#PEOPLE WITH IT and i do not feel bad pushing that moral at other people because killing people
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cupidsworstcrime · 19 hours ago
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since theres been a lot of kink posts today, and some of you may not know what some terms are so allow me to explain R.A.C.K. and S.S.C. for the class,
R.A.C.K. stands for Risk-Aware Consensual Kink.
that means:
risk-aware → we know what we’re doing isn’t “safe” in the bubble-wrapped, soft-hands, vanilla sense. we’re doing things that can hurt. that can leave marks. that play with power, fear, control, pain, shame, etc.
consensual → everything is negotiated, agreed upon, talked about before anything starts. you say yes, they say yes, and if someone says no? it doesn’t happen. period. safewords are a big deal in kink, scenes end immediately without question* when used.
kink → not therapy, not morality, not your business unless you’re invited. we’re doing what gets us off, what makes us feel alive, what makes us feel powerful or small or free or filthy or real.
it’s not about being 100% safe. it’s about understanding the risks, communicating openly, and choosing to do it anyway—together. it’s not reckless. it’s intentional.
S.S.C. stands for Safe, Sane, and Consensual.
and yes, that’s exactly what it sounds like.
safe → not “zero risk,” not “nothing bad can ever happen,” but safe as in informed, prepared, and practiced. we’re not winging it. we’ve read the guides. we’ve learned how to tie a knot that won’t cut off circulation. we know where to hit and where not to hit. we’re not out here doing surgery with a butter knife — we’re doing kink with intention.
sane → we’re of sound mind. we’re making decisions with full awareness, not in a dissociative fog or under pressure. sane doesn’t mean “boring.” it means we’re grounded. we understand the difference between fantasy and reality — which is more than i can say for the people throwing tantrums over someone’s consensual knife play scene.
consensual → (again) the golden rule. the backbone of everything. the full, enthusiastic, informed “yes.” not coerced, not manipulated, not assumed. every scene, every role, every toy and word and title is agreed on before anything happens. you don’t get to play if you don’t get consent.
S.S.C. is the foundation. it's what separates us from abusers. it's what turns kink from chaos into care. it’s the baseline that says “you matter, and i want this to be good for you.”
no one’s saying you have to like what other people are into.
no one’s asking you to watch.
spoiler: if it’s done with safety, sanity, and consent? it’s not your business to shame.
you don’t have to like it. you don’t have to understand why someone wants to get caned until they cry or call their partner “sir” while scrubbing the floor.
but if it’s consensual and informed and everyone involved knows the game they’re playing? it’s not your place to shame them for it.
if you see people in a scene that doesn’t fit your comfort zone, and your first reaction is to scream “abuse!!!” like a purity culture parrot? maybe take a second and ask yourself if you actually understand what you’re looking at.
so next time you feel like opening your mouth to say “this is abuse!!!” or “why would anyone want that :(”
maybe shut up and google what things mean first. because some of us are out here building trust and pushing limits and doing the work—while you’re just yelling into the void because you don’t get it.
read. listen. grow.
* without question: your partner will not judge you , they will not be angry. they will make sure you are okay and safe after. then they may ask what they can change (if anything) to avoid you safewording in the future. its to assure your safety. dont be ashamed to safeword ever
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autisticrosewilson · 8 months ago
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It's not that I hate fanon or that I think fanon is inherently less intelligent or morally wrong, but a LOT of fanon is based in racism, misogyny, and classism that I feel like a lot of you accept without question.
WHY is Duke (Daredevil, son of a god, has never once allowed himself to be defined by anyone's actions but his own) relegated to a background role, only characterized by reacting to the whims of other bats?
Why is Babs - Birds of Prey leader and backbone of the hero society, tells Bruce to fuck off and die 4 times a day and is constantly ruining her relationships by being biased and unhinged - Gotham bound, the mature responsible mom of the group who never argues with Bruce and never gets in trouble?
Why is Dick, both a tactical genius and master manipulator, a himbo only appreciated for his sex appeal? Especially when he is both Romani (group of people demonized and condemned as hypersexual by their nature alone) and an SA victim.
WHY is Damian "feral" and "uncivilized" despite being raised as a literal prince? Half of you treat him like a sociopath with no hope of redemption for an unfunny three second joke and the other half of you go full throttle into Bruce's white savior bullshit so that Damian can be "redeemed". Y'know when you're not villainizing Talia and acting like Dick is his other parent, actually.
WHY is Stephanie - extremely intelligent detective who can't stand Bruce and has a living mother she loves - lumped in as another member of the Batfam, a blonde ditz who only cares about prank wars and emotionally supporting Tim?
WHY is Cass - intelligent, a grown adult, suicidal perfectionist - emotionally intelligent, primarily existing to support the characters around her, immediately accepting of everyone she meets regardless of her own morals?
Why is Bruce the golden standard? Enough so that though everyone in the fandom could agree that he's an emotionally unstable wreck, being considered "the most like him" is seen as a compliment and not the HIGHEST insult? Everyone would agree if I said that Bruce purposely self sabotages his relationship half the time and the other half he simply does things without caring about the emotional impact it will have on people because he has to be the smartest in the room, but if I said that makes him a shit partner and emotionally abusive parent the fandom would bend over backwards to argue with me.
Why is Tim "the best Robin" when Dick Grayson invented the mantle, it is impossible for someone to embody the spirit of Robin better than him because he made it and he created what being Robin means. Maybe Tim is the best in Bruce's eyes, but what Robin means and who has the right to give it over was a significant thing they argued about. Tim the high school drop out, and yet also somehow the smartest? Tim "the most like Bruce" except no he's not, that's Cass. Poor neglected, abused, victimized little Timmy (the rich boy at the elite boarding school with loving albeit busy parents and almost every instance of him being victimized by another character has either been racist bullshit - The Al Ghuls and Rose Wilson- or a complete 180 for the character that made no sense when examined through the lens of prior characterization - Jason for instance.)
Almost every fanon trope that gets passed around like gospel seems to deliberately push POC characters and women into the background and strip them of interesting complex traits and stories, usually for the purpose of fitting them all into bite sized incorrect quote character types and uncomplicated narrative roles that are not only completely divergent from canon, but primarily exist to prop up the two rich white boys.
Also the insistence that Bruce, a 20 year old at the time, should actually be excused for how much he mentally and emotionally fucked Dick up because really they're more like siblings! While deciding that Dick at the same age was actually the perfect candidate to be Damian's new parent/guardian...have you lost the fucking plot you don't even make sense to yourselves.
Okay I lied at the beginning, I do hate fanon. You guys are so uncritical about the media you consume it is BEYOND just letting people enjoy things and have fun. I guess it's one thing if you KNOW this stuff isn't canon and UNDERSTAND why these tropes are problematic and you engage with it as such, it's fine read and write what you want, but just spreading the same nonsense around and parading it around as "better than canon" (version of the character so bland and boring you've somehow made the old white men at DC look like geniuses in the art of representation) is just infuriating.
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momentomori24 · 4 months ago
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Normally I don't like calling out specific names when it's a large number of people doing stupid shit but holy fucking shit I actually need Limus to log off and never breathe a word about anything Hazbin related ever again
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freakalot · 4 months ago
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gojo hates condoms ☆
not even in an ‘i can’t feel a thing’ frat-fuck way either. he just wants to be close to you. he’s touch starved as it is and being inside of you is quite literally the closet he can be to you. why would he want a barrier between his achy length and your silken walls?
he hates condoms. hates them like they’re pointing south on his moral compass. hates them like they hurt to use—which they do, in a way—the mental anguish feels real to him, at least. he picks up a fuss in the grocery store when you pull a pack of ribbed condoms from the shelf to try because why would you seek pleasure from artificial ridges when the protruding veins of his cock would feel just as good if not dressed in a condom?
sometimes he eats you out for twice as long as usual to get you really fucked out and dumb. he’ll make you cum hard and fast and so much that your mind is a mess in the hopes that you’ll forget all about your safety precautions and let him feel you from the inside out. but you always catch on. with a tsk and a finger pointed to the draw where he keeps the horrid things out of sight.
so when you let him fuck you raw for the first time, gojo is reeling. it’s on the condition that he promises to pull out, and promise he does—with a pinky finger hooked around yours and his lips to his thumb—he promises to pull out.
he decides on missionary, because as much as he loves the hundred different positions he knows how to wrangle you into, he wants to connect with you. to make love, not fuck.
and even your wetness against his tip is enough to jolt his stomach downwards. collecting your glossing over his angry head as he rubs himself up and down your folds—he would cum just like this if he wasn’t so stuck on feeling all of you. you’re warm and wet and tight as he pushes against your entrance and oh god he’s going to cum already.
“oh,” he stills, eyes deadset on yours as he slides into you. his tip is rubbing against that spot that makes your back arch upwards and it takes everything in you not to laugh at the distraught look on his face as he says “i have to pull out.”
“you’re joking, right?”
“i really wish i was baby,” he looks pained. he’s never felt something so heavenly and ungodly at the same time. he wants to do bad things, to fuck you into the mattress and breed you full of himself until you’re too weak to care about the aftermath of such recklessness. “i can’t pull out.”
“what?” you laugh, his balls tighten at the sound.
“if i move—” satoru has never looked so serious, “—i will cum. this was a bad idea. why would you let me do this?”
“you’re the one always—”
“actually don’t argue with me, you know what it does to me.” he squeezes his eyes shut and focuses on anything other then the way you feel around him. he does math in his head, thinks about the people he’s killed, how much he loves you… how pretty you look right now… growing old with you.
“i swear you’re getting harder inside of—”
“imsorryiloveyoubutpleasebequietorelseyouaregoingtogetpregnant.”
it takes him a minute of mental gymnastics to feel confident enough to start slowly sliding out of you, but all hope dies when the heel of your foot presses against his ass and with a smile made of sin you pull him deeper inside of you.
he opens his mouth to protest, to tell you he is not joking and all that comes out is a beautiful strangled moan that makes you tighten around him. for a man who claims to be the strongest he is rather weak-willed when it comes to your pussy. he needs to cum so hard that it hurts, but a fear of maybe ruining your life and relationship digs his teeth into his bottom lip.
“don’t do this to me,” he whines.
but you’re smiling. you’re so tight and wet and beautiful and everything he’s ever dreamt of having and holding and you’re smiling. “satoru,” you say, and he’s weak. “cum inside.”
anything for you. it’s gorgeous: the way he lets loose, falling forward to press all his weight into you as he groans and his balls release in hot spurts that you can feel painting your insides white. it’s the connection, the intimacy, the tears that prick at his eyes.
and he doesn’t pull out. no, he presses his hips forward to fuck his cum as deep into you as he possibly can and he vows to throw out every condom in the goddamn house.
god he hates condoms.
part 2
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loveless-arobee · 8 months ago
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Hey, cis women who say "I wish I was a man but definitely not a trans way, haha! I would never be a man :)"
I say this with all the gentleness in my heart: It is okay for you to be a man. If you want to be a man, you can just be one. You also don't have to stop being a woman to be a man. Multigender people exist. You can be a man and a woman at the same time. Or you can be just a man, or a non-binary man, or non-binary, or something entirely different. You can do and be whatever you want and whatever makes you happy.
Becoming a man is not a betrayal of womanhood and feminism. And everyone who makes you feel like it is an absolute asshole, and you should not ever listen to them. You do not have to push your own happiness aside for other peoples' comfort.
If you want to be a man, try it out! See where it gets you. Maybe it turns out that you really weren't trans, or not a trans man but something else entirely, and that's fine, too. Maybe it turns out you are a trans man. In any case, following those thoughts might get you to a happier and better place in the end. And if you turn out to be happier as a man than you were as a woman, that is wonderful.
Please don't feel forced to stay a cis woman for feminism - any feminism that mistreats or hates trans men and transmasculine people is bad feminism. Being a trans man or transmasc is not a moral failure.
Trans manhood and masculinity are wonderful, and you deserve happiness. And if you find that happiness in manhood/masculinity, you don't deserve to be shamed or harassed for it, and you should not be made to feel the need to put yourself down for it, either.
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sergeantbuckybarnes · 23 days ago
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truth will set you free // bob reynolds
Summary: You are injected with a truth serum during a mission, and when you return to the Watchtower, you must avoid Bob in order not to spill your feelings for him, but this causes Bob to believe he has done something to upset you.
Pairing: Robert "Bob" Reynolds x Thunderbolts!Reader
Word count: 2.6K
Warnings: bob's self-doubt, forced love confession (cause reader is under the influence of a serum), misunderstandings, fluff
A/N: As always, remember English is not my first language. I didn't want to wait any longer to post this, so it hasn't been proofread, I'm sorry folks!
My first time writing for Bob!!! I hope I did him justice, and I apologize if he's a bit OOC. I'm still trying to figure him out.
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When you had a hunch, you were usually right. 
It was like a faint whisper in your mind, guiding you through the uncertainty and helping you make the right choice just in time. You could say that instinct was your secret weapon—a trusted friend in moments when logic alone couldn't see the whole picture. Even when doubts crept in, deep down, you knew to listen to that subtle nudge that had saved you more than once.
But this time, you shut it down and ignored all the red alarms. 
Partly because you didn’t want to let the team down, and partly because you convinced yourself you were overthinking.
You pushed forward, dismissing the uneasy feeling gnawing at the back of your mind and telling yourself that everything was under control. Yet, deep inside, a small voice still murmured warnings, reminding you that ignoring your intuition could lead to unforeseen trouble.
And that was exactly what happened. 
Regardless of your abilities, certain missions challenged your boundaries, particularly those requiring retrievals from shady labs, which were your least favorite. 
You wouldn’t hesitate to fight aliens, villains from other universes, or even Valentina. But you despised slippery scientists—those who utilized their brains and intelligence to create questionable serums and conduct human trials. 
There was something about their manipulation of life itself, their blatant disregard for morality, that made your stomach churn. You had witnessed the damage firsthand—innocent lives turned into test subjects, minds warped by their greed and arrogance.
You were perceptive and quick-witted, but the tension of the moment when you broke into the lab and the so-called brain people started to fight back caught you off guard. They moved with a calculated experience that belied their appearance, more than someone who spends over 12 hours a day in a white coat, peering at cells through a microscope, would have.
Ava wasn’t fast enough to reach you in time.
And before you could react, a sharp sting shot through your leg—an injection delivered with clinical precision. You barely had time to register what was happening before the world tilted, and everything blurred around the edges. The voices of your teammates were drowned out by the deafening chaos, and then, you were fighting not only to stay conscious but also to try to understand what was being injected into you and what it might do.
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Despite the circumstances that led you to the vault on that fateful day, and despite being part of a team of people just like you, as well as all the bad decisions you've made along the way, you had always considered yourself an honest person.
So being injected with a truth serum wasn’t the worst outcome, right?
But that strange sense of detachment wasn’t you. Not at all.
Your instincts, the voice in your head that usually kept you grounded, had fallen silent. They were drowned out by the serum rushing through your veins.
Your mouth moved on autopilot.
No filter.
No control.
Despite your strenuous efforts to keep them contained, words spilled out. Confessions, secrets, and fears poured forth unfiltered and raw.
And there was one confession you simply could not allow to escape.
“It’s probably just temporary,” Yelena said with a reassuring look. “We’ll run some tests when we arrive back at the tower.”
Everything would be fine.
That’s what they promised.
But you weren’t so sure of that.
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You had been confined in your room for two weeks, completely isolated. There was no interaction with anyone other than Yelena, who brought you food every day. However, she remained silent, respecting your request. And you battled to keep your words contained, to preserve control over what you might say.
The atmosphere in the tower was tense and divisive, to put it mildly.
Walker thought you were overreacting; he didn’t see the big deal. So what if you couldn’t lie? Did you have something to hide?
Ava and Yelena, on the other hand, seemed sympathetic to your situation. They understood the gravity of what you were going through.
Bucky, who knew what it felt like not to be in control of what you do and say, was also empathetic. He'd even explained the predicament to Sam in hopes he could help him find a solution.
Alexei... Well, he was the same as always.
And then there was Bob.
Adorable, sweet, and awkward Bob.
He had been eagerly anticipating your return from the mission. He missed you when you were gone, even though he lacked the courage to say so out loud.
Bob was confused.
Why hadn’t you come out of your room? Why hadn’t you been around? Had you been hurt during the mission? Had he done something to upset you? Were you mad at him? 
Deep down, he knew it was only a matter of time before you got tired of him.
‘You’re too much.’
‘What did you expect, idiot?’
“It was… a tough mission. She needs to be alone.” That was what Yelena had told him in an effort to soothe him, knowing how close he was to you, how much he cared, and how his feelings lingered beyond friendship.
However, her words did not have the expected effect. 
Tonight, he couldn’t endure it any longer. The nightmares had returned, creeping into his mind with a relentless, smothering power.
The darkness had once faded when he sought comfort in your presence, finding solace in your embrace. You had become his safe sanctuary, where the shadows could not reach him.
But now that refuge was gone. 
He stood outside your door, fumbling with the sleeves of his sweatshirt. He hesitated, unsure whether to knock or quietly retreat into the shadows. The wait stretched painfully until finally, he drew in a shaky breath, summoning every ounce of courage he had left to reach out.
“Yelena, is that you?” 
Your voice sounded faint through the door, with a tinge of hesitancy that he picked up on.
“I-I’m Bob.” 
He heard you sigh, and he knew you'd approached the door.
“Bob, it’s not a good time.”
His stomach clenched, but he pressed on, his voice barely above a whisper. “Please, I-I need you.” His words were filled with desperation. “I had a nightmare.”
There was no immediate answer, only a prolonged silence that seemed to last forever. For a minute, he worried if you were ignoring him, if you didn’t care enough to respond. Minutes seemed to crawl by as he remained rooted in place, caught in the stillness of the hallway. Still, he stayed there, vulnerable and trembling, hoping—praying—that somehow, you would hear his silent plea.
You slowly pushed the door open, the creak of the hinges slicing through the dense silence like a fragile whisper. The dim, flickering light from the hallway cast faint shadows across your face, accentuating the concern etched in your features. His eyes, glassy and pleading, met yours as he hesitated for a while longer.
Without fully thinking, you reached out and pulled him into your bedroom, locking the door behind him. He sank onto the edge of your bed, shoulders quivering, voice barely a whisper as he broke the silence.
“Thank you,” he murmured, eyes searching yours for reassurance.
You moved closer instinctively, trying to maintain your composure, fighting the urge to let anything slip. It crushed your heart to see Bob in this condition, knowing you were to blame. You were so set on avoiding him that you hadn't considered how much it would impact him not to have you at his side, especially at night.
“Come here,” you whispered, your voice soothing. Reaching out, you drew him into your embrace, feeling his body relax slightly as he buried his face in your shoulder. 
He clung to you tightly. You stroked his hair, murmuring soothing words and giving him the reassurance he desperately needed.
You stayed there, feeling the rise and fall of his chest as he gradually found calm. The tension in his body loosened, and his heartbeat steadied into a peaceful rhythm, no longer pounding with dread. 
“Are you mad at me?” he finally asked, his voice small, almost cracking.
“What? No, of course not.”
“You've been locked in your room for two weeks.”
“I know, but—” You bite your tongue, fighting to keep the truth from spilling.
The last two weeks had been easy in some ways, since you had zero contact with anyone. But now, having Bob here with you, in your arms, looking so vulnerable and so starved of affection, your resolve wavered.
“Yelena said something went wrong during the last mission.”
“It did,” the words were out of your mouth before you realized.
‘Don’t ask what happened, please, don’t ask what happened.’
‘Don’t ask what happened, please, don’t ask what happened.’
‘Don’t ask what happened, please, don’t ask what happened.’
He stretched out gingerly, his hand trembling as he gently stroked your arm. “What happened?”
And, like clockwork, the truth spilled out again. “I was injected with a truth serum.”
Bob's eyes widened in amazement. “You–you what?”
“We were in the lab, and this guy appeared out of nowhere. I didn't see him coming. I couldn't react in time, and before I realized it, he’d injected me with a syringe.”
His expression sank as he tried to digest what you had just disclosed. “That's why you've been locked up here.”
You nodded. “I am not sure how much longer the effect will persist. And my mouth can't seem to control itself right now,” you admitted, your tone tinted with frustration. “I keep feeling like I want to say things I shouldn't—as if my thoughts are spilling out before I can stop them. It's like my brain and mouth are warring, and I can't keep the words locked inside.”
“But the team… They know, right? They wouldn’t judge you if you said too much. And it’s not like you had something to hide.” 
Bob struggled to grasp the situation and your reasoning for isolation. 
Although he had just told you that the team would not judge you, he knew Walker would probably make some snide comment, maybe even take advantage of the situation. He still believed that the guy was an asshole.
“It’s not the team I’m hiding from; it’s you.” 
The words tumbled out before you could stop them, and you immediately saw the impact. It was written all over Bob’s face. And you hated yourself for hurting him, again.
“You… You are hiding from me?” He stumbled over his words, the crack in his tone reflecting the disheartened expression that washed over him. “Why?”
And then it happened. The two weeks of isolation had been pointless. You knew it the moment Bob had knocked on your door and you let him inside. There was no more running.
“Because I can’t be around you,” you started, voice trembling as the truth slipped out. “You make me nervous, and I can’t control myself around you. All I want to do is tell you how much happiness you bring into my days. And I think you’re so damn cute, like you literally make me feel butterflies, and that’s something I haven’t felt since… Actually, I don’t think I’ve ever experienced something like this before.”
Bob’s eyes widened in disbelief, breath catching as your words flowed out, raw and honest, leaving him dumbfounded. He stared at you, processing, overwhelmed by your confession.
You averted your gaze, ashamed of how exposed you felt. “I’m sorry,” you admitted softly. “I don’t know how to handle these feelings, how much I care for you. I–I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable or anything. This is why I stayed away.”
“You–you like me?” He questioned, voice tentative, in astonishment. He was still trying to process what he had just heard. “Me?”
“‘Like’ isn’t even close to describing how I feel. I’m in love with you.”
You cringed as you pushed off from the bed, stepping away from him, overwhelmed by embarrassment.
This wasn’t how you were supposed to confess. You’ve ruined everything.
Fuck the lab. Fuck those scientists. Fuck the fucking truth serum.
As the weight of your words settled in, you wondered if anything could be salvaged from this moment or if the damage had already been done.
For a long moment, he said nothing. Then, he reached out, his hand trembling slightly as it brushed across your arm, making you spin around to face him. His eyes searched yours, shimmering with awe, tenderness, and…hope?
“Y–You mean that?” He whispered, his voice hoarse as if afraid to believe this was actually happening.
“I cannot lie, Bob. Remember? Only the truth is being spoken here.” 
He hesitated briefly before cautiously reaching out, his hand trembling slightly as he cradled your face in his palm. His thumb brushed softly against your cheek, and without thinking, you leaned into his touch, feeling the warmth of his hand, and allowing yourself to fall into the moment.
“I didn’t think you’d ever feel that way about me.” His voice was tremulous, yet sincere. “When you’re around, everything else just… fades away. You make everything better.” He drew back just enough to stare into your eyes, his mesmerizing blue gaze seeking yours. “I–I love you, too, Y/N.”
“Really?” You were almost afraid to believe it, yet your heart skipped a beat and you could feel your stomach doing somersaults. “You don’t have to lie to spare my feelings, you know.”
“I’m not lying. I promise.”
You reached out, instinctively brushing a stray lock of hair from his forehead, and for a moment, everything felt perfect—as if the world had stopped just for you two.
“Can I kiss you?”
“I don’t want to take advantage of you,” he hesitated.
You shook your head gently, “You’re not taking advantage of me. I want this. I have never wanted anything more.”
His cheeks flushed a delicate pink, but he nodded and leaned in carefully. The space between you narrowed until your lips finally met in a tentative kiss. His lips were soft against yours, just as you’d imagined. One hand clasped your cheek, his fingertips tracing the delicate curve of your jawline. The other rested on your waist, anchoring him as the kiss deepened. 
His fingers curled slightly, grasping your side with gentle firmness. You laced your fingers through his brunette locks, pulling him closer, while your other hand rested on his chest above his heart, feeling the quick throbbing beneath your palm.
As your lips parted for air, still dazed from the moment, Bob rested his forehead against yours, breathing heavily, eyes still closed, savoring the moment. “I’ve wanted to do that for so long,” he admitted softly.
Your pulse was thumping hard in your chest, not just from the kiss, but also from the exhilarating realization that this moment was merely the beginning of something new. “Me too,” you whispered.
As you both lingered in the moment, wrapped in each other’s embrace, you let out a light laugh, breaking the silence. “Well, I guess the truth serum was good for something after all,”
“I suppose so.” Bob’s lips twisted into a small, bashful smile, and he giggled softly with you.
“Come on.” You took his hand and tugged him toward your bed. “You look exhausted. Let’s get you into bed so you can finally rest properly.”
Bob snuggled beneath the covers, and you slid in beside him, pulling the blankets over both of you. 
Resting your head on his chest, you felt a sense of calm rush over you. Bob wrapped his arm around you, holding you close. You curled up closer, soaking in the warmth radiating from his body and the steady beat of his heart beneath your ear. His eyelids fluttered shut as he relaxed, and a contented sigh escaped his lips.
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suhkusa · 10 months ago
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THE KISS BET.
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PAIRING. Bakugou Katsuki x f!Reader
SUMMARY. Your friends bet you to kiss Katsuki Bakugou. Fortunately for you, they’re offering you $500 for it. Unfortunately for you, the two of you absolutely hate each other.
CW. third year, angst to fluff, light hurt/comfort, enemies to lovers, mature humor, feelings, language
WC. ~2.8k
A/N. enjoy :3
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You and your group of friends had a running gig. Bets. 
The group would bet one person to do something, on a scale from normal to outrageous, and that person’s turn wouldn’t end until they complete that bet. Of course, depending on how crazy the bet is, everyone would put in some amount of money. 
The most you’d gotten was $100 total from accepting a date from creep in the business class. Worst date of your life, but Jirou felt bad so she gave you an extra $50. 
As the lot of you gather around the campfire, everyone offers up their money to Mina who had just done her bet to put laxatives in Kirishima’s drink. There were a lot of questions about the morality of it, but you ignored it and gave her a crisp $20. 
“Y/N~ it’s your turn!” Ochako gleed. 
You roll your eyes, “I feel like I just did my other bet, which by the way was shit,” the girls laugh at your words. “I feel like all of you get the easier ones,”
“Easy? I had to kiss Monoma, do you know how hard that was? He knows I’m lesbian so imagine how hard that was for me to convince him,” Yaoyorozu sighs with a palm to her face.
“Oh, whatever,” Mina says with a clap of her hands, “You want a hard one, Y/N?”
“I mean that’s the whole point of paying each other to do bets, they’re supposed to be hard,” 
“Be careful what you wish for,” Mina smirks before standing up and pointing at you. 
“I bet you $100,” your ears perk up.
“-to kiss–,” your eyes widen but listen nonetheless.
“Katsuki Bakugou,” your world falls apart.
“Mina, no,” 
“Y/N, yes,” she jumps up and down, “It’s too late, I already said it,”
All the other girls are hooting and hollering, but you just sit there in silence as you stare at the flames. Are you really going to try this?
As you consider your options the other girls start placing their bet offerings.
“$75 from me,” Tsuyu calls out.
Then from Hagakure, “$50,”
“$150,” from none other than Yaoyorozu. 
“I guess I’ll put in $80,” Jirou smiles at your misery.
“Hmm, I’ll even it out with $45, so $500 flat for you, Y/N,” Ochako smiles.
$500?!? You’d be outright stupid to deny such a big amount of money. But you’d even stupider to think Katsuki Bakugou would kiss you of all people. 
“I think that’s impossible,” you whine as the other girls poke fun at you.
“I guess only time will tell,” Mina grabs your hands and smiles, “Good luck, Y/N,”
You can hear the rambunctiousness of your class before you walk in. When you walk through the doors, your eyes scan the class before your eyes lock in on Katsuki Bakugou. You groan with a roll of your eyes before stomping your way towards him. 
“Hey, Katsuki,” you stare down at him, “You want to do me a favor,”
“For you? I rather eat shit,” he grumbles as he meets your gaze.
“You’re a freak,” you already knew this was going to be hard, “Please,”
“Mm, depends, what’s in it for me?” 
“I guess you’ll find out,” you say. “Kiss me,”
It feels like the class goes silent as the two of you continue to just stare at each other. He opens his mouth then closes it. 
“You– The fuck?” His eyes are scattering as the words continue to process through his mind, “What a weirdo, hell no,” then he’s pushing himself out of his seat and making his way to the door.
“You know class starts in 5 minutes right?” you call to him.
“Fuck off,” he grunts as he shuts the door behind him.
Yep, definitely hard. 
The next time you bother Bakugou for a kiss is when the two of you are paired up for combat training. Much against his will. 
“Katsuki~” you call out as you dodge another blow from him. “You can’t avoid me forever,”
“Yes-” another explosion, “I can,”
You go on the offense as you continue, “Just a peck, please. I’m a good kisser, I promise,” 
“You’re shit,” he’s grumbling between dodges of your attacks.
“Wouldn’t you like to know,” you send him a wink before getting a hit on him. 
Bakugou groans, about to send another remark, when the training ends with a blow of a whistle.
The two of you meet eyes one last time, “Think it over, kay?” you smile before walking away.
Knock, knock. 
You stand at Bakugou’s door.
“Go away, perv,”
“Aw, how did you know it was me? You missed me?”
“I can just tell by the stench,” 
You laugh a little at his words, “Please, let me explain to you and maybe you’ll reconsider,” 
You can hear footsteps, and you smile. When he opens the door he’s adorned in his classic black tank and some sweats.
“You should put some clothes on, perv,” you mock. “Anyways, it was a bet from my friends and there’s $500 on the line, so if you would just–”
“I don’t kiss just anyone, princess,” the nickname causes you to fluster, but you shake it off as he continues, “You gotta earn it,”
He’s got a stupid smirk on his face, and you didn’t even realize it but he’s definitely leaning closer to you. It’s sending butterflies– well maybe more like moths– into your stomach. 
“What the– You’re definitely the pervert. I’m just going to ask to call it off,” you fake gag, “Later, loser,” 
“You’ll be back, nerd,”
You internally groan as you hear him shut the door, ignoring the intense heartbeat in your chest.
“No,” Mina says.
“What?! I told you it’s impossible,” you argue, all of your friends on the other side of the argument. 
“No it’s not, he said you had to earn it right?” Mina retorts, “So obviously there’s a way, you’re just stubborn,”
“You’re really not asking me to… You guys are crazy. Please, please, I’ll take anyone else, anything else,” 
“Sorry, Y/N, it’s the rules,” Tsuyu looks at you with pity.
“He hates me and I hate him! That’s all there is to it. It’s not going to happen,”
“Why do you guys even hate each other? It’s our third year, get over it already,” Jirou teases. 
“Because he’s a dick and I refuse to let him walk all over me! I just cursed him out one time for calling me weak. He’s the one who holds grudges because of his fragile, little heart,” 
“You should’ve known he’d hold that against you, but I honestly doubt he hates you because of that,” Mina says. “He probably thought you looked hot,” she laughs.
Heat rushes to the tips of your eyes, “Whatever, all of you are weirdos. But anyways-”
“No, Y/N,” Mina states, end of subject.
“You all just want me to kill myself,” you groan as you sink into the couch. “Whatever, but I’m going to force all of you to double your offering if I actually do this shit,”
The girls cheer. You cry inside. Anything for money, you guess.
It seems like the universe heard about the predicament you were in, because it felt like you were suddenly around him more often ever since the bet had been set.
“You know, I don’t want to be on patrol with you either,” you grumble, kicking at rocks as the two of you walk up and down the roads of the dorms.
“Glad we agree,”
Silence washes over you both. 
“Why don’t you want to kiss me? Am I ugly or something?” you ask, but it definitely comes off sadder than you intend.
“Don’t get all insecure because you don’t get a stupid kiss,” he looks the opposite direction of yours, “You know damn well you’re not ugly, so don’t piss me off,” 
He had a strange way of saying stuff.
“Aw, you love me, don’t you?” you tease, poking at his arm.
“Ah you dumbass, pay attention,” you snap back into place with a laugh, “‘M just saying you’re better looking than some of these extras,” 
You don’t know what to say in response to his words. Because they were surprisingly very sweet. 
Realizing he had said too much, he changes the subject. “Let’s go this way,”
You follow him with a nod.
There was definitely a certain type of tension lingering that the two of you walked in near silence for the rest of the patrol. 
You definitely were not repeating back his words in your head over and over again for the rest of the patrol. And Katsuki Bakugou was definitely not turning red because of what he said earlier. Definitely not. 
After that patrol, things seemed to sort of shift between the two of you. And to say it was scary was an understatement. 
Conversations wouldn’t always start off with the two of you insulting or cursing each other out. There’d be a hey or hello. If you guys saw each other in passing, he’d greet you with a nod of his head. Him being anything but passive aggressive towards you was terrifying because it was so not him. 
“Y/N,” a familiar voice calls out to you, you groan as you put your pencil down.
“I’m studying, what do you want, Katsuki?” 
“Come with me to the movies after school today,” it’s not really a question, more like a command. 
You put your hands to your mouth in fake(?) excitement, “You’re asking me on a date?! So kind, Katsuki,” 
“It’s not a date, idiot. I’m going with Ei and Denki later, they’re bringing Jirou and Mina. They were teasing me for not bringing anyone, so come,”
“If I don’t?” you muse.
“Be there or be square, nerd,” he doesn’t take your bait, but you can tell he’d prefer it if you go. He walks away before you can respond. 
Well, you guess you have plans later.
;;;
You meet up with the lot of them at the allotted time. The group walks together, and you thank God your friends have a questionable taste in men so you wouldn’t be stuck with some randos. But you also have half a mind to curse them out for leaving you to fend for yourself when you all arrive at the theater. 
They left you with no choice but to sit with Bakugou. Part of you really hates it, but not as much as you hate the rate at which your heart beats. 
For the most part, the two of you just sit there in awkwardness. The other couples indulge in that lovey dovey shit, and it makes you feel out of place. You zone out and get into your head. Was there a motive in asking you to come out here? He could’ve invited like… Midoriya… or Ochako… Or anyone, really. But, you? Does he like you? Or were you his last option to invite? Your head hurts from overthinking.
Your hand rests in your lap, picking at the material of your pants. At least that’s what it was doing. Until it happened. 
From the corner of your eye, you watch as Bakugou slid his hand into yours. His fingers finding a comfortable place between your own. You release a deep breath when you realize you were holding your breath. Is he out of his fucking mind?
Despite your efforts to try and justify how much you absolutely hate it. You didn’t even try to stop him. You didn’t pull away. You didn’t let his hand go. And even as the movie ended, you actually felt sad when he slid his hand away. 
The cool air of the night shocked you a bit when all of you made it outside. 
“We were thinking of grabbing a bite, did you guys want to come?” Mina exclaims. 
“Ooh, that sounds good, are you down, Jirou?”
“Sure, and you guys?” they all look at you.
“I- I have a stomach ache… Butter fucks with my stomach really bad,” the excuse is kind of weak, but still holds up as they all nod in understanding. 
“I can walk you to the dorm,” Bakugou offers, and you don’t really give him a yes or no, he just follows you.
Kirishima and Mina whistle and holler as the two of you part ways with the rest of them. 
Part of you regrets making up some stupid lie to go home. Because this was way more awkward than getting free pizza. 
The two of you are right by each other as you walk in silence towards the dorm. You wait. And wait. Wait for him to bring it up. Why did he do that? Why did he grab your hand? Was it all a front?
Why is he treating you so well?
Even as he drops you off at your room, he says nothing. Just a simple “Goodnight,” before he’s making his way to the elevator.
What an asshole.
So you take the initiative. The initiative in ignoring him. You weren’t some casual fling. Fuck the bet, fuck him.
When you saw him making his way towards you, you were quick to get up and rush out of the classroom. When he nodded your directions in passing, it was easy to just walk past and not acknowledge him. Whatever there was between you and him, was gone. Whatever “it” was, exactly. 
But you were okay. You guess. You were down $500 or $1000, but whatever. That game was bullshit anyways. You always got the worst bets. You kind of felt bad that you were the end of it, though. 
It was easy to avoid him. That’s what you thought. At least until one week later, you found yourself cornered by your dorm room with nowhere to go.
“What the fuck is up with you?” he’s angry, you’d be stupid if you thought otherwise.
You cross your arms and avoid his intense gaze, “Whatever do you mean?” 
He’s getting closer, and a tiny, like miniscule, part of you finds angry-him hot. “You know what the hell I mean, you’ve been avoiding me,” 
“Nuh uh,” you retort, still avoiding the subject at hand. “I’ve just been busy, sorry,”
“Like hell, Racoon Eyes said you’ve been in your dorm room everyday, so try again, asshat,”
Fucking Mina.
“I don’t have to explain myself to you,” you poke at his chest, “Now get out of my way before I beat your ass,”
“Yeah? I’d like to see you try,” he’s smiling with mockery.
“Oh, I’m sure you’d like to be touched by me, you little virgin,” you inspect your nails in nonchalance, “Too bad, so sad, now move,”
“No, not until you answer me,” he’s a bit more serious now, you can sense it in his tone. 
You groan, “Fine, not until you answer me, though. Why the fuck did you hold my hand and act like it didn’t happen? Am I like a joke to you?”
He straightens up and his eyes widen. He looks to the side, then back at you.
“You’re fuckin’ smart, why don’t you take a guess?”
“You’re not a baby, why don’t you use your words?” 
You got him there.
“Maybe ‘cuz I like you, or something, idiot,”
You laugh. Laugh. Because he really thought you’d believe a stupid joke like that.
“You’re funny, but seriously, why did–”
A kiss. Katsuki Bakugou has always been known for his speed and his wit. But now you see it more than ever. As he steals a kiss from you. It happens faster than you’re able to even realize you’re leaning into it. 
When the two of you part, it’s tense again. You don’t know if you should say something but he takes that choice from you.
“You think that was funny?” he asks.
“Well- no, but–”
“No buts, that’s that,”
“I didn’t even say I like you back! What if I didn’t-”
“Oh, so you do?” you jump up in realization you fumbled your words. “Good to know, princess,”
“Ugh, you’re so annoying. How was I supposed to know you liked me? You’re such an asshole, you know?”
“Really? Because this asshole just got you some cash,” he laughs referring to the bet, “But y’know, I don’t let just anyone call me Katsuki,”
You grit your teeth before throwing a punch at his arm, “Annoying! Annoying, so annoying,” 
Another hearty laugh escapes from his lips as he pulls you into a hug. You didn’t even know Bakugou gave hugs. But you don’t mind it. 
“You’re such a pervert, I bet you’ve been looking forward to that kiss,” he teases.
“Yeah? Well you’re a pervert for even kissing me in the first place,”
YOU: pay up bitches
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berryispunk · 2 months ago
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Slow Motion
pairing: Frankie Morales x f! reader
tags: dual POV, slow burn, best friends to lovers, mutual pining, yearning, angst, all of it, longing, best friend! Frankie, feelings denial, soft! Frankie, everyone knows before they do, Santi and Benny are support actors in this, only allusions to smut with this one, the girlfriend is not the villain, idiots in love, kissing
summary: Best friends. Always there, never quite enough. He broke your heart without ever knowing he held it—until everything fell apart, and the only person he wanted was the one he pushed away.
word count: ~ 8k
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You and Francisco Morales had been you and him for as long as anyone could remember. Not in the romantic, hand-holding, Sunday brunch kind of way—but in that soul-deep, private-joke, finish-each-other’s-sentences kind of way. Inseparable. A pair that moved through life side by side, facing every challenge together like you were built for it.
He was your person. You were his constant. You’d both sucked at love, made terrible choices, fallen for the wrong people, gotten burned, and picked each other up off the floor more times than you wanted to count. And somewhere along the way, you’d decided Frankie just needed a little push.
So you pushed.
Blind dates, setups, meet-cutes at your yoga class—you threw him at every semi-decent woman within a 15-mile radius like some emotionally-invested Cupid. And he let you, mostly because saying no meant watching that bright-eyed hope in you fade. And he couldn’t stomach that.
But tonight?
Tonight, you could tell, something had changed.
You pulled up to the curb outside the sad little Italian place you’d sent him to, elbow resting on the open window. “Hey, hot stuff. You survived?”
Frankie didn’t answer right away. He opened the door, flopped into the passenger seat like someone returning from battle, and just sat there, staring out at the glowing neon of the restaurant behind him.
You laughed, trying to lighten the mood. “That bad?”
He didn’t answer. Just kept staring straight ahead, jaw tight.
“Okay,” you said slowly. “Was it the weird laugh again? Or did she talk about astrology like it was a PhD?”
Frankie exhaled hard through his nose. “Can we not do this tonight?”
Your smile faltered. “I’m just asking, Frankie. You’re the one who said you wanted to meet someone.”
“No,” he snapped, turning toward you, his voice sharp. “You’re the one who decided I should meet someone.”
You blinked. “Okay... what’s your problem?”
“My problem is I’m exhausted,” he said, his voice heavy. “Tired of these setups. Tired of pretending. Tired of you pushing me into dates I never asked for.”
You sat up straighter, your frustration rising. “Excuse me? You agreed to them. I never forced you.”
“Yeah? Because every time I say no, you look at me like I’m broken. Like you’re trying to fix me.” 
Your heart twisted, his words landing on your chest. “Maybe I am trying to fix you, Frankie,” you fired back. “You’ve been stuck for years—half-living, half-dating, half-everything. You don’t even try. I’m the only one who’s been in your corner this whole time, and you’re making me out to be the bad guy?”
He let out a bitter laugh. “You don’t get it.”
“No, I don’t!” you shouted, anger flooding through you like molton. “You’re mad at me for caring? For trying to help? What is this really about?”
Frankie didn’t respond, instead clenching his jaw and gripping his thighs like he was holding back something too big to say.
“Say something!” you demanded, your voice cracking with the weight of everything that had built up between you. 
He finally turned to you, eyes blazing. “You want to help? Stop trying to build me a life with someone else when you don’t even know what the hell you’re taking from me.”
And then Silence. Thick, stunned silence.
You stared at him, your throat tight, heart pounding like it may jump out of your chest.  “What does that mean?”
He shook his head, suddenly looking like he regretted everything. “Nothing. Forget it.”
“No, you don’t get to say something like that and then shut down,” you snapped, your voice trembling now. “Why are you acting like I’ve betrayed you? Why are you looking at me like I did something wrong?”
“Because you did,” he said, voice softer now, but still laced with fatigue. “And you don’t even see it.”
You looked at him—really looked—and felt something twist in your chest. A rift you couldn’t name but felt in every part of you, ugly and all consuming.
“I don’t understand,” you whispered, more vulnerable than you meant to be.
Frankie stared at the windshield, his face tense. “Yeah,” he muttered, his voice low and resigned. “You never do.”
You wanted to scream. Or cry. Or rewind everything to five minutes ago when it was still just you and him. But instead, you turned the key in the ignition and said nothing in return.
And for the first time since you’re hovering in each other’s orbit, the silence between you wasn’t comfortable.
It was unbearable.
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Frankie didn’t sleep that night.
He sat on his couch in the dark, the TV on mute, some old movie flickering across the screen while the same sentence looped in his head: "You don’t even know what you’re taking from me."
God. He’d said it. Almost said everything. Too much—but not enough.
He dropped his head back against the couch, eyes stinging. The fight had cracked something wide open, and now he couldn’t shove it back inside. it broke free and was hovering just nearby like a giant shadow of something even bigger than both of you.
This wasn’t how it was supposed to go.
You never fought. Ever. You bickered, teased, got under each other’s skin, but you were a constant in each other’s lives. You knew when to push and when to pull back. You always knew.
Until now.
Now you were probably sitting in your apartment, running the argument over in your head the same way he was, wondering what the hell just happened—wondering why he was the one suddenly flipping the board when you’d only been trying to help.
He stood up and started pacing restlessly.
You didn’t deserve that. He’d lashed out like you’d hurt him on purpose, like it wasn’t killing you too, watching him drag himself through one failed connection after another. You were trying to give him something he couldn’t reach for. Because it wasn’t there.
Not in those other people. Only in you.
And he was such an ass to you, you. The only person in his life that kept up with all his bullshit and by some miracle didn’t leave.
Frankie grabbed his keys twice that night. Almost left. Almost showed up at your door to apologize, to explain—but what would he even say? “Hey, I’m sorry I lost it. Turns out I’m in love with you and watching you help me find someone else feels like dying."Yeah, No.
Instead, he stayed up until morning, slumped in his hoodie on the back steps of his building, smoking a cigarette he didn’t even want, tasting as bitter as the words he told you on his tongue and watched the sky change color. For the first time since you’d become friends, he didn’t know how to come back from this.
Didn’t know if there was a way back.
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The night stretched on like an endless tournament—one exhausting round after another, only there was no prize at the end. Just pain. Like you were being tested for some higher purpose you couldn’t quite grasp, and you’d failed without knowing why.
He’d never been like this with you before. Sure, Frankie had a temper, always quick to boil over when something pissed him off—but never at you. Never like that. And now, all you were left with was confusion and this dull, aching hurt in your chest.
All you ever wanted was for him to be happy.
He deserved that. Deserved someone who saw past the sharp edges, the emotional clutter, the history he carried like a second skin. Because despite all of it—despite everything—Frankie Morales was one of the last real gentlemen. A dying breed. Being around him was like witnessing an extinction in slow motion, only you had front-row seats and the last perfect example sitting right there in front of you.
It’s not like the thought hadn’t crossed your mind—showing up to one of those dates and pretending to be his date instead. It had. More than once.
But every time, you chickened out. Too scared to ruin the one good thing in your life. The thing you’d somehow, miraculously, managed to hold onto.
The next morning, everything was too loud.
The clink of your coffee mug. The buzz of your phone. The way the silence in your apartment felt like it had grown teeth overnight.
You kept checking your messages like maybe he’d say something. A joke. A half-apology. Anything.
But nothing came.
Not even a stupid meme.
You stared at your phone, thumb hovering over his name. The little photo you took of him months ago still sat there in the corner of the screen—Frankie in his kitchen, shirt inside out, pretending to argue with a toaster. You remember thinking, this is it. This is what home feels like.
And now it just felt like you’d been locked out and someone tossed the keys.
You typed a message.
“Hey. Are we okay?”
Deleted it.
Tried again.
“I didn’t mean to push. I just…”
Backspaced until the screen was empty again.
You tossed the phone onto the couch like it had personally offended you—then immediately picked it back up. Paced the apartment. Whispered test messages under your breath like they were spells you could get right if you just said them enough times.
But eventually, something clawed its way up from inside you. Something sharp and tired and aching.
And you stopped overthinking. Stopped editing. Stopped protecting both of you from the truth that was already out there, bleeding between the cracks. Lingering.
You sank onto the edge of your bed now, change of scenery, thumb trembling slightly as you typed:
“Frankie, I don’t know what happened to us last night. But I miss you.”
And this time, you hit send.
Then you sat there, phone in your lap, staring at the floor, leg nervously bouncing as you waited for a response.
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You kept your phone on loud for days.
It never buzzed. Not once.
You told yourself it was fine. Frankie just needed time. You fought, and it hit hard—maybe harder than either of you expected. Maybe he was licking his wounds. Maybe he didn’t know what to say.
But Frankie always said something. Even when it was stupid. Even when it was sideways and barely made sense, he showed up. A meme, a photo, a “you good?” that carried the weight of a whole conversation.
But this time? Nothing.
And it didn’t just sting—it unraveled you.
The texts stopped. The late-night calls and with it the way you could feel him across town without a word. It was like he'd ghosted his own life, and you were collateral damage.
Until three weeks later, Santi said it like it wasn’t a big deal.
You were helping him stack chairs after a backyard cookout, trying to pretend you weren’t checking your phone every five seconds. And Santi, half-distracted, said:
“You heard Frankie’s seeing someone, right?”
You blinked. Thought maybe you misheard him over the wind chimes or the clatter of metal legs.
“What?”
“Yeah.” Santi shrugged. “Some girl he met at that dive bar on the 14th. It’s new, but… he seems into it.”
You laughed. But it came out too sharp. Too forced. “Since when does Frankie get into anything that quickly?”
Santi paused, squinting at you, like he suddenly realized you hadn’t known. That maybe he’d said too much.
“I just thought—he’s been MIA lately. Figured he told you.”
He hadn’t, not a single word.
And suddenly it all made sense. The silence. The distance. Why he never answered your message. Why it felt like you’d been cut out without ceremony, like a chapter he just skipped over.
It wasn’t like it was with you. You knew that. You felt that.
But it was something. Enough to pull him away. Enough to make him forget to look back.
And standing there with your hands clenched around a folding chair and your heart somewhere between your ribs and the dirt, you realized it: This was heartbreak.
Not the kind that happens when love ends— The kind that happens when it almost begins, and then doesn’t. Impending grief for a feeling, for a connection, for him.
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You tried not to spiral after that.
Tried to be the cool, collected version of yourself—the one who let things roll off your back, who didn’t let silence crawl under your skin and nest there. But the truth was uglier than that. It curled up in your stomach, sick and sour, and stayed there. A constant pain you just learned to shoulder.
You stopped texting. Stopped staring at your screen like maybe it was broken.
He’d made his choice.
And you weren’t part of it.
Still, when the group chat lit up about drinks at the bar on Friday, you didn’t bail. Part of you wanted to—wanted to ghost the whole damn night and pretend you were busy or tired or just over it. But the other part, the louder one, needed to see. Needed proof that it wasn’t just in your head. That the silence hadn’t lied.
The bar was warm and loud and exactly the kind of place you used to end up in together, laughing over too many wings and trash-talking each other over darts. You walked in and found the usual suspects—Santi, Benny, Will—clustered near the back corner table.
And then you saw him.
Frankie.
He was already there. Drink in hand. Hair a little neater than usual, no cap whatsoever and a button-down that wasn’t flannel. Beside was a girl perched close. Too close.
You didn’t recognize her. She wasn’t beautiful in that cinematic way, but she had this softness about her—easy to look at, easy to fall into, maybe. Her hand brushed his arm when she laughed. And Frankie—
Frankie smiled.
Not the dumb, half-smirk he used to give you when he was being a pain in the ass. Not the tired, grateful grin that came with late-night takeout and long silences that didn’t need filling. No. This smile was different. Smaller, careful. Like he was holding something back, but offering it anyway.
And that’s when you knew.
He brought her.
To this.
To your table, your friends. The little circle that had always been you and him and everyone else orbiting around the mess you made of each other. You didn’t walk over right away. You hovered by the bar too long, pretending to wait for your drink, pretending your heart wasn’t jackhammering in your chest, pretending you hadn’t just been sucker punched without warning.
When you finally made your way over, Santi gave you a look—one part apology, two parts brace yourself—and pulled out a chair for you to sit.
Frankie’s eyes met yours for half a second. Not a word. Not a smile. Just a blink, a shift in his jaw almost unrecognizable, and then he turned back to her.
That was it.
No hey. No you good? No flicker of the person who used to make space for you without even thinking.
And you sat there, surrounded by laughter and the hum of conversation, with the hollow roar of grief in your ears. Because now you knew what it looked like—what it felt like—when someone moved on and left you behind. Frankie hadn’t just found someone new. He’d brought her into your world like you were never part of it.
And the worst part?
You couldn’t even blame him, because you were the one who told him to try. You were the one who pushed him. And now he was gone. Gone in the way that matters most—not out of your life, but out of reach.
You made it thirty-two minutes.
Thirty-two minutes of nodding along, sipping watered-down vodka, laughing too loud at things that weren’t funny, and pretending like your entire chest wasn’t about to collapse every time she touched him.
Every time he let her.
You didn’t even know her name until Will leaned over and said it like it was normal. Like it didn’t feel like a knife being twisted right under your ribs.
“Mira seems sweet, huh?”
You smiled. A tight, practiced thing. “Sure. Sweet.”
Mira.
The name tasted wrong in your mouth.
And maybe it would’ve stayed quiet—maybe you would’ve kept swallowing it all down like poison you could survive—if Mira hadn’t looked at Frankie, all wide-eyed and innocent, and asked, “How come you’ve never brought me here before?”
Before.
You heard it before he even answered. Before implied history. Ritual. Something that existed long before she did. Frankie paused, just a second. But it was enough.
“This used to be our spot,” he said, voice casual, not looking at you. Giving the words no meaning at all. “It’s been a while.”
Our.
As in you and him.
You swallowed hard and stood up too fast, chair scraping against the floor like a siren. “I need some air.”
Nobody stopped you. Not even him.
The night was warm and loud, headlights dragging down the street like slow thoughts. You didn’t make it to the curb before you heard footsteps behind you, you didn’t need to look to know it’s him.
Frankie.
“Hey,” he said. Not urgent, not guilty. “You good?”
You turned, eyes narrowed. “Do I look good?”
His jaw tightened. “What do you want me to say?”
“I want you to say anything,” you snapped. “Anything real. Because for the past three weeks, you’ve been radio silent and now you show up with her—like I’m just some extra in your new life?”
He exhaled, rubbing the back of his neck. “I didn’t think you’d take it like this.”
“Like what?” Your voice rose, sharp and brittle. “Like I’m hurt? Like maybe you bringing your rebound into our space like it means nothing would actually mean something to me?”
Frankie’s eyes flashed. “It’s not a rebound.”
“Oh, right. Of course not. It’s serious, huh? That’s why you brought her here—to mark your territory?”
“Stop,” he said. Quiet, but there was power in it. This voice meant no bullshit. “You don’t get to make this ugly.”
“You made it ugly the second you ghosted me.”
That shut him up.
You pushed forward, voice trembling. “You always text back. Always. Even when you’re drunk or pissed or halfway asleep. You always showed up. And now what? I’m just gone?”
Frankie’s mouth opened, then closed. He looked like he wanted to say something, then didn’t. Which pissed you off even more.
“You owe me, Frankie,” you said, stepping in close now, eyes wet but your voice firm. “You owe me honesty. Because I was there. Every time you fell apart, every time you doubted yourself, every time you needed someone—I was there. And the second you get a maybe-kind-of-working-something, I’m just background noise?”
“It’s not like that.”
“Then tell me what it is.”
He looked at you then. Really looked. And it cracked something in both of you.
“I didn’t know how to face you,” he admitted, raw and low. “After what I said. After how I said it. I was pissed, and I took it out on you, and you didn’t deserve it.”
“No,” you whispered,brows furrowed deep. “I didn’t.”
Silence stretched between you, thick and ugly.
Then you added, “And now you’ve got her. So I guess I was just... convenient enough”
His face twisted like you’d slapped him.
“You were never convenient,” he said, almost a whisper. “You were the constant.”
You stared at him, heart clawing at your ribs, and for one stupid second, you wanted to kiss him just to make it all go away.
But then Mira opened the bar door behind you and called out, “Hey, babe, everything okay?” her voice was so sickeningly sweet, it made your stomach turn. You didn’t look at her, didn’t need to. Frankie looked back once at her, then down at the ground like it was suddenly the only thing that made sense. He didn’t even look at you.
You stepped back, more stumbling than walking. Shaky steps, as unsafe as you felt.
“Yeah,” you said, voice steady now. Cold. “Everything’s crystal fucking clear.”
And then you walked away.
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Frankie tossed and turned, stared at the ceiling, counted sheep. It wasn’t because of the heat or the creaking pipes in his apartment or Mira breathing soft and even beside him—but because your voice kept replaying in his head like a broken record.
“I was just… convenient enough.”
He’d heard a lot of things in his life. Screaming commanders. Crying civilians. Doors slamming, hearts breaking, all kinds of silence. The one that makes your ears ring and the one that makes your chest tight. But your voice cracking like that?
That was new, brutal.
He sat on the edge of the bed now, elbows on his knees, head in his hands. The digital clock blinked 3:47 a.m in an alarming red light. Mira shifted behind him, half-asleep.
“You okay, babe?” she mumbled, barely conscious.
“Yeah,” he said. Automatically. Out of habit, out of guilt. “Just need some water.”
He got up, padded barefoot into the kitchen, and stood there in the dark, palms braced on the countertop like it was the only thing holding him up.
There was a photo stuck to the fridge—one you’d taken. Him and Santi arm-wrestling at your place, stupid grins on their faces, half a beer spilled in the corner of the frame. He remembered you laughing behind the camera, saying “Act natural, idiots.”
He hadn’t taken it down, he couldn’t.
He grabbed a glass but didn’t fill it. Just stood there, staring into vast nothingness, thinking of you. How you didn’t yell until the end. How you didn’t cry until he turned away. How you said “crystal fucking clear” like you meant it.
And for the first time, it hit him:
You weren’t mad because he was dating someone. You were mad because he’d shut you out. You were hurt because he made you feel replaceable.
But you weren’t. God, you weren’t, you never could be.
You were the one person who saw through all his bullshit and still stuck around. You were the reason he even considered fixing himself. Not for you—but because when you believed in him, he started thinking maybe he could believe in himself too.
He closed his eyes and pressed the heel of his hand into his eye sockets like he could rub the image of you out of his head. Didn’t work. You were everywhere.
In the mug you left once and he never returned. In the hoodie Mira kept asking about—"Whose is this?" your scent still clinging to it. In the way he couldn’t laugh at dumb memes anymore without checking if you’d seen them too.
Frankie Morales was in a relationship, sure.
But he was in love with someone who wouldn’t even look at him now.
And he only had himself to blame.
The next morning, he made breakfast. French toast, Strawberries on the side, just how Mira liked them. He kissed her shoulder while she sipped her coffee and made her laugh hard enough to snort. He was attentive. Present. Trying his best to silence the ghost in the room that only he could feel.
And when she asked, softly, cautiously, “You okay? You’ve been a little... distant,”
He smiled and lied. “I’m good. Better than I’ve been in a long time.”
She lit up. Actually lit up. And the worst part? She bought it.
Hook, line, and sinker.
And Frankie hated himself for how easy the lie slipped out.
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It was supposed to be game night. You showed up late on purpose—half hoping maybe he wouldn't be there, half terrified that he would. But the second you walked in and saw him sitting on the couch, hand resting on the back of her chair, like it was the most natural thing in the world?
Your heart dropped.
You tried not to stare. Tried not to see it. The way her laugh came easy. The way Frankie leaned in to say something just for her, close enough to catch the scent of her hair. How she reached for his knee when she laughed too hard at something Benny said. He’d never brought girls to this. Not game nights. Not Sunday barbecues. Not this space—the one sacred little pocket of your friendship he used to keep just for the people who knew him best.
For you.
Your chest tightened like someone was wringing out your lungs.
He glanced at you once, a flick of the eyes, and then quickly away like it burned. No smile. No wave. Just... nothing. Like he hadn’t spent the last few years orbiting your every step. Like you weren’t the one who held him through half of his worst nights. Like that fight didn’t leave a crater between you big enough to swallow this whole damn room.
Santi handed you a beer. You didn’t even remember asking for one.
“You okay?” he asked quietly.
You nodded too quickly. “Yeah, fine.”
But your hand shook when you took a sip, and you hoped no one noticed.
Mira laughed again. Loud, beautiful, perfect. And Frankie ? He laughed with her. Not that half-hearted chuckle he used to do when dates didn’t land. This one was full. Real.
You excused yourself to the kitchen before you could break down in front of everyone.
You barely made it in there before the tears started.
Silent at first—just a sting in your eyes, a tightness in your throat. You braced your hands against the counter, trying to breathe through it, trying not to fall apart like some cliché in a movie. But it wasn’t just heartbreak—it was the kind of grief that comes when someone doesn’t die, they just stop being yours.
And then you heard footsteps.
Santi.
He didn’t say anything at first. Just came up beside you, leaned his hip against the counter, and cracked open a beer like he hadn’t just walked in on a silent breakdown.
Then, quietly, observed like he always was. “Yeah... I figured this would happen.”
Your lip trembled, and you shook your head, wiping under your eyes quickly like it might hide the mess.
“I’m fine,” you lied even if your voice betrayed you in its thinness.
“You’re not,” he said gently. “And it’s okay. You don’t have to be.”
That broke something. A small, shattering sound in your chest. You let out a breath that turned into a sob and folded into him before you could stop yourself. Santi pulled you in without hesitation. No questions. no pressure. Just arms that held tight and steady while your shoulders shook, his hand on the back of your head.
“I didn’t think he’d really...” you started, but the rest dissolved into his shirt.
Santi rubbed slow circles on your back. “I know. None of us did.”
You stayed like that for a moment, tucked against him, letting his steady presence fade out some of the noise when another voice cut through the quiet.
“Jesus,” Benny muttered from the doorway. “He’s a goddamn idiot.”
You laughed against Santi’s shoulder, the sound more broken than amused. “Don’t say that. She’s not the problem.”
“I’m not talking about her,” Benny said, stepping inside. “I’m talking about him. He’s sitting out there like you never existed. That’s not Frankie. Not the one I know at least.”
Santi nodded. “He’s... stuck. Pretending so hard he forgot he’s not that good at it.”
And they didn’t say it—no one said it—but you all knew exactly who Frankie used to be good at pretending with. You. He never had to.
You wiped your face with the sleeve of your hoodie, trying to pull yourself together. “I don’t want to ruin the night.”
“You’re not,” Santi said firmly.
“You showing up tonight?” Benny asked. “That made the night.”
You offered a shaky smile, grateful even if you couldn’t quite show it yet.
Out in the living room, you could still hear Mira’s laugh. Still hear Frankie’s voice, low and warm and not at all the boy who used to show up at your door at 2 a.m., asking if you had Pop-Tarts and time. And maybe everyone thought he’d moved on. Maybe he thought he had, too. But if he had even glanced toward the kitchen just once—he would’ve seen the other two important people in his life holding up the one person he’d forgotten how to hold.
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Nobody prepares you for the call you get late at night when you were supposed to sleep, telling you that your dad is in the hospital because of a heart attack, his condition critical.
Frankie sat on the edge of the bed, hands in his hair, breathing like he’d forgotten how. Mira stirred beside him, mumbled something soft and half-asleep, but it barely registered. The words from the phone call were still ringing in his ears like a fire alarm.
Chest pain. Ambulance. Unresponsive for two minutes.
His first instinct wasn’t to shake Mira awake.It wasn’t to call his mom, or Benny, or even Santi. It was you.
His hand moved before his brain could stop it—phone unlocked, your name already pulled up in the recents even though it had been weeks. His thumb hovered over the call button like it had muscle memory. Because in every other version of this moment—in every other emergency, every broken-down car, every fight, every loss—it had always been you.
He didn’t call. Not right away. He just stared at your name, and the photo next to it—blurry, laughing, eyes shining from that road trip last year when the AC broke and you threatened to abandon him on the side of the highway.
And that’s when it hit him, hard, fast and cold:
This isn’t a best friend anymore. This is the first person I think of when my world ends.
His hand recoiled from the phone, like it bit him.
Mira was sitting up now, rubbing her eyes. “Frankie? What’s going on?”
“My dad,” he said, voice as hollow as he felt. “He’s in the hospital.”
She was by his side in a second, hands on his shoulders, asking the right things, offering to come with him. She said all the things a good girlfriend should say, but they didn’t land.
Because all he could think about was you. Not just because you would’ve been there in a heartbeat—but because you’d know what to say. Because you’d reach for his hand before he asked. Because you’d sit beside him in that sterile waiting room and not talk unless he needed you to. Because with you, he wouldn’t have to explain what this felt like. You just… would.
And that’s when it shifted. In a way that couldn’t be undone. It wasn’t about dating, or jealousy, or the fight, or Mira. It wasn’t even about the timing anymore.
It was about truth and for the first time in weeks, it crushed him.
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The fluorescent lights in the waiting room buzzed low, mechanical. Too bright for a place this heavy with dread. Frankie sat hunched over in a plastic chair, elbows on his knees, staring at the tiled floor like it owed him something—answers, maybe. A break. Mira had gone to grab coffee, or air, or space. She hadn’t specified and he hadn’t asked.
And then he heard your voice.
Soft, tentative.
“Frankie?”
He didn’t look up at first. Thought maybe his brain had conjured you again—just like it had when he’d scrolled past your name in his phone and nearly called you on instinct, like some kind of survival response. But then you were closer and right in front of him. 
There, not just an imagination. Real. 
Hair in this messy bun you always did when you couldn’t be bothered to straighten it. Eyes wide and red-rimmed like you’d cried in the car before coming in. Like the thought of him hurting still cracked you open even if he hurt you first.
“I’m sorry,” you said gently. “Santi told me. I just— I needed to be here.”
His breath caught. Not because you were there. Not even because you showed up without needing to be asked. But because part of him had known you would. Even now. Even after everything.
“You didn’t have to come,” he muttered, but it came out hoarse. Hollow, useless.
“I know.” You sat down beside him anyway. Close, but not touching. “But I wanted to.”
Frankie didn’t know what to say. His hands shook. He dug his nails into his palms like that could stop the ache building under his ribs. But it was too much, everything was too much.
“I can’t lose him,” he said, voice cracking on the last word.
And that’s when you moved. No hesitation. Just reached for him, pulled him in like you’d done a hundred times before.  Only this time it broke him.
His arms wrapped around your waist and he buried his face in your shoulder and for the first time since he got that call, Frankie cried. Not loud, not dramatic. Just silent, shaking tears against the only person who ever made him feel like he was allowed to fall apart.
You held him, steady and firm. Holding his broken pieces together like you always did. Your hand in his hair, your breath steady and close. No questions, no anger, no I-told-you-so.
Just you, the one constant that always has been there and it all made it worse. Because this wasn’t Mira. This wasn’t temporary comfort, this was home. And he’d spent weeks pretending it wasn’t.
You were still holding him when Mira walked back in. Frankie’s face hidden in your neck. His hands clutching the back of your sweatshirt like he’d sink without you. His entire body folded into yours in that desperate, wordless way that doesn’t look like friendship. It looks like gravity.
She stopped mid-step.
You didn’t see her at first. You just whispered, “I’m here, okay?” and brushed your fingers through his hair the way you always did when things got bad.
But Frankie did see her and lifted his head. Eyes glassy, face streaked with silent tears, breathing uneven. His gaze locked on Mira—and in that instant, everything in the room went still. Her expression didn’t crack. Not really,not yet. But her eyes said enough.
This wasn’t the grief of a girlfriend who’d been left out. It was the grief of a woman realizing she’d never been in.
“I brought you coffee,” she said, voice tight, like she was reading a script someone handed her last minute. Frankie stood up too fast. Swiped at his face like he could erase what she saw. “Mira, it’s not—”
She held up her hand. Calm, composed. Kind.
“Don’t,” she said quietly. “You don’t owe me a performance.”
You stepped back instinctively, putting space between you and Frankie like that might fix it. Like that might soften the blow. But Mira wasn’t stupid, she wasn’t cruel, either. She just nodded, a silent resignation and set the coffee on the table beside him, looking at him with an unreadable expression. 
“You should’ve called her first,” she said. “I think we both know that.”
Then she left.
No big scene. No yelling. Just the hollow echo of her footsteps down the hallway and the sound of a door swinging closed behind her. Frankie didn’t move.He just stood there, looking at the coffee, shoulders stiff like they were holding the rest of him. And you?
You didn’t say I told you so or she deserved more or what are you doing even if you had every right to. You just picked up the damn coffee, pressed it into his hands, and whispered, “Drink, you’re shaking.” 
And he did, even in the wreckage, in the fallout of his silence, you stayed.
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It was sometime after 2 a.m. when you finally convinced Frankie to sit down again.
The ICU floor had gone still, lights dimmed, nurses moving in hushed, practiced rhythm behind sliding glass. No updates. Just waiting. You were still there. So was Santi—sitting cross-legged on the floor with a vending machine coffee and a million-miles-away stare. Benny had shown up with tacos no one asked for, claiming ‘grief makes you hungry’ and refused to leave since.
Nobody asked questions. Not about Mira, not about crying. Not even about the way Frankie hadn’t let go of your hand since you laced your fingers through his hours ago.
Santi finally passed him a coffee. “Still hot. Miracle of science.”
Frankie took it with both hands. “Thanks.” His soft brown eyes full of sorrow. 
Benny threw an arm around the back of the chair beside him, stretching like he owned the room. Typical. “Listen, Morales, I know it’s not a great time, but if your old man pulls through and you don’t tell him we all waited like a bunch of loyal golden retrievers, I’m gonna start charging emotional support fees.”
That pulled the smallest breath of a laugh out of Frankie, which was the point. You gave Benny a grateful look over Frankie’s shoulder. He winked and shoved a half-eaten taco into his mouth like it was his life’s mission.
Santi leaned forward, arms on his knees. “You good on food? Water? Want me to harass a nurse?”
Frankie shook his head, lips pressed tight. Then softer, “Thanks, man.”
“You don’t have to thank us,” you said, your thumb brushing lightly against his. “This is what we do.”
Frankie didn’t answer. But his grip tightened. Because he felt it—the thing that held him upright. It wasn’t Mira. It wasn’t some illusion of romance or a picture-perfect fix.
It was this. You, Santi and Benny.
People who’d sit with him in fluorescent hallways all night long. Who didn’t flinch at his mess. Who knew him and stayed anyway. Chosen family. And for the first time since he got that call, Frankie felt the sharp edge of loneliness dull just enough to breathe.
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You didn’t realize you’d been holding your breath until the nurse smiled.
“He’s stable,” she said gently, as if the words might shatter in the air. “It’ll be a long road, but he made it through the worst.”
Frankie didn’t react at first. He just sat there, staring at the tiles like he hadn’t heard her. Then something in his shoulders sagged. His whole body exhaled. Like the fear that had been coiled so tightly in him all night finally let go.
You touched his arm. Lightly. Carefully. “He’s okay,” you said. And the words felt like a blessing.
Santi clapped him on the back, eyes tired but warm. “We’ll be back in a few hours. Get some rest if you can.”
Benny stood, stretched like a lazy cat, then leaned down and pressed his knuckles into Frankie’s shoulder. “Try not to emotionally combust while we’re gone. I’ve bonded with your old man now—I’m personally invested.”
They left without needing to be told. That’s what family does.
The quiet that followed was heavy. It settled over the waiting room in soft waves—early sunlight through the blinds, the hum of machines, the lingering tension that hadn’t quite disappeared with the good news. Frankie hadn’t let go of your hand all night, it’s been sweaty and uncomfortable at times but you wouldn’t say anything. But suddenly he let loose and leaned forward, elbows on his knees, eyes trained on the floor. 
“You didn’t have to come.” You swallowed hard. 
“Don’t say that.”
He didn’t look at you. “I called her first.”
Your heart twisted, but you kept your voice steady. “Of course you did.”
“No,” he said. “I wanted to call you.”
He said it like it was a confession. Like it cost him something to get it out. 
“I started dialing,” he went on, “but I hung up. I told myself it wasn’t fair. That I couldn’t ask you to show up again—not after everything I’ve already taken.”
You stayed quiet, let him speak.
“I tried,” he said, voice breaking. “I tried so fucking hard to move on. To convince myself that Mira was good, that she made sense. That she could be the person I needed.”
He finally looked at you and it took all your air out of your lungs.
“And she’s not you, she’ll never be.”
The words slammed into you. Hard and simple and impossible to miss.
“I thought I could keep it buried. That if I never said it out loud, I could live with it. But when I got the call about my dad, when I thought I might lose him—I couldn’t lie to myself anymore. The only person I wanted was you.”
You couldn’t breathe for a second. Couldn’t think.
Frankie scrubbed a hand over his face, tears in his eyes he didn’t bother hiding anymore. “I don’t expect anything. I know I wrecked it. I just… I needed you to know. Because if I lost him and never told you the truth, I don’t think I could’ve carried that.”
You reached out before your brain caught up, threading your fingers through his again, lifting it up to your lips and kissed his knuckles. 
He looked smaller like this. Not weak, just real. Raw. All things he never let anyone see except you. You didn’t say anything. Because some truths didn’t need answers right away—they just needed air. And this one, between you and him, was finally breathing.
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It didn’t happen in a single moment. There was no dramatic speech, no fireworks. No declarations in the rain.
Just… quiet.
The kind that came with knowing someone inside and out. The kind that had always lived between you. 
A few days after the hospital, you showed up at his door with two coffees and a bag of something warm, and he didn’t question it. Just stepped aside and let you in like you’d never left. You curled up on the couch, tucked your legs under you like you always did, and when your fingers brushed reaching for the remote, you didn’t move away. Neither did he.
After that, it was movie nights again. Grocery runs together. Your hoodie hanging off the back of his kitchen chair. Your hair in his sink. He never asked you to stay, but you did.Until one day, you just… were. A part of his , his rhythm, his everything, like you always were, just without holding back now. Frankie wasn’t afraid to name it anymore.
No one asked questions. Not Benny, not Santi. Maybe because they’d all seen it before he had. Maybe because it was written all over both your faces the second the storm passed.
You were all at Benny’s one night—barbecue smoke thick in the air, beers half-drunk, someone playing music off an old speaker—and you were curled into his side like gravity had always meant for it. Your head on his shoulder, a small gesture but so monumental to him. 
And Santi, mouth full of ribs, just grinned and muttered, “Finally.”
Frankie looked over at him. “What?”
“You two. Took you long enough. Benny and I had a whole betting pool.”
Benny snorted. “I lost, by the way. Thought it’d take ‘till Christmas.”
You laughed into his shoulder. Warm and soft and unmistakably you. Frankie rolled his eyes but couldn’t help the smile pulling at his mouth. “Real supportive friends I’ve got.”
Benny raised his bottle. “We’re rooting for you, Morales. Doesn’t mean we can’t roast you while we do it.”
Later, after the sun dipped low and the night got quieter, you tugged him out onto Benny’s balcony. Just the two of you. The city stretched out in front of you, all hazy lights and faraway sounds. You leaned on the railing beside him, arms brushing against each other.
“I know you were a bit slow at times,” you said, eyes on the skyline. “But this… this was slow motion.”
He huffed out a laugh. “I had a lot of shit in my head, okay?”
“I know,” you said, voice softer now. “But I was right there.”
He turned to you. Took in your face, lit by the dim glow of porch light and stars above you. That expression he’d always known but only just let himself hold onto.
“You’ve always been there,” he echoed.
And then he kissed you.
Not like the end of something, not even like the start. His hands in your hair, your mouth meeting his like it already knew the shape of him. Slow, sure and welcoming.
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The sun eased into the room slowly and quiet, like it knew better than to speak after the kind of night that changed everything.
You lay on your side, tangled in sheets that still smelled like him—like heat and skin and something you’d waited years to have. Frankie was asleep beside you, one arm stretched toward where your body had just been, hand curled loose on the pillow as if even in sleep he couldn’t let you go too far.
You reached for him instinctively, fingers brushing the curve of his shoulder, then trailing down his arm like you were retracing last night’s map.
It played like a movie behind your eyes. His hands, his mouth, the way he said your name like it broke something open inside him every time. The first kiss, not rushed but anchored, like he’d known exactly what he was doing—like he’d been dreaming about it and was just finally awake. Your lips tingled at the memory of where he’d kissed you. Where he lingered. Your skin still hummed in the places his hands had claimed, like he’d memorized you with his fingertips.
You pressed your fingers to your own mouth, not to stop a smile, but to feel him again. To remember how it felt when he whispered things you never thought you’d hear from him—need you, been dreaming about this, can’t believe it’s real.
Your breath caught. Not from lust, but from how right it all had felt.
The mattress dipped behind you and suddenly, there he was—still half-asleep, hair a disheveled mess, voice low and rough as he murmured, ‘Where’d you go?’ Only one eye open, just enough to peek at you.
You smiled, settling back into the warmth of him as his arm wrapped around your waist, pulling you flush against his chest like you belonged there.
“Was just thinking.”
Frankie pressed a kiss to the back of your shoulder, slow and warm and so him, it made your throat go tight.
“’Bout what?” he mumbled.
You smiled. “When it happened for me.”
He went still behind you. “What?”
“When I fell for you.”
His breath hitched, just slightly, and his hand tightened at your hip. “Yeah?” he whispered. “When was it?”
You let out a soft laugh. “That day you showed up at my apartment soaking wet ‘cause your car broke down and you needed to borrow a charger. You were dripping water on my rug and swearing in Spanish under your breath like the world personally offended you. I made you tea, remember?”
He groaned. “I do. I was a mess.”
“And I just… looked at you. And felt it.”
Frankie was quiet for a second, then leaned in, lips brushing the back of your neck. “You know when it happened for me?”
You turned your head slightly. “Tell me.”
“That night we crashed at my place after the bar. You passed out on the couch, and I tried to sleep. I thought I’d be fine, but I had one of the nightmares. Bad one.”
Your breath held in your chest.
“I woke up sweating, choking on my own damn breath, and before I could even sit up, you were there. Not scared, not freaked out. Just there. Sat beside me, hand on my back. Let me breathe. Didn’t say anything stupid. And most importantly you didn’t run.”
Your heart clenched. 
“That was it,” he said quietly. “That’s when I knew.”
You turned in his arms, met his eyes, your hands cupping his face like he might disappear if you blinked too fast, thumbs stroking his cheekbones.
He looked at you with those warm, deep brown eyes—like melted earth after rain and it felt like he’d never seen anything more certain. More beautiful. The same way he looked at you that night on his couch, when you didn’t flinch at the worst parts of him. When you just held him, no questions asked, like it was the most natural thing in the world. Like maybe love had already happened and neither of you had realized it yet.
And when he kissed you this time, it wasn’t wild or desperate—it was soft. Full of all the things neither of you had said for years. The things you didn’t need to say anymore.
Because you knew.
You both knew.
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☆彡 peppers pt 2 ˳༄꠶
character: hwang in ho / 001 / the frontman
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˳༄꠶ summary: five sfw and nsfw general headcannons for the frontman
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★ as he proceeded as the front man, he acquired a fascination with betrayal within the games. it basically reinforced the belief that humanity would always choose the best for themselves despite the sacrifice of others, and deep down i think he gets off by watching the players kill each other
★ in some way he feels a bit bad for the players who vote to go home. he’s seen the process over and over again and knows that greed outweighs self-sufficiency and compassion for others; for him, these deaths aren’t as enjoyable to watch
★ he hates others that victimize themselves. it leaves him both simultaneously angry and stressed, because what do you mean you’re upset with the situation you got yourself into?
★ when he’s not in the games (as a player), the hierarchy and rules that he has for the staff is much stricter. he doesn’t allow barbarity; like guards threatening each other, fighting, or attempting to take advantage of another person. while he chooses to take players in and make them fight to win, he still has a moral compass
★ he HATES the vips. for him, sure he gets enjoyment of watching the games but he’s never found the need to bet on the players; if anything this further pushes the idea that humanity has lost it. because while others may view him continuing the game as psychopathic, he views it as demonstration to people
nsfw headcannons
★ as the frontman, he doesn’t really have someone that can please him. most of the time when he’s pent up, he’ll just use his hand and his imagination to get off
★ as the frontman, he likes to keep his sexual activities in private. but as a player, since he believes he has some sort of superiority over the others he wouldn’t mind fucking in public; not obnoxiously of course, but with the confidence, courage and no shame. late night sex with him would be so good, but since gi-hun suggests watch shifts it would be harder to actually participate in it (season 2 bathroom scene w/ the frontman when?!)
★ he doesn’t really like watching you ride him. he believes it gives you too much control. he wants to have all control over your pleasure; like whether or not you cum, how many times you cum, ect
★ he’d definitely make a sex tape with you if you were okay with it - but only when he’s not playing the games, so either after the revolt or if he’d never entered the games altogether. he’s the type to burn your sex tape on dvd’s. watching them on a video recorder or a mobile device is too tacky for him
★ he likes it when you whine for him; especially if you’re shy in bed. he’d go all gentle in the beginning, saying stuff like “come on sweetheart, you gotta tell me what you want” and “look at my beautiful sweetheart, so needy for me.” and when he’s finally inside you, he does degrade you, but it’s usually a mix of both praise and degradation
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the end! i hope you enjoyed <3!
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xo-cuteplosion-xo-2 · 4 months ago
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~A Little Competition~
Pairing: Odyssey and Epic Telemachus x reader
Type of spice: Competetive, Threesome, slight kink & Romantic
Morality: White
Words: 2,592
Tw/kinks: degrading and praise, oral, vaginal, a little rough, competition, plot what plot?
Request is from the discord server:
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For those confused
Odyssey Telemachus (Telemachus) is like manwhore sorta mean
Epic Telemachus (Telem) is the cinnamon roll we adore.
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You’re not sure how you allowed them to convince you to do this… Something about proving which of them was better, which should get more of your time. There is no such thing as peace in this relationship. How can two people be so alike and yet have completely separate personalities?
You do find the way they argue over you, compete with one another over you a bit of a turn on though. Seeing Telem get so worked up, his face bright red as he stares down Telemachus, trying to argue that he’ll be better in bed, while Telemachus stands there arms crossed and with the biggest cocky smirk you’ve ever seen on his face. It was Telemachus’ Idea… to settle this the smart way, and you for some stupid reason had agreed.
You can’t say you aren’t nervous about this, having two men in your bed at once. Would their dicks be identical to…? You pace around your room a little before arms wrap around you, pulling you close while teeth nip at your ear. “Awe, nervous are you?” Telemachus purrs against your ear, his hand wandering past your shoulders. He gropes both breasts in his hands, kneading the flesh through the cloth of your Chiton.
“You’re hogging her…” You tilt your head back a little to see Telem standing there awkwardly. 
You sigh and reach out an arm as he steps closer, pulling him towards you. Telemachus scoffs from behind you, mumbling something under his breath. You cup Telem’s cheek in your hand while your other wraps around his waist, pulling him flush against your body. He flushes slightly and you snicker. “I can divide my attention between the two of you.” You hum brushing back a strand of his hair as you lean in to kiss him.
He sinks into your kiss, and you push your tongue through. As your attention shifts from one to the other, Telemachus narrows his eyes. He puts his lips against your jaw and trails sloppy kisses down the side of your neck. You hum and tighten the hand around Telem’s waist. You break away to catch your breath, but Telemachus grabs your chin, pulling your lips to his. He shoots Telem a cocky glance as he pushes his tongue past your lips.
Telem glares as he snakes a hand around to your butt. He’s hesitant and looks at you as if to ask if what he’s doing is okay. You try to grunt approval, but Telemachus seems intent on stealing all of your attention at the moment. You feel a bit bad and take your hand and slide it under Telem’s tunic. His eyes widen and he shifts.
You wink at him, trying to divide your attention equally between the man claiming your mouth and the one gently cupping your ass. His breath hitches when you wrap your hand around his dick. Telemachus seems to take notice and huffs, pulling back from your mouth. He swats Telem’s hand away and slaps your ass. Your hand jerks while tightening around Telem’s dick, causing him to whimper and flush. 
You stand there a bit shocked yourself, then glare at Telemachus. He rolls his eyes and puts his face in your tits. “Can you strip already?” He looks up through his lids at you. 
“Y-you’re shameless!” Telem huffs, using the hand around your waist to keep himself upright as you stroke him in soft fluid motions.
“As if she’s not jacking you off under your tunic right now! How is that less shameless of them wanting to see my wife strip?” Telemachus snaps back, grabbing at the edge of your clothes.
“Our wife… a-and you didn’t ask her!” Telem huffs, squirming under your touch. You sigh, shaking your head. They’re already fighting over you, cute.
“I don’t need to do that. Look at her, she clearly wants it.” He scoffs, and just to prove his point,can he hits your ass again and grinds his hips against you. You shutter flushing.
“Stop fighting…” you mumble, then raise a brow when both princes reach for your Chiton, messily trying to tug it over your body and undo the ties so it falls at your feet. 
“I… I can do it!” Telem glares down Telemachus, who rolls his eyes, but you catch a glint in his eyes as he steps back. Telem pauses, just as confused as you are.
“What? He thinks he’s going to get anything done while being jacked off. He’s hardly standing. I give him maybe two more minutes before he comes undone and ruins his tunic. And falls on top of you.” Telemachus crosses his arms, deciding he’d like to watch the scene unfold, then be a dick about being right later.
Telem narrows his eyes at his counterpart, his breathing shuddering, and his legs feeling a bit wobbly. “Don’t be so mean to each other.” You speak softly, but your words are more aimed at the hormonal angsty prince than his softer counterpart.
Telem manages to get your clothes off and his own before he paints your hand white in a breathy little moan that accompanies a whimper. “Told ya he’d whimper,” Telemachus snorts, getting rid of his own tunic as he approaches again. He pulls both of you onto the bed.
“I wasn’t… I didn’t whimper!” Telem huffs as he catches his balance breaths still uneven.
“You did.” Telemachus rolls his eyes.
You narrow your eyes. Since he won’t knock it off, you’ll shut him up. You shift besides Telemachus and lower your mouth down. His eyes widen for a second, before his hand finds grip in your hair. “Bitch… that-” He whines when you manage to bottom out, however he covers it up with a huff. You smirk and start grazing your fingertips over his balls. “F-fuck…” His hand grips your hair as he leans against the bed frame. He glances at Telem and nods towards him, then sticks out his tongue, cocking a smirk. 
“I… can I?” You raise a brow but shrug, missing what the two of them were communicating. Sometimes you do feel out of the loop, honestly… You don’t think much about it as Telem shifts around behind you as you focus on Telemachus. His eyes flutter and his hips buck as you suck. He digs his nails into your scalp, tugging your hair.
You pause when you feel hands moving apart your thighs. You shift even though it offsets your position over Telemachus. After a moment of being still, Telemachus seems to get his grip back and start guiding your head, no longer letting you dictate the pleasure he’s feeling. Still, he makes small grunts to cover his little whimpers. They aren’t too different after all. Telemachus is just bolder, and has a bit more toxic masculinity than Telem. 
The rustling of fabric catches your attention. You go to pull off Telemachus just to ask what Telem is doing, but the man pulls your head back down with a scoff.
Your eyes widen as Telem grabs onto your ass and pulls your hips down. You swallow a moan as his tongue laps out against your folds. He pauses to assess your reaction before he continues. “Ha, is he actually that good with his tongue, or are you just being sweet?” Telemachus scoffs, pulling you back down a bit harshly this time. You suck in air through your nose, throat constricting around his dick. He hisses, bucking his hips with a low whimper. He clears his throat to hide it.
You’re surprised by what Telem is doing… you hadn’t thought he’d be able to pinpoint your clit this fast. He’s focused on that spot and its undoing. You moan, greedily sucking Telemachus off as Telem eats you out. One hand slips from holding your ass to under your hips. He runs his fingers around with his tongue before slipping them in. You jolt, pulling your head up as your back arches. You’re aware Telem is beneath you, and you don’t want to hurt him by crushing him, but fuck… “T-Telem…” Your breath hitches as he doubles his effort.
Annoyed, Telemachus adjusts his position, moving onto his knees before pulling you back down. He bucks his hips while he tugs you down and off, over and over again, harshly. Your moans send vibration all the way up his spine, and after just a few thrusts down your throat where you gag or choke, he twitches. “Fuck, you’re such a whore.”
“She’s not a… Don’t call her that!” Telem pauses just long enough to speak before he gets back to lapping away at your clit with his tongue.
Telemachus rolls his eyes as he reaches his climax. He yanks your head back, tilting your head towards the ceiling, causing you to curve your back at an odd angle. “Swallow.” He demands, and you do as you’re told. Telem doesn’t remove his fingers even as he and Telemachus nudge you onto your back. You wrap your legs around Telemachus as his free hand starts to rub your clit and his tongue joins his fingers. You arch of the bed moaning. You reach for his hair, but Telemachus grabs both wrists and holds them above your head.
He leans his head to your throat and sucks aggressively from your jaw to your collarbone. He bites a little here and there, glancing at Telem, looking for a nod. When he gets it, he snickers. “Don’t be afraid to nip a little.” Telemachus smirks. Telem looks at him hesitantly before he lets his teeth graze you a little. You tense, but a moan leaves your lips. 
Telemachus starts sucking a tit while his free hand plays with the other caousing you to come undone almost immediately. 
Telem helps you ride out your high, running his tongue all over your pussy to gather as much of your cum as he can. He leans back, running his tongue over his lips. “See… I told you I could do it.”
“Yeah, yeah, don’t get cocky now. Move.” He practically shoves Telem out of the way as he leans over you. He pulls you upright using the hand holding your wrists. “Get behind her.” He scoffs.
Telem raises a brow, but nods. “Wait, you wanna… do that?”
“What’s that? And why do I feel like I am suddenly being gained up on?” You narrow your eyes at Telemachus, squirming a little. Telemachus just smirks as he rubs his tip against your folds, lining himself up. 
“Wait, why do you get to have that spot?” Telem narrows his eyes, and you sigh, prepping for another fight.
“You act like a fucking virgin, that’s why.” Telemachus hisses through his teeth. You swallow, certainly nervous. “And I wanna watch her slutty expressions as we fuck her brains out.”
Telem gapes wide-eyed… “She’s not a… that… she’s just vocal and pretty.” He places his hands right above Telemachus’, just above your hips. He shifts around on the bed for a moment before you feel his tip brush against your ass. You bite your lip, eyes wide.
“H-hold on… this…” Telem pauses at your unstable words, freezing while Telemachus pushes in.
“Are you nervous?” He taunts, sucking in a breath, “Fuck your tight~ you are so… gods- just- you really are a whore, sopping wet, tight… You like to be spoiled don’t you?” Telemachus digs his fingers into your hips tight and bruising.
Telem leans his head on your shoulder. “I… I don’t have to… if you’re not comfortable.” He kisses your cheek, trailing his lips down your back. You suck in a breath, and Telemachus whines, doing his best not to buck his hips.
“You’re okay Telem… it’s…” You take a shaky breath as he starts easing in. You tense and he pauses.
“F-fuck… gotta… gotta relax… you’re doing so well.” Telem huffs, reaching in front of you to twist a nipple.
Telemachus rolls his eyes as he makes small movements just enough to get you to relax. It takes a bit of coaxing, but Telem bottoms out with little whimpers, laying his head in the crook of your neck, his breath tingling the skin. “Fucking finally.” Telemachus hisses, pulling back and then slamming forward with a whimpered grunt.
Telem sucks in a breath as he pulls back and slips forward. His motions are sloppier than Telemachus’ thrusts and far gentler. The two separate sensations are dizzying.
“Fuck, look at you… moaning like a bitch.” Telemachus huffs, keeping his hips at a steady but harsh pace.
Telem glares at Telemachus as he kisses your shoulders, playing with nipples. “You’re doing so good… ha- so good… you’re…” he whimpers brows knitted together in his concentration and annoyance at his counterpart.
Telemachus latches his mouth to the other side of your neck, while his fingers continue digging into your hips. “A-at this rate sh-she’ll call you a good boy and you’ll come undone.” Telemachus scoffs.
You sigh as you moan, “Y-you’re such a… a dick.” You gasp when he thrusts harder, his eyes narrowing. Your lips curl into a smirk. “You’re a fucking brat.” You hiss and take glee in the whine from his lips. 
Telem snickers, taking just as much pleasure in seeing Telemachus shrink down a few notches as you do. “You keep calling her names, but are you sure you’re not the whore?” Telem clings to the sudden boost in confidence, thrusting a little harder but still paying mind to be gentle. 
Telemachus, for once, is silent, and you catch him off guard. You make it work… manipulate his position just enough so that you can have the control but Telem can still effectively drive his dick through your ass…
Moaning and shaky, you rock against Telemachus as he struggles to get back into control. You smirk as the knot forms in your stomach… the tight feeling of impending release. Telemachus’ eyes get teary. It’s a look you’re not sure you’ve ever seen from him before. “Fucking… Whore” his voice cracks as he arches, sinking his hands into your thigh as he bucks into you sloppily. 
Telem isn’t too far behind, but he pulls out and you look at his pleading eyes. You get off Telemachus and turn around for Telem. He smiles and thrusts up with a whine. He buries his face in your chest. “Thank you… fuck… fuck… so good, you’re so amazing…” He reaches down, fingers rubbing your clit, trying to hasten your release. You arch with a satisfied moan, joining him as his cum mixes with his counterparts. He pants and pulls out slowly, before flipping onto his back. He runs his hands over his face as he pants.
You can already feel the stiffness of your muscles as you lay down between your two husbands. You’re half asleep when Telemachus elbows you. “So… who’s better?”
“Seriously?” You groan, opening your eyes to find them both staring at you. “I’m not answering that.”
“It was definitely me.” Telemachus hums, holding his head high.
“It was not. You were the one whining and whimpering by the end!” Telem huffs.
Telemachus flushes and flips the other prince off. “That was her fault! She played dirty.”
“I swear to the gods, if you do not both shut up and let me sleep after twisting apart my insides, I am tossing BOTH of you out.” You hiss, and both men shut their mouths. You tug their heads down onto your chest and nod. “Better.” You hum, shutting your eyes, unaware of the now silent argument they are having through expressions.
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dreamerimpossible · 4 months ago
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Slasher Reaction When You're Not Interested In Sex
Warnings: +18 content, manipulation, obsession, unhealthy relationships, dark content, there is a hint of non-con in Art the Clown and Alex DeLarge (are you surprised?), angst, mentions of infidelity in some.
Characters: Michael Myers, Chucky, Billy Loomis, Stu Macher, Patrick Bateman, Hannibal Lecter, Vincent Sinclair, Jason Voorhees, Leatherface, Art The Clown, Jason Dean, Alex DeLarge, Kurt Kunkle, Brahms.
Michael Myers
Does he really care about that stuff? I feel like you'd have to actively provoke him to get him interested in having sex with you. If you don't bring out that side of him, he won't care. Seriously, he doesn't care. It's quite likely that he won't even care whether or not you want to have sex. He'd rather have you have a bad side that you can't control, something that makes you more like him than anyone else. He'll enjoy that badness and chaos. Sex takes a backseat.
Chucky (Human Version)
I honestly don't think it would work. However, if he really wants to keep you for himself, you'll have to agree to let him have sex with other people. In that case, I think it would work. He'll try to convince you anyway, but he won't force you if you say no. But you'll probably fight, because he'll think it's personal and that you have something against him, and then you'll have an argument that escalates and you'll end your relationship in the worst way. After that they'll get back together and then break up again. And so on. Although, if we're being honest, that scenario is going to happen either way (Chucky is toxic).
Billy Loomis
Okay, he will. But he'll be very manipulative; he'll push you all the time about it, and it'll be much worse if you know he's Ghostface since he might threaten you, and his manipulations will be much worse than if he was pretending to be a good boyfriend. I think you'd eventually agree, but he'll get used to you giving it to him, and it'll be much worse when you say no. I think he wouldn't force you physically, but he'll pretty much use psychological manipulation to get you to do what he wants from you, which is still forcing.
Stu Macher
If you're just another low-level conquest, he'll cheat on you or leave you for someone else. If you're someone special, he'll stick with you even though he gets frustrated. He could be very loyal if you push his weaknesses correctly without Billy finding out. He will insist that you have sex with him in a silly way, acting innocent and playful, but you will be able to see his disappointed and upset face when you say no. However, if you play your cards right, I think he might continue with you without cheating on you; but you have to manipulate him, which will make your relationship even more toxic, but at this point…who cares?
Patrick Bateman
Tough scenario for you. If he thinks you are a person worthy of him, but you just happen not to want to have sex as often as he does, he will overlook that little flaw of yours. However, that doesn't mean it will be good. He wants you to admire him, to be the center of his life, to moan his name loud enough for everyone to hear. If he doesn't feel that way in the sexual realm as well, he will end up cheating on you with other people, but he will keep you by his side selfishly.
Hannibal Lecter
He doesn't care. Just give him control over you in all the other areas of your life. Give him the pleasure of watching you break down to the point of questioning your own morals and life choices. Make him play with your mind and show him your reactions. Tell him everything that happens to you so he can see if he can use it in some way. Give him a challenge and keep him entertained with your conversations. Provide him with a context that leaves him in euphoria and maximum exaltation. If you can do that…who needs sex?
Vincent Sinclair
He will be slightly disappointed, but he will respect you. He will not treat you differently or anything like that. He will not cheat on you or betray you in any way either. He will be very frustrated if Bo finds out and starts bothering him, but it is nothing he cannot handle. Other than that, I don't see any other problems. He cares more about your loyalty and that you follow the orders imposed on you. That's all.
Jason Voorhees
The best scenario for him. It will be much better if you do not want to have sex ever. He likes not having to fight those instincts that disturb him greatly. It's not even going to be brought up; just tell him you're not interested, and the subject will be forgotten as if it never even existed. This doesn't change your relationship at all. In fact, I think it will be better, because for Jason you won't be an unwanted temptation for him, so he won't have two opposing thoughts about you to deal with.
Leatherface
It's okay; he'll understand. He won't force you or anything like that. He won't treat you differently either. I don't think he cares about those things, if I'm honest. He's more focused on his family and loyalty. And that includes you too. He asks that you get along with his family and be okay with what they do. That you don't have a problem, basically.
Art the Clown
He doesn't care in the conventional way. But if he finds out that the subject is sensitive for you, he will use it against you. So it's best not to let it show or say anything to him, because this man is a fucking madman who enjoys other people's pain (you know that). If you don't say it, the subject will go unnoticed for a long time. If Art ever feels sexual desire towards you and wants to have sex with you, he will simply take you and use you. Seriously, he won't ask questions. He sees you as his toy.
Jason Dean
For him not to care, you would have to be crazy like him. In that case, he will overlook it, because he will believe that something as crude as sex does not have to hinder a love as perfect as yours. I think that at first he will feel personally offended by your refusal; he will try to explain to you that he feels rejected. If you explain it sincerely, he will understand and will not insist further. But he will use it against you in arguments to get you to give him more attention and spend more time with him, claiming that he does a lot of things for you.
Alex DeLarge
Uh… no. He wouldn't take you seriously if you didn't want to have sex as much as he does. He likes sex quite a bit; he's not going to give that up. I think he might keep you around if you like ultraviolence and enjoy it as much as he does. I don't think he'll leave behind a person to help him and follow his orders. But you two can't be a couple; it just wouldn't work. He'll actively try to provoke you into falling for it. In your case, it would be much more fun if you gave it to him consensually, because that would mean he has complete control over you and can make you do things he wants of your own free will. However, if he doesn't want you around him because he's not interested in you in any way other than sexually… then things get darker. We already know his tendencies.
Kurt Kunkle
If he doesn't feel rejected, he doesn't care. If he feels rejected, the relationship will be more toxic. He is manipulative and obsessive. He wants you to admire and love him; if he feels that you dislike him sexually, he will not force you, but he will be excessively controlling, and you will argue a lot. He uses it to victimize himself. There will come a point where he becomes a nuisance to you. On the other hand, if he does not feel rejected, that is fine; he will be toxic in other aspects of the relationship.
Brahms
He will take it personally, no matter what you tell him. He will manipulate you, and it will be emotionally draining for you. You will probably agree on several occasions to get him to shut up, or you will end up manipulating him with sex to obey you. He will obey you every time if you offer him sex. He would like to resist, but he is too hungry for contact and needs to feel the sensation.
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olderthannetfic · 6 months ago
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I always see people reminiscing about the Good Ole Days and about how antis are a new thing but. . .is that really true? Or am I just being autistic and taking things too literally, and they just mean it's way more of a common debate now than it used to be before, and that the landscape of shipwank has changed?
Idk, it's like I constantly hear about fandom wank and shipwars and censorship from decades ago, and yes I know "shipping/doxxing/censorship has always existed" can co exist with "antis are new" but I think there's still a bit of a comprehension gap on my end.
am i just dumb? What am I missing here? FWIW - I do feel like the context of "anti" has definitely changed. Back in early 2010s tumblr (I cannot speak of other website/platforms) I remember that tagging something as #Anti Donkey Kong didn't mean you think DK is an evil abusive monster and that everyone who likes him/mains him is also an evil abusive monster and that Nintendo is pushing the evil abusive monster agenda. #Anti Donkey Kong would just be character bashing, wank, letting out your grievances about how ugly DK is, etc, but it was really just a tag used for your own personal opinions (and for DK fans to filter out). Whereas now #Anti Donkey Kong would mean please go die and delete all your accounts if you support DK.
So I definitely know that "anti" has a way more intense definition now than it used to - but for some reason I find it a bit hard to grasp just how new this whole anti thing even is in the firstplace. It honestly makes me sad that I've never seen a pre-anti internet, assuming there really was a time before antis.
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Antis are new. Specifically, the "Conservative Protestantism in a gay hat" thing that that one tumblr post pointed out is new.
We had doxxing in the past. We had masses of shipwank. We also had "How dare you write that m/m ship. It's bad!"
The key is that the "Your m/m ship is bad" crowd used to openly be conservative Christian homophobes who objected to homosexuality itself. Nowadays, they're queer 20-somethings who like m/m ships but object to gay sex.
It's the anti-kink, anti-fantasy brigade coming from "our side" instead of the outside, essentially. It's respectability politics about "Sempai will love me if I just sanitize The Community and kick out the icky weirdos". It's personal disgust masquerading as morality where once it would have been masquerading as intellectual superiority.
It's a product of queerness being more public and tolerated overall. In the past, a lot of spaces devoted to m/m shipping had to be aggressively in favor of contentious fiction because the existence of anything m/m was itself contentious. There was plenty of "Well, my gay best friend said ___ is unrealistic, and my slash is good, unlike that of you plebes!" There was much less "Fujoshi means fetishizer".
Of course, I'm comparing the 90s internet to now or the mid 00s Livejournal fandom to Tumblr of this past decade. It really depends on whether Ye Olden Times was five years ago or twenty five.
The modern use of the term 'anti' did indeed grow out of the old habit of tagging your hate. As the default cultural mode shifted from "My NOTP is dumb" to "My NOTP is problematic", the usage changed. At some point, antis started getting offended by their self-applied term and pretending that the other side inflicted it on them. This is revisionism. Fiction-is-not-reality had some writeups with citations in the past.
The big shifts were happening around 2012-2016. The long slide into puritywankers being everywhere has only continued since then, but that's where the tipping point seems to have been. TikTok exacerbates this nonsense, and there are clearly plenty of people who are anti-queer and only weaponizing clueless queer youth.
The big shift is that liking m/m used to weed out most of the worst people, and now it attracts lots of them who will not fucking go away because they like the same ship, just the hand-holdy, no dicks can touch ever version.
They spend their time bleating about how AO3 should have been built for them and how anti-censorship activism doesn't matter... because they've grown up in a fandom world dominated by AO3, which shelters them from the reality that the "Ewww, all m/m sucks!" crowd is everywhere on other sites to this day.
That's probably why the shift is when it is. Certain aspects of mainstream queer acceptance were on the rise just as AO3 was getting big. But at the same time, the world is shit and everyone has anxiety they self-medicate through rage and security theater around sniffing out The Bad People.
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vigilskeep · 7 months ago
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hey harker! very much enjoying the lucanis/illario/general crow posting, and im gonna encourage more: now that you’ve had some time to sit with the game i was really curious to hear more about your opinion on lucanis becoming first talon. i can’t help but feel like it’s completely glossed over that lucanis is definitely going to get chewed up by this job in most save states. i have mixed feelings about it personally - but setting those aside because i’m asking about yours.
i TRULY cannot express this enough: that villa is a tomb and if we do not get him out of there we are burying him in it
lucanis does not want this job. he has straight up canonically always avoided thinking about this by assuming he would die before it becomes something he has to deal with. he reacts with paralysed disbelief to being given it and seems to have barely registered it for the rest of the game. and even if he did want it, lucanis is not capable of this job. none of his skillsets are managing people, or making ruthless calls, or watching out for himself. the only driving force behind him being pushed into this is caterina, who will not be around to do the admin and protect him from external threats forever. and she only wants him to do it in the first place because she had a good heir—his mother—and has needed to project that dead daughter onto lucanis for his whole life, to believe she hasn’t already gambled and irrevocably lost her family’s future decades ago. but lucanis’ incapacity to ever say no to her, which is what lets him stay that eternal teacher’s pet, is one of the most obvious shining examples why he would be so bad for the job!
it would be an uphill battle for anyone to recover control of an assassin house that until last week was being run by your cousin who tried to kill you. it would be an uphill battle for anyone to lead the crows in the aftermath of the antaam occupation. it would be an uphill battle for anyone to cope with the fact that relying on viago and teia—which lucanis with his resources and skills has no choice but to do here, even if he didn’t simply like them and make choices based on liking people because he is not a strategist—presents them as an alliance that any other ambitious talon must cut down to get anywhere. three out of eight of the talons is such a ludicrously dangerous number. it does not take an overwhelmingly brilliant mind to notice that there’s more of us than there are of them
the best man for the job would still be fighting for their life, and lucanis is far from the best man. caterina was! and she still lost five children and six grandchildren holding it! that’s so many! have you guys ever seen that one post about people who kept getting a new outdoor cat every time the last one got eaten by cougars and it was pointed out they were basically just feeding cats to the cougars. that’s what caterina dellamorte was doing having kids
the points in lucanis’ favour off the top of my head are the weight of the dellamorte name and reputation, that his victory over illario was decisive and public, and simply the fear factor that he is a god slayer and, lest we forget, a fucking abomination. is that enough to keep him alive? for how long? under what level of constant anxiety and moral degradation for his very soft over-caffeinated heart? all for the questionable gain of several large and empty villas and the privilege of dragging out the slow and lingering death of a family that, you guessed it, you love it, it’s the thedas favourite: has no! next! generation! heirs! at all!!!
(unless illario has a bunch of kids somewhere. i think that would be objectively pretty funny, a sentence i managed to type most of before feeling ill. oh god we need to get them out.)
i apologise that my tone here is somewhat hysterical but i have been living in the mind of my rook, a character very aware of the realities of crow politics who loves lucanis very much. it does not surprise me that lucanis was once again incapable of even conceptualising saying no to his grandmother and accepted the title, or that the idea of abandoning her legacy and his family would seem insurmountable to him when he has been raised to believe it’s all he’s for and he is the last one shouldering the weight. but i am saying this with total and absolute confidence: this is another prison and he is going to die in there if nobody gets him out.
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mistyheartrbs · 26 days ago
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i'm sure i'm not the first person to take issue with this (checks notes) 25-year-old episode but WOW do i hate riley and how they wrote him off in 5x10.
from the beginning he's a character out of place in buffy. he's condescending at best, chauvanistic at worst, all while the narrative insists he's Really A Good Guy! he's Really Secretly Good and he just Didn't Know that demons had feelings! the initiative plot drags s4 down and every scene he's in makes the show feel like molasses. he's not funny, he's not cool, he's not complex or layered either. btvs is generally pretty good at adding new characters to the scooby gang and making it feel natural - oz, anya, tara, spike to a degree, even dawn - but riley is a drag through and through, a character from another show.
and there is the potential for something interesting there! dropping an all-american macho military man into the very woman-centric world of buffy, seeing how he fares. a fitting (if trite) plot for riley would have been he's initially protective of buffy, then realizes she's stronger than him and that makes him feel emasculated bc he has like a decade of military programming to overcome and then he overcomes it and accepts that buffy is canonically one of the most powerful people in the world.
and instead we just. don't get that? he never learns and, worse, the episode frames him as being in the right. he's not the one punished for his reckless and actively dangerous behavior (i'm not even going to go into the implications of the vampire brothel thing given that 1) i do not expect a 1990s monster of the week show to be tasteful or nuanced about sex work 2) sarah michelle gellar's delivery of "tell me about your WHORES" was the best part of the episode) bc he goes off and lives his demon-killing dream while buffy's left handling all of this, punished for not forgiving him within like an hour of confronting him.
and buffy herself is a flawed person! she's vindictive and impulsive and materialistic, she holds others to a strict moral code she herself doesn't always uphold, she runs hot and pushes her friends away because she thinks she can carry the world on her shoulders. these are all things that make her interesting and give her foils, and that COULD have made for some really interesting tension with duty-bound riley, but instead we get exhausting "you won't let me take care of you :(( i feel bad because you're stronger than me :(((" when he's not actually offered to do much of anything.
5x10 comes so close to genuinely condemning him and addressing the ugliness and misogyny that's been at the root of their relationship from the beginning - buffy calls him out for issuing an ultimatum! - but then xander's brought in to deliver the "message" and buffy has to humiliate herself running after that helicopter.
when spike says that buffy "needs a little monster in her man" he's obviously projecting and talking about himself (and angel) but, at its most generous, what he's saying is exactly right. because buffy has that darkness in her - faith sees it, spike sees it, giles sees it even if he refuses to admit it - and she needs someone to acknowledge it and not try to make her lesser. she needs a sparring partner. riley tries to goad her into hitting him and she refuses because she knows she'll hurt him. he forces her to hold back. and it's horrible that whedon and co try to convince us in this, riley's goodbye episode, that that's something worth chasing a helicopter for.
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stuckyslut8 · 1 month ago
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DIY gone wrong ..
Pairing : congressman bucky x bunny hybrid! Reader (and a little suprise)
Summary : your grumpy and sleepy master makes you do everything by yourself, but then fucks you dumb once he understands his bunny can't do anything right.
Warning : smut, a little angst , dystopian au where hybrids are treated badly. Dark content. Dub con. Do not read if it makes you uncomfortable. 18+ . Minors dni. Edging, dark bucky, morally fucked reader . Bucky barnes is a pu**y whisperer , don't tell me otherwise.
(don't think there's any major thunderbolts spoilers ahead)
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You waited for your master to come home after his job, of saving the world.He hadn't done a lot of superhero stuff since he became a congressman , somedays he was wondering if what he was doing was any good, most days he was exhausted from the politics and listening to the commentary from his rivals, or the media tearing his past apart, everyday there a new news article about him.
But through all those days he had once constant thing, his bunny, his pet, who always adored him no matter what , it didn't matter to you what his past was what his present was, all you cared for was him and that was all bucky needed, he thought it was a little selfish at first to keep you in this little bubble , to himself, you were free to go out of course (only to places Bucky had pre approved and only with bodygaurds), you were allowed to interact with anyone (only the people Bucky approved of course). But form the place where you came, the hybrid training facility as they called it, all the freedoms bcuky offered felt like heaven to you. You weren't a dumb bunny , he knew that too , you understood what he was doing and why he did that, it didn't matter to you cuz he was all you needed . But putting on this act of being a dumb little bunny got Bucky so hard , you loved having that power over him .
You had your own bed(which you shared with Bucky of course) , your own closet, your own art room, your own garden, your own kitchen, which you really enjoyed and you know Bucky did as well, when he would fuck you against the counter, or make you suck his cock. "So good bunny, such a good cock sucker my bunny is" .
"thank you daddy " your sometimes call him that , sometimes master, sometimes baby, sometimes bucky.
You were something bucky didn't know he needed in his life until he got you. More like steve has gifted him before his departure with the stones, to a past he'll grow old in with peggy. He knew Bucky needed someone to love and cherish him. He had handpicked you himself for Bucky, and even "tested" you a couple of times before handing you over to Bucky. No one at the facility had the spine to say no to captain rogers of course, they were eager to please him, he just saved the world after all, brought half the population back, he was a hero to all. Though hybrids were rare and not for everyone, America's best soldier deserved it.
"you're so perfect bunny" you remeber the blonde super soldier telling you, as he took you apart in your training room, "such a tight pussy, Bucky's gonna love it, and these perfect tits, I'm personally an ass man but bucky loves tits ," he smacked your ass before he pounded into you again, your voices muffled by the pillow , as you were facing ass up. "But this ass is perfect too, Bucky's gonna take you apart " , he pumped you full of his load, as your roomates watched in envy, of course any hybrid there would love to be picked by captain America himself, he was a sight for sore eyes. You were quite proud of yourself after that, watching the other hybrids face turn green of jealousy, good they deserve it for picking on you, making fun of you for failing your table manners class. "Such a good little bunny.." you could feel Steve's fingers pushing his cum back into your hole, "too bad can't have you myself too, but Bucky needs this and i gotta go back to peggy." You didn't hear a word coming out of his mouth, too lost in your last orgasmic bliss, this was better than any of the times you ever made yourself come. "You know your place , don't you bunny?" You only nod in response.
"you gonna make my Bucky happy bunny you understand? " Steve says , as he leads you to his car. Finally breathing in the air of freedom, goodbye that wretched hybrid facility, hello freedom.
So that was it ,one day you were the bunny of war veteran james Buchanan barnes, the former winter soldier ,the next day you were the bunny of Congressman barnes , you were his bunny but also his love as Bucky would call you. "My wife " he'd say sometimes , "the light of my life " . Bucky loved showing you off at the party's , you loved latching on his arm. You felt pride in having such a man.
But today was a little different. Tired was an understatement for Bucky's current state , he was exhausted beyond words could describe.
After saving the world from "bob" , he just wanted to sleep forever with his bunny by his side, of course. But it wasn't your plan for the night, you were all dressed up in your little lacy blue babydoll that Bucky loves so much, it was 40s style , custom made for you, Bucky loved dressing you up like a 40s housewife and was shameless about it. "My good little wife, know how to make your husband happy", he'd say when you'd cook something for him, or do any chores . He appreciated you, for every single thing you did. But today was so was exhausted that he told "not today bunny,put on your pjs ,we're gonna have an early night" he said.
And you obeyed, of course, but the thing is it's never happened before , what did you do wrong, was bucky tired of you, was he seeing someone else, was it that vile woman's secretary who kept calling bcuky the other day when you were riding him, feeding him your homemade cookies, rubbing his belly to feed him more. So many questions wandered through your mind, but Bucky was sound asleep next to you, his face buried in the crook of your neck, his flesh arm wrapped around your middle, you slowly lowered yourself onto him, humping your clothes pussy over his boxers, you tried to be subtle about it, but you couldn't , suddenly his hand on your hip stopped you.
"what are you doing bunny , though I told you to sleep."
"can't sleep bucky, I need you. " You whined. And of course Bucky couldn't say no to you but he was tired.
"fine just fuck yourself on my cock bunny, I'm tired ." He said with his eyes closed.
You did as he said, pulling your panties down , getting his leaky tip out of his boxers, you were confident you'd stretched yourself thoroughly, and lowered your pussy on his tip, it barely went in, you were struggling. You tried twisting and turning in his arms, how pathetic you looked, trying to take your husband's big cock, it was too big, it was his fault really, Bucky never bothered training you into how to do it yourself, he'd always take his time stretching you out himself, with his thick fingers, made sure you were ready before he put his thick member in , it was thicker than a normal one, due to the the serums enchantments of course , and you weren't the one to complain about the way it filled you so good , streched you just enough to make you see the stars.
But today, it was working to your complete disadvantage, you tried and tried to put it in your throbbing pussy. Bucky only got weary of your moments after a while, "what's going on you dumb bunny? Can't take my cock?" You shake you head , "i tried jamie , he just doesn't wanna go in". Bucky loved it when you spoke about his duck like that .
Bucky was already frustrated from everything that happened, and with you disturbing his sleep now, you were sure he was gonna fuck you like crazy, finally.
"can't do the one thing you're meant to do huh? Dumb bunny, always want daddy to do all the work." He said spreading your lips apart, rubbing your sensitive nub, make you whimper.
"yes daddy please, wanna take you , help me."
"my dumb bunny " he positioned you so you were face down in the pillows, your cunt spread open for this display, he gave your ass a couple of smacks, leaving his mark there. You moaned as the pleasure courses through you.
"you just don't know how to work my pretty pussy, do you bunny? " He asks you pumping his two fingers in and out of you at a steady phase.
"no daddy, she never listens to me"
"tsk tsk don't blame her bunny, she's a good girl, unlike you" *smack ,he rubbed your sore bottom soothingly, before *smack. "I know my prettty pussy, she always listens to me, unlike you brat, waking me up in the middle of the night by humping me?" He put his tongue in your hole, fucking you with it, swirling it around the right spots making your bakc arch, you were about to cum, he knew it, he pulled out just in time.
"daddy please i wanna cum" you said , knowing it was gonna get you into more trouble.
"shh don't wanna hear you, I was having a good time with my pretty pussy, I'll let her come when I want to, you shut up dumb bunny" he pressed your face into the pillow bt grabbing your neck.
"my pretty little bunny cunt, always tastes so sweet, no wonder steve picked you, this pussy was made for me " he showered your pussy with praises almost making you jealous. It was silly you thought how this man can turn you against your own pussy sometimes. "His pussy" you mentally corrected yourself.
" you can take me my pretty girl, your took me a million times before, are you nervous today is that why you're hesitant?" He whispered to your pussy, you would've almost thought he said those words to you, but you knew the difference between his sweet talk for you and his pussy.
"don't worry sweet girl, I've prepped you enough" he spit on your poor pussy, making it glisten , he used his fingers to push all the fluid inside your hole, he smeared some of it on his cock, before slamming into you, and your pussy didn't resist as he'd said. Traitor.
Bucky wasn't gentle, gripping your hips harsh enough to leave marks, he maneuvers your body in just the right way so he can thrust deeper. "There you go sweet girl, does my cock make you feel good, it's kissing all your right spots, i know, he missed you so much, my hands were never enough for him" fuck his dirty talk only made you wetter, if that was even possible, brought you to the edge. You thought he was gonna let you come but, he pulled out, leaving your pussy gasping for more.
"come on did you think I was gonna let you some so easily after the stunt you pulled bunny, no , I'm gona edge ya,over and over till you pass out , not gonna stop."
And he kept his word, bringing you so close to your release every time before he pulled out abruptly. He got his releases of course, he'd come in you so many times , he used his cum as lube to fuck you harder.
A few hours later, he finally decided to show mercy on you. "Come on my bunny girl, i think my sweet pussy deserves her reward for takign me so good ,let go for me, come for me "
Your walls clenched around him so tightly, scared he was gonna pull out again,but he didn't he let you have your release at boy it sent you to a state of pure ecstasy,you didn't even realise you squirted all over the sheets.
Bucky chuckled , pulling you into his arms, "you did so good for me bunny, so good for daddy, you made a mess , but you're gonna lick it off of the sheets like a good girl soon I know . You're so amazing, steve would be so proud." He pressed kiss to your forehead as you buried your face in his chest. This was home for both of you , two broken souls, who found each other. Credits to steve of course.
A/N : THIS is my first bunny hybrid fix btw! Do you need a prequel with more details about steve meeting bunny for the first time? Lmk.
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drdemonprince · 4 months ago
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Did you ever struggle with feeling guilty about transitioning, especially w/r/t transmasculinity being in some way antifeminist? I often feel like I’m committing an act of betrayal :/ Like, if I can choose on some level what position to occupy in gendered society, then is it morally defensible to move towards the oppressor position?
(Why yes, I do have anxiety and serious issues with rumination, often themed around the ways in which I am probably a bad person)
Personally, no. I never felt welcome in mainstream cis feminism. I felt strongly alienated by the gender essentialism, the exclusion of trans people, and the mix of cruelty and neglect that was lobbed at male victims of sexual assault and domestic violence.
I had been sexually victimized by women numerous times in my life, and mainstream feminism didn't seem to have anything to say about that, or any sympathy for the victims of women. Within feminist activist groups that I had some tertiary connection to, I saw trans women being excluded from events for sexual violence survivors, and observed a cis female get away with repeated acts of sexual aggression and abuse because she was a woman and a survivor, and so no one felt free to argue with her about what she "needed" in order to recover (in this case, forcing trans men to have sex with her). In these spaces my own body was commented upon, my boundaries were pushed, and a great deal of coercion and underminement was constantly going around.
I was also highly put off by the individualistic, girl-boss feminist nature of most feminist movements that I witnessed as a person growing up in the early 2000's - 2010s. In academic labs studying gender-based oppression, people spoke only against the pay gap faced by white women, never the ones faced by women of color or men of color. Critiques of white feminism were rarely if ever taken seriously. It was a gross environment to be around, and I avoided it as much as possible, honestly.
I didn't become a feminist at all, really, until after I embraced myself being trans. Once I was firmly out of the coerced "female" box, I could witness how much easier life was for me than for women. I listened to trans feminist thinkers and saw clear patterns in how transmisogyny and misogyny played out that helped me better understand things. And I felt confident enough to speak out about my status as a man who has been preyed upon by women and sexually abused by them, as well as by men, and to critique mainstream feminism for its transphobia, racism, and other problems. And because I was a man, I always got away with saying such things.
Personally I think feminist movements aren't shit if they aren't trans feminist, and while I can hardly claim to have always been enlightened on all trans feminist matters (like a lot of trans mascs, I used to long for having been "born a boy" and "having more confidence" from it, believing that male socialization was that simple, my resentment and dysphoria curdling into a pretty transmisogynistic world view even if i didnt realize it), something profoundly rotten and missing within mainstream feminist movements always kept me out of it. It was never a comfortable, safe space for me and I didn't give a shit about 'betraying' it.
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