#STOP BEING A DUMBASS FOR ONE MOMENT PLEASE
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you ever just watch a tv show and there is a scene so overwhelmingly full of awkwardness and second hand embarrassment that you have to just,,, stop for a moment. like dude, come on. this is making me have to take my glasses off i couldnt possibly handle your lack of charisma in HD
#MERLINNNNNNNN#STOP BEING A DUMBASS FOR ONE MOMENT PLEASE#there are so many easier ways for one to talk themself out of a situation but MERLIN CHOOSES THE HARDEST AND MOST AWKWARD ONE#i just recently got into this show and it is so silly#but the SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT#SOMETIMES#SOMETIMES MAN#THIS SHOW MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM#AND PUNCH SOMETHING#SCREAMING AND CRYING#JUST BECAUSE MERLIN HAS NO GAME#NO RIZZ#AND NO PEOPLE SKILLS WHATSOEVER#AND I LOVE HIM FOR THAT#AND I HATE HIM FOR THAT#AAARRRGGHHHHH#merlin#the adventures of merlin#bbc merlin#tipytalks
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Rin thinks youâre pretty.Â
No, scratch that; it was far too inadequate to describe you that way. If he were to be utterly honest, you were exquisitely, heartbreakingly beautiful, far more than his heart could contain.
Youâre pretty when you spoke, when you said his name, when you smiled â oh God, don't even get him started on how your smile could brighten even the darkest of days. He was certain that a face like yours was meant for smiling, and it was even brighter when he was the reason behind it.
Right now, however, Rin finds it hard to look at your face when youâre like this â crying.
and it is even worse when heâs the source of it.
âStop crying, dumbass,â he whispered, sighing.Â
âThen stop getting into fights, you asshole,â you retorted back in between sobs.
Rin fell silent after your reply. He couldn't find the right words, not with your sobs filling the room and drowning his thoughts. He watched you as you applied a small amount of betadine to a cotton swab and wiped away your tears before turning to him.
âTake a seat. Let me clean that,â you offered, pertaining to the small cut o n his lip.
Rin took one long look at your face, and without a word, he moved to the corner of your bed, feeling the familiar dip of the mattress beneath him while you pulled the chair beside your table and placed it in front of him.
He'd been here countless times before. Growing up with your mothers being best friends meant that you were practically childhood friends by default, and that also meant spending endless hours in each other's homes.
But this time was different from all the previous visits; it was the first time he was in your room, no longer just a close friend anymore. That reality and your crushing tears â they were consuming all corners of his thoughts.
You closed the gap between you two to get a better look at the swollen cut from a blow he had taken. You gently dabbed the swab around the wound and felt Rin's sharp intake of breath as you did so.
You began to reason, âThis wouldn't happen if you could've justââ
âI don't want to hear it.â
You bit your lower lip and tears started swelling again in the corner of your eyes. Rin was nothing if not so fucking stubbornâ that you knew since childhood, but you wished he could put it aside for a moment and truly listen to you.
âOkay,â you coldly said, conceding and turning your focus on cleaning his wound.
Rin wanted to pummel his own self in the ground because of the passing hurt that graced your eyes from how he cut you off. A sniff escaped you and Rin physically felt his heart contract.
What was he supposed to do? Stand by and let those damn assholes make lewd comments about you? There was no way in hell he would just let it slide.
This wasn't the first time Rin had taken matters into his own hands when it came to you. Since third grade, Rin had taken his mom's words about looking after you to heart. And it had always been that way, even back when he was hellbent in denying his feelings. Not an ounce of rationality graces his mind when it comes to you, so you should've already known that he didn't have it in him to hold back.
He caught your hand and gently squeezed it. The gesture prompted you to look at him briefly before turning your gaze away, still hurt from his dismissal of your concern.
âI didnât mean that,â he squeezes your hand again, âLook at me, please.â
You turned your head to meet your stubborn boyfriend. This time, you let the tears fall freely.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers, sincere and uncharacteristically gentle, âSpeak to me, y/n.â
âI just..â you sobbed, âI donât like it when you get hurt. Thatâs all.â
âI donât like it more when you get hurt,â he countered.
âIt's just some stupid words from stupid people, Rin. They're not worth it.â
âBut you are.â
Your heart raced at Rin's words. when you raise your gaze to seek hisâ, you are met with a pair of half-lidded teal eyes staring right into you.
âYouâre the one whoâs worth it.â
Rin's words lingered in the air, leaving you utterly speechless. You never expected him to utter something so heartfelt â after all, this was Itoshi Rin. A man capable of almost anything, yet kind words seemed to be an exception. Then again, this was Rin, the very same man who believed he wasn't adept at love and yet chose to lay his heart bare in your palms, albeit a bit stubbornly.
As you struggled to find words to express how much his words meant to you, Rin gently raised his hands to wipe away the lingering tears in your eyes. His fingers brushed against the loose strands of hair nearly covering your eyes, tucking them away with meticulous care. His touch was so gentle that itâs almost hard to believe it was the same hands who mercilessly struck two men hours ago.
His other hand snaked around your waist, pulling you closer until you were almost seated on his right leg. The closeness made your heart swell, and you couldn't help but nestle into his warmth.
âStop crying, please?â he murmured, âyouâre getting your snot in my shirt.âÂ
Way to ruin a moment. âI hate you,â you jokingly scoff against his neck.
âNo, you donât,â he disagrees, so full of conviction it needed some humbling.
âYou bet? No kisses,â you see him smirk at your declaration, âuntil that cut completely heals,â you added, wiping that smirk on his face.
A laugh escaped you at the sudden shift in his expression. gone was the challenged smirk and all that's left are furrowed brows and a subtle pout.Â
How dare you take that away from him? Maybe you do hate him, Rin is convinced.
âStill worth it, baby?â you ribbed, seemingly enjoying his misery.
âYes.â with you finally smiling? Absolutely. Youâre smiling, and sometimes, itâs enough and more â even for Itoshi Rin.
note. ode2RIN comeback because of rinturn 2023 (I KNOW IT'S LATE)
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GENTLE, PLEASE
PAIRING: Alastor x Wife!Reader SUMMARY: Y/N, like the nervous wreck she is, canât stop spending her free time worrying over something thatâs not even a big deal. Of course, one thing lead to another. (Thank you, Charlie, for letting them have the day off). WARNINGS: (SFW) Reader is female, Reader is hellborn, Reader is VERY anxious (alastor as well, but not too much), reader is sensitive obv, angel is angel, usage of y/n, established relationship cussing on both parts, Alastor owns readers soul. (NSFW) alastorâs pain kink shows a little bit, lingerie, reader is TIGHT, reader is also virgin but is registered adult!!!, mention of a safeword, p in v, slight orgasm denial, readerâs tears, soul-chain bondage, alastor knots. Mentions of pregnancy^^ idk if thereâs angst in this that counts but both have a good ending so dw (LMK if i missed anything!!!!)
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Alastor was a man of his word.
Y/N was sitting in her room, tired from her piece of vibrating plastic that brang her âpleasureâ.
âYou look gorgeous in your bliss, darling.â
Whenever Alastor rubbed her, ate her out, it made her feel real pleasure, though.
But, did he?
What was real pleasure?
âIâm too big for you, sweetheart, maybe another time.â
Another time.
Did he want another time?
âYouâre almost like Charlieâs mother, Hah! Weâd make great parents.â
The look he gave you.
Y/N felt so relieved after hearing Charlie was going up to heaven for a meeting just a moment ago, but now all of these stupidâŠthatâs mean. All these overwhelming thoughts were plaguing her head.
She threw the piece of plastic across the room.
She had to give him something.
when was the last time you talked to him? when was the last time you crossed paths with your husband during work? when was the last time you cooked for him?
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22:10 PM
She couldnât sleep.
Was she good enough?
Ugh.
She put on a flimsy oversized shirt she usually wears to bed, some polka-dot pajama shorts, and white, knee-high socks.
She didnât bother to change her underwear garments from the night before.
Y/N looked around before heading out of her hotel room, in case anybody saw her, to Alastorâs room.
Y/N was so happy when Alastor âaccidentallyâ mapped her room next to his on one of the secluded floors when the hotel was being rebuilt. How happy she was, indeed.
Knock knock knock
Silence. but only for a moment before she heard and felt the soft familiar static come closer to the other side of the door.
âCome in, mon cher.â He greeted as he opened the door, stepping aside. His room looked neat and clean, unlike Y/Nâs. mostly because there wasnât much stuffâŠand he had a whole bayou, making the room bigger.
She nervously walked over the the edge of his bed and sat down, breathing in the smell of his familiar cologne.
âWhats keeping you up so late? youâre usually a slumbering baby at this time of night!â He chortled, sitting down next to her on the plush bed of his.
Fuck.
He was wearing silk pajama pants and a robe, but the robe was just barely tied tightly, exposing a majority of his chest. His monocle was placed elsewhere and his hair was slightly disheveled.
Crap, you woke him up didnât you.
ââŠI donât know.â You dumbass, wrong answer! she scolded at herself.
Alastor chuckled again, âJust missed me?â he asked.
That reminded Y/N of back then. When it was simple and new between them. Before they went to this hotel, decades ago when the two met. She would always go over to his manor in the middle of the night after roaming the streets and feeling lonely.
Ah, yes. Now i have to work for the princess.
ââŠYeahâŠmissed you.â Y/N forced a smile alongside that little white lie.
He sighed, ââŠAlright, whatâs going on?â He placed a place on her tensed shoulder, rubbing it soothingly, gently.
Cornered. Y/N didnât have a choice, âDo youâŠDo always mean it whenâŠfuck- when you s-say you-um- want to have a child with me?â She said without breaking her eye contact to the floor.
You didnât have to say it like that, fucking hell
Alastorâs movements froze. ââŠaâŠumâŠâ His smiled turned strained, â-a spawn?â
Y/N teared up. there was no way she was getting out of this one.
She whimpered, ââŠsorry.â before her hands shot up to her face, Alastor grabbed her wrist-
âI would love to. Y-You know I am a man of my wordâŠâ Alastor confessed with a chuckle, â-ButâŠonly if you are comfortable with it, mon amour.â Alastor went to her eyes level to try and meet her eyes.
Y/N froze. Her tears stopped.
âŠHoly fuck.
Y/N looked at him, to search for any disapproving emotion in his eyes.
None.
ââŠI-I want to.â Y/N confessed back, ââŠtoo.â
Alastorâs smile softened, he pulled Y/N with ease into him lap, âIâm glad,â and immediately kissed her.
The kiss was soft, sensual, gentle, even. Alastorâs hands began to roam under her shirt once she opened her mouth for him.
Alastor broke away from the kiss for a moment, a string of saliva connecting to their lips, âY/NâŠ?â he tugged on her shirt.
Oh god, what do i say?
ââŠIs there something wrong?â Y/N silently panicked.
Alastor widened his eyes for a moment but then softened his demeanor, âYou shirt. Can i take it off?â He kissed her lips once more.
Fucking idiot. A brain dead patient wouldâve known what that meant.
ââŠYes.â She smiled nervously as he broke the the kiss.
Alastor nodded before bunching the hem of her shirt in his claws, âarms up, dear.â
As Y/N put her arms up, letting him gently take off her shirt, Alastor noticed how she wasâŠwearing lingerie.
The lingerie that she wore the night before.
see what i did there
As Y/N put her arms down, she noticed how Alastor was staring at her under garmentsâŠ
That she didnât change from last night.
Y/N squeaked and ripped the bra off her body, tossing it away and into the bayou.
Now youâre bra-less.
Y/N slowly look up at Alastor, afraid he was going to scold her for not caring about her hygiene and stuff like that.
Alastor had always scolded her for skipping certain chores to, âtake the weight off Alastor and Niftyâs shouldersâ whether it be showers, making the bedâŠlaundry.
Dirty landry.
Alastor sighed, âI love you, Y/N,â He laughed softly, â-my clumsy doe.â He finished the sentence with a lustful growl, his claws tickled down her spine, arching her back.
ââŠIâŠI love you, t-â almost immediately, Y/N was pinned down into the center of the bed, Alastor lips crashing onto hers like a starved man.
Fuck yeah, it was hot.
Alastor began to knead his claws at her breasts, squishing them so.
he grinder himself to her clothed core, making her throb for his touch, some contact. It almost felt like all those other times.
âŠbutâŠit didnât feel right.
Alastor, after needing a breath of air, noticed the tiniest hint of this, and grown worried,
âAre you alright, dearest?â He checked in.
She was unsure. Yeah, she was in the moodâŠbut she just felt nervous, and he felt so confident.
ââŠanything i could do?â Alastor questioned once more, still hovering over her, his antlers slightly sizing down.
Think, Y/N, you were fine before, what was he doing beforeâŠ
ââŠcan you umâŠbe gentle?â She winced, thinking that she sounded like some kind of needy loser. Oh, lord-
â-WhyâŠo-of course, mon cĆur.â he reassured, rubbed his thumbs over her small, plush breasts because kissing her once again.
Nothing could have compared more to how satisfied Alastor felt when she moaned.
It wasnât a pornographic moan either, it wasâŠnatural. needing, almost.
Once Alastor slipped his tongue into her awaiting mouth, he began to unwrap his robe, tossing it to the ground and leaving his chest bare for her.
She gasped, âOh, AlâŠâ before she could wrap her arms around his neck, she felt him tug at her loose shorts,
âMay I, darling?~â
Y/N nodded like a frantic woman, lifting her bottom up so he could take off her shorts, awaiting to find her panties completely soaked.
He pushed her bottom down with ease, âDear, you seem to be completely moist,â Alastor commenting with the low vibration of static in his voice, making Y/N blush frantically. âTell me, what turn you on so much? PerhapsâŠâ Alastor swiped a finger through her panties, making her yelp. He then brang it back up to his mouth and licked itc moaning softly, ââŠwas it my switch in demeanor?â
Y/N clenched as the sight. Alastor scooted back and lowered herself to her pussy, licking her slowly through the cloth guarding her. When he got to the location of her pearl, he pushed his tongue down onto it, receiving a moan from the receiver.
But his tongue wasnât enough at the moment.
She wanted more.
âN-noâŠplease, AlastorâŠI want you.â Y/N pleaded. she was impatient, she couldnât just sit there and go through what was the usual.
She needed more.
He growled. âAnything for you, ma lumiĂšre.â Like an inpatient man, he tapped the bottom of her butt, signaling her to raise it. She did so, and almost immediately did he swiped her panties off of her, resulting in a gasp from Y/N.
Alastor crawled over so his pelvis was just on top of her. standing straight on his knees.
Alastor unbuttoned his silk pajama pants, his hard cock springing free right out of his boxers.
Nothing could have prepared Y/N from how big it looked.
Estimating, it was probably 7.5 inches minimum, and have mercy on her-
It was seriouslyâŠthick.
She looked up at Alastor worried. Alastor noticed this and softened his expression,
âYouâll be okay. Iâll go slow for you.â
Y/N nodded, but it certainly didnât make her feel any better. She was still clenching her womanhood as well, just slightly at the thought of how bad this might hurt.
Alastor sighed. âThe safeword isâŠstop.â Alastor told her. Hopefully that would make her feel safer.
âŠshe opened for him.
When Alastor looked down to examine her, he saw how each second she opened, her juices would stick to her pussyâs lips in strings.
His dick physically throbbed more.
After hooking her legs up and around her waist, he lowered his body down more so that his cock was in lined with her vagina.
Slowly, he rubbed his length up down down through her folds, collecting as much natural lube as he could for her pleasure.
-But the sounds definitely werenât helping, making Y/N face glow a darker tint of red than before. So, she just zoned out to the rumble of Alâs static.
What snapped her out of her zoning, although, was the burning of her hole, hissing in discomfort.
âShhhâŠâ Alastor hushed, âJust let me put the tip in, then iâll stop.â Alastor, still, waited for confirmation.
Fucking pussy, Y/N thought, canât even take the tip?!-
âo-okay.â She grasped onto his shoulder for an anchor in the pain. I can get through this.
Alastor still gave her a moment before shoving the full tip in, making her wince in pain, squeezing his shoulder.
Alastor hushed her again, ârelax for me, darlingâŠâ he lowered his mouth to her left nipple, softly suckling on the nub, and effort to ease the pain. As Y/N released more moans, bringing one of her hands up to rub the lonely breast.
After a moment to let her settle around him, he pulled away from her nipple with a pop, bringing her hand back up to his shoulder.
âJust relax for meâŠâ Alastor suggested before closely pushing some more length into her. âYou,â he groaned, âYouâre doing so good for meâŠâ
How is she so tight?
Tears began to form in Y/Nâs waterline. Alastor looked up at the sight and pondered what he could do. After a few moments, he stopped until he was just halfway into her, he leaned down once more to place his lips on her tears, her forehead, and then her lips, whispering affirmations in the middle of each kiss.
âŠwas this too slow?
Y/N couldnât believe her thoughts.
She pulled away from his lips to speak, âA-AlâŠput it inâŠiâm readyâŠâ she requested with desperation in her tone, âi need all of youâŠâ
Alastor looked up at him to spot a lie in the process, âAre you sure, my love-â
âAlastor, fuck me.â
That made Alastor moan, which then turned into a growl as Alastor subconsciously grew into a slightly bigger form of himself, snapping his hips with force into her.
Y/N cried out, but silenced Alastor before he could say anything, âS-Start moving, Al, pleaseâŠâ She took one of her hands off a shoulder to rub her nub, moaning softly as the newly added pleasure mixed with him slowly bottom out before snapping back into her.
He repeated this motion for a moment before slowly picking up her pace, making her moans short between thrusts.
âA-Alastor, nghâŠâ She called for him, grasping onto his shoulder once again. She tried to pull him down for a kiss.
âUse your words, mâŠmon cher.â he breathed and he kept his euphoric pace.
âK-Kiss meâŠâ Y/N pleaded through her moans.
Alastor quickly leaned down to peck her lips before breaking the quick kiss,
âIâm gonna fill youâŠâ He quickened his pace, his form becoming more menacing as his antlers grew, âwith my seed.â He finished his sentence by smashing his lips onto hers.
As Y/Nâs legs began to slip, he quickly used his tendrils to press them to her chest,
Positioning her into a breeding press.
âAhâŠA-AlastorâŠIâm gonna-ah!â Alastor changed his pace to a brutal, electrifying one.
Y/N didnât even care if he were to be gentle, she just wanted that sweet relief of relea-
âYou donât cum until i say so, darling.â a green shackle on Y/Nâs left ankle appeared as a warning. âUnderstood? Those are our rules of the bedroom.â
He wasnât wrong there. Those were the rules. He never wanted to feel under-powered in the bedroom at all, so that included orgasm denial.
And Y/N was completely fine with it.
But how quick and hard heâs hitting that far spot in her walls?
Just made her feel like there was no control.
âAlastor, pleaseâŠâ Y/N let tears she didnât know weâre building up fell.
Alastor hushed her comfortingly, âSweetheart-fuck-sweetheart, y-youâre almost thereâŠâ Alastor could feel himself knot inside of her,
âŠHe wasnât even sure that he was knotting until Y/Nâs moans turned into groans.
He swiped some tears off her cheeks, âMon cĆr, youâre r-ready to cum?â he shot one of his tendrils down to her pussy, rubbing it at a rapid pace. Alastor leaned down to whisper into her ear, the static in his voice now on mute, âcum for me, then.â
Thatâs when the coil snapped.
The same time when Alastor spilt him seed deep into her womb.
.ă»ă.ă»ăâă».ă»â«ă»ăă»ă.
23:04 PM
Y/N was exhausted.
âDarling, i need you to sit up for a moment.â Alastor demanded.
Y/N groaned like a toddler.
ââŠfine.â Alastor put down the glass of water onto the nightstand, taking one knee and placing it sorely onto the bed to get closer to her, his shadow helping to lift her butt up as he wiped extra semen off of her.
after a moment of him disappearing into the bathroom, he came back looking neat and ready for bed.
âŠwith a genuine smile on his face as his eyes met your tired ones.
Alastor went to the other side on the bed, sighing as he felt the soft surface under him.
He scooted closer to Y/N to get her under the blankets, dramatic, he thought as Y/N made a whine of protest again from the movement.
Once everything felt to his liking, he laid down next to her. and pulled her close, nuzzling his cheek into her hair.
ââŠHeyâŠAl?â
âmhm?â
ââŠI love youâŠâ
He softened his smile, chuckling light-heartedly,
ââŠI love you two, as well.â
.ă»ă.ă»ăâă».ă»â«ă»ăă»ă.
BONUS ââȘ
.ă»ă.ă»ăâă».ă»â«ă»ăă»ă.
âHey, sweet cheeks,â Angel called from the other side of the lobby, walking over to Y/N, âStill up for that event thingy at the new bar? Heard that the sharks are blackl-â
Angel stared at the sight before him.
Y/N, laying on the couch with her legs slightly spread and a heating pad on the thighs.
ââŠDonât-â
âIs it just me, or do i see youâŠa supposed to be virgin friend of mineâŠsore from aâŠâ He examines the current position for a moment, walking around the couch to stand in front of her, ââŠbreeding press position.â
Y/N stares at him like heâs her next target on a murder spree.
And which, he probably was.
âWhat? Iâm and expert with this kind of stuff,â He pulls out his phone and sits next to you, âforget that I work for Valentino? Damn, how good was that sex?â
âAngel, if you want to keep the ability of having sex, be quiet.â
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OMG PLEASE HEAR ME OUTđđ I've never seen this anywhere im dying.
imagine asking bakugou (you're best friends) about his dick size out of curiosity.....
what would he do and how would he react?? would he tell you?
note: hii sorry this took so long, thank u for this ask đ«¶đ»đ«¶đ» this isnât proofread and idk how to feel abt it. anyway cw mildly suggestive
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anon i love this⊠this is so college katsuki to meâŠ
okay realistically? heâs giving you the meanest side eye and throwing out some comment about you being a perv, weirdo, loser, etc etc. but if youâre close enough to him to the point where heâs comfortable talking about your sex lives (and maybe heâs a little into you) heâs gonna be suchhhhh a little shit about it đ
youâd be hanging out in your apartment, tv long forgotten as you laid across the couch with your legs thrown over his lap. heâs got one hand resting just above your knee, the other propping his head up as he listened to you complain about your latest one night stand. âitâs just- not to be mean, but his dick was so small. i could hardly feel anything,â you groaned, running your hands over your face in frustration. âi havenât had good sex in- ever, it feels like.â katsuki raised an eyebrow at you, the look on his face mostly indifferent. âstop wastinâ your time with small dicks, then.â he deadpanned, turning his attention back to the tv. you shot him a glare, kicking him lightly.
âitâs not like i knew it was small beforehand, dumbass. as if you have any room to talk,â you scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest. he laughed, shaking his head without looking over at you. you furrowed your brows, staring at him for a moment. of course you had always wondered what itâd be like to have sex with him, i mean, youâre together all the time, and he looks like that. itâd be weird to have a best friend this hot and not think about how heâd fuck you, right?
âyâknow youâre staring, right?â he hummed, squeezing where his hand rested on your thigh. you huffed, your entire body going warm as you looked towards the tv instead. you moved to pull your feet from his lap, suddenly hyper aware of the contact, only to be held in place by his hand. âi got plenty of room to talk. canât believe youâd think so little of me,â he said with a low laugh, unbothered as ever. you, on the other hand, felt your face flush even deeper. âgross, katsuki. hate to break it to you, but three inches isnât big at all. he rolled his eyes, massaging your thigh gently. âwhat, you canât take more than that, princess?â you kicked him again, feeling slightly victorious as he winces slightly, glaring at you with dark eyes.
âwell- how big is it anyway?â you asked in a moment of confidence, your curiosity getting the better of you. âyou always act like youâre overcompensating for something.â you added quickly, trying to make your question more lighthearted. his gaze flickered over your body in a millisecond, meeting your eyes and responding without missing a beat. âwhat, you trying to find out?â
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Iâm new, I just read your fic about neglect reader. I havenât read through your blog yet but I am so excited after reading this fic. I am an emotional wreck right now and my curiosity is eating me alive with this question âDoes reader know about Jason? Will they ever met? Ever have a platonic relationship together? Will Jason be more of a brother to reader?â
Iâm sorry I speed through the fic and tears are in my eyes I couldnât think straight BUT I notice that Jason is hardly there so Iâm curious. Please this is such a brain rot, itâs way past midnight after I read this cause I keep stopping to cry.
major (?) spoilers below.
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hello anon !! im so happy ppl are getting more exposed to the content i have written so far. anyways, i can't believe i also got others to cry bec i did too when i was writing đ
anyways, to answer ur question: yes! the reader will meet jason and he would actually be the first sibling you would meet after you have left the manor. the way he would turn yandere for you is a different approach to how the others would be because in the prequel, it has been stated that you had your fair share of encounters with him.
"will they ever have a platonic relationship with him/see him as a brother?" maybe, maybe not. because your meeting with him would all be a blur to you, and jason's obsession would stem from the trauma he had experienced, causing him to be more protective of you.
you're not in your best mindset and you're vulnerable walking through the streets of gotham and all alone? oh god, only a dumbass would do thatâ but once the red hood recognizes your face and the way you carry yourself so pitiably, he immediately tries to take you in his arms just as he should.
but the moment you push him away? tell him to fuck off despite your drunken state? the moment you cry and tell him you could deal with everything yourself without his help or anybody else's? you just remind him of himself and that triggers his first spiral into yandere-ism.
it's the way you share trauma, the way you both feel immense anger. he should've noticed sooner because you two would've been as close as peas in a pod. and yet he failed you by being a hypocrite. you were literally taken into the manor right after his death and discarded like you were mere trash. he should've taken you away when he had the opportunity to but he was too caught up in his feat of revenge.
yet the worst part was that he had taken notice of tim before he did you, and jason had momentarily hated you too because he thought bruce had replaced him. if he had looked through that veil of contempt that he had for you, and saw just how neglected and in need of attention you are, then he would've taken you under his wing.
but he didn't, and he had done the same thing to you as most did.
so take it as you will when i say you're more or less going to be closer (albeit unwillingly) to jason than anybody else because unlike his other siblings who are bound by their vigilante duties, your big brother jason wouldn't mind shooting any creeps who think they could touch his precious angel.
and he gets it, too, angelâ you hate him, you hate them all and that's valid. but you can't just walk out in the streets alone and expect to be home in one piece; so leave it to him to scout your apartment alright? leave it to your big brother jason to intimidate the goons who try to stalk you when you're not looking. even if you don't want him near you, you'll always find warm food by your table and a note reminding you to take care of yourself more often.
it hurts when you rip the paper to shreds but it breaks his heart even more if you refuse to touch the meal he would leave for you, because that probably means you saw him as danger more than anything else. and he doesn't know it, but you're already planning to make a run for it now that you're under red hood's radar.
it's obvious that you have no experience when it comes to living by yourself, so please don't fucking push him away and let him protect you from any harm. your self destructive habits only causes him to become more protective of you and it only lets him stalk you more often to ensure nobody would touch his precious angel.
just like dick, you'll be treated more like a child than that of a young adult, but at least jason has the concept of personal space compared to your eldest brother. but still, jason wishes to hold you in his arms.
heaven forbid if the joker ever got his crummy fingers on you. jason would go berserk.
little does he know, little does your family know just how much they had lost the opportunity to keep you in wraps inside the manor.
they should've never let you out in the first place.
#đš... yael's talking#đ§... yael's misc.#series: again & again#yandere dc#yandere batfam#yandere jason todd#yandere#yandere x reader#yandere x gn reader#yandere x you#yandere x y/n#platonic yandere#forgive me my reply is such a mess đ#ive been drowsy for the past for days it's hard to get to my bearings#like any thoughts that come into my mind comes poof#anyways if ur dick's baby bird then ur jason's precious angel because you are so vulnerable in his eyes#like bby why r u walking alone. u forgot to ask him to walk with you again didn't u?? don't worry he'll make sure the streets wouldn't smell#of blood next time
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I swear this song played when leon saw you at the café
He had just graduated from the police academy, assigned to a precinct in a city that felt more like a labyrinth of shadows than a thriving metropolis that raccoon city was known for.
Surrounded by flickering neon lights, echoing footsteps, blinding lights of the city shining in his blue eyes.
His coat drenched, blondette hair wet and slicked back from the attack of rain.
Eyes locking to a lively cafĂš
A quaint little café nested between two towering buildings that seemed to loom down on it, watching the world with grim attention.
Miloâs Brew, huh cute name..
He smirked, blue eyes turning more vibrant, though only a moment
He sought refuge from the chaos of the city, his boots tapping behind him, stepping into a cozy store.
Eyes a haze, from the loneliness of the night, in a busy city.
The rain tapped softly against the café windows, the smell of coffee beans invading his senses.
Where the scent of fresh pastries were thick in the cold contrast of the city.
The homily sounds of music playing in the back, the warmth clinging to his wet form.
Treading into the café, head down, his locks sticking to his forehead.
Joining the short line of the sweet store.
Looking up lightly to the neon menu, the line slowly dwindling.
His head aching, eyes stinging, god he missed being in the academy..
Heâs finally a cop but that void.. itâs still not filled..
His face soured, foot tapping, waiting for his turn to order a late night coffee..
The music like a hum to his sense, eyes growing slightly heavy, legs buckling every so often.
Head nodding back and forth.
Thoughts wandering on his obvious pay check and chores heâll have to do when he gets home.
Groaning at the thought.
Until the back of the customer in front moved out of his dazed sight, his eyes laying on yours.
God were you glowing or was it just him.
You were stunning- No, Gorgeous.
And youâre not even in a normal outfit?!
Eyes wide open, mouth slightly parted as if he stopped breathing.
While stood behind the counter, your hands deftly maneuvering the espresso machine.
Eyes sparkling with warmth despite the gray skies outside.
He practically jumped for joy when you turned to him, placing the newly brewed coffee on the counter.
The customer smiling while you did the same..
âLucky bastard..â
He said coldly looking at the man smile at him, feeling jealousy boil over, his eyes staring daggers into the customer.
Soon you broke conversation walking to the counter eyes beaming.
God your eyes..
So delicate.
So lively
So pretty.
If he could he would arrest you right here, have you at the station you and him only :D.
Like a cute permanent sleepover.
âWhat can I get started for you today?â
You chirped, voice a honeyed melody that disrupted Leonâs thoughts.
Eyes a lot more lively than usual, Leon speaking softly.
âjust a black coffee, please- oh no sugar.â
âY-Your the only sugar I needâ
Leon stuttered great dumbass, just embarrassed yourself..
âUhhhh huh!, Coming right up!â
You buzzed, stepping from the counter, expertly grinding beans and steaming milk.
Not even a smile.. wow.. no blush, he really needs to work on his pick up lines.
He sighed ears red at the tips leaving the line.
Great.. youâre fucking pathetic..
He thought sliding into one of the side booths of the café.
Hands in hair, eyes growing dull loosing their shine..
Sheâll never love you, no one does..
He thought, while you prepared his drink.
The sweet atmosphere long forgotten by Leon.
Time slipped away as his mind absorbed every detail.
Your hair, the way your eyes sparkled as you interacted with those.. ungrateful customers, the carefree way you danced to the music.
âHere you go, one black coffee!â
You yelled out, placing the cup on the counter with a radiant smile.
Leon got up, head down fingers quickly brushing yours for a moment.
Leon feeling a current of electricity rush through him.
He was mesmerized.
âThanks,â
he muttered, barely able to muster the courage to look at her.
He will be yours.
You waved him by, as he lightly smiled leaving the warm embrace of the store.
Getting bombarded by the cool breeze, the coffee warm in his hand.
Leon stood outside the shop for a moment, heart racing, clutching the coffee like it was a talisman.
He couldnât shake the feeling that he needed to know more about her.
As twilight descended, he found himself lingering, watching through the glass as she finished her shift.
Hand only the glass, making sure to avoid your gaze every so often.
You laughed with her coworkers, her laughter resonating like music, drawing him in deeper.
God you were so pretty.
The way you clothes hugged your frame.
Or the way your breasts foddled forward when you leaned down.
Or the way he wanted you plump lips around his cock.
God he shivered, blood rushing to his face, cock throbbing.
Get yourself together
He thought turning away from you leaning his back onto the cold glass.
Finally you stepped out, Leonâs heart hammered in his chest, quickly he turned his head, your eyes making contact with the RPD embroidered on the back.
You smile kindly unaware, only hastily treading away from the cafe your heels tapping against the concrete.
Your hair swaying past your face, beanie snug on your head.
Your only aim to get to your apartment at a reasonable time. ïżŒ
His icy eyes locking onto the small of your back.
god so cute..
He blushed feverishly, his body involuntarily stepping towards your direction.
âMâGotta follow youâ
He said under his breath, his breath freezing into a fog.
The world around him faded as he became consumed by the desire, legs moving on their own.
Stalking you like pray.
Each night, a memorised routine.
Every time you left for your shift or returned to your cramped apartment.
He was there just a few paces behind, watching, learning more about stunning you who had captivated him so completely.
Heâs been getting more brave, placing small letters with sweets, or a occasional 200 dollars
Discreetly placed in the shadows, for your eyes only.
The notes reading letters of total devolution.
Some saying âhope you like it dear!!â
More hearts than words on the letter.. but you have be been picking up on the more frequent gifts.
You had noticed the strange items but shrugged them off as a long overdue prank.
You weâre a busy women, the last thing you needed was to focus on an a anonymous admirer.
But today it was different.
After work, the bing of the elevator ringing in your ears, the old metal door screeching lightly.
Eyes in a daze seeking solace from todayâs work at the cafĂ©.
Heels tapping on the tiles, till your eyes meet yet again another gift.. this one was different.
A box?
You cocked an eye brow leaning down, picking up the box a letter as always strapped on it.
Different..
A quiet hum leaving you, unlocking your apartment.
Quiet taps entering the tiles of your home.
Dropping your bag, throwing the box onto the kitchen counter.
Undoing the expensive boxâŠ
Wait..
Is that..
Your eyes widen at what lied in the box.
It was a beautiful, 9 carat gold ring, with a single centre white diamond, it didnât look like a lab one either..
You gasped dropping the small box back down to the counter, hands cupping your agape mouth.
This was to far.. a ring like this.. it had to cost a fortune..
You felt guilty, quickly closing the box.
For the whole night, you kept away from the ring.
Leaving it abandoned at your counter, rarely even touching the majestic ring.
The words âLetâs get married!!â Under the soft material holding the ring..
It finally clicked in your mind.. this wasnât a joke..
It never was.. and youâve been encouraging this behaviour.
You sighed leaning next to the ring, yawning.
What am I going to do with you..
You thought sighing, you know what the fuck it is.
Your going to bed
Slowly making way to your cozy room, changing mid walk, letting the dirty clothes litter the house.
Heels knocked off.
Youâre too tired for this.
While you went into deep thought.
first, it was small.
A bouquet of daisies on your doorstep, a book of poetry you once mentioned to a friend.
And sweet notes with words that dripped with admiration.
To full blown marriage..
You groaned finally plummeting to your bed, eyes droopy.
Finally dozing off to a restless sleep, dreams haunted by shadows and whispers.
Maybe it was just a prank.
You reassure finally shuffling into a good position.
Heart rate dropping, eyes and body relaxing.
âNight stalkerâ
You lolled out..
Head plumenting into the pillow.
wait.. did you hear a chuckle.
You stirred awake, body still heavy from the lack of sleep.
But something felt different this night like morning.
You couldnât move your legs nor your wrists..
What the?!
Eyes fluttered open quickly, taking in the dark scenery, nothing..
Wait.
You felt an aching pain between your thighs, like something was in the way??
Finally you heard it..
More like him.
You were greeted by a sight that made her heart race.
Whoâs this?!
Eyes lidded still, feeling his cock twitch deep inside your tight walls..
Light whimpers were heard from Leon, hips frantically thrusting deep into you.
Tongue lolled out..
Your own accompanying his.
You tried moving feeling you still canât move..
H-Handcuffs?
You thought tugging on them, Legs flailing, legs trying to come into your body.
A rough hand grabbing onto your thigh pushing your pussy wide open again.
His cock slamming in and out aggressively.
âAh, ah, ahâ
Leon whined thrusting more aggressively earning a whine.
Gently caressing the area he grabbed.
âDonât be a bad girl~â
His diamond blue eyes intense with desire.
His hands were gently caressing your tied form.
As if you were the most precious treasure he had ever laid his eyes on.
His cock still thrusting deep inside your heat.
Earning a moan.
His cock even bulging out of you of you a little.
"Good morning well l-late, my princess.â
He cooed, leaning his head down to your belly button kissing you tenderly.
Leaving you very shocked yet very needy..
Blue eyes shimerinh into yours.
You heved and gasped, pussy clenching around him.
Only moaning back gently grinding your Clit on his base, quickly fucking your hole more aggressively.
If thatâs what his baby wants then youâll get it.
Arching your back slightly, offering your body to him.
Breasts, full and heavy, rose with your nimble movement, the nipples hardening in the cool nighttime air.
âMâlove being all the way inside of you, babyâ
He smiled still thrusting deep into your tight cunt, spilling his pre deep into your greedy thing.
You moaned, hands tangling in anything you could grab, head leaning back into the head board.
"You taste so sweet,"
He murmured against you, his breath hot on your sensitive flesh.
A slight nodding coming from you begging, Leon to ravage your cute cunt.
Like a dog on heat his thrusts growing faster till he stopped, still kissing at your skin.
His eyes lidded, blush nearly blood red.
âMâneed to worship you pretty thing, gonna be carrying my babiesâ
He smile so smitten with you, you eyes going hazed.
As he changed plans, fucking you with slow, deliberate strokes.
Your moans filled the room, each thrust of his cock sending waves of pleasure through your aching body.
Leon showed no signs of stopping.
Feverishly kissing up and down his lips could reach.
He continued to worship your glistening pussy, his cock thrusting in and out, a few needy thrusts slipping out of him.
His fingers joined in, sliding inside you, filling you up as he kissed at your skin, thumb on your clit.
You cocked out a moan, with light pleas to how good he felt.
You cunt lubing up his cock, and fingers.
âNâgonna go feral..â
He said lightly, his blue eyes piercing yours searching for an answer.
You nodded lightly blush and drool covering your face.
Leon didnât need anything else, reefing his fingers out of your greedy thing.
Speeding up like before, while he whined and whimpered.
âSaw ya not wearing your ringâ
He said sadly, making you feel.. guilty?
I-Itâs okay youâll get used to it
He thought thrusting deeper, making your back arch.
âMâwherin mineâ
He cooed Blue eyes looking at yours.
You looked, eyes squinted searching, finally seeing his larger fingers around your thigh, the ring was there.. huh..
Wait..
Heâs the stalker..
Shit
B-but I locked- wait..
You sighed remembering you didnât lock the door.
Ending up with you being dicked down by this lovesick psycho.
You could practically see his tail wagging while he plunged his cock into your heat.
âYou like It donât you??â
He asked happily going in auto pilot, fucking your fast and raw.
God you loved this, you pussy twitching around his aching length..
You nodded not giving a shit, while leon was left in la la land, fucking your pussy dry.
Cock hitting your g spot.
Pussy wrapping around him so good.
Cunt fluttering every so often.
Tip touching your cervix.
You felt your walls tighten around Leon,
âG-Gonna- ahh~ cum p-pretty thingâ
He moaned thrusts stuttering every so often.
Till you felt it..
The feeling of his ropes cover your womb, filling your tight cunt, his constant caressing and affirmations.
While your cunt drinked him up for all his cock had to offer, his cock sliding out of your delicate cum filled folds still erect.
His smile growing, watching it ooz out just like his pre did when he saw you splayed out on your soft bed.
Fingers coming down to the escaping cum scooping it back into your greedy thing.
âWhere you belongâ
He cooed shoving to fingers into your pussy.
You whines coming from you.
Eyes lidded, lips plump, looks like this pussy needs a another round.
Soon enough Leon fixed himself back into his cop uniform.. wait him..
Great..
You huffed Leon only smiling, leaving the room bare.
Is he in my kitchen??
You thought your chest heaving still trying to listen for leon.
Then he shouted.ïżŒ
âNow letâs get that ring onâ
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I think one of the main reasons why the Worst!Logan loves you so much, without putting too much thought into the question, is simply because you ease the burden of being alive. You donât âgive him a reason to live.â He found that on his own when Wade showed up and snatched his old, drunken ass out of his world and planted him here. But you ease the burden. You ease the pain of being alive on days when everything seems soâŠdistressing. But when you plant something, it often grows roots. And thatâs exactly what Logan wanted to do with you.Â
âHope, at its very core, can be the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torment of man,â That one. That was the âHook, Line and Sinkerâ moment where Logan knew you had him wrapped around your finger like some perverted puppy. âYou arenât just any man, Logan,â He could vividly picture you sitting on his lap while his back pressed heavily into your headboard. âYouâre Wadeâs boyfriend.âÂ
âOh arenât you just hilarious,â Logan could remember replying to you as you leaned in to place a gentle kiss against his lips. He loved those moments. The quiet ones. Where nothing else in the world mattered except for the time he got to spend in your undivided attention. âKeep that attitude up, I dare you.âÂ
âYou donât have to threaten me with a good time.â It was the dynamic the two of you had. The banter-filled friendship that crossed the line into friends with immaculate benefits. And under the glow of your bedside lamps, the ones that sent an orange hume across the floor-length curtains and cottage cream walls, Logan knew that the small amount of time you had been in his lifeâŠhad been the time most lived.Â
âYou surround yourself day in and day out with a degenerate crew of antagonists, Logan, of fucking course youâre gonna pick up a few traits after a while!â It wasnât uncommon to see Logan perched up at the bar while you made coffees for the steady trickle of customers who stopped by for their caffeine fix. After all, it was your cafe. âIt doesnât sound like my issue that you called Althea, Blind Al.âÂ
âItâs not her fucking name, is it?â Loganâs heated. He kinda hates himself a little for it. Mainly because he recognised straight away who he sounded like. Wade fucking Wilson. Secondly, he had enough respect for the old, aging and decaying to know nicknames like that could put senior citizens into early graves. Well, earlier. âYou know what, thatâs it, Iâm not fucking hanging around that guy anymore.âÂ
Deep down, Logan knew he didnât mean it. Wade was a genuinely good person. He saw a lot of parallels of himself in the guy. And if it werenât for Wade⊠Logan wouldnât be sitting here right now. Bickering back and forth with the love of his overextended life. You just made him feel like a guy. Just some dumb guy. Simple. Whenever Logan was with you, he wasnât The Wolverine. He was just James Howlett.Â
âOkay one,â You stopped steaming the milk you had in just been working with so you could reply. You turned with a shit-talking snarl ready to go. âYou sound like someone whoâs beefing with their childhood bestie,â The frown on Loganâs face warned you not to continue, but you werenât in the mood to pity someone over four times your age. âTwo, you fucking live with the guy man?â You pointed out the incredibly obvious logistics of Loganâs dilemma. âWhat? you gonna sleep on the street?â It was a genuine question you had. âPlease, youâre made of metal dumbass, youâll catch some sort of genetically fucked mutation of pneumonia and die at the young age of two hundred and twenty-something.âÂ
âYou know exactly who you sound like right now?â Logan countered as he sipped his coffee. The same coffee order you made him every damn day. Black, no cream, sugar or milk. No flavoured syrup or sweeteners in sight. Just black.Â
âIf you point out the fact I sound like my longest-standing friend, Iâll take great pleasure in knowing you canât die alone, because you canât seem to die at all!!âÂ
âGo fuck yourself!â Logan needed this. He needed you to match his energy. You saw him coming from a mile away when heâd come barrelling into the cafe with a glare of despair and in need of some reprieve.Â
âFuck me yourself, asshole.â It wasnât exactly what Logan had been expecting you to say, but he did take you up on that offerâŠThe second he knew you were off work and at home later that same evening.Â
âLoganââ Your needy little whines were a symphony of desire and love. âLoganâyes, baby you feel so good.â The way Logan made you feel, the way he touched you in all the right ways, made you feel drunk on his ecstasy.Â
âOhhhh just like that huh?â Logan wouldnât dare change a single thing about what he was doing right now. He had you right where he wanted you. He loved you in his position. The one where he had your arms pinned behind your beck. The one where your chest presses right against his. The one where all he has to do is buck his hips up into yours while his heels dig into your mattress. Itâs the one where he can whisper the most degrading things into your ear and knows youâre drooling for it. He knows that much because he can feel it dripping down his other shoulder while you mumble incoherent love songs.Â
âI could smell you, you know,â Logan growls particularly low as he keeps his pace going. âWhen you were giving me that fucking attitude in the cafe today,â You know heâs talking, but the way his perfectly enhanced cock is kissing the tip of your cervix with every thrust it keeping your mind from focusing on anything else but chasing that all important high of yours. âGot nothing to say now, have you?âÂ
âIââ You tried to tell Logan what you want, you know he already knows when the words wonât come out and you canât keep your eyes from rolling. âWannaââÂ
âOh please,â Logan nearly begs while he keeps thrusting up into you. He can feel the mixture of his previous load and your arousal mixing at the base of his shaft. âGive me something pretty to look at gorgeous.âÂ
Logan thought you were the most gorgeous woman to ever grace his life. Inside and out you were truly one of the most kind-hearted, lovely, compassionate people heâd ever known. But right now, in this very moment, all Logan wanted to do was see your gorgeous face when you came around his slicked-up shaft. All he wanted to feel was you clenched him like a vice grip made just for him.Â
âFuckkâLogan!â At your cries, Logan was quick to grab your face with one of his hands. He wanted to look you in the eyes. Wanted to feel every part of your soul connect with his when you came for him.Â
âIâm right here,â He cooed, still bucking into you with force and pace. âIâve got you, come on me, baby.âÂ
âOhhhhhââ The way you dragged your nails down his sides made Logan hiss with pure sexual gratification. Your velvet walls paused around his shaft as he kept up the pace, fucking deeper into you. As deep as he could get just to feel you. âYessssââÂ
âIâm the luckiest guy alive,â Logan rolled his eyes with pure unadulterated lust as you came down from your high. He lets go of your face only to crash his lips against yours in a feverish kiss. âFucking perfect for me.â He gives you a minute to recover. Logan slowly rocks his hips so that heâs never completely still, always admiring your beauty while yours naked on top of him the way you are.Â
âOkay big guy,â You sigh, sitting up to straddle Logan. âYour turn.âÂ
âGready thing, one not enough for you?â Logan could still feel how full you were from his last load. He couldnât contain himself, you just had that effect on him.Â
âWell, since youâre either sleeping here or on the street tonight, I figured you didnât have any plans,â You teased as you rocked your hips the way you knew drove Logan wild. His fingers dug into your hips and for a second he released some pressure. Worried that he might leave a few bruises. Or worseâŠBut when you placed your hands on top of his? Logan knew you were alright. âGonna finish what you started? Or do you need a second to catch your breath?âÂ
âOh Iâm gonna ruin youââ Logan smiled as he jumped into action. Capturing your lips with his as he flipped the two of you around. Suddenly you found yourself on your back, pressed into the mattress. âYou know how I feel about you, right?â It was a gentle moment laced between the lust and the desire. But when Logan caught your eye, so beautiful and kind, he wanted to make sure that you knew this wasnât just sex to him.Â
This wasâŠYou were⊠Everything he ever wanted.Â
âI know,â You nodded, making sure to pull him closer. As close as you could get in missionary. âIâve got you,â Was all you said back before your lips were taken hostage yet again. âIââ You were about to say it but stopped yourself. The L would be just something that wasnât said that much.Â
You knew it was because Logan was afraid to. He was scared if he said he loved you then heâd wake up from this dream. Back in the pub, he wasnât welcome in. Back in his reality, where the version of you didnât know him as the best worst version of himself.Â
âYou mean everything to me.â You settled with as Logan buried himself inside you. Not knowing that in nine months from now, your greatest love of all would carry your love for Logan in her name:Â
Ilya: I.Love. You. Always
Ilya
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On A High [Sevika Drabble]
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Masterlist | Divider Creds | Palestine Links!!
CW: 18+, wlw, not proofread, dom!Sevika x fem!reader, oral (S!recieving), drug usage (Shimmer), squirting
A/N: "You've written a drabble and a fic about Sevika fucking readers face and squirting all over it already!" Hey, maybe it's time to consider I'm projecting my desires onto you! Hope this helps! <3
Sevika, high on a more experimental dose of Shimmer, pushing you down to the floor of her office because she can't force herself to wait any longer. Her flesh hand is wrapped in a tight fist around your hair as she shoves your face into her pussy without much regard for your airway. Ever since she injected it, she's been heated, and taking down the dumbasses that had tried to smuggle a supply of the glowing purple liquid drug out of the factory to sell for themselves wasn't enough to calm her down.
She was just meant to be testing it out. It was a much smaller dose than she normally takes - barely half a vial, and yet she can still practically feel her own blood coursing at rapid speed through her veins. Each muscle in her body feels tense, the tips of her fingers are buzzing and it's all she can do to not start clawing at your scalp just to push your face harder against her dripping cunt, guttural grunts and moans escaping her throat through bared teeth
"C'mon baby, there you go....fuckin' take it, jus' like that" "Look so good strugglin' to breathe - fuck"
You try your absolute best to keep up with her, but her thrusts lack a true rhythm, her hips bucking back and forth against your tongue, which you eventually just leave flat and tense on the surface of your bottom lip. Deep down she knows she's probably hurting you a little, and she can hear how much of a struggle you're having in your attempts to take a full breath but she can't stop herself if she tried, and she knows how much you like being used.
"My little fuckin' toy, aren't you?" She taunts from above, her brows knit together in almost anger the longer it takes her to just fucking cum already. Though it hasn't been much longer than it normally takes, it feels like it's been an eternity to the point where she's on the brink of tears. The irritation only makes her go harder, sliding her cunt against you, forcing your nose to bump up so nicely against her puffy, impatient clit over and over again.
"C'mon c'mon c'mon, fuck, please"
Of course, the first time you hear the woman break down and beg for something is when she isn't even begging you. Instead, she's just begging her own body to let her get there. There's no sense of broken pride within her, no feeling of lost dignity, just the insatiable need to let go.
And when she does, it's fucking explosive.
Her thighs shake, then tense up hard on either side of your head, abs flexing, toes curling against the floor. She can barely keep herself upright, her wobbling forcing you to bring your hands up to her ass to help her stay in place. Sevika isn't normally a loud one but at the moment she can't help it, damn near whimpering in pure ecstasy as her juices squirt out all over your face in light bursts.
Sevika looks down at you, breathing still ragged and heavy and she just laughs watching the makeup run down your wet face. Her grip loosens around your hair and her irises transition back to their normal silver tint as she calms down, breathing out a sigh of utter relief as she feels her once tense and overwhelmed muscles relax.
Her body officially gives out, flopping down on her desk chair, taking a moment to gather herself before lazily patting her still twitching thigh.
"C'mere, let's get you cleaned up, hm?"
Wanted to put out more Arcane stuff since I feel like I've been more focused on my TLOU girlies lately
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smells like teen spirit (M)
PAIRING: Jeno (NCT) + reader (female)
SUMMARY: Jeno keeps getting on your last nerve, but you still end up in his arms with your tongue down his throat.
WARNINGS: strong language; some drug use; explicit sexual content
NOTES:Â 8.6k words; this is part two of a rose and her thorns, but can be read as a standalone one-shot
Chicago, 1991
A tale as old as time. Sex, drugs, and rock and roll.
That was our life that summer. Some of us in different doses than the others.
You sat on the bed with your legs bent, resting the notebook against your thighs as you scribbled out another page of the bandâs escapades.
Though there was a connection with Mark, we agreed to keep things simple for the rest of the summer. Nothing could be allowed to interfere with the band. God forbid we earned a reputation like Fleetwood Macâs.
Unfortunately, this agreement caused some awkwardness and I handled that the way I always did - with distance. If Mark couldnât help but complicate things, then I would do him a favor and give both of us the space we needed.
It felt like shit, but I was used to being the villain.
Turning the page, you kept writing in the eerie quiet of the van. Haechan was bouncing his leg up-and-down at a mile a minute, thoroughly annoyed by Jenoâs delay. Mark was dozing in his seat, trying not to fantasize about you and the fucking heaven between your thighs, but he couldnât help but watch you jotting down your feelings, your grievances, your hopes and your dreams.
He prayed that he was part of the latter.
The silence broke when the van door opened loudly, followed by a disheveled Jeno stumbling inside. âGoddamn, I am getting so much pussy on this trip,â he huffed, running a hand through his overgrown and severely damaged blond hair.
âJeno, I swear to god,â you barked, scratching out the compliment you had given him at the top of the page. âIf you give me an STD this summer, I will set your drums on fire.â
âYou would destroy my child?â
âAbso-fucking-lutely.â
Jeno grumbled something under his breath about how you always rained on his parade of pussy and shut the doors. âLetâs get on the road,â he said irritably, shooing Haechan out of the driverâs seat and jerking the van in gear.
âWeâve been waiting for you, dumbass,â Haechan sniped. Heâd been getting so annoyed and impatient he threatened to leave the bastard drummer behind and never look back. That bitch can walk, heâd declared moments before.
Mark stayed quiet in the passenger seat, sluggish with sleep. He looked to you again, watching you write in your journal and wondering what you were saying about him.
About all of them.
Jeno drove fast, but not a soul complained. The gig in Chicago was the most highly-anticipated of the trip.
The van hurtled down the highway, not stopping for several hours until you begged for a bathroom. After a quick gas station run, you put some fresh snacks into the cabinet and wrangled your hair into a bun on your head.
Jeno came in with a bag in hand and said, âI bought more condoms.â
âGood for you,â you deadpanned, wrinkling your nose.
âAlthough I heard Mark didnât have to wear one,â Jeno added, tsking his tongue. âOne of the few perks of being innocent and pure, I guess.â
Your voice was razor sharp. âCareful, Jeno.â
Both pleased and annoyed by your tone, Jeno asked roughly, âDid you at least remember to get your birth control?â
You wanted to shoot daggers into his face with your eyes, but refusing to afford him any looks was better. âYeah. I got my Depo shot two days before we left.â
âHow long does it last?â
âThree months.â
Jeno smiled wryly. âWell, isnât that convenient.â
âThatâs the whole point,â you mumbled. He was trying to get a reaction out of you, prodding at your buttons, but you didnât want to give him the satisfaction.
There was a pause. âIâm ready when you are,â Jeno flirted, wiggling his brows at you.
âWho said I even wanna screw you?â
âYou did. Many, many times.â
True, but no longer relevant. All things considered. You returned to your notebook and said, âThat was before you became a penis petri dish of death and disease.â
âOuch.â
My relationship with Jeno could best be described as rivalry. He never gave an inch and neither did I. It was my job to keep him humble.
And damn, what a full-time thankless job that was.
Jeno had been going out of his way to rile you up after your night with Mark. He couldnât stand seeing you sulky. Markâs pouting was beyond remedy, but yours could be managed with well-placed jabs.
He had you down to a science. Lighting a fire under your ass was all Jeno knew how to do. The more he prodded at you, the more flames escaped. And when you were angry, you couldnât be sad.
Because there was nothing Jeno hated more than seeing you cry.
âCan you try to stay on beat this time?â Jeno chided, spinning a drumstick nimbly between his fingers.
Having been testing the microphone, you whipped around and snapped, âFuck you, Jeno.â
An argument swiftly ensued, petty and heated. No surprises there. Mark and Haechan stood with their guitars and watched the back and forth with no end in sight, even as people poured into the club.
âThose two are going to kill each other,â Mark said under his breath.
Haechan scoffed. âOr make a ton of babies.â
Mark almost choked on the lump that shot into his throat.
You stomped over to Haechan, pointed at Jeno and said, âI canât deal with this douche canoe anymore!â
To which Jeno shot back, âJust shut up and sing, ice crotch!â
Your eyes went wide with rage and you spun in Jenoâs direction, ready and willing to claw out his eyes. Haechan grabbed you by the arm and steered you back over to the microphone, officially sapped of all patience.
âIn ten seconds, me and Mark are going to start playing,â he said hurriedly. âAnd both of you are going to look like losers if youâre not ready.â
You huffed a swear or two under your breath and gripped the microphone as Mark and Haechan got into position. Then you heard the tapping of drumsticks behind you followed by the roar of Markâs electric guitar.
By the time the show was over, you were utterly exhausted. Between Haechan and Mark, your arms draped across their shoulders, the three of you sang tiredly along to one of your songs as the boys essentially dragged you down the hall toward the back door for some well-earned sleep.
Turning the corner, you saw Jeno with two beautiful blondes. You bristled with annoyance. They were giggling at every little thing he said like they were getting dick after, which you quickly realized was the case.
Not on my watch.
âLet it go,â Haechan said, but he knew it would make no difference.
Jeno did not deserve pussy after how badly he stressed you out. You wriggled out of Haechan and Markâs arms and made a beeline for the drummer.
âOh my god,â you said in a loud, obnoxious voice, greeting the girls as you cuddled up to Jeno and patted his chest. âYou guys look so cute! But unfortunately, Jeno is only halfway through his chlamydia treatment.â
Wide-eyed, the girls looked at you in horror before sending vengeful expressions at Jeno, who set his jaw and bristled with anger.
You held your hand beside your mouth, pretending to whisper a secret, âVery contagious through bodily fluids.â
The pair of blondes scurried off. One of them gave Jeno the finger.
âI hate and despise you,â Jeno hissed, trudging down the corridor.
You were hot on his heels, ready to resume the argument from earlier. A moniker like Ice Crotch was not going to be forgotten. âHavenât you had enough threesomes?â
âThereâs no such thing as too many threesomes,â Jeno replied, heated. âAnd Iâve only had four.â
Haechan asked curiously, âYou keep track?â
Jeno snorted. âDonât you?â
âOne is easy to remember. I wasnât into it.â
Mark fell in line beside them and said, more so to himself, âI have questions.â
âI donât,â you spoke up, backhanding Jenoâs burly arm to get his attention. âJeno, youâve got pussy brain and you fucked up the tempo.â
Jeno went quiet, which was the last thing you expected.
Everyone was tired and raw. We were a well-oiled machine, steaming ahead like a freight train, but with time, gears start to grind. When gears grind, they tear through flesh and bone.
I know my boys. It sounds cliche, and I agree, but I know them. Weâve been friends for so long and crossed hundreds of lines of intimacy reserved for soulmates. They canât hide anything from me.
Especially the things they intentionally try to hide from me.
You knew you had struck a nerve, but you werenât sure which one. You dug your heels in regardless, but you were miffed when Jeno said nothing and made for the door.
âDid he just storm off?â Mark questioned, equally bemused.
âHe never does that,â Haechan said softly, turning to you.
You didnât hesitate to stomp after him, and Mark and Haechan didnât follow this time. When fire fought with fire, it was best to keep a distance to avoid getting burned.
The cold of Chicagoâs night was bitter on your cheeks when you stepped outside and you pulled your jacket tightly round you. Jeno hadnât jumped into the van yet. He was lingering in the lot, scraping his shoes across the asphalt as he puffed on a cigarette.
Closing the distance, you called, âThe hell is going on with you?â
âNothing,â he replied, avoiding your eyes and blowing out smoke.
âYouâre out of sync and youâre acting weird.â
Jeno narrowed his eyes at you. âWe were all out of sync tonight. Why am I the only one getting called out on it?â
As usual, no matter how angry he made you, your first instinct when things were too tense was to smooth his feathers. His surface was rough, but at his core, Jeno was tender. You brushed your hand down his arm and said sweetly, âBecause youâre the rockâŠâ
"Weâre all built on," was going to be the end of that sentence. Unfortunately, I never got to say it.
Jeno cut you off. âI donât want to be your rock,â he lashed out, hissing your name. âDonât you feel pathetic leaning on me all the time?â
You recoiled like youâd been slapped and that was when you noticed his eyes. They didnât belong to the Jeno you knew, but to the monster that stole his mind and would eventually give him back by morning.
Wrapping your arms around yourself in comfort, suddenly much colder than before, your breath pillared into the night like the smoke from his mouth when you whispered, âI didnât. Until you said that.â
Jeno blinked, realizing too late that heâd hurt you.
That was the thing about me and Jeno. We both thought the other to be fearless and unbreakable, but also knew who we were at each otherâs cores. I was his mirror image and he was mine. The broken kids; the kids that just wanted to be loved. The pair everyone knew to be demons, but never stopped to think how we became them.
The fallen angels.
Anger faded from his face in an instant. âI didnât mean it,â Jeno started, flicking away the cigarette and reaching for you.
You stepped back, not wanting to be touched. âYouâre at your most honest when youâre high, baby,â you said sternly, fixing him with a look that rooted Jeno in place. âDonât lie to me now.â
Jeno swallowed the lump in his throat. How could you always see right through him?
You wiped the tear that spilled down your cheek and escaped into the van, your safe place, your little haven. Jeno ran a hand down his face and cursed, âFuck,â for hitting you where it hurt.
The rest of the night was tense and awkward, only slacking when sleep took hold. Everyone was painfully exhausted. Chicago had exceeded expectations and pushed all limits. The show was insane. The energy was incredible. I would remember that performance for the rest of my life.
Me and the boys may have been a little out of sync, but each of us gave it our all. We left nothing on the floor and held nothing back.
Haechan curled around you in the bed, keeping you warm. You claimed the bed together more often than not. Mark slept like a vampire, on his back on the floor with his arms at his sides. It was the weirdest thing youâd ever seen, but it worked for him somehow. He slept like a baby, the whistle of his snores filling the van.
Jeno sat in the driverâs seat, looking up at the stars, exhaling the smoke from a joint. He was wide awake, couldnât sleep. An unfortunate side-effect of the shit he took to get high. The marijuana wasnât simmering him down as hoped. Heâd probably stay up all night and sleep the day away.
Glancing over his shoulder, seeing your pretty face made him smile. You looked even cuter when you slept, but it was frustrating as hell.
No one else noticed he was high but you. Did you really know him that well?
Of course she does, Jeno thought. You were his better half. Thatâs how it worked. He could never escape you. There was a point of no return when it came to intimacy. Not so long ago, you and Jeno soared past that point. Two reckless teenagers, young and wild, that found all their highs and lows with each other.
Jeno propped his legs up on the dash and closed his eyes, watching the memories like a movie in his head. Mark shredded the electric as if his life was on the line; probably to vent his sexual frustration. Haechan was a whirlwind of energy despite playing that boring ass bass. And you, beautiful you⊠Mark wasnât kidding when he said you were a god on stage.
Chicago delivered on the show, but not the after-party. Instead of drinking and fucking the night away, Jeno was in the stuffy van watching the stars go by when he wasnât stealing glances of you. He wanted to be in your arms, needed you to kiss him and tell him everything would be okay.
You were the fix he craved most of all.
In the time it took him to blink, dawn broke. The sun shone across Jenoâs face. He lifted a hand, shielding his eyes. He grumbled a little and turned in the seat to get comfortable, cursing at the awkward angle his back was in.
Your hand touched his shoulder gently and Jeno lurched in surprise, peering up at you. Heâd never looked so weary and drained, but you could see the animal was gone from his eyes. âYouâve been up all night?â Your voice rang with compassion, and Jeno felt utterly undeserving.
He nodded, his eyes fluttering closed, unable to keep them open any longer.
You tugged at him, getting Jeno to his feet and ushering him to the bed, where he basically collapsed onto the mattress. Mark and Haechan were up, crawling around in search of coffee like a pair of zombies. Meanwhile, you let Jeno situate and draped the blanket over him, tucking him in, and brushed some of his hair back from his face.
Jeno took your hand and laced his fingers through yours. âTell me you love me,â he said in barely a whisper.
âI love you,â you replied without hesitation, bringing his hand to your lips and kissing his knuckles. You stayed propped over him, wanting to be close so you could be sure he finally drifted off. You left a chaste kiss on his brow and coaxed, âGo to sleep, baby.â
Mark turned away. It wasnât jealousy he felt, just longing. Seeing you so gentle with someone you were viciously fighting with the night before made him want you more. No matter what was said and done, there was too much love in this cramped little van.
When Jenoâs breathing leveled out and his hand went slack in yours, you finally relaxed. Youâd be damned if he went days without sleep. There wasnât much you could do, but the boys had their limits and you did your best to make sure they werenât crossed.
Without another word, you clambered into the driverâs seat and turned the key, driving out of the club parking lot and onto the main road. You found a shopping center where Mark and Haechan could run errands while Jeno was out, and you pulled in.
Jeno slept well into the afternoon, stirring when the smell of hot food filled the van. Haechan used some of the gig money to splurge on delicious Chinese takeout.
You pulled out a foldable table from behind the cabinet and stood it up on the floor. The four of you sat around it and ate in silence, stuffing your faces until your bellies were full. You and Haechan gabbed a little, but not much. Mark and Jeno didnât mutter a single word, both of them stuck in their feelings.
A far cry from how they would be that night.
One last show in Chicago. You were back on the same stage as before. It was the first time the band would perform an additional night at a club.
Jeno and Mark were squabbling, which was a rare enough sight to see. The two generally didnât like to fuck with each other. It always resulted in fists flying and both were surprisingly really good at scrapping.
You looked to Haechan and rolled your eyes. Your best friend was smiling, on the verge of a laugh.
âWeâre doing the third set,â Jeno said firmly.
âShe canât,â Mark replied, anger rising. âHer voice is fried from last night. The third set could knock it out for weeks and weâll have no singer.â
Jeno shrugged. âShe can take it.â
You were thoroughly annoyed. âSheâs standing right here,â you spoke up, folding your arms. The audacity they had. It made you bristle, because you knew it had nothing to do with your voice and had everything to do with your body.
âWhat do you want to do?â Mark asked, softening his voice for you.
Jeno cut in, âDonât ask her. You have to push her.â
You shot him a nasty scowl. âStop pushing me.â
âOr what?â He smirked.
You shivered with irritation crossing dangerously toward rage.
âI donât think you can do the third set,â Jeno said, challenging you, his smirk deepening. âProve me wrong.â
âIâm not falling for that reverse psychology bullshit.â
âCoward.â
A smug look washed over your face as you hissed, âDonât you feel pathetic leaning on me?â
The smile fell off Jenoâs lips. âI said I was sorry.â
âDonât bother. I donât care,â you snapped, but you definitely cared. The wound was still fresh and stung.
Haechan tilted his head when you looked at him. He was always your anchor in the rough seas of Mark and the violent winds of Jeno. âIâm with you, whatever you choose,â he said.
If I ever walked off that stage, my boys would follow. No questions asked. They would follow me into hell and back. Though the four of us would probably just live there indefinitely.
You straightened your shoulders and your tone left no room for argument. âWeâre doing the third set.â
Jeno beamed victoriously. Haechan nodded. Mark gave a look mixed between concern and awestruck.
You sang until you were spent; brutally, wholly, and everything in between. Your legs felt like jelly when you walked off stage and your chest ached, lungs taut. The adrenaline, like a performance-enhancing drug, had run its course and you were officially on empty.
It wasnât unlike you to push yourself to the absolute limit. You loved the stage. You worshiped the power that surged from your voice when you sang into the mic. Pipes for days, Haechan always said.
The dressing room was a sight for sore eyes. You dropped heavily onto one of the sofas and let your head fall back, closing your eyes. Your throat felt like youâd swallowed razors.
âTry not to talk,â Haechan said, holding up his hand when you shot him an irritated look. âIâm not telling you to be quiet. Iâm suggesting you let your voice rest.â
You nodded and sunk back into the sofa again.
Mark was vibrating, the energy of the show still pulsing through him. Brimming with energy (the excess turning into courage), he walked over to you and bent down, pressing a lingering kiss to your brow.
You smiled, knowing it was Mark without opening your eyes.
Jeno finally deigned to grace the rest of you with his presence, bursting into the dressing room and exclaiming, âHoly shit, you killed it!â
âAnd this is where you take all the credit,â you rasped, wincing at the sound of your own voice.
âIâll wait till you go to bed and then Iâll take all the credit.â
You lifted your head and narrowed your eyes at him. âDonât you have some ass to chase?â
Jeno licked his lips. âNah. I only got eyes for you right now.â
âPluck them out for all I care.â
âYou wanna fuck me so bad you look stupid.â
You waved him away, settling down and closing your eyes again, and wheezed, âHave fun with your hand.â
Haechan sat beside you, picking up your legs and draping them over his lap. âIâve never seen you so mad at him.â
âHe just doesnât stop,â you huffed. âYou know when to leave me alone. Mark never pushes my buttons. Jeno just keeps fucking digging.â
Haechan chuckled. âThatâs all he knows how to do.â
âWhatever.â You shrugged, feigning indifference.
Mark suddenly asked, âDo you love him?â
You sighed. âI love all three of you. Heâs definitely my least favorite though.â
Mark gleamed proudly at Jeno, who scowled back.
âSo, if we were drowning, who would you save first?â Haechan asked mischievously.
âMark. Obviously.â
Markâs grin widened, while Haechan gasped and put a hand over his heart like it was the ultimate betrayal.
âYou can swim,â you said, patting Haechanâs arm over your legs. You opened your eyes and gave Jeno a vicious sneer. âJenoâs the only one drowning.â
Jenoâs lips squared into a frown.
âWhatâs that mean?â Mark asked curiously, but Haechan stayed silent. He knew.
âLeave it,â Jeno warned, darker than ever.
The three of you did. Unlike Jeno, you knew when to quit.
Some people did drugs. Others did rock music. A few did both.
The boys dispersed momentarily. You were relieved when the dressing room was empty, leaving you to your thoughts and the searing pain in your vocal chords. Rubbing at your eyes, smearing your makeup, you didnât hear someone come back in as you muttered to yourself, âGod, my throat fucking hurts.â
âItâs probably raw as shit,â Jeno said, making you jolt. And roll your eyes. He cleared his throat and switched his tone to add, âSpeaking of rawâŠâ
âNo.â
âYou let Mark in raw,â he whined loudly.
You cut him a glare. âI wouldnât let you raw me if you were the last man on earth.â
Jeno pouted. âOw.â
With a scoff, you decided to turn the tables on him. âWhy are you so hard for me the past few days? I canât even brush my teeth without you humping the air around me.â
There was no shame to be found in Jeno. âI havenât had you in weeks,â he groaned.
Your lips parted in surprise. âYouâve had every other girl in the country.â
âItâs not the same.â
You stood and crept close to him, close enough to ghost your lips over his mouth. Jeno went boneless, every inch of him fixated to you and what you would do next. He wanted you so bad he couldnât see straight. So, you decided to yank the metaphorical rug out from under him, sniping, âYouâre pathetic.â
âAre you really going to hold that against me forever?â Jeno asked, tensing.
No. It was just easier to be mad at him. That was the only way I could have some defense against the power he had over me.
âIâll make you a deal,â you said, sliding your hands over his shoulders and winding your fingers into his hair. âAnswer one question for me and Iâll forgive you.â
Jeno was one more breath away from kissing you. He knew it was a trap. You were luring him in and he was happy to swallow the bait. âFine,â he replied in a husky voice, eyes on your lips. âAsk your damn question.â
âWhat are you taking?â
âWhat do you mean?â
You hardened your gaze on him and tugged on his hair. âDonât play that with me. I know better.â
Jeno studied you a moment. You would keep yanking this thread until it unraveled. He pushed, you pulled. The two of you could play tug-of-war with each otherâs heartstrings forever. Jeno decided it was better to rip the bandage off and get it over with it.
He reached to the back pocket of his jeans, pulled out a bag, and handed it out to you.
You took a split-second look at the bag and your jaw dropped, your arms falling as you snatched it quickly. âCocaine? Are you fucking kidding me, Jeno?â
Jeno stole the bag back in the time it took you to blink, returning it to the safety of his pocket. âWeâre supposed to do drugs,â he defended, rather unconvincingly. âWeâre rockstars.â
âWeâre teenagers that just graduated high school with barely enough cash for fuel and chips!â
âHow I spend my cut of the money is my business,â Jeno shot back.
âThis isnât about the money.â You folded your arms, scolding him like a mother would a child; oscillating between angry and worried. âYou know how dangerous that shit is.â
Jeno shifted his approach too, ever your mirror. âItâs the only way I can perform, babe. If I donât have it, I canât focus and I get too nervous.â
You softened even more, like Jeno knew you would. âWe can get you something else,â you said gently. âSomething better. Safer.â
He scoffed. âWith our gas and chips money?â
You sighed, accepting a temporary defeat, but you pressed, âYouâre doing it to get high. Not to concentrate.â
Jeno went slack, equally defeated, and reached for your waist. âIâm just trying to have a good time. We know this wonât last. Weâre going nowhere.â
You lowered your head. âI know.â
The summer was half over and we hadnât been scouted. Hope was replaced with disappointment and eventually, disappointment would flip to resentment. We never put it into words, but it was like a cloud following us, day and night.
Jeno took your face in his hands and tipped your chin up until you met his eyes. âLet me have this summer,â he whispered sadly. âMark got you. I got this.â
Something inside you broke a little.
Yes, when the summer was over, you were Markâs.
But the summer wasnât over.
Jeno smiled in surprise when he felt the warmth of your lips on his, but he didnât hesitate to wrap his arms around you and deepen the kiss. Feeling the heat of your body against his was what heâd been craving, wanting you to burn him alive.
My first instinct always was to comfort him. I would chip away at myself and give him every piece if it meant he could use them to stitch his wounds.
Believe it or not, Jeno was my first love, but a first love at fifteen means nothing in the grand scheme of things. He was my first everything, but we just didnât work. No matter how hard we tried. There was a mad and intense connection between us, inseverable, but in the confines of a relationship, we were wild animals forced together in a cage.
I know few will understand us. Hell, even I donât understand how I could have so much passion and fire for someone that stretched me thin and forever kept me at the brink of insanity.
But I was beyond questioning it.
Jeno slipped his tongue in your mouth and you grabbed his hips, pulling him flush against you. His kisses were surpassing hungry and landing somewhere near ravenous. The intensity must have scared him, because Jeno suddenly parted from you and took a step back.
You rubbed your lips bashfully, not realizing you were panting until it was the only sound in the quiet dressing room. And Jeno was breathing just as heavily.
âWhatâs wrong?â
Jeno shook his head. âI want you so bad.â
You snickered. Here you were on a silver platter and he was the one that put distance between you.
Though you opened your mouth to say something snarky, Jeno spoke up, âBut youâre going to leave me.â
Your heart sank. It dawned on you; this summer was the end to a lot of things. Youth was ending. The band was ending and with it, all of your dreams.
And the tie between me and Jeno would have to finally be severed so my life with Mark could start.
âIâm sorry,â you murmured. You didnât want to think about Jeno and his broken heart. Or that the drugs you scolded him over were what he used to fill the void you left behind.
Jeno respected the hell out of you for having the strength to leave him. He never could walk away from you even though he knew it was for the best. You would spend your whole life trying to fix him while he would always use you as a crutch.
It wasnât fair to either you or him.
âMark is good for you,â Jeno said in barely a whisper, his eyes glistening.
You shook your head. âI donât want to talk about Mark.â
Jeno swallowed the lump in his throat. Seeing his pain reflected back at him on your face was too much. âGet high with me.â
Your eyes went wide. âWhy?â
âYouâre my person,â he said, vulnerable. âThe only one Iâve ever wanted to do it with.â
This was what you struggled to put into words - the hold this boy had on you. He was bottomless ocean depths.
âItâs always you and me. We do everything together,â Jeno continued, reaching for your hand and leaving a kiss on your knuckles.
You let him pull you back into his arms and asked, âWhat if I die?â
âIâll bring you back,â he whispered, pressing a tender kiss to your brow that completely melted you.
âWhat if you die?â
âLet me go.â
Your eyes suddenly shone with the threat of tears. âNever.â
Jeno leaned into you, stealing a kiss from your lips. âJust this once, babe.â
You paused, thinking it over. Everything inside you screamed, âYes!â Jeno never failed to bring this side out of you - the reckless, starved one that didnât give a damn about consequences. You always feared if that was the real you, the true you. âJust this once,â you said quietly, closing your eyes as Jeno sealed his lips to yours again.
The idea of getting high reached out to you with gentle, caressing fingertips, promising to banish the pain and numb the hurt.
Tearing himself away from you once more, Jeno walked over to the door and locked it.
Yet another first time with Jeno to add to my list.
You were caught off-guard at how fast the high kicked in and never before had you noticed how tense your body was until it wasnât anymore. Your mind was even lighter. There was no more torment. You could feel that it was there, but it didnât ache any longer.
The sensation was indescribable. You were whole, perfect, immortal and invincible all at once.
And that was how you found yourself on the couch with Jeno, pawing at each other like animals in heat.
âJeno?â
âI know.â
You sucked in a breath as he nipped at your neck and asked weakly, âAm I going crazy?â
âBabe,â he said, meeting your eyes with a smirk. âYou been crazy.â
You laughed and the sound was music to Jenoâs ears, making his smile widen.
Time blurred together. It could have been the next day or the next year for all you cared. All you knew was this moment with Jeno and how it lasted a lifetime.
You sank deeper into the sofa beneath Jenoâs weight. Your thighs were hooked on his hips, hands roaming his taut, muscly back. Both your shirt and his tee were somewhere on the floor, along with your bra.
Jeno kept grinding into you, each movement rougher than the last. âFuck,â he swore, lips brushing your ear. âI just know youâre getting so fucking wet right now.â
He wasnât wrong.
A wanton noise of pleasure escaped you and Jeno ate it up. You were burning by a thousand degrees, it was almost painful. You had never craved someoneâs body on such a primal level before.
With Mark, it was love, but this? This was lust running wild with abandon.
The doorknob wiggled. You didnât hear it over the loud thumping in your ears and neither did Jeno, who was far too busy bruising your neck whilst he kneaded your breasts, pinching your nipples to make you squirm. Haechan didnât need to try the knob again to know what was going on. He turned to Mark, who was coming down the hall, and led him away.
âTheyâre working out their issues. Letâs get the hell out of here,â he said hurriedly. Mark hesitated, but didnât argue. He was none the wiser. With the way you and Jeno had been at each otherâs throats, it never crossed his mind that you would fuck him.
Meanwhile, you were discovering new uncharted levels of arousal, undulating beneath Jeno, trying to match his movements, which were getting faster and harder. The drugs in your system made everything feel more intense, all-consuming. There was no tension, no insecurity, just instinct and pleasure.
Jeno was definitely waiting for you to give him the green light, and you were enjoying keeping it from him, but the throbbing between your legs was unbearable.
You planted your hands on his thick chest and pushed, making Jeno prop over you and look into your face. âWanna fuck now?â you asked sheepishly.
His pupils dilated. âI thought youâd never ask.â
You whined when Jeno clambered off of you, standing next to the sofa and unfastening his pants. Before he drew them down his thighs, he pulled condoms from his pocket and dropped them on your lap.
âTwo?â You snorted. âMy lucky day.â
âOne for each girl. You know, the ones you chased away from me.â
Licking your lips as his hard cock sprang into view, you grabbed him by the hips and purred, âI called first dibs on that dick years ago.â
Jeno chuckled, but his expression changed on a dime when you leaned in. He watched you drag your lips over his abs, kissing and nibbling along his happy trail. His breaths stuttered as he said, âWhenever you want it, itâs all yours.â
You peeked up at him hotly. âI want it now.â
While Jeno fitted himself with a condom, you shimmied out of your pants and underwear, and the moment they were on the floor, you turned onto your knees, braced yourself on the arm of the sofa, and arched your back, sticking your ass in the air.
He wouldnât be able to resist it for a second.
âFuck you,â Jeno hissed, getting into position behind you and raking his cock between your folds, gathering your slick from tip to base.
You wiggled your hips. Your brain was clouded with lust and drugs, and something purely hungry for Jeno. Like he was your favorite meal. âGimme it,â you huffed, glancing over your shoulder. âWhat the fuck is taking so long?â
Jeno gave your ass a smack, making you squeak. âYou need to calm down,â he chided with a grin, still sliding his length between your slit. He was so riled up his hips jerked against you involuntarily.
You reached between your legs, getting a hand around his dick and steering it into your aching pussy. Jeno let you, biting his lip and smirking at how goddamn horny you were for him.
The head of his cock pressed into your entrance and you grasped the arm of the sofa with both hands as Jeno began thrusting forward, working himself inside until he impaled you on every last inch of his girthy cock. You buried your face in the couch, biting down on the stressed leather.
Jeno gripped your waist tight and drew you to him until he was balls deep in your tight heat, feeling your walls stretch and flutter around his length. The drugs amplified everything about you; your warmth, your scent, your sounds. He barely noticed the condom at all.
When he drew back and shoved his cock back into your cunt, you lifted your head and cried, âFuck!â
âYouâre so wet,â Jeno growled, sinking in and out to hear your slick pussy welcoming him back.
You whimpered. âFuck you and that big dick,â you mumbled, but you didnât mean a word of it. You werenât sure how much you could blame the drugs anymore. You wanted him to plow the living shit out of you until there was nothing left.
Jeno took that personally. As a challenge more than anything. He squeezed your waist in his hands and smacked his hips into your ass, driving his cock into your core and giving you something to really whine about.
It was all you could do not to scream as he took you for all you were worth. You fisted the couch in your hands until your knuckles ached and you threw yourself back to meet his strokes, a noise escaping on your hoarse throat with every rushed breath. Sex was a drug all its own. It just felt too damn good.
Jeno kept his hard pace, making sure he landed flush against your heat every time, and brushed his hands up your body to wrap them around your throat and tip your head back. âYeah, thatâs my good slut,â he taunted, the smack of his body colliding with yours getting louder. âSheâs taking all that dick, huh?â
The sounds you made were humiliating, but they only made Jeno harder. His grip on your neck had you slack-jawed, your eyes winched closed. Fuck him. Fuck him. Fuck him!
It wasnât fair that he had that kind of power over my body. With him, I felt desired and powerful, and between that - untainted. Unbroken. Jeno never saw me for the damaged goods that I was. To him, I was always perfect. He completed me. No matter how unhealthy it was, I wanted it.
I didnât need drugs. Jenoâs love was my high.
âDonât stop,â you choked out, his hands heavy on your strained vocal chords. âDonât ever stop...â
Loving me. Though the words wouldnât come, Jeno knew them.
âNever, baby,â Jeno said, releasing your throat in favor of your waist, draping himself over you and burying his face in your neck. His hands wandered your breasts as he plunged in as far as he could go and stopped, leaving a few scattered, reassuring kisses across your shoulders.
Your body trembled when he bottomed out, aching with need and overstimulation. You swallowed to wet your throat, panting for air, and asked, âWhy are youâŠ?â
âYouâre so fucking high, baby,â Jeno crooned, touching you gently and affectionately. âJust trust me.â
He was right. You were high on drugs and his body. You were a nerve laid bare, every brush of his hands enough to make you shiver. Your body pulsated, like you were being dangled over the edge, the pressure becoming too much to bear.
You held yourself up on hands and knees, tortured by the fact he was no longer moving inside you, but his hands playing with your breasts and his lips on your neck had your attention. The stimulation was sending more shudders across your skin, making you lean into his touch as your core throbbed for him.
âPart of you will always be mine,â Jeno whispered into your neck. âI know youâll pick him over me, but part of you will always miss me.â
You tensed with unshed tears and cried, âI know.â
âI need you to know itâs okay,â Jeno said, turning your head and kissing you with so much pain and pleasure it knocked the wind out of you.
You kissed him back, reaching up to thread your fingers into his hair. It was a cruel curse - to love someone so deeply that was bad for you.
Jeno broke the kiss and rocked gently into you, staying in deep and lilting his cock inside your walls, the head of him kissing your cervix. Normally, you would have pushed at his hips for some mercy, but the high made you impervious to pain.
Suddenly, he thrust in hard but slow, arching his hips. You staggered out a moan and reached out to steady yourself, almost knocked off balance by his strength.
He did it again and again.
Tears pricked at your eyes. Jeno was hitting you with those drawn-out, domineering strokes, making you feel every inch of him slam against your sweet spot. He may have agreed to never hold you choosing Mark over him against you, but he was going to give you one final reminder of how absolute his control of your body was.
âIâm coming,â you warned, his name a mantra on your tongue as you took all he had to give. You were grateful for the roar of music coming from the other side of the wall, drowning out your cries and Jenoâs moans.
Jeno fisted a hand in your hair while the other still tugged and rolled your nipples. He kept his pace, hips slapping into your ass at a perfect rhythm, knowing you were on the edge of orgasm with the way your walls clamped down on his cock.
âFuck!â Another brutal thrust sent you into ecstasy. You shook and swore, trying to crawl away from him, but Jeno was on you, shoving you into the couch and riding out your high.
âGood girl,â Jeno hissed, watching you writhe beneath him. He went still and tipped his head back, letting out a tiny moan.
You blinked to clear your eyes. You could feel the bruises forming in your skin as Jeno pinned you to the couch. It only turned you on more. When you realized he was still hard, that he hadnât come, you mumbled under your breath. He was supposed to finish with you.
Jenoâs eyes flickered. Another moan escaped him as you rolled your hips, desperate for friction. He drifted his hands to your hair, gathering it all in his fists.
You sat up and went to work, fucking him as best you could in your position. Despite the condom, your pussy wanted to milk every drop of cum out of his dick. Post-nut clarity hadnât set in. Either the drugs or the orgasm made you even more feral for this dumb boy.
âOh, fuck,â Jeno groaned, watching you throw it back, bouncing your ass on him, taking him like a fucking champ. His abs tightened as he tried not to pound the fuck out of you. Instead, he reeled his hand back and slapped your ass, goading you.
âCome for me, baby,â you said darkly, the room echoing with the loud, wet clap of your bodies meeting.
Jeno growled a low curse in this throat. Suddenly he was on the edge, driven by your command and that tight fucking cunt.
You shrieked in surprise when he flipped you over roughly, the sound devolving into a moan when he steered his cock back into your pussy, grabbed your waist, and drilled into you like he would never get the chance again.
He didnât last long at that pace. Jeno threw his head back and came, one moan after another tumbling from his pretty mouth, each one more ragged than the last as he emptied himself into the condom.
You brushed your hands over his thighs and hips, whispering little nothings as he came, feeling him shake like a leaf as he buried himself inside you. Once Jeno settled down, you touched his chest and asked, âHoly shit. Are you okay?â
âIâm good,â he wheezed, voice cracking, all the air knocked out of him.
Biting your lip to fight a laugh, you failed to hide the smug grin taking over your face.
âDonât,â Jeno said weakly, rubbing at his eyes.
âYou just came so hard you cried,â you teased, pinching his nipple for good measure.
âDonât make fun of me.â
Feeling him about to pull out, you reached for his waist and held him there, joking, âI will remember this, forever and ever, and I will bring it up every time you get on my nerves.â
âYouâre the worst.â He sobered, leaning in close. âAnd youâre the best I've ever had.â
You smiled as he kissed you, sealing his words on your lips. Then you giggled as his mouth traveled over your chest, sucking on a nipple. Your buds were still stiff and Jeno couldnât resist.
âI see how easy it is to get addicted,â you said when Jeno got up to discard the condom. âThat shit is intense.â
âTold you.â
Sitting up, you ran your hands through your messy hair. You could only imagine how you looked; makeup smeared, glistening with sweat. âYou know you have to stop,â you told him, making your voice gentle.
Jeno afforded you no looks. âEventually.â
You were too tired to argue, sore and spent in the best ways. When Jeno returned to the couch, you welcomed him with open arms, pulling him close and steering him to lay his head on your naked chest. You stroked your fingers through his hair and over his broad shoulders, and whispered, âIâll never let you die, Jeno.â
He stayed quiet.
âYouâre not allowed to leave me.â
âStalker.â
You snorted back a laugh. âYou know what I mean.â
âI do.â Jeno lifted his head and nuzzled your cheek, teasing, âI just think itâs cute how obsessed you are with me.â
You kept touching him. His skin was just so hot beneath your fingertips, like caressing an open flame. âAre you really okay with dying?â you asked after a moment.
Jeno shrugged. âItâs unavoidable. I donât see the point in sweating over it.â As he spoke, Jeno kissed at your neck slowly, curious if he could get you riled up again.
Your lashes fluttered and you shifted underneath him. Though he left you more than satisfied, the longer he kissed over your pulse and palmed your breasts, the quicker the ache in your core came back, ready to be filled up again.
Jeno reached down to cup your sex, running his finger over your swollen clit and swearing under his breath when he felt your soaked entrance, thinking how easily he could slide right back in and make you feel good. Both of you.
âIf you died,â you stammered, struggling to form words as he touched you. âI donât think I would ever smile again.â
Jeno was caught off-guard. He stopped pawing at you to look in your eyes, wondering if you realized just how heavy a thing that was to say. âThatâs the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me,â he told you innocently, kissing the corner of your mouth with affection.
It was the first time youâd seen him so serious. Not hiding behind his usual humor.
Jeno was surprised when you pushed him away and reached for your pants on the floor. He watched curiously as you rifled through your pocket and withdrew a balled-up piece of paper and handed it to him.
âFor the memoir?â
You nodded, watching him unfurl the page, your heart thumping harshly in your chest. âYeah, Iâm constantly jotting stuff down.â
Jenoâs eyes drifted over your words.
I canât stand him. He infuriates me. He makes me crazy. But Jeno is the one person that knows me - the good and the bad, and accepts them both.
I love my boys, but heâs the one I donât think I could ever live without.
Jeno peered at you with glassy eyes, shining with tears. âDamn it,â he groaned, crashing his lips on yours.
As expected, you made use of that second condom.
Jeno hooked your legs in the crooks of his arms and thrust languidly, staring down at you. Your eyes never parted as he gave you release once more, knowing when the summer was over, he would never get to touch you again.
When all was said and done, the two of you slumped into opposite sides of the sofa, soaked with sweat. Once you caught your breath and Jeno returned from tossing the condom, it was your turn to clamber on top of him, using his chest as your pillow. You rested your head on his shoulder and traced senseless patterns over his collarbone with your fingertips.
Jeno said your name. âI want you to be happy. Thatâs all I want, but I know I canât give it to you. I tried.â
You closed your eyes. It would keep the tears at bay. âI know.â
âI feel sorry for you, loving all three of us. It canât be easy.â
âItâs what I was made for,â you said softly, tightening your arms around him, lest he fly away from you and never return.
Jeno changed subjects before it broke him. âIâve never felt so self-aware of how it feels to be young. And how it doesnât last long.â
You nodded slightly. âThis time is precious.â
âI wouldnât say precious. Definitely fun though.â
You snickered, relieved to hear his humor coming back, but a somber feeling rushed over you. âDo you think weâll ever get tired of it?â
âOf what?â
âThe performing, the fucking, and⊠the drugs.â
Jeno paused. âYou mean each other.â
You sighed tersely. There was no hiding it from him.
My biggest fear was that my boys would hate me. That I would be a bitter reminder of what could have been, how close we were to our dreams before crash landing back on earth, broken and bruised forever from the fall.
Jeno brushed his fingers up and down your back, and kissed the top of your head. âI donât think weâll resent each other if this fails, babe,â he said in a low voice. Some things just arenât meant to be, he thought sadly. Like you and me.
âIf that happened, I think I would die,â you whimpered, burrowing your face in his chest.
âDonât talk like that,â Jeno said, running his hand mischievously over your thigh. âBut stop being so afraid of death. Youâll waste your life running from something that is going to catch you no matter what.â
You tipped your head back to kiss him. âI just know the devil dreads meeting us. Weâll steal his throne.â
Jeno kissed you back hotly. âHell yeah. I canât wait to fuck you on it.â
You laughed.
Hard to steal something that already belongs to you, Jeno.
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Donatello (NSFW Alphabet)
Bayverse Donatello x F!Reader
Donatello is a giving, fast-paced, enthusiastic character that has tendencies to people-please; with a deep seated desire to belong. I see him being a submissive lover most of the time; needing the freedom from his busy brain and busy life. Donnie would give in to anything his lover would need from him. But you would also notice he struggles to indulge in taking what he wants, in fear of inconveniencing, pressuring, or disgusting you. Which makes those occasional moments when he takes over and give in to his dominant urges all the more delicious.Â
Brief mentions of masochism, somnophilia, bondage, pegging and exhibitionalism. Word count: 2200.Â
Enjoy!
A - Aftercare (What theyâre like after sex) - After sex Donnie is a dumbass. Doesnât matter what kind of sex. Heâs fucked out and a bit of a goofball, so you will get cuddles and jokes and he will make you laugh. But until you ask, heâs not thinking about the mess at all. Or about water. Or food. Or anything really. Itâs when you actually ask, âBabe, I canât move, will you please grab-â He will first be horrified, then he will SCRAMBLE out of bed. Heâll wack his head against a light or something or trip over his underwear flat on his face- heâs so fucking cute.Â
B - Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partnerâs) - If you compliment anything about his physical appearance or physic, he says stuff like âNaww.â âStaap.â âNo you donât.â But he loves the size difference. He loves how small you look against him and in his bed. Sometimes he stares at how big his hands and fingers are while fingering your little pussy and he goes brain dead.Â
C- Cum (Anything to do with cum basically) - Donnie whimpers, shakes, and moves a lot during orgasm. He canât help it. Itâs one of those moments he is 100000% completely, utterly checked out. Itâs so fucking hot. He also needs to be holding something. Always. He prefers to grab you into a tight, shakey hug. But if he canât do that, he also grabs his own head and face. Donnie has also bent metal before, broken handcuffs and torn rope. Heâs replaced your headboard twice now. Bit of a head pusher, so unless you are into that, tie him up or tell him to hang on to something.
D - Dirty Secret - He would love to be pegged. Already loves it when you finger and eat out his cloaca, so having you in control of his pleasure and body? It drives him insane.Â
E - Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what theyâre doing?) - Donnieâs nature is to research and to meet head-on. Between all the long term-relationship, healthy sex-life, deep-dive research (and his porn consumption); he is actually pretty prepared to have good sex. But what makes sex and his first-time terrifying is the turtle thing, his fear of you thinking heâs ugly and disgusting, and not being good for you.. His trauma and sensitive nature is completely exposed those first few times. So you taking the lead and being in charge was his saving grace.Â
F - Favorite Position - Donnie does not have a favorite. He loves to change things up. But he does have a tendency to fall into a routine, and succums pleasure and intimacy. Heâs not stopping a fuck to change up the position unless you tell him to do so.Â
G - Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous) - Depends on how much stress he is under and how much sleep he has had. If he is well rested and life is being a little more on the good side, he is incredibly playful and cute. But if he hasnât slept in two days, sex is overwhelming and intense and he needs that burst of good chemicals. If he is being cute and dorky while life is falling apart, its always before you start getting in his pants and directly after youâve both finished.Â
H - Hair - He doesnât care
I - Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect) - Sex is one of the few ways you can easily pull him out of his head, so it does get intense for him. Donnieâs brain checks out once shit gets rolling, and he stays checked out when you take the lead; which is something he desperately needs. But those moments when he needs to take for once instead of give, you gotta be prepared for the most intense fucking of your life.Â
J - Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon) - Donnie is the one who is a little more sloppy and risky when it comes to jerking off. Because when he needs it, he needs it, okay? He loses brain cells when heâs horney, so jerking off in his lab when one of his brothers is still awake in the kitchen over there starts feeling like a good idea. Post-nut clarity hits Donnie so hard when heâs by himself. Itâs hilarious.Â
K - Kink (One or more of their kinks) - Donnie is a kinky mother fucker, okay, and he is so shy about it. He will not put in requests. You will have to get it out of him, because he feels a bit of shame in that he wants to be on the receiving end of things, usually. Heâs into sensory deprivation, bondage, exhibitionalism, toys, somnophilia, masochism, breeding, free-use, phone sex, all of it.Â
L - Location (Favorite places to do the do) - Okay, so you gotta be careful because if you get Donnie horny enough, anywhere starts looking like âthis will doâ. It can get him in trouble, and youâre gonna have to call the shots on that one. But he does get pretty paranoid in the lair and lack of privacy, so a bedroom will be best for a while. Let him get more confident in his body and his relationship with you before yâall start getting crazy.
M - Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going) - In a scenario in which he is glued to the screens and you need lovinâs; praise. Pet names. Tracing his neck or arms. It will get his attention super fast. Everytime. He is also always horny waking up, but he is not a morning person, so you will have to do most of the work. But his noises and desperation are always worth it.Â
N - NO (Something they wouldn't do, turn offs) - He doesn't like being hit, or in pain; and actually being restrained is horrifying to him. If he canât actually snap the handcuffs or rope, and heâs being held down- things go from sexy to he doesn't want to be touched for three days. Itâs a fine line, one that he didnât know existed until it happened. Unaddressed trauma, you know?
O - Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc) - Donnie fucking loves head, okay? One of his longest fantasies was having a partner suck him off while he games. Itâs a classic. And he loves giving you head, and takes massive pride in being the best there possibly is at giving it to him.Â
P - Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual) - All of it. All of it. There are moments when he needs to take over, and he does get intense. But even in his most needy moments- it still doesnât mean heâs rough. He definitely can be- but it all depends on the mood and the scenario and what you need. Heâs all over.Â
Q - Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often.) - He has some trouble initiating. The fear of inconveniencing you or being overly needy is prevalent in his heart. Especially at the beginning. So even if he is insanely, deliriously horny for you, heâs gonna struggle asking for relief. However, if you initiate- heâs all in. He will do whatever, whenever, however. Just keep touching him. Tell him what you need, what he should do. He will be there, please, baby.Â
R - Risk (Are they game to experience, do they take risks.) - If you need him and your in charge, he gets a little pussy drunk. He will want to do whatever you want, whenever you want. He does have some fantasies of having you in semi-public areas (like his truck on a road trip). But not only does he secretly want to try everything in the book, but he is here to please you. He wants you and he wants to be yours. Ask him and he will be of service.Â
S - Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last) - Donnie possesses athleticism on a level that is otherworldly. You are dating a superhero. So his stamina shows it. He can have sex all day, and be running around saving the world after. The question is, when does he find time to sleep. So sometimes, fucking him should be a seque to getting him to passing out, at last. Â
T - Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves) - Donnie loves toys. Loves using them on you, loves it when you use them on him. He kinda likes the thought of building sophisticated ones for you to enjoy. He likes to watch you use toys on yourself, he likes you watching him use them- he adores it all. The introduction of toys in the bedroom was very quick, and heâd have a collection somewhere very, super hidden.Â
U - Unfair (how much they like to tease) - He doesnât like to tease you at all. Heâs not the type. What you ask of him is exactly what he will give, so he struggles to deny you pleasure. However, he kinda loves when you tease him. Flirting with him, denying him, teasing him, edging him all get him feeling super hot. You become his whole world when you do, and thatâs exactly how he likes it.Â
V - Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make) - Donnie whimpers. He is the most gorgeous whimperer in the entire planet. He shakes and whines and moans, and he begs. His voice can get super low and then can get high and whispery- you have told him several times he could make audio porn and he doesnât believe you. He gets a little insecure about it, because most of the time he doesnât have a whole lot of brain power to control that.Â
W - Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice) - He was fucking you hard in the back of the lab. On the old cot he kept there for emergency uses. He was getting so riled up that his brothers, just outside, were in danger of overhearing his whispers and whines. Your solution? You grabbed his face hard, yanking him close with your palm cupped over his mouth with your other hand cupping the nape of his neck. His eyes rolled into the back of his head, falling further into your shoulder and bracing under the new wave of arousal while his thrusts quickened with desperation. âThatâs it, baby.â You whispered, struggling to keep quiet yourself. âThatâs it, good boy, sweetheartâŠfuck-â
X -X-Ray (Letâs see whatâs going on in those pants, picture or words) - Team cloaca. He has a cloaca just under the plates of his plastron. His dick is HUGE, and gorgeously dark purple, and there is a reason it needs to be packed away. It takes a lot of time and a lot of patience, even with the assist of his and your natural lubrication, it takes a while to get his huge size inside of you.Â
Y - Yearning (How high is their sex drive) - In the beginning, you are all Donnie could think about. He wanted you so badly, and he wanted you to want him. He had trouble focusing on tasks he had never had a problem focusing on before. He wasnât getting things done, he was messing up more during training, and he had troubles not talking about you to others. But after things have been official for a while, that fades to a much more healthy amount. But he does have an issue getting lost in his interests, projects and duties. His sex drive is high, but he has attention issues lol.Â
Z - ZZZ (How quickly they fall asleep afterwards) - Donnie is a sleep deprived monster. While he can continue on after sex as if nothing happened (he does that a lot), sex is one of the only things that will actually put him to sleep quickly. So if that is your objective, after he orgasmsâŠwhen heâs still shaky and out of breath- all you gotta do is rub his shoulders, kiss his face and pull him into a tight hug, prevent him from getting too goofy, and itâs over. If you are under him, he can fall asleep on top of you. If you two are curled up in the lab chair, he will pass out with his head on your shoulder. If you guys are on the couch, he will drop out, his mouth open and glasses skewed with you on his chest. He is always a hard sleeper, so getting him to wake up especially after a good fuck- is damn near impossible. But itâs also something that honestly, while you stare down at his cute face snoozing away, waking him up is the last thing that you want to do.Â
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taking a break w/ wolverine rules | m.list
note. saw someone asking for a beach episode with logan on twitter so I am here to serve my people :) please request anything I'm desperate lmao
You werenât a huge fan of the beach, you never were actually. The more you escaped the sun, the better you felt ; and it was even more true about the water. But when Logan almost begged you to come with him, you didnât have the heart to say no to him. It was rare enough to have Logan asking for someone to actually spend time with him to say no.Â
This is how you ended up on the beach, sitting on the sand with your sunglasses on, a huge amount of sunscreen on your skin and, of course, hiding under an umbrella. From afar, you could see Logan in the water. Of course, seeing the man half naked wasnât something unusual as he didnât seem to be able to keep his clothes on ; but it was still something you wouldnât complain about. The sun brighing on his skin, even more because of the water ; no, it was indeed a good view.Â
Logan finally walked back to you after some time, standing in front of you with his arms crossed. You looked up at him when you saw the shadow he created with his large figure. âGonna stay here all day?â He asked and the smile on your lips made him roll his eyes. âIâm feeling great, no need to worry.â He groaned slightly, and you didnât seem less proud of your answer.Â
âCome on, bub. Either you come by yourself or I make you.â You slowly raised an eyebrow, looking at him from above your sunglasses. âIs that a threat Logan?â You asked, and the smirk on his lips was enough as an answer. âSure it is.â A sigh left your lips but he didnât move at all. Apparently, he was more than serious about his words. So, when you were about to tell him to go to hell, you felt your body leaving the ground too easily.Â
âLet me go, dumbass!â You yelled as Logan walked towards the water with you resting on his shoulder. He had this stupid proud smirk that you hated so much as he was telling you to dream a bit longer. âReady bub?â He said, his legs half into the water. âDonât even think about it!â But of course, the Wolverine couldnât care less.Â
The second after, you were being thrown into the water. You just had the time to get your head out of it, putting your sunglasses on top of your head. You glanced at Logan with a frown, until you saw him for real. He was laughing. Not the slight chuckle he was always trying to restrain, or his stupid smirk of mockery. No, Logan was laughing ; because he was making fun of you, technically, but still. You quickly looked away, pushing his shoulder.Â
âDonât make that face. Just take a break with me, uh?â He told you, and you looked at him from the corner of your eye. You rolled your eyes, before a sigh left your lips. You slowly raised your hands before you simply splashed water at him. It took him by surprise, obviously, and he had to wipe his face. When his eyes met with your face, he saw you laughing this time. And it confirmed that he was right with asking you to come with him.Â
Both of you spent the rest of the day at the beach, together this time. Sun was slowly falling as you two were laying down on the sand, looking at the sky. Silence was here for a while until your voice came out softly. âWasnât so bad to come with you.â Logan looked at you, a bit surprised by your words. But quickly, a light smile appeared on his lips. âGlad you came, bub.â This time, you were the one to turn your head and so you met his gaze. You simply looked at each other in silence for a moment, and it was like time had stopped. His hand slowly moved toward yours, before he grabbed it in the most gentle manner youâve ever seen him do.Â
You stayed like this for a while before your duty called you back to reality. You got back to the manor together, acting like nothing happened. But in fact, you both knew that things would be different after that day.
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LOVER, PLEASE STAY.
đđđđđđ: satoru gojo, đ
đđđđđđđđ: reader.
đđđđđ: fluff, comfort -- wc: 3k
đđđđđ: being the strongest has an indescribable amount of pros, but it's outweighed by its cons. with such an honor, satoru finds himself unable to open up to you; thinking it would make him weak.
đđđđđđđđ: fem!reader (gojo refers to u as gf) hurt/comfort, this is sad :[, pet names (baby, pretty, etc), crying (gojo), gojo being a dumbass and not communicating his feelings, kissing, poor gojo just wants a peaceful life with his gf, probably (definitely) ooc, overall just comfort bc I'm GRIEVING and he needs a hug i think a hug could fix him
you always felt safe when you were with satoru. no matter where you were, or what he was doing, if you called him heâd be there in seconds. maybe it was because he was the strongest, or maybe it was because he truly cared, but you always felt at ease around him. you could tell him anything with no fear of being judged (well, even just teased a little bit). regardless, he was always there for you, and you were so caught up in how he always checked in on you; always making sure you were okay, that you forgot to ask him the same. it wasnât until when suguru geto left that you realised that beneath it all, satoru gojo was a really fragile man; your realisation solidified when you found him like this. you came home from work earlier than usual, opening the door with exhausted gratitude to finally be home, but, you were greeted with silence. huh. usually, when you got home you were bombarded with affection from the moment you stepped inside; barely one step through the door and he was at your heel like a dog that had been waiting for its owner to return. but now was different. It was eerily quiet compared to every other day. was he even home?
âsatoru?â you called out into the hallway, it lingered in the air, until it faded out with no response. âweird, maybe heâs asleep or something.â - itâs a stupid thought, considering how at this time, heâs usually (always) going through/recovering from a huge sugar rush, but it was the only thought that made sense. you took your coat off and placed it on the coat rack, quickly discarding your shoes and placing your bag on the counter before beginning the hunt for your boyfriend.
as you went from room to room, hallway to hallway, you couldnât help but notice the unsettling feeling of emptiness that replaced his absence. as your search dragged on, you struggled to adjust to the growing pit in your stomach. did someone get him? no. thereâs no way. heâs the strongest. you shouldnât have to worry about that; he said so himself. but, still, you couldnât shake the gnawing feeling that maybe something did happen. you were so caught up in your thoughts, you almost missed the sound that came from your shared bedroom. almost. it stopped you dead in your tracks; prompting you to quietly make your way to the source of the sound; pressing your ear against the door. Â thatâs when you heard it again. a quiet; muffled noise. it sounded like sniffling. you almost crashed through the door and face-planted into the carpet when you realised what was happening. was he crying? your hands hesitated around the doorknob, before pulling it open. luckily, you regained your composure the moment the door flung open.
there he was: sitting on the edge of your shared bed, his hands gripping the bedsheets with some sort of desperation; a futile way of grounding himself. his head was down, looking at his knees. almost instantly, his head snapped back to yours. if it werenât for the blindfold obscuring half of his face, you couldâve probably identified what was happening. or at least, you wouldâve gotten a brief idea. for now, all you had was a theory; a thought, that maybe, just maybe, your boyfriend was crying. but how could you make sure of it? hell, youâre talking about satoru gojo; the most stubborn man alive. out of all the years youâd known him, never once had he opened up to you; let alone expressed feeling anything about being even the tiniest bit weak.
âyouâre home early.â his voice interrupted your thoughts. it wasnât as enthusiastic as it usually was, most signs of genuine joy were nowhere to be heard; instead it was laced with faux-optimism. shutting the door behind you, you walked towards the bed and took a seat next to him -taking note of how he didnât attempt to get his usual âwelcome home kissâ. while, yes, itâs strange, satoru always made sure to kiss you whenever you got home. treating the act as if it were some sort of ritual, or tradition. but now? he didnât even try. yeah, he was looking at you, and smiling-(fakely), but there was no way he was actually happy. âyeah, my boss finally freed me from my office. he was complaining about always letting me off early, but i was too busy packing my things and getting the hell outta there to listen.â you chuckled, trying to lighten his mood, even if only by a bit. âyeah? old man finally stopped making you his personal servant?â his voice sounded weak, as if the act of speaking was one of the hardest difficulties he had to endure. you nodded, âyeah, finally.â the room fell silent after you spoke. you could hear the cars driving by outside, and the rain pattering against the window, dancing rhythmically in the air. there was nothing else to be said. it was unsettling, if anything. silence was something long forgotten when in his presence. you almost had to double check to make sure that was actually satoru beside you, and not some sort of alien. the situation was so⊠awkward? conversation was attempted, but it didnât flow as easily as it always did. it was so unlike him, and it was tearing you apart from the inside. your heart panged with distress; slowly unravelling from within you. there was no denying it anymore, the man that sat beside you, who suddenly found staring at the blank wall very interesting, (or at least, in that direction. - blindfold, and whatnot) your satoru, needed help.
and now, you accepted the task that was getting satoru gojo to open up about his emotions. you shifted in your side of the bed, fiddling with your fingers as you searched for something to say, silently hoping that the right words would come to you if you tried hard enough. "you okay?â - not the most poetic and comforting thing, but it was tried and true. â you know you can talk to me about anything, right?" you asked, your voice soft and caring; each word laced with pure love. he chuckled, "what makes you say that?" he asked, blissfully unaware of how obvious he was being. you noted how he avoided your gaze, instead continuing to focus on the wall in front of you. "you've just been acting a bit distant lately, and you seem upset. I know how you hate talking about your feelings and stuff.. but I've just been worried." you said, leaning into his shoulder. he smiled, without a trace of cockiness. "I'm fine, pretty. you don't need to worry about me - you never do." he added the last part with a bit of hesitancy. because, deep down he knew he was lying. he was lying to you, and to himself. he knew he should open up to you. he knew that if he did, you'd be there for him, supporting him with open arms. but he was scared, petrified. he didnt even know why. it was as if the act of letting out each feeling and thought, releasing the growing balloon of responsibility and insecurity into the open air, would enervate him; make him weak. he was washed away by a wave of shame. if he wasn't constantly the strongest, the bravest, never sad, never worried, perfect boyfriend, then who was? who would take his place? there was something about opening up to you that made him feel weak. like, if he let his confident, fearless facade down, you would turn your head away in disgust.
he knew that he needed help. but the act of letting out each and every vulnerability that he held delicately within him was bordering the line of impossible. he clung onto his title as âthe strongestâ, as if it were the one thing that defined him.
"satoru." you almost whispered, "not a single person on earth lives their life without a voice in their head bringing them down." you began. your hand slid across the white bedsheets until it met with his; resting your hand on top of his. "feeling sad doesn't alienate you from others. it's a normal thing.Â
you slowly hovered your other hand above his face, nervously, before you pulled his blindfold down. his eyes were as enchanting as they had always been, but now, they were decorated with tears.
you were right, he was crying. although this was exactly what you had expected to see, the reality was a lot harder to process than you thought.
shockingly enough, that was the first time you had ever seen him cry.
behind the teasing and flirting, all the cocky, boastful comments, was a man full of fear. while, yes, being the strongest had its perks, it was outweighed by an indescribable number of cons; because of his status as the strongest, he always had a bunch of expectations that he had to meet at all times. perfect people couldn't have flaws - that's why they were perfect. he also had to deal with the fact that due to his role in life, eyes on him at all times, you were the second target. when being tasked with the goal of taking down the satoru gojo, their target was always either him or you. everyone with common sense could see how much you meant to him, which meant you would also fall victim to the attempts of taking down the honoured one. he hated it; how he never had a say in the matter - how he was born into greatness. all he wanted was a quiet, safe life with you; a goal he could never reach. it's not like he regrets dating you, itâs just that he hated to have to put you through this.
his cheeks shimmered from the wetness pooling around his eyes, a sight so unlikely you felt overwhelmed by sympathy. it hurt you, both physically and mentally, to see him like this. you felt ashamed of how you hadnât questioned him sooner, that you hadnât helped to put the problem at ease before it got out of hand. without saying a word, you scooted closer to him, and pulled him into your chest. he remained perfectly still at the action. the hand that was on his own quickly moved to his hair, running your fingers through it just the way he liked it, the way only you knew how to do.Â
âeven if you donât wanna talk, iâm here for you, âtoru.â the tone of your voice was similar to that of honey; a syrupy sweet kindness, that gojo was sure would rot his teeth if he had too much, but he had a sweet tooth unlike no other.â- i just want you to know that it would be so much easier if you let me know what was going on in that pretty head of yours.â you continued. he nodded, knowing that you were right. he nudged himself closer to you, burying his face into your chest, once again concealing the sadness he had spiralled into. âtake all the time you need, âtoru. iâm not going anywhere.â if that wasnât enough support, you continued, âeven if we stay like this till the sun comes up, if you still arenât ready to talk, iâll keep waiting.â you pressed a kiss to the top of his head, to which he let out a strange choking sort of sound in response. It sounded like an exasperated chuckle. âwhat did i do to deserve you.â he muttered, turning his head as he spoke so his words werenât muffled by your chest. you held him even tighter, if that was even possible. with a smile as soft as your hold on him, you burrowed your face in his hair, mumbling a quiet âi love you,â which didnât land on empty ears. he heard every word, and clung to each syllable that left your lips like they were a lifeboat, and he was lost at sea. you scooped him up like an angel and he found himself replaying those three words over and over again in his mind. he realised that, despite his strength, you made him the strongest. your constant love and support, like water to a plant, helps him achieve his full potential. how could he ever repay you for all that you do to him?Â
you hear fabric rustling as he shifts around, tilting his head to the side yet again. âiâll do anything for you , so⊠um.. promise me that.. youâll always stay..â he hesitated. saying those words out loud made him painfully aware of how utterly pathetic he was being. A moment of brief silence passed, and then he continued, âiâll always be here to keep you safe.. I-. iâll kill for you if i have to⊠just please.. please donât leave me.â his voice cracked at the end of his sentence.
you wanted to speak up, to individually pluck all of these fears from his mind, to allow him to live freely, without carrying the weight of guilt that follows him everywhere; a looming shadow that never seems to leave him no matter how much good he does, or how much evil he removes from the world - none of that can fight away the burden of superiority; the cold, lonely view from the summit. he watches non-sorcerers living their normal lives every day, and behind the blindfold of arrogance that he wears with pride, heâs jealous of them. thatâs all he wants in life. - a normal one. despite them being the reason he existed, what he lived to fight, he found that he, himself was the true curse. he was chained to sorcery whether he wanted to be or not. he could never quit, he was needed. he is the best. he saves thousands of people constantly, and does (mostly) nothing but good. and yet, nothing he does will ever bring back his friends - he knows that. but god, he has tried everything to move on.
he continues speaking, a low chuckle leaving his throat. âiâm being really pathetic right now huh? so much for being the stronges-â you cut him off abruptly, your eyes matched his now; glassy and decorated with tears. âsatoru.â you began, gently cupping his chin and tilting it upwards, holding eye contact with him. âquit it with that âstrongestâ bullshit. you have a name. a beautiful name, and you have an incredible personality, and you care for others more than youâd like to admit. having incredible power is just another addition to what makes you such a wonderful person. stop clinging to the title as if itâs a shackle, itâs just another layer to the sweet cake that makes up satoru gojo - and everyone loves cake!â you flashed a dorky smile at him, cupping his cheek with your hands. he remained speechless, staring into your eyes with almost heart-shaped pupils. he looked like a sad little kitty cat. you sucked in a deep breath, waiting for the right words to come to you before continuing. âi love you. I love you so much that it hurts me to see you hurt. you never have to worry about me leaving you, okay? because, i firmly believe that we were put on this earth to be together. you complete me, baby.â for the first time that night, you saw a genuine smile spread on his face. even though it was small, barely there, you noticed it. âthatâs corny.â he mumbled, and you laughed. âi guess it is, isnât it? but itâs true yâknow! youâre everything to me âtoru. i adore you with every fibre of my being.â you placed a kiss on his forehead, immediately taking note of how he leaned into your touch. âi understand what you feel like right now, or at least i think i do. i know youâve lost most of the people you love, and nothing i say will fully fill the hole they left with their losses. but, i promise you that i will always be here by your side no matter what. i will always be here for you, okay? so donât ever forget that. and- and donât you dare try to hide your sadness from me! i get that sometimes you donât wanna talk about your feelings, and thatâs okay. but please, know that you can talk to me. i donât want you to ever think otherwise. even if itâs something i canât help with, iâll always be here to listen. â your words were like a sweet relief to his aching mind, alleviating most of his worries by the mere promise of comfort alone. god, he was enamoured by you. he moved his hand from your waist, and placed it on top of your hand, which was currently caressing his cheek. he lifted it to his lips, and pressed a firm kiss to your knuckles. you smiled, your cheeks filling with warmth. âIâll try to be more open ân honest from now on.. I promiseâ he said with an honest expression on his face. you could tell that he was slowly coming back to his former self. âthank you baby.â you kissed him again, this time on the tip of his nose. ânoâ, he started tracing delicate circles onto your hand. âthank you for beinâ so sweet. youâre too good for me.â his lips curved into the biggest smile you had seen that evening, the sight was almost enough to bring you to tears. you mirrored his relieved expression.
âcâmon, we still have some mochi left over in the kitchen. letâs get some sweets and cuddle up with a movie, iâll even let you pick this time! or, if youâd prefer, we could keep talking? sound good?â you asked, slowly standing up. you held your hand out to him, and he grabbed onto it in seconds, allowing you to pull him up. he wrapped his arms around your waist, and nuzzled his face into the crook of your neck. âbest girlfriend ever.â he whispered into your skin; his words quickly replaced by goosebumps. you donât think you could ever stop loving this man.
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Prompt: When you try to open the door on your own.
warnings!!! excessive fluff, all characters are aged 18+, timeskips! preferably, please read with a grain of salt.
Pairings: kuroo tetsurou, bokuto kotarou, akaashi keiji, kageyama tobio, tsukishima kei x fem!reader (separately)
You dare to put your tiny hands on the car handle around this guy? Oh no, no, no. That was a big mistake.
Before you could fully swing the passenger door open, Tetsu's hand immediately halted you by gripping the door frame behind you with a 'HUH' face.
"What do you think you're doing, princess?" he asked, his brows wrinkling in annoyance at your attempt to open the door yourselfâa task you were perfectly capable of.
With minimal effort, he shut the door when you let go of the handle and then swung it back open, adding an open palm gesture with his free hand as if showing you the way inside.
"I'm here for a reason, princess," he said, shutting the door once you got in and immediately walking around the car to the driver's side.
Meanwhile, you sat there in the passenger seat, sweating slightly, fighting the urge to tell him that you were capable of doing it yourself, only to feel a hand on your thigh, squeezing it softly as if to stop you from protesting.
"Not a word from you," he started, giving you another squeeze as he buckled his seatbelt before removing his hand to plug in the car key and start the engine. "And don't even think about stepping out of the car if I'm not the one who opened it for you."
I swear, when this man is around, he won't even let you open something if he knows he can do it for you.
When you try to be independent around this guy, things get turned upside down, and his teammates wonder what happenedâwhy his shoulders are slumped, why he's flaking out so much during practice.
Safe to say, you unleashed the emo Bokuto. Acts of service are second to his love languageâhe's a sucker for physical touch. He would do almost anything for you, even if you didn't ask.
Opening doors has been a habit of his since you two started dating. Even on your dates, he insists on being the one to open the doors and waits for you to head inside first.
Talk about chivalrous, but he's just a pure guy who's been showered with his older sister's affection and knows how to treat women well.
But the time you left for work in a hurry, kissing his cheek goodbye and making your way out the front door, he ran after you to open it, only to have the door slam shut in his face.
Poor Kou. Surely, you didn't mean any harm and were just in a rush. However, make sure to talk with this guy once you get home.
In contrast to Bokuto, being independent around this guy is no problem. He knows you can handle things on your own.
However, there are instances when his hand lands first on the handle, and he says things like,
"I'll do it, love."
"Your hands are full, let me."
"I know your pinky finger was open, but I doubt it can compare to the weight of this door, sweetheart."
It's a healthy relationship all the way, but deep down he secretly wants you to depend on him once in a while whenever he's around.
Give this guy a medal.
"Dumbass. Idiot. Boke." I can imagine him chanting these words as he followed you down the hall from behind while you carried two large boxesâprobably heading to the student council.
He knows you can handle it, but the moment he saw you walking straight towards the closed door of the council room and struggling to open it with one hand, he darted out of his hiding spot and slammed the door open for you.
Blinking at the sudden noise, you tilted to the side of the boxes that were obscuring your view, only to see him standing beside you and the open door.
He merely looked down at you, wanting to smile, but not wanting to scare you off, he decided to walk away as if nothing had happened, grumbling.
Unable to process his words, you stood there with the heavy boxes in front of the now-open council room and watched his figure descend down the staircase.
What made you think he'd open the door for you?
He enjoyed seeing you struggle to open the door with your hands full of items he'd told you to drop off, suggesting you take turns coming back to get them.
But you were too stubborn and hard-headed to act dependent and admit he was right. You scooped up all your stuff with both hands before heading to your destination, only to be blocked by a door.
Struggling not to drop anything, you grumbled in annoyance while a snicker from behind approached you.
"What, can't your short hands reach the handle?" he remarked, brows quirked as he reached for the handle from behind you, towering over your midget size and clearly noticing the height difference as he twisted the doorknob open.
"There you go, Thumbelina," he smirked, swinging the door open and placing a hand on his hip. Seeing your furrowed brows and noticing how you were biting your tongue to keep from giving a snarky remark only heightened his amusement.
"Not being appreciative, are we?" his smirk grew wider.
I swear, he finds enjoyment in your predicaments of being independent.
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If I may request for gooey wan:
After reading the snippet about Rex' reaction, I'm just curious how different groups of people react to the craziness of Obi-Wan's powers and how unfazed the 212th is.
How does his powers act when they're on shore leave and he and Cody go to Dex's for lunch.
Anyway keep up the amazing writing, can't wait for the next part of the loud!au it's so good â€ïž
âCome out, come out, wherever you are,â a child-like voice sings and Fives tries to become one with the wall immediately.
âYou cannot run! You cannot hide!â The following giggling turns up the goosebumps on his arms to the max, and he indulges in a shiver.
âI hate horror holos,â he whispers to himself before switching on internal comms. âWerenât we supposed to be inconspicuous about this?â
âChange of plans,â Rex tells him from somewhere on the northern side of the command center. âHeâs stopping them from calling reinforcements.â
The child-voice suddenly shrieks in glee and Fivesâ goosebumps reach new heights. âFound you!â
âSquad Esk, change position to point 5-7-Krenth,â Commander Cody orders over comms, and, naturally, they haul ass.
Squatting down on the gangway opens up quite the view in the bubble of disturbing silence that apparently surrounds General Kenobi when he does his thing.
Itâs a void of nothingness. Not actually harmful to living beings, though the sparking droids let Fives theorize that some electronics donât have much to buffer against whatever the General⊠exudes. Pardon his Coruscanti.
The enemy commander scrambles against the wall, trying to get away from Kenobi whoâs standing still in front of them. The black smoke is thick, covering the entire floor and crawling up the corners nearby.
The enemy is caught up in the Generalâs look, the Galaxy black holes that are rumored to hide behind the pleasant smile.
Fives clicks his knee guard against the gangway just to break the suffocating silence but no sound rises up.
The enemy collapses to their knees and Kenobi steps back. Not physically but his sheer presence seems to decrease in intensity. Fives clicks his kneeguard again and this time, the sound is allowed to reach his ears.
âCody,â Kenobi says quietly, âthe hostages are about to be transported off planet. I donât know from which port.â
âOn it,â Commander Cody answers and immediately barks orders over comms to shut down all spaceports.
âDo you surrender,â Kenobi asks, still quiet. Tired.
Fives feels his brow furrow involuntarily.
âYes,â the enemy replies, pale and shaking under the Generalâs gaze. âPleaseâŠâ
And thatâs how Fivesâ first joint mission ends. Not with a bang but goosebumps that fail to disappear for a few good hours afterwards.
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âItâs been rough for him,â Cody admits, absently swirling the straw through the milkshake Dex put in front of him the moment he fell into a seat at the counter like all his strings had been cut. âHeâs overcompensating for the time he hid from meâ us who he is.â
Dex mulls over that for a moment. Long enough the Commander glances up at him. âHeâs a dumbass,â he settles on, the diplomatic route. âAlways has been.â
Cody snorts, takes a sip. âI talked to him, of course,â he says, flaps his hand before scratching at the prominent scar on his forehead. âHe competently ignored me to the point I benched him.â Cody shakes his head, wide eyes on the milkshake. âThat was incredibly stressful.â
The diner is empty at this time of night. Quiet and reserved for all types of encounters; from distressed clone commanders to their smokey nightmare Jedi.
Dex studies Cody for a moment, weighing the possibilities what a man like that could need the most at the moment. âGrab the mop. Weâre cleaning the kitchen.â
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ââand then he looks at you with those big eyes and youâre supposed to say no? How?â Cody hauls the bucket out of the sink, black sleeves rolled up to his elbows. âWhile he tells you once again about boundaries and all the important aspects of choice, and due diligence of command.â
âThat sounds like a you problem,â Dex says drily, scrubbing at a medium stubborn stain on the durasteel work counter.
âI am aware, thanks,â Cody sneers and Dex hides his laugh in the spritz of grease remover. âI want to be unaware of that but that stage has passed right to anger.â He wrings out the mop with what Dex would describe as thirst for vengeance. âMaybe I can un-love him,â he murmurs to himself like on the verge of epiphany. âWhat stage is that?â
âBargaining,â Dex replies, crosses two of his arms while another still scrubs at the stain. âThose are the five stages of grief by the way. Youâre falling in love.â
âIsnât that the same in the end?â Cody mutters which is certainly food for thought.
âThe first time I met Obi-Wan,â Dex starts and the Commanderâs incredible attention is focused on him like a laser. Itâs intimidating even for someone like Dex. âHe got stuck in the darkness in the back alley.â
âSounds just like him.â
It had been right out of a horror holo.
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The alley behind the diner had always been a quiet place on Coruscant.
Dex let the trash bag fall into the dumpster but no sound came forward.
It had never been this quiet and dark.
He tapped on the ground with a foot. Nothing. Flicked his fingers against a drainpipe.
Nothing.
âIâm sorry,â a young voice said from the dark, right behind his shoulder, and Dex jumped. âI donât know how to stop it.â
He spun around, squinted into the unnatural dark.
A soft sniffle from above and he looked up and into blue glowing eyes. âIâm sorry.â
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Smoke rushed past him, howling and shrieking in the distance. Two of his hands were clamped around a small waist while the child and he tried their best to separate smoke from the darkness.
âI really am trying to corporeal my sense of self,â the child defended himself and Dex could only imagine the kinds of accusations thrown his way.
âDonât worry about.â Theyâd been trying to untangle the child from the side of the building for close to twenty minutes with no progress at all. âYouâre like a sticky womp rat,â he muttered.
âExcuse me?â
The offense taken was a bit too hilarious. Dex grinned up at the kid. âYou donât know what a sticky womp rat is? The slime toy? You throw it to the ceiling and it sticks.â
âA slimeâ!â
And just like that they both fell to the ground. Dexâs back would never forgive him.
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âI trapped someone in their nightmares,â the young Jedi confessed, shoulders hunched up.
âDid you do it on purpose?â Dex asked, whisking hot milk into the custard.
âAt first,â was the murmured reply, and Dex was surprised. The child didnât seem the type. âI was so angry with Bruck.â
âYou let them go?â
âAs soon as I could.â
Dex turned around, watched Obi-Wan wipe at his eyes with the smoky sleeves. âWhich wasnât fast enough, Iâm guessing,â he said, placed with custard bowl in front of the child.
âThereâs no one like me at the Order,â Obi-Wan whispered. âI want to help, not be the cause for pain.â
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âHe took it to the extreme,â Dex says, remembers the instances too close in time where Obi-Wan visited him, looking more and more human and less and less like himself. âHe put his nature into a box and forgot about it.â
âHis compartmentalization is top tier,â Cody murmurs, close to awe.
Dex facepalms. âNot the point.â
Cody takes another dozen plates to the designated cupboard. âAfter the incident,â and Dex can hear the suppressed capitalization of the word, âhe was like a newborn. Stumbling and helpless.â
âMustâve been a nightmare.â He remembers the chill, the feeling of being hunted.
âNo one slept a wink the first week,â Cody laughs, sobers. âIt was like the ship was haunted by ourselves. He apologized so much. Wasnât easy.â
Dex can only imagine.
Cody looks up, makes sure of the eye contact, and Dex doesnât do him the disservice of looking away. âHe had helped us so much. So we stepped up and helped him.â
Obi-Wan is one unlucky son of a blaster but he earns the loyalty given to him.
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âThank you, Dex,â Obi-Wan said, eyes glowing blue. Small claws clinked against the empty bowl.
Dex nodded, ruffled ginger hair. âAnytime, young Jedi. Your ride is here.â
I know, was whispered into his ear and he shivered.
Obi-Wan blushed. âSorry.â Hopped down from the seat and into the care of the Jedi, visibly sagging with relief, coming through the diner door.
There was a small black blob on the floor. Dex wiped it away without second thought.
Cold, cold, alone. Strangling suffocating he knowsâ
âI know what you did and your victims will be more forgiving that I am.â
Cold. He runs. Runs runs runsâ
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âYou two should come in together next time,â Dex suggests, shakes off the memory.
Cody smiles at him.
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âI am the hungry.â Obi-Wanâs eyes rush into black. He takes a step forward, flickers. âI am the anyone. I am the everywhere.â The void spreads, consumes. âI hunt your nightmares until I become them.â
âSee,â a voice whispers into Codyâs head, âdeep down, deep down, theyâre all like that.â
Cody nods, stands up straight. âBlast him.â
The 212th turns as one, fires. Fires and fires until the smoke screams.
âGood soldier,â the voice says.
Cody wakes.
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The next day ARC trooper Fives is declared a traitor.
#goo! on the negotiator#star wars#codywan#obi wan kenobi#commander cody#creature!obi wan#obi-wanâs eyes are inspired by husky eyes#my art#frostbitebakery art#thank you Nonny!! sorry that it took a bit
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All in | Chapter 11
pairing: Lee Felix x f!reader (mafia au)
summary: You didn't know what you were getting yourself into when you started dating Yang Jungwon, notorious mafia boss. Your life gets flipped upside down when you're found beaten and bloody by SKZ, the rival mafia group, and you're quickly integrated into their lives. What will happen when you try to leave your old life behind and start anew?
chapter summary: When you realize Felix has been injured, it's up to you to help him out. Chan gives you a proposition you can't turn down.
warnings: please see series masterlist for all warnings
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âStabbedâŠâ You look at him incredulous though you can tell by the blood seeping through his shirt that he isnât lying. âWhat are you doing? We need to get you medical attention, come on!â You grab his hand, pulling on to him but he doesnât budge.Â
âKeep your voice down!â he shushes with mild urgency.Â
âWhat? Why? Shouldnât we let someone know whatâs happened? We should probably tell ChanââÂ
Felix interrupts you by putting his hand over your mouth, grabbing your shoulder and pulling you further into his room. He closes the door behind him and you spend a moment staring at one another, breathing heavy, his hand still over your mouth. You clear your throat and he releases you.
âWe canât tell Chan,â he says finally.Â
âWhy?â you demand.Â
âItâs not his problem to deal with,â he snaps. âItâs not yours, either. Iâm perfectly capable of treating my own wounds.âÂ
âIâm sure you are,â you start, gazing anxiously at the large patch of blood seeping through his shirt. âBut please let me help you.âÂ
âWhy?â he questions, defeated.Â
âYou helped me when I was injured,â you explain. âThe very first night I was here, when I left? Do you remember that?âÂ
âSo youâre helping me because you think you owe me? You can just forgetââÂ
âFor fuckâs sake, Felix, Iâm helping you because I care!â He freezes at that, blinking at you for a moment as if dumbfounded. âStop being so stubborn. Just let me do this, please. Bathroom, now.âÂ
âFine,â he sighs, finally given up. He follows you into the bathroom and you see a first aid kit already set up, as well as a rag covered in blood thrown in the sink, likely used to try to stop the bleeding.Â
âTake your shirt off,â you demand as you grab a new rag.Â
âIf you wanted to see me shirtless you could have just asked,â he says with a cocky smile to break the tension. He makes a show of slowly lifting his shirt off by grabbing the back of his collar and lifting it over his head. You wash your hands and try not to look at him, clearly flustered despite the joke.Â
âYouâre not funny,â you tell him. âI need your shirt off to see your wound.â
âMhmm,â he responds. You donât even have to look at him to tell that heâs smiling. When you do finally turn around, you gasp. The stab wound is worse than you had thought, obviously very deep by the blood still gushing out of it. You grab a rag and kneel in front of him, pressing the fabric hard against his stomach.Â
âYou need to stop the bleeding, dumbass!â you exclaim. âYou could have told me you were still bleeding while you were standing around making jokes.â You press the rag even harder against his stomach, watching as the material quickly soaks up the blood. Felix just shrugs his shoulders, unbothered.Â
Despite his joke earlier, you do take a moment to admire his physique and washboard abs now that his shirt is off. Heâs very muscular and well-built and you try not to stare but you feel your cheeks heating up at the proximity. You resist the urge to run your hands up and down his abdomen to feel how solid his muscles areânot the time nor the place. When you look up at Felix you see that heâs staring down at you fondly.Â
âWhat?â you grumble, embarrassed to have been caught staring.Â
âNothing. If I didnât know any better, I would think you actually care about me,â he teases with a lilt in his voice.Â
âOf course I care about you, I donât want you to die,â you scoff. âYouâre going to change your mind about me caring about you in a minute. I donât think youâre going to like me very much when I have to sterilize your wound.âÂ
His face pales.Â
You look through the first aid kit to find gauze and you look around the bathroom and find a bottle of antiseptic soap. You take your time cleaning the wound despite Felixâs protests and hissing when the soap comes in contact with his skinâand then you bandage him up. You wash your hands of the blood that stains them and you even find Felix a new shirt from his room. You throw it at him and he takes it, saying nothing. You cross your arms and stare at him for a moment.Â
âAre you going to tell me how you got stabbed?â you ask him.Â
âAre you going to tell me how you know how to clean wounds so well?â he challenges. You look away and say nothing. The reality is that youâve come to know first aid after being with Jungwon for so long but you donât want to say that. The words are left unsaid.Â
âThank you,â Felix finally says after a beat.Â
âItâs nothing.âÂ
âNo, really,â he repeats, taking a step closer to you. You back up and the wall presses against your skin. âThank you so much. You have no idea what it means to me.âÂ
He reaches out and pushes a strand of hair away from your face before cupping it between both of his hands. Your sure your face is hot from the attention and you want to look away but you just canâtâheâs a thing of beauty, blonde hair still frizzy and pressed up against his skin, freckles more visible than usual from the paleness due to blood lossâyou find it unbelievable that someone can still look this good after whatever heâs been through. His eyes seem to be searching yours, as if trying to find something, and his face is slightly flushed. Youâre about to make a comment about how he should probably lay down, he might catch a fever if heâs not careful, but then heâs pressing his lips against yours.Â
Heâs kissing you.
You immediately lean in and reciprocate. This is everything youâve been secretly fantasizing about since you came here, after all. His first kiss is gentle, testing, and then he pulls away. Youâre both in shock of what just happened but also breathing heavy, eyes lidded half-closed with desire. This time, youâre not sure who leans in first.Â
When you slightly part open your mouth he takes this as permission to slip in, his tongue dancing into your mouth frantically. Youâre just as eager, and you canât help but let out a small moan when his hands find their way to your hips, kneading hard on the flesh before pulling you even closer to him, flush against his frame. Your hands come up to his fair and luscious blonde hair, weaving their way intricately into the locks before you gently pull his face away from you.Â
âYouâre sick,â you tell him, just above a whisper. âYouâre delirious from the stab wound. You didnât really mean to kiss me, youâll regret itââ
He silences your anxieties with another kiss that you melt into.Â
âNo,â he denies. âThatâs not true and you know it. Iâve wanted you since I first met you. I need you carnally, okay love? Donât let there be an ounce of doubt in your mind that this is anything other than what it is.â His eyes are practically glowing.Â
âYeah? And what is this, Felix?âÂ
He says nothing but his gaze trails back down to your lips. You find that your own body is almost vibrating in desire from just a single look.Â
âTell me Iâm not wrong,â he pleads. âTell me you want me too.âÂ
âYouâre not wrong,â you admit quietly. Thatâs all he needs to place a trail of kisses down your neck, suckling gently on the skin but not hard enough to leave a mark. You let out a breathy open-mouth groan and tilt your head back as his mouth trails to your collarbone and he pushes you impossibly closer to him. You can feel his bulge press up against you and youâre about to say something, beg for him, but you donât have to. He places his thigh right between your legs.Â
You let out a small gasp at his action and you meet his gaze, just for a moment to admire his lust-ridden expression. You take advantage of the situation heâs presented you with, allowing yourself to indulge in the delicious friction heâs created by grinding on his leg. Your hands trail down lower to palm him through his sweats, getting an equally expressive reaction. You feel his hands at the hem of your shirt, asking you for permission to lift it up and youâre eager to agree, but you donât get a chance to take it off before youâre interrupted.Â
Thereâs a knock on the door.Â
He pulls away from you inhumanly fast, as if electrocuted by your touch. Youâre sure your heart is beating just as fast, the adrenaline pumping through your veins as you look in the mirror and make an attempt to fix your appearance.Â
When he opens the door, Hyunjin stands on the other end.Â
âY/N,â he says. You furrow your browsâyou werenât expecting Hyunjin to be looking for you.Â
âYes?â you respond with a tight-lipped smile. You feel as though you have just been caught doing something you shouldnât, and the way Felix stands awkwardly with his arms crossed across his bare chest tells you that he feels the same. If Hyunjin notices the strange dynamic, he doesnât point it out.Â
âChan has been looking for you. He would like to speak with you,â he tells you. Your heart sinks and you shoot Felix a glance, one that asks in desperation for him to save you from whatever Hell awaits.Â
âIâll be right there,â you address Hyunjin with a nod though you donât look at his eyes. He shuts the door behind him and you're left alone with Felix once again.Â
You let out a deep breath you didnât know you were holding.Â
âIâve been summoned,â you say with a smile, trying to crack the tension in the air with a joke that falls flat. You sigh when he doesnât respond and you make to leave his room when his hand reaches out, enclosing yours in his grip.Â
Your breath catches in your throat as you watch his hand, his thumb rubbing soft circles on the skin of your own. âThis isnât over,â he hums. He lets your hand fall from his grip and it dangles idly at your side but you can still feel the warmth of his touch lingering on your skin.Â
âIt isnât,â you decide, and before you can stop yourself youâre lurching forward and pressing your lips to his again in a short but heated kiss. He lets out a shaky breath and you breathe it in like itâs the oxygen you need to live. You leave his room, leaving Felix wide-eyed and speechless.Â
When you find Chan, heâs in his office. You can tell because you can hear muffled speech behind the closed door. It sounds like heâs on the phone, and you donât even have to press your ear up to the wood to overhear his words, loud and agitated. âGonna kill him,â you hear, and your heart thumps erratically in your chest. âFucker is lucky he got away with a missing finger and he has the gall to go to Enhaâs base and betray us? If you or any of the guys find him, donât kill him. Iâm gonna need him alive for the things I want to do to that son of a bitch⊠gonna tear him limb from limb andââÂ
You knock on the door promptly, cutting him off. Your cheeks are heated up and you pretend like you havenât heard a single word. Chan ends the call with whoever he was speaking to and comes to answer the door himself, cracking the door open and peeking his head out.Â
âYes?â he asks, clearly irritated.Â
âHyunjin said you wanted to speak with me,â you say, unreasonably anxious.Â
âRight,â he muses. He cracks open the door just enough to slip through, obscuring your view from whatever is inside his office. Youâre not sure you want to know.Â
He crosses his arms and looks you up and downâyou feel very small under his gaze and you find yourself wishing you could shrink and hide yourself even more.Â
âYouâre going to go on a date with me,â he tells you.Â
You blink. Once. Twice.Â
âExcuse me?â you say, because youâre sure youâve misheard him.Â
âA date,â he repeats. âDinner. Just the two of us.âÂ
âOkay, so I did hear you,â you blank. âJust⊠why? And you know, usually youâre supposed to ask someone out on a date, not demand.âÂ
âI have feelings for you,â he admits, though thereâs no intonation in his voice to indicate heâs speaking of anything other than the weather or what heâs eaten for breakfast. You remember Woojinâs suggestion that Chan was in love with you and you shudderâeven if he was right, you werenât expecting him to confess his feelings point blank. âAnd I would like for you to go on a date with me and give me a chance,â he adds.
âChan, just⊠what if I donât feel the same?â you ask, trying to approach the conversation delicately.Â
âYouâre going to give it a chance,â he tells you, voicing his finality.Â
âWhat makes you thinkââÂ
âIf you go on a date with me, Iâll take you to see your sister.âÂ
And just like that, Chan proves that any decision he makes will be certain, instantly swaying you with one sentence. This is the power he has over people, you remind yourself. But even so you find it hard to say no when this is the only thing youâve wanted since the day you arrived.Â
âThatâs not fair,â you say, voice deflated.Â
âSo?âÂ
âOf course, Iâll do it,â you huff. âYou knew I wouldnât say no. Couldnât say no,â you correct. âAre you expecting me to fall in love with you over the course of one date?âÂ
âOf course not,â he laughs. âThat would be silly. Tomorrow evening, wear something nice.â
âI donât have anything nice,â you point out.Â
âYouâll figure it out,â he smiles.Â
And he leaves you like that, outside of his office as he closes the door shut behind him. Youâre left to guffaw at the door and you find yourself wanting to punch something, to scream into a pillow, maybe. But itâs late and your body is tired from the overexertion and emotional-whiplash of the day. Your body slumps heavily into your bed and you lay face-down in the cool, expensive covers, not bothering to shower the grime off. You fall asleep probably faster than you have in weeks.Â
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When you arrive in the kitchen for breakfast, you see that it is full of life. Lee Know is making what smells like waffles and Jisung is by his side, definitely burning some breakfast sausage. Itâs endearing. Jeongin sets the table and Felix pours drinks. You turn to Chan to speak but watch as he sits at the head of the table, crossing his arms.Â
âY/N,â Seungmin calls. âCan you bring this to the table?â You help set up with the boys for breakfast, noticing that Chan is the only one that doesnât seem to be doing anything, just watching. Anxiety bubbles in your gut, a sense of dread looming over you as you think about what is to come for tonight.Â
Youâre noticeably quiet during breakfast. Jisung asks if youâre alright. You tell him you are but itâs a lie. Youâre sure he can tell but he doesnât call you out for it.Â
After breakfast you visit Hyunjin in his room, knocking on his door delicately. The smell of paint permeates the air and his hair is disheveled, as if he werenât expecting a visit from you. He invites you in, nonetheless. The room hasnât changed much from the first time that you saw it, but you notice heâs painting. A large canvas sits on a tarp in the center of the room, no longer covered up.Â
The painting is beautiful, intricate although unfinished. It depicts a little boy in a garden, sitting and smelling pink peonies. The boy looks sad, clearly out of place in the bright garden. Even his clothes are dark and drastic compared to the rest of the setting. Heâs holding a book.Â
You think you have been looking at the painting for a tick too long. Hyunjin clears his throat and you snap your head to look at him, clearly embarrassed to be caught staring.Â
âItâs beautiful,â you tell him.Â
âItâs nothing,â he replies, brushing off your words. Â
âHow long have you been painting?âÂ
âItâs a more recent hobby,â he says. âI never⊠had the time. What can I do for you today?â He says, changing the subject.Â
âWell, I do need a new book,â you smile. âBut also⊠I need new clothes.âÂ
He blinks at you. âThatâs not really my area of expertise,â he says. âWhat do you need clothes for? You should have plenty.âÂ
âThe Bang Christopher Chan had the courtesy of inviting me on a date tonight,â you explain.Â
âAnd you said yes?â he questions, not looking at you. Youâre taken aback by the question; youâre curious if heâs picturing you in Felixâs room last night, clearly disheveled and engaging in questionable acts.Â
âHe told me that if I go on a date with him, heâd let me see my sister.âÂ
âAhhh,â he says, as if that explains things.Â
âRight. So⊠clothes?âÂ
The only form of acknowledgement you get that heâs heard you at first is the nod of his head. Then walks toward his bookshelf, searching for something. It doesnât take him long. The book is on the smaller side but you notice itâs fully annotated. You turn it over in your hands.Â
âThe StrangerâŠ?â you read outloud.Â
âYes, Camus. He was a French author, very brilliant. Many would have called him an existentialist, though he hated that term.âÂ
âWhy do you think that is?â you ask, humoring him. He thinks for a second.Â
âExistentialists believe that you create your own meaning. Camus believed that there was no meaning to existence.âÂ
âWhich do you believe?âÂ
He smiles at you. âMaybe Iâm still trying to figure that out.âÂ
And with that, he leads you out of his room. He walks you down the hall, hand placed on the small of your back to guide you. For a moment, you think about your first few days in the house. Hyunjin thoroughly pissed you off; you hated all of the assumptions he made about you, but even more so you hated that he was right. Now, Hyunjin is someone dependable. Funny how things can change in the blink of an eye.Â
Heâs knocking on a door you havenât seen before and you hesitate for a second, wanting to ask him about his intentions. He must notice you open your mouth to speak and he brings his finger to his own lips, a motion meant to show you to be quiet. You do.Â
A disheveled Jeongin opens the door. You wonder if heâs just woken up from a nap. âYes?âÂ
âGo on,â Hyunjin says for only you to hear. âTell him.â That catches you off guard, and for a second you wonder what youâre even supposed to be telling him.Â
âUhh⊠oh. Um, I need nice clothes. I donât have any.â Jeonginâs eyes immediately light up and you realize the reason why Hyunjin has brought you here. He was simply redirecting you to someone that could help.Â
âI have to go take care of some business, but you take care, Y/N,â Hyunjin says, patting you on the back. âHave fun on your date, if even possible. Kind regards to your sister.â He says the last piece for only you to hear, for which you are grateful. Youâre not sure if you want to explain to Jeongin that youâre going on a date with Chan, and even more so why youâre not entirely looking forward to it.Â
Hyunjin walks down the hall and Jeongin disappears into his room for a moment. You peek in the door, trying to catch a glimpse to see if anything will reveal more to you about him. You notice itâs clean and smells fresh, a little florally, as if heâs just lit a candle. He reappears a moment later, keys in hand and sunglasses on his face.Â
âLetâs go,â he says. Youâre caught off guard.Â
âGoâŠ?âÂ
âWeâre going out,â he says, as if it has been made obvious. âWeâre going shopping?âÂ
âOh! Right. Can I⊠Am I allowed to do that?âÂ
âSure,â he replies. âIâll bring Minho and Jisungie. Maybe Felix will want to join tooâŠ?âÂ
âNo,â you say too quickly. He looks at you, confused. âUm⊠I just would prefer it if he didnât come.â You donât mention that youâre embarrassed to be caught by him going on a date with Chan, especially considering the feelings and chemistry you and Felix have been dancing around.Â
âAh, alright!â he says. Youâre glad heâs dropped the topic so quickly. âIs it okay if Minho and JisungâŠ?âÂ
âYeah, yeah!â you interrupt. âOf course.âÂ
Youâre kind of excited to leave the house again, though you feel a rush of nervousness flood through your body for a moment. The last time you left the house, you went to the gala. Yang Jungwon died in front of your eyes and Lee Heeseung apparently declared that you were next on his list, causing you to hide out in a motel. Is it really safe to go out this casually?Â
You shake your head as if that will do anything to make the thoughts go away. A date with Chan might not be the most appealing thing in the world. A shopping trip, however, is a well needed distraction.Â
And it goes farely well. Youâre grateful for Jeongin who knows just which stores to go into and exactly which outfits you should be trying on. You try not to think about the prices of things, knowing that while you could never afford them for yourself these men are very well-off. They could certainly afford to buy you clothes and entire stores, if you requested. And while you probably only need one dress for the occasion, you donât complain when you leave the store with numerous bags full of clothing items.Â
Jisung is quite good at hyping you up, making you feel like every outfit looks perfect on you. Youâre grateful for his bountiful energy and grins. Heâs funny and he feels a lot like a friend which is a quality you appreciate in him. The way his face is always so expressive of what heâs thinking puts you at ease, knowing he never has an alternative motive. Heâs just as receptive of what youâre feeling, you realize, constantly checking up on you to make sure youâre doing okay. He probably can tell youâre anxious to be out of the house again. His presence makes you feel calm.Â
âWait one second, Iâll be right back,â Jeongin says, running into a store. Something must have caught his eye. Jisung is looking down at his phone, completely distracted for a moment. You notice your heart is beating faster and faster, not realizing that your thoughts are racing.Â
You remember being at the gala, excusing yourself from Changbin for a moment to go to the bathroom. You were just gone for a second. A second is all it took for Jungwon to take you from them. What if theyâre not paying attention and someone comes and takes you again? What if Heeseung knows where you are, and he comes and grabs you and takes you away? He wouldnât be as kind as Jungwon, you think. You wonder if he would kill you on the spot.Â
âY/N.â Itâs Minhoâs voice that breaks you out of your trance. You must be looking at him with wild eyes. His expression doesnât give anything away but you can tell that heâs concerned. âWhat are you thinking?âÂ
âDo you ever get nervous?â you ask him, suddenly. The question catches him by surprise. He blinks at you, waiting for you to elaborate. âYou were there,â you explain, âat the warehouse with me. Donât you think about it? Think about how easy it would be to get held captive again? I mean, for fuckâs sake Iâm still being held captive right now, but itâs all I can think about, Minho. What if he comes for me? What ifââÂ
âY/N.â He says your name again and itâs steady. Youâre silent for a moment, trying to catch your breath. âBreathe. Itâs okay. We wonât let anything happen to you, you know that, right?â You nod your head.Â
Once your breathing finally calms down, he gives you a light smile. You notice the way his teeth peek through his lips giving him an appearance not unlike that of a bunny. Itâs endearing.Â
When Jeongin appears again from the store, heâs holding a small box. You want to question him about its contents but you decide against it. He walks in front of you with Jisung, making conversation that you canât quite catch.Â
âI do, by the way,â Minho says. He matches your pace so that he can walk next to you, staying in your proximity so that you donât get left behind by the others. âGet nervous, I mean. Itâs normal.â He doesnât elaborate and you donât ask him to. What heâs said is enough.Â
You notice Jisungâs wide eyes staring at you from where he walks with Jeongin. He has his own ways of checking up on you, and you appreciate it more than heâll ever know.Â
The afternoon goes by like any other. You take a hot shower to soothe your aching muscles and it helps you to clear your thoughts. You read a little bit of the book that Hyunjin loaned you. Itâs a little dense but itâs definitely interesting. You like reading his annotations; they give you a glimpse of what his thought process looks like. His handwriting is neat and you do your best not to smudge the ink from the pen with your fingers as you thumb through the pages. You procrastinate getting ready for as long as you canâthe sun has started to go down by the time you apply some light makeup and do your hair.Â
Chan looks handsome, infuriatingly so considering how angry you are with him. But he has promised you that you will see your sister, so you canât help but feel giddy for what is to come.Â
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hopeless hearts just passing through - J. Hughes
This my entry for @wyattjohnstonâs low-key lovefest 2k24 prompt list challenge. I chose âstop making promises you arenât going to keepâ from the angst list and âyouâre the only person I wanted to see tonightâ from the fluff list.
Summary: Jack had messed up, again. Can he make it up to you this time, or is it too late?
Words: 2.9k
Warnings: light angst, Jack being a dumbass, some bad language, fluff
Title from: I was made for loving you, by Tori Kelly
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Thursday 28th December
[7.00pm] Youâve reached Jack. Iâm obviously not here right now so leave me a message after the beep.
[7.25pm] Youâve reached Jack. Iâm obviously not here right now so leave me a message after the beep.
[8.00pm] Youâve reached Jack. Iâm obviously not here right now so leave me a message after the beep.
âHey Jack, guess youâve forgotten our call. Again. By now you probably have other plans tonight? Just⊠please give me a call when you listen to this.â
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Friday 29th December
Morning came without a phone call. You didnât know whether you were surprised or not, if you were being honest â this wasnât the first time heâd forgotten to call you while on the road like he promised he would. This time though it felt different. Maybe it was because the two of you had spent a wonderful happy Hannukah & Christmas together only days before that hurt you the most. Maybe it was just because you believed Jack when he promised. Either way, this time you couldnât let it go â it was a matter of principle.
You made it through your entire morning routine, getting washed and dressed for work, eating breakfast, packing your lunch into your work bag, before your phone started to ring. Jack. You glanced at the clock on the kitchen wall, wincing as you slipped into your shoes and grabbed your hooded coat, bag and keys on the way out the door. You werenât going to be late, not for him.
âIâm on my way to work, I really canât talk right now.â
You answered bluntly, pinning your phone between your shoulder and your ear as you put on your coat the moment you stepped into the elevator.
âI am so sorry baby.â
Really?
âThatâs really all you have to say?â you snapped, picking your work bag up off the floor now that youâd zipped up your coat.
âWhat else can I say?â
You were stunned for a moment, lips parting. The nerve of this guy.
âOh I donât know, how about what youâre actually sorry for?â you said, the sarcasm in your voice barely hiding your anger.
You heard him huff out a breath, perfectly in time with the elevator doors opening on the ground floor of your apartment building.
âIâm sorry I missed our call. I know I promised to call you but I just totally forgot. The guys were all excited about a mario kart tournament and I really wanted Luke to finally get in on the action!â
âPlease donât blame your brother for your mistakes.â
Jack inhaled sharply over the phone. You could almost picture his mouth opening and closing as he tried to think of something to say, just as he usually did in person, so you just waited for him to speak as you trudged down the street to your usual bus stop.
âIâm sorry. For blaming Luke and for upsetting you. It wonât happen again, baby, I promise.â
Yeah, okay. As if that was the first time heâd said that.
âStop making promises you arenât going to keep,â you said sharply.
Jack was silent for a moment or two.
âWhat do you mean?â
His voice sounded so small, so quiet, like he finalised realised the depth of how badly heâd screwed up. Good.
âYou know what I mean, Jack. Iâm not asking for the world â I know your team will always be priority. Iâm just getting sick of never even crossing your mind at all. Even a text to say a mario kart tournament had started last minute wouldâve been better than being fucking ghosted by my own boyfriend,â you groaned.
Thankfully there was no-one else at the bus stop to hear your cursing.
âBaby, please, I can do better. I will do better.â
He was clearly panicking, voice full of desperation with whatever he was reading from your own voice. But you just sighed, not really sure what to say because this wasnât the first time so would it really be the last? Could you really believe him?
Before you could think of an answer to his pleading, your bus came into view as it turned the corner onto your road. Clearly this was a sign.
âI have to go, my bus is here,â you said softly.
âNo baby, wait please, I-â
You ended the call without letting him finish, already feeling a headache coming on as the anger washed out of you. This was the last thing you needed after the heartache of last night â his panicked pleading. It wouldnât help his case when he was so far away, not when you were this frustrated with him. The best thing for you to do, rather than tumbling into saying something you would regret, would be to give yourself some space, some breathing room.
Something that Jack clearly didnât agree with as he immediately called your phone again.
Thankfully the bus pulled up right at that moment, so you felt justified in ignoring him, slipping your phone into your pocket as you flashed the driver your bus pass, focusing on finding a seat for your commute.
It was all you could do to keep your face neutral, trying to ignore the overwhelmed tears stinging at your eyes as your phone continued to buzz for most of your journey.
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As you suspected, your morning at work was terrible. Not only did your mild headache turn into a fully formed one, but you were clearly giving off âleave me aloneâ vibes because your colleagues steered clear, leaving you to stew in your emotions in peace. Not even a walk outside during your lunch break did any good â you still had a headache, the food you packed was so-so, and you had three emails to deal with that were really not your problem.
Didnât people know that sending emails between Christmas and New Year was pointless?
âHey, youâve got a delivery.â
You jerked your head up from your computer to see your office receptionist standing next to you with a gigantic bouquet of flowers â white and pink roses, to be precise, around three dozen. What the hell?
âUh, thanks,â you murmured, forcing a quick smile as she passed the bouquet over.
You tried desperately to ignore the whispers and stares around you as you spotted a card. Really you knew there was only one person who would send you flowers, but you still opened the small envelope with shaking hands anyway.
âIâm sorry. Jack xxâ
A simple message but it still made your heart ache.
That, and it made your lingering headache pound more. This was so typical Jack, wanting to do some sort of grand gesture which in technicality was very sweet but also so not what you needed right now. You didnât need the reminder that things were shaky between you two. You didnât need the stares and attention from your colleagues, all of them now knowing that something was wrong from your reaction. And you didnât need to carry the bouquet home on the bus with you, the unresolved tension between you and Jack hanging over you like an axe.
Or, well, like a bouquet of 36 flowers, bigger than your head.
âOh honey, what did he do?â
You winced at the pitying voice of your colleague, smiling sadly as you shook your head.
âIâd really rather not talk about it,â you said softly.
She nodded, smiling sadly back.
âWell if you change your mind, message me and weâll go for coffee,â she said, voice quiet, trying to give you a modicum of privacy.
You just nodded, thanking her quietly in response, and she left with a squeeze of your shoulder. She meant well, you knew she did, and hopefully this interaction would stop anyone else (especially those who loved to stir drama) from approaching you too.
It was all you could do to put the flowers on the side of your desk, trying to ignore everything they represented. You had work to do â thinking about Jack right now was not going to do you any good.
When your phone buzzed a couple of hours later though, you still read the messages that Jack sent, one after another coming in.
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[3.22pm]
From: Jack I got an email saying the flowers had been delivered. I chose white and pink roses to symbolise how much I love you and my loyalty and how sorry I am. I know that I messed up and I understand why youâre upset with me. But please give me a second chance?
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He'd looked up flower symbolism. He specifically chose white and pink roses because of their meaning. What were you supposed to do with something so romantic when you were this frustrated with him?
Fuck.
With a sigh you pulled up the Devils schedule on your phone, confirming the date in your mind that heâd be back from his roadtrip. He was still in Ottawa today and then Boston tomorrowâŠbut he would be back on New Yearâs Eve. You could work with that.
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[3.35pm]
To: Jack The flowers are beautiful. Thank you. I am still upset with you, but I will hear you out. If you want to talk, come to mine on NYE. I have no plans.
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The two of you hadnât discussed any parties or plans at all for New Yearâs Eve, even though you had assumed Jack wouldâve dragged you somewhere in the end. But this was better. You needed time alone with him because there was no way you could face him for the first time after all this while surrounded by other people. Putting the ball in his court was the only way to keep your sanity at this point.
With another sigh you put your phone down, raking a hand through your hair as your eyes lingered on the colourful blooms on your desk. They really were beautiful.
You werenât surprised when it took mere minutes before your phone buzzed again.
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[3.37pm]
From: Jack Iâll be there. I promise.
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Saturday 30th December
[11.15pm]
To: Jack Sorry about the loss. Youâll get the Bruins next time.
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[11.20pm]
From: Jack Thanks â€ïž
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Sunday 31st December
You hadnât spoken to Jack since texting him after yesterdayâs defeat. Mostly because you knew he was travelling, but also because you knew that him coming over to yours tonight was when you really needed to speak.
For some reason you were a little nervous. You didnât know what it was really that had you furiously cleaning your apartment, but those fizzing bubbles ran all through your body the whole day. It didnât help that you had no idea what time Jack would come over. Assuming he was still coming over, that was. No, he had promised, and he knew how you felt about promises. At least you hoped he had learned his lesson on how you felt because you werenât sure of how much more you could take.
Tonight had to be your deciding factor on protecting your heart, you knew that much.
When youâd scrubbed and rearranged and hoovered all that you could, you showered and dressed up in a comfortable black velvet tea dress, curled your hair and put on a little make-up before putting some wine in the fridge to chill. It was New Yearâs Eve after all, and you knew that if Jack didnât turn up by 9pm, your friends had insisted that you go over to theirs to celebrate the new year together. It felt good to know that you had a safety net because if Jack didnât show tonight? You were done. And you knew youâd need the support of your friends to get you through.
Fuck.
You really hoped he showed up.
When it got to 6pm, you put some soft music on, hoping to drown out the silence of your apartment, feeling like an idiot for just sitting around waiting for him. What if he didnât show up? What if he let you down again? What if this was the end of your relationship? What ifâŠ
Bzzzzz
The buzzer for your apartment crashed through your swirling thoughts and you quickly jumped to your feet, cheeks heating with how ridiculous you felt.
âHello?â
âHey, itâs me. Can you let me up?â
Jack. He came.
You didnât answer, just pressed the button to let him in, trying to keep yourself calm as you paced to and forth while you waited for him to take the elevator up to your apartment. In all reality it didnât take long, but after the last few days it felt like a lifetime.
âHey.â
âHey.â
You huffed out a laugh at your awkward greetings, stepping aside to let him in.
âThanks, uh, for inviting me over,â Jack said, rubbing the back of his neck.
âWasnât sure what time you would come. Or what you were doing tonight,â you murmured, shutting the door behind him.
Jack groaned, walking further into your apartment, you following silently. âI shouldâve texted. Fuck, I shouldâve told you exactly what time I was coming over, but I got so caught up trying to find the right thing to wear and dropping Luke off early at Nicoâs andâŠâ
Oh bless his heart. He was going straight into it then.
His rant trailed off as you pressed a finger to his lips, responding to your amused smile with a shy one of his own.
âYou look great, Jack â you always do,â you said simply, dropping your hand back to your side, âBut I actually meant if you had other plans around this like parties you were going to go to.â
Jack immediately shook his head, face more serious than youâd ever seen it.
âYouâre the only person I wanted to see tonight,â he said firmly.
Oh fuck. Your breath hitched in your throat at his words, Jack taking the chance to hold both of your hands.
âI messed up. I know I messed up. I havenât been treating you with the respect you deserve and missing even one call with you without letting you know why is unacceptableâŠâ
Wow. This was far more than you had ever expected from him, and your heart ached with the emotion he was putting into his thoughts. Maybe heâd rehearsed this with Luke, maybe he was winging it, but you could tell in his eyes that he meant every word. He was right â you hadnât been respected like you deserve. Could he really turn himself around though?
ââŠI really am sorry, baby. I love you so much and I canât bear the thought of losing you. Please, will you forgive me?â
The confidence in his voice wavered a little, voice cracking with the emotion of his words, and you felt a pang radiate through your chest. Youâd never seen him look so vulnerable before. Maybe you needed to see it.
As you formed your thoughts, you kept your hands in his, squeezing to let him know you were processing so he didnât panic or shut down. That was the last thing you wanted or needed. This was a lot, and it was important that you said what you really meant.
âIâll admit, I wasnât expecting to dive straight into this.â
Jack winced slightly, lips parting, but you shook your head. No, it was your turn now.
âYou really hurt me, Jack. I appreciate that you understand that, but it still doesnât change the fact that I was hurt. I donât ask for much and you couldnât even give me the bare minimum,â you started.
The whimper that escaped from his throat just about broke your heart, but you barrelled on.
âI deserve more. I deserve better. I deserve respect, youâre right. I justâŠI really hope youâre the one that can give that to me,â you said softly.
As your words sunk in, a hopeful smile quickly spread across his face.
âI get a second chance?â he grinned, making you huff out a laugh.
âYeah, Jack, you do. But you wonât get a third. I donât like feeling like I donât matter and you canât do that again,â you said, hoping he understood how serious you were.
Jack nodded, squeezing your hands.
âI wonât let you down, baby. I almost lost you once by being a careless asshole, I wonât lose you again,â he said, smiling.
Oh how that smile gave you butterflies.
âI love you,â he said again.
It didnât matter how long youâd been together or how many times he said it â hearing those words fall from his lips made your heart race every single time.
âI love you too,â you said, finally smiling back.
Jack whooped, throwing his head back in celebration, making you burst out in laughter, even more so as he dropped your hands to wrap his arms around your waist, picking you up to spin around in a circle. Ridiculous, ridiculous man.
âI love you, I love you, I love you.â
You just clutched at his shoulders as he murmured the words over and over again in your ear, hoping that this time, his words would be true.
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