#NESHA THIS IS SO GOOD

[blackfemmecharacterdependency]

Hey, Siblings & Niblings!

I know, it's been a minute since Auntie Nesha spoke to folk, but I have to tell you about a new blog that I believe is very important. Shoutout to my good sis, Sleepy for setting out on this journey and I encourage anybody who follows me here to follow this blog.

I've often ranted about the treatment of Black femme characters in media, one of those being I get SICK of having to see them die. So, this spot helps us to know, if we don't already: Does the Black femme die?

Keep in mind, it is new, so there aren't many entries yet, but it should grow and hopefully be as well received as blackfemmecharacterdepency was for nearly 4 full years.

[newkatzkafe2023]

I can definitely see LMK, Netflix Monkey King, and MK Nesha reborn being the types of guys that would do skincare and face masks with their s/o and they would just make a whole date night out of it.

#Selfcare with your favorite monkey king💅

(Lmk Wukong) Oh he would love this, He gets to be lazy and taken care of at the same time sign him up. He fines the face mask a bit silly but once he sees what it does for his skin, His mind would be blown. So he would Absolutely Wanna do this at least once.

(MKR Wukong) Maaaaaaaannnnnnn he could really use this. Like seriously with his foul mood most of the damn time. You can imagine his tantrums, outbursts, and bouts of violence is the only way to get his stress out. But once you go and do a spa treatment with him, He would be of very different demon. It honestly scares pigsy, but the monk would appreciate it because he is a lot more reasonable afterward.

(HIB Wukong) Also somebody who can use some self care and a spa day. Fighting demons being alone in a crystal for 500 years and raising two Kids and one wife. Yeah Everything about his life is hard. So the self care treatments and Massages yeah he's gonna be out like a light for a couple of weeks.

(NR Wukong) Good Lord, like you can get him to sit still. He's always all ove the damn place and his idea of a me day would be some alcoholic drink and falling asleep on the couch. Now I suggest you ease him into it so start with a face mask and then go from there. Oh he definitely loves the face mask a little too much but you got to remind him that you suppose to take it off of him afterwards. Which he's not a big fan off but he does like how soft his skin is.

(Netflix Wukong) Yo WITH HIS VANITY!!!! This is the perfect couple's activity. He'll want the full treatment and whatever else if you tell him he's gonna look even better. And he'll be doing Two of his favorite things at the same time. spending time with you and admiring himself.

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[urban-trek-thru-middle-earth]

Fic Snippet - Sep 1

Eomer tried to speak, but the words wouldn't come. The image Nesha's description conjured, my Gods; how could anyone do that to an innocent child? "I, um"—he coughed to clear the lump in his throat—"Vonnal told me his family left Heleonfort because of the bombing. I had no idea, the reason was as awful as this."

"No," she said, so soft he almost didn't hear. "He wouldn't ever have told you that part. He doesn't talk about it much. None of us do."

"Nesha," Eomer said, gentle as well, "why did you want me to know how Toven died? Why did you make me ask?"

"Because you're the King, sir," she stressed, voice cracking around the edge. "And I'm tired of listening to all the powerful people in Edoras, all the ministers and the politicians, all the people who make the decisions, all the people who deliver the news, of not giving so much as a single damn."

"About the situation in Heleonfort?"

"And about the March in general, sir."

"I know the relationship between the government and the March isn't good. That's part of the reason I'm here for the break. To try to repair the damage."

"It's a good start, sir, and I'm personally delighted you're here. Our family's always been loyal to the Crown, through thick and thin. But it won't be enough for a lot of people. Some Marchers will look at your visit and wonder why you're bothering. Especially in the 'fort," Nesha said, cold and hard again. "People up there will have no use for you at all."

"Is it really that bad?"

"They've been completely abandoned, sir. Ever since the river burgh was stolen in ninety-eight. The government did almost nothing to stop what happened then, and they're still doing almost nothing now. People are dying ever day. The Dunnish are creeping across the river, claiming more and more of our land every day, by fair means or foul. And our government just lets them do it. Because they don't care about the March enough to force the bastards in Sharflow to stop."

"It's a tricky situation, I'm sure. Not something with an easy fix."

She let out a snort. "Now, you sound just like them."

Being compared to an oily politician—that was an insult too far. "Mrs. Stonehawk," Eomer said, no longer wanting to use her name, "I understand your frustration, but I'm only a Constitutional King. With no political authority at all. I cannot and will not interfere in my government's official position on Dunland and the March. I would be out of a job if I even tried."

"I know you would. I just thought, after everything I've heard from Vonnal, that you might understand."

"I do understand."

"Will you be honest with me, then? Tell me how you would deal with the Dunnish and the HDF, if it was up to you?"

Eomer was dearly tempted, but he couldn't reply. As honourable as Nesha seemed, if anything he told her got out, the damage to his position would be absolutely devastating. "I'm sorry. I'm afraid that's a topic I can't comment on," he said.

"I know that, sir. But I had to try."

[leapofthekoi]

Five years without a hint, without a sign. A long search nears its end and the rescue attempt can begin.

I am... not used to writing Nesha and Lana, gonna start off with that. I think Nesha has like... middle of the road development as a character for my mains and also her speech patterns that I decided on are an ENDLESS regret because I'm used to shortening words and not writing out things in full. But it sounds more formal to me and works as a VERY nice contrast to Saris!

Anyway, woo! First thing finished and posted in nearly a year! I think. Last I checked. I have a bunch of WIPs that are slowly finally getting finished in the oneshot collection. Some are connected to other things I haven't started yet but have ideas for so those'll take a bit longer.

Actual relevant to fic notes! I decided given how strong I want to make Nesha and Saris' Force Bond that it was gonna end up as a Dyad instead. And definitely just trying to break the idea I've seen that its Force-assigned soulmates because while I do love a good soulmate fic (it is my WEAKNESS) I do hate the idea that a bond of that level has to be inherently romantic. (Please keep up the soulbond Dyad fics though there's some really good ones out there!)

Slowly exploring the five year timeskip stuff too because I definitely have ideas for what all my idiots are doing during that!

Title is a homage to Saris' D&D counterpart where during the Rebellion-era (As a completely different character) he's in a group protecting Force-users called "The Guardians of Lost Lights" as "Seeker of the Lost Stars." (Just Seeker for short.) Nesha and Sirul the Zeltron (joke from last session that I thought was funny as hell!) are there too under the codenames "Finder" and "Speaker" (Shorthand).

...Okay I am REALLY rambley in the notes tonight go ahead and read! Tl;dr, I have a shitton of thoughts about these characters! :'D

[msanonymousey]

Hi, I really love your Aus a lot, especially the Golden Circus and Jade Monkey, I think the stories are so creative and I have a few questions if you don't mind

1- In golden circus I would like to know if you intend to explore more of this story, like what is this circus and who is managing it, and also if it have other attractions (trapped creatures) or employees because in one of your drawings there was someone with wukong besides from macaque and I thought it was nesha so I would really like to know more about

2- Another thing that I wonder a lot if you intend to explore the past for example how macaque got trapped in the painting and was "found" or maybe bought by the circus but mainly how the circus managed to capture a creature as powerful as wukong, I would love to know more about that like flashbacks or something

3- i would like to know if wukong has any side effects because of these forced power drains, like memory loss or behavior change or something and also if the blush only drains the power or if it also has the spell on it

4- And lastly because i think i get pretty big already kk (sorry about that) , just a complete answer to the question above, if the wukong ever tried to run away from the circus and was stopped by the spell or the power drain, or if he was so weak that he didn't even think about that possibility

Sorry for making it so long I got a little excited kk and sorry for my English I still don't speak 100% fluently

Hey there! I do plan on fleshing out the au more! (Except for Jade Monkey, I'm currently breaking down and rebuilding that one)

1: My current issue is currently figuring out who I want to be behind the circus because I already have different roles for all of the previous antagonists. I'm hoping the special will introduce more characters and help with that but I was also considering making and oc to take that place but I'm just concerned they won't be that good.

2: Yes there are plenty more attractions including Red Son, Nezha, Yin+Jin, Spider Queen, Peng, Wukong, and Macaque.

3: I do plan to cover how Wukong and Macaque were covered I just need to finish a drawing for Macaque before I post it. As for Wukong, covering his is a little difficult because I need to figure out who I want the main antagonist for the au before I can post it.

4: It's a spell that drains Wukong's powers. The fillet is used as a form of punishment for him (and sometimes Nezha but I'll get into that later.) The only affect to the spell is that all of Wukongs energy is drained along with his powers to the point that he can't function without someone by his side depending on when the spell was last used.

5: Wukong has considered running away but never actually attempted it. He's being pretty heavily manipulated and considers one of his captors as a parental figure.

Sorry I know I didn't provide a drawing this time around but I figured I'd give you all something since I know a few of you are waiting for it.

[tkfluff-fanatic]

that’s so cute. gonna be honest the first time they do it they’re probably giggling so much that they also mess up 😭 they think it’s SO funny but they don’t do it every time (mainly cause. not many songs have breaks long enough 😓 ghost COULD play with one hand but let’s be real who the fuck WANTS to do that who would risk that i wouldn’t,,)

Nesha HATES them...stands up and leaves and says he's never gonna play with them EVER AGAIN...why's he a literal child good lord

[zackmartin]

I will always love your tangents even if I don't 100% know what we're talking about 😤🤣 I was thinking about that a while back too! About the kids thinking he was made up.

As soon as I read the headline I remembered our convo so I just had to share with you. But, I thought it was really cute too and that just makes it so much better 🥺🥺🥺

I hope you're doing okay! I miss you and I love you 💕

I came here to tell you whenever you get back here that Matthew Lawrence and Chilli dating. How do they know each other? Where could they have met? What a bizarre coupling. It seems so random. And I have a long history with both. In very different areas, but. Idk. This was surprisingly perplexing and a bit humorous to me. Cheers to them 😅

I SAW THAT! That was my initial reaction too, I was like "This feels...random?" but to be fair, I know next to nothing about either of them so I was like "well, maybe that's just me, maybe i just don't know" 😅 I suppose there are more random celebrity couples.... Good for them, though, hope they're happy 🤣

[littlemanbiceps]

Nesha Rewatches Total Drama

Dodgebrawl

Harold is one of those characters that the more I think of him, the more fascinated I am by his development through the run of the show. Because, for instance whenever he comes into the cabin for breakfast and he’s got a mustache drawn on him, they show us his perspective of walking in. He struts in like a star. He is so confident and self assured, and when he sees they’re laughing and he finally takes a look at his face, he don’t even trip. He says “nice stache” and keep it moving. It’s nice to see him have that confidence in himself. Harold’s confidence is super fun for me, because even though the majority of these characters are delusional, many of them are little jerks. Harold has some down moments, but mostly he’s a good kid who loves himself.

[mx-mongoose]

I been meaning to come through and check on you. Last time we really had a chance to talk, I know that you weren't feeling well and I recently saw something that made me think you might be feeling that way again soon. I know you get wrapped up in your own world sometimes, but I wanted to reach out to my lil' Goose and see if you good.

This is a Bitmoji that comes up if you search for "goose" lol.

Aww thank you so much for checking up Nesha, that means a lot 💕. Also love the bitmoji lol :]. I’m doing fine, just trying to improve my mental health mostly and with mixed results. I think staying with my dad has helped me a lot.

I hope you’re doing good too, Nesha! You mean a lot to me and I hope you’re year so far has been good

[shslargue]

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#this is a ‘me enjoying projecting onto original characters’ thing and not a ‘fetishizing a personality disorder’ thing

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

"Where others saw insignificance and pointlessness, I found freedom."

The Magnus Archives Fear Entities 1/15- The Vast

The Vast is one of the most underrated Fears, so I decided to start with this one first! I’ve definitely gained a much bigger appreciation for it as time has gone on, it’s truly terrifying to think about how small you are compared to the endless expanse of the universe.

Playlist can be found here!

🌩️🌊⚡

37 notes - Posted November 21, 2022

#4

“I am the throat of delusion incarnate.”

The Magnus Archives Fear Entities 7/15- The Spiral

The Spiral is, hands down, my favorite fear entity. I love Michael, I love Helen, Another Twist and Checking Out are two of my favorite episodes in the entire podcast, and if we don’t get to see the Distortion (in whatever form it may take) in the magnus protocol I’m going to set my computer on fire. Anyway, this was a nice distraction from preparing for final exams!

Playlist can be found here!

🌀🚪😵‍💫

37 notes - Posted December 3, 2022

#3

"Who will you be, with a name or three, and a stranger’s face worn wrong?”

The Magnus Archives Fear Entities 6/15- The Stranger

The Stranger is easily in the top three fears for me. Maybe because it’s such a looming threat in seasons 2-3 and gets a lot of focus, but I think it’s also largely because the concept is just absolutely horrifying. This drawing is one of my favorites I've done with this series, and editing all the mouths and eyes was so much fun! (yes they are all taken from photos of me--)

Playlist can be found here!

🎭🎪🤡

68 notes - Posted November 28, 2022

#2

literally nobody talks about kagepro anymore until every August 15th when it hits like top three trending on tumblr. good job remembering our roots everyone

75 notes - Posted August 15, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

“My limbs were alive with searing energy, and my heart was aglow with love.”

The Magnus Archives Fear Entities 3/15- The Desolation

The Desolation TERRIFIES me. It didn’t really affect me much the first time I listened to the podcast, but upon relistening I now realize just how devastating it can be. Especially Jude’s statement. Terrifying.

Playlist can be found here!

🔥🕯️🧡

80 notes - Posted November 25, 2022

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[blackfemmecharacterdependency]

Good Cooties

Nobody:

Nesha: Takes a very traumatic horror story and instead makes it fluff.

They generally checked in right before bed and then again, first thing in the morning. Chris had never been so communicative with somebody before, but after everything that knowing Dalton had put her through, she didn't mind going a little above and beyond with check-ins.

Whenever one wasn't feeling 100% at bedtime, they had a sleepover, just in case something would go down. Time passed, and nothing did. Well... nothing too unusual, at any rate. He had nightmares sometimes and they'd wake up and sort through it. Sometimes he simply couldn't sleep, so he'd just watch her a while, glad that she wasn't losing any rest on his behalf, but annoyed that the bed was so small that they both couldn't really fit on it without being cuddled up.

Upon mentioning it, she reminded him that when he was trapped in The Further, "Your little booty body was nestled right here, between these yummy thighs." He couldn't argue with it, and the description of her thighs made him want to drop the conversation completely, so he'd said, "Well, you said you have good cooties," laughing awkwardly, and snuggling up behind her, hoping his body wouldn't betray him for the closeness of a soft, warm body and the unavoidable friction of natural sleep movements. Fortunately, that never went down. Even more fortunately, neither did any wild trips to The Further.

Things that did go down: her roommate absolutely thought that he was an obsessive boyfriend and his new roommate was confused that she slept over but they never had the need to tie something on the doorway for him to give them some time. "So... she just sleeps here sometimes?" He'd asked, "Or are you just always finished by the time I get in?"

"We're just friends!" Dalton had said, uneasy and blushing.

Foster, when they got alone, asked, "But, seriously. You're definitely smashing that, right?" It irked him. Him speaking about her like that. "I mean.. I know that you aren't that much of a lover, but I figure it's different with you two, because of, you know... the stuff.."

It was... true, officially. But, he knew how this looked. Even his mom would ask about her in the same way that she'd asked about people he'd dated previously. Was Chris coming home with him during the holidays? "She has her own family," he'd casually mentioned, then had to pretend not to notice as his family gave each other knowing looks because he spent most of the holiday texting, calling, or video chatting with "Chris" They said her name in a certain way too. A singing way, obviously taunting him. Well... his siblings did. (Foster had roped Kali into this mess, too). His mother instructed them to leave him alone, though he could tell it amused her, from her face, and he knew she liked Chris. She always asked about her.

That was why they probably would never happen. He had nightmares sometimes, panicking about being possessed again, about hurting her. Sure, he would wake up to find her there, safe and sound and if awakened by his nightmares, quick to comfort him, but.. that entire thing was now forever a part of their story. And what type of love story could come out of something like that?

His parents had loved each other for years, and this entire ordeal had separated the two of them. Foster broke into his thoughts with, "I think that I'd want somebody who already understands what you've gone through. I imagine by the time I wanna meet people, it's gonna be a whole damn thing trying to make it normal, when the topic inevitably comes up. You've got a cute girl who still bothers with you after literally seeing you at your worst. Possessed by an entity. How could it get better for you?"

"We're just friends!"

"She let you blow on her hooter the first night!" Foster teased. Dalton wasn't a big fan of Chris and his brother exchanging words, but they had each other's information, so now he always had at least this one story for ammunition to make Dalton a little bit uncomfortable, and Chris was the type to overshare casually. Chris and Foster got along well. Dalton could only imagine their powers combined if she did come around the whole family...

Which, eventually, she did. By then, they were dormed together, again. She had gone to see housing about it. Her best friend, suffering from a sleep issue, their roommates, often inconvienced when he woke up, the fact that this very office had already roomed her with him before, so what was the big deal? Chris either could talk you into hating her guts and wanting her gone, or doing whatever it is she was saying, and that day, with that member of staff, she got herself back into the room with him.

Now, they could go to sleep in their own beds, and if something happened, there the other was, just on the other side of a small room. They didn't even have to cramp themselves into his little bed as much, and whenever they did, she didn't have to get up earlier to get ready from a different room, or to go back to her own. It was cozy, and comfortable, and they had a routine.

They had gotten numerous sleeping masks, so that Chris could find something to assist her through the nightlights. Whenever she was in Dalton's bed, she didn't really notice, because her face was usually burrowed in the bed or his body, for lack of room. By the time it was time for her to go home with him, she knew which mask she needed for which type of night, whether or not she should have earphones, and how many pillows she could bring before the bed couldn't fit the pillows and two people their sizes.

She had been in his corner since the moment he confided in her, and even when she didn't want to engage, she found herself unable to just leave him alone, and now she feared that she was far more comfortable with this man than she ever planned on being with anyone. But. She was never one to reject a good thing, and it seemed like maybe Dalton Lambert was a good thing. It certainly always felt good to fall asleep in his arms and wake up next to him. Chris was a fan of feeling good.

His family was nice. She was excited to finally shoot the shit with Foster, in the flesh, and that did not disappoint. Dalton had been hoping that she would help dispel the rumors the Lamberts ran wild with, but despite pursuing math, Chris had a deep passion for chaos, as far as Dalton was concerned. "So, he never told you that we made out at a frat party?" She had asked a VERY intrigued and impressed Foster.

"He never told me that he WENT to a frat party!" He complained.

"Yeah, I sorta made him. That's a gift I have, getting Dalton to do stuff that he is not fond of doing.." Dalton pressed his lips together and continued working on a drawing.

Whenever Foster heard about the frat boy who called her ugly, he looked livid but was soon appeased by the thought of him being promptly kicked in the dick afterward. "I used to say that I wouldn't wish that on anybody, but it sounds like this is the guy that makes me change my beliefs.." They chatted for a little while longer before Foster was going to leave to go hang out with friends. "I'm super glad that Dalton has you," he said on his way out. She simply offered a salute, then looked at Dalton's jaw tense as he pretended not to hear that.

"You okay?" She asked. He shrugged. "You know... whenever I was with Grandma Perkee over the last holiday, she told me that you are very pretty and that she'd love to meet you. I said, "Yeah. He is very pretty, huh? He's kind too. A little introverted, but such a likable person. I don't think he likes me like that, though, Grandma. You might want to be less excited about meeting him." He paused and looked at her. "Well, next she told me, "If somebody is in you life, and they're nice to you and you like them and you're both having a good time together, that's gonna excite me, no matter what you call each other..." They stared at each other a moment, before she concluded, "So, we don't really need to discourage or encourage your family from thinking I'm your girlfriend or into thinking it. They see how we are together, and they know you're in good hands. Whether we're friends or more, they're gonna feel the way that they feel about me because they love you and you like me."

He gave her a little smile. That was a good way to put it, and made it less stressful for him whenever he overheard Kali ask, "Is Dalton your boyfriend?"

Without missing a beat, Chris answered, "Well, Dalton identifies as a boy, and he's definitely my friend, so what would you do if I said, "Yes?"

Kali gasped and with a wide smile asked, teasingly, "Do you loooooooove himmm?"

Chris smiled right back and asked in a whisper, "What would you do if I said "yes" again?"

Kali giggled and covered her mouth, either in excitement or surprise. Dalton never said stuff like that. He didn't smile about it. He always got irritated and denied it all. Kali smiled, and offered, "I'd say, I think that Dalton loves you too."

Chris's smile changed, ever so slightly. Dalton noted it as he finally stepped into view. She leaned towards Kali and told her, "One thing about me? Everybody loves Chris." Kali nodded in agreement, then finally noticed Dalton.

"Oh! It's your boyyyyyfriiiiiend," she sang. He just smiled, shaking his head.

At bedtime, Chris offered, "Pretty cool that your mom doesn't mind our sleeping situation. I'd say it's because she knows we aren't doing it, but she kinda seems like she'd be cool with it, even if we were."

"She is a part of the 'everybody' that loves Chris," he said, casually, preparing the nightlight. Chris paused, with a grin, then silently resumed putting on her bonnet.

By the time that they climbed into his bed, she pushed close and started wrapping her arms around him. He froze and gave her a confused look. "What? This is how we sleep."

"Yeah, in the dorm on the tiny bed. This one has room for us to stretch out more."

"Yeah, near the edge of the bed, where the monsters are. Your sister tormented me with Barbie play today. I wanna be up on you tonight." His body relaxed a little bit. "Besides, I sleep better when we're cuddled up." It tensed again. "My God, Dalton... are we not allowed to say stuff like that to each other?"

"No. Yeah... I just. Yes..." His Adam's apple was leaping in his throat and she watched it bob as he nervously searched for his next words, "I, uh... sleep better with you right here, too." She nodded once, settled her body around his and stared a little bit longer. Dalton's face came in closer, but then he stopped and just looked into her eyes. Her normal playfulness was never present when she was sleepy, but whatever else was there in her eyes, he wasn't exactly used to.

Chris offered a smile and teased, "What? Were you about to kiss me?"

Quickly, he said, "I would never do that without asking first." She closed her eyes, smiling, and nodding. "Cou.." Her eyes opened and he was staring at her lips, "Could I? Kiss you?" Chris smiled and moved closer for him to do so. It wasn't caught off guard like the first time, and it wasn't long or steamy or deep. It was tender, and quick, but lingering.. "Good cooties," he mumbled against her lips, with a smile.

"Very," she said, smiling against his, as well.

[neshabeingchildish]

Nesha!!! I'm so sorry, I'm not as online these past few days so I'm late by a couple days, but I'm wishing you a very happy birthday. I know you've had some rough times lately, but I really hope things get better for you soon. Sending you love and light always, and I hope this birthday and the year ahead treats you well. 💖💖💖

Thank you kindly! It was fine. The boyfriend took me to a movie that was not good. His daughter pierced my ears. He made me dinner. It was good. And I was able to go see my family the previous Sunday. I'm surviving. ❤��

[dastardly-ethereal-love]

So David interviews Michael on his podcast and I loved the whole thing but especially the end…

He quotes T S Elliott’s words ‘these fragments I have shored against my ruin’ and he talks about how life is hard and as you get older you realise the importance of finding things, fragments that bring you joy and hold them close to you.

I feel like Good Omens, this fandom and our ineffable husbands have been such a huge part of what has kept me afloat lately.

It’s an easy dopamine hit which then takes me to the next and then the next. It makes me appreciate that I can still feel happiness and that I want it! I want to experience all of life’s goodness! So I take myself to plays and invite friends along with me. I take myself to art galleries and then invite friends along. I go on bush walks and then invite friends too. Haha I drive down to Dural and eat delicious French crepes and bask under trees and enjoy just being in a new place in the sunshine. I listen to music and find pieces of them in songs that break my heart and fill my heart with joy. I particularly am surprised at how easy it has been to invite people into my life in this way and then to be invited into theirs now… so I went to a dinner party last week with Nesha and this week I’m going out to dinner with Anna. I’m just way more open than I used to be when I was married… losing that relationship has meant I’m way more open to good things and good things from the many good people who are around me.

When I lost my marriage and had a miscarriage within the same week… I thought life was pretty much over. I ended up in hospital for 3 days to give myself space to sort out my head. In October that will have been 2 years ago. I can’t believe it’s been almost a year and a half since he left. I thought afterward that I wanted to sort all of Tom’s stuff and set it aside… just wanted to have our house reflect the fact that it wasn’t our house anymore. My therapist said there was no rush. It’s still no rush and I’ve let Tom put big art pieces in the garage to give Jacob and him more living space in their ‘cottage’. It’s been a much healthier process of slowly changing photos on the walls to reflect the passage of time. I’ve still got our wedding photos up though. I’m not ready to take those down because that really was one of the happiest days of my life. Haha Regardless of how it turned out. It gave us a beautiful son who has the biggest heart and most funny, creative mind. His dance moves these days bring me so much joy. :D

But I’m slowly sorting and changing my living space to reflect where I’m at now and I like it. I like that I can look after myself. I like that I haven’t been destroyed by this. I like that I have beautiful friends around me, lovely plants on my balcony and windowsills, can arrange Jacob’s toys in ways around the house that are functional and beautiful so that he can build and draw and create with everything he needs at his fingertips.

I am starting to feel like my place is getting back on track too in terms of me feeling at peace. I’ve had a bit more time at home lately with and without Jacob since school holidays were a week ago and I’m starting to remember that I love to embroider and do crafty stuff. I love selling stuff too on FB marketplace and seeing things I no longer need go to a good home. :D

I just fucking love life. I think I’m feeling a whole damn lot of contentment even if things are not perfect because I’m learning to damn well just enjoy the fucking moment and give up on perfect. I used to think my perfectionism wasn’t good for me but was worth it… but now I think that way lies burn out and madness. I’m enjoying finding a new way forward. :)

[youngbloodthekilljoy]

Happy Belated Birthday. My power is out, so I missed the alert for it. Hopefully all was well and beautiful. ❤️❤️❤️

oh my gosh nesha!!!!! thank you so much <3 it was a p good day; i was sick but that meant i got to spend the day at home binging paramore music vids and performances so it was lowkey a party

i hope you’re doing well!

[wayfinderlegacy]

Rank your characters from least to most likely to survive a horror movie. Show your work (offer an explanation). Happy Spooky Month!

I am... answering this so late because October got freaking busy and then I got sick a bunch of top of the SADs (tis the season it hits!) but better late than never!

Least to most... (mind you I don't watch or olay horror and am only vaguely aware of the tropes. :'D)

*sighs loudly* Saris gets first least spot because while he's VERY smart he also is the special sort of dumbass who would lick an old relic because someone told him not to, or poke something to see what it does instead of doing safe tests. He's too curious and like the proverbial cat it would kill him! (And satisfaction would NOT bring him back!)

I think I'm gonna give the next two places to Sorrel and Zalea. They're both good souls and quite intellegent. Just have a habit into rushing into fights and situations they may not be able to win to help or save people.

...I'm putting Ryllis in this spot for now because of what I know of her character so far. She may be a Bounty Hunter but so far she's been slightly more LS than DS. But DEFINITELY wouldn't rush in as much as those two to help someone.

Arcturus here for similar reasons to above but he doesn't get lumped in with them because he's a touch more methodical. He's the kind to look for safe points to face the conflict. Not a charge in head on type. Would not open the sketchy door, would not run into the corn, all that.

I think Xiris gets sixth place on this but she can prove me wrong when I actually play her like Ryllis. :'D

I was gonna say last place is a tie because Lyute is pretty methodical for a Sith Warrior buuuut... this is also the guy who charged out to go hunt Vitiate alone after Ziost happens soooo... mostly methodical and good at not getting into serious danger. Just as long as he keeps his head. :')

MOST LIKELY TO SURVIVE goes to Nesha. Because she's the only one of these dorks most likely to think through the situation and find the best way out of it.

(Bonus! I made a joke that Sirul would be first to go since he's the sweet innocent one, but then @nekobakaz said he'd get final girled and after some debate that was agreed upon so there's that. :'D)

[maokomi]

MEOW MOE WNBARKRA SNALRKRLGRGR GRG HI MEOWS HOW HAVE U BEEN

AY HALAKA SLR KAAYO WTF 😭😭

BUT MEOW MEOW HAJDKDLKXKD HELLAUR NESHA IM OKAY 😭😭 I’ve been doing good recently HAHKDKK there’s been a sorta food fair type of thing going on in my campus rn, so there’s lotssss of stalls w yummy food !! Problem is that they’re kinda expensive 😭😭 but they’re yummy so it’s still worth even tho my wallet is crying ahjdsk

How have youuuu been ??