#Phoebe and melody... Obsessed

[cassmouse]

Okay but if a big icy demon lord wanted me to willingly separate my body from my consciousness for two minutes then sending a pretty ghost girl to convince me to do it would be a really effective way to go about it so

[bethsvrse]

They’re gay, your honour 

[karis-online-archives]

Me???? Drawing more of the Checkmatch Locke and Key AU??? Where’d you get that from????

[hollaback--girl]

Phoebe and Melody right now be like:

IN THE CAR I JUST CAN'T WAIT, TO PICK YOU UP IN OUR VERY FIRST DATE

IS IT COOL IF I HOLD YOUR HAND?

IS IT WRONG IF I THINK IT'S LAME TO DANCE?

[showmethesneer]

I am literally Melody on Crashing and i will be until the day i die 🤣🤣🤣

[buckleybobin]

not to be annoying but i would read the hell out of this if it was an actual series of chapters

Cool Girl, Glitter Underneath Her Eyes

Pairing: Phoebe Spengler/Melody

thank you for the request! this made me remember how bad I cared for them oh em gee

A chess board. Phoebe set up all the pieces. A game, requiring the strategic back and forth between two people. She didn’t know what she was expecting, really. Who she was expecting was gone- passed on into the fabric of the universe. She surrendered to her reality, continuing the game in his absence. She doesn’t enjoy admitting it, but she wouldn’t have believed it if she hadn’t seen it. It wasn’t science, yet she embraced it. It became her livelihood  Her mom was so obviously in the wrong, yet she was still on the sidelines. All anyone around her did was try to be her friend while she tried to work. She placed the opposing piece down a little harder than she wanted. 

Before she could start another move, there’s an arm over her shoulder. The hand connected to that arm, pale and dainty, retaliating. There was a girl connected to that arm.

“Boo.”

Phoebe blinked. A girl around her age, with short blonde hair, looking down at her expectantly. Very short, actually, shorter than her own. She had a light jacket over her dress, making Phoebe lower her eyebrows slightly. Dresses on a summer evening were impractical. The girl raised her eyebrows.

She stalled for a minute, before she continued the move. “Hey,” she said uncertainly as she placed her own piece down.

The girl paused behind her, before sitting down at the empty seat slowly. “I didn’t scare you?”

An awkward air. “Were you trying to?” She didn’t know if she should move another piece or not, hand hovering over the board before it occurred to her that she couldn’t until the other player decided to.

“Usually people run by now.”

“I can…leave, if you want-”                   “No- I’m not saying…”

The other girl dropped it. They played back and forth, so quick that the stranger won. Phoebe looked at the board, eyebrows furrowed as the teenager across from her reset the game. “You got a name?” She placed down the final player on her own side.

“Phoebe.” She contemplated what would’ve happened if she stayed back at the firehouse, instead.

“I’m Melody.” A new game started.

“Cool name.” The warm streetlamps above paved Melody’s almost ghastly white hands in a near orange glow. Phoebe wasn’t trying to come off as rude. Or she was. This just wasn’t what she was looking for tonight, or her summer, really. She didn’t want a friend. She wanted to do her job. 

“Thanks,” Melody moved fast. “It’s my grandma’s name.”

Phoebe stopped playing. “I was being sarcastic.”

She was unaffected, continuing the game. “I like you,” she admitted, not looking up from the table. 

Phoebe felt the urge to make conversation, even if it was trivial. “Why are you out so late?” Melody made a fairly smart play.

“I got off work late. And my parents aren’t home, so I figured. Night out on the town.” She gestured to the empty park around them. Phoebe was compelled to laugh, even if it was a little bit. If she had been looking up, she’d seen the slight smile on Melody’s face. “Why are you out?”

Her joy shrunk. She waved her hand around slightly as she searched for the right piece, as well as the right words. “I ran away from home.”

Melody lights up, face showing both impression and surprise. Her mom gave her that look. Gary gave her that look. Even Trevor gave her that look but it was different on her. There was no underlying motive behind it.

“Shit, really?” She won, again. Phoebe took the liberty of resetting the game.

“No. Of course not. But they make me want to.” Melody hummed in acknowledgment.

“If you ever do run away, you could always go to my place.” Phoebe fumbled her move then, losing one of her pawns immediately.

She dismissed the thought. “Wouldn’t I have to run away again when your parents found out?” Melody contemplated it with her head on her fist. “Start at square one?”

“My parents will have anyone.” Phoebe’s eyebrows twitched at that. She was remembering her own predicament, and why she was here, playing chess with someone she’s never met before. An unfortunate coincidence. She fought ghosts in her spare time- she trapped them, she watched them phase through walls and ease in and out of other planes. But there really was no concrete proof of fate. Things happened, in either positive or negative sequences. She was powerless to try and stop how and when things happened, so why did her natural sequence seem so screwed?

She didn’t express her thoughts with anything more than a dark look, Melody’s knight in her palm. “That’s their problem,” she muttered. Her opponent stopped moving, a near offended look on her face as she opened her mouth to speak. “-Not your parents.” Phoebe spoke up, weak and a little embarrassed. “Sorry.”

Melody bounced back, unaffected. “Who’s your ‘they’?” She sighed out her nose lightly if not to herself. “My mom. Trevor.” She scrunched her nose. “Gary.” Melody returned the expression, the game slowing down.

“I don’t know what they did. But I don’t like Gary’s,” Phoebe was internally embarrassed at how high and unnatural the laughter she couldn’t stop sounded. Did she always laugh like this? Melody continued, laughing herself. “I mean- have you ever met a coolGary?”

Melody made a move. Phoebe was too tired and too confused to reciprocate it to the best of her mental capacity. 

“You’re going back there?”

Phoebe shut her eyes. “I don’t think I have a choice.” There was an unexpected nighttime breeze that shivered her core, startling her back to attention. Her piece fell from the force of the wind, and Melody caught it, placing it on her side of the board as she ultimately won their last game. Before Phoebe could say anything, Melody was already halfway gone. She suddenly felt a franticness she couldn’t justify to herself.

“Where are you going?” She called out, voice reverberating through the park. Melody didn’t spare her a look back as she kept walking, hands in her pockets.

“You could follow me and find out.” Phoebe clenched the edge of the table, before rising hastily.

Stupid, stupid fate.

[sampsdoessims]

favorite cc collections (maxis match) p1

here is a list of my favorite cc collections available right now! these are mostly clothing/hair, and mostly for female sims (not to say you can't use these for any sim-- i just mean it looks feminine/girly!)! NEXT POST will be favorite male sims cc! stay tuned <3

@joliebean's HIGH TIDE COLLECTION has 14 items, with some gorgeous, feminine swimsuits, jewelry and cover-ups. it's beautiful for summer, or if you like to play in sulani!

@simcelebrity00's Yes, And? Set is technically, well... a set LOL. but it has six ADORABLE items, so I thought i'd include it. If you love Ariana Grande's aesthetic, your going to love this! it includes jewelry, a dress, a hairstyle, and a gloss!

i've already posted this one here, that's how much i love it! if you love kpop, you will love this too. @trillyke's HOT MESS collection is inspired by Aespa. trillyke describes it as "grunge" and "y2k", which is true! but the items (imo) are super versatile if you are into making alt sims from so many aesthetics! i personally am obsessed with the MANY accessories, my favorite being "melody's headphones"!

switching gears, if you are into the "model off-duty", "clean girl" look. you are going to OBSESS over @twisted-cat's OVERRIDE COLLECTION. the items are super classic and elegant, and work beautifully together. but they are also basics, so they can work with other items in your collection as well! i wish these were part of my irl wardrobe, that's how much i love them.

@arethabee is probably one of my favorite cc creators ever (and to be fully transparent, i am a member of her patreon!). her ritual collection is INSANE, especially if you are into 90s fashion, or whimsigoth imo. if you are obsessed with charmed or phoebe from friends (if she was a witch), you are going to fall for this cc as much as me! my personal favorite items are the cordelia (beetlejuice reference maybe???) cardigan and the aradia (so many possible references, i'm having a hard time) skirt. btw, i think she really succeeded with her goal of being "witchy" but "casual". let me know if i missed anything, but there will definitely be a part 2! i really love downloading collections to make cohesive looks for my sims. i like them to kind of stick to an aesthetic, and collections are so good for that. AND i have tested all of these in-game and they look wonderful! lmk if you want to see my sims <3 and if anything isn't working for you, update me! all creators are tagged! please check them out and support them!

[xmalfoyweasleyx]

Songs the acotar men would be obsessed with

RHYS

He would love the peacefulness of this song and it makes him think of Feyre of course

Aren’t we all sure the man absolutely loves classical music? I’m almost sure of this. The melody fits the night court vibe so well to me

He would love Phoebe Bridgers

CASSIAN

Cassian is like a big pop girly, you can’t convince me otherwise

Yes, I chose a one direction song. He would go crazy on the bridge of this one. I just know. He would make a whole performance out of it

Cause this guy is fearless + definitely would be a swiftie, he sings and hums this song all the time

This is for when he’s in his feels. Honestly, he would cry while listening to this (I was also thinking Matilda by Harry Styles, but I couldn’t choose)

AZRIEL

Az would vibe so hard with Tame Impala

Okay, I know, not one of Taylor’s popular songs, but I feel like Az would listen to folklore or evermore when he’s in his feels and he is a secret swiftie. This song reminds me so much of him because I think he would relate and have the feeling he could never give the girl he loves peace :( :( :( crying rn

Okay listen, when he’s in the mood and feels like vibing and partying he would go so hard on this one.

LUCIEN

Lucien loves folk, another thing I’m sure about.

He relates cause it makes him think of the way he doesn’t really know where his real “home” is and doesn’t feel understood :(

A Fleetwood Mac fan for sure

[urmom-richietozier1]

My ghostbusters fan made character

Chrissy (Chris) Sharkey

Chrissy/ Chris is 17.

A ghost :3

Close friends with Lauren, rin, kalani and some others

Not close with Trevor (at all)

They're obsessed with the grunge 90s style.

They loves nirvana sm.

They're aroace.

They meet lived in Northern Ireland from when she was born until she was 13 then she moved to summervile. And her parents moved to NYC.

She lived with her brother in summervile

They skateboards almost everywhere.

Like they'll not take any other mode of transport thing unless it would take to long to get there.

They used to be blonde but died their hair at home with her brother one time when they were 14 to a brown.

When she was 17 (rn) she died her hair half black and half blonde

They write music, and plays guitar and drums.

Their in a band called "The ghouls"

They want to be a famous band when they're older.

Their parents are not alive (poor baby) they died when she was 14/15

Has an older brother that they live with. He's 26.

They are obsessed with abandoned places.

When they had no friends the one place they would hang out it an abandoned house. Where they swear she saw ghost there.

They once was on a late night skate when she saw Phoebe and Melody together. But they didn't say anything to anyone.

Ships Phoelody 100%

Musical obsessed!!!!!

Like has watched every single musical!!

Loves reading mystery books or romance books.

Horror move manic!

Hopefully yall like them:3

[cassmouse]

YESSS I THINK IT WAS ME AND I COMPLETELY AND ENTIRELY AGREE I LOVE THIS IDEA

It could honestly be so so so good like the vibes would be impeccable

I forgot who told me to add dance with you from the prom to my checkmatch playlist(maybe @cassmouse ).

but now I’m like, Phelody the prom au?

Phoebe is Emma

melody is Alyssa

the four og ghostbusters can be the Broadway stars

Gary can be the supportive principal

[phoebesspikytitties]

𝓑𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽𝓼

Lucy dacus x f reader

You and Lucy see each other at a party for the first time in years, and surprisingly remembers you.

Warnings for part one:

Mostly fluff and flirting, gets a little dirty at the end

This is the first story either of us (account owners) have written! Thanks for reading 🖤 -🦷

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

You couldn't believe it, you were at the same event as boygenius, especially Lucy Dacus. You've had an eye on her since about 2017. Yes you'd met and talked at some of her early shows, but then you were always just a fan, not at a fundraiser party with her.

Lucy was wearing this stunning bodysuit, mesh cross-front with a silver ring in the center of her chest. But most importantly this top was sheer, and she was only wearing pasties, something you never thought you'd see up close. Those little black hearts did something to you that you couldn't explain.

The night goes on, and since you didn't want to seem obsessive, you'd only waved and smiled at Lucy. As you're sitting in a secluded hallway you hear Lucy approach you.

"Hi!! I've been wondering where you went! I remember you from those shows so long ago, how are you doing??!" Is this actually happening?

You give Lucy a shocked smile and reply "Oh? Hi!! Just needed a break from the chaos, but, you remember me?"

Lucy smiles and says "I could never forget you, you're absolutely beautiful."

Lucy Dacus just called you beautiful. You could die happy.

"Oh my gosh, you're one to be saying that," as you look her up and down and smirk. Lucy gets that little pink tint to her cheeks and smiles.

"So, how have you been? How long has it been since I've seen you?" You say.

"I've been good! last time we talked was in 2018, so 5 years."

"Wow, it's been that long? Thats crazy." You can't help yourself from admiring her while talking to you.

"So I see you have a couple days off from tour! Are you staying here for the night?"

Her face lights up, "Yes! That's actually why i came over here, i was wondering if you wanted to go to dinner tomorrow night? That's the last night we're in town and I'd really like to take you out!" She has the purest smile as she talks.

"Oh my, um, yes I'd love that! Here's my number so we can work out the details." You hear a distant voice yelling for her, turning around to see Phoebe waving you two over.

You get to Phoebe and see her smile at Lucy and mouth the words "you did it!" to her. Julien appears from behind her and phoebe starts dancing with J, the song fades into Silk Chiffon by MUNA, honestly one of your favorite songs, and Lucy appears to feel the same. She takes your hand and starts dancing, pulling you closer to her.

She looks at you, in your long dress, and sings "she's so soft like silk chiffon," turning you around with her front to your back, swaying you to the melody. You turn back around as Sofia by Clairo starts playing, a song you are both very familiar with, and you smile up at her, grabbing her by the waist.

You two end up leaning against the wall to the side of the dance floor. By the end of the song, you look up at her, your eyes just at her lip level as she bends down to kiss you. You're too distracted by the kiss to tell what song is playing, and as you get lost in her lips you feel her pull you closer, bringing her leg in between yours, basically pinning you to the wall. She kisses you again, causing your leg to graze her crotch. Her breath hitches, but the kiss continues.

Before things can get any more heated, you hear a "Luuuuuucccyyyy! We've gotta go, the driver is here." She abruptly breaks the kiss, turning around to look at Julien. Turning back to you, she places one last gentle kiss on your lips.

"I'll text you when we're back at the hotel and we can make plans for tomorrow." Her hands come up to caress her face as she speaks.

"It's a date," you breathe out, breathless and ready for what tomorrow might bring.

[cassmouse]

Making some serious refinements to the Checkmatch playlist rn. I'll probably post it tonight?? Depends how many changes I want to make in the second half lmao

[phoebeejeebies]

i have a strange obsession with phoebe x melody

no i'm totally normal about it

now im not a professional, but you might be experiencing something called a hyperfixation :-) shout out phoebe and melody! they, too, enlightened something in me and now i am Very invested in ghostbusters as a whole

[ajarofsugarfreestrawberryjam]

songs that are so anderperry-coded. . . ♡

this version especially...

i could quote the whole song but here are my fave lines:

And then I can tell myself What the hell I'm supposed to do

I had all and then most of you Some and now none of you

mostly cute, also gut-wrenching at times. still obsessed

All I know for now is our bodies clutching tight Leaving wrinkles across your eyelids From the sheet that is our garden And I sincerely beg your pardon If I'll break your heart or if you will break mine

okay this one's gonna be long but i've been obsessed with this song since like march and i've just joined the DPS fandom and it's so anderperry. . . !

All my friends tell me I should move on I'm lying in the ocean, singing your song Ahh That's how you sang it

todd reading a midsummer night's dream out loud every night, always accompanied by hysterical sobbing and wailing that gets harder when neil's parts come up. . .

Loving you forever can't be wrong Even though you're not here, won't move on Ahh That's how we played it

todd wasn't going to be the same after neil, everybody knew. he became closer with the poets (and jeff, they had a heart-to-heart talk after jeff found out), yes, but with other people, he became even more closed off, not wanting to let people in, too scared of pain.

And there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody It won't leave my head Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine But I wish I was dead (dead, like you)

the poets never left todd alone that much post-neil (unpredictable, he was. better safe if ever). the times they did it was to give him space, or because it was physically impossible to be there with him. they take turns rooming with him at night, stolen bed sheets laid on the floor. they don't use neil's bed; it's sacred, it's to be left the same as it is before. todd's sobs synchronize with their soothing voices. and sometimes they start crying too, and that's when todd feels that he's not alone the most, ever since neil.

Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise No one compares to you I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side Every time I close my eyes, it's like a dark paradise No one compares to you I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side

todd's surrounding was suffocating. everything reminds him of neil neil neil neil neil. the door to their room, and every other room because their doors were identical. their room: on the first week, he slept on neil's bed, and then he slept on the floor for weeks until he felt okay enough to sleep on his own bed. if he closes his eyes hard enough, concentrates hard enough, he can hear himself and neil.

sorry it became a lyric analysis or whatever This is basically hyperfixation #1 + hyperfixation #2 it's great!!

[ohsonowyouwantahazel]

crashing [into the floor w laughter]

e1

phoebe waller-bridge is just so wonderful at writing and playing wackadoo (see: realistic and hilarious) women. literally just looking at her is so good. fuck. makes me want to watch fleabag again.

JONATHAN BAILEY IS SO DJBSJD. gayest man. i love gay men. they're so fun.

"no one should have to go around carrying this much grief. and this much semen." he's so fucking funny

FJSBJDDBND EVERYTHING IS SO GREAT ABOUT THIS SHOW WHY IS IT SO SHORT GIVE ME 47378337 SEASONS

sam is as gay as a fucking maypole. and omg. i love fred. please get together my angelic babies.

i am so attracted to sam and jonathan bailey (i am a hardcore dyke)

did i say i absolutely love waller-bridge as weird fucked up women? yes i absolutely do. i will say it forever. my type is whatever she plays + twinky gay men who pretend to be straight

e2

THIS IS COMEDY GOLD PLEASE WRITE MORE OF THIS????

this show is just me being attracted to nearly everyone - lulu, sam, melody, jessica. i have a type.

it's so funny seeing unmasked weird fucked up women make masked weird fucked up women uncomfortable and ultimately themself

i didn't think anyone could write a one sided unrequited love w an arc-ish of emotional cheating so well but waller-bridge does it again

e3

absolutely cannot tell if indian accent is racist or not?????

FRED HAS A BF AND ITS NOT SAM?

honestly kate and lulu should just fuck it out not anthony

only waller-bridge can make a pathetic white man likeable ejdbfj melody and her obsession w crying colin

SAM IS JEALOUS OMG OMG OMG i really don't think anyone can beat jonathan bailey at being jealous

i love when groups of people are always shitshows like this and the bear are fucking awesome rhsvjfbddb

SHE'S LICKING THE CURRY OFF THE FLOOR JESUS CHRIST IN HELL

sam and lulu sound like they should fuck but it'll be funnier if they don't because idk it's just funnier that way

"i'll let you call me free" HDGSJSBF

OH MY GOD KATW EHBSDJ BC HE CRIES???? OH FUCBDBD IT'S FUCKING AMAZING OMG

e4

PAINTBALL IS THE BEST THING and omg kate djbdjf loosen up baby HELL YEAH

not enough comments because i too was having way too much fun

oof. "i pretend to be in love with you" OOF?

..... sam and lulu bye

e5

watching this episode atleast three weeks after the last one

"i fancy you"

why am i just realising the names are kate and anthony like it's a stupid coincidence but it is so funny to me thfbfjsb

EVICTION NOTICE????

will might be a good guy but i absolutely do not like him and (wow it is kinda hard to not immediately villainize him but also not that hard ngl) and HE IS GIVING STINKY ENERGY

hm. the energy is stinky because he's asking him to move in not because he wants to be with him but because he doesn't want fred to be w sam

SHE PUKES IN THE FOOD MY GOD THIS IS SO RIDICULOUSLY DIMFBSJSBDJD

......... i hate will rn but djfvf is he initiating a poly????

PEHDHFBF THIS TURNED OUT EXACTLY LIKE I EXPECTED ITS SO FUCKING HILARIOUS HEVSHDBFN

"who's the man in the picture?" "he's my father" UEGEJDBRND DELIVERY? CREATION? THEY INVENTED COMEDY?

e6

last episode? why aren't there 586374 seasons already

gdgsjdfb sam my dude

the part w melody and colin is oooooo but aw colin is a nice man

kate is not a lesbian she is just very stuck up but not in a bad way

lulu rushjdbf idc if she's messed up she's hilarious

DON'T FUCK LULU AND ANTHONY????

fred my baby :((((( sam get over yourself baby boy and be happy please?

"i'm a neither queen" AND HE SAYS IT IN THE MOST GAY ASS TWINKEST WAY

SAM KISSED FRED FHSBDJ HES SO CUTE MY BABY BOY SO CUTE PERFECTEST CUTIEST PIE

anthony is kind of a dick but not really but it's just that kate and anthony are not correct for each other or maybe i'm easily influenced

...... THAT'S THE END???? BRISGDJFGDJ BRO NO WHAT HAPPENS HELLO????

THAT IS NOT THE END? GIVE ME MORE

[wrongcaitlyn]

hi!! i know you get a lot of music recs but i thought i might just add some of my own too bc i love the dear reader series sm and literally cannot stop connecting songs to it 😭

'favor' by julien baker is maybe a bit depressing but also some of the lyrics just seem so nico, like 'turns out that all my friends were trying to do me a favour' and saying how hard it is to be tender and all (i feel like she has a lot of depressing songs which could be past nico-coded but not so much with his mental health getting better??)

but also more positively 'free treasure' by adrianne lenker which doesn't super feel like nico's style in terms of melody but the lyrics kind of fit to me, with things like 'you show me understanding, patience and pleasure' and 'just when i thought i couldn't feel more, i feel a little more'

also (last one!!) 'it'll all work out' by phoebe bridgers i can kind of see as nico either to bianca or to himself pre-transition - just kind of sad but healing at the same time

thank you for letting me ramble!! i love your work <3

AHHSDF YAY MORE SONG RECS sorry it took so long to get to listening to these but i'm here!!!

i swear julien baker (as well as lucy dacas) are artists that i keep telling myself i need to listen to bc i do love a lot of phoebe bridgers and boygenius songs and yet i never have😭 I WILL THIS SUMMER god i actually need to make a list of discographies to binge it's just hard forcing myself to listen to new musiclksjfd

but anyway onto the songs!!

you are SO real about depressive songs being so nico, and honestly even though his mental health is getting better, the problems don't always go completely away! i think it's very natural for him to still have those depressive songs, because like, he is still struggling with depression and ptsd and definitely still has bad days, and uses music as a way to vent :/

as for favor, these lyrics are SPOT ON but what stood out even more was the production on first listen, like it's such a nico coded song from everything from the lyrics to the production and i just love it?? god i have a playlist of songs that i want to add to albums and this is going straight there, at this point i have so many songs that i don't have the timespan to possibly have nico release all of them but i'll just keep in mind for possible future playlists😭😭 i absolutely love that one!! the lyric you pointed out is literally so real, and also "how long do i have until /i've spent up everyone's goodwill?" is just SO nico coded oh my god😭it's definitely him in high school coded, just thinking every now and then of like why he ended up where he did :/ and "who put me in your way to find? what right had you not to let me die?"LKSDJFDSJF IM SO OBSESSED WITH THIS NOW WTF im gonna keep listening to it all day and stressing over which possible album i could fit it in because i'm like out of room but also aghsldkfjsldf it needs to go somewhere

anyway. NEXT ONE

these lyrics😭😭i wanna cry this is just him finally feeling comfortable and happy and content with his life and with will and AHGSLDFJ THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY "we're sitting on the kitchen floor / just when i thought i couldn't feel more / i feel a little more" LIKE. THEY'RE JUST. SOULMATES. I LOVE THEM. AND I LOVE THIS.

(just scrolled back up and saw that that was the lyric that you put into the ask and that was a total coincidence but just goes to show your idea was absolutely perfect like spot on)

now onto phoebe!! i've listened to stranger in the alps a few times but i don't think i heard this one before which is odd, but then again i don't listen to phoebe as much as i'd like :/

but holy shit. i wish i heard this earlier. this one is 100% going on an album i just need to figure out which one bc it's literally perfect wtf. "when she needed me i wasn't around" talking abt when bianca died and he wasn't there, and then "now the wind is high and the rain is heavy" the RAINSDLFJ all i can think abt is nico thinking abt bianca when his dad died and the same sorta situation :// "never goes away, but it all works out" is just him finally trying to work through the trauma over the years and him finally coming to a time of like sort of peace? and contentedness in his life??

also idk why but my first thought at the lyric of "better off with him than here with me" was hearing it as "better off with Him" as in like referring to god and heaven, "than here with me" :(( i know that's 100% not the og meaning but that's how i initially interpreted it (bc i was already thinking of biancaksljdf) and probably how i'll continue to see it😭😭

anyway these were SUCH beautiful recs omg thank you so so much <333 i shall now scour through my playlists to try and find spots for them!!! worst comes to worst i'll have to move a few other songs into being unreleased songs, or singles, and maybe make a playlist of unreleased songs, and another for singles, we'll see!