#Reblogs off for this because I don't know if I want my self indulgent stuff getting beyond my crowd. But feel free to inquire in replies!

[lavernius]

Oh gosh its so hard to pick just one part that I’m the most curious about!!! BUT the crown chicken definitely got me wondering about other wildlife + plants you have for Chorus, and how they’re used by or effect life for Chorusans 👀 ~GHR

Oh god this was sitting in my inbox for forever and I forgot about it.

I'm bad at explaining things in a concise manner so here's a passage from my (extremely corny) everyone lives AU where the team is discussing wildlife post-war instead :-) Not exactly a detailed answer but it features a cursory glance at my headcanons for this topic.

For once, they're actually talking about something important. Tucker's reading something off his datapad while Epsilon scrolls through documents for him. "Yeah, so…Kimball, Grif, and me were talking about focusing on ranches instead, which would take some work, but it's better than most alternatives."

"Honestly? Thank god. The not-chicken is fine, but it gets boring when it's the only meat to choose from." Simmons prods at something on Grif's plate, almost like he's bored. "It'd be nice to have more diverse options."

"And we're not just having the old 'SC zap us some cows because…?" Sarge asks. "General said she'd put a pin in the idea and never got back t'me."

"We don't know how they'd interact with the environment. They might die from eating the grass here." Grif swats Simmons away. "Or introduce a million diseases that'd force us to use the Procreation Temple again."

A resounding god, no passes round the table. Locus shifts uncomfortably, and Lopez glances over to see a confused furrow in his brows. ⟨You don't want to know,⟩ Lopez tells him lowly, and Locus just nods in agreement.

"Chorus's got a lot of endemic species, but most of them are bugs and plants. Not to mention the rodent problem. Edible, but not exactly enough to sustain everyone. Only a few clusters of bigger animals." Epsilon pulls up some pictures and spreadsheets on Chorus's fauna. "But anything's an option."

Tex leans over Tucker's shoulder to look at the diagrams. "Is food really a problem? Seems like we're doing fine as is."

Washington shakes his head, swallowing his sip of water. "It's not, but a lot of our current solutions are reliant on either the UNSC or the temples. Santa says there's no problem with us abusing the temples to our advantage, so long as they stay intact and respected. Kimball would still prefer avoiding it becoming a crutch. She wants Chorus self-sustained and independent."

"Huh. I'd just keep abusing the temples if the AI running 'em said it was okay." The ex-Freelancer leans back, arms crossed. "She's real picky about it, ain't she?"

"Just honorable and thorough," Carolina says, almost defensively. Tex nods as though she doesn't even notice Carolina's vague hostility toward her. "Our research teams have been studying wildlife since the war ended, but after we rediscovered the domesticated gallus corona, the rest of them stopped being a priority."

"There are a lot of really familiar animals out here. I mean, I was with most of the teams doing early research, and you can tell just by looking," Simmons hesitates briefly when everyone's attention turns to him, but continues to tap around on his own data pad. "There are at least three species that closely resemble bovine, which could be a good start. We don't know how the meat is until we cut them open, though."

"We could farm the fish, too. I know some of the Chorusans have eaten them before, anyway," Doc points out. "It'd be good to consider for anyone who can't eat the other meat."

Tucker taps on his data pad, making note of the suggestion. "That's possible. But, like…I feel like it's more of a pain in the ass because then we have to build docks and boats and nets and shit. Buoyancy and water research. A ranch is mostly just buildings and a fence, like how the coops are just a decked out building frame."

"Unless you have ideas, Lopez, since you're probably going to be in charge of most of the building process if we construct docks," Carolina interjects. Lopez is startled by the attention drawn to him, scowl deepening.

⟨Ideas, sure. The dock won't be hard if someone can get me specifics on the water properties of the build site. But I can only handle so much water myself.⟩ He shrugs. He's more interested in the idea of working on boats, but whatever. ⟨I can draw up blueprints, but I'm more accurate when I just build.⟩

Tucker makes another note. Grif holds a hand up. "We haven't really bothered interacting with the wildlife yet, is the problem. We don't know if any of them are, like, sapient. Or particularly murderous."

"We can get a squad together for it." Epsilon takes over Tucker's notes to add some of his own. "We have heavy weaponry, power armor, and a bunch of sharpshooters. A vicious animal can't be that bad."

"If the pirates could hunt them to near-extinction for sport like the assholes they were, I doubt it'll be that bad," Tucker snorts, humorless. Then he flinches and looks across the table at Locus. "Not that—I mean, you—it's—my bad."

[thehighpriestexx420]

Their True Self's Feelings VS. Their Ego's Feelings About You

General Collective Pick-A-Gif Tarot Reading

Our True Self is the version of us WITHOUT the programming society has instilled in us and/or the programming our physical body came with. It's your soul, your spirit, your higher self. My experience with my true self can only be described as what feels right.

The Ego can be used as a tool for your true self to use or you can fall under the automatic habits it provides. It's our mind. The brain filter that allows us to perceive reality - more commonly the reality that's physical.

My intention was to pull cards into 2 columns. One to represent their true feelings and the other to represent their ego's. I've found that the message worked when I looked at all of the cards together. If you can discern the cards can be read the way I intended with your specific situation, feel free to let me know!

Take a moment to yourself. Step back from any distractions on the outside & within your mind. Take a clearing breath. Focus your attention within yourself & what you sense. Which gif calls out to you? If it's more than one, than there are multiple messages for you.

Take what resonates and leave the rest. Be aware that the future is malleable - you can choose to follow your true self or any toxic programming you've picked up. The results will follow.

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Pile One :

Their soul is calling them to approach you & express their romantic interest. However, there's something that happened between you that's caused them to stop & truly think about this decision.

They're trying to discern how they can balance their self-love & their love for others. They don't want to get hurt again but they also don't want to miss out on their desired connection with you.

The Universe is telling them the time to approach you is now & that they're extremely supported in this. In fact, this is a part of both of your life's purpose. It's destiny. Every aspect of existence is weaving the path to make this happen.

But they're currently being held back and stalling due to doubt & the fear of hoping just to be hurt & disappointed again. As in, they feel this desire of theirs is too good to be true. Their non-action is out of fear & self-preservation.

Pile Two :

They're not seeing the results they're looking for in this connection. There's impatience. They're looking for answers outside themself rather than within.

You may be dating & haven't made things official yet. They're questioning if you're as invested in this connection as they are because of this. They could be feeling the strong desire to marry you, and yet, aren't seeing these results.

They may be overly focused on the material/physical & not enough on what their soul is saying. They want a successful home life with you while not feeling at home within themself. They cope with this feeling by indulging in distractions. Propping their ego up, shopping, bragging, etc.

They need to be more calm, nurturing, & patient. They feel the need to rush ahead while not considering others enough.

They're overly concerned with others' opinions. They want to be able to say that you're theirs & not fear people questioning the validity of your connection. It's the vibe where people have been in years long engagements. There's often doubt from others and within the connection. "Are they not sure if they want to get married, is it going to happen, etc."

Pile Three :

They're being held back by confusion, the pressure to conform, & structure. It's like they're lost in a land of illusion. They're unable to move on due to this belief they must uphold these rigid rules.

"If it's not broke, don't fix it" is a saying that comes to mind when describing this person's mindset.

They don't want to adventure outside of these old habitual ways of thinking. The unknown is unstable & unpredictable.

Despite this, their soul is desiring a union with you & they feel it - the urge to reach out. Their ego is blocking them from seeing a way forward with you.

For some of you, they want to propose but something is leading them to believe it's not possible. There's a clashing - 2 opposing forces that "shouldn't" go together. So this can look like having a religion where you're "supposed" to be with a member of the same religion, a family disapproving of same sex marriage, or some other value/belief that doesn't approve of your marriage/union.

They've had unhealthy examples of relationships growing up so this also distorts how relationships are "supposed" to look like to them. There's some kind of codependency between you two. Like you're both chained to these toxic belief systems. Change your mentor/who you look up to & set yourself free.

Pile Four :

There's this idea - this hidden gem in their heart. I'm seeing that they need some time away from the distractions of the world so that they can look inside themselves to see what this bright, burning, blossoming passion really is before they offer it to you.

They're scared of things not working out because they haven't seen any indicators it would. Their heart is closed off & as a consequence it blocks them from receiving what they desire. That includes the positive interactions from you that they're looking for.

But I'm seeing that this beginning between you is bright, beautiful, & promising. You both can try to hide what you're feeling, but it's too powerful to be ignored anyway.

I'm seeing that you both share a heart/the same feelings. This connection is within your core. It's designed to free you, reveal your true self, heal you, & to assist you with growth. For some of you, this is your divine counterpart/twin flame. For others, it's a strong soulmate connection.

[scribe-cas]

Writeblr intro!

Okay, so, I've been here for forever, but if I made an intro post, I definitely don't remember it. So.

Info under the cut!

Welcome to my blog. Enjoy your stay!

"Who are you?" Great question!

Hi folks, my name is Cas, and I'm an amateur writer with a love for all things words.

I use He/they/she pronouns,, but neos are fun. I don't have chosen ones, I prefer to let other people use what they think is apt to depict me. :> but to keep it simple, he/they/she! Use whatever pronouns are in your heart for me!

I'm a slave to the whims of my whimsy. If what you're writing makes me feel things, whether they're dark and unsettling or soft and lighter than air, I'm there. A few of my interests are cryptozoology, psychology, horror, fantasy, music and dance, and just anything I can search for. My favorite game is pattern recognition and completion, which makes things like escape rooms and scavenger hunts, whether for treasure or lore (same thing) a huge treat for me. I love being able to search, so if you like hiding obscure lore, let me at it like a pack of hounds.

I write horror, fantasy, mystery, comedy. My current WIP is a slasher comedy with a side of childish whimsy served up on a silver platter with some slice of life and sex jokes for seasoning. Loosely similar energy to Gravity falls is basically everything I make. What can I say, it's what I like.

I'm 18+, work two jobs and have the retensive memory of a soggy goldfish cracker. My schedule is hectic. If you see me reblogging posts, but I've neglected to answer you or respond to something you send, it's not you! I just have the memory of a wet rag.

Most of my work has at least some suggestive elements to it, because sex is a joke to me (/voice of someone who is very, very aroace). But literally every work does if you peek hard enough. Literally just heed my 18+ warnings on this page and you won't run into anything too gross.

I love weird things! Weird things galore! The more fucked up and absurd, the more I cheer! If you think an idea is stupid, send it to me!! I'd love to discuss it with you. Those little one off facts you've come up with for a character? That Au that stemmed from a joke? That cringe thing you're fixated on? Hit me with it! As a man with questionable morals once said, "Reality is an illusion, the universe is a hologram!" And therefore, we should have as much fun as we can!

If you ask me about Couteau, I will literally pledge my life to you. I swear. Or if you comment on any of my writing with him in it. Anything.

My WIPs!

"Well, what stuff are you working on?" LET ME ANSWER THAT!

"Sweeter Than Silence" (Project status: Active; In Progress For: 7+ years)

This, my magnum opus, that I've been fiddling at and fucking with the concept of on and off for approximately 11 years, but have been writing for about 7-

Is my LGBT, slice of life healing and depression infused comedy about a woman who goes home to find that everything she's been looking for in a fulfilling life is already there. "Everything", being a murder mystery in her haunted town that she knows wouldn't hurt a fly without good reason, a ragtag gay friend group, and the local hot bartender who is so outlandish it's like he's not even human. (spoiler alert! There might be a reason for that-)

Goofing aside, this story is stuffed to the brim with just the most absurd concepts I could think of. A media about embracing the purest form of self, and learning to love that part of you that finds beauty in the weirdest corners of the world, even if it was killed very young, to embrace your curiosity, and to indulge in suspension of belief. A low stakes, supernatural slasher comedy between a girl who's been told her whole life she's too much and a man who only wants her to get freakier.

This story is: - One of three parts! - T4T! Both main characters are trans, and they have a romance. - Stupid. /pos - Full of the stuff that would make a 13 year old go wild - A Composed Character Breaking Down And Losing It (TM) - Morally grey murder - A bunch of other stuff

"Rose Colored Glasses" (Project status: In Stasis, no longer currently active)

A fanfic i started y e e e a r s ago, when the Hazbin fandom was starved for content. A multi-chapter reader perspective fic, where, after falling into hell, they help an overcompensating Overlord Valentino cease his abusive ways. It's a fix it fic. It's me fixing him. Mostly just an excuse for me to dissect and make a dissertation on Valentino's possibly horrifically fractured and bruised psyche. I like the version of him I made up in my head, but I also like him canon, because he's horrific but he's also just. Iconic. Let's be real. Motivation for this passed on when Hazbin itself shattered my theories, but I still keep it around for fun.

The fanfic:

I also have personal notes that I won't be linking, but if you wanna know more about my theories, please ask! Even non canon, I love talking about my AU Valentino.

"You're Free" (Project status: Finished! Just for fun)

A fanfic I busted out in like an hour and a half once for a video game that gripped me by the neck. (Cryptid Coffeehouse, I love you.)

Not much to explain on this one, it was a self indulgent little scribble I did once, although if you haven't played CC, I highly recommend it.

The fanfic:

Books two and three of BISTS (the overarching series that Sweeter Than SIlence starts!) I know what happens in them, I just have to write it out. Wish me luck

Miscellaneous smut fics that I've done as spin offs of my own series just for fun and to explore different power dynamics. If I ever post any of them, they'll go on a pseud specifically for schrodingers fics (both canon and not, it depends on how I feel) under forgotten_scripture (AO3 account)

Miscellaneous Info!

My blog is sorted into tags!

castalk - Me saying words! bists/blood is sweeter than silence - All of my WIP info on Sweeter Than Silence and it's series. couteau my beloved go back into your box - The tag I specificslly use for anything and everything about my antagonist/first book series love interest. I highly recommend checking out this tag if for no other reason so that you have to look at him. coudoodles - Art I've done of. my antagonist.

Use these to navigate your way around here! I'll add more as needed.

I have a huge fixation on the antagonist of Sweeter Than SIlence. I mentioned him earlier, but, his name is Couteau, he's my stupid 6'4 redhead who wears 2 inch heels to make himself taller, he's a moron, he's immortal, and he's my beloved baby. I lose my shit over this man on a daily basis. Genuinely, bring him up to me and I will talk for hours. I do not regret it. I'm haunted by visions.

I love awful memes. 200% permission if we've never interacted to just send me a bad meme. I want one

And or, I spend a lot of time stuck in spots where I need music recommendations. Throw a song at me!

My inbox is always open. My DMs are always open. I love talking. Do not fear me. Come tell me about your favorite things.

Hey long haired redheaded trans men!

Having a shitty day?

Feeling dysphoric?

Need a mood boost?

Send your selfies to my inbox and watch me go absolutely incoherent about the fact that you look like my OC! For the small price of one existence, I will hype you up to unspeakable levels because you deserve it!! Watch a stranger on the internet rave about how unspeakably fantastic you are!

(mostly kidding about this, but if it would make you feel better, go right ahead, I'm always happy when my obsessions spread love /gen)

Aaaaaand, on that note-

I think that's it!

If you read all of this, wow, look at you!! You did fantastic!!! I can't wait to ask you about your projects, and am waiting with bated breath for you to ask me about mine. HAHAHA

Anyways! Welcome to my blog!

Enjoy your stay!

~ Cas. <3

[reginalusus]

The right attitude and I love you and you are so brave.

Ok, I know there are people who would shoot me for saying that and that's fair or whatever. But.

Ok, listen, if you want. IDC, I just want to write my thoughts somewhere, lmao.

One of the things that allures me to Harvey and Jason's (potential) relationship is the fact that Willis Todd... was not very nice. I'm sorry, but I really don't think he was a great dad. At least in the New 52 - but that's just how I read it personally.

I reblogged a really, really good Tumblr post analysing Jason's relationship with his not-so-great dad, so go and read that if you haven't. The evidence is there that Willis was just... not very nice.

Harvey's dad was also very shit (do you see where I'm going).

And, by the way, yes, it's a very messy situation in that Harvey killed Willis. I'm not justifying that. Willis was still some poor chap that was trying to make ends meet and Jason has the right to be angry; he still loved his dad I think, or wanted to, much like Harvey wanted to love his. They both wanted to be loved by their problematic fathers (again... do you see where I'm going).

I've seen people (one person) say that because Willis took the job of being one of Harvey's thugs out of desperation, that means that Willis WAS a good dad and he was willing to do anything for Jason and Catherine, and therefore he SHOULDN'T BE CRITICIZED AT ALL.

That's... fine? If you think that, you go, girl. I just don't, I'm sorry...

I do empathize with Willis in this regard, but it's no excuse to neglect your son and treat your wife like shit. To me. I'm sorry that I don't like the guy that beat his wife over not having cigarettes in front of a child...

BTW if you don't like this view, that's fine. There are many, many faucets you can go down upon looking at comic characters. That's the beauty of it.

"But you have Harvey bias." Yes, I do love and defend the middle-aged, suicidal acid attack victim, hm, yes, but I cannot fight fate nor do I want to in this regard, lmao.

But, do you see it. Do you see the angst and drama potential between these two MFs.

Can you tell I want them to bond over their parallel trauma, even though they are both emotionally fucked. I'm just so evil like that.

Two men who have both been let down by Bruce, by Batman, by Gotham, who both have been 'reborn' in some fashion, and who both used to stand for something in Gotham, to instil hope back into it, despite how it destroyed them, have so much in common that they could be a force, but are halted by the fact that they are forever connected because of something awful that Harvey did years ago.

It's just a dynamic that I find very interesting, IDK.

And yes, yes, there is some self-indulgent stuff with it, like the fact that I just love making Harvey be a big fucking embarrassing dumbass father figure who doesn't really know what he's doing because Jason is a ball of trauma himself.

Plus, I think Jason could be the child Harvey never had, or whatever. Harvey couldn't have kids. He tried with Gilda before and it didn't work (Eye of the Beholder is the Harvey origin I always mostly go by, yes). So I think, with Jason, Harvey could have that sort of relationship even if Jason, to his right, doesn't want to indulge in it.

Jason himself is closed off. He doesn't indulge in his feelings. He's just like: "Ok, Dent, whatever, can we get pretzels now before I go home."

Jason can be argued to be Bruce's biggest failure, but he could be Harvey's greatest success... maybe.

Yes. I understand it's kind of a twisted situation. But I think that's right at home in DC.

Listen to It Has To Be This Way by Jimmy Gnecco if you'd like - not only is it a banger boss theme from the MGS series, but it's an EXTREME Harveycore song in terms of lyrics, but it ALSO suits Harvey and Jason's dynamic, at least my vision of it.

Anyway.

That's all I'll say before they find me and kill me.

[tickle-bugs]

Tip of advice from a writing blog too shy to come off anon with like- 5 followers XD. Write for YOU, not anybody else. And if you don't feel like writing, then don't. Writing is supposed to be a fun hobby, not a chore. I know that only maybe 1 or 2 people are going to see my work, but that's okay! Because as long as a single person enjoyed what I put out through my stories, I'm happy. Write what YOU want to write, when YOU want to write it. Do not feel obligated by anyone else and don't let others tell you how to do YOUR hobby. Trust me, you'll be happier. I was in your place once (Not long ago, actually ^^). And hey, for what it's worth, I love what you do. Gives me the feeeeels!

I appreciate this! Honestly I do write for me. I know I sound like a broken record here but I really don’t care about notes or attention lol. It’s more about the ache of watching the active community shrink before my eyes. Fanfic is about self-indulgence, but it’s also about sharing in an experience with a community. There’s just little to no community anymore, and that sucks.

Most if not all of us write because we like sharing with you guys! Writing stuff for our people. Hearing the shouts from the void that you all loved sharing in a fic and want to see more is so motivating and heartwarming. For me, that’s a huge part of it. Even when I write something I’m not 100% into or a fic I’m not super proud of, getting to share it with you guys sparks joy.

Not to sound like a bitter old man here but people used to write essays in the tags. That was the thing to do. I can’t tell you the last time I even saw a fandom tag on one of my fics. Likes mean anything from “I saw this” to “reading later” to “omg I loved this but I can’t reblog this”. Going from a thrum of conversation that you could share in with other people to dead silence is unnerving and really sad. It makes me sad.

There are quite a few self-indulgent fics I could probably spit out right now in fandoms no one would care about, but would make me happy. I’ve done that more times than I can count! For me, it’s hard to feel motivated to write at all when the silence I expect from writing for a niche little thing in an already niche community is what I get for nearly everything I put out.

I’m so grateful for this little community. I really am. I don’t want to sound ungrateful or sharp, I’m just really fucking bummed out that I feel this way.

[messinwitheddie]

(Trigger warning: mentions child abuse, drug abuse, homelessness and unemployment.)

Nny "I'm sorry. I didn't know. Why didn't you say anything?"

Squee "Because why should I have to explain common courtesy to a grown man?!!"

Nny "No, I meant about your dad?"

Squee "You knew how punchy he's been since mo. Oded! You KNEW!!"

Nny "I'll cutt off his hands. Problem solved."

Squee "NO!! If you injure him he'll just be home all the time! I don't want you to hurt him or kill him! He's my dad! As long as I make it seem like I don't exist when he's around he leaves me alone so just STOP screwing that up for me, OK?!!"

Nny "But... Squee, you shouldn't have to--"

Squee "Where do you get the time and energy to do all these horrible things to so many people!?!"

Nny "I-"

Squee "You must sleep great during the day!"

Nny "No... I don't sleep during the day either."

Squee "So you have that much time on your hands! Get a life!! Get a JOB!!"

Nny "I'm sick of you and Pep throwing that in my face! It's NOT that easy! I have NO ID and NO legit work history and NO legally registered address!! Who is going to hire me?!!"

Squee "Okay, that's fair!"

Nny "It's a vicious cycle!"

Squee "Then take a night class or something! I would tell you to adopt a pet or get a girlfriend but you would just-- hurt them! You're NEVER really happy unless you're making someone else suffer! It's pathetic!"

Nny "That's not true."

Squee "YES IT IS!!!"

Nny "Why are you attacking me?"

Squee "BECAUSE I'M FRUSTRATED!!!"

Squee "You like to watch me suffer! Makes sense! Everyone else does!!"

Nny "You're the one person I know I NEVER want to see suffer."

Squee "Did you convert your living room closet into an iron maiden? Is that why the screams are even louder tonight?!"

Nny "Um...yer...no...?"

Squee "There's blood pooling from under the door, Nny!! I can see it!!"

Nny "I was installing a shelf and the project got away from me."

Squee "Just be a man and admit I'm right!"

Nny "Squee, you need to calm down and go back to bed. I can't handle this."

-door slams shut-

Squee -kicking the door- "NICE TALK, MOM!! Get help you sick bastard! Don't just screw with the doctors! WORK ON YOURSELF!!"

*series of thuds*

*incoherent mumbling*

*boots clopping*

Nny "Leave me alone!!"

Squee Leave ME alone!!"

Nny "I wasn't talking to you!!"

Part 2 of Z? Night 7

Thank you if you enjoyed and or reblogged these very self indulgent break room sketches. Hopefully this last bit didn't ruin it for everyone.

[cielpansyhive]

I haven't checked my stats on AO3 in a year or more. I know people rank things different ways. Some people go by hits, others kudos, some by comments, bookmarks, subscriptions, ect. You get the picture. Hits are tricky, I've heard of people getting hits by bots. Which throws everything off, you see 50 hits and zero kudos, like, "fuck, these people read and hated it?" Maybe, but also it could have been a bot. For me hits can be more discouraging than helpful. I go by everything other than hits. So, with that in mind, I want to talk about my most successful works. (This is in no way meant to be me boasting. I'm a small-time writer. My point is, if I can do it, YOU can do it.)

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I believe my most popular work is Revamp, it has the most subscriptions and comments. It's the work I'm known for. It's a little on the lower end for kudos and bookmarks, but it's not finished. The very fic people know me for is also my first work. (Because of this I'm working on revising what I have before updating another chapter. No worries, it's not abandoned and never will be.) That said, I was terrified to post it originally. Not only was it my first but there were maybe ten other fics at the time with trans Ciel and that was it. I didn't know if there was a reason for that. Lack of interest? People getting hate? I was clueless. But I had a story to tell so I sucked it up and posted and I'm glad I did! I've talked to so many people and befriended some because of that fic. I take forever to update and people still get excited over it when I do update. It really means a lot! My life changed because of posting it and it gave me the courage to pursue writing and share my stuff.

My highest bookmarked and work with the 3rd most kudos is a smut one-shot (That Butler, Sensitive) that I was worried would be "too weird" for people. I know way more people who think hand kinks are weird than ones that are neutral or into it. It was another I was reluctant to post and bam people loved it. I'm still shocked by the feedback.

My highest kudo work, the first couple chapters were awful. They were quick little things I wrote for tumblr, I got enough feedback I decided to post them on AO3. Chapter 1 I wrote drunk, I'm not even joking. Did I have fun with it? Yes. Was it to my standard? Fuck no. I have since revised the first two chapters. The third chapter, Sebastian is so OOC, but once again I did have fun with it. The last chapter has figging, a kink I don't know anyone of really having...at least in my personal life. The work as a whole (Canon Divergent SebaCiel) is just fun debauchery. In the beginning it was difficult for me to post smut. It was difficult to write too, I'd get stuck in my own head. But if you write whatever thoughts flow out, it's so simple! Because I became more comfortable, I was able to write my second highest kudo work (Clathrus Archeri) that was inspired by a fungus. Yep, we get that freaky with it. My readers enjoy it, it's all good.

My fourth highest bookmarked and fifth highest kudo work (Relax) is one that I stated was "the worst smut I've ever written." It was extremely self-indulgent but at the same time I spent so long editing it that at the end I hated it. I thought in comparison to my other smut it was low level. It also had trans Ciel, so I'm glad one of my works with him made it in the top 5. Yet, I wouldn't have that had I not posted.

While most of my works are obviously Kuroshitsuji, I do have works for Voltron too. I have almost zero interactions with the Voltron fandom. I will reblog things and read (kudo, bookmark, subscribe), but besides comments on my own fics I haven't talked to anyone. A big part is that I'm shy. Another is that I'm too old for fandom drama, ship wars, and what have you. If someone wants to chat with me, I'm glad and I will talk, but I'm not putting myself out there. The same will go when I start posting Vanitas no Carte fics. I'm very ship and let ship and that will piss off some people. It's easier for people to approach me rather than me trying to figure out if someone will hate me for my ships or not. Okay, very long intro for my next point. My third highest subscribed work (Atlas Ocean Rescue) is for the Voltron fandom. They don't know me from anywhere, exception the kuro people that also like Voltron, but apparently my work has readers. This fic is super self-indulgent, I love mermen okay? I'd say overall my Voltron works aren't doing too bad considering I basically just post and run. As anxious as I get to post anything, posting for another fandom was really hard. There wasn't the pressure of people knowing my work, but there's the very real feeling of, "oh fuck, this could flop terribly." A few Voltron works have already surpassed my "worst" Kuro works...so success? I think so!

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For anyone who read all my nonsense, you get a gold star. I hope you also noticed the patterns here. That is, write for yourself and your audience will find you. Don't censor yourself, be true to you and go with the flow, have fun! Write characters how you want to write and read them. Indulge in your kinks, I swear you aren't the only one that has them. Step out of your comfort zone every once and a while. If you post a fic and it flops, so what? It's not the end of the world. What if the fic you think will fail ends up being your best one? You'll never know what will happen unless you post it, it might surprise you. As your skills improve it's okay to go back and revise and edit. But don't let your skill level hold you back from posting in the first place, we all have to start somewhere. You can engage with fandoms as much or as little as you want. (I do encourage reblogs, kudos, bookmarks, ect.) But if you are too shy to talk or don't know anyone in a fandom, don't let that stop you from creating for that fandom. If you only have one work in you for a fandom, do it! If you have multiple? Do it! Rarepair? Go for it! Someone else will probably thank you for it! Vent writing? Dead dove? Extremely therapeutic for you and for others that are more so readers than writers. (Note writing dark stuff just for exploration and entertainment is fine too!! Horror is a well-loved genre for a reason. Fiction is fiction.) Bottom line: don't let you get in the way of yourself.

Will you get hate? You might, I won't lie. That said, people troll everything, any hate you get just shake it off. Odds are it's nothing personal or about your writing, it's they don't like the ship, or any AU, or the dynamics with smut, or the kink, or they're phobic, or if you write intense stuff it's too dark of content for them. If you tag things, it's on the reader if they ignore the tags or they purposely expose themselves to content they know will upset them. I highly recommend if you are concerned about hate, only let registered users leave comments. That's what I do with all my fics and I have had zero negative comments. People are less likely to leave nasty comments if they have to show their face, it's so much easier for them on anon. Some hate I've got on here (tumblr) could be from AO3, but I honestly think it's mostly just other tumblr users that have never read anything of mine.

I'm not as active as I once was on here. It's been years since I updated or posted a kuro work on AO3. I don't have the spoons (energy) to do as much one-on-one as I used to, but know I am cheering on all the creators, new and old. I am here if anyone needs some extra encouragement. But honestly, just write. Even on the off chance you're the only one that likes your work, you have at least one fan. If you don't write for yourself, then who are you writing for? I swear readers can tell the difference when you write something you're into verses something you think will be good, but you don't care about as much. Your best writing is the writing that YOU would read. Don't focus on what you think others will think. Your people will find you.

We all start as that person that's afraid to post our works, it's natural. Tackling that fear was one of the most difficult but best thing I've done for myself. If you want to post, do it! 💖💖💖

[disdaidal]

Tag game: tag 9 people you want to get to know better.

Tagged by my love @lovebillyhargrove .💙💜 Thank you so much, honey. :3

Favourite colour: Turquoise and purple. I love different shades of aqua and dark purple to light lavender.

Last song: "We Don't Have To Take Our Clothes Off" by Jermaine Stewart

Currently reading: I've just about devoured all the 18 Gallahir fics that are on ao3, and I need more. I'm on a mission to also comment the ones that I really liked (already started), because writers deserve love. ♥

Last movie: I don't know if you can really call it watching a movie if you end up skipping 3/4 of it just to see a familiar face (but it was worth it. kind of), so... Girl Asleep (2015).

Sweet/spicy/savoury: Savoury. Sweet and spicy are great, but good flavor is more important.

Currently working on: I should be working on school stuff (because my new school's starting soon and I've had all summer to finish and send the given assignments, but nah) and other important stuff that actually matters, BUT. Instead of I'm working on some new gifsets that might get reblogged by 5 people if even that if I get lucky, but it's all good because I have a new hyperfixation and I'm making them mostly for self-indulgent reasons now, so. And since I've been reading Gallahir fics lately and there aren't many, I've thought about starting/writing my own. I've already planned it in my head, I have the general idea for it and I know how I'm going to finish it, but. I don't know. My insecurity and criticism towards my own writing has once again started creeping in and taking control, so, uh. We'll see. But I'd really like to.

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I am going to be incredibly lazy now and not tag anyone because I honestly don't know who to tag anymore and who even wants to do these. Nor do I want to pressure anyone into doing these. 🙈 So please, if you want to take this, consider yourselves tagged by me. ♥

[aether-writes-things]

Pinned lmao

Hello! You can call me Aether :3 My pronouns are they/them primarily, but I also use he/him. I'm queer and make queer art.

I'm 21+, live in the U.S., and am married. Yes, my husband is my beta reader lmao, I love him sm

I'm nonbinary/transmasculine/genderfluid or some kind of bs like that. Labels are hard lmfao. Sense of self? We don't know her.

I write stuff. And things. Sometimes nsfw, but not all the time lol

Current works posted: 1 (not complete)

WIPs: 3

Fandoms I write for: Legends of Zelda / Original Links Meet AU, Sometimes Sorta Linked Universe, Marvel (sometimes, lol, the Deadpool and Wolverine brainrot has a vise-like grip on my brain rn and it's distracting me from other fandom...oof)

If you want to see me spew nonsense, just look for the tag aether yaps because I do a lot of yapping.

My works will be tagged as aether's stories.

I write both short and long form fiction. My AO3 handle is AetherWritesThings.

More randomness under the cut! (You can also find DNI related inquiries, more on fandom, and what kind of tags to block if you don't want to see certain types of works on my blog, as well as general content warnings for my non-adult/YA work.)

Backstory timeeeeeee

I've been writing fanfiction since the autism really started autisming back in 2010. Yeah, I've been writing fanfic for 14 years and I haven't had an AO3 until now. Sad innit lol (Also yes, I am actually autistic, amongst other brain problems lmfao) I started in a spiral bound notebook, writing Twilight Princess fanfiction by hand as a child.

I fell off the writing wagon in 2020, when my writing buddy and best friend ghosted me for being queer. Since then, I've done a lot of growing up, changing, and deep introspection. Besides learning how to handle my mental illness, I've also learned to take my time and enjoy the process of creation, rather than just slap something on a page and hate it for the rest of my existence. I've also learned that, sometimes, it's ok to put down the original work and just enjoy some self-indulgent fanworks sometimes!

I haven't gotten his permission to tag his account here, but my lovely beta reader is my very own husband, the only person in my life that I feel comfortable sharing my works with. (It's different if it's strangers on the internet or writing buddies, which I don't have anymore, lol) Shoutout to the hubby <3

I don't really do DNIs because I don't post anything that could be DNI-able. (And by that, I mean I will avoid posting or reblogging triggering or DNI-able content, such as political or deeply controversial content). Most of my works are intended for young adult audiences, but sometimes the ship brainrot seizes me and I make adult works as well. I will tag everything appropriately. If you don't want to see NSFW content, but still want to follow, feel free to just add jeepers that's smut to your blocked tags! That's what I'll tag any and all of my adult-themed works with!

I'm also gonna tag fandom as aether writes (insert fandom) so I can organize my work. For example, if I post a Zelda fic, I'll tag aether writes Legend of Zelda :)

General content warnings DO apply to my sfw content, so as I post / think of more, I'll add to the list here. Current Content Warnings / Trigger Warnings: violence, blood, medical procedures, emeto/vomit/illness (non-graphic, I am emetophobic lol), death, strong language

And some stuff just for fun!

I have two cats, both of them orange. They're so dumb <3. My favorite color is green. I have been in the Legends of Zelda fandom for going on 15 years now (I'm old). My favorite three Legends of Zelda games in descending order are Twilight Princess (ily Midna), Skyward Sword, and Wind Waker. I have also played Majora's Mask (ITS SO HARD), Ocarina of Time (screw the Water Temple fr), Phantom Hourglass, Hyrule Warriors, Breath of the Wild, and Tears of the Kingdom. I recently started Minish Cap and I adore it!

Feel free to message me or ask me stuff! I should be posting some writing soon, so be on the lookout for more silliness.

Last Updated: 10-29-2024

[adiosterror]

A bit of a ramble of Egbert powerscaling, if you will

My previous reblog is my second writing of the text lmao, I went on a bit of a ramble about John and the more horror side of him that people like to delve into

Me personally, I ADORE that stuff, and I went on about how underwhelming people scare-ify him compared to where he's ACTUALLY powerscaled to be

John is a ridiculously powerful character, and I'm hoping that's a common opinion because god damn is that true,, he's probably the strongest of everyone, overall speaking

His abilities to manipulate the canon at will, everything regarding being an Heir of Breath both physically and in representation (he can't even bleed, dude! it's just wind!), and, oh yeah! THESE BREATH ABILITIES CAN PATCH HOLES IN DOOMED TIMELINES?!?!?! And frankly? That's terrifying, if anything, we're lucky he's just depressed instead of losing his mind

Now for the tasty part, the self indulgence,,

Let's say, hypothetically, John DID lose his mind one way or another, at least somewhatl

Do you REALIZE how screwed you are if John decided one day that he's just sick of everything? For pov's sake, everything but you. He can keep you wherever he wants you to be, he could rewrite your story and change your thoughts to where you wouldn't even think twice about fighting back

Let's say hypothetically that you did somehow fight back, you're running off back to wherever safety is, HE'S THE FUCKING WIND DUDE!! He can sense you moving, he can feel you breathing, hell, he IS the air you breathe, literally

The only person who could probably rival his power is either Lord English or Ultimate Dirk if we're stretching it, and shout this out for the ones in the back, that is a LORD and an ULTIMATE!!! An ultimate Prince, no less

I mean, a Lord of Time is still a huge deal but this is a Lord of Time and literally hundreds if not MILLIONS of Princes of Heart who can manipulate people's thoughts and actions in real time! And guess who John kicked the ass of? Lord English. Specifically. Not really Dirk, I don't think he's too focused on whatever that guy's doing in the story right now, busy being,,, uh,,,, dead,,,, but you get the idea. (man, that just fumbled that whole argument huh)

I digress, people really don't delve into John's full potential of being a horror concept, because he could seriously terrifying to deal with if he wasn't a divorced father who completely lost sight of who he was, so y'know, the other infinite timelines that exist

One of them's gotta have a John that just LOSES IT, and I'd really love to see where people could go with that,,, I eat up all those Ultimate John concepts and designs, and I think that's a step in the right direction, except I think it's mainly for Dirkjohn yaoi from what I've seen

Hi, Me thirty minutes in the future here, I'm so sorry and I totally lost my train of thought looking at pictures of him and Ultimate designs

Here's the best ones I found on a reddit post, I'm so so sorry that I totally forgot what I was saying but I hope you catch my drift

May possibly come back to this when I actually have something interesting for the table? Who knows

To conclude uhhh,,,,, ehehe,,, do you think if john was an ultimate that he would still like meee :333

[pandanscafanfiction]

What is your most popular fic?

What fanfic do you wish you got more response on?

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

What is my most popular fic? Well I'm only recently dabbling in writing for Hogwarts Legacy since playing the game while I was out the entire month of April to rest after surgery. Before that I was writing a lot for the Final Fantasy XV fandom (of which i still love and reblog stuff about whenever it comes up in my feed)! So since that's been around longer, it's only a given that they are more popular. My most popular fic is called "Fated To Love You" and it's a Noctis/Pompto omegaverse fic! It LONG outranks all my other works at a whopping 1,104 kudos ❤️ That being said though, I never want to reread it lmao. Ever. 😅 I guess it's a testament to how much I've grown but I find it now very self-indulgent, ooc, and cringe as far as plot... lol But it's a stepping stone in my journey nonetheless and I'm happy that it made so many others happy. So I'll never take it down.

What fanfic do you wish you got more response on? "Do Me Damage", (another FFXV fic I started on (and haven't finished) in which I rewrote the game, added way more angst and realism and depth, and threw in complicated love triangles for the drama of it all on top of all that. It's also written in a different character's POV instead of the main character's that you play the game as.) I suppose, all though that's just for the sake of answering the question. Since it isn't finished and I have no plans on going back to it any time soon, I wouldn't really want people to suddenly get invested. But it definitely was my baby and I've spent so much time working on it. The word count alone is ginormous. I may as well be rewriting the fucking Bible lmao. It would have went longer but back in the day a LOT of a draft of the next chapter got lost and it kinda is what made me give up the whole thing. I was pretty bummed after that and haven't picked it up since.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Oh I ABSOLUTELY respond to ALL comments that I see fly into my email. As a writer, people who love my work really is what hypes me up and keeps that motivation to continue going. I really love hearing the feedback or simply that the particular chapter affected them emotionally or made their day in some way. There's comradery in it and it's that warm, fuzzy, found family feeling. I read a lovely comment (or a sad or upset one lmao) and it makes me giddy every time that we are just two people eternally screaming into the void about nonexistent people that we love lmao. I know some people don't like to respond to comments because it could "trick" a reader into maybe "thinking the story is greater than it actually is" but honestly babes, that's what kudos are for. I don't read a fic based on how many comments it's gotten. (Or kudos too, actually, but yeah) I read them based off the plot and if it sounds like something I'd be into.

[arumbleinthedark]

Oh lord, I went through with it...

Aight, my name is Shawn (not my real name), and I'm dusting this blog off to make a separate blog for...urgh, reasons...

THIS IS A KINK BLOG, RUN BY AN ADULT. IF YOU ARE GOING TO FOLLOW OR INTERACT WITH ME, PUT YOUR FUCKING AGE IN YOUR BIO OR SOME INDICATION THAT YOU ARE AN ADULT, IF YOU DON'T I WILL BLOCK YOU WITHOUT HESITATION.

DNI/DNF (Do Not Interact/Do Not Follow):

If you're the type of person to see a list of someone's boundaries and say "I ain't reading all that."

MINORS I don't care if you are "mentally" older, legally you are under the age of 18 and therefore a minor. If you are not a minor, please put your age somewhere on your blog in order to prove so. I block ageless blogs or safety reasons. If I have any suspicion that you are a minor lying about your age, you will be blocked.

Proship/Darkship, I really don't care how or why you do it. I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life but please stay away from me, thanks.

Zoos/Maps/"Paraphiles"/"Pro Paraphilla"/"Radqueer" or "Radinclus"

The obvious (homophobes, transphobes, abelists, etc., not that you're even gonna look my way anyway)

Prolife

Anti-Vaxx

Ana or Thinspo Blogs (Ana recovery is okay)

Immobile/Death feederism blogs

Blank blogs get blocked, no exceptions.

If you look like a bot I will block you.

My AO3, where I post fanfic and occasionally original works.

So super fast intro, I'm gay, I'm a multishipper, I'm not looking for a relationship at the moment, I don't like to chat with strangers. It's cool if you wanna say hi or be like "Hey I like this thing too!" but don't go in expecting me to have a full on chat session with you, and please don't try to flirt with me or engage me in roleplay, especially if you're much younger than me.

However, feel free to send me asks, suggestions, prompts, whatever. As long as you're nice and polite.

This is mainly a place to ramble on about my kwinks, post my writings, just general tum stuff.

While this is technically a kink blog, I'm trying to keep it mostly sfw out of courtesy and because I don't want to get sniped by bots. Anything I think might be too suggestive will be marked as mature (so you'll have to input your birthday to see it) but these will be few and far between. I don't mind interaction from non-kink blogs or sfw kink blogs so long as you're a legal adult. To be honest I'm asexual anyway so I would probably consider this blog to be "sfw kink" in a sense.

Just know that I do find some of these things hot, unless I specify that it's not my kink or tag it as "not kink." But I'm not going to be posting straight up porn or anything like that.

Also, if I tag something as "not kink" and you like it because it's a kink for you, that's cool too! Again, as long as you're a legal adult I don't mind at all!

Okay, now that that is out of the way, here is a quick rundown of stuff you will find here:

Stomach Noises

Hunger, and Digestion but Mainly Hunger

Realistic-ish Stuffing/Bloating (nothing extreme)

Soft Feedism

Stomach Aches

Emeto/Nausea (Not my kink. Mainly for hurt/comfort reasons, but I don't usually get too descriptive.)

Burps and Hiccups

Weight Gain (On occasion. Not my kink.)

General Whump and Hurt/Comfort (Not my kink.)

General Sickfic (Not my Kink.)

Men <3 (And Sometimes Women but Mainly Men)

Gay Shit

Dom/Sub Dynamics

Vore (Mostly reblogs)

Me being a hopeless, sappy romantic

The Funny Squid Game (will be tagged under "heeheehoohoo funny squid" and/or "self indulgent fandom bullshit")

What you WILL NOT find here:

Farts/Scat

Pee

Anything that may involve gore or grievous injury (At least not on this Tumblr, my AO3 might be a different story.)

Aaaaaaand, that's it! Enjoy the fucked up side of me!

[themareverine]

oh boy, what a doozy! thanks for taggin' me, @permanentlyexhaustedpigeon88. LFG!

*clears throat into mic* hello, this thing on?

How many works do you have on AO3? i'm not even sure, i'm trying to get into Ao3 but as a former ff.net girlie, it's hard. i have my reasons. i think maybe four?

What's your total AO3 word count? no idea at the moment, i'm locked out of my account (waiting on support, lol).

Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes: (based on AO3 stats, modifying for tumblr due to aforementioned circumstances)

DESIGNATED DRIVER - oldman!Logan x fem!OC hands down. this started as just a brainrot idea but ya'll really seemed to love it. i didn't intend for it to turn into a character study of Lo, but once i got into that man's brain, i didn't want out of it. i just really love the idea of Logan being the kind of guy that sees the invisible girl, the friend-of-the-going-through-life-as-the-MC girlie, since I am that girl irl. the idea of Logan seeing me and wanting to see me just kinda makes me melt.

IN YOU, MY FORTRESS - oldman!Logan Howlett x fem!OC first of a drabble series. featuring boy dad oldman!Logan, because that idea just makes me absolutely feral. based on this. and I had to dedicate that to @1800-fight-me for that post, which changed my brain chemistry and prompted my first oldman!Logan.

WILD MAN- Logan Howlett x fem!OC this is kinda an AU idea for my main series, Mare & the Wolverine. Jealous Logan, lol. need i elaborate?

BED OF BONES- The Long Night!Logan Howlett x fem!OC based on The Long Night podcast audio drama, which made me fall in love with a whole new era and variant of Logan. I loooove this Logan. words will never express how much i love this Logan. very much post-Weapon X, this is told from the perspective of an OC, and could very well become a very future sequel to Mare & the Wolverine, as it's written from Mare's perspective. survivalist vibes, which i love.

Subaru, It's You - worst!Logan x fem!OC. i love worst!Logan so much, and after shopping for a new car, this felt right. purely self indulgent again.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? i try, when they happen along. i don't get a tonne of interaction on my stories, but, whenever somone leaves a comment or reblog or whatever, i try to reinforce good behavior. let 'em know i see the effort and match it. a DM convo with @bpmiranda actually opened my eyes super wide to the fact that people are reading, and equally respecting, even if they don't directly interact. i guess she's a fan of mine, which doesn't even seem possible, because like, i'm just little 'ol me.

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending? it isn't published yet. i'm writing an AU for DP&W, and the prologue is kinda an alternate ending to the events of Logan 2017, and it's the gut-wrenchiest thing I've ever penned. i can hardly believe that even came out of me, wow.

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending? none of my fics have technically ended, but the happiest fic i��ve ever written? probably TOP EIGHT.

Do you write crossovers? i’ve tried, they just never take off, but i do write a bunch'a AUs.

Have you ever received hate on a fic? honey, been doing this since 2009. the odds are yes.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? i never used to, starting off, because my morality and faith gets in the way. but last year i kinda abandoned my morals for a hot minute and yes, i did. but then i recanted and sobered up and realized that's not the best use of my talents, so now i just like to write intimate, PG-13 stuff (because yes, we can have romance and spice without sex). since i write for Logan these days, i feel like there a cocktail of ways to have intimacy with him as a character that are not directly sexual.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? not that i know of?

Have you ever had a fic translated? see above. ^^

Have you ever co-written a fic before? in the ancient years of fanfiction.net, mhm! i helped do an Expendables piece a few years ago. and while i may not be credited as a writer, per se, i thrive on spitballing ideas with other people, and i love to help out and be a sounding board for ideas and universe building.

What's your all time favorite ship? *nervous laugh* i really hate this question. there's a huge soapbox I preach from regarding canon ships, because i am a firm believe that media and Hollywood just haven't ever done many females justice simply due to the fact that every woman to ever be shipped with a man in fiction is supermodel gorgeous with a, usually, lackluster personality. they're pretty but just a square hole for that round peg. like with Logan, everyone is feral over the Jean/Logan and Ororo/Logan ships, but i just, i can't get there. not even a little. that's why i am exclusively an OC/canon writer.

What's a WIP you want to finish, but don't think you ever will? i wrote a Top Gun: Maverick piece last year called Abstracts, which really truly deserves to be finished but i am so far removed from that fandom it's laughable.

What are your writing strengths? another question i hate. i have to talk about myself positively? jeez. um, well, i think i'm pretty good at prose and tone? i love building out scenes with descriptors—always have seen stories in scenes, like film, running through the back of my brain—bringing them to life, so readers can see what I see, is a passion. i should’ve probably directed film. also like to think i am pretty good at hitting the nail on the head with characters, but i’ll leave that up to others to decide.

What are your writing weaknesses? proofreading. nothing worse. also the onslaught of too many ideas.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? it’s one of those things—if you can do it without offending anyone, good on ya, mate. if you don’t know the language, research. but always be open to critique, be a vessel.

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet, but want to? as mentioned, i am a ship stickler. as for fandoms, i really wanna write for Reminiscence and Kate & Leopold.

What's your favorite fic you've written? Recently, BED OF BONES. aforementionedly, this Logan variant is super near and dear to my heart so it was fun to lean into the kinda post-Weapon X, twisty, survivalist Logan that isn’t actually Hugh Jackman. in the history of FanFiction, i wrote a Jurassic World piece that’s almost up to 600k views, so pretty proud of that.

No pressure tags: @joelsgoldrush @lubdubology @bpmiranda @logansbaby @1800-fight-me @ovaryacted @rqnarok (we haven’t interacted much but I massively respect you!) @itsgoghtime

Fanfic writer interview

Thanks for the tag, @niennawept!! (& answering under this blog since the VAST majority of my fic is Adar-related)

How many works do you have on AO3? 14, which feels insane to me.

What’s your total AO3 word count? 202,906, which again... feels insane. I'm pretty sure Adar is to blame for like, 195,000 of those words.

Your top 5 stories by kudos/likes:

Awake, Arise or Be For Ever Fall'n: My longest work, Adar's life story from his awakening at Cuivienen to the Battle of the Last Alliance. (Written and completed pre-S2, so his story after Orodruin erupts is, um, different than in the show canon. So technically it's a fix-it fic.)

sister golden hair: The Adar x Mirdania fic that I NEVER expected to write. This started as a ONE-SHOT and then exploded into an angst-riddled tale of accidental necromancy and Tolkienian zombies. Deus ex Mirdania!!!!

Son of the Darkness: The one-shot that started it all. The moment that my brain became fully unhinged. The original one-shot sketch of Adar's life story.

memories of dancing: A fic I wrote when I lost my mind temporarily pre-siege of Eregion episode premiere and decided to entertain the crack idea that Adar = Celeborn. No regrets.

Blood on My Name: Awwww... a throwback to the days when Kastle (Karen Page x Frank Castle from The Punisher) had taken over my brain. A little AU where a badly wounded Frank shows up at Karen's door in the middle of the night. Midnight MacGyver surgery FTW!

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? I try! I have not been historically the best at this, partly because for awhile I didn't realize that that was what you were supposed to do. >.< Also sometimes I type responses out and my brain tricks me into thinking that I sound way too dumb so I abort mission. But I've been trying to be much better about it because yes, fandom should be a conversation and I'm so grateful for every comment I get!

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? LMAO TAKE YOUR PICK, I AM THE CAPTAIN OF THE PAIN TRAIN. Honestly, though, I guess it depends on your definition of pain. I think Awake, Arise ended on a hopeful/Tolkienian note, so I actually wouldn't say that one. I think it might be "what law can lovers move," which was a little lyrical Turgon x Elenwe oneshot that I did, inspired by Orpheus and Euryidice. Those two hurt me so good.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? Mmmmm... I think "in the halls of awaiting," a companion ficlet to Awake, Arise from the POV of Erenyë, Adar's spouse in my canon, as she waits for him in the halls of Mandos. It was SUCH an angsty fic to write, but their reunion made it all better. That said, I DON'T REALLY DO OVERTLY HAPPY ENDINGS, SORRY.

Do you write crossovers? Nope.

Have you ever received hate on a fic? I don't think so.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I DIDN'T, AND THEN ADAR X ERENYE TOOK OVER MY BRAIN. "A Knife in the Dark" is the AU smutfest of Awake, Arise and I like to say that it's what happens when you don't let your characters fuck each other enough in the longfic.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? Let's hope not.

Have you ever had a fic translated? Not yet!

Have you ever co-written a fic before? No... writing is kind of a solitary endeavor for me. I'd entertain editing, but probably not co-writing.

What’s your all-time favorite ship? I'm staring at this question going "why can I not think of an answer for this"? I mean this feels so self-promotional/self-indulgent to say, but I'm high-key obsessed with my OC Erenyë and I've definitely dedicated the most brain space to shipping her and Adar over the past two years. Turgon and Elenwe also have OTP status in my brain, as well as Kastle and SANSAN.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? Mmmmm... I think maybe "Tides of Fate Onward Run"? I started this something like TEN YEARS AGO, and the basic idea was to tell the story of Gollum and his corruption by the ring through the POV of Nienna. It was a neat little exploration and I had intended it to be a way to explore a lot of the Valar headcanons I have. Maybe one day I'll get back to it...

What are your writing strengths? Mmm... I think maybe my canon adherence? For the most part that is my sweet spot with fic-- I like to craft stories that can fit very snugly into exisiting canon with few deviations. Especially with Awake, Arise, I wanted Adar's story to feel like it could have slipped right out of Tolkiens Silmarillion canon.

What are your writing weaknesses? Ugh I think sometimes I can slip into passive voice and I hate that. Also sometimes I feel like my descriptions are just way too flat and I can fall into "telling instead of showing."

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? The only other languages I really use are Tolkien's... and I'm for it!

What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? Mmmm... well technically I have written for this ship, but I've never published publicly... and may never. It's Lalwen x Fingolfin. It's wrong. It's scandalous. It's a mess of feelings. There's extensive Helcaraxë angst/trauma involved. Don't @ me, they are so compelling to me. I'M UNREPENTANT, LOOK AWAY.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written? Awake, Arise! I'm so goddamned proud of that fic. I'd never actually completed anything novel length (fic-wise or original) before I wrote that fic. So that was a big deal for me to do as a writer. And I really felt like I told a damn story.

ANYWAY tagging @brynnmclean, @permanentlyexhaustedpigeon88 @mylovelylittleobsessions @clumsycopy and anyone else who wants to play!!!

[vicsdeangelis]

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[inklore]

hi lauren. i was the anon before that asked if you were ok with answering writing advice. lately i've been dealing with a lot of self doubt with my writing. and as much as i hate to say it, the amount of reactions i get on here has been making me think i'm just shitty at writing. do you have any advice to combat writing insecurities like this?

hi darling, i hope you're well and hydrated <3

and i want to first start off by saying that every writer goes through this, even published authors have self doubt and struggle just as this. i go through this, i'm currently going through this. it's hard to combat especially if you're dealing with it alone. it's always nice to have friends and followers and mutuals to help combat these feelings. but sometimes not even that can kick the self doubt in the ass.

with that said i don't think there's a 'fix all' for this. there's things you can do to kick it to the curb and push through, but just remember this is all a part of being a creative being. we hold ourselves to high standards because we know we can create great things, we have before. and it's hard. not everyone is blessed with the ability to create, whether that's writing, art, designing damn buildings. so just know you're absolutely amazing and talented for writing at all. writing good, writing bad, it's all writing, creating, and that's fucking amazing!!!

NOTES DO NOT EQUAL TALENT!!!!

COMMENTS DO NOT EQUAL TALENT!!!

REBLOGS DO NOT EQUAL TALENT!!!

i've seen fics on here that are not ones i enjoy, i don't click with the writing, the prose, what have you, but the note count will still be high. the interactions amazing and i think: damn am i the problem? and no i'm not. people like what they like. just because i thought the story was meh does not mean every one does. just as the four mutuals who read my stuff and interact with it NOT interacting with certain stories of mine because it's not their cup of tea, does not make them bad or mean i wrote something bad.

every pot has a lid and sometimes you ain't that lid. it's a tough reality you gotta face sometimes, BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE A BAD WRITER OR ANYONE IS BETTER THAN YOU ON HERE.

do not compare yourself to ANYONE on here. we ain't stephen king. idc if this other author has 5k notes on each fic, has turned one of them into a published story: NO ONE IS BETTER THAN ANYONE ON HERE. do not compare your talent and story telling to anyone else's because it's only going to make YOU miserable. why be miserable when you can be writing stories YOU love? for YOUR friends, followers, mutuals, FOR YOURSELF. life is too short to keep that negative mindset. so ignore it (harsh but you gotta if you wanna create bby).

there is no easy or simple way to get notes or interaction. i can post in fandom A and get a lot of traction, but if i post in fandom B i get barely 100 notes. there's new people who gain traction so easily, there's accounts who constantly have interaction but then they write for a different fandom and that traction goes away. it's literally a yoyo effect on here, you never know if somethings going to be up or down, if this will work or if people won't be interested in the way you wish, hope. we can't fix that. hate to say it but we can't. it's the reality of being on this site.

it's something you gotta know does not = your talent. does not determine your talent.

people who say 'write for yourself' mean well, and yes i do think at the end of the day no matter what you're writing it is self indulgent; we post for people to see. if we didn't want people to see our writing we would leave it in the drafts or get a diary. our work is NOT just for ourselves. we want others to enjoy these little headcanons and prose and what we made. and that's beautiful, amazing, the best thing about creating. and it feels like crap when we get 2-100 notes at most. but it doesn't mean what you're writing is bad. that you have no talent.

and as hard as it is you gotta keep writing, babes. don't let anything stop you from doing what makes you happy, from your passion and creating. it's so so fucking hard. but you gotta find the joy somewhere in it or you'll only feel negative feelings when it comes to writing.

so ignore the notes, ignore the ghost readers, ignore the popular accounts who act like it's all sooooo easy, hell ignore the paragraph where i talked about people liking this that who they whatever!!! remember why you started writing in the first place. make friends, mutuals, people who understand this feeling. support each other. talk it through with them. scream into a damn pillow if you need to. but don't let anything take away this blessing of being able to create, to write and share your stories.

there will be good and bad days on here, there will be writers who annoy you and make you feel like shit. but there's also good on here. good people. good stories that YOU are helping to create. curate a safe space for you to write and feel amazing about it <3

some more advice after ranting:

block anyone who makes you feel bad/jealous/any negative way about your own writing. if they get butt hurt over it that's on them. it's not personal, you're protecting your own mental health, love.

read every. single. story. you've ever written that, while writing it, made you feel proud or reminded you 'oh yeah this is why i like writing'

make friends!! this can be hard but trust me you'll find your people, and if you haven't yet hi i'll be one of your people!!! <3

make a playlist that boosts your creativity and listen to it while writing or to get yourself in the mood for writing. happy, sappy songs that make you smile and cheer and swoon when you think about writing scenes to them.

rejection is a part of writing, even fanfic, and you gotta accept and ignore it. be like 'oh ok' and move on to the next thing or you'll be in the same spot and it'll take longer to get out of it.

can't write? feeling like shit over it? watch a favorite movie, ya know the one that has you kicking your feet and twirling your hair or makes you laugh until you cry, or cry like a baby because it's so emotional: WATCH IT!!!

writing in the bathtub feels amazing. try it. that is all.

you could be the next stephen king but you're not right now so stop putting so much pressure on yourself to BE something. just write what makes you giddy and happy and smile or clutch them pearls because it's filthy as hell.

dance! put on some playlist and just move your damn body. literally make yourself sweat and gasp for air, you'll release endorphins AND your brain will be too distracted to make you think of negative stuff. or workout if you like that kinda thing lol.

go for a walk, write somewhere new, by yourself a yummy little beverage because you deserve it <3

read physical books. please please pleaseeeee don't JUST read fanfic. not to say it's bad to only read it. but consuming published literature actually helps in growing your trade and it's an amazing habit to get into to help combat a lot of mental health issues (personally for me at least).

selfcare days work better than you think. eat junk food (unless that makes you feel worse then stay away from triggering foods), watch comfort shows, face mask it up, paint your nails, draw, color, knit, reorganize your room, whatever gives you joy do it for a whole day. don't talk to anyone. just be with yourself and remind yourself that yeah life doesn't always suck. or if you hate doing stuff alone call a friend and have a selfcare day together (or in person).

read the struggles from published authors. look up how they got through the self doubt. know that you're not alone.

you could also, with the previous point in mind, look up their writing routine and challenge yourself to do it for a couple days, a week, whatever. it'll be fun!

post the fic. close the app. do something else. don't look at the notes when replying to those who comment or rb. literally do not let your eyes look at that stupid irrelevant number. or hell, even post and then forget about it and move on to the next thing. queue reminder reblogs for your followers, but forget about the fic for a day or two and then reply to interactions. no interactions? sad, annoying, but let's write the next one love. let's keep that writing high going!!! maybe the next one will be the one everyone goes gaga for, or maybe it won't, but hey we are literally growing with our writing and creating and those who do enjoy it are screaming from all these posts!!!

take breaks!!!! write for three days and then don't. or write for a week and then don't for a week. breaks = rest. rest = a fresher mind.

tumblr is nothing in the grand scheme of life bby, but the art you make and post and share and take your time to give yourself and whomever else see's it, IS EVERYTHING. notes don't pay the bills. they give us joy. but NEVER let them take away the joy or happiness. because it's NOT THE NOTES that keep you writing, creating. it's that little beautiful creative mind of yours <3

[anangelcalledinquisitor]

I posted 13,563 times in 2022

That's 5,076 more posts than 2021!

260 posts created (2%)

13,303 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@zaidnovi

@ebonykain

@theluckythreeleafclover

@dgcakes

@ibijau

I tagged 2,597 of my posts in 2022

#the inquisitor speaks - 184 posts

#holding the world - 148 posts

#my writing - 106 posts

#moon/sun/reader - 92 posts

#raising starlings - 81 posts

#talking about my writing - 40 posts

#fnaf moon - 32 posts

#svsss - 31 posts

#fnaf security breach - 30 posts

#fnaf sb - 28 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#because some things i get flustered about writing and i don't know if you're ever like stop looking for ten minutes this part's embarrassin

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I hate it when you’re trying to write something and you only have like... a passing knowledge of the thing you’re writing?  and your brain screeches to a halt and like...

DOES DJ MUSIC MAN HAVE A FUCKING VOICE???  I can’t watch any more video playthroughs because someone else controlling the camera tends to give me motionsickness...  Can anyone just answer this question for me?  I don’t want to play tonight (because I’ll be here all fucking night) and I want to finish this chapter so I can go to the zoo tomorrow without feeling guilty, and this scene won’t... leave... me... alone...

@twinanimatronics @dana-chan-the-control-brain @femme-enby (I don’t know who all might be able to answer this and/or might be awake, you can ignore my screaming into the void

91 notes - Posted July 8, 2022

#4

I read your fic today and I just ADORE IT.

So I made you some doodles...hope you like em!

This one is based off that "husky saying no" tiktok. Because I think the further along Y/N gets, the more his security protocols demand he guard her instead of the Pizzaplex.

Bonus doodle:

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114 notes - Posted June 23, 2022

#3

Me: I'm just going to finish Security Breach and see how it goes from here.

Me: oh i can explore a little better now with the mods! Let's get a good look all around the daycare, for science.

Me: OH NO THERE'S AN ELEVATOR IN THE DAYCARE! I made my YN take the stairs their whole pregnancy for no reason...

Me, sees the elevators are all out of order: .... That tracks.

124 notes - Posted July 17, 2022

#2

To my writer moots (and artist moots and all ND folks too), I'm just curious if I'm weird about this:

Does anyone else take screenshots of the nice things people have said about your stuff, to like read later, especially when dealing with feelings of imposter syndrome, self-doubt, and the feelings of "i should just delete all my stuff online, it's all terrible and no one actually likes it and no one has said anything because they're all too nice about it"?

(but then i reread comments and like??? That many people can't be wrong, right??? And these are just the ones on the final chapter, not including the ones on any of the other 25 chapters)

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124 notes - Posted July 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Precious Time (future scene for Holding the World, my indulgent FNAF Security Breach AU with a pregnant reader and super sweet boys). This picture is going to be in a future chapter, and a version of it is in the Bad Ending that i posted, though in that version, Sun cut moon out of the picture. I might do both, haven't decided yet. Sitting at work, i can sort of work on writing but some of it just has to wait until I get home.

(bald Moon bald Moon bald Moon bald -)

146 notes - Posted June 23, 2022

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