#QuestioningExistence

[essentiallydonut]

what remains: fallout (a poem)

what remains: fallout (a poem)

in the endless cosmos of a billion stars, we seek our worth, we bear our scars. does a single star matter in the midnight sprawl? do we– do i? — still, to a lone gazer, to a beholden lover, it’s all that matters, all that’s special. through the eyes of love, we all do dream, every soul a universe, every heart a dream. yet we question, amid love’s cruel jest, “can I be special to the one I…

[exalotlesthoughts]

"You are the Problem"

A lot of the times people will tell you that your the problem. They assert that it's your fault for being disliked or mistreated by others. This usually happens after you've complained one too many about the horrible things you've experienced as the result of other people. However, the perplexing part is that sometimes, when you delve deep within yourself to examine how you could be the issue, you draw a blank. You struggle to identify where you are wrong and where you are right. When you share this confusion people get mad and frustrated, and think of you a narcissist and conceited.

Frankly, I find myself bewildered and have pondered questions that have plagued many others in similar circumstances. Why is i the world is so cruel to me? Why is my life such a horrible mess, plagued by individuals who treat me poorly? Why am I unable to maintain friendships or have a successful relationship? Why am I so alone.

I believe these are questions that many people ask themselves. I think there are others out there who share the same sentiments as I do. And I may have an answer to these questions. The answer is that the majority of people are flawed; both you and I are flawed, and there's little we can do about it. What people truly desire is not some perfect person who is unfailingly kind yet occasionally mean, or someone who possesses extraordinary looks, wealth, and fitness. What people yearn for is authenticity. They seek someone who acknowledges their own flaws but remains true to themselves, someone who disregards the opinions of others because they are genuine and self-assured. They're real. They are who they are.

Ironically, our efforts to be universally liked and adored yield the opposite outcome. Life, with its inherent paradoxes, defies the confines of logical sense. Yet, this is the nature of existence—absurd. It is only when we wholeheartedly embrace this absurdity that we can genuinely experience happiness. This, my friends, is the essence of absurdism.

[sadboiallmylife]

Most of my posts will just be me journaling I suppose. I've gone to many lengths to find ways to cope and this might be something I'm good at, which is venting. Maybe there are some people that can find comfort or interest in some of my struggles. Most people seem to like me as a person and seem astounded with some of my stories. The question weather my life is a comedy or a tragedy is still a question I ask myself every day. I don't know where to start all this or how it will all end, but maybe it'll help me pass the time and relieve some of this stress I endure. The Internet is forever after all, even if we are are not. Maybe not this way of communicating, or this platform, but hopefully it'll be around long enough to witness the end.

[cmon-irene]

なぜ私はこの人生を選んだのですか？

[colossalyikes]

@questioningexistance

[catestudies]

thanks to @sarah-vs-studying for tagging me!

name: Cate star sign: pisces average hours of sleep: well usually 7 or 8 but this easter holiday ive been going to sleep at 2 am so idek anymore lucky number: i have no idea maybe 4??? last thing i googled: scientific research on the international space station  favorite fictional character: sirius black and remus lupin are my children your favorite song at the moment: this legit changes everyday but today i’m loving technicolour beat by oh wonder what are you wearing right now: straight outta hogwarts tshirt and trackies when did you start this blog: 2 Feb 2016 amount of followers: about 1.3k which is insane ily what do i post: generic studyblr things. do i run any more blogs: well i have like 3 blogs (not including this one) that are still alive somewhere out there but i havent been on them in a long time why did i choose this url: idk im mainstream and generic i guess

I’m tagging my last 5 followers! @viastudies @iwishthisbloghadacoolname @gazing-at-ghosts @questioningexistence and @pyjamastudy  and anyone who wants to do this!

[a-holy-trinity]

I’m stupid for not realizing our funky cowboy lesbian is the reasoning behind this. She literally starting acting out this entire western fantasy world the second she went on a break with Sapphire. @questioningexistance your theory is valid af and your contribution is very much appreciated.

Remember how we thought Sardonyx likes to perform because of Pearl? Apparently Sunstone also likes to perform (as featured when they broke the fourth wall). This means, through deduction, GARNET IS THE ONE WHO LIKES TO PERFORM! GARNET IS THE ONE WHO LIKES TO GO ALL OUT AND PERFORM AND BREAK THE FOURTH WALL.

And suuuure, Pearl helps make Sardonyx extraly extra, but GARNET LIKES TO PERFORM TOO!

[sadboiallmylife]

Let's get into some of the intracacies of my mind. What even are my views, and views on what? Where does everything that manifests in the mind come from? All these questions sound rather philosophical, and I suppose that's life, at least in my case. Wondering what happens for what reason. Wondering where even my thoughts come from. Do any of us have free will, or at least the illusion of that? In the U.S. at least those questions are hard to to answer or justify. Growing up relatively poor but with will and determination. Having a born advantage, at least with my ethnicity and gender. The only pitfall I could have being the chemical imbalances in my brain.

My views vary. In what respect? When it comes to religion I guess I'll just say I'm more nialistic then anything, but being a determinant. I don't belive in the afterlife or some profound god that towers over with supreme will. More I belive that everything happens exactly how it's supposed to, but no idea why that could be. Being a huge beliver in the little chances in the universe. But even saying I belive in chance is contradictory. It's all hard to express, clearly ones views, but I'll try and make it possible making the point across. Every moment to me is eternity. Every life I live is in every given point of every given breath of my life. This can be explained as the point of everything and everyone is everything at every given moment in every given possibility. Energy can never be crated nor destroyed. Every breath you take is your last and you live again in each passing second. Like the finite point of being. Everything is relative I suppose. We are here and now because that is what we perceive. I'm laughing at myself now, feeling I'm going in circles. Life and perception are funny things, and the answer to life is no easy thing to explain. Living life as it is on realities terms as it rolls on by is the only way to find the real answer. So with a little insight to where my mind wanders I suppose I can start going into detail with a little of that.

[xjakku-blog]

Oh. Wow. Erh. D'you like... rubber duckies? Or... rubber...moogles?