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[drexxci]

January 26 2020.

... cute.

[drexxci]

You can’t control how other people receive your energy. Anything you do or say gets filtered through the lens of whatever persona shit the are going through at the moment. Which is not about you. Just keep doing your thing with as much integrity and love as possible.

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Penelope : mom? We’re you ever afraid what people thought about you.

Me : of course. I would just have to ask myself does their opinion really really truly matter? Am I benefiting from them? Are they impacting my life some how? we don’t live for those people. Figuring out who we are is the one thing no one else can do for us.

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Carrie Bradshaw

In “A Christmas Carol” Scrooge has given up hope for happiness, for love, for good cheer. But despite his lack of belief, he’s given a second chance - a do over to change how he views the world. Most of use aren’t costed by different versions of ourselves so we can see the mistake we’ve made. But if we’re lucky, we can seized the chance to the changes and make things better. Sometimes taking a chance can give us a second chance. And sometimes we don’t a second chance ... we need a second family. & sometimes you get a second chance with your family. But what second chances always represent is hope— the hope that this you’ll get it right ... no matter what the obstacle.

[drexxci]

sometimes to chase after your future, you have to stop running and plant yourself in one place. Take a stand and fight for what you want; and know that even after the darkest of nights, the dawn will come, and you will find a place where you don’t have to hide.

A place to call home.

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- PEYO210

wow. so you actually were able to find the hashtag.

Wondering what PEYO210 means?

PEguin YOugie your DOB.

Damn. It has gotten to a point that I want to talk to you everyday but bruh then calls ain’t coming in cheap. Them shit be adding up. & trust me before I use to feel some type of way putting in money but as selfish and inhuman it might sound idk I’ve learned to not think negative about it.

Anyways, bruh I miss you. I just miss chilling with you to be real. My feelings for you have changed in a good way and just deeper and deeper. & to think it’s through a phone. I honestly fuck with our story, imagine when you get out.

You finding things hashtag and going out your way finding it, truly is something I’ve never experienced. Thank you for noticing ... ME.

I love you.

[drexxci]

-Sincerely, Dre

NO CAP

FUCK ALL THAT STREET SHIT, we tryna eat.

The fuckery is real.

S/O to my nigga Matthew the realist of them all when it comes down to chilling on the spot.

I was going to take this time to put some ppl on blast but it’s all good though, I rather not cause me not being their life is enough. I know my worth and not everyone deserves my company.

Men I trust was awesome but didn’t get to eat dinner so I didn’t really enjoy it much cause your girl was starving! And they did last call at 9:30 ?! Like ?! Met up with Lina to eat at twin peaks & right after met up with my boy Matt but the real fuckery didn’t start til Saturday night. Honestly, fuck every person I hit up that night, really had me driving around the area like a straight DUMBASS. One, I’m tryna chill with this girl for her bday but always having the phone dead or WB to her convenience. Nah, boo I already had a bitch with the same type of attention seeking personality and what’s funny is y’all both call y’all self the same damn nickname I should’ve taken that as a sign. Then the other bitch wants to blame everything on her mom, tf ?! You is how old ?! Nah. But when buddie that got them perc you that’s when you don’t give a fuck, you out and about. Only one that came through was my nigga Matt & as much as he’s cool people n loves to get intoxicated (just like me) I can’t be on that tip no more. My favorite part of the night is how I went to vixen (strip club) & not only did a nigga say I was better looking than his girl but some random dude couldn’t stop staring at me and just had to come and holla. What’s the funniest is that I was looking like a straight hobo! Leggings, hoodie & a hair bun that looks like a giant hair knot with a zit in the middle of my eyes brows & ZERO makeup with beach sandals. This is why I really don’t look into that whole superficial always gotta look good, natural is the way to go always and foreve.

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ok ig i see you with your myspace vibes.

😫 @ the pose. every single bitch was posing like this

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American Eagle Jeans !!! Ne(x)t level hi-rise jegging.

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I know going to sleep crying is not a way to go to sleep. This wave of emotions literally just slapped me in the face.

Im crying cause we didn’t say good night.

I’m crying because I’m frustrated.

I’m crying because I miss your touch.

I’m crying because I’m horny.

I’m crying because I love you.

I’m crying because I feel alone.

I’m crying because even though this time it was our fault, I know I can’t handle you going back ... at all. This is it, I know your paying for your mistakes you did back when you were 19 but you’ve always had ppl that love you and miss you but now you have a legit soulmate that’s ready to start her life the way she has always wanted to. She wants you to be part of it all the way to the end but we both know that wether you in it or not she will continue fighting for what she deserves.

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It’s the quiet ones that you have to watch out for.

Many like to think that I’m slow, in my own little world or just plain stupid. In reality, it’s because I like to observe and analyze my surroundings.

Especially now that I’ve been able to smoke in peace. I’m a straight retard apparently.

I’m getting really tired of people belittling me cause I’m quiet, I think different & I have no fancy degree on me. That I’m open with my comprehension problem, that my whole life I’ve been treated like a straight idiot. It’s okay, I can feel this huge success coming my way. It’s as easy as moving out, that’s my goal.

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Sunday’s Madness

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-Sincerely, Dre

Tell me who you loyal to

Is it money? Is it fans? Is it weed? Is it drink?

Is it coming down with the loud pipes and the rain ?

Big chilling, only for the power in your name

Tell me who you loyal to

Is it love for the street when the lights get dark?

Is it unconditional when the RARI don’t start?

Tell me when your loyalty is come the heart.

Tell me who you loyal to

Do it start with your woman or your man?

Do it end with your family and friends?

Or you’re loyal to yourself in advance?

I said, tell me who you loyal to

Is it anybody that you would lie for?

Anybody you would slide for?

Anybody you would die for?

That’s what god for.

10-4 ! Loyalty Loyalty Loyalty.

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I will forever be grateful if someone showed up to my house with a blunt and an edible.

Sincerely Dre

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-Sincerely, Dre

•••

so today I kinda went on some psycho girlfriend tip and that’s not usually me, I’m just beyond terrified. First time I’ve ever felt like this in a very very long way. As terrified I feel though, something in me tells me that it’s going to be one my best relationship ever. I really connect with this person so well, like it’s crazy we’re so different but some how the same. I’m falling so in love with this kid, like it’s nerve racking but mostly exciting and just a nice feeling. I am scared cause I don’t want to lose myself or get hurt but I guess that’s the risk you take when you fall in love. I’m so obsessed with him but in a good way ... I like his company and I love talking to him. Fuck, I love fucking him too. It’s funny though before it was just fucking but now with the way we feel about each other, our sex is going to be so passionate so real. That intimacy that people always look for but never get the chance to have it. I can’t wait for him to get out so we can just vibe smoke and talk shit and fuck the whole night. Then I end up at the edge of my bed while his far far away LOL fuck out here with that cuddle shit.

xoxo penguin.