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shameless | kim doyoung

AU: angst, fluff, drama, cheating au, readerxtaeyongxdoyoung SYNOPSIS: Marriage was supposed to be your dream. You were in love with Taeyong, until you came to realization that maybe he's not the one. Thankfuly, his best friends was there for you when you needed him the most. WC: 8k TW: cursing, cheating, mentions of sex AU: i do not support any kind of cheating. never. it's a pure fiction. yall i think i've improved my english lol one day i'll fix all my works because lmao yeah enjoy this pls:P

Marriage. How foolish of you to think it's going to be a dream come true. Well, everyone else stated that fact. According to them, marriage is one of the best stages of life. You've reached a certain point in life - perhaps an achievement. Too bad none of them said how much of a burden it can be.

Of course, the first few months were perfect. Dates, flowers, and affection. Isn't this what every woman craves? Kisses, gifts, and affirmations from your loved one. Those things blinded you. Only if you knew back then. Maybe then you would've left. It was your choice to ignore all the red flags. It's been a year, and it's a nightmare.

"Baby, can you do laundry?" You were running late, yet Taeyong does nothing. He could help you, at least. "I have to leave already. I showed you the other day how to do it. Will you do it for me, please?"

Taeyong was playing Call of Duty on the PS4 you've bought for him on his 27th birthday. He was focused on the game.

"Sure. I'll do it."

Without any other word, you left. Sometimes you'd like to smash that PlayStation into pieces. Taeyong does nothing around the house besides playing that damn thing.

It was a late call meeting with your work team. You couldn't focus on the words of your co-workers due to that weird gut feeling. Something deep down felt like something would go wrong. Ignoring this wasn't helping at all.

"Y/N, we want you to manage this project with Chaeyoung. Is that alright with you?" Your boss asked while you were drifting in your thoughts. "We believe your reviews and suggestions would make this successful on the market."

"Of course, I'll handle this."

"Thank you." He looked at the watch. "Okay, it's 9 p.m. We're done for today. I'm sorry we had to hold a meeting. It was a surprise to us too. You can go all home now."

Everyone left in a hurry, and so did you. The weather got worse, and it was raining. You couldn't get cold, so you called your husband. Silence. Again silence. He didn't pick up your calls. All you could do was run and pray that a bus would arrive.

"I called."

"Sorry, baby. I was too busy with the game. Look, I ranked up."

"That's amazing, but it's pouring outside, and I had to walk there by myself." You rolled your eyes at your husband's ignorance. "I'm fuckin tired. I just want to take a shower and go to sleep. Have you done the laundry like I asked you to?"

"Yes. It wasn't that hard." He laughed and turned the PS4 off. "I'm heading to sleep. Waiting for you in the bedroom."

At least he did what you had asked for. Walking in the bathroom was hopeful for you. Little did you know how much anger it would bring you.

"Taeyong! What the fuck have you done?!" Your husband was quick to run back to you. He was looking at you confusedly. "How could you ruin my white shirt for tomorrow? Why would you put red socks together with white laundry?"

"My bad. I'm sorry, honey." He looked at you with his doe eyes. "I didn't notice, sorry once again. I'll give you money to buy a new one."

"Sorry? You're sorry?" You scoffed. "I needed that shirt for work tomorrow. It's past 10p.m, what am I supposed to do? I asked you for one thing, and you managed to fuck it up."

"It's just a shirt, Y/N. You're overreacting. You can buy another one."

"It's not just about the shirt, Taeyong. You don't understand." You went next to him. "I don't have any clothes for work. Fuck."

Taeyong apologized once again and went back to the bed. He didn't really care about the fact that he ruined your shirt and left you alone past 10 pm, looking for clothes for work. He difted away to sleep while you had to hold your anger in yourself and calm down.

Your husband and you both work for the same company. You work in different departments and both of you start work at different hours. Taeyong got up and left an hour before you. As usual, you woke up to dirty dishes on the table and a cup of coffee on the counter. He didn't respect the fact that it was you who was cleaning the whole apartment.

"Look there. I guess you could've described another problem here, and we would put it together." Chaeyoung was taking notes on your words. "Do it, then send me the rest of the thing. I'll try to finish it by Friday."

"Thank you, and of course, I'm doing it."

Mark Lee was sipping on his coffee when he approached you. He was your best friend and best colleague from the company. Both of you go along pretty well.

"Someone's not in the mood today, huh?"

"Mark, please." You stopped on your way. "Don't get on my nerves today. It's not funny at all."

"Sorry, Miss Not in the Mood." He chuckled. "You slept on the wrong side, or what?"

"I slept on the right side."

"Then what happened?"

"Taeyong happened." Mentioning of your husband made your head hurt. "I asked him for one simple thing. Do laundry. That's all! Guess what." Mark was waiting for you to finally tell you the tea. "He ruined my shirt for today. I was tired, hungry, and annoyed, and on top of that, I had to find myself clothes for today."

Mark could only laugh. He was aware of your husband and how clumsy he can be.

"How did he even do it?"

"He put red socks and underwear together with white clothes. The majority of clothes were pijamas, but still. I didn't ask for much. I explained how the washing machine works about ten times!"

"Everyone makes mistakes, but your husband is crossing the line, Y/N. I'd be mad too. Yesterday was a horrible day."

It's almost the end of the month, so everyone is worked up. Every project needs to be finished ASAP, clients are waiting and aren't patient, and on top of that, your boss is scolding you for every little mistake you've made.

"You should be thankful you don't have to deal with it."

Another day went the same way. Today was another hard day, and the only thing you wished to do was fall asleep, but it seems like you won't be able to do that.

"Honey, I missed you."

Taeyong was looking at you with lust in his eyes. Deep down, you knew what he was about.

"Not today, sorry. I had a rough day, I'm exhausted."

"C'mon. I missed you and your body so much." He began to kiss down your neck. "I want you."

Anger was boiling in your veins. It's like you're talking to a wall.

"I told you no, why don't you give up? I'm not in the mood, I had a tiring day, and you expect me to fuck?"

"Fuck, Y/N." He stopped and put his hands into his hair. "We haven't had sex in months, alright? I have my needs, I'm fuckin horny, and I want to fuck my wife. I want us to feel good, yet you're always too busy to do so."

"I fuckin told you I'm tired. You're so, so.." His gaze went upon you. "Pushy. Leave me alone."

"Great."

The last thing you've heard was a door shutting. He left, and God knows when he'll be back. Like a kid. Your husband behaves like a spoiled child. Nothing ever satisfies him, and he wants things his way. Nothing in between.

Once you've been reading about all those unhappy couples who have sex once in a while, don't talk too much, or don't even know too much about each other. They're just together because they get used to each other and are way too comfortable to let go and leave. Little did you know you were going to face the same fate.

"Fuckin hell." You rolled your eyes. Taeyong wasn't picking up your calls when it was an important matter. "Boss, can I go into the marketing department to meet my husband? It's urgent."

He didn't even look up, but he nodded. Men.

The marketing floor was only three floors higher. Of course, you've known the majority of people working there thanks to Lee Taeyong. A few employees passed and greeted you.

Johnny was sitting by his desk, probably busy with his tasks that needed to be done by today.

"Hi, Johnny." He sent you a smile. "Do you know where Taeyong is?"

"Oh, hello, Y/N. Shit. I think he might leave for a lunch break with Jaehyun and Yuta."

"He did."

The voice was familiar to you. Turning your head, you saw no one else but Kim Doyoung. Your husband's co-worker and best friend.

"Fuck. Thank you, guys."

"Something did happen?"

"I wanted to ask him to drive me to Kun's bakery. It's Jaehyun's birthday in two days, but they need me there today. I guess they couldn't find a sample?" Doyoung was looking at you with his soft eyes, while you were stressed. "Nevermind. I'll go."

"Wait." Doyoung grabbed his coat. "I'll drive you. It's no problem for me. I'm on the break anyway."

Your whole body relaxed at his words. Somehow you felt different, because Taeyong usually rejects your requests, but Doyoung? He agreed right away.

As both you and Doyoung were on your way to Kun's bakery, Taeyong called you a few times. Asshole.

"Thank you, really. You have no clue how much this matters to me. You saved my day, Doyoung."

"No worries, I mean, I'm just driving you to the bakery. It's not hard, or something."

"I fear some people wouldn't agree." Doyoung glanced at you for a second. "Nevermind. Thank you, again. I bet Taeyong doesn't even remember we booked a cake at Kun's."

Both of you laughed at your remark. Doyoung was aware of how clumsy and nonresponsible his best friend can be.

"It wouldn't be Taeyong if he didn't forget about such a thing. But hey, look at you. You're about to solve a problem with Kun and come back to work, and you didn't need Taeyong's help."

"Wow, I'm so independent now. Not like you drove me there, at all."

Kim Doyoung was a year younger than Taeyong. Both of them have known each other since high school. Then they applied to the same business school where you met Taeyong. Both of them graduated and found a job at Lee Sooman's company. Like you did. Doyoung was different than Taeyong. He was clean, tidy, and he could cook. Everyone could depend on him when needed. He never let any of your friends down. Never. If you needed help, you should've called Doyoung. He was stylish and looked like an old-money guy. None of your friends, nor you, have seen him date. He probably had a few girlfriends, but they weren't serious, as you guessed.

"Well, I can pay you for-"

"Y/N, please." He stopped you mid-sentence. "Don't pay me at all. I had a great time picking a cake with you."

"Me too, Doyoung. Again, you're wonderful."

Taeyong was looking at you through the window of his office. He was calling you for an hour, and he had no response from you. He was a bit worried, but as he saw you with Doyoung.. He was relaxed.

Mark was smiling from ear to ear. He saw you coming into the building with Doyoung from the marketing department.

"What were you doing with Kim Doyoung?" He was moving his eyebrows in a funny way. "He's cool, right?"

"I had an emergency at Kun's bakery, yet my lovely husband wasn't picking up my calls." Mark scoffed. "He gave me a ride, and yes, he's a cool guy."

"Jaehyun's birthday, right?" You nodded. "I bought him a watch, and what about you and Taeyong?"

"I don't know. I was supposed to buy a cake, Taeyong is going to buy a gift. Please, I wish he had already done that."

Jaehyun's birthday is always a party at his house. He invites a whole friend group on the weekend, and makes a dinner. Everyone is drinking and having fun together. It was supposed to be an amazing day, but only if your husband didn't ruin it the day before.

"What do you mean you forgot?" Taeyong was stressed too. He knew he was meant to do something, but he had no idea what exactly. "Taeyong, you promised me you're going to buy him a gift!"

"Fuck, I forgot! Couldn't you do it? I'm busy with work, so it wouldn't hurt, Y/N."

"Are you kidding me?" You put on your coat. "I'm also working, I'm cleaning and cooking, I ordered the cake for Jaehyun's birthday, and both of us agreed that you're going to buy a gift!"

Every favor you're asking Taeyong for, ends in the same way every, fuckin, time. You can never depend on him.

"I help you too! Don't make me look like I'm some kind of lazy jerk. I simply forgot, things happen, okay."

"And what are we going to do? Are we going to show up with a cake for his 27th birthday and say sorry, but Taeyong fucked up once again?" The sarcasm in your tone was noticeable, and your husband wasn't a fan of it. "Do you even know what he likes?" Taeyong couldn't answer as he had no thoughts. "I knew it. God."

"Where are you going? It's past 8pm, and it's freezing outside?"

"None of your business. Clean after dinner. That's the last thing I'm asking you to do."

Cold February nights like this make you wonder about your life. Lately, both you and Taeyong have been fighting. You couldn't even remember when the last time both of you exchanged "I love yous". Are your friend's marriages the same? Do they fight a lot? Do they fight every day? Do they overcome it? To you, it seems like an endless circle.

Luck was with you tonight, because the old vinyl shop was open until 9. You made it on time to buy a jazz vinyl record for Jaehyun. He was a huge fan, everyone knew it, except Taeyong.

"That's a hundred dollas, mam."

The last shop you're going to visit is one owned by Haechan's uncle, who sells prestigious wines from all around the world. It was just a few blocks away.

As you were looking for a wine thatJaehyun hasn't tried yet, you've noticed familiar sillhouete.

"Doyoung?"

"Y/N?" He turned back with a gummy smile. "I didn't expect to see you here."

"Emergency. Again."

"Mark mentioned that Taeyong was supposed to buy a gift, right?" He was visibly confused. "Then why are you here?"

"Key word 'supposed'."

For the first time ever, Doyoung felt bad for you. He always thought that you're a couple goals. Back in the day, you couldn't shut up about Taeyong. Either of you, were talking about each other, still in love. Taeyong never complained, nor did you. To be honest, every single one of your friends thinks you and Taeyong live your dream lives. Only Mark knew it was total opposite.

"I mean, maybe he was tired? Everyone works hard these days, people tend to forget things at times."

"Doyoung, please." You laughed sacristically. "I agree, but Taeyong always forgets about something. Doesn't matter if he's tired, or not."

For the time being, Doyoung had no explanation, nor could he defend his friend.

After a few minutes, Doyoung helped you pick a wine and took you home. It was another time he saved you. He was kind enough to drive you home.

"See you tomorrow, Y/N."

"See you too." As you were about to go into the building, you turned around. "Again, thank you."

Taeyong was asleep in the living room with a TV on. Typical of him. You looked over, and once again, Lee Taeyong disappointed you. The dishes were in the sink, not washed. You put the gifts down and did the dishes yourself.

Morning was a tense one. Neither of you speaks to yourself. The only thing you said was that you're going to pick up the cake by 5 pm. It was Saturday, and both you and your husband had a free day. Taeyong was probably waiting for you to make a lunch or something, but it wasn't your plan. You made yourself some waffles and ate them by yourself.

"Where's some for me?"

"Don't you have hands? Do it yourself."

He was looking at you in disbelief. Taeyong was used to you cooking and serving him food.

"Why are you bitching? I've already apologized. What else am I supposed to do?"

"I'm not bitching. I just made lunch for myself." He was getting annoyed with you. "It seems like I'm some kind of housewife to you. I'm not. Learn to do things yourself."

By 5pm, both of you were getting ready. It's been a long time since both of you went together somewhere. Taeyong stopped asking you on dates long time ago. Of course, you missed those silly dates. Your husband doesn't put effort in.

Taeyong was waiting for you in the car, while you put everything into a bag. One last look into the mirror, and you were looking pretty. In your eyes, everything seems fine.

"What are you wearing?" Taeyong almost burst laughing. "Honey, go change yourself, I don't think you look the best in such a dress."

For a moment, you felt stupid. Your own husband laughed at your look, even though you thought you looked great. A knee high, black dress and boots with a coat. Everyone was wearing that. It was a cute look.

"What do you even mean?"

"It's not made for you, I guess? I don't know, I just want to help you to not get emberrased."

"Oh, fuck you, Taeyong."

There was no time for changing, besides, you felt cute. A month ago, you would've run into the apartment to change but not today. You tried to ingore peaks Taeyong took. He hurt you. You thought you could ignore it, but as soon as you arrived, your self esteem was six fit under.

"Hey guys! Wow, Y/N, you look stuning!" Jaehyun welcomed you with a kiss on the cheek. "Suit yourselfs."

Jaehyun complimented you, but inside of your head there were Taeyong's words.

In the living room, everyone was waiting until Haechan would arrive with his fiance, Jimin. Johnny was sipping on a coffee with Sooyoung. Taeil was taking photos with his wife, Joohyun. Yuta, Jungwoo and Jaehyun were making food. Mark was laughing with his girlfriend, Soyeon. Doyoung was looking at you and Taeyong, when both of you arrived. Doyoung couldn't stop himself from looking at you. This dress complimented your body and your bueaty the best.

"Everyone let's drink. It's our Jaehyun's birthday." Johnny stood up with a glass of champagne in his left hand. "I can't believe you're already 27. We're all happy to be here and celebrate with you, dude."

The party was going great, everyone had fun, and none of the guests seem to be annoyed, or not having fun. Taeyong found himself sitting with Yuta playing games and drinking beer.

"Men are like children." Joohyun sat down next to you on the coach. "I can't believe they're almost in their 30s."

"Don't tell me that. Look at them, they're playing on the PlayStation as if they were teenage boys."

"At least we can have some time to ourselfes."

Joohyun was right. She was with Taeil since freshman year of the college. She was three years older than Moon Taeil and she was one of your closest female friends. Everyone looks up to her, since she was the oldest one in the friend group.

"Can I ask you something?" Joohyun looked at you waiting for your question. "Do you fight with Taeil often?"

"Hell yes! We fought in the morning because he didn't clean the bathroom like I asked him to."

"Did he do it after you had scolded him?"

"Of course. What kind of question is that?" She laughed at you, but you were dead serious. "Wait. Doesn't Taeyong do the same? You know, if you scold a man, then he's kind of irritated, but do it anyway out of respect for you."

"He doesn't. You see, I asked him to do something. I show him how to do things properly, so he won't have to need my help. I explain it like I'm speaking to a child. I do it about ten times per chore." You giggled at yourself. "Guess what. He doesn't do it. No matter how much I ask for, he either forgets, or doesn't do it at all."

Joohyun, for the first time ever since she has met you, felt bad for you. For the first time ever, Taeyong doubted her.

"I have no idea what to say, Y/N. It's not supposed to be like that. You're a duo after all."

"I don't think we're a duo, Joohyun."

For the rest of the night, Taeyong didn't give you attention, which you were thankful for. He got on your nerves enough. He was hanging out with his homeboys, enjoying himself, not worrying about you. In his mind, both of you have a perfect life. You are happy together, and you're madly in love. Maybe love is starting to be a too strong word for your feelings towards that man.

"Are you fine, Y/N?"

Doyoung smiled at you when you were sipping on a lemonade made by Johnny and Mark.

"I'm just tired after work and all this shit. And you? Are you fine?"

"It could be worse." He chuckled. "I see Taeyong isn't with you."

"Thank God. He's busy playing games."

"Still. I haven't seen you talking yet."

"We had a small fight before."

A reminder of that situation from before made you self conscious again. Your husband's words aren't supposed to make you feel the way they do.

"Was it serious or?"

"Not really. It was about my outfit, so nothing extreme."

"What do you mean by your outfit? You look stunning, I swear to God."

"Doyoung, can you be honest with him? We've known each other for almost ten years. We're friends." The man was busy thinking about what might come next out of your mouth. "Do I look bad? Be honest. Do I look worse than before? I don't know, am I not taking care of myself?"

It was a question directed at Doyoung because he was a person from a friend group that you've known for the longest. Actually, it was Doyoung who introduced you and Taeyong to each other. He knew him from high school, and he met you during the same classes at the business school. Kim Doyoung was a lovely nerd. Interested in Star Wars, books, and business. He used to collect plushies, he even gave you some of them. You always have wondered how Doyoung's world crushed with Taeyong's. Lee Taeyong was a popular jerk, interested in tattoos, rock, and trouble. For quite some time, you had a small crush on Doyoung. But then, you met Taeyong, and you fell head over heels over him.

"I don't see the point of this question. Isn't it obvious? Many guys from the department have a crush on you. I saw multiple strangers turn their necks when you passed by. You've always been pretty, Y/N."

"Now I feel better. Thank you, Doyie."

He was looking at you, once again, with his soft eyes. Sometimes, he wonders why you work him up so much.

"No problem. Remember, you're that girl. Don't let anyone say otherwise."

As you were about to respond, Taeyong showed up. He was drunk, and he could barely stand on his legs.

"Did you just call my wife pretty?"

"I did. We're friends, though. It's not that deep, Taeyong."

"I don't know, maybe you want to do something with her?" He was approaching you and Doyoung. Embarrassment fed your whole body as he got closer. "I don't like the way you talk to her."

"What's your fuckin problem, dude? I complimented her, since no one else bothers to do so. Like her husband, for example. Get it together, man."

You wish you could be gone for a second. Taeyong was drunk, and he had no clue what was going on.

"Shut the fuck up, Doyoung. You don't know shit."

"Calm down. You're wasted as fuck."

Everything that came after is now the past. The next thing you knew was Taeyong punching Doyoung straight into his nose. Blood was dripping on his shirt, and guys tried to grab him. You were shocked, and all you could do was scream at your husband. He was never that aggressive towards someone.

Jaehyun and Yuta were holding Taeyong, while Johnny and Haechan held Doyoung. Both males were calling each other names, while you wanted to disappear. Everyone was stunned. They had no idea such a storm was coming tonight. Best friends fighting over nothing.

"I'm leaving."

You got up, took your purse and coat, and left. Sooyoung called after you, but you were done for tonight. There was nothing you could do with your stupid husband. Leaving seemed like a good option.

"Get in." After a five-minute walk, a black Mercedes parked by your side. It wasn't your husband, though. "I won't let you go alone on a cold, dark night. Get in."

"You don't have to, Doyoung. I really -"

"I won't repeat myself."

Even after such a fucked up night, Doyoung had to be the one to take you home, not your husband. Does he even love you?

A week passed by, and nothing has changed. Both you and Taeyong would only see each other in the morning. Not even a simple "Hi" was exchanged. He was too embarrassed after what happened at Jaehyun's birthday.

"Y/N, we would love to move you a bit higher." Lee Sooman, your boss spoke to you. "We found your results to be the best out of the whole company. I want to promote you to a higher position and move you to the International Marketing department. Are you in?"

It was the day that would change your life the most. Working schedule was tighter, and you had to spend more hours weekly in the company. Chaeyoung was moved into the marketing department, so she was working with Taeyong. Everyone in the new floor was a stranger to you. These days, it's hard to find friends. Especially from work. Mark would always pass by your floor to say hello, though.

"Can I talk to Y/N?" Yuta's voice echoed through the office of the international marketing floor. "It's urgent and we need her. I'm from the Japanese unit."

Na Jaemin, your new co-worker, asked you to come. With a smile on, you saw Yuta waiting for you.

"What do you need, Yuta?"

"Are you the one who is in charge of France and Italy's orders?" You nodded at his words. "Well, I think that someone messed up and their orders came to Japan, and Japan's order came to France. Can you check it out with me?"

Both of you came to your desk and typed out the information about the order. Someone from the delivery unit must have mistaken the orders, that would have cost millions of dollars.

"I think you should call the international shipping floor, there's Seulgi. She may know what to do before the boss finds out."

When you were on your way back, Chaeyoung stopped you. She was smiling a bit.

"Can you help us, Y/N?"

It turns out that marketing and international marketing are supposed to make an ad together. You were picked as a person from the international floor, and Doyoung was picked from marketing.

"I'm glad I'm working with you, Doyoung."

"Me too. I would cry, if I had to work with Jeno or Xiaojun. They're a bit weird."

"I don't blame you." You laughed when you opened your laptop. "I think we should start today, and it would take about a week for us to finish. What's the theme of the ad?"

Doyoung took a look at his papers and then answered you.

"Youth. Progression. Victory."

"How the fuck are we supposed to do it?" In your head, you saw how much of a struggle this ad would be. "Any ideas?"

The time went by so fast, none of you noticed it was past 8 pm. Both of you got to work to make the best project you could ever do. Doyoung was a smart guy, and he knew exactly what to put in an ad to make it interesting.

While both of you were working, Taeyong didn't call you at all. You were supposed to be at home at 6, yet he didn't even care. He's probably still mad at you because of the fight.

"I'll drop you at home." Doyoung put his coat on, and looked at you to check if you're ready. "C'mon, Y/N."

"I feel bad. You're doing too much for me, Doyoung." It was truth, Doyoung didn't mind but to you it was wrong. Taeyong is supposed to help you, not his best friend. "Let me call Taeyong, he would pick me up."

"Waiting for his response, then."

It's ben almost 30 seconds and he didn't pick up. Another call. And another. Nothing. He wasn't going to pick up your calls tonight.

"I'm sorry. It's going to be the last time you're dropping me at home. For real."

Doyoung didn't answer but rather smiled at you. It was cute how much you didn't want to depend on him, but you did anyway.

Both of you were in a car talking about the details of the project when suddenly your stomach made a noise.

"Have you eaten anything today?"

"Lunch. Sandwiches."

"Y/N, it was at 1. It's 8. Are you hungry?"

"No, I'm fine." Another noise came from your stomach. "Okay, maybe a little."

"We're going to eat something. I'm hungry too."

When you were about to protest, Doyoung shushed you a bit. He parked by a restaurant next to the company. Both of you ordered the same thing and enjoyed the meal together inside.

"How much am I supposed to pay you back? I wasn't looking at the price."

"Don't worry, it's on me."

"Doyoung, I can't-"

"I said it's fine." He laughed. "Enjoy your meal and stop being so annoying."

It was the first time since you could've remembered when you were in a restaurant. The last time you were in a restaurant was with Taeyong on your birthday a few months ago. You couldn't explain why, but you felt the warmth you hadn't felt in a long time.

"Doyoung, I really want to thank you for everything you're doing for me." He stopped eating and focused on your words. "I have shitty time with my husband, work is getting on my nerves, and you're too nice to me'' It felt as almost you were crying. "You have no idea how much it does mean to me."

"Y/N, stop. I do it, and I'm not complaining at all. I like to spend time together, and it's not your fault that Taeyong is such an asshole. I wish he was a better husband. You deserve someone who will love you unconditionally."

After that, your evening got better. Doyoung took you on a small car trip around Seoul. He showed you some streets you hadn't seen before. Deep down, he knew you didn't want to come back home as soon as possible. He parked for a minute by the Han River.

"It's an amazing place. I feel like I'm 17 again, me and my friends go on trips here to follow our crushes from school."

"I did the same thing with boys. Me, Yuta, and Taeyong with Jonny would be here every day after classes because of Taeyong." He was laughing at himself. "Because of him and Kang Seulgi, we were here every day for hours. He wanted to look at her and ask her out. It never worked though, because she left for some time, then we were in business school, and he was dating you."

Kang Seulgi? Seulgi from the delivery department? From you company? Taeyong had crush on her? Suddenly you felt lightheaded, your vision became blurry, and tears appeared on you eyes. You had to take a few deep breathes to calm down.

"I've never heard about Taeyong and Seulgi? Why?"

"Fuck. I wasn't supposed to tell you then." It was an accident. Doyoung believed you were aware of Taeyong's first love. "I shouldn't tell you. Sorry, Y/N."

"It's too late, can you tell me more?"

"I shouldn't. I already have said too much."

"Doyoung, please. Taeyong never told me about Seulgi. I had no idea about another girl."

You felt hurt a bit, not because you were jealous. You were hurt because Taeyong was probably lying to you for these years. Was he in love with a girl that got away? That's why he doesn't care. You're not the one Lee Taeyong loves.

"They were seeing each other for months. He always had a thing for her. She rejected him a few times because she was supposed to move to Daegu for some time." Doyoung was looking far ahead, he didn't dare to spare you a look. "Seulgi left, he was depressed for weeks, then I met you. I introduced both of you to each other." Boy, how much does he regret that. "He was focused on you, then Seulgi came back. I guess they tried to talk, but he was dating you already."

"Now it all makes sense to me. Fuckin asshole." You weren't even hurt anymore. It seems like all the feelings for Lee Taeyong are gone. Even hate. "We've been together for the past 8 years. I've focused on him. I was like a maid! He was never there for me when I needed him the most, but I forgave him. I always did. I did this all to find out he was never truly in love with me. Bullshit." A sarcasstic laugh left your mouth while Doyoung was observing you. "Why would you ever introduce him to me? I would've dodged the bullet, Doyie. I wish you didn't."

Doyoung felt guilty, even though he shouldn't. In his eyes, Taeyong was a good man. He was sure his friend was treating you like a princess.

"Sorry, I felt he would be a good party for you. I don't know. But you can't say he doesn't love you. You don't know that."

"I think we both know that."

Awkward silence occurred between you.

"Listen, I do believe you deserve better. Don't mind him, maybe one day he will see what he has lost. Look at you, Y/N. You can't get such an asshole like him to make you feel bad. I love him, he's my best friend, but you're my friend too. I wish you would be happier."

His words were true and meaningful. Doyoung was right. You deserve better than that. In the heat of a moment, you turned your head towards him and kissed him.

"Fuck, sorry. I shouldn't, I don't know what I was thinking-"

He stopped you with a kiss. Much stronger kiss. It was like your mouths knew each other well. As if they were missing pieces together. It's been a long time since you've been kissed.

Best friends don't kiss each other's partners, and a wife doesn't kiss her husband's best friend. That was the truth. It's been a few days, and it was awkward between you and Doyoung. Taeyong apologized to you, and he tried to be a better man for you. Somehow, you felt a bit guilty because you were married, but honestly? You wished to wake up to Doyoung every day instead of Taeyong.

"I made you breakfast."

Taeyong got into the bedroom with a plate of toast and scrambled eggs.

"Thank you."

"That's it?"

"What else am I supposed to say?" You popped your eyebrow. "I've done breakfast for you for the past 8 years, give me a break already. It's the bare minimum, Taeyong."

"I thought you'd be happy."

"I am. Okay?"

It's too late to fix things now. Breakfast in bed won't fix the damage that has already been done to you. Deep down, you wanted to feel guilty, but you just couldn't.

In the company, everyone was busy. It's April. One of the busiest months for the company. You had hopes of passing by Doyoung. Your project got accepted, whichh made your comapany's saels higher. Mark would drop by to talk shit about your co-workers. Johnny bought you a coffee, and Sooyoung called to go shopping with you. Everything should go fine.

About 7 pm, when the company was almost empty, you saw a well known to you figure. He was putting his things together, probably about to leave the building.

"Can we talk? Like adults, please? Ignoring each other won't turn back time, Doyoung."

"It's not the best time for this conversation, the building is about to close down."

"Then let's talk somewhere else. Even at the stupid bench in the park."

He took a second to rethink his life decisions.

"Let's talk at mine."

After 15 minutes, both of you arrived at Doyoung's apartment. It was located in the center of Seoul. It was maybe the fourth time you've ever been there.

"I know it's bad and awkward. I'm married to your best friend, and we kissed each other, making out even." You chuckled because of your nerves. "I shouldn't have kissed you, I guess. Sorry. But please, let's talk. I kinda miss you." He looked at you, a bit shocked. "As friends, of course."

"Well, I really want to say I regret kissing you. Really." He was pacing around the living room. "But it would be a lie. Honestly? I enjoyed it, and I would do it again, and again, and again. I don't give a fuck about Taeyong now."

His statement made you blush. He was confident in himself and sure of what he was saying.

"Fuck, me too. I know how wrong it is, but I can't help myself."

Nothing else needed to be said. Doyoung dropped everything he had held. He was kissing you like a starved man. As if he hadn't been able to see you for ages. It's a forbidden romance, and you're enjoying it.

Next thing you knew was you being in his bedroom. He was slowly kissing you down your neck, while his hands were taking off your clothes. Everything felt magical.

"Can I?" He asked with hungry eyes, his fingers on the hem of your pants. "Please?"

"Please."

It was the best sex you've ever had. Taeyong usually didn't pay you much attention. He wanted to cum and he could care less if you did. Doyoung paid attention to you, and only you. He was focused on making you feel good. He loved your body and moans you left out your mouth.

"You're amazing. I wish it was me who dated you back then." Doyoung was holding you in a spoon. His fingers were circling your shoulder. "I like you."

"I like you too."

Since then, it has become a routine for you. Taeyong wasn't suspicious of anything. He was busy working with Seulgi. He couldn't lie, but he preferred to stay at the company until late hours to finish tasks with her. He thought you were having fun with Joohyun or Sooyoung. You and Taeyong barely talk to each other, but none of you seem to mind. This marriage was meant to fail from the beginning.

"Y/N." Mark touched your shoulder. "Can I ask you something?"

"Sure?"

"What were you doing at Doyoung's apartment last night? I was there to drop him off his laptop, but I saw you coming in."

This question made your heart drop. Romance between you and Doyoung was supposed to be a secret until you'd be responsible enough to divorce Taeyong.

"We're friends? And co-workers? I was doing research with him." You giggled. "What are you even thinking of?"

"Fuck, sorry. I shouldn't have asked." He was a bit embarrassed. "You wouldn't do anything harmful to Taeyong. I thought you were doing something weird with Doyoung."

"Mark, please. How could you think about it?"

"I don't know. I haven't seen you talk in weeks. He's always around Seulgi, you're meeting with Doyoung a lot, and both of you leave at different hours." He was a bit confused. "Are you guys fine?"

"Yes, we are fine, Mark. Don't worry too much."

The thought of being almost caught scared you. Your friends wouldn't understand you. They would blame you for cheating on your lovely, hardworking, and amazing husband. Especially, if you're cheating on him with his best friend. You were lonely, and you lost feelings for Taeyong long ago, he himself probably had lost them first, a long time ago.

"I know." Joohyun's word made you stressed. "Taeyong called asking about you. I covered for you every single time. You're cheating on him, right?"

It was supposed to be a chill meeting at your apartment with a coffee and cake. Joohyun loved you as if you were her sister.

"Before we go any further, don't judge me, please." You couldn't look her in the eyes. "I'm ashamed of myself, but I think that's how it was meant to be. You don't understand how it is to be with Taeyong. How is it to be unloved and ignored."

"Y/N, I'm not judging you at all. Me and Johnny support you. At first, Johnny was furious, and he couldn't believe it." She chuckled. "I guess, me too. I wasn't ready. But look at this. After Taeyong? I really admire you, and how you were able to move on with life.

"I know I'm the worst person on earth because of that. I'm ashamed to face him and tell him I want a divorce."

"Well, it's not a surprise. It's a tough topic. Let me ask you another question. Is it Doyoung?"

"How do you know?"

"It's obvious. Every time we've been gathering together, he could never take his eyes off of you."

After that, Joohyun and Johnny promised you to keep a secret. They didn't support cheating, but they couldn't blame you. Everyone thought you were living a great life with Taeyong, only to turn out it was the total opposite.

"I'll divorce him."

Doyoung was sitting on the chair on his balcony with you on his lap. He was finishing his glass of wine. As soon as he heard that, his eyes met yours.

"Are you sure? I don't want to force you into anything." He said, slowly carrasing your back. "I fear that Taeyong won't forgive us. I may lose my best friend."

"At first, I thought the exact same thing." You kissed his cheek. "But now, I completely hate this guy. I lost my femininity, myself, and energy because of him. I can't look at him, because all I see is how much he hurt me and me cheating on him."

"I'm here. I'm going to support you no matter what."

Both you and Doyoung told your friends you needed to go on a trip to Jeju. You had the time of your life there. Taeyong was texting you once in a while. Doyoung made your life interesting. He gave you something Taeyong could never.

Dark nigths going on a walks on the beach. Singing songs in a karaoke bar or in your room. Doing stupid teenagers shit. Life with Doyoung was different. You felt loved.

Joohyun invited everyone from the friend group to a BBQ. It was a usual Friday. Mark was in charge of drinks with Jungwoo. Johnny was in charge of the music. Taeyong was busy with his phone, while you and Doyoung cut fruits like Joohyun asked you to.

It should be a peaceful night. Only if Seulgi didn't show up. After she came, the atmosphere tensed. Jaehyun felt uncomfortable, so did Yuta and Taeil. You tried to ignore it, but Seulgi was all on Taeyong. In public. In front of everyone's eyes.

"Why is she here?"

"I don't know. Joohyun probably invited her." Doyoung sipped on his drink. "That's wild."

"It is. That's why I hate him. Look how shameless he is."

After some time, everyone was busy with something. Some were dancing, and some were singing old hits. You were on the coach, looking at your friends having fun.

"How are you, Y/N?" Jaehyun and Jungwoo sat down on both sides of you. "We saw you're sitting like a potato here."

"I'm not drunk enough to go up and dance."

"Then drink more!" Jungwoo handed you another drink. "We're having fun tonight!"

"Exactly. You can't be depressed or something."

They were right. Soon after, you had almost five different drinks, most of them being mixed with vodka. You were dancing with the girls, then with Yuta and Doyoung. You really had a lot of fun. Until Taeyong turned the music off.

"Everyone! Can I take a second of your time?" Everyone was confused. Your heartbeat was faster, and your hands started to sweat. "I'd like to share the wonderful news with you!" He was drunk. Drunk like on Jaehyun's birthday. It means trouble. "I don't know if any of you are aware of me and Y/N. My lovely wife."

You were quick to stand up and grab Taeyong.

"Let's go. Get yourself together you're embarrassing me."

"Let me go." He got out of your hold. "As you know, we've been married for 8 years! That's a long period, right? Well, I think someone might get bored of one another."

"Taeyong, please. Stop it."

Tears came into your eyes quickly. Everyone witnessing the scene was confused. Joohyun was fast to send Johnny to get Taeyong somewhere else.

"Johnny, leave me alone! I'd like to share something with you! Our lovely, sweet, and faithful Y/N is a cheating bitch! That's right!" He was laughing devilishly, while you were on a verge of a breakdown. "Isn't it crazy? We all think about her as of an angel. Look at her. She's not all that."

"I don't think you should do it, man." Jaehyun tried to get Taeyong's attention, but he wasn't listening.

"I should. My wife is fucking my best friend, and I should stay quiet? No way! Tell us, Y/N, how long have you been fuckin Doyoung?"

People left gasps. They all turned their heads towards you. Johnny and Joohyun felt anger. He should never done this to you in a public.

"Let her go, man. I'm not kidding." Doyoung stood up and pushed Taeyong. "Are you crazy? Did you forget about fuckin Seulgi? You're not saint after all."

It felt like a nightmare. Everything was going so fast, and you could only stand there shocked.

"I was faithful to her for the longest time ever! And look how did she pay me back."

"Don't be funny, Taeyong." You managed to say it, while wiping the tears away. "How can you do this to me? After what I've done to you. I never told anyone how much of a burden living with you was! Not even once! I was there with you when I was doing every chore for you! Every little thing you needed! I let you fuck me when I wasn't in the mood, because I cared about you!" You were screaming on top of your lungs. "Y'all can judge me. You can throw names at me, I don't care! I've never been happier. None of you understand what I went through."

Your friends were in shock. They never would guess what was coming. You and Taeyong fighting in the Johnny's backyard with a people around. All the dirty things you've ever done were mentioned.

"Don't act like a victim."

"Am I not? You were using me for everything. I lost my will to live, Taeyong. You're a selfish motherfucker, who had never loved me. You've been in love with Seulgi since the beginning. You lied to me, ruined my life and I wasted all those years."

"I want a divorce."

"Me too. I hate you, Taeyong."

With that, all your group friends were confused. Joohyun, Johnny, and Doyoung gave you support. Taeil and Sooyoung reached out to you too. Mark,Haechan, Yuta and Jungwoo were confused about what to do. Jaehyun had no idea what to think, until Johnny changed his mind. They were uncomfortable with everything that'd been said that day.

Taeyong blocked your number, packed your things, and threw you out of your shared apartment. You had no choice but to move in with Doyoung.

"I love you, Y/N. I think I always did."

"I wish I had married you first." Both of you chuckled on the way to the court. "Imagine what we would have done in these years. I'm grateful we have so much to explore about each other."

Doyoung never let you down, or doubted you, or your trust. He gave you loved, you were craving for. He was a missing puzzle to your life. He helped you understand yourself, and improve yourself.

"Mr. and Mrs. Lee, oficially you've been divorced. Mrs. Y/N, succesfuly, you dropped Lee from your last name. I wish both of you happines on a new life's path."

It would be the end of the chapter titled Taeyong, now you're beinning a new one with your true love.

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errihaienx · 1 year

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Hola! can you plz do an atsumu fluff? if u're freeee tysm in advance. have a nice day <3<3<3

i had fun writing this and i'm sorry it kinda turned into a suggestive one , but i think this is fluff! i swear ?? lol i'm sorryyyy (っ˘̩╭╮˘̩)っ

quick disclaimer: these scenarios don't affect the original plot of the series. any information or events that contradict the original plot are purely fictional. (i do not own any of the characters) + Suggestive themes at the end (I did not proofread this , please read the a/n at the end!)

post-timeskip : ATSUMU X Reader situation: Atsumu demands for a kiss that leads to something..

ATSUMU is a loud and clingy boyfriend. Currently whining about you not giving him a kiss before his training, he keeps on bugging you.

"Can you get your hands off me even for a bit 'tsumu! i'm doing the dishes!" you hissed, ignoring you he clung to you more.

he kissed your neck and whined again

"ya are such a meannie! all ya do is to nag me, don't ya even love me anymore?"

annoyed, you faced him and he gave you this sheepish smile. you sighed and wiped your hands on his shirt, expecting to earn a protest. he then held your hand helping you to fully dry your hands with his already wet clothes.

"You're extra clingy now 'tsumu…" you mumbled

thinking that maybe he did something wrong and that is why he's acting like this

"I'm always like this baby, what are ya talking about hmmm"

you gave him a quick peck before facing the chores you delayed because of him.

"Not facing me again, i did not have my kiss earlier today and ya are ignoring me again! am I gonna die?! What did I do?!?" Atsumu dramatically stated.

you rolled your eyes though he couldn't see you can't help but to smile, you've been together for years now and he never changed. Atsumu always tries his best to treat you what you deserve.

"Babeeeeeee are ya seriously ignoring me? what did I do?!?! Is it because I forgot to shower last night before I cuddle ya up? come on, I still smell good!" Atsumu wailed

actually the reason why you're not giving him the hundred percent of your attention is simply just because you're washing the dishes but your dramatic and overreacting boyfriend made it like it's a big deal.

but since he opened up the topic about him not showering before clinging to you a night ago, you decided to use that as an excuse.

"yeah, shower now and I'll give you what you want" you simply replied.

while wiping your hand, you looked at him and saw him with his eyebrows furrowed and irritated. You raised an eyebrow warning him, and the defeated atsumu rushed to shower.

Atsumu often shower for fifteen minutes, but your tired eyes couldn't seem to wait for him and dozed off.

minutes later he finished and he ended up seeing you prettily 'sleeping'

"I'm done babe, ya can now stop the act and gimme my hugs"

his sudden talking made your senses awake but you ignored him. trying to chase the rest you've been waiting for.

"I did not have my kiss this morning and you claimed that you're just asleep so I let it slide. will you also use that excuse again huh?" Atsumu, with his serious voice made your system go wild

yes there's no doubt that atsumu is playful and a goofball but what you don't understand is he can change his demeanor very quick, sometimes it scares you but it is actually….kind of sexy..

lost in your thoughts you haven't uttered a single word, which made you nervous. something's gonna happen, for sure.

"I see, so that's how it is… lemme have you by crook then.."

shocked, you faced him as fast as you can but he's now looking at you with his hypnotizing brown orbs intently. you couldn't see his sparkling full of love eyes, at this very moment his eyes reflects desire.

"I'm t-trying to-"

You didn't have the chance to finish your sentence as his large physique towers you.

This is a draft, but I decided to post it now because I'm working on something that takes a lot of time to do and I still want to post an update for you guys! This was sitting on my drafts for days now, and actually I'm not really satisfied with this work so I was hesitant to post this. The next update will be about HQ Captains again. And hopefully after that I already finished what I'm currently writing now, please bare with me!

#atsumu x reader #atsumu x you #atsumu fluff #atsumu imagines #atsumu scenarios #atsumu miya #haikyuu x reader #hq x reader #miya atsumu #atsumu #haikyuu hcs #atsumu hcs #atsumu headcanons

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just-zodiac · 4 years

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The Zodiac Signs at a therapist :

Therapist: Cap, Can you tell me How you always look so calm.

Capricorn: Oh, I’m not. People just can’t tell when I’m panicking, because I’m always panicking.

Therapist: Ok, let's talk to Leo. You said that you experienced death?

Leo: yes, I was in a restaurant and I think the waiter poisoned my drink.

Scorpio: No, that was me.

Therapist: wait.. What? Why would you do that?

Scorpio: I’m that kind of person who between two choices always picks the wrong one.

Leo: WHAT was the other choice you had you freak!!

Scorpio: to admit that I actually like you.

Leo: Are you trying to impress me? Because so far you’re doing a great job.

Aquarius: Do we look like we give a fuck?

Therapist: Ok let's hear you Aqua. Why are you here today, what is wrong with you?

Aquarius: Well, that depends on how much time you have. Do you want the short or the long answer?

Libra: she just asked a simple question, don't give her a full lecture.

Aquarius: Maybe you should have thought about that before you dragged me into this then.

Libra: Uh, so we have a problem.

Aquarius: Yeah, it's you and your dumb ideas.

Cancer: calm down guys, Why do we fight over stupid shit?

Capricorn: Because you say stupid shit.

Aries: You know, you are right.

Capricorn: About what, specifically? Because I’m right about a lot of things.

Cancer: shut up Aries and try to Learn from the mistakes of others. You can’t live long enough to make them all yourself.

Aries: believe me I can and I can create an exclusive one as well.

Therapist: whoa guys, you two have a lot of intense feelings here, Why don't you just sit down and talk to each other about it?

Aries: Because there's nothing I want to say to Cancer and Virgo other than fuck off.

Virgo: what the hell? If you have a problem with me, you can say it to my face.

Aries: I don't have a problem with you. You are the problem in general.

Virgo: and You're a walking disaster.

Aries: I can't argue with that one.

*Pisces knocks on the door and steps in*

Gemini: What the fuck are you doing here?!

Pisces: Yes, I'm terribly happy to see you too.

Gemini: Idiot.

Pisces: C'mon, stop talking about yourself for once.

Therapist: please, be nice to each other.

Gemini: I am being perfectly fucking civil.

Therapist: Why do you constantly try to piss Gemini off?

Pisces: Because it's so fun and easy.

Sagittarius: so, How long after arriving at someone’s place is it appropriate to ask for the WiFi password?

Therapist: we're here to have a conversation with each other, do you have something you would like to share with us?

Sagittarius: Studies show that I literally did not ask for this, we were forced here by Libra.

Libra: oh for God's sake, I wanted all of you to express your emotions.

Capricorn: I don’t have any.

Gemini: Is “no” an emotion, because I feel it.

Leo: I have many emotions I need to express, Honestly, sometimes you just gotta let me be dramatic. Because I will get over it. But let me be dramatic first!

Scorpio: Hey Leo, If you listen carefully you can hear me whisper “shut the fuck up” at least once every five minutes.

Leo: It’s not my fault that You don’t talk much.

Scorpio: I’m observing your weaknesses since you’re so freely verbalizing everything about yourself.

Therapist: Okay, Okay take a breath everyone, especially you Taurus because you devoured the cupcakes I made for the all of you.

Taurus: Cupcakes are important to my mental health.

Libra: Oh seriously?

Taurus: Would you believe me if I answered ?

Libra: Do I look like an idiot?

Taurus: Do you want me to answer that truthfully?

Libra: you're so full of hate.

Taurus: I don't allow myself to be full of hate, I allow myself to be full of pasta instead.

Aquarius: I am So tired of being human, I want to be an Alien.

Taurus: Excuse me, I have to go and vomit.

Therapist: back to you Cancer, how are you feeling so far?

Cancer: I’m nothing but a constant state of internal screaming at this point.

Therapist: aren't you overreacting?

Cancer: Me? Overreacting? Probably.

Sagittarius: don't worry, If you ever feel stupid, or weak, or powerless, just remember that I, am not.

Libra: Well this social situation isn't going the way It went in my head.

Virgo: That is so not how it went!

Libra: You weren't in my head and you're drunk right now. Quit arguing with me.

Pisces: you brought us here because you imagined us doing this in your head?

Libra: I love you guys.

Capricorn: That's your business not ours *leave*

Taurus: maybe listen to me next time I tell you not to do something stupid. *takes the rest of the cupcakes and leaves*

Cancer: my mental health was working just fine before you brought me here. *leaves*

Gemini: You know, sometimes I think you do dumb shit on purpose just to see how I'll react. *leaves*

Libra: You're not wrong.

*the rest of The Signs leaves*

Leo: Anyways, Do you ever feel like a 4 times divorced 45 year old woman that smokes cigarettes in her fur coats on a grand piano? Cause I do and it’s sad.

Therapist: we're done here, get out.

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rustchickadee · 3 years

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I had a shit day yesterday, the kind where you're sitting in public waiting for a private moment so you can cry -- but then you get somewhere private and the tears won't come out even though there's a massive lump in the back of your throat.

I'm already fucking drained, cuz my group home is doing the exact opposite of the little I ask them to do. I'm not a high maintenance client -- I don't ask much -- just for them to give me transport to school and to respect some of my bigger triggers. And they can't even do that. And then they accuse me of overreacting, and it's exhausting and stupid and invalidating...and I'm trying to move out but it all comes down to resources and all of that stupid shit.

Last week in one of my SW classes, a girl told me I shouldn't talk about the state hospital because she had PTSD and it was triggering to her. And I have my own feelings about that, such as using the word triggering instead of uncomfortable, and the fact that everything I said was related to the class which is an inherently uncomfortable class, and just...tiredness from people saying hearing about my life is triggering when they've never even come close to like, you know, actually living it.

My professor said he was going to talk to the class about triggers and to take care of themselves but not to censor others. And he did I guess, but he said it in a way that has made me decide to just not talk anymore. He basically said, "you need to take care of yourselves and your triggers, and you shouldn't censor yourselves -- but if there's a little voice in your head saying "maybe this isn't the right thing to say" then don't say it."

I don't know if I'm being oversensitive or not, but I felt like he placed a lot of emphasis on the whole "little voice in your head" which felt like a direct insinuation to both my classmates and me that I shouldn't have spoken on what I did.

I ended up getting high and going roller skating and out with my friend, which was super nice and I'm not hungover at all today because I took a small amount -- it was a nice high with no fallout.

Obviously that's contributing to my questioning why I can't just get high every night, if I'm fine in the morning. Which connects more so to the fact that I am so so so tired of my life being triggering to others.

Not because I'm invalidating their triggers or whatever (though I would argue that some of them are more uncomfortable than triggered) but because THINK ABOUT HOW THAT FUCKING FEELS?!

Like, I lived this shit and it is NORMAL to me. It just is. It's just what happened, it's what I know, it isn't this big scary thing to me -- it's my life. And it's so so hurtful when people tell me that me just sharing basic facts of my daily fucking living is "too much" for them. That THEY can't handle it. That I'm creating an unsafe space for them by literally just talking about my life.

Like, what am I supposed to talk about? I have the inherent experiences that shape who I am, my perspective on life, my values...and you're asking me to pretend it doesn't exist? That I should shape my life into something comfortable for you? Who am I if not my experiences? Everything about me is what happened to me.

And I don't know what to do. I don't know how to be Good Enough for others. I don't know how to talk about my life without giving a reality, so what am I supposed to do? And yeah, it makes me want to kill myself. It gives me urges. People are telling me that I'm not allowed to talk about my fucking life, and have the audacity to insinuate that their own uncomfortableness with my life is worse than what I went through actually fucking living it.

Whatever, I have class. And therapy later. I think this will be the first time I cry in front of Dr. V, so get ready for that update later.

#me #update #oh fuck im sad

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ayu-shiridara · 4 years

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Fall pt.3 (George Weasley X Reader)

Hello, so I just hope you like it. If you're interested to read part 1 and part 2

Summer holidays are the best. But this summer you're not staying at the burrow because Fleur and Bill are staying there. And Fred and George are in their shop. You're currently staying with Lupin and Tonks. You can't go to Diagon Alley because you're on the Animagus process. You don't leave your room for a month and haven't seen George. You missed him so much. But you don't want to repeat the process of being an Animagus process again. Plus you're doing it illegally with the help of Remus Lupin and Nymphadora Tonks. Even George doesn't know about this. A month having a leaf of mandrake on your mouth. Today is you're all expecting for an electrical storm. You're reciting a chant of incantation for millions of times with the tip of your wand placed over your heart. Thankfully you didn't fall to recite it. Finally, the storm came and the last lighting struck you are placed in a large secure room and recited the chant incantation.

"Amato Animo Animato Animagus, " you said and drank the potion.

And you transformed into a bird. A Eurasian magpie. You suddenly recall George's Patronus. You flew around the room and transform back into witch form.

"Well done (Y/N), " Remus said happily

"We're so proud of you, " Tonks said

"Thank you, I wouldn't accomplish it without your help, " You said

"You have to stay for a week to train your new achievement, " Remus said

You're euphoric right now. Happiness can't be described in words. After a week of training, Remus sent you to Leaky Cauldron to enjoy your remaining days of summer vacation. After dinner, you receive an owl from a close friend of yours.

(Y/N) I'm going to Joke Shop tomorrow wanna come with me? Going to check the twins Mrs Weasley asked me to, and I have news to announce. If you will come, meet me at Ollivanders.

Levi Kreisten

Finally, you will be able to see George again. You were so excited about tomorrow. The next day you went down to have your breakfast and change to comfortable dress. You went to Ollivanders and saw a familiar figure, a girl with different eye colours, wearing a blouse skirt and coat. You can see her usual emotionless face.

"Let's go, " she said calmly.

You nodded and both of you walked to Weasley Wizard Wheezes. You entered the shop and saw a lot of products placed neatly on the shelves. A lot of costumers are examining the products.

"Ladies, what can I do for you?" You heard a voice from behind said.

"Freddie, I missed you, " you said and hugged him.

"Oh, it's you two, I missed you too (Y/N), " Fred said and hugged you back.

"Georgie, look who we have here, special shoppers, " Fred yelled.

Suddenly another redhead appeared out of nowhere. It's George your boyfriend. You longed his presence for months. You excitedly hugged him. And snog him in front of Fred and Levi. You don't care anymore you missed him so much. You longed for his touch.

"Children cover your eyes, " Fred yelled.

You rolled your eyes and smiled at George.

"Where have you been? I haven't heard anything from you for a month, " He said.

"Sorry Georgie I will explain it to you later," you said.

"What brings you here?" George asked Levi raising an eyebrow.

"In the one who invited (Y/N) to come with me here to see you and you're going to ask me what brings me here with that kind of gaze, you ungrateful swine," Levi said and glared at George.

You're not really planning to visit George today because you're tired. Levi is right she's the reason why you're here at the Joke Shop.

"Calm down woman, " Fred said.

"Sorry and thanks, " George said and smiled at her.

"Why don't you go upstairs and spend some time together, but don't ever think about having -, " Fred said but Levi hit him hard not finishing his sentence.

You already knew what he means. Of course, you know that you're too young to do such a thing.

"He's right, don't worry about the shop I'll fill your duty with this git for today, " Levi said.

You nodded and George leads you upstairs to their flat.

"This is amazing, " you said in astonishment.

"I know right. It's because of your brilliant boyfriend, " George said proudly.

"It's more believable if you said 'because of your brilliant boyfriend's twin, " you said teasingly.

He rolled his eyes playfully and you hit him lightly. You two sat on the settee while your head is resting on his chest and his arms on your waist.

"Where have you been?" George asked.

"With Lupin and Tonks, " you replied shortly.

"And what did you do there?" George asked curiously.

"Animagus, I'm an unregistered animagus, " you whispered to his ear.

"Did you really?" George asked.

"Yes, love, " you said and grinned at him.

"Breaking one of the wizarding rule eh?" George said.

You didn't say a word and move closer to him. The tip of your nose is touching. George lay down the couch and now you're at the top of him. You move closer and pressed your lips into his. You crave for his lips. His touch everything about him. He moves his lips to your neck and placed kisses on it. You switched places now he's on top of you. Suddenly the door swung open revealing Levi and Fred. You accidentally pushed George making him fell on the floor because you're shocked.

"Blimey, I told you not to make any funny business, " Fred yelled.

He helped George get up.

"You're overreacting Freddie, " George said.

"We're not going to do that stuff, " you said.

"Fix yourselves were going out for lunch, " Levi said.

"Lunch?" George asked.

"Yes? Do you reckon we're going to wait downstairs and starve ourselves?" Levi said.

"We have groceries on the refrigerator, let's just cook something for lunch, " George suggested.

"Do you know how to cook?" You asked George.

"Of course I can cook, " George said proudly.

"Oh really, " Levi said and went to the kitchen limping.

"Why are you limping?" Fred asked and followed her.

"Come on love, " Georgie said.

You extended your arms and George carried you to the kitchen placing you down on one of the dining chairs.

"I'm going to help, " you said.

But you don't know how to cook. Fred was helping Levi. Minutes passed both Levi and George looked disgruntled. Because you and Fred burnt the meat.

"What a terrible cook you are, " Levi and George both said.

You and Fred laughed at those two. You decided to just sit down and watch them.

"George, fix that burnt meat, " Levi said.

After an hour the lunch is finally served. While eating your lunch George whispered something to your ear.

"We're going to leave a love potion on the counter let's find out the secret of this two, " George whispered to your ear.

Fred noticed that George is saying something to you so he kicked George's leg. George did the same but he kicked the wrong leg. Levi winced in pain.

"Ouch, that's my leg, " Levi said.

"What's wrong with you? You're limping and you look a bit peaky." You said.

"It's nothing, " Levi replied.

"You said you're going to tell us something, " you said.

"Ah! I'm going to train as an Auror next month, " she said.

"Are you sure you can?" George asked teasingly.

"Of course I can, " Levi said glaring at George.

You noticed that Fred's face suddenly change. He looked unhappy.

"What's with that face?" You asked Fred.

"Aren't you happy for her?" George said.

"I am! I'm delighted that she will achieve her dreams someday, " Fred said and faked a smiled.

After lunch, Fred and Levi are cleaning the table, you and George went downstairs and opened a love potion in one of the shelves near the counter. You grabbed an extendable ear and went upstairs.

"We're going downstairs to assist the costumers, have fun lovers, " Fred said.

Levi and Fred left the room and closed the door. You and George went to the stairs and used the extendable ears.

"I bet Levi will notice it before Fred does, "You said.

"No, my Freddie will notice it first, " George said.

"You owe me 10 galleons of Levi noticed it first, " You said.

"And you owe me 10 galleons if Freddie noticed it first, " George said

You opened the extendable ears and listen to the noise downstairs.

"Why does this shop smells weird did you spill your perfume all over the place?" Levi asked Fred.

"You owe me 10 galleons, darling, " you whispered to George's ear.

"Did not, you're the one who spills your perfume all over the shop, " Fred complained.

"Definitely not!" Levi told him.

You and George are laughing hard silently. It's confirmed that those two fancies each other.

"Wait is that a love potion?" Levi said pointing the love potion you opened on the shelf near the counter.

Levi looked upstairs and noticed the extendable ears. She saw both of you and George laughing. Then she grabbed the daily prophet on the counter and rolled it. You and George immediately pulled the extendable ears and run inside the flat and closed the door.

"I'm going to kill you, gits, " Levi said.

"Georgie how could you set us up, " Fred said.

After a few minutes, you heard silence. You and George went downstairs and saw Levi and Fred busy assisting and entertaining the costumers. Cracking jokes sharing laughter with the children and teenagers. You and George joined them. Enjoying every moment the day finally ends and George asked you to stay in their flat for the night because Fred is going to the Burrow.

"Once again no funny business okay, " Fred said and left the store with Levi.

You and George went upstairs and rested on the couch.

"D'you reckon we should close the shop for now?" George asked.

"I don't think so, maybe when the students go back to Hogwarts, this shop is amazing, remember what Professor Dumbledore said 'Happiness can be found even in the darkest of time if one only remembers to turn on the light' this shop is one of the lights in the dark and you turned it on that's why people, children, teens they love your shop because it's their happiness, does that make sense?" You said.

George smiled at you.

"Thanks, love, " He said and buried his face on your shoulder. Both of you stayed like this until you fell asleep.

The following day Fred went back to the shop early. Before you went back to the Leaky Cauldron you help them fix some stuff.

"Fred I will go with (Y/N), I'll come back before the shop opens, " George yelled.

"Sure, " Fred replied.

Both you and George went to the Leaky Cauldron. The owner said that the Leaky Cauldron will be temporarily closed. Because they are afraid that the Dark Lord might come and take their lives.

"Where will I stay?" You asked yourself.

"That's not a problem love, you can stay at our flat, " George said.

"But-" before you finish you words George cut you off.

"No buts, come on let's pack your things, " George said and grabbed your hand.

He helped you pack your things and you walked back to the Joke Shop.

"You're back!" Fred said.

"Yeah, the Leaky Cauldron kicked everyone out, " George sighed.

"So you're staying here? That's fine you can stay in my room, " Fred said.

"Pardon?" You said.

"You can stay at Freddie's room, he'll be leaving tonight and stay at the Burrow, " George said.

"What about the shop?" You asked.

"I'm sure you two can handle it, and before you go back to Hogwarts we will close it until the war ends, " Fred said.

"Yeah, we will stay at the Burrow on your last week, " George said.

"The others will visit the shop tomorrow, " Fred said.

"Come on darling let's fix your stuff upstairs," George said.

You nodded and head upstairs. The following day the Weasleys arrive the shop with Harry and Hermione.

"When did you get here?" Mrs Weasley asked.

"Yesterday, the Leaky Cauldron kicked everyone out for a good reason, " you said.

"Why don't you stay at the Burrow?" Ginny asked.

"I'm doing fine staying with the Twins, " You said.

"(Y/N)!" Hermione exclaimed giving you a hug.

You hugged her back and give Harry and Ron a hug too.

"Where have you been?" Hermione asked.

"I live with Professor Lupin and Tonks for a month, " You said.

You noticed that George and Fred disappear from the crowded store. You're wondering where he went.

The following week you and George arrive at the Burrow. You placed your belongings in Ginny's room. It's nightfall and everyone was outside. Only Mr and Mrs Weasley are inside. You want go out but Mrs Weasley told you not to. You can hear Levi's voice scolding the twins. While the others are laughing. You want to go outside badly.

"(Y/N) dear, change your clothes and wait for someone to go and fetch you upstairs okay, " Mrs Weasley said and handed you a dress.

What are these clothes for? You were confused at this moment. You don't know what's going on. A minute after changing your clothes someone entered the room. It's Ginny, Hermione, Fleur and Levi.

"Ready?" Ginny asked.

"Ready for what?" You replied curiously.

Levi blindfolded you and they lead you downstairs.

When you removed the blindfold you're at the forest where you and George used to walk every morning.

"How did I get here?" You asked yourself.

No one was there except for a Crookshanks. You followed him and he leads you to a tree. A glowing tree. Suddenly George appeared out of nowhere. Handing you a rose.

"My Lady, " he said.

Romantic music played and he grabbed your hands and placed on his shoulder while placing his hands on your waist. You two started to dance.

"What is this for?" You asked him.

"I planned this for months, " he said grinning at you.

After the romantic dance, he knelt in front of you pulling a small box from his pocket.

"(Y/N)(L/N) you're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen. I fell for you since the day you literally fall on me. I know we're still young for this but I want the world to know that you're mine, " he said.

You're speechless and don't know what to say.

"(Y/N) I love you so much, can't even imagine my life without you. I want to do this before the war. Will you marry me?" He said and opened the box revealing a ring.

Tears of joy stream down your face. Seeing the man you love in front of you proposing is the best thing that happened to your life.

"Yes, " you said.

He placed the ring in your finger and kissed you. After the proposal, you and George head back to the burrow. You can see the busy Weasleys with Potter, Granger and Kreisten setting the table.

"We're back!" George announced.

"So?" Mrs Weasley said.

"I said yes!" You said happily.

Everyone cheered. Everyone was happy.

"You're officially a member of Weasley family, " Mrs Weasley said.

Fred who was opening a fire whiskey was scolded by Mrs Weasley.

"Frederick Weasley put that down, underage wizards can't drink that, " Mrs Weasley yelled.

"But mum we're not underage, " Fred said.

"No, no liquor for tonight, " Mrs Weasley said.

You and George laughed at him.

"Welcome to the family sister in law, " Fred said and winked at you.

You all settled down and have your dinner. This was the best night ever.

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You crossed hands on your chest. Except a cool wind on your face and tiredness, you felt pressure in your stomach. Kostya was just going down the stairs from a building of a studio. Artem was going to pick him up home at the same time when he was driving you to work. You didn't think it was a good idea after your fight but it would it be ridiculous to avoid Kostya all the time.

-Hi- he said, buttoning his dark coat. He seemed tired after whole night of working. It must have been childish but as soon as you saw Kostya moving to back doors, you changed direction and took a seat next to driver. Boys exchanged few words but there was long silence for next minutes of driving. You looked away when you caught Kostya's gaze in front mirror.

- We should all go out for drink when we're done - Artem suggested when he stopped on parking.

- Who do you mean?- Kostya asked without any enthusiasm in his voice.

- Who else? All of us. Like always.

- I don't think I'll have time - You added quickly - I won't get free day from my boss so- no.

- I meant evening..

- I'm not in mood- You interrupted Artem, trying to hold your anger.

- Okay. Thanks for picking me up - Kostya sighed like he was tired of listening both of you and he opened doors to leave car - Bye.

- Bye..- Artem murmured. You wanted to yell at him but you kept looking at window in silence when he started car again.

- No free day? Really?

- Really - You snarled - Don't suggest some time together when it's so unbearable for you to see me with Melovin.

- It was annoying when you acted like some lovebirds but I want us to be like we were at the beginning.. - Artem stared after some break for contemplation- But now you're acting weird.

The problem was there was no chance for things to be like they were. And now he was blaming you?

- Because you made me feel guilty and now you blame me for feeling uneasy! - You raised your voice - Like I did something wrong. I don't know how to act to not to make you angry.

It wasn't about trying to make Artem feel more important and not giving him reasons to feel jealous. You was fighting with your own feelings but you also felt that your boyfriend only thought about his own. It's been a while since you started to get irritated by more things that he was doing.

- Okay. I might overreact about your friendship with Mel but I was scared that we're growing apart. I'm sorry. - Artem said calmly, seeing your emotional reaction. He stopped a car in front of office and slowly pulled you close. When he hugged you, it suddenly felt even worse. It was like you was a traitor by letting him comfort you after what you've been imagining about Kostya before.

- I gotta go to work. I'll be late - You said and left without goodbye before Artem did something that might make things worse like kissing you.

***

Looking at your phone and sitting. That's all what you was doing at studio. Things were taking too long time so you stood up and grabbed your bag.

- Did you lost your voice today?- You heard Kostya's voice behind your back - You didn't say a word since you're here.

He didn't talk to you till now. He actually ignored you all this time and it was annoying. You hoped things to be like they were before but for some reason you felt upset and it seemed that Kostya did too.

- Why would I talk? I'm not in mood - You said with anger in voice. You looked at doors. Artem was still away. You even didn't know where he went. He just answered phone and left.

- Who the hell he thinks I am? Some middle school kid that he can take to his job anytime he wants? - Your thoughts turned into words. Kostya putted away his notes and looked at you.

- If you hate coming here, who forced you to come?

- Oh, I'm sorry that I offended you with my presence - You snarled. Your expression must have looked quite scary because Kostya's gaze softened.

- What's gotten into you today?- He asked you very calmly what surprised you.

- Nothing. You're right that I shouldn't come here. I don't even know why I wanted to come here earlier.. I'd rather lie in bed whole day - You said, turning to exit but Kostya grabbed your wrist.

- Hey..- He started, waiting till you will look at him. He seemed worried.- What happend? What's bugging you?

- I'm just tired - You cut off - Please, just tell Artem I went home.

He was going to say something to stop you but his editor entered room. You used this opportunity to get away with conversation and leave but you didn't realised how stubborn Kostya was. Few hours later your phone started ringing. You hesitated to answer at first but you knew that he would eventually call you again.

- Hey. How are you feeling?

Kostya's caring voice caught you off guard but it was so pleasant to hear and you couldn't deny it.

- I'm.. fine.

- I'm on my way.

- What?- You almost coughed up - Are you serious?

- Why? What's wrong about it?

- You don't need to come - You said quickly, walking nervously from room to another room.

- But I want to - Kostya said before you foud another excuse - I want to talk with you.

- About what?

- I'm will be in ten minutes. See you.

You cursed when he disconnected. When you heard footsteps, you came to doors. You had no idea why you opened them before Kostya even rang or knocked but it was just impulse. He was clearly surprised, seeing you.

- Hi.. You couldn't wait to see me?

It seemed like he tried to joke but his laugh seemed forced.

- What's going on?- You asked, closing doors behind him and moving to guest room. Kostya stood in front of high table. You didn't sit either.

- When Artem is still not here I wanted to ask you if everything is fine between you and him..- He started and awkwardly looked away when your eyes met with his- Stupid to ask. It's clearly something wrong. He didn't want to tell me but I can see something is off.

- I told you before. He seemed jealous. I was right. He didn't like us being that close. He felt left out.

- So that explains why you're angry lately.. But maybe he has a reasons?

- Bullshit- You said impulsively. What was he implying? It took him a while before he looked at you again and continued.

- I started wondering when Dasha scolded me - He murmured.

- Scolded you?

- She asked me why I was flirting with you and called me dumbass.

Kostya's gaze was blending into you and it was a kind of gaze you've seen when you talked alone in kitchen at his flat. You was as tensed as you was right now. Kostya followed you when you tried to distract yourself and do something in room. When you moved chair, you felt his hand and your arm.

- Why are you acting this way?

- I mean.. Who cares about some slander?- You said and he grabbed your arm when you tried to walk away. - It's not true. She was reading too much into it. This conversation is just pointless..

- But what if I was really doing it?- He interrupted you- What can I do then?

You was trying to understand if you wasn't wrong. He meant that he intentionally wanted you to feel attracted to him.

- Why did you do this? - You asked him with weak voice, feeling scent of his skin close to you. His hands were warm and his eyes were glowing. Before you realised that he moved closer, sudden touch of his lips stopped on your lips. Your heart beated very fast and your fingers clenched on material of his shirt. You didn't kiss him back but you also didn't want to stop him and your hand stopped on his chest. You moved away and took deep breath.

- Stop..

- I'm sorry - You heard his whisper when you turned away.

- It’s crazy- You murmured, nervously fixing your hair.

- You think I don't know it? I just ruined everything but it was driving me crazy- Kostya started talking and moving to your direction- I only wanted to talk to you but I just wanted to kiss you and I would do it again but..

- Kostya, please..

- Let me finish. I never knew it will end up like this but I started to like you more and more - He continued and didnt get discouraged, seeing you shaking your head with disbelief- I thought it's just a short crush and I tried to hide it but I'm not good in such things. That time when I said I chose wrong number, I lied. I stopped myself but you called me back. I started to feel annoyed when I was seeing you with Artem so I tried to avoid you. It's been long time since I had feelings for someone but I don't think I felt this way for anyone before.

- You..

- I think you charmed me right when we met and I felt we're soul mates. I wanted you to know because I can't stand acting that everything is fine. I feel bad because I hate seeing you with Artem.

- Kostya.. You know it's wrong. I don't know what to say - You said, sitting down, avoiding his gaze.- I would never know it will turn into something serious.

- Me too- He sounded sad. For a second you wanted to comfort him. - But you don't need to say anything. I'm going to move out to other city to not to see you. So since now don't be surprised that I'm not around and let’s not contact each other. I don't want to interfere between you two.

- I understand- You murmured.

- I'm sorry for my behaviour- He said after he slowly stood up from chair- I had no right. I'll better go now.

- I can't tell Artem anything- You added, staring at back of shiloutte. He stopped. - I don't want to hurt him.

- Me neither. I hope you both will be fine soon.

He didn't turn to you and left in silence. When doors were closed, you let yourself to release your feelings. You started to cry.

- No. We won't.

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