#P5R Verse - What Lies Beneath Shibuya

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((Silly but oddly perfect idea for Hawkeye's (Jayden's codename) phantom thief abilities in the Metaverse:

Considering her main weapon is a long-range sniper rifle, she needs to position herself well above the battlefield in order to attempt at one-shoting the Shadows. The higher up she is, the greater chance the shot will work in Joker's and the others' favor. Some areas, especially when traversing through Mementos, don't provide a good terrain for this to work...

HOWEVER!!!

I think it'd work EVEN MORE if Jayden used Futaba's Persona, Necronomicon, as her nesting grounds. Futaba has a complete view of the battlefield, making it easy for Jayden to target their enemies. Also...I think it'd be funny watching this UFO flying above the field with Jayden riding on top of it heheheehe~))

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1. What is one word to shut them up?

5. List 3 fears; one “surface level” fear, one “repressed” fear, and one “deep dark” fear.

All three ladies

50 “Not so Nice” OC or FR Asks

"I think these particular questions can coincide with each other, depending on the person's own personal insecurities and...well, their own fears too." Jayden set aside the thermos making sure to keep the lid closed, and the contents scolding hot inside. "For me...I think a surface level fear pairs well with something someone could say to me if they want to keep me quiet. Something I know will..." She sighed.

"...if I'm...incompetent...or if I'm too softhearted...because in news, someone in my position requires to stay middle ground. We can't lean towards one side, but I know my other co-workers all have their own agenda. There's an audience the company must appeal to, and sometimes when I go into work I always get anxious whether or not they gossip about me since I'm a 'by the book' kind of reporter." Her foreigner status didn't play well into those concerns either. "As for the rest well...I've grown accustomed to hearing gunshots but I still flinch a little every time I hear them, even if I happen to be watching a movie."

And lastly...

"....I hope my father never returns..."

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"Ehhhh...I get antsy sometimes when th' police bring me in fer some petty shit I did. More times then not, I know how'ta handle their interrogations, but every now 'n then some of 'em rookies like ta pressure me by throwin' in a scare tactic. Pressin' legal charges or...even takin' me straight ta juvi." It pissed her off how it happened nearly every single time. "That's...not sumthin' or...somewhere I wanna end up, not cuz I don't WANT to go but..." Her nose flared upon exhaling a harsh breath.

"...man, I don't want ta leave my aunt behind. Think that's uhhhh...one'ov those fuckin' nasty fears that get ta me. My aunt's all I got now. I ratha' not let her down more, ya know?"

She hated this feeling of invulnerability. Others could read between the lines, dig further and find out all on their own how much Rin ended up a complete failure of a person. As a daughter. "...'right, now th' otha shit yer so curious 'bout knowin'. Guess I could say I get worried when my baby takes some damage from races, or if it's on th' spritz fer some reason. That jus' comes with ownin' yer ride, ya know. Speakin' of that though well...guess I'll admit, it's more than jus' adrenaline I'm feelin' wheneva' I get behind th' wheel."

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A genius. A prodigy. She was special.

It didn't even need to be vocally spoken. Anyone giving her that adoring and dazzling gaze, a tantalizing smile enamored by her mere presence, it all read the same. KC knew the signs after years of traveling, years worth of blinding lights snapping her portrait for yet another magazine cover. She achieved great accomplishments at such a young age, under the guidance of her parents' world-renown expertise. What more could she strive for now?

What could she do now?

She couldn't do anything!

She never believed to be some prestigious virtuoso, and since her parents always dote on her every need she couldn't stand on her own either. That's not the making of a genius, or any able-bodied teenager her age. Perhaps...that could be considered one of her most deepest fears. She can't hold her own ground, and quite frankly it appeared the situation would never change. This was her entire life.

No wonder her voice never returned. Would it ever come back? Did it exist in the first place? Years had passed now KC can't even remember how it sounded. Soft and smooth? Brash? Airy or light?

It's a horrible realization...

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((Random thought and musing of the week: what if Jayden's Persona IS her sniper rifle?! What if it attaches to the user and utilizes the user's body WHILE ALSO being its own entity? What if combining both parts of Jayden's self makes her feel all the more whole again? All the more her true self?))

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((I think I found a good placement in Royal's timeline to insert Jayden. She would be around at the start of the game but she doesn't make herself known, or she's not really seen in the background as of yet. You could hear her if you watch the TV in Leblanc, but it will never give you a name. It'd be more of a title at the start.

She starts appearing more in the foreground after Madarame's televised confession. At that point in the timeline, the change of heart phenomenon starts to gain more traction, meaning the media outlets in the area are ready to hop on this hot, new and potentially groundbreaking news. Jayden's company only assigns a few handful of reporters to research and conduct their own investigations into the matter, as they want to be THE NEWS PROGRAM to break ground on this story.

So you'll see a more detailed Jayden standing in line for the subway, wandering around the Underground Mall looking rather lost, and then at some point, she will come to visit Leblanc.

Once you do initiate a Confidant with her, you can find her hanging out near the diner by Central Street at night. She'll be available to rank up during the weekdays, since the diner is open rather late. The girl could pull several all-nighters there if they allowed her to stay.))

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That's easy for him to say.

A working adult life was vastly different from an average teenager's. They still held onto the taste of freedom, meanwhile most people entering the work force were forced to sacrifice their own precious free time and well-being for the sake of a company name. More responsibilities, more deadlines, more concerns, it was a never-ending cycle.

But it wasn't always like this. It never felt so physically and mentally draining back home, but since her transfer Jayden began experiencing the doomed dread whenever the weekday morning alarm bells loudly announced the start of her day. Work shouldn't be constraining. A job shouldn't be seen as forced labor.

Making a living should not involve surrendering one's individuality.

The drink had been abandoned long before Akira spoke up about his personal concerns. Jayden never bothered asking for a hot refill. Not this time. Not when her mind wandered frantically through several future scenarios involving the next day's workload, all of which seemed to end in the same, single thought. Her hand brushed the mug away, closer towards the teenage barista and out of her sight. Tired eyes drifted across the counter, taking in all the little trinkets and other stationary items decorating the cafe's interior. She should be going home soon. She needed some sleep for tomorrow's review meeting.

"...my career doesn't allow for us field reporters to take it easy..." Jayden closed her eyes, basking in the still silence that followed soon after. Yogen-Jaya seemed to be a quieter, calmer area. It must be nice living here. "It's something I'm used to though. I worked long hours back in the states, too. Coming over here..."

"...it feels no different."

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" You know, you gotta take it easy sometimes. "

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No, she will not be sending out a Father's Day text to her father.

She blocked and deleted his number years ago...

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who are you in this haunted house story ?

The Mother

You pour everything you have left into those you love. Desperately, frantically you try to fix what is broken, but the cracks spread faster than you can mend. If only you can hold everyone together, then things might just be okay! However, you only have two hands and all anyone seems to do is pull away. Everyone is different now, even you, and pretending not to see it isn’t making anything better. You see the signs of things going wrong, of what is but should not be, and you try to warn them. You love with every fiber of your being, but try as you might, you cannot make them understand. They don’t listen, no one ever listens.

The Eldest

Knowledge is your curse. You carry a burden heavier than anyone your age should even be able to conceptualize, let alone feel the ache and heft of. It weighs down your steps, deadens your eyes, depletes your faith. You know that the mistakes of adults are not without consequences, no matter how they pretend nothing went wrong at all. They see that you’re different now, but they don’t yet realize how much. They tell you comforting lies, not knowing that the truth is your only god now. Nothing will ever be okay again and you’re so very tired of pretending otherwise.

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When you get your soft, italicized "oh."

The Missed Opportunity

This one comes with a pang. It is the wrinkled brow of something unpleasant sinking in. They've left to find some new adventure. Or they've met someone else. And you have only just begun to understand their true importance to you. You watch them drift toward a future without you, and in that stark numbness of their absence, it hits you. Oh. Oh, you want them close. You hopelessly, selfishly want them all to yourself. You'll support them no matter what, but you don't want them to want a future that doesn't involve you. You want them to read the near-invisible signs of your love and decide to take a chance on you. You never want to say that you *used* to know each other. So what are you going to do?

The Unrelated Moment

You tend to be more preoccupied with practical things, to the point where you've been blinded to matters of the heart. Sure, you're close with this person. You like to be close with people. It is rewarding to know and be known in return. You leave realization no choice but to sneak up on you. They're not even in the room when it happens. Someone or something else spells it out for you, an observant friend's passing comment or a particular sentence you were reading in a book, and suddenly it hits you, what it all means. The person your feelings have been building themselves around. Oh. It's them. It's time. It's them and you, here and now, and you have to decide what to do at this crossroads. Luckily, you're practically-minded.

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"Alright, alright, I just need about ten minutes to finish the draft on this next article and I'll call it for the night."

She may need a moment to still her rapidly beating heart as well. His innocent prank did a number on her nerves.

"Okay, good! You stopped working! It's time to clock out. We ain't gettin' paid over time, Jayden. C'mon, pack it up and head on home."

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SEVEN DEADLY SINS

Bold those that apply to your muse:

Lust: desire for connection, pursuit of pleasure, emotional intelligence, obsessive, lovesick, one-night stand, seductive encounter, flirtatious conversation, erotic party, seductive attire, revealing clothing, passionate gaze, provocative makeup, sensual expressions, suggestive gestures, flirtatious smiles, lingerie, love letters, perfumes, provocative behavior, love poems, erotic art

Gluttony: indulgence in experiences, savoring moments, hospitality, generosity, hedonism, culinary expertise, wine tasting, excessive snacking, overloaded plates, excessive portions, bloated stomachs, messy eating, greasy fingers, full tables, indulgent spreads, overflowing cups, satisfied expressions, wine bottles, can't get enough, fast food wrappers

Envy: motivation, competitive spirit, strategic planning, observational skills, bitter, rivalry contest, envious gossip, resentment-filled argument, social media jealousy, furrowed brows, clenched jaws, side-eye looks, pursed lips, tense posture, whispering behind backs, crossed arms, gossip magazines, keeping up with the Joneses, the grass is always greener, feeling inadequate

Greed: resourcefulness, entrepreneurial spirit, negotiation, materialistic, aggressive investment, lavish spending spree, resource hoarding, get-rich-quick scheme, auction bidding war, property acquisition, piles of money, overflowing wallets, luxury items, locked safes, penny-pinching, rare collectibles, selfishness, unwillingness to share

Sloth: calmness, stress management, nonchalance, relaxation techniques, lethargic, apathetic, inactive, lazy weekend, binge-watching marathon, neglected chores, skipped workout, long nap, lounging on the couch, missed deadline, unkempt appearance, messy hair, pajamas, blankets, slippers, procrastination station, self-care routines

Pride: confidence, self-assurance, self-respect, dignity, public speaking, self-promotion, arrogant, conceited, egotistical, self-important, vain, boastful speech, puffed chest, raised chin, smug smiles, spotlight, tooting your own horn, showing off, refusing to admit mistakes, feeling entitled, personal branding, leadership development

Wrath: assertiveness, decisiveness, strength, intensity, boundary setting, courage, indignant, heated argument, road rage incident, physical altercation, angry outburst, clenched fists, glaring eyes, tense muscles, raised voices, reddened faces, aggressive gestures, stormy demeanor, intense frowns, destructive actions, broken objects, punching bag, out for blood, fists, simmering anger

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𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘 ?

Love as Tenderness

[ love as gentleness after a lifetime of cruelty ] when ocean vuong said "sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you've been ruined" and when pablo neruda said "like a jar you housed the infinite tenderness and the infinite oblivion shattered you like a jar" and when anais mitchell wrote "all I've ever known is how to hold my own, and now I wanna hold you, too”

Love as a Choice

[ love is beautiful because it's built deliberately ] when casey mcquinston wrote "that's the choice. I love him, with all that, because of all that, on purpose. I love him on purpose" and when jenny slate tweeted "I just want someone to grab my little face and scream on purpose, on purpose I am going to care about you" and when jodi picoult wrote "after fifteen years, love isn't just a feeling. it's a choice" and when the good place said "if soulmates do exist, they're not found they're made"

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Fear

Mask

Midnight

I forgot which one I'm interacting with so why not all three? ; 3

oc asks: not-so-nice edition

fear: What is your OC's greatest fear? What do they do when confronted with it? Are they open with their fear, or do they hide it away?

((She's very afraid of speaking out. The times she's ever tried standing her own ground by voicing her opinions, she's been shot down by her parents intervening and speaking for her. If she disagrees with a choice made by her parents, they reassure her its the best choice for KC's interests. If she pursues the topic or decision further, she's told to keep quiet and not make a scene. She's had very little moments where she could freely speak about what's on her mind, how she feels about a situation or problem, or even saying what kinds of food she prefers eating.

This is what initially turned her away from speaking at all, and why she has selective mutism now in her teenage years. At this point, KC wonders if she even has a physical voice anymore. She's too nervous and scared to find out on her own.))

mask: Does your OC wear a mask, literally or figuratively? What goes on beneath it? Is there anyone in their life who gets to see who they are under the mask?

((Jayden has to, everyday. She has one to wear around her co-workers, she has to put one on when she's working with other news companies, and of course she needs to wear one when she's reporting live in front of the cameras. There's too many she needs to juggle all in a single day, but she's learned well how to keep the act going. It's been like that for years now. She's built a craft out of it. It's been practiced enough where switching between her masks doesn't make her feel much of anything.

But it's tiring, and she knows it too well. Appearances and pleasantries, however, are necessary in her career field. When you're a well-known face to thousands of people, all of them looking at you and waiting to hear what you have to say, you need to please them. They don't want to hear the truth. They want to know what's best for them. Yet despite knowing this, Jayden always tries her best to speak the real truth. No lies, no cover-ups, but she knows she has to say whatever nonsense will rake in the ratings.

It's a mess, and Jayden knows it too well. But she continues to strive towards bettering her workplace, and keeping the viewers informed about local news stories. None one really knows the true, broken, damaged Jayden other than her mother, though. Jayden's mom is the only person who knows the real Jayden.))

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

((Most nightmares Rin has involves her parents and the night of the car crash. They're reoccurring at this point, she almost expects to have those dreams again whenever she sleeps. Then again, Rin doesn't get sleep too much to begin with. Most nights she's out driving around the Inaba mountainside, winding down curved roadways and racing against any out-of-town racing groups.

That's her usual nights, and they last sometimes until early morning. She doesn't care too much about getting enough sleep if it means more time driving in her racing car. The asphalt is a comfort for her, in an ironic and twisted sense. When she's flying down the road, the adrenaline gets rid of all those anxieties or fears that plague her during the day. Behind the wheel, she doesn't need to think about any of that. It's just her, her car, the street, and nothing else.))

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mistake, for everyone on the blog <:

oc asks: not-so-nice edition

mistake: What's the worst mistake your OC ever made? What led to them making it? Have they been able to fix it? How have they moved on?

((Rin shouldn't have argued with her parents the night they died. Not only was it distracting to them both, but Rin's last words to her parents were very vitriolic in nature. It was a one-sided, selfish argument, and as she looked back on it years later she realized they were only saying these things to her out of genuine concern. They only wanted the best for her, to be safe and pursue a passion which wouldn't lead her into anything potentially dangerous.

But those fleeting moments where both her parents took their eyes off the road were the last moments Rin ever had to try atoning for her actions. Little Rin was too heated in the moment thinking her parents were going against her own desires. Before Rin realized everything she said and the actions following the impact of the other car, her parents were gone. She couldn't apologize to them for her stupidity, and she'll never get that chance. Rin killed her parents, and it's made her hate herself since that day.))

((The one time KC decided to schedule an interview on her own accord nearly cost the girl's own safety and her family's reputation. It was one of those undercover, hot gossip reporters disguised as a newspaper group. They baited KC into revealing some private information concerning her family's heritage, along with KC's own background. They told her it was for an upcoming show centered around young celebrities and how they came to fame. It would be a feature in their newspaper too, for other young people to read. She was more than happy to provide and tell her story, but in the end the entire interview was used against her.

The family found out via breaking news, and in published magazine articles. They confronted KC about the situation but KC never suspected them to be these kinds of horrible people. From then on, KC wasn't allowed much freedom to roam around public concert halls after their performances, nor could she wander off without a bodyguard by her side.))

((There's been...a handful of mistakes Jayden has made which cost her a lot of horrible consequences, mostly done by her awful, abusive father.

Back when she was still a little kid and attending middle school, she skipped one day because she couldn't bare to get out of her own bed. Her mom was the only one to know about it, and she even called the school that day to say Jayden came down with a cold. Instead of her mom going to work, she stayed with Jayden the whole day. It was nice having a quiet house with just the two of them. No yelling, no screaming, no distant shouting or sounds of things being broken. It was peaceful for once.

But once dad came back home, it turned violent. The school called him, as well, to notify him that his daughter hadn't come into school that day. You can imagine the kind of consequences Jayden received from skimping out on school. On top of the usual verbal abuse, her father grew more physically violent against her. Hair pulling, slapping her face, roughhousing her, all to teach her lesson to never lie about something so serious and to never lie to higher authorities either.))

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What emotion are you?

Guilt

Your guilt gnaws at you like a cancer, slowly destroying you from the inside. It is a constant reminder of the mistakes you have made, of the people you have hurt, of the opportunities you have wasted. You deserve to suffer for what you have done, and the only way you can atone is by punishing yourself, by making yourself suffer. You want to torture yourself, knowing you let everything happen, and your pentinence will eat you whole. It is a small price to pay for the pain you have caused others, but do you truly deserve it?

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how are you color coded?

YELLOW CODED

Yellow, a study in wildfires, honeycombs, and summer rain. Everyone sees you smiling and laughing, happy in all the ways but the way that you know is true to you. Everyone believes that nothing bad could happen to you, that you live life so freely that you'd never miss a beat, even if something bad DID happen to happen around or to you. But you're as miserable as the rest of them. You might be warm and gentle, when you need to be, but at the end of the day, you have long since accepted that fire is like you: best to be admired but never touched.

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CHARACTER AESTHETIC — BOLD /ITALICS WHAT APPLIES & REPOST

SOUNDS.

tinkling of piano keys / the click of a lock / an engine starting, stalling / sinful whispers / stifled sobbing / the rattle of death / alarm blaring / a siren call / spanish guitar strumming / loud laughter at midnight / banshee screeching / drunk hiccuping / the giggle of a child / rolling thunder / disdainful chuckling / bones creaking / carefree whistling / singing off key / flesh hitting concrete / white noise / a mirror cracking / laboured breathing / a groan of pain / waves lapping at the shore / the roar of a lion / pages turning / swords clashing / deep humming / birds chirping / dial tone / tongue popping / fingers tapping a surface / crystals breaking / music turned up to the limit / raindrops on a roof / angry yelling / yawning at noon / horns going off / ravens talking / bubblegum bursting / splashing water / teakettle squeal / militia drums / wolves howling / slow, sarcastic clapping / soprano notes / whispering pleas / gregorian chants / mournful cries

VISUALS.

filled notebooks / dogeared books / clean shaves / empty stares / sleeping at a desk / the witching hour / driving all night / restless tides / broken windows / coffee any time / freshly baked goods / bonfires / lounging felines / circles under your eyes / bedhead / tangling in the sheets / leather jackets / paint stains / music sheets / too many tabs to find the music / weary brows / card games / messy ponytails / strained smiles / unsent texts / heart on your sleeve / slow dancing in the rain / star gazing / torn jeans / piles of clothes / filled bookshelves / hurricanes / chapped lips / cliff diving / the lights in venice / stolen kisses / poet shirts / half melted candles / empty coffee mugs / hot tea / unlaced boots / shameless flirting / too young to be so old / laced fingers / eyes in the trees / bloody knuckles / french letters / neon lights / ivy covered balconies

SCENTS.

burnt leaves / turkish coffee / spiced rum / moss / vanilla beans / freshly cut grass / decay / sea salt / strawberries and cream / cinnamon / honey / copper / pineapple / wet dog / pine needles / wood shavings / rainsoaked bark / something sharp, indefinable / Russian tea / dandelions / squeezed limes / Italian wine / freshly laundered clothes / coming rain / hardtack and gruel / roasting flesh / something cloying in the chest / ichor / lillies in spring / pollen / damp clothes / meatpies / greasy coins / curdled milk / leather / bone marrow / wet cement / ricecakes / open paint cans / cocoa leaves / tar / apples / sandlewood cologne / orchids / molded onions / cheap perfume / mistletoe / rubber on fire / grave dirt / old books / new books / melting plastic / roses / poison oak / seacucumbers / peppermint handcream

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