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#Twitter's weird. It's like people know what a fandom is in the sense that they have heard the word before and use it in their lexicon#But they get stumped by every single aspect of fandom culture#No; “multifandom” is not just liking multiple pieces of media. The term “rarepair” is not applicable to a ship that recieves fan art daily#Reposting old fan works made by other people just to make fun of them is a dick move. Yes; strange topics recieve rendered artwork sometime#No; being a hater does not make you cool or funny. Being negative on someone else's post is rude and annoying#Private quote retweets are often used by shy people and folks who want to use twitter without engaging with the community. -#- It is not a dislike button and you should stop treating it as such#Crying “when is the new season/episode/chapter/whatever” is not going to make it drop any faster#And the list goes on. It'd be one thing if it was just kids acting like this; but it's older people too#My only guess is folks on there are autistic about their interests; but don't want to appear that way to people outside their fandom#It's kinda like those movies where a nerd puts on a pair of sunglasses and approaches the cool clique then points at his friends-#-and says “haha imagine being like those losers. Not us though; right guys?” but the cool clique doesn't like him either#Are you picking up what I'm putting down?
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Pretend there's a clever title here (intro post)
Update: I'm going to start putting links to my fanfics in this post as well. If you prefer reading on AO3, my author page is here. Splintered (DW/Loki crossover, 13,439 words) Dream Therapy (One-shot about Erik Selvig, 1,308 words) Misfits (Jane Foster & Loki in Valhalla, 15,714 words)
Update: I have a side-blog for spiritual stuff now (@finally-learning-to-be-me ). This main blog is mostly for fandom and general stuff. Norse Loki and MCU Loki are two very different things in my mind, but it can get confusing if it’s all jumbled up together in one blog.
Guess I should probably introduce myself on this platform...
Hi everyone. I'm a geeky, AuDHD, NB, Gen-X software engineer and mom. I'm a long-time Doctor Who fan, but since the Loki S2 finale I've been completely obsessed. (I mean, seriously? David Tennant and RTD were coming back and suddenly all I could think about was Loki? How did that happen?) I just needed others to share with as I'm socially isolated and my family doesn't get into these things the way I do.
If you couldn't tell from my previous posts, I spend a lot of time thinking about (over-thinking?) certain characters. Nice to read all of your posts and know that I'm not alone in this!
I don't really get emotionally invested in ships, but I don't mind reading others' takes on them. Lokius, Sylkie, OB/Casey, whatever. It's all good. The only thing I actively avoid (in any fandom or in tabloids, for that matter) is anything that involves shipping real, living people. That's a line I'm not comfortable crossing. I've dabbled in writing fan-fic in the past and I think I may do so again in the not-too-distant future.
Other interests include studying history and connecting with other autistic folk online. I've stopped using other social media platforms, though — too much drama and not enough listening. Who needs it?
I know I'm older than the vast majority of people here and I'm more than a little self-conscious about it. I seriously considered not mentioning it at all, but I've spent most of my life trying to hide who I really am in a vain effort to "fit in" and just don't want to do that anymore. Hope that's okay with you all. Truth is, I've never connected easily with people my own age.
Views: social democrat, strongly pro-LGBTQI+ (one of my daughters is trans and nothing brings out the mama-bear in me like transphobic nonsense), anti-genocide, agnostic, anti-bullying of any kind.
#intro post#actually autistic#audhd#loki#doctor who#trans rights#lgbtqia#history#how many tags is too many
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Developed a nasty habit recently of scrolling through fake claiming subreddits (y'all know the ones) and I've noticed quite a bit of bullshit. So here's a list of things that apparently mean you're faking, but are actually just regular activities you might do and correlate or relate to your experience as a system or autistic. I'm also going to give my argument against them in the bullet points. (These are mostly about traumagenic systems but I also mention autism)
1- using dancing as stimming. My reasoning this is wrong is that stims are "repetitive body movements or repetitive movements of objects" and people stim for different reasons. Even neurotypical folk stim. Reasons folk may stim include, but are not limited to sensory reinforcement or stimulation, to regulate sensory input by increasing or decreasing sensory overload, etc. Dancing is a good example of this. It is a repetitive body movement often used to reinforce sensory input or, in my personal situation, increase sensory input when I feel like I need more stimulation. Let me guess, it only counts as stimming when it's violently flapping your arms and fitting into an ableist stereotype, huh?
2- "strange" names. Why should I even argue here? This is just transphobia rewrapped as "calling out fakers." My name is Richie. That is not a strange name, is it? Would I be fake claimed for being an alter? (Probably but not for this.) If my name were Arson, if course I would. However, I chose my name. Many alters/ headmates do. We are individuals and we are allowed to change things about ourselves as we please and this does not suddenly make us fake systems.
3- using neopronouns or multiple pronouns. Same as above. I'm not re-explaining that part. Also plays into ableism. This is why I'd be fakeclaimed. I use he/wolf pronouns (and some others). I'm a man and I highly identify with wolves due to my innerworld self. We are autistic as well and many of us have cat neopronouns due to our special interest in felines and warrior cats. Our brain is wired differently than neurotypical folks in multiple ways and the way we connect to gender and the world is perceived by us in a way different to others, hence us being transgender. Due to our high interest in cats and the fact it ties into most aspects of our life, we ended up identifying with them on a gender level as well.
4- having animal alters. This is a noted thing in DID systems. Do your research before fakeclaiming, jeez. Or just don't fakeclaim.
5- Being alterhuman in any way. Alterhumanity is a thing. Some people are alterhuman. Some people are also systems. There is going to be overlap.
6- Having any fictives from "recent" media. The definition on recent is loose to them. Is Bambi recent? We have a Bambi fictive. Is he too recent for you? Or maybe our fictives from warrior cats are too recent. Fictives exist sometimes, especially in autistic and ADHD systems.
7- having factives. At all. Even though factives are a noted thing in psychology? My therapist has brought up factives (not by that term) without me bringing them up.
8- having littles. Or not having littles. This is confusing to me. I see them mock littles for being too adult but also for being childish! How do you want them to act, then? And when a system doesn't have any littles, somehow this means they are lying about having trauma in childhood.
9- Experiencing a headspace in any capacity. Yes, even just daydreaming one. This is a therapy technique actually taught to systems to help us communicate internally. It's a thing many of us build on our own, in order to communicate. This is normal. It is a noted thing in DID research.
10- you have a singletsona. DID is a covert disorder. It is a common thing to have a single being the whole system masks as. This is normal and cited in research on DID.
11- you don't have a singletsona. Some people want to exist as themselves. This is also normal in DID, especially in those who are aware of their system and are working on communication and healing.
12- you have any online presence. Disabled people exist. Get over it.
13- you talk openly about being a system. Ever. Apparently being open about this part of our life is bad.
14- you haven't been diagnosed. This one pisses me off a lot. Was my mom's cancer not cancer before she was diagnosed with it?
#richie barks#endogenic safe#discourse#fake disorder cringe#tw for previous#tw fakeclaiming#fakeclaiming mention#fakeclaiming cw#fakeclaiming#negative#fuck reddit#fuck fdc#anti fdc#fdc
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im not rbing the post solely because i kind of interact with the younger side of the fma fandom as part of my job for a moderator of a big discord but i do wanna be able to talk about this like. somewhat as part of the whole thing i went through. little bit introspective but i think it's an important perspective to have as someone on the younger end who interacts with Both Sides.
also just kinda dumpy. nonsense ahead. i'm very mentally ill. it goes off track but im sure you can see my points in there. somewhere. i guess.
back then i was kinda like. still freshly 18 ? and i joined the rpc because i got my brainrot (which actually is a special interest i just didnt know i was autistic at the time but that's besides the point). and i was very, very desensitized to certain parts of the internet. except i was still ... vulnerable. very much so.
ignoring the fact the pandemic happened right during my highschool graduation in 2020 (meaning i was still a minor at the time), i kinda was. still rockin with my youthful energy ! and ignorance. and naivete.
i guess a good way to say it is: i was 18, but that's still ... not an adult. not really. it's a young adult. people older than me should've seen me as kind of that weird younger sibling, but instead i was made out to be a full-on same-age peer - and that ... caused issues. a lot. mainly in the bond i had with someone and how unhealthy it became because we "clicked" even though this person is 14 years older than me.
"you're mature for your age." please don't EVER say that to someone, period - but especially so in my case, because i was a young adult and i was just barely figuring out where i was in the world alongside years of built-up autistic burnout and stress finally imploding. i was only 18. i still didn't feel anywhere near "grown up" and quite frankly i still don't - that's just kinda the curse of having major life milestones during major world events.
but we wrote stuff. dark stuff. stuff i have never and will never share on the blog, nor will i ever speak about except to specific people - at least, until i'm READY to ever go public about it for one reason or another. point is - i was 18. i held my fault in broaching the topic in the first place - however gently it was - but it was even more on the fault of the other person, 14 years older than me, for never shutting it down and in fact encouraging and adding to it all. this would have been fine if things didn't explode the way they did, but - well, they exploded.
really bad. to the point that i was actively gaslit and i genuinely believed myself to be a problem because surely, it was all my fault. they had made it OUT to be my fault. i was told i was obsessed with control and that i needed help - all by someone that much older than me, all by someone who insisted that it was a black and white of child or adult, no inbetween. i couldn't ask for things only a child would get because i was an adult and i had to act like it. and that's just - not a healthy way to be. at all. ever.
just ... please, if you're going to have the age of 18 be your limit, please be mindful of the vulnerabilities of people RIGHT at that limit. i want the older folks to be mindful that we're still all figuring stuff out and we can and will fuck up sometimes - just like EVERYONE ELSE does, only maybe a little bit more unstably.
don't expect us to be perfect. in that same breath, please SHUT US DOWN if we push too far on something - we need clear boundaries, and boundaries like that were never SET with me because of the other party engaging actively. it's a complicated, fucked up mess ; i don't want anyone else to be hurt the way i did, nor do i want anyone to hurt people the way they hurt me.
i wasn't given that luxury. i was taken advantage of, and i don't ever, EVER want anyone else to go through that. this is why i'm still hesitant of people that much older than me - but i haven't even really begun to cover it all, and i don't really want to do that yet. it's hard to put these thoughts together to begin with without feeling indescribable rage at how long i had suppressed those memories that proved i wasn't at fault, not in the way i was said to be.
use that emotional maturity you have for the better. see us like little siblings, the same way peers can exist in different age groups but still communicate with eachother. just ...
be calm. and understanding. have your boundaries and ENFORCE THEM, and be kind while doing so unless given good reason otherwise. if you make 18 your limit, please treat anyone within that age range with the same respect you'd give just a newbie college student. don't ... expect full people out of us. not yet.
the pandemic fucked up everything. the economy sucks. the world is dying, and we're the ones left with it - so please just ... be kind. especially since people younger than i am are getting progressively less safety-literate. even for my generation specifically i'm on the higher end of safe, but i still was hurt by someone older than me - just not in the way most people would think of if i ever used the word for what actually happened. and that's a problem.
please, please set your boundaries. be EXPLICIT about them. do not be vague because odds are, none of them have the life experience to read between the lines like that yet. we don't have life experience period - even 20 is still so young.
i was 18 then. i turned 19 right at the end of it all. and i dealt with that for 3 whole years, all of it blaming myself in secret - until recently, that is. that talk was eye-opening and life-altering. i want to be a pillar now because of it - someone that those younger than me can turn to for help, but someone that those older than me can talk to to be able to bridge some kind of gap between them and the young adults.
i was 18 then. i don't believe anyone here will be as irresponsible as them - but i have to say this, regardless, because i may be their only victim with this experience. i was 18 then, and i've changed since - but i'm still young, still learning.
let us learn, so that you can learn from us too. we gotta work together to foster a safe community for everyone involved.
#{|❂|} the one beyond the gate | ooc.#maybe tbd#sorry for rambling. i just. have a lot of thoughts.a lot.#ive been sort of going through it a lot in the background but i t ry not to bring it up too much here#baby wants justice but i suppress my rage. for now. thats why i am as vague as i'm being#just tldr 18-23 is still a super young demographic so uh. be cautious but kind#if you hurt someone that age i can and will kill you /lh
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Hi! No rush on responding to this, I saw you're pretty busy and you might have some other asks so take your time and don't feel overwhelmed,
Also I'm sorry if you've answered this many times before, but I'm new to the neurodivergencies, can you explain hyperfixations vs special interests? Do (sometimes) hyperfixations become special interests?
Hi anon!
Ok so the short answer as I know it is that the term "special interest" was originally used by/about autistic people, and as more neurodivergent folks of other stripes started relating to the descriptions of special interests and using the term for their own experiences, there was some amount of pushback from the autistic community who felt the term was being watered down or losing its specificity.
Hyperfixation was coined as a broader/more inclusive term for a similar experience. Of course, given the way of culture and language, at this point the two are often used to refer to somewhat different experiences even within the same individual. In that sense, the implication is often that a special interest is a more long-term, often years-long, commitment to an interest. Whereas a hyperfixation may be more intense and short lived.
I think the simple answer is that if you are not autistic, some people might prefer you use hyperfixation to describe either of those experiences, but whatever you choose to call it, there's no real proper definition, so it's helpful to add a qualifier.
Like "my most recent hyperfixation.." implies a series of short lived but intense interests, while "I've been hyperfixated on (..) since I was 3" conveys a different type of connection.
As for what either term means, in my mind it basically refers to a type of single-minded joy and focus on a topic or hobby to the point that many neurotypicals consider it "weird and obsessive", often in subjects that many people wouldn't want to dive that deep into. But that's not a perfect definition by any means, and leaves out a lot of experiences. It's kind of like .. there are surely neurotypical nerds out there, but the super-nerds.. in almost any topic.. those of use who get weird about it, where even regular nerds lift an eyebrow.. super nerds in any topic (from horses to chemistry to superheroes to philosophy to electric circuits to ... ) are often some flavour of crazy/neurodivergent.
If you're asking whether short term hyperfixations ever become more longterm ingrained, certainly! It depends on the person, as most things. Some people only have either long or short term fixations, but many have both experiences simultaneously.. by nature of it, most people don't have many long term fixations, since there's a limit to how many topics you can keep that level of investment in. At a point it's just a hobby (when you go from supernerd to just a nerd, I guess).
..I think ultimately you get to define for yourself how you want to use these words if you relate to the concepts.
In any case, welcome to the nd community!
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💡Do you get ideas from reading meta/headcanons/bios, or do those only pop up as you write?
✨ Are you easily intimidated by muns or muses that you admire?
💡Do you get ideas from reading meta/headcanons/bios, or do those only pop up as you write?
I honestly think it's a combination of both, especially when it comes to writing Luffy! For example, if i see that someone has a straw hat verse, i immediately start getting ideas and want to be part of that if i can. and i'm sure ideas pop up when i read metas too, i just can't think of any specific instances right now. i do think the majority of ideas ( especially with Luffy ) come from the most random shit in my brain though, and then somehow eventually manifest into something different? at least for new interactions, otherwise ideas come as i discuss headcanons ooc with other muns, which in a way is like reading them, just not reading them on the dash. i guess in some chaotic way, my ideas come from everywhere, from every direction, and i genuinely don't know how to to sort through them all??
like just the other day, i was riding home from work, and i have no idea how i got to this thought, but i got to thinking about Luffy and entomophagy ( eating insects ) and i had to scribble that down as soon as i walked in the door. now that i think about it though, i think it's because i had been discussing food/eating habits with wilder the day before, which originally stemmed from their meta on Doffy's food habits. so yeah, all the ideas, all the time, inspired from so many different sources!
✨ Are you easily intimidated by muns or muses that you admire?
i think at this point i am very rarely intimidated. once upon a time i was, but coming into this fandom originally by myself AND writing one of the most friendly and outgoing characters, i didn't really see room to let intimidation keep me from interacting? i was definitely nervous at first with writing a new character, and a main, beloved, and complex character at that. but people were very chill as i gradually figured out my voice for Luffy, and now those nerves are pretty much gone, because after 7 months of having this blog, i have confidence in the way i write him! :D
i think of maybe two or three instances where "intimidation" was a factor, but i look back on it now, and i think it was more of an uncertainty on how to communicate with certain people, like being unable to get a read if that makes sense? so i guess i'm more so intimidated when i don't know how to start the conversation. that's why originally i had an interest tracker on this blog to kind of get an idea of what people would be interested in talking about or plotting, because i am autistic and that direct "this is what i want" really helps me when reaching out. i'm thinking about revamping that and maybe linking it again since i've definitely gotten several new folks here since removing it.
🇲🇺🇳 🇨🇴🇲🇲🇺🇳🇮🇨🇦🇹🇮🇴🇳 🇵🇷🇪🇫🇪🇷🇪🇳🇨🇪 / @enruiinas
#enruiinas#❝ adhd thought dump ❞ — ooc#❝ its not like ‘thanks’ are something i can eat ❞ — answered#i've had the answers for these sitting in my drafts for a bit now#AHHH#/ munday
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thank you for speaking up about the cult tactics used in the pro endo community. even though i Was mostly syscourse unaligned leaning anti, the pro endo community gave me a really bad vibe. seeing a lot of shit they say screamed “cult” to me too but i didn’t feel comfortable enough calling it out because i’m not a cult survivor and i don’t know a lot about cults. i was also never pro endo so it’s not like i could speak from personal experience either. so i kind of brushed off my gut reaction and told myself i’m overreacting about something i don’t know a lot about. so i’m glad to know more now and know that the pro endo community does harm beyond what i even initially thought. i’m definitely more anti endo now because the pro endo community is absolutely the anti vaxers of the neurodivergent community. also notice how many of them support the demedicalization of autism too. idk if you remember that but i’m referencing specifically the time a few months ago when some prominent pro endo bloggers were jumping down the throats of autistic anti endos because they called their autism a disability.
Ty for your input anon! Interesting to read other folks perspectives and experiences on all this.
The funny thing is I literally only started talking about how I myself am a cult survivor because everytime I try to talk about cults in the system community, people have this knee-jerk reaction of having to respond to you with essays on how unless you're a cult survivor, you shouldn't be talking about cults.
Now first off that's obviously not true and pretty stupid. Tons of academic professionals and researchers and etc who are involved in widening our understanding of cults, were not themselves victims of cults. That's like saying I can't talk about the black plague because I wasn't there.
But literally just to make people stop having that response to me I was like welp guess I'm gonna have to talk about specific details of my trauma of being lured into a doomsday bunker in the mountains by my mother even tho both sides of this debate are constantly talking about how we shouldn't pressure people to have to talk about or reveal their trauma.
The idea of cults and cult victims have a weird status of reverence in the community, we're almost treated like a mythological creature. "Oh no, don't talk about cults! There might be a...*whispers* cult victim here...." It's very very bizarre.
Cults are an age-old phenomenon with tons of research put behind them. We actually know a fucking lot about cults. Saying you need to have been in one to be able to understand them is ridiculous.
Comparing this to other things: you don't need to have been abused as a child to have a good understanding of child abuse. We have a pretty informed understanding of what child abuse is and how it functions by this point. You can still call something out as being child abuse without having experienced it yourself.
With that said I'm glad there are people who understand my point, but honestly after this experience I've concluded both sides of the anti/endo discourse are a bunch of clowns who just want a tumblr pvp social club. People are involved literally just to be part of the community, whether anti or endo. Folks actual reasons for being against endos is dumb shit like "they're just dumb teenagers who don't know what they're doing", when if that's really the case then why are you "anti" in the first place? Idc what dumb teenagers are doing, why do you?
I hate endos because they cause harm but most people in this discourse legitimately seem like they're just anti-endos because they think it's cringe and want to be a cool tumblr hater.
#anti endo#syscourse#endo cult#also peoples response to me finally dumping my trauma after being accused of not knowing what I'm talking about over and over#was just to then ignore my existence and vague me#while pretending to be for cult survivors lol#this community is genuinely very full of shit#like just cliquey mean girl shit because no one actually believes in what they're saying#they just want to have a blog where they're a cool tumblr hater or wtfever#also I don't like how the community treats us cult survivors like we are delicate fucking flowers#that cant even skim by a post about cults#or we cant have an intellectual objective discussion on cults#because we are just so weak and fragile yknow :(((((((((((#we need them to protect us from stuff like having thoughts and sharing opinions :(((((#it is literally just ''survivors I agree with'' vs ''survivors I disagree with and therefore don't exist''
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Things my brain thinks it predicted
In 2019 I committed to a very risky decision
So there I am, 5k miles from home, explaining to someone that if she's not the queen of their block then she's probably in a cult
She says that because I pray I must be in a cult too
I don't remember everything I say, I remeber breaking every point down to explain it thoroughly. She thought it would be funny to have me autistically explain metaphors and I, for reasons that made sense at the time, said "sale y vale"
- iron crown defeats draconian; I thought this would be an astrological event. It was not
- 2 Mayan bros, like the hero story, both in comic book movies from different halves of the world; yall see those Blue Beetle and One Piece live action movies? I'm glad Iñaki got to dub himself
- a rosy idol-of-idols that rises out of a field of grass in the Midwest, and is worshipped by rosy-tinted folks of all shades. Where the Gaga implied, she *is*. She does not have "ironic" enjoyers, only "zealots" and "zero-interests". Karma is her kink, she says so in a song. [The host asked me if that was my favorite song, I said mine was about the pretty pink horses, she references a slur for gay men, I ask if me wearing a pastel star would make things easier for her]
- A movie about a baby deer, effect is people empathetic to men who go though abuse. They still interview the abuser [My host commented that this sounded like a self-pitying fantasy]
- Colbert & Carell reminiscing on the late show when Colbert turns 60 because "60" is when someone is officially Old™️ [The host asked about Carell, I said that they used to a popular skit together on The Daily Show. She insists, Colbert is from The Colbert Report. She is right, so am I]; it happened, adorable 🥹
- A streak of green fire shines in the sky and lights a crown; I thought this was about the idol from before, it wasn't 🍀☄️
- The lit crown will sparkle for a year and a half before twinkling brightly. It's glimmer to catch the eye of the whole world; NASA confirms we're gonna see a supernova out by Corona Borealis between now and Sept 2024
- trump wears a diaper and then trump fans wear em too
- The liberal candidate wins re-election, immediately regrets it [my host wanted details. I didn't know and guessed Biden, "he's old as balls and doesn't want the job, but he's also Obama-Adjacent & that's all the dems had for Clinton in 2016"]
- trump fans federally shit the bed [The host asks why the diapers didn't help. I don't know, "must've been before that" I guess]
- "idiot-kings will rise and a Plauge will grip the world for a week, a fortnight, a year, and then half a decade. Maybe more. Its life grows with humanity's arrogance, colosseum entertainment for kings running out of a crowd to impress" [I left my host a Doctor Who themed shirt, captioned "Stay in the Light" and featured an astronaut skeleton]
- Still no TES 6, Princess Zelda gets her own Zelda game, 50 flavors of overwatch
- return of "Silver Dollars" [I'm hoping for new coins]
- cruelty will become cringe, and "cruel humor" will be seen in the same light as "homophobic humor"
- 5 penny stocks go incredibly high, as a joke, and break the illusion of control the financial oligarchs have curated. It only stops being funny a while after the 5th time [My host empathizes with the oligarchs and their need to control others]
- Revolutions in equatorial countries results in more stable democracy than decades of "Stable Democracy" meddling in local politics
- Jimmy Kimmel is replaced with a holographic emoji operated by an algorithm. It improves the show
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I have gotten myself into some shit. A friend that I JUST MADE AT MY NEW JOB THAT I STARTED IN NOVEMBER is wanting me to help plan an anti-valentines day party for her and the only people we got coming is coworkers bc we're both losers with no friends outside each other and my overly strict ass got this as our schedule
Anti-Valentines day invitation cards (I'll make these on your computer and print them on Card stock) well put on their that everyone who can/wants to attend need only give us one song that they like about being single and LOVING BEING SINGLE and we put the times of each activity on the card
We will make a particular set of garlands at home with glue and construction paper and the photo booth props and whatever else we need that we can't find cheap we'll buy off amazon
We will make anti-valentines day conversation heart cookies the day of along with the other foods SO YOU WILL HAVE TO BE UP EARLY
We will get party favour stuff from DOLLAR TREE FIRST then get what we still need from Amazon
Colour scheme: Pink, Red, Yellow
At the Party Timeline
We will start set up for the tables, chairs, food etc AT 2 so I will ask for time off work that day to help you be on time
• Card Exchange: everyone gets those little cards with candy like in grade school and bring them for everyone else IF THEY WANT TO (we also have some of our own that will go with the party favours) (from 3:20-3:40) so everyone can have about 20 minutes to get there and 20 minutes to settle in and give cards and whatnot
• Cards Against Humanity (from 3:40 to 4:10) best icebreaker I could think of
• Cookie Decorating: make anti-love cookies and eat them to destroy them or they can take them home whatever they want (from 4:20 to 5:00) you and I will bake the cookies BEFORE so they can just decorate them
• Friendship Bracelets (5:00 to 6:00)
• Sip 'n paint: everyone gets a drink of their choice, alcoholic or not (bc we might have potential pregnant folk coming), and we paint how we feel about love or fuck the prompt and just drink and have fun (6:00-7:00)
• Karaoke (7:00-8:00)
• Anti-Valentines day photo booth (anytime during the party)
A 400 DOLLAR LIMIT ON THE PARTY SO CHOOSE WISELY
Can you tell the kind of person I am the kind of person she is. Here's a little insight, we went to the city about an hours drive from here TO ONLY hang out at the mall, we get in the car after the mall and she says "oh HEY LETS GET PIERCINGS" I have explained to her many times that I have to get piercings in a VERY specific way or I will get infections regardless of how well I take care of them bc of family genetics. She DID NOT call ahead of time to ask them if they do it that specific way and guess what I couldn't do, get the fucking piercing. Then she wants to bitch and moan until I tell her that she can pay for my fucking medical bills when I lose part of my fucking ear.
Then she wants to go to a VERY EXPENSIVE RESURAUNT, she pretty much rich so she was going to pay for it, but this resuraunt opens at 4pm and is RESERVATIONS ONLY guess what she didn't make, a fucking reservations and bc of that guess what I had to derail the conversation from bc she wanted to have a big bang of a meal of meat bc she was going pescatarian this year.
So I had to rip out one of my special interest to distract her with so I wouldn't have to hear her whining about her own stupidity
This is peak Autism vs. ADHD I have ADHD too but she is just too much for me, I'm fucking losing it
Don't get me wrong, I love her to death and we are learning how to properly deal with each other bc we are POLAR OPPOSITES but her "let's do whatever the fuck" attitude is driving me crazy
To my other Autistics out there that are like me, don't make friends, ya know what I'm saying
THIS WILL HAPPEN TO YOU
Everybody is fuckin lying when they say friends are great and you have a stronger bond with them over everybody else
Get closer to me NO
NO YOU WONT
You will instead be stressed out trying to get a bunch of obnoxious five year old esque friends to stop pulling you in different directions
This is my warning to you guys, everybody is lying with that grass is greener with more people on it bullshit
All they do is walk around and kill the grass
It turns brown bc there is no grass know what I'm saying
They trampled it all from chasing fucking Butterflies
I'm so tired
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Hi! What do u think the lords' sexualities are? 👀
hI DONT MIND ME IMA GO FERAL FOR A MOMENT. ok so i KNOW i mentioned in my big ass head canon posts for donna and karl that i dont hold a particular sexuality for them because that means i can write them as freely as possible but lik i kinda do. i know im sorry, sometimes you cant help such things. people give you VIBES and these guys are NO different so here are some of my thoughts.
5 Lords Sexualities headcanons
Miranda - straight...ish.
So i don't really write for miranda, nor do i intend to . as such i feel like she's the ONLY lord i can honestly say i don't hold a sexuality hc for. Obviously at one point in her existence she was attracted to men, or at least enough to have a child with one. But that was a long time ago and sexuality can be a fluid thing that changes or adapts over time. I would say she's mostly straight but given her other issues i genuinely don't see her caring too much about the gender of her partner. If she likes you, she'll let you know, if she doesn't like you, she'll use you as experiment fodder. easy as. Mother "my sexuality is science" Miranda lmao.
Alcina- Lesbian
I mean i think as a collective we've all decided she's a lesbian, which is fine, i can see that and i can get behind that. I think maybe when she was younger and outside the village she was kind of a Bambi lesbian but now she's older and more confident in herself, she's hella proud of her interest in women. Castle dimitrescu is filled with female centric art, a lot of it by queer artists. Her library is filled with Sappho's collected works , Charlotte bronte and Alison Bechdel comics for her girls. I don't think she has any sexual interest in men but i can still see her dominating them or maybe doing something with them before eating them like a black widow spider. Its not about the sex but more about the power.
Donna- asexual- bi/pan demiromantic
So i said that donna has big Ace vibes and i stand by that. however i think she might be Bi/Pan romantic or Demi-Bi/Pan romantic. i usually dislike the overt sexualiszation of child like characters but i also dislike the overt desexualisation of characters with autistic or neurodivergent traits, like theyre too uwu innocent to have such thoughts. I canon donna as ace bc she reminds me of me, not just because of who she is as a character. She can fuck if she wants, she'd just usually prefer not to. She seems like the kind of open sort who literally wouldnt care about your gender one way or the other, as long as you loved her bc thats what she really wants.
Salvatore- Gay
i have no idea why this was the first thought that entered my head when i asked myself "who does sal like?" i guess as a human i have this mental image of him being a sophisticated old queen with a new york accent, giving out sage advice to all the young lgbtqia+ folks in the village. Unfortunately, hes not a sophisticated fellow but a scraggly gross fishman with the mind of a neglected child. Because of that i have a hard time imagining him in sexual situations. again, maybe when he was human, maybe in his teenage years before miranda mutated him, he liked men and was shunned as a result. maybe that made him an easy target for miranda ? this is all speculation so feel free to ( politely) disagree with me on all of this.
Karl - Bi/pan demisexual/demiromantic
Karl has big "why is everyone so hot" vibes to go with donnas "global warming" vibes. Karl is the only one i could look at and go "you know this man would have squishes over crushes". i know in the fandom we have this thing about making him really sexual, wanting to fuck and fuck hard at every given opportunity but my personal headcanon is that he really doesnt care that much about sex. If you were his partner he'd do what you wanted to make you happy; he's a sex favorable ace and can have a libido to match yours. but he just doesnt feel that much sexual attraction to you, regardless of how much he loves you in other ways. He's a pretty shameless flirt with anyone he finds aesthetically pleasing but the moment someone reciprocates or starts flirting with him he just forgets how to talk. Remarks about his attractiveness fly over his head and he really doesnt get alicna's obsession with having titty art all over the place. hes one to talk: not a single soldat is wearing a shirt
thank you for letting me ramble nonnie!
#Karl heisenberg#alcina dimitrescu#donna beneviento#salvatore moreau#mother miranda#resident evil#resident evil village#resident evil 8#re8#headcanons#my headcanons#karl heisenberg headcanons#my stuff#my writing#asks
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tbh tho... as someone who's ace, enby, kinda fat, and possibly autistic (like I'm 99% sure I am lmao just never officially diagnosed), the infantilizing sucks SO much. Like, I still want relationships and I'm not some "pure baby who hates sexy talk uwu".
Like, "autistic people can have difficulty understanding flirting, especially if it's hidden behind metaphors/double-meanings" (which is something I struggle with for sure), but then that gets mutated into "autistic people clearly have no interest in relationships or are too awkward about sex stuff so let's make them asexual so its #Woke instead of us outright saying that autistic folk are weird and unfuckable". (Repeat process for fat with "fat people are undesirable but if I make them asexual then it's not my fault that they don't wanna have sex with me!", and enby with, idk, something mean about queer people and how we're special snowflakes or whatever) So like, I'm asexual and proud of it, but it has nothing to do with me being overweight, nonbinary, and/or probably autistic!! So I headcanon characters as ace a lot cuz Serotonin(tm) but I hate it when I see it slapped haphazardly onto a person/character and then they're infantilized and not taken seriously... Like, fat/enby/autistic people are allowed to want relationships and desire people and want to have sex. Hell, asexuals can want sex too, its just about not having the attraction.
I realize this is a long ask LKHKLSH you dont have to answer it publicly I just saw what you said and I just kinda wanted to rant/get this feeling off my chest, y'know? I guess I just wanted to validate what you're saying and agree with you and I guess also say that you're not alone in feeling like it sucks.
This is pretty much what I wanted to say, thank you!! I feel like dating as an autistic person can also be dangerous too it’s so easy for us to be taken advantage of by someone who can use our trouble to understand communication against us like so much of this stuff isn’t talked about because people don’t expect autistic people to get into relationships and as for fat and enby people like it’s just got to be exhausting owning your body and your sexuality then seeing people like you being put into a head canon bc someone doesn’t find characters like you personally attractive
I understand the way ace ppl feel tho but sometimes things just aren’t so black and white anyone can be ace but if your ace head canons are only of autistic fat and enby people I think you might need to think why
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Hello! I am not diagnosed with SPD, however I do identify my personality traits with many of the ones of SPD, especially covert SPD. I am aware that personality disorders are extremes of normal personality traits and what not. Do you have any stories about how where diagnosed and how you found out? I am very interested in this though I don't think I am 100p SPD I think it is interesting to see how ones personality pings out so to say. This ask might be a bit vague so answer as you want.
[Schizoid Sanctuary]
I’ve posted something about my own diagnoses before, pretty sure it’s somewhere in diagnosis tag or something related. But in short: at some point I intentionally googled local psycho-pros who at least knows what schizoid is.
Found this old man who even had a bunch of articles written about us, as well as lots of info about personality disorders in general. He had all the required education and licenses, etc and seemed to be a rather well know.
Side effect was that he was goddamn expensive. But I knew I only needed to see him once to confirm what I already was pretty sure at and just needed an external professional point of view to exclude I was biased.
Yeah, that wasn’t much likely to begin with, but hey, I was still young at the time, 22 or so I think (30 atm). And guess what? When I asked him whether it’s likely I have schizoid PD, he said that’s as obvious as it gets to him by the time our meeting was over, but at first glance he suspected I was plain and simple schizophrenic.
I.e. to him it was never the question of whether I’m on schizo-spectrum or not. It was only how far down I am. So I could’ve saved those money with about same result, but tbh I’ve little regrets about it. At least it saved me some doubts.
Now, I’ve asked folks on discord to describe their experience with getting diagnosed, and here’s more stories:
Sam: My therapist just kind of told me during our last session. I asked what she thought my diagnoses were and she was like ‘well I don’t like to drop bombs at the end of working with someone but I think you have schizoid personality disorder’
puracatbum: My psych had to google spd so I can’t help with this question. Yeah well my psych was free because I’m lucky to live in a country where that’s possible. Though since she’s free she mostly works with depression and anxiety with kids. I want to pay for a different one but.. eh not sure if there’s a point at this stage in my life
.: so this was about, maybe 2 years ago now. i met a girl freshman year of highschool and we kinda talked on and off all throughout highschool. i had crushes on her on and off. she dated, lots of guys. and after every one of them she would come crying to me. so i was total friend zoned. and during the summer before college we finally hooked up after 4 years of trying.
she has bpd, so she was my complete opposite emotionally. but we worked rather perfectly. we spent the entire summer together. if i wasnt at work, i was with her. we were together constantly. throughout all the stupid fucking shit she wanted to do. i was pretty much living my life through her. kind of like a parasite.but when college came, we couldnt ever see eachother anymore.
she has a history of cheating. with every boyfriend she ever had, she cheated. so my paranoia sky rocketed. i thought she was fucking guys all the time. because that was just her nature. it drove me mad. literally mad. i was angry 24/7. just uncontrollable anger. it was getting out of hand, and i knew i was going to explode. so i started a journal, but that didnt really help.
so i decided to seek a school councillor, because it was free. and i didnt have to go anywhere. it kind of helped. i wasnt angry 24/7 but i still had my underlying impluses, and i still had my bad explosions at times.eventually we broke up. and she stopped talking to me, and i just exploded. at the time i saw her as my property.
she was mine. and i hate losing my property. i couldnt stand losing something i had worked so hard to achieve. and i expressed this very morbidily and kafkaesk in my journal. but at the same time i was afraid of what i would become. i didnt want to go down that path, sooo i showed the woman my journal.
and needless to say, that didnt go well. lol not well at all.she flipped shit, called some agency. they sent someone down to interview me, i showed them my book. and i was given a choice. i could drop out, seek treatment on my own, and everything would be forgotten. or i could go with the agency, go through a deep pysch eval, but continue school.
so obviously i said fuck that, and dropped out. saw a bunch of different people around here. until i finally saw the last guy i had. and after awhile my anger vanished, and i went back to the void i was. i was empty before we broke up, and after a few months i was empty again. and thus i got diagnosed schizoid pd, with antisocial tendencies.
What I’d like to add to all of this is that schizoid PD is one of the hardest disorders to get accurate official diagnoses for. Because the thing is… it’s not often diagnosed. A lot of solid professionals have very little understanding about how to diagnose it.
That might be because schizoids aren’t likely to seek help to begin with and they rarely have enough practice working with us. Also even if they get to see a schizoid, it’s often hard to tell they are because, well… y’know, most being covert and aren’t that talkative about their inner problems. Often schizoids get misdiagnosed as schizophrenic, autistic, anxiety, depression, bipolar, avoidant, antisocial, etc etc etc…
On another hand, schizoids have this tendency to be very aware of what they are. Much more so than most people in general. Schizoid often spend way too much time inside their head, pondering over why they are this way, self-reflecting, analyzing themselves. If they know how to google, it’s very likely eventually they’ll stumble over schizoid pd.
They might start with slightly related things that are easy to mistake. Like from the list above or e.g. MBTI-like stuff, finding out that they’re INTP/J (most commonly), or that they’re alexythymic and so on. But eventually if they keep searching, they might get self-diagnosed as schizoid with accuracy no available psychiatrist would ever provide.
[schizoid discord]
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