#Regardless... If they're taking 10 hours out of your time they should very well pay for it

[ed-nygma]

Opinion: A job is only "9-5" if you can get to it in like. 30 minutes.

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

agajsksns not gonna lie being 10 feet tall sounds awesome. i have no idea how tall that is because the only thing i know about feet (that sounds so wrong) is that google is telling me that i'm 5'6 (sorry to disappoint). which is. average height right? well it doesn't feel like it coz my best friends are giants. they're both 180+ cm tall and they constantly make fun of me for being short. but honestly i win because i can always make them reach things for me.

thank you! that's very sweet, i actually only saw your reply like 20 minutes before the new year so it was right on time! i loved writing to you and waiting to hear back as well, you're a really fun person to talk to!

i know you probably won't see this for a couple of weeks before going on holiday, but have fun!

i laughed really hard at the picture my brain conjured up when reading about you dropping the vampire act and starting to pretend to be a mouse, just straight up scurrying up to the houses on all fours in a bathrobe is hilarious. i'd pay to see that. and yeah! me either. the number of times i've gone outside at night is probably like 3. that's counting that time when i went for ice cream at 11pm to the store on the other side of the street in my pajamas and then had to turn back because it apparently closes at 10 pm. that was a pretty big disappointment

a halloween themed birthday party sounds awesome! it's sort of disappointing though that you can barely remember it. the only themed birthday party i had (or at least the only one that i remember) was princess themed because i was on my princess faze back then (i was 5 or 6 i think). i still remember the sheer joy i felt at being able to wear a long fancy dress. it was brilliant

oh yeah! i'm still slightly scared of blenders because of that time. now anytime i even put my fingers close to the blade i unplug it first. also i saw you got a blender? i think we have one that's similar to the one you described. so i have a couple of suggestions! i like to make banana "ice cream". you just cut up a banana into pieces and freeze it, (i have no idea how long it takes to freeze i just generally always have frozen bananas in my freezer) then you take them out, let them sit for 10 minutes (to not break the blender when you use it) and blend them. i sometimes add frozen berries or peanut butter too! depending on what i want that day. it's great, especially because i'm slightly lactose intolerant too and i absolutely love ice cream. you can also make smoothies as you said. i usually put in mine whatever fruit we have, generally apples, bananas and oranges or grapefruits. or if i'm making one for breakfast (which i know you can't, but this is just a generally more filling option i think?) i also add spinach. you can't really feel the taste but it's supposed to be good for you and it fills you up more (it does make the smoothie super green though!). but yeah i pretty much just mix and match anything i have! also: milkshakes. ice cream, berries (optional) and milk! super easy and my little cousins love it when they visit!

ohhh your grater also seems to be out to get you. i bet it's really painful if it actually falls on your feet, because like metal. on foot. ouch. especially if it hits you with a corner! and i would definitely also get surprised every time it happened no matter how many times it did! bifocal glasses do not sound fun either tho. i would constantly forget how to use them and probably would just get headache really fast too! i get a headache from my normal glasses when i wear them (i usually wear contacts) so bifocal ones would be even worse i bet.

exactly. i had no idea what "hot" means. i thought you were supposed to use it when you thought a person was aesthetically pleasing? or like you thought they look cute? i dunno. i used it a couple of times before i realised that was not what that meant and then i was just like uhhhh yeah i'm gonna delete that word from my vocab. yeah! i think that ace and probably aro too are pretty hard to figure out because it's the lack of something.

ahahsksns i can imagine tiny Lindsey waking up on Christmas morning and running to the window expecting snow in the middle of summer and it's so funny! i can't say anything though because we have this saying in lithuanian which is used essentially when someone does something unexpected and unusual for them so you say "it's gonna snow tomorrow". as in "wow, [name] did [something super unexpected from them], it must be snowing tomorrow" (because like those are equally unexpected things i guess? but it's said in winter too so it's just something you say whenever, i'm sorry it's hard to explain!) but yeah a figure of speech. and anytime i heard that, even in the middle of summer, the next morning i'd run to my window and look for snow and when there was none, i'd just stare accusatorily at my parents. like wow, i can't believe you lied/let someone lie to me

horse races sound fun, i've never been to one though! and a picnic luch sounds awesome! i love picnics but we have them very rarely, i definitely think we should have them more often

and yeah, i get that acid reflux more of an annoyance than a problem but still! i completely agree with you about peanut butter though. it's amazing, i could eat it everyday

I know exactly how tall 10 feet is purely because I’m 5 foot so two of me is 10 foot. I barely know feet but I got used to people being confused when I was like oh, I’m 155cm! so I learnt what my height was in feet but I can really only visualise heights when I put them into centimetres. Someone can be like I’m 6 foot! and that’s great but I don’t have the faintest idea how tall that actually is. 182cm on the other hand is easy. that’s just like one ruler above my height. I can picture that. 5 foot 6 is probably average but as a short person, I consider you tall. That really isn’t saying much at my height but still sdflshdfks. Biggest benefit of tall best friends is indeed making them reach high things though. 

And now we’re almost three weeks into the new year. Time seems to be flying this year. This is a very late reply indeed sdfjhskdfs. I did see this before I left but didn’t have time to reply, thank you though! I did have lots of fun. I had some birds try to invade the unit up in Orewa and I had a dotterel (I think) follow me along the beach at Ngarimu Bay playing some sort of red light green light game with me (it only moved closer and started following me again when I looked away) and I think a blackbird started some sort of mating performance at me which was flattering but uhhhh I’m a bit of a big bird mate. Maybe choose someone else. there was also beaches and gorgeous views etc etc but birds, y’know. birds.

i would 100% do that for money with no regrets. on one hand I could get a job and contribute to society. on the other hand I could do that as my main income. not a hard choice. hire me by the hour to freak your family and friends out. i have no respect for myself i’ll do it to anyone for the right price. damn. only closed one hour earlier. that’s a massive disappointment. i was out at night willingly for my high school prom and for a creative writing night at my uni and inside a car if that counts when I think my family was travelling back from the south island when I was younger. So three times that come to mind. Oh. And if stupid camp burma trails count then add a few times to that but those were not night outings I did willingly.

I can barely remember most of my life, I just assume it happened and I wasn’t just planted here at 12 years old as an alien spy. Anything’s possible though. I remember my birthday cakes more than my birthday parties to be honest with you. My mum always made the cake and when I was young she’d make fun designs. A bee, a bat, a swimming pool and a cat come to me off the top of my head. They were mostly just sponge cats but she cut them and iced them expertly. A princess-themed party seems like a very fun type of party for kids who like that. Kids always seem very happy to dress up in pretty dresses and cool outfits to attend those kinds of parties. I can imagine the joy. I know my little cousin looooves that sort of thing, and her brother isn’t willing to be left out either

thank god you unplug it first now sdfjhsdf that’s incredibly reassuring. Ooo thank you for those suggestions!!! this is great!! I was wanting to try something with bananas and that sounds easy enough. I had an apple and feijoa smoothie while I was away on holiday and all I want is another one of those. So I’m very very very interested in trying out fruit smoothies now because they seem like they can be very very tasty. Spinach seems like such an odd thing to add but I’ve heard that several times now so clearly it’s a thing. I don’t think I’ve ever even had spinach. I’ll keep it in mind though. I suppose if I just try whatever fruit we have on hand eventually I’ll get something that tastes good. I have dairy free ice cream and dairy free milk so it seems like this could work out for me in a way where I’m not regretting my entire life. Normally when I go near a milkshake I regret the day I was born.

It isn’t a super heavy grater but I have intense survival instincts every now and then so it hasn’t actually hit my foot yet. I go diving in the other direction. But I think if it did I’d probably curse a few times before moving on with my life. I don’t think it’d be THAT bad. But I live in fear regardless. oh no. do your normal glasses have a slightly wrong prescription or is this just a thing that happens when you normally wear contacts,,, I’ve never worn contacts because I fear touching my squishy eyeball and also I think my shitty eyesight is too awkward for contacts so I have no idea if that’s a thing.

oh yes haha hot has been solidly deleted from my vocab for many years except in terms of temperature. It has a word that has never naturally come to mind and I’m sure it never will. It just seems weird when I use it. 

I was a fool of a child and absolutely nothing has changed there! I mean I know how hemispheres work now but I’m still a dumbass at heart. Hahahahahaha oh nooooo. That’s incredible but oh noooo. I get what you mean by the saying though, that’d make a lot of sense here honestly since it never snows ever. Locally, at least. 

i think horse races are just a form of betting and losing money that is frowned upon less than actual buildings based on gambling and such. I mean I only ever attended those ones, idk if all horse races are like that, but I know there was buying tickets for whatever horse you thought would win, and if they did you got money, if they didn’t you lost money. I don’t think it was a whole lot of money ? just like a few bucks ? but maybe you could choose to bet more ? I really don’t remember how it worked, I just remember accidentally finding a ticket on the ground and handing it in only to receive some money because the horse won. I think it was like 5 or 10 bucks which seemed like a LOT to my kid self. picnic lunches are fun though. my family keeps a tartan blanket in the back of the car that we use whenever we have picnics and also whenever we get takeaways (we put it in the middle of the lounge floor as the rest of my family eats fish and chips and I eat sushi, normally). But we don’t have as many as we used to. They are fun though.

can confirm i do eat peanut butter everyday and it goes brilliantly.

[taeyangdyb]

Giving love a shot part 57

♡Jae’s views♡

I can’t believe I am a mother now. Me Jaeha with 3 kids? If I look back at my my life, fifteen to twenty years ago, the thought of marriage give me rash, but now now I’m married with children.

Right now I’m in the room with Jay alone cause our friends and family are respectful enough to give us some privacy to process the whole thing.

Jae: so Jaehoon came out first uh?

Jay: yea, you know considering the fact that we almost missed him, I thought  he’d be last. You feeling alright?

Jae: are you alright?

Jay: I don’t know, so the hardest part of our lives begins now, ready?

Jae: you?

Jay: yes, because I have you. You should also feel that way cause you have me and we have each other.

Jae: you think we’ll be alright?

Jay: truth or lie?

Jae: make me feel better

Jay: well then, we’ll be great 

After going back home, it feels like my whole life and world change. The first few days, I might’ve cried a day or two, but I can’t cry cause my husband would cry whenever I do.

It’s strange, how much I Han Jaeha- wait I Park Jaeha, you know how SERIOUS I take my sleep, something tells me that I won’t be sleeping anytime soon.

My son is a  little gentleman,  he only fuss or cry when he need something, but the girls I feel like They're bothering me on purpose,  they cry one after the other. I’m not going to lie, I cry along with them.

Jay’s been doing his best, we tried taking “shift” like I take naps during the day, and he take naps at night. But regardless we still  help each other out.

Someone asked me why can’t I pay someone to watch the kids at night so I can sleep. They are my kids, why would I do that? When I can watch my own kids.

I try to document every little moments, cause before you know it, they’re graduating school and getting married. 😥😣 too soon Jaeha. Too soon..

《Jay’s views 》

The past few weeks has been, words can’t describe great feeling of holding my babies. Jaeha as been remarkable as if she had kids before.

Even though we split the shifts, she still does most of the works. She never complain that she’s tired, or sleepy or anything. I know it’s hard for her, I know my wife, we’ve been together for a while now, and many things I’ve learn is that Jaeha, doesn’t like to ask for help, even when it’s difficult, she handles everything by herself.

The other day I walked in the room and find her crying, she gets annoyed. I did some research and find out she has post partum depression, I didn’t know what that was until I realize that Jaejae was doing the exact same thing.

She stops caring for herself, only worrying about the kids, she get scared even when they’re peacefully sleeping. I think she feels like I’m not going to love her, because of how much her body has changed over the past few weeks, even before that, she always had that insecurity that, I’m going to leave her once she gets old.

Truthfully I’m the one that afraid that someday she’ll leave me. Speaking of let me go check what she’s up to.

Walking in our room I find her looking at herself in the mirror almost in disgust.

Jay: you like what you see?

Jae:*sigh, walks away*

Jay:*pulls her back* what’s wrong?

Jae: nothing

Jay: babe, come on

Jae: it’s just….. I’m ugly, my hair is all tangled… I’m a mess *starts crying*

Jay: okay first of all, don’t ever call yourself ugly ever again, and-and look at me I have a mustache

Jae: and you look pretty hot with it, lucky you  *She say while crying*

Jay:*smile* awe thanks babe, and you’re right I am lucky. I’m lucky to have you as my life partner. Look, my parents are coming over, how about we let them watch the kids, and we have a date.

Jae: date? We’re going to to leave the kids at home by themselves?

Jay: baby no, my parents will watch the kids, and Mo the lady you trust and raised you will be here, let’s just take a night just for us. Please. I know you worrying about the kids, and I am to, but I’m more worrying about you. You have to take care of yourself to be able to take care of them.

After managing to persuade her, she agrees only if we stay in. After that we took care of the kids before my parents get here, once they came, I start getting ready for our date.

Since we’re staying in, I know exacly what to do. I start by running Jaeha a bath since it’s one of favorite things in life. Go in her closet and pick her a dress.

Minutes later she walks in surprise.

Jae: babe? What’s going on? What’s all this?

Jay: for our date

Jae: but I thought we were staying in?

Jay: we are, come on *takes her in the bathroom*  there go in

With her sitting in the water I sit on top of the tub to brush her hair.

Jae: aren’t you afraid that my hair is going to get in the water?

Jay: things like that doesn’t bother me. Do you know how many times I wake up with you hair on my face, all over my pillow.

Jae: *exhale* this feels nice. *leans her head on his knee, and holding on to his leg*

Jay: Jaejae

Jae: mhmm

Jay: I want you to know you’re not alone, you have your friends, parents, and you have me. If something is wrong with you, you have to tell me. The same way It hurts when our kids are crying and we can’t do anything about it, it hurts me 10 times more when you are crying and I can’t do anything to help you. I dont want you to be crying in the closet by yourself, or wait till I’m sleeping. If you need to cry I’m always going to have a shoulder for you to lean on.

Jae: I’m just afraid

Jay: afraid of what?

Jae: that you’re going to leave me, for someone cuter, younger, with a better body

Jay:  Jaeha, baby that is never going to happen. I’ll will never leave you, till death do us part remember. I will never love any other woman the way that I love you, you are the love of my life, and that will never change. if anything I’m more afraid that you’ll leave me

Jae: why would you think that?

Jay: because I’m always hurting you.

Jae: not intentionally, but the hard work has just begin.

After her bath, we go for our dinner.

Jae: where are we going?

Jay: well we’re going to have dinner by the golf course.

Jae: how romantic

Jay: well I figure you need some air

Jae: awe babe

Jay: I know you hate wet grass so, the sprinklers,  will be a bit late tonight.

Jae: *smile*

We had dinner, talk, laugh, I couldn’t be any more perfect. After eating we walked a bit and then head back in our room.

Jae: so what now?

Jay: whatever you want

Jae: how about a massage?

Jay: I’m at your service

Jae: no, this time I’m at your service. You worked equally hard. And I’ll help you strip *wink wink*

Jay: Jaejae, as much as I would love to get a massage I have a feeling we’re both are going to end up naked.

Jae: *walk up to him* would that make you happy?

Jay: very

Jae: okay then, let’s get naked

We had a great night for once in a while. It feel great being able to wrap my arms around her again.

Jae: shouldn’t we go check-

Jay: the kids are fine, let’s get some sleep while we can *pulls her closer to his chest* goodnight

Jae: love you

Jay: love you to babe

After she fell asleep I couldn’t help but feeling teary a bit. I spent most of the night, just admiring this woman, I cannot believe how far we’ve come.

I’m not going to say that she’s looking old,  but looking at her now and years before, she look more mature. I love taking time to just admire her, when she’s sleeping cause she gets embarrassed about it if she’s awake.

After Jaejae gets into a deep sleep, I went off to check on the kiss. Knowing them at this time they’d be awake  for food.

Walking in, my parents were feeding them.

Mom: you’re awake?

Jay: yeah I wanted to check on these guys first.

Dad: they’re good.

Mom: were you crying?

Jay: *sits on the floor* I was just looking at Jaejae and I couldn’t help it.

Dad: what?

Jay: I’ve known her for almost 10 years. In that time I realize that I dont deserve her. I’ve cause her more pain than she deserve. It freaks me out more now, I feel like one day she will have enough and she’ll just get up  and leave with the kids.

Dad: then stop hurting her, that’s just your past catching up to you.

Mom: shouldn’t you be comforting him?

Dad: Jaebum is not a kid anymore that needs to me comforting anymore. Your a married man now, you have a son that’s going to look up to you, what exactly are you going to teach him?

Jay: the worst part about it, is that she’s always taking my side even when I’m dead wrong. I really can’t count with one hand the amount of time she has embarrassed or disappointed me, but the amount of times I’ve embarrassed, humiliated, and diappointed her, was good enough reasons for her to say no 10 times when I asked her to marry me.

Dad: so now you’re having regrets?

I spent an hour talking to my parents. My mom tries to suggacoat things when she’s talking, but my dad on the other hand just tell  me to man my ass up.

Jay: I should probably go back, before she gets up and starts looking for me. I’ll see you guys later.

*next morning*

She’s not on the bed I know exactly where to find her.

Jay:*looking at her playing with the babies*

Jae: hey good morning

Jay: morning *sits next to her*

Jae: *kisses him*

Our kids are growing up very fast. It’s cute the girls are friendly, but my son, he is a serious momma’s boy. He will go to people but as soon as he sees or hear her voice, he doesn’t want anybody else.

He has a weak stomach, he vomits everything as soon he eat. The doctors gave us medicine, it’s actually working.

Jay: how’s it going?

Jae: well so far I’ve got sneezed on, vomit, drool and peed on. So I guess where having a very productive morning. Hoonie hasn’t thrown up yet, and I fed him 15minutes ago

Jay: You ready for today?

Jae: not really You?

Jay: not at all

Since Jaeha and I have the worst luck we have to take our kids to the doctor for a check up…. *sigh* also the dogs to the vet. It’s not like it’s just Gajeel, she has 3 pops.

You all know how she cares about this dog, like it’s her first child. So we’re about to take our kids and grandkids to the vet. I know I’m drinking later on.

Jae: you ready for today’s challenge?

Jay: yes let’s do it.

First it’s starts with taking the kids a bath, you put on their diapers and then they poop before you even finish with the other one. This woman sanely got evrything done, pack snacks for the kids, the dog, and me.

It shows me how strong she is, and if we didn’t have money and you know all the extra help that comes with it, she’d do fine. She’d be better than fine.

When we finish we load up, 3 car seats, dogs and head out.

Jae: okay everyone and everything is on board. 

Jay: can I ask you a question?

Jae: fire away

Jay: how can you do all of this? Do you have kids somewhere else?

Jae: it just come naturally. You automatically knows and see what you have to do.

Jay: just the dogs would drive me insane

Jae: because they dont listen to you.

The kids are doing great, except for Mr weak stomach, but the medicine are helping. They each have to take two shots, and they’re going to hurt.

Jaeha cry of course all 3 of her kids are crying. I’m just here feeling sorry for everyone. After that we head out to the vet.

Getting to the vet, they doing check up all you can hear is Jaeha’s stomach going off.  She forgot to eat or pack anything for herself.

Jay: you gonna eat anything?

Jae: I forgot to pack mine, but I’m not really hungry

Jay: baby, come on stop doing that.

Jae: I forgot, Hoon was throwing up, and I forgot.

Jay: you want to share mines?

Jae: no there’s cinnamon in it.

Jay: I’ll go buy you something

Jae: babe, I am fine.

Jay: I do not care, I’m getting you something.

After 3 hours everyone fed, and changed we making our way back, but first I have to stop to get something for Jaejae to eat and then stop at illi office.

She fall asleep as soon as I started driving. I cannot believe I’m driving a car listening to nursery rhyme.

*Illionaire office*

Dok2: you coming in?

Jay: cant, I have my family in the car they’re all out.

Dok2: I can’t believe this, You? A family man now, with a car full of kids and dogs. How is it?

Jay: fantastic, you just have to give up sleep ing for a few years.

My life is hectic right now, but I dont think I’d want it any other way.