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mrsjellymunson Ā· 1 month ago
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Hurt Me
Written for the @steddiemicrofic November prompt ā€˜guardā€™ | WC target: 532 | Rating: M | CW: hurt/no comfort, angst, mentions of sex, feelings denial, self-sabotage | Tags: rockstar!Eddie Munson, personal assistant!Steve Harrington, top!Eddie Munson, bottom!Steve Harrington, shameless use of pop song lyricsĀ 
Heā€™s done the right thing. Heā€™s sure of it. If Eddieā€™s learned anything from a life on the road itā€™s that he needs to guard his heart. Thereā€™s no room for messy things like feelings, emotions, anything even resembling love.
And thatā€™s definitely not what they had. Absolutely not. Not by a long way. Whatever he and Steve had was strictly business.Ā 
Until it wasnā€™tā€¦Ā 
So what if they happened to cross paths when Eddie swung by Hawkins on a break from touring, and he realized Steve wasn't that douche from High School anymore, he was actually a good dude.Ā 
Or that Steve ended up being the best Personal Assistant Eddieā€™d ever had. Or that he became the best friend Eddieā€™d ever had.
And so what if they started hooking up after shows, they were just purging adrenalin, right? And then between shows, then after meetings, then before meetingsā€¦
So what if Steve sometimes stays the night - itā€™s just easier to get to whatever thing they have the next day. Or that they shared a hotel room that time - they had a lot of prep to do and it just made sense to stay close so they could work.Ā 
So what if Eddieā€™s disappointed every time they get back to the big city where they have their own places. Where Eddie can get Steve on the phone anytime, sure, but where thatā€™s not enough anymore.
So what if, when he slides into Steveā€™s tight warmth and he whimpers into the pillows, it stirs something inside Eddie. Or, when he gazes into those molten caramel eyes, he searches for flecks of forest green that heā€™s convinced nobody else has ever seen. So what if, for years, itā€™s the closest thing heā€™s felt to being anything resemblingā€¦ complete.
So what if Steveā€™s the first person heā€™d consider letting top him since that awful encounter he had years ago. So what if he wants to ask him if he would.
None of it means anything. It doesnā€™t.
Just like it doesnā€™t mean anything now, when Eddieā€™s dressing for yet another interview and going through his dresser looking for the perfect ripped black tee out of the hundreds he now owns. Absolutely not looking for the one Steve picked out for him that time for a photoshoot, telling him it was the hottest heā€™d ever looked.
Heā€™s definitely not overthinking how he broke things off, bitchily yelling at Steve to go back to Indiana because,
ā€œThe rockstar life doesnā€™t suit you, dude.ā€
Or how Steve retorted,
ā€œHave you ever considered that by pushing people away, the only thing youā€™re guarding yourself from is happiness?ā€
So what if Eddie sits and weeps, amongst piles of black leather and satin and chains, and tells himself,
ā€œSo what? I'm still a rock star, I've got my rock moves. And I don't need Steve. And guess what? I'm having more fun now that we're done.ā€
He snuffles and wipes snot from his nose with the heel of his hand.
ā€œI'm gonna show him tonight. I'm alright, I'm just fine. And heā€™s a tool. And I don't want Steve tonight.ā€
Heā€™s done the right thing. Heā€™s sure of itā€¦
Thanks so much for reading! Thereā€™s more Steddie minifics on my masterlist, if youā€™re interested (and I promise the majority are happier than this one šŸ˜†)
A/N2: This gets added to the list entitled Times I Wrote Something & Made Myself Cry. Iā€™m so sorryā€¦ Also, what is this obsession I apparently have with SteddiexP!nk lyrics? IDK, if you work it out LMK šŸ˜† Also, props to @morningberriesao3 for the idea of an ā€˜awful encounterā€™, I hope this doesnā€™t count as plagiarism but if it does LMK and Iā€™ll totally change it! šŸ™
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fizzigigsimmer Ā· 2 years ago
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Reality dating show au where Steve is the bachelor looking for love, that America adores cause heā€™s the first to have both girls and guys on his season. #representation #lovewins. šŸ˜‚ Jasonā€™s that one contestant clearly auditioning for the next bachelor spot, who makes the whole season about how heā€™s not out to his parents yet (while on a reality show). Heatherā€™s that chick who is clearly just there for the free vacation and the instagram clout. Nancy has a boyfriend back home that someone who just happens to know someone else from her hometown knows about. Chrissy is the audience favorite, and Billy is the actor planted by production to create drama by being as cartoonishly unlikeable as possible. But oops they fall in love. Billy tells Steve just to forget about him because he canā€™t come clean about playing it up for the cameras because of the NDA he signed, and if Steve chooses him over Chrissy theyā€™re gonna be the most hated couple in America. šŸ„² But Steve says he doesnā€™t care and heā€™s willing to take the heat. Chrissy thinks the whole thing is fucking hilarious and is laughing her way down the isle with boom operator Eddie.
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malikat24601 Ā· 18 days ago
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My dancer boy, my idiot son, my Pas De Deux Steve šŸ„ŗ If you like this flavor, might I humbly offer šŸ¤²
I couldnā€™t SEE ballet Steve before, but now I DO. I see the vision.
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steddiealltheway Ā· 6 months ago
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Thinking of a No Upside Down AU a few years down the line when Steve and Robin are looking for jobs together. Only, Robin breaks their unspoken rule and gets her own individual job as a personal assistant for singer Chrissy Cunningham.
While Steve bitches and complains about it, Robin manages to secure him an interview to be a PA for some singer who wonā€™t be revealed to him until a few steps into the process - if he makes it that far with zero qualifications.
But when Steve shows up for the first interview, he finds none other than Eddie Munson arguing with his manager about something - which sounds suspiciously like youā€™re not supposed to be here for this.
But when Eddie looks up and makes eye contact with Steve, his face lights up with a shit eating grin as he says, ā€œSteeeeve Harrington. I always said you and your friends would work for me one day, and I see that day has come.ā€
And Steve leaves that interview a stuttering and embarrassed mess, absolutely possessing none of the qualities or skills required to be Eddie Munsonā€™s PA. So heā€™s shocked when he gets a call saying that he got the job, and is even more shocked when he hears that Eddie insisted he get the position.
While Steve preps to be humiliated as Eddie likely intends, he is grateful to find out that in the upcoming weeks Chrissy and Eddie will be pursuing a fake relationship as a publicity stunt for both their new albums. So, Steve and Robin will be working together after all, much to their relief (if only they could stop falling for their respective singers).
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strangersteddierthings Ā· 1 year ago
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Sequel to Good People - The fic in wherein Wayne doesn't like Steve and overheard a conversation he shouldn't have. Here's the aftermath of that :3
Part OnešŸ¦‡Part TwošŸ¦‡Final Part
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Wayne had stayed in his bedroom long after he heard the boys leave. Eddie had knocked on his door to let him know he'd be staying at Steve's and to not expect him back until late tomorrow, a courtesy he'd never shown until after he'd been the victim of a manhunt back in spring. Wayne never asked him to do that but he thinks Eddie picked up on how worried Wayne would get if he were gone for any amount of time.
Eddie's always been good at reading people when he bothers to pay attention to them. Maybe that should have been enough reason for him to give pause to his dislike of the Harrington boy, instead of needing to overhear the boy crying about how he thinks there's something rotten deep within him that only Wayne can sense.
He'd been so sure he knew what kind of person Steve Harrington was. Eddie had been hung up on boys just like him pert-near his whole life, Wayne thinks, and it's never ended differently.
It's a Tuesday night and his friends usually gather at the bar on Friday nights, but Wayne needs to get out of the trailer to think. A beer might help. So, he grabs his keys and heads out.
He's been a regular at this bar since before he was even old enough to drink. Used to come with his pa, may he rest in peace, just to get out of the house. He's been a patron longer than any of the staff have worked there, he realizes.
"Hello Linda," Wayne greets as he takes a seat at the bar instead of at his usual table. He'd done a cursory glace when he came in and confirmed none of his drinking buddies were in before choosing the bar.
"This isn't your usual day," Linda says, leaning a hip on the counter, "but it's always a pleasure to see you."
"I got some thinkin' to do," Wayne replies and Linda nods and moves away, returning soon with a bottle of his usual beer. She picks up the bottle open and removes the cap before setting the drink down in front of him.
"Need a sounding board, hun?" She asks.
Wayne does a quick survey of the bar again but it's pretty quiet so he returns his gave to Linda and says, "if you wouldn't mind too much hearin' about how an old man might have messed up."
Linda laughs. "You aren't even half a decade older than me, so you best not be sprouting that 'old man' nonsense around me, 'cause I am not some old lady."
"Terribly sorry, Linda. I'm just really feelin' like an old fool."
A small frown comes to Linda's face then. "Now what could you have possibly done?"
"Well, I guess I'm tryin' to figure out if I did mess up. Eddie's got a friend and I don't trust 'im. Thought I had good reason not to, but, well, I overheard somethin' I wasn't supposed ta and now I'm not sure."
Linda hums, "hmm, that doesn't sound like you, judging someone unrightly. You are usually a good read about people."
"I'll admit, I haven't bothered to spend enough time with the boy to, uhh, judge him."
"Wayne Munson," Linda scolds, "you best not be telling me you judged that boy because of other people."
Judging by Linda's raising brow line, he thinks his guilt must be clear on his face. "You know Eddie, and how people have treated him. And with what he just went through- I just want 'im safe. Sure, his new friend graduated last year, but he was on the basketball team his whole career. And I'm jus' supposed ta believe this one boy didn't side with the group who started the manhunt?"
"Unless you've got evidence otherwise, yes," Linda says, brows furrowed.
Wayne sighs. "I ain't got proof. I got a lot of people sayin' he's good, actually. But it's the Harrington boy. The same boy Eddie would come home and complain 'bout. Harrington, Hagan, Hargrove, though I shouldn't speak ill of the dead. All them boys treatin' Eddie like he wasn't worth nothin' until they wanted somethin' form him."
Linda's mouth is almost a perfectly straight line with how much she's pursed her lips the more he talks, but she doesn't interrupt and no customer calls for her, so he continues.
"And you know what Richard Harrington was like. I know y'all only shared one school year together, but Janice wasn't any better, and she was your year, wasn't she?" Linda gives him one nod in response. "That boy's a product of them. I- You can't fault me for thinkin' differently."
"So, when do you expect Eddie to end up in prison?"
The question throws Wayne and fills him with anger at the same time. "Now, Linda, I ain't likin' what you are implyin'."
"I ain't implyin' nothing," she says, using the same tone with him that he did with her. "I'm applying your logic. Eddie's a product of his parents, ain't he? Al's in prison, and his mama's long gone, bless her soul. And since Eddie ain't sick, last I heard, he must be following after his daddy."
The anger leaves him then, and all he's left with is shame. "Point made. And if I'm bein' fully honest with ya, I don't even need ya to defend that boy. That thing I overheard. That what's eatin' at me. He called me good people."
Linda softens, shoulders dropping, "you are good people, hun."
"That boy told my Eddie that I'm 'good people', and that his parents are bad ones, and I. I don't know what to do about that."
"He thinks his own parents are bad?"
Wayne nods, "is what he said. Thinks I can somehow sense he's also rotten just by association."
"There's nothing to it, then," Linda says, like they've already talked out the tangled mess that is Wayne's thoughts on Steve Harrington and have reached a conclusion. Well, perhaps Linda already has. She's always been bright, and she's usually right. "You, Wayne Robert Munson, need to apologize to that boy. The guilt and shame's gonna put you into your cups otherwise."
Wayne nods slowly, though he isn't even sure if he agrees or is just acknowledging what she said before he takes a long pull from his bottle before lowering both his arms to rest on the counter as he replies, "You're right as usual, Linda my dear. I just gotta let go of the fact he's Richard Harrington's son and try and see just Steve."
"Damn right. Eddie might be Al's by birth, but you raised him and he turned out alright. Maybe Steve got the same treatment. Had his own Wayne around to raise him right."
There might be a bit of truth to that. He's heard enough talk about Steve Harrington over the years to think that. One of his drinking buddies used to be Jim Hopper. He's heard about the amount of parties he'd had to go shut down at the Harrington's house, with no parents to be seen. (Always Jim's biggest gripe back then. "Where's this kids goddamn parents!?) Wayne always assumed their kid just took advantage every time his parents were gone, but maybe it's the opposite. Maybe they were always gone, and Steve had parties to not be alone in his house.
Linda's right. There is nothing to it. He needs to talk to Steve, properly apologize, and go from there.
"It ain't an easy thing, admittin' you might be wrong," Wayne sighs.
Linda reaches across the counter and places a hand on Wayne's arm just below his wrist. Wayne looks up from where he'd ended up staring at his bottle, making eye contact with her. "If your boy is friends with this boy, it's for a reason. Just give him a chance. You are one of the good ones, but even we can have a lapse in judgment now and then. Doesn't make you bad, makes you human."
"Ain't no one perfect but the good Lord," Wayne says and Linda nods in agreement.
"Alright. I'll leave you to your beer and your thoughts for now, but you best keep me updated on your situation. I wanna know how it goes," Linda retracts her hand and heads down the counter to check on the few other people sitting about nursing drinks.
Wayne sits in his thoughts more than he drinks, so by the time he's done with the beer it's warm but that's fine. He will talk to the Harrington kid, but he wants to talk to Eddie first. He owes his nephew that much, and he does recall Eddie saying something to the effect of 'he'll come around' to Steve, and Wayne wants to tell Eddie he'll try.
Also he doesn't want to just corner the boy after he's been somewhat intimidating intentionally. He's going to get Eddie to ask if Steve'll talk to him.
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True to his word, Eddie returns home late the next day. The clock says it's almost 6 when Eddie finally comes through the front door. If he's surprised to see Wayne awake, he doesn't show it. He does work the graveyard shift, and he's got a shift at 10 tonight, usually wakes up two hours before his shift. He'd wanted to make sure he caught Eddie, though, so he's been up since three.
"Eddie, you got a minute?" Wayne says.
"Sure. What's up?" Eddie says as he pulls off his jacket, depositing it on the nearest surface before plopping sideways on the couch so he's facing Wayne.
"I gotta come clean. I overheard some of what you and Steve were talkin' about," Wayne says, because he's a man of his word and he's always been good at doing the hard thing if it also turns out to be the right thing. He's got to be honest with Eddie, so he can be honest with himself. "Heard Harr- Steve talkin' 'bout how he thinks I'm a good person, and his parents aren't."
Eddie's quiet for a moment, blinking owlishly back at him while he thinks. "Oh. Umm. Sorry. I just- I think this is the first time I've heard you say Steve's name."
"Not the part I thought you'd focus on," Wayne huffs a laugh, "but I owe your boy an apology and I was hopin' you could help me make it happen."
"My boy- what is happening," Eddie drops his voice to whisper the question to himself.
"What's happening is I'm doin' the thing I always told you ta do. Taking accountability and fixin' my mistake."
"Oh. Oh!" Eddie narrows his eyes at Wayne, "you've made an ass out of me. All those times I assured Steve you were just being standoffish and you were- what were you doing?"
"Intentionally keepin' the boy at a distance 'cause I thought he was gonna hurt you. I sure as hell ain't been friendly. I been judging him because I knew his parents, thinkin' about how an apple don't fall far from the tree," Wayne stops, giving pause to see if Eddie will speak but he isn't. He's just staring at Wayne like he's a puzzle. "It was brought to my attention that it's mighty unfair to judge someone 'cause of how their parents act."
Eddie's brow furrows and his lips purse. It makes him think of Linda. She'd made the exact same face. "I- Jesus fuck this is weird, but I. I think I'm mad at you. Disappointed."
Eddie doesn't say it with an angry tone, and his face still looks more puzzled than mad, but the sentence feels like a kick to the chest anyway. Eddie and he have never been mad at each other, not in the eight years Eddie's lived here with him. They've been worried and scared for each other that, or mad at someone or something else that they take out on each other, but never mad at each other.
"You've every right to be."
Eddie stands from the couch, paces down the hallway, and Wayne thinks this might be the end of any conversation tonight, but instead Eddie comes storming back up the hall. "So, what, did you take me in expecting me to be my dad!?"
"No. He mighta contributed to your birth, but we both know that man ain't nurtured you a day in his life."
"Yeah, well, Steve's parents didn't raise him either, so all this has been bullshit! You made Steve think he's, he's broken and a bad person! And," Eddie's eyes are wet and he's angry but also about to cry. Wayne hasn't seen him like this in a long time. Not since the day they learned Al was in prison, fifteen years with a chance for parole if he's on his best behavior. Eddie had been so angry, and sad, and hurt by the news. Eddie's like that now, worked up so much he's repeating himself as he hiccups his words out around the lump in this throat, "And, and you made me help him feel that way! Because I didn't take him serious when he said, said you didn't like him! I thought you were being, being a dad, all fake gruff to intimidate the guy I like but it's- you were- FUCK!"
Wayne lets him yell. He deserves it, and Eddie needs it. Eddie's not saying anything untrue. He takes in what Eddie is yelling at him; Steve's parents didn't raise him, and how Wayne's cold shoulder must have added to whatever else Steve has going on in his life.
"I, I h-held him while he b-bawled into my shirt last night! He, he thinks- and you, you didn't even trust me! T-trust my own j-judgment of, of Steve! I, I need- I can't-" Eddie doesn't finish the sentence. He turns on his heel and storms back down the hall, the slamming of his door finalizing this conversation.
To say that Wayne feels terrible is inadequate. He's hurt his boy, and he's hurt his boy's boy, and he's got no one to blame but himself.
Now he's got two apologies to make.
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glitterfang Ā· 10 months ago
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Pas de deux, /ĖŒpƤ də Ėˆdə/ noun: In ballet, a pas de deux is a dance duet in which two dancers perform ballet steps together.
Eddie "the Freak" Munson and "King" Steve Harrington were irrevocably bound by dance, shared family and a genuine, unexpected, happy accident of a friendship for which Eddie was grateful every single day.
Even if Eddie was also desperately, laughably, head over heels in love with him.
A Steddie Ballet AU by Malikat22 my ST RBB partner!
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calumfmu Ā· 9 months ago
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Being assistant to the famous Steve Harrington wasn't an easy task, he was demanding as ever and made sure he was nice to everyone but you. But a job was a job, and it was the cost of working in Hollywood.
Famous!Steve Harrington x Assistant!reader (modern!au, with 40's Steve) 7.5k+ words
cw: older Steve Harrington, smut, loss of virginity, inexperienced!reader, AFAB reader, angst (what's new), mentions of death, swearing, 18+, mdni
Working with one of the most famous actors in the world was draining, exhausting, taxing, everything you could negatively describe. He was such a high maintenance person, he made your job seem like a constant boot camp run for the Navy Seals. Your best friend had cackled at that supply of information.
Steve wasnā€™t a bad person, no. He was handsome (obviously, he had been voted most handsome of the previous 2 years in a row), kind (to most peopleā€”who werenā€™t you), and compassionate (he let you eat his leftovers that one time you had gotten stuck on set for 16 straight hours). You were getting paid to say nice things about him if anyone had asked.
Life working as his head assistant was just a drag. It was everything you had dreamed of doing when you were a kid, working in Hollywood with big A-listers, attending red carpets, seeing the way movies worked. The job wasnā€™t the problem, itā€¦ was him.
A script was shoved into your hands as you thought of giving it to the man. The look on his face was burned into the back of your mind, irritation crossing his features as you imagined giving him the bad news. He always took things out on you, attitude forward as he said some slick remark.
Last minute script change, typical of productions like these. Something that anyone could expect while working on these things. Anyone with a normal level of patience would handle it well, take it with stride.
Your fingers rapped against the trailer door, aluminum warm to the touch from the sun beating down on it. Movement sounded behind the door, mumbling a few words out at you.
The door swung open, Steve rubbing at his eyes with his hair sticking in every direction. Fuck, he was asleep. It made it so much worse delivering the news.
ā€œHeyyy, boss,ā€ you beamed, voice raising a few octaves. You held out the script to him, cringing slightly. ā€œNothing too crazy, just a sliight chan-ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ the door slammed in your face, your eyes closing as the bright reflection shone on you. Your smile immediately dropped, the reflection of your face on the white aluminum door looking back at you.
Red seethed through you, frustration prickling at the back of your neck. You knocked again, this day becoming even longer with each passing second.
ā€œMr. Harrington.ā€ You were met with silence, ear pressing to the door to hear any movement. You waited a beat, knocking more urgently.
ā€œDonā€™t want it, tell them no,ā€ he grumbled behind the door, his voice sounded across the trailer, muffled through the closed door.
You took a deep breath, trying to find the patience to not go off on him. You were his assistant, not his agent, not the director of the film, not anything else. What did he realistically think you were going to do about a script change?
ā€œā€˜M just delivering it, Mr. Harrington.ā€ Your voice was level. ā€œI donā€™t even think itā€™s your lines that changed.ā€
A faint note of music came through the door, Steve deciding to tune you out. Looking towards the sky, you squinted, finding prayer between the clouds.
ā€œMr. Harrington!ā€
Another PA walked by you, speaking into the earpiece she had with a clipboard in hand. You raised a hand to greet her, faux smile crossing your lips as you pretended everything was okay. She waved back, making her way in between the trailers and out of your eyesight.
As soon as she disappeared, your fist came up to bang at the door, louder than before.
It opened in the middle of your fit, you nearly stumbled into the trailer. You cut your eyes at your boss, biting your tongue at the swear words that threatened to come out.
The man was well past 30 years old, but still acted like a spoiled brat.
ā€œFine,ā€ he said through his teeth, grabbing the stack of papers from your hand. He barely glanced at it before tossing it on the small couch behind him. Your eyes followed it, noticing the mess of bottles on the floor around it.
He followed your gaze with his own eyes, stepping into your eyesight as he closed the door slightly.
ā€œAnything else, Yn?ā€ A pinch of attitude at your name. Typical.
You smiled at the man, frustration disappearing as you were just grateful this episode of his didnā€™t last as long as it did last week.
ā€œNo, sir, that would be it for me,ā€ you gave him a slightly bow, clasping your hands in front of you before swiveling on your heel. Descending the mini set of stairs, you rolled your eyes, back to him as you descended. ā€œFucking twat.ā€
ā€œI heard that!ā€ His voice was far behind you, your feet moving fast across the blacktops. You smiled back at him, waving as confusion crossed your features.
ā€œSorry sir, I said it was fucking hot!ā€ You lied straight through your teeth. ā€œOutside, you know? Pardon my language.ā€
You rolled your eyes once more, turning back on your mission to get back inside the building. You and him both knew what you said, but you didnā€™t have it in you to care. Nothing you did would get you fired, trust, have you tried.
It was like you were in your own personal Purgatory. You assumed Steve liked you, he wouldnā€™t fire you even on your worst days. You had fucked up many times, forgetting things, slipping up on his to do list, calling the wrong people for the wrong events. More recently, he had heard the rude nicknames you had for him, and he just didnā€™t seem to care.
You had heard him one time, whisper under his breath about ā€œbest help in Hollywoodā€. It was sarcastic of course, his eye roll youā€™ve been well acquainted with to follow.
The last few weeks have been more of a hell for you, Steve becoming more temperamental and moody, you becoming the worst employee on planet Earth. You begged to be fired at this point, your shot at unemployment looking more and more appetizing.
A sudden ring cut through the air, your back pocket buzzing. Pulling it out, you nearly ripped your hair out, Steveā€™s contact popping up on the screen. I could ignore it, you thought. This could finally be my chance at escaping him.
Your thoughts were cut short, the phone ringing again as Steve's name popped up. He didn't even let the first one finish before trying you again.
"Oh, Mr. Harrington," you breathed, hand pressed into your brow as you answered. "Hi, sorry, sir. Did you need me?"
"Need you to come back," you heard him say, voice muffled as he seemed to be doing other things on the other side of the line. Your feet responded before your brain did, autopilot in motion. "Script's not fucking working, and I just-"
Something fell in the background, and your footsteps faltered. You ignored it, rolling your eyes yet again at his antics.
"Are you okay, sir?" You asked, seeing his trailer in the distance. One of the trailer windows had its blinds half up, he paced back and forth.
You approached it, listening to him as he rambled on the phone, speaking about how much he hated this director and his damn agent for giving him these roles. Fighting back laughter, you cosigned with him, not choosing to mention that this stupid role was worth $13 million.
You raised your fist to knock at the door, it swinging open before you could even make a noise. The three dial tones of the phone call ending rung in your ears, Steve grumbling at you to enter.
"A-are you sure, sir?" Hesitation filled you, you weren't used to stepping into his trailer. You think you'd been in it once during the last seven months of production, grabbing his left behind cell phone before they traveled to location.
Steve didn't look at you the whole time, just muttering words under his breath as he held the brand new scripts in his hand. He was pacing, feet burning holes in the carpet of the trailer.
You slowly stepped in, apprehensively closing the door behind you. Hands clasped in front of you, you stood in close proximity to the door, eyes shifting over the large trailer.
He had clothes thrown over one end of the vehicle, previous scripts sitting on the makeshift table, and a half full glass of a dark colored liquid next to it. You eyed it, brow furrowing as you swore this man had been sober for the past few years--or at least, that's what the news outlets said about him. Not like you kept up.
"Sir," you interjected his thoughts, causing him to stop in place. He still didn't look at you. "Why am I here?"
Curt answers were the easiest way for you to pretend to be nice to him. You knew you couldn't be outright rude, this was your boss after all. Saying stuff under your breath and if he accidentally heard was another thing.
He ignored you.
"How is this supposed to be the Oscar nomination when they have me acting like this?" He exhaled a small shout at the end of his words, your eyes squinting at the volume. "Does this make sense to you? It's like they want me to make a fool of myself, no?"
You shifted uncomfortably, glancing at the floor. "I'm not sure how you want me to answer that, sir."
He waited a moment, sighing loudly as he collapsed on the couch, arm thrown over his eyes. You looked at him then, seeing the way his chest heaved as he shook his eyes. The sun was setting now, golden hour lighting inching through the windows over his figure. His bed head was still wild, even more messy than it was previously.
"W-what would you like me to do, sir?" You asked, arms crossing over your chest as you felt the awkwardness creep into the air. This was the longest you had been in a room with him, at least, with no one around.
Glancing at the watch on your wrist, you took note of your 'shift' being almost over. It was a quarter to seven, your freedom lingering in the distance.
"Sir?"
"Enough!" He cut out, breaking his silence. You jumped at the words, ducking your head as his outburst came. This was the Steve you knew, the short tempered boss who was always so moody whenever things didn't go his way.
You opted for silence, not daring to speak as you awaited his next choice of words.
His arm left his face, palm running down his features as he stared into the ceiling of the trailer.
"Sorry, I just," his voice was significantly lower. He sat up on the edge of the couch, his palms resting on his thighs. "I just need you to take me home."
Your eyes closed briefly, irritation quickly crossing you as you realized this was going to be a longer day than you imagined. If Steve had needed you longer than you were scheduled, then so be it.
"Why?" The word wasn't supposed to come out, replacing the 'okay' that sat on the edge of your mouth.
His gaze cut to you quickly, searching your face as you stood there. Eyes burning slightly, you felt tears prickling. The pint of Ben & Jerry's ice cream, and Friends rerun marathon looking further away from you could bring you to tears.
"Because I employ you, do I not?" The harshness in his words did nothing but fuel the 'Hollywood Tell All' feature you planned for the day you quit.
"You do, sir, yes," You muttered, hands dropping to your side in defeat. "I just thought you'd drive yourself like normal. You know, day ends, and I'll see you here the next day, eight sharp like normal."
"I can't--no," he answered, standing up as he gathered his things. "I don't have to explain myself to you. You just need to take me home. You can drive my car."
The words to protest him were lost in your throat. You complied with his actions, eyes to the floor as he finished gathering his things. Following him out of the trailer, you sighed, feeling like you were walking into a lion's den.
The walk to the private lot was silent, Steve grumbling to himself as he texted someone on his phone. You noticed his phone ringing several times, his thumb finding the red button to end it each time. Curse words came out of his mouth every few seconds, a few from your own mouth being added to the mix as you thought of ways to leave.
As the two of you came across an old school beemer sitting deep in the parking lot, he threw the keys at you, settling into the passenger seat. Reluctantly, you slide in the driver's seat, feeling the leather interior beneath your fingers.
"Nice car, boss," You whispered, checking out how the car didn't even look a day out of 1985. Steve side eyed you, nodding at the compliment before returning to his phone.
"Get us there in one piece, yeah?"
You sucked your teeth as his comment, shaking your head before starting the car. It was like it was impossible for him to be a decent person. Here you were, doing something for this man which may or may not be in your contract, and he couldn't even say thank you to a compliment about his car.
The ride was silent save for an old tape that played in the car. Some band from the 80's you noted, a little too old for your taste. Steve's fingers tapped away at his phone, not focused on the LA traffic you sat in for most of the drive. He gave you directions to his swanky high rise, ignored you as you struggled to keep up with him.
You pulled into an underground garage, valet men coming immediately, opening the door for you as they took the keys. Everything happened in such fast motion, you barely noticed he was half way to the elevator. Jogging to catch up with him, you turned your own attention to your phone, thumb hovering over the Uber app.
Steve took a call, fingers rapidly pressing the elevator button as he spoke (yelled) at the person on the other end.
"No, Robin, I'm not doing that, okay?" He said, voice gruff as he glanced at you. You heard the static voice of the person on the other line, seeming to be yelling at him too.
The elevator dinged, the two of your bodies stepping in as the doors opened. The transportation app on your phone lagged, loading bar stagnant on your screen.
"No, I get it, it's been years. Fine, I-" Steve groaned in frustration, eyes repeatedly shifting over to you as you tried to tune out the phone call. You stared at the numbers the elevator passed, the first floor blinking by before you could say anything. Your phone remain in your hand, screen dimming as it began to time out.
"Robin. I know."
The voice on the other line picked up, the woman's voice growing even louder. Steve pulled the phone away from his ear slightly, grimacing at the volume. The elevator stopped at a floor labeled 'P', doors opening to a mini lobby that ended in double doors. He went over to unlock them, key fob in his hands as a beep sounded through the empty room.
As he stepped through them, phone balanced on his shoulder with his ear pressed to it, he looked at you. You stood right outside the elevator, doors closing behind you as you didn't know what to do.
He held open his front door, hand waving at you in frustration. "Well, are you coming in?"
You pressed your lips together, another wave of irritation pulling at your teeth. Eyes half rolling, you nodded, entering the doors as he closed and locked it behind you.
Steve moved fast, throwing his jacket over a couch that lay in the middle of the giant room, toeing off his shoes by its side. You stood in place, not sure what to do as your boss made his way around his home.
You took note of the place, not picturing that he would live in a place like this. It was modern, with a touch of old school fashion. Retro furniture, expensive nonetheless. Floor to ceiling windows, overlooking the city. However, not a touch of life, no personal pictures, no sign of family, or anything personal that may shine light on what type of person he truly was.
You stepped in further to the place, watching as Steve made his way to a cabinet in his kitchen. Observing him over the breakfast bar, you saw into the open kitchen, watched him as he grabbed a rocks glass and a bottle of something pushed far back into a cabinet.
He continued on the phone, placing it on speaker as he began to open the bottle. He struggled at first, face turning up as his hands twisted on the cap.
Slowly making your way around the room, you glanced around, expecting him to yell at you for even being here, despite inviting you in.
"Steve," you heard the voice on the other line say. His eyes drifted towards the phone, pouring a hefty shot. "All I'm saying is, I miss you. And care for you. I love you. I want you to be okay today, alright?"
Steve grunted in response, not noticing your proximity to him. You cleared your throat slightly, wanting to gain his attention.
The woman on the phone waited for more of a response. Once it was clear she wasn't going to get one, she sighed. "If you change your mind, you know where to find us."
"Yeah sure," his tone was rude, eyes boring into the glass of dark liquid that sat in front of him. His fingers danced at the rim.
"Eddie would've wanted you to come."
Steve's body language immediately stiffened, finger moving to hang up the phone before throwing back the shot of liquor. His face grimaced at the taste, slamming the glass back on the table.
You didn't know what to say, looking anywhere but at your boss.
"Fuck, I forgot you were even here," he suddenly said, hand running through his hair. His hand was on his hip, eyes glossy as he looked at you. You chewed at your bottom lip, nodding as he stared at you. He pointed to the alcohol, shrugging. "Drink?"
Declining, your head shook. "I don't drink, sir."
"Ahh," he said, grabbing the glass and bottle as he headed towards the couch. "Good girl."
He threw himself down on the furniture, exhaling loudly as he stretched out. His eyes were closed as you stood across the room.
"Hey, I-I think I'm gonna go," you said, beginning to walk towards the exit. "I'll see you tomorrow."
As you crossed the room, Steve's voice called out to you. Your movements stopped, turning on your heel to look at him.
"Stay?" He asked you, eyes huge as they looked in your direction. You took note of his features, blinking at him as he awaited your response. Your boss was approaching his 40's, however, in this moment, he looked just like a little kid. Pictures of him in his teen years you had seen on the Internet were pushed to the forefront of your mind.
"I don't think that's a good idea, Mr. Harrington," you muttered, wanting to leave the scene.
His eyes fell to the floor briefly before he spoke out, "Steve."
"Huh?" You were confused, this sudden change in his attitude.
"You can call me Steve," he said, shifting his body as he relaxed into the couch. "We've known each other for a few years now, figured we should might as well be on a first name basis."
Fighting back the eye roll, you were reminded in the ways your boss had made your life into chaos.
"I bet you a million dollars, you don't even know my name, sir."
His gaze softened, laughing out loud as your hard exterior slowly came back.
"Yn." He muttered, smile dancing at his mouth.
You didn't know what to say, stuck between dashing out of his apartment or staying and seeing what type of Steve Harrington you were going to get today.
"I figure I should apologize for the way I've acted today," he said, turning forward as his gaze left your way. You didn't know why, but your feet followed it, walking closer so you could sit next to him. Lowering your self on the couch, you felt self conscious, like he was going to snap any second.
You snorted, "Today?"
He was staring at the bottle of alcohol in front of him, smile still on his face. Laughing at your comment, he shrugged.
"I have been a dick, haven't I?" He whispered, shaking his head as the smile slowly dropped from his face. His voice dropped to a whisper, eyes unfocused as he stared in front of himself. "Such a fucking dick."
You didn't know why, but you felt the need to comfort the man. He was clearly going through something at the moment, if the look alone on his face was any tell.
"Hey, not too bad of one," you wanted to reach out to grab him.
"Don't lie," he laughed, head turning your way. His eyes met yours, deep brown staring into the color of yours. You noticed moles dotting his face, slight lines of aging covering his features. He was still youthful, his eyes telling the tale of a once young boy who was within. "I've been terrible. And you don't deserve that."
A pang hit your heart, feeling the weight of his words. You didn't really deserve his treatment. No matter if he paid you or not.
He continued his words, eyes staring past you. "And yet here I am, sitting here with my assistant. Drinking for the first time in years." A laugh bubbled out of him, hands running down his face as he leaned further back into the couch. "You know I'm supposed to be in Indiana right now?"
You shook your head, not wanting to interrupt him. Making yourself comfortable, you took off your shoes, slipping your feet underneath yourself.
"Well, I'm supposed to be in Indiana, it's the 20th anniversary of, uhm," his voice cracked, eyes welling up with a tear that was blinked back. "It's the anniversary of one of my friend's dying, and I'm not there."
Breath catching in your throat, you didn't know what to say.
"I'm sorry, sir," you muttered, hand reaching out to rest at his thigh. The touch was inappropriate, but so was this interaction you could say.
He looked down at your hand, watching your thumb as it brushed over his jeans.
"It's okay," he responded, eyes finding yours again. "It's been so long."
You nodded, eyes scanning his face as he forced the corners of his mouth to be turned into a smile. You saw right through it, recognizing the pain of a lost loved one straight through. "I don't think that matters."
His face dropped, sincerity crossing his features as he dipped to glance at your hand once more. Silence over took the two of you, the faint sounds of the streets of LA below you, Steve's staggered breathing as he willed himself not to cry. You were patient, finding comfort in the air as he found his words.
"We were all so young, and it feels so long ago, almost like it doesn't exist anymore," he finally said, voice even. "But I know it does. I just have to face it, I've been running from it ever since it happened."
He gestured to his surroundings, and the puzzle clicked into place. This fame and jerk persona that Steve carried himself in, hid the real him. He ran from all of his problems, like anyone else would, especially when dealing with something as traumatic like he had.
You didn't know the details, didn't care to ask, since it seemed to affect him so much. All you knew was that person who had passed so long ago did matter to him, in ways that you couldn't imagine.
Letting him continue his mumblings about the person he used to know, you found out that his name had been Eddie, the one you heard on the phone before. Robin, long time best friend of his, was trying to get him to come out to reconnect with everyone, he hadn't seen much of them since the 'accident', as he had called it. He kept in touch with everyone over the phone, but seeing them in person was a whole different story. It opened up old wounds that he was afraid of what it might bring out.
The story was slightly confusing, him mentioning something about how they all had nearly lost their lives, details that would leave you wondering what this man had gone through. None of this information was available about him in the public, his childhood always being a vague story that never connected.
"So you have kids then?" You questioned, confused on how you never picked up on this detail. There had to have been at least five of them, names you had never heard before now.
Steve laughed suddenly, shaking his head as his hand rested on your own thigh. The two of you were much closer now, as his story unfolded. Your thighs were touching, each other's hands on resting upon each other, mere inches away from your faces.
"No, I don't have any. I guess, I should stop calling them kids now, you know?" His laugh was low in his throat. "They have kids of their own at this point, so they're far from it."
"Oh..." You were dumbfounded, all of this information being at a loss to you. You weren't here to understand, just here to listen.
"You know what, I'm sorry," he suddenly said, removing his hand from your leg. You wanted to whine at the absence, cold replacing his warm touch. "Maybe you should go, actually. This is pretty, uhm..."
"Unprofessional?" You supplied, inching closer as your boss sat there, wide eyed looking at you. In the dark light of his apartment, you could see the way his brown eyes glimmered at you. "I guess we're even then, me calling you a twat earlier."
Steve cackled, pinching the bridge of his nose as he thought of the events earlier.
"I knew you said that!"
You blushed, fighting back your own smile.
"It's not my fault, you were acting like one." Your lips pursed together, observing the older man in front of you.
Silence crept over you, the first break in conversation since his phone call ended earlier. Steve stared at you, eyes darting over your features as his teeth scraped over his bottom lip. You felt shy under his gaze, not knowing what to think of the moment as your boss was closer in proximity than he had ever been in your life.
"Can I make it up to you?"
His voice was low, and you were nodding before you even knew what he meant. Grabbing your cheek in his hand, the man leaned forward, capturing your lips into his. The gasp in your throat was lost in his mouth, a shuttering moan coming out instead.
His lips were soft, slightly chapped as they moved against yours. Fluttering your eyes closed, you leaned into the kiss, moving your hand so it rest at the curve of his hip, belt loop curling in your fingers.
He tasted of whiskey, the remnants of the few shots he had earlier lingering on his tongue. Steve pulled away slightly, muttering, "This okay?" against your lips as you nodded, pulling him in by his hair with your other hand.
Your breath grew more shallow as the kiss continued, leaning back as Steve began to tower over you. He shifted in his seat, covering your body with his own as he began to push you back into the couch. His figure was large over yours, scent of vanilla and cedar nearly suffocating you.
With your back flush against the couch, Steve removed himself from your lips, pressing a slight kiss against your jaw. You arched into the touch, palms running over the tight muscle of his back.
"S-steve," you moaned, squeezing your eyes shut as his lips kissed over your neck. Each press of his mouth sent fireworks down your spine.
He returned his lips to yours, moving with a passion that was lacking previously, confidence replacing the apprehension he once felt.
Your legs spread, inviting him to nestle in between, the thick material of his jeans rubbing against your own. A bulge was present, the thought of what lay underneath sending goosebumps over your skin.
Steve was lost in the kiss, his mouth nipping at yours as he reached down to unbutton your pants, slipping a hand to run over the front of your panties.
"W-wait," you muttered, grabbing his wrist as you pulled away from the kiss. He was confused, mouth red and swollen. His fingers pressed at your covered clit, a small shot of pleasure running through you.
"What's wrong, Yn?" The hand connected to his elbow that propped him up, ran through your hair, tucking a strand behind your ear. Concern crossed his features, searching your face as doubt crossed it.
"I just, uhh," you felt shy, avoiding his eye contact as the words stumbled out. "I've never really done this before?"
His eyes bulged out, sitting up suddenly as he leaned over you. Closing your eyes in embarrassment, you pressed the palm of your hand to your forehead. Way to ruin the moment.
"Oh," he breathed, eyes wide as he scanned you. "We don't-- fuck, sorry. I'm so, uh, wow."
He stood up suddenly, leaving you laying on your back as embarrassment colored your cheeks. You didn't know what to say as the older man panicked.
"Maybe, uh, maybe this was a bad idea," he shook his head, hand reaching down to palm at the front of his pants. Your eyes followed his hand, noticing the prominent bulge.
You spoke out, shaking your head as you didn't make any effort to move. The turn of events tonight made you realize how much you did want the man who stood before you.
"No, we can, it's okay," you said, reaching out to grab his hand that hung by his side. He looked down at your grasp before bringing his eyes to meet yours. "It's alright."
He hesitated, sputtering over something to say.
"Steve, it's okay," you pulled him down, his knees straddling the sides of your hips as he reluctantly settled into the couch. His eyes ran over your body, lingering at the spot where your pants were unbuttoned, cotton panties exposed.
"A-are you sure?" He questioned, moving to lean back down over you. You nodded, leaning up on your elbows to press a chaste kiss to his lips. His tongue darted out, wetting your bottom lip.
A breathy moan escaped your mouth, palm caressing the front of his shirt.
"I want to, it's fine."
You knew it was now or never, this moment with your boss being an opportunity that you couldn't have passed up. You always had a crush on him growing up, the face of Hollywood you would see in your teen magazines, posters covering the room of your friends. Working for him would've never had you imagining that it would lead to this moment.
Steve took control of the situation, kissing down your neck as his hand returned between your legs, pants thrown across the room somewhere. It had happened so fast, you barely noticed the cool air that pulled goosebumps from your skin.
"Tell me if you want to stop, okay?" He muttered, freshly shaved stubble prickling against your chin. You could barely get out a moan as your underwear was pulled down your legs, catching at the crook of your ankles.
You felt his fingers brush over your folds, pressing lightly at the slick entrance. His thumb rubbed in small circles over your small bundle of nerves, an eye-rolling feeling that spread your legs apart. His fingers pushed inside, his own moan coming out over yours.
The feeling of the intrusion had you panting, spreading your legs wider while his thick fingers worked you.
"M-more," you begged, throwing your head back as his fingers found a rhythm. He stretched you out over two fingers at this point, thumb collecting slick as it rubbed over your clit.
Steve's fingers curled inside of you, brushing against your sweet spot deep inside. The look on his face was one of admiration, mouth slack as he looked down at you falling apart under his touch.
"That's okay?" His voice was husky, deep with arousal as your hips began to move in time with his fingers. Your orgasm was approaching, hips moving on their own accord as you chased that high.
"God, yes, Steve."
Pushing your shirt up past your bra, Steve gaped at the sight before him, your fingers dipping inside your bra to toy at your own breasts.
"You look so perfect, angel," he muttered, leaning down to capture your lips into his as you fell apart. That white blinding of your orgasm crept in, starting at the base of your spine and blossoming through your entire body. Against his mouth, you shouted out, squeezing your eyes shut as he fingered you through the high.
It took a minute for you to catch your breath, legs spasming from the shocks of the orgasm. You hissed at the over stimulation, Steve pressing into your clit one last time before removing himself from you.
You felt shy suddenly, the haze from the orgasm clearing as you realized you had just done unimaginable things with your boss. Seeming to read your mind, Steve pressed small kisses around the perimeter of your face.
"It's alright," he said, hovering over you. Against your thigh, you could feel his bulge rub against you. "How are you feeling, good?"
You nodded, words at a loss in your throat. You reached up to place a hand on his neck, the other at his waist as you played with the hem of his shirt. His eyes fluttered close briefly before glancing down at where you were slightly tugging his shirt up.
He made eye contact with you, chewing on his bottom lip. "I need words, angel. Gotta make sure everything is 100% okay, okay?"
"I'm alright, Steve," you gasped, looking down where your own hand rubbed at the exposed part of his abdomen. You needed more, wanted to feel him all over you. You began to pull his shirt over his body, watching as he glanced down at you with hooded eyes. "Just need more of you."
He slowly nodded, sitting back on his knees as he unbuttoned his own pants and slid them down his legs. You giggled at him as he struggled to get them off, the smoothness he had previously disappearing as he nearly toppled off the couch.
You pulled your own shirt and bra off of you, dropping them on the floor next to the couch. "Nice own, old man," you laughed, returning to your spot against the couch.
He frowned at you, lip jutting out in an over exaggerated pout. "Heeyy, I still got it."
You were left breathless, the laughter disappearing at the tip of your tongue as his figure returned to cover your body. The tip of his cock nudged at your entrance, the wetness pooling at the head leaving you gasping.
Steve reached down to rub his cock against the length of your cunt, spreading the slick all over as you arched into him.
"Fuuckk, Steve." You hooked your ankle over his hip, warmness pooling in your belly at the thought of him being inside you. His eyes raked over you, lingering on your nipples as they shook with each moan you gave.
"You sure about this, Yn?" He asked, leaning down to dart his tongue over the skin of your breast. It sent shivers down your spine, another wave of heat rushing to your core. "I don't want to do anything you'll regret."
"'M not gonna regret this," you gasped, feeling the way the head of his cock slightly pushed at you. It burned, fuck, he was big.
The slight intrusion had you gripping at his back, leaving crescent moon marks in the skin. Your breath came out ragged, a whine scratching at the back of your throat.
Steve grunted at you, pushing in slowly as he buried his head into your shoulder. He stopped every few inches, hips stuttering slightly as he fought back to urge to fuck back into you full force.
Being an all new feeling, you couldn't help but mewl at every burn of the stretch, a fullness you had never experienced before.
He pressed to the hilt, hips flush against yours as Steve gasped for air in tune with you. He pulled his head back to make eye contact with you, forehead resting against yours. You felt the slight grinding of his hips against yours, the fullness becoming too much as you were stretched over him.
"You gotta bare with me, baby." The nickname had you moaning, fingers reaching down to dig at the plumpness of his ass. You could barely keep your eyes open, senses overwhelmed with Steve. "'S been a while for me."
Nodding, you gasped as he reared his hips back before they stuttered into you again. The movement sent a wave of slick between your thighs again, pleasure blinding you.
He found his rhythm, hips fucking into you slowly, languidly as you fell apart beneath him. You rocked with every movement of his hips, hands running over the tan skin of his body above you.
Finding his lips, you moaned against his mouth, savoring the feeling that was building up in your abdomen as the two of you moved in sync.
Steve gave you words of affirmation, hips drilling into you over and over as his cock brushed over your deep bundle of nerves. Bliss approached you once more, wetness dripping all over him as you were brought to that high again.
"Gonna cum, Steve," you whispered against his mouth, back arching into him. He reached down between you, fingers toying at your clit as they began to rub in small circles.
"Cum for me baby," he breathed, voice low as your eyes rolled back. His voice brought you over the edge, high shout escaping your lips as that pleasure took over you again.
As he fucked your through your orgasm, his own approached, hips losing their rhythm as you felt his release deep inside you. A low groan of his came out, a breathy fuck being the last thing you remember before you closed your eyes.
Your body felt light, head foggy as you came down from your orgasm. It was pure bliss what you felt, heart pounding in your chest as sleep took over you.
You shot out of bed, frantically searching for your phone as you realized the sun was creeping through the curtains. Crisp, white sheets were pooled around you, swallowing you up whole.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," you muttered, trying to search for your device in the darkness of the room. The dark curtains were drawn, only allowing a sliver of light in, but enough for you to realize how late in the morning it was.
As your eyes adjusted to the darkness, anxiety crept over you, realizing you weren't in your room. A tossing figure lay next to you, his body half covered as he rubbed the sleep from his eyes. In that moment, everything from last night came crashing back, embarrassment flooding your cheeks.
"Hey, Yn, what's wrong?" Steve's voice was groggy, as he blinked in the darkness of the room. He glanced towards the curtains and then to you, noticing the way you covered your frame with the corner of the sheet.
"What time is it?" You half shouted, looking on the bedside table for your phone. Steve was no help, slowly stretching out his limbs as he yawned.
"Too fucking early for you to be that loud," he muttered, sitting up on his elbows. The sheet pooled around his waist, exposing his bare abdomen and a deep V that cut below his waist.
You quickly looked away, blush deepening on your face. "We have to go, Ste-Mr. Harrington. We're gonna be in so much trouble."
You heard him chuckle at you, sighing as he relaxed once again in the bed. His arms circled your waist, pulling you down into him as you continued to panic. He lay behind you, your head resting on his chest as he buried his face into your shoulder.
"Shhh," he whispered, tightening his grip on your waist. "Called in today, came down with something apparently."
You shook your head, resting your hands on his where they rested on your stomach. "Can you even do that?"
"What are they gonna do? Fire me?" He laughed, pressing a light kiss to your shoulder. The anxiety that built up in your spine disappeared at his touch, the familiarity of his body replacing it. You turned in his arms, now chest to chest with the man.
His eyes were closed, sleepiness still evident over his features.
"Are you going to fire me?" You whispered at him, watching as his brow furrowed before he squinted open his eyes at you.
"What? No, what are you talking about?" He seemed genuinely confused at your question, hand rubbing at your waist. Relief took stake in your chest.
"I slept with my boss last night," you laughed at yourself, voice dropping even lower as you saw a smirk cross his face. He was smug, shaking his head with laughter as you playfully slapped at his chest.
"Pretty sure I'm the one with a lawsuit pending if anything," he said, laughter dying as you placed a small peck to his lips.
As you pulled away, he leaned into it further, tongue darting out to lick at yours. A wave of arousal pooled in the pit of your stomach.
He towered over you, mouth nipping at you as you sighed into the kiss. The two of you moved in sync, you moving onto your back as Steve leaned over your figure. A breathy moan escaped your lips, only to be cut off by his phone ringing.
"For fuck's sake," he grumbled, separating himself from you as he reached for it on his side of the bed. He answered it quickly, realizing it was his publicist as he placed it on speaker. "What d'you need, man?"
His lips returned to yours briefly, before kissing down your neck. The sheets were slowly pulled off of you as he made his way down, nipping at your chest, then your nipple, and soft kisses pressed to your stomach.
Your mouth fell open in a silent moan, trying to stay as quiet as possible as his publicist droned on about some appearance he had to make in the next week. Steve was staring up at you, making small confirmation 'mhm's' in response to the phone call. A coy smile was on the corners of your mouth as you looked down at him wide eyed.
'Stop' you mouthed through gritted teeth. He nipped at your hip bone in protest, shaking his head at you.
You couldn't tell if it was Steve's mouth pressing to your heat or the next word's of his publicist that made your stomach drop.
"While we're at it, Steve, how about we talk how Page Six has pictures of you with a mysterious somebody in your apartment building?" They grumbled, voice staticy as it came through the phone. You felt Steve smirk against you, tongue lapping between your legs. "Aren't we a little too old to bring people back to your own place like that?"
A moan escaped you as you gripped at his hair. Steve looked up at you, wide eyed as he reached up to slap a hand across your mouth. 'Shhh', he mouthed, his own laugh threatening to spill out as his publicist's voice faltered at the noise.
"St-steve?" It said, apprehension in the tone. "Are you doing what I think you're doing? Really, man?"
Steve laughed as his hand remained over your mouth, muffling the sounds of your own laughter. They would recognize it if they heard it. He grabbed the phone from where it lay abandon, speaking into it as his thumb hovered the 'end call'.
"Something came up, gotta take care of it," he grimaced at you as you licked his hand. "Bye!"
He hung up right as the voice protested, tossing his phone aside as he leaned over you once again. His long hair hung in his face, eyes raking over your naked body.
"Now... where were we?"
an: I had to sneak in a line from All of Us Strangers because that movie was so moving. If you know, you know. I promise one of these days, I won't make Steve an asshole right off the bat, he'll be lovable.
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STWG Prompt: I Couldn't Lose You
Happy birthday @hitlikehammers, you deserve the world!
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ā€œHeā€™s dead.ā€
Something must have been wrong with his brain. Maybe all those hits to the head had finally caught up with him. Maybe his audio processing was fucked or he was hearing things.
He had to be.
Because there was no way in hell this doctor just told him Eddie was dead.
ā€œHeā€™s what?ā€ Steve asked with a slight shake of the head, like that would dislodge whatever was making him hear this incorrectly.
ā€œHeā€™s dead, Mr. Harrington.ā€ The doctor repeated, his fingers tensing around his clipboard.
Steve could feel the crease in his brow, his confusion was probably plain all over his face.Ā 
It didnā€™t make any sense.
ā€œHow could he be dead? He canā€™t be dead.ā€ He replied. ā€œI only just saw him.ā€
There was no devastation, no heartbreak, no clawing grief and no screaming agony.Ā 
Because it didnā€™t make any sense.
The doctor looked on in sympathy. ā€œMr. Munson took a very quick turn-ā€
ā€œA turn of what?ā€ Wayne snapped, his arms crossed over his chest, glaring at this ā€˜doctorā€™. ā€œHow did he turn?ā€
Steve glanced behind the doctor to look into Eddieā€™s hospital room again. The empty bed, the crisp sheets, the quiet monitors. Flowers gone. Cards gone. Eddieā€™s stuff sitting in a chair near the door.
It was almost like heā€™d never been in there.
When did they have the time?
Steve and Wayne had only left his side for ten minutes. It was the first time Eddie had been left alone since he came into the hospital, half dead and bitten to hell.
And Steve and Wayne had come back to find a doctor waiting for them by the door.
A doctor that Steve didnā€™t recognise. In a town with less than 5,000 people.
ā€œHis fever got quite high-ā€
Wayne scoffed. ā€œEddie didnā€™t have no fever.ā€
ā€œSir.ā€ The doctor sighed out, frustrated. ā€œYour nephew was very sick. And gravely injured. Situations like these can turn fast.ā€
Steve and Wayne glanced at each other, the both of them seeing the same suspicion reflected in each other's face.
There had been no alert over the PA system. The nurses station hadnā€™t been scrambled. If Eddie had taken a sudden turn, if Eddie had diedā€¦ a young twenty year old suddenly dropping dead would have had half the floor flooding in trying to save him.
Not to mention Steve was pretty sure that doctor, if he was even really a doctor, was breaking the Hippocratic Oath by telling him this information.
Steve wasnā€™t family, he had no right to that information. The doctor hadnā€™t even asked Wayne before he started talking, he just started talking.
Steve could be anybody.Ā 
Something super fucked up was going on. They needed to find Eddie and they needed to find him fast.Ā 
ā€œI understand this must be very hard for you.ā€ The doctor said with a solemn face. It was very convincing. He must have gone to acting school. ā€œWould you like to see him?ā€
Steveā€™s mind screeched to a halt again.
ā€œExcuse me?ā€
ā€œHeā€™s down in the morgue.ā€
Bullshit heā€™s down in the morgue. But Wayneā€™s face was remaining hard and with one curt nod, he began to follow the doctor down the hallway.
It only took a glance back for him to communicate that he wanted Steve to follow him, to come with them. Either as backup or as emotional support if it did turn out that Eddie was dead.
Which it wouldnā€™t.
Because it couldnā€™t.
Because he wasnā€™t fucking dead.
Steve also really didnā€™t like the idea of leaving this floor unmonitored. He just feltā€¦ there was something in the back of his head telling him that he needed to keep eyes up here.
As they approached the nurses station and by extension, the elevators, his saving grace turned the corner.
ā€œJust one second.ā€ Steve said to the two of them. ā€œI need to talk to my girlfriend.ā€Ā 
Wayne snapped his head over to him and when Steve nodded in Robinā€™s direction there was a moment of complete and utter bewilderment on his face before he masked it.
With a small nod, he sent Steve off and Steve could see all of the questions running through Wayneā€™s eyes but he didnā€™t have time.Ā 
Robinā€™s eyes got wider and wider as he approached, opening his arms up for a hug and a weary, ā€œHey babyā€ before he pulled her into him, turning them so her back was to the doctor.
ā€œCode Red. Eddieā€™s missing.ā€ He whispered into her hair, keeping his nose buried into her neck to hide the movements of his lips. ā€œThey say heā€™s dead. Weā€™re going down to the morgue. I need eyes up here.ā€
He just fucking hoped sheā€™d be able to keep a straight face, that sheā€™d get it, that sheā€™d go along.Ā 
Though he should have never doubted.Ā 
Not for one second.
Robin was silent only for a moment before she ran a hand up and down his back with a little sombre nod. ā€œRemember. Willā€™s body was found in the Quarry.ā€ She whispered back.
Steve didnā€™t have time to figure that one out, Robin was untangling herself from him with a sad smile.
ā€œIā€™m so sorry, honey. Iā€™ll tell the kids.ā€Ā 
She turned his head to kiss him on the cheek and then gave him a light push back towards Wayne.
Steve leaned against the elevator wall and he stared down at the floor. The three of them were carried down in silence, but Steveā€™s mind was whirring.
Was Robin suggesting there might be a body down there?
A fake Eddie? Made to look dead?
But how could he tell? How would he be able to tell?
From what heā€™d heard, Willā€™s fake body was like a clone of him. Hopper had only been able to find out it wasnā€™t actually him by cutting into him.
There was no way heā€™d be able to get close enough to cut in. He probably wouldnā€™t even be allowed to touch. They might try to keep him at a distance.Ā 
And there was no way to warn Wayne about what might be coming.Ā 
The doors dinged open and Steve was out of time.Ā 
Down another hallway and through another set of metal doors, there was already a gurney out in the centre of the room covered in a white sheet, the shape of a body clear as day underneath, like they had been expecting them.
Despite, despite Steve knowing in his bones that that wasnā€™t Eddie. That that wasnā€™t his boy under there, the sight still sent his heart lurching.
He could feel the apprehension crawling through his skin and he almost asked them not to show him.
There were two doctors standing by the doors, almost like sentries, big and bulky. Their lab coats were too small on them and they were watching Steve and Wayne like a pair of bouncers.
The doctor they had travelled down with looked to Wayne and with his nod of approval, pulled the top of the sheet back.
Dark curly brown hair spilled over the side of the table. Skin so pale it was almost white in death glared across at them and it was Eddie.
It lookedā€¦ it looked just like him.Ā 
Wayne took a shuddering breath in, took a step closer and was stopped by a hand on the shoulder.
ā€œHey man.ā€ Steve snapped, far too loud in the cold metal room, unable to keep his own emotions out of his voice. Because what if he had been wrong? ā€œThatā€™s his family. Get your fucking hands off him.ā€
The ā€˜doctorā€™ holding Wayne back glared at Steve like he was ready to disappear him under a black bag.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s alright son-ā€
ā€œNo, it is not alright.ā€ If Steve needed to create a scene to get them their way, then Steve was going to create a fucking scene. ā€œDo you know who my father is?ā€ He asked, all but sticking his nose up in the air.
The corner of Wayneā€™s mouth ticked up ever so slightly. It made Steveā€™s skin crawl to invoke the status of a man he couldnā€™t fucking stand, but he needed to do something.
Steve wrenched the doctor's hand from Wayneā€™s shoulder and he wouldnā€™t be surprised if he got punched in the face for it, he was almost expecting it but the doctor who had led them down here spoke up.
ā€œItā€™s- itā€™s okay, Vince.ā€ He said, a little panicked, like he hadnā€™t really planned this far ahead and didnā€™t really know what to do in the face of Steveā€™s tantrum.
Wayne seized upon the opportunity to take a step closer and Steve followed in his shadow.
He had to know.Ā 
He had to know if that was really his baby lying on that cold and impersonal gurney.
Steve turned his back on the two guards and while the doctor they had come down with watched Wayne like a hawk as he reached a hand out to brush Eddieā€™s hair away from his face, Steve took his opportunity.
He kept his movements out of sight of the guards behind him, and kept them small enough so they wouldnā€™t draw the eye of the other doctor in front of him.Ā 
He slipped one of Eddieā€™s fingers into his hand through the sheet and twisted.
It went easily. Twisting around on itself without any resistance.Ā 
There was no bone in there.
It was like it was just full of cotton.
It wasnā€™t Eddie.
It wasnā€™t Eddie.
Steve closed his eyes and felt the tension drain out of him.
But then he heard a sniffle to his left.Ā 
Wayne.
Fuck, how was he gonna tell him?
How was he gonna get him out of this room so they could go find his boy?
They were running out of time.
ā€œI have to go tell the kids.ā€ Steve muttered, with as much sympathy as he could.Ā 
Wayne looked at him, his watery eyes searching, almost offended that Steve wasnā€™t more upset until it seemed to hit him that there was a reason for it.Ā 
Wayne searched his eyes again, asking a million, million questions, but he must have eventually settled on some kind of trust because he gave Steve a short nod before looking back down at the fake body, his gaze a little angrier than it had been.
Steve didnā€™t waste a second, couldnā€™t waste a second.
He turned and left the room as calmly as possible but as soon as he was out of sight of the guards, he ran as fast as possible without creating too much noise.
The ride on the elevator back up to Eddieā€™s floor was excruciatingly slow, everything was taking too long. Why was everything taking so long?
Eddie had to still be in the building somewhere.
They wouldnā€™t have had the time to take him out of the hospital completely, they would have needed the people, they would have needed to be sure no one saw them move him down to the ground floor.
The elevator dinged and the doors had barely started to open before Robin threw herself in, furiously jabbing at the button to take them back down.
ā€œRob, what the-ā€
ā€œLucas saw an ambulance pull into the ambulance bay from the wrong direction and it looks brand new, not like any of our usual rust buckets. Jonathanā€™s got the car running with Argyle standing by. Dustin and Mike think theyā€™ve found the room heā€™s being held in downstairs but itā€™s locked.ā€
ā€œNot for long itā€™s not.ā€ Steve growled and Robin grinned at him.
ā€œThought youā€™d say that.ā€ She plunged her hand into her pocket and pulled out a handful of bobby pins. Steve was forever finding them lying around his car, she always had some on her.
ā€œPerfect,ā€ he said, taking them from her.
ā€œI canā€™t believe this is how youā€™re finally gonna use the lockpicking skills Eddie taught you.ā€
ā€œI can. It sounds like something out of one of his stories.ā€
Robin snorted and the doors opened.Ā 
The hallway was thankfully deserted, except for Mike, standing at the end and waving them forward.
Steve and Robin followed him through the corridors until they ended up just outside the Ambulance Bay, Dustin hovering next to a closed door.
ā€œIn here, in here!ā€
ā€œHow do you know?ā€
ā€œA nurse was talking to a janitor about why it was locked. He told her there were some chemicals being stored in there but you canā€™t store chemicals out here, thereā€™s too many temperature variables and the weather-ā€
ā€œThatā€™s all we have to go off of?ā€ Steve cut him off, but even so he still dropped to his knees and started to fit the pins into the lock.
ā€œHeā€™s in there, Steve. I know it. What are you doing?ā€
ā€œWhat does it look like Iā€™m doing? Stop distracting me.ā€
ā€œHow do you know how to do that?ā€
ā€œEnough questions, Roast Beef.ā€ Robin pulled the brim of his hat down but then looked around and asked, ā€œWhere are the guards? Shouldnā€™t there be guards?ā€
ā€œErica had a seizure.ā€
ā€œErica had a what?!ā€ Steve practically shouted, nearly losing his grip.
ā€œNot a real one, obviously.ā€ Mike sniffed. ā€œBut the guards were dressed as ambulance guys-ā€
ā€œAmbulance guys.ā€ Robin muttered.
ā€œYes. Ambulance guys and so they had to help. We screamed at them to help.ā€
Steve drowned them out, focusing all his attention on getting this fucking lock open. If it didnā€™t open in the next five seconds he was gonna break the fucking door down-Ā 
He felt the lock catch and with a quick turn to the side, the door gave a little creak as it opened ever so slightly.
Steve was barely on his feet again before he burst into the room, being met with cold concrete and steel shelves and a hospital bed awkwardly wedged in between them all, no monitors, no tubes, nothing but a pale body lying in a thin hospital gown.
ā€œEddie.ā€ Steve called, making his way across in less than two steps, bending down to scoop him up. He was fucking freezing and knocked out completely. ā€œEds?ā€Ā 
He shook him just a little, hoping to get him to stir but Eddie didnā€™t stir, his head lolled against Steveā€™s arm and he was just dead weight.Ā 
At least he was breathing.
ā€œIs he okay?ā€
ā€œWhy isnā€™t he waking up?ā€
ā€œDid they sedate him?ā€
He shoved his way out of the room, ignoring Dustin and Mikeā€™s questions.Ā 
ā€œWhereā€™s Jon parked?ā€ He asked Robin, already heading towards the Ambulance Bay doors. ā€œCan you take care of-ā€Ā 
ā€œWeā€™ll get Wayne, weā€™ll get everyone else. Heā€™s just around the corner.ā€ Robinā€™s eyes went wide at the sound of footsteps running towards them. ā€œGo!ā€
Steve took off.Ā 
Heā€™d thank Robin later, he owed her his life.
He clutched Eddie tight to him, shielding him, curved over him and nearly tripping over himself when he heard a door slam somewhere behind him and shouting echoing around him.
But then he saw the car.
Jonathan was behind the wheel and as soon as Steve turned the corner he started revving the engine, while Argyle threw the back door open, twisting over the passenger seat to get to it.
It was a little less than graceful, stuffing Eddie into the back seat and practically falling in on top of him as Jonathan took off, tearing out of the hospital with the door still open and Steveā€™s legs still hanging out.Ā 
But they got away.Ā 
Theyā€™d made it away.
For now.
Steve was able to pull himself fully inside, slamming the door closed behind him and cradling Eddie into his lap.
ā€œWhere am I going?!ā€ Jonathan shouted back at him, one eye on the road, one eye in the rearview mirror.
There was no one following them so far.
ā€œI donā€™t know! I donā€™t- The cabin!ā€ Steve shouted back. ā€œGet us to Hopper's cabin!ā€
ā€œThis is fuckinā€™ wild, dude.ā€ Argyle whooped. ā€œBorn free!ā€
Eddie let out a soft little noise, rubbing his face into Steveā€™s shoulder and curling in on himself. His skin still felt like ice under Steveā€™s fingers.
ā€œStevie?ā€
Steve looked down at him, surrounding him as much as he could, rubbing up and down his arms trying to bring some warmth back in. ā€œYeah, itā€™s me baby. Iā€™ve got you, itā€™s okay.ā€
Eddie hummed against his neck.Ā 
ā€œThey stole me.ā€
ā€œAnd I stole you back.ā€ He pressed his lips against Eddieā€™s forehead. ā€œIā€™m not letting anyone or anything take you from me.ā€
ā€œSounds dangerous.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t care. I couldnā€™t lose you. Not again. I couldnā€™t.ā€
Eddie grinned up at him. ā€œYou didnā€™t.ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ Steve whispered back. ā€œI didnā€™t.ā€
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Big thanks as always to @hbyrde36 for her magnificent beta work and to the @strangerthingswritersguild for their motivation.
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Slick Sunday post for @lexirosewrites !! I decided to just post it like this since this is probably going to be long. I do promise it has christmas in it but thereā€™s a build up to that. Also very minor TW for child abuse. Itā€™s less than a sentence but still. And also, this is canon up till s4, I donā€™t really know how different it is, the important thing is that Chrissy lived and Eddie didnā€™t get eaten as much as he does in canon.
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It starts in 1987. Itā€™s late November, Steve has unofficially taken over his house since he hasnā€™t spoken to his parents in so long he doesnā€™t even remember. Eddie and Robin are over helping him decorate their tree. Theyā€™re all wearing ugly sweaters and pajamas. Steve and Eddie had just started officially courting, while Robin and Chrissy were still dancing around each other. She was in the middle of lamenting her latest failed attempt to ask her out when the front door opens and the Harringtons enter. A fight breaks out pretty quickly and it culminates in a few smashed ornaments, Steve getting slapped, Eddie being literally sat on by Robin to keep him calm, and Steve being told his things needed to be gone by the next day. Heā€™s told that his behavior is not that of a Harrington.
And then theyā€™re gone.
Eddie forces Robin off of him so he can hold Steve, and she goes to call Hopper. He and Steve had been close before Starcourt and since he came back last year theyā€™re reconnected. (Steve calls him dad behind his back, heā€™s too scared to say it to Hopā€™s face yet.)
Hop shows up a few minutes later, only to be followed by one very angry Claudia Henderson. She explains that El had called Dustin on the walkie about the phone call she overheard and Claudia left right away.
They both start helping him pack once they know heā€™s okay and they all go to Hopā€™s cabin for dinner. While theyā€™re eating Steve casually mentions that he wants to change his name. What he thought would be a casual comment with little fanfare resulted in Claudia baring her teeth at Hop as they argued over who got to bring Steve into their family officially. It would be scarier if Steve wasnā€™t ready to cry from how loved it makes him feel. He does eventually have to burst their bubble and tell them he wants to be a Buckley. This does get Hop and Claudia to calm down but it also gets Steve tackled off his chair by Robin in a hug.
Fast forward, itā€™s now the mid 90s. Chrissy and Robin live in the brownstone next to Eddie and Steve in Chicago. Steve and Eddie got married two years ago and earlier that fall they had learned Steve was pregnant. They had so far only told Robin and Chrissy, but that was because Steve was at home while Eddie was at work and he begged Robin to come with him to buy tests. Both Eddie and Steve knew it was time to tell everyone else, since he had just finished the first trimester and with christmas coming up they decided to go with the most cliche announcement possible.
The four of them go back to Hawkins for the holidays. Robin and Chrissy are staying at the Buckleyā€™s and Eddie and Steve are staying at Hopā€™s cabin.
The first person they tell is Wayne. They have dinner with him for christmas eve and then over dessert exchange presents. Eddie gets a new set of steel toed boots and Steve gets a new coat. Then they hand Wayne his gift and Eddie grabs their camcorder to record his reaction. Inside is a new baseball hat placed upside down with something balled up inside it. Wayne takes the cloth out and flips the hat around, freezing as he reads it, then quickly dropping it and picking up what is now clearly a onesie. In bold letters the onesie says ā€˜Grandpaā€™s Fishinā€™ Buddyā€™. The hat says ā€˜Grandpa is my name, Fishing is my gameā€™. Wayne, still gripping the onesie in his hands looks up at them with wet eyes.
ā€œIs thisā€¦ Iā€™m gonna be a grandpa?ā€
Eddie canā€™t stop smiling behind the camera and he turns it slightly to catch Steve as he smiles at Wayne, giving little jazz hands as he says, ā€œsurprise.ā€
Eddie just barely pans back to Wayne to catch him standing up to pull Steve into a hug.
ā€œIā€™m so happy for you two. Ed, you better put that thing down and get in here.ā€
ā€”ā€”ā€”
The next people they tell are the Hendersonā€™s. While Dustin will also be at Hopā€™s that night, Steve had wanted to be able to see his mom for christmas so for years they had been doing brunch at the Hendersonā€™s before the three guys go to Hopā€™s and Claudia goes to get some extra hours working at the hospital.
They show up right on time with their gifts and enjoy breakfast before itā€™s present time. Dustin gets the new Dungeons and Dragons book that had just come out and a new set of dice that looked like the night sky. Steve gets a new cookbook and a scarf. Eddie gets a scarf as well as a new toolbox for work. Then Steve hands over the gift bag to Claudia, but before she opens it he turns to Dustin while Eddie gets the camcorder again.
ā€œDustin, I need you to promise me, right now, that what you see right now will not be told to anyone today. Got it?ā€
Dustin rolls his eyes as he responds, ā€œDude, itā€™s just a gift-ā€œ
ā€œDustin. Promise me,ā€ Steve interjects.
After they stare at each other for another 30 seconds Dustin gives a dramatic sigh and promises. With that done Steve gives Claudia the okay to open her gift. She takes out the tissue paper and pulls a folded up sweatshirt and a folded canvas bag out. The bag is unfolded first and Claudia gasps, quickly unfolding the sweater and then dropping them both to rush over to hug Steve.
ā€œOh, Iā€™m so happy for you! My baby!ā€ Claudia is crying as she and Steve hold each other tight, Steve laughing with pure joy. Eddie catches Dustin standing up out of the corner of his eye and refocuses the camera on him, following him as he goes over and picks up the items his mom dropped. The bag says ā€˜Grandmaā€™s Magic Bagā€™ and the sweatshirt says ā€˜Worldā€™s Best Grandmaā€™. Dustin stares at them and then heā€™s shouting.
ā€œYou guys are having a pup?!ā€
Eddie just grins at him over the camera as he asks, ā€œYou ready to be Uncle Dustin?ā€ Eddie then barely keeps the camera from breaking as Dustin rushes him in a hug.
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Their final present is that evening at Hopā€™s. Steve is drinking hot cider and curled into Eddieā€™s side on the couch, Robin right next to him with a hand on his ankle, Chrissy on her other side laughing as Max shares a story about college. Steve looks around the room and sees Dustin already staring at him, practically vibrating in his seat. Itā€™s clear that heā€™s doing his best to not spill the beans so Steve huffs a laugh and claps to get everyoneā€™s attention.
ā€œAlright, present time?ā€
The next minute or so is a rush of movement as everyone finds a spot and grabs their gifts, Steve holding tight to his gift for Hop. Eddie had El help him hide the camera earlier so she can turn it on without giving anything away.
Presents are passed around and opened. Max gave Steve a new poster for his classroom, and Robin got him the fancy desk organizer set he had been looking at for months. Mike got Eddie new patches for his work coveralls and Will gave them a beautiful painted version of their wedding photo. (Steve does tear up over it but tries to cover up as best he can, stupid pup hormones).
Then Steve stands and hands Hop his bag, giving El a wink as he walks past her and he sees her squint her eyes for a breath before giving him a wink back. Steve settles back in to Eddieā€™s side and gives Hop the go ahead. He pulls out what is clearly a mug wrapped in tissue paper with a hat stuffed into it. Hop takes the hat out first and looks at it, his face unreadable, before he sets it down with the words hidden. He quickly takes off the tissue paper and reads the mug. His face is still blank but everyone can see his eyes filling with tears as he makes eye contact with Steve.
Eddie gives Steve a little nudge and thatā€™s all it takes for him to get up and go hug his dad, being wrapped up in his arms as Hop cries. After a beat where itā€™s still silent Hop speaks, looking over at Eddie. ā€œYears ago, I thought I would never get to be a grandpa.ā€ Steve just hugs him tighter and the room around them erupts as everyone starts screaming. Eddie gets dog piled by the boys, excluding Dustin who has collapsed on the floor from the relief of not having to hide that anymore. Steve feels two people wrap around him from behind and glancing at their arms he sees that itā€™s El and Max, both hugging him. When everyone has calmed more Steve goes back to sit with Eddie, who can now place his hand on Steveā€™s stomach. Hop sits down and finally shows everyone his gifts. The mug has a sheriffā€™s badge and it says ā€˜Chief Grampsā€™ and the hat says ā€˜Professional Grandpopā€™. Hop puts it on his head that night and refuses to take it off.
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Et viola. Also, this is Wayneā€™s hat because I love it so much:
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Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader
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HEAVY TRIGGER WARNINGS: +18, suicide attempt, reader is suicidal, PAS (Physician Assisted Suicide), neglectful parents, weed and alcohol, feelings of loneliness, hurt/comfort (?), fluff, kissing, some mentions of nausea, smut implication, angst. So much angst.
Plot: Eddie was new to the group, and he connected with you after an unfortunate event. You were excited to finally put an end to your suffering, of all those years of feeling nothing, and you had made a list of things to do before going.
a/n: I cannot stress this enough, please, do not read if this will be triggering for you. If you read PAST the warnings, it is your own responsibility, and I will not hold myself accountable for it.
This is somewhat inspired by the movie and book Me Before You. So yeah, have fun.
Always reblog your artists, likes don't do much.
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Please, Trust Me
Eddie came into the group a little bit late, so to speak.
He was assigned to do a project alongside Steve Harrington in Psychology class. College was just something Eddie wanted to focus on studying since he had a reputation of repeating his senior year two times in a row, but Steve was friendly. Eddie, well, he didnā€™t realize how badly he needed social interaction until then.
So Steve introduced him to his group. Robin Buckley, Nancy Wheeler, Jonathan Byers, and you. Now, Eddie got to know everyone, except yourself. As Nancy put it, you were in many extracurricular classes, so your time was limited. Eddie, of course, understood, but he also felt you were scared of him somehow. You always averted your gaze from him in the little moments you spent together, so he gave up on trying to talk further with you.
Holidays were approaching, and Eddie had the opportunity that his uncle was leaving the nice house he finally got to purchase near loverā€™s lake in Hawkins, his hometown, so he thought it would be a great idea to invite everyone overā€¦ Well, not everyone.
Since he thought you were scared of him, he believed the invitation would be rejected, but everyone else agreed to come over to his place. It was just a two-hour drive, and he couldnā€™t wait to get drunk and high with everyone else.
Robin told him that you didnā€™t have time anyway to assist, seeing that you were going to visit your mother for Christmas, so Eddieā€™s guilt vanished completely. He felt horrible for not inviting you, thatā€™s why he asked Robin to ask you about your plans for Christmas.
So off they went, having a great time by the lake, drinking beer, eating grilled burgers and sausages, and then on Christmas night, the fireworks went off, and everyone was already drunk by that time, messaging loved ones and wishing them great holidays.
The next day, you called Robin, wishing her a happy Christmas. Eddie was packing the suitcase to go back to Indianapolis, when he overheard Robin tell you that they were spending New years there too, completely surprising him. He expected to return on the 26th, but he was excited to spend more time with his friends. Once again, you told Robin that it was fine since you were still at your momā€™s.
And so, new years went by. Now on the 2nd of January, they all finally returned completely drained from all the alcohol and food, but still with smiles on their faces. Robin then turned to Eddie with an innocent smile on her face as she sat on the passengerā€™s seat.
ā€œEds, can you drive me to Y/Nā€™s place? I want to show her the rocks we picked up at the lake, and I will likely stay the night at her apartment.ā€ She batted her eyelashes at him and he rolled his own eyes.
ā€œOkay, letā€™s take you to the rich girlā€™s place.ā€ You explained to the group that you werenā€™t good with a roommate, so you rented a place near the campus to live in until your studies finished. Eddie realized you werenā€™t a middle-class person just by knowing that, and he doesnā€™t know why you would choose a college like this one instead of Harvard or something like that, as rich people do in movies.
Robin met you thanks to you being signed up to tutor her in a particular class she was struggling with. She and you immediately clicked, despite you acting a bit shy and reserved at first, as if not trusting Robin at all, like a scared animal in the wild meeting another species.
Once they arrived at your apartment complex, Robin once more looked at Eddie with a pouty lip.
ā€œAnd help me with my bag? My shoulders hurt from swimming all weekā€¦ā€ And once more, Eddie rolled his eyes, sighing as the two of them got out of his van and he went to the back to get hold of her bag, swinging it over his shoulder.
ā€œYou can just say you are lazy as fuck Buckley.ā€ She giggled at his response and they both walked into the reception, calling the elevator to go up to your floor. Once they were at your door, Robin knocked a few times, only to be met with no response. Her smile faded slightly and she tried again, and once more, met with silence.
ā€œMaybe she didnā€™t return from her momā€™s.ā€ And she bent down to look under your mat, finding the spare key. You told her she was welcome at any time, to simply look under the mat for the key and make herself comfortable, knowing Robin likes some quiet away from the dorms now and then.Ā 
She opened the doorā€“
ā€œHey, youā€“ā€
And she and Eddie immediately winced at the strong smell of unwashed dishes or something of the sort.Ā 
ā€œJesus Christ, what is that smell? Did she forget to wash the dishes before leaving?ā€ Eddie replied, looking over at the kitchen counter, his eyes furrowing together as he looked at a particular tray that was filled with gingerbread men cookies. They were all with a bit of fungus, and one had been bitten, one of its arms missing.
Robin closed the door behind her as she looked around, finding that there were bottles of different alcoholic beverages on the sink, a cup of ramen noodles on the coffee table in front of the TV, half-eaten, and then she spotted the small Christmas tree in the corner of the room.
She remembers how excited you were, buying your tree, telling her that you never had the chance of decorating one before because it wasnā€™t truly celebrated in your household. Dread immediately invaded her as she remembered that, slowly walking towards it and Eddie following behind, dropping Robinā€™s bag to the floor.
Robin gasped as she kneeled to the floor, finding different presents under the tree, one for each person in the group, including Eddie. His heart plummeted to the floor as Robin showed him the small present, and you didnā€™t even know what he liked, yet you bought something for him.Ā 
Robin then turned while getting up, looking towards the door of your bedroom that was shut. She rushed towards it and she felt her heart starting to want to come out of her mouth as she swung it open as quickly as she could.
And there you were, in your bed, resting, and Robin felt herself breathe in relief, but Eddie didnā€™t. Not when he noticed the bottle of wine next to you, on your nightstand.Ā 
ā€œMaybe she didnā€™t think she was gonna go to her momā€™s and she forgot about the cookies.ā€ Robin said as if almost trying to convince herself. Trying to make a reasonable explanation other than the most horrible one that she could think of because of course, she doubted it when you said you were visiting your mom.
Because you mentioned to her that you two werenā€™t close.
Eddie slowly walked towards you, not caring about the smell that lingered in your room, knowing that you probably hadnā€™t showered or cleaned the place in a while. He looked down on you, tilting his head. You had the blankets all over you while you rested on your belly, eyes completely closed.Ā 
He raised a hand towards your face, under your nose, and his breathing stopped. Your breaths were slow, not even deep, and you were drooling, all over your pillow. He grabbed onto the edge of the blanket and Robin moved to stop him, yet he yanked it off.Ā 
ā€œRobinā€¦ call 911.ā€
But Robin was frozen as she looked at your frame, her lip starting to shake as she inspected your right hand. A hand that was holding something that looked empty. Something that she saw was half full the last time she came over.
That orange flask that contained your sedatives.
And you chugged them down with alcohol.
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Steve was rubbing Robinā€™s back as she sobbed into her hands, hunched over the chair of the waiting room. Eddie was on her other side, his leg bouncing up and down as he bit his nails. One day he was laughing with everyone and now he is waiting for some good news regarding your health, someone he barely knows, yet he is worried shitless for.
Loud heels were heard across the hallway, a woman in her late 40ā€™s, wearing designer clothes, looking rather stern as she got closer to the door of the room you are in. Her arms are crossed as she stands next to it, tapping her heel on the floor, catching the attention of the three people sitting on the chairs.
ā€œExcuse me?ā€ Robinā€™s weak voice called out and the lady snapped her head towards her with an eyebrow raised up.
ā€œYes?ā€
ā€œWho are you?ā€Ā 
ā€œI am this girlā€™s mother. Who are you?ā€
And the three friends froze in their seats. It was your mother. The person you supposedly spent the holidays with, yet, she didnā€™t look concerned for you, but rather she looked angry, or disappointed.
ā€œWeā€“ Weā€™re her friends.ā€ Robin replied with a small voice, because could she even say that? Do you deserve someone like her as a friend? Even as a partner? Someone who forgets what you told them almost a year ago? The woman scoffed, shaking her head.
ā€œFriends? That is surprising. Were you there when she did this?ā€ Her voice was cold, and anger started filling inside of Eddieā€™s chest. Why is she acting this way when her child is inside that room, fighting for her life? A life she almost took herself?
ā€œN-No, we found her like thatā€¦ā€ Robin looked back down again and Eddie could only look at her wrecked face with pity, yet, he could not comfort her.Ā 
ā€œI see. Did the doctor come out or something yet? I have somewhere to be, and I cannot waste my time on this. Not again.ā€
And the three sitting people shot up from their seats, all with alarmed looks on their faces.
ā€œIā€™m sorryā€¦ again?ā€ Robin asked, the answer scaring her yet she needed to know what it meant. She needed to know if she was an even more horrible person than she was ten seconds ago. Your mother scoffed, shaking her head again and Eddieā€™s hands turned into fists.
ā€œItā€™s the third time. I already sent her to a psychiatrist, a mental hospital, and therapists, and yet she still tries. That girl has everything, and yet she always craves attention this way. Iā€™m sick of it.ā€
And Robin wanted to puke, right then and there, while Steve looked at Eddie with tear-filled eyes and the metalhead could see how bad his friend felt. How evil he must feel. Steve gulped and looked back at your mother, clearing his throat to be able to talk.
ā€œW-Why would she do this?ā€ And your mother scoffed, looking for her phone in her purse as she talked.
ā€œJust because I forgot about the holidays and her birthday. I already sent her a message apologizing and telling her she could ask for anything she wanted, but she went and did this.ā€
And Robin froze.Ā 
Birthday.Ā 
December 28th.
Your birthday.Ā 
And she couldnā€™t handle it anymore, yanking herself away from Steve to rush towards the toilet. Steve called out to her, rushing to her aid as tears rolled down his cheeks and Eddie was frozen in place.
Not only did you spend the holidays alone, but you also spent your birthday by yourself, while they were all having fun in Hawkins, shooting fireworks and drinking alcohol to their heart's content. And you were alone, with a bottle of wine and instant noodles.
He was about to talk to your mother, about to insult her, to drag her on the floor, but the opening of the door in front of him made him stop in his tracks as the doctor walked out with a board in his hand.
ā€œOkay, so, we got her blood cleaned up. Itā€™s good that you caught her at such an early stage. Her vital signs look stable now, but she will have to stay here for a few days, two tops, so we can monitor her a bit more.ā€ Your mother cleared her throat and the doctor looked up at her with a tilt of his head.
ā€œSo, sheā€™s okay.ā€ And there was such coldness in your motherā€™s voice that Eddie felt his vile rising in his throat. The doctor only sighed, taking his glasses off.
ā€œShe is, but we cannot overlook a suicide attempt. Does she have anyone to talk to? Maybe I can give you brochures forā€“ā€
ā€œI already sent her to an institution once, but it didn't work. That child is an attention seeker, pay it no mind.ā€Ā 
Eddieā€™s eyes were burning in anger at her words and the doctor looked as surprised and hurt as he did. He cannot bear to hear your motherā€™s words any longer, so little care, with lack of empathy and lack of love. He wondered how many things you endured with a woman like this in your life, and honestly, he was afraid of finding out.
ā€œW-Well, since youā€™re the mother, maybe you shouldā€“ā€
ā€œShe is a grown woman now. She can make her own decisions as you can see. I shall not worry about her anymore.ā€ And just like that, the heels echoed in the hallway once more and Eddieā€™s eyes were wide as he looked at her retreating figure. A mother leaving her child after they tried to end their life, like no care in the world, as if she hadnā€™t given them their life to begin with.
Three times? Three times she did this? Walking away from you? How could she call you an attention seeker? How could she even acknowledge something like that when you were screaming for help?
ā€œAhem.ā€
Eddie blinked as he looked towards the doctor who had a confused yet pained look on his face.
ā€œShe is awake if you want to see her. I assume you are a friend of hers?ā€Ā 
Is he? He is not a friend, but you cannot be alone, not here, not right now. Robin is probably trying to breathe while Steve is comforting her, but maybeā€¦ Eddie knows you probably donā€™t want to see them either. None of that group. So he gave the doctor a nod, and he slowly opened the door of the white room.
His eyes scanned it, and finally, they landed on you. Your arms were connected to an IV and a blood transfusion bag, the heart rate monitor beeping right next to you as your back rested against the pillows, letting you sit on the bed. You looked emotionless. Eyes empty. Hand on each side of your body and Eddie knew your mind, your feelings, were completely shut off.Ā 
He gulped with nerves and the door closed behind him, making him wince, but it alarmed you that someone came into the room, making you look up. Your eyes twitched in surprise, yet if you were, you didnā€™t express it, nor show it.Ā 
ā€œI guess youā€™re the one that found me?ā€ Your voice was empty, with no tone, as if it were a recording or an AI robot. Eddie slowly nodded as he took a few steps toward the chair that was on the other side of the bed.Ā 
ā€œRobin and I found you.ā€ You gave a slow nod, looking back down to your lap. He didnā€™t know what to say, he didnā€™t know anything about you but he feels like he should have. He cleared his throat to continue talking. ā€œI, uh, liked the necklace you got me. Pretty metal.ā€ He winced at his words because it was something he shouldnā€™t have brought up at all.
Your eyes raised to meet his, another nod going towards his way, diverting your eyes back to your lap. He looked around for a second, the nerves all over his body. He was almost trembling with the need to talk to you, but what can he say? What could be something you want to hear right now? And coming from him?
ā€œAsk away.ā€ He startled at your voice, jumping on his seat as he looked at you once more.
ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œI know you want to ask. And maybe you can also help me by telling the rest about it and how I am not going to talk to them again.ā€ You were still not looking at him and he cleared his throat as he felt his mouth going dry, but now he knew you werenā€™t going to talk to the others about this. The relationship is already broken inside of you.
ā€œIā€“ Okay, umā€¦ I guess the first question is, why?ā€ He slowly asked, afraid of even being able to talk to you about this, but sometimes they say that a stranger is the best listener, and maybe Eddie was just that.
ā€œWhyā€¦ Only child, homeschooled all my life so no interaction whatsoever with the world, absent mother, holidays and birthdays by myself, father was never found. Need to say more?ā€
And shit, Eddie was not expecting that at all. You had been miserable from the very beginning, unwanted by your own mother, and now he realized how horrible you must have felt with the whole group. Your first ever friends and they forgot every single detail of you. How you never spent a holiday with people, and was so excited you even baked cookies to share and bought presents for a gift exchange, your first ever most likely, only to never happen.
And now, he realized thatā€¦ His other friends do not deserve any kind of pity, or forgiveness.
ā€œOkay, thenā€¦ Why were you scared of me?ā€ At his question, your eyebrow raised up, and turned your head to look at him.
ā€œIs that what you thought?ā€ You asked with complete confusion in her tone. He looked at you with his own frown, tilting his head.
ā€œWell yeah, you avoided me like the plagueā€¦ā€ And you looked up at the ceiling, closing your eyes, and shaking your head with a sigh.
ā€œNo. I donā€™t trust people easily as you can see.ā€ You looked down at your lap once again and he wanted to sigh a little bit in relief at that, knowing that his clothes or his whole demeanor didnā€™t actually scare her. She was just shy and probably nervous.
ā€œRightā€¦ Um, Robin and Steve are here as well, do you want me toā€“ā€
ā€œNo. I donā€™t want to see them.ā€ And your words spoke for your pain, and Eddie was not going to argue against it. They honestly didnā€™t deserve your forgiveness or kindness, that much he knew, but he also felt guilty. Really guilty.
ā€œIā€“ I am sorryā€¦ I didnā€™t invite you because I really thought you hated meā€“ and I took everyone away, I didnā€™t know any of this, I am so sorry if I knewā€“ā€
ā€œYou werenā€™t the one who forgot. You donā€™t know me, but they did.ā€ He gave you a nod in understanding, yet the guilt is still lingering in his stomach. He cleared his throat and he wanted to ease the tension for you, to relieve the somber moment that filled the room.
ā€œSo uh, you knew I liked Metallica huh? Is it because of the hundreds of shirts that I own?ā€ Your eyebrow raised at him and you turned to face him while he gave you a cheeky smile of his own. You squinted slightly at him, but a small tug on the corner of your lips gave you away.
ā€œWell yeah, all the times Iā€™ve seen you it was either Metallica or Black Sabbath. It had to be one of the two.ā€
ā€œWhat if I only liked their logos, huh?ā€ At that, you rolled your eyes at him, but he kept making jokes at you, and a giggle here and there could be heard in the room.Ā 
Robin and Steve were hearing the both of you outside your room. They looked at each other for a minute before hesitantly walking away. Robin turned her head at almost every step, wanting to barge into the room to hug you, to say she was sorry. But she knew it meant nothing, not anymore, and not ever again.
What she did, what they did, cannot be fixed.
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Eddie was lounging with his headphones on as he listened to music while resting against a tree trunk. He was bobbing his head as he wrote some lyrics on the notebook he had over his leg. For the past three days, he hasnā€™t heard of you. He tried visiting you yesterday only to find out you were discharged and he felt too embarrassed to just go to your apartment.
He had also distanced himself from the group. It didnā€™t sit right to be with people who could easily forget about something so important like a birthday. You didnā€™t have any social media, so the least they could do is put the birthday in their own cell phones, like Eddie did as soon as he left the hospital.
Itā€™s not like he didnā€™t talk to them, he just made excuses when they asked to hang out with him. He just couldnā€™t shake off the bad vibes from it all.Ā 
He looked up from his lap only for his eyes to bulge out of his skull as he saw you almost prancing in happiness while walking through campus. Thatā€™s a good sign, isnā€™t it? He immediately put his notebook into his backpack and pulled his headphones down, resting them around his neck. He got up, almost tripping as he did so, as he rushed towards you.
ā€œHey! Hey!ā€ He yelled at you to catch your attention as he got closer. You turned to face him, still with a wide smile on your face.
ā€œHi, Eddie.ā€ You were smiling, thatā€™s good, thatā€™s really good. He was almost breathing heavily from the run he just did. He wasnā€™t athletic and the smoking surely doesnā€™t do him any good.
ā€œYeahā€“ I justā€“ give me a minute.ā€ He huffed as he tried taking a deep breath in, and you giggled motioning to him to sit on a bench near the both of you. You sat down as soon as he plopped down, taking another huff of air as he turned his head to look at you. ā€œSo, what got you all smiley?ā€
ā€œWell, I just dropped out of college!ā€ You announced with a smile and jazz hands, startling Eddie completely. His face was contorted in confusion and wonder.
ā€œWhat? Why? You didnā€™t like what you were studying?ā€ You shook your head as you looked at the horizon, not anything in particular.
ā€œItā€™s just pointless now.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t understand.ā€
ā€œIā€™m going to California in three months.ā€ Your head turned to look at him still with a smile on your face. ā€œIā€™ve been offered P.A.S.ā€Ā 
He frowned, not knowing what those syllables meant at all. He tried putting them together in his head but nothing was coming up.
ā€œWhatā€™s that?ā€
And Eddie didnā€™t know why you opened up to him with that. He didnā€™t know why he didnā€™t care that you did. He didnā€™t know why this relationship between the two of you evolved in this manner, as quickly as it didā€¦ but he never expected to hear the response you gave him.
ā€œPhysician Assisted Suicide.ā€
And now, Eddie knew that term, and his eyes bulged out of his skull. You wereā€¦ offered that? How can that happen? You had no health issues to go through something like that, so why would you consider that? Why would the doctors even consider that for you? His heart was just hammering in his chest as dread invaded his gut.
ā€œW-What? Whyā€“ how?ā€ He was speechless, not really knowing what he was asking or what he wanted to know at this point. He felt his gut turning at the information like he couldnā€™t believe someone as young as yourself could even consider that way out.Ā 
ā€œWell, it was due to all my medical records, be it psychological and physical. My mindset never changed.ā€ Your gaze turned from him to nothingness once more. ā€œI go, get help, only to get out and for everything to be the same. It never changes, because it was never me who had to change.ā€
Eddie slowly blinked at your wording and his eyes drifted to the sky as his thoughts raced through his mind. Can he even talk you out of this? How can he even do that? You seem happy, way too happy with this solutionā€¦ You were excited.
ā€œYouā€™re notā€¦ scared?ā€
ā€œNo. Not at all. I am ready to go. My heart can barely handle it anymore.ā€ And Eddieā€™s eyes turned towards the profile of your face. You had made your decision clear, and he wouldnā€™t be able to stop you now. No one can. The group was no longer part of your life, your mother didnā€™t care about your decision so it seemsā€¦ and he is no one to stop you.
ā€œAlrightā€¦ Youā€“ um, what are you gonna do untilā€¦ you know, then?ā€ He asked and you smiled at him, grabbing your backpack to take out your notebook, and flipping a page to show him a list, which made him frown in confusion.
ā€œThese are things I never tried because the opportunity never presented itself. Before, I didnā€™t knowā€“ā€ You cut your voice short at what you were about to say, and then you continued. ā€œNow that I know when itā€™s gonna happen, I donā€™t want to go with any regrets.ā€Ā 
Eddie looked at the list, and he couldnā€™t believeā€¦ how trivial some of these things were.Ā 
- Go to an amusement park
- Smoke a cigarette
- Buy a Barbie Dreamhouse
- Eat a cake for breakfast
- Get high
And then he saw more complicated ones.
- Go skydiving
- Learn to drive (or attempt)
- Try to skateboard
- Ride on a jet ski
- Attempt to make a rainbow cake
And so many more. You had filled an entire page with things you wanted to do and he looked up at you to see you looking up at the sky with a smile on your lips.
ā€œI think I should get the Barbie Dreamhouse first. Oh, maybe get some alcohol, I never got fully drunk, but maybe tonight I can since I donā€™t have to wake up early anymoreā€“ā€ And you went on with your plans and Eddie was just staring at you as the thoughts ran through his brain.
Everyone else was walking all around the two of you, and nobody knew that you were going to die in three months. No one knew you had made an entire bucket list with things to do before going. No one knew about this decision of yours, and he wasnā€™t going to let you be alone in this. He doesnā€™t want you to live these last few weeks with no one at your side.
ā€œYou know, or I can make one of your wishes on the list come true.ā€ Your head snapped towards him with a surprised look on your face.
ā€œOh, what?ā€ And a smirk formed on Eddieā€™s lips.
ā€œGetting high.ā€
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ā€œDid you prepare the pan?ā€
ā€œUhā€¦ā€Ā 
ā€œEddie!ā€
He immediately rushed to grab onto the pan as he burst into giggles thanks to the weed in his system. The munchies came to life with you two after smoking a whole joint from Eddieā€™s stash. You had the open bag of pizza rolls in your hands, the oven already turned on as you waited for Eddie to put some oil spray on the pan.
ā€œIā€™m sorry, Iā€™m sorry, I justā€“ I was stuck looking at the wall.ā€ He simply replied to you, making you burst into laughter, trying not to let the pizza rolls fall to the ground. He followed you with chuckles as he sprayed the pan and handed it to you so you could throw the pizza rolls on it and then begin cooking them in the oven.
You were relaxed, that much Eddie knew, and he was smiling as you tip-toed in a dance towards your couch, plopping down. He followed soon after, sitting next to you. You giggled as you stared at the ceiling.
ā€œI feel like Iā€™m on a cloud.ā€ Eddie stared at your profile for a while before he began talking once more.
ā€œI wanna help.ā€
ā€œHmm?ā€ You turned to face him still with a dopey smile on your face.
ā€œI want to help you complete some things on your list.ā€Ā 
And your smile fell as if becoming sober out of nowhere. Eddie then gulped but his resolution was already said and you moved uncomfortably in your place.
ā€œYou donā€™t have to pity me. I can do theseā€“ā€
ā€œNo, you canā€™t. Learning to drive a car? How do you plan to do that?ā€ At that, you opened and closed your mouth many times and then cleared your throat.
ā€œAn instructor!ā€ Eddie rolled his eyes at that, and put his hand up, his fingers up.
ā€œGetting drunk, you need supervision.ā€ He put a finger down. ā€œGoing to a concert, youā€™re gonna get squashed.ā€ He put another one down. ā€œPlaying Mortal Kombat, you need an enemy.ā€ He put another and then you stopped him completely, shoving his hand down.
ā€œOkay, okay, okay! I see your stupid point.ā€ You sighed as you threw your head back against the headrest of the couch, looking at your ceiling. He knew you were overthinking it, but he honestly wanted to help you in any way he could.Ā 
ā€œCā€™mon, there are a few things in your list I am dying to try too. Likeā€“ Eating Argentinian food. I never tried that shit, I bet itā€™s fucking delicious.ā€ You giggled at his expression and then nodded at him.
ā€œOkay, fine. You can help. You will also help me bake that stupid rainbow cake I always wanted to try.ā€ He laughed at that with a shake of his head.
ā€œAnother thing I never did in my life was bake. Itā€™s gonna be a journey. Do you have insurance here? We might burn it all down.ā€ At that you punched his shoulder lightly, causing him to laugh it out followed by your giggle.Ā 
And what a journey it was gonna be.
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ā€œSeriously, YOU DIDNā€™T HAVE TO GET ME INTO THIS TOO!ā€ Eddie almost screamed as he looked out the window of the helicopter with a frightened look on his face. Harnesses were all around his body, a man behind him strapping himself closer to Eddieā€™s back.
You were in front of him, holding your laughter as you held onto a handle on the side of the big machine that was now miles and miles above the ground. The helmets on both of your heads almost crushed your skulls but the protection was needed. Another man was strapping himself to you behind your back.
ā€œOh come on! You wanted to try new things!ā€ You yelled at him so he could hear you over the loud sound of the helicopter.
ā€œYes! BUT NOT SKYDIVING! I WAS HAPPY TO WAIT FOR YOU WITH EARTH BENEATH MY FEET!ā€ He yelled back and you were trying really hard to contain your laughter. Suddenly the big door next to the both of you slid open and the wind immediately pushed your body and Eddieā€™s back from the force but the guys remained still as they held onto the handles above the door.
ā€œYou guys ready!?ā€ The one behind you asked and Eddie rolled his eyes behind the goggles.
ā€œDO I HAVE A FUCKING CHOICE?ā€
ā€œNope.ā€ The guy behind him said before jumping out with no warning, dragging Eddie with him, and then the guy strapped to you followed close behind. You were screaming your lungs out, and Eddie was shrieking. The adrenaline of falling was making him feel butterflies in his belly, almost making him feel sick.
He can hear you closer now and he raised his head to see you in front of him with your arms splayed out and reaching out for him. He could hear your laughter through your screaming and he reached out, fighting the strong wind, to finally lock his hands with yours as you two were freefalling towards the ground.Ā 
He couldnā€™t help but smile and cheer out from how extreme the whole situation was. He didnā€™t know how you werenā€™t hungover, you had gotten yourself as drunk as possible yesterday night while dancing to his music. He showed you how to headbang properly, and he took care of you when you started letting the contents out in the toilet.
He held your hands as tightly as possible, your fingers intertwined with his, as you both yelled with excitement and fear as you plummeted down and down. You only separated when the men behind your backs tapped on your sides so they could pull the parachute open.Ā 
Your bodies jerked as you started floating in the sky, and Eddie was left laughing as you both glided downwards towards the ground again. He could see the entire city and the fields as you both kept coming down. He turned his head to see you laughing as well, your head looking up at the sky in bliss and he felt his heart tug on him slightly.Ā 
Once you two touched earth again, Eddie let the air out of his lungs with relief and the guy behind him unstrapped himself so Eddie could catch a proper breath, taking the goggles and helmet off. You followed a few seconds later, walking towards him with a smile on your face and taking your goggles off.
ā€œIt wasnā€™t so bad, was it?ā€ You were breathing heavily and he scoffed at you with a shake of his head, flicking his fingers on your forehead.
ā€œI wonā€™t let you drag me into something like this ever again.ā€Ā 
You laughed at him and you both walked back to Eddieā€™s van after you paid for the experience. You didnā€™t let Eddie pay at all, since you dragged him into it. He was going to invite you for dinner though, and you wanted McDonalds, so he was driving back towards town as you two talked in the van.
ā€œSo, you never told me about your parents.ā€ You blurted out, catching him by surprise, but you were indeed right. He gripped his steering wheel a little tighter, but he kept a small smile on his face.
ā€œOh, where to begin? My mother died when I was young and my Father wasā€¦ very abusive, and often dragged me into stealing with him. He got caught and heā€™s been in jail for a while now, heā€™s charged with robbery and homicide attempt.ā€ He took a big gulp in as he kept driving, not used to letting people into his life in this way. ā€œBut, my uncle Wayne took me in at fifteen. He is the father figure my father failed to be.ā€
You were silent as you listened to him. He didnā€™t hear anything from you so he turned to face you, only to see you looking at him with tears running down your cheeks. He wondered what was going on in your head at that point. He was about to ask you what was wrong and you sniffled, wiping the tears away with the back of your hand.
ā€œIā€™mā€“ sorry, I shouldnā€™t have asked that.ā€ You said regretfully and he instantly shook his head.
ā€œNo, noā€¦ donā€™t worry. Iā€™m past it.ā€ He was worried about what you were thinking about at the moment since you remained silent for a while.
ā€œIā€™m a little jealous to be honestā€¦ You had someone thatā€¦ā€ And he waited for you to continue, but when you didnā€™t, he pressed forward.
ā€œSomeone that what?ā€
ā€œWanted you.ā€
And his heart broke at that, immediately so, and he knew his eyes started burning from the incoming tears and he shook his head to keep focused on driving. You didnā€™t need him to cry, you didnā€™t need that.Ā 
But should he tell you what he thinks? Should he tell you what has been on his mind for the past month that he helped you tick things off your list?
ā€œIā€“ā€
ā€œOh! Before I forgetā€“ā€ You looked through your purse, pulling out your phone as you started scrolling, and he frowned as he tried to look at what you were doing and then back at the road. You giggled and moved away so he couldnā€™t see. ā€œNo peeking!ā€
ā€œOh come on, you canā€™t just do that and not expect me to be anxious!ā€ He laughed as he kept his gaze on the road and then he saw light in his peripheral vision and he looked quickly to see you were showing your phone to him. He switched from the road and to your phone but he couldnā€™t quite read it. ā€œWhatā€™s that?ā€
ā€œYou know how one of the things was to go to a concert?ā€ He nodded and you giggled, putting your phone down again. ā€œI got us two tickets to go see Megadeth!ā€Ā 
His jaw could just fall from his skull at this point as he tried to focus on driving and not the shock from those news. Did you say Megadeth? Are you serious? Eddie has been dying to see them live but when he got into the virtual line they got sold out in just a few seconds.Ā 
ā€œWhat?!ā€ He yelled and you kicked your feet on your seat as you stared down at the phone. He was speechless, a smile spreading on his face, only for it to fall back down. ā€œWait, do you even LIKE Megadeth!?ā€
ā€œWell, I havenā€™t heard much, BUT YOU LIKE THEM, and I assumed that we should go to a concert we both can enjoy. I doubt you want to go to a Taylor Swift concert.ā€ You replied with a wiggle of your eyebrows only for him to scoff.
ā€œTaylor Swift has some sick songs. Butā€“ Yes, I do prefer Megadeth sweetheart.ā€ He smiled widely at you and then looked back at the road, cheering as he hit the steering wheel with excitement. ā€œFuck yeah!ā€
You were laughing on the passengerā€™s seat and Eddie was smiling all the while as realization started to dawn on him thatā€¦ he may like something more than Megadethā€™s music.
It was a special kind of tune.
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ā€œSeriously, how long are you gonna take darling, we had to go like yesterday!ā€ Eddie yelled with a pissed-off tone as he paced in your living room.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s my first time wearing something like this, it needs to be perfect!ā€ He heard you yell from the bathroom and he sighed, but a smile was splayed on his lips. He was looking out the window as he waited for you in his Megadeth tank top with a black leather jacket on top. He heard the bathroom click open and he sighed in relief, turning around with a roll of his eyes.
ā€œFinallyā€“ā€ And his breath was knocked out of his lungs. Your hair was messy, completely batted, wearing heavy black makeup on your eyes, strong lipstick on your lips, a black top with a black long-sleeved fishnet shirt on top, and then black leather pants below. You gave him a twirl and wiggled your eyebrows at him.
ā€œSo!? I had to look at a tutorial on YouTube to get this done, but I think I did pretty goodā€“ā€
ā€œYou look beautiful.ā€ And it was natural. It came out without doubt, without him thinking too much about it, and you were shocked, yet, he noticed how you diverted your gaze away from him, and he chuckled at how embarrassed you got from a compliment regarding your physique.Ā 
ā€œIā€“ uh, it isnā€™t weird?ā€ You asked and Eddie knew you felt a little self-conscious of how different you looked. But you were indeed beautiful, this just enhanced it in ways he didnā€™t think could be possible and he felt his knees bending for you.
ā€œIt isnā€™t darlingā€¦ā€Ā 
There was a moment of silence between the two of you and Eddie could only stare at you as he walked closer to your frame. He saw how your shoulders went up and down a littler harder than before, signaling him that you were taking deeper breaths, maybe from nervousness, he didnā€™t know.
ā€œUmā€“ā€
ā€œSweetheartā€¦ā€ You finally looked at him and he smiled, rolling his eyes. ā€œCan we please go now!?ā€
And you giggled at him, the tension leaving the both of you as you made your way out to head to his van.Ā 
The ride to the stadium was filled with music, mostly Megadeth which you started listening to since you showed Eddie the tickets three weeks ago. Today signaled the second month of you two completing your bucket list.
One more month to go.
And the concert was filled with screams and laughter from your part, Eddie protecting you from the people pushing against you, but you didnā€™t care, experiencing your first concert ever, and you wanted to share it with him. This was your first and last concert, and you decided it was gonna be Megadeth, for his taste.
ā€œThat was AWESOME! My neck needs ice from all the headbanging though.ā€ You sighed as you two got back into the van after almost three hours of jumping around. Your make up was smudged, your hair looked a little sweaty, and your lipstick had washed away from the sweat, yet, you looked as beautiful as you did hours ago. Even before the makeup. Maybe even more.
ā€œHey, you were great for your first metal concert.ā€ You giggled at his words and gave him a nod.
ā€œI am a natural.ā€ You smiled at him and he just kept staring at you, licking his lips as he looked down and then moved his whole body in order to face you. The nerves were almost killing him as he tried to formulate the following words.
ā€œI uhā€“ I can help you cross another thing off your list.ā€ You tilted your head in question and you pulled out your notebook from the bag you left in the van with your bucket list and then a green highlighter.Ā 
ā€œWhat is it?ā€ You smiled at him as you handed them to him and he scanned the whole list, looking for that one thing and when he spotted it, he felt his heart in his throat as he slowly showed it to you, pointing at the line.
Have the first kiss
You blinked once, twice, and then looked up at him with a confused frown in your eyebrows. He gulped loudly and he might have overstepped it, but he still waited for your response and he could see the incoming tears in your eyes as he felt his hands becoming sweaty.
ā€œYouā€“ You donā€™t have to do thatā€¦ Iā€“ You donā€™t have to do something you donā€™t want toā€“ā€
ā€œI want to. I really want to.ā€Ā 
He could see that you were nervous, looking everywhere but his face. You didnā€™t reject him. You were worried that he didnā€™t want to do this and felt pressured because of your list, and that was far from the truth.Ā 
ā€œIā€“ How does this go?ā€ And he wanted to smile at your innocence, but he felt sadness that you never experienced any kind of physical interaction in all your life. But he smiled anyway, in order to calm your nerves down. He raised his hand towards your cheek once you moved to face him in the passenger seat. Your breathing hitched at his touch, finally looking at him, directly into his brown eyes.
ā€œJust close your eyes. You can tell me to stop whenever, I wonā€™t pressure you, sweetness.ā€
And his voice was soft, and caring, his thumb smoothing your cheek in circles and when he saw you close your eyes, he took a deep breath in as he slowly leaned in. He could hear his heartbeat in his ears, the blood rushing to his head at a quick pace, but he had to focus. He knew his face was flushed, but he couldnā€™t help it.
He could smell your perfume still, despite all the jumping, all the sweat, it was still lingering on your body. He finally closed the gap between the two of you in a soft peck on the lips, staying there for two seconds before pulling away as a chill ran down his spine. He wanted to dive into it, take your lips completely, but he didnā€™t want to overstep. He opened his mouth to ask if you were okay, only to be surprised by your hands grasping his face, pulling him towards your mouth again.
He gasped into the kiss, and he took it as a sign that you wanted to know more, experience more, learn more. So he kissed back, his hand moving towards the back of your head in order to push you further into him as you two hovered over the console. He started to move his lips, slowly, and he felt you follow him, hesitant at first, maybe doubting what you were doing.Ā 
He was having a hard time focusing on not letting his instincts take over, a very horrible time. This was a bad idea. This was a terrible fucking idea and he knew it, but he couldnā€™t help it. He needed to be the one to give this to you, because if someone else didā€¦ he wouldnā€™t be able to bear it. He didnā€™t want anyone close to you, not like this.
He felt your hands moving to the back of his head, your fingers digging into his curls, and he held a groan in, trying to not let it show how carnal he was becoming. He was nervous but he wanted to see if you wanted to take it even further, so he poked his tongue out, licking your bottom lip tentatively.Ā 
He heard a gasp coming from you and he noticed that you didnā€™t get the idea of what he wanted to do, so he tried again, licking in between your bottom and top lip. You seemed to know what part comes next, so you slowly opened your mouth, and he met his tongue with yours, earning another gasp of surprise.
He wanted to know what thoughts were running in your mind right now as he kissed you. Did you feel the heat rising? Did you feel scared like he does? Did you feel happy? Confused? Nervous? What is going on in that head of yours?
He didnā€™t want to break it apart, he really didnā€™t, but itā€™s been minutes, and he didnā€™t want to overdo it at all, and he canā€™t hide his real feelings for much longer. He slowly pulled away from you, the smack of lips separating and vibrating all over the van. You two were breathing heavily as you stared into each otherā€™s eyes.
ā€œSo? How was that for a first kiss?ā€ He asked breathlessly and he could see something in your eyes that he couldnā€™t quite describe. It was a mixture of emotions, not one in particular, but he couldnā€™t pinpoint what it was. He was still holding onto your face, waiting on your response.
ā€œItā€“ā€ You opened your mouth to say something, only to shut it seconds after, and then a smirk appeared on your lips, pulling away from him to sit straight in the passenger seat. ā€œI donā€™t know Munson, got nothing to compare it to.ā€
His mouth fell open, a laugh escaping his lips as he poked the side of your body, making a giggle escape your lips, flinching away from him as he kept poking you repeatedly.Ā 
Yeahā€¦ your laugh was better than any song out there.
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Five days.
Five days and you were leaving.
And itā€™s not like you were going to come back. You werenā€™t going to in any shape or form.
Eddie was lounging on your couch as you put things in cardboard boxes. Things you wanted to donate since you werenā€™t going to need them any longer. He closed his eyes tightly, his heart aching and wanting to stop you, to yell at you that you didnā€™t have to do this, not anymore.Ā 
ā€œOkay, I think Iā€™m done for today. You sure you donā€™t want any of this?ā€ You asked him and he felt as if a knife was stabbed into his throat. He wanted to cry like he had been doing alone at night whenever he went to bed. Sleepless nights were plagued by the thought of not seeing you anymore, of not being able to hug you, of not being able ever to cuddle you like he wanted.Ā 
ā€œYeah, pretty sure.ā€ He didnā€™t want to sound bitter or angry, but he couldnā€™t hide it. You didnā€™t acknowledge it of course, so you shrugged, closing the box and standing up from the floor before heading to your room.Ā 
He stared at your open door, needing to hype himself up. If itā€™s not now, he wonā€™t have the chance to do it again. He needs to kiss you once more, he needs to hold you close, he needs to show his feelings through actions.
So he stood up and slowly walked towards your room. You were cleaning up your closet, looking through your shirts. He watched you move through your room, and he looked over to your desk, seeing the almost completed bucket list. Some were just impossible to complete, like riding a kangaroo, but there was a particular one that he wanted to fulfill, and not because it was on the list.
If this was the only chance he could do it, he would take it. You noticed his presence when you turned around with a shirt on your hand and saw him looking at your notebook. You tilted your head to the side as his fingers trailed one particular line that was yet to be highlighted.
ā€œEds? Whatā€™s wrong?ā€ Your voice held worry as you put the shirt back in the closet and Eddie turned his head up to look at you. He turned to close the door behind him, to face you again, taking a few steps forward to stand in front of you.
ā€œI saw one more thing on the listā€¦ a thing I want too.ā€ His voice was small, lacking confidence, filled with nerves, but he needed this. He needed you. He hoped he wasnā€™t getting this wrong, because ever since that kiss the two of you stole glances from one another, laughter as friends turned into flushed giggles.Ā 
ā€œAnd what is that?ā€ You asked with a frown on your eyebrows, in question. He wrapped an arm around your waist, flushing your body to his, his breath most likely hitting your face as he felt your shoulders move even quicker than before, signaling him you were taking fast breaths.
ā€œDo you trust me on this?ā€ You stared up into his eyes for a full five seconds before slowly nodding at him. He lifted his other hand to cup your face in his palm, and he leaned down to take your lips with his.Ā 
Electricity ran through his body, and he wanted to smile, he wanted to cry, he wanted to yell, he wanted to rip and break the walls, he needed to destroy something, he needed to hug someone, he needed comfort but he also needed the rage.Ā 
Your arms wrapped around his shoulders, holding onto him as your lips moved together, soon tongues intertwining as the seconds passed, and your breathing turned jagged as you pulled away for some air. Eddie leaned down to kiss your jaw, startling you, to then move downwards towards your neck, planting soft kisses onto your skin.
A gasp escaped your lips at the sudden sensation, new, raw, and Eddie felt you shiver under his touch, but instead, you were gripping his shoulders in order to pull him closer as the hand that was on your waist started sneaking under the hem of your shirt so he could touch your skin.Ā 
ā€œEddieā€¦ā€ It was a partial moan, but he took it as a green light, moving you towards the bed so he could lay you down but before he crawled on top of you he took the chance to take his jacket off, throwing it across the room, not caring where it landed.Ā 
If this was going to be the only time to have you like this, he would make sure to make you feel like the most adored person in the world. He will make sure of it. Even as your moans filled the room, he couldnā€™t help but want to record them, knowing he wonā€™t ever hear them again.
And that line was highlighted in green when you both woke up the next morning.
Make love
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He didnā€™t want to look at you.Ā 
He couldnā€™t.
The sun was shining through your curtains as you walked around the apartment with the small carry-on waiting for you at the front door. The past few days the two of you dipped into the sheets, all day, cooking when necessary only to return to bed.Ā 
He really wanted to cry and yell, and he almost left in the middle of the night in order to not see this day. In order to just run away from the fact this was your last hour with him, and you had asked him to take you to the airport. He can ditch you, tell you he wasnā€™t going to do it, that you could get a cab.Ā 
But he couldnā€™t do it. His heart was ripping out of his chest at every step you took in your apartment, the seconds ticking closer and closer to the departure of your plane. A plane with no return at all. A one way ticket.Ā 
He looked around your apartment, and boxes of stuff that you wanted to donate surrounded him, as well as bags of your clothes. You told Eddie that he was the only one in your will. That fact broke him to the core, knowing that you were leaving everything to him, but the only thing he wanted was you, and you were going to leave him.Ā 
He didnā€™t want your pans, your apartment, your cutlery, your game consoles, or TVs. He wanted you, and only you. He didnā€™t notice that his tears were falling down his face as the lump in his throat became bigger and harder to swallow at every gulp he tried to take.Ā 
ā€œOkay, I think Iā€™mā€“ā€ You stopped on your tracks when you saw his profile, noticing the tears, your eyes widening as you approached him, your hands cupping his cheeks for him to look at you. ā€œWhatā€™s wrong?ā€
ā€œYouā€™re leaving me.ā€ He wasnā€™t going to hold back his feelings anymore. He showed you through his actions, but he never said them out loud, and the least he can do is let you know this.
ā€œWhatā€“ā€
ā€œI love you.ā€ Your eyes widened and your mouth hung open at his confession, but Eddie didnā€™t stop talking. ā€œYouā€™re the most amazing person Iā€™ve ever met, and fuck, you need to know how much I fucking want you.ā€
You were stunned into the ground and thatā€™s when Eddie turned to look at you, only to see tears running down your face as you covered your mouth, taking steps away from him.
ā€œYouā€“ You canā€™t say that to me, not now. Pleaseā€“ Pleaseā€“ not now.ā€ You were choking into your sobs as he stood in front of you, coughing to be able to speak.
ā€œIā€“ I want you to stayā€¦ Please, donā€™t take that flightā€¦ I beg of you, please, stay with meā€¦ā€ His lip was trembling as he felt nausea fill his stomach, taking a few steps towards you as the crying finally was heard through the apartment.
ā€œIā€“ I donā€™t need your pity! Iā€“ I am happy I am doing this! Youā€™re lying in order for me to stay, and Iā€™m not going to buy it!ā€ You yelled through your sobs, and Eddie felt his chest ripping open at your thoughts.
ā€œI am not lying! I am in love with you! Why canā€™t you believe that!?ā€ He was screaming now, trying to get his point across but you also didnā€™t back down, yelling back to him with the same confusion, with the same anger, with the same sadness.
ā€œBecause how can I trust that!? How can I trust you!?ā€ And Eddie grabbed you onto your shoulders, squeezing you tightly in order for you to look at him and not run away. His eyes were on fire as he gazed at you through his tears.
ā€œTrust me just like you trusted me to hold your hair back when you got too drunk and you were in the toilet! Trust me just like you trusted me to teach you how to drive! Trust me just like you trusted me to protect you in your first night club outing! Trust me just like you trusted me when I made love to you!ā€Ā 
And the screaming ceased, eyes locked into one anotherā€™s, tears still streaming down, never stopping, heavy breathing trembling against every wall. You were shaking under his touch, your lips trembling as your hands shook on your sides while he still gripped onto your shoulders. You opened your mouth to talk once more, your voice small, broken.
ā€œYouā€¦ One day you will get tired of me, but you will feel bad for leaving me, so you wonā€™tā€¦ I canā€™tā€“ I canā€™t chain you like thatā€“ā€ Your voice was breaking his heart, even more than before, and he shook his hair desperately as he let go of your shoulders so he could grab your hands and hold them with his, getting closer to you.
ā€œNo, noā€¦ I wonā€™t ever get tired of youā€¦ Not you, not in a million yearsā€¦ā€
ā€œEdsā€¦ā€
ā€œPleaseā€¦ Please donā€™t goā€¦ Please, trust me.ā€Ā 
You sobbed a gulp of air and you raised in order to give him a soft kiss on the lips. His breathing hitched at it, but kissed you back, dread filling his core, every vein, every blood cell instantly freezing at what the future will hold, of what this kiss meant. You pulled away with a small smile on your face. Small, authentic, yet sad.
ā€œI love you, Eddieā€¦ Iā€™m sorryā€¦ā€
And your flight took off that day.
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ā€œMr. Munsonā€¦ā€
ā€œMr. Munsonā€¦ā€
ā€œMr. Munson!ā€
Eddie jolted in his seat as he put his wallet down to look up at his group of students. Gregory was raising his hand and Eddie pointed at him so he knew he was acknowledged.
ā€œSorry, I got lost in my thoughts. Whatā€™s wrong Mr. Gill?ā€ He asked and his student asked something about the textbook they were all reading. His college students. He began explaining the paragraph that seemed like a puzzle to students from the book ā€œDown the Rabbit Holeā€.
He graduated in Psychology three years ago. He was offered a job as a professor in the same college he graduated from, and he was more than happy to pass his knowledge to other students to help them understand how the brain works, and the many branches that can come out of it after every single situation in life. Traumatic or not.
Once his students went back to reading, he grabbed onto his wallet again, looking inside to see a picture of you and him, completing one of your bucket listā€™s objectives.Ā 
Go to an amusement park and get pictures taken in a photo booth.Ā 
He chuckled as he remembered that outing, how you had screamed at your first ride on a roller coaster.
He became friends with Steve once again but was still not fond of the rest of the group. The only reason he got close to Steve again was because he was also a teacher in the same college. He was a professor in physical trauma, so, in their breaks, they would smoke together as they walked through campus.Ā 
The bell rang and it was time for him to finally head home after a long day of having four classes in the day. He grabbed his suitcase, hoping no student would stop him on his way out and gladly it never happened. His hair is still the same length, but he is always using a ponytail or a bun on his head.Ā 
He has heard rumors that people always gossip about him, asking if he was single, or what was his life like outside college. He shrugged the comments away as they werenā€™t important at all. He just came to work and thatā€™s it.
He got into his car, a black jeep he saved a year for in order to buy it. He missed the van, but he had to upgrade it once and for all. His van was a little old so replacement parts were a bitch to get. He turned on his car and then started his drive back to his home, a two-story house. It wasnā€™t big or luxurious, but it was his home.
He sighed in relief as he opened the door, throwing his suitcase on the couch after slamming the door closed. He cracked his neck a few times before taking his blazer off and then his tie, unbuttoning the first two buttons of his shirt and opening the cuffs at the end of the sleeves. He groaned with satisfaction as he sniffed the air.
He smiled as he walked towards his kitchen, leaning against the doorway, his arms crossed over his chest, his teeth showing into a massive grin.Ā 
ā€œHi baby.ā€ You smiled widely at him as you took the pan out of the oven, filled with cookies that were freshly baked. He walked towards you, his hand stretching out in order to grab a cookie, only for it to get slapped away by you. ā€œTheyā€™re hot!ā€Ā 
ā€œI am strong, I can handle a little bit of burning.ā€ He grinned down at you, leaning down to give you a soft kiss on the lips in greeting. ā€œWere my princesses hungry for cookies?ā€
ā€œAre you talking to me orā€¦ā€ He chuckled at the pout on your face and he bent down to kiss the big bump on your belly, standing up straight later on, wrapping his arms around you and pulling you close to him.
ā€œThose two are my princesses, you, my love, are my queen.ā€ You rolled your eyes at his antics but you giggled either way. He gave you a smooch on the cheek, making you laugh, trying to push him away. He spotted something on the kitchen counter, pulling away from kissing you and getting the item in his hand.
ā€œOh! Yeah, Chrissy gifted that! She saidā€“ā€ Eddie laughed as he looked at you and then putting the two pink pacifiers that you can put flavored ice in so they can chew and help with the heat.
ā€œAnother gift!? Damn, she really wants to be the godmother of one of our princesses huh.ā€ You pushed onto his shoulder with a pout on your bottom lip.
ā€œHey, she is going to be the best aunt.ā€ Eddie nodded at that and he really wasnā€™t angry at Chrissy. You met her after you moved out of your apartment to go to Eddieā€™s. She was moving in at the same time you were, and you two helped each other in bringing the boxes in.Ā 
Yes, your flight took off that dayā€¦ Without you in it.
You stayed with him, wrapped in his arms as you cried, not being able to stop as your feelings confused you, scared you, your mind a jumbled mess but Eddie held you through it. Eddie wasnā€™t going to let you go, never, and he promised it, over and over again into your ear, hoping it stuck to your brain.
ā€œOh no baby, I donā€™t doubt that.ā€ He smiled at you as you started taking the cookies off the tray, taking care of your hands so that you donā€™t burn yourself. Eddie just stared at you with adoration in his eyes, as if you held the entire world in your hand, and you did. You are his world. You are everything.
You turned to look at him, raising an eyebrow in question, wondering if he was scheming something that you didnā€™t know about.
ā€œNow, what is going on in that mind of yours Munson?ā€ He found it ironic that you can easily ask that question to him when he wanted to ask that to you many times before. He smiled at you, wrapping his arms around your waist from behind, his hands resting below your bump, holding onto it as he felt his two daughters moving inside of you.
ā€œI just love you Mrs. Munsonā€¦ā€ You turned your head to give him a soft kiss on the cheek, before focusing once again on the cookies.
ā€œAnd I love you.ā€
After a moment of silence, he pressed a soft kiss on the side of your neck, surprising you, yet a giggle escaped your throat.
ā€œThank you.ā€ That confused you, turning your head to look at him and he was already smiling fondly at you.
ā€œFor what?ā€
ā€œFor trusting me.ā€
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The end.
a/n: this story explores the idea of death, the idea of being ready to receive it with open arms, with a rational head. But it also explores the fact that things get better if you meet the right people. It might not be now, it might not be tomorrow. It might take years for you to do so, and people in your life will come and go.
But there will always be that one person. And that is all you will ever need.
Taglist of people I mentioned this to: @littlesubbyflower @munson-blurbs @andvys
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The Caged Bird Still Sings Part 13
Hello!!! We are back for another lovely chapter of this fic. It's still going strong and I have hit Act 3. I don't know how many chapters of that there will be, but I'm to the happy parts of the story. So yay!!!
In this we find out who our little elf is, and Steve makes an instant friend. Then he tries sushi with disastrous results.
Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Pt 6 Part 7Ā Part 8Ā Part 9Ā Part 10 Part 11Ā Part 12
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Steve watched as she turned in slow motion and her eyes go wide. She then threw her hands over her eyes.
ā€œIā€™m sorry to disturb you!ā€ she shrieked. ā€œPlease put your shirt back on!ā€
He huffed out a laugh and then went over to the dresser and pulled out a old t-shirt. ā€œThere, Iā€™m all dressed. Now tell me who you are.ā€
ā€œIā€™m Robin Buckley!ā€ she squeaked. ā€œIā€™m sixteen and about to enter my senior year of high school, my Uncle Justin got me the job as a PA for the band Corroded Coffin, but my mom was worried about the band taking advantage of me, so she insisted I stay in Hawkins. Which worked out great because I got the task of sneaking stuff in your hotel room, which is also great because Iā€™m super stealthy!ā€
Steve smiled, immediately taking a liking to her. ā€œWow that was a lot. Nice to finally put a name and a face to the person who keeps sneaking into my room while Iā€™m showering.ā€
Robin blinked for a minute before she realized the implication of that. ā€œOh shit! You must have thought I was a creep or something. God, Iā€™m so sorry!ā€
ā€œSomething like that,ā€ Steve said, tilting his head and chuckling. ā€œBut now that Iā€™ve met you, itā€™ll be easier to drop stuff off whenever and not have to wait for me to be gone or out of the main room.ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t mind that I can just walk in?ā€ she asked in confusion.
Steve shrugged. ā€œThe cleaning staff do it all the time. Unless I put out the tag that says do not disturb, they just come in to do their job. Thatā€™s how I made friends with Carla and Juan. Theyā€™re teaching me Spanish!ā€
Robin blinked at him for a moment. ā€œYouā€™re learning Spanish from the cleaning crew?ā€
He walked up and flopped on the sofa, kicking his feet up. ā€œJuan is teaching me all the swear words first.ā€
ā€œWow,ā€ she said, sinking into a nearby chair. ā€œDonā€™t you have other friends that come see you?ā€
Steve shook his head. ā€œAll my friends abandoned me when my dad caught me and my boyfriend on the sofa making out. I canā€™t tell anyone else where I am because my dad could find me and beat the shit out of me for not leaving town like he wanted.ā€
ā€œWait...ā€ Robin said, ā€œAre you Steve Harrington?ā€
He reared his head back in confusion. ā€œI mean yeah, werenā€™t you told who I was?ā€
She got up and pushed his feet to the floor to sit on the sofa next to him. ā€œHoly shit, dude. No one knows where youā€™ve been. There have rumors about you still being seen around town, but your like a local cryptid or some shit. All anyone knows is that youā€™ve been laying low.ā€
Steve sat up straight. ā€œWait, really?ā€ He burst out laughing. ā€œI guess being registered at the hotel as Steve Munson is really doing its job.ā€
ā€œYeah,ā€ Robin said enthusiastically, ā€œeven my mom thinks your his cousin. Sheā€™s been broadly hinting that I should accidentally meet you so you can date me.ā€ She snorted. ā€œWhich even if you werenā€™t over eighteen, sorry youā€™re not my type.ā€
ā€œYeah, what is your type?ā€ Steve asked. Robin pursed her lips and looked up. ā€œCome on, who am I going to tell? Eddie and the band are about to be out of communication because theyā€™re traveling out of country.ā€
ā€œGirls.ā€
He snorted and then snapped his mouth shut. ā€œSorry. Um...like I just told you I was caught with my boyfriend and you were worried about telling me you like girls?ā€
She blinked at him for a moment and then gave a snort of her own. ā€œOops!ā€
Steve shook his head. ā€œHopeless. Just a couple of baby gays in the most backwater town in the whole fucking state. At least you can tell your mom that youā€™re not my type.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s true,ā€ Robin said cocking her head to the side. ā€œShe didnā€™t want me traveling with the band because she was afraid that they would prey on a teenage girl. Like I feel like I would be safer with them then some stranger in a hotel room, but...ā€ she shrugged.
ā€œMom logic,ā€ Steve said, nodding, ā€œcanā€™t argue with it and canā€™t make it make sense either.ā€
Robin threw her arms in the air. ā€œExactly!ā€ She looked around the room and spotted the presents she was supposed to have leaving for him.
ā€œThe presents!ā€
ā€œThe shower!ā€ Steve shouted at the same time and they both went running. Steve to the bathroom to turn of the water and Robin to grab the boxes from the sidebar.
They met back in the middle. Robin shoved the boxes at him.
ā€œI want to know whatā€™s in them,ā€ she said brazenly. ā€œIā€™m not allowed to peek and I really want to know about everything Eddie Munson is sending you.ā€
Steve laughed and shook his head. ā€œIt could be sex toys you know. Are you sure you want to see whatā€™s in here?ā€
ā€œYes!ā€ she huffed and smacked his arm. ā€œNow open it!ā€
Steve opened the first box and inside was a beautiful yellow floor length robe with a note that said, ā€˜For that hot divorceĆ© look!ā€™
Robin raised an eyebrow at him. ā€œCare to explain that one?ā€
ā€œI was feeling down a couple of days ago because I was bored,ā€ Steve explained trying not to laugh, ā€œI said I felt like a divorceĆ© who had taken her husband to the cleaners, but now was only left with riches and no company.ā€
She looked around the fancy hotel room like she was properly seeing it for the first time. She took in all the brass fittings, black marble, and leather furniture. It was pretty, but it was very much not a place someone lived in, only visited.
She couldnā€™t imagine staying here for as long as Steve had been here. ā€œOh.ā€
Steve shifted in his seat, suddenly feeling uncomfortable with her pity. So he opened the other present. It was a much smaller box, he had wanted to open the big one first because he guessed it was probably clothes.
Inside was small golden music box that when he opened it it had a little yellow bird singing ā€œBirdhouse in Your Soulā€ by They Might Be Giants. Only blue canary was swapped for yellow, mangling the song a little, but Steve was touched.
ā€œWhat is with all the yellow stuff especially the yellow birds?ā€ Robin asked as he handed it to her. She had spotted a lot of them as she looked around the room.
Steve laughed and told her about how he met Eddie, highlighting especially the part about wearing yellow in the middle of a metal concert.
ā€œOh my god!ā€ Robin said roaring with laughter, ā€œI think I would have shriveled up and died of sheer embarrassment if that was me.ā€
ā€œThat would assume I had any dignity at that point,ā€ Steve pointed out. ā€œMy dad had tossed me out, I lost my job, and all my friends. If there were better places to get drunk in this god forsaken town, I would have gone there.ā€
ā€œHave you tried getting another job?ā€ she asked, tilting her head the side. ā€œLike they canā€™t all be afraid of your dad.ā€
He just shrugged. ā€œI guess I never thought about it, really. Just been trying to keep away from him.ā€
ā€œBut heā€™s been out of town for a couple of weeks, right?ā€ Robin pressed. ā€œDo you really think heā€™s going to come back and hound you just for trying to get a job?ā€
Steve shrugged again. ā€œYou donā€™t know my dad. His colleagues call him Mad Dog because heā€™s as tenacious as a bulldog and twice as mean. If he gets it into his head that I must be ran out of town, heā€™s going to do whatever he can to make it happen. He only left town because Chief Hopper stonewalled him.ā€
Robin wrinkled her nose but didnā€™t say anything.
Steve showed her all the other presents Eddie had gotten him and she was delighted with each one. But especially the necklace.
ā€œWell now there are two birds in this cuckoo nest,ā€ Robin said proudly. ā€œRobin and Canary.ā€ She held out her hand and Steve took it with a smile.
ā€œSo does this mean you wonā€™t be sneaking around my hotel room from now on?ā€ he asked with a lopsided grin.
She burst out laughing. ā€œI might do a little sneaking for old times sake, but yeah. Iā€™ll make sure to announce my presence from now on.ā€
ā€œGood,ā€ Steve said with a huff. ā€œGet out of here so I can shower.ā€
She laughingly did as she was told, Steve shaking his head the whole time.
~
After Steve got out of his shower and bathrobe secured tightly at his waist, he sat down with the want ads. He had long since gotten a subscription to the newspaper for the movie times and funny pages. But now he could use it to see if anyone was hiring.
Because as much of a loud mouth asshole, Tommy had been, he had a point. He couldnā€™t just sit around and wait to be be rescued by Eddie. There was no guarantee that Eddie would continue to fund Steveā€™s life style after the band returned from their tour.
He flopped on the bed with a red pen and the newspaper open in front of him. He scoffed when he saw that Family Video was still looking to replace him, even though it had been six weeks since they fired him.
He really didnā€™t know how to do much. His main jobs had been being a lifeguard at the rec center and the Family Video job his dad forced him to take so that he could ā€˜learn how to be productive in societyā€™ or whatever bullshit he had spouted at the time.
So he immediately disregarded anything that required typing or phone skills. With it being summer again, he could probably get his old job back at the rec center but then he would most certainly run afoul more Hank Tippets of the world. Which would be more trouble than it was worth.
There was the new mall.
Maybe he could find work there. He circled a couple of other places but decided his best bet would be the mall. He threw the newspaper aside and rolled over on his back.
He was hungry and tired and just wanted to forget about everything for awhile. So he got up and ordered food. This time was going for something different. Sushi. If he didnā€™t like it he could always order something else.
Steve needed to try other things and if it wasnā€™t on his dime or his parents forcing him to try it, why not? He couldnā€™t do raw oysters. But that was probably because he was six at the time and his mother forced him to try it.
Never doing that again.
He also ordered an appetizer just to double hedge his bets. He knew from the description that it was raw fish and rice. He wasnā€™t going into this completely blind.
The sushi arrived with his weird side of garlic mashed potatoes. Sue him, the potatoes were his comfort food. They were almost as good as the ones as his Auntie Sophie made. The recipe his mother would kill to get her hands on. And probably tried.
Look, he tried. He tried them with the brown liquid-y stuff, the red paste, and green goo. The green goo made his mouth burn like nothing he had ever experienced in his life. If he hadnā€™t tried the red paste first, he would have assumed it was all that bad.
So he tossed the rest of the sushi back on the trolley and begged for them to take it away and replace it with ice cream. Anything to stop the burning.
Eddie tried to be sympathetic when Steve told him that night, but Steve could tell the other man was trying so hard not to laugh.
Never again.
~
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katyawriteswhump Ā· 5 months ago
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mommy's girl
For @stevieweek day 4 (sorry Iā€™m late!) Special Outfit and extra prompts, Scoops/uniform, lingerie & @steddiemicrofic July prompt, ā€˜oneā€™. Ā Rating: M WC 1,111 words. CW: None.
Tags: trans-fem Stevie Harrington, steddie, no upside down au, angst and feels, platonic stobin, steve has an awesome mom and not-so-awesome dad (also, faintly based on some RL experiences belonging to my other half... used with permission and love ;)) All my ST fic on AO3
Summary: Stevie makes a new beginning, and itā€™s all super-overwhelmingā€¦
ā€¦
Stevie was fumbling in her purse for her car-keys. Her mom hurried from the porch with yesterdayā€™s mascara bleeding from her eyes and her hair tumbling from its pins:
ā€œStevie! You forgot your name-badge.ā€
ā€œGotta love company policy,ā€ griped Stevie. At least the dumb thing now said ā€˜Stevie.ā€™ Her mom pinned it on her Scoops uniform above her padded braā€”part of a slinky set Eddie gifted her last time he came home from tour. Eddie was next due back today, which was something to look forward to after the previous nightā€™s trauma.
ā€œYou gonna be okay, mom?ā€ asked Stevie. ā€œIf you need me, Iā€™ll call in sick.ā€
ā€œNo. This is day one of the rest of our lives. Your fatherā€™s finally gone for good. I need to start untangling our affairs.ā€
ā€œAnd I finally get to go to work in a miniskirt.ā€ Stevie glanced at her thigh-kissing skirt. She loved it, butā€¦ Shit, too much was happening.
His mom had booted her father out for a billion reasons. However, his constant gaslighting of Stevie being Stevieā€”and her dating ā€˜that lowlife Munson punkā€™ā€”had sparked last nightā€™s apocalyptic standoff. ā€œLook, Iā€™m sorry it was me thatā€”ā€
ā€œDonā€™t you dare apologise.ā€ Her mom placed her hands on Stevieā€™s shoulders. ā€œIā€™m so proud of you, darling. You got a job you enjoy, a boyfriend who adores you, and you always look a billion dollars.ā€
ā€œIn this shitty uniform?ā€
ā€œEven in that.ā€
ā€œStill not wearing the lousy hat.ā€
Breaking the news about her father to Robin meant Scoops opened half an hour late. Then, when Stevie leaned down to pull up the shutter, Robin yelled: ā€œScrew you, Shit-bird, that skirt looks too good, and your ass looks too pretty, and I despise you.ā€
ā€œYou wear a skirt then. You could start a douchey scoreboard for who gets more creepy stares.ā€
ā€œYou know I hate skirts.ā€
ā€œQuit whining then.ā€
Bantering with Robin couldnā€™t distract Stevie from her tiredness and nerves. When her mind started screaming, she focussed on the cling of her skirt, the glide of the silk panties beneath. Eddie would be here soon. Eddie would go crazy for herā€¦
Robin took the phone message. Eddieā€™s flight was cancelled. He wouldnā€™t be home till tomorrow.
Dammit, Stevie needed him now.
She was wiping down a table, when she heard a snicker. A devastating mean-girl stare slammed into her.
Right at crotch level.
Stevie glanced down.Ā 
Oh. Shit.
Robin found her at the back of the store, slumped forward on the table, face pillowed in her arms. ā€œStevie? You okay?ā€
ā€œNo.ā€ Stevie jumped up and pointed to the middle-front of her skirt. At the bulge. ā€œLook.ā€
ā€œHuh?ā€
Ā ā€œYou see? Itā€™s Mrā€¦ Miss Pokey.ā€Ā 
Robin shrugged. ā€œOnly if you squint.ā€
Stevie swiped her lank-feeling hair from her face. Her hands trembled. ā€œIā€™ve not even gotten an erection or anything. Everyoneā€™s staring.ā€
ā€œTheyā€™re not.ā€
ā€œThey are! I loved these panties, but the silk triangle at the front bunches everything forward andā€¦ā€ Suddenly, it was all super-overwhelming. What the heck was sheā€¦ HEā€¦ doing? Heā€™d wrecked his parentsā€™ marriage. Eddie was probably lying about the flight to avoid him. ā€œJesus, I look horrible. Iā€™ll put the shorts back on.ā€
ā€œDonā€™t you dare.ā€ Robin shoved a banana across the table. ā€œEat that. Youā€™re cranky when youā€™re hungry.ā€
ā€œIt doesnā€™t solveā€”ā€
ā€œNo, it doesnā€™t. I have an idea what will.ā€
ā€¦
ā€œItā€™s too weird not having to shit myself about your Pa taking pot-shots at me,ā€ said Eddie, when Stevie led him into her bedroom. It was stacked with boxesā€”her mom had already got the decorators in. ā€œGot you a lilā€™ something, Babe.ā€
Eddie presented a crepe-paper parcel. Stevie smiled tightly and sat on the bed to unwrap. It was gonna be more underwear, but her confidence was so shattered thatā€¦
She held up the swathe of peachy cotton and white lace. ā€œYou got me granny pants?ā€
Eddie beamed and Stevie couldnā€™t help giggling.
ā€œJesus, did Robin call you? Or my mom?ā€
She stripped off and pulled them on, loving how Eddie lapped her up with his thirsty gaze. Stevie couldnā€™t keep her own eyes from the mirror. The panties pressed her in slightly in the front, perfect for a mini-skirt or figure-hugging dress. Eddie swept her hair from where it dusted her shoulders and hooked her matching bra. He trailed kisses down the sweep of her neck, each sending a delicious shimmer down her spine, then twirled her around.
ā€œI love them, Eddie.ā€
ā€œMe too, honey. You look amazing. I couldā€™ve got ones that pad at the hips but with your teeny waistā€¦ā€ He traced it lightly. She shivered with pleasure. ā€œNah, donā€™t need it.ā€
ā€œCanā€™t believe Iā€™m feeling hot in big panties.ā€ She leaned back into his embrace, dizzied by the weird relief of the moment. It was no way as epic as her father having finally gone, butā€¦Ā 
ā€œShall I order a dozen, Stevie?ā€
ā€œHell, yeah.ā€
They both tumbled sideways onto her bed. ā€œCool, Babe. Letā€™s get you outta them.ā€
They took it slow, kissing till he was wearing her lipstick. Then he set her squirming, her fists clenching his hair, as he nibbled around the cute lace at the trim of her panties, before slipping his fingertips teasingly beneath. Slowly, he peeled her free. Stevie hadnā€™t waxed today, but that was fine, because hairy was what she was sometimes, and Eddie, as he whispered again and again, worshipped her every way she was.
They made love, fixing deep in each otherā€™s eyes. Stevieā€™s panties looped her thigh like a slinky garter.
ā€¦
It was a week later when Stevie, for the first time since her father left, found her mom crying. She was hanging out the washing on the line.
ā€œMom, what is it?ā€Ā  She hurried over, and yes, her momā€™s eyes were teary. And she was laughing. ā€œMom?ā€
Her mom reached up and brushed knuckles down Stevieā€™s cheek. ā€œDonā€™t worry about me, darling. Iā€™m happy.ā€ She nodded at Stevieā€™s new panties. ā€œThey remind me of my gym kit. You know, the good old cheerleading days. Never marry a Jock, darling.ā€
ā€œWasnā€™t on planning on it.ā€
ā€œEddie really is the one, isnā€™t he?ā€
Stevieā€™s heart panged with happiness and sadness at once. ā€œStill time for you to find your one and only, mom.ā€
They pegged the rest of the washing up together: ā€œGotta ask, momā€”did you want a daughter?ā€
ā€œI only ever wanted you, Stevie,ā€ she said, then, slightly crossly: ā€œBut if your long-haired loverā€™s late for family dinner again, Iā€™ll kick his ass back on tour.ā€
ā€œMom!ā€ Stevie pitched a sock, which her mom neatly caught. ā€œDonā€™t be mean.ā€
They were both laughing. Life felt pretty good.
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morganbritton132 Ā· 1 year ago
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Hey, me again. Two asks in one day lol.
I have a question, Eddie is definitely famous enough that the teachers can just look him up right? So my idea was that the other teachers have all worked out most of what is going on and who Eddie is because hello, google exists so they just enjoy messing with David. Would that work? Iā€™m genuinely so curious about why no one has looked him up if they know heā€™s been to red carpets and stuff.
David has made attempts to google who Eddie is. The only problem is that he thinks that Steve and Eddie have the same last name and Edward Harrington is a dentist.
Largely, the other first-year teachers are just not that interested in actually finding an answer to who Steve is married to. Itā€™s just something fun to talk about on their lunchbreak so they donā€™t spend the whole time talking about lesson plans and students. Plus, itā€™s fun to tease David about it because he actually wants to know Steveā€™s whole deal.
I do love the idea of the other teachers figuring out who Eddie is and just not telling David about it.
Of course, they eventually figure it out. Theyā€™re all twenty-somethings with iPhones and TikTok accounts. Eventually one of them was going to stumble across new rising TikTok star, Eddie Munson.
David just happens to have the worst FYP in existence because Eddie has yet to be on it. Except once, David was scrolling before bed and came across one of Eddieā€™s live-streams. Unfortunately, it was a live-stream of an empty room because Eddie forgot to turn it off.
Heā€™s convinced that if Eddie Harrington is not an actor than he must be a director. A small enough director to not have an IMDB page so he googles indie movies that were filmed in Chicago. Some of them were duds, none of them contained Eddie.
Then he started watching shows that were filmed in Chicago to see if he comes up in the credits anywhere. Watching every episode of Chicago Med to do this is not insane because Marissa encourages him, ā€œMaybe you should watch Shameless too. That was filmed in Chicago.ā€
ā€œOh,ā€ David says. ā€œHeā€™s a better fit for Shameless than Chicago Fire.ā€
A week after that while David is still in the thick of rewatching tv shows, Kathy shrugs her shoulders over her potato salad and says, ā€œMaybe he is an actor and he just does theater. Heā€™s very theatric.ā€
David crumbles the chip heā€™s holding, ā€œGood point.ā€
Luckly, Davidā€™s girlfriend loves musical theater. Unfortunately, Eddie Harrington apparently doesnā€™t. (He see a Corroded Coffin member though because Jeff is currently playing Frollo in the Hunchback of Norte Dame).
Two weeks after that, Jordan takes some pity on him and reminds David that Eddie seems to be pretty talented with musical instruments, ā€œRemember when he filled in for the piano teacher?ā€
ā€œYeah,ā€ David says, but dismisses it immediately. Heā€™s already checked the composers for every indie movie heā€™s watched this year and Eddie Harrington was not there. ā€œMaybe heā€™s a PA. Theyā€™d go to red carpets, right?ā€
ā€œā€¦David, youā€™re killing me.ā€
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munsonkitten Ā· 1 year ago
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Eddie doesnā€™t sleep well anymore.
Itā€™s not like he really did before, but itā€™s worse now. He only catches an hour or two a night before waking up again. Sometimes when exhaustion tugs too heavily at him, he slips away while laying on the couch in front of the TV. It never lasts long.
He tries to blame it on the environment. On the fact that heā€™s been staying at Steve Harringtonā€™s house for two weeks, on the fact that people come in and out at all hours and leave it impossible to catch any shut eye, on the fact that the bed heā€™s sleeping on is too firm from disuse, the blankets too scratchy.
Heā€™ll blame it on his pain, the nightmares.
Heā€™ll blame it on anything, even Steve.
Everyone around him seems to be doing just fine. Steve has injuries similar to his own, yet heā€™s moving around like nothingā€™s wrong. Everyone else has seen horrible things, but they carry on like itā€™s another day in their lives.
Maybe it is, but Eddie expected to feel less alone here.
He expected to hear Steve waking up screaming each night from the nightmares that plague Eddie, too. He expected to see Dustin crying a lot, or looking at him differently after Eddie almost died in his arms.
(Did die, he reminds himself. He stopped breathing. Needed Steve to restart his heart. He should have died. He shouldnā€™t be here.)
He feels like heā€™s falling apart, but everyone else is here taking care of him like they arenā€™t hurting, too. Steve is taking care of him and changing his bandages and making him eat like Steve doesnā€™t have to do those things for himself.
That keeps Eddie up at night. Steve keeps Eddie up at night. For more reason than one.
He lays in his bed in the guest room on Steve Harringtonā€™s ground floor and he stares at the ceiling because sleep isnā€™t coming. Heā€™s in pain and he canā€™t stop thinking about Steve upstairs, and wonders if he ever falls apart when heā€™s on his own.
He has to, right? Steve has to be up there with sleepless nights and deep, aching wounds. He has to see Eddieā€™s lifeless eyes when he closes his own, has to remember the feeling of Eddieā€™s still heart beneath his fingertips.
It makes Eddie feel less alone down here to think Steve might be struggling, too. Even if Steve wonā€™t show anyone, least of all Eddie.
Sleep isnā€™t coming tonight, and Eddie finally feels okay enough to walk on his own, so he slides out of bed as carefully as he can. He makes his way down the hallway to the kitchen and he can see that the light is on. It usually is. The Harrington kitchen is always open for whoever needs it, Eddieā€™s learned that over the last two weeks.
Tonight, though, itā€™s not Robin or Nancy or any of the kids sitting at the counter. In fact, no one is sitting in the kitchen tonight, but thereā€™s leftover evidence of someone nearby. Thereā€™s a cup of coffee on the table, half drunk and probably cold by now, and the sliding door to the backyard is open.
Itā€™s April and Eddie feels a chilly breeze coming in. He wraps his arms around his bandaged torso and goes toward the door, toward the blue lights of the Harringtonā€™s heated pool. He smells cigarettes and itches for one before he even sees whoā€™s smoking.
He really hopes itā€™s not one of the kids. He doesnā€™t think heā€™d be able to reprimand them for that, not as tired as he is right now.
The patio is cold beneath his bare feet when he steps out, the breeze working its way through his thin pajama bottoms. He turns his head from left to right, looking for the culprit of the 2AM coffee and the cigarette smoke wafting toward him.
There, in one of the pool chairs, Steve is lying. He has one hand covering his eyes, the other slowly bringing a cigarette up to his lips. Eddie watches him take a drag, the rise and fall of his chest as he inhales and exhales again. He watches as Steveā€™s hand shakes as he brings the cigarette away from his mouth again.
Eddie knows he should turn and leave. This is a private moment, and Eddie feels like an intruder. Heā€™s felt like an intruder for the past two weeks, like he shouldnā€™t be here.
(He shouldnā€™t be, he reminds himself. He should be dead. He was dead.)
He knows he should turn and leave, but he canā€™t. He can only stare.
Steve isnā€™t wearing a shirt. Heā€™s covered in bandages just like Eddie. If Eddie wasnā€™t looking at him now, he would think Steve was completely healed already. Heā€™s looked nothing but put together for the past week. Carrying boxes of donated items and helping Eddie in and out of the bath, helping Eddie from bed to couch and back again. He hasnā€™t shown anyone any less than one hundred percent.
Right now, Eddie is seeing something Steve wouldnā€™t want him to see.
He canā€™t leave, though. Something is stopping him from leaving, something selfish is keeping him from turning around and going back to bed.
Seeing Steve like this ā€” vulnerable, sleepless, shaking ā€” makes Eddie feel less alone.
All heā€™s wanted his entire life is to feel less alone.
He just stands there. Watching as Steve finishes off the cigarette and stubs it out in the ashtray beside him. He watches as Steve sits up to look around for his pack and lighter, watches as he considers another and then sets it down and picks up a glass from the table instead.
As he sips, he finally looks over toward the house, and Eddie feels caught. He knows Steve sees him, even if neither of them react at all. He knows Steve probably thinks heā€™s a creep, the way Eddieā€™s watching him like this. Guilt washes over him. He isnā€™t supposed to watch Steve like this. He isnā€™t supposed to notice that heā€™s shirtless, he isnā€™t supposed to think about how he looks when he smokes.
He expects Steve to tell him to leave. He expects Steve to be mad.
But Steve just picks up a bottle of liquor from the ground beside him and waves it in Eddieā€™s direction.
ā€œGet a glass from the cupboard if you want,ā€ Steve says.
Eddie just stands there for a second, not knowing if this is a real invitation or if Steveā€™s just trying to be nice. Heā€™s felt like that a lot. Like being in Steveā€™s house isnā€™t what Steve really wants. Like Steve hopes Eddie will say no every time he asks if Eddie wants to watch a movie with him.
ā€œWell?ā€ Steve asks.
So Eddie nods and goes back into the warmth of the kitchen to find a glass. He takes one down from the cupboard and finds a sweatshirt laying over the back of one of the kitchen chairs. He doesnā€™t know who it belongs to at this point. Heā€™s seen everyone from Robin to Nancy to Lucas wear it in the last week. It hangs loose on him when he pulls it over his head, but itā€™s better than sitting outside shirtless like Steve currently is.
The ground is cold beneath his bare feet as he crosses the patio to the pool chairs. He looks at the one beside Steve and the thought of sitting there in the cold makes him shiver. Itā€™s so far from Steveā€™s chair and he canā€™t help but wonder if it would be weird to move it closer.
If itā€™s weird to want to share in Steveā€™s warmth.
ā€œHere,ā€ Steve says.
He saves Eddie from making the decision by pulling his feet up and pointing to the empty space of the pool lounger. Eddie sits down on the plastic slots, sitting perpendicular to Steve. Steve shoves his toes beneath Eddieā€™s thigh and offers the bottle of whiskey to him.
Eddie holds his glass out as Steve pours.
ā€œCanā€™t sleep?ā€ Steve asks.
Eddie hums in response and takes a sip of his drink. He wants to ask for a smoke, but doesnā€™t want to mooch. He hasnā€™t had one in over two weeks, not since Robin threw one into Loverā€™s Lake and the rest of his pack turned to mush when he fell in himself.
ā€œMe neither,ā€ Steve says. ā€œHavenā€™t in a while, really.ā€
ā€œCouldā€™ve fooled me,ā€ Eddie says.
Steve snorts.
ā€œNo, really,ā€ Eddie tells him. He decides fuck it, and reaches for the pack of smokes on the little glass table beside the chair. He sets his glass down on the ground by his cold feet and pulls a cigarette out. ā€œYouā€™re really, ah, good at this shit, I guess. Good at making it seem easy.ā€
Steve scoffs and leans forward, his lighter in hand. Eddie puts the cigarette in his mouth and cups his hands around it for Steve to light it. A memory flickers into his mind of dark hair and freckles, someone from another lifetime lighting his cigarette as a way of flirting with him.
With everything else she had to offer him, it had worked, and Eddieā€™s so exhausted his brain tricks him into thinking that Steve is flirting now, too. His sleepless mind is telling him it would work even better now, that he could make it work with Steve, better than he did with Paige.
ā€œItā€™s easy to pretend when everyone else is around,ā€ Steve says after a second. Heā€™s still leaning forward toward Eddie, his arms wrapped around his knees. ā€œWhen the kids need me, I have to be there for them, you know? They expect me to have it all figured out, and hell, I need to pretend like I do. But when Iā€™m aloneā€¦ā€
He trails off.
ā€œYeah,ā€ Eddie breathes.
They sit there in silence for a while. Eddie smokes his cigarette and Steve sips at his drink. Itā€™s cold out, but Eddie doesnā€™t want to go back inside. He wants to be where Steve is, wants to feel the point of contact where Steveā€™s toes are shoved under his leg. He doesnā€™t want to burst the bubble theyā€™ve found themselves in tonight.
It fills Eddie with warmth despite the cold.
ā€œI donā€™t think you should stay here anymore,ā€ Steve blurts out after several minutes of silence.
And the bubble shatters. All the warmth between them leaks out and Eddieā€™s left with nothing but the late night chill. He slides away, down to the end of the pool chair, away from Steveā€™s touch.
ā€œOh,ā€ is all he can say.
ā€œItā€™sā€¦ I mean,ā€ Steve says. He stumbles over his words, hands moving up to cover his face. ā€œI didnā€™t mean it like that.ā€
ā€œNo, itā€™s cool, man. You donā€™t want me here, anymore, I get it,ā€ Eddie says. He pretends it doesnā€™t hurt his heart to hear it. Heā€™s looking down at his hands, knowing heā€™ll start crying if he sees how Steveā€™s looking at him right now. ā€œWayne almost has a new place for us, anyway. I can stay with Henderson for a few days, no worries.ā€
ā€œNo, itā€™s ā€” itā€™s not that I donā€™t want you here,ā€ Steve says. ā€œI think, uh ā€” fuck, man. I want you here too much, I think?ā€
Eddie leans down to put his cigarette out on the concrete. He picks up his glass while heā€™s down there and brings it to his lips as he sits up again. He doesnā€™t know what Steveā€™s saying, or how to respond. Or, more like, he thinks he understands what Steveā€™s saying, but heā€™s so tired he doesnā€™t actually want to make a guess and be wrong about it, because thatā€™s very likely here.
He doesnā€™t want to think about the lighter or the way Steveā€™s touch lingers when he helps Eddie from his bed to the couch. It could never mean what Eddie wants it to mean, but now Eddie isnā€™t so sure it doesnā€™t.
ā€œYou gotta tell me what you mean,ā€ Eddie says softly, looking down into his glass.
ā€œItā€™s not just the monsters that keep me up at night,ā€ Steve says. ā€œItā€™s not just the nightmares or the fear that everyone I care about is going to die. Itā€™s not ā€” itā€™s not just Max in her coma, itā€™s not the chunks of flesh taken out of my skin, itā€™s ā€” god, all that seems easy sometimes. That all makes sense, as fucked up as that is. Iā€™ve been going through this shit for years, I can ā€” I mean, Iā€™ve handled it, and I still do, itā€™s justā€¦ā€
Eddie sits there listening to Steve. He lets the silence hang between them as he waits for Steve to continue. He doesnā€™t want to interrupt and ruin everything here by saying something stupid, or by jumping to conclusions based on his own wants and desires.
ā€œYou keep me up at night,ā€ Steve finally says. ā€œItā€™s ā€” fuck, Eddie, donā€™t get mad at me, or anything, okay? You keep me up at night because I canā€™t stop thinking about you. I canā€™t stop ā€” it doesnā€™t make sense, does it? Iā€™ve only been with girls, but this feels like that. This feels like ā€” like when I was crushing on Nancy, andā€¦ And now Iā€™m realizing maybe this isnā€™t the first time itā€™s been like this. Like, maybe Iā€™ve looked at other guys, andā€¦ā€
ā€œSteve,ā€ Eddie breathes. He turns to him, sees the open and vulnerable way Steve is looking back. ā€œIā€™m not gonna get mad at you for that.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s why you canā€™t stay here anymore,ā€ Steve says. ā€œBecause every time I see you naked when you need help in the bath, and every time I help you to the couch or the kitchen, I justā€¦ Never want to let go.ā€
ā€œChrist,ā€ Eddie breathes.
ā€œIā€™m sorry,ā€ Steve says. ā€œIā€™ve been taking advantage of this situation, and itā€™s wrong.ā€
ā€œWhat? No,ā€ Eddie says. ā€œNo, no, itā€™s ā€” Steve, you know Iā€™m gay, right? I have, like, no problem with guys looking at me.ā€
ā€œYou had sex with Nicole Summers at one of my parties in high school,ā€ Steve says. ā€œAnd I heard about Cass Finnegan, and you ā€” you had that girlfriend for a while, uhā€¦ Mark Warnerā€™s sister, right? I remember him talking about you at practice once.ā€
ā€œJesus, I didnā€™t know you had all my sexual experience cataloged, Harrington,ā€ Eddie huffs.
Itā€™s not like any of those girls were a secret. And Eddieā€™s pretty sure Carol had a hand in daring Nicole to sleep with him at that party. He knew everyone just wanted to see if the freak would get with a girl, and heā€™s pretty sure that night didnā€™t help the rumors of him being a fag. Itā€™s justā€¦ Surprising that Steve Harrington of all people would remember names and details like that.
ā€œItā€™sā€¦ I mean, word gets around,ā€ Steve offers, a bit sheepish.
ā€œThen you probably also know I barely touched Nic or Cass and barely got hard enough for anything to happen. God knows they told everyone.ā€
ā€œNo, Iā€¦ But Warnerā€™s sister?ā€
Eddie shrugs. ā€œShe offered me a way out of town. I thought that was love.ā€
ā€œHuh.ā€
Eddie pulls one leg up and turns on the chair so he can fully face Steve.
ā€œItā€™s okay that youā€™ve been having less than innocent thoughts about me, Harrington,ā€ Eddie tells him. ā€œEspecially considering Iā€™ve been looking at you.ā€
Saying it feels like a weight off Eddieā€™s chest. Heā€™s been living here in Steveā€™s house for two weeks, and heā€™s been crushing on Steve for even longer. Heā€™s had enough time to come to terms with being gay, but coming to terms with liking Steve has been an ongoing battle.
Steve Harrington has always been forbidden.
Too pretty for someone like Eddie. Too rich, too sporty, too straight. No one like Steve would ever like someone like Eddie, thatā€™s what heā€™s told himself.
Thatā€™s what he tells himself every time heā€™s caught Steveā€™s eyes lingering. Itā€™s what he tells himself when Steve offers to light his cigarette, or when he shoves his cold toes beneath Eddieā€™s thigh.
But knowing he doesnā€™t need to tell himself that anymore, knowing he was wrong, and that the lighter and the looks were all something more, knowing all of that ā€” itā€™s a weight off Eddieā€™s chest.
Knowing he wonā€™t get punched in the face and kicked out of Steveā€™s house for looking back, for wanting to touch, all of it eases something inside him.
It warms him despite the cold.
It makes him feel like heā€™s won the battle.
It makes him feel less alone.
Thatā€™s all heā€™s ever wanted.
ā€œEddie,ā€ Steve whispers.
Heā€™s leaning forward again, sliding his legs down so his knees are no longer pressed to his chest. Thereā€™s less empty space between the two of them now. The gap is becoming smaller and smaller.
As Eddie laid awake tonight, he thought Steve was upstairs in his own room, a staircase and rooms and hallways away from him. He thought Steve was so far away, up in a part of the house Eddie hasnā€™t yet ventured because he doesnā€™t think he could make it up the stairs on his own.
And he felt so goddamn alone.
But Steve was closer than that. He was just outside, sitting in a pool chair just outside Eddieā€™s window. He was so close, and now ā€” now heā€™s just inches away.
Heā€™s just inches away, and heā€™s been feeling the same things Eddieā€™s been feeling this whole time. Heā€™s been pining away, so scared of what Eddie would say about it, and Eddie, heā€™s been scared of what Steve might say if he knew, and it turns out ā€” it turns out Eddie hasnā€™t been alone at all.
ā€œSteve,ā€ Eddie whispers back.
One of Steveā€™s hands comes up to touch Eddieā€™s cheek. His thumb runs along the edge of the bandage on Eddieā€™s cheek, light as a feather. So gentle.
Eddie wants to kiss him. He thinks Steve might want that, too, but even with the admission of feelings, Eddie doesnā€™t think he can make the first move. Heā€™s never made the first move. He has to be prompted, has to be told, has to have it done for him because he just never knows. He never knows if itā€™s safe, when heā€™s right here on the precipice.
And with Steve, it matters. It matters that Eddie does this right and doesnā€™t take what isnā€™t freely given. He canā€™t just jump to any conclusions here. Steve may like him, but that doesnā€™t mean he wants to pursue anything with him.
Neither one of them move, and Eddie has the sinking feeling that Steve is thinking the same exact way. That whoever moves first is sealing some sort of deal that could either make or break this thing brewing between them.
ā€œWhatā€™re you thinking about?ā€ Steve asks.
Eddie shrugs. You, he wants to say. Always you. You keep me up at night, too. You make me feel less alone just by being here.
He doesnā€™t say any of that.
ā€œIā€™m tired,ā€ he says instead.
The hand on his face falls away, and then Steveā€™s gaze does too. He looks over toward the pool, away from Eddie. It was the wrong thing to say, Eddie knows that. He justā€¦ Canā€™t do this tonight. Not when his head is heavy with sleep deprivation and his heart is pounding with his inability to kiss Steve first.
ā€œOkay, yeah. Right,ā€ Steve says. ā€œItā€™s late.ā€
ā€œAnd cold,ā€ Eddie says.
ā€œAnd cold,ā€ Steve agrees.
Eddie picks up his glass and finishes it, probably too fast, but hopefully itā€™ll help him fall asleep. He watches as Steve gathers up his things and stands on unsteady feet. Eddie has to wonder how long heā€™s been sitting out here drinking. He has to wonder if Steve actually notices how cold it is out here.
Maybe itā€™s because it doesnā€™t compare to the Upside Down. Maybe this feels warm to Steve, the opposite of how Eddie feels these days. Like the cold seeped into Eddieā€™s skin and wonā€™t ever leave. Maybe this is a respite for Steve, a break from the frozen nightmares.
They make their way into the house, back into the warmth of the kitchen, back into the golden light in the house. Away from the blue outside. Their glasses get put in the sink, the bottle of whiskey gets left on the counter. Steve shoves his smokes and lighter back into the pockets of his pajama pants, and Eddie almost asks if he can have another for later, but he doesnā€™t.
He thinks about asking if they can watch a movie, just so they can be near each other for a little while longer.
Falling asleep on the couch with Steve a few feet away always feels safer. Like he can give in and doze for a little while.
Standing in the hallway just outside the kitchen, they pause and look at each other. They need to go in opposite directions, Steve back upstairs and Eddie down the hallway to his bedroom. Neither one of them move, and Eddie knows the moment isnā€™t over yet. Steveā€™s still looking at him like he was outside, like he wants to cup Eddieā€™s cheek again and pull him in this time.
He doesnā€™t want to leave Steve yet. Heā€™s so tired, but he knows he wonā€™t be able to sleep once he lays down, not if he lets this night end like this, without either of them making a move and sealing that deal.
ā€œCan we ā€”ā€ Eddie starts.
Just as Steve says, ā€œDo you ā€”ā€
They both fall silent.
ā€œGo ahead,ā€ Eddie says.
ā€œDo you want to come upstairs?ā€ Steve asks. ā€œJust ā€” I mean, to sleep, you know? It might be easier.ā€
ā€œJust to sleep?ā€ Eddie asks, an eyebrow raised.
ā€œI swear Iā€™ll be a perfect gentleman.ā€
Eddie laughs, something soft and quiet between them. He really likes Steve, and heā€™s not so scared of thinking about it anymore.
ā€œOkay,ā€ Eddie agrees.
ā€œYeah?ā€
Eddie nods, and Steve smiles, and Eddie thinks he might be falling in love, and that scares him, but not enough to try stopping it.
They take the stairs slowly. Eddie hasnā€™t done any stairs since getting out of the hospital, and he just started to move around the ground floor a bit more freely. He thinks heā€™s going to need a cane eventually, but for now he leans against Steve and lets himself be helped. Steveā€™s arm is warm around his waist, his body firm and strong against Eddieā€™s side.
By the time they make it to the top, Eddie needs to rest against the wall for a second so he can catch his breath. He feels a little lightheaded, has to close his eyes and breathe through it. Steveā€™s hand comes up to touch his neck, thumb pressing to his pulse.
Steve has to feel how fast Eddieā€™s heart is beating. Eddie wonders if heā€™s trying to cover up the memories of stillness. If heā€™s trying to replace them with proof that Eddieā€™s still here.
ā€œJust breathe,ā€ Steve whispers. ā€œYouā€™re okay. Take your time.ā€
Eddie nods. Takes another deep breath. ā€œIā€™m good.ā€
Steveā€™s bedroom isnā€™t too far from the top of the stairs, which is a relief. Eddieā€™s never been in there before, but it feels familiar,like he has. Sports trophies line the top of Steveā€™s dresser, posters of half-naked women and Steveā€™s favorite bands line the plaid walls, and the nail bat rests against his nightstand.
If Eddie werenā€™t so tired, he would take some time to look around at all the little pieces of Steveā€™s life, to see what kinds of things he can glean from the trinkets and posters and photos he has on display. But right now, all he can do is tug the sweatshirt over his head and fall into Steveā€™s bed.
He lands a bit uncomfortably, wincing as his wounds take the impact, but Steveā€™s there with gentle hands and a concerned look on his face, and Eddie forgets the pain for a second. Steve leans over him where he stands, one hand on Eddieā€™s chest, the other coming up to cup his cheek.
ā€œSteve,ā€ Eddie whispers. Pleads. Itā€™s a plea, the way he says it. He needs Steve to make this decision, to either lean in and kiss him, or not.
He canā€™t take it anymore.
And then Steve climbs into bed with him, pushing himself up on one elbow as he lays beside Eddie, and his other hand comes back up to Eddieā€™s face, and heā€™sā€”
Heā€™s leaning in, and Eddieā€™s lips part and his eyes fall shut, and he waits for the contact. He lays there on his back in Steve Harringtonā€™s bed and waits for the press of lips to his own.
A noise falls from his lips when it finally happens, something between a moan and a whimper. It surprises him when he hears it, but he canā€™t even be embarrassed because heā€™s so tired and because this is what heā€™s wanted for so long.
The kiss is gentle, almost hesitant. Like theyā€™re both too scared to push each other too hard. Like theyā€™re both too tired to turn this into anything more. The kiss is soft, but itā€™s full of everything Eddieā€™s never been allowed to have.
Steveā€™s lips press against his and heā€™s never felt like this before. Heā€™s never wanted to keep someone like this. None of the girls he fucked, none of the nameless guys in bars he kissed and let fuck him, none of it even compares.
He likes Steve, and he knows Steve likes him back. This isnā€™t a prelude to rough, dirty sex in a bar bathroom. This isnā€™t a dare at a party to see if the freak will put out. This isnā€™t him thinking heā€™s in love because someone offered him a ticket out of town.
This is different.
This kiss is from someone who gives him a reason to stay. Itā€™s from someone who wants to know him and hold him and make sure he gets enough sleep.
Steve Harrington is someone Eddie could love easily and freely. He thinks he might already be there, after just two weeks of Steveā€™s generous heart showing him what it means to have people care.
When Steve pulls away, he doesnā€™t go far. He keeps his hand on Eddieā€™s face, a soft thumb moving along the edge of the bandage on his cheek. His breath comes out in soft puffs against Eddieā€™s skin, close enough that Eddie feels it.
ā€œI know I said weā€™d just sleep, but I had to do that,ā€ Steve whispers, tilting his forehead to rest against Eddieā€™s.
Theyā€™re so close that Eddie can feel the heat between their bodies, the warmth in the space between them. He wants Steve even closer, to feel him against his skin, to hold him under the safety of the blankets.
ā€œItā€™s okay,ā€ Eddie laughs. ā€œI donā€™t mind.ā€
ā€œGood,ā€ Steve whispers. ā€œSoon as youā€™re better, I want to take you out.ā€
ā€œAre you asking me on a date, Harrington?ā€
ā€œI suppose I am.ā€
Eddie hums in thought, then presses another kiss to Steveā€™s lips. ā€œI accept your offer.ā€
Steve smiles, and Eddie canā€™t stop his own from forming.
They kiss a little more, but eventually sleep tugs at Eddie in a way that canā€™t be ignored. Heā€™s so exhausted, thereā€™s nothing left to hold onto, no thoughts racing through his head to keep him up.
As he starts to drift, he feels Steve roll him over, and the last thing he remembers is Steve pressing against his back and wrapping an arm around his waist.
Eddie sleeps better than he has in a few weeks. He still wakes before the sun, but he doesnā€™t have to lay there wondering if Steveā€™s struggling to sleep, too. He doesnā€™t have to lay there feeling cold and alone. Not when Steve whispers something unintelligible into Eddieā€™s neck and pulls him closer.
Not when Steveā€™s here to keep him warm ā€” to keep him safe.
Itā€™s easy to fall back asleep.
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"i'll be there for you" universe masterlist
pairing: bestfriend!roommate!steve harrington x fem!reader
word count: 3.2k words
warnings: explicit language, some mentions of alcohol, parent drama (both readerā€™s and steveā€™s parents suck)
summary: in which your parents and steveā€™s come over for dinnerĀ 
author's note:Ā this has absolutely nothing to do with the harry styles song but the title of it is just very fitting so yeah<33 iā€™ve been rewatching a lot of gilmore girls this fall season so i feel like that's helped me get the hang of writing awkward/tense dinners with family lol so this needed to be done
general note: everything in this universe/series can be read as standalone oneshots but to understand the full ā€œloreā€ it would prob be best to read the other stuff too<333
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Fall 1985
When your and Steveā€™s parents first suggested this ā€œearly Thanksgiving dinner,ā€ you thought that it wouldnā€™t actually happen.Ā 
The initial idea sounded pretty funny to youā€” your parents and Steveā€™s parents would have a full on dinner at your apartment a week before the actual holiday. Yeah, right.
It sounded like the kind of idea that parents that really cared about spending time with their children would have, and that wasnā€™t how youā€™d necessarily describe yours or Steveā€™s.Ā 
A month ago, when they told you about the ski trip the four of them were going on during the entire week of Thanksgiving, you expected to just not see them probably until Christmasā€” and that felt like a bit of relief to you because spending time with your parents wasnā€™t your favorite hobby.Ā Ā 
But then you remembered how, only during the holidays, your parents always had a need to show, or maybe more so ā€œproveā€ to themselves, that they actually cared about you. So, of course, they wouldnā€™t let this stupid holiday go, and instead they thought that it would be best if you all did something early and together.Ā 
And sadly, none of the immediate excuses that you and Steve came up with worked because your moms had solutions for everything.
When you told yours that the kitchen in the apartment was too small to cook for this kind of elaborate dinner, she simply told you that theyā€™d buy and bring all of the food and you and Steve wouldnā€™t have to cook at all. She also not-so-jokingly mentioned that she wouldā€™ve never trusted either of you two cooking anyway.
And when Steve told his mom that the current dining table you two had was way too small to fit all six of you, she promptly had one ordered and delivered to your door in just a week. It was an expensive dark wood set that could comfortably fit six people, and you and Steve spent hours struggling to build it the day it showed up at your front door. It took up an obscene amount of space, but it did actually look kind of nice.
Now it was weeks later and the dreaded night was finally here, but you still tried to come up with any way to avoid it from happening.Ā 
ā€œAnd weā€™re sure that we really canā€™t get out of doing this tonight?ā€ You asked Steve as you folded the blanket that was lying half-hazardly on the couch. ā€œI could call my mom and say that weā€™ve somehow fallen tragically ill in the last hour?ā€
ā€œIā€™m ninety-five percent sure that theyā€™re all already on their way.ā€
ā€œShit.ā€
ā€œItā€™ll be fine,ā€ Steve said, and then he considered his words. ā€œActually, it will probably suck, but overall, we will be fine.ā€Ā 
You let out a sigh and placed the now folded blanket back on the couch and then started cleaning off the coffee table, stacking the random magazines in a neat pile and then adjusting Haroldā€™s cage so that it was nicely in the center. Your and Steveā€™s shared pet hamster was currently nibbling on the food that you had put in his bowl only moments ago.Ā 
An abrupt feeling of worry shot through you as you looked around the apartment. The place was cleanā€” probably the cleanest it had ever beenā€” since you and Steve had spent the day doing everything to avoid either of your parents saying anything bad about the place. However, in the grand scheme of things, you knew that it didnā€™t matter because theyā€™d still hate the apartment. They would hate how you two decided to furnish and decorate it, and they would passive aggressively make fun of the place for however long this dinner would have to be.
ā€œLetā€™s try not to think about how bad this night is gonna be and just be glad that weā€™re not gonna have to suffer alone, like usual,ā€ Steve said, practically reading your mind and the look on your face, as he started setting plates out on the new table.Ā 
He was completely right. This was the first time that a collective Thanksgiving was happening among all of you. Usually, it was just you alone with your parents in Chicago visiting family members that you never talked to, and Steve was doing the same exact thing except he was in Indianapolis. Youā€™d always end up calling each other at the end of the night from the hotel or family house you were staying at, and youā€™d tell each other stories about whatever weird family members you encountered or how boring it all was.Ā 
It did make things feel a bit better that, for once, you didnā€™t have to go through this alone and neither did Steve.
ā€œYouā€™re right,ā€ You said with a nod and then smiled. ā€œWeā€™ll be going through this shitshow together.ā€
As if on cue, there was a knock at the door and since Steve was closer he went to answer it. You took one brief and final look around the apartment before heading toward the door too, so Steve didnā€™t have to be by himself in this greeting.
ā€œHi,ā€ He said when he opened the door and saw all of your parents standing there. There was a bright smile on his face and he effortlessly turned on that ā€œSteve Harrington charmā€ that people had adored in high schoolā€” you hadnā€™t even gone to the same high school as him, but you still heard so many of the stories.
A chorus of Hiā€™s and Helloā€™s were heard as your moms entered the apartment first since they were carrying all of the food and your dads followed in right behind them.
ā€œI still hate that you moved into a place that doesnā€™t have a front doorman, or, at least, a buzzer system,ā€ Were your dadā€™s first words to you; deciding against saying the simple ā€œHow are you?ā€ that you had expected. ā€œYou two should get a better lock on your door.ā€
You laughed a bit. ā€œWe live in Hawkins, not New York, Dad. I donā€™t think anyone is really itching to rob us anytime soon.ā€Ā 
ā€œAnything can happen,ā€ He responded, looking at you seriously. ā€œIā€™ll bring you a new one when we get back from Colorado.ā€
You only nodded at his words instead of saying anything to rebut them; you knew that he overall meant well. ā€œOkay.ā€
Your attention turned to your mom and she pulled you into a hug that felt way too forced before pulling away and giving you a quick onceover. ā€œOhā€¦ Is that what youā€™re wearing?ā€
You thought that your outfit was fine; a V-neck navy blue knit sweater that was a bit cropped and a simple pair of black jeans. But, your mom always managed to find something wrong with everything, so this reaction to your current outfit didnā€™t necessarily surprise you; it did still annoy you all the same, though.
ā€œOh, um, no I was just about to change,ā€ You told her and forced a small smile.
She nodded at that. ā€œOkay, thatā€™s good, thatā€™s good. You go change while Christine and I get the table set up.ā€
You started heading toward your room but looked back at Steve first. He was in a conversation with his parents that looked like they were doing much more of the talking than him. As if sensing your gaze on him, his eyes met yours and he gave you a hopeful look and that was enough to make you feel a little better.
It didnā€™t take long for you to change. You kept your sweater on but traded your jeans for the long black silk skirt that your mom had always liked on you. You hoped this slightly different outfit would be enough to satisfy her, and if not, you were willing to suffer through her inevitable look of disappointment.Ā 
You lingered in your room, tidying up your desk for no particular reason and then deciding to remake your bed. It was clear that you were stalling, avoiding having to face your parents again, and as much as you wanted to continue doing that, you also didnā€™t want to leave Steve to fend for himself. You were supposed to be suffering together, after all.Ā 
You immediately noticed the dining table when you walked out of your bedroom. The food was now nicely set out and there were even brown placemats sitting underneath the plates that Steve had already set out. It was all set up in a way that wouldā€™ve felt nice and wholesome if either of your families had ever remotely felt like the ones portrayed in most TV shows or movies. But, they werenā€™t anywhere close to being like that, so this all just felt weirdly forced.
Of course, you didnā€™t say that, though.
Instead, you sat down with everyone at the table and desperately hoped that the next few hours of your life would breeze by.Ā 
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ā€œFrom the brochure, the pictures of the cabin look really great. We hope it actually looks that way in person,ā€ Steveā€™s mom, Christine, said.Ā 
You took another bite of the mac and cheese on your plate as you continued to listen to your parents talk about their ski trip that was happening next week, which they had been doing for the last twenty minutes and you fully didnā€™t mind it. Since the conversation wasnā€™t centered on either you or Steve, things actually didnā€™t feel tense or nervewracking. If you could just make your parents talk about themselves during the entire dinner, you would probably end the night with a smile on your face.Ā 
ā€œOh, and there are a lot of bedrooms too,ā€ Your mom chimed in before taking another sip from the wine glass in her hand. ā€œMaybe you two could take a trip up there soon and invite your friends to go too.ā€Ā 
ā€œYeah, that would be nice,ā€ You said with a small nod.
ā€œEnough talking about the trip, though, thatā€™s probably so boring for your kids to hear about,ā€ Your dad said, and you internally sighed because you knew the exact direction the conversation was about to go in. You felt him look at you. ā€œHowā€™s school been going? The semester is almost over.ā€
ā€œItā€™s been good,ā€ You answered, keeping your response short and sweet. You decided not to mention that you really couldnā€™t care less about the majority of your classes because none of what you were doing in any of them felt like it really mattered.Ā 
ā€œOkay, and your grades and everything are fine, right?ā€
You only nodded in response to his question, hoping that your lack of actual words would signal to him that you wanted to bring an end to this topic of conversation. Of course, that was only wishful thinking.
ā€œThatā€™s good,ā€ Your mom said. ā€œYou have to make sure your grades stay like how they were in high school, or even better, for when you transfer to the University of Chicago. We donā€™t want to have any reason for them not to accept you again.ā€Ā 
You suddenly felt like you were right back in middle school and high school, where your conversations with your parents solely revolved around school; what your grades were, if you were doing your homework and completing assignments on time, and studying for tests. It always annoyed you that the only times they would bother to pay attention to you was when it came to that stuff. Other than that, you were always seemingly an afterthought, never a bigger priority than their jobs.Ā 
In a way, this entire conversation shouldā€™ve been expected; it was always inevitable. Pretty much anytime you talked to your parents in recent months, the discussion always seemed to circle its way back to that school and you going there in two years instead of right now, like they had wanted you to.
ā€œIā€™m still so surprised that you decided to not go to the University of Chicago now,ā€ Christine said and you turned your attention to her. It was starting to feel a bit painful to you that the subject still hadnā€™t changed yet. ā€œWhen Steve told me that you were going to go to the community college close by, I couldnā€™t believe it, honestly.ā€
You noticed your parents share a look upon hearing her words. The mix of disappointment and annoyance toward you that was shared between them in that moment felt palpable.Ā 
ā€œI didnā€™t think it was time to leave Indiana just yet. Iā€™ll be going soon, though,ā€ You said, keeping your voice light and plastering on a fake smile, even though all you wanted to do in that moment was leave the table and hideout in your bathroom for the rest of the night.Ā 
You saw your dad smile a little and then you also noticed the look of relief wash over your momā€™s face. For some stupid reason, you still felt the need to make them feel pleased with you. And somehow that made you feel even more upset with yourself than anything they had said to you so far tonight.Ā 
The only thing that managed to make things feel remotely tolerable right then was Steve sitting across from you, giving you a look that said, ā€œEverything will be okay.ā€ For the time being, you chose to believe him and you simply took another bite of your food.Ā 
You were about to say something about how good the turkey was so your moms would start talking about the restaurant they got all of the food from and why they chose itā€” you were sure that there was some story behind it allā€” and that would finally bring an end to the college conversation. But, before a word could leave your mouth, Steveā€™s dad began speaking.Ā 
ā€œWell, at least, youā€™re in college. We canā€™t say the same for Steve here.ā€ He then looked at his son. ā€œDo you really want to work at a video store for the rest of your life?ā€
Ā Christine let out a sigh. ā€œJeff.ā€
ā€œWhat?ā€ He shrugged as if his previous question wasnā€™t completely condescending. ā€œIā€™m just asking a question.ā€
ā€œIā€™m actually starting at the community college next semester,ā€ Steve told his parents and you tried to hide your immediate confusion. ā€œI found out I got in a few days ago.ā€
ā€œWell, thatā€™s great,ā€ Christine said happily, and Jeff smiled approvingly as well.Ā 
You had no idea Steve had gotten in or even applied, and you wondered if he was lying right then to just get his parents off his back, but you couldnā€™t tell. Something about the way he said it honestly felt pretty real. The only part that didnā€™t feel real was that you were finding out during this dumb dinner instead of at any other time.Ā 
ā€œSo, I was wondering,ā€ Your mom began and you braced yourself for the impact of whatever she was going to say. ā€œWhy did you two decide to get a hamster? I feel like it makes things smell a bit funny in hereā€¦ā€
A part of you was glad that the conversation finally shifted away from college. But you didnā€™t think that the passive aggressive comments toward the apartment would begin with Harold.Ā 
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ā€œWell, this night was fucking brutal.ā€
You let out a sigh. ā€œYou took the words right out of my mouth.ā€
Steve was doing the dishes as you put what was left of the food into tupperwares and then put them in the fridge. Surprisingly, it was a lot of stuff leftover; your moms definitely went overboard with the amount they had ordered. You and Steve already made plans to invite Robin and Eddie over tomorrow to have some of these leftovers.
ā€œIā€™m actually glad that the dessert tasted bad since it made them want to leave early.ā€
ā€œIt was honestly a bit bittersweet because I was kind of excited for that pie,ā€ You said as you placed the final tupperware of food into the fridge and then went over to Steve. ā€œOh, and also,ā€ You punched his arm and ignored his immediate ā€œouch.ā€ ā€œWhy the hell didnā€™t you tell me that the stars have finally managed to align and weā€™ll finally be going to the same school for the first time ever?ā€
He smiled a little at your dramatics. ā€œI didnā€™t wanna make a big deal out of it just in case I somehow didnā€™t end up getting in. I swear I was gonna tell you tomorrow.ā€
ā€œSo, you did all of that annoying application stuff by yourself?ā€
ā€œRobin helped me with it.ā€
ā€œI wouldā€™ve been happy to help you,ā€ You told him, and maybe you were being a bit overdramatic, but you actually felt slightly offended that he hadnā€™t wanted to come to you about this.Ā 
The possibility of you two going to the same middle or high school was a far out idea that never happened because you lived in different towns. But, it was still something that was adamantly and wistfully talked about by you and him; how much more fun both of your school lives could be if they intersected in that way like the other parts of your lives did.Ā 
Of course, going to the same college wouldā€™ve been the most obvious way for it to finally happen, but Steve never seemed that interested in going to college, and up until the last possible second you were being pushed toward Chicago by your parents.Ā 
But now things were finally different.
ā€œI know that you wouldā€™ve, but I didnā€™t want to talk about it to anyone, honestly. Robin saw me working on the application one day and decided to help,ā€ He explained and you only gave him a small nod in response. ā€œI didnā€™t even think Iā€™d tell my parents about it, but when I heard my dadā€™s dumb comment about Family Video I felt like I had to say it so he wouldnā€™t keep looking at me like a disappointment.ā€ He sighed. ā€œAnd itā€™s kinda fucked upā€¦ I really donā€™t wanna care what my parents think about me and what Iā€™m doing with my life, but I think there will always be a part of me that does.ā€
You thought back to your dadā€™s approving smile and your momā€™s relieved look when you reassured them that you still planned to go to the University of Chicago; how much you still wanted to make them feel at least a little proud of you even though you knew you shouldnā€™t.
ā€œMe too,ā€ You said softly.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m glad we probably wonā€™t have to see them again until Christmas.ā€
You sighed. ā€œApparently, my dad is gonna bring us a new lock for the door when they get back from their trip.ā€
ā€œOh,ā€ Steve said and then smiled at you when it looked like he thought of something. ā€œOkay, what are the odds that heā€™ll just send someone to put the new lock on the door instead of coming himself?ā€
You thought about it for a second. ā€œHonestly, Iā€™d say thereā€™s a pretty good chance that would happen. Heā€™ll probably be too busy with work after the trip to actually come and do it himself.ā€
ā€œOkay, letā€™s hope for that,ā€ He said as he finished washing the last plate and placed it on the drying rack. ā€œSo, since the dessert was a bust tonight, do you wanna go to the diner? Iā€™m sure Mary would never fuck up her apple pie. And then when we get back, we can finish that bottle of wine that our moms left.ā€
You smiled at his suggestion. ā€œYou have a brilliant mind, Harrington.ā€
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Masterlist 3!
Hereā€™s the third masterlist for all of my works! If you want to check out more of my work, hereā€™s the links for masterlist one and masterlist two Imagines marked * are smutty imagines! Imagines marked ` are requests! Imagines marked ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ are personal favorites!
IMAGINES
STRANGER THINGS small ~ jim hopper` dance with me ~ eddie munson ā­ starry night ~ steve harrington* (part five)Ā ā­ at the hip ~ steve harrington`Ā ā­ triple date ~ steve harrington (part six) ā­ the freak ~ steve harrington (part seven)Ā ā­ oblivious ~ eddie munson ā­ jason doesnā€™t know ~ eddie munson ā­ this is music ~ eddie munson` ā­
SUPERNATURAL strange human feelings ~ castiel` cleaning ~ dean winchester`
HANNIBAL into fiction` sob story ~ hannibal lecter
THE BOYS obsession ~ billy butcher*Ā ā­ herogasm ~ soldier boy* ā­ alone on christmas ~ billy butcher canā€™t get too close ~ billy butcherĀ ā­ change in a heartbeat ~ billy butcherĀ ā­ the bad room ~ homelander ā­
THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY life father ~ diego hargreeves` rescue mission ~ klaus hargreevesā€™Ā ā­
THE LAST OF US (HBO) friendly neighbors ~ joel millerĀ ā­ too sweet ~ joel miller
BARRY attraction ~ barry berkman` treat him better ~ barry berkman
AMERICAN HORROR STORY late night sins ~ xavier plympton (1984)*`
VICTORIOUS lost dog ~ tori vega` junker ~ beck oliver
HEMLOCK GROVE i donā€™t ever wanna see you with him ~ roman godfreyĀ ā­
THE VAMPIRE DIARIES roses are red ~ damon salvatore`Ā ā­
OUR FLAG MEANS DEATH captive ~ blackbeard/ed teach ā­
PEAKY BLINDERS moved on ~ thomas shelby
FUTURE MAN winner ~ josh futturman* ā­
GAME OF THRONES littlest lion ~ oberyn martell (part one) ā­ freedom ~ oberyn martell (part two)Ā ā­
THE WITCHER destiny ~ geralt of rivia
DOCTOR WHO looks of a princess ~ eleventh doctorĀ ā­
BRIDGERTON by the lake ~ benedict bridgerton
THE GENTLEMEN the assistant ~ raymond smith ā­
PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN spirit of nature ~ jack sparrow`
THE MAZE RUNNER iā€™ll keep you safe ~ newt`
MARVEL how things are now ~ marc spector and steven grant`Ā ā­ kneel ~ loki* the most wonderful time ~ bucky barnes fast ~ pietro maximoff ā­
1917 early morning ~ will schofield*`
THE UNBEARABLE WEIGHT OF MASSIVE TALENT happy birthday ~ javi gutierrezĀ ā­
FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDYā€™S i need someone older ~ william afton ā­ the ice cream girl ~ mike schmidt
SALTBURN new toy ~ felix catton ā­ partners ~ oliver quick ā­
THE SANTA CLAUSE santaā€™s sister-in-law ~ bernard the elf
8 MILE one of the guys ~ jimmy smith jr ā­
THE FALL GUY the space cowboy and the pa ~ tom ryder
A QUIET PLACE iā€™d find you in any life ~ eric ā­
GLADIATOR II betrothed ~ emperor geta ā­
PETE DAVIDSON your gift` favoritism`
HARRY STYLES the perfect tree a star in the making` sleepy head`
MACHINE GUN KELLY baby mama`Ā ā­ my queen*` getting your attention*` all the mistakes` not what it looks like` canā€™t keep doing this*`
EMINEM may the best artist win*` too close for comfort` ā­ when itā€™s wrong but it feels right` in the dressing room*` heā€™s acting different` we have to stop meeting like this` every inch*` letā€™s surprise the world` iā€™m sorry i let you down`
GOODGUYFITZ wake up call*`
CORPSE HUSBAND letting go` they forgot` ā­
ASHTON IRWIN home life` cover me*`
CONAN GRAY pushing`
MATTHEW LILLARD accidental drunk confessions`
JOHNNY KNOXVILLE feeling good*`
ALEX TURNER more than a song*` ā­
BO BURNHAM canā€™t handle this right now ā­ look at me*`
KRISTEN STEWART special customer`
TARON EGERTON he already has my approval ā­
ROBERT PATTINSON my favorite superhero
GERARD WAY good girl*`
GWILYM LEE history repeats itself`
RYAN GOSLING play date`
JOSEPH QUINN bad idea, right? ā­
RANBOO fluffy haired gamer boy`
JACOB ELORDI height advantage`
MOTLEY CRUE she is mine ~ mick mars`
CHRIS EVANS not used to normal` ā­
SWAGGERSOULS our next step`
JSCHLATT too far ā­ the hotel room*Ā ā­
JOHNNY DEPP just for us`
TRAVIS BARKER the parent trap`
SHIPS
family reunion ~ hermione granger x draco malfoy`
HEADCANONS
showing pedro pascal fan editsĀ ā­ sitting on jschlattā€™s lap ā­
NSFW ALPHABET
rook (jp capellette)*` eddie munson* ā­ billy butcher* ā­
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