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2. Do they have any daily rituals ?

Rhys has a couple of daily rituals like getting up at five every morning, regardless of how late he’s been up ( unless he’s been at an MBM sleepover, in which case he sleeps until he’s inevitably woken up by Purrseus or someone moving around ), putting on some kind of background noise whether it be music or the television, sitting long enough to drink a cup of tea and watch the sun come up, watering his plants, and greeting his elderly neighbors ( and the lady across the street ), because they’re all up by the time he usually leaves his apartment. He also has a couple of weekly rituals ! One of which is going to the farmer’s market every Saturday, stopping by the bakery across the street from his apartment building, and picking up a new book. The latter two are done on different days each week.

4. What would they do if they needed to make dinner but the kitchen was busy ?

He doesn’t see any reason that his kitchen would be busy unless Pyrrha was over for some reason, but if it was, it’s probably busy for a reason and he isn’t going to mess with the peace of it all. Whoever is using his kitchen can continue using his kitchen and if they aren’t making dinner, he supposes he’ll just order takeout or go grab something while they’re at it. He has all the healthy options in town memorized, anyway.

6. Eating habits and sample daily menu.

Rhys’ eating habits actually aren’t all that bad ! In fact, he does his best to eat fairly healthy meals unless he’s out with friends, in which case he just goes with whatever they’ve chosen to eat. He’s particularly health conscious, mostly because he had to be while under Arsenal’s thumb and the habit stuck, but also because he finds that keeping track of calories, protein, carbs, etc. really is a good way to keep his mind occupied when he isn’t doing anything else. His metabolism is high, given his enhanced genetics, so he has to eat a little more than someone else might, so it’s strangely relaxing to him to have to redo all the math for nutrition labels even if he doesn’t necessarily have to. But his weekly trips to the local farmer’s market are also because of his health-consciousness. He likes to know what it is he’s putting into his body and that it’s all locally grown helps him feel better about it, at least. Plus, he likes to feel like he’s helping the local farmers, because not only has he found getting his produce there is cheaper and easier to buy in bulk for a week, but all of the people he buys from are also really nice and remember his name. As far as a sample daily menu goes, he really does just try to keep it as healthy as possible without being bland. Which, is something he’s gotten very good at. But that’s not to say everything he eats is healthy. Just that’s what he sticks to mostly out of familiarity and comfort.

8. Favorite indulgence and feelings surrounding indulging.

Rhys’ favorite indulgence is literally anything that the MBM makes, but especially Nona. It comes from Nona being one of the first people that he really considered a friend and their baking sessions that, once-upon-a-time coincided with Aris’ and Pat’s study sessions. It was not long after Tzan inspired him to pull away from the organization that she introduced him to Nona, who also taught him to bake ( because while he could cook, baking was absolutely not in his repertoire ) and so he associates pretty much anything Nona makes with that general time period and the contentment that came with it. Not only that, though, but everything she makes is good, so turning it down is near impossible. For all intents and purposes, it’s comfort food to him !

Another of his favorite indulgences, though, is tea. While he drinks it all the time, he does consider it an indulgence when he buys something more expensive or flavored differently than what he normally gets. His typical teas include English Breakfast, Earl Grey, and Lady Grey, fairly mundane. But he really likes floral and herbal teas and various greens, so he usually has at least one of each in his pantry and those are the ones that he might splurge on a little when he has the money to do so. ( His favorite teas, currently, are rose, jasmine, ginger, and matcha—this last one he blames on Pyrrha even though he’d had matcha before. )

10. Neuroses ? Do they recognize them as such ?

Rhys has PTSD, anxiety, and depression. He’s been told the anxiety and depression might be a side effect of the PTSD and he figures that could be the case, because while they do get the better of him out of the blue, it’s mostly in conjunction with other PTSD symptoms.

These days he mostly deals with insomnia, nightmares or terrors, and a solid amount of guilt that he doubts will ever go away. But he does still have moments where he suffers from severe anxiety and struggles trusting people that give off a certain vibe or are settled in a certain emotional state that he doesn’t much care for. ( For example, Marley and Nikita pushed him a little bit in that direction at first, but the vendors at the farmer’s market didn’t. ) These moments are fewer and farther between now than they were when he first split from Arsenal, but healing is a long process and he knows that. Like anyone else, he relapses into his symptoms and has to go through his recovery process from what feels like the very beginning from time to time. As such, he recognizes his neuroses for what they are and is mindful of the way he tries to handle them and how they might be different based on his own genetic make-up.

12. Favorite book genre ?

Rhys likes to read a lot of different things and his favorite genre changes when he reads a particularly good work, but some that he always manages to go back to are mystery and speculative fiction, very specifically alternate history. Sometimes they freak him out, but they’re good reads, nonetheless. However, he also always comes back to westerns and fairy tale retellings as his guilty-pleasure reading. He’d never mention them to anyone, but he thinks they’re good and offer a different perspective from most anything else he’s ever read or been allowed to read.

14. Physical abnormalities ? ( Both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc. )

Rhys has a plethora of scars. One of which comes from a bullet wound, the entry scar smaller than the exit and not perfectly lined up because it was a nasty shot. It did a lot of damage and he has some residual pain in his shoulder because of the damage it did, despite the fact that it takes a little more to injure him than most or that he heals quicker. He was shot by someone else from the organization on their orders, so he figures he’s probably lucky to have gotten away with what little damage it actually did, even if it aches in the cold or if he sleeps on it wrong.

His other scars didn’t come with residual pain, though some are just as gruesome. On top of his surgical scars ( which aren’t so bad, compared to the bullet wound or some of the other scars he has ), he has some larger scars on his torso from knife injuries. He has a long one that goes down his spine that he doesn’t remember getting, but figures it was stitched up in a hurry considering the way it looks. He has a few other scars littering his front, two of which are shorter knife wounds ( one that that goes from his left hip to the lower-middle of his chest and another on his lower stomach ), which he does remember. He also figures that’s why they look so much neater, so to speak, than the one on his back. He’d been able to suture those himself. he has some smaller scars along his sides and back, too, that he isn’t sure how he got them, but assumes they might be training injuries since they look more like something one might get when they fall. Like they’re from accidents or from broken glass. There aren’t a lot of those, but they are there.

His arms and legs, too, aren’t unaffected. He keeps his arms covered always because of the injuries he has there. His arms are worse than his torso as far as the number of scars go. Some are surgical from broken bones, but others are injuries he’s gotten from missions. It’s an accumulation of various types of scars on them, from knife injuries to a bullet graze on his right arm, but his left elbow is entirely scarred from a hard fall. His legs aren’t as bad, but he has a stab wound on his thigh that’s pretty obvious. The other scars on his legs are small and just things he’s accumulated throughout the years. Those aren’t too noticeable compared to his others, but he’s still pretty keen on long-pants and long sleeves.

Now, as far as food intolerances go, there aren’t any that he’s allergic to or anything of the sort, but he’s recently learned that he cannot tolerate grapefruit in any way, shape, or form. It was a very unfortunate thing to find out when he did, but previously he’d thought it was just because grapefruit are so bitter, but it’s their flavor as a whole. He can’t do it.

16. Biggest and smallest long term goal ?

His biggest long term goal is to take down the organization. His smallest long term goal is to stay alive. Smallest because, if that’s the smallest goal then the other, loftier goals will hopefully seem easier. Unfortunately, he’s thinking he might need to flip his goals.

18. Favorite beverage ?

If you couldn’t tell by his indulgences and daily rituals, his favorite beverage is tea ! His favorite teas change a lot like his favorite book genre, but he does have his consistent favorites. And next to tea, his favorite is probably water. He has mundane tastes.

20. Childhood illnesses ? Any interesting stories behind them ?

Rhys doesn’t remember having had any childhood illnesses, but before he was taken by the organization, he did have strep and ear infections often enough to have his tonsils removed ! But, as I said, this isn’t something that he remembers.

22. Given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen ?

He’d doodle. Rhys actually isn’t half bad when it comes to drawing, so he’d probably doodle various things, whether it be food, flowers, people, etc. Just whatever comes to mind, he’d probably doodle it if given the idle time to do so. On the flip side of that, though, he might also doodle people he’s seen only on-mission and in his nightmares. So it may not be as cathartic as doing something like yoga or re-calculating his nutrition labels.

24. Is there one subject of study that they excel at ? Or do they even care about intellectual pursuits at all ?

Rhys’ ideals about education differ slightly because his was entirely non-traditional. So he excels particularly in criminology and English because he has actual working degrees in those subjects, but he also excels when it comes to gymnastics and martial arts. Partially because those were the physical pursuits that he can honestly say he preferred, even while a mindless, emotionless robot that was stuck in Labyrinth. He wouldn’t have called it that then, but looking back on it he’s certain that he enjoyed them. Even if he didn’t like them strongly then, he does now. They help keep him in shape, even if he doesn’t pursue them as often.

26. Do they have any plans for the future ? Any contingency plans if things don’t workout ?

Rhys’ current plans involve bringing the organization down somehow, whether it be by spilling everything to the government or SCAR or if he has to do something about them himself ( which, is the worst case scenario since he’s just one man and has no idea how he’d go about doing that ), but that’s as far as his plans for the future stretch. It’s sad, but Rhys also hasn’t thought about the fact that his future might stretch beyond that. Somewhere along the way, he came to terms with the fact that he’s going to die at some point in this process. The only hope that he really has for the future is that he’ll be easy to forget, for his friends’ sake. Which means he also has zero contingency plans aside from making sure that his friends will be safe in his absence and he’s thinking that SCAR would be able to manage that. If not them as an organization, then Nikita’s team specifically.

28. Who do they see as their best friend ? Their worst enemy ?

Rhys has a complicated understanding of the term best friend because he’s had so few in his lifetime and the ones he does have are people he would absolutely do anything for. But if he had to list any, he’d certainly say Tzan, Nona, and Pyrrha. Tzan was his first friend and the person that set him on the path he’s currently on, whether she meant to or not. Tzan introduced him to Nona who taught him to bake and is the sweetest person he’s ever known and the rest was history, really. Nona is, currently, still in the dark about Rhys’ situation. And then Pyrrha ! Who’s an absolute trooper in the mess that is Rhys’ life. Not only did she help him home after an ill-timed twisted ankle, but she also found his postcards and took it like a champ. Currently she’s trying to keep Rasmus from killing him and has somehow managed to befriend the SCAR group that was after the both of them. Pyrrha’s his most powerful friend, he’s certain.

His worst enemy, at this very specific point in time, is Rasmus. Because Rasmus knows that he’s friends with Nona, who he had come into contact with before at the cafe. But he’s reluctantly handed the reigns of dealing with Rasmus to Pyrrha for now. If anything seems to be going south, though, he’s absolutely on standby, per se. Though he does trust Pyrrha to be able to take care of herself and he seems to be able to count on Rasmus’ “no collateral damage” philosophy, he’s still really anxious about the whole thing.

Fun Fact: After Rasmus goes Double Agent and the two of them start working with SCAR, Rhys actually finds that he gets along with him really well. Which freaks him out for a little bit. ( Granted, he’s also amused at how impressionable Rasmus is at this point, too and wonders if he was like that. )

30. Reaction to sudden intrapersonal disaster. ( e.g. close family member suddenly dies. )

Rhys doesn’t have any close family members that he remembers, so if he were to hear that he had a family and something had happened to them, he’d be disappointed because he doesn’t remember them well and never got to know them, but he wouldn’t have the emotional attachment for it to really be considered an intrapersonal disaster.

Now, if something like that happened to one of his friends, Rhys would shut down. His reaction beyond that would largely depend on what happened to them. If it was an accident or a natural incident of some sort, then he’d shut down and just not have much of an idea how to deal with it, because the only other time he’s had someone close to him die, it was wiped from his memory and he was still an emotionless doll of sorts. So even though he did feel grief and remorse over it, the emotions wouldn’t have been anything compared to what he would feel at the loss of one of his friends now because he’s experienced things more deeply and on wider scales. As such, a natural death or an accident would probably leave him feeling pretty raw and unsure of a lot, as death often does. Now, if it were something like his friends becoming collateral damage in his own messed up narrative, he’d be far angrier and full of guilt and while Rhys is strongly opposed to murder these days, he would go after the person ( or people ) that did it. He’d shut himself off for a little while and go back to what the organization taught him. That said, he’d pull back away from his friends at this point, too. Maybe it’d turn him into a coward for not facing them after something like that, but he’d never put another of them in harm’s way again.

32. Thoughts on material possessions in general ?

Rhys isn’t necessarily materialistic, but he does hold on to his postcards regardless of where he goes. But he’s also fond of being able to own his own things. He picked out his furniture, his plates and silverware, his bedding, his shower curtain, his towels and other rags, his plants, his coffee table, his chairs, his dining table and chairs, his desk, etc. so he’s pretty fond of it all just because it took him a long time to put a personal touch on his apartment and now that he has, he’s very proud of it all.

34. Thoughts on privacy ? ( Are they a private person, or are they prone to ‘TMI’ ? )

Rhys is indeed a private person. He’s decided that having a certain amount of privacy is definitely part of what makes his life outside of the organization all the better. When he was in the organization, he was always being watched by someone. His roommate, his table-mates at meals, his teachers, it didn’t matter when or where. Of course, he couldn’t say anything, because he did the same. They were all made to watch one another and give reports on behavior and possible deviations. And it only got worse after Elodie’s death, for him. That’s part of the reason he was so unnerved when he figured out he was being watched and followed by Marley and Nikita. It wasn’t so bad with Rasmus, because he’d known about Rasmus and had been expecting him, but growing complacent in his own security had led him to losing a little bit of his privacy, in that Marley and Nikita knew where he lived and knew the people he was friends with because he hadn’t noticed them. It all culminates in an incredible appreciation for privacy on Rhys’ part and a distinctive need for it as well.

36. What makes them feel guilty ?

This is a loaded question and one with a few different answers, because there’s a lot that makes Rhys feel guilty and rightly so. Those things that he’s guilty over and that he feels he rightly should be are the people whose lives he’s taken, the pain he’s brought to those people’s families, the friends he’s put in danger, the discomfort that his situation has brought to the friends that know, and the fact that he’s keeping some of his friends entirely in the dark. It’s a lot to feel guilty for and he feels that guilt every day in some way, shape, or form. It’s especially prominent in the face of those friends who aren’t even aware of the danger that he poses both as an individual and as someone who might bring other dangerous individuals around them without their knowledge, as evidenced by Nona and Rasmus.

Though those are the most prominent reasons for his guilt and ones he wishes he didn’t have to bare the guilt for, he also feels guilty over smaller, more mundane things. These things, however, are thing he relishes as moments of more harmless guilt and because it means he still feels things ! Those things include guilt over avoiding one of his neighbors on the street, not liking Nona’s grapefruit cookies, feeling vaguely threatened by the hairless cat in his neighborhood, and forgetting to pay his landlord rent the day it’s due and still being allowed to live in the apartment because the old man knows he’ll get it a day or two after, at the latest.

38. Would they consider themselves a Type A or Type B personality ?

Rhys would consider himself someone who leans more toward a Type A personality, because he fits a fair number of the descriptors often given when a Type A personality is mentioned.

40. Would you say that they have a superiority-complex ? Inferiority-complex ? Neither ?

Rhys doesn’t have a superiority or inferiority-complex, except maybe in the form of morality. He feels like his moral compass is still incredibly underdeveloped in a lot of ways. He feels guilt for the things he’s done, but doesn’t know how to make amends for it, or if he even still can. He knows, theoretically, what’s good and what’s bad and that there’s a grey area in between. He struggles, though, in that grey area. He does his best to take ques from his friends, but he’s afraid that he’ll mess up eventually and be unable to clean up the mess he makes as a result. And so, his inferiority-complex when it comes to morality is very prominent.

42. Hobbies ?

Rhys’ hobbies include reading, cooking, and making small talk with his neighbors ( teaching some of them in the case of the thirteen year old he’s teaching German to ) to keep his language skills intact. He’s also trying to add baking to the mix so he can show Nona that all of her hard work in teaching him has paid off. He also takes care of houseplants that he’s somehow managed to keep alive and also flowers in the flower boxes on his little fire-escape balcony. Another hobby of his is going out and finding places to maybe hike or just spend time out in the sun. And he’s also recently discovered that he has some kind of knack for pottery, which may come from his lessons in the Labyrinth but he’s not quite sure. He doesn’t remember ever actually being taught to sculpt, but he very well could have been. Either way, he’s learning more about it because it’s apparently great stress relief.

44. Religion ?

Religion is something that Rhys has actually found himself struggling with. When he was still an Arsenal agent, he had to study a wide variety of religions and pretend to be devout when it came to some of them depending on his missions. This lead to him being taught that none of them are real, substantial viewpoints on the world at large, but now that he’s able to look at them a little more objectively and question his own beliefs ( or lack thereof, in this case ), he isn’t sure what he believes or thinks might be true. Many of them seem, to him, like they have some semblance of truth behind them, but right now the thought of devoting himself to any of them makes him a little bit anxious and unsure of himself. He thinks that maybe looking more into religion might help him with that, but he’s also not sure how well he can take on that monumental shift in belief systems. It’s daunting to him and he thinks that maybe seeking a bit of help with understanding the ones he leans more toward might not hurt.

46. Do they express their thoughts through words or deeds ?

Rhys tries his best to express his thoughts through both words and deeds. But more often he leans on words, because expressing anything through deeds is still something he’s trying to understand with complete clarity and as someone who knows a fair number of languages and reads the majority of his freetime away, his way with words isn’t lacking. Certainly, his eloquence isn’t always top notch, but that comes from not really knowing how to weave words into the emotions he felt for a long time. Now that he’s getting better at expressing how he feels, his eloquence is moving up the latter with him, per se.

That said, his more negative thoughts and emotions he tries to keep to himself, so he does his best not to express those through words or deeds. Whatever he can handle on his own, he will.

48. How do they express love ?

Rhys is still very much trying to figure out how to express love or what love even means. Yes, he’s been aware of his emotions for some time and yes, he’s been separated from the organization for going on two years and has been with his friends for a little less than that, but love is something still entirely new to him in a way. It’s intimidating and the mention of it frightens him a little bit. He thinks that how he feels about his friends is what someone might call platonic love, certainly. In which case, he expresses this love by checking up on them and talking to them regularly, spending time with them, recommending things to read to those friends who also like to read, little things like that. He hopes that those are adequate ways to show that he cares for them.

Now, Rhys doesn’t understand romantic love at all at this point in his life. He’s never been able to grow into his own when it comes to that and the prospect of it terrifies him. The thought that someone might eventually come to love him and he won’t know, won’t realize, or be able to return their feelings is one of the scariest things that he’s ever realized might be a possibility. Sure, he doesn’t see himself as the type that someone could ever possibly fall in love with, all things considered, but just the idea of it sends him into borderline panic. He thinks that he’d like to understand it, to fall in love, and be able to learn the ways he might express love romantically, but he doesn’t know if he’s capable of something so tender, so gentle, and so very soul-bearing as romance is meant to be.

50. Is this person afraid of dying ? Why or why not ?

The thought of death absolutely petrifies Rhys. As an Arsenal agent, before he or Elodie ever questioned anything, he didn’t think anything of it. Death was simply an occupational hazard, they lived or they didn’t, simple as that. After Elodie began questioning and Rhys lost her and took the bullet that he did, things began to change marginally. Until he found himself faced with the prospect of death, but also with his own thoughts, emotions, and experiences to shape him a little more. His fear of death grew pretty quickly all at once and his missions became a little harder because of that fear, though he also found that he never had to worry too much. Nowadays, he’s found himself petrified at the thought of it. He has friends now and he has things he wants to do, things he needs to atone for if that’s even possible, places he wants to go, things he wants to experience, and not nearly enough time to do it all. Death terrifies him because he doesn’t know what comes after. His studies showed him a lot of different options, but never anything concrete and it scares him.

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