#Ryan Boyajian

[realhousewives-fan]

The Wicked Witches in the OC

I don’t think a tiny comment on a podcast is a reason to turn everybody against another person.

Tamra Judge was paranoid, angry and vicious in her return to the OC.

Andy Cohen even confirmed that Heather Dubrow had never tried to sabotage Tamra’s return to RHOC.

And Tamra deserved more heat than she got for this.

In his introduction of Tamra, Andy said that she wasn’t afraid of burning her bridges.

But Heather and Jennifer Pedranti got the worst of her wrath.

I don’t blame Heather to make comments like “get me off this fucking show” after the season she has had with Tamra a part of the cast.

It was rich of Emily Simpson to claim that Heather was too offended by everything, when it has been the women who has been overly offended by everything she did and said this season.

Tamra was able to create a mob against Heather and Jennifer’s relationship with Ryan Boyajian.

They were on Jennifer like they could smell blood. Especially Tamra and Shannon Beador.

Shannon can proclaim that she didn’t want to dig deeper into Jennifer’s relationship all she wants, but she can’t be trusted.

She and Tamra is like the wicked witches in the OC. They’re the real villains.

And let’s be honest here, Shannon is a piece of shit for talking about Gina Kirschenheiter’s kids.

Did you see any remorse for that comment? I didn’t.

She acted so condescending when Gina was raising her voice at her. As if Shannon doesn’t throw temper tantrums every goddamn season.

And she has weaponized her one kind gesture for years now.

It blows my mind that fans view Tamra and Shannon as “queens” or “MVPs” of the show. It’s like fans are just spewing out propaganda to force people into believing it.

What I’ve seen this season isn’t two thriving queens taking back control from Fancy Pants.

I’ve seen two women throwing themselves at the opportunity to take someone down. Because of a tiny comment on a podcast.

And it was so easy for Tamra to manipulate this group. So embarrassingly easy.

[sinceileftyoublog]

Dazy, Lifeguard, & Illusion Of Choice Live Show Review: 12/4, Cobra Lounge, Chicago

Dazy

BY JORDAN MAINZER

I'm not sure what Dazy does at a faster pace these days: tour or release tunes. Since we caught his Chicago debut of full-band arrangements in January, he's come to town twice more, including last night's stop at the Cobra Lounge. And mere months after releasing OUTOFBODY in 2022, in March, James Goodson shared songs recorded around the same time in the form of the cheekily titled OTHERBODY. The record continued the vibe of Dazy's debut LP, from the "Revolution" crunch of opener "I Know Nothing At All" to the sugary noise of "Every Little Thing". Just two months ago, Dazy shared the Ryan Hemsworth-assisted "Forced Perspective" (Lame-O), a collection of rounded country pop guitar riffs, a chirpy electric beat, and an uneasy, yet anthemic chorus.

Dazy's James Goodson

Always writing and always playing, it must be hard for Goodson to pick a setlist on a nightly basis. A year-plus removed from OUTOFBODY and over two years from MAXIMUMBLASTSUPERLOUD: The First 24 Songs, Dazy's set at the Cobra Lounge felt like as close as you can get right now to "the hits," the crowd pumping fists, banging heads, and singing along to favorites "On My Way", "Split", "The Perfect Crime", "Pressure Cooker", and "Invisible Thing". I was just as happy, though, to see Goodson lean into the sweet, softer side of Dazy. "Forced Perspective", with its curly bass and guitar scrapes, was a highlight, as was "Every Little Thing", "could be a country hit" "Rollercoaster Ride", and set closer "Out of Body". "Is that my brain hanging by a thread?" Goodson sang on "Out of Body"; as much as he may have been disassociating at the time of writing the song, his everyday anxieties have certainly provided ample creative fodder for some of the best power pop of the past half-decade.

Lifeguard

Chicago's Lifeguard opened for Dazy, which was perhaps anybody's final chance to see the band in an opening slot at a venue as small as Cobra Lounge. The hyped three-piece, formed in 2019, signed to Matador Records earlier this year. Let's get it out of the way: Yes, drummer Isaac Lowenstein's sister Penelope is in labelmates Horsegirl, and bassist Asher Case's father is Brian Case of FACS (and formerly of Disappears, The Ponys, and 90 Day Men). Thankfully, Lifeguard is a beast of its own, combining chanted vocals with clanging, metallic guitars and dexterous, repetitively pummeling drums. Earlier this year, Matador re-released the band's 2022 EP Crowd Can Talk along with a collection of new material, Dressed in Trenches. Live, Lifeguard showed what they're truly about: off-kilter time signatures, uneven song sections, moments where you can't tell when they're warming up or about to switch gears. When they played "17-18 Lovesong", Case's rounded bass and monotone vocals wiggled around Kai Slater's stabbing guitars and falsetto off-beat harmonies, though the band never let you get too comfortably hypnotized in a groove. They finished with their newest song, the uncharacteristically poppy and straightforward (yet very welcome!) "In The City". You never know what's next with Lifeguard, and they're just getting started.

Illusion of Choice

Starting off the night was another local institution, four-piece shoegaze indie rock band Illusion of Choice. Most of their songs revolved around the atmospheres you'd expect with a genre descriptor like that: Alex Rackow's distorted guitars, Judith Pelkowski's heavy bass lines, Alex Boyajian's mammoth snares, and Tyler Tumminaro's sharp, nasal vocal delivery. Occasionally, they added elements of jangly surf, but for the most part, they chugged along deliberately, like on "Circling the Drain" and standout set closer "Bad Boy". Overall, Illusion of Choice offered an appropriate middle ground between Dazy's hooks and Lifeguard's deconstructed songs.

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[sexguru69]

Books you need to read to have good sex

Janet W. Hardy and Dossie Easton's The Ethical Slut, Third Edition: A Practical Guide to Polyamory, Open Relationships, and Other Freedoms in Sex and Love "For me, this book was one of the most transformative. In the neighborhood where I was raised, having multiple sexual partners, partaking in kinky behavior, or engaging in relationships other than strict monogamy were all viewed as abnormal or even immoral. My entire perspective on what sex and relationships can be was completely altered by The Ethical Slut. It encouraged me to explore my sexuality and valued sex with consent and respect. My understanding of jealousy was altered by its explanation and understanding of the emotion. Anyone who feels outside the sexual norm (whatever that may be), who is curious (whether single or in a relationship), and/or who wants to change their perspective on sex and relationships should read this book." —Amy Boyajian, co-founder and CEO of Wild Flower, an online retailer of adult products and sexual wellness products. HD sex movies

Christopher Ryan and Cacilda Jethá's Sex at Dawn: How We Mate, Why We Stray, and What It Means for Modern Relationships "This book had a big impact on my sexual self-discovery process. The authors identify and debunk the roots of many fervently held oppressive sexual stereotypes. They expose the ways in which heteronormativity, social norms, and personal bias have an impact on even scientists. The fact of the matter is that each of us must discover for ourselves what we believe about sex, gender, and love through experience! —MacKenzie Peck, publisher of the contemporary pornographic publication Math Magazine, which celebrates sex and sexuality

Laurie Mintz, PhD's Becoming Cliterate: Why Orgasm Equality Matters—And How to Get It "Everyone who owns a vulva, as well as their sexual partners, must read this. According to what we have been taught by the mainstream media, sex is defined as penis + vagina, and everything else is "foreplay," or the appetizers to the main course of penetrative sex. According to the author, there is a very real pleasure gap between men and women as a result of the way we have been thinking about sex all this time. What will it take to bridge this pleasure gap? The Cluti." —Michelle Shnaidman, CEO and founder of Bellesa, a female-run manufacturer of sex toys

Ian McEwan's novel On Chesil Beach On Chesil Beach is a beautiful illustration of how sexual shame can have a negative impact on your relationships, even though it isn't a traditional sex-ed book. The young newlyweds believe that having sex should be simple and natural, but it isn't. Although the story is set before the sexual revolution, I think many couples still struggle with the inability to have honest conversations about sex. —Brianna Rader, CEO and founder of the dating and sex coaching app Juicebox

The Pursuit of Pleasure, by Lionel Tiger "This book is my all-time favorite because it focuses on understanding the significance of pleasure and the reasons behind the fuss. Tiger discusses our evolutionary entitlements and our ideals for our pleasure legacy. Aside from sexual content, this book will encourage you to consider other options before choosing pain as your route to gratitude (and a far more rewarding one, at that). It's clever and moving in how it explains how admirably normal pleasure is. —Dominique Karetsos, a MysteryVibe resident expert

Kinkly, Tab, and O.school "I would like to see more books that discuss sex education. However, because anal sex has always been so taboo, I've discovered that blogs work best for information on anal sex and butt-play. Some of my favorite sex-forward blogs are O.school (which takes a more traditional approach but has a lot of video content), Kinkly (because it's not afraid to go there), and Tab (which is extremely visual). —Evan Goldstein, MD, CEO and founder of Bespoke Surgical, a medical facility with a focus on assisting patients with anal sex acts

Emily Nagoski, PhD's Come As You Are: The Surprising New Science That Will Transform Your Sex Life. "Come As You Are provides an excellent examination of sexuality for those who are more interested in empirical evidence than abstract theories. For women who need reassurance that they are perfectly complex and perfectly normal, this book is a great companion. A fulfilling sex life is something that women can create and maintain, and Dr. Emily Nagoski uses scientific research to show women all over the world that they are not defective. Everyone Is a Freak: Intimate Confessions About Sexuality, Gender, and Desire was written by Marissa LaRocca.

Paul Joannides and Daerick Gross's The Guide to Getting it On "The Guide to Getting it On is my go-to sex book recommendation. The reason it is in its ninth edition is that our knowledge of and research into human sexuality is constantly expanding and changing. When I was 17, I bought the third edition, and when I was 27, I bought the seventh. It is exhaustive (1200 pages long and resembles a phone book in appearance), honest, perceptive, and cleverly written in modern language with useful illustrations. Fighting the Crusade Against Sex: Being Sex-Positive in a Sex-Negative World, by sexologist and author Jill McDevitt, PhD

Jack Morin's book The Erotic Mind: Unlocking the Inner Sources of Passion and Fulfillment "In this book, the author reveals the logic that underlies the seemingly irrational desires that most people have. He offers his readers the Erotic Equation, which goes as follows: attraction plus difficulty equals excitement. In essence, this means that our erotic curiosity and passion are fueled by things we may consider taboo, sinful, or frightening. This book is for people who are curious about or embarrassed by what they or their partner(s) find seductive sexually. —Sari Cooper, the Center for Love and Sex's founder and a sex therapist

The Boston Women's Health Collective's essay "Our Bodies Ourselves" Our Bodies Ourselves, which offers anatomy lessons and encourages open discussion of sex, is a good choice for anyone. A literal bible.

Watch more on https://sextubearea.com/

[sexandeducations]

Books for better sex

Open Relationships, and Other Freedoms in Sex and Love "For me, this book was one of the most transformative. In the neighborhood where I was raised, having multiple sexual partners, partaking in kinky behavior, or engaging in relationships other than strict monogamy were all viewed as abnormal or even immoral. My entire perspective on what sex and relationships can be was completely altered by The Ethical Slut. It encouraged me to explore my sexuality and valued sex with consent and respect. My understanding of jealousy was altered by its explanation and understanding of the emotion. Anyone who feels outside the sexual norm (whatever that may be), who is curious (whether single or in a relationship), and/or who wants to change their perspective on sex and relationships should read this book." —Amy Boyajian, co-founder and CEO of Wild Flower, an online retailer of adult products and sexual wellness products. HD sex movies

Christopher Ryan and Cacilda Jethá's Sex at Dawn: How We Mate, Why We Stray, and What It Means for Modern Relationships "This book had a big impact on my sexual self-discovery process. The authors identify and debunk the roots of many fervently held oppressive sexual stereotypes. They expose the ways in which heteronormativity, social norms, and personal bias have an impact on even scientists. The fact of the matter is that each of us must discover for ourselves what we believe about sex, gender, and love through experience! —MacKenzie Peck, publisher of the contemporary pornographic publication Math Magazine, which celebrates sex and sexuality

Laurie Mintz, PhD's Becoming Cliterate: Why Orgasm Equality Matters—And How to Get It "Everyone who owns a vulva, as well as their sexual partners, must read this. According to what we have been taught by the mainstream media, sex is defined as penis + vagina, and everything else is "foreplay," or the appetizers to the main course of penetrative sex. According to the author, there is a very real pleasure gap between men and women as a result of the way we have been thinking about sex all this time. What will it take to bridge this pleasure gap? The Cluti." —Michelle Shnaidman, CEO and founder of Bellesa, a female-run manufacturer of sex toys

Ian McEwan's novel On Chesil Beach On Chesil Beach is a beautiful illustration of how sexual shame can have a negative impact on your relationships, even though it isn't a traditional sex-ed book. The young newlyweds believe that having sex should be simple and natural, but it isn't. Although the story is set before the sexual revolution, I think many couples still struggle with the inability to have honest conversations about sex. —Brianna Rader, CEO and founder of the dating and sex coaching app Juicebox

The Pursuit of Pleasure, by Lionel Tiger "This book is my all-time favorite because it focuses on understanding the significance of pleasure and the reasons behind the fuss. Tiger discusses our evolutionary entitlements and our ideals for our pleasure legacy. Aside from sexual content, this book will encourage you to consider other options before choosing pain as your route to gratitude (and a far more rewarding one, at that). It's clever and moving in how it explains how admirably normal pleasure is. —Dominique Karetsos, a MysteryVibe resident expert

Kinkly, Tab, and O.school "I would like to see more books that discuss sex education. However, because anal sex has always been so taboo, I've discovered that blogs work best for information on anal sex and butt-play. Some of my favorite sex-forward blogs are O.school (which takes a more traditional approach but has a lot of video content), Kinkly (because it's not afraid to go there), and Tab (which is extremely visual). —Evan Goldstein, MD, CEO and founder of Bespoke Surgical, a medical facility with a focus on assisting patients with anal sex acts

Emily Nagoski, PhD's Come As You Are: The Surprising New Science That Will Transform Your Sex Life. "Come As You Are provides an excellent examination of sexuality for those who are more interested in empirical evidence than abstract theories. For women who need reassurance that they are perfectly complex and perfectly normal, this book is a great companion. A fulfilling sex life is something that women can create and maintain, and Dr. Emily Nagoski uses scientific research to show women all over the world that they are not defective. Everyone Is a Freak: Intimate Confessions About Sexuality, Gender, and Desire was written by Marissa LaRocca.

Paul Joannides and Daerick Gross's The Guide to Getting it On "The Guide to Getting it On is my go-to sex book recommendation. The reason it is in its ninth edition is that our knowledge of and research into human sexuality is constantly expanding and changing. When I was 17, I bought the third edition, and when I was 27, I bought the seventh. It is exhaustive (1200 pages long and resembles a phone book in appearance), honest, perceptive, and cleverly written in modern language with useful illustrations. Fighting the Crusade Against Sex: Being Sex-Positive in a Sex-Negative World, by sexologist and author Jill McDevitt, PhD

Jack Morin's book The Erotic Mind: Unlocking the Inner Sources of Passion and Fulfillment "In this book, the author reveals the logic that underlies the seemingly irrational desires that most people have. He offers his readers the Erotic Equation, which goes as follows: attraction plus difficulty equals excitement. In essence, this means that our erotic curiosity and passion are fueled by things we may consider taboo, sinful, or frightening. This book is for people who are curious about or embarrassed by what they or their partner(s) find seductive sexually. —Sari Cooper, the Center for Love and Sex's founder and a sex therapist

The Boston Women's Health Collective's essay "Our Bodies Ourselves" Our Bodies Ourselves, which offers anatomy lessons and encourages open discussion of sex, is a good choice for anyone. A literal bible.

Watch more on https://sextubearea.com/

[riilsports]

Pilgrim senior captains Matthew Pacheco, Jack Clements and Ryan Pietros accept the RIIL Division III Boys Hockey plaque w/ Patriots head coach Michael Boyajian Jr., far right, and assistant coach Michael Boyajian Sr., far left (at BOSS ICE ARENA) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bu0AsJIBlOJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=13jf48em1znpm

[confessionsofatwentysomethin]

Guess who’s back, back again.

It’s me, your favorite 20 something, one year later from what I can only surmise as a shit show from what I just read because I thought it would be a great idea to recap myself on what you all must think of me.

I cried a lot reading the posts I didn’t remember writing because I was out of my mind curling up at the bottom of whatever bottle I’d come across that day; I cried, even more, reading the posts I did remember because all of that pain and melancholy still exists like boulders in the luggage of my runaway heart.

There have been too many boys, friends, men, bottles, smiles, drugs, laughs, cries, midnight vomit sessions, breaths of fresh air, happy days, and days I didn’t think I’d recover from to count. Honestly, 2018 was the happiest and saddest year I have lived this far. I’m sure as we chat a little more, details will begin to reval themselves and stories will come up. These are just the important ones I don’t want to half ass.

I want to start this post with a small message to Janurary 2018 Angela:

I know you’re really butthurt about Nathaniel but WE (I) FUCKED HIS HOT COUSIN NICK AND HE WILL NEVER FIND OUT BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO HURT HIM LIKE THAT OR DEAL WITH THE REPERCUSSIONS BUT IF WE EVER DID TELL HIM IT WOULD SHATTER HIM AND HIS FRAGILE EGO. So forget that dude, Nick was a fucking 14/10 and you fucking nailed that REPEATEDLY and Nathaniel still sucks even to this day so get over it you big, beautiful fucking queen.

Anyway, back to raw, emotional, reflective Angela (our regularly scheduled programming):

New years 2018 has become an iconic day in my life and the lives of every person in my once close-knit group of high school friends. Ryan’s girlfriend Monika slept with Ryan’s best friends Matt and Mason, and all three boys were some of my closest friends for years. 

Sure, it’s a huge joke amongst those of us who still strain relationships through the wreckage that night and the nights leading up to it caused, that everyone got to see everyone topless and I made out with Jordan and Ashley like it was some innate thing that I’d always wanted to do (because we literally all made eye contact and just started making out, zero prompting from anyone... I totally admit that it’s the only moment where I genuinely questioned my sexuality lmao). However, no number of boobs of old friends is ever going to make me forget the way two of my friends betrayed Ryan.

Nevermind the fact the Monika gave birth to a beautiful baby boy a few months ago. Don’t worry, we all did the math, it’s not Matt or Mason’s... but the lack of loyalty on that girl does not suggest he is genetically Ryan’s, which isn’t stopping him from being with her, which makes pretty much all of us dead to him. Can we blame him? I don’t, not even one bit. I can’t imagine the feeling Ryan must have carried for months, the betrayal. I’m not saying I understand why he stayed with her and shut every single one of us out, but I also don’t think it’s unreasonable that he did. I have, and always will wish him the best; I hope his son grows up loved, happy, and healthy, and that Monika can grow up for his sake.

With that being said, I really do think that day was the last nail in the coffin for this page. I was so overwhelmed with processing the entire thing and how exactly I fit into it, that I really do think I had to turn my mind off for a long time to survive it in a healthy way. I lost faith and respect for two boys that I had watched grow into men that I loved and respected like the older brothers I had prayed for years to have. I would never be able to look at them the same way, and it made me feel selfish for making it about me that I just didn’t, not even to myself. 

I did not speak to anybody in that group for about 10 months before I responded to one of the many invitations to come together with what was left of the group, which was Lucas and his girlfriend Little Taylor, and that only lasted a little while until New Years 2019 when they got into an immature fight like they always do, and I couldn’t help myself; I called them out on it, and now I guess we aren’t speaking. New years 2019 was the first time I had seen Matt and Mason, it was as if nothing had changed, and like always, they made jokes about what upsets them: Ryan being gone, Ryan being a Dad, our group is in pieces and we don’t talk about it unless it’s a low blow to someone who isn’t even around to stand up for themselves.

I had an alright time. I had gone with my friend Tim from Bdubs Dekalb circa 2015 to his sisters wedding, and missed the stroke of midnight, which was okay because I was perfectly comfortable spending the first two minutes alone in my car. We got drunk, nostalgic, and silly, just how I wanted to remember them. I really do love every single one of them for surviving all of the teenage recklessness we stirred up together, but part of growing up was realizing that not all of your friends are friends who can be trusted with anything but drunken jokes and stupid nights. I love them for being drunk and stupid, and I am okay with just that.

2018... what a fucking year. I Don’t even think I remember all of it. From the looks of my posts, it might not be because I naturally have a horrible memory, Rumplemintz definitely had something to do with it.

2018 was that year I loved Cirissa and Chris, the couple who gave me hope and faith in a love that slowly matures but never grows old... until I realized that they had too many problems for me to start analyzing the way they were. Chronic alcoholism, a marriage that was a mix of co-dependence, lack of confidence to get anybody else, and fear of being alone sprinkled on top of a genuine love that was the root of my admiration. Every night we were together, we were the three best friends that anybody could have, our soundtrack was every Disney song we could get our hands on; we got off work, and my tongue always tasted like peppermint schnapps, and they would let me hit the button on the slot machine they chose that evening.

It was a fast, hard, deep, loving friendship for a year, and I wouldn’t trade that time for anything in the world. I have never for one second doubted that Cirissa truly did love me like a sister, and sometimes like a mom, and she did everything she could to make me feel that love as deeply as this heart could let me. There isn’t enough time in the world to go through how grateful I am for the emo sing alongs, drunken heart to hearts, and hugs that really did hold me together when I was falling apart.

Chris truly is one of the greatest men I have ever known, and I know he loved me like the really cool tomboy sister he never had. So many heavy metal nights and pep talks about how amazing I am, and how much better I deserve, and I am literally sobbing like an idiot because I miss the support and friendship that these two gave me so dearly.

The truth is, as much as I cherish them and all the crazy shit we did, it wasn’t healthy at all. I cannot blame anybody but myself for all of the liquor that I let take a shot at filling up my emptiness, but they were the cheerleaders that helped me believe that one day my demons would drown.

I know well enough now that there’s never going to be a moment where my vices beat my pain or complexities, and that mentality has tried to thrive in the little wasted snowglobe we created for the three best friends and died every single damn time.

There is no way in hell that Christian Boyajian will ever fit into words on a computer screen or a book or even an encyclopedia. Not because he is the greatest thing that ever happened to me; not because he is particularly special; not because I’ll never forget him or get over him or stop loving him.

Christian was simply someone who came into my life, and changed it forever, He changed me in ways that I had always written about but had no idea how heavy the words I was saying actually were.

June 2017 or somewhere in there, we had met on POF and bonded over Batman and how we both grew up so close to each other. I remember feeling like he was funny, smart, worldly, and clever. He’s in the Navy, and we lost touch because I’ve been a fuckboy for years, and he deployed before we got close enough for me to ever imagine signing up to be a navy girlfriend.

Fast forward to March 2018, we reconnected on POF. I was wasted at coach house with my friends, and it was like no time had passed.

He was living in San Diego, I was back in Illinois still, and we facetimed every night for a month before I decided to fly out to meet him. He told me he loved me before I even got on the plane. I knew it was fast, but I was so sick of being drunk and numb that I let myself feel whatever I wanted. I did know that I wanted to say I loved him to his face, like I always have with anyone.

I didn’t even write love poems about him, just fragments that still litter the notepad on my phone, because I knew it would be over faster than I could write it down and I wanted to soak up every single fucking second of being loved because I genuinely didn’t know if I would ever get the chance again.

Standing in front of him for the first 24 hours, I was on top of the world. I was loved. I was worshipped. I was unbreakable. But after that euphoria gave way to reality, the conversations about me moving to California didn’t seem as exciting to him. He started petty fights and didn’t look at me like his world was in my eyes anymore.

The worst part of finally getting to feel all of the beautiful things that I wrote about being in a love I knew nothing about before him, was having to feel all of the soul crushing things that I wrote about after I thought I had failed at love, except this time it was so real that it really did break me into a million tiny pieces.

I literally watched him lose interest infront of me without the barrier of a screen to make it feel a little less human. He stopped holding my hand in the car, made heart-breaking attempts to pretend he still wanted to keep all of his promises, and tried to break up with me at a Portillos. I, of course, didn’t let that happen because nobody gets dumped at Portillos. I will be fucking damned if you try to ruin the world’s best goddamn beef sandwich for me, fucking asshole. 

I loved him so fucking much that when he called me after a week of the silent treatment, all I could say was “you promised me. You fucking promised me, Christian. You won, you got me, that actually hurts” and he was so cold and disassociated that I knew that he had. I had finally felt something and it went from being so beautiful and reckless and amazing to an earth shattering sound I can never reproduce clawing its way out of my throat and dragging me to my fucking knees in my garage. I had poured so much of myself into him that I didn’t even have the strength to get off the concrete for 15 minutes. I just laid there and cried when we hung up because I had been so stoic during the call. I remember he had said “Goodnight, Angela.” and I replied coldly with “Goodbye, Christian”.because I wanted to rob him of the opportunity to feel like he would be missed, like all of this meant anything, just like he had robbed me.

Christian was everything I projected onto all of those boys before about how I craved to be loved, and everything I had projected on those goodbyes before him that I fabricated to write gut-wrenching poetry.

The only hard part of that was actually feeling it, and I finally understand that I cannot ever write things because they sound good because someday I will have to feel them and I have to be incredibly careful what I wish for.

I found out in October 2019 that he had gotten into a relationship 2 weeks after we broke up, and all the pain I had tried to pickle in vodka took a new breath of life, and it took me months to build peace with it again.

I didn’t even speak to a boy romantically for six months after that, which actually occurred a week ago... so there’s that for a timeline. We’ll get to present day soon, I swear.

Taylor, my beloved person, my forever friend, is gone. Not dead, just fucking gone. Christian and I had broken up in the beginning of July, she had gone through all that with me, gotten into a relationship with a guy named Ben who laughed like a goose and constantly saddled her with his alcohol issues (totally not judging because I have my own issues with alcohol but she didn’t and I wanted to protect her the best I could because I loved her so so much) (that ‘d’ was really hard to put after love, I guess it’s still raw). September came around, time for my birthday. I wasn’t particularly excited this year because if the depression and alcoholism and crippling loneliness, but she was determined to revive my normal birthday over-enthusiasm. So, she did, and when it came time... she couldn’t seem to follow through. 

She’s a beautiful writer, but I think every writer is guilty at some point in their life of having more beautiful words than beautiful actions, and this was hers.

An extravagant birthday dripping in mimosas and mani pedis before a night of dressing to the nines and going out on the town somehow got stripped down to Walmart face masks and painting each other’s nails at home for the weekend I had requested off work an entire month in advance... and I had to tell her that I could do that on a normal day, but not my birthday weekend. 

She got her wisdom teeth out just days before, and tried to tell me it wasn’t an appointment scheduled months in advance. I told her I was driving to Nashville for my birthday, and we could do a DIY spa day upon my return, but it really hurt me that she couldn’t be bothered to follow through with her promises, even if they weren’t as big in real life as they were in my inbox. She knew it was a dark time for me, and she put forth so little effort to build me back up the way I have always worked so hard to give her a big beautiful life full of laughter and stupid jokes and amazing memories.

We have spoken once since I sent that text. It was an accidental 2am FaceTime butt dial where she immediately hung up and said “sorry I left my phone open in my pocket”. I didn’t respond, and I lost my best friend because I told her that she hurt me, and the best way to deal with that is not to deal with it at all, I suppose.

Treasure and I reunited shortly after this, but not too shortly because I wanted to prove to myself that I didn’t need a “person” or a best friend or anyone because it had been such a horrible year for depending on others that I truly never wanted to do it ever again.

I got all of the best parts of Treasure back, the jokes, the stories, the laughing in unison, making everyone else in the room uncomfortable because the only ones that mattered to either of us was US. We were stupid but mentally sparred regularly, and kept eachother sharp on political, social, and emotional topics, and really worked to support and better eachother. In my time away from her, I grew my own voice, opinion, and sense of direction. This new characteristics allowed our friendship to flourish, and still is. She is still with DeAndre, and loves his son very much. I met him once, he”s smart and amazing and loves me. Her life is so filled with love, and I could see that she had found her corner of the universe. I was so happy to have her back in this new and healthy way, that it almost made it impossible to leave her.

Oh, here’s the kicker: I picked up my life and moved again, but this time? I moved to Seattle.

This is day 22 that I am wrapping up, 

and that’s exactly why I’m back, bitches.

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Here Are the House Seats Democrats Are Hoping to Win in 2018 Welcome back to House Party , our column looking at the 2018 House of Representative races as midterms approach. Democrats will have to face a choice in next year’s midterms: How should they handle the voters who voted twice for Barack Obama before flipping to Donald Trump ? On one hand, their choice seems inexplicable to dyed-in-the-wool liberals; on the other, if they backed Obama they surely shouldn’t be abandoned. How to appeal to these voters is a big question in all of the below districts, which have gone Obama–Obama–Trump. I know that some of that shifts is due to people leaving the electorate, but if you look at some of the spreads in these largely blue-collar areas you can’t help but determine there are people who’ll vote for certain Democrats—just obviously not Hillary Clinton. Maine’s Second Congressional District (Northern Maine) 2016: Clinton 41–Trump 51 2012: Obama 53–Romney 44 2008: Obama 55–McCain 43 We start with Maine’s Second Congressional District because man, if you don’t think there are people who voted for Obama twice then Trump, then explain those spreads to me (and turnout was actually slightly up in 2016). The district is white working-class to the core, but Trump was the first Republican to carry it since George H.W. Bush. For a long time the area was represented by Democrat Mike Michaud, a gay former millworker who never attended college. But when Michaud stepped down to run for governor, Republican Bruce Poliquin won his seat. The Democrats’ previous candidate against Poliquin was a college professor who grew up in New Jersey, and she didn’t win more than 45 percent in two tries. So now they’re running Jared Golden , a Marine turned state representative who grew up in a dairy farming town outside Augusta. If you watch Golden’s video you’ll see Poliquin try to escape a constituent questioning him on his healthcare vote through a nursing home patio door. So Republicans are already running scared in these Obama-Trump areas, literally. And Poliquin’s approval is 42-50, actually worse than Trump’s 46-49 in the district . However, Golden may not be the nominee. Lucas St. Clair isn’t the name of a soap opera villain; he’s a rich guy who lives in Portland but is moving here to run for the seat. He’s best known in the district for being the son of the Burt’s Bees founders and leading the movement to create a national park in the area. To be fair, St. Clair showed some political skill in working with hunters and snowmobilers on the project, but it’s hard to argue he’d be a stronger candidate than Golden. New York’s 21st Congressional District (North Country) 2016: Clinton 40–Trump 54 2012: Obama 52–Romney 46 2008: Obama 52–McCain 47 Representative Elise Stefanik worked in the Bush Jr. Administration before she was elected to Congress; proof that she never should have been trusted with any further public service. But she still represents the most rural seat in New York (which has historically been controlled by Republicans, though it was held by a Democrat from 2009 to 2015), taking in almost all of the state from the Erie Canal north to the Canadian border, and has won her first two elections in blowouts (thanks to some help from a Green Party candidate who isn’t running again). In 2018 her most touted opponent is former St. Lawrence County Legislator Tedra Cobb, who has also worked to provide home heating oil to low-income people in the area—a huge deal in rural northern areas like this. Contrast that with someone who worked for the geniuses behind the Katrina response and voted to take away residents’ health care, and you have an obvious—if not exactly guaranteed—path to victory. Cobb has banked nearly $130,000 so far, a decent sum in a cheap area, but she’s been out-raised by attorney Don Boyajian, who just moved to one of the district’s rural towns from the Albany area (To be fair, Stefanik was also a recent transplant when she first ran here.) Cobb certainly has a better profile for Democrats, but Boyajian might be able to do a better job of keeping up with Stefanik, who’s sitting on $900,000. New York’s 19th Congressional District (Hudson River Valley) 2016: Clinton 44–Trump 51 2012: Obama 52–Romney 46 2008: Obama 53–McCain 45 The 19th is a mishmash of liberal Hudson River Valley towns and Republican outlying areas. Much of the area was represented by now-Senator Kirsten Gillibrand while she was in the House, but she had to be far more moderate than she is now to win here. Moderate (by today’s standards) Republican Representative Chris Gibson represented the seat after it was created in the 2012 round of redistricting until his retirement last year, when John Faso took over. Faso won against a weak carpetbagger from New York City (Zephyr Teachout) last year, but he hasn’t been able to scare off Democrats in 2018. Faso got a lot of traction painting Teachout as an outsider, which is why it’s alarming that none of Democrats’ top four fundraisers (Brian Flynn, Pat Ryan , Antonio Delgado, and Gareth Rhodes) were domiciled here in 2016 . All have better ties to the district than Teachout though, with the exception of Delgado. Attorney Dave Clegg and teacher Jeff Beals have better claims to being local, but they’ll need to get their fundraising numbers up to keep pace with the top tier. Democrats should be particularly wary of Rhodes as he’s been an aide to Andrew Cuomo, one of America’s most worthless Democrats. But there’s still plenty of time for voters to figure out which candidate would actually be the strongest. New York’s First Congressional District (Eastern Long Island) 2016: Clinton 42–Trump 54 2012: Obama 50–Romney 49 2008: Obama 51–McCain 48 Most New Yorkers associate the eastern end of Long Island with the upscale Hamptons vacation community, where a lot of city dwellers have second homes. But the majority of voters here live in the more conservative (though still swingy) New York exurbs. And those other parts of the district are understandably wary of the Hamptons—culturally the resort are is more aligned to New York City than Long Island. Southampton native Tim Bishop held this seat for Democrats from 2002 to 2014, but his family had lived in the area for centuries, so he could claim townie status. Last year’s Democratic nominee, Anna Throne-Holst, lost to Lee Zeldin not much worse than Clinton's 55–40 defeat. Throne-Holst is a Swedish immigrant who had moved to the Hamptons 20 years ago as a teenager and was a poor cultural fit for the remainder of the district. But Zeldin, a Newsmax regular, certainly hasn’t shown any inclination to tack to the middle, so a stronger Democrat could take him down. Democrats’ best chance at taking him out may also be an immigrant, though one with a far different backstory than Throne-Holst. Suffolk County Legislator Kate Browning left Northern Ireland during the Troubles and eventually moved to a blue-collar part of Brookhaven with her NYPD officer husband. She then worked her way up through the school bus drivers’ union and New York’s labor-dominated Working Families Party. But she won’t have the primary to herself. Manhattan rich guy Perry Gershon thinks a house in the Hamptons makes him a native and has used his finance connections to raise a ton of money. But Browning’s blue-collar bona fides make her the ideal candidate in an area that swung hard from Obama to Trump, and the party should be wary of nominating anyone like Gershon, who likely doesn’t know the parts of the district that aren’t on the Hampton Jitney. New York’s Second Congressional District (South Shore) 2016: Clinton 44–Trump 53 2012: Obama 52–Romney 47 2008: Obama 51–McCain 48 Peter King survived the 2006 and 2008 waves and was for a time one of only two Republicans in the New York congressional delegation. So he’s not an easy out. Long Island knows what it likes, and that’s angry Irish guys with massive heads. But there’s a chance King will retire, and if he does, he’ll probably wait until after the filing deadline. There are a lot of ambitious Republican politicians in his district, and he’ll likely want to make sure that his daughter will be his replacement. A contested primary could put that plan at risk, so he may want the state party to decide the nominee instead of his voters (a special election or resignation before the primary would put the decision in their hands). So Democrats will need to keep their heads on a collective swivel here and make sure they have a nominee capable of winning, which they might have in lighting company CEO Tim Gomes. He’s wealthy enough to seed his campaign $1 million (a boon for the already overextended DCCC), but he had a nasty habit of being a registered Republican for the last nine years (he says he voted for Obama both times). So he’ll have to convince the primary electorate that he’s a good soldier or they could turn to UN staffer Liuba Grechen Shirley instead. Also, wealthy candidates frequently loan themselves large sums to try and scare away other challengers without actually spending the money, so we’ll see if Gomes is actually do what’s necessary to take down King (who’s sitting on more than $2.7 million). New Jersey’s Third Congressional District (South Jersey) 2016: Clinton 45–Trump 51 2012: Obama 52–Romney 47 2008: Obama 51–McCain 48 The Third District is based in two counties: Burlington and Ocean. Burlington (where more than half of the voters live) is based in the Philadelphia suburbs and is trending Democratic: Clinton won this side of the district 55-38. Ocean County is a refuge for people who leave New York City because it’s too liberal (cops and Hasidic Jews), and that side voted for Trump 65-32. The current representative is Republican Tom MacArthur. If his name sounds familiar it’s because he was the ���moderate” congressman who gave Paul Ryan a key vote that helped pass the American Health Care Act. That immediately put him in Democratic crosshairs and the party has coalesced around Andy Kim, a former Obama national security aide, as its standard-bearer. Both national parties realize the race will be competitive and will pour plenty of resources into it, but MacArthur can count on his sizable personal wealth. New Jersey’s Second Congressional District (South Jersey) 2016: Clinton 46–Trump 51 2012: Obama 54–Romney 45 2008: Obama 53–McCain 46 For years Democrats have assumed that they’d pick up this seat when State Senator Jeff Van Drew finally ran against Representative Frank LoBiondo or when LoBiondo decided to retire. Every cycle since 2006, LoBiondo made noise about retiring, Dems asked Van Drew to run, but neither happened. But LoBiondo retired on November 7 and Van Drew announced his run last week. So the Democrats got their manic pixie dream candidate, just 12 years later than they wanted. In New Jersey county parties have a big say in who wins the primaries, as the ballots are purposely confusing so that voters are inclined to vote for the county-endorsed candidates. Van Drew will have the backing of the county parties in South Jersey so even though he’s more conservative than the Democratic electorate (he’s opposed some gun control measures and same-sex marriage), he’s the heavy favorite. Meanwhile the Republican field is still sorting itself out, with former Atlantic City mayor Don Guardian, former Assemblyman Vincent Polistina, and trucking company owner Mike Torrissi all being recruited. Illinois’s 12th Congressional District (Metro East) 2016: Clinton 40–Trump 55 2012: Obama 50–Romney 48 2008: Obama 55–McCain 44 With a 15-point Trump win, you’d figure Democrats would have written this seat off. But Democrats can still win elections here. To wit, Senator Tammy Duckworth won by a near identical margin to Clinton in Illinois—both were at around 55-40. But Duckworth actually won the 12th as Clinton was getting blown out here (to be fair, Duckworth also lost the Sixth District while Clinton won it, and that seat is a Democratic target too). Like many of the districts on this list, it’s willing to vote for Democrats not named Hillary Clinton. Democrats’ top recruit, St. Clair County State Attorney and Navy vet Brendan Kelly, was willing to take on Representative Mike Bost. Kelly is known locally for prosecuting some high-profile political corruption cases (in illinois you have many opportunities to do so). Meanwhile Bost has always had a bad temper and still calls Asian people Orientals, so while he may resemble Trump in some regards he’s actually never gotten more than 54 percent of the vote in the 12th. So this is a winnable seat for sure. Iowa’s First Congressional District (Northeast Iowa) 2016: Clinton 45–Trump 49 2012: Obama 56–Romney 43 2008: Obama 59–McCain 40 When you look at those Obama numbers you realize why the First tops Democrats’ hit list. Representative Rod Blum certainly hasn’t done himself any favors; in a bizarre May interview he tried surrounding himself with children as he refused to answer questions about taking donations from outside the district. While previous iterations of the First have elected Republicans down-ballot while supporting Democratic presidential candidates, Blum isn’t as moderate or genial as those past representatives. And his approval rating in the district (33-51) is actually worse than Trump’s (45-50). Into the breach has stepped State Representative Abby Finkenauer. She’s racked up some big union and elected official endorsements, becoming the favorite for the nomination over other contenders like former Department of Labor official Thomas Heckroth. National parties have spent heavily on this district in 2014 and 2016, so whoever gets the Democratic nomination next year can expect plenty of help on the airwaves. Iowa’s Third Congressional District (Des Moines and Southwest Iowa) 2016: Clinton 45–Trump 49 2012: Obama 51–Romney 47 2008: Obama 52–McCain 46 While Finkenauer has separated herself from the pack in the First, the Democratic field in the Third is fluid. And while the two districts voted for Trump by similar margins, the Third has less historic Democratic strength—it includes much of greater Des Moines so it contains its fair share of college-educated Republicans who voted for Clinton but may still back incumbent David Young. However, the district has soured on Trump more quickly than other areas that voted for the president— his approval here is 43-53 . There are half a dozen Democrats running here and nobody has really separated themselves from the pack. The good folks at Iowa Starting Line have a well-done rundown of where the primary race stands . It’s long, so just know that any one of five candidates could win the nomination, though local businesswoman Theresa Greenfield is the favorite right now. Notably, if no candidate gets more than 35 percent of the primary vote, the nominee will be chosen at a convention dominated by party activists. Minnesota’s Secod Congressional District (Southern Minneapolis/St. Paul Suburbs) 2016: Clinton 45–Trump 46 2012: Obama 49–Romney 49 2008: Obama 51–McCain 48 The Second District race in 2016 was like the presidential contest writ small. Republican nominee Jason Lewis was a vulgar local radio host. Democrat Angie Craig was a bland health care exec who didn’t run on much other than opposing Trump. Lewis narrowly won. Remarkably he’s been able to keep his favorability ratings almost even (39-40) as his colleagues in other vulnerable districts are underwater, and his net favorables are better than Trump’s (44-52) in the district. Craig is running again, and it’s hard to fault her for making another try; without the Comey Letter she might be the incumbent right now. But local high school football coach and history teacher Jeff Erdmann wasn’t impressed with her campaign last year and is now running to her left. High school football coaches make for good candidates (seriously!) because they have built in name recognition and connections, but he’s only got $7,000 in the bank while Craig is independently wealthy and raised $4.8 million her last time around. But whoever does win will be able to count on plenty of outside help in one of Democrats’ top takeover targets; Lewis remains vulgar and still votes with Trump on things like the tax bill and the AHCA. Next week, we'll look at seats Clinton won but Obama lost both times. Robert Wheel (a pseudonym) is an attorney who lives in New York. He tweets here , and his DMs are open. December 4, 2017 at 03:08PM

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No Honor Among Desperate Housewives

This season is a little bit of a Twilight Zone. The women have united in Tamra Judge’s plan about making Heather Dubrow the villain.

After Shannon Beador had said horrible things about Gina Kirschenheiter, the women still take her side over Heather.

Heather can’t win this season. And I think all roads leads back to Tamra.

Shannon accused Heather of not sharing her real life, that she doesn’t trust the women, and that Heather has said horrible things about her relationship.

It’s so frustrating to watch this all unfold. This is clearly a gang up.

Tamra went after Heather as if she wanted to comfort her and praising her after her argument with Emily Simpson.

I wouldn’t trust Tamra at all.

I can’t even fathom why Jennifer Pedranti is giving her so many chances, when she constantly throws out accusations and yells at her.

She needs to understand that Tamra is not a friend, and she cannot be trusted.

Both Heather and Jennifer are at a breaking point after all the pressure they’ve suffered so far this group.

Heather even said that she’s getting to the point where she doesn’t care anymore. And I don’t want to lose her, she’s my favourite!

Tamra had also invited Vicki Gunvalson on this trip, to get the obnoxious Tres Amigas back together again.

“Whoop it up, Tres Abuelas!”

And Vicki crashed that girls trip like a tornado.

She wanted everybody to whoop it up and called the other side of the table boring and had clearly been coached by Tamra.

Vicki has no interest in getting to know newbies on the show and is always trashing Gina and Emily, but suddenly she has a lot to say to Jennifer about her relationship?

Tamra has been trashing everything about Jennifer so far this season.

Her relationship with Ryan Boyajian, how many he has cheated on her with, on her fake fashion items, and her “shocking lack of reactions”.

No friend would ever address any serious situation with such carelessness and heartlessness.

Screaming like that is malicious. Tamra wanted to expose her, not help her.

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Season 17 Midseason Trailer Reaction!

It looks like there’s lots of drama and fun times yet to come this season of RHOC.

I’ve got to say, I haven’t been bored so far this season.

If anything, I’ve been exhausted by Tamra Judge, who tries too hard to keep any narrative going.

Whether it’s Shannon Beador’s relationship or Jennifer Pedranti’s relationship. Or Heather Dubrow’s sudden sale of her massive estate in Orange County.

But this group actually has something that RHOA doesn’t seem to have:

They appear to actually like each other from time to time and have fun together.

Bringing Vicki Gunvalson back as a friend of the show is having a huge effect on the dynamic.

She has the ability to bring out a lot of funny moments with her carefree party girl antics and clumsiness.

When Vicki is happy, she’s a joy.

However, tension is building after the revelation that Heather has been talking about Shannon’s relationship to the other women.

With the strange obsession with Heather and the constant demands of apologies, there seems to be a clear mission this season:

A gang up on Heather Dubrow.

She has grown tired of being everybody’s “whipping boy” and she appears to be done playing nice.

Someone has been throwing jabs at Gina Kirschenheiter and Emily Simpson though.

Gina said that her boyfriend has been disparaged and her parenting has been disparaged, while Emily has been body shamed.

Emily has since used Ozempic, done surgery and exercised – she has totally transformed herself.

Emily has always been a beautiful woman, and I would hate to see any body shaming play out this season.

Emily is seen screaming at her telephone, telling Shannon that she was Jekyll and Hyde, which leads me to believe that Shannon is the one who has been coming for Gina and Emily.

And, of course, more drama between Tamra and Jennifer. I understand why Ryan Boyajian bothers Tamra so much. I don’t like him either.

This particular topic is like a hamster wheel. It’s going nowhere. But I’m excited about the rest of the season.

This feels like a good season.

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Hoping for Someone to Take the Bait

Judging the movements of Tamra Judge this season is a rollercoaster ride.

Is she a true friend or is she a producer’s pet, moving all around the board?

She wasn’t Shannon Beador’s biggest fan in the beginning, but now she’s setting traps for Heather Dubrow to make her the scapegoat.

Tamra talks so smugly and self-righteous that it didn’t go very well for Heather the last time she talked about Shannon’s relationship.

She totally made a little trap for Heather when they talked about Shannon and her boyfriend.

Heather didn’t fall for it, so, instead of having something concrete to blame Heather for, she called her a hypocrite in her confessional.

What bothers me is how self-righteous Tamra act in the defence of Shannon.

The only one who has said anything specific about Shannon and her relationship is Tamra herself!

But sure, Heather is the villain.

All Heather has done this far this season is apologizing for x, y and z. But I fail to see what crime she has committed.

I agree that Heather appears to be desperate for Tamra’s friendship.

Last season, Heather was HBIC. But now, she cowers in front of Tamra.

And I wonder why?!

Tamra hasn’t proven herself to be a good friend this season. Great for a laugh, but she’s more than ready to throw everybody under the bus.

Tamra said some horrible things about Shannon in the beginning of the season.

She accused Shannon of being an alcoholic, that she and John always had drunken arguments, that they were never a good couple to hang out with.

Now, she’s defending Shannon and are coming for Heather �� for saying less than Tamra has!

Tamra is creating drama among the women and has attacked Jennifer Pedranti’s relationship with Ryan Boyajian.

After all the crap that Tamra has said about Ryan, she suddenly wanted to bring them on a triple date – with Shannon and John!

Eddie Judge confronted Ryan about everything, while Ryan claimed that he could cry over the state their friendship was in.

What an awkward bunch they were.

Fun date night? Hell no!

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Nothing Nobu About This Bunch

I don’t quite understand why the women are so fixated on Heather Dubrow and Jennifer Pedranti, but with friends like they’ve got, who needs enemies?

Taylor Armstrong and Heather has squashed their little beef over the movie role, but the women seem hellbent on creating a gang up on Heather this season.

They’re nip-picking on her every word and action. Suddenly they think she’s so condescending and pretentious.

But Gina Kirschenheiter loved Heather’s snobbishness in season 16. What changed? Was it that Heather dared to question their friendship?

The only argument I agree with Gina on, is that Heather seems desperate for Tamra Judge’s friendship.

Gina is highly oversensitive and beyond triggered about every tiny thing with Heather, but she’s right on the money when it comes to Heather’s relationship with Tamra.

And after what Tamra has done to Jennifer, I can’t see what’s so attractive with having her as a friend. With friends like Tamra, who needs enemies?

She has been spreading rumours all over town about Jennifer’s boyfriend, Ryan Boyajian.

And she was screaming from the top of her lungs in a public place that Ryan wanted to sleep with her. She looked completely unhinged.

Shannon Beador doesn’t even support Tamra’s strange vendetta with Jennifer.

“Jenn may be an idiot, but let her figure that out on her own.”

Exactly! Tamra might think that she’s acting like a friend to Jennifer, but she’s not. She’s not trying to lift her friend up. She’s trying to take her down.

And Tamra was drunk (again), screaming and yelling at someone (again), she tried to make it all about herself again when Gina and Heather were talking.

She looked a little desperate to be in the footage with the conversation about Shannon’s ex-husband’s new divorce. She’s being a lot!

She even switched seat because she didn’t want to sit across from Jennifer, because she was “so fucking livid” with her.

But Tamra was the one who threw a napkin in Jennifer’s face for no reason. According to Camille Grammer, who ever lost their cool, lost the argument.

Sorry, Tamra. You lose.

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There’s a Turn of the Tide in the OC

It seems like the trip to Montana had consequences for Jennifer Pedranti and Gina Kirschenheiter.

While Tamra Judge, Shannon Beador and Heather Dubrow are more concerned about themselves and each other, they’re forgetting the rest of the party.

It’s understandable that Heather feels left out when Tamra and Shannon act like their obnoxious self. But I’m surprised she would feel so bothered about it.

Last season she was more than capable to stand up for herself. She doesn’t have to beg anyone to be her friend. 

So, why is she so needy for Tamra’s friendship?

It’s like Jennifer, Gina and Taylor Armstrong are irrelevant, and it’s the type of dynamics that has sabotaged newcomers from getting established on the show.

Gina and Emily Simpson had each other, which has made it easier for them to remain relevant on the show. 

And it’s not like the veterans has really helped them along.

While it felt like Heather gave Gina good advice back in Montana, it didn’t appear like Gina appreciated this very much.

She was offended that Heather made her feel like a burden for her boyfriend Travis Mullen.

I still think that something went down with Gina and Travis between season 16 and 17, but it seems like she has a great support system with him.

While I think Heather’s advice was wise, it seems like Gina felt it would create a distance in her relationship with Travis.

And Jennifer? She wasn’t happy with that girls trip either.

She had a conversation with Ryan Boyajian about all of Tamra’s allegations, and it was not a pleasant conversation.

He was upset, he expected Jennifer to shut the conversation down with Tamra, he was deflecting and claiming that Tamra was jealous of their love.

The pile of red flags just got higher.

Something I thought was odd about Tamra stories about Ryan, was that she hadn’t told Eddie Judge anything about it! 

And they clearly have no respect for him.

Why would Tamra allow them to become friends if she knew that Ryan had proclaimed that he was going to seduce her?!

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Heated Conversations by the Bonfire

This trip to Montana is sending the women on some strange rollercoaster ride with their dynamics.

As Tamra Judge and Shannon Beador is back to being bosom buddies again, Heather Dubrow fears becoming the third wheel.

But it seems like it’s her friendship with Gina Kirschenheiter she should be worried about.

And both Jennifer Pedranti and Taylor Armstrong has been thrown under the bus by Tamra already on this trip. Is this a fun trip?

Tamra’s MO is totally to throw others under the bus in order to get out of trouble. She is trying to pick people up against each other here.

First she threw Taylor under the bus with Heather. Then she tried to make Heather upset with Shannon for sticking up for Taylor.

It must be exhausting being the producer’s pet.

She dropped some not so flattering stories about Jennifer’s boyfriend, Ryan Boyajian.

Apparently, he had walked into CUT fitness and claimed that he was going to sleep with Tamra, married or not. And two months later, he was with Jennifer.

Yuck! 

Jennifer had told Tamra and Heather that Ryan was a notorious cheater, and apparently, according to Tamra, he has already cheated on Jennifer.

While Tamra is building up a very negative narrative about Jennifer, Gina, who had the biggest issue with Jennifer, is having a very mature conversation about the infidelity.

And that’s kind of why I enjoy having Gina on RHOC. She’s incapable of holding back if she has an issue with someone.

But it’s strange how upset Gina gets when the women speak of anything regarding infidelity.

Heather was wise enough to stop Gina from calling her boyfriend to vent about the situation, as she understands that it will destroy the relationship.

However, Gina didn’t seem that pleased with Heather in her confessional as she picked Tamra over her.

It’s strange to me how everybody is being so understanding to Tamra’s bullshit.

She was making fun of Heather’s IMDb yet blamed Taylor. She was spreading some nasty stories about Jennifer’s boyfriend. She accused Shannon of being an alcoholic.

Yet, nobody’s mad at Tamra!

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Keeping it Sweet and Cutting it Short

You know what’s strange? Tamra Judge is back, Heather Dubrow is back. But the one that I’m appreciating the most right now, is Emily Simpson!

She’s nosy, she’s asking questions, but she’s also being the voice of reason, and she’s funny.

It’s so popular to be anti-Emily and Gina Kirschenheiter, but Emily is getting close to become my favorite this season.

When Tamra was raging on the boat, Emily told her that she must take responsibility for her own actions, or there will be no moving forward with Shannon Beador.

And she had the right reaction when Tamra destroyed the cake and threw it on Eddie Judge. “You’re wasting it!” She was looking forward to that cake.

And it’s understandable that someone is acting out when they are going through something.

However, when Tamra started to treat Shannon poorly on the boat, she gave away her power in their argument.

And why was she crying about it? 

It’s a little too much and Shannon didn’t really seem to appreciate it either. She expects an apology for the last couple of years as well.

Maybe they just have got a fucked up dynamic in their friendship?

But Tamra isn’t airing out Shannon’s business on the show. She’s throwing Jennifer Pedranti under the bus as well with her infidelity.

It’s difficult for Gina to connect with Jennifer because it triggers her own experience with infidelity in her own marriage. 

It reminds me of Brandi Glanville on RHOBH.

It’s understandable, but she seems to be looking for excuses to have a problem with Jennifer, like the post Jennifer had posted about her yoga business.

And speaking of the end of an era. Tamra and Eddie are closing their fitness gym, and they looked heartbroken about it.

This was where Emily and Gina first met. And it was where Jennifer started her affair with Ryan Boyajian.

When the women were talking about her relationship with Ryan, Tamra whispered in her ear “Just be honest”.

Well, now we know that Jennifer isn’t telling the whole truth to the women. And that makes her more interesting.