#Reg does also do things for James don't get me wrong

[noblehouseofgay]

OH MY GOD WE GET IT YOU LIKE ONLY THE BRAVE NOW WILL YOU PLEASE tell me your favourite scenes <3

Yes !!

Ok otb spoilers below

The pretty cave date <3333

The rubix cube

Dorcas and reg talking before their fake fight "I don't want to give up James, I don't want this stupid thing on my arm. But it can only be me"

Reg mentally making fun of voldemort every chance he gets. From the snakes everywhere being tacky to straight up calling him ugly

Any interaction between reg and eslpeth actually they're so iconic

The cave scene and the black brothers interactions afterwards. Everything from Regulus thinking about James and sirius, him telling dorcas he loves her, and sirius saving reg with the sword, to reg waking up and immediately grabbing onto Sirius like a child and then them having to communicate as best they can. Sirius deciding to trust remus about Regulus.

Wolfstar in the forest

Literally any interaction between reg and James while reg is under the legacy magic. Bc James is still so into him and the shadows are scared of James so you get little bits of Regulus poking out. Oh also stabbing. Yeah I like that bit

Every ounce of moonwater we get. I fuvking love when they teamed up. I fucking love them. And even more- when barty enters the mix and they're this little unlikely team

"Action man"

Regulus literally sacrificing his life for James

"Horrible things"

When Regulus collapses against the door and lily is panic trying to heal him. And then he just stands up and is fine somehow.

The black brothers team up !!

Remus, barty, and sirius defending Regulus against Gideon and the others. Like he's psycho but he's their psycho and they trust him

"Your fight is with me tom"

The entirety of that final battle. Buying time. Regulus fully giving himself up. Him snapping voldemorts neck. Then everyone trying to bring Regulus back. They realize the fight is over and now all they want is for reg to come back to them.

Regulus desperately trying to get back to them all. Friend. Brother. Lover. A string guiding him. A vow. The sun. Silver eyes.

Regulus from here on out absolutely destroying Dumbledore and telling thay bitch what to do. He does not give a shit. He just saved the Wizarding world, he's not gonna let some old fuck deny him the things he deserves

Regulus' emotions and memories coming back. It hurts, it fucking hurts so bad but god I missed my boy yk

James finding out the things Regulus wrnt through. Him and sirius having to deal with the fact that Regulus felt he had to do it alone, he had no choice

Dorcas and reg talking about James, reg confiding in dorcas as always

The black brothers killing walburga together

"James spent a year getting over Regulus, it's reasonable to believe he succeeded"

"It's too mcuh. It should be too much"

Just that entire fuvking scene. The entire scene of jegulus talking again. Regulus not understanding how James can even look at him. James wanting to give anything and everything to Regulus.

"Regulus loves in French music" hfhshdsh him singing against his lips I'm gonna cry

Regulus slowly trying to be used to tovuh again. And James always respecting his boundaries. James is so silly. He puts his hands in his pockets and does exactly what Regulus asks

The tattoo !! Their entire love story on his arm

Sirius' new bike !!

Reg jusy fucking spoiling everyone he loves because he doesn't know how else to show affection

Reg stabbing Gideons hand. All my homies hate action man

Evan waking up and rosekiller rosekillering

Regulus sitting at the meeting table and pulling up his sleeve, showing his mark off to everyone. Bc yeah fuck you he was a death eater bc he had to be. He saved everyone's asses.

"Caught a rat"

This one's a bit complicated but- the scene where Regulus finds out about Harry. He's so fucking broken. He thinks even after James wanted him- he still lost him. It hurts so much he can't even hold back the tears. But James knows something is wrong so he doesn't leave. He needs Regulus to know he still wants him, that he's not leaving

Speaking of the baby, Lily and Harry both almost dying in labor and Regulus shows up and does the doctors job for them. Because apparently Regulus black can do fucking everything and I love him

And they all lived happily ever after !!

I got a bit carried away hehe

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What you said abt transness being sexlalized is SO real and I mean this in the most respectful way to trans ppl and the most disrespectful way to marauders fan who do this: its a fetish for them and its no coincidence that the two most commonly trans hced people are ftm white "fem/soft" boys. Like they'll say its screw jkr but its not, its so they can make sirius and regulus 2ft tall and so skinny and idk but it seems like reg being trans is always linked to james and being like would James like me would he care, would he accept??? HUH? does that not rub anyone else the wrong way??? Why should someone's gender identity be completely linked to the person they're shipped with??? Also on 5he other side of the coin, they want trans rep but only that specific palatable kind?? Some hcs i love are ftm James, ftm remus or mtf or nb Marlene, like I thought they don't care abt canon so why are those just "not it"??? Also ships, sorry this is so off topic of what I was saying but like they'll be like u can't get mad at jegulus cuz canon is shit and that its a free space, then in the same breath they'll say "but, wolfstar built the fandom!" "I don't trust anyone who doesn't ship jegulus or wolfstar" "kittywater is jegulus hate" "prongsfoot shippers are gross" like I thought this was a safe space literally according to them??? It is NEVER that deep but they act like anyone who doesn't agree with their questionable slightly sometimes racist, sexist, and fetishy ideas. Maybe its cuz I'm a woc, but idk how someone wouldn't be able to understand that inclusivity isn't inclusivity unless it applies to everyone, not just handpicked ones u like????? If u want more trans hc characters, maybe include poc people, don't crash out when ppl don't like ur ship, its so frustrating how a lot of people can't do this. And the sexism thing: if the whole fandom, all the characters were genderbent and the marauders were girls bo one would like them bcuz this fandom hates women and likes yaoi better than Yuri so like-

I’m replying to this really late, my apologies. But I completely agree.

There are so many things to criticize about the fandom as a whole. Just because it’s made up of headcanon and fanfics doesn’t mean it’s immune to criticism.

1. Wolfstar wasn’t the original Marauders era’s ship, Snupin was.

2. Jegulus is a water-downed, carbon copy of Drarry.

3. Quit feminizing all queer men. It’s a harmful stereotype and not all queer men are fucking twinks or feminine. (Not saying feminine queer men or just men exist, I love my boy Severus)

4. Learn fandom etiquette. I pray to God that the Marauders fans are only apart of that fandom and don’t be acting like that in other spaces, because the lack of fandom etiquette is atrocious.

Not everyone is going to like what you like, and that’s okay! If it bothers you that much, block them and don’t interact with that group of people.

5. If you only like yaoi (especially if you’re a girl, especially if you’re a straight girl) then you’re really weird. I’m sorry, I’ve always seen it that way. If you only read yaoi because it’s “hot”, then you’re sexualizing queer men. Stop it. Same goes for if you only like trans people because you find them being trans is hot.

This also goes in hand with the common lavender marriages headcanons. You can’t say it’s a lavender marriage and then not go into what a lavender marriage is like or why they exist, just because you want your yaoi ships. It’s disgusting and disrespectful to the queer people who were forced into a lavender marriage for safety.

6. Quit faking progressiveness. Saying someone deserves to be bullied isn’t progressive, neither is making fun of their appearance. Saying someone will look like a bigot because they bullied a POC person isn’t progressive, and neither is saying that that particular can’t be headcanoned to be POC. Saying you support queer people and then buy JKR’s merch directly from her isn’t progressive.

[regulus-books]

warnings: depression, anxiety, arguing, angst, mentions of suicide (regulus saying he'd rather kill himself than see james hurt), mentions of walburga and orion's A+ parenting, tell me if I missed anything.

wc: 1.3k+

notes: I've been craving smth angsty and sad so this is kinda hurt/comfort. the timer thing for reggie is something my brain does too and it's actually so annoying, im not sure if other people go through that but it sucks and I'm here for you:). also the main idea for this was actually from a tiktok here

Regulus can't help it. Their time is almost up. He can hear the alarm ringing in his head, telling him its time to go, it's time to leave. This time, its different. He doesn't want to.

2 years. Consistent. It's been rather healthy, there's no reason to leave, he loves him. The alarm gets louder day by day, his days grow worse and worse and he fears that James knows. James knows how he's feeling, he knows that their time together is up. But, against what Regulus' mind is telling him to do, he stays. He lays in bed. All day long.

James comes home at 17:26, like he always does. Regulus can hear as he places down his bag, and his water bottle. Regulus hears him throw away his trash from lunch and clean the dishes he used, and Regulus can even hear him put away his lunch bag. The sound Regulus dreads the most, though, is James trudging up the stairs, Regulus isn't ready to face the brightness of the sun, he wishes to stay under the comfort of the moon, not harsh, just enough light to get by.

Regulus turns away from the door, their comforter covering his whole body, including the back of his head. The door cracks open just enough for James to slip through.

"You awake, mi estrella?" Regulus wants to stay silent, to not move, to pretend he's asleep. Instead, he does what he knows he should do, and lets out a quiet hum of confirmation. James walks over to the bed, crouching in front of Regulus, finally coming into his line of sight.

James has always been beautiful, there's no denying it. His brown skin decorated with moles and freckles, his eyes big and doe-like, framed by square shaped golden glasses. Beautiful.

"Hi, baby," James smiles, flashing his white smile. Regulus attempts to smile back as James presses a soft kiss to his cheekbone. "Are you feeling sick?"

"No." Regulus answers, quietly.

"You hate to rot in bed, love, why are you still under the covers?"

"I don't know, Jamie, just not feeling too brilliant." James cocks an eyebrow, chuckling softly.

"You're not sick, though?" James unwraps one of Regulus' arms from the blanket, holding his hand.

"Nevermind, it's hard to explain." Regulus shakes his head.

"Okay, love," James kisses his forehead, and rakes his hair back. "Talk to me about it if you find the words. I love you." As James leaves the room once more Regulus simply hums.

The next day, Regulus still doesn't feel right. James was right, he doesn't like to rot away in bed, so he gets up. Instead he spends the time cleaning his house. He should be at work. Fifth day in a row he's called in sick. No new articles from R.A.B are posted in the prophet.

James gets home, normal time, and does his usual routine. Regulus thinks he might smile at how clean their home is, but instead he nearly scowls.

Regulus seats James at their table, he made sure he had dinner laid out so James could eat as soon as he got home.

"What's going on, Regulus?"

"What?" Regulus answers simply, sitting at their large dining table.

"What's going on?" James and Regulus have both finished their meals, the plates discarded in the middle on the table.

"Nothing. The house was dirty, it was bothering me."

"Not the house, Reg, you. You would never clean the house, you hate cleaning. What's wrong?" James' eyebrows knit together, and Regulus is ready to deny it.

"I'm not sure what you mean, James, I got a little stir crazy and the house needed to be cleaned."

"Regulus if you were stir crazy, you'd attend work." Regulus is taken aback by this. He visibly flinches back.

"You're the one that told me I should take time off, James." Regulus scowls.

"That's not what I meant, Reg, and you know that. I mean, yesterday you were in bed all day. You didn't move an inch. I thought maybe you'd take the time to visit friends or something!"

"I visit my friends all the time, I don't know what your on about." Regulus crosses his arms and leans back further into his chair.

"Really?" James scoffs, "When's the last time you and Pandora had a brunch date?" Regulus scrunches his nose and thinks. He doesn't remember. "Exactly."

"What do you want me to say James? It's like you don't even understand me anymore." But James is quick to clap back.

"I don't understand because you never talk to me about anything!" Regulus looks down at his fingers, picking at the skin around his nails, tracing over the veins. "Is this what you want, Regulus? Us fighting all the fucking time!?" James slams his hand on the table, and Regulus can't help but to flinch. He looks at the ground, and freezes. What is he to do?

James seems to notice almost instantly, just as Regulus' lip starts to wobble. "Oh, honey, please, I didn't mean too. I'm sorry, please, baby, I'm so sorry." James walks over to him and kneels on the ground, taking both of Regulus' hands into his own.

"I-." Regulus cuts himself off, trying to keep the tears in his eyes. He can't let James see him cry, not like that.

"C'mon, baby, I didn't mean it. I would never hurt you, I love you, you know that." But Regulus knows all too well that love can quickly be turned into violence.

"Sirius." Is all Regulus can even think at this moment.

"Sirius?"

"Get Sirius." Regulus can muster, his hands tightened into fists, his nails digging into his flesh. James nods, sadly almost, and stands up. He goes through the floo, and he doesn't return, only Sirius stands in his place.

"What's wrong, Reg?" Regulus can barely move his eyes to look up at his brother, "What happened."

That's when Regulus breaks down. He lets his face crumple up, tears stream down his pale face.

"He yelled at me," Regulus sobs into his hands, "and-" he sniffles softly, "and he hit the table." He shakes his head, he sounds so pathetic. "It just scared me, you know? Reminded me of when mama and father got into arguments."

"Oh, Reggie," Sirius holds one of Regulus' hands in his own, pouting slightly. "He's nothing like mum and dad, darling, he'd never hurt you."

"That's the worst part, Sirius, I flinched. I didn't see the look on his face but I'd rather kill myself than see it. He thinks that I think he'll hurt me." Regulus sobs quietly now.

"He's okay, sweetheart. He's with Moony, they're talking about it. What's wrong? Is that head of yours bothering you?"

"It's happening again, Sirius, the bell. It's going off. It's time for me to let him go." Sirius shakes his head.

"Oh, you stupid, stupid, brilliant boy." Regulus almost laughs, "Ignore the stupid bell, it means nothing. You're afraid that he's got better things to do, is that right?" Regulus nods, "Come on, Reg. He's a professional quidditch player, he has a loving boyfriend and an amazing family. What else could he ask for?" Regulus trys to think, but he comes up empty handed.

"I don't know."

"Exactly. His life is nothing short of perfect. He loves you."

"Can you go get him?" Regulus says once he's finally dry of tears.

"I'll be happy to." So, Sirius goes and James comes through the fireplace once more. He doesn't move he just stands there.

"What are you doing, James, come out?" James sighs and slightly relaxes his tense body.

"Remus told me I should give you space." James' face is slightly pink, probably from crying.

"That doesn't mean literally, stupid." Regulus let's out a sigh and opens his arms up. James slowly, cautiously, steps into them, tightening his arms around Regulus' waist. "You don't frighten me, James, please know that." James starts to quietly cry into the crook of Regulus' neck.

"I'm so sorry, mi estrella, I didn't mean to hurt you. I love you."

"I know, mon amour, I know, I love you too, Jamie."

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writer interview game

thanks for the tag @messrsrarchives @inevitablestars @angel-daydreams

how many works do you have on ao3?

74? which is fucking crazy what the fuck who let me do that but only 64 of them are currently up on ao3

what's your total ao3 word count?

1,574,345 somehow

your top 5 stories by kudos?

Teach Them How To Dream It Was Rare I Was There I Remember It Absent Mindedly Making Me Want You Dear Reader You Don't Have To Save Me (But Would You Run Away With Me)

do you respond to comments?

I certainly try but I do go through times where I don't respond to like any of them but recently I've been better at it!

what's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

uh I'm gonna go with like multi-chapter fics because I've written so many one shots where james dies so we don't have to get into all that but also i'm a baby so I think the most angsty ending is Stars Will Fall? Reg is dead... or it could be Anyway Don't Be Stranger because jeg are broken up and aren't getting back together... but also A Stranger in The Alps is also pretty angsty but also not like jeg never got to be together in that life but also they didn't get to date in Stars Will Fall either

okay I'm going with Stars Will Fall that's my final answer!

do you write crossovers?

No, and I probably will never but you never know I guess

have you ever received hate on a fic?

A few times yeah I had someone comment on one of my fics saying how they hated it but they finished it? for some reason. Mainly right now the only hate I receive on fics is how I characterize Sirius.

do you write smut?

I did for a time but not anymore it's boring for me to write I'll read it but it takes forever for me to write and it is not meant for me. It was a time while I was writing it though...

have you ever had a fic stolen?

I haven't been like plagiarized but someone put teach them how to dream on wattpad once without my permission uh and I think that's it? from what I know.

have you ever had a fic translated?

I think I did once but I don't think the person ever finished it so I don't think it's up anymore, but at some point absent mindedly was being translated.

have you ever co-written a fic before?

i've successfully co-written one fic and by successful i mean it's on ao3 here but I haven't written my chapter in months and I've unsuccessfully co-written one too that went up in flames so i think I'm gonna stick to not writing anymore

what's your all-time favorite ship?

jegulus i do not care about anything else i don't care you can throw any ship at me jegulus is better

what's a wip that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

the history fic I loved the idea but I don't think it'll ever be done like I'd have to redo the whole thing that I have like 50k of it written and the idea of having to redo all of that is awful so I really don't think I'll ever finish it it would also be really really long and I don't think I have the ability to get it done the way I want so alas it was not meant to be i fear

what are your writing strengths?

Metaphors? Does that count. I love myself a good metaphor and I think I'm good with hurting people with them. I like using them as a way to foreshadow too.

what are your writing weaknesses?

Describing anything other than emotion like if you tell me to describe a room or outfit i'm sorry it's not gonna happen. Which is weird because when I write I see everything like it was a movie but I literally can't describe it you have to teleport in my head and you'll see it.

what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I think it's fun but also I feel like every time I do it I do it wrong (i did in in tthtd and i got so many comments about how it was wrong lmao) so I stick with Reg calling Harry mon cheri and that's pretty much it.

what's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

I mean I think I've got my ships I have jeg I have moonchaser i even did rosestarkillerchaser like I have my guys and I've written arcane which I wanted to do but I don't like any other ships in that enough to write them. I have this idea to write for lilylene? so maybe that's it but I don't know I'd be content just to write jeg forever and nothing else.

what's your favorite fic you've ever written?

It's so hard I don't know I feel like my go to is Dear Reader that's my baby girl I love her but also the road trip fic is up there too I love the both of them they are my children and I can't pick so both! I dont' care I make the rules. Those are the ones I'm always rereading somewhat the rest I could take or leave but not those two.

tagging... honestly i don't know who did it or not this has been around for a while so I'm sorry if you've already been tagged or did it but @ephemeralstarss @starsworth @ultravioletbrit @rabidlittlestrawberry @static-radio-ao3

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YESSS EXACTLY TRANS REGGIE MAKES IT SOOOO MUCH MORE TRAGIC!!! he makes me want to rip my hair out i love him so much

sirius’s bf being kingsley would be so fun, and yes i also agree it’s the wanting to be sirius thing that even caused it all. like yes he’s a good, handsome guy and regulus likes him but not like that. and in the soup of wanting to be/be like sirius he got it all mixed up. and when this comes out in therapy and he tells peter, who is the only one who knew the whole thing, peter is like babe i don’t mean to be mean but what is wrong with your psyche ???

james is jealous but also proud bc he’s like aw at least they’re working on things!

mirror sex is def spontaneous at first and regulus’s eyes are so clear that peter is like we need to make this a regular thing actually. regulus is like how much of your reasoning is because it gets you off but he’s joking and peter is like you making fun of me is progress actually so i won’t even laugh

YESSS they’re so loud. a lot of their sex before was breathless or regulus talking (degrading) peter and now they’re LOUD like i hope the neighbors aren’t home.

SPEAKING OF DEGRADING i think peter talks to his therapist and ultimately decides that he DOES still have a degradation kink but then they have to spend like two new sessions and several hours talking thru what that looks like

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(i can’t remember if i sent this so i hope i didn’t already lol)

Peter being that supportive partner who knows you're fucked up but find it just a little bit endearing because of course Regulus was going to measure himself to the closest male figure he knows, why wouldn't he forced himself to fall for his brother boyfriend when it was the very thing his brother was actually doing.

ahhh the teasing remarks between one another that aren't meant to degrade to hurt makes my heart melting.

i wonder if Peter ends up moving from where he originally was because of all the memories associated with the walls. like how many time does he see his front door and think of all the times he pushed Regulus against it, kissing, bitting and pulling wishing it was Sirius (shivers ran down my back in sympathy for Peter)

communication is key people!!!! don't be like toxic regupete be like healthy regupete.

something i wanted to mention but forgot in my last response is how Regulus would tell Peter about his spiral when he was having his breakdown while pretending to be Sirius. like it would come up when they're starting again from zero and it's when he's explaining it to Peter that Reg realizes that when he was hooking up with random people he wasn't hooking with people who looked like his bothers boyfriend but people who looked like Peter not only because thats what he was used to but because he missed him. I think that would be when Regulus finally noticed how much he cared about Peter.

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Fanfic writer asks — 4, 5, and/or 20!

hi!!

4. Share a headcanon about (character name) in (story title)!

left it open not sure if i'm mean 2 do this for one of my own stories or just any story...suppose i will take this opportunity 2 weigh in on the reg birthday debate & say that i see him as a capricorn. could perhaps be convinced of virgo as well...but that boy is not a cancer sorry

5. Is there a tiny detail in one of your fics that you feel goes tragically unnoticed?

not sure if it's something that's been noticed/brought up before but i don't think it has...i love a full circle/mirrored ending moment so in atydsp the very first line is him being awake + the very last line is him falling asleep <3

20. Is there anything about any one of your fics that you have been dying to discuss but haven’t had the chance to?

oooh idk...honestly zar has been getting quite a few voicenotes recently abt different parts of wfrau so there has been quite a bit i've wanted to discuss lol but some of it is just stuff abt the lily interlude + epilogue that i can't talk abt without spoiling...

i guess one thing i've wanted 2 discuss/one thing that's been interesting to see is (again) the way people have responded 2 the whole james/lily/regulus ambiguity...like i know that much of this fandom revolves around shipping etc but sometimes i've just wanted 2 be like it's not happening!!!!!!!! how can i make it more obvious!!!! but then again that's just part of putting ur writing out there in the world like someone can read something & interpret it completely differently than how u expected regardless of what u do...remember one person commented talking abt how they loved the polyamorous rep w james in wfrau & i was baffled bc in my mind i was writing him as aromantic...also was interesting seeing people expecting jegulily bc i thought i'd done a pretty good job writing reg + lily as platonic lol. also has just been interesting in a broader sense to see the different ways people think abt + interpret sex vs romance...like the idea that james enjoys sex but doesn't find it romantic isn't all that crazy to me bc sex & romance don't necessarily go hand in hand in my own life like. sometimes u just hook up for fun u don't have 2 be in love...but for some people those things r very tied together & it's difficult to conceptualize a guy who just wants to sleep w his friends! so that's been interesting 2 discuss...like the whole expectation that where there's sex romance must follow etc...

one other thing i've been wanting to discuss is like. r&s as they currently stand lol sent a whole long voicenote abt this the other day so have already gotten some of it out of my system but. it's interesting again seeing the amount of feedback from people who really wanted them 2 reconcile + have a happy ending at the point where things currently stand/the conclusion of the main story--or who are holding out for a happily ever after, etc. like to be fair their story has changed a lot as i've written it & i didn't know when i started the fic that the main story would end as it has. that being said ever since the obliviation became a key part of the story i've known that r&s simply would not be getting back together after voldemort's defeat...like sirius genuinely does not love remus anymore bc how could he! he doesn't remember him! they're practically strangers! & remus doesn't wanna give sirius another chance bc why would he! after all the hurt he already went through! knowing that the person in front of him now is essentially the guy who killed the person he loved & took his place! or perhaps more accurately is equivalent to the reanimated corpse of the person he loved...came back wrong narrative etc...u get the point (hopefully). anyway it just seemed clear to me that reconciliation would not be in the cards for them & it felt like brushing past that or trying to patch things up would detract from the emotional impact i was going for...perhaps even diminish the depth of the feelings they did, at one point, have for each other--like, it's only because they cared about each other so much that things are so unfix-able now. of course i do have my interlude + epilogue left 2 play around w but also bc i am mean + contrary + like making people sad every comment of someone being like "please make them happy :((" makes me want to not do that lol

& last thing is just a fun detail abt james that i'm not sure if anyone's noticed...putting it under a cut in case anyone wants 2 put the pieces together themself but a fun little detail abt his death:

james's recurring nightmare abt a bright light + his boggart being that bright light was him seeing his own death <3 bc he lost his ability to see color the 'avada kedavra' didn't look green to him; it was just bright light. & that was the last thing he ever saw! fun <3

fic writer ask game

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Caught in the act (SFW)

@struttingstag

March 14 Prompt: Caught in the act. | 1213 words | SFW version

James just came home from work and he was exhausted. It had been a hectic day and he just wanted to relax. Regulus would still be at work for another hour when he walked in the house and Sirius had texted him to let him know that he had plans with Remus that evening and he didn't know how long he was going to be. Sirius and Remus had just hit their year mark last month and had been talking about moving in together, but they hadn't really made any headway on that front. And don't get him wrong, James liked living with his best friend and his boyfriend but it did make things difficult when James and Regulus wanted to be alone.

James took a quick shower to clean off the grime from his work day and changed into some comfy joggers and the red jumper that Regulus bought him for his birthday. When he went to the kitchen to grab a drink and something small to eat, Regulus was already sitting at the kitchen table.

"Oh, hey, baby. I wasn't expecting you home yet," James replied when he saw him sitting there.

"Why? Did you have somebody else in your bed that I should know about?" Regulus teased as he took a sip of his coffee and pushed James' mug towards him.

"Of course, not. You know you're the only one for me," James laughed lightly as his smile grew on his face.

"Am I?"

"I- Of course, you are. What would make you think any differently?" James was concerned now.

"I'm just teasing, Jamie. I know there's nobody else in the house," Regulus laughed lightly and James took a deep breath. "What do you want for dinner?"

"I don't know. What do you want?"

"Pizza?"

"Sure."

They ordered a pizza and some chicken wings from the new pizza shop down the road. It was delivered quick enough and they settled in on the couch to eat. Regulus had also gotten out the wine before he turned on the telly and started to flip through the channels. After he found nothing that he wanted to watch Regulus turned the telly off and turned towards James. And James knew that look like the back of his own hand.

James was nervous. He didn't want to make Sirius upset but he also didn't want to upset Regulus. His boyfriend had been begging him to do it for the last week and James' resolve was cracking. He didn't know how much longer he would be able to hold out before he inevitably caved to Regulus' begging.

"Please?" Regulus asked again for the third time in the last ten minutes.

"What if he catches us? I really don't want to be in the dog house with your brother... again. Once was enough," James whined.

"He won't know, besides Sirius isn't supposed to be home until at least later tonight, based on what Remus told me the other day. We have the whole house to ourselves."

"When did you talk to Remus?"

"Last week. He said he had a date planned for them. Something big I'm thinking, if the smile he failed to hide was anything to go by. I'm pretty sure we are safe for a while."

"I don't know, Reg. Every time I even think about doing something that could hurt him, he always seems to know. I don't know how but he does." James was fidgeting with his ring.

"I'll make it worth your while, Jamie," Regulus replied with a tone dripping in honey as he sat up on his knees on the end of the couch and ran his hand gently down James' chest making him shiver.

"Oh. Oh, that's not fair."

James threw his head back onto the back of the couch and groaned. He knew if he looked into Regulus' deep grey eyes when he was like this then he was going to crack within a second. James could already feel the fissures forming. It wouldn't take long and Regulus knew that, based on the smile he had when James chanced a glance at his boyfriend. Regulus was crawling over James' legs and dropping all of his weight down onto his lap. James closed his eyes.

"You know you want to," Regulus whispered into his ear as he ran his lips along the shell of it.

"You're going to be the death of me, love," James groaned, refusing to open his eyes.

He knew what would be there when he did. Regulus would have his best pouty face with the puppy dog eyes that James could never say no to. It was an evil tactic and it worked every single time. James took a deep breath before he slowly tipped his head back down and opened his eyes to find exactly what he thought he would.

"If we get caught," James started slowly, "I won't hesitate to blame you."

"Oh, I know," Regulus beamed as he got off of his lap and gave James his signature smirk before he walked back to the kitchen.

They didn't even make it ten minutes before the door was slammed open and Sirius let out a shriek that could be heard in every room in the house and probably outside as well. James groaned as he ran his hand down his face, knocking his glasses askew. He looked at Regulus, who was now sitting with a scowl and his arms crossed over his chest. As soon as James looked over at Sirius, he started his tirade.

"James?! How could you? And with my brother of all people." Sirius was flailing his arms all over the place.

James thought about actually blaming Regulus like he said he would but he didn't have the heart to.

"It's not what it looks like," James tried after a few moments of contemplation on what to say.

"Really? Let me guess, he just happened to crawl into your lap and you couldn't help it. Is that what you were going to say?"

"Well..."

"James, don't you even confirm that you fell victim to my baby brother... again."

James didn't say anything and he could see that Regulus was trying not to laugh beside him.

"James?"

"Hmm?"

"I'm waiting," Sirius said firmly as he tapped his finger on his now-crossed arms.

"Do you want me to lie to you?" James asked after a minute as he tried to hold back the smile that was threatening to appear.

"I can't believe you. You said it wouldn't happen again."

"I know that but he is very convincing," James tried to defend himself but Sirius just glared at him and he looked at Regulus for help.

"Will you fucking calm down, Sirius?" Regulus grumbled. "It's not like we can't restart it from the beginning."

"That's not the point, Reggie." Sirius sunk into the chair opposite them. "We were supposed to watch it together."

"Yeah, well. You weren't home and I wanted to watch it." Regulus shrugged his shoulders in nonchalance.

Sirius gaped at him and James groaned again before he picked up the remote and started the next episode of Peaky Blinders over again. Regulus curled into James and Sirius grumbled something about them being traitors but got comfortable in the chair anyway.

Also posted on Ao3: Tempting Choices

[awesome-rosier]

Thinking about people talking about redeemable vs not marauders charecters.

And like first off the whole point of fan fiction is... that it is not canon. But-

Dolores- nope. She's bad. She uses her authority to torture children, and later on those she sees as lower blood status (which is a stand in for race... so). No good sides. She keeps moodys eye. That's some messed up stuff there. Also- torturing. Children. I don't like ships with her because she sucks! She sucks

Barty- I'll say I do think he's mischarecterized a lot. I enjoy that mischarecterization- I like crazy barty who does crazy things. But it doesn't rlly match canon. However, I do see him as redeemable as a child- he grows up as a politicians kid. He's smart. He's quiet. You could argue that he was just a sleeper agent nazi the whole time. Or maybe he got into that stuff later. However, neither of those is canon! So if you are one of those oooo it's gotta be strictly canon folks... there's no way to know. So barty as a good kid? Sure.

Reg- people hate reg man. I don't get it. I mean, he takes the darkmark at 16. During a war. After his sibling ran away. Yes, it's never confirmed that his parents are physical abusive. However, from what we hear of #12 it's not fhe sort of place a kid should grow up. His parents were blood supremacists. Unless kids are exposed to other beliefs, it can be really hard to break away. Sirius got out because he was sorted into gryfindor. Reg wasn't. You can take that as a sign he was bad to begin with but really, it doomed him. Slytherins, especially during the war, seem to have been ostracized a bit by the other houses, which put him in an echo chamber of pure blood supremacy. As we can see from the recent Jan 6 pardons, the "maga granny" who rejected the pardon after attacking the capitol did so after *therapy* and *prison time* and realizing she was in a cult. It's hard to get out of these situations as a 16 year old. In a war. Placing full culpability on reg feels like throwing stones from glass houses to me. He changed in the end, he had a life long affection for kreature. To say he's at the same level as Bella or something in terms of badness is just to say you don't *want* people to get better or change. That's far to black and white I fear. People do change

Snape- see the big difference between reg and Snape is that Snape was friends with lily. She was a voice outside his echo chamber that he supposedly valued, and he gave into peer pressure or whatever and called her a slur. That's not the kind of thing you do when you love someone. Was the prank justified? Obviously not. Do I ship people with Snape? No not really, because he messed his relatio ship with lily up. Like he did that, yk? So I wouldn't ship snilly because that's just... or well maybe I would write that fic but it would be about what Snape did wrong, yk. Anyway. His motives aren't great. He gets adult James and lily killed. He only goes back to Dumbledore because of a crush he had, and one that didn't seem to value her personhood much. We have wayyyy more info on Snape than Dolores or reg, so it's harder to make a case that he was just... good. Shades of grey. I don't like his flavor of betrayal much either but one way or the other, idc. Oh and he was abused as a child! So there's that. But he was friends with lily after that abuse and didn't call her slurs until later. So I don't think it can be blamed for everything. But it does add another layer of grey

Voldy himself- for those of you that bash reg as being white and male... may I present Tom riddle. Hate his guts man, he sucked. Idk. Pretty much from the start.

I'm not gonna tag charecters or ships cause ik people block those and this is more just general discussion.

[theinvisiblemuseum]

jegulus!

MY FOREVER BOYS <3

What made you ship it?

literally yaz i'm not even joking this was before we even knew who the other was but i'd heard jegulus murmurings, i started wywm, and the rest is history

2. What are your favorite things about the ship?

they're just so well matched??? granted we don't know much canonically abt reg and james but like... even with what we do know... IT FITS SO WELL IN CANON??? and arguably makes their canon characters a million times more dynamic???? i love that they can be written super angsty and it will make sense and i love that they can be written super fluffy and it would make sense and i love the combination of the two and ahhhh i just love them so much i can't be properly coherent about it. they just make sense to me the same way wolfstar does. of course they'd be together. of course.

3. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

most of my unpopular opinions would get me killed but i will say this: i'm an intellectual now and i dislike the sun metaphor. yaz converted me. i don't dislike a rogue comparison here and there but i dislike how much it's been overwrought to the point that it actually takes away from both regulus and james' characters. i also don't like regulus being cruel and james putting up with it. i'm fine with banter and bickering and whatnot but when it borders on verbal abuse or james always being in the wrong for everything it makes me ://

[birlwrites]

hi! it's me, the person who had the very confusing birthday! uh so i got dumped which in and of itself, I'm not v upset abt (it needed to happen, we just aren't v compatible as a couple, and if he didn't break up w me, I would've broken up w him), but I am a bit upset it happened on my birthday :/// but I digress!

im really curious about how the light scions will view regulus's side, vs Dumbledore's! I know that in ur previous posts, you've talked abt how Sirius hasn't even told his friends abt the dark arts, and I just thought it would be fascinating to hear what u had to say abt, say, James and Remus, and how they feel abt Dumbledore. for the marauders, I'm pretty sure Sirius being on regulus's side will make all the difference, but that also makes me curious about light scions who aren't friends w Sirius or regulus?

I know this is probably not going to happen for a while but I also can't wait to see how Dumbledore would react to there being a third side, and how he might change his recruitment strategy to account for ppl who are sympathetic to muggleborns, but aren't against the dark arts

getting dumped on your birthday does seem like it would sting. yikes. my sympathies for that, but also yay for something happening that needed to happen!

ohohohohoHO alright so first of all - i'm not going to talk much in this response about how dumbledore is going to react to there being a third side. you're correct that it's not going to happen for a while, and tbqh how he reacts depends a LOT on the shape of regulus's side by the time that dumbledore finally finds out about it

which is an elaborate way of me saying that like. i have the general sketch of how dumbledore's going to respond, but it's not fleshed out enough for me to really be able to ramble about it afjlsghskfj - i leave my outlines very flexible because i make a lot of decisions as i write, and i'm just not close enough to that point yet to really know how it's going to go

okay but now back to the first part of your question! namely: if you believe that dark arts are bad/evil/wrong/associated with blood purists........ how do you view regulus's side versus dumbledore's?

i'm going to start with james and remus because oh my god fASCINATING. (these are the things i think about in class)

first james: as you've said, sirius being on reg's side will make all the difference for him, tbh. or like, enough of it. but let's say - look, james is part of the sacred 28, okay? he's part of that fraction of the sacred 28 that isn't part of the dark network, but he is still sacred 28, his father is still in the wizengamot, his family still attends society events, and--okay my point here is that james has grown up learning some THINGS about house black.

and also about dumbledore.

let me bullet point these out:

house black:

super old, *pristine* bloodline, to the point of disowning people who marry blood traitors

dark arts follow them like a shadow - centuries ago, the blacks were rather open about practicing them, and nobody's forgotten

uptight power-hungry purist assholes, mostly

dumbledore:

defeated grindelwald, an incredibly powerful dark wizard (and fanatical blood purist, no surprises there), which catapulted him into legend status

uses his positions as headmaster of hogwarts and... y'know, whatever sway he has at the ministry (my brain is tired and i haven't so much as breathed on canon in quite some time ajfslkghkdf) to champion muggleborn rights and fight against blood purist institutions

a whimsical fellow :)

oh, and some context on dumbledore's role in the war - of course *we* know he's the head of the order, and regulus knows he's the head of the order, and voldemort knows he's the head of the order, but most people don't know about that. the order of the phoenix is a vigilante group - they may share common goals with the DMLE, but they're still operating underground, so it's not a Known Thing that dumbledore is in charge of them. (not that it surprises anyone who learns the truth, because again, legend status, government sway, etc)

so that's james's background information on the leaders of these two sides. also, he does not like regulus on a personal level, for reasons i went into........... somewhere.

oh my god afsjlghdkfj this is going to have to be multiple posts. i can't go into detail about james's thought process on this post and then also talk about remus and then also talk about most of the general population of hogwarts and also magical britain, it will be a dissertation

the important thing to note with james is that he has never, ever been put into a situation in which he needs to question his own belief that dark arts = evil. sirius is bending over backwards to keep james from needing to question that (although sirius is mainly doing it to protect himself - and that's not to say that james is completely blissfully unaware of sirius being a tad uncomfortable around the topic of dark arts, but that's a whole other post). so james's first impression of regulus's side will be....... let's call it Not Positive. (and he does interpret dumbledore's side as The Good Ones)

but people practicing dark arts are different from dark *creatures*, aren't they? moony can't help being what he is...

which brings me to remus!!

remus got the same messaging that james did about house black and dumbledore, but it wasn't nearly as strong for him, because that's just.... not the world he moves in. like, yeah yeah yeah, some of the noble houses do/have done bad shit, the headmaster of hogwarts beat a dark wizard in a duel. he knows all of the same INFORMATION that james does, it's just that remus didn't grow up around these people, so it always kind of remained in distant mental territory, you know?

remus is a dark creature, which doesn't make him pro-dark arts. not at all, actually. he can't help what he is, and he never had that choice, and it boggles his mind that some people CHOOSE ~the dark side~. he associates that with pain and suffering and just bad things in general, on a very visceral level

oh and here's another thing that's going to give remus even more trouble: he owes a LOT to dumbledore. dumbledore permitted remus to attend hogwarts, which means dumbledore gave remus access to friends, magical education, a shot at eking out some sort of non-awful existence in the magical world, and most importantly, dumbledore TRUSTED remus to use this chance wisely

(i think dumbledore did genuinely want remus to have the same opportunities as other magical kids his age, or at least as close to that as possible. i also think dumbledore was very, very aware of the debt of gratitude he was incurring upon remus, and his family, by making this happen - he just wasn't sure what would come of it. then the war broke out, and he was like 'ah yes perfect i could use a werewolf who feels indebted to me')

so remus has a lot of trouble with the idea of dark arts being something good or desirable, and he also has a lot of trouble with the idea of going against dumbledore's side - not the order necessarily, i specifically mean *dumbledore's* side.

and sirius being on regulus's side does make a huge difference, but remus is wrestling with some very gut-wrenching internalizations here, and that's never easy

with regard to everyone else:

i think the perception of 'dark arts = blood purity' is so strongly interwoven into magical culture that when Normal People™ find out about regulus's side, their first reaction is going to be HUGE amounts of cognitive dissonance, because 'wait what do you mean they're doing both, that's impossible/ridiculous/contradictory--isn't it?'

which means regulus's side coming out into the open (which will not happen for Quite some time) will *really* shake the foundation of the war, in a way that will not please voldemort or dumbledore. both voldemort and dumbledore (and the sides they represent) benefit from this dichotomy, and when regulus fucks it up, he fucks up a LOT of their strategies for recruitment, image, rhetoric, etc.

suddenly, things are possible that weren't supposed to be possible. the world is different. and voldemort and dumbledore do NOT APPRECIATE THAT

[sophsicle]

Tell me, does James’ love for Regulus involve a failed hero complex, a “saving people thing” that Harry has?does he feel uncomfortable with his emotions in regards to Regulus. Heseems happier n fulfilled with Lily. I feel like Reg was a detour which I know is wrong as you said he loves both equally. He feels desperately when Regulus is mentioned and rest of the time, it’s like he neatly locks it away and goes about obsessed with Lily n Sirius. makes me lol a bit and alsomarvel at his maturity.

Hello lovely! Yeah, absolutely. One of the reasons that James lets Regulus off the hook for things is that he's so caught up in this idea that he's going to save him that he isn't willing to accept anything that might get in the way of that. The Mark is the thing that really just doesn't allow James to make excuses or live in denial anymore. There's that first paragraph of the fic where it's all "people make mistakes but they also make choices". Leading up to James finding out about the Mark he's desperately trying to find a way to forgive Regulus for his part in Mary's attack because he isn't ready to accept that there's someone out there he can't save - because that's not something he's ever had to face before. The thing about the Mark is that it forces James to accept that what happened with Mary wasn't Regulus making a mistake, it was Regulus making a choice, a choice that fell in line with his choice - and Regulus makes it explicitly clear to James that it was his choice - to get the Mark. Basically it's a pattern of Regulus choosing his own personal survival over what is morally right, and Regulus once again makes it clear that it's a choice he intends to continue to make (and that he thinks James should also considering making). And it's at that point that James realizes he's "failed". So yeah, hero complex plays a big role in James's relationship with Regulus. I think that Regulus sees himself as a detour in James's life, but it's a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy because I don't think James ever sees him that way. Regulus always thinks of them as being doomed and so he kind of dooms them just to get it over with but James definitely doesn't. Despite all Regulus's rejections he fully believes he's going to save Reg right up until he sees that Mark. I don't think he feels more fulfilled with Lily, but I do certainly think that being with and loving Lily is much simpler.

[limetimo]

RAB fics I read 18-30 Dec

Harry Potter and the Prisoner(s) of Azkaban by Trex_patronus Regulus survived the cave and went to Azkaban, got cell-mated with his brother, made friends with Kingsley and now Harry has to deal with 2 escaped azkaban prisoners :D Love the Black Bros interactions, as always TRex delivers phenomenal siblings dynamics!

You, Me & Everyone Else by ygmoony Remus and Regulus become friends, somehow, and everyone somehow comes to the conclusion they must be dating :D

The Bureaucratic Error by Iniga sooo Regulus is pretty much very very dead but he gets a great angsty subplot within Sirius' journey. Anyways Remus dies in Battle of Hogwarts, runs his mouth at Death and is sent back to 1993! The only other "Remus time travels to the past" fic I've read so far was the one where he time travels to 1970s with Hermione (that one slapped too). It's Romadora, but I thought it was pretty nicely done.

Domestic Fluff (literally) by Zoya1416 cute one shot about Regulus and his girlfriend buying fabrics!

Waters Run Deep by knight_bus_of_doom ♥♥♥♥♥ They pull 19yo Regulus out of the cave, the catch? It's been like, 16 years. His (already older because of time travel) boyfriend Severus is married to his brother (for reasons) and dating his friend Remus (Reg is very okay with this). It makes more sense if you read the first part of the series, but you don't have to. But I do recommend because aaaagh my heart

Sky Full of Stars by TowardTheStars Severus/sirius modern hollywood au heavy themes of child abuse so keep an eye on warnings

The Journal of Regulus Arcturus Black by gokioh Regulus is dead. When Narcissa decides to disown Draco in order to distance him from the freshly ressurected Voldemort, Draco becomes the title of Lord Black and with it Kreacher's services - and Regulus' journal. It means Draco learns about the reality war and the Horcruxes early on and does everything he can to protect fellow Slytherins (and other students) from it.

This Is Why I Hate Mondays by AtomicMint funsies ♥

Teenagers Scare The Living Sh*t Out Of Me by LimeOfMagicLimo re-reading my own WIP so that I don't write something totally contradicting. Regulus is such a haughty little shit, boy get a therapist i beg you. also crookshanks. and ginny and tonks and aushldaush Bill/Fleur are CUTE

Kiss (While Your Lips Are Still Red) by LimeOfMagicLimo Regulus who has been sentenced to Azkaban for murdering Walburga receives a Dementor's Kiss but he Kisses the Dementor instead. To cope, teh Universe yeets him to Another Universe, where he's like... I guess... time to kill Voldemort again to keep Kreacher safe

What could have been by Phantomwriter2182 harry time travels and recruits regulus, snape and severus to hunt horcruxes with him

career goals: tyrant by justwhatialwayswanted :D :D :D I love supportive-of-their-politically-ambitious-son parents walburga and orion :D also Regulus' crush on Evan alfhlů

melodrama by moonymoment jegulus were a thing yada yada stuff happened, James survived Voldemort, pulled Regulus out of the cave and now they're about to fuck some shit up

Whatever happened to the young, young lovers? by georgia_sk *laughing maniacally* Regulus went lonely gunfighter at Voldemort's ass and then set his dead body and destroyed horcruxes on fiendfyre in front of Dumbledore. Then he made up with Barty, rescued his bestie Evan from Azkaban, started mending his relationship with his brother and developed a crush on James bloody Potter. Dumbledore is trying to be meddlesome and continue his game of chess but Regulus is not having it ♥

Let’s make the most of this by jelfulry trans single mama sirius texts wrong number (remus) and Regulus is an overprotective little brother

No Tears to Damn You by tenrousei_kuroi motherfuckerrrrrrrr this was DARK. Regulus hears rumours that Sirius is going to be expelled (because the Prank) and goes to sort it out because their parents would flip the fuck out. Turns out Dumbledore is willing to let it go... if Regulus sucks him off. Slughorn sees and continues the sexual abuse. And then Sirius finds out.

my breath rips out in rags by ScreamingFae sexy jegulus times

Drugs and surgical scrubs by anauro modern au doctor Regulus recovering addict james ♥♥♥♥♥

to the dark lord by justwhatialwayswanted Regulus is PLOTTING and I love it

We're older now, the light is dim by Winter_Oswin Lily and James are in the afterlife and see how mistreated Harry is, and they will not stand for it. With Regulus' knowledge of souls and tethers they do a little push and pull act and force their way back to the land of the living. They're now forever connected by their souls in unexpected ways, but they don't mind at all.

when you were mine by sequinhaze  modern au single dad james ft house arrest Regulus ♥♥♥

Strikers (takes two) by aureusprongs FOOTBALL! after turning down a pro offer regulus moves back to england and enrolls sirius' uni where he immediately butts head with no one else but James Potter. James has a massive crush on Regulus from the get go but he's a little stupid about it :D

En Avant by bluerosebouquet Lily died, James is grieving, and then he goes and falls for his son's ballet instructor.... who happens to be his best friends' estranged brother... I love the emotional depths of this fic

There's A Place For Me by WalkOnThroughARedParade  quidditch team bonding!

All Together Ooky by WalkOnThroughARedParade  Remus/Regulus, short

Trimmed With Care by WalkOnThroughARedParade christmas decorating with sirius and regulus

Best Served With Milk by WalkOnThroughARedParade :D Remus takes Regulus home for Christmas, Hope Lupin has my heart

Slip A Sable Under The Tree (For Me) by WalkOnThroughARedParade  sexy jegulus times in santa costume

Signed, Sealed, Delivered by WalkOnThroughARedParade  sexy and sweet jegulus times

On The Eighth Day Of Christmas by WalkOnThroughARedParade  sexy jegulus times

The Long Game by lackadaisical_lizard regulus can't fucken believe james potter wormed his way into his life like this. damn mcGonagall and her obsession with Regulus being a part of a club. jock/artist jegulus highschool modern au

Puppy Magic by DemonBanisher, thefifthmarauder17 the potter household is CHARMED by the handsome widower and his son Teddy and can't help but adopt him. The catch? Remus and Teddy are muggles.

Gods Under Broken Skies by IndigoIrisis Regulus died and yot back in time and you know what? He's got no more fucks to give. He's living for himself now, and to hell with his parents and the dark lord.

The Pure Taste of Love and Lust by just_a_whorecrux  Orion/Regulus blackcest underage rape

For the Right Price by tenrousei_kuroi sirius gets captured by rudolphos lestrange. BUT, he's willing to let him go... for the right price... for a price Regulus is willing to pay. with his body

The Marauders and the Prisoner of Azkaban by SilverShadow1 this was a good take on the "characters read the books" but there was too much direct quoting from the hp books and it got taken down :/ not sure if it's still available or where

Forgotten Last Words by DEMH_works 10yo draco malfoys finds a letter, from Regulus to Sirius, and decides to send it even though his parents said he can't be in contact with cousin Sirius.

To Have And To Hold by WalkOnThroughARedParade  jegulus quickie at wolfstar's wedding

Dancing Through Life by orphan_account wolfstar and jegulus on stage of a sign language musical

Waves of Magic by xivz Regulus is dying of cancer and decides to use the "im dying" [there was a word. i know there is a word for this. i cannot recall the word] to make Sirius have a talk with Walburga and also to realise he's been dating Lupin for the last million years

[judgement-free-sideblog]

Ghosts from the rainforest

Summary: A simple rescue mission will bring him back to a place full of nightmares, and maybe this time he could find redemption. Situated in 1975, 2 years after the events of Skull Island.

Warnings: Violence, blood, wounds, mentions of war, cursing, implied smut, smoking, angst.

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 6: Family

The piercing blue eyes search for you in the dim light that came from the sunrise outside the shack, he found you and attempt to stand up getting down immediately from the pain.

"Don't even try" You said to him, sad to look at his face covered in dry blood and a still fresh cut on his cheekbone. Two days after arriving Walker had decided to inspire moral in his troops by beating him and putting you to treat their wounds "I suspect they broke one of your ribs when you call them bastards, also even if you could move there is also this" you pointed to the fetter around his ankle and he looked at yours too, your shorts were stained from the truck and the dirt floor of the shack, and the clear sign of a lash on the naked skin that you cover with a blanket when he looked at it.

"How is your head?" He asked finally trying to sit still "How long have we been here?"

"It has been better, it will take more than that to take me down, don't worry" You said taking a piece of cloth and wetting it on a small bowl "Well after you passed out I kept fixing a couple wounds here an there in the camp, so he won't kill you, that was three days ago, at least they left me this to fix you up, hold still" You approach as much as you could to him and start cleaning up his wounds.

"I have nowhere else to be love... hey!!" He pull apart when the alcohol touch the open skin, and gave you a panicked look when you show him the suture you will use to close the cut

"Oh Captain don't be a baby" You hold his face on your hand while continuing to clean the cut "You must be used to deal with vicious animals like that by now, because that frien of yours can call himself a man"

"You are right, Walker is a poisonous snake who will kill anyone on his way, the only reason we are alive is because he believes he may get something valuable out of you, which reminds me, what did he ment by next time he'll go for the throat?" He had his hand was clenched and his eyes firmly shut down when you passed the needle trough the skin.

"I have met Walker before, Shukri used to help him pass his weapons and stuff through the border so he send me as a symbol of friendship, but the man he wanted me to help die, wich of course he will because he had severe sepsis and many bullet holes, and I'm far from being an actual medical doctor"

"You really have a way to reassure people" He joke and you rolled your eyes at him.

"Anyway he went crazy and kill the men Shukri send to guard me and stab me in the stomach, and leave me for dead in the jungle, thankfully it wasn't a cut deep enough and I managed to walk to the next village". You finish and he looked at you surprised by how casually you talk about those horrible memories. "What does he meant by your taste still being constant?" His face darkened and the guilt and remorse appear again in his eyes. "I'm sorry, I didn't meant..." You tried to stand up but he grab your wrist and you sit next to him.

"As I told you Jenny's mom was the lover of a British ambassador, and we actually met before we were send to find her, one night Sargent Walker was drunk and tried to force himself on her, and I stop her" He said with a sad smile on his face.

"You were together? You and her mother I mean" You tried to hide a hint of jealousy in your voice, it was funny that in this threatening situation you could still be thinking about you two.

"Of course not" He said and a grin of satisfaction show on his face when you sigh in relief "Although I had feelings for her, and maybe she had them too, but I knew I had a mission, then Walker betrayed us and Jenny die... well I guess she blamed me for it" you didn't say anything and just let him lay his head on your lap, the fetter was biting in your skin and your ankle was about to start bleeding but you feel the need of comforting him.

"How could you look this handsome aan peaceful cover in bruises, and cuts?" You ask yourself outloud after a couple minutes once you thought he was asleep.

"I could ask you the same Y/N" He responded opening his blue eyes, and you almost pushed him down but remember his bad shape. "Don't worry, the guys are looking for us, they will get help in Borneo and come back"

"That's what I'm afraid of, I heard them talking about asking for ransom money to the US Embassy in Borneo, what if they get too late, he is gonna kill me when he realizes I lie to him".

"I will like to him try" He said trying to stand hurting himself again.

"Easy there prince charming" You said holding him still and locking your hands together in the process, neither of you trying to pull apart. "I do know what I will do if we actually get out of here".

"And what is that?" Conrad asked trying to ignore how helpless your if was.

"I'm writing a strong worded letter to Houston Brooks about the terrible job of his tracker, since he keeps trying to charm the women he works for" You said and he smiled at you.

"Is it working?" He asked, trying to incorporate.

"Maybe" you said but before you could follow your instinct, some loud steps approach to the shack and you gently put him on the floor to curl in your corner pretending to be asleep.

"Ibu? Cepat! Kita perlu pergi" Mother? Quick! We have to go A young boy enter the shack carrying a big shotgun, and he open the fetter setting you free.

"Dia akan datang bersama kami" He is coming with us You said and he went to set a surprised James free.

"What is going on? Ibu?" He asked once you help him stand up, he was not as hurt as you thought since he could walk without help, but he was definitely not in his prime.

"You have your family Captain, I have mine" And since that explanation was not enough you had to continue "One of the men guarding me years ago was Shukri's nephew, he hates Wlker ever since, and has many of his children inside his little army so he can eventually sell them to the authorities"

"He is a layered man isn't he?" He said while you and the boy help him walk outside the camp, another infiltrator was already waiting next to a truck ready for you to flee, waving in the distance, and then the sound of a thunder brake the morning air, and he made a funny surprise face, and a blood stain start growing in his chest and he just fall on his back, and then all hell broke loose.

Walker men were following you, and since James was hurt it was so little that your young hero could do for you.

You run into the jungle just to be stopped in an open area where a tree had fallen an then four men were surrounding you, ready to kill.

"Drop it big guy!" Reles voice said, making your hear stop and race with happiness. The man in front of you turned around to meet Reels surprised by how calm he was.

"Didn't you listen? Drop it!" Slivko said coming out of the jungle with another six guys that you were sure were part of Shukri's village.

"I got you doc" Glenn said passing between the men who were already unarmed.

"I'm fine, help the Captain" you said and without thinking you took one of the weapons that had been dropped in the ground.

"I thought you didn't like those" Slivko said while Reels help the boy tie Walkers men.

"Desperate times Reg" You said, and hug him. "How did you find us so quickly?"

"Oh wow, sorry Captain" He said looking embarrassed "The guy, the weird guy that says he is your husband he meet us half way when we came after you guys, apparently one of the guys here told him what happened and he came with us and many men along to help"

"I knew it! Wait a minute Shukri is here?" You hold your breath because the feeling that something was wrong was strongly hurting your chest, and Conrad's words about Walker resonated in your ears.

You run back to the campsite, the ambush had worked out, the rest of Walker's men were dead or prisoners and unarmed, only their Sargent was too stubborn to surrender and both him and Shukri were aiming at each other in the middle of the camp. Shukri with a shotgun and Walker with two pistols.

Again without thinking and with the adrenaline running through your veins you pointed your gun at him and order him to drop it. As all response he aimed one of his pistols at you.

"You can't win this" You said to him not backing off and looking James concerned face approaching, but he was not looking at you, all his attention seemed to be focus on Shukri.

"Oh I know that doctor, but I have a question for you, who will be faster? Me or this little idiot here who came to rescue his princess??"

Things happened in the fraction of a second and by the time you understand what have happened both men where in the ground.

In the moment Shukri nod to James and he jump to take you out of the line of fire, Walker shoot his guns missing you, but not Shukri, but he didn't miss either.

"Hey, hey Shukri man, come on" Mills said approaching pressuring the wound, you stood up and walk away from James who was breathing difficulty from the jump, but overall okay.

"Shukri, you win, he is dead, please don't give up now" You said now no longer holding on the tears.

"Tears? Isteri if I had known that this is what I needed to do I would have let someone shoot me long ago." He said holding your hand with almost no strength. "Captain Prince charming?" He called for James and he kneeled by his side respectfully "Anda menjaga isteri saya" You take care of my wife

"I will" James said solemnly, and Shukri nod, then he hold your hand tightly and then after one last breath he and a quiet smile to you he was gone.

After a couple minutes people dispersed and you could hear his men arranging how will they move him, but it was wrong and you couldn't yet set what had happened in your brain, after one hour you felt like if you keep looking long enough he will smile again and wake up to tease you and life will be normal again.

"It's time" James said but he didn't force you to stand, he only gave you his hand, and stood there waiting, after a minute that felt like an eternity you took his hand stand up, and then you let all your unspoken feelings to come out, about Randa, about Shukri, about watching him almost be beaten to death two days ago, you cried and cried and he simply hold you, even when his rib was probably killing him, even when you were nothing to him but a job, he keep holding you.

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I was just rereading chapter 46, and dude. Sirius really hates Reg, huh? I mean he’s only polite to him to get info, then he has a bunch of aurors chase him down the street, and he doesn’t even spare him a thought afterwards when it switches to his POV. Like damn. The difference in the way Reg thinks about him and the way Sirius does is astronomical.

Hello lovelies! I mean, I think that moment in chapter 46 needs to be read in context, Euphemia and Fleamont Potter have just been murdered by Death Eaters, and not only is Regulus one of them, but he is protecting them. Standing there refusing to tell Sirius who did it. Remus and James both tried to convince Sirius that Regulus really did love James and yet here he is, once again, choosing the Death Eaters over someone he supposedly loves, which feels a little too familiar to Sirius. I think people sometimes forget that all the vulnerability we get from Regulus as readers Sirius doesn't see. He can't hear his thoughts and he's not there in those moments with James. With the exception of the Veritaserum incident, Regulus doesn't really let Sirius in very much. And when Sirius tries to talk to Regulus about that moment of vulnerability, we end up getting this:

“Bella, that day, the last one, she wanted you to torture me, you remember?”

After a brief pause Regulus nods.

“Would you have? If dad hadn’t stepped in? Would you have done it?”

Eventually Regulus sighs, running a hand over his face before meeting Sirius’s stare.

“Yes.” So yeah, Sirius gets the Aurors to chase after him, because his brother is a Death Eater who at the end of the day, at least from where Sirius is standing, will always do the wrong thing if it's what suits him best in the moment. Which makes Regulus a danger to people. Like I don't think Sirius is in the wrong here. ALL that being said, Sirius doesn't hate Regulus. Like if Regulus was on the tracks and a train was coming Sirius would push him out of the way, y'know? But their relationship is complicated, they have both let the other one down at some point, and they're on opposing sides of a war, so things are a little tense. In the end I sympathize with both of these characters for different reasons and I don't really think one of them is more in the right than the other (where their relationship is concerned). But also it would be great if they could communicate with each other. Just. Once. :)

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Your reply to the last ask got me thinking… I wonder how Mary would think if she knew what Reg had been through in terms of SA and similar abuse growing up. How would it make her feel to find out that he knows what it’s like to be in a situation like that? That he’s been dealing with it for most of his life? I get that he did a terrible thing by erasing her memories and trying to get his friends off the hook, but I also think the situation would’ve been a lot worse for Mary if Regulus hadn’t gotten involved. Is there any chance she’ll ever find that out? That he did step in and try to protect her (albeit in a twisted sort of way)? It’s hard for me to be really angry at him or resent him in this situation for some reason. I think it’s because he’s just so young, and his messed up introduction to sex can’t have helped this. I know you’ll probably say he’s only a year less than Mary and the others, but I feel like at that age, one year makes a big difference. Anyways, love your story, and thanks so much for keeping the asks on despite some not-so-nice messages. I love reading your insights and getting to know you and your thoughts better!

Hello lovely! Yeah, I mean it's a very messy situation. Because Regulus does "save" her right? Like he does step in and put a stop to things, he does get her out of there and take her to get help. I 100% think he is young and he is traumatized and he is in a really precarious position. As I've said before his experiences with SA really prevent him from being able to fully accept/acknowledge what's happened or what his friends have done as a form of kind of self-preservation. The thing is, I don't know how much of a difference any of that would make to Mary specifically. Not to use a totally inappropriate reference here, but I don't know if you've ever seen that clip of Andy Samberg from B99 where he goes "cool motive still murder", but I think, at least from Mary's perspective, that kind of describes Regulus in this situation. Like interesting backstory, explains a lot, but it doesn't change what you did to me. It was my hope that we the audience would be able to view the situation and Regulus's role in it complexly. That given all we know about him we could understand why he would make the choice he did even if it's the wrong choice, even if we disagree. I wasn't trying to make Regulus unsympathetic I was just trying to show how his life experiences have led to him lacking a very clear or functional moral compass. I wanted the audience to understand him while not condoning him, but I don't know if it's fair to ask Mary to do that. That's sort of what I meant in that last ask when I said that Mary doesn't owe him anything. Like after what she's been through it's not really her job to try to understand him. And, y'know, I don't think she does anything to him that is completely unwarranted or like terrible. Mary won't ever find out that Regulus stopped what was happening in that dorm room, partially because there's just not really an organic way for that information to reach her, but also because I don't necessarily want to make her have to forgive him, y'know? Like we already have James who is kind of the audience, who knows Regulus's backstory and who is sympathetic towards him, I don't think we need that from Mary too. That drifts too much into letting-him-off-the-hook territory. Thank you for the ask, this was a really great question! :)