#STOP IM BEING TORTURED

[mohntilyet]

my initial knee jerk reaction to lucanis/spite saying "family, enemies, contracts" was bad because it felt like an oversimplification but actually thinking on it i really love that lucanis forces himself into this box to make things make sense in his life. family is unconditional, enemies are to be killed, but contracts is so. interesting... man who promises mila that he will find her father because he does not fail contracts. the same man who tells effe that he will kill her slaver because he needs to turn her from a poor young woman that he sympathises with, into someone he can make a deal with. it's not kindness, it's not weakness, he's just fulfilling a contract, and crows don't break contracts. if he kills a bunch of racist blood mages during that process, then he's not breaking the rules, just bending them. a very convenient excuse to be a good man while still being a crow and assassin. and of course when spite is forced into him, he gets out of it with something familiar! by making another deal! something he could work with, something he HAS to work with, because being just an abomination is unthinkable. if he can work himself out of this problem like he's done with every other contract in his life, in his mind maybe there's some tiny chance that this becomes another job that he can claw his life back from.

[arom-antix]

I bring to thee some quick late night Viktuuri sketches because I think we could all use some fluff

[hopetatic]

i had no clue i would draw him again. but well, what am i gonna do with 3 hours of newfound knowledge about this one arg? Nothing? AS IF

Close ups below

[outletcrash]

just got into transformers and honestly the main thing thats made me all giggly nonstop is the idea of disecting starscream in my basement 😭. the knowledge/toolset youd need to have to dissect + study a live technorganic being is exactly the one i have! yes keeping a sentient being in my basement is morally wrong and ethically torture but id basically have a friend to bicker with and a science expiriment all in one. so sad transformers arent real i have SO MANY IDEAS on what to do. hell if robot genetics are similar to human ones i could harvest metal from him using like. computer crispr. or even synthesize it using my knowledge of Nuclear Whatevers!! and upload my conciousness into my own transformer to escape my chronic pain!!! i could do anything!!! YES i just started taking my meds again (i feel happy for the first time in weeks) NO they are NOT mood stabilizers. imagine id literally have a captive audience to whatever i wanna talk on about (while mapping analogs to a nervous/endocrine system that might use different frequencies + code instead of chemicals and dna??? i NEED to do the robot of open air brain surgery on him RIGHT NOW!). i could just be like "heres the only song i know on the guitar senorita 😏" and since his vountary motor controls were disconnected from his cpu and his auditory processor was on my work bench bc he kept calling me robot slurs i could just do it! ofc if id get caught id say sir i was just being too silly. plus hes committed millions of years worth of war crimes i think being disected in my basement and being annoyed to death is not entirely unfounded. gosh even just writing this i came up with 12 new expiriments i could perform. no ethics is not involved.

[rueclfer]

I’m not defending Mineta, I don’t like the creep. But why is the mha fandom like selective with perverts? Midnight was inappropriate for a teacher. Twice was older than Toga and liked her. Am I missing something?

character complexity maybe

[cutting-everything-out]

I've disappointed everyone.

I failed as a daughter.

Failed as a student.

Failed as a friend.

Failed as a sister.

Failed as a lover.

Failed at everything. Even with myself.

[eternallovers65]

Thoughts about dramatrio as a forever viewer (and occasionally bad and baghera viewer)

RP WISE!!!! DON'T GO BOTHER THE CC'S

From q!forever's perspective, you can see how the dramatrio was always a duo and not a trio. qbad and qbaghera do not trust forever, and if they do, they don't trust him enough for their secrets.

- They never supported qforever during his presidency (qbad did vote for him, tho). qbad always complained about everything forever did, even tho qforever always tried to listen to him and everyone else.

- qbaghera did not told him the secret about her childhood, but she told qbad. Just like bad didn't tell qforever about the fed worker he kidnapped but he told qbaghera.

- "Oh but qforever took his waystone first" he did that because he asked for an item and no one helped him, so he got tired of helping people but no one helping him

- Also, qbaghera is dapper's mom, and qbad is pomme's dad. qforever was never included in this conversation.

- They say forever will get easily manipulated by the federation because he's the president, but yesterday both bad and baghera said they don't think cucurucho is bad

- They both banned forever from their houses

Anyway, they like to have forever around for the fun part of it, to joke and all but when stuff get serious they don't tell him anything and keep talking about him behind his back. And the only people that actually trust qforever is the favelafive

[dukeofthomas]

I will forever maintain that Jason would've been fine and Not a vigilante without Bruce making him Robin

[lamentablequeen]

i need to be picked up and put in my home biome right the fuck now

[alchemiclee]

I used to always hide what I like and dislike. never share my opinions. try to align myself with other people to make them happy. try to like what they like or pretend to. but I decided to stop doing that at some point because it was exhausting. it did work for a while. it made people happy and like me more for s short time. but never lasted. especially since I can't keel.up the charade forever. so was kind of pointless in the end....

but then sometimes i remember why I did it. so many times that I don't do it it leads to bad interactions that really affect me negatively. sometimes when I state my opinion or likes/dislikes and it contrasts with someone else, it makes them lash out at me????? they act like i'm trying to personally attack them??? even if i'm not saying it directly to them or it has nothing to do with them?? they get so offended or upset and start lecturing me or getting really angry in my replies or dms. and i'm internally like. can you shut up and leave me alone lmao. but of course I hate conflict and stuff so I go back into "pleasing" mode and try to "explain" and find an explanation that calms them the fuck down because I don't want to deal with their offended asses. they cant accept that I have my own options and preferences and it isnt meant to offend them. and sometimes they'll even try to twist my words to mean something bad in general so they can justify their offense and it makes no sense to me. ugh. leave me alone 😭

[mayonaisalspray]

If this fish dies I don’t think I’ll be able to forgive myself for a long time

[perfectly-clear-from-here]

attempting to finish chapter 4 right now and using all my inner strength to not do this:

[loverboybrightsideghost]

why did i never realize that it's okay to not kill yourself to do the best you can at something that doesn't matter

[letmesleepy]

I wish the fallout show was good....

[radaverse]

This Friday we did some real exercises (I'm absolutely useless when it comes to doing exercise)

It's Monday and my legs still don't work

[riggedbones]

everyone needs to know about consequence. everyone needs to see consequence. everyone needs to know consequence. what do you mean it does not show up in the chapter im writing and also potentially the next one