#Other times he only finds it in the children's section which he can't say he necessarily is much of a fan of outside of fun slippers

[muu-kun]

Muu Masterpost: Fashion & Aesthetic mini blurb

I'm not going to get into heavy specifics over his preferences for style across the years in this post, but instead will only being honing in on the most recent development. One built strictly on the strategy of appearing taller, therefore older and more desirable in his mind.

Being scraping by the barrel allowing him to be considered 5ft4 (though if we are going into specifics, he falls at 5ft3 and 3/4 quarters), he's not really one to stand out as the largest man in the room by any means. A trait not at aided by his almost left in time youthful appearance directly caused by the only just recently diagnosed Kallmann Syndrome.

As of yet, he has no desire whatsoever to utilize testosterone as a means of assisting him in appearing more like his age appropriate peers, and is instead opting more for the aesthetic of appearing larger since he's not anticipated to grow on hormone treatments as is anyways. That and he so greatly admires his jovial androgyny regardless of how well it fares amongst those around him.

The method of choice to achieve such a resemblance has been none other than to begin predominantly wearing three specific pieces alongside each other for the time being, and to elevate it from there over time. Those pieces are none other than very specific shirts with long, oversized bell sleeves at their ends to hide his hands, making indiscernible where his hand ends, and where the remainder of the sleeve begins; as well as high waisted, preferably slim legged pants, and vegan only platform boots. Namely those marketed by Doc Martens due to being very uneducated on what other options are out there for him to utilize. Examples of what all of those appear when paired entirely with one another is illustrated below.

[abbyfmc]

Yandere Emperor! x Opera Artist! Reader Headcanons:

Warning: This section is a continuation of the previous one, so you have to read the other one to understand this one.

Topics to talk about: Mention of kidnapping, abuse, murder, obsessive and yandere behavior, manipulation, and anything involving yandere behavior. Also, as I said before, I am NOT describing any Asian emperor in particular, so I have created my own; Not to mention that I have used the Chinese imperial harem system as a base, as well as the forbidden city itself. I will name (Y/n)'s children, so I warn you that I am not describing any prince or princess in particular.

Enjoy it!

1. Yan Li knew that because of having such fast promotions the concubines were mostly jealous of you, so to prevent any attacks, he kept an eye on every corner you went to.

2. He also watched over the princes and princesses he had with you, who were the following:

-The third prince, Li Chen (your first child). -The sixth prince, Li Song (your second child). -The eighth prince, Yong Li (your third child). -The ninth prince, Li Yon'er (your fourth child). -The tenth princess, Yan'rong (your fifth child). -The fifteenth princess, Hua Li (your sixth child).

3. Your children also suffered from palace intrigues, so you had to protect each one of them tooth and nail. Yan Li saw this and decided to severely punish any concubine or consort who dares to harm you or your children.

4. To protect (and harass) you, Yan Li selected a specific group of servants for your palace, among them is the one who became your "right hand", a servant in charge of cleaning, named Yuhou.

5. Zhou, meanwhile, was devastated to learn that you were kidnapped by Yan Li in a golden cage, so he tried to enter the palace and enlist in the imperial army, which he succeeded after a few years. If he can't rescue you, he would at least watch over you from the shadows.

6. One day, when you were in the middle of your third pregnancy, you were walking with your maids when they saw each other. One of your maids, Lili (yes, your old friend), noticed this. He was shocked to see you not only dressed as one of Yan Li's consorts (at that time you were still a consort), but he felt her heart break at the sight of you pregnant. You felt like running towards each other, but you loved your children too much to challenge Yan Li like this.

7. --He… forced you?-- Zhou asked after remaining silent in surprise. You could only nod at that moment.

8. --Yes, isn't it obvious?-- You answered and left, being very devastated just like him, not knowing that Yan Li himself was watching them, angry and jealous.

9. Yan Li made sure you would never see your loved one again, taking him out of the forbidden city on super difficult military missions, basically sending him to die multiple times on purpose.

10. You suspected that Yan Li would find out sooner or later, so you purposely avoided meeting or talking about Zhou, no matter how sad it made you. You didn't even mention it to your children.

11. The few times Zhou was in the forbidden city, Yan Li tried to set traps for you to see how far you would go or whether you would be unfaithful to him, and the best thing you did in hoste traps was… stay in your palace and quietly go on with your life. , which Yan Li did not expect.

12. Yan Li has never hurt you physically, rather he threatened or manipulated you, followed by controlling how long you could sing and dance (like when you did before) or not, which discouraged you a lot. He only allowed you to do it for him.

13. I forgot to say that Lili entered the Mese Palace after you were kidnapped, but Yan Li wanted to make sure that she didn't help you escape, so he sent her first to work in the laundry house, the embroidery department, the flower department and gardening and finally in the workhouse where Lili had some acquaintances, both good and bad, and endured a lot of work and humiliation.

14. Each time Yan Li locked you more and more to himself, with the excuse that it was to take care of you, but he only wanted to control you.

15. Yan Li even had every gift that came to you or your children checked. He also appreciated any gift you gave him.

16. You watched your eldest children grow up, marry, and leave your palace for their own princely mansions, one after one. Li Chen was the first of all of them.

17. After you gave birth to Hua Li, you were unable to have children again, but Yan Li didn't care about this and still forced you to stay with him every night he could, now threatening to harm Zhou if you didn't comply with his whims. and you gave yourself to him.

18. Yan Li forced you to spend time with him, and not only at night but also visiting you in your palace, taking walks with him (sometimes with the Empress Dowager as extra company) and even accompanying him on trips and festivals.

19. Speaking of the Empress Dowager, she quite likes you and Yan Li is glad that you get along with her since… well, she's his mother. She is the only person who forgives you for spending a lot of time with her aside from your children and harem problems; He likes that you get along with the highest ranking woman in the empire.

20. Yan Li really likes your son, Li Chen, so much so that he secretly made him his heir to the throne; so neither you nor Li Chen himself knows.

21. In the event that any of your children or one of his consorts helped you escape, Yan Li would banish them from the forbidden city and condemn you to house arrest.

22. During festivals, he would control even who can talk and who can't talk to you. Among the people who can't even get close to you would be your beloved Zhou.

23. A drunk minister once insulted you, and as a result, Yan Li burned his tongue.

24. Yan Li is the one who had all your crowns made to your liking, demonstrating the deep love (or rather, obsession) he had for you.

25. Sometimes during the nights you were forced to give him back massages after a stressful day, and on other nights he would do this with you.

26. The servants even had to be careful not to bump into you, because depending on Yan Li's mood… he may simply punish them, or kill them.

27. As time went by, you became a grandmother thanks to your prince's children, but you couldn't always see your grandchildren since Yan Li liked to keep you prisoner in the forbidden city.

28. Every time Yan Li goes to bathe in his own private hot spring lake, he forces you to bathe with him, even if you don't want to. Likewise, if he knows that you are bathing alone in said waters, he will bathe with you even if you don't want to and he will make you be close to him.

29. He makes sure that every birthday of yours is fantastic.

30. Every time he got sick, he asked you to take care of him. Conversely, every time you got sick he took care of you and by doing so I mean not only getting you the best medicines, but also watching over everything that your maids or the imperial doctor do.

31. The Empress Dowager became ill over the years due to old age, and when she died, you were very sad since she was somehow the closest thing to a mother to you. Your princesses also mourned her a lot, not to mention Yan Li himself. Due to the close relationship Yan Li had with his mother, he was devastated and declared three years of mourning; It was the only time you felt truly sorry for him.

32. Yan Li has given the order that if something happens in the palace or during a trip, they must save you and your children first, since he does not want to see you hurt, injured or in the worst case scenario… dead. That is a nightmare and a terror that has haunted him day after day since he met you, which is why he believes that he is protecting you but in reality he manipulates you, locks you up and isolates you from the world.

33. He admired how you managed the imperial harem and all the internal servant departments with an iron fist, even if he didn't tell you directly.

34. The only excuse Yan Li accepts for you not wanting to sleep with him is if you or one of your children is sick.

35. The only visits Yan Li allowed to you were from your eldest children, either alone or with their wives and children. I don't know if I mentioned it before, but Yan Li noticed the pressure your parents were putting on you, so he sent his guards to "talk nice" to them, and from then on they stopped bothering you.

36. Yan Li saw you meeting Zhou secretly, which made him angry, so that night he threatened you that if you didn't say goodbye, he would kill him in a cruel and painful way. The next day she made you say goodbye to your loved one and then took him out of the forbidden city so that one of his guards would cut his neck, killing him quickly and throwing him into a mass grave. Needless to say, you really hated Yan Li again after that.

37. As the years went by, Yan Li became sicker and sicker, mostly from stress, which you took advantage of to start getting revenge on him, poisoning him.

38. His health deteriorated more and more, until on his final day, when he was dying, you dismissed all his servants from his main hall and then confessed to him. Yan Li was very angry and felt very betrayed, but he could do nothing but listen until he died at the hands of the person he loved so much.

39. During Yan Li's funeral, you pretended to cry, not knowing that your real happy days began from that moment. Yan Li's trusted eunuch read the emperor's will, which stated that Li Chen would be the new emperor, and you would be the empress dowager. Long story short, your son ascended the throne, reshaped your living conditions, and the other consorts became "widow consorts." You no longer had to worry about anything, you would just live in peace from now on, taking care of your daughters until they grow up.

40. However, Yan Li was waiting for you in the other world. He has told you years before he died that even if he passes away first, he will be waiting for you in the next life where he will find you and make you his again.

-Fin. So, what do you think about this part two?

[sinsmockingbird]

Aight, dis the (F!)MC family with (Yandere!)Yukong request (more like a ramble I guess which you can feel free to adapt to a request/fic as you want) :3

What do you think their children would look like? They'd probably have floofy hairs/tails like Yukong (Foxian/Kitsune genetics I've always thought are probs very strong), and they'd probably grow up very spoiled, by Qingni, who'd I'd imagine would be a great older sister, and by the Astral Express whenever they visit.

I can't help but feel like there'd be some friction there between Yukong and the crew, since the crew might feel something is off about Yukong being overly protective, alongside with Stelle's sudden decision to stay on the Luofu, and Yukong is afraid they might try to take Stelle with them.

I also wonder how Qingni would react to the whole situation in the first place. While she'd probably be very happy to see her mother happy, and to have younger siblings, she might also find Stelle's sudden decision to stay a bit weird (not that'd she'd comment on it).

If Stelle and Qingni grow close during Stelle's stay on the Luofu, I could totally see Yukong using that to further try to convince Stelle to stay, pointing out how they make such a lovely family the three of them together. Something along the lines of, It'd be a shame to throw it all away to go explore, and maybe never get to come back to see them. Who knows, maybe we could give Qingni some younger siblings? She did always want some as a child. Surely it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world if you somehow ended up pregnant, right?

Sorry for the mess of ideas that this was oeidfvgjherhfgu I had a lot of thoughts after the fic that you made (which I may or may not have read lots of times already). Please feel free to only adapt parts of it/segment it, I can always send other requests in the future with the other sections if they don't mesh well together/get too long if you don't mind.

"PROTECTING" PT.2 | Yukong

PAIRING: Yukong x Afab!Reader

WARNINGS: Fluff, SFW, Slight NSFW, Yandere!Yukong, Manipulation, Alludes to smut & breeding.

AUTHORS NOTE: I love these little rambles and ideas. I tried to include as many of these as possible, and I'd love to hear any more ideas you have!

WHEN YOUR daughter was first born, she was a perfect mix of you and Yukong, with a fluffy tail and ears being the prominent foxian genes in her. She was immediately spoiled and loved by not only you two but the Astral Express as well. She was quickly welcomed into the family, dotted on by someone almost 24/7.

Welt was quickly deemed her Godfather, and was seen as her grandpa considering the fatherly relationship he had with you. Himeko was her Godmother, and she honestly almost cried when you asked her if she'd like to.

Dan Heng was surprisingly protective over her, despite not really knowing... how to treat her, yet he wouldn't dare let someone harm her, like a protective older brother. March 7th was, as expected, absolutely in love with her, declaring her the cool aunt who buys her so much toys, stuffies, clothes- you name it, March will get it.

Qingni was... interesting. She absolutely loved her little sister when she was born, always quick to care and play with her when she got the chance. She'd do anything for her, spoiling her with all sorts of things just like March.

Yet, despite being happy to have a little sister, Qingni couldn't help the weird feeling she had in her chest. Your sudden decision to stay on the Luofu was certainly... sudden, to say the least, and especially how quickly your relationship with her mother grew. While she was happy for Yukong to have found someone to love, she just found it all weird, but she didn't comment on anything, rather just enjoying the fact she has a younger sibling.

Plus, Qingni found herself getting close to you as well. She was really beginning to see you as another mother, despite not calling you mom yet. Which you didn't mind, you were simply happy to have a good relationship with her.

"You and Qingni seem to be getting along fine." Yukong mused as she moved to hug you from behind, nuzzling her face into your neck.

You laugh softly at her affectionate actions, watching as Qingni entertained her baby sister. "I'd like to think so."

"Trust me, she likes you." Yukong reassured, pressing a gentle kiss against your temple before laying her head on your shoulder. "We make quite a lovely family, don't we? Us four."

You thought for a moment, watching as Qingni stopped her sister from chewing on her tail. "Yeah... yeah we do."

Yukong lifted her head, eyeing you for a moment, seeing the way your eyebrows were furrowed together, sensing that something wasn't right. "Is there something wrong, my love?"

"Hm?" You look at her, before quickly shaking your head, then pausing as you thought for a moment. "Nothings wrong, perse... sorry, I'm just having thoughts about missing the Astral Express."

That made worry strike Yukong like a strike of lightning hitting a tree. It wasn't uncommon for you to find yourself having thoughts of the Astral Express crew as well as missing that adventure with them. It scared the old foxian like no other, because she's tried everything to get you to stay here on the Xianzhou with her.

Her ears pulled back against her head, tail swishing back and forth more behind her. She held a hard look on her face when you looked back to gaze at your daughter and Qingni, and Yukong realized what she had to do again to ensure you would stay here with her.

You let out a sudden gasp as you felt Yukong press her front flush against your back, pressing you against the counter you were both standing behind. You quickly gripped the edge of it, eyes widening and face flushing as you felt her press her face into your neck, inhaling your scent while kissing and nipping at your skin.

"Y-Yukong, the girls!" You quickly whispered it with panic, eyes wide as you watched your guys daughters, praying they didn't look over to see one of their mothers pressed so intimately against the other.

"We're fine, they're too distracted by one another," Yukong reassured, her voice low and sultry as she kissed your neck more.

You whimpered softly, before biting your lip to hold back your sounds, not wanting to alert Qingni. You bowed your head slightly, breathing heavy as you felt Yukong grinding her hips against you from behind, letting you feel her growing bulge under her clothes. Her sudden need for you caught you off guard, but you definitely weren't complaining.

"My love, let's go to our room. The girls will be alright by themselves for an hour or so," Yukong murmured, moving to suck on your ear lobe, nibbling on it and making your face flush more.

"J-Just an hour..?" You ask, tilting your head slightly back towards her.

"Just an hour," Yukong repeated, but she had other plans. She was going to keep you locked in your room for however long she wanted, thoroughly breeding you again.

Because there's no way you'd leave the Xianzhou, leave her, if you have a second, maybe third or forth child, right? You wouldn't dare do that to her.

She was going to make sure you'd never leaver.

ENDING NOTES: Sorry this is short! I wanted to keep this part mostly SFW. But I'll maybe do a part 3 if it's asked for.

[kampfhundin]

REALISTIC RELATIONSHIP WITH CANON SIMON "GHOST" RILEY

part two.

Okay, the second part is because I see fit and no one is going to tell me not to.

Let me say right away - this is not the only correct opinion, but I find it useful to share this with people (Since I grew up in a military environment, since my godfather is a military man who has been through several hot spots, since I am one of the managers of a military-related club, and since my ex is a military man, I am quite immersed in the daily life of such families, so heck yes, I will use my experience.)

Again, this is not a one-size-fits-all mechanism that works for every soldier, but nonetheless. I also don't take into account the different traits of different people, the human factor and other variables. I just give you the basic structure.

Here we go.

The Army is not the "Green Pines" children's camp with cheerful starts and fun contests. It's not a place where people chill out and enjoy a vacation, and it's certainly not the best place to spend your youth. The army is discipline, and often discipline that breaks you down. There's a good joke in Russia "In the army we roll cubes and carry spheres." And when you are bent and broken for a very long time, you yourself begin to bend and break those who surround you outside the barracks. It's not uncommon for soldiers to bring their Army experiences into their daily lives, even if it's just in small ways. Like, making their bed a certain way, getting up at 6 a.m. sharp, cooking something according to the recipe from the army canteen, getting ready quickly and efficiently, and so on.

The army is not a section in the biography, but a real lifestyle, which few people can change from the outside, no matter if it's your beloved one or not.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means rarely seeing each other.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he can't just run to you simply because he wants to, or because you want him to.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means spending most holidays and important events apart.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means settling for rare weekends of 1-2 days at best, and as few vacations as possible (if you're in a relationship before marriage).

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means visiting him on the bases that military spouses are allowed to visit (if you're post-marital).

This is probably the favorite trope of all fanfics, where Simon is an insatiable hero-lover. And the only truly feasible scenario where such a storyline might play out.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means getting used to his military quirks.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he knows everything better.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means accepting the role of housekeeper.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means you are the beauty and comfort of his home, while he is the provider.

In my experience, no matter how progressive a soldier might be, the military structure itself is rife with sexism. It tends to follow a patriarchal, classic family dynamic (or relationship) where the Military person is the male archetype — the provider, protector, father — and the Civilian is the female archetype — taking care of the household, children/pets, cooking, mother, and simply accompanying the Military person as a beautiful appendage. This is the military, baby, an organization built by men for men, and they are taught this approach (perhaps not directly taught, but it logically follows as a conclusion).

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means getting used to his detached behavior, because emotions aren’t needed in the military.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means still experiencing jealousy and possessiveness firsthand.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means always being in the position of someone he protects (which means a lot of control, reporting to him about your actions and your friends; it means cutting back on night outings with your friends, and it means overprotectiveness).

Here’s an interesting fact for you: when you are constantly surrounded by men who, due to their profession, are inherently sexist, you hear a lot of comments about how each of them would conquer the person they’re interested in, in what positions, and without giving a damn about consent or anything else; when you are constantly surrounded by men who, due to their profession, are inherently sexist, you know firsthand how much of a piggish and animalistic attitude soldiers can often have. In this context, jealousy is less about mistrust of the partner and more about mistrust of the world around you.

And even if you finally manage to live together (he’s no longer on active duty/retired due to injury/contract ended/just retired), don’t expect a miraculous change in lifestyle!

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he’s emotionally detached because he has endured enough trauma to fill three textbooks for medical students.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he doesn’t know how to show love. Not in the way you would like, anyway.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he’s a man of action, not words. Flowers? Candy? Gifts? Rare and a waste of money.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he will show his love through concern for your health, 'are you cold? are you hungry?', and by runing you a bath before you come home after work or walk.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means his love will be shown by fixing your favorite headphones or lowering a shelf you can’t reach.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he has seen the horrors of life inside out, tasted grief and suffering, and will never allow even a hint of those horrors to touch you.

Being in a relationship with Simon Riley means he will build (literally or metaphorically) a home for you where you will live like in paradise. A place where you will always be safe, content with life, and have everything you need. A true family nest with an eye on the future for your children.

Damn, this post is getting too long, so there will be a third part with more juicy details. Stay tuned!

dividers by @cyberangel-graphics and by me

part one | part three

[salty-an-disco]

WIP Ask: I so want to know about "Cold has Short Attention Span," I can't not ask about it :]

it's this really short thing I did when trying to get back to the swing of writing fics, that I really have no excuse for not posting it besides "it's so short, I'd kinda feel bad posting it as a fic–" which I really should've ignored. I'm known for my dozens and dozens of ficlets ranging from 100 to 800 words on a previous fandom, I shouldn't try to avoid that route here just cuz my brain decided short writing is somehow 'lesser'

Anyway– here's the piece

———

Research, was what this was supposed to be; boring waste of time, was what Cold called it.

He thought a library was supposed to have all sorts of incredible information or fantastical adventures to find inside books, but as it turned out, it was just blocks and blocks of text that Cold didn’t have the patience nor will to go through.

Paranoid, on the other hand, seemed incredibly transfixed by the blocks of text in front of her, tracing the words with her finger, brows furrowed in incredible concentration.

Such a peaceful sight.

Cold picked up an eraser and threw it at her head.

Her only reaction, at first, was to perk up her head. Large wide eyes blinking as if unsure of what even happened. Then she rubbed her head, fixing Cold with such an affronted glare, it was kinda funny.

“What was that for?”

Cold shrugged, head splattered against the wooden table, all the books he was supposed to be going through put aside without care.

Paranoid huffed, expression softening ever so slightly as she flicked her eyes over his face. “If you’re bored, then why don’t you go check out the children’s section? The books there are supposed to be easier to focus on.”

“Are you saying I have the attention span of a child?”

“Do you want to go get a picture book or not?”

“Yes.”

Standing up, Cold headed straight for the children’s section, not missing the snicker Paranoid let out behind him.

[acernusaurus]

Legends' Gifts For The Avalance Baby's First Birthday

I was thinking about this for fic reasons but it quickly evolved into its own thing. Let me know if you've got any other ideas.

Ray and Nora

They would give a useful invention and/or magical charm. I'm thinking something that would make parents' lives easier without being an untested, potentially dangerous device around an infant/toddler.

Kendra and/or Carter

Separate or together (I'm not really a fan of the comics direction) I think they would get the most normal gifts as the people who have been parents many times.

Mick

Crème brûlée torch. 'It's for food' is his only explanation when anyone questions it.

Jax

Custom made plastic throwing stars

(Curse AI for being evil and forcing me to Photoshop my own dang nonsense)

Nate and Zari

A set of funny/cute shirts. Stuff like: 'Future ninja', 'My favorite uncle is a Historian', gamer stuff, etc. And maybe something from the ancestors that they say every baby should have.

Behrad

I feel like he would write the baby a song as his gift. And when it ends up on his first album in his own time the kid can't tell anyone about it being hers.

Gary

I think he'd stick with simple: stuffed octopus. Or go way too wild and try to buy everything.

Wally

A trinket from his travels.

Zari

Mithra Merch. Zari doesn't even need to bring it from the future. She happens to know a certain influencer's passwords and promo codes and puts the baby on the list for a very large Dragon Girl fan package.

Charlie

Bass guitar. 100% stolen from someone famous.

Mona

A ton of kids books

Astra

Astra would waffle over what babies want for their birthday and then finally just settle on giving her money.

Spooner

Mushroom plush. It was supposed to be a joke but it becomes the kids main lovey because kids are delightfully unpredictable.

(I didn't expect to have a picture for this one but I stumbled across this while shopping and it was perfect)

Gwyn

Haunted doll (not intentionally). Zari lends Gwyn $50, which already freaks him out (inflation calculator says it's ~$900). And when he tries to go to the mall he walks into the Macy's (a name he recognizes) but enters through the underwear-section door and he instantly turns back around to walk out. Eventually he finds an antique store with this perfectly acceptable children's gift and she is 100% haunted but the ghost is chill.

(I cruised through the doll aisle at a thrift store to find one I liked for this)

Gideon

Gideon has only known one baby personally so I think she'd go with some hot 22nd century or historic toy that was Jonas' favorite as a baby. Or she'd pick the toy with the best reviews at the exact time of the birthday.

[jessilynallendilla]

STAR TREK DS9 FIC REC

TITLE/LINK RATING COMPLETED-WORD-COUNT SERIES

let me know if the links aren't working and feel free to recommend any

The Whittler  VIDEO 

Curse from the Prophets VIDEO 

Little Achievements VIDEO 

Alone Together VIDEO 

JULIAN BASHIR x ELIM GARAK   

Scenes from a Disaster Zone  NR 6861 

Julian's actions on Cardassia have bargained-for consequences, and Garak grapples with ghosts. 

RESTORE, REMAKE, & REBUILD  T 

Eight years after the Dominion War, Dr. Bashir—rather afflicted, unfortunately—is en route to Cardassia Prime. Meanwhile, Garak has re-established himself as a politician of note, and his methods may be the source of more than a little friction. Furthermore, Garak's comrade-in-arms from the Cardassian Rebellion, Kira Nerys, is seeking to define a correct path for the tumultuous planet of Bajor. Ezri Dax, conversely, is struggling with her role in the Federation. The O'Briens are the two people suffering the least, and let me be the first to say, good for them. 

Letters from the Northern Continent  M 7966 

It just figured that the first time Julian Bashir set foot on Cardassia after the war, it would be halfway around the world from Elim Garak. 

Inside Out  M 141174 SERIES 

Ten years ago, Elim Garak went under deep cover as a Bajoran tailor. 

The Cupid Computer  T 12190 

Feeling glum after breaking up with Ezri, Julian accepts Miles’ gift of a popular computer program from Earth, which claims to be able to match anyone to their perfect companion. Only with some tweaking will the program allow Julian to find out how well he’d match with Garak, who’s still living on Cardassia. Surely a 99.6% match is a good enough reason for Garak to come home. 

The Gardener  M 6853 

It's 13 years after the end of the Dominion War, and Elim Garak is alone on Cardassia with the consequences of his choices. Until Julian Bashir shows up, and everything starts to change. Is Garak ready for a new season of his life? 

Blood of the Covenant  EX SERIES 

Things can't stop going wrong for Garak and Julian. There's kidnapping, secrets revealed, temporary insanity, refugees, impending war, and a ruined vacation 

The flickering spark  T 8854 

Following the removal of the wire, Garak and Bashir start a turbulent relationship, with both expecting the moment the other will decide to end things. But that's easier than talk things out, isn't it? 

Broken Carrier  NR 340127 SERIES 

Approximately seven years after the end of the Dominion War, Elim Garak and Dr. Julian Bashir have been enjoined for nearly six years and are living on Cardassia Prime where Julian works in the Capital’s hospital while Garak is involved in unspoken government work. They appear to be a very productive, very happy couple…but is all really well? Because of his illegal enhancements, Julian is a Carrier; in other words, he has the parts to produce and carry children. Unfortunately for him, the process that made him who he is has also left him with flaws and those flaws complicate his and Garak's desire to have what they want most...a family. Julian must not only come to terms with the complications, but also accept that he is not alone in dealing with his sorrow... 

Especially the Lies  M 23673 

It started out as a simple lie. He should have known better than to get involved in a lie with Elim Garak. 

A Matter of Habit  EX 30103 

His mission is simple: DESTROY OMIGOS 15. The year is 2347, and the galaxy is on the brink of war. Sent back into the past by the Federation's Department of Temporal Investigations, Dr Julian Bashir finds himself unwittingly embroiled in secret war between Section 31 and the Obsidian Order. Caught in a deadly game of secrets and lies, he knows one thing for certain: he must destroy Omigos 15. And time is running out. 

Worth Waiting For  EX 48982 

The newly appointed Kai gives Julian an offer to interact with the Orb of Time. Julian is flung far into the past with no idea how long he'll be stuck there. To make matters worse, he crosses paths with a very familiar agent of the Obsidian Order who is clearly up to no good... Why can't anything about him and Garak ever be simple? 

The Alternate  M 31355 SERIES 

Due to a transporter accident, Garak is switched with his counterpart from another universe. A universe where the wormhole doesn't exist, no one has ever heard the word "Dominion", and Garak was never exiled from Cardassia. Instead, he's a Legate. And happily married to one Mr. Julian Garak. Suffice to say, the Alternate Garak takes the transition about as well as he can. The supposedly straight as an arrow Dr. Julian Bashir...not so much. 

Proof  M 81316 

Enabran Tain has retired, and Garak has been second-in-command of the Obsidian Order for over three years. His next assignment is the interrogation of Cardassia’s newest detainee, a Federation doctor charged with espionage. 

Just a Cinch  EX 13336 

For a moment he thought he must be dreaming. He shook his head vigorously, but the vision remained. 

"I seem to have tweaked my shoulder a bit in the accident. Just some help loosening the laces, if you could." 

It's a fucking corset. He's wearing a fucking - 

"Of course," said Julian quickly, aware that he'd been too quiet for too long. He sat down behind Garak and untied the bottom of the laces, his surgeon's instincts allowing him to snap into action while his brain was still reeling. It was plain - utilitarian. None of the decorations or accents that Julian had seen on his other pieces. Somehow, that made it even worse. He doesn't think it's sexy. It's just something he wears. As the laces began to loosen, Garak rolled his shoulders and sighed a little in pleasure. 

a slight complication  T 5430 

When the central database backups are recovered from the rubble of Kardasi'or, Julian Bashir discovers he's no longer a bachelor. 

Thermotaxia  T 10174 

Garak and Bashir find each other in the internment camp, and again after their escape. 

Condemnation M 14554

"Post-'The Wire,' pre-'Our Man Bashir,' when the guys are still having lunch regularly, Julian finds out about something Garak has done, something worse than he ever thought or could have imagined." Can you now see why this story has NGHE?

KID FIC 

Our Collective  G 8011 

Post-canon couple Elim and Julian enjoy collecting things they love. Children, for example. 

Splintered: A Romance in Six Seasons  EX 

How do you help someone that doesn't want to be helped? Julian finds himself rebuilding Cardassia and grappling with resistant locals, a not-much-better-than-useless translator and the realisation that sometimes the frontier brings more than an opportunity to help to the table. 

The Accident  G 15477 SERIES 

Julian thinks nothing could surprise him more than finding out Garak is pregnant. He's wrong. 

Leap  EX 100809 

When Garak's loneliness gets the best of him, Dr. Bashir sets out to prove that he isn't truly alone. Together, they navigate the trials of a swift and passionate relationship, taking several leaps in a short period of time. 

Hatchling  G 5519 SERIES 

"A flower is about to bloom, my dear." 

It took Julian a second. A second Garak would not have forgiven him for taking if he hadn't been so overworked in the last few weeks. Despite his slowness to understand Garak's meaning, it eventually came to his understanding, and his eyes widened in a way that was almost comical. 

"On my way." 

Takes a Village  T 

Garak adopts four Cardassian children after the war orphan incident. He grows as a person as he raises the children, and he learns that while it takes a village to raise a child, it takes a station to raise four. 

Doctor of the Discarded  G 963 

Garak has had enough. The regnar and the riding hound were one thing, the ruined stuffed animals another, but now a child? That's simply too much! 

Some of the buds remain closed as secrets  T 12082 SERIES 

After Ziyal’s death, Garak finds that she has been looking after a young girl, half-Bajoran, half-Cardassian, and now with nowhere to go. 

Somebody's Baby  M SERIES 

Nobody knows the identity of the other father of Garak's baby, and Garak's not telling anybody. Especially not Julian 

Tell Me You See Me  EX 78481 SERIES 

After Garak receives an unexpected communication from Amsha Bashir, Julian finds himself trying to navigate both newfound parenthood and his own unresolved parental issues, in the midst of an increasingly tense situation on war-torn Cardassia. 

ELIM GARAK x KELAS PARMAK 

Faithful  G 1095 

Post Enigma Tales. Julian's presence in the Garak-Parmak household causes more than a few problems for Kelas. 

These Lifeless Things  T 36017 

Someone has to check in on Doctor Bashir for the eight days Castellan Garak is away. Who can care for one doctor better than another? Kelas Parmak reflects on love and recovery. 

Presumed Dead  G 793 

The Obsidian Order is destroyed in the Gamma Quadrant. On the streets of the Cardassian Union Capital, people are celebrating. Parmak is not. 

Nothing Remains Buried  T 12369 

Castellan Garak is called away one night – where he does not say. The next day, the news of a gruesome find from the old regime spreads. Across the Union, the public has to face Cardassia's past, and in a bedroom in the Castellan's residence, Kelas Parmak has to face his lover's. 

The Episode  EX 3289 SERIES 

Post-canon Cardassia, six months into the rebuilding effort, Garak experiences a psychotic episode. 

Of Softer Dragons  M 1000 

Ten drabbles following Elim Garak's relationship with body size 

y mater rhyngddynt // the matter between them  T 16750 

When Elim embraced the Carnis report into war crimes, Kelas had expected that some day, at some time, someone would bring up Elim's past and bring it before a jury. They just didn't expect it to be themself that had to testify against him. 

bury my heart  M 

We may never know the full story as to why Garak was exiled from Cardassia, but there is another mystery to be pieced together. What was the nature of Parmak's involvement with the political group that got him sent to a labour camp? Could these stories be intertwined? Set shortly after Enigma Tales by Una McCormak. Julian Bashir is living with Elim Garak and Kelas Parmak. He's still having long spells of catatonia (trauma related). When he's not catatonic, he's dissociated and still mute 

[ragequeen94]

An absolute insane stream of consciousness about ghost and everything else...

Been thinking about the title "Emeritus"....

It has meaning:

- a person retired from professional life but permitted to retain as an honorary title the rank of the last office held.

....Now I'm assuming the ministry works how the actual catholic church works and the choose a name. Like when your picked to be pope you pick a biblical name instead of your real name....

Their real names being... primo, secondo, etc.... and in assuming those are first names unless Nihil was able to find women with numerical last names IN ORDER all willing to having his satanic church bastards. Which for him seems possible but I digress.

It just seems like an interesting choice of title. (Especially for a wild little sweed) and what he was trying to say... perhaps just that they are "past their prime"? They have the title only because they are old?

Also thinking about the usage of "bloodline"... now we all think it's because of Nihil and his breeding fetish. Which may be true. But I'd like to bring up the secondo Papaganda where the "special ghoul" is talking about Secondo and the bloodline...

We can pretend that in this universe, those characters are... real? Easy. Or perhaps they are all "choosen" perhaps the bloodline actually being more children chosen by darkness? Or the devil? Now the three confirmed brothers and now also Copia are all Nihil children, we are about to get Papa V... and is realistic to believe it's Copias twin (also because his name is literally copy in italian) but a copy of who? The only other character could be .... Father Jim??

I'm 100% sure that his name was picked for this reason... but is he being dethroned? Is he dethroning?? We don't know much besides that he's kind of a shit priest and uses cum as hair gell....

And that all other Papas have been dethroned as well for also not being good at their jobs. Interesting. Maybe a comment on hypocrisy with the satanic church having higher standards for leadership??

Also Copia is Imperator now...

Which literally means commander. But commander only lead armies... they aren't kings or emperors and even Sister Imperator was answering the phone to someone she was respectful and obedient too. (See that one chapter when nihil was on the toilet)... I'm pretty sure it wasn't Psaltarian.... but what does that name mean??

My best guess is either someone who documents OR

Which is basically a kinda early guitar.... so hes... the band manager??

I don't think he's running the church. So there are way more characters and story to uncover.

What I can say I at this point... we know absolutely nothing and nothing makes sense.

Fuckin... since we know copia is Imperator and Nihils kid and he's the youngest... and Secondo and Terzo are 3 months apart and can't have the same mother.... Nihil had had 3 children with a minimum of 2 other women already by the time he met Imperator.

And let's pretend everything we see in the MV and the chapters is canon legit. Nihil was a little unsure of what was going on at the party... but that doesn't mean he wasn't already part of the church. We know that Ghost is just the public relations section of the ministry. Not THE MINISTRY... they are important but one one piece. They are the face or figure head. Which is pretty much said word for word. PAPA STILL ANSWERS TO A HIGHER POWER. Who or what we don't know.

Nihil and his father (and his fathers father, his father... his father... hid father's father's father... his father) are all part of the bloodline. All this means is that they are related or choosen by... the devil? That Dracula and the Canadian guy who wrote "Hallelujah" are related??

Or that all of these characters/people are entertainers.

Is the ministry just a record label? Each papa a musician trying to make it?? It's all a metaphor for stardom?? Probably.

Basically papa nihil could have easily been part of the church before he met Imperator. She just got him involved in the ghost project (her project by the sound of it). Then when it fell through got nihils kids involved... cause... why. We don't know.

We have Nihil who is... nothing.

Psaltarian that... writer? Manager?

Imperator the commander.

Defroque the cum guzzling priest.

And the Papas who are all already passed their prime?? but they picked the name.

But nihil wasn't an Emeritus.

Unless nihil was the name he picked and we don't even know his name... and he named his kidd first second and third cause he thought it was funny.

Also it's 100% that Imperator named Copia.

Is he a copy of his twin (or just a copy in general) or is he a copy of his father? Or of her????

Please dear fucking unholy shit can someone hyperfixate with me....

[jobrookekarev]

You're Never Alone With Me

Chapter: One of One.

Words: 3,634

Summary: 20x05 But with Jolex instead. Jo and Alex have a pregnancy scare and go through all the emotions before finding out that they might actually be having another baby. 

Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy.

Relationship: Alex Karev/Jo Wilson, 

Characters: Alex Karev, Jo Wilson, Carina DeLuca, Eden Karev, and Luna Wilson.

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences.

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Fluff, Romance, Humor, Family, Love, Kissing, Light-Hearted, One Shot, Happy Ending, Drama, Domestic, Blood Draw, Parenthood, Pregnancy, Children.

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AN: I'm on vacation this week so I edited this by the pool while semi-drunk, so there are probably some mistakes, but enjoy!

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“How was your day?” Alex asked her as Jo gave him a smile. 

He met her in the hallway as she wrapped her arms around him, and avoided his question with a long kiss. Alex smiled and melted into her lips as they reunited, letting their lips greet each other with passion and eager romance. His tongue begged for hers as she moaned. He wondered if she would let him pull her into an on-call room before they picked up the kids. However, Jo pulled away before his tongue could dance in her mouth.

“My day was long. I had six laboring moms and three C-sections and ER consults in between that. I was running around all day. How about you?”

“It wasn't so bad, I did my first couple of surgeries and then mostly rounded and helped out the interns. Are you ready for tonight though?” Alex said with a smile as they walked towards the door. “I'm going to make you an offer you can't refuse.”

Jo looked at him with her eyebrows raised. “What?”

“It's movie night,” Alex said as Jo shook her head. 

Friday movie night was a long standing tradition in the Karev household, dating back to when they first started dating. Jo usually loved movie nights but these days she was too tired to stay up late with him.

“I’m on call, we should just sleep,” Jo said, she wanted to close her eyes right now, but she had to amp herself up for the energy of their toddlers. Once they got to the car, she could take a quick nap on the fifteen minute drive home. 

“How come you're only tired on my movie nights?” Alex asked, giving her a look that was a half-hearted joke. 

Jo rolled her eyes. “That's not true, I sat through that one wrestling movie you picked out the other week.”

“That was like a month and a half ago, Jo,” Alex said as he chuckled at her and they approached the desk to check out the girls. 

“No it wasn't, it was like 4 weeks ago or something,” Jo said with a shake of her head as he logged into the tablet.

“No, that was six weeks ago. Remember because we watched your cheesy rom-com. Then we let the girls stay up and watch the Barbie movie, then I chose Jason Bourne and then you wanted to watch Scream. We watched Trolls with the girls last week, so it's my turn again, 6 weeks.”

Alex casually smiled at her, but Jo’s heart stopped. He was right, it had been six weeks.

Her movie had been this Western romantic drama. She clearly remembered because she had been on her period and Alex had helped her relieve some pain with a couple of orgasms. Then two weeks after that, they watched his Jason Bourne movie and had sex on the couch, which would have been when she was ovulating. 

“I'm late,” Jo said, staring at him as he looked up at her. 

“No, we're right on time,” Alex said as he checked the girls out and set the tablet back down. 

“No Alex,” Jo whispered to him. “My period is late.”

“Are you saying you could be pregnant again?” Alex asked, his jaw dropping open as he stared at her.

Before Jo could respond though her phone beeped and she looked down at her notification. “I’m being paged, it's the ER.”

“Shit, is it urgent?” Alex said as Jo just glared at him telling him it was. “Should I get the girls or do you want me to follow you?” 

“Stay with the girls, but check them back in and have dinner with them, then you can go get something to eat and I'll text you when I'm done. Then we can take a test together,” Jo said, sure of her plan as she turned to leave, but Alex grabbed her hand. 

He pulled her in, giving her a quick hug, and kissed her forehead before he let her go. When she looked back up at him, he had the biggest smile across his face. “Hey, we'll be okay, regardless of the results.” 

She knew he was giddy at the prospect of potentially knocking her up. When they found out she was pregnant with Eden, he was so happy that he walked on air for weeks. Everyone knew before they told them, and he told everyone how excited he was. However, she didn't return his smile and just nodded. Jo loved Eden and she loved being pregnant with her, but the first trimester was rough and Jo labored for hours. She wasn't sure she was ready for that again.

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Nearly half an hour later Jo finally paged him to come to meet her in the ER’s stock room. He wasn't sure how Jo was feeling but had settled into the idea of having another baby. He had gotten time to think about it but he had also gotten time to analyze Jo’s expression. Her eyebrows were timorously married and her lips were parted in a frown. He wasn't sure if she would want this baby. Although he had gotten excited and browsed online for baby onesies. Still, he waited to purchase one until she had taken a test, then they would know for sure.

“Hey, did you find one?” Alex asked as he found her rifling through the packages, trying to find a pregnancy test. 

“Not yet,” Jo said, her shoulders tense as she went to another shelf and ransacked the supplies. “This is the worst possible time to be having a baby! You're working all the time as the co-chef with Bailey, Meredith and I have our Mini-Liver final publishing paper due. My oral exams are coming up, Luna is starting preschool, and Eden is going to be moving up to the two-year-old room. We’ll have three kids in diapers. Oh my God, Alex the diapers. It’s like seven diapers per kid every day, that's like a thousand diapers a week.”

“Your math isn’t quite right on that one,” Alex said, shaking his head as he chuckled. 

Jo turned around to glare at him and he schooled his features and crossed his arms. “Okay, but Luna’s going to do great in preschool and Eden is doing amazing too. You're going to ace your exams and you love writing papers, plus you can get the interns to help you write it! And I can step down from the chief position for a while until things get easier, but let's try not to panic until you take the test.”

“How could this happen?” Jo was still going on with her rant as she moved to another section. “I'm an OBGYN, half of my job is to not get women pregnant and we've only had like one pregnancy scare before, but then again, it only took us one try to get pregnant with Eden. Oh my God, here it is!” 

Jo grabbed the pregnancy test and turned around, staring at it with wide eyes. Alex took in a breath as he felt his heart beat faster and sweat beads on his neck. He knew could feel the butterflies in his stomach. He glanced at Jo to see that she was just as tense and was rubbing the package with her fingers as if it was covered in a dust, he knew was not there.

“Jo take a breath, you’re spiraling,” Alex said, stepping up to her and putting his hands on her shoulders. 

“How are you not?!” Jo said as her wild eyes stared back at him.

“Because I've had time to sit with this and you haven't,” Alex said, taking a breath as he reached up to hold her face and rub her cheek with his thumb. “Whatever happens, we can't handle it. And we’re lucky enough to live in a state where you can get an abortion if you want. I know that we're married and you’ve been pregnant before, but you said you didn't want another baby and I respect that.”

“If I'm pregnant with another baby, I think I want to keep it,” Jo said, letting out a breath as she stared at him. 

Yet, she closed her eyes as a few tears appeared in the corner of her eyes. She leaned in to kiss him before she pulled away. Then her phone rang and she pulled it out. 

“It's another patient in the ER with abdominal pain,” Jo said, handing him the pregnancy test and walking away.”

“You know I can't take this for you, right?” Alex asked, holding up the test, although she had already left the room. 

Alex looked down at the test and smiled again, then he pulled up the onesie on his phone and added it to the cart. He wouldn't buy it just yet, but the second it was positive, he would buy it. Alex had always wanted a house full of kids and he hoped that dream would come true.

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It was another hour before Jo called him, saying that she was in the fourth floor bathroom. By then Alex said caught up on all his paperwork and done some more online shopping. Although he would never admit to it, he had started a registry and had saved some baby clothes he liked. 

He also thought about how they would turn the playroom/second bedroom into another nursery. They had always planned on only having two kids, Luna and Eden. But they had a three bedroom house, and the two girls shared a room for now. They hated to be separated and would refuse to sleep without each other. The plan was for them to eventually have their own bedrooms when they wanted. 

He had also done the calculations on how many diapers it would be. When the girls were newborns, they would go through diapers like crazy, so it would probably mean about an extra pack a week. They had done cloth diapering with Eden and Luna and they could do that with the new baby as well, which would cut down on the cost. Also, he was pretty sure he could get Eden potty trained by the time the new baby got here. By then she would be almost three and she was already eagerly sitting on the potty with a few successes here and there. 

He thought about all of this as he approached the fourth floor bathroom. However, he was brought back to reality when he was faced with the door to the woman's bathroom. He knocked on the door but didn't get a reply right away.

“Jo it's me,” Alex called out to her, but he didn't hear anything and knocked again, wiggling the lock. 

“I'll be out in a second,” Jo said as he heard the sound of the toilet flushing.

A few minutes later, Jo came out of the bathroom and handed him the test. “I took it 5 minutes ago, but I can't look at it.”

He knew she needed a moment of comfort and brought her in for a hug. He held her close as she melted into him and kissed her forehead. However, when he breathed in, Jo's hair smelled. He sniffed her hair and pulled back looking at her. 

“Have you thrown up?” Alex asked her, studying her for a glimpse of sickness in her face.

“It's been very stressful!” Jo said as she huffed and wiped her mouth.

“Or maybe it's just morning sickness,” Alex said with a half-hearted smile. 

“Just look at the test!” Jo demanded as she huffed and pulled away from him and she leaned against the wall.

Alex smiled as he took a breath and flipped over the stick. Staring at it he almost cried, his voice a shaky whisper. “It's negative.”

Jo let out a breath and buried her face in his shoulder. She hugged his waist with a tight grip and he felt his shirt get wet. Alex was surprised, as she didn't react the way he thought she would.

“Are you relieved?” 

“I don't know.” 

Jo sighed as she pulled back a bit but still held him looking up at him with watery eyes. “I thought I would be, I kind of am, and it's just been so overwhelming I just want to cry. But a part of me wanted another baby.”

“I know, and I did the math. It would be like 120 diapers a week give or take a blowout or two. Plus I think I could get Eden potty trained before the baby arrived.”

“There's no baby, but it'd still be good to potty train her though,” Jo said in agreement. 

“Jo, I love being a dad and I would love to do it all over again with you anytime you want, besides you know I love getting you pregnant,” Alex said, grabbing her hips and pulling her into him as he kissed her.

Jo giggled, but she pulled away from him. “But being a parent is so hard especially when they're babies.”

“I know, so if you say you didn't want a baby, then I don't want one either. You know I would have a million babies with you, but realistically I love you and I love our two girls and the three of you are enough for me.”

Jo smiled as she leaned in to kiss him again, before he gave the test to her as Jo's eyes widened. “Alex! It’s not negative!”

“What do you mean it's not negative? There's nothing there!” Alex said, staring at the test. 

“It's not positive either, Alex it's a dud!” Jo said, shoving his chest. “One line is negative, two 2 lines is positive.”

“What does that mean?” Alex asked with wide eyes. “Should we just get another test, maybe we should do a blood test? They're more accurate anyway?”

“We are not doing anything. I am the one getting stabbed and having to pee on sticks and…” Jo put a hand over her mouth before she ran for the toilet again and this time he followed her in. 

Alex locked the door behind them as she kneeled in front of the toilet and threw up. She heaved several times more as Alex kneeled next to her. Once she stopped he wiped her lips and they sat back together. Then, Jo had a burst of emotion and started to cry as Alex instantly wrapped his arms around her. 

“I want another baby.”

Alex nodded and just held her. “I know, so we’ll call Carina and then she can tell us for sure if you're pregnant and if not we can start trying again.”

Jo nodded her tears drying up as she did and he leaned in to give her a quick kiss. The gentle reassurance was enough for him as he kissed her back. He pulled her up off the floor and wrapped an arm around her, Jo gave him another quick kiss before she sighed and let him pull her over to Carina's office.

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“Ow,” Jo winced and looked away as Carina put the needle in her arm. 

“I'm sorry, Bambina,” Carina said as she released the tourniquet and drew her blood into two vials. 

“I told you not to look,” Alex said as he held her hand pulling it up to kiss her knuckles.

“No, nobody else can know about this,” Jo glared at him as she flinched again when Carina withdrew and put a cotton swab over her wound.

“I still think we should do an exam,” Carina said, giving her a knowing look as Jo huffed.

“Fine,” Jo said as Carina just smiled and handed her a gown and a paper blanket before she went to the door.

“I'll be back in a few minutes with the results,” Carina said as she left with the blood.

Jo hopped off the table and handed the gown and paper blanket to Alex before she started to undress. 

“We should have just done a blood draw the first time around,” Jo complained as she slipped out of her jeans and tore off her shirt quickly. Then she turned around and reached for her bra clasp. “Can you get it?” 

Alex easily hooked the latch and Jo handed her clothes to him in exchange for the gown but found his eyes were not exactly following hers.

“Alex!” Jo said, turning around and forcefully taking the gown from him.

“I don't know Jo, your boobs are huge,” Alex said, a little smirk as he stared at them. 

Jo huffed and pushed him away forcefully, turning him around as she got dressed again. She finally hopped up on the table and put the paper blanket over her knees before she cleared her throat. When he turned around again, he still had that stupid smirk on his face but he sat down in the chair next to her and grabbed her hands. 

“Isn't it normal for pregnancy tests to malfunction when there's too much HCG levels?” Alex asks as Jo thought about it for a second. 

“I don't remember, I think so,” Jo said as she shrugged. “Why do you ask?”

“Well, what if you're pregnant with twins, Jo?” Alex whispered to her his smile even wider. 

“I would probably kill you, Alexander,” Jo said as she scowled, Alex chuckled, but his smile dropped when she continued to glare at him.

“Well we can talk about it when we get the results back then,” Alex nodded as she dropped her eyes and picked at the seam of her gown before he took her hands again and gave them a squeeze. 

There was a knock at the door as Carina came back in. “There is a back up at the lab due to a trauma in the ER. The results will take several hours. So we're going to find out the old fashioned way.”

Jo took a deep breath as she laid back, putting her feet in the strips as Carina sat in front of her and put a hand on her leg.

“Okay Jo you're going to feel my fingers enter,” Carina said as she gently pressed inside of her. 

Jo squeezed Alex’s hands and tried to relax her muscles but she remained tense. Carina reached up to feel the top of her uterus and pushed in a few places, holding her womb before she smiled.

“How long ago did you say your period was?” Carina asked as Jo floundered, knowing what Carina was feeling inside her. 

“I don't know?” 

“Six weeks ago,” Alex answered for her. 

“I'd say you're more like eight weeks along, so you must’ve had some implantation bleeding. You've definitely got a baby in there, Jo,” Carina said with a small smile. 

Jo took in a breath as she looked over at Alex. He had a smile but he quickly bit his lip as he looked over at her giving her hand a squeeze. He held his breath, but then Jo smiled too.

“We're having a baby!”

“Yeah, we are yeah we are!” Alex said as he smiled and leaned down to kiss her. She cried happy tears that fell down her cheeks to her ears, but she smiled. 

“Well I suppose, we should confirm it with an ultrasound?” Carina asked as she pulled back, smiling at them both.

“Yes,” they said together as they both nodded. A few minutes later they were looking at their new baby on the screen. There was just one, Jo made Carina double check, but they were ecstatic nonetheless. Jo hasn't stopped crying and even Alex shed a few tears as they stared at their baby.

“They're so beautiful,” Alex said in awe, his eyes never leaving the screen. 

“They're already measuring big too,” Jo said, finger tracing her fingers along the femur bone. “I think our original estimate of six weeks is correct.”

Carina nodded as she agreed with them. “Well keep an eye on it, but as you said, Karev babies tend to be on the bigger size, so I'm not worried.”

She finished up the ultrasound and gave Jo some paper towels to clean off, then left her to get dressed again. But not before pulling Jo into a hug. “Congratulations, Bambina.”

“Thank you,” Jo said, hugging her back tightly.

Alex smiled as she got dressed but when she pulled her shirt on, he pulled it back up and leaned down to kiss her belly, before looking back up at her.

“Hi baby,” Alex said as he stared at her belly. 

“What are we going to do with you?” Jo asked as she pulled him up and put her hand over his, intertwining their fingers. 

But Alex just smiled and said, “We are going to have an amazing family, you are going to be a great Mom, again.”

Jo smiled as she leaned in and pulled him down to kiss him again. Alex gave her several kisses as they lingered on each other's lips. There was such joy and happiness between them it felt like fireworks on her tongue. 

Then they pulled back and looked down at their baby, hidden under their hands. Alex hugged her shoulders and kissed her head as they smiled sharing a giggle between them. Despite how nervous she had been, Jo couldn't wait for this new baby to join their family.

[colourprinter]

Probably too personal thoughts, feelings, and ramblings around Our Wonderland

A couple of warnings, this will likely spoil all of Our Wonderland and this will likely get personal on the thoughts and feelings. It's a personal look (and total ramble) at this game more than anything.

If you haven't played or don't know what Our Wonderland is, I don't know how you found this but you can find it for free on this link.

To keep the spoilers hidden and to prevent forcing , I've put everything in the expand below.

I found this game from the Queer Halloween Story Bundle on itch, I was looking around what was in the bundle and enountered this game. I had already played a visual novel from the bundle that didn't gel too well with me so my hopes weren't too high.

I had no idea what this free game in a bundle had in store.

I was casual during the intro, I don't know when it hit but I knew I was locked in when act 2 hit and I saw what the meat of this game really is.

Something in this game sucked me right in, and wouldn't let me go.

I can't say I remember every detail but I was quickly emotionally invested, trying (and almost always failing) to keep Iggy alive and seeing how this friend group had completely gone off the rails, how their wishes twist around them.

Everything gave me the feeling I believe it was meant to, Gidget's advances on Iggy, Orlam, Buck's outright brutality, Genzou trying to get out alive while throwing the worst words at Orlam (I think he's just like that anyway) and Iggy having the worst time of his life.

While that doesn't sound like much, I don't usually get a reaction from a lot, the mix of visual and words hits just right... or wrong given how horrifying some of this is. Well, some things in the game would easily get a reaction...

For a bit of context for the next parts, I am aro/ace, something I truely discovered myself in the middle of a relationship, not that I hate being in a relationship but I think I'm completely incapable of feeling romantic love, there's just... nothing there. With being ace, I kinda resented the way my brain would react, litrally wishing sometimes that I was ace, glad I grew out of that for my own sake.

I also tend to feel awkward enough around sex in video games. I got goaded into the House of Hope scene, the first time the game crashed to save me and the second time I went dead slient and fixed my eyes down, only looking up enough to see the choices... I've now got an agreement to never have that happen again.

So obviously Gitget's sections got a big reaction from me, I thankfully haven't had any expriences close to anything like that, I could understand Iggy's perspective.

But enough about the horrible stuff for the moment, I'm not going to explain that, yes, seeing Orlam's and Buck's scenes were also shockers because eating human flesh and brutally murdering people are kinda bad things as well.

What I want to focus on next is something I currently only have one full perspective of, the romance. I usually verbalise everything to myself in RPGs and VNs, doing silly little voices for everyone (doing 6 children voices at the end hurt) so when I was given the choice of an ending... obviously, I chose the Genzou ending. Usually I'd feel awkward and stilted reading out the words but this time, it felt nice, I haven't done the other endings but I'm sure they're just as good, even if they're not, I got at least one good romance which given that this topples my fav VN romance (Slay the Princess which is pratically a joke romance anyway), I'm more than happy with it.

Niceness is over, I have another list topper, worst thing I've ever encountered in a video game, something so bad that even being foribly censored (I'm not checking if there's a visible version this time), it made me sick to my stomach. The tree and the infant in Her branches. Now I've played though and done some horrible things in video games, including child murder, but the way the body is described, the way everyone reacts to it. I can't call it anything below truely horrible and I'm putting this above freaking turn based RPG murdering children, I thought after that nothing would get me again (I think doing it actually knocked a screw loose because I've suddenly stopped being a goodie two shoes in video games, that's how bad that was). I mean this as a compliment but that is the worst thing I have ever encountered in any media.

And I think because I've felt these strong emotions where I haven't been hit so hard before, I've become completely pulled into it all. The fanwork contest was the first bit of my own art I put online in years and that kick started me getting back into art as a hobby, something I don't think I would have gotten back into if I didn't do that bit of Iggy art to prove to myself that I could do it if I put myself into it.

So... Carrot, thank you so much for this game of romance, fun, death and wishes.

If I land on my feet, I'd like to make a game with multiple acespec PoVs one day, much less horror though.

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Quogan with kids - Imagine how panicked/ridiculous Logan would be as Quinn’s water breaks and he has to drive her to the hospital. Or him holding her hand during labor and through the contractions.

I believe Logan would be overly attentive with Quinn's pregnancy, I think I mentioned before him buying whatever craving she has in bulks and make their friends/family rehearse what they have to do for the "big day" (yes, I am referencing Floricienta jajajja), but Quinn isn't far behind him.

I have some more headcanons for Quinn's pregnancy (I also have for them as parents, but then this post would be too long, so I'll leave that for another asks I got about the subject), remember this is settled in my Rebuilding PCA AU.

(had to divide this into sections bc there's an apparent limit for every list)

Finding out, to first Eco:

Despite having everything planned out, even when they were going to have children, the first baby came as a surprise.

I headcanon she took a test on her job. She had her suspicion about her symptoms, and had a doctor appointment in a few days, but she was too impatient to wait so she bought three pregnancy test (just to be sure) and took them on her job's bathroom.

But unexpected doesn't mean unwelcome. Quinn was very happy when she found out, definitely cried when she saw the two pink lines.

The thought of little baby, a mix of both her and Logan overwhelmed her with joy, unable to even worry if that might compromise her work at the moment.

Though she did think of it on her way home, she felt optimist. She acknowledge to herself that it will be hard and it will require more of her usual effort and focus, but she's Quinn Pensky-Reese! She's the mind of her generation, if anyone can handle an inventor's job, a school rebuilding and a pregnancy, that's her!

As soon as she got home, she went into her study and started organizing her schedule for the next months, in case the doctor confirmed it. Just to save time, time she would need later one, after all.

there was even more crying when the doctor told her that, yes, she was in fact pregnant. They settle a date for the first ecography.

Logan was the first one to know, of course. But Quinn waited until she had a doctor's confirmation before telling him, worried she'd get his hopes up only to end both disappointed.

I imagine she prepared a nice surprise dinner. He entered their home and found her waiting besides a candle lit table with his favorite dish. His first thought was wondering if he -somehow- forgot any important date, he even thinks "is it my birthday?".

But she reassured him before he even ask that she just wanted to surprise him. He notices she seems happier than usual, assuming she's about to tell him some really good news, (they know each other so well!!), tho he thinks it's probably related to the school renovation.

Her excitement took over and she couldn't wait until the end of the dinner, much to his relief because his curiosity was killing him.

She hands him a little gift box, and watches as his face changes, he goes from confusion as he opens it and takes a cute tiny PCA onesie, to realization. (note: the baby will be wearing that at some point, when Logan takes them to PCA, to show them the campus *cries*)

His eyes widens and he struggles to form words because he can't close his mouth. He's absolutely shocked.

Logan: "are you saying... we're having a baby?" and Quinn just nods excitedly, she also can't talk because she's already teary eyes.

Logan runs to hug her side, lifting her and spinning her around, so happy the protective dad mode hadn't kicked on yet lol.

He wants to tell everyone immediately, but she tells him it would be better to wait for the first eco, which would be after her first trimestre is completed, and explains to him all about those things (because you know she researched before the doctor appointment and also filled the doctor with questions lol)

He listens attentively because he wants to be aware about everything related to their little bundle of joy.

They're so annoying at the hospital for the eco, but the doctor is incredibly patient (bless them), despite them spilling question after question.

Quinn's scientific curiosity is in full swing as she bombards the ultrasound technician with a million questions about the technology and procedure.

Thankfully for the doctor, they shut up as soon as their baby shows up on the screen, as well as the first time they hear their heartbeat.

(little angsty headcanon: they were both terrified of not hearing a heartbeat, it made them anxious and afraid, they're first time parents after all, they're fucking scared *cries intensifies*)

As the doctor shows them the baby's hands and feet and nose and all that, Logan makes comments like "they're gonna have your nose!" or "oh, you're gonna be a such a heartbreaker, just like your dad"

He mostly tries to make Quinn laugh, and to ease both of their nervous.

The doctor asks if they want to know the gender of the bay, but they decide to save that for the baby shower, so they get it written down in an envelopment instead.

The technician offers to print out a few ultrasound pictures for them, where the gender of their baby could not be visible (already sensing these two would spend a lot of time looking at them and Quinn would definitely figure it out). Quinn practically squeals with delight, already envisioning how she'll document and cherish these precious snapshots. Logan grins, imagining himself showing off the pictures to anyone who will listen, beaming with pride.

As they leave the doctor's office, Quinn can't help but walk a little lighter, her hand resting protectively over her growing belly. Logan wraps an arm around her, pulling her close, his protective mode also activating on that moment

On the way home, they can't resist the urge to stop at a baby store. They fill the car with stuffed animals, and nursery decorations. They also pick out a few gender-neutral outfits, happily imagining their little one wearing them.

When they get home (after Logan settled all the heavy stuff they brought inside their home, because he's not letting her carry anything heavy ever again), they sit in the coach and spread the ultrasound pictures on the coffee table, looking at them and pointing little details they notice about their baby.

Announcement:

After indulging on this little moment, they finally call their friends and family to let them know the news. First their parents (Lyric was in the same room as Logan's parents, so she found out at the same time)

Their parent's are overjoyed, it's going to be the first grandchild in both families, with Quinn being an only child and Logan the first of Malcolm's children to be a parent (I'm still not sure Logan's older brother exist, but either way, first grandkid bc I say so), and at the end of the calls they promise to set a dinner to celebrate this news soon.

When Lyric hears the news, she raises an eyebrow and gives a nonchalant shrug, trying to maintain her composure. Deep down, however, she can't help but feel a surge of excitement and anticipation. She may not show it openly, but Lyric secretly starts researching the best auntie gifts and cool, trendy baby clothes. She's determined to be the "chillest" aunt, effortlessly blending her coolness with her newfound role.

Of their friends, the first to know were Lola and Michael, argue with the wall.

Lola squeals at the news, already declaring herself the best aunt this baby would have (Lyric would disagree if she was there, but whatever), she cracks a few jokes at Logan's expenses probably, I imagine their friendship still has that banter, like they pretend they still dislike each other. Something like, "I'm sure your baby will have enough of you to make up for the parts it gets from Logan" (english is failing me lol, but you get it), and tells them she would host the baby shower. Organizing event is still not much her thing, but she's too excited.

Michael is over the moon, and tells them he'd gladly conduct their baby shower, and tells them he already thought of baby names ideas. They tell them Lola already offered and he says he'll call her to let her help (Lola would probably let him do most of the job lol)

I just know this news would give Zoey and Chase another age/relationship crisis, but let's not focus on that for this. They're happy for their friends. They also offer to help with the baby shower, but Logan is quick to reject them lol. Though Quinn explains Michael and Lola are already on that, so they don't feel bad.

Pregnant Quinn:

Quinn becomes a walking encyclopedia during her pregnancy. She dives deep into researching every stage of fetal development and reads every book on pregnancy she can get her hands on. She's determined to understand every aspect of what's happening to her body and her growing baby.

Quinn's scientific mind goes into overdrive as she starts experimenting with various homemade remedies and concoctions to alleviate pregnancy symptoms

She creates her own natural remedies for morning sickness, swollen feet, and stuff, much to the amusement and amazement of her friends.

I like to keep a bit of the ridiculousness from the show into this, so I hc Quinn's pregnancy hormones send her emotions on a rollercoaster ride. She goes from crying over commercials to laughing uncontrollably at the slightest joke. Her friends and Logan learn to navigate this emotional whirlwind, providing comfort and support whenever she needs it.

Quinn's genius mind starts coming up with innovative inventions specifically designed for pregnancy. She designs a pillow that perfectly supports her growing belly while she sleeps, a wearable device that tracks fetal movements, and even a smart app that monitors her baby's health.

Her pregnancy cravings are a mix of the expected and the totally unexpected. One day, she craves pickles and ice cream, and the next, she insists on eating spaghetti with hot sauce and gummy worms.

As her due date approaches, Quinn becomes hyper-organized. She starts prepping freezer meals, organizing the nursery down to the tiniest detail, and even creating a hospital bag checklist for both her and Logan. She wants everything to be perfectly in place for their baby's arrival.

I like to thinks Quinn's love for science extends to documenting her pregnancy journey. She takes weekly belly pictures, meticulously tracks her weight gain, and even keeps a journal where she writes letters to her unborn baby. While she is treating it like a study, she also wants to capture every precious moment and memory for their little one to look back on.

Quinn's intelligence and curiosity lead her to attend every prenatal class their schedule allows, along with Logan ofc. She becomes the star student, asking insightful questions and even offering her own scientific explanations for certain topics. She kinda annoys the other parents on the classes, but the dirty look Logan gives the when they try to say something shuts them up.

Despite her scientific approach to pregnancy, Quinn also embraces the magical and emotional side of it all. She loves feeling her baby's kicks and hiccups, cherishes every ultrasound appointment, and eagerly awaits the moment she can hold her little one in her arms.

She loves talking to her baby, telling them about how their little body is developing and what awaits them and stuff.

She hopes their little one is a science fan like her, so she also tells them of science in general, specially while she works on her quinnventions, explaining the process to her belly.

No matter how many research she went through, the birth terrifies her, truth be told. She's a first time mother after all, how could she not. The thoughts of all the things that could go wrong filling her mind.

But she endures it, holding tight to Logan's hand. She keeps pushing and pushing until they finally hear the baby's cry.

All the pain and fear melting away the moment he baby is placed in her arms, she cries happily as she caresses their cheeks and coos at them, calming the babies' crying.

the sobbing doesn't stop even when the baby calms down and the doctors take them away to clean them and weight them, neither her or Logan taking their eyes off their child, even when he leans down to kiss her forehead, whispering sweet words at her.

Daddy-to-be Logan:

From the moment Quinn tells Logan she's pregnant, he can't contain his excitement. He starts researching everything about pregnancy and parenting, creating boards filled with nursery ideas, baby names, and parenting hacks.

He creates an elaborate color-coded pregnancy planner. It includes doctor's appointments, prenatal classes, and even a detailed birth plan. He wants everything to be perfectly planned and scheduled for the arrival of their little one.

He takes it upon himself to fulfill every single one of her cravings. He becomes her "master chef", whipping up all sorts of weird food combinations she asks for, even if it means making a peanut butter and pickle sandwich at 3 a.m.

Logan insists on attending every doctor's appointment with Quinn, taking copious notes and asking the doctor a million questions. He's determined to be the most involved and informed dad ever.

As Quinn's baby bump grows, Logan becomes the ultimate protector. He's constantly fretting over her well-being, making sure she doesn't lift heavy objects, and even wrapping her in bubble wrap (metaphorically) to ensure nothing happens to their little one.

Logan starts talking to Quinn's baby bump, telling stories, singing lullabies, and even playing his favorite songs. He's convinced the baby can hear him and wants to establish a bond before they even arrive.

But he does not neglects Quinn, he pays just as much attention to her.

When it comes to baby shopping, Logan goes all out. He insists on buying the most comfy and safe stroller, the comfiest crib, and the cutest baby clothes. He spends hours meticulously researching and comparing products, determined to provide the best for his little family.

Logan becomes a master at assembling baby furniture... after many fails. He spends countless afternoons putting together the crib until he figures out how that thing works, changing tables, and rocking chairs. He'd usually hire someone to do the job for him, but he wanted to do this himself, no matter how frustrating it became, it was worth it.

As Quinn's due date approaches, Logan becomes a nervous wreck. He's constantly checking his phone, ready to rush to the hospital at a moment's notice. He even has a fully packed hospital bag prepared for both Quinn and himself, complete with snacks, a change of clothes, and a camera to capture every moment.

When the day finally arrives, Logan is a ball of nerves and excitement. He paces the hospital waiting room, wearing a path into the floor, until finally, he gets the news that Quinn is in labor.

He practically sprints to her side, holding her hand and whispering words of encouragement throughout the whole process.

And when their little bundle of joy finally enters the world, Logan's heart swells with love and pride. He can't help but cry tears of joy, overwhelmed with emotions as he holds his baby for the first time, promising to be the best dad they could ever ask for.

It's definitely the happiest day of their life, and once home, they can hardly take their eyes off their baby, so thankful to have them there, unable to contain the infinite amount of love their feel for them.

And that's most of my quogan pregnancy headcanons, hope you liked them.

[wordy-little-witch]

More age regression stuff for One Piece

Now with additional stuff!!!!

Buggy's favored activities while regressed are most definitely atypical. He doesn't have a set age range, given that he... honestly had to grow up so quickly even before Roger swept him into his fold, he doesn't know. All he does know is that sometimes words and coordination are harder, sometimes he'll be more stable, sometimes he's needy, but all the time he's ever so slightly on edge in some capacity. At best he's one mistake from a meltdown; at worst, he's a feral critter.

He really really really loves the trapeze. Big or Little, the motion and feelings are AMAZING. If Buggy is small and you can't find him, he's either hiding somewhere dark and small or he's high off the ground.

He's also a stimmy baby. Textures and colors and lights and motions, he's thriving. But once he hits his input limit, he hits it hard and it's explosive. It takes time for him to realize when Enough is Enough. ((Mihawk is the one to clock that... maybe this is more than simple, typical sensory seeking behavior. Maybe it's self stimulation and self soothing as well. ((Mihawk, looking at Buggy: Fellow Autistic????))/hj))

Buggy has a Way with animals. Whether that way is Good or Bad varies seemingly on the most comical result, but Crocodile's fruitwanis have seemingly decided that Buggy is one of Theirs and it's as hilarious as it is adorable as it is mind boggling. ((Later on, the humandrills decide much the same to everyone's absolute exasperation and confusion.))

It actually took him a Very long time to be open to pacifiers. The concept was foreign to him and he made do up until that point anyway so why even bother? It only was actually attempted after Mihawk realized a lot of Buggy's quieter days coincided with gnawing on things like his toys or fingers or, on one memorable occasion, Crocodile's coat hem. The germs alone left the swordsman shivering in revulsion. First came a teether, which was wonderful. But sometimes he'd catch Buggy still Antsy and unable to communicate it.

One impulsive decision later, he is handing a box over to Buggy after a meeting with a comment along the lines of "I debated the logistics of this for a deal of time before committing - at any rate, here, I believe this may prove useful if you are amenable to trying."

And it's a soft lavender pacifier with little pastel circus designs painted and sealed on it. Buggy is stunned. Buggy is flustered. Buggy is confused.

He's not against it, though.

Turns out, once you get past the weird feeling of something new, it's Perfect. Buggy turns out to definitely be varied, but when he's on the smaller end so far as he or others can tell, he is definitely a binky baby.

That first one from Mihawk is definitely his favorite though.

Not that the rest are forgotten of course. Baby Bugs has a fan club and they fight for Bragging Rights /hj

His favorite - and, frankly, first age appropriate - toy for his regression came from Shanks who will lord it over everyone ever that HE was the first favorite for quite some time, barring a Captain Shaped Hole in both their hearts.

His favorite outfit is from Alvida, which is technically not an outfit at all and was initially a gag gift. It's women's pajama shorts - pastel pink with blue polka dots - and a sleep shirt a size or two too big, baby blue with pink comic sans font saying "Candy Queen" across the chest. Neither have tags and both are INCREDIBLY soft. Buggy loves them. Comfort for regressing is Required and he doesn't always have to have That One Outfit to be small, but he always wants soft clothes when he's little and, if given a chance, wants his "candy c'othes".

Cabaji and Mohji fight over it to this day over who gives the best books or stories. It's a tie, and nobody has the heart to tell them that Ritchie actually picks the best books while they argue loudly in the children's section of book stores.

Galdino faces no contest of best blanket giver. He knits them himself and only uses Buggy Approved Yarn, stolen ethically from marine bases. He also unofficially hosts the best tea parties. Yes, he's smug about it.

But Witchy, you may ask. What does that leave for Crocodile?

Well

Buggy's favorite nap spot is Crocodile - or near him at the very least. It's difficult for him to explain no matter the headspace, but Crocodile is currently the closest and most familiar behavior to what he knows and remembers - in all of the good ways. Crocodile doesn't often raise his voice; he is firm but gentle when correcting something; he's big, warm, and he will not hesitate to scoop Buggy up like a toddler. He's also got that good, healthy muscle that is equal parts firm and soft, his sand is cozy, and he lets Buggy "steal" his coat for Mischief and also snuggles.

Mihawk is the best at surprise gifts, and, to the surprise of almost everyone - himself included - he's the best at games, snacks and actually getting Buggy to calm down or relax. If Bug's in a good mood already, Mihawk is the beat at keeping the mood up and keeping Buggy relatively safe and steady. On rougher days, the swordsman's efficient and quick actions are comfortably steadfast, and he handles Buggy's tantrums, meltdowns, etc with grace. And somehow, even on the worst of days, Mihawk is Buggy's PERSON.

((And, on days where things are a little fuzzier, when Buggy's lips are a little looser, he confesses how Mihawk reminds him of Rayleigh in the good ways, how Crocodile reminds him of Crocus, how Shanks reminds him of Roger - how each of them have all the good, safe things he associates with that time without the ickier bits.))

Buggy is spoiled, because he DESERVES to be ((and because I wish I was, so blorbo is next best thing-))

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🫶A bio for Bea?

Ended up long so under the cut!

Name: Beatrice "Bea" Marie Pines

Age: 30, 12, 6. All technically true, but mostly acts and looks 12 so let's go with that.

History: Created through impregnating Ford through magic whipped up by Bill a mere few weeks before the portal test incident that severed their 'working relationship'. Ford was left pregnant for nearly 25 years on the other side of the portal as Bill had manipulated the gestation time as a threat, on top of the baby being half Euclidian so it was unpredictable- but wasn't able to change it when the connection between them was lost through dimensions. She was born through an emergency c-section during an attempted heist to get parts for the Destabilizer. Raised on the run, her aging seemed to be doubled, so by one year old she looked and acted like she was two, by two she looked and acted four, ect. Whether it was due to being half an energy being, a side effect of the extended pregnancy, or even something to do with jumping dimensions, no one can really say, but it seemed to stabilize when she was around other children in Gravity Falls when they were pulled back 'home'.

Personality: Highly intelligent and endlessly creative but with a habit of laser-focusing on whatever she's thinking of. Growing up as the 'sidekick' to Ford led her to extremely gung-ho when it came to adventuring, as well as somewhat socially awkward as she's never really interacted with anybody her own age on a regular basis- or had any friends other than her father. She often bites off more than she can chew, sometimes forgetting which memories are hers and which were Ford's as her abilities allowed her an open door to his head. (Although he does quickly learn how to build walls she can't get around, it's an unconscious instinct for her to 'share' even before birth, and she's more than once realized that the experience she thought she had wasn't actually hers, and she has to wing it.) Still, she'll always be in the thick of solving it and her somewhat reckless bravery can come in handy.

She keeps the fact that her other parent was Bill a secret, leaving her goggles on even when she sleeps until Dipper and Mabel find out soon after the events of Last Mabelcon when the goggles are torn off when she's trying to protect them. She feels deep-down guilt and fear at the idea she might be like Bill and might hurt people, and tries her best to be 'good' and 'the hero' in hopes that it'll stave off any 'Bill-ness' in her actions, although she only has secondhand accounts and memories of him, most of which Ford tries to keep locked away. (Even deeper down, she wonders if Bill ever actually wanted her as a daughter or just as a tool to manipulate Ford. She first meets him during Weirdmageddon, and then decides that even if he did, it doesn't really matter, because he hurt her family.)

Powers: Ability to shift into a small triangle form, can float in said form but can only hold up herself or very small objects that she's carrying. Her 'mind' powers are mostly centered around Ford at first as the pregnancy gave her a direct connection, but with time she's able to enter other people's dreams and give them 'suggestions' that they tend to follow once they wake up. Can turn food or even garbage into fuel for herself as her insides are essentially a giant furnace, which isn't really a power but is kinda cool. Can use a gun/knife/practiced in hand-to-hand combat.

Future: After Weirdmageddon is reversed, she ends up staying in the Shack with Soos and his grandma for a while after Stan and Ford go out sailing together, as she wants (and needs) to learn who she is outside of him and to get the chance to be a 'normal' kid. When The Book of Bill shows up as what appears to be a scrapbook of the three of them (Bill, her, and Ford) as a happy family and promises of making it happen, she's incredibly suspicious but she decides to go and visit him in Theraprism anyway, for closure if nothing else. He's a pathetic mess that's pretending not to be, but there's a nagging at her like pressing at a loose tooth and she returns every once in a while as he seems to be attempting to improve, and remembers things about her she's mentioned from visit to visit in the process.

She remains suspicious at first but slowly builds a relationship with him, discovering that time works strangely there and decades are passing for Bill in between each visit of hers. Eventually, he's allowed to be given a human form and taken into the care of the family, with warning buttons given to everyone to alert the Theraprism if he needs to be brought back into custody. The rest of the family is still understandably very wary, but by that point she's come around to him.

When she grows up, she becomes a traveling anthropologist and cryptozoologist, comparing human cultures and often finding local cryptids in each location.

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That popular Twitter account (Goj over) saying REST IN HELL SUKUNA getting a lot of support, while that same person wanted kenjaku to come back...what's with the double standards? Kenjaku hurt women and children in the most twisted way yet he deserves to live? At this point, just bring gojo AND Kenjaku and have Kenjaku kill gojo in the most awful possible, watch them change their tune

Sorry for the rant lol

Don't worry about ranting at all! I understand how you feel completely.

When I was first getting into the JJK fandom, it was mostly because of Sukuna edits. I liked his character from the very start, even though people were really quick to call Sukuna fans (especially the Sukuita shipping ones) delusional or toxic. And a lot of Gojo fans would overrun the comment sections, saying that Gojo is better than Sukuna in every way.

When I watched videos analyzing Sukuna's character, for example, a lot of the responses to the videos would be something along the lines of "Sukuna is straight-up pure evil and can't be seen as any other way." And after Gojo's death, so many people were showing Sukuna hate more than ever.

What I find bothering about this, though, isn't that most of the JJK fandom likes Gojo way more than any other character - what I truly dislike is how disrespectful and contradicting some of those Gojo fans can be. I have read so many posts made by them that insult Gege, mock Sukuna fans, and insist that the only way for JJK to "redeem" itself is for Gojo to come back.

While I try to have a healthy respect for everyone in a fandom, I don't like when certain fans go out of their way to be toxic, rude, or forceful with their opinions. Especially when they don't seem to have such a good grasp on a lot of the reasons why Gojo isn't that great - not morally and not as an overall character.

Fans often neglect that Gojo is mean to others, selfish, arrogant, self-righteous, disrespectful to all kinds of people, too immature at times, and willing to disregard the value of other people's lives, including his own students. He has put Yuuji and the others in danger so many times, without any real good reason why, and he shows off more than he does teach.

I don't mean to disrespect his character at all, but these are his actual canon traits. Even if the fans like to headcanon him differently (which I respect) they can't use those arguments when comparing him to Sukuna, who they always characterize as selfish, arrogant, disrespectful, and dismissive of the value of other people's lives.... sound familiar?

Sukuna and Gojo share a lot of these negative traits in common. Both of them are obsessed with their own strength and so easily disvalue others for not beings as powerful. Yes, Sukuna is by far the most murderous and stereotypically evil of the two, and I would describe most of his actions as heartless and cruel, but Gojo's own bad traits can't simply be dismissed just because those fans like him better and because he's fighting on the side of "good."

He's been described as an antihero for a reason, and that's because he's self-absorbed and doesn't really care for anyone but himself. He wants to take down the higher-ups of the Jujutsu world, but doesn't really acknowledge how he himself being born to such intense power is also a curse of that system. He is part of the problem, both with his actions and ideals, and fans don't want to acknowledge it.

I think they're scared that by admitting his faults he automatically becomes a character you have no right to like anymore, just like how Sukuna antis say because of Sukuna's evil actions he doesn't deserve to be empathized with or liked. This inaccurate line of thinking comes mostly from the large anti culture that's been taking over tumblr and pretty much everywhere else now.

I would also like to point out that so many fans are really angry about Gojo dying, but his death actually makes sense in the story and he himself looked quite at peace with it. Bringing him back doesn't really make any sense.

I like Gojo. Even if I don't find his character unique, I still think he serves a purpose in the story and I like what Gege has done with him. Him losing to Sukuna was meant to happen. For me, the end battle should be between Sukuna and Yuuji, because Yuuji alone has the strongest connection with the King of Curses and this whole story started with him swallowing that cursed finger. Gojo really shouldn't have anything to do with this.

But these are just my thoughts. People are more than free to disagree with me, that's what being in a fandom means, but they should show respect about this and not act so overwhelmingly toxic to others who think differently. That's my only problem with them.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me!

[aspiring-holistic-otaku]

Season 2 Ramble#6 - Just Jump In! ver.2

This month’s episode is about Shueisha publishing company's JUMP magazine line. you can use the link above or check the link in my bio to listen on other platforms 🍻

first some bare bones Jump basics:

What is JUMP? - JUMP is a magazine line with hella content for hella demographics and for the record they're not all comics, shueisha is actually a pretty diverse publishing company

Today though, we'll only be looking at two of their products. the Weekly Shonen Jump(WSJ) magazine, in print since 1968 with a main target audience of young boys, shonen literally being japanese for young boy, as well as their SHONEN JUMP+ app, which first launched in 2014 and has a main target audience of older adolescent lads.. The original + app is in Japanese as far as I understand but they released a follow up in 2019 simply called MANGA+.. also even though they have "main" target audiences they both have works that try to appeal to wider demographics + things sometimes move between lines or even appear on both at the same time.

This month I purposefully read manga from different time periods which gave rise to one mini section and three main sections which i’ll describe as I get to them

NOW JUMPING RIGHT IN!

New Manga Read This Month

mini section

Was this axed? Why was this axed?:

top 1

Magu chan: god of destruction(Kei Kamiki, 2020, 78 chapters)

this story follows the main heroine ruru after she finds and accidently unseals the now weakened god of destruction mag MENUek. not the best art or really the deepest characters but it's a gag manga. actually didn't think I'd enjoy this at all but it's pretty funny, got a lot of genuine hearty laughs pretty much every chapter... (pretty decent run at 78 chapters but after I finished I couldn't believe it got axed, definitely would've liked more but ironically it probably got axed because of folks like me...)

honourable mentions:

hell warden higuma, ginka & gluna, neolation

Ok so "main" sections now, starting with

Way Way Back (1960s - 1980s):

top 1

Mazinger Z (Gou Nagai,1972, 33 chapters)[Devilman Crybaby]

The story here is our mc, KOUji KAbuto, has a genius grandad who built the most powerful robot ever, Mazinger Z, but he dies in a sudden devastating earthquake before he can teach him how to use it. The only thing he's able to tell him before he passes is that with the robot comes power and with that power comes a choice, to be a god that saves humanity or a devil that destroys the earth.

Right off the bat the art wasn’t anything great or even particularly good but with really old stuff, especially things aimed at children, I think simpler art styles are to be expected. I did really like the robot designs tho, nothing too slick or fancy but they had an old quaint vibe like awww look at what grandpa drew…

The characters weren’t much either, as I said stupid simple story, giant robots doing cool giant robot stuff, so most of what would be the story of most characters was already in their designs like you see the main character and know they're the main character because he has that cool spiky cyborg 009 hairstyle etc.

not much more to say, kinda funny, surprisingly bloody given my perception of the time period and what I thought their perception of media was, especially media intended for kids.. but yh,, the whole manga can be summed up with giant robots have always been pretty cool… grain of salt though for those who plan to check it out, yes I thought it an enjoyable read but it was really only my top 1 because I could pretty much only find two things to read from this time period as the older manga are almost impossible to find on the internet.

honourable mention:

Dr.Slump (Akira Toriyama , 1980, 236 chapters)

Wasn't That Just The Other Day? (1990s - 2010s):

top 1

Bakuman(Oh! Great, 2008, 176 chapters)

Actually not my first time trying this, started back in hs but stopped for reasons I can't recall, I only remember thinking it was excellent which makes it all the more confusing but in any case I started over from the jump and I'm really glad I did.

This is a manga about making manga. I'm telling you man these Japanese dudes will make a manga about anything. trust.. Anyways the story here follows two main characters Mashiro and Takagi, and starts with them about to enter highschool. Takagi is the smartest in school since day one, expected to excel in life, and Mashiro has nothing. no goals or ambitions. he's just trying to come to terms with the mundane normalcy of life and society's expectations of what that should looks like. one day Mashiro leaves a book at school and Takagi, who unbeknownst to anyone is an aspiring writer, finds it full of amazing art and begs him to team up and make manga… Will they make it? and what exactly does it take to make it anyways? what even is "it"? (find out next time on read the manga and see!!)

Two things initially pulled me all those years ago, one, was a morbid curiosity, like I just couldn't fathom a manga about making manga being good in an entertaining way. like yh it's probably mad educational and it was, but as much as you can learn from any media the main reason I'm reading manga is to be entertained. two, oh! great did death note and again I just couldn't fathom the jump from mystery thriller about police vs death gods to this but man did they pull it off in style

First thing first the art was phenomenal as those familiar with oh! great works would expect. and I have to be clear, when I say oh! great does great art I mean Takeshi Obata does great art. oh! great is a duo between him and Tsugumi Ooba who did an equally good job on the story. like he basically showed us how the proverbial sausage is made without making us disinterested in the sausage. It actually instilled such a deeper appreciation for the process that I feel like all manga I read after this will be that much more enriching. especially shonen as the different creators in story debate and create what they think the genre should look like.

Great cast of characters, funny, serious, rivals, people you hated, people you loved, great sub plots that had them all interacting in a nice dynamic way, like it didn't feel like the two mcs were the cause and effect of everything. Great pacing as well as we get to see their journey from just trying something in highschool to getting their foot in the door in later years and so on. didn't feel rushed or dragged, it was nice to see a lot of the little ups and downs of life instead of just a cycle between highlights and rock bottoms.

I have to give fair warning and say it's pretty text heavy. even for something that's not kick and punch cause most of the time they're plotting out some manga or something but Obata really does a great job here making good use of panels and even speech bubble placement so it never really feels crowded unless it's meant to illustrate something like an argument or so. it also helped that despite his usual pretty realistic art style, he allowed characters to be toony when needed to lighten the mood or heighten some expression in just the right way

Honestly it's still so crazy that they pulled it off and pulled it off so well. I think ultimately it was the humanity of it that really tied everything together,, like yh they're manga artist but they're human first, and it's their human experiences that in the end feed into the art.

Talked a lot on this one.. that's why it was top 1 ig.. as usual I don't think I can speak enough to why exactly it's so great but yh… definitely highly recommend even if only out of morbid curiosity like you're thinking,, no way a manga about making manga is good. it is.

honourable mentions:

level e (Yoshihiro Togashi, 1995, 16 chapters),

Cowa!(Akira Toriyama, 1997, 14 chapters)

Hoshin Engi (...lol not that honourable ig)

...also just want to squeeze in that I actually tried bobobobo and wow… my brain may never recover…

What's Up Today? (2010s - present)

top 1

Astra Lost in Space (Kenta Shinohara on story & art, 2016, 53 chapters)

9 kids are brought to a nearby planet for a routine unsupervised camping trip as part of their highschool graduation. The future is wild. As plot convenience would have it, something goes wrong and they end up stranded in space. A rough enough situation on its own, but to make matters worse, the group finds signs that what happened was no accident and that the perpetrator is still among them..

Honestly a simple setup and premise, literally Lost but in space… not that I've actually watched lost but yh. anyways for as simple as the plot is the entire story wrapped up in 53 chapters anyways and they honestly squeezed every drop out of it that they could. What really stood out to me was how balanced it all felt.

As in the premise of being intentionally stranded is by no means unique but I feel like a lot of the media I've consumed around that tend to lean into one aspect more than others, like it becomes mostly about the mystery trying to find "whodunnit", or the focus becomes the sense of adventure, exploring the unknown and all that oor,, how it goes more commonly, in my experience at least, is a portrayal of the harshness of survival in the physical or mental sense.

I don't think there's anything wrong with that btw, the premise of being lost is used in many genres and it's up to the author to decide how much they want to lean into any genre. for example drifting net cafe, suicide island and dragon head are some lost horror type beats I've read, enjoyed and would definitely recommend.

In any case as I was saying about Astra lost in space, cause that's what I should be talking about here… is I loved how balanced it all was. Yes they're stranded and have to survive but it's not so overbearing that we can't take in the adventure of the unknown and yes we're seeing all these cool sights and different hypothetical evolutionary paths in space but also let's all be aware that one of us is probably plotting a murder yk? what tied this all up were the characters themselves like they felt really natural, yh a lot was going on but they're still just kids and they were sent out for a camping trip in the first place so come hell or high water they were gonna have some amount of fun or die trying. not that everyone was always on the same page and they didn't have disagreements and drama and so on but their individual quirks and character traits converged and diverged masterfully for a beautiful dynamic between the cast amongst themselves, and between the cast and their environment.

great cast and direction as I said, pretty standard art, nothing too crazy but it did what it needed to do, I also liked the little 4 panel bonus comics they did every now and then as well, all in all a pretty great read with some pretty neat twists I won't even allude to for fear of spoilers, especially for how short it was but yh, astra lost in space top 1 new read this month…

honourable mentions:

Akane Banashi(Yuuki SUEnaga doing the story & Takamasa Moue on art, 2022, ongoing 71 chapters)

'Tis time for "torture" princess ( Robinson haruhara on story and hirakei on art, 2019, ongoing 196 chapters)

Sakamoto Days(Yuuto Suzuki , 2020, ongoing 128 chapters),

ok now we're heading into

Manga Read Before This Month

(here I'll give less detail cause I would have mentioned a few of these repeatedly before + I want more of the shine on newer stuff tbh)

mini section

Was this axed? Why was this axed?:

top 1

Psyren(Toshiaki lwashiro, 2007, 151 chapters)

people are going missing and a secret society called psyren seems to be responsible. won't go farther than that but will say it's held up as one of the best shonen works I've ever read since the first time I read it in like 9 or 10th grade. still in disbelief that it was canceled cause you can barely tell when you read it. it's only after I finished it and was looking into some things I realised.

honourable mentions:

ayashimon, phantom seer, black torch

main sections

way way back (1960s - 80s):

top 1

Dragon Ball(Akira Toriyama, 520 chapters,1984)

don't think I need to say much here but I mention the sandwich of technique in the episode.

honourable mentions:

JJBA part1-3, Saint Seiya, city hunter

wasn't that just the other day (1990s - 2010s)

top 1

Rookies(Morita Masanori, 1998, 233 chapters)

delinquent baseball, real heartwarming story, great art cast and pacing, masanori really takes the cake when it comes to the delinquent aesthetic but yh… was my #2 in s1 ramble 12 & #3 in s1 ramble 1

honourable mentions:

eyeshield 21, slam dunk, Yu yu hakusho

what's up today? (2010s - present)

chainsaw man (tatsuki fujimoto, 2018, 137 ongoing)

look at the title lol

honourable mentions

fire punch, Tokyo ghoul series, My hero academia

other folks to check out on twitter:

https://twitter.com/KushiKuritikaru?t=2Tn-79ub0XyUqWM3XgEFWA&s=09

https://twitter.com/manga_crash?t=FzKQrpvb_rFwxHIe13Sqbw&s=09

then as usual I do a little part 2 where I ramble a bit 😅

thanks for reading so far, hope there's something that caught your fancy 🍻🍻🍻

[ceescedasticity]

Unforsaken, 7d

Or possibly 8a? I'm not sure… This isn't a writing speedup, more a 'reached some stuff I've had written for a while'.

(All sections on tumblr)

(AO3, lagging behind but more polished)

Back to Imladris, and back up:

Celegorm heads off to check out the state of things in Gundabad, promising to be back before winter. Whiterot tags along just to get out of Imladris.

Turgon and Sharlinnu stay.

Sharlinnu wants to spend more time with Khitwê and Risyind, and talk more about Pelndoru.

(She also feels like getting used to the weirdness of Imladris might help in getting her nerves up to try the Sea, after the quest.)

(Or she supposes if the quest succeeds it won't be necessary to jump into the Sea?)

Turgon really wants to get to know his great-grandchildren — and his grand-nieflings.

This is awkward for the twins and (via palantír) Arwen, but they make an effort.

It's much less awkward for Khitwê and Risyind, unsurprisingly.

And he can tell them (somewhat sanitized) stories about their parents!

Turgon also wants to get over his own awkwardness with Glorfindel. At least try to.

Some interpersonal tension is going to be unavoidable but this, he can work on.

It helps that they have a ready topic of discussion in all the details Turgon doesn't know about the last 7500 years in Middle-earth and what Glorfindel knows of Aman.

Asking questions about Aman is complicated by orc mental blocks, but Turgon can at least listen.

Speaking of interpersonal tension!

As summer becomes autumn, Maglor has had several months of food, shelter, rest, and motivation, and is looking much less pitiful.

Celeborn's patience is waning. He knows he has to put up with Maglor but he thinks at the very least an apology is called for.

For his part Maglor isn't going out of his way to annoy Celeborn but he isn't making any particular effort to be conciliatory, either.

(Maglor has regrets. He has things he wishes he hadn't done, or had done, and a lot of things he doesn't think he could have done differently but which he still wishes hadn't happened. The Second Kinslaying was an atrocity whether or not they had a choice.)

(He's still not planning to grovel to Celeborn.)

Glorfindel feels like maybe he should do something? But he's not really inclined to get tangled up in Fëanorian or Iathrin pride.

Elladan and Elrohir feel like it's kind of their place to do something, but they aren't sure what.

Celeborn is their grandfather who's been there for them their entire lives.

Maglor… isn't. They don't know Maglor, or didn't before this — they never met him before, and Elrond seldom spoke of him, at least to them. But they know Elrond cared deeply for Maglor, and tried to find him in the little time he had after Sauron's fall. They're about 90% sure Elrond consulted with Mithrandir and Galadriel on taking Maglor West, and would have tried it if he only could have found him. So pretty clearly Elrond would want them to accept Maglor if there wasn't a new reason not to. Besides, they do like who he seems to be now. (Mostly.)

So clearly the desirable thing is peaceful coexistence and cooperation if not forgiveness, but that's hard to achieve when both of them are acting like toddlers about this there's so much pride involved.

Also both of them evidently think Elladan and Elrohir are Sweet Summer Children Too Young and Just Can't Understand, and are clearly only humoring their mediation attempts, which is really fucking annoying becoming tiresome.

As a temporary measure Elrohir takes Celeborn along to the Havens to brief Círdan on… everything.

Círdan has… complicated feelings about what they have to say.

On the one hand, destroying the Crucible and freeing the orcs is something the Wise have wanted to do for millennia. This is a breakthrough.

(Randeth is safe but there is no doubt he knows other people trapped there.)

On the other hand… He really wishes this had happened earlier — sometime when the twins couldn't reasonably claim to be in the top ten best-qualified people to tackle this. But children grow up (like their parents and grandparents did).

On neither of those hands, he knew Turgon well enough to be grieved on hearing he'd been seen as an orc, and is… relieved, probably? that he seems to be doing… well? If that's the right word?

Also on neither hand, he is less sympathetic than Celeborn might have hoped about the whole Maglor thing.

At any rate, he carefully notes everything they've learned just in case it falls to someone else to make use of it, and tells them to be careful, and to ask him if there's anything they need he might be able to provide.

After they've retired (Celeborn considerably later than Elrohir, after a lengthy rant about Fëanorian obstinacy), Círdan goes down to the water's edge.

"You all are planning to help with this, I hope," Círdan says to the Sea and those beyond it.

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"We are planning to help with this, I hope?"

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The break, sadly, does not measurably improve Celeborn and Maglor's willingness to get along.

Well, they only have to put up with it until Celeborn (and others to be decided) go south to help, right?

…

Elladan changes the locks on the wine cellar and starts withholding the key whenever he judges "feelings are running high".

(Maglor can pick locks. Slightly more surprisingly, Celeborn can also pick locks. However, neither of them is willing to risk getting caught breaking into Elrond's wine cellar. They'd never live it down.)