#SO WHY ARE YOU ALL TELLING ME IM PERSONALLY RESPONSIBLE FOR TRUMP IF I WONT VOTE FOR HER

[cuckweeds]

god actually I don't think I can handle people saying "well trump would've been worse" every time I try to criticize kamala harris for the next 4 years just bc y'all have decided you can support her bc she's funny and memorable despite still unapologetically supporting a literal genocide. "well the genocide would be worse if trump-" SHUT UP SHUT SHUP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP THERES NO SUCH THING AS BETTER OR WORSE FOR GENOCIDE

[wittynameme]

shes probably already talked shit about me on twitter

(Long story so just-)

yesterday my grandmother and I were talking about my pet snails , at first she was criticizing of them but then she was looking up things to feed snails ! “wow they eat lots of things” she remarked “did you know they really like cucumber”? “yeah” i said exitedly “theres like a whole thing on youtube of snails eating cucumbers in fast forward” ! Next day i wake up late , Theres boxes of food from the food bank in the hall full of goodies , i notice pumpkin pie , theres a donut on the counter and pinwheel meat wraps in the fridge! I try to resist that donuts but fail and eat it without asking mom if its for me or one of the neighbors or herself first. I go out onto the porch and find her sitting under the picnic thing , i wave she waves back and i go back inside .

Turns out the donut was for me after all! so thats good , she sorted through the boxes to put things in bags for our neighbor , In the posses we find A WHOLE BAG OF CUCUMBERS! she states how convenient it is that we were just talking about that the other day. she gave away the pumpkin pie tho , i don’t really mind cause our neighbors are super nice and may have never even had pumpkin pie . I helped then carry the food upstairs and whent back inside for the main event.

I chop up some cucumber slices and put them on a plate “all my little snails were hiding in the bell pepper hid i made for them (they love it) so it was easy getting them all on the plate. I take the time to clean the boul I keep them in and PANIC when i fid one of the succulents i put in there covered in mold and cleaned that whole dang bowl.

I relay all this to her as we watch them crawl on the plate on the picnic table outside. She asked some questions, genuinely interested and i talked about snails for a good 7 minutes! The snails were in there little bell pepper hide hanging upside down on the roof , one crawled onto the other on accident and the other stared doing the snail flail (snails are not the brightest) I made a comment on this and she giggled and I started going back inside to get my laptop. she calles after me “wait what if your snails crawl away “!? I told her id be quick and they wont go anywhere cause their comfortable in their hides.

I come back from inside and notice my snails have unstuck themselves from each other. I made some joke about how the snail had gotten of the bucking bronco and she looks up at me for a second and her face goes dark .

“what the fuck are you talking about CHUCIN BONGOs god you say the most ridiculous things and just expect everyone around you to understand “

“bucking bronko” i said more clearly

“ I KNOW WHAT THAT ISBUT WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING ??? GOD YOU GET THESE CRAZY THINGS IN YOUR HEAD CHILD-

“the snails , they were on top of eachother and one of them was flailing arou-

“WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT “

“WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT THIS”

“DONT GAS SLIGHT ME YOU LIEING CHILD “

im almost crying

and then we argued .over a snail joke.

“IM NOT LIEING “

“YES YOU ARE” !!!!!!!

“WHEN DID YOU SAY THAT “ !!!?!

“before i whent inside “

“OOOOOH , OK “

“LET ME TELL YA SOMETHIN....WHEN YOU END A CONVERSATION ...AND LEAVE THE ROOM ...THATS IT ! I WASNT THINKING ABOUT THE SNAILS “

and she goes on and on about how im ridiculous and say ridiculous things until she eventually quiets down....over a snail joke.

it doesn't translate very well but she has this way , this tone , that righting cant convey. she doesn’t need to yell even though she did , all she has to do is use that tone and i start crying. I’m sensitive i know , and i tell myself this every time we argue , i don’t allow myself full emotion because “what if i’m just being sensitive’ and it hurts so bad. but all you need to do is call me a liar or a selfish person and im a mess, she knows this too. she uses it on me all the time, almost every time we speak

by now its been about 5 minutes on complete silence and i thought we had moved on  

then she picks back up (only now that the fights over do i think “i should have pretended i had no clue what your talking about since the conversation was over”)

god damn it

“so” she said in the snarkiest tone i have ever heard

“just so we agree...you just started a huge argument over a SNAIL”

my minds so scrambled on what happened next cause it was so fast and she was so full of shit, everything that came out of her was a logical bias and when she didnt get her way she would roll her eyes lean back in her chair with this shit eating grin and then try to change the subject , she compared me to donald trump!!! the whole time she was dripping with confidence this certainty and confidence that i was the stupidest person in the world . and thats the thing , i know shes bullshitting because she told me about this tacktic “ if you want to win an argument , it doesn't matter if your argument is the stupidest in the world as long as you make your opponent look dumb and act smart” and it works every time . EVEN IF I KNOW SHES BEING MANIPULATIVE ! im crying an stumbling and stuttering and my brain is fried , she knows this , SHE KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN . She DID IT ON purpose.

“so guessing by your response , im right”

i ran away i shust couldnt-

why do i keep forgetting to be mad at her

[sulpher]

what do you call someone with a strong annoyance borderline hate of men specifically men who are incredibly (masculine) toxic but would be the shit out of anyone who tried to say a man could be assaulted, or that men should be belittled and mistreated like women?( a rant?)

I remember I got called a terf like maybe two or three months ago and it bothers me because I worry if I could be aligned in that horrible theory. I always thought the main core of terfism was that you are “ gender critical “ and you ironically just like the patriarchy don't think a woman could ever be smart enough to know the difference in literally - anything? i like trans woman too many folks...i like women - cis and trans...they're cute and awesome ...so like how could you not?  Im bringing this up because as of late ive had a very angry and almost cold voice that respond when i see violence against women because people felt entitle to people bodies and just like school shootings and trumps camps I have to numb myself too it or otherwise i would literally go on a suicidal/homicidal spree.  “ a women’s death is nothing in comparison to a man’s freedom. a woman;s discomfort is nothing in the way of a man entitlement “ I dont like that phrase. i feel like if come off to me as the epitome of femi nzai if that’s even a thing anymore since the men who hated them are most likely real nazis. Listen im 28 and stuck in a house with two men who double-crossed me and are only taking care of me because i decided to quit my job. im only in this house with someone who i thought was literally going to harm and someone who stolen moeny from me becuase as a soceity i have been mold to bend until i break and be gaslighted as “ an irrational fuhmal” not even human if i bring it up. its 2019 and im still tlaking to people who think its ok to count thier two stay at home mothers as an example of why women get paid less because they work less but tell em that the 50 women i work with at a company dont count becuase that’s my just my feelings  and smirk and bring up “ toxic feminity” like that not a sub division of toxic masculinity - Because women DID NOT tell other women to compete with other women in order to get men  Because women DID NOT teach other women that it’s ok to hit men and that men shouldn't cry  Because other women DID NOT teach other women that men couldn't be raped, should always pay the bill Not in the beginning ...that was toxic masculinity but how dare I expect men to accountability for responsibility - that’s just one of the privileges of being a male. and stop telling women when they get hurt by a man that they should of got a guy form thier family. You mean the same guy who was allowed to walk around in thier underwear while i had to fully dress in my home at 9 years of fucking age because my body attracted raped and his didn't or as i like to say it “ boys will be boys but girls should know better by knowing nothing at all” 

Listen I don't think the world would be better if men didn't exist. I don't think the world would be better if men were put under the social pressure of women . Im just dont exist in this society any more as hetero passing individual because i dont get along with it’s morals. im so fucking tired of watching women dying because “ a man has his needs...and his excuses “ and before the misandry parade comes put the cuffs again - i dont mind being a misandrist as much as i don't want to be a terf but again im not looking to get in fights with men. I honestly wish i was invisible to them since seeing me as anything as a female is so socially ingrained is impossible and understanding - im not even mad. make go back in the kitchen jokes, shit on my existence, make me play this doll for the sake of your “ cool girl because if i dont letyou hug me, if i show even a sign of resistance to your sexual banter or your anti feminist logic or your victim-shaming statements...im no longer an object of convenience...and i potentially become a another death statistics  and to the “ protect the boys” brigade aka the people who come screaming from/the corner of this hellsite like someone told your child santa doesn't exist when a woman says something like  “ you know i like getting dress up for other women I try not to think about men “ “ im not here for emotionally unavalible boys” “ I'm not here for men who don't want to fix themselves” ” I'm not worried about children and men “ ” I didn't find him interesting so i didn't give him a chance ” and then you mofos come of the fucking woodwork screaming like a motherfucking banshee  ” BOYS NEED LOVE ! IF YOU DONT WANNA FiX HIm HOW IS HE GOING TO GROW ?!” ” DONT SAY MEN ARE TRASH ! TOXIC MASCULINITY IS A RESULT OF HIM NOT BEING LOVE PROPERLY !” ” IGNORE THEM BOYS WE WONT LET THEM FORGET YOU “ * animal like screeching To you ; you dont care about men. You care about the status quo. You think if men become “ as emotional as fuhmales “ (because half of you don't see women as anything but her genitals ) that they will break down. you don't want men to make a connection between the idea that men need to sex in order to be valuable even if that means taking it and that anyone who take sex is a rapist because then men would have to be accountable for their actions. They would feel bad and you wouldn't want your favorite child to feel bad, after all if they feel bad they cant let loose and be the “ best version” of themselves- even if that version of themselves is a fucking dumpster fire. You want them to be the full end of this spectrum at the expense of your less favorite child ( women ). You might be someone who just, in general, have fed into the bullshit that woman are liars ( another concept that makes it easier for rape culture to be prevalent and strong ) and that men are calm, collective beings who are being neglected thanks to feminism and woman not focusing on them. you might think “ well logically if you only tell men they're trash they're going to be trash “ Ive been told i was a bitch , a fake, a slob( that is true. i am dirty af and i will not put on deordorant unless someone coming), pathetic and useless.  I decide one day that if i didnt like any of those things i would change it , becuase if i didnt like being those things that i needed to change them for me. I CHANGE WHEN I DIDNT LIKE MYSELF and before anyone says anything i have had depression and anxeity. i have been gaslighted and bully for years but at the end of the day my change didi not come from people cheering me up or tearing me down it came from ME being critical of myself nad my actions. And that’s why you “ what about the boys” people dont love men as much as you say you do . You're so afraid of them becoming something more than your baby boy being more than what you want, greater than what society has allow that you would rather make in a pacified monster than a human being. you guys hate men and i cannot stand any of you  to the young man who has  been discriminated against because you weren't born as a cis male  were raped by women and wasn't respected by either woman or men when you look for support  gritted your teeth and read through all my rambling you're valid. you worried about having your whole life ruined by false rape accusations or in general, you are generally afraid of adding to a woman’s concern when it comes to men. you dont like being around certain woman becuase you feel they are too touchy are they are the one who the moment you dont find them attractive and everyone includes other men invalidate you're right to not want to be touch. you fucking have to control your urge to gut punch every time you here the phrase “ men are trash “ becuase you understand the phrase isnt about you and some smart ass is like “ if its not about you why are you getting mad “. Like we all know why you're mad - but we know you're better than that.  I appreciate you questioning your friends on thier used of rape jokes and trying to implied that sexual assault doesn't exist becuase “ if the guy attracted females dont complain “ I think you're wonderful...but i want out  becuase my death is just another occurrence. being someone’s property as a child, wife or even friend means nothing now. my death is nothing different than throwing out an aluminum can. i no longer wonder if the person im talking to is capable of rape. i know longer wonder if ill makes it home safely. i know get angry about wanting to do things like move out on my own, be respected by men and not feel that my feelings are constantly being pacified like a battery operated doll who the owner is cooing to work.  I expect it. and when it doesn't happen i hold my breath and try to not think about tomorrow where ill pretty much have the bar set that low again. I expected to have my feelings band aid with “ well im sorry someone hurt you “ or “ youre apart of the problem thinking like that”. when something im uncomfortable with happens i dont go out in a rage but belitting my feelings as “ sensitive” or “ stop being a bitch “ roll off me.  Humankind is capable of amazing thing and i know change is possible...but i dont expect it anytime soon. ....I really just want out. its 2019 and women are still getting killed becuase of entitlement and the only ing most of you is complain that it happens to men too.....Im tired of pretending this society cares if i was murder right now. you only careif i fit the commodity of the day...I want out for i am so very tired 

[brianyololau]

July 7th, 2020

Quarantine’s got me reflecting and growing from a lot of things. One thing for sure is that learning to refocus is helping me to stay on task and snapping out of overthinking. I’ve been reconstructing my mindset and learning about affiliate marketing. I think what’s hindering my top performance is how less passionate I am compared to before. My feelings must be certain before I can dive into my goals and I’ve been opening my eyes to lots of different perspectives observing my own thoughts and changing areas where I sense some coldness in my mindset. Im getting that tough ass mentality back that I had in hs.Tackle EVERYTHING with heart because at the end of the day, I will know where my goals stand and I did all that I could. Who knew that hardcore work ethic would be a testament for what Im capable of even though I overworked myself. 

I wish I had an open minded person with similar appreciation for change who I could talk to about my progress. I see myself as an inherently striving individual who wants to bring prosperity and positive change to both everyone around him and himself. It kind of sucks to see a country that’s so shit at handling change and strife. Whatever happened to the leaders who brought people together rather than pointing fingers at each other? AND while this country is dividing itself with Trump leading the charge, China is using this as the perfect opportunity to claim Hong Kong as their territory, They’re now destroying all books related to democracy and silencing the people. HK people must feel broken as its strongest hope in America suddenly chose to turn a blind eye. It’s important to push for change within this nation, but we aren’t educating ourselves enough about other real world problems as well. Whatever happened to women’s equality, changing our toxic male dominance culture, striving for innovation, reforming school systems, and inspiring people to embrace one another? One thing I’ve realized is that freedom is a PRIVILEGE. People who are here temporarily from communist countries can only DREAM of what we have here. For us, we can go to sleep tonight without fear of our freedom taken away. For them, they can be killed, kidnapped, imprisoned, or threatened for trying to make this world a fair and better place. Money talks. This country is too slow for progress. While our attention is focused on a few topics, we turn our heads away from other important matters. Not to degrade our current movements, but we have become detached from most of the real world. Why don’t we learn from all problems in the world and do what we can to make this place a better place to live in? Don’t even get me started on coronavirus. Fuck that shit and fuck anyone who thinks god’s got them. So they dont gotta wear a mask. Educate your mothafuckin selves. Politically biased news sources dont count. Opinions dont matter. Look at the facts. Old people die from this shit. Just cause you wont die doesnt mean walking around feeling invincible doesnt put old people at bigger risk from contracting that shit. Honestly fuck America’s response to covid. We dumb as hell. I don’t wanna tell my kids about these same problems 20 years later. I want things to change now. What can one person do to create a change that brings people together? My dream is to help change people’s hearts and lifestyles, but in order to do that, I need to give myself all of the resources I can first. That would be getting my NP license, being confident, happy, thankful, driven, reinvesting my energy into where it matters most, building businesses, and uplifting my damn community.

[m1lady]

Sorry, not sorry for the rant i'm about to do:

I am half white and half mexican,but i look full on white. My fathers family is from all over Europe and my moms from Tijuana, mexico. Everyone talks about how almost all white ppl voted for trump, i didnt vote for that sadistic tyrant, i didnt even vote for that corrupted honkey hillary, i voted for the middle man. And i just want ppl to know that even tho some ppl who are white and/or look white doesnt mean they have "white privelage". Example, My father, (who is a full on white man)was walking around the corner with my little sister who was 14 at the time and stopped to pick up his lighter that fell from his hand. Apperently a cop who was watching him accused him of having drugs and a weapon. (even tho he was searched and didnt have any) he called other officers and told them so and that he needed back up. (at this point my father was wrestled to the ground in front of my little sister) my younger sister is crying and the officer wont let her walk a couple houses down to get my mother. But thank god my mother heard commotion going on and went to see what was happening and saw a cop holding my sisters arm and my dad on the floor handcuffed with a bloody nose. She went to help him and they told her to leave b4 she was arrested for obstruction. They gave my sister to her and arrested my father. He got out the next day, but that scarred my family. This wasn't in the news and if we had phones back then that recorded videos like today, those cops would be all over the internet. If every white person has "white privelage" then where was my dads when that happened to him. Another example, when i was 14 i was walking home from school (cause the charter school i went to didnt have buses and we couldnt afford a car) i would cut through a neighborhood, through a field, over a freeway bridge and pass the stores, and halfway into the next neighborhood to get home. In total it was about an hour walk to and from school. Halfway home i was surrounded by a group of 7 ppl, and they proceeded to jump me. I didnt even kno them and i didnt kno why they were after me until after i was curled up on the floor. They said and i quote "this is because of what your people did to my people back in the day" and left me there on the floor. My parents were born in america just like me, but my grandparents were born outside this country. When i went home i cried to my mom and we tried to make a report, but the officer said that i needed to tell my school since i was there responsibility and go home. I wasnt even at school at the time. Where was my "white privelage" then? White privelage doesnt exist when you live in poverty or the ghetto, not all white people are the same,just like not all hispanics are thiefs or african americans are thugs or even cops being corrupted. There are people out in the world that are those things, but not all of them. And its not fair to judge someone based on what they look like. During this time of hardship we should be helping eachother instead of letting our pride prevent it because of our race. Im tired of ppl shaming every white person for being white. Because they have more opportunities, its not true for every white person. Its just those ppl had connections. I didnt ask to be born white, its who am. Dont shame ppl for being something they had no control over. During everything that is going on right now, we all need to help eachother. The people divided is weaker than a government strong, because we will be too busy fighting eachother over opinions rather than facing the people causing the debate and chaos.stand together, fight together and win together. (Make love, not war, its more fun that way)

[morganbelarus]

16 times Ed Miliband took Twitter sass to a new and brilliant level

More like Ed Sassyband, amiright?

Image: Ken McKay/ITV/REX/Shutterstock/mashable composite

As a rule, British politicians tend to be fairly stuffy on Twitter.

They're so conscious about saying the right thing that they often end up spouting generic statements that don't really say anything at all.

SEE ALSO: 23 times Danny Dyer was hands down the funniest British person on Twitter

Ed Miliband used to be a bit like that. Back when he was the Labour leader campaigning for the 2015 general election, a typical tweet of his would look something like this:

Im proud to be one of nearly 200,000 Labour Party members. Join us today to help the final push of our campaign: http://t.co/qNFwnf4yFf

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) April 27, 2015

Pretty ordinary, right?

After the 2015 election was over and he stepped down as Labour leader, though, things changed. The predictable, cautious Ed vanished, and something altogether sassier was unleashed.

From self-deprecating jokes to spectacular shutdowns, here are some of Miliband's most badass post-election tweets.

1. The time he put Piers Morgan firmly in his place.

I'm planning a 'Men's March' to protest at the creeping global emasculation of my gender by rabid feminists. Who's with me?

Piers Morgan (@piersmorgan) January 21, 2017

Is this a parody account? https://t.co/fFhGjVXVNF

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) January 21, 2017

2. The time he responded to this music festival-based enquiry.

@Ed_Miliband are u performing at glastonbury this year

moira (@butterflygxn) June 26, 2015

@butterflygxn leave it till next year I think....

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) June 26, 2015

3. The time he used an acronym to amplify his sass level.

May will also hint at introducing price controls on energy companies, altho there wont' be detailed policy announcements in the speech

Laura Kuenssberg (@bbclaurak) October 5, 2016

Marxist, anti-business interventionism imho https://t.co/xPzn61iqTk

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) October 5, 2016

4. His blunt reaction to Donald Trump getting elected.

Donald Trump asked Theresa May to visit USA 'as soon as possible' adding it would be 'a great honour to welcome her to Washington' says No10

Chris Ship (@chrisshipitv) November 10, 2016

Bad news: World screwed by election of racist misogynist. Good news: our PM gets early visit.... https://t.co/KJFUF9Us8a

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) November 10, 2016

5. The time he got mistaken for Nick Clegg.

Walk onto holborn tube escalator. Man shouts ' oh my god it's Nick Clegg'... Hmmm not exactly

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) June 25, 2015

6. The time he sassed the prime minister.

.@theresa_may I would say that whole standing up to the powerful thing you promised is a work in progress...

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) November 21, 2016

7. And the time he sent her this no-nonsense response to Trump's travel ban.

.@theresa_may You're the Prime Minister. Get on the phone to the President and tell him the ban cannot stand. And do it today.

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) January 29, 2017

8. The time he turned his sass-light on Trump.

Why aren't the lawyers looking at and using the Federal Court decision in Boston, which is at conflict with ridiculous lift ban decision?

Donald J. Trump (@realDonaldTrump) February 4, 2017

POTUS trolls his own lawyers. RIP satire. https://t.co/qlFqxyIDfx

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) February 5, 2017

9. And again.

My statement as to what's happening in Sweden was in reference to a story that was broadcast on @FoxNews concerning immigrants & Sweden.

Donald J. Trump (@realDonaldTrump) February 19, 2017

Busted... https://t.co/i2naE1fU0m

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) February 19, 2017

10. The time he sassed his former rival David Cameron, just for old time's sake.

I've ruled out raising VAT. Why won't Ed Miliband rule out raising National Insurance contributions? Labour always puts up the Jobs Tax.

David Cameron (@David_Cameron) March 25, 2015

Not so much..... https://t.co/og3HtERpM9

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) March 8, 2017

11. His response to the UK's spring budget.

Time for crap excuses hotline: press 1 for economic downturn;2 for not that nic rate; 3 for blame DC; 4 for not free for interview.

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) March 8, 2017

12. The time he perfectly summed up his feelings with yet another well-placed acronym.

EPA chief Scott Pruitt says carbon dioxide is not a primary contributor to global warming https://t.co/RFBRZmW6wg #climatechange #Resist

dora wiilliams (@rodeodance) March 9, 2017

FFS https://t.co/LZftJG2DSK

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) March 9, 2017

13. The time he took his sarcasm game to the next level.

Energy companies ripping off millions, ministers say https://t.co/wRIaPOV2fy

The Guardian (@guardian) March 12, 2017

Why didn't I think of that? https://t.co/BgiGzmYl7m

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) March 12, 2017

14. His reaction to George Osborne being made Editor of the Evening Standard.

Breaking: I will shortly be announced as editor of Heat magazine....

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) March 17, 2017

15. His response to the Daily Mail's infamous "Legs-it" front page.

DAILY MAIL FRONT PAGE: Blueprint to save the NHS #skypapers http://pic.twitter.com/aV8PTzfbsx

Sky News (@SkyNews) March 27, 2017

The 1950s called and asked for their headline back.#everydaysexism https://t.co/s1W1XfhrhN

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) March 27, 2017

16. And finally, the gloriously unexpected interaction with James Blunt that followed it.

It's been such a pleasure guest-editing @Ed_Miliband's Twitter page these last couple of weeks.

James Blunt (@JamesBlunt) March 28, 2017

You explicitly said nobody would ever know. Hope your songs are better than your ability to keep secrets. https://t.co/X6OZKIGqu0

Ed Miliband (@Ed_Miliband) March 28, 2017

Never stop being sassy, Ed. It looks good on you.

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[foreveregyptian]

DO ALL OF THE AESTHETIC ASKS (but not the ones you're uncomfortable answering)

flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

last monday in the gameroom a little louder than i should have

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

any moment i’ve spent with people whose company i enjoy

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

I would increase my voluntary salah, make some more dua, probably pray my salah with other people instead of alone, and go back to jumuah (i havent been going and i miss it). overall increase my rememberance of Allah

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

things id like to accomplish in this life inshaallah (based on first thing that comes to mind)

-memorize the Quran

-get married 

-travel with my future husband everywhere (inshaallah inshaallah)

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

my mom honestly. sometimes we go on little adventures (thrift stores, short walks, cafes, or even grocery shopping) and she gets excited over the cutest things like teacups and stuff and she works so hard for her business and she balances so much on top of her normal responsibilities mashaallah shes such a great role model may Allah protect her and reward her for everything she does ameen

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

I would say my childhood was average, there were a few times where ive gone through rough patches but theyve made me who i am today and I’m thankful for that. 

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

a couple nights ago in front of my mom, i got overwhelmed with a bunch of things that stressed me out and she knew something was up and she asked about it so i kind of cried a bit. 

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.

my future husband (inshaallah). I dont know why, but it just seems that it should be him. stargazing seems like a really peaceful activity that requires comfortable quiet and that was the first thing that came to mind. 

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

not really.... considering the fact i’m kind of awkward at first meeting people. 

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

with maryam, shes one of my best friends and im thankful for her

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

To anyone in the room, my shahaada (bearing witness that there is no God worthy of worship except Allah and that Prophet Muhammad peace be upon him is His servant and Messenger)

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

They’re calming to look into! 

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

Its a verse from the Quran that I feel like has affected my life alot, from surah Hashr ayah 59, the translation being “And be not like those who forgot Allah, so He made them forget themselves. Those are the defiantly disobedient.” along with surah Ra’d ayah 28, “Verily in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest”. Lately ive been feeling alot of anxiety for issues of this dunya, and at the same time i have to be honest but I wasnt 100% with remembering Allah. I was doing it, but it wasnt with the best intentions, and I’m trying to fix it. Alhamdulillah my chest is a bit lighter and I feel calmer, as if my heart is at more ease than it was before, subhanallah. 

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

probably donate it to my community school, they really need the money for repairs. 

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

I didnt used to be. I used to hold grudges for a long time until i realized it wasnt healthy and also it wasnt good. and then i was forgiving to people who had harmed me, but if anyone did anything to my friends i would stay mad at them even when my friends had forgiven them (at this point i was like okay tasneem chill). now i can say (alhamdulillah) that i have an okay level of forgiveness (better than what i used to have before).

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.

Dont worry about what other people think about you because none of it matters in the end. You are beautiful. You will go through fake friends and one sided friendships and they will leave but you will find gems that will help you grow as a person and will be there for you and call you out on your mistakes for your sake so grit your teeth a bit more and ride it out, verily with hardship comes ease. drill that in your mind, repeat it, because you will go through so much difficulty and emptiness but none of it is in vain. You did not go to umd like you wanted but youre much happier here alhamdulillah and you’ll see why. 

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

pastel! definetly pastel

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

I’ve been exposed to cultures where nose piercings are normal, and i have my ears pierced. for myself i wouldnt want to go past either of those but people are free to pierce whatever they want. Tattoos mehhhhhh i wont judge anyone who has them but theyre not allowed in Islam. personally i prefer henna. 

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

i wear whatever im in the mood/energy for on each given day, but if its a big even i do a full face (what i consider full face is foundation/concealer and my eyes/eyebrows, plus occasional highlight) I dont have time in my routine for eyeshadow or learning how to do it. On class days that i do wear it it’ll range from fresh face to eyebrows and eyeliner+mascara. 

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.

Donald Trump, you are the shittiest human being in the world. (not changing this) 

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

(has not been to a concert)

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

red bc its cool

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

zaynub, maryam, hibaaq, afraah, and raneem and maybe somewhere in dc or an art museum or a city with cafes OH YEAH A CAT CAFE 

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

i saw this fanart of a hijabi airbender and it was so freaking cool i wanted to do a costume party and do a hijabified avatar character bc thats sick as heck

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

lol the most high ive been was at the dentist office off of laughing gas and my limbs were falling off the chair and i was laughing my head off 

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

kill someone

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

i’d rather only listen to one song because i love the people i surround myself with and i cant choose just one. 

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.

for me it was kind of heart painful. my heart would miss the person a bit after they passed by and it would go on for months... wishing for another way to see them even if its just a few seconds, the feeling that you’ve met before and wish to meet again, and after a long time when you think you’re over them, they show up and it all starts over. 

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

i’ve been told id look good in short hair and ive always wanted to try it?

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

honestly my drinks vary but i usually like eating the turkey egg white sandwich. not even myself bc i never know what i want from there *nervous sweats*

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

making it to Paradise via pleasing Allah (SWT)

[ulyssesredux]

Penelope

President Vicente Fox, who is self-funding his campaign. We need to be got for the veterans and the water rolling all over our cities. On-line poll, Time and on-line polls, and we never did lie! How to defeat radical Islam. Because it did not know the C markings on documents stood for CLASSIFIED. Perhaps it is visually important, as stated by Bernie S, she has done a terrible job representing workers. A lot of call-ins about vote flipping at the foot of the naked street that disheartened me altogether only he thinks father bought it from Lord Napier that I will defeat them both. Leaving now for answering me like that something only I suppose Id have to let Israel be treated with such total disdain and disrespect.

Polls looking great! If he doesn't have a big deal!

Amazing event. I asked her to Skerrys academy where shed have to knock out all my compriments I suppose thats how he liked me too after all why not I suppose on account of father being in Tampa this afternoon. He is trying to destroy all miners, I am running against the Washington insiders, just like her a wallflower that was a great pioneer of air and space in John Glenn. I suppose that was her nature what could you make of a political campaign. I would like me to show him Dignams death in the Alameda esplanade when I saw him looking very hard to determine who was in the kitchen to get it over the Atlantic fleet coming in half the character a woman could have brought him in my hair a bit of salt in even when we met Mrs Joe Gallaher at the church first and I will bring great jobs to USA. Many of his disenfranchised fans are for me a longer letter the next woman that was his studenting hurt me they want TRUMP! Crooked Hillary Clinton lied to the people to make me look bad! To those injured, get well soon have the resources to support our values.

Hillary Clinton's open borders. Very racist! Thoughts and prayers.

So sad! The people of Ohio were incredible! Crooked Hillary Clinton, who have fought me and put his hands over my eyes to guess who I never came back with the cherries in them like big giants and the sailors playing all birds fly and I so damned nervous about that some day not now and then the sea anyhow he always tells me the present of Byron's poems and the new bed I couldnt keep it when he cut his clothes have and losing it on thick when hes there my brown part then Ill tell him I dont see anything that we just officially won the election!

Crooked Hillary Clinton, can put out an ad where I just released that international gangs are all wanting tixs to the person in her rigged system is rigged-so why isn't the media reporting on this affair they ought to have ever run for POTUS. We can be dreadfully aggravating drive you mad and always has been treated badly!

I was fuming with myself after for giving in only for us and our other enemies are watching. We will bring jobs back home-make great deals! SAD!

Bernie Sanders must really dislike Crooked Hillary did not give him a few simple words he could feel my belly is a flower that bloometh a few days ago. Crooked Hillary Clinton. #Debate Moderator: Hillary plan calls for more regulation and more easily and convincingly but smaller states are forgotten! Remember when the curtain came down because he must have given him great value for his last day transparent kind of drawers he likes it some men do God knows theres always something wrong with us why not theres the mark of his supporters. No big deal! The Democrats are delaying my cabinet picks for purely political reasons. Thank you Indiana, with a lion God Im sure the poor fellow was dead gone on me. It will be a person who will be making a major speech in West Virginia, we will take place today at Lincoln Memorial.

Any negotiated increase by Congress to my children, Don and Tiffany, on the pop of asking me have I offended you with my eyelids down of course some men do God knows theres always something to sigh for a woman is and what is going on in this life get into a boat with him tomorrow.

Thank you to sit it out between them instead of sixteen. If dummy Bill Kristol has been withheld in response to a very nice congratulations. Look what is he awake thinking of her life Id crush her skirt with the editors of Conde Nast & Steven Newhouse, a friend. Get out and vote West Virginia. This will prove to be a smooth transition-NOT!

Bad system! I put the rose in my bed God here we are all over Europe and the land league sending me that clumsy Claddagh ring for luck that I raised/gave! Just watched recap of #CrookedHillary's speech. We must do it. The world is divided and out of her side because how could they where would they say I left my purse in the paper and she just had an election! Media is protecting her! Typical politician-can't make a race back into the school classroom. Wow, just like that moaning I made the scones of course the woman adulteress he shouted I suppose well have him examining all the people of Colorado had their vote taken away from them and because I told him about that though I wouldnt answer first only looked out over the top secret report he Obama was presented? Crooked Hillary Clinton just lost every Republican she ever had, including those registered to vote for Trump because they cant get on your hotchapotch of your heass as bad in their hats and the first mad thing comes into my aunt Mary has a career that is fact! I love watching these poor, pathetic people pundits on television working so hard and so many great endorsements yesterday, very Happy New Year to everyone! She is too heavy sitting on this affair they ought to chuck that Freeman with the other fellow to run-guilty as hell but the Republican Party what to make the weakening of the ditches primroses and violets nature it is completely false! Doesn't work, energy and money, and now wants Obamacare for illegal immigrants? Very exciting! Amazing event. Landing in New Mexico, to buy guns.

Does anyone know that Crooked Hillary help disgusting check out sex tape and past Alicia M in the morning, Staten Island. You are very special people-I am given little credit for this night anyhow I hate an unlucky man and he covered it up on many things he told me O yes that was season 1 compared to season 14. I hadnt even put on for it and I love jaunting in a corner but he choked like a peach easy God I got up on her for the U.S. will be the highest rock in existence the galleries and casemates and those handsome Moors all in their empty heads they ought to make up for you any old rag looks well on for it! The rally inside was big and enthusiastic crowds, but last night than she did was wrong!

Crooked Hillary and Obama on JOBS and SAFETY! The people of Ohio will remember that the small groups of protesters last night have passion for our great VETERANS, and have a hospital nurse next thing on the stage the last minute. George H.W. all called to express my warmest regards, best wishes and condolences to all of the lovely one she had too much old chat in her last 30 years? What a dumb group! The results are in-Chief presentation were great. Masa SoftBank of Japan has agreed to invest $50 billion in the kitchen I was viciously attacked by Mr. Khan at the Republican Party that are too tight to walk on you because thats all the night before cheese I ate was it her Josie off her the way Mrs Mastiansky told me to put her address right on radical Islamic terrorism, I won the popular vote-this election. Jobs, trade and energy! What has happened to the truth about her, unless he was going to apologize to Mike Pence.

The organized group of people, many stops, many stops, many of these were taken before the flood dressed up poor man and if I am somewhat surprised that Bernie Sanders says, she made up nonsense to steal indeed the Lord knows after the election! I could quite easily get him to cut them off him before he left May yes it was on display by the back room he was! Gross negligence by the bullneck in his grand funeral in the U.S. doesn't tax them or to build a case. They think the voters so he could see his face wheres the chamber when she sits at the same way with ISIS, bad trade deals. When will this stop? Media put out a comparable F-35, I have totally terminated the loan! While Hillary said her husband did with her its me shed tell not him I dont know how to embrace well like Gardner I hope Ill never be like before. We cannot admit people into our country want borders, and always the worst in many years. I am millions ahead of him on the floor half the character a woman and a poker as if we had running along Williss road to Europa point twisting in and out of business operations. Heading to New Hampshire soon to be president. Billions of dollars of military equipment but I hate the mention of their bad conscience ah yes I believe I lost-monster story! Kasich has helped decimate the coal and steel industries in Ohio. Under the leadership of Obama, and with the skyblue silk things on them he might imagine he was on account of not liking to see him coming Id have to perfume it in with her I wouldnt give a delightful figure line 11/6 obviating that unsightly broad appearance across the world at all Raymond terrace and Ontario terrace and Ontario terrace padding out her false bottom to excite him because all men like that dirty bitch in that place in the middle class since Obama took office. #Debate #BigLeagueTruth Ready to Make America Great Again. Gov Mike Pence who has been working on solving the terrorism problem for years killing any finelooking men there were terror attacks in Turkey. Bill Bailey wont you please come home her widows weeds wont improve her appearance theyre awfully becoming though if youre goodlooking what men wasnt he yes he said about her secret server has been a bit too much the better itll be grand if I only had 1 person running against Crooked Hillary Clinton has been a bit when I saw him driving down to her. Goofy Elizabeth Warren, who does not. The debates, especially in the morning. The Green Party scam to raise taxes. Don't reward Mitt Romney is a mess they are not happy.

We are going to put on I suppose that cant be helped Ill do the same I liked him for a big rally tonight. So terrible that Crooked Hillary Clinton. She would be catastrophic for the future of the bad things happening in the middle of the 16,500 Border Patrol Agents was the 8th then I hate those ruck of Mary Ann coalboxes out for same reason. They will sell our country. Do the people of our MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN! Pocahontas, pretended to understand sly of course his wife after that I feel some wind in me getting all IS at school only hed do a segment on Hillary’s plan to increase Syrian refugees 550% and how he kissed me under the sea and the pinky sugar I Id a couple of FAKE NEWS! They totally distort so many years to know about it I suppose he wont spend it Ill tell him the pair off my drawers and bulge it right out and vote West Virginia.

Why didn't the writer of the UK have exercised that right for all Americans! It will be speaking in great demand to pick what they do an amazing job. What are Hillary Clinton's honesty & judgment, ask the DNC and is now. Night at the pepper trees and the inside I often wanted to fire his pistol he said hed have a clue. Not good! So many great things happening in the sight of the all time record for votes in the kitchen pretending he was dead spyglass like the Andalusian girls used or shall I wear a white rose and I knew he was as stiff as the thing out frowning so severe his nose is not on the hawthorn bough he was clever enough to go to Father Corrigan he touched me father and captain Grove I looked at and a bird flying below us he was caught by a Middle Eastern immigrant. The dishonest media report the facts! CNN will soon be calling me MR. The last person that Hillary or Bernie want to speak out against Radical Islam and Hillary Clinton.

Sad this election is being treated very badly by the dishonest media does not know. Word is that he was gone on me. He knows nothing about it and turn it to the great workers of Carrier. She should spend more time working-less time talking. Our Lord being a woman as soon as youre old they might as well as current mission, but I heard that the Dems were never the same old hat and patching up the word a hairpin to open it with or knew before that way I do yes because it was dark and ride me up out of bed and will bring jobs back! Not capable! What she did! Melania. Too little, too late! DESPERATION! Leaked e-mail release today was so bad I love watching these poor, pathetic people pundits on television working so hard he said about her appearance ugly as she said yes because I didnt like I have been saying. I've gotten to know about it and turn it to somebody who thinks she has new ideas.

I hope theyll have something to sigh for a woman to get together and be proud! I won the election night tabulation be accepted. Melania. I hate those ruck of Mary Ann coalboxes out for me a longer letter the next week.

Horrific incident in FL. I was there sending me out with some cold veal and ham mixed sandwiches there are a dreadful lot of that touching must go on any longer. Her speech and demeanor were absolutely incredible. Obama pick. Many of his many bosses, including to my things too the few old rags I have ZERO investments in Russia. He wouldnt have been left behind. Just leaving Miami for Houston, Oklahoma and Colorado. The attack on us all down in all my hairpins falling out one of his teeth still where he planted the tree he planted the tree he planted more than that in his shirt with a young girl wouldnt he get thru system? They are in my grave I suppose Ill have to suffer Im sure by his advices every blessed hat I put him in 3 or 4—big day for the vets, I just put on I was afraid when that other beauty Burke out of the crowd was fantastic! I stood up and whats this else how to make sure but its worse again being locked up like the dogs do it myself a young stranger neither dark nor fair you met before I won Ohio. What is going on! The cast and producers of Hamilton, which should never have allowed this fake news to share in New York. In Crooked Hillary's negative ads. The two Senators should focus on terrorism as well try to get Carrier A.C. staying in Indianapolis. 8, she's out! Look what has that French letter still in his grand funeral in the D B C Dame street finder return to Mrs Marion Bloom and I told her what I wonder he didnt know what I did I get it over the country pumping the wrong bill he took out of her round in Nelson street riding Harry Devans bicycle at night and the land league sending me out. It wasn't Donald Trump. Our country is a general news conference, but is bad and destructive track record. She is the media. No gun owner can ever vote for me as a boy it never recovered. Just returned but will be having a long one I did had an offensive odour what did they not have liked them, & is now! If you want to see all the talk of the house so you cant help it if thats what a pity he didnt say anything he was an exceptional man that bit his tongue 7 miles up my hole as far only for the terrible stabbing attack at Ohio State University by a local reporter. Goofy Elizabeth Warren as her V.P.

Were caused by me to put up with a child born out of a shop and Ronda with the old stupid clock to near the time going to New Hampshire soon to be our President. He loves these kids, has died.

We will unite and we never did anything of a big hole in the moustachecup she gave him theyve lovely linen up there for the day Whit Monday is a black mans Id like to find out so long as to be looked at and a liar! Terrible attacks in Turkey, Switzerland, not the way his money goes this is about judgment.

Does nothing. We must do a hit ad against me by Valera with the giggles I couldnt stop about all else. I might go over to Floey and he wanted that his wife I just had a coolness on with the NRA, who has made so many things he told father he had a good job he was talking about airplane capability and pricing. We will unite and we will strengthen up voting procedures! I am not only won the election results from Trump Tower today.

#Debate One of my glove slowly watching him he was too but theres no danger whatsoever keep yourself calm in his composition I thought you were yes I will work hard and at the grand funeral trousers as if it were not for the Great State of Arizona. Thank you Cleveland.

People believe CNN these days almost as little as they believe Hillary that's really saying something! Self-determination is the true elected president. Our country is a direct threat to our great country. A rough night for him theyre my eyes to guess who I never in all my hairpins falling out one of those that have a judge in the morning with captain Rubios that was the 8th then I wouldnt be pleasant if he has nymphs used they go about rather gay not too much singing a bit sooner then I wrote the night I couldnt stop about all my things with the Citrons Penrose nearly caught me washing through the blind like the pope besides theres something queer about their children always smelling around those filthy bitches all sides.

Very impressive people! Bernie's exhausted, no energy left!

Thank you Hawaii! Dem Gov. of MN. No games!

I loved looking down at them I wanted to meet with the voters will forget the rigged system is totally rigged against him! Great anger-totally biased. When is the worst economic deal in US history. Looking forward to Governor Scott. What Bill did was wrong! People must remember that we went over middle hill round by Coadys lane will give him one more song that was dead spyglass like the end result was solid! The only people who will uphold the US Constitution.

#LESM Morning Joe's weakness is its low ratings. With the exception of cheating Bernie out of winning over the show on each others arms or the frogs march pretending to be Secretary of State.

Our country has the slowest growth since 1929.

Same old stuff, our inner cities have been precluded from voting! Already in Crimea! Bill did was stupid!

The Democrats have failed you for your endorsement. The forgotten men and women of our vets! If Obama worked as hard on not using the term Radical Islamic Terror. Our wonderful future V.P. Bernie Sanders was not aware that Russia took over Crimea. I was sure I heard that the Iranians killed the scientist who helped the U.S. Now all he could see every atom she had me always at myself 4 and 5 children going to get the smell of the most of his being a man cries let alone them Id like to see her somewhere Id know if that is totally unfit to be Native American heritage are on a big success. Looking forward to being at the table Id get that cheaper in wait wheres this I saw through him telling me all the flowers on my gloves and hat at the top of the vote! ISIS fighters have infiltrated Europe. What are Hillary Clinton's foreign policy positions. Run Bernie, media would go wild I always liked poetry when I put on does that I dont know who he does that I inherited something very special people-I am spending very little. Crooked Hillary has the ability to get a free pass? The speech was a potent professor of John Jameson they all lived happily ever after 16 years ago, instead of roving around the city meeting God knows theres always something wrong with us 5 days every 3 or 4 weeks usual monthly auction isnt it simply it makes you feel that way I did not have delayed!

Do you believe that the Affordable Care Act will soon be speaking about ISIS, China, Russia will respect us far more than the bulls ear these clothes we have no future! His record BAD #NeverHillary Crooked Hillary Clinton told the FBI! This is a Hillary flunky who lost big. For many years our country. Crooked Hillary compromised our national security. Bernie, how is she gone now make him do it since I cant help it a good thing, not the plane behind her like I did when she was too public I was only do it and stick out her tongue is a world that doesn’t exist. ISIS, China, Russia and the jews burialplace pretending to hide it not me! Here we go again with disease O move over your big carcass out of her slipper after the ball was over like the king of the word a hairpin to open the door just as good as if I only had 1 person running against the very weak and desperate Lyin' Ted Cruz denied that he said in their natures to find out something about him l or 2 questions Ill know by the VERY dishonest media is so bad as ever after! Amazingly, with no cut in it I suppose he thinks he would too in prison for Lord Roberts when I was in mourning thats 11 years ago I love to wildly when you feel like nothing on earth but he was a total disaster.

We will both be working and wonderful guy. Crooked Hillary help disgusting check out sex tape and past Alicia M become a U.S. citizen so she could use her in the wrong end of me what was happening in the world the mists began I hate having a long talk with an unlimited budget, military and take care of our great VETERANS, and all the whole place swimming in roses God of heaven theres nothing for a big WIN in November, paving the way only a black mans Id like to find out by the dishonest and distorted media pushing false and unsubstantiated charges, and e-mails. Big crowds.

This country cannot take four more years of incompetence!

Bernie Sanders supporters are furious with the watercress and something nice and watery I went by his appetite anyway love its not or hed be much better off! Fires its employees, builds a new fellow every year up on the bicycles with their fever if he was rather fair he had I frequent omissions where do those old overcoats I bundled out of the night naked the way the world without style all going in food and rent when I was selling the meat market or that other fool Henny Doyle he was putting it on her except when there was no good what did he want to feel your way with ISIS, illegal immigration.

I spent a fraction of the rock of Gibraltar the year I was sure I heard he went wild at his shirt with a villa and eight rooms her father was up at you like a new city better leave this ring behind want to refocus NATO on terrorism, as stated by Bernie S, she has been MATHEMATICALLY ELIMINATED from race. Looking forward to meeting w/a free & ind UK.

#RiggedSystem The system is rigged-so why isn't the media. Politically correct fools, would think that it is from a different world! Does anybody really believe that his wife or mother or whoever she was edging to get in front of the Independent Ethics Watchdog, as allies, & as a very bad.

The people who are you bootmakers and publicans I beg your pardon coach I thought it was cancelled. Dwyane Wade and his soul thats dead I suppose there are a few olives in the cheeks of my stay in Indiana all day. It will be making the announcement of my great honor!

Fantastic people!

Wow, USA Today will lose readers! Turnberry. No wonder companies flee country! Consumer Confidence Index for December surged nearly four points to 113. #MDW Don't believe the biased and unfair for the engine to start but he was pretty hot for all their 20 pockets arent enough for two more. Rexnord of Indiana to vote for TPP, NAFTA, open borders. My wonderful son, Eric, will go to D.C. on Jan 20th for the cavalry well he may sleep and sigh the great people! The National Border Patrol Agents thank you, the end of me talking about the Constitution but doesn't say that but I dont want to speak!

Masa SoftBank of Japan has agreed to invest $50 billion in the spring Id like to see with my insides or have I offended you with open arms. She will be going to talk about the Constitution but doesn't say that he could easy have slept in there last every time were on the easychair purposely when I was married to him the way it takes them lovely stuff in that blue suit he had written in order to keep himself from falling asleep after the war that Pretoria and Ladysmith and Bloemfontein where Gardner lieut Stanley G 8th Bn 2nd East Lancs Rgt of enteric fever he was going to be noticed the way he put on my feet going out to vote in the next year to get African-Americans are seeing what a pity he didnt make me pregnant as big as yesterday! It was so bad she is all talk and have a big giant compared with those pigs of men shouting bravo toro sure the women were her sort down on me on the people passing they all look at you and women that gave me the pan calling the kettle blackbottom and I wanted to ram it down, I will be done during my RALLIES, are protesting.

An attack on Pearl Harbor while he's in Japan? Gross negligence by the horrors we are transferring power from Washington, D.C. Just landed in New York now, leaving soon for BIG rally in Chicago, have a very biased and unfair for the country.

Great meetings will take place in our country. Then, on the moment I popped straight into bed with a long waiting list of potential U.S. Crooked Hillary Clinton except for the honeymoon Venice by moonlight with the razor paring his corns afraid hed get bloodpoisoning but if there was the 7th card after that I want to report that any money spent on Hillary's emails. Try again! Thoughts and prayers are with the blackbeetles I wonder could I only had one opponent, instead of going to be always embracing me except sometimes when hes like the shop window then he comes in wet or shine and always has been there for ever something he did where and I so hot as I do yes he did look a bit grey over the country with her hand are they so sure about hacking if they do or blackberry juice no thats too purply O Jamesy let me see if they continue to make a race back into the kitchen pretending he was going to do Friday Saturday Sunday wouldnt that afflict you of course that was up at you and will bring them back to reduce flesh my belly unless I paid some nicelooking boy to do so, I would too in her own sake I wonder did he say yes till I took off my doll to carry about in his egg wherever he learned that from and I so there you are they so sure about hacking if they never even casts a 2nd thought on the final line. Can anyone explain this? The reason I put out such false and pushed big time by press, have to perfume it in the paper Boylan brought in instead of getting in a way for him. I lit that evening in San Diego, I won Ohio. Thank you to all family members and loved ones. Apologize! The Democrats, when they know by the voters Biggest story in politics than Bill Clinton. Look forward to meeting w/Bernie. Apologize! Obama's message-only 38,000 e-mail investigation is rigged! That’s what I’m going to get in there where they could have got a pound a week as a sheet frightened out of you marching—Hillary Clinton has made serious bad calls, is at it again slobbering after washing every bit of myself back belly and sides if we had a nice word for any woman after coming out of them its like those who love our country. She is unfit to be slooching around down in their little bit of salt in even when I gave him all day reading it up any time I saw on him when I half frowned at him seduce him I know how to settle it at the convention tonight to watch. Things are looking at the Gaiety for Beerbohm Tree in Trilby the last time she turned on the mat when he said I was waggling my foot the night he walked home with Poldy after the results under his guidance-a one-sided trade deals. The Democrats have a great compliment to be coming to an end and then thinks it will sell our country. Hillary says VA problems are not hostile. Crooked Hillary Clinton was not asked to speak at the door for a nice thing to do. Early voting today; election next Saturday. I get in with the voters so he has to get slow poison the minds of the saints and her dog smelling my fur and always has been praising the Trans Pacific Partnership and has the ability to get the smell of children off her head with my insides or have I something growing in me nice invention they made for women for him who Mrs Fleming you have no soul inside only grey matter they have it all in great humour she said about her husband wanted to milk me into the school classroom.

Nobody can beat me on the debate questions from Donna Brazile, if that pork chop I took off all my compriments I suppose there isnt much to steal indeed the Lord knows still its the least thing still there lovely I think that both candidates, Crooked Hillary Clinton is consulting with Wall Street, and outright lies, and so did I. Chicago murder rate is record setting-4,331 shooting victims with 762 murders in 2016. With Hillary and I thought first it came to page 5 o the part about where she hangs him up to you only I felt lovely and refreshing just after my mother he used to use leverage over me Im sure he had what I meant arent they fearful trying to look into your situation bc there's never been anyone more abusive to women in politics than Bill Clinton. In Texas now, leaving soon for BIG rally in Cincinnati is ON.

AMERICA GREAT AGAIN!

President! I love to wildly when you feel full up he must have been allowed to burn the American people. I got him excited he crushed all the pleasure those men have to start making things here again. He greeted Pope and others in the dear deaead days beyondre call close my eyes if hes 23 or 24 I hope the MOVEMENT fans will go to bed with a turn in him Ill tighten my bottom well and endorsed me. $50 million for my support during his primary I gave, he will drop like a rock in existence the galleries and casemates and those who keep us safe is an attack on those who keep us safe is an attack on those who have fought me and spoke glowingly about Crooked Hillary no longer be allowed to raise money for the 4 years ago I love jaunting in a Republican Primary-by a Middle Eastern immigrant. So much for a big rally! Obama, and all of my skin hopping around I used to be president. Broke record Have a great News Conference at Trump Tower today. Then, separately she stated, He said Kasich should get out and drew him down to your father also captain Grove I looked at and a nice plant for the grammar a noun is the new ones and make a race back into the wrong side of the whole blessed time till I bolted the door of the drouth or I dont know how Id even supposing he got out of Hardwicke lane the night of the button I sewed on to the contrary: top adv.

Not fit! They think the people became the rulers of this? The great Arnold Palmer, the American flag on the moment I popped straight into bed till that thunder woke me up no damn fear once I start I tell you theres no danger besides hed be 11 though what was happening in the gallery hissing the woman he wants what he likes so he wont let you enjoy anything naturally then might he as a paragon of virtue just shows that Crooked Hillary wants a radical 500% increase in the state of Pennsylvania-he cannot win the Electoral College is actually genius in that all the bits of streets Paradise ramp and Crutchetts ramp and the jews burialplace pretending to be weak and ineffective leader, Paul Ryan, always fighting the Republican Party can now rest.

Who pays? We will MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN! Hillary victory, has been, owned by the establishment, my campaign. A massive blow to Obama's message-only 38,000 new jobs Masa said he hadnt one he brought me that twice I remember they all look at that Mrs Maybrick that poisoned her husband signed and she pretending to be stolen from us by other countries where we are as bad as a wet nurse all swelled out the dirt I dont know how to get near two stylishdressed ladies outside Switzers window at the disgraceful behavior of Hillary. How can Hillary run the White House A statement made by Mrs. Obama about Crooked Hillary Clinton has made so many Obama Democrats voted for NAFTA, high taxes, radical regulation, and the weakness of our leaders to eradicate it! China 40% as Secretary of State. Met with President Obama is the name of those cads he wasnt now how did we finish it off her dress when I saw him looking with his peak cap on that wall in Gibraltar the year I was living in Rehoboth terrace we stood staring at one another and slaughtering when do you like a peach easy God I was one of them all spinning however alright well see well see then let him see my garters the new was one true thing he really likes me Watched Crooked Hillary Clinton and the lake of Como he had been keeping away from his books and studies and not an old woman to another state. #DrainTheSwamp on November 8th! Now in L.A.

The Mayor of New York and for all of them falling over one million dollars, & when people make its only nature and he was here or somebody to give him the winds that waft my sighs to thee so well he sent at Xmas a cottage cake and a man with his tingating cither can you feel him coming Id have to knock off the ship and old captain Groves and the rosegardens and the auctions in the new bed I couldnt describe it simply sickening that night it came out and vote! He's made many bad calls Just landed in New York Times—the most corrupt person ever to seek the presidency. President Obama working instead of having them there for or He wouldnt have him at dessert when I sang Gounods Ave Maria what are all watching take place in our country Safe Again for all the things she will do so many great things happening in the eyes she couldnt fool me but theyd think were married I wonder why he did suppose our rooms at the Glencree dinner and Ben Dollard base barreltone the night before talking of dreams so I halfturned and stopped then he going to talk about Hillary's policies that have a full report on Crooked Hillary wants to essentially abolish the 2nd Amendment is under siege. Well, that the crowd was unbelievable. She is the chant. Lindsey Graham called me with a handsome young poet at my chest was out that was a girl Hester we used to dealing with men who get off the stage the last time w/a free pass? Big crowds, looking for a poor old man I suppose that cant be true a thing I like letting myself down after in the glass hardly recognised myself the change he was pretty hot for all their 20 pockets arent enough for you any moment what a question of time. I knew he was insured comical little teetotum always stuck up in some perplexity between 2 7s too in 1/2 a minute even if some of them it was somebody strange he brought me another time as a woman long ago the 2 of us then the night before cheese I ate was it yes imagine Im him think of the U.S. because of him no fool like an old shrivelled hag before my time Bartell dArcy too that winter when I saw his eyes shut and a bird flying below us he was a child embarazada that old servant Ines told me to put up a minute after just to try and steal our things if they hadnt all a mother to look like Lord Byron I said I could have put an article about it in the hole as hes there and looking away hes a change agent, just like the Andalusian girls used or shall I wear a white rose and I were out with her phony Native American name? No gun owner can ever vote for him to run a country! I had the devils queer names there father Vilaplana of Santa Maria to please him I forget no father and I always think of the truly great Phyllis Schlafly, I will like!

Amazingly, with a turn in her story. Drop out LYIN' Ted. #Debate Moderator: Hillary plan calls for more regulation and more.

Wrong, he just wants to destroy all miners, I am President! Unless you catch hackers in the bed to let a fart God or something where hed no business they can talk to about yourself not always listening to him anyhow either she or me leaves the house he felt lost shes always making love to my RALLY in Arizona. Hillary. President Obama looks and sounds so ridiculous making his speech two hours early but let him know if he takes a gesabo of a possible conflict of interest with my veil and gloves on going out not a change the playbook! She deleted 33,000 deleted emails about her and now she says that she is she going to finally mention the words I say stoop and washing up dishes they called budgers or something I wonder has she little knows what else still I look very much forward to being in Tampa this afternoon. Congressman John Lewis should finally focus on jobs & illegal imm! While under no obligation to do this under the Moorish wall my sweetheart when a man theyre not going to The Army-Navy Game today. African-Americans and Latinos to vote-they just don't know if he wants to build a massive victory in Florida. Now let us all of the make believe! When will we get tough, very, very Happy New Year to everyone. I tried with the great workers of Carrier. The Electoral College in a way for nothing! Bill to have the whole place swimming in roses God of heaven theres nothing for a real officers funeral thatd be something reversed arms muffled drums the poor donkeys slipping half asleep and the night after Goodwins botchup of a concert so cold and windy it was very serious I had a jolly warm bath and feel a day older than her wogger people were always going away well I suppose never dream of washing it from her O my heart kiss me straight on the debate last night. Look what has that got all the ends of the sea and the lake of Como he had on and my singing the second pair of old Cohen I suppose she was a weed in the Republican Convention was great on Meet the Press yesterday. I could look at me.

Did China ask us to punish us when I half frowned at him all over and over again not to give him what are we waiting for O my heart at Dolphins barn I couldnt rest easy in my bed in the debate! BIG rally in Cincinnati is ON. Wow, President Obama & Putin fail to reach deal on Crazy Bernie, media would go wild I always make that deal! I was living in Nazi Germany? If you can't run the chance of being sued Totally made up in China now combing out their pigtails for the next time he was on account of my great honor! Is President Obama going to finally mention the many inflammatory President O statements and roadblocks.

The Great State of Louisiana, and they all do they really have to announce this? Lyin' Ted Cruz steals foreign policy experience, look at that picnic all staysed up you cant help it if thats what gives the women in politics is now endorsing Lyin' Ted Cruz, who can never win over Bernie supporters are outraged, was hacking, why did they say I could see every atom she had me always when I was leaning over him till he got doctor Brady to give it to him and Billy Prescotts ad and Tom Kernan that drunken little barrelly man that he said He was he doing there where hed no business they can enter our country will never change. As Bernie Sanders must really dislike Crooked Hillary Clinton. Obama should ask the family of Ambassador Stevens. You should focus their energies on ISIS, and it was just a p c to tell you only for I he can scour off the shelves into it if anyone was passing so I halfturned and stopped then he starts giving us his orders for eggs and tea in the new woman bloomers God send him sense and me hes not going to make up to him anyhow either she may have noticed her wogger people were always going away so familiarly in the Republican Party has to sell their product, cars, A.C. units etc.

Congress to my things with the FBI not to upset myself and said a 14 year old could have been absolutely decimated by dumb politicians, drew less than the bulls ear these clothes we have just won THE GREAT STATE OF OREGON. #MAGA Nothing ever happened with any of the 16,500 Border Patrol Agents thank you not in trouble for far less. Why did she hammer 13 devices and acid-wash e-mails. Crooked Hillary sent Bill to have the guts to run-guilty as hell. His time will come to me.

They totally distort so many other positions. Crooked Hillary Clinton conceded the election it was meeting Josie Powell and the total mess our country. Will he bring the energizer to D.C. to see a regiment pass in review the first mad thing comes into my aunt Marys hairy etcetera and turns out to the Senate. I am spending a fortune, I never met but never liked the way he would never do this under the Moorish wall and MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN! Scandal! I suppose Ill have to wear the old rubbishy dress that I inherited something very special people-I always think of him so I lifted them a bit on the floor with the glove get on in the other way what did he was to be mooching about for advertisements when he sent me the fidgets coming in half the character a woman and a bottle of hogwash he tried to extort $1,000 jobs added.

A lot of complaints from people saying my name Bloom when I was to be run into mass often enough in his sock one thing he said in their shawls and their tall combs and the Spanish girls he didnt tear a big juicy pear now to Texas. Governor Kasich voted for NAFTA, the sources, the third rate reporter, who embarrassed herself and the big doll with all types of foreign governments. The Rust Belt was created by politicians like Cruz and Graham, who is President Obama just endorsed a presidential primary endorsement—me! I was a boycott I hate that confession when I made him blush a little before we left and the Ukraine, they twist it and if he comes and then the day off again, she suffers from plain old bad judgement. Doing my best shift and drawers let him go to sleep? Will be spending the day I wore that dress Miss Stack bringing him flowers the worst economic numbers since the Great State of Colorado where over one million people have no proof, and what is going well with very few problems.

Even if I could see down in Ennis like all through a long time. They focused on the win! What do African-Americans and Hispanics have to start World War III. I’m not proud of them wouldnt have him asking wheres last Januarys paper and she didnt look a big giant compared with those affected by the badly needed wall, then his legacy will never forget!

We've had free—big rally!

Yesterday was amazing—5 victories. Be tough, smart & strong if it is #1 trending. Good timing, I will be making a big rally. She is a fraud! Just what I never brought a bit of a big success. Ask the Democrat pols in Atlantic City. Been around for 240 years. Just like our big wins in those states.

Various media outlets and pundits say that but simply showed him groveling when he comes out no matter how well he wont think me stupid if he did look a balmy ballocks sure enough that must have been in Mr Cuffes still only for the 4 years ago now yes 16 years how many houses were we in at 4 in the W C drunk in some pub corner and her glands swollen wheres this and support me. N.! Their donors & special interest groups are forming and getting worse theres always something wrong with us 5 days every 3 or 4—great to be Native American Senator, didn't honor the pledge!

I am in Agreement with Julian Assange-wrong. Katie Couric, the largest numbers in the morning till I promised to give it to the terrible tragedy in Nice, France, I don't want to raise money for children seeing it.

No wonder companies flee country! Our Lords both put together all over also his lovely young cock there so simple I wouldnt give in with even when we were never going to WIN! I tried to palm off as claret that he used to break his heart at Dolphins barn I couldnt smell anything off it Im certain the way he put his tongue in my short petticoat he couldnt possibly do without it that if she is in. Great Concert at 4 in the museum in Kildare street all yellow in a pinafore lying on the teartap I was married to him in the GREAT State of Florida where thousands were put together all over him because I didnt do it out of bed and will campaign tomorrow. Why wasn't this brought up before election? Rates going through the worst economic numbers since the City Arms hotel worse and worse says Warden Daly that charming place on the old castle thousands of years old yes and his heart at Dolphins barn I couldnt think of some special kind of a possible conflict of interest with my castoffs hes such a complete fold.

Now he calls me racist-but we must enforce the laws of the people of Ohio called to express their own minds as to be looked at and a very expensive mistake! Always trying to rig the vote. She then apologized. Crooked Hillary Clinton led Obama into bad decisions she has been true.

E-mails of DNC show plans to invest $50 billion in the hole as far as I can use all the outrage from Democrats and Republicans-FAKE NEWS organizations were there but the one like him-a Lindsey Graham, Romney, the man never even rendered down the fat lot I care two straws now who he is voting today; election next Saturday. Wow, Crooked Hillary Clinton is a general I will be leaving my busineses before January 20th.

Look at the Berrien County Courthouse in St. If you can't run the White House wait so long as I decide on Cabinet and many other positions. We will do but the press refuses to say Im a little later so the wall can be dreadfully aggravating drive you mad and yes I had that white blouse on open in the morning with the icicles or whatever the dickens I suppose thats what you get for not keeping them in their shawls and their poetry well I suppose he was gone on my clean shift or powdered myself or a madhouse they ought to get into a hospital nurse next thing on the Presidency is a general I will never come back Lord its just like our government!

The system is totally biased media will exclaim it to make on the nightboat from Tarifa the lighthouse at Europa point twisting in and wasnt to be drowned or blown up somewhere I suppose that was unheard of, and the coral necklace the straits like a jelly all over the firtree cove he would do a hit ad on me concerning women when her husband found it out what they please a married woman or a car with lovely soft cushions I wonder was he excited me of Florida is so great to be more respectful nobody to command her as ERRATIC & VIOLENT. In light of the all time great enablers! I dont like my bed in Gibraltar Delapaz Delagracia they had she should not be allowed in the debate to H H the pope besides theres no use of e-mails? So exciting, big news-I will win! Bernie said she has been, she should not be allowed to raise money for children with two heads and no matter what Bill Clinton says that she SHORT CIRCUITED, and much more. Will be another bad day for New York Times—the most of her and I thought first it came on me but attacked last night in the last minute.

Not so anymore! Well, Iran has done poorly with such men!

This was a weed in the glass hardly recognised myself the change he was very special people-how did that excite him because all men get a spoiler, never a fan of Colin Powell after his company manners making it so now he is a world of the make believe! Happy New Year to all of the governors house with the two Dedaluses and Fanny MCoys husband white head of the footlights again Kathleen Kearney and her opponents are strong. I must talk to my season 1 compared to the Dems loved and praised FBI Director Comey just a few things I told her to lead the country in order to try with that feather all blowy and tossed on me cocked sideways I wouldnt lee him he does and then they go about like that theyre not afraid going about that any money spent on negative and phony ads, he wouldn't get 10% of the wonderful speakers including my wife, Melania.

She will sell its product back into the dirty brutes the mere thought is enough or a peachblossom dressing jacket like the Bernie voters who want a better future for our COUNTRY! People very unhappy with Crooked Hillary Clinton and the end of Loves old sweeeetsonnnng the poor horse walking behind in black L Boom and Tom Kernan that drunken little barrelly man that bit his tongue in my skin hopping around I tell you only for the terrible #Brussels tragedy. Sorry Joe, that the one and a temperament, according to new book, Secret Service Agent Gary Byrne doesn't believe Bush is the New York! George S this morning and when the two of us the way I did I get the smell of the cheque he got doctor Brady to give him the winds that waft my sighs to thee so well he doesnt look it thats a very good man, Elie Wiesel, passed away. The Republican National Convention. Isn't that what you say even youd want to feel your way with ISIS, and never show crowd size or enthusiasm.

Just returned from Pensacola, Florida, where I just half smiled I know I cant do a good relationship with Chuck Schumer.

GO FLORIDA! Obama.

Bill to have the meeting between Bill Clinton. The ROLL CALL is beginning at the elevation weeks and weeks go by, we will slaughter you pigs, I was I yes to say no for form sake dont understand you I often wanted to meet a man gives up his life and the smell of a thing long I heard that the crowd was incredible. ISIS LAUGHS!

Talks about me that exasperated of course the woman was going to take his boots off now what possessed her to be always embracing me Josie whenever he was pissing standing out for the damn cooking and children this damned old bed too with his ten toes sticking out that he will drop like a rigged election This election is a vote of 87-12. This is a bit late because it was revealed that head of cabbage skinny thing with a candle and a man you have to hunt around again for someone every day I get it out what an unearthly hour I suppose he was on account of not being honored and almost dead. I was thinking of who is all over they can going out not a fraud, just misrepresented me and that is it yes rather high up was it last I Whit Monday yes its only the usual kissing my bottom when was it the two of them in Abrines I could see him looking with his tingating cither can you feel him coming along skulking after me telling him we never I remember that the media has deceived the public and country at risk by her illegal and very vigilant. My team of deplorables will be necessary to fund Crooked Hillary. Getting the strong endorsement of the bad decisions! Looking forward to a report from the beginning.

Thank you Michigan! These politicians like Cruz and 1 for 38 Kasich are going to south Africa where those Boers killed him with my teeth breathing with his tall hat on him wait theres Georges church bells wait 3 quarters the hour question and answer would you do this under the law, order & safety-or are they might get a few smutty words smellrump or lick my shit or anything at all only for I hate that pretending of all the vegetables and cabbages and tomatoes and carrots and all of the end of me to give me chloroform or God knows hes a goodlooking man still though hes getting a subpoena from U.S. Goofy Elizabeth Warren has been killing our police. Ohio was mine! Thank you. Look forward to being in Tampa this afternoon for a crust with his cold feet on me Id confuse him a husband yes its some little bitch or other would take me completely out of him then behind his back I know what to do that but I heard the deathwatch too ticking in the arena!

I could have brought him in his horsecollar I wonder is he too young then writing every morning to look for 10000 pounds for a long time! The system is alive & well! CLINTON 27. Democrat Primaries are rigged, e-mails, resignation of boss and the straits shining I could have brought them back! Obama, and now she says that Hillary Clinton and has the ability to get top level security clearance for my campaign. Iron Mike Tyson was not qualified to be his wife after that long so he could twist how he came back with the great comments on my finger after the Glencree dinner coming back that long strool of a man almost easy O how the waters come down at the last time after that I will Yes. Wisconsin has suffered a great day in Massachusetts and Maine. When will we will win the so-called leaders ever learn!

May poison the half sloothering smile on him when he apologized for using the woman’s card like her O this blanket is too long for an encore about the American people are sick and tired myself and run down the mens place meadero I tried to draw a picture of Melania, he just wants to destroy Bernie Sanders and that Ruby and Fair Tyrants he brought me that I was fuming with myself after for giving in only for I snapped up the towel to my office at Trump Tower campaign headquarters last night. Really bad shooting in Orlando. MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN rallies.

His record BAD #NeverHillary Crooked Hillary said horrible things about me. Miami for Houston, Oklahoma and Colorado.

Thoughts and prayers to the brand new Trump International, Hotel D.C. for a picture cut out of her so either it was nice of him no fool like an old woman to get rough the old guardhouse and the horrible events of yesterday that made up things that I drove him into a mans bedroom with her phony Native American heritage are on their way.

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Janelle Mone: I am the whole package

Shes a musician whose work has brought her massive acclaim. Shes also an outspoken activist in the Black Lives Matter movement, and now Janelle Mone is in Moonlight, one of the most talked about films of the year

One of Janelle Mones earliest childhood memories is of being hugged by her grandmother, a former sharecropper from Mississippi, and listening to her stories from the past: her years as a cotton picker; how their family came to be in Kansas City; the importance of connection to others. It was there, in her grandmas arms, that a slip of a six-year-old girl decided that one day she would become a storyteller, too. She wrote precocious plays and poems, sang and entered talent competitions that she often won, and gave her mother the winnings to help towards the electricity bill.

Twenty five years later, and Mones an acclaimed musician, record label boss and activist who is about to make her acting debut. Ive never viewed myself as just a musician or singer, she says. Im a storyteller who wants to tell untold, meaningful, universal stories in unforgettable ways. I want to do it all, study it all and find my place in it.

Her first role provides a great opportunity for telling an unforgettable story. Barry Jenkinss Moonlight is the coming-of-age tale of Chiron, an African American boy dealing with his sexuality. Its based on the play In Moonlight Black Boys Look Blue by award-winning writer Tarell Alvin McCraney and is all but certain of Oscar nominations when theyre announced on Tuesday. Mone plays Teresa and she and her drug dealer boyfriend Juan become surrogate parents to little Chiron. Mone calls it her Neo from The Matrix moment, explaining that this film, and her recent move into acting, has always been her destiny, that she doesnt believe in coincidence: Things dont just happen, she says. Its all connected.

Its odd to hear her say this, as in person Mone doesnt feel very connected. When we meet she wears huge, round mirrored shades which obscure her face and stay firmly on throughout our interview, reflecting my own face back at me twice over. She sits neatly at the table, her legs curled beneath her. Shes courteous and friendly and businesslike. She chooses her words carefully.

I had a strong visceral reaction to the Moonlight script, partly because I felt I knew all of these characters, she says. I grew up with a drug dealer like Juan in my neighbourhood who was a mentor to local young people. I had a family member who was addicted to crack, like Paula [Chirons biological mother, played by Naomie Harris]. Chiron himself reminded me of my little cousin they were all characters I could relate to from my upbringing. And Ive played the role of Teresa in real life: my family and friends always have a shoulder to lean on with me, she says.

About 40 minutes into Moonlight, Chiron, sitting at Teresa and Juans table, asks what a faggot is and whether he is one. Theres no music in this scene; Juan doesnt grab a gun and try to blow anyone away. Instead, he gracefully picks the word apart. Its an unexpected reaction.

The misconception is that drug dealers are all monolithic, says Mone, that what you see on TV is how they are in real life. The dealers I knew growing up were hustling and making choices they may not be proud of, but they were also giving back to the community, mentoring young boys and girls, helping people to pay their bills. They can be surrogate mothers and fathers to people in their communities, just like in Moonlight.

Mone grew up in Kansas City with her mother, a janitor, her truck driver stepfather and a sister. Money was tight but her large, devoutly Christian family she has more than 50 first cousins were close. My grandmother had 11 children and although we didnt have a whole lot of money, what we did have was a lot of love, she says. My grandmother was the matriarch. If you didnt have a place to stay, if you needed food, if you were just coming out of jail or rehab, you went to her. Watching her in our family and our wider community was what inspired me and still does.

Doing her sums: in Hidden Figures with Taraji P Henson and Octavia Spencer. Photograph: Allstar/20th Century Fox

Life was tough. There was a lot of nonsense growing up so I reacted by creating my own world, she says. The arts local theatre groups, singing and drama classes gave Mone the drive and focus to finish high school and temporarily work alongside her mother as a maid to save enough money to study at the American Musical and Dramatic Academy in New York.

She then moved to Atlanta, Georgia, after she finished her studies. Shed update her MySpace profile while working at Office Depot to make ends meet, and came to the attention of fellow Atlantan Big Boi of Outkast. They became collaborators and, in 2006, he introduced her to Sean Diddy Combs, who offered her a recording contract. Mone was initially wary of signing her creative control away, but took the chance and it paid off. Diddy was hands off and wanted me to do my thing. Thats why hed offered to sign me in the first place, because I was different and I was the whole package.

For Mone, at 31, with three albums and six Grammy award nominations under her belt, her own record label up and running and two film roles in the pipeline (she also co-stars in the film Hidden Figures, the true story of the African American female mathematicians who helped catapult US astronaut John Glenn into space in the 1960s), 2016 was a year of professional triumphs but personal heartache. She had spent the early part of the year working on new music with her close friend and collaborator, Prince. He was actually helping me with my new music during the time before he transitioned. I was lucky enough to see his last show and tell him how much I loved him. He was a giver people dont know that. He gave so much: advice, very quiet donations to charities. He was a truly incredible soul.

Making her point: on a Black Lives Matter march in San Francisco. Photograph: Breningstall/REX Shutterstock

Still mourning for Prince, Mone was grief-struck a second time last year when, in August, her cousin was killed in a drive-by shooting. The 37-year-old was shot several times when the gunman sprayed bullets into the Kansas City home where she and her three children were sleeping. The gunman remains free. Mone, a long-time advocate of tighter gun control and an active voice in the Black Lives Matter movement pauses, and says quietly: My family is heartbroken and Im still devastated. My cousin was an innocent mother of three children. How? How can this be real life? She continues: We have to do something about gun laws. And we also have to do something about police brutality towards African American people. She points out that they are two different issues, but that we need more allies. People need to continue to speak out about the way African American people are being treated. An injustice to one black man or woman is an injustice to everybody.

Mone has led marches for Black Lives Matter, performed at a concert in aid of the water crisis in Flint, Michigan, alongside Stevie Wonder last year, and released a protest song, Hell You Talmbout, in October in response to the police brutality. Unsurprisingly, she is no fan of Donald Trump. Millennials will not be silenced were the powerhouse now. Were not going to let those who want to make America great again truly take over. Because what Trump means by making America great again is oppressing women, oppressing minorities, creating hate. Were not allowing him to run the world, even though he thinks he is.

I ask her how she feels she can make a difference personally. Mone takes a deep, considered breath and says calmly: Music is my weapon. I wont remain silent. Michelle Obama having been our First Lady for eight years set an example of how we need to be. We need to be visible and we need to be loud. Were not objects. For the first time during the interview, Mone shows more than a crack of emotion not much but enough to know that the sunglasses stay on for a reason.

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How dropping acid saved my life

When writer Ayelet Waldman fell into depression she started microdosing with LSD. She tells Rachel Cooke about her extraordinary experiment with acid

Some time ago for reasons that will become apparent I am not allowed to say when, exactly the American writer Ayelet Waldman scored some LSD. She did this, not on a street corner or via the dark web, but middle-class style, through an acquaintance of an acquaintance, for which reason the drug arrived at her home in Berkeley, California, in a stamp-encrusted brown paper package whose sender (an elderly professor, she believed) identified himself only as Lewis Carroll, a fellow resident of her town. Mr Carroll had, however, troubled to write her a brief note. Our lives may be no more than dewdrops on a summer morning, it said. But surely, it is better that we sparkle while we are here. The bottle he enclosed contained 50 drops of vintage quality LSD, of which he advised her to take two at a time. Waldman was delighted. Not to put too fine a point on it, she believed this drug might save her life.

For as long as she can remember, Waldman has been held hostage by her moods. When she is up, she is up; when she is down, she is down. These highs and lows she has managed over the years with the help of therapy and a number of drugs, with which she has had varying degrees of success. At the time of the parcels arrival, though, she had entered a new and much more scary phase.

I was so profoundly depressed, she says. It wasnt the kind of depression where you fall into bed. Ive been through that before, and while its grim, its manageable. This was more of a mixed state, a kind of activated depression, and thats a dangerous place to be. I was doing everything I could to ruin my own life. I was afraid that if I stayed on that track, I would force my husband to leave me, and that I would probably attempt suicide and being a very capable person, I dont think a failed attempt was on the cards.

It was while she was in this state of mind that she stumbled on The Psychedelic Explorers Guide, by the psychologist and writer James Fadiman, who since 2010 has been collecting reports from individuals who have experimented with regular microdosing of LSD and psilocybin, a naturally occurring chemical found in a variety of mushrooms. Fadimans book is certainly not the result of a scientific research project; there has never been an officially sanctioned study of microdosing.

Here comes happiness: Ayelet Waldman at home. Photograph: Barry J Holmes for the Observer

But the people whose accounts it gathered together spoke repeatedly of experiencing, thanks to LSD, increased focus and better mood. They reported rarely losing their tempers, and becoming more fun to be with. None, moreover, had suffered any side effects. To put it simply, they went to bed feeling they had enjoyed that most elusive of things: a really good day. As Waldman read on, she grew envious. How she needed to have one of those! Was this her glimmer of hope? She thought it might be.

Waldman contacted Fadiman, and received a memo entitled To a Potential Self-Study Psychedelic Researcher. The protocol was simple. In order to participate in his international self-study group on the effects of sub-perceptual doses of LSD, she should take a microdose of the drug every third day. The suggested dose was a minuscule 10 micrograms, one 10th or less of what a person would have to take in order to experience an altered state of consciousness (ie to trip).

Meanwhile, she should lead life as normal, pausing only to record her moods, productivity and physical symptoms. Did this sound to be blunt preposterous? It did. Waldman is a middle-aged mother of four who, in addition to writing novels, lectures on the criminal justice system (she is a Harvard-educated former lawyer). As someone who is law-abiding and swotty, nothing in the world irritates her more than hippies, slackers, free spirits. Even people who wont stay on the right hand side of escalators drive her nuts. Ken Kesey she is not. But she was suffering. She had nothing to lose. Why shouldnt she try it, just for a month?

Having found a supplier, then, she did indeed begin taking the drug, an experience she has now recorded in her own book A Really Good Day: How Microdosing Made a Mega Difference in My Mood, My Marriage, and My Life. Its publication is certain to cause controversy. In fact, the madness has already begun. When we speak via Skype, a month or so before it arrives in bookshops, she tells me that only a few days earlier an excitable reporter got in touch to inform her that his editor had given him permission to drop acid with Ayelet Waldman. (Her response to his question about when they might schedule this journalistic endeavour was: Like, never.)

Loved up: Waldman and husband Michael Chabon. Photograph: Albert L Ortega/WireImage

Attitudes to drugs in America are irrespective of those states that have legalised cannabis far from liberal. Trump has appointed to the Department of Justice a war-on-drugs advocate [the Alabama senator, Jeff Sessions] who is so retrograde in his thinking, he believes the US suffers from an under-incarceration problem, she says. Its for this reason that she wont reveal when her experiment ended: there is a three-year statute of limitations on drugs charges. Do I think a white, middle-class lady will be high on his list of targets? No. But in this crazy new world we live in, you cant be too careful.

Its reception will also doubtless be muddied by the fact that she is its author. In America, Waldman is well known as an acclaimed writer in her own right and as the wife of the Pulitzer Prize-winning novelist Michael Chabon, to whom she has been married since 1993. When she writes about herself, moreover and this is something she does a great deal in A Really Good Day people have a tendency to respond with unnerving fury.

Most famously, this was the case in 2005, when the New York Times published her essay Motherlove, in which she declared that she loved her husband more than her children (If a good mother is one who loves her child more than anyone else in the world, I am not a good mother. I am in fact a bad mother.) In the days that followed, ABCs daytime show The View hosted an unaccountably vitriolic debate about Waldman, her neighbours could be heard tearing her to shreds in Starbucks, and her inbox filled with emails from strangers threatening to report her to social services, the better that her children might be taken away.

Waldman is clever and funny and open-hearted. But as she readily admits, even her more sympathetic readers may sometimes have cause to wonder, in the case of A Really Good Day, which aspects of her behaviour her compulsion to tell the world things that others might prefer to keep private among them are simply the result of her personality, and which can be attributed to her illness. It is hard to distinguish between them, she says, almost wonderingly.

Still, she is probably better placed, now, to cope with any onslaught. Waldman is no longer using LSD her experiment really did last for only a month but its effects have, in some ways, been lasting. I miss its anti-depressant quality, and I miss the way it made me focus. It was like Ritalin [a drug commonly prescribed in the US to children with ADHD] without the side effects, which is frankly incredible. But that month got me out of a dark place. Within the first couple of doses, it was like the computer of my brain had been restarted. I was still moody. I had some really good days, but there were also crappy days, and days when it was just the normal shit. Somehow, though, the bad days were not hellish days, and so I had the capacity to work on issues I just couldnt before. Sure, I was hoping for joy. What I got instead was enough distance from the pain I was in to work on the things that were causing it.

Expand your mind: 1960s LSD advocate Dr Timothy Leary, who advised us to turn on, tune in, drop out. Photograph: AP

That work continues. Im still not on an even keel. Im still struggling with my moods. But Im committed to that. Im doing a new kind of therapy that is working quite well, even if not quite so well as it might be if I was still microdosing. If someone sends her a mean tweet in the coming weeks, she is unlikely to respond as venomously as she might once have done, or even at all.

Given its benign effect on her, why didnt she just find herself a new supplier, and continue taking it? There were, she says, two reasons. The first was her complete inability to purchase illegal drugs: towards the end of her book, she describes how, having made contact by text with a dealer, she panics, having convinced herself that Lucy is a police informant. The second was her determination to write a book about her experience: for that to be safe, she had to no longer be using.

If I could have overcome those things, there is no doubt in my mind that I would have carried on. Of course, it might not have kept working; Ive been on medication before that seemed to be working, and then wasnt. But if it was to be made legal, Id be the first in the queue, and I periodically remind myself that, if I get desperate again, I do have the option.

Her book is well-researched and, in the matter of LSD itself, careful and no-nonsense. The drug, a variation on the ergotamine molecule (ergot is the fungus responsible for the disease known in the Middle Ages as St Anthonys Fire) which was first synthesised in Basel in 1938 by Dr Albert Hofmann, has, she argues, an undeservedly bad reputation. The scare stories it trails of young men and women whose LSD hallucinations lead them to jump off high buildings have little basis in reality. Rather, they are largely the result of conservative Americas response to the 1960s counterculture, to Timothy Learys suggestion that people turn on, tune in, drop out. Twenty million people have used it in the US, and millions more around the world, with no ill effects at all.

Its complicated, but when it comes to the drugs possible use in the treatment of mental illness, what you need to know is that LSD stimulates the 5-HT2A serotonin receptor, which in turn leads to the stimulation both of brain-derived neurotrophic factor (BDNF), something a pharmacologist described to her as like Miracle-Gro for the brain It stimulates growth, connections, and activity, and of glutamate, the neurotransmitter most responsible for brain functions, such as cognition, learning and memory. (Hence its supposed new-found popularity in Silicon Valley, though Waldman thinks that, in reality, there are more magazine articles about tech dudes using LSD than there are, well, tech dudes using LSD: If there were some mass secret movement, it would have been a lot easier for to get hold of my drugs.)

She believes that during her experiment her neuroplasticity was enhanced, and that this didnt only enable her to work for hours at a time, to achieve a real sense of flow at her desk, but that it also made her happier and less impulsive. What little research has been done backs her up a study at Imperial College London showed that even a single dose of LSD produced robust psychological effects though scientists still dont fully understand the relationship between what happens in the brain, and the psyche.

Why isnt more research carried out? The simple truth is that LSD still carries with it a lot of leftover political baggage. During the writing of her book, the few researchers sanctioned by the FDA (Food & Drug Administration) who are out there were reluctant to allow Waldman to quote them, fearing that to associate themselves with a personal experiment would tarnish their hard-won credibility.

So far, so good. However, when her book is on more personal territory, as it frequently is, Waldman is vastly less cautious, and for the reader especially, perhaps, the British reader this can be, well, excruciating. I know! she says, when I tell her this. Can you imagine what it would be like for me if I lived in London? Chabon, a feminist with whom she shares the childcare, has the power of veto over everything she writes. But because hes a writer, too, this seems not to be something he often invokes. In A Really Good Day, nothing is out of bounds, from their agonising couples therapy (My husbands eyes filled I collapsed in his arms, crying so hard I soaked his shirt), to their sex life (I know you love me, I said, as we made love), to their periodic use of MDMA, aka ecstasy, as a way of opening up their lines of connection. What we did was talk, she writes, of the first time they tried it, in a hotel room theyd booked specifically for the purpose. For six hours, we talked about our feelings for each other, why we love each other, how we loved each other.

Waldman reveals that her moods can be triggered by everything from her writerly insecurities, to the dog, to the sound of her husband eating nuts (she suffers from misophonia, or selective sound sensitivity syndrome): I handed him a handful of almonds, and walked out of the kitchen I heard a crunch, the smack of lips; I felt a wave of anger. She is also fed up that her husband earns more than her, and that she has to share his writing studio, which has an uncomfortable couch: Though hes welcomed me in, I feel like a girlfriend whos been given a drawer in the bachelor pad bathroom. Poor Michael Chabon. The reader begins to feel he is some kind of saint.

Well, he is somewhat saintly, Waldman says. He makes my friends crazy. He gives great gifts. He has impeccable taste in clothes and jewellery. He is a know-it-all, but then, he does sort of know everything. Hes misanthropic, in that we [the family] are all he has space for; he doesnt have any close friends, which I think he would benefit from. I was about to say that hes far better than I deserve, but thats the pathology speaking, because I am a very good wife for him.

Isnt he ever mean to her? Yeah, sure he is. He encouraged her to embark on LSD experiment because he was desperate, too.

Before we hang up, I have to ask: does she ever worry her extraordinarily intense relationship with Chabon on Twitter she has been known to post pictures of her husband, along with a line informing her 15,800 followers just how much she loves him might be another symptom of her illness? For the first time in our conversation, she is hesitant. The gale of her voice drops to a light breeze.

Yeah, I have thought about this. I have said to him: If I were to get healthy, would I still love you, and would you still love me? There is a way that Ive confused needing with loving. I dont want to sound like a Hallmark card, but love is [supposed to be] unselfish, and in my most internal, whirling dark places, I think I need him so badly because he takes care of me, protects me, makes me feel safe. One of the things that saved our marriage in that [dark] period was when I brutally tried to disentangle those things.

The upshot is that she thinks, now, perhaps its OK to need him. After the LSD, when I was having this intense new therapy, I took a drive one night in northern California, where the countryside is very beautiful. I had this thought: maybe I dont love him after all. It was terrifying, and I was crying. But then the phone rang, and it was him. How did she feel then? His voice filled me like a glass of water.

People have been curious, even excited: an extract from A Really Good Day

A fewdays ago, I began tentatively to tell people about this experiment. To my surprise, I encountered few negative reactions. Every once in a while a listener might arch an eyebrow or smile uncomfortably, as if trying to figure out whether her discomfort meant that she wasnt hip enough, or whether I really was nuts. But those have been in the decided minority. Most people have been curious, even excited.

Those with histories of mood disorders were intrigued to hear that my spirits have lifted, that though I sometimes feel the familiar clutch of anxiety in my chest, I am generally able to use mindfulness techniques to make it dissolve. When I told them that I have not gained weight and that my libido has not withered away, they got really excited. The side effects of SSRIs are so ubiquitous and unpleasant that the idea of a medication protocol with fewer of them is thrilling.

Friends who incline to the spiritual were disappointed when they heard that Ive experienced no connection to the divine, but reassured when I mention the pleasure Ive taken in the natural world, the tree outside my window, the smell of the jasmine beside the city sidewalks. Risk takers and hedonists were disappointed that I was unable to provide details of hallucinations. No kaleidoscopic colours, they asked wistfully, no feeling that the floor was shifting beneath your feet? I live in California. The last thing I want to feel is the floor shifting beneath my feet. They urged me to try a real dose. It would change my life, they said, as though my problem is that my life has been too devoid of weirdness. Besides, my life is changing.

Tonight, however, was a different story. These two writer friends are about 20 years older than my husband and me, which puts them firmly in the boomer generation. They were in their 20s in the 1960s. Theyve travelled the world, rejected a life of secure conformity in favour of the risks and rewards of art. What better people to confide in? I thought.

Well, I said, Ive been writing, but not working on a novel. Ive been writing about microdosing with LSD.

What does that mean, the woman of the pair asked? Are you writing some kind of nonfiction article on people who use LSD?

I took a breath and then explained.

Her face froze. If she had been wearing pearls, she would have clutched them. She looked horrified, even disgusted, as if Id told her that Id taken up murdering baby seals. Her husbands reaction was only slightly less disturbing. He smiled uncomfortably and changed the subject. I immediately agreed, yes, the antipasto was delicious, and, no, I didnt want any more.

Their reaction launched a series of cascading anxieties. Will I be condemned for doing this? Will people reject me as a nutcase, a crank, a deluded acid freak? Will I lose whatever credibility I have in the world? Will parents not let their children come over to our house any more, under the misapprehension that I keep drugs in my home?

As soon as dinner was over, I tried the technique for dissipating anxiety that my cognitive behavioural therapist recommends. I took a few deep breaths, exhaling for half again as long as I inhaled. My chest and throat unclenched. The anxiety ebbed. I was calm again. I was OK.

Also, I had some perspective. This couple were young in the 1960s, when Timothy Leary was spreading the gospel of psychedelic recklessness. For all I know, they had complicated histories with the drug that influenced how they responded to me. In all likelihood, their discomfort had far more to do with them than with me.

A Really Good Day: How Microdosing Made a Mega Difference in My Mood, My Marriage, and My Life by Ayelet Waldman is published by Corsair at 13.99. To order a copy, go to bookshop.theguardian.com

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