#Parsp Talks About Mental Health And Fictional Characters.

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I am going to TRY to vocalize my feelings about Error(sans) and all the other Errors.

OK hi!! I’m Parsp! I have loads of PTSD and various mental illnesses. I heavily relate to Error, and I’m going to fucking write an essay on him on why I heavily relate to him and also strongly dislike how people portray him. To note: I’m not diagnosed, as my mom doesn’t want me diagnosed for various medicinal and money-related reasons. I’m not an expert in the topic, either, so!

Before I start, if you want to see any other opinions on characters I like, this post is very good! 

ANYWAY, Error time!

I’m not very good at vocalizing my feelings, so this might be a little weird. 

I project myself onto error a LOT. I mean. A LOT

In THIS post, CQ discussed how PISSED Geno gets when finally, FINALLY, he gets his happy ending, but it’s ripped away from him.

In his last moments of sanity, he’s furious that he got his happy ending– and yet this happened to him. In that moment, he hated everyone and everything outside himself.

I relate that to myself. When I was (insert age that I'm not giving out), I was FINALLY happy with myself. I was happy because I had friends, I felt SAFE, and then, one day, which I often describe as “the worst day of my life” (WAY less extreme than what it was and still IS to me), everything got taken away. I got mad. My anger issues started coming back, my hatred of being touched came back, and everything just got worse. I lost most of my friends because I just sorta started snapping at people. 

Around a year later, something similar happened. and I FREAKED. Everything got worse again!

Okay, I’m getting off-topic. ANYWAY.

I relate to Error in this aspect. He got mad and tried to take away other people’s happy endings. I do a similar thing, except I only do it with fanfics. OK ANYWAY 

this is getting too self indulgent for me uhhh back to Error and why we need to stop mischaracterizing him

Please, for the love of god, stop writing Error like he cAN’T get attached to things.

He’s attached to his puppets. Honestly? In the ask blog, he gets attached to BLUE.

But, in spite of him getting attached, he pushes Blue away, because he can't handle relationships at that point. He also thinks he’s being manipulated (which he is) and has a LOT of paranoia. 

Also, he yells at inanimate objects. To take out his anger. and that’s important. He gets frustrated over little things piling up, just like most people do. 

This post is important. Mostly because “de-erroring” might not be possible. In my case, I think “Erroring” a character, kinda relates to them getting more trauma. So basically, while getting Un-traumatized IS possible, it’s really, really difficult. actually as I’m typing this I saw CQ said “Also, once someone becomes an error, they can’t turn back.” 

While Errors ARE kinda based around their final thought as a non-error, and they forget most if not ALL of what happened BEFORE the erroring occurs. I can’t really remember anything that happened before my traumatic event, so take that as you will.

Anyway I rambled for a while and got a LOT of my thoughts out, it’s not all of them, but Im finished rambling, so ;) 

There’s probably a lot more connections I could make (I didn’t even MENTION the crashing), but I'm tired! Feel free to add on anything, I just really, really needed to express my need to project onto him, and how much I love error as a character.