#Probably not .... i want sushi but i kinda dont wanna talk today

[1-7776]

trying to figure out if i want to get lunch w my coworkers

[akakios-aikos]

Diary Entry #003

Tuesday, 11. July 2023, 23:38

Alright, so originally I wanted to wait a bit before I do the next entry, but something just happened seconds ago that has me shaking to the point where I might think I'm going to have a panic attack once I'm done with typing this out.

So to go through everything that has happened, it's probably best I go through everything in the order it happened. So last Entry was on Saturday, Sunday was pretty boring, so there is nothing I really need to add there. I think one nice thing that has happened on Sunday, was that I was out with my siblings and a mutual friend of us getting some Sushi all you can eat in your fave restaurant. During the night from Sunday to Monday, I actually tried a spell to manifest a

Now to Monday, so Tay decided to reach out to me after work (I guess?), asking me about what I have been up to, I told him, that work has been boring and how I got some Oil-burns while cooking on the weekend. He, as expected, didn't ask any more questions about the subject, and instead we were talking about his shit (like always). At some point, he just stopped replying right in the middle of the conversation for like 6 hours???? And then he came back like nothing happened, and we just continued talking. Like, at least tell me what the fuck took you so long.

Well anyway, while he was taking his time with replying I had a discord call with Cil and I KID YOU NOT, I love this woman so much. So I told her about how I feel very alienated with the girlies, especially Iruna and she absolutely understood my worries and told me that I was valid in the way I was feeling which... It felt sooo good having someone respond to my struggles with understanding. She told me that I can very well reach out to Iruna and talk about my fears, and how she is sure they will understand how I have been feeling recently. Especially since Iruna did reach out to me again today.

Then we also talked about the situation with Tay and how I feel like he doesn't really acknowledges my issues and the things that I care for, like my stories and poems. Cil once again was the most amazing listener and told me that it is something I have to clearly communicate with him, because what's the point of putting any more effort into a connection if it's completely one-sided? But how do I even tell him those concerns, I don't want to beg him to treat my properly, I just want him to treat me properly without me having to wish and beg for it. So that's something I will have to put in some more thoughts into.

Well now to today (Tuesday). First of all, I didn't go to work, the constant weather changes gave me the BIGGEST migraine. I stayed at home not really doing anything but sleep till noon, once I was feeling a bit better I helped out my older brother with some work and decided that I want to pick up Fire Emblem Engage, because I am really in the mood for some games again. I am probably going to do that tomorrow. Tay and I continued talking, since his response was at like 1 am I think, so we just kinda picked it up again after I woke up.

So now I have been idling in my bed since then going through social media ordered pizza, doing not really anything, when I suddenly see a response Tay made to some RANDOM FUCKING TWEET that just was talking about the reasons why one could be single, and he decided to fucking respond to that saying that he is better off that why and how he doesn't feel like a relationship right now. So now I am shit scared because I DO still have feelings for him, but do I even have a chance??? What can I do to get him to reciprocate these feelings, i wanna be with him but after everything that happened, THAT IS ALL HIS FAULT BTW, he doesn't wanna be with me? That's why I am so scared off communicated my worries with him since I feel like that might turn him away from me and I need to be as loving and pleasant to him as possible... i dont know what to do

[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. honey nut cheerio lady robin hood who likes christmas but is allergic to the pine tree lefty eyebag 😌

I fell asleep but then woke up, saw your answers and fell back asleep 😅 I was going to respond but I couldn't keep my eyes open and I would have probably typed some gibberish.

Hope you slept well. Doing anything fun today? Or just finishing up little stuff before you guys leave for the airport?

So when you do that, does it ever creep your customers out when you guess their order correctly? Also, the thing about guessing the voices from animation or movies, that's amazing. I could never even guess or be close to who it is if I did guess.

I'm the same way with names and numbers. I try to guess the name and it's always far off 😅 then numbers always get jumbled.

Ah I see. What's the most words you have written in just an hour? Also, have you ever finished writing a fic then reread it after and scrap the whole thing?

I'm the same way with reading fics with a lot of kinks. I think I just read the fic, but then once I see something disturbing to me, I stop. I try to push myself to see if I can handle reading it, but then it actually weirds me out so I can't continue 😅

I think my answer is the same as yours. Especially the bdsm with pain, or if it has blood and other bodily functions..no no for me. And is pet play like beastiality? Sorry I don't think I know that.

I did not expect the naenae song 🤣 do you do the dance too?? Hahaha

For me:

1. Dynamite by BTS

2. Secret Love Song by Little Mix

3. Any country songs lol

Name 3 songs that remind you of your crush.

- CuriousGeorge

Hello hello youngins righty eyebag! 😅

I wanna see what kind of giberish u type if u reply mr when u r sleepy.lol.

How r u? N how was ur day? R u feeling better emotionally?

I didnt sleep well last night. Stayed up until like past 2.am. i got a little panic attack becausr i overthought if i forget something or if i pack too much.

We got to the hotel around 4pm. N im just chillin now.

The hotel is nice.. was thinking to sleep early tonight because we gotta wake up at 4am to go to the airport but the room has a separated room like a living room with desk n chair with tv also, so it is so tempting to stay up late n write. 😅 but i think i should sleep early..but im not sure.lol.

Haha no. They actually love it.. but i did kinda shocked one customer though because i started the talk in a wrong way but then she laughed about it. It was when i was in new orleans walk at night n i was kinda drunk. N i recognize too. N my drunk ass talked to her n say "excuse me, u live in ...(city name) right?" 😅

N her drunk face was like "wtf" n she said yeah.. n i was like "oh no dont worry, im sorry..i work at (sushi restaurant name) n i serve ur table pretty often." Then i start mention her regular orders n then she recognize me.🤣🤣🤣 n she laughed. Then we walked the bourbon street together drunk. 🤣

About recognize actors / actress voice in animation movie, sometimes i got it right sometimes i dont.😅🤣

Yeah numbers n names r hard to remember.

I never pay attention how much i write in an hour. Mostly 1 fic i wrote at least between 4-6K words but the most in one fic i think it's like 12K but i end up splitting them to few parts. If The Monsters Within a whole one fic it will be the longest i hv written because over 18K words n still counting. 😊

Yeah i have done that, but not scraping the wholr thing though, i scrapped almost half of it.. one time i wrote quite a lot, ideas flowed n stuff..i wrote it on google doc n it was on offline mode because i was on a flight. But when i finally connect it to internet, the part that wrote was not saved n gone.. i wanted to cry. I think it was the dark wanda fic "I Love You Too Much" i dont know if u have read that but yeah i had to write all over again.

Haha yeah im like that too. It was an age play fic, i tried to be open minded about it but i stopped in the middle because i couldnt read it.

Petplay is a kink where one of them act like a pet such as puppy,or kitten or bunny. I dont mind reading light pet play but not too much. Im not good at explaining this but i guess u can google it. 😊

Haha yeah sometimes i do the nae nae song but only when im drunk. 😅 im not a good dancer n too shy for that. But when im drunk im a different person.😅🤣

Ah okay.. i will check those songs.. u dont like country song? I think pop country r very nice to listen to, for me. 😊

Song that reminds me of H? Hmm...

1. Gorgeous by Ash (the one that inspired me smut idea with Natasha. 😊

2. Con La Brisa by Foudeqush

3. Gooey Rework by Glass Animals. 😁

What about u?

Also i think u asked something about pt. 4. I dont remember if i have answered it or not. Can u remind me again? Im too lazy to scroll to my answers right now. Sorry. 😁😆

Next question?

Cheerio! (Not the cereal one)

[p-katsuki]

Katsuki

Katsuki has signed on

QS Bakugo

Himawari-san!

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

Hello~

Yamikumo

!!!

Ten

Oh

Make sure he doesnt come near my dorm

Katsuki

Hi :0

QS Bakugo

Tenya try focusing on my room..

Ten

Hello bakugou san

Kaminari Denki

Or just him...

Ten

I will try

Katsuki

:000000000000000000000 senpai...!?

Ten

Yes?

Katsuki

SENPAI

Ten

BAKUGOU

HELLO

Katsuki

HELLO IIDA-SENPAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

Ten

Hello Bakugou

We have gone through this

Katsuki

IM NOT DONE YET THO

Kaminari Denki

That's..... 

A Lotta caps

Katsuki

H E L L OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

QS Bakugo

It's cute.

Katsuki

okay now im done

When'd you get here...???!

QS Bakugo

Like a happy little sunflower.

Kaminari Denki

Hmmmm :) sunflowers

Ten

Like2 days ago

KatsukiT

MOMOGOU'S HERE

Two days...?????

Oh I guess I was busy two days ago huh...

... someone coulda pinged me though =_=

Yamikumo

I almost texted you about it, but was also like 'i dont wanna bug him'

Katsuki

Hahaha fair

Yamikumo

Fir

QS Bakugo

Himawari-san~!

Ten

Who is himawari san

Katsuki

Meeeeeeeeeee~

Yamikumo

Katsu is

QS Bakugo

Mhm.

Ten

Whose momogou???

Katsuki

We gave each other nicknames cuz we love each other :3

QS Bakugo

Me!

Haha.

Ten

...thats so cute

Momogou

Kaminari Denki

Momo + Bakugou

Katsuki

uwu

QS Bakugo

It's to avoid confusion when we're both online.

Katsuki

I came up with it

QS Bakugo

Aww you're cute too, Tenya~

Katsuki

I get all the credit

Kaminari Denki

I call this one Katsuki

Katsuki

uwu

Ten

I love you Momogou ♡

Kaminari Denki

Ohhhhh it WAS you!

Katsuki

Wha-

QS Bakugo

I love you too~

Katsuki

... Wha

Kaminari Denki

I forget what I was calling him

Ten

♡♡♡♡

Kaminari Denki

!!!

QS Bakugo

<3

Katsuki

......................................... Wha???????????

Ten

:))))

He is mine and i am his

Kaminari Denki

STOOOOP I'm gonna get excited and wake up Sen

How romantic ~

Katsuki

... Wha wha wha

Ten

Whats wrong Bakugou?

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

You two are cute~ :>

QS Bakugo

I can't help it, Tenya's adorable.

Katsuki

You're... dating???

QS Bakugo

I even had to squish his face and pepper him with kisses.

Ten

We are :)

Katsuki

,,,Isn't that weird though?

Ten

Your still squishing my face

KatsukiToday at 1:18 PM

Wha,,,

Ten

How is it weird

Katsuki

Because it's like you're dating me????? And that's weird...!!!!

Yamikumo

:I

Katsuki

And I thought there was that, y'know... that universe thing...

Ten

....We have talked about that already

Katsuki

I mean, this is like the weirdest long distance relationship ever....

Kaminari Denki

What'll you do if you all get yote back to your universes?

Katsuki

Also it's just kind of.....EXACTLY!!!

Kaminari Denki

That goes beyond star-crossed

Katsuki

We don't know how long this weirdass thing is gonna last and you go and just,,, DATE ME?

QS Bakugo

I will not stop squishing your face, Tenya.

Ten

....you sound mad

Katsuki

,,,

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

What if Katsuki and Tenya...

Katsuki

Am I mad?

Yami am I mad rn

QS Bakugo

..?

Ten

Kaminari what if we what

Yamikumo

H

Kaminari Denki

I didn't really think about you guys dating

Yamikumo

I don't think so?

Kaminari Denki

But

Katsuki seems so... Worked up

Heh

Katsuki

I'M NOT WORKED UP!!!!

Ten

....

✨💖Aoyama💖✨ 

Distracting cat picture

Katsuki

I'm! I'm not bothered!

QS Bakugo

Aww cat~

Ten

You seem like it

QS Bakugo

I just think Himawari-san is just.. being himself?

Hyper?

Yamikumo

Yeah, exactly

Don't think hes mad just confused??

QS Bakugo

Mhm.

Kaminari Denki

So, not troubled by cross universe soulmates or

QS Bakugo

Am.. I missing something..?

Kaminari Denki

Or maybe... Disrupted soulmates...

Katsuki

,,,,,,,,

Katsuki has signed off

QS Bakugo

Eh..?

✨💖Aoyama💖✨ 

?

Katsuki

Katsuki has signed on

MOMOGOU WHAT UNIVERSE ARE YOU FROM

QS Bakugo

I'm.. lost..Eh?Uni..verse..?

Kaminari Denki

Different quirks

Katsuki

Like, do you have a Deku???????????????

QS Bakugo=

Yes we do.

Katsuki

Where is he,,,,

Kaminari Denki

Swapped with Kiri

Katsuki

,,,,

Kaminari Denki

Like, quirk wise

Ten

Why do you ask

QS Bakugo

I'm not sure...?

Kaminari Denki

And kinda personality wise

Probably

Katsuki

So is he,,, is he Kirishima or is he Yami,,,

oh my god

I HATE THIS

Mitsuki

[Mitsuki has logged on]

QS Bakugo

Hi mother~

Kaminari Denki

Mamasuki!

Mitsuki

whats happening???

✨💖Aoyama💖✨

Hello~

Katsuki

MOM

Mitsuki

??

Katsuki

Mom can we talk please later please

Kaminari Denki

Sorry-- hi Bakugou-San

Mitsuki

Of course...

and thats fine kaminari

Kaminari Denki

There are so many Bakugous around now

Ten

[Tenya has logged off]

Katsuki

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Katsuki

Am I being irrational here,,,,

QS Bakugo 

Tenya..?

Mitsuki

About what?

Kaminari Denki

Katsuki, is everything OK?

Katsuki

Why would he date outside of our--

That just doesn't make sense!!

Isn't that gonna, like, disrupt something? Or whatever???

Kaminari Denki

You're... Jealous!You ARE!

 I was right!

Katsuki

WH

NO I'M NOT!?

Kaminari Denki

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

Shit I gotta calm down

Katsuki

WH-WHY WOULD I BE JEALOUS

Kaminari Denki

Lest I disrupt a sleeping moonbeam...

Mitsuki

Uh?

Kaminari Denki

Of tenyaaaaaa

Katsuki

I'M NOT JEALOUS OF IIDA.

QS Bakugo (Sushi)Today at 1:30 PM

...

Mitsuki

Then of....momogou???

I back read

QS Bakugo

Have... I done something wrong..?

Katsuki

I'M NOT JEALOUS OF ANYONE!!!

Yamikumo

I mean he has a right to be

Questioning this shit

Mitsuki

It seems like it dear

Yamikumo

If we end up stuck in our world without contact to you all

Then what happens??

We'll all have to go home eventually, right? And likely stay there

QS Bakugo

..We've had the talk about that.

Tenya wishes to stay with me.

Yamkikumo

Thats not my point.

Katsuki

WHAT

HE CAN'T?????

Yamikumo

You can't control that.

Katsuki

WHAT THE FUCK

Kaminari Denki

Mikumo, what do you feel about this?

Katsuki

YOU CAN'T JUST DO THAT?/

Yamikumo

If we all get thrown to our world, then you can't control where he goes.

Kaminari Denki

Would you want to control him tho

Yamikumo

I feel like its not my business who any of you love, but I'd rather no one get hurt.

Katsuki

YOU CAN'T JUST FUCKING PICK WHERE YOU WANT TO GO WHAT IN THE HELL

QS Bakugo

I'm not controlling him.

Katsuki

IIDA.

Yamikumo

See you're ignoring my point

Mitsuki

....this is....chaotic

Katsuki

@IDA.

Ten

[Tenya has signed on]

Katsuki

GET BACK HERE YOU DUMB FUCKING JHSGBKG

YOU!

YOU'RE AN IDIOT

Ten

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT

Yamikumo

If we all get sent home permanently, then they'll be separated

That's my point

Katsuki

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING

Kaminari Denki

Is it?

Ten

YES I KNOW I RELAIZE THIS

Yamikumo

Like I said it's. Not my business tho.

QS Bakugo

...

Katsuki

YOU MEET SOMEONE FOR TWO FUCKING DAYS AND YOU DECIDE TO DITCH EVERYONE???

Kaminari Denki

There's something else going on here guys

Ten

HAVE YOU SEEN MY FUCKING LIFE KATSUKI BAKUGOU

Katsuki

HAVE YOU SEEN MINE????????????

Ten

I cant control a single thing in my life

I dont get to choose

Kaminari Denki

Y'all are such romantic messes...

Ten

And the one fucking time i choose something its a bad thing

Kaminari Denki

Just take a step back fam

Yamikumo

HI know what this is

Katsuki

Yeah, it is! Because you're an idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!

Because you chose the STUPIDEST THING

IT'S NOT EVEN A CHOICE YOU DUMB FUCK THIS ISN'T AN OPTION YOU HAVE

QS Bakugo

...I apologize..

Kaminari Denki

Momogou I wouldn't sweat it

QS Bakugo

I'm so sorry...

Ten

Momogou...

QS Bakugo

I'm very sorry about this..

Kaminari Denki

Katsuki's too worked up for this to really be what he's upset about

Ten

Wait why are you pulling away

Kaminari Denki

Don't pull away... L

Ten

Dont leave please...

Kaminari Denki

If all of you would just be honest with your feelingsughhhhhhhhhh

QS Bakugo

I won't..

Kaminari Denki

This is frustrating

QS Bakugo

I..

Kaminari Denki

To watch

Katsuki

What the fuck do you think I'm being dishonest about???????????

Ten

Momogou?

QS Bakugo

I just want to clear my head.

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

Do you even realize you're not being truly honest with them?

With yourselves?

QS Bakugo

I won't leave.

Katsuki

?????????????????????????????????????????

Ten

...please dont.

Katsuki

You're not even a part of this conversation what the fuck do you think you're going on about Kaminari

QS Bakugo

I'll.. be here..

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

Listen. Believe me, I get it. I get not realizing or not wanting to realize how you feel about someone

Katsuki

Wh

Kaminari Denki

But as it turns out... It can lead to a lot of unnecessary drama

Katsuki

Shut up?

Shut up???????????????????

Kaminari Denki

This isn't something I can just tell you but you gotta figure out your shit

Ten

....

Christ kaminari

Kaminari Denki

Even if it's scary.

Katsuki

Wow shut up

Wowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww shut upppppppppppppppppppppp

Kaminari Denki

Otherwise you'll just keep yelling at each other

QS Bakugo

Tenya, I'm going to get some air..

Katsuki

Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up

QS Bakugo

You can come with me.

Ten

Ill let you have some time to think

But im not leaving your room

QS Bakugo

I won't take long.

Katsuki

Until the universe makes you that is

Because it will

Idiot

QS Bakugo

...I love you, Tenya..

Ten

Katsu

QS Bakugo

Bakugo is offline

Ten

Damn it

Damnitdamnitdamnit

GOD FUCKING

I...

Im always in the wrong

Arent i

Kaminari Denki

Go easy on yourself Tenya

Yamikumo

Was any of this even necessary

Katsuki

You are yeah

Kaminari Denki

You can't control your emotions

Ten

Hah

Thanks Katsu

So much

Yamikumo

Katsu..

Ten

I love it

Katsuki

You're welcome uwu

Ten

Please

Continue

Yamikumo

Guys

Ten

Until im at

Katsuki

Just trying to help a buddy out!

Yamikumo

Really..

Ten

My breaking point

Katsuki

Since you're supposed to be the smart one, y'know!

Ten

no

Kaminari Denki

Katsuki, stop being an ass.

💛

Ten

I dont want to be

I didnt fucking choose to be

I was forced

Fuck you

Katsuki

Too bad hahaha that's what the universe wants apparently

Yamikumo

I don't get what you're trying to accomplish here

Katsuki

None of us have a choice here hahaha

Yamikumo

Any of you

We do have a fucking choice???

Ten

....

Kaminari Denki

Your destiny is your own

Katsuki

Nah

Nope!

Kaminari Denki

Don't be so dramatic

Katsuki

It's obviously not!

Kaminari Denki

Tenya isn't taking any of that from you Katsuki

Yamikumo

If our destinies were set we would be identical copies of our alternates

Ten

...

Kaminari Denki

And mikumo and Katsuki would be dating

Ten

We are called prototypes

We were the originals

Katsuki

LOL

Ten

But we werent good enough

Yamikumo

Shut up

Both of you

Katsuki

LMAO

Yamikumo

For two seconds

Kaminari Denki

And Momogou and that world's Midoriya...

Katsuki

HAHA

Ten

ITS FUCKING TRUE

Katsuki

ROFL

Yamikumo

You're both so blatantly spiraling

Ten

...

Kaminari Denki

Seriously, what is going ON with you people...

Ten

We are fucked up

Kaminari Denki

You're bringing the spiral extra hard

Katsuki

Nothing

Kaminari Denki

Today

Ten

What did you expect

Yamikumo

Iida-san. You can't control who you love, or why you love them. Just know that there is risks dating someone from a literal different universe 

 Katsu. I don't know what you're trying to accomplish, or what you need. But I want to help with it. You gotta talk to me..

Ten

I know the risks

Katsuki

...

Ten

God do i know them

You dont think

Katsuki

I am talking

Ten

I dont keep awake at night

Katsuki

I think he's an idiot.

Ten

and i think your a fuckinf dumbass who is angry that i seemed to be doing what you so unconsciously want

Katsuki

What about their Iida, huh? What's gonna happen to him?

Did you even think that through?

Kaminari Denki

You dorks are so stressed out...

Katsuki

Are you just gonna push him onto us?

Ten

...

Katsuki

Or are there just gonna be two IDENTICAL people just hanging around, oh-!

You can pretend you're twins! That'll work!

Yamikumo

Jesus

Katsuki

Or long lost cousins~...

Ten

.

Kaminari Denki

Okay, do you want to bang Tenya or something

Ten

KAMINARI

QS Bakugo

Bakugo is online

Katsuki

...

Kaminari Denki

You're acting like something is being taking from you

Ten

SHIT

Katsuki

I guess Ingenium can just die over here, right? Since no one'll be left to take HIS place either

QS Bakugo

...I'm..Sorry..?

Did I miss something?

Katsuki

Pffffffffffffffffff

Kaminari Denki

Momogou did nothing wrong

Ten

^Its me

QS Bakugo

Hold on, hold on.

Back track.

Yamikumo

No one did anything wrong besides shit talking one another

QS Bakugo

Who's banging my Tenya?

Kaminari Denki

Maybe, just maybe, Momogou gave Tenya something he didn't realize he'd been needing or longing for

Maybe they found each other by chance

Katsuki

Or maybe it's ~fate~ blahblah yeah I get it

I just want an answer to all my questions that's all

Kaminari Denki

But there's nothing wrong with finding comfort in someone else

Katsuki

Should we get a new class rep now??? Since you're fucking eloping or whatever

Kaminari Denki

Yeah and I wanna know what tf that villain is up to

But we can't always get what we want

Katsuki

Shut up about that now cool

QS Bakugo

Bakugo is busy

Yamikumo

Katsu has a point

If Iida-san leaves

What does that mean for our world?

Ten

...

Yamikumo

The impact he would have had

I think its great that he and Momogou are together

Before y'all turn on meBut its something you gotta consider

Ten

[Tenya is busy]

Yamikumo

...sigh

Katsuki

Fucking stupid idiot

Dumbass

Kaminari Denki

I get your point but also

Katsuki

HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE TOP OF OUR CLASS

IDIOT

Kaminari Denki

Y'all gotta sort out your emotions

Without turning on each other

Katsuki

HE'S THE ONE THAT TURNED ON US????

Yamikumo

I have no emotional value in this

I just want them to stop fighting

Katsuki

I need to fucking

hit something

Oh my god

Yamikumo

Hit me

Katsuki

No

Yamikumo

I also need to hit something

Kaminari Denki

Jesus fucking...

Yamikumo

It'll be equal hitting

Katsuki

No.

Kaminari Denki

There really are layovers from your universe into ours

If you really are prototypes

Yamikumo

What does that mean

Katsuki

Don't fucking call me that.

Kaminari Denki

I have no idea which universe is what

Or what it means

But the Bakugou I know, while very honest, is emotionally constipated like Yike

Katsuki

Who even fucking came up with that...

Yamikumo

I don't think we need the existential bullshit on top of all the fighting

I think everyone just..

..honestly I don't even know what

Katsuki

... No, that was on that fucking log about me

I don't wanna hear it.

Yamikumo

I dont know what you all need

Kaminari Denki

Huh?

Katsuki

I don't NEED anything???

Kaminari Denki

The mystery guys log?

Katsuki

... Yes.

Yamikumo

Shut up about the mystery guy jesus

Also you do fucking need something

Kaminari Denki

Fuck it 

 We gotta talk about shit

Katsuki

Kind of hard to shut up about something that is literally engraved in my skin but alright

Kaminari Denki

Wtf happened

It--the FUCK?

Yamikumo

Jesus christ

Kaminari Denki

Not your cheek...

Katsuki

No.

Kaminari Denki

Because Mamasuki has that

Katsuki

Yeah. It was mentioned.

In the log.

Yamikumo

You're the one like 'shut up about it' earlier I

Hff

What the fuck ever I'm not

Doing this

Katsuki

Then don't do it???

Yamikumo

[ Yamikumo has logged off ]

Kaminari Denki

You keep bottling thjngs up

You'll explode if you do that

Katsuki

Stop acting like you know me.

Yamikumo

[ Yamikumo is online ]

Kaminari Denki

I know one of you. And not like there's not similarities

Different universes, some things were bound to be constant

Can you really say I'm wrong? Thta you're not bottling anything up?

Yamikumo

Its true.

Kaminari Denki

We've all got fears, Katsuki.

Katsuki

Shut up...

No. Shut up.

Kaminari Denki

Just can't let them drive us

Or beat us

Katsuki

Shut. Up.

Do I look beaten to you????

Kaminari Denki

No.

To both

Yamikumo

Yes

Kaminari Denki

But you're scared. About something

Katsuki

Fuck you Yami

Kaminari Denki

You feel shaky about something

And if you ignore that it will not go away

Yamikumo

You can say that, but you can't say that I don't know you

That I don't have grounds to say it.

Katsuki

...

Yamikumo

People can only reach so far for you. You want people to think you're invincible but you're literally destroying yourself

If you can't let people in how the fuck can we help

How am I supposed to reach you if you keep slapping me away Katsuki

Katsuki

I don't... want... your help.

And how is this help?????

Both of you, ganging up on me and--

Fuck you

Yamikumo

You won't point out your own issues

You want to pretend they don't exist

Kaminari Denki

You say that like we're against you

Katsuki

BECAUSE YOU ARE

Kaminari Denki

No, I'm  not

Mikumo isn't

I'm trying to push you to be more honest

With yourself

Admit it to us, don't admit it to us

Whatever

Yamikumo

Katsu when have I

ever been against you

Katsuki

...

Kaminari Denki

But you're so... You're reluctant to even face your emotions

Even a simmering pot boils eventually

Last couple times I saw Kacchan boil over he was either in the hospital or fighting Midoriya SO

Yamikumo

That's what I don't get

II'm not trying to fucking be against you

I want to support you

That's always been my goal???

I don't understand how you don't understand that

Kaminari Denki

At least listen to Mikumo. He's smart. And he cares about you and your well-being.

Katsuki

...

Yamikumo

If I have to point out the things you want to ignore?

I will.

I'd do anything for you

Even if you don't think I would.

Kaminari Denki

Honestly, that Mikumo is willing and able to point those things out just goes to show he does care

You should value that

Yamikumo

I don't really have anything else to say. I doubt you're really paying attention anyways.

Kaminari Denki

He should be.

Yamikumo

I'm just. going to go. If you want to talk to me you can, but I'm not dragging this out further.

[ Yamikumo is offline ]

Kaminari Denki

I think youre right to say it

Katsuki

...Great

Awesome

Are you happy now?

Like, are you done?

Got all the preaching out of the way?

Kaminari Denki

Don't be defensive. Mikumo is right.

You should think about what he said more.

Katsuki

And you should get off your fucking pedestal and shut the fuck up.

Kaminari Denki

Why? Hit a nerve?

At least I can talk about my emotions...

Katsuki

I don't have to listen to this...

Katsuki has signed off

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 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?Tom Holland onscreen as Peter Parker in Infinity War. But also my friends who are going with me to infinity war.10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?Probably Nick12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?Boy Pablo - EverytimeGinger Root - Call It HomeWild Child - Crazy BirdBusty and The Bass - Melodies and MemoriesAlice Francis - Shoot Him Down 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?Yes, its really soothing. I mean, ask first, but yeah generally it kinda instantly puts me in a good mood. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?I guess I believe in luck kinda, I mean, I definitely know some people who seem luckier than others.15. What good thing happened this summer?It’s not yet summer so I guess it means last summer, which is lots, went swimming, made new friends, had fun. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets?Yeah, whether its intelligent hasn’t been determined but life definitely exists on other planets. Plus, the universe is too big for intelligent life to not exist somewhere so I think it probably does.19. Do you like bubble baths?Yeah, I can’t remember the last time I had one though. ;-;20. Do you like your neighbors?not really to the one on our left, but the one on our right is a cool guy, he drives a santa truck. The one across the street seems like a good guy.21. What are your bad habits?Second guessing myself, not paying attention, not showing up to stuff22. Where would you like to travel?Japan and Europe, also Canada23. Do you have trust issues?yeah24. Favorite part of your daily routine?petting the cats25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?I guess my stomach26. What do you do when you wake up?Lie in bed for a while28. Who are you most comfortable around?My parents, some of my friends (nick, enrique, emily, david and robin all come to mind) 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?Nah, I lost contact with one of them, and then I’m just bad at keeping in touch when it comes with others. I kinda wish I didn’t lose contact with a lot of people, not just exes, I’m kinda unintentionally bridge burn-y 30. Do you ever want to get married?fufufufu is this a proposal?!~ So forward, my my. I’ll consider it! ohohohohoho!33. Spell your name with your chin.daNIKEWLK ;L;LDE ;LASN GBEDLKIKNA34. Do you play sports? What sports?sport sport sport sport sport35. Would you rather live without TV or music?TV, I don’t really watch it anyway36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?Yes, many times! Often!37. What do you say during awkward silences?I dunno, I don’t really mind silences, I guess sometimes I’ll make a funny noise or clicky my tongue, very rarely I enjoy trying to make them purposefully awkward, but I have to be in a shenanigans mood for that. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?I like stores that have neat stuff, like antique stores or thrift stores.41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?More or less42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?Usually I’ve got something on my mind, but sometimes I just don’t have energy. Also sometimes it means I wish someone where talking to me. Sometimes in relation to me having something on my mind I wanna talk about.43. Do you smile at strangers?Sometimes44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?Space I guess45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?I dont know if I have an answer for that right now46. What are you paranoid about?I dunno, strangers, I just always have an eye out, I got mugged one time and now my brain won’t let me not hyperfocus on what strangers around me are doing.47. Have you ever been high?A couple times 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?I dunno probably50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?Purple I think51. Ever wished you were someone else?Yeah kinda, I guess I’ve mostly just wished I was me in someone elses situation or something52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?Things about my appearance, I’m working on it. 54. Favourite store?I don’t know55. Favourite blog?Mine56. Favourite colour?Somewhere in the realm of blue57. Favourite food? I’m not really hungry right now so its hard for me to have an answer for. Uhh, probably sushi though. 58. Last thing you ate?I had some burger king 59. First thing you ate this morning?probably the aforementioned burger king65. Are you hungry right now?no67. Facebook or Twitter?I guess I use facebook more68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr probably69. Are you watching tv right now?nope70. Names of your bestfriends? Michael, Emily, Nick, Enrique, Ally, come to mind71. Craving something? What?human intimacy or something72. What colour are your towels?There’s purple ones and green ones and a couple of blue ones72. How many pillows do you sleep with?3 exactly73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?I do not

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?I dunno, probably a couple, somewhere around here

75. Favourite animal?Cat77. Chocolate or Vanilla?chocolate78. Favourite ice cream flavour?Cookie Dough or something79. What colour shirt are you wearing?Blue

80. What colour pants?Black81. Favourite tv show?I dunno I have lots, My Hero Academia, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Doctor Who, etc82. Favourite movie?This is also hard, I still really liked spiderman homecoming, most of the marvel movies really, uhh, Kung Fu Hustle, Baby Driver, Scott Pilgrim, etc86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?I dunno, Crush?87. First person you talked to today?Nick I think, hard not to when he lives in the same room as me88. Last person you talked to today?Either my dad or nick, I can’t remember if I said anything to nick when I entered the room a second ago91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?Sure92. In a fight with someone?Kinda, I’m not on the best terms with a couple people93. How many sweatpants do you have?2 pairs probably? 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?Unsure, several95. Last movie you watched?I just watched Baby Driver and Thor Ragnarok with my family96. Favourite actress?I don’t knooooooowwwwwww, favorites are haaaaaaaard. 97. Favourite actor?haaaaaaaaaaaaaaard.100. How are you feeling?

I’m feeling ok

101. Do you type fast?very

102. Do you regret anything from your past?yeah kinda, I have made mistakes that I probably would change if I could, at the very least I wish I could make them right. I do think they attribute to where I am and that changing any of them would mean changing my whole life so I don’t know that I regret them104. Do you miss anyone from your past?Yeah, there’s a few people that I don’t talk to anymore (rather, they don’t uh, talk to me anymore) because I was… I dunno, kinda crazy. I really wish I could’ve had the foresight to keep those people in my life somehow.105. Ever been to a bonfire party?Kinda? I mean, sure, I guess so106. Ever broken someone’s heart?Yeah, I’d probably change that too. I dunno, I at least hope the people I’ve hurt know I’m sorry.107. Have you ever been on a horse?a what109. Is something irritating you right now?Not right this second but I do have things that are problems on a general scale, I’m just not currently upset about them111. Do you have trust issues?again, yeah112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?I don’t remember, I don’t remember the last time I really cried113. What was your childhood nickname?Pooh, like Winnie-The, its because my middle name is Oso, which is spanish for bear, so I got called Pooh-Bear a lot, and often it was just shortened to Pooh.115. Do you play the Wii?This is a very old person sounding question. “Hey sonny, do you like the eck bawk?” yeah I guess I’ve played the wii, I think Nick has one116. Are you listening to music right now?Not right this second but I can hear the background music from a game nick is playing, which would be this song117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?Sure118. Do you like Chinese food?Yeah hella119. Favourite book?favourites are haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaard. I like The Dresden Files a lot, the Haruhi Suzumiya books are really good, Scott Pilgrim is fantastic, Interview With A Vampire is pretty solid120. Are you afraid of the dark?Not like, exceptionally, i mean, sometimes?123. Can you keep white shoes clean?I mean, sure, I don’t really own a pair of white shoes but I’m sure I could do it if I wanted to124. Do you believe in love at first sight?Kinda, I mean, I believe that you can get a crush on someone based on observation of appearance125. Do you believe in true love?uhhh, as much as experience tells me I shouldn’t, I guess so, I mean, I think its about dedication on both sides, love is partially a choice, or rather, a dedication126. Are you currently bored?yeah I mean, kinda, generally, but answering questions is entertaining.127. What makes you happy?Doing fun stuff with people I enjoy128. Would you change your name?In some situations sure.130. Do you like subway?yeah its good131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?I’d probably give it a try, one date/hangout with a romantic connotation just to see couldn’t hurt probably? I dunno, I think about things in a pretty exploratory manner, so I tend to be open to experiences to see whether or not something works.132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?Probably Nick? 133. Favourite lyrics right now?I already did this in a previous one so I’ll go for some different ones this time “I was a green eyed monsterCould you tell I was afraid?I sat myself down and shot my fear in the face”Garbage - Man On A Wire I just really like the delivery in that song, and I’ve been listening to it lately  135. Dumbest lie you ever told?I try not to just lie about stuff now but when I was a little kid I had some pretty good ones, I once convinced a friend that by law they had to have a black guy in every commercial. I also convinced him that japanese or something was just english backwards.136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?uh, closed, given that the door to this room goes to the outside141. Night or Day?normally I’d say night but I’ve found myself getting depressed with nightfall lately142. Favourite month?December144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?milk 147. Mars or Snickers?Mars148. What’s your favourite quote?  “The power of one man doesn’t amount to much. But, with whatever little strength I’m capable of… I’ll do everything humanly possible to protect the people I love, and in turn they’ll protect the ones they love. It seems like the least we tiny humans can do for each other.“  - Roy Mustang, Fullmetal Alchemist“We evolve, beyond the person that we were a minute before. Little by little, we advance with each turn. That’s how a drill works!” - Simon, Gurren Lagann149. Do you believe in ghosts?I don’t know what I believe right now150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? How could things                                                    Have                                                    gone                                                       so                                                    wrong?Thanks for the ask! Lemme know if I missed anything

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Hellllo :)) 10-150 if you’re up for a challenge Goodluck 😁

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?“i rlly hope he’s the murderer”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?molecules, HNLY, wanna be missed, let it be, and what i need, all from Expectations by hayley kiyoko

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?yes ofc

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?luck yes miracles no

15. What good thing happened this summer?idk i had a good time, i traveled, it was fun!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?i never kissed anyone besides boys so nah

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?ofc i mean cmon who doesnt know that

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?yes!! i love her dearly and shes a great friend

19. Do you like bubble baths?OFC

20. Do you like your neighbors?i dont rlly know them tbh

21. What are you bad habits?isolating myself and basically everything i do

22. Where would you like to travel?everywhere but mainly atlanta bc i wanna meetmy best friend

23. Do you have trust issues?nah i trust too easily

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?the feeling of getting home

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?all of it tbh

26. What do you do when you wake up?check my phone, usually tumblr first

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?nah im good

28. Who are you most comfortable around?not really ””around”” but abby

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?once yeah, but then she broke up w me again LMAO

30. Do you ever want to get married?OBVIOUSLY CAN U IMAGINE HAVING A WIFE I MEAN WOW WHAT A DREAM

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?not really, only if its just the top

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?kay awkward imma skip that cuz im a minor

33. Spell your name with your chin.vabfirls (its supposed to be gabriela lol)

34. Do you play sports? What sports?i know how to play soccer and volley and some other shit but i dont really actually play them. however, i do snowboard.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?tv, i actually didnt have a tv until 2 months ago (but i did have them when i lived w my dad)

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?yep

37. What do you say during awkward silences?idk i just try to come up w something, it could be anything depending on the person

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?someone funny, who is easy to talk to and is passionate and caring. someone who’ll show me that i mean everything to them and who isnt scared to be affectionate. i have a tag for this called “my dream girl” so its all there

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?i dont shop like at all so basically starbucks lmao

40. What do you want to do after high school?move out of this awful country

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?im not sure. maybe, but not always with the same person. but tbqh probably not everyone

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?it can mean a lot of thigs, but usually that im rlly depressed/lonely

43. Do you smile at strangers?yes!!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?both tf (but i’ve already been to the bottom of the ocean many times so getting to know space would be pretty fucking cool)

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?the thought of not having to go to school anymore in like 7 months if i just get this right

46. What are you paranoid about?e v e r y t h i n g but mostly ppl hating me and leaving me

47. Have you ever been high?nope

48. Have you ever been drunk?nope

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?i dont think so no

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?dark blue

51. Ever wished you were someone else?all the time dude

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?myself lmao

53. Favourite makeup brand? i dont rlly know any makeup brands tbh i dont use it

54. Favourite store?again, starbucks

55. Favourite blog?oh noooo this is too specific there are too many but i guess i’d put my best friend bc her blog is awesome and yall should follow her its @saveabby

56. Favourite colour?blue & purple

57. Favourite food?sushi!!!!!!!!!!!!

58. Last thing you ate?açaí

59. First thing you ate this morning?a cereal bar? is this what theyre called?? im not sure

60. Ever won a competition? For what?yeah i guess some school things about sports n shit when i was younger

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?god no im a good student

62. Been arrested? For what?JESUS CHILL IM 16

63. Ever been in love?yes

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?actually i dont remember i was young and it was at a time where 3 boys liked me and i kinda dated (like kid dating but still) 2 of them and i dont remember which one was first BUT it doesnt matter bc i dont like to count kissing boys so i havent had one yet

65. Are you hungry right now?always lmao

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?well i like different people in different degrees, some being from tumblr, some being from irl. its a mixed list.

67. Facebook or Twitter?twitter duh

68. Twitter or Tumblr?tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now?almost, im watching psych on my laptop

70. Names of your bestfriends?abby from tumblr, marie irl

71. Craving something? What?yes, chocolate

72. What colour are your towels?theres a green one, a blue one and a white one

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?it can vary from 0 to 3

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?very rarely but its bc theyre at my room at my dad’s place and even when i sleep there i usually sleep at my brother’s room but i do like stuffed animals

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?not many, maybe 3 idk

75. Favourite animal?felinesss

76. What colour is your underwear?im not wearing any but dont go thinking shit, im just on my pjs

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?it depends but in general chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?its like a chocolate shavings thing that we have in brazil. idk if they have it in other countries and if they do idk what its called

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?white

80. What colour pants?no pants jeez

81. Favourite tv show?X-FILES

82. Favourite movie?SNXJSNXKSNSJSJDJSJXJS P R I D E & P R E J U D I C E (2005) PNP OKAY PRIDE & PREJUDICE THANK U FOR THIS QUESTION

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?i dont think i’ve seen the 2nd

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?21 jump street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?i only watched that movie once and i dont remember much about it tbh

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?dory

87. First person you talked to today?melissa

88. Last person you talked to today?until now it was elle

89. Name a person you hate?donald trump

90. Name a person you love?guess? thats right, abby

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?not especially but i’m always wanting to punch my dad tbh

92. In a fight with someone?what?? if u mean “ever been…” then yes, my brother

93. How many sweatpants do you have?none :((

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?oooo a lot, but i only use 1 bc its my fave

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?“One evening at dusk, I came upon my friend.”

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NY JM Concert

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I was really tired to begin with because I do not live in NY. I live 3 hours away from NY. So I just planned a whole day to be spent at NY. This part is like annoying probably so you can skip it if you want HAHAHA but I had to work until 1 am on Friday night and slept for like 3 hrs and caught the 7 am bus to NY. I slept for another 3 hrs in the bus and got there. Ate dim sum MMMmmmm my first time :-) but how do you not get the liquid to be all over your plate. I’m such a noob. and went shopping at soho WHERE SWINGS AND GIRIBOY WERE THE NIGHT BEFORE but I was shook because a shirt was like $50. so I left and went to time square and went to line store remEMBER this is all new to me because I’m like a country girl who raises cows for a living. loljk. idk. pls ignore. anyway so... after that I was pretty exhausted and it was like 4 pm ish. Met up with another friend (so now a party of 3!!!) and decided to head over to the concert place.!!! omg so excite. I wasn’t really excited at first because I was pretty tired from the whole day but while walking to stage 48 like I was getting excited LIKE HELLO I WILL MEET JM IRL AND NOT ON COMPUTER EVEN THO IT FEELS LIKE A DREAM RN

So I got there and the line was pretty long even though it was like 6:00 well I guess I don’t know how long concert lines are because this was my first concert. ;-; and meet&greet people got to go in at 6:45 pm. So we went in. and they did this extra search of our bags and touched under my boob to see if I had a gun. (even tho nochang can just kill me with his chingchangchong) and threw my water bottle and my friend’s hard boiled eggs away (LOOOOOL). we got there and the meet&greet was some booty tbh. OK BEFORE I WAS GONNA SLEEP IN THE BUS WHILE GOING TO NY, I WAS THINKING OF EACH THINGS I WAS GOING TO SAY TO EACH MEMBER OKAY BUT THAT WAS ALL RUINED BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE “meet&greet” and just take a group picture and gtfo. ._. So it was our turn and my friend was the first in line for the group so she went in all awkward like “hi...” BECAUSE IDK C JAMM LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE C JAMM ON THE INTERNET. LIKE THEY ALL LOOK THE SAMEEEEEEEEEEEE I CAN’T. IT’S TOO REAL. and she stood next to C Jamm and he was like “wassup wassup” HE’S SO NICE AND HUMBLE like he’s the cutest potato thing. and I think I was standing next to Swings? I don’t even remember, because I was wildly searching for Giriboy like I CAME ALL THE WAY TO SEE YOU WHERE ARE U I need to hold your hand IDK ASDKFLASDJFA;SDF. and Swings was just trying to make us stand so we can all be in the pic. then I saw Giriboy behind me like on the step kind of thing AND HE DIDN’T HAVE HIS GLASSES AND WAS WEARING A BLACK BUCKET HAT and kinda looked like 

THIS WITHOUT THE GLASSES and like hello every1 he was NOT WEARING GLASSES !!!! I CAN’T so I was like omg.......... and he just kinda looked at me so I was like “I’m a big fan of yours!!!!!!!” and THEN ALL OF MY FRIENDS GOT ENCOURAGED AND WAS LIKE ME TOO me TOO and he just kinda nodded as a thank you multiple times. :( I WANTED TO HEAR HIS VOICE ok sike. im gonna chill. but still highkey regret that i was not being extra during the “meet&greet” because the staff were like don’t bring ur phones no selfies BLEHLAHELBLEHLA BLEAH ok whatever good bye and i didn’t notice any1 else during the picture bc i forgot abt them soz

and the concert didn’t even start until like 8:00 pm and i was mad bc they kept playing hiphop music other than JM like i was ready to go rain shower idk and some ppl blocking the view in front of me my friend asked if they could squeeze us in bc we couldn’t see and they completely ignored me after the first word. :-) well they moved after that so its ok but anyway... like whatever :)... the show started with osshun gum and im sorry but ive been out of this scene for so long like i forgot who he was like i know hes from high school rapper but i didnt even watch the show :-) rip but he was so cute i know hes 1 year younger than me like HES A BABY (bgm: shes a baby zico) and he was dressed “normally” too so he looked like a normal person and it was just cute ok but i didnt know his songs so i felt bad. 

the next person was han yohan OMGGGG U KNOW I ACTUALLY LOVE HAN YOHAN BECAUSE IDK LIKE IM INTO THOSE ROCK THINGS NOW and he played curt cobain BECAUSE IM CURT COBAAAAAAIN 300 km, I’m Sorry, and then later super saiyan with black nut OMSDFKLASJDFKLASDJFASKGJSD F ok. Enough said. This is better explained with the live. goodbye. I just love. and hes the only one who actually sticked w the schedule that was pre released before concert lol

and then it was the love of my life giriboy and he was supposed to perform zoa... wybh and then hogu but he started doing mix it up but whatever i was shouting like crasy so WHATEVER OK and he did all these weird cute moves... like icant believe it happened in front of me. i feel like its a dream. :( i hope he does it again in my dreams. and did hogu then ended. 

i was proud to shout all the lyrics (NOTICE ME)

then it was nochang like omg i love him because for the longest time i thought he didnt wanna be on stage because idk... gossips and his interviews... but he was the best on stage he looked like he really enjoyed and we were like TUUUURNNNNN UUUUUP ok but tbh no one knew his lyrics... bc they’re too sophisticated4us but he did emancipation, ching chang chong, and turn up and he was wearing all black again. but took his hat off a couple of times. his head is pretty. he actually stuck to the schedule too omg i feel like giriboy was not feeling well or something :( or he was more concerned about his single 

then it was black nut omg YOU GUYS KNOW HOW I HAVE A THING FOR SKINNY GUYS im just kidding but i love black nut and he killed it today with his porn hub shirt on hahahahaha first he did honmono which i dont rly kno because i been living in a cave for so long and then it was silky bois like BOIIIIII HE DID THE AUTOTUNE THING LIKE HE SANG IT but it was good and hes the only one that was all smiley throughout the concert and remember he always used to wear sunglasses but like no sunglasses today and like... he was the best eye contacter :’) omggg so cute and then he did 100 like kill all of em i was screaming

then it was bill stax OK LIKE I KNEW NONE OF HIS SONGS IM SORRY BUT I FORGOT HIS NAME CHANGED TOO RIP :’( I NEED TO BE GONE FROM THIS WORLD and then we did giddiyup? like that song with the horse with c jamm and nochang it was lit because that’s like an old song and everyone knows that EXCEPT NO ONE SCREAMED  수컷말쉿 except me like WHERE ARE YALL but anyway... then it was c jamm he did know and puzzle which was like... idk those songs... i really need to get on my game maaaaneeesss

and then swings was being v soft today and was like this is for the ladies and did 듣고있어? and some other SONG THAT I DON’T REALLY KNOW THE NAME OF BUT THOSE WERE SWEET SONGS AND IT WAS NICE BECAUSE HE WAS BEING FUNNY WITH ALL HIS GESTURES LIKE KISSING FROM HIS HAND like where all this confidence come from i need some and then he did bulldozer which was #lit i kinda wish he did 양아치 or 괜찮아 but it didnt happen its ok

then it was da whole crew with sushi rain showers and carnival OMG WHEN CARNIVAL STARTED WITH GIRIBOY i cried ok i didn’t but i almost cried because just. like. IM HEARING IT LIVEEEE HELLO i was shook. and sushi was ok except they added some extra lyrics for the live i guess and i kinda didnt hear the lyrics and rain showers was lit as alwaaaaaays

they didnt really talk like esepcailly giriboy because i know he doesnt talk in general but its like in american so i guess he was done. i hope hes happy

[dicnysian]

answer all those questions you bitch

well I am ur lawfully wedded bitch1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
UH idfk i hold hands w people without realization2. Are you outgoing or shy?Depends if u a bitch or not
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?reese & colbert whenever wherever whoever however 
4. Are you easy to get along with?I'd say so
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?i don't like anyone rn but i like my friends and they sure as hell would cause they dun it before 
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?the pure kind we all dream of
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?No
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?colbert & keanu reeves
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?all I ever do is talk abt sex like a preteen boy
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?reese
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?"Tf"
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?1. GYPSY BY FLEETWOOD MAC2. Sawed off shotgun by glorious sons3. Video games by mama del rey4. Ophelia by the lumineers5. Any song from the requiem of a dream ost
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?YES
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?NO
15. What good thing happened this summer?getting drunk everyday while camping 
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?yes idek who it was but yes 
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?no 
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?no
19. Do you like bubble baths?yes yes yes yes
20. Do you like your neighbors?i don't go outside 
21. What are you bad habits?UH biting my nails when I'm nervous which is 24/7
22. Where would you like to travel?Australia
23. Do you have trust issues?mmmmm no but I don't trust any average Joe on the street
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?eating
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?my thighs & waist wtf is goin on there
26. What do you do when you wake up?go back to sleep 
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?I need a tan asap as possible 
28. Who are you most comfortable around?my bffs
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?yes dear god
30. Do you ever want to get married?yes
31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail?yes
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?lana & god himself but that's technically the same person 
33. Spell your name with your chin.no
34. Do you play sports? What sports?no
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?TV
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?yes lol I'm a lil pussy
37. What do you say during awkward silences?"SO do u eat ass?"
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?keanu reeves
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?thrift stores & lush
40. What do you want to do after high school?get tf outta this place and go to university
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?mmmm depends on the situation 
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?im overthinking
43. Do you smile at strangers?yes
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?I choose C.
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?my mum 
46. What are you paranoid about?ch ch ch changes
47. Have you ever been high?YES
48. Have you ever been drunk?YES IM PROLLY DRUNK RN
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?no I don't think
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?im wearing one rn & it's blue 
51. Ever wished you were someone else?yes papí 
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?my nose
53. Favourite makeup brand?too faced
54. Favourite store?lush
55. Favourite blog?reese's ;) (I don't wanna spell it cause I can't)
56. Favourite colour?blue or green
57. Favourite food? sushi
58. Last thing you ate?a sandwich from Timmy's
59. First thing you ate this morning?peanut butter toast
60. Ever won a competition? For what?LMAO i used to play piano and got some trophies and i used to do gymnastics/cheerlead & won some shit
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?SUSPENDED FOR VAPING ON SCHOOL PROPERTY dab dab
62. Been arrested? For what?no
63. Ever been in love? i thought I was but realized later that was a hard no
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?it was on a stairway at a movie theatre and it was horrible period
65. Are you hungry right now?Yes
66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?i like my real friends 
67. Facebook or Twitter?FB
68. Twitter or Tumblr?tumblr
69. Are you watching tv right now?yessss
70. Names of your bestfriends? Colbert & REESE
71. Craving something? What?idk probably food
72. What colour are your towels?white
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?4
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?no
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?like 500 kept in my closet 
75. Favourite animal?chitty chats & lemurs
76. What colour is your underwear?tie-dye 😏
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?vanilla
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?vanilla
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?blue
80. What colour pants?what pants
81. Favourite tv show?UH I like the office & x files
82. Favourite movie?I like JUNO & lots of old movies
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?I'm skipping this cause the answer is obvious 
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?skipping
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?Glenn coco
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?the angelfish guy
87. First person you talked to today?mmmmm my mum
88. Last person you talked to today?the day ain't over sunshine
89. Name a person you hate?i have a list
90. Name a person you love?reese
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?yes
92. In a fight with someone?no
93. How many sweatpants do you have?874+
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?874+
95. Last movie you watched?memento
96. Favourite actress?uhhhh I'm rlly into emily blunt & margot robbie rn
97. Favourite actor?Keanu reeves (my dad), Leo (my dad), the guy that voices sideshow bob
98. Do you tan a lot?NO i BURN 
99. Have any pets?2 kitties
100. How are you feeling?kinda bummed I got a dentist appointment tmrw
101. Do you type fast?si
102. Do you regret anything from your past?no ragrats (yes)
103. Can you spell well?I'd say so 
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?yes
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?yes señorita 
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?YES 😏😏😏
107. Have you ever been on a horse?yes yes yes
108. What should you be doing?cleaning my room 
109. Is something irritating you right now?mmmm nah I'm good rn
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?no
111. Do you have trust issues?stop asking me THIS 
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?uhhh my math teacher cause I forgot how to multiply
113. What was your childhood nickname?syd the kid
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?yes yes
115. Do you play the Wii?wii is good for the soul
116. Are you listening to music right now?NO but I'm GONNA once I finish this
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?eh it's okay
118. Do you like Chinese food?YES that good shit
119. Favourite book?the bell jar or Norwegian wood 
120. Are you afraid of the dark?YES
121. Are you mean?idk
122. Is cheating ever okay?noooooo
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?oh DONT get me started on white shoes I think they're the most stupid invention ever created by man 
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?no
125. Do you believe in true love?no
126. Are you currently bored?yes
127. What makes you happy?my friends & any song by queen
128. Would you change your name?in a heart beat
129. What your zodiac sign?pisces
130. Do you like subway?mmmm yes
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?I'd say "no you don't" 
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?👏 you asked this sweaty
133. Favourite lyrics right now?hey ho let's go
134. Can you count to one million?I can't even count to 100 without skipping a number or 2
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?I've told lots of dumb shit you can't tell me to pick just one
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?open so the kitties can travel as they please
137. How tall are you?5'3"-5'3" AND A HALF-ISH
138. Curly or Straight hair?wavy
139. Brunette or Blonde?brunette
140. Summer or Winter?summer but winter is pretty
141. Night or Day?night
142. Favourite month?February 
143. Are you a vegetarian?HELL no
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?white
145. Tea or Coffee?tea
146. Was today a good day?I'd say so yeh so far
147. Mars or Snickers?mars
148. What’s your favourite quote?idkkkk
149. Do you believe in ghosts?UHuhhuh nO but I think someone's gonna get me when it's dark 
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? (via catscuddlingandyou)no

[kelechief]

I was walking down La Brea in LA leaving this sushi spot ive been wanting to try (it was good) and I just walked into this gallery that I’d walked by a couple times and I was kinda beside myself. I didn’t realize how long it’d been since I just consumed art. Since I’d Just took it in and appreciated it for that. The way we consume food. Without agenda. Without motive. But I did that today. And it felt so good. I feel like I’ve been using art with an agenda. Using music to feel inspired. Using images to analyze how they’re conveying emotion in an attempt to apply that method to make my own offerings more effective. And I realized that’s the equivalent of eating SO THAT you shit. Who the fuck is eating in attempt to shit. Inspiration isn’t supposed to be the reason for your consumption, it’s supposed to be the byproduct of it. So I walked out of the gallery with this new understanding and awareness of how I’ve been treating art and I was laughing to myself and I walked past this old dude who noticed me laughing and asks me “Doesn’t art make you just feel good?” and based on my “job” I should always have a disposition of the postitive effects of art. I’m listening to and making music all the time. I should smile like this all the time Right? But I don’t. At least not normally. So anyway me and this guy start talking and I tell him my name and tells me about how he’s seen me around there and

he asks if I wanna smoke a joint. I do, so he opens a small garbage bag with several medicine bottles with different strains he asks what I like. I tell him I get heady when I get too high so whatever will make me not fee heady. “OG Vietnamese Kush. Very clear high” “Aight” So he has me break some down while he rolls and I’ve literally never seen anyone roll a joint as efficiently or as gracefully as this man. He pulls a white lighter if of his green jumpsuit and asks me to pull first. We smoke for a bit and he talks me about crossing paths with old army buddies from Vietnam. How he’s grateful he’s not injured. He tells me he’s from New York, Bedford Stuyvesant. I tell him I hate New York, but that BedStuy’s a nice neighborhood. He loves it but we agree that the reasons i hate it are totally valid. He told me about flings hes had. That his homies are always blown away by the types of girls he fucks. "Always way younger and way prettier than my ugly ass, they're probably just comfortable with me." They probably are We talk about music and just random things. He tells me his mom just passed recently and that no matter how old you are, you’re never ready for your mom to pass. He’s 60. His mom was 90. I tell him about a time I found my mom asleep with her eyes open and how for a split second I thought she’d passed and the weight of that even for the fraction of a moment had me breaking down in tears in our kitchen. Before the end of that conversation the was a car wreck on the corner we were half a block from where we were smoking. A dark grey Toyota had T-boned a red one. He rhetorically asked me what everyone’s rush was. We finish smoking and he asks me if I need anything. I tell him I’m good but he insists I take some weed with me. “I wish I had some cash for you-” “-Eh so do I but dont worry about it. I like you. You remind of a time where people smiled more and talked to each other.” I start walking away after exchanging numbers and he asked me to do him a favor: “smoke all that before you leave LA, and keep talking to people” He walked into the gallery and I walked down the street. Easily the best interaction of my time here. Very strange. And very right. I kept saying I didn’t wanna come back from LA empty handed and now I think I got what I need.

[noahhernandez]

original (April 3rd, 2013)

3 year difference (April 3rd, 2016

Difference ? (Feb 10, 2017)

3 year difference lol

1. Is this the best year of your life? tbh this year has sucked so far lol!!!!!

it is april and i have not turned up like expected

Only Feb. Things are going okay

2. What was the first thing you did when you woke up? turn on the TV and see what was on netflix

Laid in bed and contemplate whether or not to make coffee.. i did

Struggled getting out of bed for work

3. The person you like is? nobody.

my co-worker Darrell.

Kenny.

4. Is anything bothering you? The fact that my room is a disaster, my grade in Algebra 2 is a 68, and that i am not famous

The fact that my room is still a disaster and that i am dropping my biology course because it was too hard for me.

The Fact that my room remains a disaster, and that I’m constantly stressed out about school, and I’m really trying with Kenny but I’m probably too invested

5. Does anyone annoy you? A lot of people do, white people

A lot of people still annoy me

White People

6. Would you like things to go ‘back to normal’ with a certain someone? no

Angelica, Natasha, and Coby because things really were cool but it doesnt matter anymore

No.

7. What was the las,t thing you did before you went to bed last night? I was in my mom’s room with like 3 kids and some guy and i was just chillin out with them

I was laying in bed watching Family Guy

Filmed a speech for my public speaking class, finished it, submitted it, walked in on my roommates fckin on the couch, went to sleep, they fought til 530am

8. Is life good? its decent

I’m content, I have my own place, I go to school full time, I work full time, I’ve got great friends, money, a car.

Still have all those things, I’m just tired at this point

9. Do you remember who you liked on New Years? nobody.

Nobody probably wait just kidding Harry

I think I was starting to like Kenny

10. Do you still like them? nobody

No

I like him now

11. Do you still speak to them? nobody

No

Yes

12. Told your parents you were going somewhere but went somewhere else? my dad, but my mom and i have a good relationship and i can tell her i am snorting cocaine tonight and she will be like ’ ok be careful xo’

Does not matter anymore

i’m an adult now

13. Are you dating the last person you kissed on the lips? haha, no.

No I am not

Nope

14. Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with? my cousin no she snorts cocaine

My manager no she is my favorite

I think it was Angel, and she is like one of my best friends

15. Would you go out with someone right now if they asked? what do you mean like out like lets get together or like hey im hungry wanna come with me to get wings

It really all depends on who the person is

not desperate, really depends on who the person would be

16. Three days from now will you be in a relationship? i hope not

No lol

Probably not 

17. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? they do tell me sorry fellas youre kinda ugly

Yes

Yes

18. Have you kissed anyone in the last month? no

No

Yes

19. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for? my back.

My back

Have not been to the doctor since.

20. Do you like being home alone or does it freak you out? i liked it but then everyone left for me a week and i thought i was going to go insane

It does not matter I am always locked in my room.

I don’t talk to anyone at home anyways

21. Would you ever kiss anyone you texted today? i havent texted anyone today

Hm yes, my co-worker Kevin, but only because he is the best looking person I have texted today

Hm maybe like 2 people ? haha

22. Do you have any bruises on you? no thank god

Cuts and burns from work

I cut myself at work today

23. How was 2011 for you? 2011 was great actually, i ended jr. high really well, and started high school really well too making friends and stuff

Same

lol

24. How late did you stay up last night and why? like 1230, and no reason

230? because after work me and my coworkers went to IHOP and then just chilled out, and I watched like TV til i fell asleep

About 530 because my roommates were fighting and I could not sleep

25. Do you ever get good morning texts from anyone? no

No

Kind of

26. Do you regret anything you’ve done lately? i regret um nothing

I regret nothing still

Nothing

27. What woke you up today? this sound of little Einsteins singing

My brothers gf was talking really loud for like 2 seconds

My brother waking me up and my 30 alarms

28. What makes you happy? coffee and snickers and boys

Coffee, cigarettes, friends

Coffee, boys, and friends

29. Ever kissed on a boat?

No

Still a no

30. Have you ever been told that you are amazing? yes

Plenty of times

I honestly dont think so tbh wait JK yes

31. Finish this sentence: The last person I kissed is… ugly?

A good guy. sorry lol

the person I currently like

32. This time last year, can you remember who you liked?let me think no

It is April, prom season for me… you know I think I was chillin’

Wowza, Darrell my co-worker at the time, he recently just moved to Ohio

33. Do you like when people play with your hair? yes

yes

ya

34. Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? nOPE GOT SCHOOL LOL

Nope, I still got school

Nope, this time I got work

35. Waiting for something? for someone to come up and be like hello u wana be famous and rich

To get my degree, then someone come up to me and ask me if I wanna be famous and rich

To become board certified and open a private practice and someone ask me if I wanna be rich adn famous

36. Was last night terrible? nah

No, it was a good night tbh, lots of laughing with all my coworkers

Sure

37. Did you lose friends when you started dating someone? no

no, i would not let that happen

I would never let that happen

38. Are you the type of person to make people laugh?  yes i am i am the class bitch ass motherfucker but they think im joking

yes

Sure

39. Don’t tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive? i last texted angelica and she is pretty if she tries which is rare

yes

yes

40. Is tomorrow going to be a good day? it better be mrs honings better have passes me

no, i have school and then work right after

Work til 5. Maybe something with my friends after, but I doubt it

41. Are you missing someone?no

no

sure

42. Has anyone ever tried to ruin a relationship you were in?no

no lol

no haha

43. Do you believe in karma? eh

not at all

Maybe a little bit now

44. Do you sleep with a fan on? omg i have too

yeah the ceiling fan and then a standing fan

Same still

45. You think anyone’s thinking about you right now? of course yes

i wonder

Probably not.

46. Is there anyone you wish you were spending time with right now? not really

no

yes

47. Do you go to school? imma sophomore

freshmen in college

4th semester in college.

48. Is the person you last texted single? yes

yes

technically yeS?

49. Who was driving the last time you were in a car? omg?? my mom i think

me

I was driving, brother in passenger seat

50. Have you ever used the word ‘rawr’ in an actual conversation?OMG NEVER IF ANYONE CAUGHT ME SAYING THAT I’D KILL MYSELF

lol no

jokingly now every once in awhile

51. Are the blinds on your window open or closed? closed

closed

Closed

52. Did you leave milk and cookies for Santa when you were little? still do lol

jewish

No i live alone now, so thats a waste of money

53. What were you doing at 11 last night? in my mom’s room with those people i stated above plus my brother

at work goofing off

Getting ready to get off work

54. What could you eat any day of the week & never get tired of? wingstop wings

sushi

Coffee

55. Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now? justin bieber???

a lot of ppl including celebrities

Shawn Mendes!!!

56. Someone knocks on your window at 5 am, what do you say? wat the fuck do u want im sleepig

or

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOMH

how did u get up here i live on the third floor

No i dont have a quarter

57. Would you change yourself for the person you love?no

no

Yes maybe ??

58. Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex? wow u guesssed completely wrong

yes

um i gonna guess sure

59. What are you supposed to be doing right now? cleaning

getting ready for work

Getting ready for bed

60. Would you have sex with the 5th person on your contacts?no

im not even going to look

It is my ex, lmao, yes  I would sure

61. To who did you last give the finger to? i cant remember

my coworker Jesse

My manager, Ware

62. Did your last kiss take place on a bed? on someone elses

uh no

No.

63. Do you have someone who you can be your complete self around? brianna sam angelica michelle and others yes

the majority of my coworkers and all of my friends i still have

Angel, Brianna, Brit, and like Michelle

64. Do you talk in your sleep? no

i do not

depends on the situation

65. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? yes they buy me stuff and i am forced to like them

i dont talk to either of them that much

Haven’t seen my mom in months

66. What time did you wake up today? 7:45

1

8:30

67. What were you doing at midnight last night? IN MY MOMS ROOM

At work fixing to leave

Leaving work

68. What song are you listening to? some chris brown song

Team by Iggy

Betty Who- Somebody Loves You

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days? like a hug

No

Yes

70. How do you feel about chocolate-covered strawberries? mmmmm

mmmmm

mmmmm

71. Do you have nice eyes? they’re dark brown

no

lolno

72. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? not really

yes finally

Barely, the tips are brown from when I died them 7 months ago

73. Are you texting anybody? no

no

Told everyone I went to bed

74. Do you swear in front of your parents? god no

no

No

75. Concert tickets or NFL game tickets? concert tickets

concert tickets!!!!!

CONCERT

76. Are you addicted to cigarettes? not yet hehhe!:)

yes, I wish i could stop smoking.

LMFAO “Not Yet” I’m on a process of quitting right now. Very difficult

77. Do you tell your parents everything? no

no

hell no

78. Do you have any tattoos? not yet

i have 4 tattoos.

still only fucking 4

79. If something was wrong, who is the first girl you would go to? idk

Brianna

80. Do you have any nicknames? bitch

Noahita