#Mitaka is all of us

[pockethep]

Asa and guilt have been VERY prevalent in Part 2 thus far and when I heard Asa and Yoru talking about guilt earlier, I assumed Yoru would use Asa's survivors guilt and guilt over CSM 167 as a way to make some very powerful weapons.

I also thought the strength of a weapon being proportional to the guilt felt about making said weapon was a limitation/adjustment from Asa hosting Yoru, rather than hybridizing like Denji.

But THIS is why the gun and tank weapons are more powerful. Chainsaw man has always been about family and how people use familial bonds for self fulfillment. Yoru killed her own children for the chance to strike Pochita down. Yoru deciding that that slim chance she could win or even turn the battle in her favor is worth the very lives of her children, children who she sees and uses as an extension of herself.

The guilt of such an action is unparalleled.

Even the act of tying motherhood to war, sacrificing your body and life to raise someone and therefore owning said child is GENIUS.

Fujimoto cooked.

[shizukateal]

I understand the buzz over the new chainsaw man chapter because yeah, it is a big moment, development, deliberately meant to be shocking, etc. But if your reaction is like, genuine upset or disgust, or to be more precise the idea that Fujimoto "shouldn't have gone there" or that he crossed some line or whatever... like, you lost me. What about showing jizz onscreen of all things is any more unfiltered than the rest of the story? Wasn't it obvious from day 1 that something like this was going to happen eventually???? When has Fujimoto ever shied away from the fact that sex is kinda gross and visceral? What about this handjob is any worse than the myriad of times Denji and other characters were being groomed????? Btw I'm asexual.

[m-aximumjoy]

the fact that Yoru was in control for this entire chapter but seeing Denji’s head and realizing that he’s Chainsaw Man forced Asa back into control. she can’t get away from this, she can’t dissociate, she can’t let someone else control her body—this is an inescapable reality that she has to face as herself. i am writhing and decomposing as we speak

[shinriha]

YEAH NO SHIT

[serotonin-dose]

Dive into the Heart

Denji | Asa | Aki

[fiendmuse]

tags (1/?)

┊❛​​ooc❜┊ - slick with the ladies? are you twelve?

┊❛denji❜┊ - heroes don't exist. and if they did i wouldn't be one of them. ┊❛aki hayakawa​​❜┊ - sacrifice is a part of life. it's supposed to be. ┊❛asa mitaka❜┊ - we are all failures - at least the best of us are. ┊❛​miri sugo​​❜┊ - you either want to save him or think you're immune to his wicked ways. ┊❛​nayuta​​❜┊ - genius is the recovery of childhood at will. ┊❛​makima​❜┊ -  to deny is to invite madness. to accept is to control. ┊❛​reze❜┊ - she had the prettiest eyes and prettiest smile ┊❛kishibe❜┊ - if you want to rebel you should rebel from inside the system.

[rekino2114]

How the chainsaw man girls handle jealousy

A/n:I usually don't write for the csm 2 girls but let me know if you want me to and I'll add them to the masterlist (mainly cause I really like fami)

Makima

Thanks to you, makima, now could finally feel true emotions. You made her feel the happiness of being truly loved, the sadness of being without you, anger when a devil had the gall to hurt you, and the worry of when you came injured from a mission and so on..

She felt another one of those emotions when she saw you talking to another girl at the public safety headquarters, a particularly flirty one who apparently didn't know you were dating her boss.

Ah this must be jealousy.

She wasn't that bothered by it. She knows she can trust that you'll never leave her. However, the moment she starts touching you even after you clearly rejected her and is making you feel uncomfortable, that girl is dead.

She might have better morals after meeting you but she's not above killing who she deems as human scum.

But if things don't reach that stage, the girl might just be assigned a particularly difficult mission as her next

"Sorry, but I have a girlfriend,"

"Who cares? It's not like she's gonna know anyway"

"Sorry to interrupt, but I'd like to talk to y/n"

"Ah! M-miss makima!"

"Oh sure babe"

"B-babe? You mean she's your girlfriend"

"Exactly, and now that you know I suggest not looking forward to your next mission"

Power

The moment she sees you talking to another girl, she gets mad, she assumes you're cheating on her cause she doesn't have that much of an understanding of relationships.

In her eyes, you don't need anyone else when she's clearly the best option.

She's also really angry towards the girl. How dare she try to steal what's hers? Even though she wasn't flirting with you

"Hey! Y/n! What are you doing talking to this human"

"Oh power, don't worry she was just asking me directions"

"Like I believe that! You better go away this very moment I'll kill you!"

"Power be nice"

"Only if you stop talking to this bitch"

"*sigh* I'm so sorry"

Himeno

How she reacts depends on how drunk she is.

She gets really clingy when she is drunk, so she'll hug you from behind and lazily try to pull you away from the girl you were talking to while mumbling some incoherent words and that's usually your sign to take her home.

She's really not that jealous when sober, even when a girl flirts, she doesn't get mad, she understands her,after all if she didn't flirt with you she wouldn't have gotten with her amazing partner.

"Hey, you having fun without me over here?

"Oh sorry hime,I was just about to tell her I have a girlfriend"

"Oh you do? Sorry I had no idea"

"It's fine. I get it they're so stunning anyone would try to get with them"

"Did you just use the fact that a girl was flirting with me as a way to flirt with me?

"Guess so, I guess complimenting you is just second nature to me"

Kobeni higashiyama

This poor nervous wreck of a girl.

Whenever she sees you talking to another girl, she kinda gets anxious and starts comparing herself to that girl. Imagine how it is when a girl actually flirts with you

She starts overthinking and sweating,thoughts that you're gonna leave her for the other girl and how she's a bad girlfriend her fill her head.

She'd rather self combust than try to confront the girl with you around so she'll just continue wallowing in self-pity until you finish.

She needs a lot of hugs and reassurances later to calm down

"Hey, are you OK, kobeni? You were sweating and shaking"

"O-oh n-o i'm ok, what about t-that girl you were talking to?"

"I told her I had a girlfriend and she left, don't worry,more importantly, let's continue out date"

"R-really?"

"Of course you're my girlfriend right? I'd much rather hang out with you than some random girl"

"Uhm t-thank you"

Asa mitaka

She is also kind of anxious and worried just way less than kobeni.

She feels kind of like a bad and boring girlfriend often, and that feeling skyrockets when a girl flits with you.

She trusts you, but seeing you so close to that girl while she blatantly flirts with you just makes her feel kinda angry at her, and yoru definitely tries to take advantage of that.

"Come on don't you wanna get rid of her anyway"

"Not in that way yoru!"

"Just turn her into a weapon, that way I get a new one to fight chainsaw man, and you get to take care of that bitch"

"I'm not gonna do that"

"Geez you really are a bad girlfriend then"

"I'M NOT A BAD GIRLFRIEND"

"........"

"D-did I say that out loud?"

"Yeah but don't worry at least it was the truth"

Yoru

You and yoru begged asa to let her take control of her body for just an entire date. After a lot of hesitancy, she accepted but made yoru promise not to kill anyone........ You should probably think twice before trusting the war devil

The moment she saw another girl even look at you with a flirty gaze, immediately she turned her into a weapon without any hesitation.

You weren't that shocked, dating yoru does come with a very high chance of her trying to murder people she even thinks are trying to steal you, you were kinda mad at her for what she promised asa though.

"*sighs* why did you do that?"

"You're mine she was trying to take you from me. I could feel it"

"And how are you gonna explain it to asa?"

"Well it's not my problem"

"What?"

Then she feel unconscious the scars from her face disappeared and asa woke up looked at the weapon in her hand and then at you

"I'm so sorry asa I swear I can explain"

Fami

She was just coming back to your table with your fast food orders (she got way too much food for herself). When she saw you talking to a girl, she didn't recognize

She didn't think much about it maybe you were just talking to a friend. So she ignored the kinda weird feeling in her chest by doing her favorite thing (tied with spending time with you) eating.

The girl, meanwhile, was very freaked out that a random girl was staring at her with a cold glare and ringed eyes so she left allowing you to go back to your girlfriend.

"Hey fami, sorry if It took me long"

"It's fine, who was that girl you were with?

"I don't know she just came up to me and started flirting"

"I see"

"Why? Are you jealous"

"No I am not"

"Alright whatever you say, you did eat faster than usual though and that's saying something"

"*sighs* Humans are truly weird creatures"

[akutasoda]

hii!!! can u please do dazai chuuya atsushi and fyodor with platonic teen!reader who is basically like asa mitaka from csm (personality and ability wise) thank you!!!!

double edged swords

synopsis - you had quite the unique mix of a personality and ability

includes - atsushi, dazai, chuuya, fyodor - all platonic

warnings - gn!teen!reader, fluff, slight angst, slight mentions of insecurity/social awkwardness, small mention of trust issues, wc - 835

a/n: hii!

atsushi nakajima ★↷

↪you had most likely met atsushi a little while after he had joined the agency. you were a part timer, due to your age, but initially would avoid him as you were never to good with intoducing yourself to people and taking the stance of disliking them the minite you saw them.

↪in spite of this, somehow you two wounded up on missions together therefore involuntarily getting to know eachother a bit better. eventually seeing eachother as some sort of friends. maybe it helped that you were quite fond of cats, although he insists a tiger isn't a cat.

↪atsushi would look out for you, he quickly learnt of your fear of being alone and naturally unsocial behaviour so wanted to make you as comfortable as possible around him. also in the sense of the fact that you were known to be quite clumsy.

↪your ability did terrify him at first, not that it was that bad but it shocked him the first time you turned something into a weapon. although he did eventually find it pretty cool. also was quite impressed by your swordsmanship skills.

osamu dazai ★↷

↪again, you had most likely met dazai through being a part timer at the agency. avoiding him and his eccentric personality, thinking of nothing but how annoying he seemed and refusing to talk to him unless absolutely necessary.

↪but it seemed seeing dazai so oftem triggered your false self-assurance, giving yourself quite the confidence to be more talkative. therefore getting to know eachother a bit. he could very quickly you resembled most of his more hidden personality to a t.

↪from your trust issues and fear of being alone to your negative outlooks, it reminded him painfully of himself. and he knew how that could affect you as you grew up, so he took up the slight bond you two had built to expand upon it and help you.

↪and as bad as he may be at helping, he wanted to try for your sake. perhaps he even started seeing you as a younger sibling, rather than his younger slef.

↪however your ability widely differed with his. he did like your ability as it was quite convenient and useful. he found it quite intriguing how the power of the item you created solely relied on how guilty you felt. but overall did admire it.

chuuya nakahara ★↷

↪in similar fashion, you had met chuuya by being the latest port mafia member. something about seeing you initially reminded him slightly of himself when he was still with the flags. and it still baffled him by the fact that he requested for you to be his subordinate.

↪he had felt a sort of sympathy for you, therefore wanted to ensure that whatever reason you were here at such an age didn't affect you further. especially considering how you always put yourself down, that made him want to help you even more.

↪he practically acted as more of an older sibling than your boss, always looking out for you no matter what.

↪he did think that your ability was very cool, that and your natural skills in weilding a proper sword. he could see that you probably could take care of yourself pretty easily, but considering your records in being quite clumsy, it didn't seem that good of an idea.

fyodor dostoevsky ★↷

↪meeting fyodor was practically shrouded in mystery, barely anyone can remember how you met the man. a popular idea is that kamui had the plan to bring you on as a new doa member, using your ability to help progress in their goals.

↪perhaps you had gravitated more towards him due to your lack of sicial skills, he was naturally quiet aswell making it very low maintenance to be around him. but however you two became closer is still quite the mystery. he found you intresting regardless.

↪especially how altruistic you could be when you went through your phases of falsely self-assuring yourself in times of hardship or boredom. but then he learnt how clumsy you could be, how quiet you were and your negative outlook, these all blurred his perceptions of you.

↪your ability further added to his interest, especially how your guilt upon crearing the weapons could heavily affect how strong they were to be created. he could see why it was useful but at the end of the day, he still hates all abilities.

[charlottesbookclub]

time after time – chapter seventeen (armitage hux x reader)

time after time masterlist

Summary: Hux finally speaks to you for the first time since the accident

Warnings/Tags: gn!reader; set pre-TFA; mention of injuries; hurt/(kind of) no comfort; angst; brief suicidal ideation, let me know if I've missed anything!

Words: 3265

Author’s Note: so all I have to say for myself is sorry in advance for this one 😭❤️‍🩹 HOWEVER, this is the last Tough Chapter!! based on how this one ends, I realize it seems a little unbelievable that things get better from here, but trust me: they do!! ☺️💕 the next chapter starts us back on an upward trajectory, so if you can stick with me through this one, we'll be onto some much less angsty stuff! 🥰

Hux had difficulty deciphering the difference between the next stretch of time and the experience of being locked in a torture chamber. Eventually he forced himself to become numb to it all. At some point his medical leave had been lifted, and he had returned to his full duties. He barely noticed. He moved through his cycles mostly unfeelingly: completing the required tasks, commanding the bridge, supervising his engineers. He slept even less than usual, an almost impressive feat given his already irregular rest schedule. His unconscious had been armed with new agonizing images of you, and it wielded them unflinchingly. Mitaka looked constantly worried, but Hux waved aside his concerns. He was still mostly functional in the ways that counted to the First Order, and so long as he was useful to the cause, Hux had no reason to seek additional help. In reality, he deemed that he was suffering far less than he deserved for what he had done to you, so he carried around the pain and the memories and the tattered remains of what could have been with the aching knowledge that it was the warranted punishment for his own weakness.

This was his excuse for an existence until Mitaka unexpectedly requested that Hux accompany him on a routine inspection of an area of refurbished officer’s quarters. The task was a bit below his rank, but Mitaka had been insistent, and Hux had little energy left to mount a successful resistance. They had passed through the halls without incident, Hux’s gaze mostly empty and focused straight ahead, corridors of living quarters blurring unremarkably past him until Mitaka stopped abruptly and caught his arm.

Hux looked around, suddenly snapped back into the present moment. They were not in the updated area of the ship. They were standing in your hallway, outside your door. A million feelings broke in one giant blast through the shell of numbness that he had slowly built. First amongst them was a racing, icy panic that shot through Hux’s veins like frozen blaster bolts.

“General, the captain is leaving on a transport at cycle change. You have precisely twenty minutes to fix this absolute kriffing mess that you’ve made,” Mitaka locked Hux in his gaze, looking more insistent and determined than Hux had ever seen.

��Lieutenant, release me immediately,” Hux ordered, trying to free his arm from Mitaka’s vice-like grip. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

“General, I saw you in medical after the attack. You know exactly what I’m talking about.”

“Lieutenant, I ordered you never to discuss that,” Hux hissed, anger now boiling with the panic in his bloodstream, creating a volatile cocktail.

“And I haven’t,” Mitaka snapped back, “but General, you’ve been acting like a droid without a stabilizer for weeks. So I looked into it.”

Hux went still and silent.

“I know about the reassignment, about the infection, about your meeting with the medic in the captain’s quarters, about you practically living in your office. I know about everything.”

“Lieutenant, that is far above your clearance level. In fact, you— you don’t know anything!” Hux made one last, desperate attempt to free himself from Mitaka’s grasp, the lieutenant’s words swirling through his mind on a sickening cloud of fear and anger.

“Maybe not.” Mitaka’s voice softened slightly. “But I know enough to know that you’re punishing yourself for something that’s not your fault. And you’re hurting the captain too.” 

Hux froze in place. 

“I did what was right this time.” Hux’s words came out flatly, an easy repetition of what he had been telling himself in consolation since the minute he reassigned you, casting you free from the utter ruin of him.

“General, I don’t think that’s true.” Mitaka was staring directly at Hux, his gaze more intense than the general had ever seen. “And I don’t believe the captain thinks that’s true either.”

“You couldn’t possibly know that,” Hux breathed. Why was that blasted spark of hope flicking to life in his chest again?

“And neither can you.”

“No, Lieutenant, I know—”

“Have you spoken?” Mitaka cut in, slicing off the end of Hux’s protestation. “Have you even spoken since the accident? Have you asked?”

Hux’s heavy silence was apparently enough of an answer for Mitaka, who reached for the keypad and began typing in the sequence to unlock your door.

“Lieutenant, stop! I order you to stop – I forbid you from doing this!” Hux’s pleas came out far too desperately to be orders. He was begging, as pathetic as that was, and he knew it.

The door whizzed open, and with more force than Hux thought Mitaka capable of possessing, the lieutenant shoved him inside. No no no no no no no this could not be happening. Hux’s mind was a complete whirlwind of panic. He turned immediately to shove against the dark metal of the door, not sure what he intended to do except perhaps force his way out. His fist was already raised to begin pounding on the door and demand that Mitaka open it, when your quiet voice stopped his action in midair.

“General?” The frail question mark in your voice immediately dissolved what fight remained in Hux, and he turned slowly to find you standing in the low light of your quarters, looking at him. Relief clambered through his mind when he realized that you seemed… okay. One of your legs was still bound in the metal cage of a brace, and you leaned on a crutch, but you were conscious, you were standing. A shaky breath passed through his lips. He couldn’t look at your face.

“Captain,” he greeted you, knowing you wouldn’t miss the way his voice trembled around the title.

“I— you’re here.” You hesitated around the statement, like you weren’t quite sure what to say.

“Yes, I—well, I…” What little reason Hux had left was scrambled beyond repair. He braced for you to yell at him, to tell him to leave and never look at you again. But it didn’t happen.

“I didn’t think I would see you, since…” Your words were so quiet. “Well, when I was sick, you never… you never came.” Hux had been stabbed before, on a number of occasions. But not a single one of those blades had been as painful as this. The agonizing hurt in your voice that he could tell you were trying to hide was a knife lodged directly into his heart. He was utterly frozen. He wanted to say something – anything – but he feared that the only thing that would emerge from his mouth was a gush of blood. You continued despite his silence.

“I was wondering if you could tell me what I did wrong. So I can do better next time – at my new post.” He noticed that your tone had changed. You were attempting to stand at attention as best you could given your injuries, trying to make your words into a professional inquiry. Hux could still hear the pain in your voice. What the kriff were you talking about? You hadn’t done anything wrong. Fighting through the waves of anguish that were still crashing over him, he tried to give voice to his complete confusion.

“What?” Only that single word came out, barely perceptible after having made it through the vice of his tensed throat and clenched teeth.

“Well, you reassigned me,” you explained, shifting nervously, “to a uh— a securely First Order controlled planet. I won’t have any real work to do there. So I assumed you must have been… displeased with my performance.” That’s what you thought? You had somehow come to the conclusion that he was unhappy with you? He repressed the sick, strangled noise that fought to make its way out of his mouth as he swallowed the bile rising in his throat. His breathing was becoming more erratic by the second. He either needed to get a kriffing grip and find some way to tell you that he could never be displeased with you, or he needed to walk out of the nearest airlock. He tried to take the deepest breath he could manage.

“No – no not at all! Please – I can’t have you think that for… for a second! You were incredible. Perfect.” The words were choppy and hindered greatly in their departure from his mouth, but at least they were true. At least they were actually what he wanted to say.

He finally moved his gaze to your face then, ready to feel the burn of your anger and hatred. If he couldn’t throw himself into space, then he at least deserved the pain that would come from the knowledge that you were furious with him, disgusted by him. He let out a shuddering breath when he saw nothing but confusion in your expression. 

“Then why did you reassign me?” The question was small, quavering a little around the edges with bewilderment. Hux clenched his fist, trying to steady himself. He was in this now. He should be honest with you – you deserved that.

“So that…” He had to swallow partway through the sentence, a rush of emotion seizing his voice. He tried again: “So that you could be happy.” The final word came out even more strangled than the rest, breaking in the middle as a jagged crack ran through his voice.

You stared at him in shock. He tried to read something, anything else into your expression: relief, understanding, anger even. But you just looked stunned. Eventually, something in your face shifted slightly. Tears formed in the corners of your eyes. The way you were looking at him was about to make Hux split in two.

“Armitage, I was happy.” Your face crumpled as soon as the words left your mouth, tears streaking down your cheeks. You leaned heavily on the crutch for support. That burning ache in his arms returned, longing, yearning to wrap them around you, to pull you into him. You had been happy. With him. And you weren’t angry with him. You were crying just feet in front of him, telling him he had made you happy, and he couldn’t cross the chasm he had created between you, one he had dug with the familiar, ringing shovels of his own fear and self-doubt. Hux felt almost as ill as he had on the floor of the med bay. He collapsed against the wall. If he couldn’t touch you without the terror that he might break you further, he had to say something. And he knew what that needed to be, even as the words tasted unfamiliar and frightening in his mouth.

“I—I’m falling in love with you.” The sentence was barely the ghost of a whisper, but he knew you had heard when you looked up at him with the saddest smile he had ever seen on your face, tears soaking your cheeks.

“And I’m falling in love with you too, but…” Your voice shattered around the words, every edge cutting him. He had dared to hope it might be true, that you felt the same way for him as he did for you. And now you were telling him that his most unbelievable dreams were true – or at least they had been. He couldn’t help but notice that horrible, terrifying ‘but’ where you couldn’t quite finish the sentence. A cold, heavy, sickly feeling was settling in his stomach, starting to rise until he felt like it might drown him. You opened your mouth to speak again: 

“But then why are you sending me away?” He could tell the question was tight in your throat, your voice thin and strained, causing a new rush of tears to come cascading down your cheeks. Again, he was honest, even if he felt as though he was being gutted alive:

“To keep you safe.” The words were raw in his mouth. “I— this was all my fault. If I had done better – been better, then you never would have gotten hurt. I am so… I am so sorry.” Armitage wasn’t sure that he had ever genuinely apologized to anyone before. The words were awkward on his tongue, but he meant them. Stars, did he mean them. He could feel the tightness behind his eyes that told him he was about to cry. He couldn’t allow that. He knew if he did, you would pity him, comfort him. You deserved all the comfort in the galaxy, and he deserved none at all.

Although his efforts at restraining his tears were mostly successful, his attempt to keep you from comforting him was not. You shifted closer to where he was still bent against the wall, easily within reaching distance. You stretched one tentative hand toward him, the same hand that had tangled in his hair and pulled him into a deeper kiss, resting it lightly on his sleeve, like you weren’t sure if you were still allowed to touch him. He almost choked on the unshed tears in his throat.

“You think I blame you for this? At all?” Your eyes were so wide and sincere, even as they still shone with tears. Hux couldn’t bring himself to respond. Of course he thought that – he couldn’t understand why you didn’t. “Armitage, this was not your fault. Never once have I thought that.” Your grip tightened slightly on his arm, as though you were trying to reassure him, trying to make him believe you. Your touch, as tentative as it was, still scattered dazzling sparks across his skin. You breathed a heavy sigh before continuing: “I also made choices that put me in danger. Because I didn’t want to leave you. And I stand by those choices, even after everything.”

Hux gulped. You stood by them, even now. His breath rattled in his lungs. You didn’t regret staying beside him, despite what it had cost you. He couldn’t let himself cost you more than he already had.

“But this isn’t— I’m not safe for you.” The task of containing his own tears was growing to become a monumental one. Everything in him was trembling. “I feel—” He took a ragged breath. “I feel as though I’m a homing beacon for catastrophe. I—I couldn’t live with myself if I let you get caught in the crossfire.” The admission was enough to break him. A shattered sob broke from his lips, tears finally finding their way down his face. You made a gentle noise and reached your hand up to brush them away. Your touch was so caring that it almost burned against his underserving skin. He wanted to pull away from the tenderness that he could never hope to be worthy of, but he wasn’t strong enough for that. After a moment, you moved your fingers under his chin, tilting his face so that he would look at you. He didn’t resist. Your eyes were just as warm as always, but they also held an intensity that fixed him in place, gaze locked onto yours.

“Armitage, you think I didn’t understand the risk? I’ve spent too long in the field to be naïve to the dangers that are out there – for you, for me, for all of us. I knew the risks, and I was going to choose you anyway.” You were going to choose him. But now you couldn’t. He had made that choice for you. And he realized in that sickening moment of clarity that despite what he had thought, what he had told himself, he hadn’t chosen you. He had chosen his fear and insecurities, blindly thinking he would find what was best for you buried in the layers of his own self-doubt. He had wanted to do what was right this time, but he had chosen wrong. The mistake hadn’t been on that fateful evening, it had been everything since.

Before he could even try to piece together the fragments of his thoughts that had been smashed nearly to dust, there was a buzz at the door.

“Captain, the transport is waiting!” an unfamiliar voice called. Your hand fell from his cheek. Hux felt the loss as though it were his own limb.

“I’ll be right there!” you responded, wiping the last of the tears from your cheeks. Hux watched in numb, horrified silence as you retreated slightly and swung a small bag over your arm and began to maneuver toward the door. Inside, he was screaming, pounding at the walls of his own mind to do something, to say something. But it was just like in his nightmare: you were already receding before him, just one footstep out of reach. He opened his mouth, but no words came out.

You had reached him then, and the sorrow in your eyes was unbearable. That dark, cold feeling in the pit of his stomach had risen into his lungs, drowning him in his own body, pulling him under.

“I’m so sorry, General,” you choked out the words, barely repressing a new flood of tears. “I hope you know I wish you nothing but the best.” Your whole face trembled with emotion. Hux was being torn apart from the inside, flesh shredding and bones smashing, but the carnage inside him couldn’t seem to move his body. He felt as though he was turning to stone on the spot. You raised your hand one last time as though to give him a parting caress, but then retracted it before it reached his skin, fingers curling inward like a closing flower. Then you brushed past him and the door whizzed open and shut. You were gone.

Hux was plummeting. He lost all sense of feeling and direction. He only realized he had literally collapsed to the ground when his forehead found the hard snap of the floor. He had made a miscalculation devastating enough to wreck even the most powerful Super Star Destroyer, but instead of a crashing, fiery hull filled with shrieking, tearing metal barreling toward the surface of a planet, there was only him, collapsed in a pathetic heap on the empty floor of what used to be your quarters.

The reality of your words came crashing over him, tearing through him like a million blaster bolts. You didn’t blame him, you didn’t hate him, you had chosen him, you had loved him. But he had made your choice for you. Because the thought that you might care about him had been an unbelievable idea. He had allowed himself to believe it for one brief, glorious moment before the cold hands of his own fear had wrapped themselves around him, snuffing out the little flame of hope he had dared to carry in his chest. And you were telling him that it had been true. His biggest mistake had been believing it too late, and not fiercely enough.

He curled around himself, feeling like he had so many times as a child, utterly alone. He had taken countless blows – from fists, from blasters, from words – and he had always gotten up again, even if he was bleeding and bruised. He wasn’t sure that he could get up this time. He wasn’t sure that he could survive looking down into his empty hands and knowing he could never cradle your face in them again. Because he had been too afraid. He had been so afraid to hurt you, to lose you, that he had unwittingly done both. Hux lay sprawled on the floor of your darkened quarters, a shattered wreck of himself as one cycle clicked into the next and your transport launched from the Finalizer.

[tamapalace]

Atre x Tamagotchi Winter Carnival

A Tamagotchi winter carnival is coming soon to Japan. Bandai has partnered up with Atre, a chain of shopping malls which offers a variety of shops including fashion brands, restaurants, and more. The winter carnival will run from Thursday, January 2nd, 2025 through Saturday, January 31st, 2025. The winter carnival will consist of six components.

First, the Atre x Tamagotchi Gift Campaign is where you will receive one of three Atre x Tamagotchi winter carnival stickers for a purchase of ¥1,500 or more (including tax). Be sure to collect all three! This campaign starts on January 10th, 2025.

Second, is a LINE original wallpaper gift. During this collaboration you can receive a LINE Atre x Tamagotchi wallpaper for LINE messenger, which you will see on the talk screen. There are five types total, and you can simply search for them.

Third, is New Year’s Celebration Egg Manju Gift, which are wheat flour sweet treats. Simply visit a participating location (Atre Ebisu, Atre Oimachi, Atre Takeshiba, Atre Omori, Atre Kawasaki, Atre Otsuka, Atre Yotsuya, Atrevi Higashi Nakano), and make a purchase of ¥2,025 or more, and you’ll receive one.

Fourth, is a Tamagotchi hide-and-seek campaign. You’ll need to look for Tamagotchi in the participating facility (Atre Ebisu, Atre Oimachi, Atre Omori, Atre Kawasaki, Atre Yotsuya, Atre Kichijoji, Atre Ueno, Atre Shin-Urayasu, Atrevi Otsuka, Atrevi Sugamo, Atrevi Tabata, Atrevi Mitaka) during the winter carnival period, and you’ll hopefully find some panels and posters where you can scan a QR code. Simply post to Twitter with the #TamagotchiHideandSeek hashtag for submission. 25 people selected will win an original Tamagotchi towel.

Fifth, you’ll be able to see Kuchipatchi and Mametchi who will be holding some photo and greeting sessions at Atre Ebisu, Atre Meguro, Atre Kawasaki, Atre Shin-Urayasu, Atre Omori, Atre Kichijoji.

Sixth, you can visit Atre Memetchi using the Tamagotchi Uni Tama Search feature at participating locations! Memetchi is holding shopping bags, and singing!

The participating locations are Atre Ebisu, Atre Meguro, Atre Takeshiba, Atre Oimachi, Atre Omori, Atre Kawasaki, Atre Ofuna, Atre Yotsuya, Atre Kichijoji, Atre Ueno, Atre Urawa, Atre Matsudo, Atre Kame, Atre Shin-Urayasu, Atre Toride, Atre Dai Tsuka, Atrevi Sugamo, Atrevi Tabata, Atrevi Higashi Nakano, and Atrevi Mitaka.

Throughout the locations there will be interior Tamagotchi decorations which feature the dot painting style. You’ll also see these decorations in other locations outside of Atre, advertising the winter carnival. Learn more here.

[sugar-grigri]

I was wondering what you think the likelihood is of an actual canon Asa/Denji romantic relationship is? I mean obviously they're building that Asa has feelings for csm/Denji (separately) and Denji has shown passing interest as well. I wonder if it's feasible at all or are they going to be pitched against one another now that Asa's getting seen more in the public eye while Denji is forcibly pushed aside.

Love your blog and enjoy reading your analyzes of the chapters/characters/plot!

Denji and Asa will have a romantic relationship 

I'm sorry to answer so late (almost 2 months later) and without justifying my delay, I think it's the right time in view of the last chapters to answer !!! I think Asa and Denji will have a romantic relationship. Before explaining my arguments, I would ask that we all put our personal preferences aside. I'm only interested in Denji and Asa's writing and story arcs. Now that that's been cleared up, let's get down to business.

First of all, I'd like to reiterate a few points about Denji's development and objectives.

In part 1, Denji understood what it meant to be loved properly, the different facets of love, how to protect and pamper a family, just as his response to the antagonist was driven by his love for Makima. It's important not to deny that Denji has become attached to Makima, and the paradoxical aspect of this affection is what made the end of Part 1 so brilliant and memorable.

Firstly, it confirmed that CSM's main theme from the outset was love, and secondly, it proved that Denji's response was extremely sensitive and mature. Instead of locking himself into a cycle of revenge and hatred, he forgave.

But above all from a narrative point of view it's interesting because in the first part, Denji grasped his value as a human being, knew what it was like to be considered and loved by Power and Aki. I've always seen Part 2 as a response to Part 1.

After the character has grasped that he can be loved, Part 2 places within it, consecrating it as the pivotal protagonist: Denji's beloved, Asa Mitaka. Instead of simply mystifying the love interest as a deuteragonist, as many works do, and depriving us of her point of view, Fujimoto places her with equal narrative importance. Which makes sense, since love is a central theme, Denji's love couldn't take a back seat.

All this to say that the very fact that Asa is also the protagonist puts us on the right track. But there's nothing to stop it all being a trap? Just as there's nothing to stop the relationship between the two protagonists opening up to a lovely friendship, is there? From a personal point of view, I'd have found it interesting if Denji had struck up another platonic friendship with a girl, with no undertones.

But that's not what Fujimoto has in mind...

Asa and Denji are written to complement each other. And when I say complementarity, I make it clear that the writing doesn't imply that a relationship between the two of them would solve their internal problems. Their flaws are put to the test by the external scenario.

For example, Asa's lack of trust in others is underlined in her development compared to other characters such as Yuko and Yoshida.

Yuko and Asa had a sincere friendship, although this drifted into moral combat as the young girl wanted to be as beneficial and useful as Chainsaw Man. As for Yoshida, he torments Asa, playing the game of promiscuity in order to create distance between the two of them, motivated as he is by Chainsaw Man. But his aim is not to become like him, but to prevent him from acting to the full.

Whether it's to inhibit Chainsaw Man or to become like him, Chainsaw Man has occupied a place in Asa's relationships with the others. But again, this only serves to underline the extent to which the destinies of the two protagonists are intertwined. Instead of hating Chainsaw Man even more for disrupting her relationships, Asa Mitaka unknowingly experienced his profound kindness.

During the aquarium arc, Denji simply occupied a special place regarding this issue. While the young girl mortified herself about being a good-for-nothing, a loser like Denji, it was he who paradoxically helped her. Firstly, because he'd listened to her explanations, boring though they were, about starfish and the fact that they're edible. What's more, Fami can control those she would have starved, so subconsciously the fact that Denji offered her food saved Asa.

But this is implicit writing, as it doesn't make sense until well afterwards, when Fujimoto spells out the conditions of the famine demon's power. When we read the aquarium arc, the one who finds the solution is Asa. Denji was merely a springboard.

This episode is central because Fujimoto, in developing the relationship between Denji and Asa, also clarifies the way in which he will write it: one will not overshadow the other, and he has not placed Asa as the protagonist so that she is not a pivotal point in the scenario.

But before this good experience, Asa only sees Denji's little flaws, the fact that he's a fan of Chainsaw Man, that he rips off homeless people and even goes so far as to dehumanize him, considering him somewhere between a cat and a criminal. Instead of idealizing Asa as Denji's great savior, she is first presented as a threat to the boy. But this chapter only confirms the future romantic (and tragic) aspect of their relationship.

I'm putting my theory back on the cat, because it's this symbol that heralds a perhaps not-so-pretty ending between the two of them. Fujimoto takes on the characteristics of a Greek tragedy, with a game of identities, intertwined secrets and a series of misunderstandings, with two camps, characters also preventing their relationship (Nayuta and Yoshida). But above all, it's tragic: Denji is somewhere between a cat and a criminal, just as Asa lost her mother while trying to save a cat, just as the first being Denji saves in Part 2 is a cat.

The cat is a figure that links Denji and Asa (the fact that they both saved one, that it is linked to their family (Power and Asa's mother), the metaphor of cat and criminal being what characterizes someone as morally gray as the two of them TO SUM UP their relationship will end in sacrifice. The ultimate proof of love. Isn't it wonderful to have a boy as the protagonist who pursues love, only to die for it? The reverse is just as beautiful: a young girl who closes herself off in solitude finds self-fulfillment in dying for the sake of another.

But back to something happier: Asa is the only one who has a healthy love (or rather, attachment) to Denji. Firstly, because she first faced Denji's and Chainsaw Man's flaws before seeing their good sides.

First, she doesn't project anything onto the boy, and sees him exactly as he is. She experienced his obscenities, his interest in sex that repels her. This was something I'd considered a flaw until now, to be honest; I was afraid that if the two protagonists ended up experiencing intimacy together, it would "save" Asa from her rejection of sex. But I was reassured by Fumiko's development, which parallels that. Fumiko has an unhealthy interest in Denji and is constantly contradictory in her dealings with him.

As I said, chapter 142 sets up a fairly simple idea: no one respects Denji's limits, above all, no one sees him as the teenager, the child he is. With Chainsaw Man, the same thing happens: people, faced with their powerlessness against the demons, project their grief and frustrations onto the machine man, to the point of pushing him to live again and again to kill his loved one, his big brother. 

No one hears Chainsaw Man's cries for help 

Asa stands out from all this: first, she's the one who wants to save Chainsaw Man 

Fumiko already had an idealized image of Denji before she met him, has an ascendancy over age, a manipulative strategy, but beyond these problematic issues she respects no limits, thinks Denji's sexual desires, which do exist (let's not deny it), are watchwords. 

She, who considers him a child, doesn't act at all in the spirit of protection that she acclaims. 

Asa has the opposite reaction, but purely the opposite. When she meets Denji, she's not at all interested, even distressed. She'll have exactly the same reaction to Chainsaw Man. She doesn't like him, so she has nothing to project onto him. And even her first reaction to him was far from idyllic. 

Fumiko's presence is also intended to underline the way she and Asa differ in the way they deal with Denji's limitations. 

Asa respects Denji's limits, or rather those he has set as rules dictated by his little sister. But Yoru crosses a boundary by kissing him. Without the desire to justify a non-consensual act, what Yoru is doing is crossing a boundary not set by Denji but by Nayuta, who is trapping her older brother in a certain solitude by wanting to protect him. The control devil is obsessed with a happiness that can only be found in the number of two, which is the common trait that links Makima and Nayuta, although they are not exactly the same entity. The first kiss between Yoru and Denji is then an act of rebellion, rather than Fumiko's constant overstepping of boundaries. 

(Again, these are two non-consensual acts, and I'm not justifying them, but they don't have the same narrative function).

But above all, the limits set by Nayuta have another meaning - they're there to consolidate the fact that Denji and Asa's relationship is a romantic tragedy inspired by the ancients, as Shakespiere was. The breaking of rules is a major theme in Romeo and Juliet, especially in the case of Juliet, who must choose between morals and her love, her family destining her for another marriage (symbolized by Nayuta). 

But we'll come back to the symbolism of Romeo and Juliet in a moment... 

Asa has met the purest version of Denji - whether it's Denji revealing his identity, or his profound kindness at the aquarium - and she's also witnessed the flaws of Chainsaw Man, this perverse monster, not good with words, who not only tried to reassure her, but actively protected her.

In other words, when we see her disturbed by her growing feelings for both Denji and Chainsaw Man, they are more than sincere, for she has seen them both as they were. But above all, she is the first character to love both sides of Denji's identity. Whereas Makima was obsessed with Chainsaw Man or Reze focused on Denji's weaknesses, Asa became attached to both the human and the demon.

Denji's dual identity is central, with the public hunters trying to annihilate Denji's demonic identity while the church relies on it, confusing the boy into having to choose one or the other, while the one who intends to help him unknowingly loves both sides. She likes him doubly. Asa is proof that Denji has to claim his two identities.

Not only is the girl also two, harboring a demon within her just as Denji has fused with a demon, but the way their demons are linked to each other and have a history between them only reinforces the destiny that binds them.

Asa is someone who intellectualizes her emotions to the extreme, so her love is more cerebral than Denji's, who thinks primarily through his senses, having a more instinctive love. Yoru occupies half of Asa's brain, while Pochita replaces Denji's heart, totally in line with this symbolism.

Above all, Yoru is disturbed by Asa's budding feelings, which also affect her. We've seen that Yoru hasn't succeeded in transforming Denji. We all stopped to think that she couldn't transform a hybrid, a demon. Yoru is a knight of the apocalypse and has a natural ascendancy over other demons, just as Fami had the falling devil under her control and Makima had controlled many demons. No, the reason why Yoru can't transform Denji is twofold: she's disturbed by Asa's feelings, which are also her own, and doesn't have the will to make him her weapon; but above all, they're not yet together, and the feeling of belonging to each other hasn't yet been established. It's not certain that Denji will ever become Yoru's weapon, since as soon as their relationship is established, he will symbolically offer her his heart.

In the current arc, Fujimoto places Asa in Denji's initial situation, so as to better parallel them: she becomes the church's new flagship image, her popularity competing directly with Chainsaw Man's. But while the current arc shows us the downside of these parasocial relationships, with Denji completely paralyzed by his existential crises, Asa experiences the opposite.

She who has always felt isolated is finally beginning to be appreciated and loved by the majority. In short, one begins to learn something that the other is just experimenting with. Denji and Asa are two very isolated teenagers who project themselves into the recognition their audience has in them. 

What's certain is that Denji's existential crisis doesn't just concern him, insofar as his experiences can serve as a lesson to Asa, that to become a hero is above all to be alone. The church intends to sacrifice innocent people to spur Chainsaw Man into action, a church that Asa now represents. Asa hasn't yet seen this side of the church, so Barem mocks her by presenting her as a naive young girl. However, Asa has the intuition that tragedy will strike, since she has a nightmare of it.

Asa's going to have to go beyond her moral limits, to take the brunt of her own popularity, and even if she intends to save Chainsaw Man as he saved her, I think it's he who's going to help her more, not to eclipse her but as a springboard to push the heroine to save herself.

Denji's development isn't slow, flat, in this arc, it just reaches its conclusion. What's left for him to do to end it all is to prove his love.

Even if it means dying for it.

[fumifooms]

I know there is a ~fight to the death~ happening as they speak and Falling Devil hits him with the trauma ray which is sorta distracting, but I think it’s no coincidence that Denji doesn’t question her motive to target Asa Mitaka specifically. For one, he’s pretty used to the ones he loves being targets or in danger so I guess it musn’t seem that weird to him. But furthermore, in this chapter we 100% get the explicit confirmation that Denji represses his trauma and avoids thinking about it at all cost.

So to me, what this all points towards is that Denji is actively avoiding even just entertaining the thought that Asa might not be all normal or innocent, perhaps a Reze 2.0. Ignoring Asa’s warnings about staying away from her, immediately writing off Asa/Yoru’s “Denji spinal cord sword”, and now brushing off how Asa is being specifically targeted by a Devil that wants to send her to hell? The boy is in denial.

[hux-and-gay]

I used to do this thing where I would take a list of characters that I liked (such as Star Wars characters) and then I would take a list of roles from a musical. Then I would get a random generator and use that generator to randomly select the characters I had chosen and cast them as random roles in the musical. As if they were being forced to play those characters and I had no control over who they were cast as.

Things could get pretty hilarious. you could have something like Han gets cast as the spouse of Vader and C3PO gets cast as their child.

So I thought I had never really done it with the sequels characters so I decided why not? I did it With Hamilton because that’s a musical most people know but I could do other ones in the future. It turned out even funnier then I could possibly have imagined.

Now without further ado

HAMILTON BUT PURE CHAOS

Our Star of the show is none other the Snoke

And who is his rival that will eventually best him in a duel sending him to his death?

Princess Leia Organa! And honesty? Good for her. (All the extras are storm troopers)

Now who is the famous, Faboulous, Marquis De Lafayette…. it’s Pryde… ugh

Suddenly Lafayette is no longer cool

Now who are Snoke and Pryde’s Besties? Phasma is now Laurence (so she dies 😔) and Kylo is Mulligan, honestly I can see him as mulligan

So this friend group is just the first order? Good to know

Now who is the responsible, put together, and not reckless at all, general to lead them all?

It’s Han Solo playing George Washington! So in character right? Now he’s Snoke’s mentor and president of the United States… interesting

But there’s always a loyalist so who gets to be my beloved Samuel Seabury?

Armitage Hux! I was actually very happy with this paring I literally a wrote a parody to farmer refuted from Hux’s POV a few weeks ago, it’s just so funny

Now who is the King that Hux is so graciously supporting, the antagonist of the whole story? Well it’s none other then Poe Dameron, everyone’s favorite imperialist

And of course Snoke still needs more enemies, so who is the incompetent general that sucks so bad he gets left behind?

Charles Lee is now Luke Skywalker! “I’m a general WEEEEEE” But I mean hey man not everyone can say they got shot by Phasma in a duel.

and of course we can’t forget Snoke’s big act 2 rival Thomas Jefferson who is being played by none other then C3PO!

and Jefferson is nothing without his best friend James Madison played by Dopheld Mitaka!

Honestly this one is a pretty good casting

Now here’s where it gets interesting… if it hasn’t already…

The Schuyler Sisters

Yeah you saw that right, forget Angelica Eliza and Peggy, Now we have Palpatine Rey and Finn! So that not only makes them sisters but it also means that Snoke and Rey are married and have children which is a terrifying thought

And not only that but it also means that Snoke and Palpatine were in love but Palpatine let him marry his sister instead but they still continue their emotional affair through the letters they send to eachother

Aren’t snoke and Palpatine basically the same person technically???? I guess they have a type

but of course, we can’t forget the Schuyler sisters wonderful father Philip, oops sorry I meant Thanisson

so yes somehow Thanisson is the father of Palpatine Rey and Finn. Makes sense? No? Perfect, moving on

Speaking of Philip, Snoke and Rey’s Aforementioned child of the same name, is now being played by Rose Tico

Which means, as you can see in this photo here, she dies in her duel with George Eacker. But who might you ask is George Eacker?

It’s BB-8 of course!

Because BB-8 decided to shit talk snoke he got in a duel with Rose, and won. BB-8 kills rose.

Now there’s something missing, we all know the story, Snoke can’t stay faithful to his wife. so who is the poor soul that has to play Mariah Reynolds? A woman being used by her husband to extort snoke by having her keep up an affair with him?

It’s Cardinal, I’m so sorry. He isn’t prepared for this 😭 this image is so cursed. Funny enough though Maria is known for wearing red.

Anyway who is Cardinal’s manipulative husband who is blackmailing snoke?

It’s Brendol Hux, James Reynolds is Brendol Hux. I’m so sorry Cardinal but this is perfect casting. Truly and ass hole in every universe

and of course who is the doctor that is just trying to keep shit together through this whole play? BEHOLD THE MIGHTY GONK!

(I couldn’t find any pictures on Google of the doctor)

If you got this far, I hope you enjoyed it and are severely disturbed!!! Let me know if you’re interested in me doing more.

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Death Note : Lawliet L, Amane Misa, Rem, Ryuk, Near, Mello, Mikami Teru & Kagami Taro.

Jujutsu Kaisen : Gojo Satoru, Okkotsu Yuuta, Fushiguro Megumi, Fushiguro Toji, Zen'in Maki, Itadori Yuji, Kamo Choso & Higuruma Hiromi. (Will not write for Sukuna under any circumstances srry)

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Naruto : Uchiha Madara, Uchiha Sasuke, Uchiha Itachi, Senju Tobirama, Uzumaki Naruto, & Hatake Kakashi.

Genshin Impact : Ragnvindr Diluc, Xiao, Kunikuzushi/Scaramouche, Il Capitano, Il Dottore, Arlecchino, Ororon.

Honkai Star Rail : Blade, Sunday.

Black Butler : Sutcliff Grell & Undertaker.

Boku No Hero Academia : Shigaraki Tomura, Bubaigawara Jin/Twice & Todoroki Toya/Dabi.

Soul Eater : Black Star, Death The Kid, Death, Evans Soul, Albarn Maka, Franken Stein.

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Shingeki No Kyojin : Jäger Eren, Ackerman Mikasa, Arlert Armin, Ackerman Levi.

Angels of Death : Foster Isaac.

Creepypasta : Jeff The Killer, Ticci Toby & Laughing Jack.

Kimetsu No Yaiba : Shinazugawa Sanemi, Tomioka Giyu, Kokushibō / Tsugikuni Michikatsu.

Slashers : Michael Myers, Vincent Sinclair, Stu Macher.

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Sonic : Shadow, Sonic, & Knuckles.

DiaLovers : Sakamaki Ayato, Sakamaki Reiji, Sakamaki Shu & Sakamaki Subaru.

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Four Horsemen Devils in Chainsaw Man

Has anyone ever wondered why the Four Horsemen Devils in Chainsaw Man are female? I've read some articles and posts saying that it's because Fujimoto likes "strong female characters", but that is such a shallow explanation. Actually it's much deeper in meaning.

To start let's look at who/or what the Four Horsemen Devils are. In chapter 84 it is revealed that there are four extremely powerfull devils in the world: Death, Hunger, War and Control.

They take the form of females and call themselves "sisters". Death being the eldest and most powerfull, Famine the second-eldest and War and Control being the youngest. So far in the manga we've seen three of them: Makima/Nayuta (Control), Yoru (War) and Fami (Famine). So the question is: why female?

Death, hunger and war are essentially chaotic in nature - something that ordinary humans have no control over. Death and hunger are natural occurences. War as in conflict is also a natural trait among species. So the three devils Death, Famine, War connect to the chaotic nature of the world. Control is no exeption. If we take the definition of Control, it means to order, limit or rule something or someone. It means putting order on chaos. But if someone controls us, it then means we have no power to determine our lives. Simply put: we descend into chaos. It's a paradox.

But why is chaos represented as feminine then? Chaos is the birthplace of things, so it is often shown as feminine, because feminine is the birthplace of things. It is archetypally associated with birth and creation in the world. With all things that arise out of nature - the most chaotic force. Nature is unpredictable, untamebale in a way. But it is also life. It allows things to be born, to exist in a world.

What's interesting here is the hierarchy of the Four Horsemen Devils in Chainsaw Man. Why is Death the oldest? Why are War and Control the youngest? They appear in the manga in the order of seniority. First the youngest Makima as the Control Devil was introduced in the plot. Then the War Devil in the form of Yoru/Asa Mitaka. Later Famine and we have yet to see Death, the oldest of the four. Well in my understanding of things Control is the youngest because as a concept it is the youngest one. Let's start with Death. The first thing that happens to all living things is birth which automatically means death. It's a natural opposite. The yin and yang. Later to exist we need to feed ourselves. So hunger as a fear comes second. Now that we're fed in order to survive we often must fight for it. War or conflict as a fear is next. Once we win in this battle of survival we so desperetaly want to control it. Control all the aspects of our life. The fear of losing that control or being under control by someone/something is last.

The Four Horsemen Devils in Chainsaw Man represent the cycle of existance and our constant fear of it.

[my-fancy-hat]

Introducing the Fall Devil as one of the Primal Fears tied this arc and maybe whole part 2 principal themes in one entire concept: the trip and fall into solitude and depresion in the starving desire for food, an allegory for our emotional needs, for connection, home. This chapter unpacked a lot of things and clear the landscape of Asa's modus operandis and psyche a bit more, as well as her dynamic with the rest of the cast incluiding her current motifs: cats and bucky, thematically speaking. Fall Devil supposedly is the first cheff in "cooking" nostradamus' prophecies, a direct request from the residents of hell, to feed hell's devils humans as food. She introduces just a taste, and appetizer like she calls it, of what is coming, and it started heavy on Asa.

In the past I called Yoru unassertive for have chosen such an impractical person for her ends, after all Asa is a very lonely and awkward girl who sucks to establish bonds, but now I kind of regret that statement, because in the recent flashback I did understand why Asa is the way she is and why the story chose her as War Devil's host: because she's self-loaded on guilt. Guilt is the special ingredient to make the perfect weapon, something that War Devil takes with pride. That's how Asa mutilates herself, prefers to sacrifice her belongings and hurt herself instead of other people; she IS the perfect weapon for Yoru to use.

Mitaka prefers cats rather than people, she doesn't know what's right or wrong in how she was willing to kill Denji even tho she knew he didn't deserve it, because her guts in trusting others have betrayed her, like made her choose the wrong person to take care of her cat believing she did the right thing (the cat would feel better with other cats) it didn't end well, and in the aftermath, the punishment fell on Asa for "having more" than her abuser and orphans that lost everything, as if this crime was rightful justice. Sounds familiar? yeah, Denji is his last breath in ch1 though the universe was punishing him for have wanted more, for having dreams of a better life. Here, Asa is punished for have loved more, in fact, the last memento of her mother. Asa invalidates her feelings because acting on them have only made her fall, trip on the most crucial moments, to fail. She fell on top of Bucky killing it, right after she had the epiphany she wanted to be recognized by her classmates. She fell while carrying Yuko from a certain death right after she decided to live by what she feels right. She fell and broke her cellphone right after she wanted to feel useful. She fell for Denji when he gave her attention and a couple of words of praise only to get stoop up in their 2nd date, she fell for Yoshida that easy because she's starving for companionship, and so on. She ends up right where she started, no changes. It's God punishment, it seems, "she better off dead", no way of living is fitting for her, she's too little for such great things as friendship, a boyfriend or family, hell, not even to have a pet.

Ironically, I believe the horsemen sisters and Denji will serve in Asa's proclamation of her own right to live (someone already tried but the narrative didn't want that Yuko). Kiga/Famine comfronts Asa with her needs not only for food, but for human connection, that's why her plan backfired because her and Denji bonded in the aquarium and worked together to escape and save everyone; Asa needs to recognize what she want. Yoru is already a less-friendly-Pochita for Asa, not only for have given her a 2nd chance to live (in a very controlled way) but in the sense to help her to take pride of her own life choices and feel unremorsed to fulfill her needs/dreams; it's ok to fail and trip. And lastly, Denji may help her to slowly open her heart and guide her way throught because, just like him, she's buried in regrets and hunger too.

Denji [wasn't allowed to eat] cake, but went for it anyways and eat it with his bare hands, Asa [didn't bring herself to eat] fish, but at the end she took it in gag and tears.

To conclude this mess I just wrote and my personal thoughts, I love this new approach Fjmt is cooking it just hits right in my alley. Fall devil in her attacks reminds me of Arael from Evangelion, the angel that invades Asuka's mind in showing her his deepest fears to defeat her. YES give me introspection and traumatic flashbacks. As Denji approach the area he will maybe have to face part 1's events in this mental landscape, to revive Aki and Power's deaths again, and if they both fall to hell, there's a chance he will encounter the gun devil and blood devil and worse the situation for him?! let's open some doors then. I have no idea how they will defeat a primal fear devil tho, only Nayuta has the power to send her right back to hell if I have to bet. Anyways this looks promising af, I'm impatiently waiting for fujimoto to open the depression store next week