#Not Gifs

[wewillbeseen-butnotbeheard]

my entire life, the gentle longing for turning into something/anything else was ever-present, even if i never understood or fully recognised it until recent years/months.

but now, when it’s something that i’m aware of constantly, and something that i’m almost always feeding into, it’s no longer a wondrous kind of feeling that i WANT to be experiencing, because the idea FEELS GOOD in of itself like it once was in the past.

but instead, it’s more like a gaping wound in the center of my chest; a vacancy that i can always feel. i’m reminded of it with EVERY thought that i have, every single move that i take. sometimes it’s like a sharp pain, and other times it’s like a dull ache; like a cloud in the back of my head. i find myself wanting to smash my head against the wall often. i notice that these emotions often manifest in a way that i end up physically feeling in my gut.

there’s not really much i can do. every time i feel like it, i just write out my emotions on here; again, and again. it only helps very slightly. i suppose it helps, because for a while i’m just writing about how “terrible” my situation is, instead of actually feeling the reality of it for a while.

sometimes once i’ve made one post, i just go straight to making another one because i find myself with too many thoughts leaking out of my head. but once i’m done, i have to think to myself. what now?

because i have all these things in my head, that make one problem that adds up to nothing at all. what do i think i’m doing? where do i think i’m going to get? nowhere. i would admit it’s all in vain. in vain of what? i don’t know.

and i want to make it clear that i know this is, or at least at this point, is becoming annoying. i’m told it’s not, but i ASSURE you from the bottom of my heart, i have the self awareness to know. and i apologise again for posting on these tags when i really shouldn’t be (i understand certain spaces are not for me. i promise it’s not rude to call somebody out for encroaching on a space, and i feel bad for it. SORRY.) anyway. i’d say that i’d try find a different method to get my thoughts out, but between this and whatever else i’ve tried so far, i think i’d rather stick to this for a while longer. sorry.

[ted-calling-orson]

me after throwing a tantrum ab fictional characters in the middle of the school cafeteria

[deusfoundry]

haha do you ever think about how the foundation of kagehina's relationship is promises and reassurance and having complete faith in one another ... hinata fulfilling kazuyo's promise to kageyama that someday someone even better will come and find him. constantly reminding each other that they're here and because of that they're stronger, they're invincible. their first coordinated attack is literally just hinata trusting that kageyama will get the ball to him.

[loppujenlopuks]

hey so!!!!!!!!!!!!! why did i only now realize that in ”siks kai mä oon sun” aarni actually walks away during kun sä lähdet, mä jään (when you leave, i’ll stay) 😃😃

[boogershirt]

i left a used book store yesterday with my arms full chat im back in the star trek hole

[lunallamaloveshuntlow]

I'm feeling so normal rn (kicking my feet while giggling)

[loveisparpall]

[solitudesolace]

MY GUILT WILL NOT PURIFY ME.

[v4mpygf]

i am so normal and can be trusted when she sends me videos of her at the gym

[birazdus]

Günlük Not 1

Bakışınızdaki zariflik, incelik ve düşünce sizi olayların ve insanların içerisinden sıyırıp, kahramanca veya dünyanın en önemli insanı hissettirebilir. Alınan haz duygusu belki de dünyayı yaratma duygusuyla, tanrı ile baş başa bırakabilir. Ya tanrı olmayı seçersiniz ya da tanrısal varlığı anlamayı. Başarı ve en önde olma istenci bu kadar tehlikeli olduğu gibi faydalı da olabilir.

[butiknowiloatheyou]

i do not need to smoke weed to feel ok i do not need to smoke weed to feel ok i do not need to smoke weed to feel ok i do not need to smoke weed to feel ok i do not need to smoke weed to feel ok i do not need to smoke weed to feel ok

[thefrankshow]

Life’s Not A Cabaret

[nthecannibal]

its that time of year when you listen to a song religiously so your colleagues from high school dont think you're still a freak when the spotify wrapped comes out

[chellys-catbox]

can anons not be mean at this time im going through somethign

[hislittleraincloud]

...Not me laughing my ass off when someone told Ortega's sister that she (the sister) has a lazy eye. 💀

As far as I could see, Aliyah does not have a lazy eye. But her sister does.

Is this your girl? This girl right here?

[helloareyouheremdfan]

we see the original un infected cyn in episode 5