𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐰)

𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦𝐬. (𝐢𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐜𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐬)

baldur's gate 3. astarion; karlach; shadowheart

criminal minds. aaron hotchner; derek morgan; emily prentiss; jennifer jareau; penelope garcia; spencer reid

death note. l lawliet; light yagami; misa amane

fear street trilogy. cindy berman; deena johnson; kate schmidt; samantha fraser; simon kalivoda; ziggy berman.

five nights at freddy's. mike schmidt; steve raglan/william afton.

grey's anatomy. addison montgomery; cristina yang; george o'malley; meredith grey.

grishaverse. alina starkov. inej ghafa. jesper fahey. kaz brekker. nina zenik.

harry potter. blaise zabini; cedric diggory; draco malfoy; fred weasley; george weasley; harry potter; hermione granger; ginny weasley; luna lovegood; nymphadora tonks; theodore nott.

miscellaneous. dean winchester (supernatural); kurt kunkle (spree); luke castellan (percy jackson); riff (west side story). roman roy (succession). ryan (thanksgiving 2023). stiles stilinski (teen wolf). sweeney todd (sweeney todd).

saltburn. felix catton; oliver quick

scream. billy loomis; sidney prescott; stu macher

spider-verse. hobie brown; miguel o'hara; peter parker (tasm)

stardew valley. abigail; alex; haley; harvey; leah; maru; penny; sam; sebastian.

stranger things. chrissy cunningham; eddie munson; jim hopper; nancy wheeler; robin buckley; steve harrington.

the hunger games. coriolanus snow; finnick odair; gale hawthorne; haymitch abernathy; johanna mason; katniss everdeen; lucy gray baird; peeta mellark; sejanus plinth; tigris snow.

𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬.

yes. afab!reader. aus. biting. bondage. choking. degradation. edging. fem!reader. fluff. foot fetish. gender-neutral!reader. hickies. overstimulation. praise. scratching. sex toys. smut. spanking. threesomes. tickling.

maybe. amab!reader. angst. blood-play. “daddy” as a title. dub-con. knife-play. male!reader. parenthood. pregnancy. specific aesthetic for reader. watersports.

no. age-play (sexual or non-sexual). cheating. eating disorders. f!receiving anal. gun-play. incest/step-cest. pedophilia. rape/non-con. scat. vomit.

[bombingqueen]

Wincest Recs Part 2

Gencest/Weirdcest

patchwork scars (1000 words) by Anonymous

Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: Supernatural

Additional Tags: weirdcest, Biting, Love Bites, Non-Sexual Kink, Mild Painplay, discussion of incest, Possessive Dean Winchester, Kinky Gen, Light Sadism, Light Masochism

Summary:

This thing—kink, sadomasochism, whatever it is between them—goes both ways.

This is the kinkiest shit I have ever read and they didn't even have fuck.

unlike lovers (4300 words) by Anonymous

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

They’re not like that, and honestly it’s part of the problem, because how can you say ‘I want to spend the rest of my life with you and only you, like a lover would’, without all the connotations of a long-term relationship? It’s unconventional.

Then again, nothing in their lives is conventional. 

Funny story. I spent weeks searching for this fic because I thought I had dreamt it up but nope I finally found it. It's cute.

Deprivation (3339 words) by fogsrollingin

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

Takes place around S14E5 "Nightmare Logic."

Sam's stressed. He's forgetting to eat and people keep waking him up the minute he salvages time for some shut-eye.

Dean's there for him.

When You're Not Here (37459 words) by raziella

Chapters: 5/5

Fandom: Supernatural

Summary:

The third time Sam Winchester comes to school with bruises, Mrs. Davidson decides it's time to intervene - before it's too late.

This is pretty much true gen despite how the fic is tagged. It involves social services and it has some outsider point of view.

What I've Done (1185 words) by Amoreanonyname

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

He wasn’t going to say anything more about it. He could tell, Dean was happy to see him, but wasn’t going to humor this topic. Dean, young Dean would jump to obey John, to answer John’s questions, but this was an older Dean who was more loyal to someone else now. More loyal to his brother. John wasn’t the priority here, and he realized with another guilty jump in his stomach that he never should have been.

I enjoyed that John remained composed and did not choose violence like other fics I have read where he discovers the extent boys relationship.

Nothing Safe Is Worth The Drive (382 words) by angelszn

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

Dean came home from Hell to a demon-blood-addicted little brother. He takes it in stride.

If you like some dark!weirdcest then this is for you. Dean is very accommodating.

save it for a rainy day (917 words) by according2thelore

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

Dean has a wad of money hidden in his bag. It’s folded into a skin mag that he bought in Duluth, which itself is folded into a tube of socks. He calls it his Sammy Stash. Dad and Sam don’t know about it. It’s a stack of crumpled bills he’s earned through hustling at pool and hoarded from short-term jobs he’s worked, pressed flat as they can go to look as inconspicuous as possible. It’s for one very specific purpose, in the same way Dean’s entire life has had one very specific purpose.

Well, this was a gut punch of epic proportions.

Cracked (282 words) by Linden

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

It was October, the season of frost and the early dark and the slow soft dying of the year, and John’s world was ending.

These Stanford Era fics are trying to kill me. Seriously.

Through the devil softly (4888 words) by siamesedreams

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

It's like walking with a permanent veil in front of his eyes, everything's blurry. He can't tell if the world around him is real, or not, if he's in Dean's arms or if he was in the Cage all along.

An infernal cursed amulet? Chief would know what this is. I'm going to have him touch it. (2441 words) by fogsrollingin

Chapters: 2/3

Summary:

"What could go wrong?"

This is incomplete but I think it does the job. It's told from an outsider's point of view. This fic and the one above deal with Sam's hallucinations.

Sins of the Father (1434 words) by Amoreanonyname

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

It’s true what they say about parenthood – it causes you to look at your own parents, and their choices, a bit differently. Though for Sam, perhaps that was for different reasons.

Sam, as a parent, reflects on his three parents, living day-to-day, and trying to parent when your soulmate has died.

Flowers facing the sun (2087 words) by StripySock

Chapters: 1/1

Summary:

Dean is sick as hell, and Robo!Sam is the closest thing he has to comfort.

swallow my breath and take what is mine (4636 words) by according2thelore

Chapters:1/1

Summary:

Dean Winchester wakes up and it’s dark. John Winchester stands sentinel in a cemetery. Sam Winchester’s hands are bleeding. A story in three parts.

Or: John Winchester has a new training exercise for his older son.

This was fucked up. I liked it and I lowkey can see this happen if John lost his mind somewhere on his journey to Azazel.

It Goes Like This (36085 words) by sprinkles888

Chapters: 8/8

Summary:

It goes like this: They both say yes. And somehow, the world doesn't end. With little else to do, Sam and Dean take hold of an opportunity that comes their way—taking charge of a diner in a small Iowa town. But, even as the hubbub of the diner fills their day, the nights of fighting back the archangels in their heads will drive the two of them closer than ever in an effort to keep the apocalypse continually on pause.

Meanwhile, the residents of Lageme attempt to understand the two new, weird guys who took over Darla's.

This is an odd fic but it's worth a read. The struggle to remain in control was done really well. A good portion of the fic is from the perspective of an outsider.

[destieltropecollection]

DESTIEL TROPE COLLECTION 2023 | DAY 31 | Fake Dating

Made up, like my fiancé | @blanketforcas

Rating: Teen & Up Word Count: 2,834 Main Tags/Warnings: Fluff, First Kiss, Touch-Starved Dean Winchester, make-up date Summary: Cas and Dean find out how much they like make-up (and each other)

under covers | @demonmary

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 6,588 Main Tags/Warnings: AU: No Supernatural, Federal Agents, Undercover as Married , Co-workers , Flirting , Smut , Older Castiel (Supernatural) Summary: inspired by an episode of NCIS, Dean and Cas go undercover for some good ol' fashioned fake dating.

We were always meant to say goodbye (please don't go) | @readingprofoundbonds

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 8,210 Main Tags/Warnings: Misunderstandings, Second Chances Summary: When Castiel hears that Dean Smith will date anyone who asks him out for exactly one week, he's curious. He tests the waters and sees if 'anyone' will include male co-workers from Accounting.

Sternberg's Triangular Theory of Love | @aishitara

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 14,882 Main Tags/Warnings: Idiots to lovers, mutual pining, best friends to lovers, but they were roommates!, pretend relationship, misunderstanding, mild angst with a happy ending. Summary: Dean clears his throat and says, “I have an idea for how to deal with your mom.” He looks away as he takes a long swallow of beer. “But you’re probably not gonna like it.” Castiel grunts. “Tell me anyway. You’ve got one idea more than me.” Huffing a small laugh, Dean says, “Yeah, well, we’ll see.” He looks over at Castiel, lower lip caught between his teeth. “I’ll go with you,” he says earnestly. “To Thanksgiving.” Castiel stares at Dean blankly, not following. “Y’know,” Dean says, suddenly interested in removing the label from his beer. “As your boyfriend.”

swing with you for the fences | @fifthstiel

Rating: Mature Word Count: 27,637 Main Tags/Warnings: canon divergence (season 14), de-aging, kid jack, fake relationship, pining, getting together, case fic Summary: With elementary school parents falling mysteriously ill in Pennsylvania, a little magical aid allows a de-aged Jack and devoted single father Cas to play the perfect bait. However, a misunderstanding shortly after arriving leaves Dean reluctantly saddled with undercover parenthood right along with Cas. Now Dean has to survive the petty drama of suburbia while trying to track down whatever’s responsible for targeting parents in the community - and navigating his feelings about the family he didn’t think he’d ever get to have.

Lavender Pines | @thisisapaige

Rating: Explicit Word Count: 30,609 Main Tags/Warnings: Fake/Pretend Relationship (Platonic Cas & Rowena), Secret Relationship (Sam/Rowena), Idiots to Lovers (Cas/Dean), Case Fic, Post-Episode: s12e11 Regarding Dean Summary: Rowena calls Sam, asking for help. Her former lover, the powerful witch Leon O'Leary, has something of hers and she wants it back. When Sam agrees to help, the last thing he expects is for her to pull out a ring and propose. To Cas. Cas and Rowena move into the wealthy suburb of Lavender Pines and work to become the most well-liked newlywed couple on the block. Sam and Dean support them from the bunker. It’s a milk run of a case. Simple. Easy. It’s not.

[pickledpascal]

Meat & Candy

Chef!Dean Winchester x Journalist!Castiel Novak

Jensen Ackles Masterlist

Taglist open here !!!

Fic on AO3

Summary: Chef Dean Winchester is opening is brand new restaurant, Crossroads. However, before they open, he has been convinced by his Sous-Chef, Benny Laffite, and brother, Sam Winchester, to do an interview for the Chicago Tribune's food column.

The journalist for the food column just so happens to be Castiel Novak.

A/N: my first full length destiel fic.... this is so fun i love stealing movies and putting my favorite characters into them. this VERY loosely based off chef (that's it, that's the title of the movie) and some other chef type movies ive seen. this concept has been in my head for a while so, y'know, thought I'd share it with the world finally.

General Warnings: dean is still a very sad man (😞), swearing, implied/also explicit mentions of abuse and child neglect, food as a metaphor for love, romance, trans male character (dean), dealing with single parenthood, mentions of pregnancy, mentions of chicago specific things.

ONE. TWO. THERE. FOUR. FIVE. SIX.

[typingtess]

NCIS: Los Angeles Season 14 Rewatch:   “Sensu Lato”        

The basics:  After a scientist/Navy Reservist is stabbed, the team works to find the attacker.  Kensi and Deeks deal with parenthood, Sam sees a possible new future.

Written by: Faythallegra Claude and Indira Gibson Wilson

Faythallegra Claude wrote season 13’s "Perception" and season 14's "Glory of the Sea".  Indira Gibson Wilson co-wrote, “The Frogman’s Daughter”, "Signs of Change" and “Hard for the Money” and was the sole writer for "Lost Soldier Down" and "Let it Burn".

Directed by: Kevin Berlandi directed the season 14 premiere, "Game of Drones".

Guest stars of note:  Duncan Campbell is back from “Sleeping Dogs” as Agent Castor, Brandon Raman as Arjun Sethi, Jason C. Louder as Dr. Daryl Howard, Krishna Smitha as Natasha Graham, Lisa Marie as Dr. Claire Winchester, Kelby Keenan as GenBioSys Tour Guide and Jordan Murphy as Chief Technology Officer Tom Fields.

Our heroes:  Look for moths.

What important things did we learn about: Callen:  In San Diego. Sam:   Setting conscientious objectives. Kensi:  Wants to spend a little more time with Deeks even though they work and live together. Deeks:   Driving Rosa to school while listening to podcasts and introducing her to 70’s rock is the highlight of his day. Fatima:   Tasked with organizing Hetty’s office. Rountree: Doing well with his denim investment, looking at growing his empire to real estate. Kilbride:  Getting Fatima cool DoD access.

What not so important things did we learn about: Callen:  Working on a Russian case. Sam:  Looking at his future. Kensi:    Wanting some romance. Deeks:   Mr. Romance. Fatima:  Not happy Kilbride was messing up Hetty’s office. Rountree:  Obsessed with the future. Kilbride:  Looking for a possible replacement.

Where in the world is Henrietta Lange?  Don’t know but she’s planning Sam’s future.

Who's down with OTP:   Kensi and Deeks are trying to navigate being both parents and a couple in love.

Who's down with BrOTP:  Sam and Rountree were more mentor and mentee than pals.

Fashion review:   Sam wears a chocolate brown pullover sweater.  Kensi is jogging in a black zip-up fleece jacket, a red athletic bra and red running tights.  While working, Kensi has on a white and grey striped sweater.  Deeks is jogging in a medium grey longs-sleeve tee and light grey joggers. In the office, Deeks is wearing a medium blue light-weight hoodie over a white undershirt.  Fatima wears a white turtleneck under a short black sweater.  Rountree wears a black jacket over a medium grey sweater.  Kilbride wears his ‘uniform’ – blue three-piece suit, light blue dress shirt, blue tied with red stripes.

Music:   “WOJ” by EverythingOShauN is playing in the lab to start the episode.  “Feels” by Nina-Symone plays as Kensi and Deeks leave the office.

Any notable cut scene:  For the second straight episode!  And there are two!

Number one has Sam and Rountree entering the lab building.  Rountree is still discussing real estate – thinking of buying a multi-unit home.  He’d live in one unit, Jordyn would live in another and he would rent out the third unit to cover expenses.  Sam gives Rountree a non-committal “not a bad idea”.  When Rountree says interest rates are high, Sam agrees but with little spirit.

Number two is after the kidnapping with Dr. Winchester is in the back of an ambulance getting some oxygen.  She asks about Dr. Howard, who is in ICU but is expected to live.  Dr. Winchester tells Sam that Dr. Howard’s work will save the world.  Sam things the world needs all the help it can get.  When the ambulance drives away, Sam sees Rountree looking at a lovely home.  Sam teases Rountree about having it all planned – nice house, a dog.  Rountree likes the idea of a dog.  Sam tells Rountree that things work out when a plan comes to fruition.   Rountree is waiting for a “jewel of wisdom” from Sam.   Sam tells Rountree to “pivot” – be prepared to pivot.  Rountree will thank Sam in ten years, according to Sam. 

That “pivot” scene should have stayed – it works beautifully with Sam’s conversation with Kilbride at the end of the episode.

Quote:  Kilbride:  “Henrietta evidently knew this office needed me and probably thought I needed it, too.  Now, you don't open that envelope till you're sure you want to take this job.” Sam:  “You know, in the past I would have given you a flat-out no.  But my life has evolved into something that I barely even recognize.  I think it's time for me to reevaluate where I want to go, how I want to get there.” Kilbride:  “You mean setting goals.” Sam:  “Ah, I wouldn't call it that.  More like conscientious objectives.” Kilbride:  “Tomato, to-mah-to.  But let me know what you decide as soon as you can.  I want to be able to leave at a moment's notice and somebody has to do this godforsaken job.” Sam:  “Well, you make it sound so fun, Admiral.”

Anything else:  In a lab, a scientist is examining an insect under a microscope.  “WOJ” by EverythingOShauN is playing and the doctor is signing/rapping along.  His phone beeps.  Putting away his bug by covering the petri dish, the scientist picks up his things to leave, forgetting his car keys.  Walking to the lab’s door, he passes a wall of small caged creatures – bugs, reptiles, animals.  The scientist speaks to his charges before singing his way out of the office.  He turns off the lights and is gone.

As soon as the scientist leaves, a person wearing black and a ski mask enters the lab through a side door. 

The scientist gets about halfway down the hall when he realizes he doesn’t have his keys.  Returning to the lab, he sees the masked person and confronts the intruder.  The two struggle, knocking over some petri dishes, including the one with the insect the scientist was studying.  After the scientist is knocked to the ground, the intruder pulls out a knife and stabs the scientist several times. 

Kensi and Deeks are out for a run.  Rosa is going to be carpooling to school with a classmate’s mother driving them on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  Deeks wants a full investigation into the mom, making sure her driving record is clean.  For Kensi, carpooling would give Kensi and Deeks a chance to have a little time for themselves in the morning – they could go jogging.  Deeks is not happy – he loves listening to podcasts with Rosa as they go to school, introducing Rosa to 70’s rock songs is the highlight of his day.  Deeks will have that on Monday, Wednesday and Friday but Tuesdays and Thursdays, Rosa would carpool.  Deeks thinks Tuesdays and Thursday will suck until Kensi points out that he saying spending time with her would suck.  

Deeks explains that they already spend a lot of time together – they both live together and work together like superheroes.  Kensi doesn’t think they are superheroes.  Kensi wants some romance.  Deeks doesn’t – who needs romance when you’re married.  Kensi is offended.  Digging a hole, Deeks explains that romance is based on lies – wearing clothes you’d never wear, wearing perfume that masks a person’s true smell and well, bouquets of flowers are just dead flowers that were murdered for romance.   Kensi is sad – she’s not going through life on autopilot, going through the motions.  Deeks comes around – they could go to a taco truck they like, maybe a wine bar and a movie.  Kensi calls it a date and Deeks doesn’t.

In the office driveway, Sam is talking to his father about dinner – Korean barbeque and Japanese food.  Raymond doesn’t see much of a difference.   Sam cuts the call short when the Admiral walks up.  Sam actually invites the Admiral to join him and Raymond at Benihana – the Admiral will think about it.  He has other business with Sam.  Callen is working with the San Diego office in a Russian smuggling case.  Sam saw the memo about Callen working in San Diego.  The Admiral is worried – Callen is taking on a lot with the case, the wedding, Pembrook, the whole Katya business.  Callen as a lot of plates spinning in the air.  Sam is sure Callen can take of all that’s on his plate. 

The Admiral’s concern is less about what’s going on now but what will be going on when the Admiral is unavailable to lead.  Kilbride wants Sam as the acting supervisor of OSP.  Sam wants no part of that - he’s a field agent.  Kilbride is worried that some outsider may take over the office – “some blue-flame outsider” – and Callen would have a hard time with that.  Sam as the leader would work better for Callen.  Sam is now unsure so the Admiral gives him some time to figure out what’s best for the team.  Sam sighs – he knows the Admiral did that on purpose.

In the firing range, Fatima and Rountree are shooting.  Both did quite well looking based on the paper targets.  Rountree asks Fatima how often she thinks about the future.  She tries to stay present.  Rountree is the opposite – he’s is obsessed.  Fatima mentions doomsday prepping and Rountree already has his “end of the world kit”.  He is visualizing his future.  Fatima is a fan of visualization boards but that’s not Rountree’s style.  He wants to have a ten-year plan, especially since the denim brand he invested in is beginning to show a profit.  If there is a year’s worth of profit, he’d buy a home in Los Angeles and look for new investments – a good investment that could change the world.  Fatima asks if a special someone changed Rountree’s future plans.  A call to Ops saves Rountree from answering.

In Ops, Fatima tells Sam and Rountree about the scientist, a retired Navy reservist Commander Dr. Darryl Howard of Whitley University. Dr. Howard is a tenured professor of entomology at Whitley specializing in pesticides.  He is alive, barely, in a coma at Cedars.  LAPD is at the lab investigating what, if anything, has been stolen.  Dr. Howard works for the Navy’s office of special research so the Admiral is looking into what Howard was doing for them.  The bigger concern was a similar attack last year at Glenforest University.  Gallons of pesticides were stolen and used in a bombing attack at a local city council office.  Six people were hurt in the bombing.  An extreme anti-government movement – the Patriot Mission Society – is believed to be behind the attack. 

Video cameras outside of the Whitley lab show a figure walking out with a duffle bag.  Sam doesn’t think the duffel bag would not carry the gallons of pesticides needed to cause a substantial explosion.  Fatima disagrees – Dr. Howard had access to chemicals – severely restricted use chemicals - that a normal person could not get at a home improvement store.  Some of these chemical as so powerful that it wouldn’t take much to cause a lot of damage.  Asking about Dr. Howard’s family, he has an ex, Layla Lewis.  Castor is going to pick her up and bring her to the boat shed.  Sam wants Kensi and Deeks to interview Lewis.  While Sam and Rountree go to the crime scene, Fatima is going to investigate the Patriot Mission Society to see if they are planning another bombing.

The lab is a mess – so much so that Sam says “wow” when he sees it.  The hard drive from Dr. Howard’s computer is missing.  While everything has been ransacked, the animals/reptiles/bugs in their cages are untouched but one cage is missing.  Sam thinks maybe the whole crime scene was set up to cover up the theft of the cage and its contents.  They need to speak to someone who knows about the lab.

Castor introduces Leyla Lewis to Kensi and Deeks in the boat shed.  Moving her to the couch, Kensi asks about Lewis’s relationship with Dr. Howard.  They were a couple for about 20-years but Dr. Howard only cares about his work.  They’ve been separated for five years.  She calls him a lovely man, a genius but he wants to change the world with his insects.  When Deeks asks how, Lewis explains that people need to understand what is happening to the earth, insects and animals with certain chemicals being used.  Dr. Howard is driven by the science and learning, not money.  Lewis admires him – just can’t live with him.  It’s hard when all the person you love wants to talk about is work.  Kensi couldn’t agree more. 

Lewis is so sorry about what happened to Dr. Howard but it all makes sense now.  Dr. Howard said he thought people were hacking his e-mail, hacking his phone, making threats against him.  Lewis thought he needed to see someone over his paranoia, especially when Dr. Howard started cancelling some of his speaking engagements.  At a speech, he thought someone in the audience was following him from lecture to lecture.  Lewis is crushed – she didn’t believe him.  And Dr. Howard certainly didn’t deserve this, he’s a kind soul.

At the lab, Sam has Dr. Howard’s assistant, a young grad student named Arjun Sethi, reviewing the checklist of Dr. Howard’s lab creatures.  Rountree asks who would steal the hard drive but Sethi has no idea.  There should be four moth cages but one seems to be missing.  When Sam isn’t happy with the Sethi’s surprise, Sethi explains he’s been out of town for two weeks.  Maybe the moths were moved.  Reviewing the pesticides, some are missing.  Why would someone steal the moths, hard drive and pesticides?  Dr. Howard is studying the negative effects pesticides have on soil, insects, reptiles and humans.  His research, which was disseminated widely, may lead to enemies in the big agriculture pesticide business.  Sam wants a list of all the pesticides Dr. Howard was researching so they can crosscheck them with the ones missing. 

Watching Kilbride go through the drawers in Hetty’s office, Fatima offers to help since she organized the place for Hetty.  The Admiral is not interested.  Fatima asks if she could ask what he’s looking for.  She could, according to the Admiral but that won’t guarantee a response.  He wants to know about the Patriot Mission Society.  Five are in prison, one died and the seventh member is in ICU after a bar fight.  Kilbride wants Fatima to check other local terrorist organizations as he continues to look through Hetty’s file cabinets.  Fatima tries again to help but Kilbride slams a file drawer closed to chase her away. 

In the boat shed, Kensi has info about Dr. Howard’s security at the five conferences where he spoke this year.  All five had incident reports with the last having a heckler removed from this audience.  The heckler, a woman in her 30’s, had no ID.  She was released without providing a name to security.  Deeks gets Fatima on the plasma screen looking for the heckler at the Terrace Theater in Long Beach. 

After Fatima is off the screen, Deeks recalls he and Kensi saw The Queen Experience at the venue.  They had fun.  Deeks agrees but now they have couples fun, married fun like Costco for the little samples, family dinners, carpools – family fun.  Kensi asks if Deeks remembered what Layla Lewis said - Deeks remembers the bugs and saving the world.  No, Kensi said it was easy to lose touch with each other dealing with the daily grind.  Deeks tells Kensi that she is the most important person to him in the world.  But the two of them only have 377 left.  Kensi is confused – 377 what?  377 days until Rosa graduates high school and goes into the world as an adult.  It flies by.  Kensi loves that Deeks loves being a family man.  But she doesn’t want to lose touch with the two of them “being us.”  Deeks understands.

Sam and Rountree meet Sethi in the lab’s hallway as it looks like Sethi is leaving.  Sethi provided a list of pesticides Dr. Howard was working on along with Dr. Howard’s ranking of the pesticides for their strength and damage they cause.  Based on the way the intruder left the building, it has to be someone familiar with the lab.  Security provided a list of all the ID holders in the building but Sam wonders if there is another way to get into the lab.  Visitors can sign in at the front desk.  Sethi is free to go.

Sam and Rountree figure that it is possible the moths and pesticides may have been stolen by someone who doesn’t want Dr. Howard to go public with what happens with the pesticides.  Fatima comes over comms.  While Dr. Howard was studying nine different pesticides, there were two that he was particularly critical of – matrazine and nitrithazine.  They are highly toxic to the point that they change the cell structure of lizards.  And if these chemicals can change cell structures of lizards, they might to the same to humans.  Allurum Tech and GenBioSys make the two chemicals.  When Dr. Howard went public with his research three-months ago, both companies took significant financial hits.  That may be motive.

In the Admiral’s office, he is putting something into a 5X8 envelope.  Fatima arrives with news of the woman causing a scene at Dr. Howard’s speeches.  Natasha Graham is a public relations manager for GenBioSys.  Fatima has a video of Graham but warns the Admiral that it was made by a college student and has a made by college student feel.  The video is of Graham being dragged out of the lecture with all sorts of special effects, video looping and music.  “People have entirely too much time on their hands,” Kilbride grouses.  GenBioSys has been trying to discredit Dr. Howard and his research.  That has the Admiral wondering how far the company would go to protect the product.  Kensi and Deeks are going to the company to find out.

In a greenhouse, a woman is leading a tour featuring the good GenBioSys does with their pesticides.  Kensi and Deeks join the tour late, posing as tourists from San Luis Obispo.  He snarks about her complaints that they never go anywhere.  They are being shown the way GenBioSys grows lettuce.  While the group looks at the lettuce, the tour guide asks Kensi and Deeks “Strawberries or wine?”  Deeks thinks the lettuce is plenty.  She wanted to know what they grew, strawberries or wine.  Maybe garlic.  They are wine growers – the Smithingtons.  They have Smithington Wineries.  The tour guide asks some specific wine questions and Kensi and Deeks provide different answers.  The tour guide dreams of owning a vineyard and Deeks agrees – it is so romantic. 

Kensi spies Natasha Graham and while Deeks looks like a bunny with lettuce, they walk over to talk to Graham.  Kensi confirms it is Natasha Graham while Deeks asks for kale that doesn’t taste like kale.  Oh, can I get some of that?  Kale ruins everything.  Back to the show, Kensi asks about Dr. Howard.  Kensi flashes her badge, Deeks flashes the video of Graham being dragged from the lecture.

At the lab’s front desk, Sam tells Rountree that if someone signed in with bad intentions, they’d use a fake name (isn’t that Day One lessons at FBI school?  Pay attention Tess).  Dr. Howard had one guest sign in but over five nights in a row – Dr. Claire Winchester from Braddock University.  That would be too risky for Natasha Graham to be going in five nights in a row.  Rountree asks Fatima to check out Dr. Winchester.  Maybe she knew what trouble he was in.

Natasha Graham denies she is the woman in the video.  Kensi accuses Graham and GenBioSys of going after Dr. Howard by breaking into the lab, stabbing him and stealing his research.  Graham is stunned.  She only went to one of his talks and only spoke to him once, the day before the attack.  The pesticide that GenBioSys is very important to her, to the company.  Kensi asks if Graham knew Dr. Howard – she didn’t.  Dr. Howard was hired by GenBioSys to study the pesticide before its release.  When he panned the product, the company went to smear him and release the product anyway. 

Matrazine was Graham’s first big product launch.  And the company believes it is safe.  So did Dr. Howard at first.  But Graham was tipped off that Dr. Howard was also working for a competitor.  When he was confronted about working for a competitor, Dr. Howard thought matrazine “would poison the Midwest and babies would grow two heads.”  While she tried to discredit Dr. Howard, she wouldn’t hurt him.  Asked for an alibi, Graham was on a terrible Tinder date at Del Frisco’s (I love Del Frisco’s – pay attention Tess).  The waiter Rodney saved her from a terrible date.  Graham returns to work.

Walking in a residential neighborhood, Rountree picks up a flyer for a house for sale.  The neighborhood is great and close to the office.  Sam notes the homes in the area go for $1-million to start.   Rountree may be looking for a home closer to Texas.  Walking onto Dr. Winchester’s property, Sam mentions her office said she was working from home and there are cars in the driveway.  Her front door, however, is ajar. 

Calling into the house, Sam and Rountree go in with their weapons drawn.  A man shoves Rountree through Dr. Winchester’s dining room table.  The man runs out a back door with a laptop.  Dr. Winchester is being shoved into the back of an SUV in an alleyway behind the house.  Shots are exchanged with Sam hitting the man who pushed Rountree through the table.  The injured man tries to make his way to the SUV but the vehicle races out of the alleyway.  He keeps running until he hits the streets, when a vehicle runs over the injured man.

As the coroner’s office takes away the dead guy, Sam tells Rountree that Fatima has a BOLO out on the SUV and Kaleidoscope is looking for the vehicle.  None of the neighbors have security cameras that face the alleyway.  With Dr. Winchester spending so much time with Dr. Howard, Sam knows something is up with the three armed men who were sent to kidnap her.  Rountree thinks it is because she and Dr. Howard were working together.  Sam disagrees – Dr. Howard didn’t have what they want so they’re trying to get it with Dr. Winchester.  Sam is going to search the house, Rountree is going to check with the neighbors.

In Ops, Fatima tells Kilbride that she hasn’t been able to track the SUV.  The Admiral has his own bad news.  Telling Fatima to pull up the DoD database, something she never had access to until the Admiral got her, there is a file on Dr. Claire Winchester.  She is a DoD civilian contractor.  Her work at Braddock University is a DoD project and it is in conjunction with Dr. Howard’s work.  The DoD is sending a technical specialist to the boat shed to work with Kensi and Deeks.

Fatima’s tablet beeps – the dead man has been ID’d.  He’s Zhang Chin, a Chinese citizen and a legal U.S. resident.  The Admiral notes that is an odd mix.  Chin has an old student visa – he attended Whitley University but never graduated.  Checking who sponsored the visa, it is New Origin Talent, a Chinese recruitment agency.  The Admiral is familiar with New Origin Talent – they help China steal intellectual property and work in espionage.  Dr. Howard and now Dr. Winchester must have been targets for whatever they were working on.  Kilbride wants an address from Chin – maybe they can trace where the kidnappers took Dr. Winchester.

At the house, Sam is looking around when Rountree returns.  Neither found anything that will help rescue Dr. Winchester.  One neighbor saw a vehicle with dark tinted windows parked on the street for a few days.  Sam thinks by grabbing Dr. Winchester and the laptop, the kidnappers got what they came for.  Sam sees an Apple Watch charger – Fatima can ping the watch’s location.  He’s worried that once the kidnappers get what they need from Dr. Winchester, they may kill her.

Once again, Castor brings Kensi and Deeks a visitor, this time DoD Chief Technology Officer Tom Fields.  While Dr. Winchester’s kidnapping is troubling, Fields is really worried about the theft of the moths.  The moths are more important.   Funded by the DoD, Drs. Howard and Winchester were working to create moths that would take out agricultural pests.  The moths carried viruses that would end the need for pesticides.  A good thing, according to Deeks.  It is a good thing, Fields explains until “malicious actors” use the moths to spread viruses that could kill crops – devastating harvests.  Dr. Winchester was kidnapped to recreate more moths.

Fields explains that insects are hard to control.  Once released, they’ll reproduce.  If the moths carry a virus that would damage harvests, half the food supply for the US could be gone in six months.  Asked how the Chinese government would even know about the moths, Fields doesn’t know.  Dr. Howard’s lab had top security clearance with his lab assistant managing projects, materials and data.  Deeks points out that the assistant didn’t know what the moths were for when questioned.  Impossible, according to Fields.  Dr. Howard worked closely with his assistant, “he trusts Arjun.” 

As the Admiral arrives in Ops, Fatima is going through Arjun Sethi’s e-mails.  Nothing really jumps out.  Getting everyone on comms or the phone, Kensi thinks that if Dr. Howard was as paranoid as he ex believed, maybe he never told Sethi about the moths.  Sam and Rountree disagree – Sethi was supposed to know the lab inside and out.  Even if he didn’t know exactly what the moths were being used for, he’d know that it was a classified DoD project. 

A beep on Fatima’s tablet signifies that Sethi’s bank records are in.  Not much money in the account but there was a crypto transfer of $5,000.  Looking at the crypto account, there is $30,000, mostly coming from a company called Flow Genis.  Fatima sees that Dr. Howard had a special company for his speaking engagements, maybe Sethi has a similar set-up.  Checking, Flow Genis has been getting money from New Origin Talent.  Sam and Rountree are sent to find Sethi.

Racing out of the lab, Sethi is taking a back staircase, panting as he runs down the stairs.  Sam is on the landing below Sethi, Rountree on the landing above.  He’s caught.

In interrogation, Sam explains to Sethi that they know he lied to NCIS about the pesticides and the missing moths.  He can help himself by helping them find Dr. Winchester.  Sethi has no idea where she is.  “This was not part of the plan.”  Rountree wants to know what is the plan.  Sethi was paid to give “first looks” at Dr. Howard’s research.  Explaining that Dr. Howard wouldn’t cooperate after Sethi tried to recruit him, Sethi tried to sell New Origin Talent offering a big grant to the lab.  When Sam suggests Sethi set Dr. Howard up, Sethi assures them he did not.  Sethi was sure he could convince Dr. Howard there was no harm in taking the money. 

Sam tells Sethi he is in violation of the Patriot Act and his actions could be seen as treason.  Asking one more time, Sam wants to know where Dr. Winchester is.  Sethi knows about a lab in Shanghai.  She could be on her way there.

Outside of interrogation, Sam and Rountree go the new boat shed armory.  Fatima has intermittent tracking data from Dr. Winchester’s watch.  It is near one of three airports on the Westside.  She sees that New Origins Talent has a private jet at Santa Monica Airport – the watch beeps leaving the 10.  Kensi and Deeks join Sam and Rountree.

With the SUV showing up on Kaleidoscope, Fatima tries to guide the Sam/Rountree and Kensi/Deeks to Dr. Winchester.  Sam and Rountree cut them off but they are able to go in reverse to try to leave a street.  Afraid to fire into the SUV and hit Dr. Winchester, Sam asks Fatima if she can switch off the SUV’s engine through vehicle security services.  

Kensi and Deeks are able to cut off the SUV before it leaves the street.  As the SUV barrels toward Sam and Rountree, Fatima is able to get the engine cut.   Sam and Rountree get the bad guys out of the front of the SUV, Kensi rescues Dr. Winchester in the back of the SUV.  Deeks finds the moths. 

Returning to the office, Kensi finds a lovely floral arrangement on her desk.  “You murdered flowers just for me,” she says to Deeks.  Deeks said the flowers were already dead – no blood on his hands.  Calling himself Mr. Romance, Deeks asks Kensi out on a date.  Pulling something out of his back right pocket, there is a grade school way to ask if Kensi would be his girlfriend.  In his back left pocket is tickets to see Gregory Alan Isakov at the Terrace Theater.  Kensi is thrilled.  Knowing they have so much on their plate, Deeks doesn’t want to lose what got them to where they are now.  Though Deeks wouldn’t mind seeing Kensi in her torn up Levi’s – “a big part of our thing.”  That’s why she wore them on every single date.  Deeks thinks it feels like 10-years ago, he doesn’t want to lose their spark, lose “us” or lose Kensi.  Kensi thinks Deeks could see a whole lot more of her.  Deeks is going to call his mother to stay with Rosa – he and Kensi are going to have a standing date night.  The two leave.

Kilbride finds Sam as he’s leaving. Dr. Winchester is out of the hospital.  She’s banged up but OK.  The DoD is happy with NCIS’s work and the moths are accounted for.   Sam says in all his years as an agent, moth recovery was a first.  Kilbride admits that what he loves about working with NCIS is that he does something new almost every day.  Sam starts to talk about Kilbride’s job offer.  Before he can say much, Kilbride hands Sam the envelope he was working on earlier.  It was what he was given when he took over the job.  He thought Hetty sent it but couldn’t prove it.  Kilbride wasn’t thrilled with the idea of working with “a bunch of misfits” but Hetty knew the office needed him and that he needed the office.  Handing Sam the envelope, Kilbride doesn’t want Sam to open it until he’s sure he is going to take the job.  Admitting that in the past he’d have been an automatic no, Sam admits his life has changed “into something that I barely even recognize.”  He’s reevaluating – setting “conscientious objectives”.  Sam will give the Admiral an answer soon.  Kilbride wants one in case he has to “leave this godforsaken job” for some reason.  Besides, the Admiral tells Sam, “it is never too late to explore other pathways.”  He learned that from his son, proving “you can teach old dogs new tricks.”

Sam gets into his car and starts to open the envelope.  Thinking better of it, he says “You haven’t gotten me yet, Hetty.”

What head canon can be formed from here:   According to the internet, “Sensu Lato” means "In the broad sense".

This was an incredibly talky episode.  The basics were interesting but my attention kept floating away and that’s not usually a problem I have.

Callen’s absence was one of the best explained ones in a while.  Of course the San Diego office would want Callen for a Russian arms dealer case.

If Dr. Howard thought someone was after him, wouldn’t he be more careful about his exit from the lab.  He’s there late, it is dark, he leaves without his keys or anyone from campus security.  Back when I was in college, if a student didn’t feel safe leaving, security would walk them to their car or to the bus stop.  A fancy entomologist would get security if he asked, military background or not.

Sam’s future was interesting.  I think his lack of interest in Rountree’s real estate dreams in the cut scene was Sam weighing being a field agent with someone young like Rountree and maybe being the Rountree’s boss down the road.

The Kensi and Deeks scenes were great.  While I think Kensi is 100% right, it is admirable how much Deeks wants to be a great father – especially considering his past.

An average episode – the guts of the episode could have worked in any season – with a lot of talking.

Episode number:   This is episode 18 of season 14, the 320th episode of 323.  Winding down here.

[sapphyreopal5]

"I Am Sam" Interview with Jared Padalecki (June 2012)

The following are snippets from the I Am Sam Interview with Jared Padalecki in the Supernatural Magazine published in June 2012.[x][x]

"When asked exactly how badass Sam Winchester is in season seven of Supernatural, Padalecki replies, "Well, you’re familiar with the International Standardized Bad-Ass Test? No? You go from bad-ass-ness to bad-ass-dom.” He gets all that out with a straight face, then adds. "In all seriousness. I think Sam this year is trying to keep his wheels aligned with the road, so he’s not in charge of his own faculties enough to really be as badass focused as he was [when he was soulless] when I had a lot of fun. I like doing the badass bit.”

"At a party following the session, Padalecki is less silly and more sincerely excited when the topic shifts to his impending fatherhood - he and wife Genevieve Padalecki (who, of course, played Ruby on Supernatural) are expecting their first child, a little boy in March. Does Padalecki expect he’ll be a badass dad? "If badass means doing the right thing, I hope to be,” Padalecki says, "because my dad and my father figures and my brother growing up were good guys, so I hope I do the same.”

As for sending up his real, actor self in last season's The French Mistake, Padalecki at first feigns astonishment. That was as real as it could be!" Then he laughs. "I'm kidding. That was a lot of fun. As actors, we're glorified so much. We get to glorify ourselves so much and build ourselves up and put ourselves on pedestals that it was nice to go. ‘You know what? We’re actors. We wear make-up and talk to a camera and we’re telling stories.’"

"Speaking of Bobby, how does Padalecki feel about that character’s death? “I felt very sad. I watched [scenes from the episode Death s Door] as a fan because I wasn’t in it a whole lot. There was a lot of Jim Beaver and Steven Williams - it was all about Bobby and Rufus. Jim and I watched it in his trailer while filming. We were both in tears. I thought Jim Beaver did such an astounding job. And we have a famous saying around Supernatural, that the only way to make sure you’re coming back on the show is to die. So that having been said, I don’t think it’s the last we'll see of Jim Beaver."

"Has Padalecki been enjoying this phase of Sam's personality, or has he been looking forward to Sam freaking out again? "It’s been a lot of fun to be the calm, kind of collected guy," Padalecki says, “and Sam’s been calm because he’s had no choice. He’s been too busy trying to take care of his own mental issues to really go crazy. Sam’s grown up over seven years, so it’s nice that you can see that. We will see Sam start to break apart once again; he’s been trying to hold onto his marbles for the whole of the season, and now we start to see him stop being able to juggle all the balls he was trying to juggle at once."

"Now in his seventh year of playing Sam Winchester, does Padalecki feel the same about playing him today as he did when he started? "I have a family of my own coming now - I mean. Gen’s pregnant - but this show has become a family of sorts. And so part of me says, Well. I’m going to be a dad.’ Another part of me says. ‘Well. I’ve grown up with these guys, these directors, these writers, these cameramen, the grips, the cast, and so I feel so comfortable around them that I wouldn't mind doing the show for a long, long time.’"

"This is season seven of Supernatural. I did Gilmore Girls for five years before this, so I've been working for 12 years. I feel like I've learned a lot, I've grown a lot. I did my first episode of Gilmore Girls when I was 17. I’ll be 30 this summer, so I'm growing up. my career is on a good path. I'm ready for a new horizon. It’s not like I wanted to have a child for the challenge, but I welcome the challenge. I welcome the new road. I'm not expecting it to be easy, I know it won’t, but I’m excited to (experience parenthood) with my wife and best friend."

"Is there anything that Padalecki would like to do on Supernatural that hasn't happened yet? "No. I've got to say, the wonderful thing is, probably in season one. I did everything I wanted to do and then they created more things that I didn’t even know I wanted to do in seasons two, three, four, five, six and seven, and so they’re teaching me and training me that there are a lot more things out there than I maybe anticipated. It’s very exciting."

[scatterbugged]

“thinking wincest is a disgusting evil perversion of the parental bond formed between a neglected eldest son and his kid brother that he cares so deeply for like his own child”

this, this, a thousand times this!!

i find it especially gross when wincesties try and make dean’s final “i love you so much, my baby brother” into a wincest wink, when it’s literally a choice to reiterate that particular kind of parental sibling bond (imo) — that’s his baby brother who he cared for and protected above all others like his own child

exactly!! that’s like. dying father on his deathbed giving his dear child his last words.

Dean Winchester went through all the grievances of parenthood from the day their mother died. he fed him and took care of him and watched him grow up and then sam outlived him. he played the role of two different family members for sam, dad and brother, to fill in the gap left behind by John, and i think sam did the same thing, being both a brother and in a way a son to dean since he didn’t get to have a son of his own in the end.

sam and dean were freaky little unfortunate kids who had to depend on each other as family members. had dean ever felt that he deserved the chance to pursue life-long commitment through romantic love and actually pursued that to the fullest, it would not be with his snot nosed little brother!!!!

I have nothing of original substance to say I just cannot express any further how sick I find incest shipping in general. im talking in circles. wincest bad

[ao3feed-destiel-02]

thy curious frame

thy curious frame https://ift.tt/aRG21wY by Anonymous And then his hand slides down, fingers skimming over Dean’s stomach, and Dean sucks in a breath when he feels the smallest brush of grace. It’s warm, like standing under the sun during spring, and it’s reaching for something, but Dean doesn’t know what. He looks up when he hears Jack’s soft gasp, and he’s surprised to see an expression of awe on his face. “There,” he breathes. “I feel her.” - (Dean and Cas had a night together before he died, and it resulted in a baby. Amidst his grief and complicated feelings about his parents, Dean realizes, more than anything, that he wants to have this baby. Cas' baby. Even with the promise of death on his heels, Dean moves forward with the pregnancy. But Jack is the only one who knows.) Words: 12300, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: M/M Characters: Dean Winchester, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Jack Kline Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Jack Kline & Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Trans Dean Winchester, Grief/Mourning, Unplanned Pregnancy, Nephilim, Not Beta Read, complicated feelings, especially in regards to pregnancy and parenthood, Morning Sickness, Mpreg, Implied Sexual Content, Castiel Returns (Supernatural), Dean Winchester's Season 13 Widower Arc, briefly, Not Canon Compliant, Season/Series 13, But I do use a lot of content from here :) via AO3 works tagged 'Castiel/Dean Winchester' https://ift.tt/mi4j2LS December 29, 2023 at 01:25AM

[sheep33hallow]

SlapStick Skeleton (Wincest)

Dean's cheek, pressed into the cold wall. A corner of the hallway he walked past before Sam redirected him, face first into it.

Sammy. 

Sam. 

His little brother was working the front of his belt open. He chose to stay silent. The only sounds he could hear was his brother's ragged breath behind him. 

The children were close by. Allie in her room. Nicolas in the kitchen. 

He could forget parenthood for a moment. 

"Dean." His brother groaned behind him. The belt unlooped. The zipper sliding all the way down, Sam cupping his cock, still clothed, to rest on top of the opening of his jeans. Sam massaged him. 

That fucker. 

Sam's other hand slid against his mouth. Dean opened wide, tasting the salt of sweat. Sam was outside in the yard, playing soccer with Nicolas. He was napping, and woke up to go fix lunch before he became trapped. 

So he tasted. Sam pressing his fingers along his tongue. Drool collecting in his mouth. He tried his best to swallow. His finger scraped the top of his mouth, causing him to cough, which made his cock jump. 

"That's it." Sam said. Keeping mouth away from Dean. Dean likes the feeling of his breath tickling his ear. Telling him what a good brother he was. 

The hands would make due. 

Sam still hadn't made skin contact. His balls continued to be fondled with. Growing taunt with need. The texture of his boxer, a size too small as Sam's requested, was teasing him as much as his brother was. 

Dean coughed once more. Sam pressed his thumb on the outside of the cheek, to his middle finger on the inside of Dean's mouth, and pinched. 

Dean hears the steps begin to creek behind them. 

"Nicolas, can you go start the laundry, and feed the fish?" Sam called out. 

The steps receded. "Yeah, Dad." 

"Shhh." Sam whispered. "You're starting to make a mess of your shirt, and I'm seeing a wet spot on the floor." 

Dean couldn't look down to check if it was true. Sam had him trained to not look elsewhere whenever they engaged. His eyes were closed, lids pressed to a wall. 

A wall that needed to be repainted, honestly. The years of abuse this home had from sheltering his family was starting to show. 

"Do you want to lick it up?" Sam pinched harder. "You hate when the kids make messes. Be an example." He cooed. The smile is evident in his tone. 

Dean shook his head. His cheek was being pulled to the side. Sam came closer. Mouth to ear, on the opposite side of his hand abusing him. "Then how are we going to clean this up?" 

Dean shrugged. 

Sam laughed. 

"We're Winchesters." He said. Removing his hand from his brother's mouth. Sam's wet hand moved behind him. Over his ass, between his asscheeks, and pressing into the rim. "Let's make a mess worth sweeping under the rug." 

It was through the humming of the washing machine starting up, that Dean remembered all the other rugs covering their messes were in the laundry room. 

[samwinchesterpregnant]

@empathieves the truly mutable nature of sam winchester is astounding! i made this poll with like baby’s first trip to planned parenthood in mind, so likely pre-everything (if trans sam) but now i’m bewitched by the possibilities… the birth control journey u could say! he could truly use them all over a lifetime<3 sam is everything to me

[mrcowboydeanwinchester]

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#5

the way that in the trap dean says "i hope you can hear me. i hope you can hear me." this man has spent his whole life loving cas silently. loving cas in the dark quiet corners of his soul no one can find, not even himself. and then. in that moment. he gets down on his knees and begs for cas to hear him. thinking they may never find each other thinking they're about to die he confesses out loud what he has kept quiet for a decade.

960 notes - Posted November 5, 2022

#4

i love turning on an episode of supernatural and watching jensen act his little jussy out tears in his eyes praying on his knees all in one take while jared blinks at rapid intervals and misha does a silly voice

1,045 notes - Posted October 18, 2022

#3

you have to understand dean doesn't realise he's denying himself what he wants anymore like to him that's just how things Are. he can't have cas he can't stop hunting he can't get better he can't have time to himself it's not even a question, he doesn't even register them as wants because he just thinks he Can't Have Them and then what's the point of wanting them at all

1,207 notes - Posted August 10, 2022

#2

early seasons sam is just that bit spoiled and i think that is just a feat in itself on dean's behalf. he managed to raise a kid in a motel room off of macaroni cheese and second hand clothes but he sacrificed enough that sam still grew to be spoiled and petty. that s1 dynamic where sam has absolutely no clue about any of the shit dean went through is actually so so important because it shows just how stupidly good dean was at putting on a front of normality and protecting his brother. not only has dean been performing his whole life he's been performing parenthood his whole life and it was a success. dean's performances didn't start as self protection they started in the same way a mother performs to their child that everything is okay as the world falls to pieces around them. as s12 says, it's not fair and dean can't do it, but sam's spoiled s1 nature is a sign of how successful dean actually was

1,972 notes - Posted July 8, 2022

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[ladylilithprime]

A Different Sort Of Date Night

Series: Fluff Is My Jamstiel

Fandom: Supernatural: 

Pairing: proto-Sastimmy/Jamstiel (Jimmy Novak/Sam Winchester/Castiel)

Rating: Teen and Up

Tags/Warnings: Witch Sam Winchester, Hunter Novak Brothers, Jimmy and Castiel Are Twins, Domestic Fluff, Babysitting, Sam Winchester Is Legitimately A+ Dad Material, Bones Is A Pawsome Babysitter And Helper, Bones Goes By Hannah McCoy When In Human Form, Fingerpainting

Summary: Sam was no stranger to babysitting after over four years of being Samantha Maxine Moore's godfather. That wasn't going to change now that he had two charges instead of just one, but he was still very glad to have Bones around as back-up.

For: @fluffyfebruary challenge!

Prompt: Day 24: Bubbly

Read on AO3

BABYSITTING WAS NOT a new endeavor for Sam Winchester, not since one of his best friends Jessica Moore had married his friend and fellow demon-pursued psychic Max Miller and the pair of them had named him godfather of their first child. Parenthood - even second-hand parenthood - was a learning experience, but for all his trepidation over being put in charge of caring for a tiny person Sam had been motivated to learn and not just for himself. His familiar, Bones, had also taken quickly to the role of babysitter and honorary godmother, admitting to Sam with her usual matter of fact candor that helping care for his godchild and any other children he might come to be responsible for was the closest she was ever going to get to having pups of her own.

The days or nights that Sam and Bones might be asked to babysit for Jess and Max tended to vary, but there was always one night of the year that Sam had marked on his calendar as off-limits for all other planning, no matter what or who might crop up. So it was that on the night of Max and Jess's fifth wedding anniversary, Sam and Bones saw the pair off with smiles and waves for their annual big date night and then settled in to have a very different sort of night in with a four-year-old Samantha Maxine Moore and a two month old Tylene Deanna Moore.

And what a night in it was shaping up to be! Tylie was still at the age where she slept most of the time unless she was eating or needed changing and so Sam was able to get away with keeping her tucked up in the chest carrier with a blanket tucked into the straps to keep her warm. Sammi, on the other hand, was in full swing of exploring her artistic side and had brought her fingerpaints with her to practice and potentially create a new "happy anniversary" masterpiece for her parents. Sam and Bones had both joined in, taking turns rescuing precariously tipping paint or water cups or rinsing out the hand towel when it got too covered in paint to be effective, but it was still a very colorful kiddo who was escorted off by "Miss Hannah" for Bath Time while Sam took himself off to the kitchen to start cooking dinner.

Dinner tonight, as polled a week ahead of time to be sure he would have everything he needed to make it, was homemade pizza. The dough had risen nicely during the day and stretched well even with Sam working around the infant in the chest harness. Marinara sauce, shredded cheese, crumbled turkey bacon, more shredded cheese, and then Sam added a gracefully done anti-possession ward made from a mix of riced broccoli and finely chopped spinach because Sammi said the "sun and star" was pretty. As a pizza topping it was little more than decoration, but it kept Sam in practice drawing it with unusual materials and it made his goddaughter smile. With the pizza in the oven, he detoured to the hall bath to check on Sammi and Bones.

The door was open and he could hear the giggles and shrieks of laughter before he was close enough to peer inside. Bones being Bones and completely unselfconscious of her body in any form had stripped off her skirt and camisole to avoid getting the clothes wet while elbow-deep in warm water and a small mountain range of bubbles. In the half circle formed by the bubble towers sat Sammi, hair and skin scrubbed clean save for the large sculpted bubble hat that Bones had built on top of her head.

"Having fun?" he asked dryly.

"Loads," Bones answered brightly with an unrepentant grin. "Dinner?"

"In the oven," Sam confirmed. "Twelve minutes before it comes out, so start winding down to get out and dry."

Playful groans of disappointment followed him out as he returned to the kitchen to check on the pizza and get Tylie's dinner (provided courtesy of her mother and ten minutes with the breast pump) warmed up and ready for her to have as well. The phone on the wall rang as he was turning on the burner beneath the warming pot and he quickly snapped it off again before answering. "Wesson."

"Hello, Sam," a familiar gravelly voice purred from the other end of the line, a voice he knew belonged to one of two people, who in turn were two of perhaps seven people who might have cause to call him at this hour without it being an emergency. Which of the two was resolved a moment later. "Jimmy says hello also, or would if he wasn't in the shower."

"Well, you can pass my return hello to him when he gets out," Sam said with a fond smile. He tucked the phone receiver between his ear and shoulder and moved to turn on the burner again, setting it to low under the pot of water. "Business or social call?"

"Six, half a dozen," John Castiel Novak admitted with an audible grimace. He explained the case they were working on, the orphaned kids whose parents had been killed and stripped of their flesh. "Honestly, we probably could have called one of our other contacts for this, but I just wanted to hear your voice."

"Well, if it helps at all, it sounds like you're dealing with a rakshasa," Sam hummed. "They need to be invited into homes and tend to conceal themselves as poverty-stricken humans to avoid drawing attention. Dean ran into one a few years back that was masquerading as a blind carnival clown."

"Pun intended?" Cas asked, making Sam snort.

"Anyway, a brass knife will kill them," he finished, eyeing the water and then carefully setting the bag of breast milk into it to warm. "Be careful, they can turn invisible, so don't rely on sight when you're fighting it."

"They don't go intangible though, right?" Cas asked, sounding thoughtful. "If we had a bag of flour to throw at it, even if it went invisible the flour wouldn't..."

"Worth a try," Sam shrugged, smiling as a now mostly dry and fully dressed Bones and Sammi entered the kitchen. "Hey, cabbage. Mister Cas is on the phone."

"Hi, Mister Cas!" Sammi whisper-shouted, waving.

"Sammi says hi," Sam dutifully relayed, and had the pleasure of hearing Cas's throaty laugh from across the phone line.

"Hello, Sammi!" he said, then added a little more ruefully, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt your godparent date night."

"Swing by here sometime soon and we can have our own date night," Sam murmured, hearing the wistful twinge to his friend's voice. "I miss you and Jimmy, too."

"Soon as we're done with the rakshasa, we'll head for Palo Alto," Cas promised.

"So, Cas and Jimmy are swinging by some time tomorrow?" Bones asked once they hung up and the pizza had been cut and served. "So I should see if Jess and Max wouldn't mind me staying over to help with Tylie so you three can have that date night~?"

"Are you and Mister Cas and Mister Jimmy gonna summon a stork in the cabbage patch like Mama and Daddy did with me and Tylie?" Sammi asked.

Bones laughed at Sam's spluttering so loudly that Tylie woke up to demand her own dinner, which was dutifully retrieved and fed to her.

...Not that the suggestion was a bad one.

[sterek-ao3feed]

Bleed it out

Read it on AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/57369265

by Voirloup

What if Dean Winchester était le père biologique de Stiles ? What if Amara ramenait John et non Mary ?

Words: 4026, Chapters: 1/1, Language: Français

Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005), Teen Wolf (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Dean Winchester, Stiles Stilinski, Sam Winchester, John Winchester, Claudia Stilinski, Sheriff Stilinski (Teen Wolf), Derek Hale, Pack - Character

Relationships: Dean Winchester & John Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sam Winchester, Stiles Stilinski & Dean Winchester, Castiel/Dean Winchester, Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski, Claudia Stilinski/Dean Winchester, Dean Winchester & Sheriff Stilinski, Minor or Background Relationship(s)

Additional Tags: Crossover, Dean Winchester is Stiles Stilinski's Bio Dad, Teen parent, Bad Parent John Winchester, Dean Winchester Needs a Hug, Parenthood, Parallels, Pack Dynamics, Sam Winchester Ships Castiel/Dean Winchester, Spark Stiles Stilinski, Claudia Stilinski is Badass, Himbo Scott McCall, Hunter Matriarch Allison Argent, Banshee Lydia Martin, Beta and we love them very much for reading and correct our bullshit, Amara Brings Back John Winchester Instead of Mary Winchester, Chronology is my bitch

https://archiveofourown.org/works/57369265

[road-rhythm]

Hi, I sent a similar question to another blog, but I would really like to hear your thoughts on this: how do you feel abt Dean Jr being an only child? I keep wondering why Sam did not give Dean Jr his own Sam, you know? Makes me think it's also a type of freedom, maybe along the lines of "I don't regret my bizarre relationship with my brother but I'd rather not risk my kid having that too"? Or... idk! Do you have thoughts?

First of all: which other blogs, anon? 👀 I wanna read.

Secondly, I... didn’t think about it much at all. I’ve enjoyed some 15x20 codas devoted to fleshing out the remainder of Sam’s time on earth, particularly caranfindel’s, but it’s not a genre I’m seeking out and I didn’t wish for more of it in the episode (though I wouldn’t have minded a better execution of ungodly twee overalls Party City Sam inexplicable cottagecore some of the finer points). For me, the blurriness was the point.

What we saw was this: 1) For the very first time, one of the brothers meaning it when he asked the other to let him go finally lined up with the other one actually being prepared to do it. 2) Sam lived with his grief. He faced that music. He accepted that reality. He broke the link between pain and reaction, over and over and over, every fucking day until the natural end of his life, and the reward for doing that was joy alongside the grief, and honoring his brother’s memory. 3) He broke the intergenerational cycle of trauma that more or less was the plot of this show. Nobody goes unscathed by their parents, but this kid appeared to have support, stability, and open affection and was well enough adjusted to face his parent’s death without undue distress. Sam got a do-over on the kind of grief his father confronted, and against all odds, brought home the motherfucking win. He brought it home for all of them. 4) Did I mention about living with grief, accepting reality (something very distinct from resigning oneself to it), allowing pain to occur and in the process finding some measure of freedom from suffering.

Those were the elements I cared about. I’m not fussed about the rest because I got what I needed to make like Sam and let a bro go.

Which is why your thought in here:

Makes me think it's also a type of freedom, maybe along the lines of "I don't regret my bizarre relationship with my brother but I'd rather not risk my kid having that too"

is way more interesting than anything I’ll ever have to say about it. It might be the most interesting tidbit of speculation I’ve seen about Sam and Kid, period. I like it. I’m not sure Sam’s family planning was ever that intentional (I’m mildly partial to the foundling-and-nanny theory), but even if the question never came up in a fully conscious way, I can totally see this being at the back of his brain, and I like it. Thanks.