#Only to suffer I guess.
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Reverse! AU where most of them don't have no killing code, and Jason is a priest 🧍♂️
Vampire king Dick's dad was Edward Cullen Battinson trust me
#father Todd crying in an ultimate devilish house#and the fact Damian sold his soul to the devil doesn't help at all#well at least father Todd is not Van Helsing so he could suffer living with a vampire i guess#but he hate clowns#so that's a no to Bruce the clownie#how funny Jason would love being around the only human being Timothy Drake lol#WHAT WOULD AFRED SAY#batfam#bruce wayne#richard grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#dcu
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i have to be so real. sometimes you have to outright not give a shit what the author thinks. i’m not saying to disregard how a character is portrayed and give into fanon characterisations but sometimes i will see fans be like “(head writer) omggg do you think this character is a good person?” “how would this character react if xyz happened?” as though that’s not a question you can and have to answer for yourself.! any character can contain multitudes and if you keep limiting your perception of them solely on word of god its not fun for the writer or even yourself anymore. THINK FOR YOURSELF. INVENT NEW WAYS TO FUCK YOUR FAVORITE CHARACTERS OVER
#put that bitch in situations and frustrate yourself as you figure out how they would react in character#and be critical of how you’re doing so and second guess and wonder is this right#and then examine your blorbo’s behaviour to come to your own conclusion!#you can only say “they would NOT say that” if they say it first !!!!#this is not even necessarily about illario but its sort of about him#its really about a pacific rim character bc as i trawl through travisbeacham’s tumblr dot com#trying to read about lore its like ‘is chuck a good person’ WHO CARESSSS. WHAT DO YOU THINK#how have YOU reacted to him? and take yourself out of the equation— what makes his character unappealing in a meta way?#how do people in-universe think of him?#i think all these questions could of course also apply to illario#who suffers hard from ‘players take him at face value’ despite many pointers to more shit going on behind the scenes#of course this statement applies to the larger audience#bc everyone who fucking follows me here or is mutuals with me loves that freak too#anywyas. i ahve to go hibernate again . i have a real job#txt
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Alternate Totk headcanon: Puppet Zelda won and and broke Link. He got entirely consumed by hatred and despair and is beyond saving now. No hope, no heart, unredeemable. Link is Puppet Zelda's corrupted knight. He is Dark Link.
#my art#zelink#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#breath of the wild#zelda fanart#loz fanart#zelda#princess zelda#puppet zelda#zelda angst#I love making Link suffer#Puppet Zelda's Corrupted Knight#Im a bad person#I'm either wholesome or angsty AF. Guess how i feel tonight#Link becomes Dark Link throughout the events of Totk#Champion tunic pattern was branded by puppet zelda herself with gloom and fire#He is hers now#Unimaginable pain... but Link made no sound. There was only the sound of his melting flesh.#i am puppet zelda's puppet#sheik fangirl
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Ugh I'm so sleepy. Eepy man. Enjoy this shit I cooked up in ten minutes.
You wake up, only to find yourself just as tired as you were a few hours ago. Your eyelids are heavy, and you're fighting back sleep with every blink. Exhaustion wracking your body with every movement.
You feel Simon groan and sit up next to you.
"Mmm... five more minutes?" You mumble sleepily, shivering at the sudden lack of warmth.
"'M sorry love, we've gotta get up"
"Please? I'm so tired..." You whine quietly
"Negative," he says, chuckling at your miserable pout.
"Please, Si?" You say it so sweetly. The nickname you rarely used. His weakness.
A moment passes before you finally hear a response.
"Fine."
You grin, knowing that you've won. He lays back down and wraps his arm around you, pulling your back to his chest. You close your eyes and sleep quickly overtakes you.
Of course, it was never just 'five more minutes'. Simon called your work shortly after and informed them that you wouldn't be coming in today. However that works.
#I'm actually so tired it's unreal#Dying out here#Ofc I didn't get to take the day off. I have to suffer#Who knew exhaustion was what would make me write smt#That's crazy#Got less than 2 hours of sleep#Which actually normally doesn't bother me#But I guess it adds up over time#*shocked pikachu face*#If only I had a Simon in my life#simon ghost riley#cod x reader#ghost x reader#ghost x gn reader#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley x gn reader
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silly silly silly
#spoilers#katfl spoilers#star crossed spoilers#my art#should I still tag spoilers for those who didnt see the trailer? idk#CHAAAT CHAT I WONT BE ABLE TO PLAY THE DLC 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#literally will not be able to unless I wait and save money#which there will already be three new kirby games before I have the chance to play the dlc#guess I'll watch playthroughs 😔#god I wish the dlc was on the first switch#LIKE WHY SPLIT THE DLC ONTO ANOTHER CONSOLE#Im sorry but no matter how much I like kirby I ain't spending that much money#or I could. y'know. yo ho ho...aaarrgh...ahoy me mateys...#anywho.#if it turns out there's no galacta I'm leaving the internet for good. shame on me for feuling the idea#I hope meta knight gets involved and gets in trouble#GOOD! THATS WHAT YOU GET FOR SUMMONIGN THIS GUY ONLY TO TAKE HIS TITLE AND SEAL HIM BACK INTO A CRYSTAL#LEAVE DEDEDE OUT OF THIS#hes had enough!!!!!#make meta suffer instead!!!!!!
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maybe im a little late but this trend was literally made for them trust
#not ship please dont tag it as such !!!! ^_^’#i think melanie and dreamer/folly are really interesting to explore#i really like the idea that they were close friends before the cleave :]#but after that; folly couldnt stand to see someone so close to her still get to have everything while she could only suffer#though maybe a part of her killed melanie out of mercy. she wanted to make sure her old friend didnt have to live in such a cruel world#unless she was revived i guess 🤷♂️#melanie cant even remember the good days with dreamer anymore. only the pain#i love fucked up platonic angst !!!! immediately gets shot#ok anyways. the lipsyncing is a little fucked because i dont do this often sorry#regretevator#regretevator fanart#regretevator melanie#regretevator folly#regretevator dreamer#roblox#roblox fanart#roblox regretevator
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Pain reminds us that we are alive or something I guess
#kell maresh#or more like Kay I guess in this one#adsom#the fragile threads of power#tftop spoilers#his whole magic and pain ordeal is driving me nuts someone get a cure for this boy's problem I can't watch him suffer anymore#<- my personal thoughts but also said by Lila at some point probably#I am only halfway through tftop btw so if they do find a solution for it please don't tell me fhskdgkshd#a darker shade of magic#shades of magic#v e schwab#art#shrews art#rkgk#I really rushed this one but I'm still happy with it so that's a win I guess <3#on an unrelated note how are you guys?#I wanna draw Tes next
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#tetro danganronpa pink#tetro danganronpa#warrior cats au#warrior cats#tetro pink#tetro cats#tetro cats au#chiba airi#airi chiba#CHIBA IM SO SORRY YOUR OG DESIGN WAS ASSSSS#i had NO idea what i was doing back then. i did you wrong girl#made her proportions look like an actual munchkin cat rather than whatever it was i did back then#why did i make her bow like dark grey what...#SO much prouder of this design id like to think i did her justice this time#anyways some details! as a munchkin cat she suffers from a lot of health issues such as! arthritis! hip problems! heart problems! etc etc#essentially a stand-in for the malnutrition and health-related stuff she faced in canon. soooo do with that what you will#pretty sure shes the only canon 'breed' in the cast#unless you count okazaki i guess but even then she probably just has like. mange or smthn idk#cats#my art
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i wish for peace in our lifetime, i wish for love to seep into every crack of this planet, i wish for it to penetrate every heart and soul. i wish for brutality to face its end, i wish for evil to turn to light. i wish for us to create such a place where cruelty cannot resurface. i wish for communities without borders, i wish for human and nature to be reunited by love and protect each other.
#kayramblies#hopeposting#hopepunk#ive been feeling very overwhelmed as of late#the state of the world will only get worse before jt gets better#despite knowing that we must stay hopeful#because only that will be the solution#its so... hard watching all the hate thrive#all the suffering increase#its so fucking overwhelming : (#i really hope we can live in a world where evil cannot reign#late night rambles#i guess
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ok but
"You can't outrun the emptiness"
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"I only remember feeling completely alone. Empty, just... endless nothingness"
my poor broken babies, I can't, I just can't


#marvel#marvel cinematic universe#mcu#thunderbolts#wandavision#sentry#robert reynolds#bob reynolds#lewis pullman#wanda maximoff#scarlet witch#elizabeth olsen#sentry x scarlet witch#bob reynolds x wanda maximoff#bob x wanda#scarletsentry#clinging to the ship crumbs I guess#even if i'm the only one who sees it#god i need them to hug tightly and never let go of each other again#they suffered so much#the way i will sob because of this movie
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Sabotage
“I see the way you look at him,” a voice startles Wille out of his reverie, “when you think he can’t see you.”
He glances over his shoulder at the man joining him in the chilly air on the terrace of Felice’s penthouse. The sounds of the party going on inside the apartment waft in through the narrow gap in the sliding door. Perhaps Wille should feel caught out or embarrassed, but he can’t be bothered. He turns back to face the Stockholm skyline.
“Sorry,” he murmurs. “I didn’t mean for you to see that either.”
Simon’s boyfriend steps closer, leans his elbows against the balustrade next to Wille. They stare at the city lights together.
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“You’re still in love with him,” Ben says after a moment, his tone more sympathetic than accusatory. It can’t be easy, Wille supposes, to start dating someone and find out that their ex is still part of their friend group, especially when their relationship had been as public as Wille and Simon’s, but Ben has never treated him with antagonism.
“I’m afraid that once you’ve started, it’s impossible to stop,” he says. The bottle of beer he’s brought with him to the terrace is cold in his hands and long since empty. He picks at the label. “But I think you already know that.” He’s seen the way Ben looks at Simon, too, and he recognises the feeling.
The corner of Ben’s mouth quirks up. “Yeah.” He looks down at his hands, a little bashful and more than a little smitten. “I do.” Good. Simon deserves nothing less than absolute devotion.
Wille takes a deep breath and releases it slowly through his mouth. “You have nothing to fear from me,” he says. “You – you’re so much better for him than I ever was.” The truth of it has long lost its sharp edge. “It’s good to see him happy. I have no intention of getting in the way of that.”
It took him and Simon a long time to get where they are now, to build something resembling a friendship on the charred wasteland left by their relationship. It’s the only good thing Wille has left. He won’t do anything to sabotage it.
The door slides open again. Laughter reaches Wille’s ears, Simon’s pearly giggles easy to pick out. Wille smiles. It’s all worth it, if he gets to hear that sometimes.
“Excuse me,” says Malin. Wille squares his shoulders, knowing his brief respite is over. “We really should get going, Your Majesty.”
#only read if you want to suffer#young royals#young royals fic#my fic#i guess i wanted to cry today#i love being sad sometimes
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autumn season
#enstars#kanata shinkai#chiaki morisawa#chiakana#just noticed kanatas room is above chiakis#delusional lmao help#kanata collecting autumn leaves that look pretty#reminds him of chiaki#noticing that autumn is here#i stay near the equator there is only 1 season what the heck is autumn#currently suffering from artblock and im just forcing myself to draw#sorrymasen#theres an illustration after this picture but im not done yet so i guess it will be another post#if i even get to finish it#if jealuc gets dandelions then chiakana gets autumn leaves
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I think it's interesting to look at the 'Mr. Bridgerton' scene as a backdrop for the eventual mirror scene. Firstly, in the fact that I think we've kind of misinterpreted it.
So many people are of the mind that scene's purpose to 'drag' Colin, but really, that scene has 3 primary functions. The first is to inform Colin that Penelope is aware of what he said of her, thus opening the door to clearing the air between them and providing an avenue for which Colin can apologize. The second is to establish the ground that they are currently on: Penelope has given up on the dream of Colin Bridgerton, in particular the perfect prince that can do no wrong, and has made it clear to him. It also creates distance between them that they will bridge.
But the third, and to me the most wrapped up in the mirror and the inner workings of their relationship is that it reveals how Penelope feels about *herself*. It's not necessarily an echo of what the ton considers her as, after all, we have a lot of evidence indicating that, for all intents and purpose, people aren't *unkind* about her, but rather that they ignore her. Audience members recognize this as Penelope's own shyness being the cause, she is often sitting off on the sidelines or not really talking to much of anyone, in the books she's referred to as the 'one who doesn't speak', and her LW business takes her away from being a character in the action of the ton to a bystander, kind of a self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts that perpetuates itself. Pen felt unseen so she became LW to have some power, but then LW herself must remain unseen and Penelope continues to be by design of her own making.
No, I think what it really reveals is that Penelope has incredibly low personal self esteem. We as a fandom has lauded that scene as her dragging Colin, saying that he's cruel and calling him Mr. Bridgerton is absolutely meant to create distance between them, but I don't think she's dragging him.
Because the person she is *actually* dragging here. . .is herself. And it is a general theme in her life. In Whistledown. Aloud. Even with Marina, when she complimented her, she assumes that she's lying. When Edwina says she's wearing a pretty dress, Penelope puts herself down and doesn't believe her, even when the compliment is genuine. In truth, Portia is not seen as being particularly unkind to Penelope. At least, speaking as someone who's mum was *awful* about my size and weight and outfits, Portia is. . .overall rather mild. She's not KIND and loving, not by a long shot, but she's also not targeting Penelope only. She's plenty mean and critical to Prudence, too, even to the point where she foists her off to her own cousin as a pawn piece. Penelope has low self esteem because of a lot of reasons, she's bullied by Cressida (I think a lot of girls are, she was pretty mean even to Daphne in S1) and her family isn't very tender to her, and she's not being pursued at every turn, but part of it is also her own perpetuation.
Listen to what she says "Of course you would never court me" "I embarrass you" "I am the laughingstock of the the ton". She sees *herself* as an embarrassment. She puts *herself* down. Arguably, more so than the ton does. She's meaner to herself than anyone else is, aside from Cressida. And honestly? Looking at Colin's face there. . .he is HURT that she considers herself this way. That she's projecting that onto him. Yes, he's hurt that he hurt her, of course he is, he never wants to hurt her. And yes, he's ashamed that he said he wouldn't court her the way he did and that in doing so, he validated her fears that she is unloved and unwanted, but also because. . .she already feels that way about herself. She's felt that way for years. And it's painful to care about someone, to see them as wonderful, and realize. . .they don't feel the same about themselves at all. I don't think Colin is out here feeling so wounded over the fact that she called him cruel and won't refer to him by first name anymore, but that he's most hurt by what she says about herself.
Because he *doesn't* see her the way she accuses. She says she never expected him of all people to be so cruel, but he feels the same way. He never expected her to be so cruel to *herself*. He wants to go somewhere private, not because she is an embarrassment, but because he wants to have a private conversation with her. Maybe assure her. Maybe explain himself. Maybe hash it out. But god Luke Newton's acting. . .he is *aching* for her. And it feels like he's going to do those lessons not in atonement for what he said (thank god) but to genuinely help his friend who thinks badly of herself. To lift her up. It's not about him at all, not about earning forgiveness, but about elevating Penelope. And that's. . .fuck, I just find that's just so heart stoppingly beautiful.
You can see, in that scene, how much he cares about her. How deeply and genuinely he adores her as a person. And just how painful it is for him to know he has validated, whether on purpose or otherwise, how poorly she feels about herself. How low her self-confidence really is. She is giving him a glimpse into the cracks of her heart, and when he sees them, he wants to reach out with both hands and make it feel better. Make her feel better.
After she says 'even when I change my entire wardrobe', he looks so fucking crushed. So 'don't say that'. So 'you really believe that?'. So 'God, I hate that you think that way'.
Because regardless of it all, he does love her. It's not romantic yet. It's not sexual yet. But he genuinely, truly, from the bottom of his heart, thinks she's wonderful. That was evident even in the 'purpose' scene. Every time Penelope opens up and reveals a facet of herself, he likes it. He likes her barbs and her dreams, he likes talking to her. He likes her. And he feels awful that he hurt her. And he feels awful that she's hurting herself. He loves her. He wants her to love herself.
And that's where the mirror scene comes in. Because the mirror scene isn't about sex, not really. Not entirely, at least. The mirror scene is about *intimacy*. The mirror scene is about being seen. Not just her seeing him, or him seeing her, but for Penelope to see *herself*. In a way, through his eyes. Because hers are biased rather negatively toward herself, which is evidenced in the 'Goodnight Mr. Bridgerton' scene, and in so many little moments we've already gotten where she's literally looking down on herself, feeling down. She doesn't necessarily *like* what's in the mirror, but he does. Because he likes *her*. And he wants to show her that he does. Show her that he finds her beautiful and have her recognize that in herself.
The 'Goodnight Mr. Bridgerton' scene is about Penelope revealing how she sees herself. The mirror scene is about Colin showing her how *he* sees her. The Goodnight scene is about Penelope thinking she means nothing to him, that he thinks of her the way she thinks of herself, that this is how everyone thinks of her, and the mirror scene is a direct response to that: No, he doesn't. No, he doesn't think she's embarrassing. No, he doesn't think she's a laughingstock. No, he doesn't think she's unappealing. And he doesn't think she should, either.
And he's going to show her that. Not just tell her, but show her. The mirror scene is so often a focus on Penelope, so much of Polin is in Penelope's focus, but approaching it from Colin's perspective and his motivations is so fulfilling, too. It's a glimpse into them in conversation, and a demonstrate of how Colin loves her. How Colin loves in general, openly and earnestly and altruistically. How he encourages her to be braver and more confident in herself, bolstering her because he just likes her *that much*. How he finds the most fulfillment and satisfaction in caring aloud. The mirror scene is a demonstration of his heart in reflection.
When Luke Newton said the first word that came to mind with the word 'Mirror' was 'Exposed', he doesn't just mean physically. He means emotionally, too.
God this couple is so fucking good.
#polin#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#Bridgerton#i love them#but honestly? i think i read too deeply into them#this is the only post about them i'll keep up#but after everything i've seen in this fandom and the promos and the synopsis- i don't think these two are friends#and i think i have given them more nuance and depth than they actually will get#and so i guess they're my dream#this version of them#the version of them that loves each other deeply and sees one another and has tenderness for each other#but everyone else in the fandom was right- we won't get this#we will get penelope needing external validation through the ton's opinion and we won't get colin being a full character#we will get a story based on suffering and holding scorecards against each other#we will get groveling and cold shoulders and drama in place of real growth#i suppose it's just sad for me#because i read so much of what i've thought of these two and i *see* the love i have for them#but bton and this fandom don't have that same love#so i have to let go of that dream#and that's for the best#but as a memento: have this#i've written a lot of love letters to this pairing- consider this one of them
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is it an unpopular opinion if i say that out of all the "___gate" theories, birthdaygate is my least favourite, like i genuinely do not like it at all
"i dont believe the duffer brothers forgot wills birthday" yeah okay but i 100% do think that sorry
its just more unnecessary angst targeted at will, like no his mother, brother, sister, and best friend didnt all suddenly forget will's birthday that is insane
#like okay mikes being a bit of an asshole right now but hes not going to ignore wills birthday entirely#if it was actually wills birthday i think he might be a bit dismissive of it but he'd definitely at least acknowledge it a few times#istg this theory is only a fan favourite to make will suffer more#like do byler fans even like either will or mike im so fr rn#sorry i respect you if you like birthdaygate promise#i understand it but i just dont find any joy in it#oh my god rant moment i need to chill#will byers#stranger things#stranger things 4#byler#? i guess i mean this is technically targeted so#mike wheeler#bc i love him#byler endgame#bc i love them
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Athena: Hee hee hee. You were so cute! ...And who's THAT fine-looking young man?
Apollo: That's Nahyuta, back when he used to smile.
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Apollo: These pictures sure bring back memories. Nahyuta is cheerfully smiling in this one. That quiet smile he gives in court now seems almost fake by comparison.
[...]
Apollo: [...] (Before he goes, I'm going to turn back time by righting the wrongs that have been done. I'm going to restore Dhurke's freedom... ...and return a real smile to Nahyuta's face! I'm going to win this case. I just have to!)
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Apollo: ......... (Dhurke, I hope you're watching. I proved your innocence... ...Nahyuta's smiling again... ...and that revolution you've always dreamed of... is finally happening.)
apollo's repeated reflections on nahyuta's smile throughout turnabout revolution and his desire to bring a real one back to his face instead of the fake one he's used up until then......augh. it's so fun to me
#fifteen years since you've seen your brother and he's acting like such a dick that you're ready to move the hell on without him#and your dad tells you that he's suffering and honestly that doesn't really explain anything at all. but#you remember the quiet gentle brother you were raised with. who's been in your memories since#before the time you could even remember anything at all. and if there's a chance that your dad is right. if there's a chance#that the brother you knew is still in there. that you might be able to bring back the smile you haven't seen in fifteen years.#then maybe all of this will be worth it.#off-topic but do you ever think about the 6-5 bad ending. where they don't prove#ga'ran guilty and apollo joins the defiant dragons with nahyuta. that was insane of them tbh#staying to help fix a legal system when the worst of everything is over is one thing. but staying when it's still at its absolute worst...#when the rebellion has been forced underground and you're eating lizards when you have an apartment and a job waiting for you#on the other side of the world. when you don't Have to be here but you are anyway....#(or. well. i guess ga'ran knows his face at that point but even still. apollo Could start over in the states if he wanted to)#i think about it sometimes. you could run but your brother is here. even after all this time#there's just something so fun to me about apollo and nahyuta only being a year apart because god they really don't remember#life without each other's existence in them do they#when they were with each other and when they were without each other later#but they always Knew the other was out there somewhere. even when they tried to forget
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take me back to eden by sleep token is mutiny duo coded in this essay i will—
specifically the chorus and the third verse fit the most, but all i can think of now is them whenever i listen to it
#☆ mel yaps .#imiss mutiny duo#zam please come back wemmbu is even more traumatized now but you can do more damage still#please let uu zam come back and wemmbu draw a line betwenn zam and rejoice because of similar features#im tweaking out so bad that episode ruined me further i think#i guess the verse 3 can also kind of be a reference to rejoice#the “we have no idea what we have until we lose it”#but that could just be me wantingto see wemmbu suffer some more#ive been only listening to sleep token chat i think im obsessed
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