#Michonne deserved to be so much angrier at Rick for leaving her out of that plan with Carol and Daryl

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Looks like my frustration at black women not being able to justifiably be angry in tv shows continues.

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Secret--Chapter 2

Characrters: Negan x Original Female Character (Lily) Some canon characters throughout and some original characters. Fluff, fluff and more fluff.  More introductions.  Italics represent the past. Warnings: Mentions of rape/abuse, violence, murder, gore. Tagging: @azanoni​ as requested. (I’ve currently gotten up to chapter 8 of my type up of my story.  Chapters may be going up quickly to start and may slow down once I’m caught up with what I have in my notebook!)

Chapter 2

           Sarah’s body fell to the ground after her head rolled down the hill.  Lily’s eyes grew wide as she choked back a scream. Alpha moved her attention to Lucas. She smiled as she raised her knife.

“Wait! Wait!  Please don’t!” Lucas pleaded with her.  “Sit still!” one of Alpha’s followers shouted as they grabbed his shoulders.  “No! Don’t!” Lucas screamed once more.

Alpha cut his throat.  “What the fuck?!” Brad shouted.  She grabbed Lucas by the hair and began sawing off his head as she had done with Sarah.  Lily sat frozen, staring at the blood that was raining onto the grass below.  “You two.  Get up,” Beta demanded.  Lily and Brad got to their feet.  Alpha removed her mask, “We may have a use for you.” Lily felt a hand on her back…

“You’re up early!” Dr. Warner said while bringing in breakfast.  Lily looked up, “Yeah.  I’m feeling better!  Plus, Rick said he was going to show me around.” “Great!  Now eat up.  If I know Rick, he won’t stop to let you snack,” he joked.  “Thank you.”

“Morning, Lily!” Rick’s southern drawl filled the room.  “Rick,” she responded.  “Are you about ready?” he asked.  Lily smiled as she took the last bite of her breakfast.  “Ready for the tour?  I have a lot to show you.  Maybe we can find you a house today, too!” His excitement was hard to contain.  

She slipped on her boots, “One good thing about this new world?  No rent or mortgage!”  Rick chuckled as they made their way to the front door.

“Holy shit…” Lily said under her breath.  Rick smiled, “Welcome to Alexandria.”  She took in the sights of the trees full of fruit and livestock everywhere.  “Is that…?”  “Corn?” he interrupted, “Yes.  We welcomed some travelers from out west a few months back and they had so many seeds for us to plant.  Not everything has grown but the things that did?  Well, you can see it for yourself.”  Her mouth fell open as she looked around.  Not only was food everywhere, people were working together. It was something she hadn’t seen in years.

“Wow, Rick,” she gasped, “This is amazing.”  “Thank you. It took a while but we got here. Let me show you the houses we have available.”  They walked through the crowded community, Rick saying hello and introducing Lily to everyone on the way.  

“So, do you just keep adding on to this place?” she asked.  “Yes.  We have a construction team who go out and find supplies to extend the perimeter. We try to add two new houses weekly just in case we keep growing,” he responded.

“This one’s nice!” Lily pointed to a house with a red door.  “That one isn’t available.  It’s more of a…jail than a home,” he uttered softly.  “Jail?” Lily’s curiosity grew.  “Yes.  We have a prisoner in there now.”  “Oh…what did they do?”  Rick paused and sighed, “Don’t worry about it.  What about this one across the street?” he suggested.  Lily looked back at the “jail”, “Rick, what did your prisoner do?” “He hurt a lot of people.  I’ll let you meet him eventually.  Just not today, alright?” His voice grew sterner. She nodded, “Alright…”  Rick walked over to the vacant house and opened the door.

“Shower is upstairs. Living room, kitchen, all the bedrooms are upstairs.  I can come by later and bring you some cleaner clothes and food to put in the fridge and pantry,” he said.  “The fridge works?”  “We managed to find some generators a while ago.  They’ve helped a lot.  Lighting is all solar power so there’s plenty of candles and matches for the evening.”

“I can’t thank you enough,” she said, her voice cracking slightly.  “I’m glad you found us when you did.  Go get a shower.  I’ll get you some clothes to put in the dresser.”  “Thank you.”  The door shut behind Rick and Lily sighed with relief.  “Shower.  I need a shower,” she stated to no one.

 Lily curled up half-naked on the grass.  Tears fell as she struggled to get pants back on. “Quit fucking crying.  This is your life now,” Brad taunted her while he helped clean out one of the dead.

She sat up and shot Brad a dirty look, “Fuck off…” “Bitch, shut the fuck up!” Lily stood up, “I fucking hate you…”

She walked away with tears in her eyes.  I gotta get out of here, she thought.  She sat down in her tent, And he needs to stay here…

 “Thanks for the clothes,” Lily smiled as she approached the table where Rick and Michonne sat.  “Looks like they fit alright!” Michonne said before taking a bite of her lunch.  

“So do you guys always have a community lunch?” Lily wondered.  “Most days we like to get together and eat and mingle.  We have new people joining us all the time.  Doing this ensures that we all get to know each other,” Rick explained, “Go get something to eat!  You must be hungry.”  “I am!  Thanks again for all of this.”  Rick nodded.

Lily made her way over to the food.  It all smelled so good.  She couldn’t believe how much food there was.  She could barely remember the last time she had seen that much food. “You’ll catch flies if you keep your mouth open like that,” a voice joked beside her.  She jumped, “Holy shit!”  “I’m sorry!  Didn’t mean to scare you!”  She looked to her left to find a kind face.  “Hi, I’m Aaron,” he held out his hand.

“Hi,” she took his hand, “I’m Lily.”  “Nice to meet you!  How are you liking it so far?” he asked her.  She grabbed the plate that was handed to her and said, “It’s amazing!  I got to take a shower today.  Not sure of the last time that happened.”  Aaron laughed, “It’s not always hot but at least we have water!”  “Exactly! It was nice meeting you,” she grinned and went to search for a place to sit.

 “Lily,” Brad whispered, “Get up.  We need to get out of here.”  Lily’s eyes opened, “Is everyone asleep?”  He nodded, “Let’s go.”  She grabbed what little she had, including her machete, and rushed out of her tent. They ran out of the camp that had kept them prisoner for weeks.

“Lily!  Slow down!” Brad shouted.  “Shhh!! Quiet!  We aren’t in the clear yet!”  

As they struggled up the hill, Brad grabbed her arm, “Slow the fuck down!” Lily’s balance went off and she nearly sprained her ankle.  She stopped and stared at him, “Don’t touch me.  Keep up and shut up.”  She turned around and started moving again.  They stopped behind the largest tree she could find to catch their breath.

“You were just going to leave me behind, weren’t you?” His accusatory tone made her blood boil.  “I thought about it,” she answered without hesitation.  His face got red, “You dumb bitch.”

“You can insult me later.  We need to keep moving.”  Brad got angrier and began to raise his hand to hit her.  She stood perfectly still as she saw the walker coming up behind him.  Without missing a beat, the walker took Brad’s hand into its mouth.  “MOTHER FUCKER!!!” he screamed.  He grabbed his hand.  “You didn’t warn me!!!” he shouted at her.  

“I didn’t see it,” she said as she struck its head with her weapon.  “Here,” she handed him the handkerchief in her pocket, “Cover it up.”  They continued to run.  

“I can’t fucking believe you just let that happen, you cunt!” he continued to shout at her as he wrapped up the wound. With her back to him, she smirked. “I told you.  It’s dark.  I didn’t see it.”  Brad winced in pain.

“Fuck.  How are you gonna live longer than me?!  This is bullshit!”  “Sorry,” she shrugged.  “No, you’re not!  You couldn’t give a shit!” He continued to accuse her.  They came upon an old shed.  “Stay here,” Lily walked in, machete raised, and cleared it.  “Come on,” she demanded.  “I can’t believe you’re gonna let me die…” “I can’t believe you’re still fucking talking about it,” she snapped.  “Drop the attitude,” he said.  “Drop dead,” she scoffed.

Brad reached for her but was already becoming too weak.  “Awww…Little Bradly can’t hit me anymore,” Lily mocked him.  She moved to the opposite side of the shed and waited…

 “How was it?” Rick asked as he walked by.  “Wonderful! Can’t wait to see what’s for dinner!” She laughed.  He smiled, “I have some things I need to do for the rest of the day so if you need anything, go bother Michonne.  She’ll get you whatever you need.”  

“Thanks.  I really appreciate all of this.”  Lily’s appreciation couldn’t be explained.  “I’ll see you later, I’m sure,” he said.  Rick and Michonne walked away, hand in hand toward their home.  Lily began making her way back home.

I need to know who that prisoner is… she thought.  She looked over her shoulder to make sure nobody was nearby.  She snuck around to the back of the makeshift prison.  She found the door unlocked and let herself in. “Hello?” she whispered.  She looked straight ahead to find the door to the basement.  She slowly opened it, the hinges creaking slightly.  

“Ricky-boy! Back already?!  You just brought me lunch!” A deep, booming voice echoed through the room.  Lily slowly crept down the stairs.  “Not Rick,” she quipped.  

She saw a large figure move to the front of the cell.  “Oh, hello.  Are you my present for being so good?” he smirked.  Lily gave him a disgusted look, “No.  Rick doesn’t know I’m here.  Why are you in there?”

He smiled, “Rebel. You must be the newbie Rick was talking about.  I’m Negan.” “That’s great.  Why are you in there? What did you do?” she snapped.  He sighed, “I was a prick.  I fucked up some shit, killed some people that I thought deserved it, took people’s shit.  I was a fucking asshole, basically.”  She nodded, “Okay.  Well then…see ya.”  She waved coldly as she began her way to the stairs.

“Wait!  Hang on.  What’s your name?” he asked.  “Why?” she replied.  “So, I can put a name to the face and body I’ll be thinking about later,” he joked.

“Wow.  Okay.  You’re gross.”  “Yes.” “Lily.”  Negan grinned, “Gorgeous name for a gorgeous woman.”  “Clam down, buddy.  You’re acting desperate,” she insisted.

“Well, it’s been a few years.  Pardon my fucking hard-on,” he said.  “Jesus. Alright.  I’m leaving now.” “Don’t wanna fucking keep me company? Or show me some of that fine ass fucking body so I have more to use?” he questioned.

“Nope!  Bye,” she stated.  “Okay.  Sorry. Let’s start over.  I’m Negan.  You’re Lily and you are fucking stunning.  I appreciate your company and I hope you’ll come see me again.”  Lily felt her face grow hot from embarrassment, “Thanks.  I’m not sure that will be likely.  But it was nice meeting you.  I hope you stop being a prick and can get out of there soon.”

“Yeah. Thanks.  I’m trying. I think they should get me a shrink but apparently those are hard to come by in this place.”  He looked down at the ground, almost embarrassed by the suggestion.  

“Hmm…okay. Well, see ya,” Lily waved again. “I’ll dream of you,” he said.  “Uh huh.”  Lily made her way back upstairs.  Before she shut the door, she heard his deep voice say, “Damn….nice ass.” She rolled her eyes as the door clicked shut.

“Sexy but what an asshole…” she said under her breath.  She rushed out the door and hurried back to her own home.

 Brad coughed up blood, “Fuck!  God damnit!  What are you gonna do with me?”  “My plan is to shove this knife into your brain after you take your last breath,” she stated coldly.

“You’re gonna die without me,” he whimpered. Lily shrugged, “At least I’ll be without you.”  “You deserved to get raped back there.” His voice growing wearier.

“Okay.”  “You’re a fucking whore.  You always were.”  “Uh huh.” “What?  All of a sudden you’re immune to me?”  He grew angry.  “Yep. Go fuck yourself.  Good fucking riddance.”

“Fuck you,” he coughed again.  Lily smiled, “You done yet?” He looked up at her, red in the face, “You fucking cunt…” “FUCK YOU!!!” She took her machete and began hacking away at his head.  The blood and bone and skull splattered all over her and the wall behind him.  

She screamed as she made him completely unrecognizable.  The sound it made her cringe and cry all at once.  Her smile grew as she placed her machete back in its holster.  She grabbed the little water and food they had and began her trek to the next place.

 KNOCK KNOCK! Lily jolted awake on the couch. She walked over and opened the door. “Hey.  Sorry to bother you,” Michonne stood on her porch with a basket of apples, “We had some extra.  Want some?” Lily beamed, “That would be great. Thank you.”  She took the basket from Michonne and invited her in.

“Thanks, but I need to get Judith up from her nap,” she grinned.  “Judith?” Lily looked at her quizzically.  “Rick’s daughter,” she responded.  “Oh.  Gotcha! Well, thanks again.” “No problem!” Michonne made her way off Lily’s porch.

“Oh!  Michonne!” she shouted.  Michonne turned around.  “What job is Rick going to give me?”  “Depends on your skills.  You were a doctor, right?”  “Pathologist, yeah.  But I also have a Master’s in psych.  Don’t know if that’s helpful…” she trailed off.  Michonne lit up, “I think it could be!”  “Great.  See ya later!” Lily waved and shut the door.

She took the apples into the kitchen and set them on the counter.  “Peeler…” she said to herself, “I need a peeler…and cinnamon….”

As she stirred in the cinnamon and sugar into the cooked-up apples, another knock came to the door.  “Visitors all day,” she joked to herself.  She opened the door to find a teenage boy standing on her porch.

“Um…hello…” she hesitantly greeted him.  “Hey. I’m Carl.  Rick’s my dad,” he explained. “He asked me to come over and check on you and to let you know that dinner is almost ready if you want any.” “Oh.  Great!  Uh, thank you!” she exclaimed.  She tried not to stare at the eye patch that peaked from under his sheriff’s hat.  “My eye got shot out a few years ago,” he noticed her curiosity.  “Jesus…I am so sorry.  I didn’t mean to stare,” Lily showed her embarrassment.  “No!  It’s okay. It’s not something you see every day, right?” he laughed.  

“I guess that’s true…” she trailed off.  “Well, if you wanna eat, you’re welcome to meet us in the courtyard,” he invited her. “Thank you.  I’ll probably be there shortly,” she replied. “Great!  Well, see ya!” he said, awkwardly.  

“Cute kid…” she said, shutting the door again.  She sighed as she walked back to the kitchen to put the apples in the fridge.  “Maybe I can take these to him later,” commenting to nobody.  She wasn’t sure why she was even thinking about him but she couldn’t get that smile out of her head.  What the fuck is wrong with you? She thought.