#Personal rambling but also Ok to rb if you resonate
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I just had a thought about how easily I "get addicted" to things. Just a long rambling that ends with : ignore the protestant police if your head.
If I try a new game and really like it, I might play it multiple hours a day for 2 weeks. It happens with computer games and sudoku. I played nyan cat for hours on end when I was a kid, because it is really appealing to kids. And then the urge to play the game goes down to a moderate rate or goes away completely.
I ran consistently for 6 years, like I had a running season, and I made a weekly schedule for it, and if something happened that prevented me from going running, I would be pissed about it. Because it was a really enjoyable activity that I liked doing. I was often laughing when running, because it just made me so happy.
I downloaded tiktok in December 2021 and randomly deleted it in January, because I didn't really like it that much.
I used to drink a lot of coffee, because I like the taste and hot temperature, but now on some days I don't drink any coffee, and I don't get withdrawl symptons.
I was always so worried that I am somehow a risky person, that I should be very careful about everything nice and fun because I might get addicted to it. Something something non rent paying protestant police in my head refuces to leave me. And I didn't even get addicted to tiktok. I tried smoking too, and didn't care for it so that didn't stick on me either. Like. What. Who put that police in my head, I don't think it was me, because tiktok and nicotine did nothing to me.
I feel like the message I still see in my curated rage bait media feed is: if you can't go a day without doing/having something that you specifically like (literal drug or anything else commonly known to be addicting or anything else a human might get a crumb of joy from), you are a pathetic addict that doesn't have a real life, real life defined by my standards, and there is no cure for you and you are destroying our culture.
I am actively going against that protestant police in my head by buying some good hard candy to keep in my jacket pocket so that I can have something sweet when I am walking home drunk from a party on one of those perfect cold evenings. And a lot of other life's simple joys, but that one is next on my list because they are already selling Christmas candies at the store. And a lot of life's big joys.
#Like I used to genuinely feel bad for buying candy because I MUST BE ADDICTED TO IT BECAUSE IT TASTES GOOD AND THAT IS BAD like shut up#Personal rambling but also Ok to rb if you resonate#Talk of addiction#Idk how else to tag this
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