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[hanasaku-shijin]

LOOKIE HERE~! Back in the LWA supremacy days, @theneonflower and I ran this fandom with our AUs~!!! Neon sent me this handmade artbook of all her gorgeous LWA arts~ This is a collector's item, a one-of-a-kind! <3 And I believe for New Years one year I spent hours writing a post and linking each of her arts and writing paragraphs about what I loved about each of them. Good times <3 I miss LWA...

[unknownati]

heyy hope you’re doing well! requests r open & i was wondering if you could do a stm w ekko evolving him and his s/o or a friends to lovers trope going roller skating ? :!!

like pls tell me you’ve seen those videos of ppl roller skating .. anyways thxs for the consideration, i luv your work <3

ix. skate to me!

a/n: TY!!! THIS IS SO CUTE LOLOLOL

dance based of this tiktok, idk if i'm feeling that song for this fic tho 🤔 imagine whatever song you want

*the song i attached was also not the song i imagined for the dance but it fit the fic...if u ask me i was thinking abt drugs n hella melodies by don toliver

guys iwas reading my old writing from like my notes app n why am i kinda getting worse at it LMAOOO

warnings/tags: gn!reader, no use of y/n, no desc of reader's physical features, fluff + suggestive (really it's just the dance but i dont see it as THAT sexual 🌚), reader is a beginner roller skater, modern!au, teaching you how to skate 🥹, friends to lovers, slow dancing (backpacking is the actual term...whoops), ekko locking tf in, to fw this fic or not fw this fic...good question!

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ekko regularly went roller skating with powder, vi, claggor and mylo. and lord, was he a show off.

powder would be skating around in her own world, humming to the music, then here comes ekko zooming by backwards, crouching down, AND on his phone.

he acted humble about it, but humility only goes so far when you're two steps from doing a backflip on the floor. regulars started to build a reputation up for him as "the trick guy" because of it.

anyway, one day the six of you were hanging around in powder's room when you overheard mylo ask, "we still on for thursday?"

you perked up. "what's on thursday?"

"oh," vi shrugged, pink locks brushing against her brow. "we're all going skating together."

powder's arms draped around your shoulder. "hey, you should come with. you busy?"

"no," you hummed, "but i don't know how to skate."

the weight of knowing glances being shot around the room smacked you like a ton of bricks, and once again you felt left out. you opened your mouth to speak up but claggor, wearing a smug grin, cut you off.

"ekko'll teach you."

ekko fumbled with his pen, spinning to face the group. "huh?"

"yeah," vi chips in. "you'll teach them, won't you?"

ekko's eyes land on you, his lips tugging into a sheepish smile without even knowing it. "of course!"

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the first time you joined them was the first time you'd ever skated, ever.

low neon lights paint the room, flicking through hues with each beat that pounded through the speakers. a glimmering disco ball spun lazily at the center of the skating rink.

ekko stepped on the slippery floor backwards, hands cupping yours. he pulled you forward and your upper half moved, but your legs didn't.

"c'mon!" he urged, drawing you closer so you didn't fall.

"i'm coming..." you croaked, trying to convince yourself more than him. your eyes remained glued to your feet.

he raised a brow and he leaned into your space. "hey," his breath tickled your ear. "i've got you."

you swallowed and awkwardly stepped onto the floor. wobbling legs mimicked those of a newborn fawn, your body lurching forward to find its balance. embarrassing, a voice rung in your mind. you heard laugh above you and it irritated you.

"ekko, help me! don't just stand there!" you scolded. ekko's fingers began to ache from how tight you gripped onto them.

"you won't learn!" he insisted. "listen, if you lean forward, all your weight will move forward. stand up straight!"

yeah, fuck all of that.

your hands abandoned his, desperately searching for a sturdier anchor. his shoulders, of course! you braced yourself on them, propelling yourself upright. every limb in your body grows stiff, your gaze meeting ekko's.

at no point did you register how close you were to him. chest to chest, nails clawing at his hoodie, faces only a few inches apart.

ekko however, was violently aware.

ekko cleared his throat, hands awkwardly floating at his side. his gaze darts everywhere except for towards you. he didn't wanna just grab on you, not without asking first—fuck, you looked amazing under the lights—but you needed help and you wanted to learn and—

"ekko?" you called for the third time.

"sorry. we'll, um, take it slow, okay? i won't let you fall. i promise."

you've only realized this now, but ekko was...kinda cute.

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you attended the skating sessions more frequently after that. a quick learner, you were. after a few weeks you started to get the hang of skating on your own without clutching onto ekko like your life depended on it.

he'll never admit it, but he missed having you so close.

the distance had you two constantly staring at each other on the floor, shooting each other smiles. they were flirtatious and shy, too nervous to go any further.

with you starting to separate on the floor came you seeing just how much of a show off ekko was. backwards, sliding on the floor, speeding around the rink, twisting with vi to create some insane shape—didn't matter. it was for fun, sure, but he loved seeing the impressed look on your face more than anything.

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you trail far behind ekko on the rink, still not quite as fast as him. he twists around to face you, arms open, beckoning you over.

pushing off the ground, you speed up to him, barely avoiding a collision. your body clashes with his, almost sending you both tumbling down. you erupt in laughter after finding your balance.

"i knew you'd learn," he comments, the distance between you two growing ever so slightly. your hip bumps his.

"all thanks to you," you coo. his lips press into a line, slipping against each other. should he just tell you? he's been holding it in way too long, now would be the best time, right?

"☆, i—"

"this next song's for all my couples on the floor," the dj's voice boomed out in the speaker. ekko looked around in confusion, looking at the dj booth near the front, lo and behold, powder was behind it, her hand covering her mouth as she spoke to him.

you moved with the threat of departure, then paused once you heard the slow intro to the song. "oh, but i love this song," you murmur in disappointment. once the dj played a song during a session, he would not play it again.

ekko hesitates to speak. "we could...dance anyway?" you glance over at him, glassy umber eyes begging you to not skate away. "...can we?" he tacks on.

you'd be crazy to say no.

your foot makes its turn, wheels sliding across the floor as you faced ekko. it starts casual; just skating, swaying to the music, eyes closed while you just let you and the music get comfortable.

ekko, on the other hand? a wreck. he could only keep his cool for so long. with you moving closer, closer, closer, he was about to fall apart. he kept glancing behind him to 'make sure he didn't crash into someone' but if he had the choice he'd keep his eyes fixed on you forever.

you caught on to ekko's feelings for you a while ago. albeit, it took multiple teasing glances from the rest of the group for it to start to click, but once you realized that you had him wrapped around your finger, that chance was taken and ran, no, sprinted with it.

your hands finally met, which is when you opened your eyes.

"hi," you chirp.

"hi," he parrots, tone dripping with something you can't quite place.

half-lidded eyes watch in awe of how effortless you made everything look. he needed to catch up, couldn't leave you dancing on your own.

as the song started to build into the chorus, ekko started to follow your lead. a lazy game of cat and mouse—chasing the direction of your body. his arm raised, readying you for a twirl that you were waiting for.

your fingers rotate between his and you make it halfway through the spin before you trip on your front wheel. your back lands on his chest.

"sorry," you gasp, heart racing from almost falling. his heartbeat drums against your shoulder.

"no, it's okay," he reassures. his wrists perch atop your hip bone, your arms crossed in front of you.

your eyes meet his above you shoulder. smooth, brown skin tinted a deep red over the lights, small twinkles curving around the planes of his face. slowly, your hips grind back into his. it was impossible to feign innocence at this point.

ekko almost chokes on his spit, but by no means is he against it. the slow wind of your body against his had the room spinning around him. it takes him...multiple seconds, but he starts to move with you, stretching your arms into the air, exposing the fluidity of your movements.

although his anxiety was eating him alive, he rocked with you ever so slowly, arms swishing back down. his hand glides on your upper thigh, chin resting on your shoulder. you crane back on his opposite shoulder, free hand raising to cup the back of his neck.

it felt like nobody else was in the building at that moment, music drowning out behind your heartbeats thumping in your ears.

you lock eyes, both of you stealing glances at the other's lips.

ekko was frozen, caught in the intricacies of your facial features. to be fair, you were losing the ability to breathe the more you stared into his eyes, but it seems ekko is losing brain cells. so, fine. you'd do it.

your noses collide at first, sending you back to his shoulder. like two teenagers. no time was set aside for any apology from either of you after you finished snickering, guiding him by his neck to finally let your lips meet.

the rhythmic beats in your chests synced, the world blurring around you as your movements slowed to a near stop. with each presage of the kiss stopping, your brows knit together and the hand cradling his neck pressed ever-so-slightly down. urging, pleading him not to let the moment end.

it was delicate, and maybe lasted longer than it should have, but it spoke every word that the two of you were too scared to say.

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during your dance, mylo's mouth flew open with a yawn.

"man, i just wish they'd get it over with and kiss."

"be patient!" powder snapped, leaning on the table, anticipation literally having her at the edge of her seat. she's been waiting for this moment for months, praying for the day that you two just suck it up and admit it.

vi leaned across the table to whisper to claggor, eyes remained fixed on the two of you. she chuckled. "ekko's too nervous to—holy shit."

[twntyfiveotwo]

i’m psychotic & delusional

1. “r u into me, like i’m into u? do u wanna do the things i wanna do w u? .... u’re just one click away” passionate romance strained by physical & emotional separation

2. “u say, ‘i dont mind waiting baby, i still got pictures of u’ .... don’t think it’s just a feeling, im gonna luv u i mean it sending all my emotions away, breathing, keep it to myself again”

3. “i was so blinded by u, now i cry juz thinking ‘bout the fool that i was” felt the need to be perfect for another person. changing for a r/s and losing yourself along the way

4. “i can see the way u want me i can see the way u need me”

5. “buzzing like a neon fleet of broken dreams”

6. “i can still see u at the place i know when i close my eyes do u remember when we felt like the only two alive? don’t let me be one of the people that seek a lost romance would u go and do it all over again, given the chance?” reminiscing on a past r/s. some part of him still wants to be w the person he was and wonders if the other person feels the same

7. “i’ve ben in luv w her for ages and i cant seem to get it right i fell in luv w her in stages my whole life” being infatuated w a friend who doesn’t feel the same way that he does about her

8. “she plays bass, she plays bass nothing matters ‘cause we’re both in space pretty sure we could never date” how important the friendship is

9. “we talked, we talked about it all night just to throw the plan out at the first light we thought, we thought we’d make it alive or at least we’d give it an honest try”

10. “don’t kill me, just help me run away from everyone, i need a place to stay where i can cover up my face don’t cry” dreams r a safe haven for him where he can be w the person he deeply cares for who doesnt view him as a “freak”

11. “when every page is in disarray i think we’ll be okay”

12. “we both like apple cider but ur hair be smelling like fruit punch and i dont even like u that much wait, i do, fuck .... and even if we’re just friends we could be more than that” implying some sort of unrequited luv. both have the capacity to luv each other but there is a third party interrupting their connection

[romancemoving]

hello, rae! happy valentine's day! <3 i admire the fact that you've created vi so much. i know you've been writing him for years, and that dedication shows. he's not only a great oc ( original character is right, as he's so incredibly original that i'm impressed with new information about him every time ), but the ideas and the thoughts and the concepts behind him? fantastic. i'm consistently intrigued by vi, his layers, his complexities. he has a wide - brim of personality traits and a colorful way of speaking. i highly enjoy the idea of him being so versed in art, because that color is present in everything he says or does. vivid technicolor, that's how i see it. your writing is spectacular at getting that across, and i'm so happy to read whatever you write. it's been a pleasure having you on my dash, and i'm glad that we're becoming friends. i hope that you have a wonderful day!

✨ @debtwon my luv!

*wakes up from my bed of illness*

*answers this before i fade away again.*

i love my son. all the shit he’s been put through and yet here i still am. LJKGDFLGD. i’ve told u a few things..... not even surface scratching, sometimes it’s really been just bad. horrific! anyway thank u jasper and u kno im really inspired by you and how u write sang-woo. like when it comes to replying to u or writing u a starter shit just comes to me easily... and i feel like i do have room to flex the color in vi’s existence.... he’s a pastel purple light in the darkness, baybee...... the neon bouncing of the skyscraper during a rainy night in july.......

and i love writing him. cant wait for u to find out more cuz i havent even gotten to actually... writing about his actual family and sang-woo eventually meeting said family cuz they do pop up sometimes and yeyeyeyeye <: ) luv u jasper !

[reversecreek]

struts onto the dash carrying this deliriously wriggling little elf in my arms like a swaddled bebe......... they’re genuinely my oldest muse of all time i think i created them when i was like. 13 possibly. n i haven’t written them in Years but. i’m literally so excited to jst vibrating w muse. smiles at u all demurely..... they have risen. u can find their pinterest here n their playlist here.

* alana champion, nonbinary + they/them | you know nyla palmer, right? they’re twenty-two, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, eight months? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to 6669 (i don’t know if you know) by neon indian like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole a two headed doll of a prairie girl with stitched on rabbit ears and butterfly wings, befriending shadow puppets & finding god with your eyes open underwater in a public pool you broke into thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is march 2nd, so they’re a pisces, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( nai, 24, gmt she/her  )

HISTORY:

was born in georgiaaaa georgiaaaa (phoebe bridgers voice holds my bang...) to a vry honest hard working man named george (omgggg he’s called GEORGE and he’s from GEORGIA? ahaaaaa fuckk ur jestinggg) nd a woman who did her best named pamela..... george worked on a construction site n pamela was a pharmacist..... their house was this small rickety white thing with a wrap around porch n a very rabid overgrown garden tht kind of looked like the earth ws trying to reclaim it bc nobody ever hd the time or motivation to mow the lawn.... there ws literally a piece of fold out furniture just entirely submerged by weeds n foliage

nyla ws always closest w their dad george..... he hd this way of looking at the world tht was seeing the best in all of it.... he took them on long walks where he talked abt how u have to respect the trees bc they’re breathing fr us n we’re breathing fr them..... he hd a strange whimsical sense of humour n a gnome alter ego called grundlebolt who always tickled them..... in a way this closeness created a distance between nyla n their mother but not so much that it ws rly a problem. just enough tht nyla sometimes waited until their mother ws out of eye n ear shot to tell their dad they loved him bc they didn’t wna make her sad >_>

(mental health, death & grief tw) pamela always struggled w her mental health but george ws great n understanding n knew how to help her thru this... nyla didn’t get it too greatly at a very young age bt they knew their mum got “the sads” sometimes (how their dad wld explain tht she needed to lay down in the quiet for a while or why she’d stood at the stove n let the dinner burn until the smoke detector went off without doing anything abt it). when nyla was 14 they got home one day to a police car in the driveway n came prancing in exuberantly as they always did. immediately hugged the legs of an officer bc this is hw they wld greet everyone they ever met. they only realised something was wrong when they let go n saw their mum sat at the table crying. essentially there ws an accident at the construction site george worked at n :/ yeah. 

(jst mental health & grief tw now) this rly had an intense ripple effect on everyone tbh. pamela’s mental health deteriorated quite a lot without george there as her rock n nyla sort of had to step in as best they cld but it was....... hard. some days she ws better bt some days nyla had to sit her in the bath n stroke a wet sponge over her back bc they didn’t know how else to calm her down. nyla always had a very overactive imagination which george encouraged bt it ws like. losing him rly opened a window in nyla’s head n all rationality went floating out of it. their dreams seemed more real than being awake. fantasy wasn’t jst the way they coped bt it was the way they thought n the way they saw. everything on earth was alive. the trees n the clouds n the wall with a brick missing at the bottom of her road n especially their dad. their dad was alive in everything in nyla’s head. the sun shining extra bright in the morning was george. ponds were a veil they could dunk her head under and find george waiting on the other side. reality rly just pulled the plug n said bye tbh n they were ok w that <3

(abuse implied tw) their mum remarried too fast to a man named stephen n it was jst not a good arrangement. he was Not a nice man. i won’t go into this but home wasn’t a nice place for nyla any more n after a couple of yrs stephen wound up asking them to leave n their mum said nothing to contradict tht. there’s more to this bt long story short nyla left <3

(drugs tw) they couch surfed fr a while before settling living w their best friend. they got up to like... all sorts of trouble n grew up far too fast. nyla’s lack of sense n realism hd a habit of getting them into some sticky situations n these few yrs were a rollercoaster where they got by on the skin of their teeth. when they think of high skl they think of gravel and skinned knees and sucking sherbet dunkers to ignore the taste of pennies in ur mouth and getting lost in the woods a lot bc they’d take FAR too many drugs n be lead astray having conversations with kind trees whose branches held their hands

(drug mention) got by on odd jobs like making candles n selling them at market stalls. leaf blowing at cemeteries. face painting fr children’s parties (where they were blatantly high). random stuff. all over the place. in this time them n their best friend also hd a sugar daddy named tony who always wore very impressive colour block suits n mink stoles n jewelled fedoras n hd a swanky apartment w marble floors. rly just. surreal. lots of strange stories frm this time.

things kind of blew up in their friendship group n they fell out w their best friend raya bc she slept w this guy aj who nyla hd been madly in love w for yrs.... he was a Stinker n honestly so ws their best friend so good riddance i say bt obviously it felt like having their entire world flipped upside dwn fr nyla.... they split after this came out bc they just did Not want to b around these ppl any more n they decided to leave w this guy frm a band they barely knew tht much save fr a one night stand to tour w them..... this ws another whirlwind. jst chock full of them. it ws similar to being on a teacup ride at a carnival n spinning round n round n only knowing u were surrounded by lots of lights. tht’s how they’d best describe their time on tour.

SO in terms of them coming to irving 8 months ago they came w the band.... they honestly did pretty well on tour n wound up renting a big beach house on dorado as a kind of “retreat” sort of place fr them to shack up in while they worked on writing and recording their first big studio album (they gt signed w a label so it’s all vry exciting stuff). nyla among like 3 others were allowed to stay w them too bc they hd a lot of fun on tour. literally jst. taken on as professional groupies essentially. nyla loved it bc they’d never seen the ocean n when they first got there they jst threw off all their clothes n ran straight into the water. it was 3pm on a tuesday afternoon. they got arrested fr public indecency n didn’t get why bc they were like but i just wanted to hug the ocean u silly little oinker? i picture the beach house as like. the loudest one on dorado.... comes alive like a jungle at night..... they r probably bad neighbours. anyway. onto personality puts hand on hip.

PERSONALITY:

sets out patio furniture on someone else’s lawn n jst takes a seat n leans back like ahhhhh vat a nice day to be alive ya! (swedish accent suddenly bc they think it’s fun). they come out n start yelling n they’re jst so confused they’re like hey wat’s the big idea hey wat’s go on here why u angies why this happen?

likes drawing imaginary veins over their arms in all different colour blue pens in a sudden fit of hyperfixation n then forgets all abt it n goes out like tht n scares several townsfolk bt they’re oblivious they’re jst in her own world loving life already onto the next fixation. has many many different fads like this. one day will jst start snipping up a bunch of magazines bc they’re like EYES ARE COOL N THEY SEE EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :P n they’ll stick a bunch of them over their wall n then forget they was doing that n leap onto the next. quite a pattern. bt they love the vein thing a lot it makes them feel like a walking planetarium like they have their own constellations

sometimes jst doesn’t make sense. they’re honestly kind of strange. pops up in places like they suddenly materialised there n it’s like how did u get there where have u been when were u last seen are u ok. has the energy of an ancient deity frm deep in a mountain cave n an ambiguous forest sprite all at once..... talks shit honestly. abt anything n everything. sometimes outrageous. sometimes plain incoherent. like what are u talking about? i dnt kno. even i dnt kno sometimes.

luvs stick n pokes will let anyone tattoo whatever they want on them for the price of a gummy bear kindly placed onto their tongue n swallowed whole

has this obsession w being underwater w their eyes open luvs it. calls it their tadpole time. runs baths just to lie there blinking looking around n drifting her arms. best friends w the bottom of any local swimming pool n hs probably given it a quick kiss so it knows they’re bff’s n then got sick bc there’s sm germs in a public pool. says the kgb probably poisoned their oatmeal n r finally here to deliver on their promise n THAT’S why they got sick unrelated to the pool incident. what promise? noone knows.

unclear if they believe what they say or if they jst has a very expanded sense of humour where they nvr let on if they’re joking.... lines r blurred a lot..... 

loves excitedly shouting things. sometimes just screams at the sky bc they say it’s good to let the creatures in ur belly fly out every once in a while otherwise their wings get sore.

(drugs tw) still does an excessive amt of hallucinogens n it kind of shows. very bad fr their brain bt we’re going to ignore it.

dresses fun n strange n eccentric n careless. loves to experiment. does nt care abt what’s considered to be societally appropriate. living in their own world.

sleeps around a lot... jst doesn’t rly see sex as a big deal.... very free w themselves in that way..... sometimes greets their friends w a kiss on the lips they’re like awww :) kisses <3 when they run into them in the middle of the cereal aisle n then pulls away n suddenly breaks into a box tht has a free toy in it bc it’s a banana with googly eyes n that’s the best thing they’ve ever heard in their LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n isn’t he so HANDSOME????? enchante indeed my good sir ;)... gives the toy a kiss too.

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

other groupies of the band: self explanatory a little.... i dnt have a name for the band yet bt all can b worked out..... i picture them as kind of. not that nice but like. there for a good time........ rock genre.... bit chaotic...... to say the least........ they dnt have to have come there w the band like nyla n the others they cld have been adopted in their time there.... whoever wld b wild n down fr a good time <3

chaotic trash goblin friends: idk what this title rly means it just came to me in a vision....... jst ppl tht r rly kind of off the rails n don’t care abt anything...... they r who nyla tends to mesh very well w......... they rly r living in their own world n by their own rules n they like ppl who do this too <3 inevitably they get up to no good n party far too much...... cld be angst to this if they enable each other’s bad habits...... world’s our oyster. opens my office door. let’s talk abt it.

nyla set up camp on their front lawn: maybe jst w a fold out chair. maybe w a literal pop up tent w someone else too. genuinely so bizarre of them bt that’s what we’re dealing with. they poke their head into the tent n nyla’s lying down crunching on a cracker crumbs over their tits n they just hold it out to them nt even fully consumed n are like hey polly want a cracker? :)

they responded to her craigslist ad: they posted one saying they cld cleanse their house of demonic energy bc they’re an all seeing eye in touch w the spirits. this is a lie. they came n waved sage around n did a little dance as they did it w bird sounds playing on a special cd they brought fr the occasion (had weird indistinct doodles over the case it ws brought in) n then ws like OOH! scary.... n jumped at something in the hall. they go in thinking maybe they’ve seen a ghost bt they just were startled by their own reflection in a mirror n is like. scary mirror placement...... might wna reconsider that........ they charge them merely 10 dollars fr their time n is like this was so fun we shd do it again some time :) also i think u have mould on ur bathroom tile! vanishes. they dnt recall them ever going to the bathroom.

came knocking asking for items for a garage sale: yes. u heard that right. they’re asking for ur muses things to set up their own garage sale. selling items that do not belong to them. they think this is a genius business strategy n don’t understand why ppl think this is so strange or why they cant just ask ppl to donate them things to sell bc hey they’re an entrepreneur? they even had a pencil behind their ear when they knocked on the door so why aren’t ppl taking their business seriously? probably got distracted several times trying to explain their pitch n chattered abt random other things instead.

honestly anything... fwbs... flings... good influence... someone who cnt stand the fact they’re barely coherent.... someone they stopped on the street one day n asked for their opinion on water beds.... we cn do literally anything. fling ur chara my way n we can talk.

[realitv]

———  BASICS! ♡

(PEN)NAME! ♡     claire

PRONOUNS! ♡     they / them

ZODIAC SIGN! ♡     aries bay bee

TAKEN OR SINGLE! ♡     I Don’t Need Friends They Disappoint Me

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

1! ♡      i used to roleplay on youtube. yes, youtube. think late early aughts and early 2010s. you’d set up your channel with all those fancy fonts (yes, the fancy fonts that now made a come back here); use picnic to edit your pics, set an autoplay video up for ur channel, and rp using dms or comments. it became popular to keep comments on approval and only approve things like: CLAIRE ISH MAHH BIIIISH. xDDD <3 NO ONEZ CAN TOUCH MAH BISSSSH <3 <3 xDDDD LUV U 4EVER. after the channels became what they are now, i hopped around on proboards before coming to tumblr. 

2! ♡     i speak three languages. english, conversational french, and rudimentary german which i am relearning. i used to speak it fluently as a child. i hope to one day be able to communicate with my tante elisabeth and my cousin utta, as they only speak german (they... are... from germany LMAO) but until then i’ve been relearning with my aunt karin. it’s so weird because i feel like i’m very different when i speak french or when i speak german. like. english me is very different from french me and french me is very different from german me. i don’t know how else to describe it. i’m way more flirty and suave when i’m speaking french but i’m very serious and to the point in german. i find when i speak english i’m a little more aloof. i don’t fucking know. 

3! ♡     the longest i have ever written a character is six years. most of my mutuals probably know me from that account (lady a. c/omstock of bioshock in/finite). i still write her on discord, so technically i’ve been writing her for 7 years. she’s just very draining to write these days as she’s just so goddamn fucking sad all the time and i prefer writing her on a smaller scale with very close friends privately. i still love her and her development and everything i’ve done with her, she’s just Ultra Ultra Depressed and i find myself having to get into that same headspace when i write her on tumblr, hence... why i do not like doing that any more. trauma muses, baby: it be like that.  it’s actually really funny bc i consider lady amelia c my BRAND. depressed edwardian milf. that’s the brand. media was an EXTREME departure of my brand of muses. i’ve written belle, sansa, lady c - all three of those ladies really follow the ‘porcelain to steel’ trend. media is neon chaos. 

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

PLATFORMS USED! ♡   uh. youtube, as i mentioned. rolepages (don’t ask), and a lot of proboards forums. i miss those. they were so Spicy. now just tumblr. i’ve Been Around lmao. 

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

GENDER! ♡    i simply Do Not Care. i used to feel really insecure about the way i wrote men but i’ve since gotten over that and now i’ll write anyone who strikes my fancy - but i do defo have a type and it’s Sad Ladies From Period/Fantasy Dramas. 

LEAST FAVOURITE FACE(S)! ♡    honestly everyone overused irks me. remember when everyone was using nina dobr/ev or natalie do/rmer. can’t do it. i don’t know what it is. something irks me. 

MULTI OR SINGLE! ♡    i wish i had the strength to write a multi muse blog but i can’t. :(

———  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF:  i want to say i don’t like it but i love happy endings and domestic bliss bc that’s comforting and i like happy endings. but depending on the character i’m very selective with who i will write it with. media? I Simply Do Not See It (unless im writing with nee). it’s something i enjoy, but not something i write often on this blog; as i’m more horror oriented at this point.

ANGST:  i enjoy angst; but again, it really depends on the character. i had this really great thread with g where christine and amelia had an argument that resulted in amelia breaking down into tears as she was so angry. i really enjoyed the raw emotion i could write in that; and with a character like amelia, it was a great way to release a lot of pent up energy and add some character dev. for someone like media, tho, media doesn’t show emotion. media refuses to show emotion. it’s not Their Thing. they can show emotion and do emote, but it’s muted and rare. if, again, i were to write angst, it’d be with nee; since law is someone who reminds media how human they truly are. 

SMUT:  depends. i’ve written it privately. it’s not really my thing but i don’t mind it. i prefer to write it privately with people i know very, very well. i’m not adverse to reblogging a smut meme or sending one in tho lmao. 

PLOT / MEMES! ♡  i love plotting. i’m not good at i but i enjoy it a lot and will do my best to help think of dynamics, settings, and plot threads to do. as for memes? i want to love memes. i think they’re a great ice breaker - i used to be able to reblog a meme and write a really nice drabble response (i always write drabble responses lmao) but now it’s like... I Simply Cannot. i look at memes and my muse jumps ship like its 1912. i think it’s because i have an easier time responding to memes with people/muses my muse has an established/talked about dynamic with; instead of me trying to write a 4 para drabble for a muse that my muse has yet to interact with. idk.

tagged by :  stole it from nora uwu tagging :  steal it nasties.

[luvdsc]

i luv the songs u put together for all your fics!! they’re so cute and a lot of them i haven’t heard of before LOL idk if that is me not knowing good music or you just having great music taste!!! if you don’t mind me asking, do you have any song or artist recommendations?

omg wait this is actually the ultimate compliment???? like I just !!!!! you like my music choices?? aaah, thank you so so much, sweetpea!!! 💗💗💗 I’m honestly over the moon at the fact that you actually listen to the songs I’ve chosen for each fic 🥺🥺 what kind of music do you listen to, honey bee? Who are your favorite artists, and what are your favorite songs? 💘

and I don’t mind at all, I’d love to give you some of my song and artist recs!!! 🥰✨ I highly recommend the entire discography of each artist I listed, but I put some of my favorite songs for each one 💕

updated — 12.27.2021

MUSIC IN ENG ;

maisie peters — sad girl summer ⋆ you to you ⋆ favourite ex ⋆ worst of you ⋆ adore you ⋆ personal best ⋆ maybe don’t (feat. jp saxe) ⋆ john hughes movie ⋆ outdoor pool ⋆ talking to strangers

chelsea cutler — what would it take ⋆ nj ⋆ lucky (with alexander 23) ⋆ cold showers ⋆ three words away ⋆ lonely alone (with jeremy zucker) ⋆ sometimes ⋆ emily (with jeremy zucker) ⋆ this is how you fall in love (with jeremy zucker) ⋆ sixteen

sasha sloan — version of me ⋆ older ⋆ thank god ⋆ runaway ⋆ chasing parties ⋆ here ⋆ dancing with your ghost ⋆ lie

lennon stella — kissing other people ⋆ pretty boy ⋆ jealous ⋆ bad ⋆ golf on tv ⋆ bitch (takes one to know one)

jeremy zucker — scared ⋆ always, i’ll care ⋆ orchid ⋆ we’re f****d, it’s fine ⋆ thinking 2 much ⋆ firefly ⋆ brooklyn boy

gabrielle aplin — magic ⋆ so far so good ⋆ what did you do? ⋆ stay ⋆ you don’t like dancing ⋆ please don’t say you love me

mxmtoon — fever dream ⋆ unspoken words ⋆ no faker ⋆ used to you ⋆ blame game ⋆ temporary nothing

troye sivan — plum ⋆ lucky strike ⋆ ease (feat. broods) ⋆ talk me down ⋆ heaven (feat. betty who)

lauv — feelings ⋆ canada (feat. alessia cara) ⋆ bracelet ⋆ getting over you ⋆ never not ⋆ superhero

jp saxe — blurry ⋆ sad corny f**k ⋆ 25 in barcelona ⋆ 3 minutes ⋆ hey stupid, i love you

hayley williams — sugar on the rim ⋆ cinnamon ⋆ simmer ⋆ watch me while i bloom

paramore — grudges ⋆ rose-colored boy ⋆ caught in the middle ⋆ brighter ⋆ fences ⋆ playing god ⋆ hate to see your heart break ⋆ escape route

coin — honey ⋆ simple romance ⋆ crash my car ⋆ hannah ⋆ heart eyes ⋆ malibu 1992 ⋆ it’s a trap

bad suns — howling at the sun ⋆ daft pretty boys ⋆ the world and i ⋆ maybe we’re meant to be alone ⋆ outskirts of paradise ⋆ take my love and run

hunny — everything means everything meant everything ⋆ a slow death in pacific standard time ⋆ parking lot ⋆ hard to believe ⋆ kicking cans

lany — pancakes ⋆ someone else ⋆ made in hollywood ⋆ yea, babe, no way ⋆ the breakup ⋆ if you see her ⋆ i don’t wanna love you anymore

all time low — glitter & crimson ⋆ basement noise ⋆ afterglow ⋆ cinderblock garden ⋆ life of the party ⋆ missing you ⋆ somewhere in neverland ⋆ backseat serenade ⋆ shameless ⋆ break your little heart ⋆ a daydream away ⋆ therapy

taylor swift — list here.

MUSIC IN KOR ;

taeyeon — time lapse ⋆ love in color ⋆ u r ⋆ stress ⋆ gravity ⋆ LOL ⋆ blue ⋆ baram x3 ⋆ starlight (feat. dean) ⋆ when we were young (cover) ⋆ more specific recs

jonghyun — white t-shirt ⋆ lonely (feat. taeyeon) ⋆ neon ⋆ aurora ⋆ suit up ⋆ hallelujah ⋆ just for a day ⋆ before our spring ⋆ our season ⋆ i’m sorry ⋆ diphylleia grayi

taemin — sexuality ⋆ pretty boy (feat. kai) ⋆ hypnosis ⋆ heart stop (feat. seulgi) ⋆ truth ⋆ play me ⋆ wicked

key — i wanna be (feat. soyeon) ⋆ easy to love ⋆ imagine ⋆ good good ⋆ this life ⋆ one of those nights (feat. crush) ⋆ hate that… (feat. taeyeon)

i’ll — my love, i still ⋆ are you there ⋆ you & i ⋆ to my dear

woosung — face ⋆ ilysb (cover) ⋆ you make me back ⋆ wolf

shinee — quasimodo ⋆ an encore ⋆ love sick ⋆ drive ⋆ beautiful life ⋆ close the door ⋆ excuse me miss ⋆ hitchhiking ⋆ honesty ⋆ your name ⋆ romantic ⋆ replay ⋆ body rhythm ⋆ kind ⋆ lock you down ⋆ drive ⋆ i want you ⋆ lipstick

(g)i-dle — luv u ⋆ oh my god ⋆ blow your mind ⋆ what’s your name ⋆ $$$ ⋆ what’s in your house?

itzy — cherry ⋆ that’s a no no ⋆ nobody like you ⋆ wannabe ⋆ dalla dalla

weki meki — moya moya ⋆ i don’t like your girlfriend ⋆ oopsy ⋆ stay with me ⋆ metronome ⋆ true valentine

f(x) — all mine ⋆ deja vu ⋆ x ⋆ boom bang boom ⋆ pretty girl ⋆ jet ⋆ love

tomorrow x together — ghosting ⋆ our summer ⋆ eternally ⋆ frost ⋆ magic island ⋆ roller coaster ⋆ 0X1 = LOVESONG (i know i love you) ⋆ LO$ER = LO♡ER ⋆ okay, their entire discography but also blue hour ep especially !!!

the rose — insomnia ⋆ i.l.y. ⋆ candy (so good) ⋆ she’s in the rain ⋆ california

day6 — you were beautiful ⋆ best part ⋆ 365247 ⋆ dance dance ⋆ love me or leave me

stray kids — voices ⋆ rock ⋆ question ⋆ 0325 ⋆ mixtape#3 ⋆ sunshine

individual songs — when i fall in love (primary feat. meego & suran) ⋆ hide and seek (suran feat. heize) ⋆ rainin’ with u (heize) ⋆ under the starlight (onew) ⋆ diamond (irene & seulgi)

[bangtanmattel-blog]

D.D.D. - The Boyz Dreamlike

Baby Come Back Home - Target S the P

Wave - Limesoda Wave

Wonderland - Ateez Treasure EP.FIN: All To Action

Deja Vu - Dreamcatcher Raid of Dream

Double Knot - Stray Kids Double Knot

Dumb Litty - KARD Dumb Litty

Who Dat B - Jessi Who Dat B

Run - Grizzly & Chung Ha - Run

36.5 - Shaun 36.5

Moon - Shaun 36.5

Be On You - GreatGuys We’re Not Alone_Chapter1: It’s You

Too Much - Bigone & Penomeco Peach Blossom

Daredevil - Zico, Jvcki Wai, Yumdda Thinking Part.1

Icy - Itzy IT’z ICY

Long Flight - Taeyong Long Flight

Where’s My Money - Sam Kim Where’s My Money

Juice - Choi Seo Hyun, Maddox, Seungrae [Prod. Code Kunst] SignHere episode1

No Gravity - Part Time Cooks, MBA [Prod. Jay Park & DJ Wegun & WOOGIE & GroovyRoom] SignHere episode1

Game Good - Simon Dominic, Ryno, sogumm, YELLA D [Prod, GooseBumps & Simon Dominic] SignHere episode1

Genie - VIINI Dimension

Feel Special - Twice Feel Special

Devil - CLC Devil

Stay Beautiful - Jimin Park Stay Beautiful

I Been - Berhana, Crush I Been

Bim Bam Bum - Rocket Punch Pink Punch

25 -BOL4 Two Five

Fear - Seventeen An Ode

Flash -X1 Quantam Leap

UN Village -Baekhyun City Lights

Rolling Rolling - 1TEAM Just

Orange Drive - Bang Yongguk Orange Drive

Dream Play - Limitless Dream Play

To Be Loved - Shaun 36.5

Gottasadae - BewhY The Movie Star

Still Nirvana - Ravi, Haon, Xydo Nirvana II

Telephone - Benji Telephone

I’ll Be There - Yoon Jisung Dear Diary

TMT - Stray Kids Cle 2: Yellow Wood

RPM - SF9 RPM

Questions - Zelo Distance

Happy Now - HA:TFELT & Moon Byul Happy Now

Crystal Ball - Purple Beck Crystal Ball

Popsicle - UHSN UHSN

Umpah Umpah - Red Velvet  The ReVe Festival Day 2

That’s Okay - D.O That’s Okay

icywavy - $ammy & Colde icywavy

Lord - Gun Lord

Underwater - Loann Underwater

DAx4 - Simon Dominic DAx4

Giddy Up - Sik-K, HAON, pH-1, Woodie Gochild [Prod, GroovyRoom] Dingo X H1GHR MUSIC

Goldfish - Kodi Green, Kozypop, Kaution Goldfish

Eden - IZ RE:IZ

Bloom Bloom - The Boyz Bloom Bloom

Bloom - ENOi bloom

Y - Fanxy Child Y

Fly - Gaho Fly

Are You Ready? - D-Crunch M0527

Doom Doom - Noir Abyss

Face - Woosung Wolf

What Are You Up To - Kang Daniel Color On Me

Red - The Rose Red

Call Anytime - Jinu & Mino Jinu’s Heyday

Time of Our Life - Day6 The Book of Us: Gravity

Side Effects - Stray Kids Cle 2: Yellow Wood

Gleam - Mamamoo Gleam

Give Me More - VAV, De La Ghetto, Play-N-Skillz

Birthday - Somi Birthday

Tag Tag Tag - VeriVery Veri-CHILL

Boom - NCT Dream We Boom 

Lovedrunk - Epik High & Crush sleepless in ________

Zimzalabim - Red Velvet The ReVe Festival Day 1

We Don’t Talk Together - Heize Giriboy We Don’t Talk Together

Heaven - Eden & Heize Heaven

Run Away - Teen Top Dear. N9NE

Movie Star - CIX Hello Chapter 1: Hello, Stranger

What a Life - EXO-SC What a Life

Humph! - Pentagon SUM(ME:R)

Really Really - Cherry Bullet Love Adventure

Eclipse - GOT7 Spinning Top: Between Security & Insecurity

Fun! - fromis_9 Fun Factory

Talk About Love Nu’Est Happily Ever After

Highway To Heaven - NCT #127 We Are Superhuman

No One - Lee Hi & B.I 24 C

Runaway - Eric Nam Runaway

Bet Bet - Nu’Est Happily Ever After

Illusion - Ateez Treasure Ep.3: One To All

You - Xiumin You

Under Cover - ACE Under Cover

Summer Night - Yoona & 20 Years of Age A Walk To Remember

Baptism - Jhnovr & Goretexx Baptism

Snapping - Chung Ha Flourishing

Uh-Oh (G)I-DLE Uh-Oh

Pink Magic - Yesung Pink Magic

Bee - Rothy Color of Rothy

Barriers - Bursters Barriers

I’m On Fire - Eun Jiwon & Blue.D G1

1 in a Million - Astro All Light

Wave - Ateez Treasure EP.3 One To All

Bless You - 1Kyne Bless You

Superhuman - NCT #127 We Are Superhuman

Her Fine Weather - Heize She’s Fine

Bom - BOL4 Puberty Book I Bom

The Fifth Season (SSFWL) - Oh My Girl The Fifth Season

Danger - Super Junior D&E Danger

Howlin’ 404 - Dean Howlin’ 404

Global Extinction - sokodomo & Kirin School Rapper3 Final

BINU - BIBI BINU

K-TOWN - Jay Park & Hit-Boy K-TOWN

Don’t Need Your Love - NCT Dream & HRVY Don’t Need Your Love

Anymore - KittiB 1718: Salem

Ah Yeah - Winner We

Four Seasons - Taeyeon Four Seasons

Leave It - N.Flying Spring Memories

Focus - Kim Don Han D-Hours AM 7:03

Untitled Love Song - Henry Untitled Love Song

Tu Eres - Newkidd Newkidd

From Now - VeriVery Veri-Able

Better Do Better - Vanner V

youknowbetter - hyolyn youknowbetter

Party Girl - Jang Dong Woo Bye

Will You Be My Girlfriend? - M.O.N.T Going Up

Twilight - OneUs Raise Us

Me - CLC Me

Taste - Woo & Giriboy Taste

DMT (Do Ma Thang) - 3YE DMT

Bed - Vandal Love Eclipse

Picky Picky - Weki Meki Lock End LOL

Breathe - AB6IX B:Complete

Me & You - Exid We

Ring On My Ears - OneWe ¼

Awake - JBJ95 Awake

Love Aches - Sik-K Fl1P

OKGO - Beenzino & E-Sens OKGO

She Is - Ovan & Shaun She Is

Blow Your Mind - (G)-IDLE I Made

SSFW - Chanyeol SSFW

Hocus Pocus - BVNDIT BVNDIT, Be Ambitious!

Dang! - GreatGuys Trigger

TMI - Gray TMI

TTM - Bray TTM

Spotlight - 1THE9 XIX

Stars Over Me - BOL4 Puberty BookI Bom

4:44 - Park Bom & WheeIn re: Blue Rose

Title - Coogie Hooligans

Cat & Dog - TXT The Dream Chapter: Star

Chronosaurus - Stray Kids Cle 1: Miroh

Say Hi - Kisum & Woody Say Hi

Universe - Minhyun Universe

Domino - 1THE9 Domino

News - Jang Dong Woo Bye

Memories - Girl Crush Memories

Fancy - Twice Fancy You

No Reason - Heize She’s Fine

Aquarium - Gun Aquarium

Thrilla Killa - VAV Thrilla Killa

Boy With Luv - BTS & Halsey Map of the Soul: Persona

Suffering For Love - Eden Exhalant

Paranoid - Ash Island Ash

Nothing - Loco Hello

Always Be Your Girl - S.I.S. Always Be Your Girl

Put It Straight - (G)I-DLE I Made

Kill This Love - Blackpink Kill This Love

Violeta - IZ*One Heart*IZ

Bomb Bomb- KARD Bomb Bomb

Spring - Park Bom & Sandara Park Spring

See-Through - Ravi & Cold Bay R.OOK Book

Miroh - Stray Kids Cle 1: Miroh

Vibe - 1Team Hello!

Play It Cool - Monsta X & Steve Aoki Take.2 We Are Here

Sha La La - Pentagon Genie:Us

BBANG - HBY Yolo

Still Loving You - 100% RE:tro

What You Waiting For - R.Tee & Anda What You Waiting For

A Day Of Love - B1A4 A Day Of Love

Live - Ravi & Chung Ha Live

Gravity - Trei Born

Maybe It’s Not Our Fault - Yerin Baek Our Love Is Great

I’m So Hot - Momoland Show Me

Bon Bon Chocolat - Everglow Arrival Of Everglow

Pinky Star (Run) - GWSN The Park In The Night Part Two

I Wanna Be - Key & Soyeon I Wanna Be

Want - Taemin Want

Waggy - Mamamoo White Wind

Gogobebe - Mamamoo White Wind

My Star - Mamamoo White Wind

Tuxedo - Ravi R.OOK Book

I’m A Star - Wooseok & Kuanlin 9801

XI - Code Kunst & Lee Hi XI

Flower- Haon Flower

Allure - Hyomin Allure

Focus On Me - JUS2 Focus

Drunk In The Morning - Ryeowook Drunk On Love

Imagine - Key I Wanna Be

Noir - Sunmi Noir

Blue Orangeade - TXT The Dream Chapter: Star

Crown - TXT The Dream Chapter: Star

Hey!- Superbee Heu!

Tonight - Huta & Melody Hutazone

Addict - Sik-K Addict

 LOL - Red  House & Lake LOL

 24hrs - Sangmin 24hrs

 ON N ON - Miso ON N ON

 Noizy - Sik-K FL1P

 Trouble - Exid Trouble

 Neon - Yukika Neon

 Lonely Night - KNK Lonely Night

 DDING - Jvcki Wai, Young B, Osshun Gum, Han Yo Han Dingo X Indigo Music

 Alligator - Monsta X Take 2: We Are Here

 Terminal - Shaun An-nyeong

 WiFi - Saturday Follow Saturday

 It’s Been a While - Loco & Zion.T HELLO

 Butterfly - Loona [X.X]

 Enough - SF9 Narcissus

 U Um U Um - Hyomin Allure

 I’m Ok - Ikon The New Kids

 Hala Hala [Hearts Awakened, Live Alive] - Ateez Treasure Ep:2 Zero To One

 Dalla Dalla - Itzy IT’z Different

 Twit - Hwa Sa TWIT

 Piri - Dreamcatcher The End of Nightmare

Clock - Infinite Clock

 We Must Love - ONF We Must Love

 The More I See - Aweek The More I See

 Cinderella - Rick Bridges Cinderella

 Thursday Party - Big Marvel Thursday Party

 Missed Call - Jiselle & Chancellor Missed Call

 2cm - Minseo & Paul Kim The Diary of Youth

What U Want - UK what u want

 Only U - Imfact Only U

 No CLC - No.1

 I Want U - MustB I Want U

 Tic Toc - NeonPunch Watch Out

 I Wanna Know - Roh Tae Hyun biRTHday

 Home - Seventeen You Made My Dawn

 One Side Love - Yodayoung one side love

 Fire Up - Woody Fire Up

 No Mercy - Bambi No Mercy

 Issue - Mckdaddy I’m In Trouble But It Feels Like Everyday

 Hikikomori - Bang Yongguk Hikikomori

 Ya - Huta Hutazone

 Bad Habits - Shaun An-nyeong

 Q&A - Cherry Bullet Let’s Play Cherry Bullet

 Good To Me - Seventeen You Made My Dawn

 Getting Closer - Seventeen You Made My Dawn

 Loca - Favorite Loca

 All Night - ASTRO All Light

 Say My Name - Ateez Treasure EP:2 Zero To One

 %% (Eung Eung) - Apink Percent

 Sunrise - GFRIEND - Time For Us

 Rooftop - N.Flying Fly High Project #2 ‘Rooftop’

 Gotta Go - Chung Ha Gotta Go

 Valkyrie - Oneus  Light Us

 Ring Ring Ring - Verivery  Veri-us

 La La Love - WJSN WJ Stay?

 Sappy - Red Velvet Sappy

 Spark - Taeyeon Purpose

 Nappa - Crush Nappa

 Dream Line - Purple Beck Dream Line

 Limitless - Ravi, Sik-K, Xydo Limitless Pt. 1

 Forever Love - Youngjae O,on

 Hip - Mamamoo reality in BLACK

 You Calling My Name - GOT7 Call My Name

 SOSO - Winner Cross

 Make It Right - BTS & Lauv Make It Right

 9 and Three Quarters (Run Away) - TXT The Dream Chapter: Magic

 BByong - Saturday IKYK

 Levanter - Stray Kid Cle: Levanter

 Good Bam - N.Flying Yaho

 Now - K-Tigers Zero HuiRoAeRak

 It’s On You - Teen Teen Very, On Top

[flandesuka]

Yo you should answer all of these scene questions👀👀

:OOO

you think so lad???? shit dawg i was thinkin just a few at a time but if that what u want my dear nonnie i will supply

1. wats ur scene name?

i was thinkin maybe ‘gods mistake’ would be a good one but then. i found a way to make it both danganronpa related, and, even better, a fucking pun as well. ‘kamukura kamukura jasqueen’, or just ‘kamukura jasqueen’ for short is good k thxxx

2. describe ur dream outfit!

oooo gosh this ones trickyy!! there are so many good outfits out there, especially in the scene community!! but it’d have to have a few tiny elements of dr cosplay to add a lil of my dangan-weeb culture in there ofc! more specifically, id really love to get one of kazuichis jumpsuit and just wig out and add shit like this just because i could:

(id just rlly love going out in all those glowy/shiny things at night like all that haha..and yes the shoes would probably kill me/my fuckin feet if i tried to walk in them but shut up i love them theyre cute as fuck)

3. describe ur dream haircut!

oo another tricky one!! i do like my regular hair, and honestly id be lying if i said i didnt love ibuki’s hairdo too but id defs have to go with something like this!!

yaaaassss, so pretty and spikeeeey! maybe id dye my natural hair colour black and/or add some funky colours if i ever actually got this style down!

4. describe ur dream room!

i have a lot of ideas for dream bedrooms actually, but heres a visual image of one of them i found!!!

MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM MIKU ROOM

(this specific idea arose mainly just for the aesthetic but i also find it super cute and a good environment to be in general hhhnnggg)

5. if u could make anything out of kandi, wat would u make?

oh you mean those colourful beads and bracelet things??? i love those man!!! theyre so visually appealing to me aaaaa…id probably just make a fuck-ton of those and most probably use the little letter beads to say random words/phrases like ‘aubergine’ and ‘despacito’ knowing my shitposter self lmaooo! id definitely make a sansmaeda themed one too thoo fr

6. wat would u write on ur shoez?

it’d probably range from things like a simple kaomoji doodle to something randum and stupid like ‘seesaw’ bc yes asjnd

7. wat kinda piercingz/tattooz do u hav/want?

i dont think i rlly want any real piercings (at least not atm) but id totally go for those fake stick-on gemstone lookin’ ones! and as for tattoos, i cant rlly see myself gettin one of those rn either, but id want something like a mario power-up, preferably the bell one/cat suit powerup!!! its my favorite powerup and its sooo cute!!!

8. fave genrez?

i dont rlly have a specific genre, i like most kinds of music, but i rlly like energetic music that i can dance tooo!!! >w

9. fave bandz?

im a big fan of gorillaz and botdf!!! i like p!atd as well but havent listened to it in a while.. gatta catch up loool

10. fave songz?

my favs alternate a lot, but atm im super into ‘slow dancing in the dark’ by joji!!! so much emotiooon quq…also rlly hooked on botdf and jefree star’s ‘sexting’ tooo lmaooo

11. fave lyricz?

‘The world keeps spinning Among this sinning Oh what a cruel and disgusting place The purest moonlight Is bloodied by plight And screaming resonants But somehow I know That it’s all for show The world will reveal it’s true beauty soon And we’ll all reach towards the moon ‘

its so deep but its from a fucking kaito momota fansong and i love that asnkjdnefe

12. hav u evr been to a concert?

not in a damn long while my lad,, rip australians not havin many artists they like from other countries tour there ;-;

13. do u wanna be in a band?

ive always thought thatd be pretty cool ngl!!! tourin around with ur bandmate friends, makin awesome fuckin tunes, people lovin u and ur music, just livin the dream in general,, nice

14. wats da best soda/energy drink flavour?

havent rlly had any as of rn  my lad so i wouldnt know :/

15. wat do u miss most abt old internet?

i loved that we could all just be ourselves and act like the kids we are inside without bein reprimanded at all.. it aint rlly that much of an issue for me but i still think itd be a lot nicer if it was like that again sometimes,,

16. wats da best old meme?

ooohhh there are so many i still miss man! numa numa ermagerd and doge still remind me of the glory days…when old animeme was good and you could still haz ur cheezburgers in peace. also rage comics! rage comics were good what happened

17. best place 2 buy clothez?

i dont think theres any hot topics in australia but if there is. i will hunt it down you hear me

18. wat r ur fave accessoriez?

OH THERES SO MANY GOOD ONES??? as i stated b4 i rly love kandi bracelets and other glowy/led things!!! also rlly love ties with cute and fun patterns and long colourful and/or ripped socks like ibuki’s too hehe

19. wats ur best tip fr ppl that just got into scenecore?

im not rlly the best at advice, but my main point would be-just hav fun here dudes!!! dont let anyone else bulli u abt it, we’re supportive people, u can talk to me or anyone else whos willin to listen an/or help for reassurance ofc

20. opinion on furbiez?

oOH MY GOD YES. FURBIES. MY BABIES I WANT 10 OF THESE CHILDREN…I ACTUALLY HAVE A FURBY HE LIKES SLEEPING IN HIS SPECIAL DRAWER AND HIS NAME IS TINGLE I ADORE HIM I’LL POST A OF PICTURE LATER MAYBE

21. opinion on funko popz?

i like em and ive seen lots at eb games, but i dont buy em much..i do have a megaman pop with a broken arm tho loool

22. wats ur fave pattern? (zebra/leopard print etc)

i looove a lot of patterns but not gonna lie im always a sucker for rainbow checkerboard patterns yknow hehe!

23. fave color combo?

i dont have one rlly…soooo many possible comboooos…cx

24. sumthing u liked as a kid dat u still like?

im still going on girlsgogames and recently, ive finally mastered sues beauty machine!!!! its so good and fun all of ya’ll should try it my dudeeees

25. wats ur most used emoticon? 0w0

as most of ya’ll probs alredy know i spam ‘:O’ a lot, but one of my bigger favs is actually ‘x3′ and my fav kaomoji is ‘ଘ(੭ˊ꒳​ˋ)੭✧’ (both of them are so kyooot >w

26. wats ur fav typin quirk?

i luv talkin like dis, but i dont rly do it that often loool…i awso wuv tawking in ‘owo’ speak wike dis >//w//>

27. do u wish ur fllwrz talked 2 u moar?

hellz yeaaa!!! i luv followr interaction my dudee! it makes me super happi when u all talk to me heehee! x3c

28. tag ur fave scene blawgz!

:O !!! oh gawd!!! i dont know many atm but heeereee!

@xxadam-antidotexx (op of the ask meme)

@glitchkichi (not sure if this counts but their stuff’s rlly cool >v

@otonashi-banana (scene boyf…wuv im more than anythin >///w///>

29. wat got u into scenecore?

i dont remember exactly how it happened but i’d always sorta wanted to go back to the glory days that was the old web and the scene era, and that, coupled with a bright, colourful aesthetic that i could really enjoy, drew me in like a moth to a neon colored flame ig looollll

30. how long hav u been scene?

i’ve only been officially apart of the community for about a few months now (at time of writing) i reckon so some things are still a lil new to me ig ^^;;

31. wats da best thing abt being scene?

the freedom of bein able to express myself 4 one thing, and its just so fun being so ‘out-there’ yknow???? it feels so great really

32. do u hav a fursona?

i…actually used to but ive moved on from the furry fandom and ive grown more attached to my human sona anyway sooo :/

33. r u in sum “cringy” fandomz?

YEA man!! i dont rlly think dr is inherently considered ‘cringey’ but undertale is and im in that one for sure!!! i also kinda technically never left the skylanders fandom(?) so theres that too ig??? oh yeah and who wants to let me draw my old moshi monsters characters COWARDS

34. do u liek plushiez?

YASSSS QUEEEN!!!! i have HEAPS of them in my room on my desk with my gonta shrine

35. do u liek stickerz?

also a big yaaassss from me dawggg!!! i love them and i love those ones that you stick on your fase like this!

its so cuuute!!!

36. do u hav a friendproject?

i dont, not at the moment a least, actually! didnt even know what it was til recently but it looks kewl haha

37. do u hav any other scene account?

well, i haz this one, and i also have an emowire account for shuichi if that counts!!

38. do u make art? (drawingz, blingeez, etc.)

YES!!! i love to draw and i also make blingee edits sometimes!!! ITS SO FUN XD !!!

39. wats da most scene thing? (anything!)

hmmm, weeell…i think the most stereotyped thing would be that kewl, suuuper big hair like this;

its really prettyyyy, and i love all that colouuur!!!

40. ask ur own randum question!!

hm, oh wowie, since the anon didnt specifically ask this one…POTATOES!!! X3

phew, finally done, that was a lot of typing! this was so fun to do though, so thank u nonnie!!! :3

[satoruvt]

give us the playlist adi

oK HERE!!!!

1. wake up by eden - the last 30-40 seconds of the song literally bring me to tears every time i hear it. the song builds and builds and builds the entire time and it’s like realization - seeing someone and knowing from then on that they’re your soulmate, or knowing that that thing is what you need to do the rest of your life. 

2. i want it all (live in nashville) by coin - the bridge of this song is like reaching for something, and you’re so close, your fingers almost touching it, and then you’re pulled away. a person, an object, anything, you’re so close to getting it, to holding it forever, and then you’re yanked away by a force unknown. you feel it, taste it, and it’s all ripped away in a second, but for some reason you’re not hurt... you’re just numb. everything else moves around you while you’re stuck standing still, relishing in the shock.

3. luv note by chloe moriondo - crickets at night, talking endlessly with your lover as you trace patterns on their skin. it’s soft and sweet and all it needs to be - words that maybe you won’t ever say to someone, but things you wanted to. the outro is magical and you hit that realization that yeah, maybe you really have fallen for them.

4. only by ry x - the softness behind the chorus of “i was only falling in love” reminds you that falling in love with someone is so pure and so real; maybe you’re a person that hates romance or maybe you love it, but regardless of your feelings you listen to this song and you just remember how innocent falling in love with someone is, how beautiful it is to even dare let your heart feel that way. loving someone isn’t a crime, and no one can make it one. 

5. roseblue by former vandal - neon lights and laying on your bed, thinking of someone you have but definitely don’t deserve. “the pinks and blues, should we take those, too?”; depriving the world of pink and blue and purple and keeping it to yourself, for you and your lover to hold. maybe you don’t deserve them, but they deserve you.

6. i found by amber run - this song is like the stars themselves. it is twinkling over you, always, and maybe you forget its there once in a while but you always go back to it because when you get out of city limits and you look up, you’re just at home. you know that it’ll always be there for you. it’s like the comfort when you smell your favorite candle or when you feel someone’s arms wrap around you.

7. rosyln by bon iver and st vincent - okay. this song, in the beginning, before any lyrics, there’s this guitar. it’s strumming, it’s melancholic, and then another guitar (bass or electric, i can’t tell) and it is so... so sad. it’s sad in the way that you hear it and you know that someone played it with genuine emotion. it is crying in front of someone you love, calling for someone because you need them. dancing around, minutes of peace, and then it’s back.

8. you by the 1975 - the guitar in this song is the star of the show and will never not be. it is harsh summer nights, long drives under purple light in the dead of night. stars are glowing and suddenly your friend is positively radiant, and were they always like that when they smiled? you ask them to dance while your other friends and preoccupied. they say yes.

9. first drag by former vandal - you depend on something or someone to cope with whatever you need to cope with. it’s driving down the highway and breathing in right as a gust of wind hits your face and you can’t breathe but it’s in the best way. the vocals remind you of all the times you’ve seen people laugh or smile or cry, and it picks up and up and up and then it drops and all you can think about is one person.

that’s it for now yall. i’ve had these songs on my mind for a while. i hope u listen to them because they really are all so wonderful

[sehun-smut-blog]

Take It All - Sehun [M]

“Come on. Slut like you, I expect you to know what to do when a man puts something in your mouth.” Sehun growled, giving his fingers a slight wiggle, as though to remind you they were there in the first place. “Suck them.”

And you complied. Forced against the bathroom wall, still feeling the bass pounding behind you, Sehun’s fingers shoved expertly between your lips, was a once-in-a-lifetime pleasure you weren’t about to deny.

Plus, Sehun is calling you a slut. Of course, you were never one to disappoint.

word count; 3.2 k

contains; slut shaming, bathroom sex

req by @oshwifeu luv u <3<3

It had began innocently enough. You promise! Never one to hardly flirt with a guy, it was a whirlwind to how you had even reached this point, arms thrown around some strangers neck, bumping and grinding to the beat of the music. Sweaty bodies surrounding you, it was dizzyingly warms as you latched onto the stranger’s body, trying to remain upright in your drunken stupor.

“Really getting close, aren’t we?” He panted in your ear, arms travelling down your backside. You didn’t do anything but giggle in response, instinctually letting out a stuttered moan when his grip on your ass tightened.

“Maybe we should take this somewhere else?” The man muttered in your ear, hand continuing to massage you through your thin, skin tight red dress. “My place is five minutes from here.”

Now, foremost, you were never one to flirt.

But secondly, you were also never one to disappoint.

“Yeah, sure.” You said, a smile twisting on your lips to hide your nervous excitement.

The man’s smile grew in response. “I like an eager girl. Come on, let’s grab a cab.” He said, leaving your ass and hand winding around your wrist.

Ignoring the thundering of your heart, you allowed yourself to be guided throw the sea of bumbling people dancing around you, neon purple lights the only thing illuminating your path. You just followed the man’s grip blindly, hoping that he would be able to make it out better than you could.

Finally, a cool rush of air notified you that you had broken free of the hot, pulsing mass of people. You could actually see now, the tables and chairs indicating that you had returned to the actual bar section, rather than the heavy-bass nightclub area. Quickly, your eyes darted around, trying to find even one of your friends, to notify them of your swift departure.

Soon enough, you finally spotted Sehun, halfway to Timbuktu across the bar. His tall, lanky figure was hard to miss as he leaned onto the bar counter, probably waiting for his seventeenth rye and coke.

“Hold on…” You said, tugging against the strangers grip in an attempt to slow down. He complied quickly, although his eyes flashed in slight annoyance, as you could already see a semi straining against his jeans.

“I just need to let him know.” You said, pointing towards Sehun quickly. “So he knows I’m leaving.”

The man glanced in his direction quickly, before shooting you a tight lipped smile, and a nod. “Okay, I’ll go with you.” He said, before nodding for you to lead the way.

Smiling back, you wiggled your arm from his grasp, before beginning to wind through the tables and chairs towards Sehun’s gangly frame. Struggling to maintain your balance in your skyrocketing heels, you gripped onto every chair within your reach as you plundered towards him. Sehun and you were good friends, great even! Nothing could break you apart, you were sure of it.

Even that drunk hookup a few months ago, but the two of you didn’t talk about that. You could barely even remember it, other than the fact you struggled to walk the week following the encounter.

Finally, you managed to wobble beside him, hands quickly gripping his arm for balance, making him jump. “Sehunnie!” You cooed, grinning at him quickly. “I’m going home, okay?”

Sehun glanced at you quickly, before his gaze worked towards the tall stranger still standing behind you. You watched as his gaze dragged from his face, to his shoes, and all the way back up. “And who, exactly, is this?” He asked, eyebrows furrowing slightly.

“I’m-” The stranger began, before Sehun shushed him rudely.

“I was talking to her.” Sehun snipped quickly, glancing back at you. It wasn’t hard to see, even in the low lighting, just how steely his gaze was.

You squirmed uncomfortable under his glare. Having known Sehun for almost a year now, you had never seen him be so intimidating. Always gentle and soft spoken with our friends, you had never witnessed someone so commanding of the atmosphere.

“He’s…” you started, before glancing at the man sheepishly. Jesus, how embarrassing that you about to go hook up with him, without knowing his name.

“I’m Chanyeol.” The man - Chanyeol - finished for you, offering Sehun a lopsided grin. “Sorry, we kind of just met.” He said with a laugh.

Sehun, however, didn’t laugh. In fact, he didn’t even chuckle, or break a small smirk. His glare remained stony, flickering between Chanyeol and yourself with a cocktail of emotion brewing behind his gaze. “You just met?” He said, finally breaking into a small, twisted grin. “Sorry Chanyeol, but she’s not going home with anyone.” You glared at him quickly, eyebrows furrowing harshly. “Sehun, what the fuck?” You snapped, shooting him the harshest glare you could muster.

“Yeah man, come on.” Chanyeol said, tone laced with annoyance. “I’ll be good to her.”

Sehun just laughed lowly in response, fingers drumming along the wooden bar countertop. “I don’t give a fuck dude, she’s not leaving with you.” Rolling your eyes, you huffed out a sigh. “Sehun, I’m going to do what I want.” You protested,  hand reaching out to grip Chanyeol’s forearm. “You can’t stop me.”

Maybe subconsciously, you knew that move would make Sehun snap. You were damn right too.

Sehun’s hand was on you in an instant, tugging you closer to his side. His grip was tight and unwavering, eyes growing from cold and steely to burning anger. You nailed his side quickly, breath being knocked out of your lungs with the motion. “Sehun, what the -!”

“You. Stop talking.” Sehun said, voice nothing but a bitter growl, pointing at you harshly with his free hand. The motion itself made you tighten up, eyes growing wide.

“And you.” Sehun said, moving his finger to point at Chanyeol. Even Chanyeol was visibly shocked, straightening with equally wide eyes. “You, are going to go home, and forget she even exists.”

Chanyeol’s lips turned downwards slightly, opening his mouth instantly- in protest, you assume. You would never know however, because Sehun bristled at even the idea of Chanyeol retaliating. Chin raising defiantly, you watched his jaw work as he stared Chanyeol down, eyes just begging him to do something, anything, to give him an excuse to beat Chanyeol senseless.

At that, Chanyeol glanced downwards, shrinking back from Sehun’s dominating gaze. He didn’t need to say anything, but you knew he had given up the pursuit.

“Now you. Come.” Sehun said, his grip unfaltering. Quickly, swiftly, he led you through the crowded bar, winding around tables and chairs with calculated confidence, much unlike your own stumbling behind him. The only reason you were still upright was Sehun's hold, a vice clamping you to reality, as he lead you to the bathrooms, neatly tucked away to the left.

Throwing open the door, he stormed inside, you quickly in tow. “Sehun, this is the guy’s room!” You yelped, but if he even heard you, he didn’t let on. As soon as the door shut behind you, he released his grip, now throwing open the stall doors with hash kicks and shoves. He didn’t even look at you, gaze stoic as, one by one, he checked each stall for signs of life.

“Fuck you Sehun, I just wanted to have some fucking fun for once in my goddamn life -” You snarled at him, voice thick. All the dancing, running, and near fighting in the past fifteen minutes had sent you reeling, leaving you adjusting the hem of your dress, which had worked scarily high without your adjusting.

Finally, once the bathroom was cleared, Sehun turned to look at you, adjusting your dress against the wall. You shot him a harsh glare, pissed off enough without him being a stupid idiot, kicking doors open for fun.

Sehun just gave you a once over, before groaning to himself. “Fuck, Y/N, what were you doing.” He said, snapping in front of you too quickly for you to even react.

“Filthy slut, going to fuck some guy you barely know?” He growled, pinning his arms around your body harshly. Even the motion made your breath falter. “Going to suck some other guy off, without even offering me your service?”

“Sehun, I-” You began, but was cut off by his rough kiss, making you melt into the wall. His hands quickly found themselves in your hair, running through it quickly, before giving it a harsh tug. Your head snapped backwards with the motion, leaving your neck available to Sehun’s mouth. He used his advantage fully, kissing and sucking your neck harshly, to your own moans.

“You really wanted to fuck him, when I was here and waiting for you? You wanted to go fuck him instead, you little whore?” Sehun said, biting at your collarbones harshly. His voice sent tingles down your spine, making you purse your lips through a moan.

“I - I just…” You tried to start, but couldn’t even finish before Sehun’s fingers found themselves in your mouth.

His eyes glowed in triumph, a smirk lighting up his features. Your lips instinctually closed around his digits, eyes growing wide. No matter how much you could deny it, being degraded, treated like a common slut, was inexplicably hot.

“Come on. Slut like you, I expect you to know what to do when a man puts something in your mouth.” Sehun growled, giving his fingers a slight wiggle, as though to remind you they were there in the first place. “Suck them.”

And you complied. Forced against the bathroom wall, still feeling the bass pounding behind you, Sehun’s fingers shoved expertly between your lips, was a once-in-a-lifetime pleasure you weren’t about to deny.

Plus, Sehun is calling you a slut. Of course, you were never one to disappoint.

Following orders, you began to swirl your tongue around his digits, eyes keeping their firm contact with his. His gaze never faltered, instead growing more aroused as he slowly, firmly, began pushing them in deeper.

Deeper and deeper he went, eyes obviously waiting for me to gag, or choke, or both. Joke was on him though. You had always prided yourself on your gag reflex - or lack thereof.

“Damn, not even a tear. You must take big dicks down here often.” Sehun said, fingers still searching for the spot to make me falter. You just raised your eyebrows in response. Of course you didn’t, but to fit his hot whore narrative?

What he didn’t know wouldn’t hurt him.

All too soon, he slipped his fingers from your mouth, now using them to grip your jaw quickly. “You really are a common whore, aren't you?”

Your own saliva coated his fingers, now wiped against your own smooth skin. You could feel it - the flush of your cheeks, lips certainly already a flushed pink. Finishing the image painted in your mind, you batted your eyes at him sweetly. “Only for you, Sehunnie.” You said with a sickly sweet smile.

“Fuck.” Sehun groaned, before leaning back in for another sloppy kiss. His tongue wrestled yours quickly, tasting of rye and spearmint. Oddly, it suited him.

You kissed him back just as roughly, hand wandering to his groin, with a firm squeeze. He was already half hard, you could feel him twitch under your grasp. Breaking free from his lips, you panted, “Aw, you’re a little stiff, baby. Need me to help you out?”

Sehun’s head rolled back at your motions. “Do you say that to every guy you bring in here?”

You just smirked. “Only the extra special ones.”

Sehun groaned at that, grabbing your hand from it’s massage over his jeans. Even the stilling of your actions made him bite his lip. “Are you going to tease, or are we going to fuck?” He asked, eyes meeting yours. At this point, his pupils were blown wide, flushed pink under your ministrations.

Grinning, you just dropped to your knees, hands instantly flying to undo his pants. His groan was audible, echoing against the bathroom tiles harshly. “Oh, that was easy. Doesn’t take much, I guess.”

You didn’t slow your work, instead tugging out his cock firmly. Flushed and thick, even the sight made you bite your lip. Jesus, no wonder you were so sore last time.

“Well? Are you going to stare, or are you going to suck?” Sehun snapped at you, watching you from above. “Take it all, slut.”

Core tightening, you bit down a grin swiftly. “Whatever you say, baby.” You hummed, before enveloping his shaft in one fell swoop.

Sehun hissed a breath through his teeth, watching little ol’ you sucking his hard cock so naughtily. Your eyes glanced up through your lashes, lips suctioned tight around him, making him go crazy. “Sucking off all your other boys made you good, jagi.” He moaned in satisfaction, hands moving to wind in your hair roughly. His grip tight, he forced you to work lower, lower, until his whole cock was enveloped in your pretty pink lips. “Fuck, no one has ever taken it all before.” He panted, grip now becoming more lax.

You used the opportunity, popping your mouth off of him quickly, letting your hand take over the work. “Oh, so you’re saying there’s been plenty of others?” You smirked up at him, making him roll his eyes.

“Shut up and suck me.”

“And you call me the slut.” You mock-chastised, tsking quickly before taking him back into your heat.

Sehun bucked into your mouth quickly, nailing the back of your throat firmly and making your eyes tear up. You glared up at him quickly, sucking more harshly around him. He just smirked in response, breath falling out in pants. “I like you better with my cock stuffed in your mouth.” He said, giving a few more thrusts to remind you.

As you were about to take him deeper, you heard it before you saw it. The shoes stumbling down the hallway outside made your eyes widen, as you snapped off Sehun with a pop!

“Shit.” Sehun hushed, grabbing your arm to pull you upright. Quickly, just as the doorhinges began to creak, he tugged you into a stall, slamming it shut behind you, and forcing you against it to hold it shut.

Whoever entered didn’t let on that something was amiss, even if they had noticed. The only sound you could hear was the running of the tap, and your own harsh breathing. Already facing the door, you adjusted, sneaking a glance at a short man, stood at the sink, rinsing off an apparent spill on his pant leg.

You almost forgot that Sehun was even behind you, until a soft grab of your dress made you jump slightly.

You felt him before you even had the chance to try to turn, his large hand forcing you harshly against the door. You could feel the tip of his cock brushing against you from behind, making you wiggle against him, in an attempt to get some friction against your dripping core.

“Fucking slut like yourself should be used to getting fucked from behind.” Sehun whispered in your ear, slight stubble brushing against your ear. “The real question is, how quiet can you be while I do it? Can you handle it?”

Head spinning, half dead that you weren’t even able to look at him, for christ sake, all you could do was nod quickly. The threat of getting caught loomed over you, making your lips seal shut. All that kept you grounded was the running of the tap as Sehun slowly, slowly, slid into you.

You couldn’t help but let out a muffled whimper, Sehun’s girth stretching your walls harshly. He let out a content sigh, rocking back and forth slightly, enough to make you crazy but not enough to give you any pleasure. “Shit, you’re tighter than I remember.” Sehun groaned into your ear, his front meeting your back harshly. His arms looped around you, tugging down your strapless dress quickly and taking hold of your breasts. “How are you so fucking tight?” He asked, voice growing slightly louder, and making your stomach twist.

“Shh.” You hushed him, instead flexing yourself around him quickly. The action made him gasp, his hold on your breasts tightening, much to your delight.

“Fuck.” He groaned, one hand moving to cup your mouth quickly. “Remember, good sluts stay quiet.” He whispered to you, hips moving backwards before snapping forwards quickly.

Sehun kept up his thrusts, slow and steadily grinding your g-spot, as you pursed your lips and bit down your moans.

By now, the tap had stopped running, leaving the two of you lying in wait, for the door to slam and signify that your impromptu visitor had left. Sehun continued fucking into you slowly, until footsteps slowly, yet surely, meandered back to the bar.

As soon as the door slammed shut, you thrust back against Sehun’s form, ragged gasps falling from your lips. Sehun was equally enthusiastic, hand dropping from your mouth to your hips as he ground against you.

“Shit.” You moaned, eyes rolling shut as you let yourself go to Sehun’s actions. He started thrusting again, a renewed vigour at the ability to be as loud as he damn well pleased. “Yeah, what a fucking whore you are, taking my cock in the bathroom.” He moaned, fingers tightening against your waist. “Beg for me, filthy whore.”

“Fuck me Sehun.” You panted, slamming back in time with his thrusts. “I fucking need you so bad, shit.”

“Yeah, take it all.” Sehun groaned, thrusts growing sloppy. I could feel myself nearing my own release, vision going fuzzy.

“Are you going to be a good slut, baby? Going to take all my come?” Sehun asked, his thrusts now sloppy but strong, each one hitting my g-spot perfectly. He even used the opportunity to reach around, fingering your clit with each one of his motions and making you see stars.

“Yes, I’m about to -” You started, before you could feel yourself shudder to release. Eyes rolling backwards, you crumpled against the doorframe, flexing around his thick cock with every wave of pleasure that passed through your body. Sehun continued thrusting through your orgasm, drawing it out longer than you ever thought possible, until he shot his thick load deep into you.

You could hear his panting, whining when he pulled out of your oversensitive core. Your panting filled the sweaty cubicle, the two of you crumpled against your own respective walls. You were still bent over knowing fully well you were exposed to him. You could feel his come, warm and thick, dripping down the inside of your thigh, highlighted by his own hand ghosting over your milky ass and thighs.

He sighed in satisfaction, hand delivering a harsh and unexpected spank, making you wince. “That,” He said, grabbing your waist and spinning you around. His eyes glassy, he grinned at you lazily, positively glowing. “Was for being a little slut.”

“I just fucked you and you’re still calling me a -”

He tugged you into a fierce kiss before you could finish your sentence, making you squeak in shock. While the previous ones were lustful, hungry, this one was different. This one made your toes curl, smiling slightly against his soft lips.

[eng-hypnosismic]

[JP/ENG/ROMAJI] Lyrics to “俺が一郎/Ore ga Ichiro”

俺が一郎 / 山田一郎（木村 昴）

作詞：好良瓶太郎　作曲・編曲：月蝕會議

俺が一郎u better know ma steelo Ore ga ichiro u better know ma steelo I am Ichiro, u better know ma steelo

これがプロローグ初めの一歩 Kore ga puroroogu hajime no ippo This is the prologue, the first step

踏み出さない奴にはない進歩 Fumidasanai yatsu ni wa nai shinpo Those who take no strides won’t move forward

常にNO.1 player蹴散らせぜヘイター Tsune ni NO.1 player kechirasuze heitaa Always the NO.1 player, kick away the haters

We are the Dream team その名を BUSTER (Bros!) We are the Dream team sono na wo BUSTER (Bros!) We are the Dream team, our name is BUSTER (Bros!)

ブクロ代表カス蹴っ飛ばすか Bukuro daihyou kasu kettobasu ka The rep for ‘Bukuro, kick out the scum

行くぜfake rapper退治無い容赦 Ikuze fake rapper taiji nai yousha Let’s go, crush the fake rappers without pity

情け無用「いっちょ本気出すか」 Nasake muyo “iccho honkidasu ka” Mercy is useless, “show me what you got”

弱者いじめは柄じゃねえ Jakusha ijime wa gara janee Bullying the weak isn’t my style

強者倒すことにしか興味ねえ Kyoushataosu koto ni shika kyouminee I’m not into anything but taking down the strong

誰が裂ける俺ら兄弟の絆 Dare ga sakeru orera kyoudai no kizuna Whoever tears the bonds of us brothers apart

疼きだすぜあの日の古傷が Uzukidasuze ano hi no furukizu ga I’ll rub salt in your old wounds

1 for the show, and 2 for ma bros, なら 1 for the show, and 2 for ma bros, nara 1 for the show, and 2 for ma bros

3 for the hood, で俺ら参上 (holla) 3 for the hood, de orera sanjou (holla) 3 for the hood that we represent (holla)

俺が一郎ここらで一度 Ore ga ichiro kokora de ichido I am Ichiro, once more from the top

お見知り置きをREP BUSTER BROS yo Omishiri oki wo REP BUSTER BROS yo Remember me, REP BUSTER BROS yo

「one」 who’s the one 真の rapper “One,” who’s the one shin no rapper “One,” Who’s the one true rapper

「two」 rule the world I’m the リーダー “Two,” rule the world I’m the riidaa “Two,” rule the world I’m the leader

「three」 言えよ say ma name louder “Three,” ieyo say ma name louder “Three,” say it, say ma name louder

俺が一郎　Big bro in the house yo Ore ga ichiro big bro in the house yo I am Ichiro, Big bro in the house yo

これが伝説のヒプノシスMIC Kore ga densetsu no hipunoshisu MIC This is the legendary Hypnosis MIC

Hip Hop の新時代到来 Hip Hop no shinjidai tourai The new era of Hip Hop has arrived

まだいけるか? Hands in the air yo Mada ikeru ka? Hands in the air yo Can we keep going? Hands in the air yo

言えよ who's the one ｢それは一郎｣ Ieyo who’s the one “sore wa ichiro” Say it, who’s the one? “It’s Ichiro”

これが新世紀のRAP new generation Kore ga shinseiki no RAP new generation This is a new century of Rap, a new generation

あっと言わせる flow skillなら ma job Atto iwaseru flow skill nara ma job My flow and skill will leave you speechless, it’s ma job

ビビったガセrapper murderする戦法 Bibitta gase rapper murder suru senbou I’ve got the strats to murder cowardly fake rappers

速攻で片付けてbattleで圧勝 Sokkou de katadzukete battle de attou Finish up the battle with a quick, total victory

まだ見ぬ天井があることが Mada minu tenjou ga aru koto ga The things that you still can't see, past the top

俺らのゲンドウ力闇を切り裂く Orera no gendouryoku yami o kirisaku Our driving force will shred the darkness

明日が雨(レイン)でも仲間をシンジ Asu ga rein demo nakama wo shinji Even if it rains tomorrow, I believe in my friends

flowで刺してrhymeで打つパンチ Flow de sashite rhyme de utsu panchi Pierce with my flow, punch with my rhyme

無いぜ限界すで前代未聞のskillで前人未到さ Naize genkai sude zendai mimon no skill de zenjin mitousa There are no limits to my unparalleled skill, they’re never-before-seen

仲間や家族兄弟のためだ Nakama ya kazoku kyoudai no tame da I do this for my friends and family, my brothers

どんな戦況でも逃げちゃダメだ Donna senkyou demo nigecha dame da Whatever war may come, I mustn’t run away

中途半端なら出直せwackじゃないぜ Chuuto hanba nara denaose wack janaize If you’re half-assing it, go all out, it ain’t wack

俺に勝つ可能性(u know?) Ore ni katsu kanousei (u know?) I’ll most likely win (u know?)

向かう敵陣 thinkならbetter feel Mukau tekijin think nara better feel Advance towards the enemy, think, or better, feel

向かうとこ敵なしだ いざ出陣 Mukau toko teki nashi da iza shutsujin There’s no match for us, take the field!

「one」 who’s the one 真の rapper “One,” who’s the one shin no rapper “One,” Who’s the one true rapper

「two」 rule the world I’m the リーダー “Two,” rule the world I’m the riidaa “Two,” rule the world I’m the leader

「three」 言えよ say ma name louder “Three,” ieyo say ma name louder “Three,” say it, say ma name louder

俺が一郎　Big bro in the house yo Ore ga ichiro big bro in the house yo I am Ichiro, Big bro in the house yo

これが伝説のヒプノシスMIC Kore ga densetsu no hipunoshisu MIC This is the legendary Hypnosis MIC

Hip Hop の新時代到来 Hip Hop no shinjidai tourai The new era of Hip Hop has arrived

まだいけるか? Hands in the air yo Mada ikeru ka? Hands in the air yo Can we keep going? Hands in the air yo

言えよ who's the one ｢それは一郎｣ Ieyo who’s the one “sore wa ichiro” Say it, who’s the one? “It’s Ichiro”

Never ever disrespect ma crew

仲間家族 舐めたらkill 'em容赦なく Nakama kazoku nametara kill ‘em youshanaku If you look down on my friends and family, I’ll kill ‘em, no mercy

俺ら兄弟揃えば無敵だろ Orera kyoudai soroeba muteki daro When we brothers band together, we’re invincible

どんな作戦も完璧に遂行 Donna sakusen mo kanbeki ni suikou We’ll own any strategy perfectly

曲がったことが大嫌い Magatta koto ga daikirai I hate being roundabout

筋通すため歌うから give me da MIC Sujitoosu tame utau kara give me da MIC I sing to get buffs, so give me da MIC

これは決意表明MIC通し鼓膜に共鳴 Kore wa ketsui hyoumei MIC tooshi komaku ni kyoumei This MIC is my declaration of determination, resounding in your ears

浮かぶ明快な光景 Ukabu meikai na koukei A sight to see, rising to the top

夢掴んだら離すな兄弟 Yumetsukandara hanasu na kyoudai If you seize your dreams, don’t let go of your brothers

理想が現実超えるその日までは Risou ga genjitsu koeru kono hi made wa Until the day that ideals are realized

Never give up 声で使徒める悪徒 Never give up koe de shitomeru akuto Never give up, evil followers of voice

次のインパクトに備えろ rum show Tsugi no inpakuto ni sonaero rum show Get ready for the next impact, rum show

I luv Hip Hop これが道標 I luv Hip Hop kore ga michishirube I luv Hip Hop, this is a sign

切り開く道で 連れてくぜ異次元 Kirihiraku michi de tsuretekuze ijigen A shortcut into another dimension

着いて来れる奴は来いいくぜ Tsunite koreru yatsu wa koi ikuze You guys who can catch up to me, come on, let’s go

新たな天井 超えたその先へ Arata na tenjou koeta sono saki e Above and beyond to new heights

「one」 who’s the one 真の rapper “One,” who’s the one shin no rapper “One,” Who’s the one true rapper

「two」 rule the world I’m the リーダー “Two,” rule the world I’m the riidaa “Two,” rule the world I’m the leader

「three」 言えよ say ma name louder “Three,” ieyo say ma name louder “Three,” say it, say ma name louder

俺が一郎　Big bro in the house yo Ore ga ichiro big bro in the house yo I am Ichiro, Big bro in the house yo

これが伝説のヒプノシスMIC Kore ga densetsu no hipunoshisu MIC This is the legendary Hypnosis MIC

Hip Hop の新時代到来 Hip Hop no shinjidai tourai The new era of Hip Hop has arrived

まだいけるか? Hands in the air yo Mada ikeru ka? Hands in the air yo Can we keep going? Hands in the air yo

言えよ who's the one ｢それは一郎｣ Ieyo who’s the one “sore wa ichiro” Say it, who’s the one? “It’s Ichiro”

「one」 who’s the one 真の rapper “One,” who’s the one shin no rapper “One,” Who’s the one true rapper

「two」 rule the world I’m the リーダー “Two,” rule the world I’m the riidaa “Two,” rule the world I’m the leader

「three」 言えよ say ma name louder “Three,” ieyo say ma name louder “Three,” say it, say ma name louder

俺が一郎　Big bro in the house yo Ore ga ichiro big bro in the house yo I am Ichiro, Big bro in the house yo

これが伝説のヒプノシスMIC Kore ga densetsu no hipunoshisu MIC This is the legendary Hypnosis MIC

Hip Hop の新時代到来 Hip Hop no shinjidai tourai The new era of Hip Hop has arrived

まだいけるか? Hands in the air yo Mada ikeru ka? Hands in the air yo Can we keep going? Hands in the air yo

言えよ who's the one ｢それは一郎｣ Ieyo who’s the one “sore wa ichiro” Say it, who’s the one? “It’s Ichiro”

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translation notes.

[1] Gamer slang. As a noted fan of anime and light novels, it's only fair to give the Head of Ikebukuro the slang to match his tastes. In this case, we had Ichiro use 'strats,' like strategies, 'own,' and 'buffs,' like special effects that raise a character's stats.

[2] Neon Genesis Evangelion. Ichiro's seiyuu, Kimura Subaru, wrote in lyrics referencing the famous anime series in Japanese, such as "orera no GENDOUryoku," "ASUGA REIn demo nakama wo SHINJI," "donna senkyou demo NIGECHA DAMEDA," and "tsugi no IMPACT." These don't translate very well into English, unfortunately.

[3] Rum show. Rum is hip-hop slang for 'very strong, very good.'

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all numbers on the 'send me numbers' meme

Oh jeeze annon! 

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

My gf! 

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

Mmm, it depends on the person? Once i get to know someone, im out going, but if its a new person, im rlly shy tbh,,,

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

My gf,,, evry day,,,

4. Are you easy to get along with?

Idk? I hope I am,,, but a lot of people don’t like me,, so idk?

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I’m like,,, 2,,, but if I were drunk,,, i hope so???

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

Gals :9

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

I hope so!!!! I’m not planning on breaking up with my gf any time soon!!

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

thts a bit hetero but,,, the mcelroy bros bc im listening to taz rn :/

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

From a sceintific perspective nope, but like,, from a uhm,,, more,, not,, scientific perspective,,, ive never rlly talked about it but,, im assuming so???

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Mmmm idk?? I dont talk /deeply/ to a lot of people but it might be my gf?

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

‘Np!!!’

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Boombayah - Blackpink

The 7th Sense - Nct U

Candy Store - Heathers

Russian Roulette - Red Velvet

Bomb - Ravi

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

yes yes yes ye s y es p leas e

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

def. luck, but not miracles?? idk is tht weird?

15. What good thing happened this summer?

I got accepted to the school im goin to now!! so thts cool!

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

anon imma confess somethin rlly quick,, 

i havent had my first kiss,,,

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

Yea for sure! I mean, if space is infinitely big, wouldnt it be weird if we were the only ones out there?? 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush?

i can not talk to the green villan chick from kim possible so nope lamo

19. Do you like bubble baths?

yea!! its rlly fun and relaxing

20. Do you like your neighbors?

the only neighbors i know are the ones who are crack heads and who had someone die in their home somehow?? so imma go with no

21. What are you bad habits?

Biting my lips, mumbling, self-isolation, ect ect

22. Where would you like to travel?

i wouldnt probs?? other time periods are more aesthetic, but more misogynistic and homophobic  so,,,

23. Do you have trust issues?

I dont think so?? probs not tbh,,

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

s l e e p

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

my shoulders,, theyre rlly broad for a gal so a lot of clothes dont fit me right,,

26. What do you do when you wake up?

suffer

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

nope?? i mean, im v v v v v pale so i probs should be a bit darker for health reasons, but ive never rlly had issues with is before??

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my gf and besties

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

i only have one and nope

30. Do you ever want to get married?

it depends on what my partner wants? i dont specifically want to and i dont specifically dont want to so itll be up 2 who ever im dating at the time 

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

barely. it has a hard time staying up some times

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

bdkhj what the fuck im not answering that im 2 years o l d

33. Spell your name with your chin.

fgZg,klf      

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

yep! basketball and soccer!

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

TV. I barely watch it anyways

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

mm yea 

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

i usually try to think of a story??

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

my current gf tbh

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

amazon lmao

40. What do you want to do after high school?

idk yet?? rn im thinking an english teacher in china :0

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

depends on what they did

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

nothin rlly?? Im just usually lost in thought??

43. Do you smile at strangers?

i try to!

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

s p a c e 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

the thought of seein my gf at school ;)

46. What are you paranoid about?

my report card,,,

47. Have you ever been high?

yea but it WASNT MY FAULT. I WAS GIVEN A WEED BROWNIE WITH OUT MY CONSENT OKAY??

48. Have you ever been drunk?

na

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

no??

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

i think it was my gf’s brown hoodie?

51. Ever wished you were someone else?

uhm,,, na? sometime i wish we were in a dif financial situation, but thts about it?

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

my shoulder width??

53. Favourite makeup brand?

i dont,,, wear make up,,,,

54. Favourite store?

amazon :9

55. Favourite blog?

@genociderfukawa , @eggseggseggseggseggseggseggseggs , @succmekomaeda

56. Favourite colour?

all of the pastels!

57. Favourite food?

penne chicken Alfredo 

58. Last thing you ate?

some chicken 

59. First thing you ate this morning?

a fudgeround

60. Ever won a competition? For what?

Yea! Iv’e won multiple sports contests, and a few art and writing competitions

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?

nope!

62. Been arrested? For what?

na man. i have a clean record

63. Ever been in love?

I am rn! 

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?

i,,, havent had it yet,,,,,,

65. Are you hungry right now?

nope! i just ate dinner!

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends?

i rlly dont have any tumblr friends?? 

67. Facebook or Twitter?

twitter obvi

68. Twitter or Tumblr?

twitter!

69. Are you watching tv right now?

nope! im listening to taz

70. Names of your bestfriends?

Emily, Jessy, Mikaia, Zoya, and Patrick!

71. Craving something? What?

,,,,cheesecake,,,,,,

72. What colour are your towels?

green and blue i think

72. How many pillows do you sleep with?

7. exactly.

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

do pillow pets count?

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

5 or 6?

75. Favourite animal?

owls and bunnies!!

76. What colour is your underwear?

rn?,,,,,,,,, neon pink ://p

77. Chocolate or Vanilla?

chocolate

78. Favourite ice cream flavour?

triple chocolate chunk and tht kinda bull shit!

79. What colour shirt are you wearing?

navy blue

80. What colour pants?

also navy blue! 

81. Favourite tv show?

i dont rlly watch american tv but,, channel zero is rlly good!!

82. Favourite movie?

Moana!!!!

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?

mean girls 1

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?

ive never seen 21 jump street

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?

idk?? the main bitch

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?

dory!

87. First person you talked to today?

my gf!

88. Last person you talked to today?

my dad i think??

89. Name a person you hate?

mm a few kids in my grade and the current potus and staff

90. Name a person you love?

my gf!! i luv her lots

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

na. im p chill rn

92. In a fight with someone?

not tht i know of?

93. How many sweatpants do you have?

2 or 3 pairs

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?

3 of 4?? idek

95. Last movie you watched?

a shitty movie for my history class 

96. Favourite actress?

i dont have one?

97. Favourite actor?

Lin Manuel Miranda!

98. Do you tan a lot?

nope. i just fukin,, burn like a hellfire

99. Have any pets?

3 cats and a dog!

100. How are you feeling?

pretty cool i guess?

101. Do you type fast?

depends? mostly ya!

102. Do you regret anything from your past?

oh fuck yes

103. Can you spell well?

no!! my spelling is shit tbh

104. Do you miss anyone from your past?

no particuarly?

105. Ever been to a bonfire party?

yep!

106. Ever broken someone’s heart?

i might have?? im,, not sure honetly,,

107. Have you ever been on a horse?

yea! i used to ride rlly well!

108. What should you be doing?

listen here anon i actually did my fukin work 4 once

109. Is something irritating you right now?

just my headache?

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

oh yea

111. Do you have trust issues?

this is a repeat? i answered it earlier lmao

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Im not sure?

113. What was your childhood nickname?

tay

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yea!

115. Do you play the Wii?

mm i have a wii u and switch, but no wii anymore :’(

116. Are you listening to music right now?

nope! im listening to taz!

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?

hell yea!

118. Do you like Chinese food?

fuck yes!!!!

119. Favourite book?

the legend series by Marie Lu

120. Are you afraid of the dark?

4 sure

121. Are you mean?

god i hope not

122. Is cheating ever okay?

no! all partners should consent and agree on all boundaries in a relationship!! the members of that relationship need to respect that!!

123. Can you keep white shoes clean?

hell na

124. Do you believe in love at first sight?

mmhmm!

125. Do you believe in true love?

im in it rn baby

126. Are you currently bored?

yea,,,

127. What makes you happy?

music i like, my gf, spending tie with friends, and not stressing out about things!

128. Would you change your name?

nope! i like my name

129. What your zodiac sign?

pisces!

130. Do you like subway?

yasss!

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

he knos im fukin gay as shit 

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

i answered this earlier too

133. Favourite lyrics right now?

‘ringdingdong ringdingdong ding, rigiding rigi ding ding ding ....... fantastic fantastic fantastic fantastic elastic elastic elastic elastic’

134. Can you count to one million?

i could but im not dooin that shit

135. Dumbest lie you ever told?

‘im straight’

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed

137. How tall are you?

5′3 3/4″

138. Curly or Straight hair?

like what i have?? its super curly!

139. Brunette or Blonde?

im a brunette!

140. Summer or Winter?

mmm winter!

141. Night or Day?

night, cause i can sleep with out regrets

142. Favourite month?

February!

143. Are you a vegetarian?

na 

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?

dark!

145. Tea or Coffee?

mm neither :p

146. Was today a good day?

i would say so yea

147. Mars or Snickers?

m ars??

148. What’s your favourite quote?

‘dibidibidis my name is minho’

149. Do you believe in ghosts?

yea!

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

‘Burr: Theres nothing rich folks love more’

(its hamilton the revolution)

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well this was fun lmao

[rebeccahaithcoat]

I usually permit myself one and only one look back, because we all know what happens to people women who look back*. I know this cellularly now, because due to what happened on New Year’s Eve last year and The Thing I Am Too Scared to Write About Yet, for the first time in my life I spent this whole year looking back. I barely escaped the fate and I’m going to tell you about that when I stop being too scared to write about The Thing I Am Too Scared to Write About Yet. 

Suffice it to say, mostly because of what happened on New Year’s Eve last year,  I did not post my Year in Music 2016 and I know I was pretty torn up about it. So, I’m going to post that, plus what I remember about this year -- which isn’t much due to what happened on New Year’s Eve last year plus The Thing I Am Too Scared to Write About Yet -- in the hopes that I’ll come back and fill in the gaps ... soon. 

What I will say is that music saved me at least twice this year (both times, I was taken by surprise, but I don't know why. Music is the shape of water**, it has always swum to me and seeped into the cracks of my heart until it was swollen again). Once was when I stumbled upon Derrick May’s “Strings of the Strings of Life” while reading Adam Haslett’s Imagine Me Gone*** in an apartment off the Las Vegas Strip, and the second time was a couple weeks ago when I went to see Syd downtown. Near the end of her show, she got choked up and said, “It’s been a hard year, but I’m learning to love myself.” Me too. 

Songs I Heard in 2017 and Loved Enough to Add to a List 

“YUNGXAHOE” —playboi carti (dylvinciGTC edit)

“pull up wit ah stick” — sahbabii

“that’s out” — 2eleven ft. earl swavey and mitch slick

“in my studio,” starfoxlaflare

“we ain’t homies,” arin ray

“can’t hang” — preme ft. partynextdoor

that mike will ransom song with pharrell on it 

“come down” — mike will, rae sremmurd, chief keef

“bambi,” jidenna 

“t-shirt,” migos

“each and every day,” kingdom 

“big fish,” vince 

“feels,” calvin harris 

“frustrated,” r.lum.r

“what you like,” 24hrs

"anti,” sobxrbe

“crew,” goldlink ft. shy glizzy and brent faiyaz

“east coast,” asap ferg

“oh na na,” gizzle 

“why you lying,” show me the body 

“butterfly effect,” travis scott

“bring dem things,” french montana ft. pharrell

“keep the faith,” moon boots ft. nic hansen

“unravel me,” sabrina claudio 

“sky walker” — miguel 

“rules” — bbymutha

“875 dollars” — de lux 

“we don’t luv em” — hoodrich pablo 

“dawsins breek” — ty dolla $ign

“stare” — ty ft. pharrell 

“neon guts,” uzi vert ft. pharrell

“no way” — tokimonsta

“don’t call me” — tokimonsta

“drip” — luke james 

“tap in” — bobby brackins

“say a” — boogie wit a hoodie

“pick it up” — famous dex

2017 Albums I Listened to All the Way Through Many Times

HNDRXX, future

tears in the club, kingdom

4:44, jay z

culture, migos

ocean and montana, buddy and kaytranada

self-titled, playboi carti

nu religion: hyena, THEY

self-titled, mura masa

2017 Best New Lingo

“massagin,” bay bay 

2017 Best Video + Song Combos

“sticky situation,” quin ft. syd

“P.O.W.A.,” m.i.a.

“the story of OJ,” jay-z

2017 Favorite Dancer 

delaney glazer: 

1) ”pills and automobiles,” chris brown

2) “i miss the old u,” blackbear (2scratch remix)

3) “butterfly effect,” travis scott

2016 Songs I Loved and Still Do TBH

“Timed Out,” Kyle Dion 

“No Masturbation,” and "Saydaat,” Nef the Pharaoh 

“Rich Friends,” Kanye 

“Eastside Jace,” Jace 

“Glo Girl,” Ballout

“Energy,” Tinashe 

“Felt Like Cappin” 2 Chainz

“Green light,” Ro James

"Kung Fu," Baauer ft Future and Pusha T

“With Them, “Young Thug 

“Party on Me,” Father

"Oh Shit," Buddy 

“NADA” Kari Faux

“Ran Off on the Plug Twice,” Plies

“Bankroll,” Skooly 

“Ain’t a Damn Thing Changed,” Tate Kobang ft. aaron lacrate 

“Sorry,” StunnaJune

“I Do This,” Nipsey Hussle (THUG’S FEATURE!) 

“Gangsta Shit,” Young Thug

“Girl” Joey Purp 

“German Leather,” Wes Period (production)

“Go Off,” M.I.A.

“1990x,” Maxwell 

“Be Nice,” Dash Machete

“1 Up Top,” Mozzy

“It,” Christine and the Queens (2015??)

“Time Moves Slow,” BBNG

“Slappin,” Nef and E-40

“You Could Be My Lover,” Diddy and Ty$

“Day Ones,” Ezale 

“Learn From Each Other,” Majid Jordan 

“Money,” Leikeli47 “xxx angel dust xxx,” lsdxoxo

“Pnuemonia,” Danny Brown 

“Cross Me,” WNC carlos ft. jmm larry and sog sherwood flame 

“No Shopping,” French Montana

“Little Bit of This,” Vince and GTA

“All Caught Up,” Tinashe and GTA

“Ran Up a Check,” Cash Out 

“Lovesick” Mura Masa ft, A$AP Rocky 

“Pull Up,” Abra 

“Milion Dollar Mission,” G Perico 

“Can I,” The Team 

2016 Songs I Loved Until Radio Ruined Them 

“Body,” Dreezy ft Jeremih

“Pick Up the Phone,” Travis Scott and Young Thug

“Controlla,” Drake // “For Free,” Drake // “4 pm in Calabasas,” Drake 

“Broccoli,” DRAM and Yachty

"Dang,” Mac Miller and Andersen.Paak

“Girlfriend,” Kap G

“Caroline,” Amine

Favorite Music Memories of 2016 Dancing with YG to Still Brazy in a studio in the Valley tied with going to Ace of Diamonds for YG’s birthday party

Morphing from a quiet gallery (well, as quiet as a gallery night where Shia Labeouf is waiting in line can be) and wine night to hopping behind the booth at Bar Marmont (RIP) with Liz and a 24-year-old asking me very formally, “Would you like a vial of coke?” It’s always the nights you least expect. 

My full-blown impersonation of Axel singing “Patience” while driving along the mountains in Mexico. It’s special, trust me. 

92.3 B-Day Bash with Drew — Nicki being the bad bitch she is by opening with “Down in the DM” and then bringing out YG.

RIP the GOAT, Prince. I have never cried so hard over the death of someone I didn’t know personally. Then I danced so hard sweat matted my hair to my head at Adam 12′s secret loft Prince party.

I was totally over Coachella by Saturday. But then, the flower crown goddesses saw fit to plop a dude from Venice holding a vial of pure MDMA in my path while I was “reporting” on drugs for Cosmo. The high lasted through Vince and even GNR (!), who I still can’t believe I saw. Nate picked off a ton of hipsters like a fullback and got me in square in front of the sound booth. Take me down to the paradise city indeed lol. 

Bribing the bouncer to get in the Layover in Oakland on a tip from a Berkeley bartender after he played an Andre Nickatina song I’d never heard. I went to the bar after dancing to one song, and the bartender shouted, “You have [gestures to my face].” I snapped open my compact to see mascara streaming down my cheeks. 

Gay Night at Chico’s in Montebello. Friend: “I see you standing outside talking and next thing I know, I come out of the bathroom to you literally flying around the room salsa dancing with some gay Mexican dude.” 

The stripper grinding on me at Snoop Dogg’s listening party at SAM’s 

Walking home under a star-smeared sky after seeing Ryan Adams play the Greek

Watching the sun turn into melty orange sherbet with my little brother from the Ninja Tune rooftop  

Slim Jimmy shouting me out from the Whiskey stage

Chills pricking my entire body during the opening riff to “Gimme Shelter” while watching the Rolling Stones as close as you can get with some old dude named Jack, who pulled out his phone exactly once.

*Genesis 19

**Pretty good movie! 

***Affecting book. Reading is the great escape and I post little reviews with the hashtag #bookswithbex on Twitter, if you wanna check it out.  

[luckylagerlegacy]

Lil Uzi Vert “Luv Is Rage 2″ Album Commentary

I’m excited that this Album is here… But at the same time it makes me a little bit sad that the twitter jokes about it never being released will cease now. I think I put the first Luv Is Rage mixtape as my rap album of the year in 2015, which makes it hard for me to know what to expect from this one. It’ll either be a classic, or an audio version of whatever Lil Uzi’s hair is doing right this very moment. Let’s not waste anymore time here, and instead just shoulder roll our way into Luv Is Rage 2:

1) Two:

Calling the first track on your album “Two” is a piss off, Uzi… But this song’s beat got the trademark accordion over it and I am instantly lulled into being okay by it. This track leads off right where Luv Is Rage ended,which is fire.. Sure, now he’s rapping about fame being poisonous and money being evil BUT shit slaps stupid hard and I can suspend my concern for his personal well being for at least as long as this song lasts.

3.5/5

2) 444+222:

EITHER SLOW DOWN WITH YOUR DIRECTIONS OR DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO, MR UZI VERT. I’m also not doing math so your probably clever song title is completely lost on my dumb ass!!!!! This song has me voguing into a broken mirror while thinking about all the girls who have ever wronged me. I’m flash dancing in my back yard, nae naeing at the thought of my own death. This is a total stripper joint, but don’t be surprised if some of them dancers recognize the sadness in Lil Uzi’s voice and shake their titties wild mournfully and make all of the perverts watching reflect on their own shit.

4/5

3) Sauce It Up:

Coincidentally, this song title is exactly what I tell the drive thru dicks at Wendy’s when they ask me which one (1) sauce I want with my six (6) orders of the dollar menu  Five (5) piece nugget. This song is sort of about nothing, but it has the cutest fucking line lmao check it out: “I WAS ON THE PHONE, YEAH WITH PLAYBOI CARTI - COMMES DES GARCON, HEARTS ALL ON MY CARDI” lol that’s silly as hell I love it, who the hell calls a cardigan a cardi? Tegan And Sara fans do. I do. This is the first song on the tape that hasn’t made me want to call a distress hotline on Lil Uzi’s behalf.

3.5/5

4) No Sleep Leak:

This song stupid as fuck but in a good way. I just woke my dog up dancing to this song. That’s a real thing that happened. He raps about recouping all of his wealth in the span of a single night which is tight, but I often do the same. I can go from like .34 cents in my bank account to uhhh like a few hundred when it’s payday. It’s not that impressive, Uzi.

3.5

5) The Way Life Goes:

My girl is at her Aunt’s house in Maryland this week (holler at me if ur tryna rob her house while she’s gone just hmu she has an xbox) and I’m actually glad now, cus you have got to be missing somebody to truly grasp whatever the fuck Lil Uzi Vert is going through right now. Who the hell hurt you Lil Uzi Vert? Your hair dresser? Reese La Flare when you ripped his whole existence off and added KPOP to it?? Who the fuck did this to you lil guy??? Lmao this song goes hard as hell though I’m pouring out a tear for my guys rn over it. This one is hilarious to me tho cus he samples an “Oh Wonder” song, and it’s adorable to me that Lil Uzi Vert knows about some fabulist ass pop duo like the rest of us sad schmucks do.

4.5/5

6) For Real:

I’m assembling an interracial squad of dance teens to perform funny looking dance moves to this song while I stand behind the camera and jerk it side to side (not like that) whenever they do the dab. This song is the most stripped down, “normal” on the project I guess. It’s cool, but I like my Lil Uzi Vert to be manic and sad and weird. NEEEEEEEEXT

3/5

7) Feelings Mutual:

Oh wow we’re diving back into the sad drug stuff pretty abruptly here. Hold the fuck on I’m gonna google “Who Did This To Lil Uzi Vert??” gimme a second. Okay, nothing came up… But damn we gotta get this guy some mood stabilizers and a workout routine so he can start to turn that frown upside down. Nobody getting double toppy from models and driving ferraris should be sad. Even if he is like, five foot minus five. Nobody who’s friends with The Migos should cry, ever! They have their own chips! This song is very good though. Again, his sad shit is really effective so even tho he’s crying for help I’m gonna pretend he’s asking me to ignore his situation and dance instead!

4/5

8) Neon Guts (Feat Pharrell Williams):

Two things: I misspell Pharrell’s name every single time I type it, and whoooo shit Pharrrlel can make a goddamn track, even now that he’s more of a spiritual guide to XXL’s freshman classes than a hit maker. He took his gigantic cowboy hat off and donned the BDBC fitted for this one. This is gonna be the biggest song off this whole album, mark my words. Shit slaps dummy hard.

5/5

9) Early 20 Rager:

Oh hey, Lil Uzi named this song the same thing as my friend’s name their Birthday events on Facebook! Hopefully this song doesn’t make me get dressed up and go to 3 bars I don’t like. He says “FUCK YO GIRL ON CAM, GOPRO” which is hilarious. I want my POV porn to have an extreme sports edge to it now. I wanna see Mia Malkova giving head while jumping out of an airplane ASAP.

3.5/5

10) UnFazed (Feat. The Weeknd):

Dog I fucking hate the weekday. I -oh wow this shit slaps nvm I’m wrong.. Still tho if I catch you out here with XO gear on I am throwing it high up into an unscalable tree. One with mad prickles. He does say “Take three Xannies like a hattrick” on this which is super fucking lame and ultra Canadian of him. I know I said that the Pharalel track would be the biggest song on this album, but every white girl I know who does blow loves The Weeknd so this track is gonna go quadruple platinum.

4/5

11. Pretty Mami:

               This song boring as fuck! Maybe Lil Uzi not liking rapping anymore… Isn’t a good thing? I thought disenfranchisement meant bangers that would make me wipe tears away in secrecy at the club… But maybe, instead it means a lack of bangers?????????????????????????? Fuck man… I hate whoever made this man so sad.

2.5/5

12) How To Talk:

THIS BITCH! This song starts with the audio of some woman calling Lil Uzi Vert out for some shit that uhhh I’m not paying attention to. Somebody on 4chan analyze this woman’s vocality n stuff so we know who to speak to about making this guy sad. This song slaps tho, he’s all apologetic about treating her badly and jealous that she’s talking to a ball player. The beat is rad as hell. This is the mood I think of when I think of Lil Uzi’s music. More of this, less Pretty Mami.

4/5

13) X:

Metro Boomin and Pierre Bourne co-producing a Lil Uzi Vert track? I’m in clout heaven. Somebody fetch me a pair of those dumbass glasses that every future dead kid wears while they nod out on xanax. You know the ones? The Fallout 4 fancy lady joints. Thanks. Okay this song is golden and I will defend it no matter what the hell happens with the next two tracks. I’m doin all of Uzi’s dances as best I can to this, eating gummy bears, feelin cute.

5/5

14) Malfunction:

               In the first verse on this dreamy lil song Uzi says “ALL MY GIRLS DRESS LIKE THEY WORK AT HOOTERS” like it’s a good thing. If I’m worth millions of dollars, my many, many girlfriends would all be dressed in differently themed designer garb: One goth model with diamond encrusted tears, one pioneer thot with a golden pitchfork, a pair of ghost women wearing spooky Red Bottoms, etc. Let’s have some showmanship, please. This song is good though, the last ¼ of this album is picking it up.

4/5

15) Dark Queen:

Dark Queen is my favourite race in World Of Warcraft, so I’m stoked on this. The song is all about his relationship with his mother, and how it relates with his relationship with the music business instead of sick raids and fuckin uhhhhhhhh killin monsters? Idk I never played WoW I was too busy playing other videogames u fuckin dorks.

3.5/5

16) XO TOUR LIF3:

               *Crying* SHE SAID BABY I AM NOT AFRAID TO - *still crying* DIE! I forgot this song was on the album. Wow, what a fuckin banger. I want whoever reads this to make sure the lyrics to this song are etched into my gravestone (if I somehow don’t end up buried in an unmarked grave by a jilted lover and her new, tougher boyfriend) Ugh this goes so fuckin hard. This is one of the only songs that, if you have it as your ringtone and it goes off really loudly while we’re sitting next to each other on the C-Train, won’t earn you a dirty look and a subtweet. I want to celebrate the sadness in this song. You did it, Lil Uzi.

5/5

 FINAL SCORE: 7.8/10

This shit had some up and down moments, I’m not gonna lie. But, the good outweighed the bad. I hope Uzi finds the help he needs before his hair gets any more neon than it already is. We believe in you, lil fella.