#My emotions are kinda intese and when I feel this I really feel it

[oneleggedflamingo]

The feeling when you can feel your soul burning, because it is harmonizing with your heart. And other way around.

Soul is burning: you are so close to doing what you are passionate about.

When you feel inspired or are about to start an activity you have been waiting for.

Heart is burning: you are about to act in a way that alligns with your core beliefs.

Helping someone, stepping up, being brave...

Is this universal or???

[jaehyunsuh]

hii ! i was wondering if i could get a ship for each unit (i love ur work btw 🥺)

i am an esfp-t (entertainer) and an achiever (sorry i forgot what number it was 😭) on the enneagram test

i am of chinese ethnicity and i have long dark brown hair with blond peekaboo highlights :) my height is 167cm and i weigh 47kg

i have quite a resting bitch face so almost all of my friends and mutuals said they were rlly intimidated by me at first but when i warmed up to them they realised that im the kinda random and spontaneous one in the group (like i kinda do weird things sometimes hehe and im pretty loud at times) also tbh i dont like authority and i dont particularly like to follow rules (im the kid who never listens in class oop)

i have a tiger mother ☹️ shes kinda like one of those rich asian ladies who believe anything they say/believe overrides the beliefs of others and the type that likes to use her children to her benefit (sorry i may sound conceited and ungrateful but my mother is not a really kind person) she puts studies before health and likes to overwork people and i think that growing up in this toxic environment has led me to dislike authority so much and not be willing to go down the career path she has chosen for me (aka medicine)

i think im pretty emotional at times for situations that others might not find worth thinking too much about (basically just a mass overthinker 😔🤚🏻) and this is just a weird fact but i dont think i ever rlly cry when im sad like i cry 99% of the time because im angry or frustrated or indignant about something. maybe sadness was the initial emotion but it always develops into one of the mentioned emotions before the tears come yay

also i LOVE pda and skinship in general :) this might sound weird but hickeys are so cute to me idk why hhhhh and i like to be the small spoon when cuddling ☺️ (yes i like taller guys but the members you decide dont have to be the tallest :))

another thing is that im a dancer ! ive been dancing for 12 years now and i really really love using my body to express myself :) when i was rlly young i started with ballet to get my foundations right and then i progressed to jazz (because ballet was too much effort 🥲) and then later contemporary/lyrical and now i kinda stick to urban/kpop style 👍🏻

also this is irrelevant but yg is having global auditions soon in the city i live in so yeah i rlly hope i have a bit of luck because being able to dance and sing has been my DREAM since i was a kid 🥺

anyways i hope i didnt give toooo much unnecessary info and thank you so much ily 🤍🤍

hey! I wish you all the best, from the bottom of my heart I hope that you really go to the yg audition and you do well💕 good luck! I hope i’m writing this for a future idol, pls don’t forget me when you are famous lol

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haechan

let’s start with the fact that would loooove that you are so spontaneous, I think we all can tell that haechan is a free spirit and that he constantly wants to do stuff, have fun and live life. He would support you in any of the random stuff that you want to do, and he would follow you in any impulsive plan that you have out of nowhere. He would just feel so excited about it and he would be so comfortable too. I think he also doesn’t listen to other easily and always wants to do what he wants, so I think that would make you to understand each other really well. He is a rebel to, he definitely is, so he would be really attracted to that part of you. He would see the whole situation with your family and your career and all of that, he would be super supportive, he would tell you to follow your dreams, do what you love and what you that’s the best for you. I mean it, he would be super intese and he would really want you to do what you really like, he would probably even talk to your mom about it lol. He would just care a lot about your well being. Since you are a dancer and love dancing he would encourage you to join an academy, a company, go to an audition, because he knows it would make you happy. When you cry a lot and start being really emotional he would be there for you, get you back to your senses and let you know that everything is gonna be okay. He loves skinship a lot so he would always be all over you, kissing and hugging you the whole day!!

jeno

I just think Jeno would be such a good boyfriend to anyone and he would know how to adapt to a lot personalities. He is really chill and he likes calm, but someone as spontaneous as you would just make his life more exciting and he would have a lot of fun being around you and trying to take care of you while you are doing random stuff. When you don’t listen to others and just do what you want he would laugh a lot because he loves that you are like that. He loves that you are so determined and that in important situations you go with your decision, he would admire that a lot. When you are being to rebellious he would try his best to make you cool down a little bit and relax, he doesn’t want you to go all crazy lol. He would take care of you a lot, always wanting to know how you are feeling, what you are doing and just everything that has to do with you in general. He would want you to purchase dancing since you really love it a lot, he would have deep conversations about this. He would like to do some dances with you and that would be the coolest thing ever. When you start to be really emotional about something he would worry a lot and he would always be there for you so you have someone to rely on. I feel that he wouldn’t really be into pda but he likes having skinship with you, always hugging you and giving you the softest kisses.

johnny

Johnny is such a fun and cool guy to be around. His personality woud go really good with yours, he likes to have fun so he would always want to spend time with you, so like that we would enjoy all of the random stuff and the random plans that you figure out. He would always make you company, he wants to take care of you and be there for you for anything that you need. I think he really expresses his opinions, but he still considers that you are a little bit more rebellious than him, he would fins it really attractive and bold from you, but he would also tell you when you need to step down a little. He would always want the best for you, so when it comes to you carrer choice he would want you to do what you really like, he would be really worried if you feel upset by doing other thing. Tbh, I also feel like he would try his best to even talk to your mom about it. When you are being emotional he would try to make you laugh and forget a little bit about the situation. He would like to have you wrapped around his arms and kiss forever.

[yammoba]

I have so many fucking hang ups about my gender but specifically in the context of my sexuality/romantic attraction but specifically in the context of yaoi

Like its absolutly an internalized transphobia kind of thing as well as some kind of internal hatred over being "cringe". And then i just feel like one of thise girls who just fetishizes mlm relationship because... i dunno.

Thats the thing. It doesnt feel like a fetish, i do know what fetishes are like. It feels, and has always felt like im serving some part of myself that gets no food otherwise. But i just struggle so much with that tiny voice that tells me im a cringe weirdo girl who fetishizes gay relationships and wants to be trans because of that. And not like... im trans and yaoi has been a wildy available way of exploring that on some level for over half my life.

And its like i dont really think i am a Man. Im a guy but not a Man you know? And the ways the guys in yaoi often are appeals to me because of those kinds of feelings. You know... theres lots of yaoi (and manga in general as well) where things are a bit more ambiguous and androgynous. Like yeah, the focus of uke seme roles is kinda annoying. And im glad stuff has diversified so much beyond that. But its just undeniable to me that yaoi has always been more relatable to me on multiple levels than any other kind of erotica and most other romances. And i know it can be that way for cis women. But when i try to think of reasons why that would be. Like why do i feel such a more intese degree of emotion. (I know i mostly feel that way when something feels reflective of some part of myself.) Its not the forbbiden romanice cause i litterally dont give a shit about other forbbiden romance and gennerally do not prefer "forbidden cause gay" romances. Its not relly the inherent gayness bc im pretty nutrsl about a lot of lesbian stuff. Or i at least like it with about the same passion as stright stuff.

I dont even think its an attraction to men type of thing. Or even much of an attraction thing at all. Most yaoi is not well drawn. And its extreamly rare for me to find anything that has 1) both guys are aesthetically attractive in a way that compliments each other and 2) have an attractive dynamic, or a dynamic that i can find appealing in -that- way

Honestly i think i read yaoi with a pretty different desire than when i read other porn. Getting into why is tmi. To say nothing of the ships i get invested enough in to care about. And i think it is to satisfy some kind of... gender yearning... I dont fucking know. Any time i try to think to hard about it i start internally transphobing at myself so its really hard.

There was a time where i thought i could embrace the fujoshi lable. Like i dont care about being cringe, i am anticringe. I still am. But it just never felt right.

its like... i m not fujoshi... i am... fudanshi...

Oh well. Ill just watch no. Six on repeat until i die.