#Posting this to my main blog instead of my sideblog to throw people off the scent

[bismuthbookshelf]

Just some rough dress illustrations that I did that I wanted to share :)

[suzukiblu]

I kind of want to try your method of posting wips a snippet at a time while writing them, but on the other hand I am nervous about it. Can you give me some advice?

I've been trying to nail down the mixed feelings, and this is what I've got so far:

for:

it will get eyes on my fics faster, and I can show off what I've written sooner, instead of needing to finish a whole chapter

it will encourage engagement both in reacting to specific posts and in asking for more

it will be more chances for people to be intrigued and want to read the whole fic

against:

what if I do it and nobody cares?

til now I've been releasing fics a chapter at a time and it would feel weird to change that. inertia and all

what do I do if/when I change something I've written and already posted a snippet of?

it feels weird to post them on my writing blog, which currently only holds finished chapters (and fanart), but if I post them on my main, I feel like they'll get lost and/or I'll miss reactions in my busy activity channel. Where should I post it to? Should I make yet another sideblog?

in direct response to your listed mixed feelings, in my personal experience of writing this way:

for:

it will get eyes on my fics faster, and I can show off what I've written sooner, instead of needing to finish a whole chapter: yes it will, and it feels great! and personally it also helps me keep momentum and helps soften the sting if I drop a fic/chapter later and people don't have much to say about it. I KNOW it's good, other people already told me they liked it!! no, I'm not gonna throw out the whole story because of one mediocre reception, SHUT UP IMPOSTER SYNDROME AND GET BACK IN THE WRITING TRENCHES.

it will encourage engagement both in reacting to specific posts and in asking for more: yes it does, and WAY more people consistently (and more gratifyingly!) engage with me since I've made a habit of posting this way, especially when they're especially interested in a specific WIP over my other ones, and a lot of people just seem to be more engaged and invested in my writing in general. or at least more willing to tell me that they are, if nothing else, haha.

it will be more chances for people to be intrigued and want to read the whole fic: yes it will, and if you post larger scenes and tag them, then more people are likelier to find you/your writing than would if you only post one chapter in the tags however often you update those. also, if you have a fic-specific WIP tag that you link to, it's very easy for people who are just discovering the WIP to go back and catch up all at once ( or for people who aren't into it to blacklist, if that's a concern, as opposed to them feeling like they have to unfollow/block you ).

against:

what if I do it and nobody cares? good news: they probably won't care! at least to start. that's just kinda how it is, to start. I get a lot of engagement because I am REAL prolific and do my best to be responsive, plus I've been updating this blog and in this specific fandom pretty consistently for over a year, and also have also been in online fandom spaces on and off for, like, legit twenty-five years at this point. so I am just very used to being in these spaces, and I also have readers who've followed me for a decade+ or even since I was an actual literal TEENAGER in at least a couple cases, so like, they're already kinda invested in my writing, haha. there are people following this blog who not only read my Inu-Yasha Miroku/Sesshoumaru fanfic back in the day in the Pit of Voles but also still REMEMBER reading my Inu-Yasha Miroku/Sesshoumaru fanfic back in the day in the Pit of Voles, to say nothing of everyone who found me through AtLA or the MCU or the Witcher ( or so, so much Star Wars meta, the Star Wars meta has also definitely been a thing ). also I update my blog pretty consistently and I do writing memes that reward the people who play with me with new content and more progress in their fave WIPs, and also they're technically "voting" for what they wanna see more of, so that also adds to them feeling engaged/invested and me feeling motivated/energized, because they feel like they've affected the growth and progress of the story ( which they have ) and I feel like they're enjoying the story and genuinely appreciate it ( which they do! ). so everyone wins!

til now I've been releasing fics a chapter at a time and it would feel weird to change that. inertia and all: yeah that is the sunk-cost fallacy trying to fuck you up and you can and should tell it to fuck off. if you try it and you don't like the change, you can just stop doing it. you're free! no one can stop you!! hit the bricks, do your thing, the past is gone and it is NOT in charge of your ass! your ass is all yours!! whatever, we do what we want! I am in fact giving you explicit PERMISSION to do what you want.

what do I do if/when I change something I've written and already posted a snippet of?: then you've changed something! if it's a major change, you can repost the updated scene or mention you're making a change in a separate post or just say there's been a significant change when you post the chapter and therefore people who've already read the WIP posts might wanna reread it, but personally I change and tweak and fiddle with stuff I've already posted all the time. usually it's just bits of phrasing or formatting or adding in little details to round stuff out or correct mistakes, or to clarify things that confused people or that I forgot about, but sometimes it's adding multiple paragraphs or even additional little scenes. it's absolutely a thing I do and a thing that I consider fair play. you're literally posting "work-in-progress" excerpts, it is in the NAME that stuff might/will change or be adjusted. shit, if you feel like it, throw the whole story out and start over with a 2.0 WIP tag!! art is meant to be fucked with!!!!

it feels weird to post them on my writing blog, which currently only holds finished chapters (and fanart), but if I post them on my main, I feel like they'll get lost and/or I'll miss reactions in my busy activity channel. Where should I post it to? Should I make yet another sideblog?: the past is gone! you are free!! it's a writing blog that is for your writing and you can write whatever you want on it. the rules are made up and the points don't matter!! if you want a WIP blog too, you can totally start a WIP blog too, but you also don't have to feel obligated to bloat your sideblog collection or to have to go to all the effort of building up a brand-new following for a brand-new blog when there's already people who followed another blog of yours specifically for your writing. it's your writing blog. it's for your writing. write on it how you please!! if you're SUPER-concerned about the change, include a specific tag on all your WIP snippets that people can just blacklist if they only wanna see your full finished updates. for example I use "rintalk" so people can skip my random talky posts/asks if they wanna but also won't accidentally be filtering out anything they DO wanna see from anyone else on their dash; they can specifically avoid just mine. so like, maybe "octo WIPs" or "nb WIPs" or just whatever you're into would work for you, or just something like that.

unrelated to your for/against: posting stuff like this is not an approach that'll give everyone the same results or even WORK for everyone, obviously, but it works for me because again, I'm prolific, responsive, tend to follow my readers' interests, and have been doing this a lonnnggggg time and have built up an audience both from past fandoms and in specifically DC fandom. and also I'm super, super ADHD. definitely also because of the ADHD. there is . . . there is just so much ADHD lol.

but yeah, like, I'm pretty sure I've been updating pretty consistently for the past . . . what, year or so of DC-hyperfixation? something like that?? I've also published over 300k to AO3 in that time and GOD knows how much more word count I've put up on Tumblr, so like . . . tl;dr, I absolutely think you should give it a try and see if it works for you/if you like it, I just also wanna include the caveat that you shouldn't be discouraged if you don't get an immediate return on or big response to said try. like, I dunno what your followers are like or how much they talk to you, obvi, but I personally had to kind of . . . cultivate, basically? I had to cultivate the communication and the back-and-forth, it didn't just happen immediately. we have cultivated, all of us here, hahaha.

for actual practical excerpt-posting advice, generally speaking, the best start I've found for starting out with posting a WIP as you write it is to take, like, the starting scene of the fic/chapter up until either a narratively-interesting/satisfying end point ( or better yet, a cliffhanger ) and post that as a WIP excerpt in the relevant tags. then you're likelier to introduce the story to new people and bring them by your blog to see more, and they'll come in both primed for and LOOKING for WIP excerpts. then, you know, you can post subsequent scenes or bits in chronological order, ideally. personally when I do WIP Wednesday or anything like that, I don't tag little posts like those in the main tags, just with a WIP tag specific to their story ( which, like, obvi you know I have those, haha, I know you've been around MORE than long enough and even if you hadn't pretty sure I already mentioned them somewhere up there anyway, I'm just being thorough ), but anything that's pushing 400-500 words or longer gets fully tagged with ships/characters/fandom/etc and gets chrono/non-chrono links included in the post and then sent out into the world as my lil' story ambassador, haha. just, you know, use a cut or at least a "long post" tag if it's much longer than that, because like, Tumblr manners and all, hah.

ummmmm . . . so yeah idk how much of that was helpful for you, obviously, but if you have follow-up questions or anything, feel free to hit me up, I'm always down for those and I'll do my best to answer!

[seven-thewanderer]

Okay I’m not gonna wait too long, I just wanna share it now.

so as I said a bit earlier, my “Dandy’s World OC”, Lexi the Lemon, is no longer a Dandy’s World oc

“but why is that?” You may be wondering…

Well… it’s because during that moment of issues with a… certain person… and when I was hearing a lot of people get mad at people for having DW ocs, I (after making 3 more) thought “screw it, imma do my own thing”

So here’s the 4 characters that were made before I made my own thing

So you guys already know Lexi, but then here’s also:

Conner the Camera Doppio the Coffee & Sherri the Cherry Blossom

(Out of these 4, one of them is a main, guess) (I’ll say at the end of this post)

And not all of the rest are fully drawn out, but here are the rest I made after deciding I was making my own thing!!

We got:

Sugar the Cotton Candy (friends with Zilch - who is next to Sugar in the image) Zilch the Candy Corn (only friend is Sugar - who is to the left of Zilch in the image - since everyone else hates Zilch) Puffs the Marshmallow Lilac the Soap Bottle Squeaker the Water Balloon Butters the Popcorn Asa the Medicine Teds the Bear Somni the Bedbug Morti the Jack ‘O Lantern Aria the Snail Loaf the Bread Wallace the Water Bottle & Deedee the CD Player

And while I’m still working on the names, the name of their location is called Edupark!!

it’s a large, educational park where kids can both play and learn!! It’s kinda like both a playground park & an Amusement Park in one :3

And if it was a game (which I’m not sure if that’d happen, cus 1 I’ve never made a game, and 2 I’d need someone to work with me who knows how to build in Roblox, and I’m too nervous to trust Roblox Builders I don’t know personally after… that incident that happened in DW that is why my thing even exists :P), it’d be called Sketchie Escape!!

because instead of Toons, mine are called Sketchies!! Like a little Sketch :3 (…and their Twisteds are instead called Drafts)

I’m imagining it’d kinda be like, a weird combo of games

cus obviously it’d be inspired from Dandy’s World (with my own characters, of course, I don’t wanna be copyrighted & plus I don’t really wanna ref other things in my thing :T)

but it’s also a bit inspired off of games like Piggy (in the way of being like. A teamwork-puzzle-survival game), and like an escape room thing (also I could just say ‘inspired off of Granny’ but I specifically am discussing Roblox games)

Also, the Drafts aren’t just evil version of the playable characters, but are instead other characters!!

since, as an artist myself, I know sometimes when you’re making a character, you sometimes get little concepted versions of them that once you make the character how you like, the previous version(s) tend to fade away, go to waste, so that’s kinda what the Drafts are!!

some of the Drafts, however, are actually characters that used to be in the spotlight, but were basically thrown away…

But I don’t wanna say too much here!! I’m considering making a sideblog to talk about my lil idea…

But!!

I’ll only do that if yall are interested!! If not, I’ll just keep my silly lil idea to myself (ill still keep building on it, im not gonna throw it away just if yall don’t care to see it, it’s mainly just whether or not you get to see me working on it, or I work on it and yall don’t get to see)

so…

Also, as I promised:

the answer to the question at the top, about which of the first 4 was a Main Sketchie (which I still need to change the name of the Mains, instead of calling them Mains), is….

Lexi!!

Not just because of her being the oc that started this all, but mainly because of her lesson!!

in the park, she teaches kids to keep determined, and never to give up!!!

and here’s a lil bonus:

The other main Sketchies are:

Lilac, Somni, Wallace, and Aria!!

Lilac teaches kids to stay clean Somni teaches kids to not be lazy (despite Somni’s strong fatigue..) Wallace teaches kids about putting stuff away (like putting something in the trash, or putting toys away, or putting the milk back in the fridge so it don’t go bad) Aria teaches kids to open up, and not keep themselves in their “shells”

Now I don’t wanna give too much away, so imma stop right here :3c

[nightroo]

*Throws this on the ground and runs*

Heyyy how long have I not posted here? Like actually 2 fuckin years or something?? Who knows!

Anyway, I am very busy with uni work (I'm on my final year! Can you believe that bc I can't), and because they require us to keep a record of everything we do, I don't really feel like posting here (where I used to ramble). Also, the whole AI debacle put me off posting my big finalized paintings, which is what this blog was for. And so, it was abandoned.

I also have a secret side blog for an unnamed brain rot game that has consumed much of my free time lol

So, why am I posting now? Well, I wanted to post about this somewhere, and this isn't (technically) uni work, or related to the brain rot game...

On the left, is Lykena, drawn around 2021, last time I made large changes to her design.

On the right, is her newest design, still a WIP, but like, fuck man. This looks like a whole different person drew it lmao.

I am always blown away by the sheer difference every time I go back to that time, even 2021 compared to 2022 is kinda like this, and I'm like ???

Okay I should talk about the actual fuckin design instead of being incoherent lol. So I was going for her being not exactly pretty. She's still pretty, don't get me wrong (maybe I'm biased but I love her ok), but she's flawed. Eye bags, underbite, messy hair, and not to mention her scars. The little superficial lines on the 2021 are cowardly, in my honest opinion, and if you give a character scars, go all in.

In the 2025 version, I also showed her before the story really takes off (aka before she gets powers, and gets injured by her god) and God she's so <333

(yeah, I'm here to love my ocs, who else would)

Also, finally she looks androgynous. I'm heavily considering bringing back an idea I had a longgg time ago, to make Rana Bigender (she/he) because I need to make everything gayer, and she does get mistaken as a man in earlier parts of the story, so like why not?

I didn't even say why I'm doing this fuck. So I want more pieces for my concept art portfolio (more... current ones at least), and re-designing the main 4 from Old Blood seemed like just the thing to do. I've been wanting to redesign them forever now, didn't really get the opportunity until now.

So I will have a full outfit redesign for him in the near future (hopefully). I already have a bunch of cool ideas for it, made a whole moodboard lol

I'm not promising I'm back, but I will be finishing my degree soon (what a concept), and idk maybe I miss rambling here. It's not as... social? As the sideblog (it's... scarily popular for God knows why haha, somehow I got a lot of followers and notes, I honestly still can't wrap my head around that) but I kinda like that there's no pressure on me here. I can post whatever I want, because I know maybe 10 people will see it.

(also helps that future potential employers won't be here, because... it's Tumblr lol)

So expect more updates on him. Maybe.

[starsmuserainbow]

Hmm, okay uh, I have no idea what I’m doing here but I feel like everyone needs positivity and so here’s a post where I’ll try to give just that.

First off, happy holidays and a good end of the year to everyone who reads this, I am glad that you’re here watching my blog and perhaps even interacting with me! Thank you for everything, whether that is a simple follow or an occasional (perhaps anon) ask, or actual interactions!

Next, I want to say that everyone that I’m seeing on my dash is absolutely amazing and I admire so many of you and am happy whenever I see you around! I am most likely very happy to have you around, especially if we’re mutuals and interacting with one another. I would probably love to talk with each of you more, but I’m just really bad at smalltalk or anything like that so with most people, I simply default to only messaging them (= you) when there’s something as a reason to do so. Sorry for that!

This goes out to everyone reading this: You’re awesome, I’m honored to have you here and interested in my blog, and I hope that your days or weeks or months will be great because you surely deserve it!

And then, I’ll now follow with a kind-of list mentioning a few people that I want to say more to. Which might sound repetitive because I suck at words in these regards, but yeah. Under a cut for length.

If you see this post and weren’t tagged, please don’t be sad or think I don’t value you being around! I can’t tag everyone, and I don’t have the best mind for things like coming up with someone that I forgot in the moments of writing this.

To not start off with the same names all the time, I wrote down the URLs I wanted to include and randomized the order. So don’t think anything by if you’re first or 5th or last on this list! And once more, I’m bad at words, so I’m sorry if this isn’t sounding too great or like it’s similar for each one.

I told myself to not include anyone that isn’t active-ish at the moment, but I made some exceptions to that because I felt that said person needed to be on my list.

@rogueprinceconsort ~ (I read the post you did recently more or less saying you’re leaving, but I wrote this before that post and it would have felt wrong to erase it from here only because of you leaving!) I enjoy our interactions a lot! They feel like they actually develop a story, which I can’t say for ALL my interactions but definitely for each one that we have going! Which is really cool! You’re one of the only few people where I have the chance to play around with different verses too (well, or at least one different verse, since our other two ongoing interactions are in the mainverses of my muses, but still), and you’re one of the few giving one of my OC-sideblogs a chance as well, and, just, I really am so thankful for it and happy to have you as a mutual!

@untouchable-lightning ~ You aren’t here at the moment, so let me just start this by saying that I hope that things will get better for you again soon! It’s a lot of fun to interact with you and I think you’re a good writer and I’m very happy for our interactions! They are always fun! I did not often yet get the chance to do this other RP-style that I do (the ‘choose-your-option’ one) and you are one of those that allowed me to play through it, and you also interact/ed with my sideblogs too, so a big thank you for that! Our threads also often last nicely long, which is absolutely amazing since it’s a big rarity these days, too. You’re great, and I’m happy that we’re mutuals and interaction-partners!

@miasmarp ~ We’re more or less only starting out interacting and talking and anything basically, but I felt like I just absolutely had to include you because I HAVE A CHANCE TO PLAY ONE OF MY OTHER (non-blog-having, not even an info page or anything outside of one or two ooc posts about them) OCS with you and that’s just like the first time at all (not counting if I do include them as minor appearances in other things, though even there it has only happened one single time so far iirc), and that is just so much fun and just thank you! You’re really cool and I’m happy that we’re mutuals!

@karaoftomorrow (or @yourfavoritesidekick if you’d prefer I tag your main) ~ It’s so wonderful to write with you! It feels like we’re developing stuff in our things really well, and I really like to read what appears from you on my dash! Talking with you is very nice too, and I’m always really happy whenever I see you in my notifications or IMs or wherever! I’m very glad to have you as mutual and am really happy about any and all of our interactions!

@skymade / @siriseen or maybe I should tag one of your other blogs instead but those are the first two I usually think of and I don’t wanna tag more than two blogs for one person xD ~ Sooooooooo awesome! You have so many characters, which all are wonderful as far as I can tell, and I love our interactions so much! I’m always really looking forward to the next reply I get from one of our things, and talking to you is always a delight and I’m so so happy that we somehow found each other! Or well, I guess you found me because if I remember right you followed me first, but yes! Thank you for writing with pretty much all of my characters, you’re very cool, I absolutely love the connections our muses get (especially those where they know one another at a younger time and then ‘now’ meet again too - how cool is that?) and it’s always a joy to see you on my dash!

@azarathian ~ We haven’t really done or spoken that much together yet (or at least I assume we didn’t? There was your old blog but I don’t think we really spoke there, much less did threads or the likes? Sorry if I’m wrong though xD), but I’m so very glad we started! I admire your writing and the thoughts you put into Raven and I think you’re great! Our threads are incredibly entertaining and it’s so awesome to put more story into the situations of or between the episodes of the cartoon, and yes, I’m just very very thankful that we got together somehow and I’m excited for how our threads - and potential future ones - will develop!

@nvertoolate or if I should tag your currently more active sideblog @bloomingtalent ~ It is so absolutely amazing that one of my first mutuals, friends, or however I should call it, still is active on here as well! With most people on here, it’s sadly the case that they’re gone again sooner than later, so it’s especially great that we are still both here! I think I’ve said multiple times before that I don’t think I would even have stayed on tumblr if you hadn’t been around and interacting with me so I won’t go into detail about that yet again, but, yes, I absolutely love our interactions when we do them, and while I don’t know much about Naruto so we don’t really interact that much on your sideblog, I’m still so very happy to have you around and as my mutual! I’m so thankful for you and that we got to interact - and still do! Thank you!

@sewn-cutie ~ Our interactions are always so wonderfully adorable and cute! I love the connection between Starfire and Clementine, and it’s a lot of fun to write any of our things! I’m very happy when I hear from you in an OOC-y way too, like when you reply to one of my posts or in the IMs or whereever! I’m absolutely convinced that you are a great person, and I am delighted that we are mutuals and can interact so nicely!

@legaxies ~ I wasn’t sure if maybe I shouldn’t include you since from how much I can tell it seems you are at the moment more focused onto that theme-sideblog you have and I told myself to not include those that aren’t really active at the moment - but I felt like I had to! I wanted to say that I’m really happy for the things we started, and that I have a lot of fun talking to you when we do! I’m very much enjoying the potential relationships we have started on, and I look forward to hopefully continuing them in some way eventually! (This of course is not meant as pushing you to work on replies or whatever, please don’t understand me wrong here; I just mean this in a way of, if we do get to continue it - if not that’s totally fine too!) You’re doing great with any of your characters (as much as I can judge with not that much knowledge), and I’m happy that we’re mutuals! It’s a joy to interact with you, so, thank you!

@featherchan ~ You’re interacting with me, or did in the past, on pretty much all my muses (I think not on Starlight? But outside of that on all I think), and that means a lot to me! We have some really cool plots going, and you joined in on that event-au-thing I did all that time back too, so that’s very great, and I wanted to say thanks! Our interactions are always fun and I’m happy to write with and talk to you!

@thedoctornumber11 ~ Throughout my time being here, you’re pretty much the only one of the world of Doctor Who that I got interactions going with (I think there was someone on Wildfire once too, but not for very long iirc), and I really enjoy that! I wanted to include you here too because I wanted to say that I’m very very grateful for the nice words or explanations you sometimes throw onto my posts, and for the things you send in to me, and yes just for all of it! Thank you!

@flashgotthis ~ I love our things so much! All the interactions that we did so far were really really really cool, still are, and they often last really long too, and it’s just absolutely wonderful! You’re also one of those that aren’t only talented writers, but also really great artists, and I admire that skill so much! I’m delighted that we are mutuals and interaction-partners, and I look forward to what’s still to come! You’re amazing!

@graceful-cure-swan / @rosecoloredmuses (mostly tagging your sideblog as well to give it, like, some sort of indirect promoing here) ~ You are great! I feel so bad for all the many things you sent me whereas I barely ever send you (or anyone else, for that matter) anything at all, but, I’m also really grateful that you do it, so - thank you! I’m enjoying our interactions very much, I think that both Tsubasa and your other characters are done really well (even if I don’t know that much about each of them or can compare them to their canon versions much), and you’re a lot of fun to interact with! You also give my sideblogs and OCs a chance too, which means very much to me too, so yeah, I’m very grateful to have you as my mutual!

@eterniita ~ We’ve been interacting throughout a few of your blogs already, and I enjoy our interactions! I think you put a lot of love and thought into your characters, and they are great, and our threads are a lot of fun! I haven’t yet checked out your remade blog of your canons again, but I intend to and most likely follow you there again, too! I hope we will still get to more wonderful interactions!

@merveiilles​ ~ I’m so happy that we’re interacting! I love our threads a lot and I’m enjoying every reply that I get or write! You have a lot of characters and it’s really impressive that you do them (as far as I can tell/know them) so well! Your art, that you occasionally post, is also really really amazing and it’s very wonderful that you are so talented! I am very thankful for the nice words that you put onto my posts every now and then, and I am delighted by the threads and connections we are having between our muses!

@symbioteburnout​ ~ I don’t feel like I can say very much here (yet), but I wanted to include you too! I enjoy the things that we got going so far, and going from what I see from you about her I think Andi is a interesting character! It’s always wonderful to me, when people put the effort into characters who might not get as much time to shine in canon as others. Thanks for replying to my opens every now and then, and just in general for being my mutual and interacting with me!

@titansandothersrp​ / @robynrpmain (Now I’m getting frustrated at tumblr again for not letting me tag your main) ~ You are really cool! You’re a great artist, I love to see your work, and our threads are very entertaining! I feel like you’re doing very well in giving the characters you play as more story, more... I don’t know the right word here. Just, that you make them ‘more’, and that’s a really awesome thing. And yeah, like said, you also do art which I think looks really good, and I just absolutely admire people who can do art so well. Thanks for being mutuals and interacting with me!

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So, and as a nice little bit of words at the end, I guess~ I’m very honored by anyone of you who’s actually interested in me and my writing, I’m thankful and glad to have you around, and I’m looking forward to more amazing things to come in the future with all of you!

[mentalisttraceur]

Sideblog Masterpost

Besides my main "mentalisttraceur" blog, I have a bunch of side-blogs. As of 2022-09-16, they are:

@mentalisttraceur-long - Like my main blog, but the posts are longer. This is for posts where I have a lot to say in one sitting, and where I cannot easily break it up into small posts that are independent or build on each other. Ideally this would be long-form polished content mirroring a lot of my concise content here. In practice a lot of the time it's meandering unplanned ramblings.

@mentalisttraceur-conversations - Sideblog for talking directly to individuals with reblogs - usually whoever I am reblogging from but not always. Reblog chain conversations repetitively spam dashboards and blogs, an sometimes talking to someone is incompatible with talking to an audience. I like to think of this blog as talking directly to individual people, just in a public place.

@mentalisttraceur-humor - Primarily for jokes and playfulness which benefit from the clear "this is a joke" context that a "humor" blog provides, or which have no serious substance or worth concordant with any of my other blogs. Jokes meant for a specific person might go on -conversations instead.

@mentalisttraceur-software - For posts which are too technical in the computer science direction to be a good fit on my main, whether that's actually software or just stuff very related to software such as hardware design or implementation details.

@mentalisttraceur-physics - For posts which are too technical in the physics and related sciences direction to be a good fit for my main. Currently barely active and will probably stay that way except for very rare bursts of activity.

@mentalisttraceur-gaming - For posts which are too focused on games, typically video games, to be a good fit on my main. Currently barely active.

@mentalisttraceur-fitness - For posts which are too focused on physical exercise, health, nutrition, and so on to be a good fit on my main. Currently barely active.

@mentalisttraceur-recyclebin - For posts which I've decided to delete, but couldn't quite bring myself to just outright erase from existence, so I reblog them to here and then delete them from their original place. Kinda like a temporary limbo where I or others can save them before their final deletion some time later, and more importantly it does a lot to solve my "but what if it's actually good or useful for someone?" hangups about deleting my content.

@mentalisttraceur-incomplete - For posts which I straight up just decide not to finish, but can't just bring myself to just delete. This lets me be far more productive because I don't get stuck agonizing about how to finalize a post or save the good parts. Just stop the moment I want to, and throw it on this blog instead of one of the others.

@mentalisttraceur-flawedflow - For posts which are overly uncharitable, cruel, vindictive, retaliatory, or just lacking some nuance or have clear-to-me logical or practical flaws, badly enough that I want to disown or at least caveat them.

@mentalisttraceur-process - Supposed to be for posts which describe stuff happening to my blogs. For example, if I edit a post on one of my other blogs, I could publish a post on here linking to that post and showing exactly what changed and explaining my reasoning. Mostly unused because nowadays I don't care enough and I never got around to automating it.

@mentalisttraceur-reactions - Like my main blog but less sweaty tryhard effortposting and more casual just saying things about stuff. Basically this is the place to where I'm trying to redirect all my off-the-cuff spontaneous posts with no serious planning and that do not say something that is a widely reusable and lastingly relevant. And because I'm not taking this blog as overly-seriously, I'm also willing to mention stuff that has very niche relevance.

[egyptroyal]

things a new (old/mutual/whatever) rp partner should know about me !

fun new meme here ! write 3-5 things a rp partner (or those who want to be) should know about you and tag 3-5 people! it should be related to rp and not to other interests.

I have a lot of muses all spread out on different blogs so, if I can’t choose one of your muses, I’m going to send in a meme for each of your muses. Out of my three primary roleplay blogs, there are four side roleplay blogs. Four of the muses being time lords and every regeneration - incarnation - is a muse of their own. Over at @themadvigilantist​ have 339 V muses, 89 Vin muses, 3 villains; sideblog @tardis500​ has 6 tardis oc muses, here, which is also a sideblog, I have 8 ocs, 12 canonical characters, 52 televised/comic/audio parody portrayals of the doctor. At @pennybraddock​, i have only 1 oc muse. At @drbabygirl​, i have 1 oc, and 4 canon characters. At @thebadtimewolf​, I have a singular time lord main muse with 15 human alternate versions of herself and one angel entity with @nosewitch​ being one singular side blog. Altogether, i have 533 muses, possibly more if I miscounted (or if the doctor ends up getting more that I missed then well shit, i’ll add them later as muses too. So, if you are someone that don’t want a spam of asks your way or thought I would just pick one muse out of your many, you are dead wrong on that and I might not be the blog for you. I’ll slap in a new muse left and right and then think I’m done only to add 20 more out of excitement just to forget about them later on. When I say I am excited to rp with you, I’m excited to throw a small village at every single muse you got unless you pick one first.

I am a very graphic and dark writer with the occasional smut (depending on the blog/muse), that does not censor or tone down their muse but, there are some limits. Just about all of my rp blogs deal with some very heavy subject material, which I tend to write out in great detail. This means you might come across descriptions of scenarios, that are very dark, graphic, disturbing or just drawn out as something that my muse realistically, no one would give/expect that kind of reaction towards in general. However, I have a limit and no, it’s not because it makes me unconfortable writing it, I just get...stuck. Okay, for example with my villain/neutral muses, I can’t write rape. I’ll write with someone that can write that particular subject but, I can’t write it myself because I don’t know how. Murder? You betcha and with detail. Torture? You got it and with trauma. Destroy an entire solar system while making the character feel wracked with guilt over the deaths of billions? Yeah, I can do that with detail on how it affected everyone else on a visual. Rape? Nope, nothing, same goes if you random anons want to just worse stuff, I can’t write it. Don’t know how, won’t know how. Now, that being said, I will never condone any of those behaviors that I describe but, if I can’t write it? Then pick something else. I can tag appropriately but, if my partner don’t tell me to cut to the next day or do fade-to-black in their following response, I’m going to describe that. Why I say depending on the muse is this: some of my muses are into fearplay/edgeplay but, the level where they were probably the reason some of their ‘interests’ are called risk-accepted consensual kinks which, for muses that are vile or evil, y’all gonna have to um, explain it that what you’re doing to them is not a dubcon situation but, a no-dont-get-off-on-this situation-this-is-my-scare-tactic. if you don’t, it’s gonna get real uncensored morticia/gomez real quick and you don’t want it. Other muses on the other hand will actually be scared so, choose (out of the collective 533+ muses) wisely. I’ll give you a list of who is in to what real quick, just ask/im me and i’ll find a generator that show just how much/little they’ll be into a thing.

I use either memes, open starters, greeters as an ice breaker but, also aiming to pre-established starters. So, I tend to make general starter for those that recently follow me in a way that anyone could respond to. I’m not shy to plotting but, for the most part, I’m just testing the waters. We can also im each other, send each other asks or whathaveyou. A jumping board that I might respond to one of your open starters or make a thread out of an answered post that you or I had sent to the other.

I don’t know how to godmod but, if you do it ...don’t be surprised that the muse is gonna fight back?? I only say this because I can’t write physical fight scenes with anyone because I’m so shit at those that I can now say that I have been accused of godmodding (2) twice in the span of a decade on this site by two ppl who (hopefully) live somewhere with free healthcare. Everytime I respond to how my character would counter an attack, there’s always that one person with their muse - that they are clearly in a fight scene - that only I get accused of godmodding out of nowhere. Despite when I look back at my responses on how I word things and I don’t see it (I still don’t. Is there an editor I can ask to look over and what I should reword here??) and the accuser fails to tell me to reword what sentence/paragraph to fix it where it’s not that. If I don’t get a response to what/where the specific bit in my response that made you think/came across as godmodding, then clearly you was godmodding too.                        OTHERWISE, WITH THE REST OF THE PPL I RPED A FIGHT SCENE WITH IN THE SPAN OF THE DECADE, THEY WERE JUST LIKE ‘OH THIS IS FUNKY AND FUN! *CUE TO US VIBIN OVER ANGST IN TAGS WHILE ALSO POKING FUN AT OUR MUSES AND SHIT*’ AND LIKE WE COOL SO MAYBE IT’S NOT MY WRITING STYLE, IT’S JUST YOU MISREADING THE TEXT PRESENTED TO YOU AND NOT ASKING ‘hey what you mean by [action/thing]? could you like rewrite that? i don’t get it, it didn’t sit right could you rewrite it?’ I’LL DO IT, I’LL FIX IT. HELP ME SEE WHAT YOU SEE?? INSTEAD OF JUMPING TO THAT ACCUSATION WITH NO EXPLANATION WHEN A THREAD DON’T GO YOUR WAY?? IT’S NO ANNOYANCE/BOTHER FOR ME TO FIX MY MISTAKES BUT IF YOU DON’T TELL ME WHAT THE MISTAKE IS (while consciously choosing to just point out that in some part of our thread to say only ‘stop godmodding/that was a little godmod-y’ when a muse of mine don’t react/act indifferent to yours and their actions) THEN HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GET BETTER, DO BETTER, AND BE BETTER IN MY WRITING WITH YOU IF YOU CAN’T HANDLE THE REPERCUSSIONS/REACTION OF MY MUSES CHOICE OF RESPONSE?? ok that’s out of my system                                  anyway don’t-don’t-don’t godmod but also, if you think im godmodding when i can’t tell where it is on either side ahahahah, u better fucking tell me which paragraph/sentence i fucked up instead of just throwing that word around when you can’t handle when muses don’t automatically shiver at the sight of yours. if anything, they already been there done that over it.

I’ll make a manip, gifset, draw our muses for our muses. I do that. I do that a lot. Ask me, I’ll do it. I’ll submit/send the drawing privately but, manips and gifsets: I put that on display. I will. Ask me.

Tagged by: @blindeddevil

Tagging: @city-full-of-ocs @idontdosecondchances @takumishinobi @paigeatyourservice @girl-in-the-tardis @followthedrums13 @gingersrockstheuniverse @destinybitten @lonelybxstards @theiracademydaysareover @theserpentsjester & anyone else that wants to/sees this

my entire mood @ #4 but, it was made at 3 AM and i don’t have the voice but, the vibe of yvette nicole brown because i got into community again

[mean-atheist-posts-containment]

This is my sideblog for atheist memes / posts that are mean / rude / seem a bit aggressive to religious people.

To make some stuff very explicitly clear, I do not hate religious people. I do not want to force people to stop being religious. I do not want to harm or oppress religious people.

I am, however, very very displeased with the many problems in the world, including but not limited to Covid, all the other horrible infectious diseases that are killing people, preventable disasters that weren’t prevented including those caused via climate change, assorted bigotries, etc. A significant number of these problems are caused or enabled by one or more religions or cults. Or, in many cases, by one or more religious persons, often persons of prominence, who use their religion to justify the harm they are doing, and to justify why they can’t or shouldn’t question or change it, and influence others to do likewise. Fuck those people.

I DO oppose and dislike the idea that belief without proof is equal to or superior to belief with proof, magical thinking, and the belief that your personal religious rituals are equal to actually working on problems. If you see someone drowning and, instead of helping, offer to keep them in your prayers, you are the problem I am talking about and you are invited to go fuck yourself for each such offense.

I do not subscribe to the idea that a person being wrong about one thing necessarily means they are wrong about all or most others, and vice versa. Richard Dawkins, to take a notable example, can take his assorted bigotries and go fuck himself with them. That doesn’t mean he is wrong about the number of gods in this universe. Similarly, the fact that X religious person says “we should be kind to other people actually” and is correct about that moral statement does not mean they are correct about the number of gods in the universe.

I am here to complain and vent and find the bits of flawed arguments that got stuck in my brain when I was an indoctrinated religious child to shake them out and figure out where I want to go from there. Please note that my description of my past self is meant to be literal and not derogatory, I literally left my religion when I was 18, and the ordinary course of teaching a person a religion and its doctrine may be literally and legitimately called indoctrination and I use it in that manner.

If you catch me with a straw-man feel free to inform me, I don’t actually want to play with those because they are boring.

I am not particularly interested in throwing sharp words meant to hurt their feelings at religious people. I may still do so if actually necessary to get them to stop doing something harmful, but not for it’s own sake. That is why I am making a separate side blog. So you can follow my main and don’t have to see this. Or not. Up to you.

If you are a religious person feeling offended by stuff I post here, for reasons that aren’t strawmen or other logical fallacies, please feel free to block and/or unfollow me and never look at my blog again. My blog is not for you, and I won’t be offended if you opt out of having it in your space.

I block and report bots. I may ask you to text me like an actual human in dms if you follow me and your blog resembles the profile of a bot. In particular, it is suspicious to have never posted anything. I am informed that this is often occurs among the actual humans likely because you are accustomed to the rules of some other sites such as instagram. It is not the custom here and is genuinely one of the signs of being a bot. I do not say this to shame you, but to provide context. Please post / reblog something, that’s how we share with others on this site. There is technically an algorithm but we don’t like it and many of us turn it off completely. Thus, likes do very little to increase visibility.

[desk-of-employee432]

@asgayasfalsettos tagged me

Rules: Answer 30 questions, tag 20 blogs

Nicknames: Avisan, Vi, Avi Ya’ll realize this isn’t my real name right

Gender: Female

Sign ✨: Scorpio

Height: my State ID rounded me up to 5 foot 3 and I’m taking it

Time:6: 15 PM

Birthday: Nov 9

Fav bands: I don’t really have favorite bands? I mean I don’t really keep up/track of who I listen to.

Fav solo artists: Same as above

Song stuck in my head: At the moment, none 

Last movie I saw: Enemies in law 2. Friend picked it out. It’s a K movie. 

Last show I watched: ...The latest Episode of the Simpsons. Mainly cause I heard it was a new Sideshow Bob ep. (I feel certain that it’s his last ep, maybe the show coming to a close?? who knows I mean the newest ep did ...should I put in spoilers or no? Does anyone who follows me actually care about The Simpsons?)

When did I create my blog: This blog was back in 2013 although I didn’t start using this blog as the main RP blog for 432 until after October. Cause originally the RP blog was a sideblog and this was my OOC blog. People kept following this blog instead so I gave up and just converted it. Hence all the non RP stuff. 

What do I post: A lot of random stuff. Rp, Pokemon, Animorphs, The Stanley Parable in terms of fandom. PMMM and MagiPro get shoutouts too. Nendroids and figmas, memes. 

Last thing I Googled:  youtube

Do I have any other blogs:  My dude...dudette? you have no idea. I have ~13 sideblogs on this last I checked. Mostly inactive fandom and RP blogs. My active ones that actually count are the BOM SS blog, vi-writes-bom, Employee431, a-mission-in-uganda (BOM RP blog). Semi active blogs, a CC blog and a blog for original fiction although some of that got moved to Toyhouse now.  I also have an extra Main set up in case I need to leave this one for some reason and that one has...a simpsons sideblog cause I had a fic idea for it a long time ago and wanted to try and get it back off the ground etc. 

Do I get asks:  As a RP blog-whenever I reblog the inbox memes and for starters. Otherwise? not really 

Why did I chose my URL: this was the OOC blog for ‘askemployee432′ 

Following: 448

Followed by: 314 (vi-writes-bom just hit 400) 

Average hours of 😴: It depends on how stressed/sleepy I am. I can run on like 3 hours of sleep but will crash later. (shout out to the time I stayed up till 3 am and woke up at 7 like it was no big deal I also stayed up like two days straight on that. Woke up on Monday and craved death.  and the time I stayed up till  like 2-3 with a friend to Walmart it’s a long story. Woke up at around 7 and crashed at 2) I can get 6 hours and be alright. I prefer like 8 or so, more really. 

Lucky number: -shrugs- 

Instruments: at some point I learned Piano. I don’t think Recorders count

What I am wearing: black(?) sweatpants, a striped red and blue t shirt, a plaid jacket of some sort, a fleece (?) jacket and a blue hoodie with the college logo on the back. Yes I wear that many layers.

Dream job: I don’t know but it’s not accounting.v

Dream trip: Does time travel count cause I wanna see dinosaurs. I’d be happy going just about anywhere if I’m being honest. 

Fav food: I’ll eat about anything. I have a bias towards Chinese (authentic ethnic chinese food) cause my mom makes that the most. I like noodles. Ramen is ok but I’m talking about the ones with the really satisfying soups. I also like soup in cold weather. 

Nationality: I’m mixed, Half Chinese on my mom’s side. German, French for sure on dad’s side. Possibly Irish and either Danish or Dutch fuck if I know cause he said one then changed to it the other. 

Fav song: Hmmm, of all time or just now? I can throw out a few. Everything’s alright from To The Moon, Your Silver Garden from PMMM Rebellion. I’ll have to think about it. my tastes range from rock to OSTs to orchestra stuff to techno. None of it fits

Last book I read: My tax book cause I was trying to study before finals. Before that it was the spreadsheet book. If you’re talking not textbooks then uh...Ceremony by Leslie Silko (I think) for War Lit Class

Top 3 fictional universes I wanna join: On one hand, Animorphs. On the other hand that’s all suffering. I’d be down for either PMM or MagiPro cause I wanna be a magical girl..but I’m useless in a fight and...that also includes death.

...Why do all the things I like have death in them? 

Animorphs, pokemon and can I cheat using one of mine? Cause I’d go with Karmic Hurt and Heal (the temp name for the magical girl series I’m half working on. No one has to die but I’m not saying no one won’t  die 

I tag: uh

shit do I know 20 people??? no I do not 

anyway I really hope you don’t mind me tagging ya’ll ;A; 

@l-avandula @secondstickingaway @nicxan @rabbitkinder @thelovablycynicalerinmac @esfer (I’m tagging RP partners at this point) @honeycitrusmint  @trans-edith @featherystorm  and @nekomumeii

[promisesandprosperity]

An Introduction

This is a repost from the blog I originally made for this. But I have since lost the email to access it, so I’m just going to make things easy on myself and remake it as a sideblog off my main that will remain private until further notice.

Nearly anyone who has known me for any remotely extended period of time is well aware that I’ve never really been one to shy away from discussing my experiences with mental illness. All it takes is a bit of trust, and the floodgates of talking about what life is like with chemical imbalances on a basic level burst open. This normally equates breaking down mania as being too much energy, an uncontrollable libido, and such a high level of confidence that honestly no one who has lived could have ever earned. Occasionally, I’ll dip into the effects of psychosis, some of the things that I have flashbacks to, or how it wasn’t depression that inspired a 13 day stay in a hospital after eating handfuls of pills like candy and making my arm look like it met a cheese grater.

Before I delve further into this too short of an introductory chapter of my life with a brain that doesn’t want to function correctly, I would like preface it with a few facts to make the context a bit more clear.

I have been diagnosed as having Bipolar Disorder (Type One), PTSD, and Borderline Personality Disorder.

My family line includes the above mental illnesses, plus a few others, such as (unipolar) depression and addiction.

I have, frankly, a shit ton of chronic physiological health problems in addition to the above mentioned psychiatric variety. These include autoimmune disorders, neurological issues, and a couple skeletal abnormalities. There’s also a few things wrong with the ol’ baby maker, but instead of delving into the details of things like my basically non functional ovaries, we’ll all just express a gratefulness that, regardless of my desire or lack thereof to become a mother one day, my particular line of genetics are ending with me.

There’s a curse that comes with being hyper aware while being mentally ill. You get forced into the passenger seat of your life, stuck in too long of a cutscene that you have no control of while it all plays out. You can be completely and fully aware that what you’re saying or doing is wrong on varying levels, and you have no means to stop the train wreck that you played the conductor for. You want to throw your fist into your own face as words pour out of your mouth and take effect around you before you even become aware what was said. You hate yourself for the intrusive thoughts that come while you snap at people that only want to offer you genuine words of support. You know the voices whispering nonsense behind you are all in your head, but you keep looking behind your shoulder anyway. You’re dragged along and trapped behind your eyes as you drink too much, fuck too much, fight too much.

This level of self awareness brings out plenty of other symptoms, such as frustration at the feeling of having no control over anything (because if you can’t control yourself, you have no say over anything else happening in your life) and an overwhelming guilt that burrows deep into your chest (“If you know it’s wrong, then why don’t you stop?”). Being aware during all the bad decisions doesn’t make laying in the dust of them afterwards any easier. That’s when you’re left to nitpick every detail, every word, and all you can do is cringe and scream and try to stave off another panic attack because how in the world could you have done that?

It helps bring good old self loathing to a whole new level.

It doesn’t help a lot of ill feelings I have for a number of people that have come into, and often left, my life either.

If I can begin to forgive all the ill done to me (intentional and otherwise), maybe I can finally begin to forgive myself for some of the shit I’ve drug myself through. And hopefully, that awareness can finally finally be good for something in that I can know exactly what I’m moving on from, instead of always trying to run away from everything.

I could easily fill a novel or two to even begin to touch on any of the above disorders that I mentioned having, the mistakes I’ve made, and all the things I wish had played out differently. And, hopefully, this blog will get filled with as much of it as I can squeeze out as strings of words in mostly coherent sentences. I’ll write about the varying highs of mania that bring out everything from productivity to downright self destruction, overwhelming flashbacks of things like having a knife pressed to my throat before my age was even double digits, what it’s like to be startled in the middle of a class by the voice of someone you know is currently hundreds of miles away, the lows of the downswing into weeks of being unable to get out of bed due to depression, and a bit of everything in between and beyond.

As I bring this first (of hopefully many) post to a close, I do want to say that this isn’t a cry for help. I want to make it abundantly clear that, at least at the time of writing this, I am in a pretty alright place mentally. And I want it to be known that this isn’t a way of me whining “O, woe is me!” I’m well aware that there are plenty of people with harder situations, who have a much more rugged past behind them. Personally, I believe experiences are relative, and I loathe people who try and make suffering competitive.

I created this blog with the intention of letting out a lot of things that have been kept bottled up for way too long. Maybe someone can find solace in reading my words because they’ve experienced similar things, felt the same pangs in their chest over things the world calls minuscule, but felt like it was the end of the line. I’m writing and posting these things as a means of maybe, hopefully working through some of my problems, recording my journey, organizing a few of my way too hectic thoughts, and leaving myself more open and exposed than I ever have been, even with people in my closest of circles. It’s so that maybe I can pull myself out of the traumas of the past and all my bad decisions, and finally put my eyes to tomorrow.