#Paula Kay

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Kai Paula by Scott West (2023)

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[thestudfarm]

Kai Paula

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[nocakesformissedith]

what if Tom and Daisy Buchanan but they’re mean girls??

[100hearteyes]

Albie being duped by the "wounded bird" type he's attracted to (and reiterating that he wants to respect women but then ogling that woman at the airport, just like his dad and granddad) and Portia being fucked over and increasingly disenchanted by the "caveman" who's "totally ignorant of the discourse" that she craved, and that adventure she so wanted to go on, and then the two of them coming back together in the end and regretting the real-life enactment of their warped, deluded fantasies is one of the many great things about The White Lotus.

A very unpleasant TV show about very unpleasant people. It's so fascinating though. And so good. Definitely binge worthy.

[esteemed-excellency]

I'm finally on pinterest! I spent the entire day making a reference board for Hiram and the Deviless, so here they are.

I also made two boards for Hiram (references + aesthetic), and two fashion boards.

The pics are from:

His Supreme Moment (1925), Jane Winton and Ronald Colman

Flesh and the Devil (1926), Greta Garbo and John Gilbert

Raffles (1930), Kay Francis and Ronald Colman

Maskerade (1934), Paula Wessely and Anton Walbrook

La Bohème (1926), John Gilbert and Lilian Gish

Ronald Colman again but I can't find the movie's title or the actress' name :(

The Masks of the Devil (1928), John Gilbert and Eva von Berne

William Powell and Myrna Loy, I can't remember the name of the movie but to be fair they made 14 movies together and I haven't seen them all

The Way of Lost Souls (1929), Warwick Ward and Paola Negri

[terrence-silver]

What would Terry and Beloved wear to the Met Gala?

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Terry Silver strikes me as a bit more lowkey as to attend the Met Gala.

Not because he has anything particularly for or against it, but simply because it's not his scene necessarily, I don't think. Well, not in the way most people would understand, that is. He's not actor. He's not a singer. He's not an aspiring Starlet. He's not looking for a role. He's not a celebrity in the classical sense. He's wealth. He's power. He's that person half of Hollywood probably wants to be like. He's the guy on a gala afterparty who hangs out with all the bigwigs in a joint or salon off limits even to most A-listers where actual business is being discussed while everyone outside's doing rounds on the Red Carpet, showing off their respective frills and feathers, wooing journalists, fans and reporters. And that's not to say Terry Silver's quite so lowkey as not to be flashy or revile costume events, because we all know this man's extravagant as all hell (after all, he showed up to the All-Valley in a silk red ascot) it is just that he's probably looking for ways to make a profit, swindle a deal, make some sort of connection, discover a secret he could later use as leverage or expand a businesses even at such a major event and it literally takes minimal effort on his part to steal everyone's limelight even if he does briefly appear in front of the actual cameras; everyone's there, decked out in excessive levels of elaborate, thematic costuming and Terry Silver shows up in a classical, immaculately-tailored tux and he's still somehow the highlight of the Red Carpet because of how imposing and handsome he is, without any adornments needed to enhance him --- a fact that makes him infinitely gleeful because that right there --- that's influence. He's not a dance monkey. He watches all the other monkeys dance.

As for beloved?

Does he want to share them with the whole world? To be judged? Their outfit measured and rated? Deemed good or bad? Their face? Body? Eyes? Hands? Nose? Legs? Hair? All on display for everyone who isn't him? Plastered across the news? Across TV? I don't think so. If they attend, they never leave his side for a moment, tucked away with him at some private VIP lounge, where their presence remains confined with him and for him only --- he's selfish and greedy like that. Terry Silver shows up at the Met Gala very briefly, becomes the talk of the whole event, spoils it for everyone who put Millions of dollars into outfits only to be outshined by someone in a tux and a Rolls Royce, disappears at will and the reason he appeared in the first place was to meet up with some Los Angeles fat cats and toast to a newly merged business; a million dollar deal happening behind closed doors.

In his older days, present time?

He's more prone to have an actual celebrity that appeals to young people and the general crowd attend with some sort of Cobra Kai related insignia in the theme of their outfit in order to promote his line of dojos, tactically hooking in people to sign up, rather than do anything of the sort himself. Hey. It's excellent marketing. We'd be shocked how many people will feel drawn to a thing if, say, in the 80's, Paula Abdul stepped out at the Met with the Cobra Kai symbol on her dress or if thirty years later, some famous person did the same. Or if even several of them did it at the same time.

[doyouknowthisactor]

By "roles" I mean playing a different character, and in a different piece of media; someone playing one character across a franchise only counts as one thing for the purposes of this poll, as does playing multiple characters in one franchise/piece of media

Below are some of this actor's roles. Please only check after voting!

Creature from the Black Lagoon as Kay Lawrence

Bend of the River as Laura Baile

Murder She Wrote as Eve Simpson

Capitol as Paula Denning

Adams was formerly married to actor Ray Danton. Her first husband, Leonard Stern, was one of the creators of Mad Libs.

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[moonlight-yuyu]

About me:

✧my name is Gigi which is a nickname of my real name

✧I'm a cancer sun, sagittarius moon, libra rising, Leo mercury and venus and a libra mars (before I got into astrology I thought I am a textbook water sign... well it turned out that cancer is my only water placement in my chart)

✧MBTI: INFJ

✧I graduated uni this summer and I'm a psychologist now

✧I love the moon and the stars although I love the sun rising time the most

✧favourite movies: All Spiderman movies (my fav Peter Parker is by far Andrew Garfield!) my favourite character from the miles movies is Gwen Stacy <3; VENOM (he is one of my favourite Spiderman villains besides Kraven the Hunter and Green goblin); I am also so sad that a lot of people didn't enjoy the Madam Web movie because I think it's such a cool idea making a movie about spider-women; I also love old German movies, Toy Story and Twilight :D

✧favourite series/ K-Drama: GOT, HOD, Euphoria, Imitation (obviously lol), Queen of Tears, Criminal Mind

✧favourite game: Animal crossing, Spiderman 2, Luigi's Mansion

✧my favourite quote currently: "I hear when you cry it rains in heaven" - NCT Dream

✧my interests/ hobbies: painting, astrology, reading, rewatching movies/ series, learning new languages

✧Artist I listen to besides Kpop: 5SOS, Nickelback, Chase Atlantic and some German artists like Shirin David or Paula Hartmann

✧Kpop Groups I stan + my biases

Ateez (ult group): Bias Yunho, bias wrecker San

Monsta X: Bias Joohoney, bias wrecker IM

NCT Dream: Bias Chenle, bias wrecker Jeno

Xikers: Bias Sumin, bias wrecker Hunter

Enhypen: Bias Jay, bias wrecker currently Jungwon

AESPA: Bias Karina, bias wrecker Giselle

Riize: Bias Anton, bias wrecker Wonbin

Oneus: Bias Keonhee, bias wrecker: Seoho

&Team: Bias Fuma, bias wrecker K

BTS: Bias Jin, bias wrecker RM

ZB1: Bias: Matthew, bias wrecker: Gyuvin

TXT: Bias Yeonjun, bias wrecker Kai

Solo Artist: Hwasa, Paul Kim, Taemin, I'MIN, MIYEON

✧ my favourite songs from those groups:

Halazia -Ateez

Every day every moment - Paul Kim

Chilli - Hwasa

Intro (Ambition) - Joohoney

MMI - IM

Just love - (Monsta X)

Taemin - Heaven

I'MIN - That kind of love

MIYEON - Rose

TXT - Puma

BTS - Fake Love

ZB1 - SWEAT

&Team - War Cry

OneUs - Erase me

Riize - Siren

AESPA - Drama

Enhypen - Chamber 5 (I hope that counts lol)

Xikers - Red Sun

NCT Dream - Hello Future

[tigerfush]

Just finished The White Lotus season 1, and yes all very obviously despicable characters but Paula, bloody Paula, made Kai steal from the rich white family she was holidaying with, purely cos she got grossed out by them, wanted revenge,  and then left him to rot in jail?! If you hate rich white people then why go on holiday with them? Why be friends with them? She’s exactly the same as her snotty white best friend and now she knows it.Ugh!

[lettingtimepass]

Just finished rewatching The White Lotus, Season 1...

God, what a show. Here are some of my outstanding thoughts and questions!!

Do you think Oliva had a romantic crush on Paula, or was she just an overcontrolling friend?

Why why WHY does Rachel go back with Shane at the end??? I think the idea is she's not strong enough to leave. Yet still I feel so bad for her!!! I totally foresee her and Shane having kids, hoping to make her happy and have some meaning in her life but instead, she's still unhappy and the cycle continues!!!

Did Greg intentionally seek out Tonya? It's not totally clear, but considering his scheming in season 2, is it possible he actually had some intel on Tonya, purposefully staged the "meet-cute" outside her room, and pursued her knowing who she was? Either way, fuck you Greg.

Paula encourages Kai to steal from the rich white people and this blows up in their faces. Is this a cautionary tale saying that trying to do a just action in the wrong way is wrong, or is it a commentary that justice will always work out for only the privileged class?

The cycle repeating it's self at the end GAWD. And endless cycle of exploitation, death and destruction. It can only end when someone removes themselves like Quinn at the end!!

Speaking of, I SO want to see Mark and Nicole's reaction when they realize Quinn didn't get on the plane hahaha.

Armond shitting in the suitcase hahahaah I forgot about that. God damnit Armond, you'll always be famous.

[afaims100arrowversefavs]

My 250 Favorite Arrowverse Episodes: Part 2: 225-201

Taken from „Arrow“, „The Flash“, „Supergirl“, „Legends of Tomorrow“, „Constantine“, „Black Lightning“, „Batwoman“, „Stargirl“ and Season 1-3 of „Superman & Lois“:

In honor of Seaosn 4 of "Superman & Lois" being the end of the Arrrowverse, the end of DCTV like we knew it and the end of The CW like we knew it, a final time before the final season all Seasons ends of all the 250 best Arrowverse Episodes (according to me):

I did include "Stargirl" this time, since it has as much connection as "Superman & Lois" to the rest of the Arrowverse, but One Hit Shows like "Gotham Knights" and "Naomi" (anyone still remember this one?) are not on this list, neither are Arrowverse unrelated DC shows:

225. Tender is the Nate (Legends of Tomorrow 4x6)

The One in which: A Minotaur gets a lullybye.

57, Written by: Phil Klemmer, Matthew Maala, Directed by: Dean Choe

224. Through the Looking Glass (Batwoman 1x16)

The One in which: A family buries a body together.

16, Written by: Nancy Kiu, Directed by: Sudz Sutherland

223. Homecoming (Supergirl 2x14)

The One in which: Jeremiah is back and not everyone is thrilled about that.

34, Written by: Caitlin Parrish, Derek Simon, Directed by: Larry Teng

222. City of Blood (Arrow2 x21)

The One in which: Oliver wants to go all in, but Slade does it first.

44, Written by: Holly Harold, Directed by: Michael Schultz

221. Grodd Lives (The Flash 1x21)

The One in which: Eddie is tied up and Grodd makes himself known.

21, Written by: Grainne Godfree, Kai Yu Wu, Directed by: Dermott Downs

220. The Justice Society of America (Legends of Tomorrow 2x2)

The One in which: The Legends meet real heroes and are totally not jealous.

18, Written by: Chris Fedak, Sarah Nicole Jones, Directed by: Michael Grossman

219. What We Leave Behind (Arrow 5x9)

The One in which: Curtis gets beaten up and we return to Season 1.

101, Written by: Wendy Mercile, Beth Schwartz, Directed by: Antionio Negret

218. The Monsters (Stargirl 3x9)

The One in which: A heartattack stops a greater tragedy from happening.

40, Written by: Geoff Johns, Andi Armaganian

217. Haywire (Superman & Lois 1x4)

The One in which: Lois tries to bring down Morgan Edge while Jonathan’s world has shifted.

4, Written by: Michael Narducci, Directed by: James Bamford

216. Dancing Queen (Legends of Tomorrow 4x3)

The One in which: Ray goes undercover in a punk band.

54, Written by: James Eagan, Morgan Faust, Directed by: Kristin Windell

215. The Martian Chronicles (Supergirl 2x11)

The One in which: There is shapeshifter in the DEO.

31, Written by: Gabrial Llanas, Anna Musky-Goldwyn, Directed by: David McWhirter

214. Seeing Red (Arrow 2x20)

The One in which: Slade stabs.

43, Written by: Wendy Mercile, Directed by: Doug Aaroniokoski

213. Rogue Air (The Flash 1x22)

The One in which: Barry asks Captain Cold for help and the Amell Cousins are in a scene together.

22, Written by: Todd and Aaron Helbing, Directed by: Doug Aarniokoski

212. Out of Time (Legends of Tomorrow 2x1)

The One in which: The Legends are time scattered.

17, Written by: Greg Berlanti, Chris Fedak, Phil Klemmer, Marc Guggenheim, Directed by: Dermott Downs

211. Call to Action (Supergirl 4x6)

The One in which: The Children of Liberty screw up Friendsgiving.

71, Written by: Gabriel Llanas, Daniel Beaty, Directed by: Antionio Negret

210. The Darkest Place (Supergirl 2x7)

The One in which:Cybory Superman turns up and Kara is in jail.

27, Written by: Robert Rovner, Paula Yoo, Directed by: Glen Winter

209. Birds of Prey (Arrow 2x17)

The One in which: Helena is back and Canary tries to handle her.

40, Written by: Mark Bemesderfer, A. C. Bradley, Directed by: John Behring

208. Crazy for you (The Flash 1x12)

The One in which: Barry and Caitlin do Karaoke and Shawna does jai breaking.

12, Written by: Todd and Aaron Helbing, Directed by: Rob Hardy

207. Abnominations (Legends of Tomorrow 2x4)

The One in which: Martin is afraid of Zombies.

20, Written by: Marc Guggenheim, Ray Utarnachitt, Directed by: Michael Allowitz

206. White Knights (Legends of Tomorrow 1x4)

The One in which: Leonard’s flirting saves the day and Sara makes a new friend.

4, Written by: Sarah Nicole Jones, Phil Klemmer, Directed by: Antionio Negret

205. The Sound and the Fury (The Flash 1x11)

The One in which: Hartley does revenge.

11, Written by: Alison Shapker, Brooke Eikmeier, Directed by: John Showalter

204. The Chicago Way (Legends of Tomorrow 2x8)

The One in which: Eliot Ness get imporsonated and Mick hallucinates.

24, Written by: Sarah Nicole Jones, Ray Utarnachitt, Directed by: Ralph Hemecker

203. City of Heroes (Arrow 2x1)

The One in which: Oliver returns home and everything is different.

24, Written by: Greg Berlanti, Marc Guggenheim, Andrew Kreisberg, Directed by: John Behring

202. Angels and Ministers of Grace (Constantine 1x12)

The One in which: Manny and Zed become friends.

12, Written by: Christine Boylan, Directed by: Sam Hill

201. Kara (Supergirl 6x20)

The One in which: There is a wedding, a lot of fighting and an interview.

126, Written by: Jessica Queller, Robert Rovner, Rob Wright, Derek Simon, Directed by: Jesse Warn

[clarkkantagain]

kai paula

[lovesosweeet]

better left unsaid // cth

chapter thirty four

in which orion has leukemia, and calum doesn’t know.

calum hood x fem!oc

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october 14, 2018 san diego, california orion

Going to chemo is a soul-emptying experience. Macy, Emelia, and Ashton all send me luck, but the more texts I receive in support, the worse I feel about it all. The more I wish I had Cal here, supporting me, whether simply via text or in person, holding my hand, offering me bags to throw up in… all of the gross shit. 

The Calum I love would be there through it all, but I pushed him away. I didn’t want him to see this. I still don’t want him to, but at the same time, I know my life would feel easier. His would feel way harder, and that’s what I’m trying to ameliorate.

I know now they are making up the handful of shows they missed after I threw everything off course, and then they’re flying to Europe for that leg of the tour. I’m glad they’re back on track, but it’s a little bittersweet knowing they’re off to visit the continent where I met Calum without me. That’s the leg of the tour I know Calum would’ve wanted me on, if only for a few days. We could have visited with Paula, Ilse, Marta, Giuseppe, Francesca… all of my friends from that part of the world.

I haven’t even told them the latest news. I haven’t even told them I’m dying. 

I know they deserve to know, I just don’t know how to tell them, so I haven’t told them. 

Today is my second to last round of chemo for this cycle, and then we get to analyze how well everything has been working to determine what’s next. I feel nervous, even though I know that there’s nothing I can do to change my fate. Everything is in my body’s hands. 

I’m caught off guard when KayKay calls me as I sit in the treatment room, but I pick it up quickly. She and I have no bad blood, only awkwardness. I’m not doing anything except sitting here, so I might as well fill the silence with something.

“Hi?” I answer, somewhat cautionary in my greeting.

“Orion! Oh my god, I’m so glad you picked up,” Kay says, sounding far too relieved. Did she really think I wouldn’t pick up?

“What’s up?” I ask. There’s an IV inserted into my arm and I’m slated to be here for hours. I have nothing but time.

“Nothing, actually,” she says, laughing slightly. “Just wanted to check in. Everyone has been so worried, but nobody thought you’d pick up, so no one thought reaching out was a good idea, but we’re all just kinda sitting here waiting on an update, so I’m glad you answered. Ash says you haven’t been answering his texts.”

I sigh. “Kay…”

She quickly corrects her course. “Orion, seriously, all of us are worried. Please, please don’t shut us all out. Just let us know how you’re doing, or at least me, since you’re already talking to me. I promise: we won’t show up without your permission or anything, we just want updates.”

“Kay, I just don’t want anything getting back to Cal. I don’t want him to worry about me.”

“Orion, you know good and well that boy is going to worry about you forever.”

I know she wants to say he will worry about me until I die, but I can’t bring myself to correct her.

“Shit’s fine,” I say with a sigh. “I am at the hospital now for a chemo appointment.”

“Do you need anything? Company? Food? A stupid joke?”

I laugh. “Kay, I pushed y’all away because everything is covered. I’ll be…” I want to say I’ll be fine, but she and I both know that’s far from the truth. “I’ll be as good as anyone could expect. Don’t worry about me.”

She sighs and her breath catches.

“Kaitlin, I swear,” I threaten. “Do not waste time on me. Please don’t cry. Focus on important shit. Not me. Okay?”

KayKay takes a few deep breaths. “Orion, I don’t understand how you can’t seem to comprehend that you are important. You’re important to all of us.”

I breathe in and out a few times, trying to calm my body in its response to her words. “Kay, don’t worry about me. In your guys’ lives, I’ve just been a blip. Focus on everything else. There’s so much other stuff to have faith in.” 

“Orion Moss, you know damn well that you have not just been a blip. You are our best friend and we fucking love you. If things are going well, we want to know. If they aren’t, we want to know. And if you don’t believe me when I say ‘we’ then at least believe that I want to know.” 

I sigh. “Fine. No news. I still feel like shit and I have an appointment in a few weeks to see how well the chemo is working, that’s it, I promise.”

“Thank you for sharing with the class,” Kay says, chuckling quietly, and it makes me laugh too. “Are you down in San Diego now?”

“Yeah, we transferred my care here to make it easier.”

“Okay, well, I’m in LA for now and will be joining the boys for the last week of the tour. If you need anything or just want company, I’m more than happy to drive down to see you. Just because you’re shutting Calum out doesn’t mean you should shut all of us out.” 

Yes it does, I think. Anything I tell to any of them they’ll tell Calum.

“I just don’t want him to spend his life worrying about me,” I tell her quietly. I don’t know why, but for some reason now I feel weird talking about this in semi-public. 

KayKay sighs into her phone. “I know, but just because you don’t want him to doesn’t mean he won’t.”

I know she’s right, so I don’t reply. We’re going in circles I feel like, since we’ve already basically said what we just said.

“Can I say something that might make you feel bad but I think you need to hear?” She continues.

I sigh, feeling like I don’t really have a choice even though she’s asking for my permission. “Sure.” 

“I think he’s worrying more now that you’re not together than he would if you didn’t break up with him. He has no idea how you’re doing, so he’s not only going through the breakup but he’s also panicking about you.” 

What she’s saying is true. However, I tried to think of the bigger picture when I made my choice. I know it might suck now, but he’ll have had more time to get over me by the time I die so he will hopefully not be as upset when I die. Hopefully. I need it to happen that way, otherwise all of this pain will just be… a waste.

“He’s also fucking pissed at Ashton and the band dynamic is so weird now.” 

“I wish he didn’t care so much about that. Ashton didn’t do anything wrong.” It hurts to know that I drove a rift between Calum and his best friend. They’re so close and will be in close quarters for another month or so, so knowing that they’re not even on speaking terms sounds like a miserable time for everyone involved. I hate that it’s my fault, which is just another reason to feel horrible.

“I know, me, too.”

“Can you imagine if Ash had gone to him to tell him?” I ask.

“There wouldn’t have been a tour at all,” KayKay says through soft laughter. 

I nod even though she can’t see me. “Exactly.”

“You know, no one is mad at you. Just in case you had any doubts. We’re really all just hoping you’re okay and wish you’d reach out, but we all understand why you haven’t.”

I didn’t want to know, but it is nice to know at least that no one hates me. I wouldn’t blame them if they did. The knowledge wouldn’t change anything, so that’s why it wasn’t on my list of things to ask Kay.

“He won’t tell anyone, but Cal would take you back in a heartbeat if you just called and asked.”

“That’s not going to happen,” I quickly say. It’s not. It can’t happen. It hurts too much to think of Calum being by my side while I wither away into a shell of a human. 

“O, you’re both miserable. I don’t think this is the way.”

“It is the way. If this is all we’re going to talk about I think we should stop talking. I can’t talk about it.”

“I hate how stubborn you are, but I miss you, so I’ll oblige.” She sounds defeated, but hearing her say she misses me hurts. I miss everyone so much. Calum the most, by default, and Ashton and Crystal, since they’re who I spent the most time with over the past two years, but I can’t bring myself to act like things are normal with any of them. 

“I miss you, too, Kay, but just don’t want to complicate things for anybody.”

“Orion, there’s nothing complicated about any of this. We all love and miss you, end of.” She sighs. “But, you don’t want to talk anymore about that, so let me fill you in on everything else going on in my life!” 

Kay spends the next thirty minutes filling me in on her latest work projects, how she and Ashton are doing, and her plans for when she joins them on the Europe leg of tour, and it’s nice to pretend things are normal for a few minutes. She lets me go when she gets a work email that has “URGENT” in the subject line and tells me that I am welcome to call her any time I’m bored. 

I feel empty and numb and weak, both physically and emotionally. I spend the rest of my appointment switching back and forth between reading Tweets about 5SOS and rereading Catcher in the Rye for the millionth time. When the tech finally disconnects my IV for the day, she smiles at me.

“Just one more!” She sounds so cheery, so optimistic. I can’t imagine why. Even if the chemo ‘works,’ my life won’t go on for all that long. I’m limited to a few years if things go well. Months, maybe even just weeks, if they don’t. 

“Hurray,” I say back, without any enthusiasm whatsoever. 

I walk out of the building and find Mom waiting for me in her car. She’s also excited about this cycle being almost over and promises that next week we can go get milkshakes after the appointment to celebrate. Once the cycle is over, I can find out if I have some time to live a normal life for a while, but if not, I’m not really sure what’s next.

Just like I shut everyone else out of my life, I shut those thoughts out of my head. Right now, it’s just about facing what’s in front of me. 

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[skepwith]

So I just finished watching season 1 of The White Lotus and ... I don't understand the show's point. Like, I thought I was watching the Rich People Are Terrible Show and was kind of enjoying how awful and dumb they were and feeling sorry for the staff (though it was pretty clear manager dude was riding for a fall). But then it ends with poor Kai in jail, Belinda miserable, Paula friends with Awful White Girl again (I guess?) and seemingly unscathed by the Kai thing, the manager dead, and Rachel back with Asshole (why?????).

Meanwhile the obnoxious parents are happy again, Asshole is happy (in spite of the fact that he KILLED A MAN), and Tanya is happy (I was glad to see her character grow a little, but she still used and abandoned Belinda).

So, okay, yes, rich white people get away with everything and everyone else suffers, true, but do we really need this show to remind us of that? I'd much rather watch something like Glass Onion, where at least you get the catharsis of revenge. White Lotus seems really cynical.

Or are we supposed to like these people? I saw a clip of the writer/creator saying the parents finding their old spark in the last episode was a little happy ending, which, what? I didn't want them to be happy! I wanted them to be fucking miserable forever! They were horrible!

Finally, there's Quinn. I was glad to see him make friends and happy that he left his fucked-up family. He was the only character who actually absorbed the beauty around him. ("See what you can accomplish when you get off your phone, kids?" Thanks, Dad.) But I have to say... getting invited to join a rowing team with a bunch of Indigenous Hawaiians? There's a whiff of Dances With Wolves there, no? Are they feeding him and giving him a place to stay? (Also, the presumably Hawaiian guy he replaces was a drunk? Not a good look, show.) It just feels like a white teenage boy's fantasy. The rowers don't even have names.

Overall, the show really didn't go where I thought it was going, and I'm honestly confused about what it's saying.

[sporadiceagleheart]

Childhood Cancer Edit for honor and rememberance Ana at age 5, Destiny Arianna Kay Riekeberg, Lily Rose Diaz, Colby Curtin, Stacy Leigh Black, Riley Faith Steep, Kenzlee Marie Cook, Jane Eilish Preston, Grace Elizabeth “Amazing Gracie” Ekis, Ellie Walton, Sophie Walker, Elowyn Ivy "Winnie" Pollard, Zoey Catherine Daggett, Stevie Lynn Stock, Gentry "Gents" Morgan Terrell, Eliana Rose Lara, Haylie Marie Chmela, Aria Hodgkiss, Adalynn 'Addie' Mae Jessen, Madelyn Marie Anderson, Rylie Nicholls, Olivia Mariam "Oli" Pineda Arevalo, Sarah Atif, Finley Nicole Miller, Kailey Lawson, Connor "The Crusher" Michalek, Daniya Abdulhamid Ketchman, Jaida Nancy Claire Chartier, Trinity Riley, Hailey Elizabeth Acevedo, Liam M.C. Huggler, Nova May Baker, Lila May Smith, Addison Bell, Elle Adriana Caruso, Sophia Margaret Nielsen, Evylah Gao Chia Xiong, Paula Golik, Hailey Janya Olson, Victoria "Tori" Kay Maree Binnie, Delilah Love Loya, AnnaBella "Bella" Rose Kirby, Elayna Grace Sandeen, Grace "Gracie" Anna-Lynn Williams, Eliza Adalynn Moore, Kinsley Adelynn Wilkerson, Summer Kathryn Allen, Molly Richards, Raelynn Shay Velarde Fronczak, Adaline Rose Cowley, Lily LaRue Anderson, Dillan Ramsey-Aksehir, Miss. Addison Carolyn Bryan, Kinsley Marie Winn, Nicole “Coco” Sweis, Avery Linn Handrow, Cheyanne Rae “Chey” Brant, Emma Grace Smith, Zamora Moon Martinez-Lusinchi, Amelia LaRee “Millie” Flamm, Miesha Amaya (Amaya) Alguno, Charlotte Grace York, Anastasia Konstanze Ermakov, Everly Mae Settlemyer, Evelyn Grace Jackson, Lily Kate Williams-Brola, Brayleigh Louise “Bray” King, Annabelle Potts, Taliyah Baptiste, Colton Armstrong White, Kinley Nicole Sexton, Luna Zoe Cristobal, Amyah Joye Brown, Emily Grace Navarra,