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(paraphrasing an Anon Ask): "your writing is shit, I write better than you you stupid c*nt, no one reads your p*do shit"
Tell you what, hon.
You post some fics on AO3.
We'll compare them to mine.
As for no one reading my "shit" . . .
#so turned off Anon Asks because children are on the Internet unsupervised#writer#professional writer#I don't Diva often but I'll take any challenge about the quality of my writing#I can write your sorry ass into the ground honey#OH BTW my fanfics are First Drafts#they're not even polished except for spelling#I crank these muthafuckers out as is the FIRST TIME#howzabout y'all?
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Hey hey heyyy im back with another request (im the same anon who requested that yandere morgana piece u wrote, absoutely loved it btw ate it up) and i was wondering if you could write some yandere! Hwei x reader? (fanfic or headcanons is up to you!) maybe the reader is an artist as well and they bond over that? Idk man up to you, also love ur takes on characters ur legit one of the best LoL writers ive seen!!
Btw if you dont mind can i be the 🍊 anon? Ive seen other blogs have their emoji anons and i wanna be one so bad fhdbfh
Hope youre having a nice day!!
Author's Notes: Of course 🍊 anon! I would love to <3
I also got tired of making so many headcanons (believe it or not, I have more saved in my drafts), I'm going to write a one-shot. I hope you like it <3. I also appreciate that you like my work. It's especially nice to know that there's someone who enjoys what I do besides me. By the way, I think Hwei is not in the Yandere “tier list” of LoL, so from how I write him and how I see him, I assume that he is a “Normal” type, because his personality reminds me a little of Ayano from Yandere simulator jjjjjjjjjj
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Yandere! Hwei x Fem! reader
Yandere character: Hwei From the videogame/anime/manga/movie/series: League Of Legends Case: Mention of stalking, allegation of theft, robbery and kidnapping. Part: 1 of 1 Warning: Excessive text LOL
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Obedience.
You had heard that word for so long that it was already embedded in your memory. But not in the way most expected.
You hated that word, and for that same reason you almost never hung out with the teachers or students of the temple you went to.
But we are getting ahead of ourselves, we better go to the beginning.
You had been born into a family that had never been close to other nations apart from Ionia, your mother was a strict woman, sometimes bordering on abusive, who always hated temples. Especially religions… Let's say she never had good experiences with it.
And your father, oh your beloved father… He was a saint in every sense of the word. He was kind, a joker… And a smile was always on his face. He had never yelled, in fact even when he was angry, he would just sit in the corner, ignoring everything around him until his mind cooled down.
And, being an only child, your life around them was quite chaotic. While your mother always tried to stay out of her entire family situation—a rather complex issue even for you—your father was the “husband of the house,” so to speak. He was in charge of teaching you both cooking and home care in general, including carpentry and, mainly, the art of home decoration.
He always dreamed of being a great artist, but in his family it was never frowned upon for a man to make the decision to undertake such a complex world of art, because, you know… that's a “women's thing.” But anyway, a lot of things have happened since the last time you talked to your uncles and cousins so… They aren't very important in your life right now.
But do you know that it is important? Where did you study.
Your father insisted a lot on your talent with sculptures and the human form; You really liked making ceramic vases manually, so much so that from the age of 8 you made your first sculpture; It was the strange shape of a dog with small eyes and a giant nose. At the time you barely knew how to paint sculptures, and your father barely knew about sculptures, and the shape of it so… Let's say it looked more like an "alebrije" than a dog with a big nose.
But that was a long time ago, and now the only proof of that memory is the figure on your father's furniture; kept as a beautiful memory.
As time went by your sculptures became more complex; from simple vases for flowers to sculptures with human figures of such a level that, at this point, we could compare them with the statues of Michelangelo.
And your father wanted that talent to be exploited to the fullest. So, after years of arguing with your mother, they both agreed that you should go to the great temple where you would learn about the art.
But there was a small problem, one that was going to haunt you a lot.
You weren't used to how strict that school was.
The first and second day at that school were quite chaotic for you. It wasn't just because it wasn't as you expected, but because everything was very limited.
If you wanted to make art, you had to do it how they wanted, when they asked you to, and how they expected it. However, not only was that not your style, but it seemed like the teachers (especially the principal) always had one eye on you. And only for a few weeks did you endure that strict issue of obedience.
But there was one boy who was particularly kind to you, and he was a young man of always unkempt appearance. His dark circles always stood out on his face, along with his hair that was rarely organized in a linear manner. From the first time he saw you, he felt charmed by the way you expressed yourself; You were good at painting and using magic, but when he saw the ceramic sculptures you made…damn, you really drove him crazy.
But you obviously didn't notice, you were too focused on trying to get along with your surroundings in general that you didn't notice his desperate attempts to get along with you.
However, in the pleasant conversations you had with him, you always saw him as the stereotype of the exemplary boy; someone who dedicated his entire life to his art, to the temple and was admired by everyone for his great talent. You thought he was assured of a great future thanks to his eccentric abilities.
And you, unlike most, learned very well from your mother that you could not let yourself be trampled; especially by anyone you barely knew. So the blood that ran through your veins and the passion for your own art that you kept for so long was slowly being tied to be limited, but with barely strong ropes. It hurt a lot to know that you were in a place that didn't belong to you, it was as if you were a squirrel in the Freljord, or a mouse in a perfume store.
And in the end, when you mentioned all these things to your mother, she didn't take it very well.
—Did you really go through all this while you were in that temple? —She asked, a cigarette between her fingers as she arranged her needles on the table.
You just nodded your head, not looking at your mother at all. The woman, at this, clicked her tongue.
—I knew that those bitches are only good for the basics, they didn't evolve at all —The woman brought the cigarette to her lips, taking a gentle drag —so, do you know something, my child? Send them to hell.
You were used to her bad vocabulary, so much so that at this, you just nodded your head again.
—I know perfectly well that you are not like me, that you want to venture out and learn about “the ways of art” and that I know —The woman moved her free hand in the air, while with the other she only lightly squeezed the cigarette. —, but if you're going to go alone so that that bunch of nuts can do you less, I'm going to get you out even by kicking you in the ass.
Your mother was tough as a chain in the teeth, and you knew that she couldn't last long without making trouble in the temple if there was someone bothering her only daughter. She cared very little if it was a student, a teacher or even the founder of the temple himself —Even though she knows that she died a long time ago— she would go and give her her dose of shit if she messed with the pride of her as a mother.
She advised you to kick their ass if they messed with you, but your father later talked to you about it, advising that you couldn't take all your feelings and thoughts to such an extreme, but that you should think coldly, and not give importance to people that were not to your specific liking, regardless of their social status. You were no less for coming from a family that came from the middle of nowhere.
During your temple walk, you always walked alone, which gave you plenty of time to think about your actions; You had been passive most of the time, however, more than once you let out those classic off-color comments when they already crossed your limit. Words like “Fuck you if you don't like it” or “You're barely able to use colors and you're going to tell me what I have to do?” escaped you in very rare cases.
You entered the less traveled part of the temple, hoping not to encounter those looks that made you uncomfortable. The song of nature resonated in your ears harmoniously, while the sound of the materials inside your bag resonated from time to time.
In the midst of your ramblings, you remembered your lost sculptures, and your forgotten materials; You were not a forgetful pardon, and it seemed strange to you not to find your favorite materials —That were metal, so they were worth a lot of money —, and even though you asked and asked, you couldn't find it anymore, so it depressed you a lot to think that you had lost something that had cost yout parents so much effort, and the mere memory of it caused you to feel that pang in your heart.
Even if your parents said it was nothing that couldn't be fixed, it hurt to know that you had lost one of the most expensive things your parents had cost you to get you.
But it was curious to think what a surprise you would get.
However, you get to hear some noises; without being the whining of baby birds waiting for food or rodents walking in search of food, but rather it resembled the voice of two people talking. You recognized both of their voices, but you thought it wasn't too important to stay there, in fact, you were already planning to go somewhere else when you heard it.
—So that girl, (Name), right?
—Yes, I didn't think you realized that issue.
The second boy's shy voice reminded you of that young man you rarely spoke to, which took you by surprise. Hwei wasn't the type of person to talk bad about someone behind their back, or at least that was the idea you had based on your interactions.
—You don't have to worry, after all it's normal for you to feel attracted to someone —Jhin mentioned, almost in a mocking manner—. So why don't you tell me about her?
You had already noticed the intention behind that interaction, however, after what happened, you thought that maybe you could calm your heart with some sweet words that you weren't meant to hear at that moment.
—Well, she is… incredible —He begins, you hear how the young man sits on a log due to the sound of the hollow wood —, she is beautiful, kind, tender… and her way of expressing her art is so… unique.
You gently leaned your back against the wood, trying not to make any sound. Something in your chest moved abruptly, as if your heart was fluttering like a butterfly in glass.
—I adore her sculptures, I feel that they are the most beautiful thing I have seen —He continues talking, slowly his emotion rose more and more —. I looked sometimes at her work in class or in the room away from her, and they are… beautiful.
—So much so that you had the need to steal them, right?
It was a single sentence, one which echoed in your head for several seconds.
—What are you talking about? —Hwei asks, arranging his hair a little, trying to place several strands behind his ear —. I would never do that.
You didn't hear how Hwei's tone of voice changed, becoming staccato, as his hands clung to his backpack, which he had in his lap.
At this, the other student laughed, almost like a subtle laugh, while his eyes wandered to where your shadow was looming. A mischievous smile forms on his face.
—So, I imagine that the sculptures that are in your room were made by you, right? —He questions, looking subtly into Hwei's eyes—. Or you bought them from her.
Your thoughts slowly formed a thread of the events that had happened. A lump formed in your throat, almost painfully so.
—Or her favorite utensils, she asked me if I had seen them last week, since she had left them near you the last time she saw them —He continued, almost introspectively—, but when I asked you, you only mentioned that you didn't see them that day either.
You shook your head, from the depths of your soul you prayed that it wasn't true, that you didn't have the school prodigy after you in such an extreme way.
—Well, I admit that I have some of her sculptures in my room, but they are the ones that she forgot in class or anywhere! —The pale boy snapped—. And I don't know what you think I did with her utensils, I don't know how to sculpt.
Jhin laughs again, barely audibly now, as if he knew that now he would have to act more vividly.
—And why were they in the box in your room? —Jhin asks him —, it even had remains of dry ceramics. Could it be that they were already used?
Hwei gritted his teeth, while his gaze met Jhin's again.
—That side of you… It's so peculiar. —He smiles —, I thought no one would see it, but you risk being seen in exchange for getting some things from (Name).
Hwei knew that darkness within his soul had awakened since the first day he saw you. And that darkness spread throughout his soul, mind and body, to the point that it seemed to consume all of his heart and mind.
—Your paintings were always warm colors —Jhin changed the subject, the smile disappearing from his face —, they were never about anything specific, but since you met that girl, something changed —He bowed gently in front of Hwei —. If it was about her, you focused on her in a way that made her seem pure, you used colors that highlighted her body or her emotion on her face. But she never looked at anyone —He subtly changed his focus —, she looked at the painter, or she didn't look at anyone, tell me, do you just want her to not look at anyone but you? Do you want her to the point that you don't want her to look at anyone but you?
He remained silent, in such a way that you could feel the weight of the words lingering in the air, causing an almost inexhaustible tension there. It was such that you could no longer hear the song of nature that you longed for so much.
—I won't criticize you, Hwei, you know that I understand better than anyone the dark feeling inside you —Jhin tried to sound empathetic —. And, if you want, I can help you make (Name) yours. I can make her fall in love with you and make that she can never leave you.
The obsessed young man understood how wrong it was to have those thoughts terrifying his mind, but he couldn't stop it, it was a feeling that had already taken root in his heart, and he couldn't tear it out no matter how much he wanted to.
—I can't… —Hwei whispered, his voice breaking —…, I don't want to harm her; She is so nice to me, I don't want to put her through all my feelings.
You heard him sob.
—You're not going to hurt her —Jhin comforts him, a hand running over his cheek —. I know you love her very much, and you notice how others hurt her. But, tell me, don't you think about those people really hurt her? —He subtly wipes away the tear that slipped down her face—. You should take care of those people, you know? So she could express her art as she loves it. Maybe she could even make thousands of statues without anyone to pressure her, and you could “borrow” them for yourself.
You had heard enough, you couldn't stay there for another minute.
However, before you could move, Jhin leaned close to Hwei's ear, his lips close to her loose strands of hair.
—Or you could take it right now, you know? This opportunity is perfect. —Jhin's mischievous smile spreads across his face.
Hwei opened his eyes to her peak, at the same time he heard a rope move abruptly.
And you felt your foot being pulled up, forcing you to hit your face against the ground, causing you to moan in pain.
—Shit. —You whispered, feeling your head spin, a small wound on your head began to make small drops of blood come out.
—That is…? —Hwei whispers, his heart sinking in his chest —(Name)..?
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Today I came wanting to write. I loved how this one-shot turned out, and I hope those who read it do too haha.
I hope to receive more orders if any of you wish, until then, I will be dedicated to my hobbies and my studies.
#yandere#obsessive love#yandere league of legends#yandere x you#poppa thoughs#league of legends#yandere male#yandere lol#hwei#league of legends hwei#hwei league of legends#Yandere hwei#Yandere hwei x reader#x female reader#female reader#x reader#yandere x reader
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☆ 𝐆𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬 ☆
Fandom: Dead By Daylight. Rating: Teens And Up Audience, sfw. Characters: Pyramid Head, Danny "Jed Olsen" Johnson | The Ghost Face. Pairing: Pyramid Head x Danny "Jed Olsen" Johnson | The Ghost Face.
Tags: Pyramid Head's pov, fluff, adoration, established relationship, typical cute couple stuff, short and sweet, cheesy asf, Danny "Jed Olsen" Johnson | The Ghost Face has green eyes, maskless Danny "Jed Olsen" Johnson | The Ghost Face, soft Pyramid Head, smitten Pyramid Head, lowkey/borderline simping [Pyramid Head💀], short fic, too ALPHA to beta read, very self-indulgent.
WARNINGS: NONE.
Summary: The Executioner enjoys the beauty in his Beloved Ghost’s eyes.
– Word count:626.
Author's note:
Wrote this in the Tumblr’s draft (instead of focusing on writing my main wips), so why not post it because I'm bored and also because there's not enough PyraGhost in the world.
I will probably come back to edit and add things in this fic later since like there’s gonna be some incomprehensible pharsings and errors here and there, ofc because I literally wrote this in Tumblr’s draft, put it in Google Docs just to see the word count and copy paste in here– BAM!! Then finished!
The green line dividers aren't mine btw.
Embracing my Tumblr fanfic writer era rn.
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Every inch that Danny possessed was something to be held deeply treasured to Pyramid Head.
Back then Pyramid Head used to be hesitant to reach out and touch Danny, quite wary that he would somehow break the man if he applied too much pressure. He knew Danny would be slightly annoyed by this; claiming that he wasn't that weak, but that didn’t stop Pyramid Head from being apprehensive when it came to him. Fortunately, as things progressed Pyramid Head became at ease as Danny reassured that he wasn't hurting him.
Him having this affection towards Danny was so beyond that even the basic description of him just loving Danny was an injustice on how he truly felt.
Even though Pyramid Head wasn't the type to care about other people's characteristics, he was utterly entranced by Danny, anything from head to toe, as well as his hands, his voice, and the way he carried himself. Everything.
And when Danny showed his face to him for the first time, enrapture swept over Pyramid Head. His immediate response was to stretch his hand to stroke Danny's ebony locks of hair in which the other man found it endearing as Pyramid Head ruffled his hair gently.
But what captivated Pyramid Head's heart the most, once he took a moment to observed Danny's face. Amused gloomy emerald were peering at him back. This caused Pyramid Head to stop doing what he was doing. The more he fixated on Danny’s eyes the more he felt lost in the glamours' greenery.
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In the present, Danny was not currently wearing his usual Ghostface mask around Pyramid Head which wasn’t uncommon ever since he had grown to trust him as Danny was comfortable enough to be displaying his own actual face to his partner only. Right now they were just spending the day with one another, making up for the lost time they were busy with their trials. Danny shared a few horror tales that greatly interested him, prompting Pyramid Head to listen, producing soft grunts while the other proceed. But Pyramid Head was intensely concentrating on the different expression Danny’s eyes make.
While it went on Danny began to notice that the other wasn't really paying attention, judging by how Pyramid Head practically stopped making quiet noises to what he was talking about and wasn’t moving. Then Danny waved his hands side to side in front of Pyramid Head. “Hey! Are you even listening to me?” Causing Pyramid Head to snapped back to reality, following the realization on what was going on.
Oh. Was he distracted again?
As awkward as it may have been given that for the entire time he was just focused on Danny’s eyes.
“You’re spacing out lately.” Danny said. “Is there something bothering you?”
There wasn’t anything bothering him, it was just his fascination with the green irises that belonged to the man. Pyramid Head shook his head.
Danny made a questioning face. “Hm. I doubt that.” Then the man’s lips swiftly formed into a grin, “you were staring at my eyes aren’t you~!” Pyramid Head was slightly thrown back by how Danny was able to jump to the correct conclusion so quick. But he knew that no matter the circumstances are, Danny was destined to read him like a book effortlessly.
Pyramid Head uttered a gurgle of affirmation, seemingly out of embarrassment.
Danny became aware of this, “it’s fine Pyra! I just find it humorous. Plus, I don’t mind, you can stare at it as long as you like,” he chuckled. Relief essentially spread over Pyramid Head as he let out a deep breath.
“Never thought someone would be so enthralled by my eyes, you know?”
Well, if no one was enthralled by it, then Pyramid Head definitely was.
Author's note:
Thanks for reading till the end! Hope you enjoyed it.
I should probably go back to writing my main wips. But I deadass get distracted often.
Here's my AO3 acc, if you like this pairing lol. Don't check it out if it's Monday since AO3 is down for planned maintenance for 10 whole hours, sad I know, just download fics you love in the meantime, we will live blud.
And that’s it for today... See you later, toodles!
#dead by daylight#dbd#pyramid head#danny johnson#the ghost face#pyramid head x danny johnson#danny johnson x pyramid head#pyramid head x ghostface#ghostface x pyramid head#pyraghost#phgf fic#fluff#slashers in love#short fic#established relationship#Chocolate_Theft's writing#my fic#fanfiction#fanfic#tumblr fic#dead by daylight fic#help they're taking over my mind
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Hiiiiii!!!!! Disaster Husbands facts?? Ramdog facts?? Random Oc fact?? 👉👂👈 I am. Perceiving Auditorily :) No pressure btw!!! Regardless I really hope you are feeling better and your sickness is letting you get some rest :D
OMG HI GALE HIIII!!!! 💕💕 Thanks for the concern!! The sickness has been. horrible. but I can BREATHE right now so maybe this week's the last?!?!?! I hope so...
Every time you ask me an OC related question an angel gets its wings btw thank you for letting me talk. this is enrichment to me
Reply under the cut as to not clutter the dash of those who care not 😌😌
Okay, so let's start with ramdog <33 My OGs
We all know that Sherman has like. Separation anxiety right. 😭😭 It was not intended to be canon at first, but after the iconic Piano Piece, I just figured it'd be really funny... Not for him, though... At least he gets some good work done when he's broody, right…? Haha...
Their families love their respective partners so much... Sherman's mom and sister pretty much immediately adopted Obi because he matches their energy 100%. Obi's parents almost passed out from happiness when they met Sherman because HOLY SHIT THEIR SHITASS SON BROUGHT HOME A DECENT GUY. Ms. Katsura loves having him over for dinner. Real pleasant guy 🥰He gets so many jars of pickled food when he visits with Obi that they can barely carry them to the car. They also both hang out with Hana (Obi's sis) pretty regularly! :D
They have beef with their elderly neighbor. Not because she's homophobic, but because they're legit unpleasant neighbors (Obi smokes in the shared corridor + Sherman plays the piano very early in the morning) 😭
They get married post-canon (quite a while after all the gang shit is resolved) :DD [I'm sorry I know all my OCs are getting gay married all the time, no one's surprised. I have a bias 🙏🙏]
As I've stated some time before, Sherman doesn't usually let others see his ears. Yes, Obi has seen them multiple times. Yes, he teases him about it a lot. (all in good fun, though - and Sherman usually gets back at him immediately. Like ok dog, tough words from someone within Tail Grabbing distance)
Since Sherman is usually home more, he kind of assigned himself housekeeper (fair enough, Obi's a slob). They don't need to cook super often though, Katsura keeps giving them tupperware full of food so they usually live off of that for 5 days a week HAH
Sherman hates smoking, but he often has cigarette breath. Go figure 😏
At the beginning of their relationship (familiar, not romantic) Obi almost never uses Sherman's name. He just calls him Mozart, Chopin or Wolfgang 😭 It pisses Sherman off, so Obi just switches to Sher when he's trying to be less of a little shit. The actual name is reserved for y'know. Emotional vulnerability and all that. (Later on, 'Mozart' stops being an irritating nickname. It kinda grew on him...)
RAAARGH many thoughts about them but I'm not hitting the post limit 2nite. Okay Disaster Husbands go!!
Funny story, both Ulysses and Kallen were totally different in their first "drafts"!
OG Kallen was much more... Open? And a little sassy? Like, still very much straight-faced, but he didn't have that professional air 24/7. I'd even say he was pretty open with his emotions. Emotional outbursts weren't above him, dude really knew how to argue in a heated moment. I like to think that this is how Kallen would be if Orso didn't make him into a living weapon 😭 The current Kallen is also freakier (😏)
And OG Ulysses...Oh my god. God, ew. When I say "CEO in a wattpad fanfic", this is what I mean. Dude was insufferable. Aggressive, broody fellow with unresolved anger issues who thinks he can do and have and say whatever he wants. An now he's a tiger? Hell no. Match made in hell. Incompetent Dork Ulysses >>>> Angry Baddie Ulysses, any day.
Ok onto actual little trivias--
Ulysses loves buying his loved ones gifts. Kallen doesn't know how to accept a gift gracefully (didn't like getting stuff from Orso, neither).
Catpeople don't control when they purr. And Ulysses purrs LOUD. (imagine trying to be subtle and act like you're not bothered by that Pretty Guy On Your Couch but you sound like an industrial drill. yeah.)
Their glasses clank together when they kiss sometimes <3 #goals
I don't see them going out on dates much, BUT I think Ulysses would order some good tiramisu and they could cuddle on the couch maybe.....
Kallen kept his identity hidden from the press/tabloids for a while out of habit (not that good for a sniper to be out with their face plastered on celebrity gossip, afterall), but when the dust settled they eventually made their wedding public. Ulysses would probably stay a little anxious about it, always making sure that Kallen's okay with being out in public / on camera 100 times.
I think they could have another kid in the future..? I have this faint idea of them having a daughter by the name of Roma, but that feels a little on the nose with the...italian-greek parent combo 😐 We'll see, though! They're content with just Juno rn 😌
and as some extras, not related to the couples:
Kallen's afraid of making a kid feel like he did with Orso (unsure whether they're loved or not). I can totally see him being a little overprotective/overbearing.
Aaahhh, that was a lot...Honestly as I was writing this I realized that disaster husbands are kind of hard to write about in trivia form?? Maybe because they're _relatively_ new...
Still, it was fun to write it all out!! Thanks for the question as always, Gale <33
#fuj0#beastmen#fuj0wuj0#lore#beastmen lore#oc: Kallen#oc: Ulysses#Disaster Husbands#Ramdog#oc: Obi#oc: Sherman#ask#.txt
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Writerly questionaire
I was tagged by @xenascribbles (read its post here btw!!) and I've been wanting to do it for a while (it's been so long ago, I'm sorry!!!) because it sounds interesting. Unfortunately, it's long and I am NOT concise.
I'll just leave the tags here: @squarebracket-trickster, @full-on-sam, @olliexwrites, @macabremoons, and @cheeto-flavoured-pasta + anyone else who wants to join!!
About me:
When did you first start writing?
I think I've mentioned this before, but I started writing in 5th/6th grade to kind of codify the lore and story of my friend group's playground activities (because a series of drawings was just not cutting it). Then, we collectively found out I enjoyed it and my friends started asking for fanfics of books we all liked.
Are the general themes you read different from the ones you write?
I don't really go out looking for the themes of a story, I usually focus on interesting plots or characters when I'm shopping for books (I know themes inform story and characters but you know what I mean). Also most themes in my stories are 100% a posteriori (DoS was my first time having themes in mind as I was writing). I usually write the 1st draft and go "oh shit, a theme".
Can you tell me a little about your writing space(s)? (room, coffee shop, desk, etc)
I mostly write in my room, usually sitting on my bed because I hate chairs. But I would be remiss if I didn't mention my college's big auditorium, specifically during boring architectural theory lessons. Any project of mine has been at least 30% written during class time, I can assure you.
What’s your most effective way to muster up some muse?
I go for a Really Long Walk while listening to music. And fun fact: I've had to make my walks bigger because of this, because when I'm having Thoughts I start speedwalking like a crazy person and it was genuinely shortening my Idea Time because I got home too quickly.
Did the place(s) you grew up in influence the people and places you write about?
I wouldn't say it's a 1 to 1 thing, but I think the environments in our lives always afects us. In terms of the places I write about, I think my fascination with circuses and magic shows (from which came B&W) stems from the fact that there are no good ones around here. The ones from my childhood were genuinely so lame. But I think mostly it's the way I was raised? My parents are artists and they've made a point of showing me all kinds of art since, like... ever, and I feel like it really influenced me as a person and, therefore, my writing.
Are there any recurring themes in your writing, and if so, do they surprise you at all?
A few years back, I noticed a tendency in my main characters to feel a great sense of nostalgia towards the past, in a way? There was a very prevalent sense of "things were ok at a previous point in my life but not now and I wanna go back". I don't really understand where this came from tho.
My characters:
Would you please tell me about your favorite character? (Current wip, past wip, never used)
I am, on every level, deeply insane about every single named character in DoS. But mainly Seth and General Fallin. I just think they're really interesting. I particularly like the general, mostly because I have almost no chances to write about him, while Seth is the POV character. There's just something about the different perceptions of his actions that are integral his character as a general in a war setting, as well as his inherent hypocrisy in constantly stating how much he cares for his people and being more than willing to commit atrocities for them. Idk, he's got that Nuance.
Which of your characters would you be friends with in real life?
Probably Reyna, from B&W. When I first wrote her, I was her age and tried to create someone who I'd like to hang out with.
Which of your characters would you dislike most in real life?
I already despise Nester from the dystopia WIP and he's not even real. And also, I think Diedrich would be insufferable irl.
Tell me about the process of coming up with one, all, or any of your characters.
Most of them kinda start out as concepts. For example, Seth came to be because "healer that takes the life of everything around them for power" sounded like a cool idea. Sometimes they're informed by characters I like or historical figures: Viktor is loosely based on Robespierre, Lucille is vaguely inspired by Cio-Cio San, General Fallin has some faint hints of Griffith, etc.
Do you notice any themes/traits about your characters?
I've noticed that every single one of my 4 WIPs has the extremely specific trope of an older character using the protagonist as a replacement for their dead loved one (usually their child, but sometimes disciple or younger sibling) and projecting onto them. I have no clue where tf this came from but it feels like something a psychoanalyst would greatly enjoy.
How do you picture them?” (as real people you imagined/as models/actors that exist in real life/as imaginary artwork, as artwork you made or commissioned, anime style, etc)
I actually picture all my characters in my artstyle!! Actually, I "see" most of the worlds in my stories through my own artstyle!
My writing:
What’s your reason for writing?
You see, I have all of these ideas. They are just lying around. And, as I said before, just drawing them isn't gonna cut it.
Is there a specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating coming from your readers?
On what is actually my least-read fic on ao3, a person left me a multiple paragraphs-long comment about how they would be thinking about that fic for years, that I wrote the characters as "canon but better", that they would read any other fics I posted in the future, and that they made an account to leave said comment. I'm not saying that this is the only type of comment I enjoy, but it has really stuck with me for the past year and when I read it I kinda wanna cry. So. I guess that.
How do you want to be thought of by those that read your work? (for example, as a literary genius, or as a writer who “gets” the human condition as a talented worldbuilder, or a role model, etc)
I've always wanted to be one of those writers that just really Gets the human mind, you know? Like, I've read stories where my regular person brain was going through all sorts of Things while my writer brain kept shouting "THIS MAKES SENSE!! THIS MAKES SO MUCH SENSE!!!", and that's who I want to be. (I feel like I'm not expalining myself correctly???) This is kind of a tangent, but I've read/watched stories so good that I was left just literally Sitting There, my thoughts completely silent, literally incapable of being a functioning human being for about an hour because my brain just wouldn't come down from the story. And that's my goal in life <3
What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?
Probably my character building.
What have you frequently been told your greatest writing strength is by others?
My story ideas/concepts. Like settings and worldbuilding and such.
How do you feel about your writing? (answer in whatever way you interpret that question)
Overall, I like it! I spent a long time working to a point where I can actually enjoy my own work. And I'm obviously not saying it's perfect. No one sees more flaws in it than me (bc I virtually never show it to anyone), but I won't say it's bad to sound better. I'm having fun, dammit!
If you were the last person on earth, and knew that your writing would never be read, would you still write?
I would still have stories to write even if there was no one to show them to. I would still draw and sing without an audience too. Because my art is, at its core, for me. It's a need.
When you write, are you influenced by what others might enjoy reading, or do you write purely what you enjoy? if it’s a mix of the two, which holds the most influence?
I used to consider what others might like, and I still kinda do sometimes because my main beta reader is my MOM, but I've mostly let it go tbh. After draft 2 of B&W I shouted "I'M NEVER WRITING ROMANCE AGAIN!!!" and here we are. At the end of the day, I'm writing mostly to have fun, so I should be able to do whatever I want.
That was fun!! I love questionaires/this interview format thingy. Makes me feel fancy.
If you're made it all the way down here, hiiii <3<3<3<3<3<3 sorry for never shutting up and not being concise. It will happen again.
#tag games#writing#my wips#writeblr#ramblies#should i tag the wips?? i don't feel like it makes sense...#nah not gonna dor it
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tagged by @dead-ghost-walking to answer these fun fic writing questions!
How many works do you have on AO3? 42
What’s your total AO3 word count? 138,556
What fandoms do you write for? currently just the Vampire Chronicles but when I first got back into fic writing in 2020 it was Dragon Age
What are your top 5 fics by kudos? Does it feel like a dream, Mr. Molloy? | Next to Never | The Fight | Come As You Are | If This Be Nothing
5. Do you respond to comments? Usually yes! I love receiving them so I try to encourage it as much as I can by interacting <3
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Probably gotta be the fic where I killed Louis (which I do still plan on finishing btw)
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Holy Ground :)) this one is sickeningly sweet tbh i was in serious need of some fluff when I wrote it
8. Do you get hate on fics? only very rarely. basically never happens now that I only allow comments from people with accounts
9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? yes. all kinds. all of the kinds. VC Kink Week 2023
10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? not currently but crossover crackfic was how i started my fic writing career back in high school. craziest was a roleplay with my bestie that involved characters from Naruto, Samurai Champloo, DNAngel, Fruits Basket, Gravitation, and Fullmetal Alchemist
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? not to my knowledge. nice thing about writing for such a small fandom someone would probably notice and notify me pretty quick
12. Have you ever had a fic translated? no
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? yes
14. What’s your all time favorite ship? idk if i can pick one definitively but its a VC ship for sure. its kind of all of them tbh all the main canon ones. i cycle thru obsessing over each of them depending on the fic im working on. if i was forced to choose at gunpoint i would go with Nickistat
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? hate the phrasing of this how dare u make me face my demons. I will finish all of my wips i will break the cycle and then i will be free and never again be plagued by thoughts about the Characters in Situations. i know this sounds like a cop out answer but i genuinely with all my heart believe that i will eventually get to all 17 of my wips this is simply the extent of my hubris
16. What are your writing strengths? dialogue i think. and smut idk can smut be a strength. tbh i haven't received a lot of constructive feedback on my writing outside of fan spaces so i dont feel qualified to answer this
17. What are your writing weaknesses? over-explaining/over-describing characters actions and motives and emotions in a scene. i feel like this is smth that doesnt come across in my final drafts as much anymore bc ive been actively working on it but this is the thing i consistently struggle with during the process. also i tend to be kind of lazy with research which isnt the best quality to have when you write mostly in historical settings. but with fanfic i feel justifed in only spending one hour instead of three reading up on life in 18th century Paris since i do have a life to get back to at some point. if i was writing for publication i would try harder
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I do it, poorly. almost exclusively French in this fandom, and a little Italian. I do my best to check multiple translation sources (from real speakers if possible) and find example sentences to base my grammar on. but again, this is a hobby so I don't hold myself to the same standard I would if I was doing it professionally
19. First fandom you wrote for? pretty sure my first fanfic was that crossover i mentioned earlier so. all of those
20. Favorite fic you’ve written? oh boy. hold on gimme a sec. ok i think its Against All Odds rn. i was at the top of my game when it comes to Loustat banter (had recently reread the first 3 books) and its very tight and compact and cinematic im still really pleased with it 2 years (??!?!?!?) later
tagging @nightcolorz @butchybats and anyone else who wants to! u can say I tagged u <3
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for Va'pak; Uzhau,
how did you get the idea for it? like it's so well thought out, in the writing style, and it feels so intelligently written, and you come out with an update pretty quick, for a fic like this. i just wanna know, like, what do you think when you're writing? oh yeah and it's a bloody fantastic fic btw
Two ideas started this fanfic:
Vulcans require mental bonds. Being without them is like sensory deprivation. Any surviving orphans would be at massively high risk for self harm or other mental health issues.
Spock and Jim in Iowa. (All elaboration redacted for spoilers.)
I wrote chapter 5 first. It built from there. My fix-it for the odd characterization choices in ST09 with Jim being a felon got added. The Vran from my other story gets a cameo. I like worldbuilding so mostly my stories build up either from "How do I explain [canon thing] and how does that explanation effect other stuff?" Example: Season 1 of TOS says Vulcan has very little free sodium salt, with what a human would consider "freshwater" oceans even if the evaporation rate would make it very mineral rich/hard water. The fannon about Vulcan food being bland to humans would therefore be because there is no salt in the seasoning, meanwhile Vulcans think human food is way too salty! Both species agree on sweets, with strawberries and cream on toast with nuts being a canon Vulcan breakfast served family style!
The other way I worldbuild is more "out of whole cloth, but color-matched to canon." My Jotenheim story is mostly this. I look at the overall framing and details and extrapolate, then build on that extrapolation until I have a complete living culture. Spock has a statue of a death god in a little meditation area of his room. Even as XO, the cabin space on a ship is at a premium. He loses almost all his storage space in the living area to have this instead. It is no great leap to say it is wildly important to him that he have this connection to his culture and religion. That alter means that much to him. Oh, he's wild, out of pocket, sassy, and indulgent at times, but he says his prayers and observes the holy days like a good boy when he's done. At least for his family, we can be sure this is a huge part of their lives... but what is that religion like? What does it say? What can I reverse engineer from canon and what can I make up to fill the voids? Then: how does that impact the story.
As for update speed and quality? Behold:
Never post the last thing you have written unless it is the end. Always have at least one more drafted and some kind of outline or plan before publishing fanfic. I use Scrivener so I have a place for a synopsis for each of these "pages" and you know what? Some of them move. I've taken 5k words and shuffled them like a deck of cards in some of my drafts because after writing it all I realized the story would work better otherwise than how it was.
My first drafts are quite rough, messy grammar and dialog that perfectly fits the "he wouldn't say that" meme.
I just keep on working it until it works out. I've been writing fanfiction since the late 1990's, and I do my best not to rush it.
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for the fanfic asks, 1, 3 and 15!
Hello! :D Thank you so much for asking these. I particularly love this set of questions.
The ask game is just here.
Fanfic asks for my fic, The World on Our Shoulders!
Without further ado, onward to the answers! :D
1. What inspired you to write/update this work?
I did talk about the origin of my fic a little bit here. What inspired me to update it? Well. I could talk about the ground-up edit.
I had been writing this as sort of a challenge mode back in February, getting the draft down on paper and posting every day just to prove to myself that I could. By the time the challenge ended, I had over 100k words, which was more than my goal (it was more or less a NaNoWriMo challenge I made for myself) and I was able to go back, read it with fresh eyes, and realize pieces that weren't hitting the way I wanted them to. So I decided to go back in and edit iirc somewhere before April. I had something like 52 chapters posted by then lol. So it was a big undertaking. I had plot threads I'd dropped, I had characters whose voices weren't coming through in the way that I hoped. There'd been some waffling about phrasing and word choices and scenes that just felt rushed.
This time, though, instead of simply just feeling awful about my work I decided it could do with some love. So I took the time to start revisions and didn't post anything until I had a big chunk of the story ready to be proofread and edited more ahead of a posting schedule. I've been adding in an extra chapter update or two here or there on certain weeks. But anyway, the inspiration behind updating this is because I want it to be the kind of story I wanted to read, but could not find, even in its first iteration. (: All I can do is hope I'm doing it justice.
3. If this work is an update/new chapter, how do you stay motivated on multi-chapter works?
I am motivated to keep updating this thing because the story is living rent free in my head, and what else am I going to do but write it if it's allowed to clatter around in there anyway? (: LOL But no, seriously, I'm invested in the characters at this point. It's a personal challenge besides that, which I was going over here and here. I just wanna write a fun story besides all that. I figured, what is the most dramatic thing that can happen to an NPC who discovers they're the dragonborn? WELL. After a series of bad decisions on her part, we have the prologue of World lol. It's more than that, of course, but still. (:
15. What is one question you wish someone would ask you about this work? Ask it and answer it.
OH another one of these, my poor brain LOL. Okay. Here goes nothing! (Thank you, btw. I love having to really think about my work like this!)
Are there alternate ways this story could have gone? Do you have plans to make what-if sort of stories for this series?
I've been wanting to write a series of shortfics or one shots that go over alternate events counter to what happens in World, really, because I think it's important for writing practice and for reaffirming that, while the alternate story is fun and good to think about, you're on the right path with how you've been going in your project (:
Some of the questions I ask myself are:
"What would have happened if Nyenna and Eris actually made it to Solstheim as intended?"
"What if she stayed with Hadvar and went straight to Solitude?"
"What if Nyenna rejected Athis?"
"What if she never learned magic?"
"What if she wasn't the Last Dragonborn? Who would be?"
Among so, so many others. All of them would have affected her character arc in some significant way. Most of them would still have her being pulled into her destiny, though, except that last one. Most of them would have her missing out on trusting herself to get stronger, especially the first one. Some of them would shift the whole setting of the story to a different part of Skyrim altogether, and a setting shift has the ability to change the tone of the whole story, if you think about it.
I want to take a minute to answer those what-ifs briefly.
1: She'd have never been guided to reconnect with her power. Teldryn probably would have seen her just as another traveler, not as a patron. He might have left for Skyrim without her the following morning. She'd have to be saved from a dragon, likely, instead of do the saving or escaping on her own, before the whole soul absorption thing happens.
2: She'd have joined the Legion, likely, convinced she could be anything she put her mind to. She'd be a good soldier, and of course would stand and fight a random dragon with Hadvar in the battalion at her side. She'd discover her powers and then Tullius would, sensing an opportunity, use her in his plans to end the war as quickly as possible. If either of them survived to the end of either quest, she'd probably hire Hadvar as her housecarl. Or maybe marry him instead.
3: Athis is quite smitten with Nyenna at the beginning of their story. If Nyenna wasn't so rash and grabby-hands about that kind of attention, she'd probably have been nice enough to him, but would have focused on recovery first and then moving on toward Solstheim as was her original intention. I like the idea that she'd discover she's Dragonborn on Solstheim rather than at the watchtower, though... it'd be interesting considering she'd not have trained at all in this situation, too.
4: If all went exactly as the fic was going, but she never learned Flames to begin with, she'd not have known she had a bit of an unusual aptitude for magic. It would affect how she'd fight. She'd probably still focus on archery, I'd assume, but also would need to have an even better handle on fighting with weapons that actually have weight to them. I feel like she'd fit the image the Nords have of the LDB a little better. Also, without healing magic, Athis probably would have died at a certain point. Twice she'd been there to staunch the bleeding and close wounds when others couldn't or didn't. So that would have complicated things.
5: If Nyenna wasn't the Dragonborn but everything went exactly as the fic is going, I'd have given that to Athis, I think. He wishes more than once over the course of the story that he could have been chosen, mostly regretting being unable to take the burden off of her. If that was the case, I wonder how Nyenna would have reacted to being the wife of the Dragonborn. I feel like Athis would have prioritized her anyway, even in the wake of the quest. I don't know if Nyenna would have stayed home per se. She'd probably have still been training and retrieving artifacts. She'd probably have gone with Athis on some pieces of the quest, too, because he wouldn't have thought HE was the one causing the chaos and danger as Nyenna believes in World.
So yes. Alternate what-if fics :D If I were to write a one shot of any of these, would you guys like to see a specific one? Feel free to comment or send me asks and I can also write fragments out, maybe, of certain changed scenes as writing practice. <3
#AskMareena#MareenaWrites#The World on Our Shoulders#Nyenna#Teldryn Sero#Athis#LDB/Teldryn Sero#LDB/Athis#Skyrim#Elder Scrolls#tesblr#fanficblr#writeblr
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For the fanfic author asks do you want to talk about: 6, 30, and/or 42?
Thanks, @palmofafreezinghand
6. How do you come up with ideas?
In fanfic, I write the stories I want to read for which I can't find a version I love. Almost all of my fics come from me basically just wanting to be a voyeur: "The Talk," my first fic, was me reading the line in BD where Edward mentioned he'd talked to Carlisle about having sex and me thinking, "Well now that had to have been an interesting conversation!" So I wrote what I thought happened. They also come from conversations with people--Ithaca Is Gorges came from talking with my bestest bestie about the fact that as you get older, you start realizing that your parents are fallible people, and that one of the biggest problems with the Twilight saga is that Bella is taking Edward at face value when he has not ever managed to get to that point with Carlisle and Esme. So what do the Cullens look like when they're not filtered by Edward?
Also I was trained to write characters first; plot second. So "ideas" for me usually are "okay, in this situation, how would this character logically respond, given all the things they hold dear, are afraid of, think are at stake?" I don't think of plots first. Plots emerge (and frustratingly, keep emerging.)
30. What do you struggle with most when writing?
Perfectionism. So, so much perfectionism. I very often see something that needs to go first before I can write the second thing, and then if I can't write the first thing, it doesn't matter if the second thing is more white hot. It's the main reason I've shifted to fully drafting long fics and only posting fics that consist of what are effectively related one-shots: Cien Años right now has been stuck because there's a chapter with Rose and Esme I need in order to establish something about what Esme thinks of Carlisle before I go to one of Esme and Carlisle 70 years later. But I've been having issues with that one. I will obsess over pieces of a work and over individual sentences until they truly pass muster, and, if I decide there's something else that belongs in the work, I will edit it later. I appreciated your tag comment btw, and also laughed about it because I revise everything. Sideblog answers? Yep. Headcanon posts? Yep. This post? Yep! I will move beats around in a sentence on a reddit post so that it has the rhythm I want it to have, even though there's absolutely no creative merit in it at all.
I used to be way better at just writing and letting stuff stick but not anymore. The other day one of my collaborators talked about her writing process and described mine as "Oh and then [giselle-lx] just produces these perfect sentences that say exactly what we all mean" and I was like, "No I have just already edited five times before I put them into Overleaf!"
42. How do you get over writers' block?
I...don't? I'm staring at a fic in Scrivener that hasn't been updated since 2019 and which I started drafting in 2010. And like I said above, been stuck on another work for a year.
But the thing which works the most reliably is reading. When I read, whether nonderivative stuff (which is mostly what I read--I am a bad fanfic reader, I confess!) or fic, my brain starts sparking with ideas and then I can get going again. If I'm struggling to get words down, it's usually a sign I need to read more.
Oh and the other thing which reliably creates writing is getting the hell off social media. Every single time I am serious about that practice, my brain just rebels at how bored it is and starts writing. "Ordinary Time" happened after I deprived my brain of social media for a month, and "Drying Up" happened after I deprived it for merely a long weekend. I know this in my soul, and yet... :/ :shakes fist at Mark Zuckerberg:
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Tagged by @veeagainsttheday!
Rules: Go to your published works on AO3 and list the first fic you ever published there, the last fic you published, any fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once, your favorite fic you wrote in the fandom/ship that has the most works, the fic you wish more people read, the fic you agonized over the most, the fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort, and a work you are proud of—for whatever reason. <3
Btw, the fics are unsurprisingly all Flag and Ed/Stede unless stated otherwise.
First fic: Primark Scuffed and Oxford Polished, the only Mystrade (oh boy) fic I ever wrote. We move swiftly on. The very first fanfic I wrote was probably Wolfstar circa 2002 and was likely cribbed from some roleplay and posted on a Yahoo forum. We move on even more swiftly.
Last fic: Save the Date, an Ed/Stede S2 reunion fic. It turned out pretty well, give it a read!
Wrote once: Hey Sweetie, an unfinished Rick and Morty thing circa 2015. Again, we move on.
Favourite fic in biggest fandom: I guess this has to be Marvel, right? In which case I only have two Marvel fics and I'm ambivalent about both of them. The Spideypool one, Wooing in Six Very Simple Stages, is better and is also my fic with the most hits. Fun fact: it's only 10k long but I took like five years to write the final chapter because the laptop with the draft of the final chapter on it broke and I couldn't be bothered to rewrite it until the first Deadpool movie came out.
To blatantly cheat: in my heart Flag is the bigger fandom and my favourite fic in that fandom is… ugh, I can't pick. Draft Letter to Restaurant Downstairs will always hold a special place in my heart because it was ridiculous to make. I don't know that anyone else has made a video fic like that because yeah, they're a total ballache.
Fic I wish more people read: Conventional. I flatter myself that I'm good at writing AUs about topics I'm not particularly interested in and that the reader might not be particularly interested in but making them engaging anyway. This one is about sci-fi fan conventions and I think it's a fun, well written read.
Fic I agonised the most over: Restructuring. I put a lot of myself into that fic, plus I properly plotted it, so it took more effort than my average fic. I'm very satisfied with the result though.
Fic that sprang fully formed: On the Job. My wife told me an anecdote in the morning, it rattled around my head while we were out in the day and then I wrote it in an evening. I think it came out pretty well!
Fic I'm proud of: Prize Every Time. It's not every day you accidentally come up with the plot of You've Got Mail (and now that I've seen the movie, I still reckon I came up with a more satisfying ending, no offence to Nora).
Tagging anyone else who wants to have a go!
#I'm getting sick so I blame any garbled sentences on that#I've gotten better at titles and finishing fics if nothing else!#(I also reckon my writing is just a lot more convincing and tauter now too so well done me)#(practice pays off)#ty for the tag!
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2, 16, + 77 for the fic writer asks! (for 77, choose any of your fics!)
thank you! questions are here
2. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?
definitely write as i go! i have vague ideas for what i want to have happen at some point but i don't really plan much out. if i do it's just a really bare outline that i don't necessarily even stick to
16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?
there's like three i'm actively working on right now? there's hey, where did we go? which i'm working on the most and posting, then there's a darker monster!eddie one that i've been working on here and there. i may start posting that at some point when i have more of it done but i'm a little uncertain on it since it'll be pretty dark compared to anything else i've written. then i also have a pure smut fic that i'm working on that may very well never see the light of day bc i'm still embarrassed about posting smut O.O oh and i guess my big bang fic should also be counted on there? the first draft is pretty much done so i probably won't touch it again until after artist claims. then i also have several wips that i haven't touched in months so i doubt they'll ever get finished.
77. Do you have a favorite scene you’ve written from [Fanfic Name] story/chapter?
thank you for this question! i'm just going to copy and paste a scene from one of the fics i'm the proudest of (near wild heaven) (spoilers for it btw):
Steve looked over at Eddie, who was focused on the water below. The setting sun caught on his face, turning him golden. Steve didn’t think he could take it anymore. He was thinking of Robin over the phone, saying “Tell him, dingus.” He was thinking how he didn’t want to go the rest of his life without Eddie knowing how he felt. He was thinking, God, Eddie is so fucking beautiful.
“I love you.”
Steve felt his breath leave his body as time slammed to a halt. He saw Eddie blink, like in slow-motion, then look at Steve.
“What?” he asked.
The words were out there. Steve couldn’t be a coward now. He had to do this. Eddie had to know.
“I love you,” he said, “I’m in love with you.” He saw Eddie’s mouth open slightly but he barreled on because he had to say this now or he was never going to be able to. “I’ve been falling in love with you for the past five years, God, maybe even longer. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you, not since the first time we kissed.
“I love how you are with the kids, I love your voice when you sing, I love your hair, and your rings, and I love your music even though I hate your music, and I love how fucking smart you are, and I love—God—I love you, Eddie.”
Eddie was looking at him in a way that made Steve’s stomach plummet. His expression—Steve realized it was the same exact way Robin had looked at him when they were curled up on the floor of that bathroom at Starcourt.
“Steve,” Eddie said, voice soft and heartbreakingly gentle and all Steve could think was Oh, God, please, no, this can’t be happening again—
“Steve, I’m sorry,” Eddie said. And he sounded so deeply and genuinely sorry. Steve felt a pattern of fissures forming on his heart, spreading out through his whole body. “I don’t…” Eddie went on, “Listen, I care about you so much—”
Steve bent over the railing and put his head in his hands. “God, Eddie, don’t,” he groaned.
“No, listen,” Eddie said, putting a hand on his back. “I do, okay? I really fucking care about you. You matter to me, so much. I just don’t… I can’t give you that.”
Steve lifted his head just enough to look at Eddie. His brows were knit together, face pained in the twilight.
“I’m sorry, Steve,” he whispered.
The fissures in Steve threatened to break open. He took a shuddery breath and tried desperately to hold himself together.
thank you for the questions i love doing these!
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I love deep so much, it's become an obsession to the point that it brought me back to reading fanfics like????? it's been a while since i've read a fanfic. and i'm new to tumblr, I did an account and ran straight to your page and I got to ask. How do you come up with all these ideas? and the handbook that was so helpful and omg the side stories i'm just obsessed. and a wreck for the next chapter.
does it make you nervous? releasing the chapters? I would be nervous to release my writing, i'm not good at all but your writing is just so well written lol.
first, I'm happy to hear that my writing has brought you back to the fanfic community, there are so many great writers out there wayyyy better than me but I always appreciate it when you guys compliment my writing because it eases my nervousness when it comes to releasing the chapters for sure. I spend a lot of time writing and well my readers know that I tend to sometimes delete an entire chapter and rewrite it if I feel as if its not flowing....i'd rather start over than release something i'm not happy with. (btw I deleted the entire 2k words I wrote yesterday for chapter nine hahahaha....but I have the ending written in my notes to know where I want the chapter to head)
as for the ideas, I think i've said this before and i'm not sure if I wrote it in my FAQ but the ideas just come to me hahaha. nothing ever planned, like I have other fanfics written in my wattpad drafts but if I don't feel a attachment to them I tend to just leave them there after writing (sometimes ideas wont leave my head until I write it down, and causes me to have writers block so I write them to release stress hahaha)
before releasing a chapter I do feel nervous but excited mostly to share it with you guys and well as I write I tend to react to my own writing. like last time I came and said my heart was "clenching" or that I screamed over some part I wrote. It's nice to see others react to my writing, so thank you everyone for sending questions and your comments on wattpad and here OH and my AO3 readers too.
I especially loved one comment that made my entire day. I'll post it below.
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first of all, i literally wheezed so hard like a bee buzzing upon seeing your hashtag for me — job resign anon. yes so true. and im so proud of leaving that damn company 🫡 and another yes, my current interest is how to date choi san irl 😁
second of all, naauuurrrr i cant spill the fic im currently writing or anyone (as if) could catch up who am i if i ever drop my fanfic but but but but i have alwaaayyyssss wanting to ask these amazing writers, specifically YOU to proofread the draft plot if it's cool and meet up with readers' expectation or not but..... hmm let's see,, considering im already 70% of finishing and actually ready to drop it but im still insecure with my writings since this is my first time and english is not my main language 🦍 and sometimes my brain got blocked randomly that i ended up wrote the (hopefully) angst scene when i was happy,,, so like,,, im worried if the angst could reach the target audiences or not... but then since nobody is perfect, not even professional writers so im ready to learn more ^^
what can i say is im writing a mingi fanfic— ex-husband and ex-wife to lovers trope btw (i have said this much im crying people gonna find out lmaoooo *gunshot*)
my brain be generating so many ideas but my hands wont cooperate with me to actually converting all my thoughts into writings smh and actually i have mafia san in my draft for, idk, more than a year perhaps but the hype for mafia has sank (i assumed) recently so i have a new idea for san which is reincarnated au!!! i just hope my hands will work well with my brain to share my ideas with everyone before i got a new job or sumn hehe :D
p/s: I MISSED JONGHO SO MUUUCCCCHHHHHH
LMFAOOO IT FITS DOESN'T IT 😭😭😭 proud of u for taking steps and leaving a capitalistic institution behind to ruins 🫡
OOOOOO WAIT UR A WRITER HERE IM ABOUT TO GO LOOK SFABFJNDFKJ JKJK we will wait for ur work! oooo i'd love too! i love reading others' drafts so i would be 100% willing to read urs as well bring on the plots im ready, im sure many others would too! i understand english isn't my first either but i let my writing go thru grammarly or my google docs it fixes a lot of things for me! LMFAOO THATS SO CUTE IM SURE IT WORKED OUT IN THE END just listen to some extremly sad songs, moon lovers ost's can help <3 have written all my angsts to those songs! & u never know until u publish it1 the audience might enjoy the angst!
what can i say is im writing a mingi fanfic— ex-husband and ex-wife to lovers trope btw (i have said this much im crying people gonna find out lmaoooo *gunshot*)
CRYING WHAT GFHLGQBGHLFGJBFJB I NEED THIS RIGHT NOW THANK YEW SO MUCH!!!!!! I WILL BE WAITING FOR THE DAY THIS DROPS OH IM FBJEBBG U GOT ME SHAKING IM VER EXCITED
my brain be generating so many ideas but my hands wont cooperate with me to actually converting all my thoughts into writings mE FOR THE PAST YEAR <3 ,,,, mafia san.... reincarnation au.... HYPE FOR MAFIAS WILL NEVER SINK WE R GOING INTO THE AUTUMN IT'LL BE BACK AND THRIVING,,, ur work sounds very exciting i cannot wait <33
HOPING HIS INJURY HEALS FAST 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
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Be prepared *cracks fingers* imma drop these :]
For your Fanfic Writer Emoji Ask ☆
😅, 🥺, 🤗, 💖, 💌, 🎶, 🛠, & ✨️
OMG GIGI UR THE BEST EVER 😭😭🫶🏼🫶🏼🩵🩵
buckle in folks , we know how much i ramble 🫡
join the sleepover event!
😅- story or scene im a bit embarrassed by; on my old blog I wrote a mutant!reader x Bucky fic and the idea was there !! the execution was HORRIBLE I read it back a while ago and was so tempted to delete ,, but I was like 15 so ill cut myself some slack ig 😭
🥺- certain moment or common interaction btw characters that puts me in my feels; anytime I write anything of them giving the reader comfort and assuring them everything will be okay and they're hard working enough,, yeah ahaha
🤗- advice to fanfic writers just getting started; oh gosh im certainly not qualified for this,, I think just diving in and getting ur first work out there is a good start!! id say start w something you're comfortable with and then branch out from there :3 also don't get discouraged !! I got another ask w this so ill continue there :]
rest under the cut !
💖- what made you start writing?: I had so many ideas I wrote in my notes app and I was too scared to send requests to blogs (I still am ngl) so I decided to bite the bullet and just go for it! high school me was so brave (you go hs sophomore jess!)
💌- how do you feel about comments and feedback?: I LOVE COMMENTS AND FEEDBACK MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 its quite literally one of my biggest motivations when writing :( as embarrassing as it is im always refreshing to see if anyones left any comments or anything on my works :( please leave comments and feedback I need it more than air itself,,
🎶- do you listen to music while writing? what song have you been playing on loop lately?: I usually don't listen while I write just bc Im not able to think straight when I do 😭 if im writing inspired by a song then ill have that looping though,, lately I've been obsessed with the opening song of jjk idk its so catchy ! also seven by jungkook, do it like that by txt and lucid dreams by aespa !
🛠️- what tools/programs/apps do you use to write?: y'all r going to think im insane and im not even gonna defend myself bc its true,, I literally just write on the Tumblr mobile app 🧍🏻♀️ I just start a post and if I don't finish in one go I save it as a draft and go from there,, yea....
✨- give you and your writing a compliment: oh im so bad at this uhhh,, I think my writing is very sweet and cozy ! and I think im a pretty okay writer :] !
#THIS WAS SO SILLY FUN THANK U GIGI#I Talk so much sorry yall omg#ask game#pupkashi’s sleepover event
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How would Luca and Vox (separate) react if they realise that they have for feelings for reader?
Unanswered feelings.
thank you for requesting anon! and yes here it is, sorry for the long wait I was on sekai for a while,,, and finishing a draft--
summary; realizing his feelings for you.
warnings; college au + slight angst (if you squint hard enough) to fluff on luca’s, Vox’s is kinda short
note: my fanfics are purely fiction, there’s no connection.
thank you for 300~ I have a special fic coming up soon. (happy 6months btw<3)
ft. Luca Kaneshiro & Vox Akuma
♡ ྀ Luca Kaneshiro
AT FIRST, Luca really thinks that his feelings towards you are platonic 一 you find him pretty dense of his actions towards you, but you love him for it as well,,, right?
At afternoon, rain started pouring not allowing you to go home 一 Luca appears beside you “What’s wrong?” shifting your head to meet his violet eyes you close your eyes before shaking your head.
Luca frowns at your lack of words, he bends down to place his things on the floor 一 taking off his school sweater, placing it around your figure.
Your eyes widen at the sudden weight placed on your shoulders, instantly facing Luca 一 “Luca! you can’t go home like this, I’ll wait for the rain to stop it’s fine.” his lips are pursed before smiling, handing you his umbrella.
Opening your mouth to speak, after nothing came, you close it back again 一 remembering what you overheard today 一 “Luca, what is [name] to you?” Ike’s voice rings in your ears.
“What? they’re just a friend right?” 一 the voices make you clench your fist, eyes dropping to the ground, hesitantly taking grip on the umbrella “Why don’t we,,, share the umbrella?”
Luca is surprised by your request, red scatters around his face “Sure.” 一 the walk to your place was painfully silent.
Upon arriving you put down your things as Luca leaned upon the frame of the door that’s when Luca had it 一 “What’s going on? You’re oddly quiet [name], you weren’t like this today morning.”
You turn to face him, taken back by his sudden outburst 一 before letting you speak he grabs your wrist, “Please, what’s going on,,, did I do something wrong [name]?”
Luca watches you gulp, pursing your lips you hesitate “Luca,, what am I to you?” 一 Luca thinks for a few moments before tugging you closer, letting lose of the captured wrist to capture the side of your face.
You slightly lean into his touch, avoiding eye-contact to spare the embarrassment, “Can you look at me? Please?” 一 your gaze shifts onto Luca’s violet hues, sincerity swimming within.
Your hands grasp onto Luca’s upper arm feeling his lips on yours, his way of saying sorry for friendzoning you 一 when he doesn’t look at you in a way that a friend is supposed to.
♡ ྀ Vox Akuma
VOX NOTICES the difference in his feelings towards you, but you however 一 whenever he drops hints, you think it’s part of his personality.
You often overthink in class of the hints that Vox gives to you, was it part of his teasing again? Did he mean it? 一 Vox watched you from a far, worried for you and your mentality.
He tries to brush it off as much as he can, slowing down with his teasing thinking it’d assure you of his feelings a little more 一 and oh boy, he was so wrong, it’d get worse.
Ever since his teasing slowed you’ve felt distant from Vox, In guilt Vox takes you to a park 一 full of Sakura trees, your eyes narrow at Vox, what was he planning this time?
Vox feels your stare on him, turning around you meet his colored hues, you’re startled by the sudden pair of eyes you’re met with 一 your eyes shoot the side avoiding eye-contact out of embarrassment.
Vox chuckles at your flushed state 一 “Can I?” your eyes turn back to the figure standing before you, tilting your head to the side out of confusion.
Vox smiles and points at his lips, catching onto what he meant you look away before nodding 一 a hand reaches for your jaw, slowly tracing up behind your head before meeting another pair of lips.
#luca kaneshiro#luca kaneshiro x reader#vox akuma#vox akuma x reader#vox x reader#nijisanji x reader#nijisanji#nijien#nijisanji en
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Alan Turing Theory
Every now and then against my best interest, I take a quick look at reddit to see if anyone is talking about anything interesting. The answer is usually no so I quickly leave but yesterday I DID see an interesting theory that I MUST share.
As expected, the thread itself got super downvoted because "NO WILL THEORIES ALLOWED". THE ST Reddit is full of people like that sadly, so it's not really worth discussing anything there unless you want to talk about ships.
But this brave soul has a theory that honestly truly could be a thing and it even totally fits with my own ancient theories! Here is the their below 👇
djjdjdjdjdjd231 said: I came up with an Alan Turning hypothesis. What if the Vecna is an hitler type villain and Will is like Alan Turning. Alan Turing cracked the enigma machine/ code and helped win the war against the nazis. What if the upside down code still hasn’t been cracked which is why the villains keep coming back. Will is gonna help crack the code!
So, first thing's first, Alan Turing. Father of modern computing as they say. Mathematician. Computer scientist. Code cracker. A bunch of other things. Man is a legend of a sort. He was also gay and he was prosecuted and chemically castrated for it. A great injustice.
Alan Turing is the man Will used for his "My Hero" project for I think a few reasons, the main two being he was a brilliant scientist and I believe because he's gay.
To be honest, I didn't think it could go any deeper than that really. Alan Turing being the subject of Will's project just seemed like another drop in a large bucket of evidence that Will is not straight, but also that he is still a huge smart nerd.
But this code breaking thing??? Oh my gosh it suddenly opened my mind!
Way back when, I used to write a lot of theories across two of my accounts, though these days I keep them to this account. I'm not sure if I ever posted it, or maybe it was lost to drafts somewhere, but I've always had this visual of Stranger Things almost being like a chess game.
You got the Mind Flayer on one side, and the heroes on the other. Every piece has its role to play, but each side needs a main "player".
I started to think of the conflict in Stranger Things like that shortly after the release of season 2 (which is when I got into the series btw). The Mind Flayer and Will being opposing players and Will using his unfortunate gifts to "play" the game and win.
How is this related to Alan Turing? It's the code breaking part! It's just like Will using morse code to tell them how to stop the Mind Flayer.
I can totally see Will's key role being to "break the code", intercept information about the enemy team, coordinate a plan based on the Mind Flayer's movements. Be the "brains" that stays behind the front lines. The phone man. The code breaker.
This is heading into fanfic territory, but I've always paired this up with El's abilities. You know, the one that keeps in contact with the other who actually has to implement the plans. Like the main who stayed on the space craft while the other two took their first steps on the moon. That kind of thing. Yessssss
That is just a fantastic theory and I hope it's a thing and boo to all the redditors that downvoted it because they're salty over ship wars.
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