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dreamingunderacloudysky Ā· 9 days ago
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summary of my fandom headspace as of late.
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happy-tori-friends Ā· 7 months ago
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Splendont/Lifty (ft Shifty) - "You're going to get sick if you keep coddling me." "And you're just going to get worse if I don't..."
this was requested by me and myself. currently my 3 lines for wonderous tails is i pick a prompt and do it. i uh. didn't get three lines.
what happened was i did trial roulette in ffxiv while levelling pictomancer and got a trial i Loathe (we wiped a handful of times). then i sat in the long ass dps queue for main scenario roulette only to get porta decamura. i said id do one extra prompt if i got that, and id reblog a kink meme for prompts if i got praetorium. the third dungeon was just me streaming the next day. i decided to do all three so for the nsfwers look forward to that being reblogged to a happy-tori-friends near you.
unfortunately i specifically said prompts so i cant just write the degenerate mpreg fic i want to. so i went through all the lists and chose from one of the older ones - sickfic prompts. im incredibly very biased so you know who you're getting :)
THATS RIGHT ITS NUTTY X LIFTY!
just kidding. soon, should the requesters desire it.
so the prompt i chose was "you're going to get sick if you keep coddling me." "and you're just going to get worse if i don't..." from this list with a teenily weenily minor edit for duo purposes. i went with splendont x lifty with a slight side of shifty to mirror one of the rainy day prompts. yippee!
His brother shivered and sneezed within Splendont's embrace, letting out a groan. The redhead was gently stroking Shifty's hair, trying to soothe him to sleep. It was weird for Lifty to just see Shifty accepting it with no fuss, no fighting to say he didn't like it, but Shifty was doing worse with this illness by far. He wasn't even wearing his hat, just some comfortable pajamas, his eyes half-lidded as he shuddered and groaned in pain and coughed and sneezed.
Lifty took a breath before he began a coughing fit, grabbing onto his chest and rubbing in hopes of easing it. It didn't work. He let out a sigh at the end, trying to catch his breath, when Splendont pulled him closer, rubbing his back.
ā€œYou should try to fall asleep too. Do you need some water, maybe?ā€ Splendont asked, humming as Shifty's eyes closed and his breathing slowed. ā€œLet me put your brother in bed, okay? Then I'll get you a glass.ā€
He made a confirmative noise, sinking into the cushions on their crappy couch as the other got up. It was nice of him to come over and take care of them, make sure they had and took some medicine, and that they weren't doing anything stupid, butā€¦
ā€œYou're going to get sick if you keep coddling us,ā€ he murmured softly once he saw the other return, ears drooping as he winced at the sound of his raspy voice.
Splendont raised an eyebrow. ā€œAnd you're just going to get worse if I don't. Would you two have tried to rest today, would you even have medicine to take?ā€
ā€œThat'sā€¦!ā€ Lifty cut himself off with another coughing fit, the aching of his throat growing more intense. He grumbled softly when it finally ended, and looked up at his boyfriend, who held out a glass of water. Gingerly, he took it, taking a slow sip, still a bit disgruntled by his body cutting himself off.
ā€œYou don't need to worry about me, Lifts. Promise,ā€ Splendont gently stroked his hair, like he had done for Shifty. ā€œIf I get sick, I get sick. I'm more worried about you two right now.ā€
Lifty sighed, relaxing at the soothing touch, just like Shifty had before him. He was already pretty tired, and the motion was comforting. His throat still ached, but maybe getting some rest would let the medicine work its charms. ā€œThank you,ā€ he murmured, letting out a soft noise of approval. ā€œGonna try to sleep.ā€
ā€œIf your throat still hurts when you wake up, Iā€™ll make you some tea with honey, alright? But you have to promise me that if I go to the store to get it and I leave you two alone, you wonā€™t take anything more than I already gave you. Even if youā€™re desperate.ā€ Splendont looked him in the eyes, a stern look in his eyes. ā€œIā€™ll count how much there is before I go. I donā€™t want you to take more than you need.ā€
Lifty let out a soft huff. ā€œIā€™m not that dumb. But Iā€™ll make sure Shifty doesnā€™t,ā€ he promised, setting down his empty cup before closing his eyes and leaning on the other. ā€œFeels better ā€˜cause youā€™re here.ā€
The redhead let out a chuckle, standing up. ā€œI guess love is a pretty good medicine.ā€ He continued to stroke his hair as he walked in the bedroom. ā€œI can tell youā€™re about to fall asleep. Get some rest, sweetheart.ā€
The younger hummed as he felt the drowsiness overtake him, curling up softly as he was laid in his bed and tucked in, finally succumbing to sweet slumber.
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yesimwriting Ā· 4 years ago
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Hi!!! I was wondering if you could do like a short story post or something I wonder how Our General Kirigan would react to a shy reader? Would he tease her? Be frustrated with her? And how would she react? Idk maybe just a thought šŸ˜… I asked you because i really like your writing and I feel like you would really do a good job and I like the way you portray the General. šŸ˜Š
a/n i have been crying/feeling shitty for the past two days for no reason!! so i thought it might make me feel better to try writing headcanons! i have SO MANY half done requests/fics but as of recently i hate everything that i write!! so i thought i'd work on this request that lends itself to headcanons
also im glad you like my writing :))
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General Kirigan with a shy! reader headcanons:
- First things first, I think how he interacts with someone shy that he sees as a (potential) romantic interest varies per situation. Like generally, he finds the timidness kind of soft which is so different from what he's used to that he finds that aspect kind of endearing.
- He'd never admit that at the beginning, but the more time you spend with him the clearer it becomes to you because of how he acts when you're alone together
- At first, he'd hold onto his usual stoic disposition, but after realizing that at the end of the day your shyness is genuine and not an attempt to seem meek in order to trick people/him he'd begin to tease you about it when you two are alone.
- The first time he makes a comment that's just a little,, kinda-almost suggestive (a comment about how he wonders what it'd be like to be a Heartrender so that he could hear the change in your heartbeat every time you shied away from something) you're too confused to be embarrassed for like two seconds.
- You're basically that meme that's like did I hear that shit righttt??
- So you meet his gaze, and there's absolutely nothing but warm confidence there and you realize that he had in fact,,, said that.
- You hold his gaze for a moment out of protest (which is an incredible feat) and then you have to drop your eyes to the floor. You mumble some comment about how his ability to summon shadows isn't exactly a boring skill.
- Your reaction is so soft,, Kirigan can't help but be endeared even further. Something he wasn't exactly expecting and isn't too thrilled about. He doesn't think being shy makes you weak,, but he's extremely wary about how you're perceived and how people may treat you because of it.
- He doesn't doubt his ability to protect you, but he doesn't want to be distracted,, not with all he has to do.
- Still, he can't help mumble comments whenever there's a brief pause and you two are alone
- Meanwhile, you're starting to notice that now more situations keep coming up when you're left alone with Kirigan?? like he's always in the library when you are, he's always walking in to assess training when you're training and he just so happens to linger until you leave and then he just so happens needs to walk in the same hallway.
- It's a little strange at first,, but you're more horrified by the fact that you're not mad about it than the fact that it's happening. Especially since you know how much joy he gets from getting you flustered. You can see that in that slightly cocky uptilt to his lips whenever you're left gaping at him.
- Why doesn't it bother you?? You try to rationalize it and the only conclusion you can come to is the fact that he's attractive and powerful and even though your face gets hot whenever he talks to you,, there's appeal in those qualities. There's appeal in getting the infamous General to smile.
- Even if it costs you the bit of pride you have.
- You don't get why you're the one he seems to be going out of his way to speak to (maybe when your life is as stressful as his is,, at the end of the day you just want something easy and if he's in the mood to be flirty, you're easy) but you're not mad. You just have to constantly remind yourself to not be foolish enough to think you're the only one he goes out of his way to talk to.
- And as time progresses, you get a little more comfortable with his banter. You stop shying away completely,, which only encourages him to get bolder with his comments.
- Nothing insane,, not yet, just a little more direct.
- It kind of becomes a little game to him,, to see how flustered he can get you with the minimal amount of effort. Every once in awhile, you manage to act normally, but he's quick to shut that down by upping his game just slightly.
- After awhile, it starts to become a game for you too, to see how much of your instincts you can suppress just to take away some of his satisfaction. Only when he's getting a little too smug.
- But that's when y'all are alone...
- When you're surrounded by others, sometimes it feels like you don't even exist to each other. Sometimes that's a lonely feeling for both of you, but each of you is convinced that they're the only one that feels the absence.
- In your defense, you're much more entitled to those feelings because he can literally do whatever he wants. You can't just walk up to the General and do what?? ask him why he hasn't made any suggestive comment in the last couple of hours??
- please that embarrassing!! even if you weren't shy, that would be out of POCKET
- Meanwhile Kirigan is just like being angsty and debating the implications of seeking you out in an environment with so many important people. He could probably manage a minute or two by your side without making anyone suspicious, but the danger in that is that he won't be able to bring himself to leave after those minutes pass him.
- Worse,, he may even find an excuse for both of you to step out into the hall so that he can make his comments and take in your reactions in private.
- It's especially difficult when you have that one strand of hair just slightly out of place,, presenting the perfect excuse for him to just fix it and then drop his hand slowly so that his fingertips can brush the side of your cheek.
- And you're growing tired of the crowds of people you're not comfortable with and you're starting to feel more and more stupid for letting something that was so clearly just a playful distraction mean anything to you.
- But before either of you can succumb to your angsty pinning (cough, cough,, simps) his eyes will find yours from across the room and that's EVERYTHING
- At first, you want to be stiff and look away because it's probably not intentional, but then he gives you that little smirk. And then you feel stupid for ever doubting that you two at least have some kind of friendship. (maybe more,, but you're too scared to let yourself think that,, ;))
- And then you give him this shy smile,, and that's it. He's done--that one look undoes him entirely.
- So he starts shifting towards you as casually as possible, because if he can't be with you right now, surely being near you is good enough for now.
- You're unaware of this,, and when the moment ends you find yourself longing for more, but relatively satisfied. You don't expect anything from him, he's important and you're you.
- And being around people drains you because you genuinely want to stay out of any situation that would have too much attention on you at once. So once Kirigan moves and you can't find him in the crowd, you decide now is as good a time as any to step out and get some air, especially since no one currently needs you for anything.
- So you disappear into the corridor, planning to be gone only for a few minutes. But the second you're about two steps into the hallway, you hear another's footsteps.
- The hopeful part of you is like 'maybe it's him!!' but you don't really think that. There's something about the atmosphere that feels too tense,, too wrong for you to believe it's him.
- A moment later, your suspicions are confirmed. A grisha known for his impulsiveness is calling out to you, asking you where you're going.
- You explain that you just wanted to get some air and that you'd be returning in a minute. You try to sound dismissive, clearly establishing that you'd like your minute to yourself.
- It's clear that he understands the hint, but he doesn't move. He just keeps asking you questions.
- Your answers get shorter and shorter, the nerves your feeling tensing with each word as he begins to venture from falsely casual conversation to more flirtatious words. Being shy can leave you speaking too much, spluttering out words in hopes of saying the right thing to let you escape, but this is a different type of nervousness. Something feels wrong.
- And he just keeps saying things, things that even Kirigan wouldn't be able to get away with.
- All the while, you're desperate to escape, but they're persistent.
- And just when you're losing hope, and his advances get so bold he has you literally backed into a corner--a familiar voice comes to you like a lifeline.
- Kirigan, with all the authority of the general, questions what's going on. The guy that was so relentlessly hitting on you moves back like suddenly you're fire and begins to back away. He tries to explain himself but Kirigan is not having it.
- As soon as the stranger leaves, you feel like you can breathe again, but your nerves are still on edge. Kirigan's looking at you in a way you've never seen before. Sharp and almost--almost angry?
- You try to mumble a quick thanks, intending to disappear back to where you're supposed to be, but Kirigan's gaze keeps you planted against the wall.
- His gaze is so intense you ask him if he's alright.
- The question cracks something in him because of course you'd ask him if he's okay after something happened to you. His expression softens slightly, which you think is a good thing but then he speaks,, and his voice is not calm at all
- He's mad at the person that did that and the irrational part of him makes it seem like he's a little mad at you for letting that situation happen, but it's only because he's worried about what would have happened if he hadn't gotten there in time.
- And you're kind of confused because like?? what does he want from you? you made it clear you were uncomfortable and you were trying to get away?
- But after a quick snap and the fact that you're okay settles in,, he does feel a little bad. So he comes close to apologizing,, but that's basically just him saying he's glad that you're okay.
- You don't really ease, so he decides to make a partial joke about how maybe he needs to be around you more,, just to be safe,, you know
- And you smile slightly, and you're like 'y'know i'm not completely helpless.'
- and he's like 'pity,, i would've liked the excuse'
- your face instantly feels extremely warm and you're not sure what you could even, plausibly say to that. But you can't let him have the last word,, not like that. So you're overcompensating, rambling, but then at the end...you say something about how he doesn't really need an excuse to stay near you.
- When you realize what you've said, fight or flight kicks in,, but you can't move. And there's no casual way to escape, so you decide that maybe you'll cut your losses for today because that might have been your most significant reply to him ever, and you feel like an idiot because he was probably joking. And you just had to say that and make it weird.
- So you allow exactly one second of unfortunate silence, your eyes glued to the ground. And then you make some excuse about needing to get back to where you were.
- But Kirigan stops you, and you think about how you can't avoid looking him in the eyes forever, so you just kind of barely dare to glance upwards.
- And he's smiling broader than usual, the look is so warm it melts away all the bad feelings from earlier. You have absolutely no idea what it means, but you know it's not...bad.
- And then he shifts slightly, and that's when you realize he's never been this close before.
- He then asks if you're sure, voice much lower than earlier.
- You can't speak,, too trapped on a line you don't understand.
- But as he leans forward, the only answer he needs is the instinctual part of your lips as his warm breath reaches your cheek.
- And with that he turns his head just a fraction of an inch,, and his lips meet yours.
- It's just a quick brush of lips,, a soft test. And when you don't protest, he moves to let the contact be a little more assured, yet still teasing.
- Something in you grows impatient, and you move a little in hopes that he'll take the hint.
- But that's all it takes for him to pull away, expression bright and teasing before playfully chiding you for being so eager.
- He then turns, leaving you more flustered than ever.
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spamtonology Ā· 2 years ago
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any tips for writing spamton in a fic where the overall tone is more lighthearted? im writing an x reader and my writing style tends to be more lighthearted and sort of silly, plus its ultimately a fluff fic so yknow
since it focuses more on spamton and his inner thoughts, i am adding in references to his insecurities, sort of comparing himself to the trash hes surrounded by, not feeling good enough for the love interest, deciding he still needs the neo body if he wants a chance of winning them over, things like that
i have another one in progress where i portray him a lil differently. the idea in this one is that readers just got those Good Vibes and it lowers his guard a bunch, where in the other one he still takes advantage of their kindness to become neo and doesnt even recognize them as a friend until its (almost) too late
he has a similar revelation to ingame but instead of "youre giving me freedom even after everything i did to you?? maybe the real freedom was the friends we made along the way" its more like "you sacrificed everything for me and in the end nothing even came of it. maybe you werent stupid, maybe you were just Nice"
I'm afraid I don't think I understand your question too well, my apologies.
By lighthearted do you mean something with little conflict (which your description does not sound like) or something especially humorous? Even with the latter definition if you wanted to focus on Spamton's own insecurities and self-worth issues, it'd be hard to keep that simply humorous without suddenly swerving into dark comedy or even just depressing territory. While I can write comic scenes now and then, I'm definitely not the best at writing more lighthearted and sillier works, I tend to overthink things and take it too seriously.
I could give you tips about writing Spamton, or at least writing how I would interpret him in a specific scenario. For something more "lighthearted" you want to focus on his goofier side, with some of his sillier adspeak and behavior reflecting his odd, meme-y charm. Songs like One Weird Tip and classic Youtube Poops are often the source material for his bizarre sense of humor and style. Spamton does naturally come with dark humor, it is a part of his personality, but try not to overdo it.
You could create a scenario where Spamton's mind is continually fighting against itself, but the outside world of Cyber City and the activities he partakes in are quite pleasant (such as going out for dinner). It's still not exactly lighthearted, but it does provide an interesting contrast between two different perspectives.
You could also have him argue with his own psyche in there about his self worth. One part of him thinks he's the greatest salesman that ever lived and he's still wildly successful, but another part of him knows the truth, and finds him to be about as worthy as the trash he sleeps in. This study of his own self-contradictions seems like it would be a lot of fun to read about!
As for the NEO body, did his goal change after he met this self-insert? Initially, his motivations are purely selfish and for power, and he's not a sentimental person, so it would take something especially drastic for him to change his mind like that. I won't tell you to change your story or say you shouldn't do it, go for it if this is the end goal for your story! It's just my opinion that I don't find it very believable for his character.
I apologize again if that isn't the answer you were looking for, feel free to ask me again or come off anon. Remember this is YOUR story and you should focus on how YOU want to make it, not necessarily listen to a stranger's interpretations of a character they could be wrong about.
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monsterenergysimp Ā· 4 years ago
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corpse husband x fem!readerĀ 
summary: you meet corpse on a stream and youā€™re surprised when he reaches out to youĀ 
warnings: cursing, mentions of tattooing
word count: 1.9k
notes: This is proof read but could have missed some stuff. This is my first corpse fic and my first time writing fanfic since I posted that super cringey book on wattpad when I was like 12 or something. Iā€™d appreciate feed back so please reach out to me :)
main blog @itsmysleepover
read part 2 here!
āœ§ļ½„ļ¾Ÿ: *āœ§ļ½„ļ¾Ÿ:* 怀怀 *:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§
You were cleaning up your station so you can get home and stream. You loved your day job as a tattoo artist but you also really enjoyed streaming. It started as a way to promote yourself as an artist and the shop you worked at but it eventually became a really fun way to destress at the end of the week (or day if you were really itching to stream). ā€œHey Y/N was that your last client?ā€ your boss, KC, asked as she walked to the front of the shop and put new flash drawings on the walls.
ā€œYes maā€™am!ā€ You said back excitedly. You finished cleaning your station and tossed your black gloves in the trash. ā€œAnd you canā€™t trick me into staying and taking walk-ins,ā€ you joked with her. She rolled her eyes and walked back into her office ā€œIt was one time,ā€ she said as you slid on your jacket. As you walked out your phone buzzed in your pocket and you checked to see who had texted you. It was a message from Sean asking if you were free to play Among Us with him and some other streamers. You replied that you were on your way home right now and totally down. You were excited to see who was playing this time around since their Among Us streams are super entertaining and have gotten really popular.
On your way back you tweeted and posted to your Instagram story that youā€™d be streaming soon and set up all your stuff once you made it home. After a few minutes, you had a couple of thousand people watching. You entered the discord chat and Sean spoke up. ā€œEveryone this is Y/N sheā€™s sensitive so be gentle.ā€
ā€œItā€™s nice to finally meet you guys and Iā€™m not gentle, I'm ruthless,ā€ You say into your mic and notice the chat calling you a liar. Everyone was in the lobby waiting for the game to start. ā€œYou sound way too sweet to be ruthless,ā€ Corpse said. The countdown started and you were imposter with Charlie.
ā€œThis should be fun,ā€ you told the stream. Yout tried playing strategically but after such a long shift your brain was mush. You saw Poki in nav and killed her then vented into shields. Not long after the body was reported and you were sure you were going to get voted out or at least sussed.
ā€œWhere was the body?ā€ Felix asked. ā€œNav and I didnā€™t see anyone near there so whoever is imposter must have vented,ā€ Corpse responded. Felix spoke up again. ā€œI think I saw Y/N walk that way and I havenā€™t seen her since.ā€
Shit, shit, shit shit. ā€œIā€™m in shield right now so-ā€ you said trying to defend yourself but Charlie spoke up. ā€œI was doing tasks with her earlier and I saw her walk into shields so sheā€™s safe but Iā€™m still not sure about Rae.ā€ Everyone discussed a bit more and some people, including Corpse, voted for you but Rae got the majority vote and was ejected. You released your breath and kept playing being extra careful. Ā 
ā€œOkay, guys that was super close. Corpse knows and is out to get me,ā€ you said to the chat. You were eventually voted off but one round later victory was written across your screen with your ghost and Charlieā€™s avatar. ā€œGood game guys,ā€ Corpse said.
ā€œI told you guys I was ruthless!ā€
āœ§ļ½„ļ¾Ÿ: *āœ§ļ½„ļ¾Ÿ:* 怀怀 *:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§
You sat at your station doing nothing because a client had canceled a four-hour session. You were listening to music and sketching some stuff but you were bored out of your mind and you didnā€™t want to leave in case you got a walk-in. The music got quiet as you received a twitter notification saying someone had messaged you. You reached for your phone and saw you had gotten a dm from Corpse.
C: hey :)
You didnā€™t know what to respond. You were mostly confused as to why he decided to message you out of the blue. Did he want something? But what would he want?
Y: Hii! This is sudden
C: was i bothering you?
Ā  Ā  shit sorry!
Y: Youre fine I wasnā€™t doing anything rn
C: how has your day been
Ā  Ā  i dont usually do stuff like this
Y: Im glad you did im doing better now I was so bored
C: what were you doing that was so terrible
Y: NOTHING! thats the problem :(
C: im sure youll find something to do
You stared at his message. Unsure what to respond.
Y: Im gonna give myself a tattoo
C: what?
Ā  Ā  NO!
You tossed the needles you used for your tattoo into the sharps box. ā€œOh my god you didnā€™t,ā€ KC said. She noticed the wrap on your calve from the tattoo you just gave yourself out of boredom. ā€œItā€™s not my fault I didnā€™t have anything else to do!ā€ You said trying to defend yourself. She sighed and just shook her head. ā€œJust go home business is slow today.ā€ It was raining so the shop probably wasnā€™t going to get a walk-in anyway and you didnā€™t have any more clients for the day. It was only 2 pm but you drove home and after making lunch for yourself decided to stream. You werenā€™t expecting too many people so it was bound to be super chill. Your leg felt sore reminding you of the tattoo. You snapped a quick pic of the fresh jack-o-lantern on the side of your calve and messaged it to Corpse.
Y: [image] it came out nice!
C: thats Ā super cool actually
Ā  Ā  i was concerned why you would just give yourself a tattoo but i found your instagram and Ā  Ā  Ā  youre super talented
Y: Thank you!
For some reason, it felt strange to just have that be the end of your response.
Y: Im about to start streaming if you wanted to watch
Ā  Ā  [link]
C: ill be watching ;)
Whatā€™s that supposed to mean?
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You sat in your apartment watching tv, hand lost in a bag of Doritos, and scrolling through twitter. You had stopped paying attention to the anime playing on the screen since youā€™ve watched it a hundred times and knew you wouldnā€™t miss anything. It was Saturday and you usually take those days off. Take the time to do chores or meet up with some friends but today you felt like not doing any of those things. As you continue your endless scroll (not helping the twitter addiction you told yourself youā€™d try to get a handle on) you got a message from Corpse.
C: wanna talk?
You looked down at the message unsure of how to answer. It was a simple yes or no and the obvious answer was yes. You and Corpse had started talking more regularly. You still didnā€™t have each otherā€™s phone numbers but it was fine. Your conversations werenā€™t too big-- just you sending him memes, tiktoks, and telling him how much you liked the songs he would drop. Or him complimenting a tattoo you did. Sometimes heā€™d message you during streams telling you funny stuff his fans would say in the chat and youā€™d do the same. You learned a bit about each other but nothing too deep or serious. Like how you two lived a few cities away and you both really liked Donnie Darko. When Sean first invited you to that game out of everyone else there you were most excited to meet Corpse. Heā€™s just so sweet and funny. Of course, youā€™d love to talk to him but you were also itching to talk to him and the last thing youā€™d ever want to do was make him uncomfortable.
Y: Yeah id love to talk
Here goes nothing.
Y: Wanna facetime or something?
Ā  Ā  Ā No pressure or anything it could even be a regular call
Ā  Ā  Ā I think facetime is just my default lol
You sent those last two messages quickly after you had sent the first. You wished you could know what he was thinking. It was killing you to think you had turned him off from talking to you completely. You put your phone down on the couch and went to wash your hand of Dorito dust. When you got back from the kitchen you turned off the tv and tossed yourself onto the couch.
Still no message.
Why am I so fucking stupid? Ā 
Just as you were standing up to stretch from sitting on the couch all day your phone buzzed. You reached for it fast and looked to see that it was him. You became super excited still not even knowing what the message said. It could have told you to never talk to him again for all you knew.
C: sure lets facetime
Ā  Ā  xxx-xxx-xxxx
You had his phone number. You added him to your small but growing contact list and called. You sat on your couch waiting for a response when he finally picked up the screen was black. It didnā€™t upset you; you kind of expected it and didnā€™t care what he had to do to make himself more comfortable during this call.
ā€œHey,ā€ he said. His voice was raspier than usual.
ā€œDid you just wake up?ā€ You asked and looked at the time. It was about a little past noon and you had only eaten Doritos all day. Shit, you should probably make a decent meal.
ā€œNot that long ago but yeah,ā€ he responded and giggled. That giggle.
ā€œWell, Iā€™ve eaten nothing but Doritos all day while rewatching Ouran High School Host Club, so youā€™re welcome to join me as I make myself something to eat.ā€
ā€œSounds like fun; what are we eating?ā€
ā€œI donā€™t know yet,ā€ You said as you stood up and made your way to the kitchen. You opened the pantry and looked. You noticed a can of diced tomatoes and reached for it then checked the expiration date. It was still good. On your counter were some onions and garlic. ā€œHow about some tomato soup?ā€
ā€œSounds delicious.ā€ you smiled at Corpse and your phone screen not knowing if he was also looking at his screen or not. ā€œYouā€™re really pretty-- you know that?ā€
ā€œThanks, but you donā€™t have to--ā€
ā€œIā€™ve already told you what an incredible artist you are so many times I bet youā€™re tired of hearing it, but you already know what a talented artist you are.ā€
ā€œThat is very kind of you Corpse,ā€ you said to him bashfully as you chopped the onion and opened the can of tomatoes. ā€œBut once again you donā€™t have to reach so far to compliment me.ā€
ā€œIā€™m not reaching you are talented and beautiful and--ā€
ā€œI thought I was pretty.ā€ You could hear him chuckle with a smile on his face. ā€œYouā€™re both,ā€ he said. You could feel your face getting warm from blushing.
ā€œFuck you youā€™re making me blush. My face is all hot and stuff.ā€
He laughed at how flustered you got. ā€œThatā€™s the cutest thing ever.ā€
You didnā€™t know how to respond so you just put some olive oil in a pot and tossed in your onions. It became silent but it was a comfortable silence. You turned the stove on and watched the flame for a few seconds. ā€œIf it was dark we could pretend we were together and having a bonfire or something,ā€ you said to the phone as you turned the camera to show him the flame (still not 100 percent sure if he was looking at you or not).
ā€œIā€™ll put it on the list of things to do when you visit me someday.ā€
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Since you wrote Christmas with tha Bois are you planning on writing a New Years Eve fics too šŸŽ‡šŸŽ‰?
*insert surprised pikachu meme*
now I am (!!!)
They are all required to go to a Wayne gala that Bruce has thrown since before he took Dick in as a ward. Itā€™s important. So of course, I wanna show what kind of suits they would wear too. (Indulge me lmao) [none of these images are sensitive. Tumblr is an idiot]
Tim
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Okay I get that you wouldnā€™t think high strung proper Tim Drake Wayne , Mr CEO, would were a pretty casual suit. But he wears a suit everyday and by golly, he isnā€™t wearing a tie for New Years freakin Eve. Itā€™s something different and he can relax. And heā€™s so tired of black. Plus the blue brings brings out the color in his eyes.
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He adjusted the collar of his suit. He always wore a nice suit to work. But this was for a gala. The tie just wouldnā€™t lay flat. You walked up behind him and pulled the offensive fabric off and tossed it on the bed. He moved to protest but you started unbuttoning his collar.
ā€œOkay,ā€ he said with a slow smirk. ā€œBut itā€™ll have to be quick.ā€
ā€œIā€™m just fixing your shirt,ā€ you said rolling your eyes. ā€œIā€™m not messing my makeup up before a gala. That looks nicer. I never see you relaxed,ā€ you said leaving your hands on his chest longer than necessary.
ā€œI relax sometimes. Iā€™m relaxing tonight. With you,ā€ he said turning to give you a quick kiss. You smiled and he took a look at your outfit. ā€œIā€™ll have to keep my eye peeled though. Youā€™re going to attract a lot of attention in that.ā€
ā€œToo bad Iā€™m already dating a man they couldnā€™t possibly compete with. Come on, lover boy,ā€ you said and he took your hand before going downstairs.
It was always stressful to first go to a gala. Tim was moderately famous as Bruce Wayneā€™s heir, heir to the Drake family fortune, and the acting CEO of Wayne Enterprise. Luckily this was very boring to most young people and his pictures were in a small section of the business page of the papers rather than like Dick Grayson being splashed all over the lifestyle section like a celebrity. But cameras flashing as you walked down stairs in heels was terrifying. Tim was the only one to notice as you gripped his arm like a vice each time.
You could usually smile and drink champagne as Tim talked shop with the old men he worked with or young men who were trying to climb the business ladder. Timā€™s fingers made idle circles in your hand or on your back as he talked. He was also taking glances at you in you outfit all evening.
Only when he was desperate for a break would he ask you to dance. Tim was a good dancer. He had been taught at an early age. But he was not a natural and he didnā€™t want you bothered with more photos. You insisted after a full hour of talking about some sort of quarterly investment opportunity that he take you to the dance floor.
ā€œDance with me, Timmy,ā€ you asked quietly in a lull in the conversation. It was almost midnight anyways. He smiled at you before looking back at the men.
ā€œExcuse us,ā€ Tim said before letting you lead him to the floor. He gently held your waist and you wrapped your arms around his neck. The song was fairly slow so you barely danced more than a sway. That was fine. You were more interested in staring in to his ocean eyes than cutting a rug.
ā€œSorry if itā€™s been incredibly boring,ā€ Tim said. ā€œYouā€™d probably rather be doing anything else.ā€
ā€œDancing is nice. Seeing you more than 5 minutes is nice,ā€ you said.
ā€œSpeaking of 5 minutes, itā€™s 5 minutes until midnight.ā€
ā€œNo more work talk tonight. Just be with me,ā€ you pleaded softly. Tim frowned for a second before pulling you closer.
ā€œI can do that. All yours tonight. Iā€™ll just punch anyone who tries to talk business to me,ā€ he said.
ā€œGood enthusiasm. Terrible plan. Sweet though,ā€ you said kissing his cheek. He smiled.
ā€œOr we could just leave right after New Years,ā€ Tim said with a wiggle of his brows. You giggled.
ā€œBetter plan.ā€
Bruce had gotten on the stage and the music stopped. You didnā€™t let Tim go. As they counted down to midnight, you and Tim gazed at each other.
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You leaned your face up and kissed him. Tim held your waist tighter and your wrapped your fingers up in his soft black hair. After just a few seconds you pulled back and smiled at him.
ā€œHappy New Years, sunshine,ā€ he said.
ā€œHappy New Years, Duckie.ā€
ā€œLetā€™s get out of here before they see us leave,ā€ he suggested. The rest of the night was spent in his room and you were so glad for the loud fireworks to cover any noise you might have made.
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Dick has been to 714 galas. Heā€™s an expert. Heā€™s expected to play the handsome charming eldest son. Wearing a beautiful suit is half the battle. Not to mention, he kinda likes showing off a little. Itā€™s New Years. And the blue and grey bring out the color in his eyes so well.
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Dick barely got in the door before flopping on the bed with his detective uniform still on. You sat on the edge of your bed, already in hair, dress, and makeup, and reached over to rub his shoulders. He groaned softly.
Barely off of work and already having to change into a suit for a family event. Dick needed a day off. Badly. He had the next 3 days off of work and he just had to deal with this night. No, he needed to be positive. You hadnā€™t done anything and he didnā€™t want to ruin New Years Eve.
You pushed your palm into a knot on his shoulder. He all but moaned. ā€œThank you, baby,ā€ he said. ā€œItā€™s these stupid cases. They have been driving me- baby,ā€ Dick said turning to look and taking you in. ā€œYou look good.ā€
You smiled and giggled. ā€œYou think?ā€
ā€œAlways, but this? Wowza,ā€ he said laughing. ā€œIm going be showing off the prettiest girl at the ball,ā€ Dick said sing song. You rolled your eyes with a grin. His compliments were usually over the top.
ā€œYeah, yeah. Not likely. You need to get dressed or Iā€™m going to be very fancy for no reason,ā€ you said and he hopped up. Dick was overworked but he always was. In record time he was dressed.
ā€œDo you want to drive,ā€ he asked hopefully. A quick 30 minute nap would be awesome.
ā€œI canā€™t drive the Porsche since itā€™s stick,ā€ you admitted.
ā€œWell in that case, Iā€™m teaching you soon. But not tonight. You gotta learn how to drive my car,ā€ Dick said and you resisted the urge to roll your eyes. You added that to the list of skills he thought completely necessary that hardly anyone could do anymore. Could you even buy a new standard transmission car?
ā€œSure, hun. Letā€™s get going before weā€™re late,ā€ you said kissing his cheek. You straightened his pocket square and you were both out the door.
ā€œ-and then you push the clutch. Right here,ā€ he pointed at the floorboard as he drove.
ā€œNot tonight. We can do this some other time. And if we donā€™t get there, itā€™s fine,ā€ you said evasively.
ā€œEver? Itā€™s important to be able to drive any kind of car and if itā€™s just you and the Porsche,ā€ Dick said with a frown. You could see a contingency plan forming in his head.
ā€œI very much doubt there will be a situation where I have to drive your car,ā€ you said with a shrug.
ā€œIā€™d rather plan for it,ā€ Dick said and you dropped it. It was like a security blanket for him to plan for anything.
Walking into a gala was exciting and nerve racking. Dick was extremely popular back in Gotham and it was honestly weird as he was normal back in Bludhaven. Dick was the perfect gentleman and made sure you felt comfortable and safe when the cameras flashed. You smiled and ignored whatever anyone said about you. It could be mean with jealousy. You were with him for his money, you were just arm candy, and you werenā€™t that pretty. The first time had hurt pretty badly. Now you had a new ring on your hand and you felt almost as nervous as your first gala. One through the door to the ballroom, you relaxed.
ā€œAre you okay? You looked really nervous,ā€ Dick said and you grimaced. That sounds like nice pictures.
ā€œJust a little,ā€ you said subconsciously playing with your ring. Dick, of course, noticed right away.
ā€œWhatā€™s wrong? Do you not want the ring? Or the engagement,ā€ he asked quietly and it broke your heart that he was even worried about it. His big blue eyes were wide with worry.
ā€œNot at all,ā€ you said grabbing his shoulder. ā€œI just donā€™t like how they talk. Iā€™m very happy. And I love the ring. Itā€™s beautiful.ā€
Dickā€™s frown turned to a pleased smile. ā€œGood. Because that was my momā€™s ring.ā€
ā€œDick! You gave me a family heirloom without mentioning it? That makes it twice as special,ā€ you said shocked. ā€œThats so sweet of you.ā€
You leaned up and kissed him on the cheek. ā€œI love it. But if you give me something that important again without telling me, Iā€™ll beat you,ā€ you whispered in his ear and he laughed.
ā€œLetā€™s dance,ā€ Dick said. He pulled you to the dance floor. He was the best dancer out of all of the Wayne children and possibly better than Bruce. He had been dancing since he could walk. His parents were performers and taught him many dance styles. Bruce also insisted that all the children knowing all the common dances they would need to know at a gala.
Keeping up with Dick was the biggest issues with dancing. He could dance quick dances for hours and you had to remind him that not everyone spent hours a day training and fighting. At the moment you had insisted on stopping to get a drink. You practically pounded a water bottle while he sipped on some punch.
ā€œKinda floral. Not bad. Little sweet,ā€ he said.
ā€œItā€™s not alcoholic, is it?ā€
ā€œI donā€™t think so. Itā€™s just one glass,ā€ Dick said. ā€œIā€™ll be fine to drive later.ā€
ā€œNo. Itā€™s just that Damian and his girlfriend have a cup each,ā€ you said motioning over to them.
ā€œItā€™s fine. They wouldnā€™t give them alcohol,ā€ Dick said and you relaxed. Of course not. That would be crazy to give kids alcohol.
ā€œLetā€™s sit down. My feet are getting a little tired,ā€ you said with a wince. He nodded and you sat at a table by the dance floor. As if Dick had put out a sign, a bunch of people flocked over to talk to him.
Somehow a plate of small snacks ended up in front of you, probably Alfred. You ate a little while he played the philanthropist son of Bruce Wayne. It was actually really nice to be ignored.
Until it wasnā€™t.
An older Wayne investor brought a woman over as his ā€˜date.ā€™ She instantly latched on to Dick and started flirting with him. Her hand kept touching his arms and shoulders. You were getting mad but this wasnā€™t a surprise. People acted like he was someone they could grope and touch without consequences.
Finally it was too much and you cleared your throat. She looked at you in disgust before going back to flirting with Dick.
ā€œCan you give my fiancĆ© some space,ā€ you asked politely as you could. Her eyes raked over your body.
ā€œHe could do so much better than some poor trash like you in a second rate dress. Not even that ugly little ring could change that,ā€ she said nastily. You gasped.
ā€œOkay weā€™re leaving,ā€ Dick said standing up. The woman had to back away from him. His jaw was clenched in controlled anger. He had a temper and this wasnā€™t the time to lose it.
You stood up and hissed as your shoes cut into your feet worse than when you had been wearing them all night. Great, you couldnā€™t even wear heels in front of her. She laughed. Dick simply picked you up bridal style and carried you out of the ballroom and upstairs to his old bedroom. He sat you on the bed gently.
You knew that she was just a vapid socialite but it did hurt. She had pretty accurately attacked your insecurities and you blinked to prevent yourself from crying.
ā€œBaby,ā€ Dick said bending to a crouch in front of you. ā€œDonā€™t think anything about what she said. Sheā€™s just jealous. Not worth your time.ā€
ā€œSheā€™s not wrong though. Iā€™m just a poor kid trying to fit in in Wayne freaking Manor,ā€ you said wiping your face. Stupid tears.
ā€œAnd Iā€™m just a circus kid. Donā€™t forget that,ā€ Dick said sitting beside you. He pulled you into a hug. ā€œNot a single damn bit of that matters. Itā€™s almost midnight in a minute. Do you want to go back downstairs?ā€
ā€œNot a chance,ā€ you said with a dry smile.
ā€œI figure. We have a better view anyways,ā€ he said opening the curtains. You could vaguely hear the noise downstairs.
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ā€œHappy New Years, baby,ā€ Dick said giving you a kiss. He wiped the tears from your cheek.
ā€œHappy New Years. Sorry Iā€™m all teary,ā€ you said.
ā€œNope. Donā€™t be sorry. My new New Years resolution is to make you smile,ā€ he said with a devious look. His fingers suddenly attacked your sides and pulled laughter from you. He pushed you to the bed in his attack.
ā€œDick! Okay! Quit!ā€ You shrieked with laughter. He stopped his hands and leaned over you.
ā€œAlright. I quit. But since weā€™re alone. Wanna ring in the New Years the right way,ā€ he asked with a smirk. You grinned back.
ā€œGot any ideas on how to do that?ā€ You asked back.
ā€œSo many. Baby, so many,ā€ before kissing you. Fireworks sounded in the background.
Damian
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(Older 16 yr old) Damian is literally the son of Batman. Heā€™s going to dress like it. Nice and formal and expensive. It was like a form of armor. Homeboy looks like a million bucks. His watch might be. And if a burgundy turtleneck A accents his well defined pecs, B shows the gold in his tan skin, and C the gorgeous green in his eyes, he ainā€™t complaining.
ā€œBeloved,ā€ Damian said pulling on his jacket. ā€œCome out,ā€ he said in a sing song voice that would have been completely foreign to hear to anyone else but you.
You flushed as you came out. His jaw dropped before he quickly straightened his face. Heā€™d taken the risk of buying you a dress for the party. Heā€™d seen Bruce do it for women all the time. It was practically his calling card. Even Dick had done it a few times. But this was a first for Damian.
ā€œYou look very nice. Beautiful,ā€ he said quietly looking away at his cuff links. ā€œAre you ready to go downstairs?ā€
ā€œJust my shoes,ā€ you said, trying to slip them on and almost falling over. Damian quickly grabbed your waist.
ā€œI got you. I can put them on,ā€ he said kneeling to the ground. He hadnā€™t meant anything besides efficiency with his offer. But as he slid your foot into a heel and strapped it across your ankle, it felt far more intimate. His hand held your calf a little longer than necessary before switching to the other foot. This side had a slit up to your thigh and he could see your bare leg up close. Damian gulped before attaching the shoe. He quickly stood up and cleared his throat.
ā€œAre you ready now?ā€
You nodded. He offered his arm and you went downstairs. Cameras flashed for just a few minutes before Damian skillfully steered you away from them. His father would kill any pictures of you before they got to the papers but Damian knew how much you hated them.
ā€œDance with me?ā€ You asked and he happily complied. He had been trained in several dance styles and was good at it. He also enjoyed the way you would smile when he would spin you. If it made his beloved happy, he was happy. It attracted a little attention. Bruce Wayneā€™s teenage son and his date could dance with skill. This too was only viewable in person.
ā€œLetā€™s get a drink,ā€ Damian said pulling you to the refreshments. You were out of breath but happy and followed him. There was suppose to be people handling the drinks but there were so many people. Damian pushed through and grabbed two drinks and handed one to you.
ā€œLetā€™s find a table,ā€ you said. As always, Damian pulled you along to a secluded corner close to the door to the garden. Cold air and little whiffs of cigarette smoke swirled around but at least you werenā€™t in the overheated body filled floor anymore.
You sat and drank at your punch. It was heavily sweetened and floral. It was refreshing and... warm. You waved at yourself.
ā€œIs it hot in here to you?ā€ You asked Damian.
ā€œWant to go for a walk outside? Itā€™s cooler out there,ā€ he suggested. Damian took your arm again and you walked out the door into the garden. A stone path lined little beds of delicate plants. Topiaries lined the path. Small solar lights and the full moon lit the garden. There were a few people walking but not many.
Damian looked so handsome. Long dark lashes frames his bright green eyes. His skin almost glistened with silver light of the moon. He bent and plucked a flower from a bush. Damian tucked it behind you ear with a little smile.
ā€œThe prettiest rose in all the garden,ā€ he said and you smiled shyly.
ā€œI donā€™t think thatā€™s actually a rose though,ā€ you said and he laughed. A rare occurrence.
ā€œItā€™s not. But I was talking about you. May I kiss you,ā€ he said lightly touching the side of your neck with his hand. You nodded and he leaned down. You closed your eyes and his lips brushed against yours. You pressed a hand against his chest.
Damianā€™s hand slid to the back of your neck to hold you as he pressed harder against your mouth. His tongue slipped in your mouth and you made the softest whimpering sound. Damianā€™s eyes flew open and he almost froze. That was new and he could get used to the pretty sound.
You kissed like this for a little while. Damianā€™s hand slid down to hold your waist when he noticed you shivered. He pulled back.
ā€œBeloved, are you cold,ā€ he asked, cursing himself. Of course, you were cold wearing a thin dress while he was in a full suit. He quickly pulled off his jacket and put it around your shoulders.
ā€œJust a little. Itā€™s fine,ā€ you protested. He insisted on sliding your arms in the sleeves and button the jacket.
ā€œLetā€™s go in. Itā€™s close to midnight anyways,ā€ Damian said giving you one last kiss.
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ā€œHappy New Years beloved,ā€ he said with a kiss. Damian had grabbed another two glasses of punch and you two touched them in cheers.
ā€œNo sir,ā€ Alfred said sternly, taking the glasses from your hands. ā€œNo alcohol for either of you. There is juice on the other side of the table.ā€
You waited until Alfred walked away before laughing. ā€œThey should have labeled that better.ā€
ā€œThat explains why it felt overly warm in here earlier,ā€ Damian said thoughtfully.
The music had changed to overly sappy and people were kissing and dancing far too close. They were feeling the effects of the alcohol they had been drinking all night. Damian looked at them in disgust.
ā€œWant to go upstairs,ā€ he asked. You quickly looked at him. ā€œNot like that. We can watch a movie or something, anything away from this.ā€
ā€œSounds great,ā€ you said and you both left.
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Iā€™m fairly certain Iā€™ve seen him in a suit like this in the comics. I considered him saying FU to Bruce and showing up in boots and black leather jacket. But Jason knows he looks good in red. And heā€™d probably get a kick out of wearing one of his suits he wore as Red Hood to a fucking gala. Bruce would know.
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ā€œPrincess, if you make me wait any longer Iā€™ll kick down the door and physically carry you to the damn party,ā€ Jason said with no malice in his voice. You opened the bathroom door.
ā€œNot all of us look good without a little work,ā€ you said playfully tapping his chest. You yanked his tie straight with a little more force than needed.
ā€œIā€™d have to disagree, doll. Iā€™d honestly prefer you in nothing,ā€ he said with a smirk. You rolled your eyes.
ā€œHow does it look?ā€ You said with a twirl.
ā€œLike a million bucks. That ass. Letā€™s skip the party and-ā€œ
ā€œNo no no. Letā€™s get going. You can be handsy later,ā€ you said grabbing your purse.
ā€œPromise,ā€ he asked as you both left. The roads werenā€™t too bad with ice and in fact, it was going to be a rare dry night in Gotham.
Jason didnā€™t do pictures. He hated them and so you both parked in the servant entrance and walked in a side door. It didnā€™t matter. The Manor was beautiful no matter how you looked at it. And being a poor kid from Gotham, you couldnā€™t believe you were actually at a party in Wayne freaking Manor.
ā€œDonā€™t be nervous. Itā€™s just a bunch of shitty rich people in pretty walls. They arenā€™t any better than us. Hell, worth half of you, sweetheart. Letā€™s get a drink,ā€ he said pulling you to the drink table. It was pretty packed but he muscled through to the front. He got your preferred drink. ā€œAnd a whiskey on the rocks.ā€
ā€œDonā€™t get drunk,ā€ you whispered to him. ā€œI wonā€™t sleep with you drunk.ā€
ā€œWith a finger of water,ā€ Jason added to the bartender who nodded.
ā€œGood save,ā€ you said turning to look at the floor. You sipped your drink and people watched.
Dick and his date were dancing some quick steps in the middle of the floor. No surprise there. Tim was talking to boring business men and his poor date looked absolutely bored on her feet. Alfred was watching Damian and his date from the corner of his eyes whereas Damian seemed completely oblivious with his eyes on her all night. And Bruce was currently heavily flirting with a woman who literally meowed at him. You resisted the urge to gag and turned back to Jason.
ā€œWanna dance,ā€ Jason asked casually watching the floor. But you knew he wanted to dance because he asked.
ā€œYeah,ā€ you said grabbing his hand. He pulled to to the floor. Jason was also trained to dance as all the Wayne boys had been. But he was probably the worst dancer out of all of them. His parents had never taught him anything as nice as dancing and heā€™d only lived with Bruce for a few years before the whole Joker thing. But Jason was a natural athlete and his dancing was still pretty darn good.
The dance was a bit slower than the one Dick and his date had been dancing to earlier. Jason held one hand on your waist and the other stayed in your hand. His dancing was visibly polite and innocent. The words he whispered in your ear were far from.
ā€œIs it hard being the hottest woman here? This dress on your ass is fucking delicious,ā€ he whispered and you flushed at his words. ā€œI canā€™t wait to fuck you in it later.ā€
He really enjoyed saying things that were completely naughty in public where you could do nothing about it. But you knew that if he kept it up, youā€™d be finding a spare room before New Years even came. And you didnā€™t want to miss the fireworks again this year.
As the song ended, and you thoroughly turned on and scandalized, you asked him to walk in the garden with you. Lover boy needed something to cool him down.
ā€œSure, Princess,ā€ he said snagging 2 glasses of punch on the way out. You both walked between the flower beds and he told you stories of things that had happened there. ā€œAnd thatā€™s when Dick accidentally cut the top foot off of this bush. Alfred had him scrubbing floors for a month,ā€ Jason said with a laugh. ā€œIt was so bad that there is still a rule of no swords in the garden. Damian hates it.ā€
ā€œI bet he does. But he could probably destroy the entire garden with a pocket knife,ā€ you said with a laugh. Jason suddenly pulled you to the side with a hush. He motioned over a ways.
ā€œSpeaking of the kid, look over there,ā€ Jason whispered. You looked over to see Damian making out with a girl his age. It was so weird to see him being so sweet. ā€œI didnā€™t know he felt human emotion, much less find someone his age to makeout with.ā€
ā€œThey could have said that about you a few years ago,ā€ you said slyly.
ā€œYeah, point taken. Want the best view of the fireworks?ā€ Jason said.
ā€œWhere?ā€
ā€œTop of the roof.ā€
You blanched at the idea. ā€œNo thanks. I choose life.ā€
ā€œItā€™s safe. Thereā€™s a ladder and everything,ā€ Jason said hugging you from behind. ā€œBest view in the house. And if not, dinners on me.ā€
ā€œJay, you get the check every time,ā€ you reminded him. He chuckled.
ā€œMaybe Iā€™m just trying to get a pretty girl alone to give her a kiss,ā€ Jason said pulling you to the roof. You flushed. ā€œUnlike demon boy making out in the garden. I have class.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re a classy lady. Show me the way before I change my mind,ā€ you said. He took you to a ladder over the library. You pulled off your heels and started climbing.
ā€œDonā€™t worry Iā€™ll catch you you if you fall Princess. Iā€™m right behind you. Did I mention your ass in this dress? I kinda have the perfect view,ā€ he said. You rolled your eyes before throwing your leg over the side of the roof. Jason quickly followed you.
ā€œHere, wear my jacket,ā€ Jason said throwing the red blazer over your shoulder.
ā€œOo my knife now,ā€ you said feeling in his pocket and pulling out a sizable switchblade.
ā€œI forgot to take it out of there. I wouldnā€™t touch it too much,ā€ Jason said taking it out of your hands with a grimace. You gave him a look.
ā€œThatā€™s incredibly gross. Seriously. Do I even want to know?ā€
ā€œNot really. Look at the stars. You can see them through the shitty Gotham sky,ā€ Jason said sitting on a box. He pulled you into his lap and you were grateful as it was really quite cold. You could see some stars and you leaned your back against his chest and looked up at the heavens for a few minutes.
The music stopped downstairs. It must be almost midnight. You couldnā€™t understand but you heard Bruce talk over a mic. Then everyone started counting.
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ā€œHappy New Years, Jaybird,ā€ you said turning your head and holding Jasonā€™s jaw. You leaned your head up and gave him a kiss. He held you close and you made out until the sound of a firework had you jumping. You laughed before turning to look. The roof really did have the best view.
After a few minutes of watching the fireworks you heard some lewd noises. Jason looked over at a window near your spot.
ā€œLetā€™s get the fuck out of here,ā€ he said with a disgusted look. ā€œThatā€™s fucking Timā€™s room and the sound of him getting laid is literally the last thing I want. What I do want is to take a bite out of that ass Iā€™ve been looking at all night.ā€
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call you mine (M) | changkyun
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āž›pairing: Im Changkyun (I.M.) x reader āž›genre: friends with benefits!AU,Ā Ā non Idol!AU, angst, smut, fluff. āž›word count: 2,741 āž›rating: M āž›warnings:Ā idk this is truly some sweet soft shit, mentions of alcohol, friends with benefits, standing sex, slight rough sex, biting/marking because clearly I have a kink, unprotected sex, creampie, mentions of Mingi!!, lots of kissing, soft clown Chaingang truly.Ā  āž›summary: Changkyun knew he ruined your friends with benefits arrangement when he let his feelings be known, and now youā€™ve left him on read for weeks. So he does the only thing he can to stay sane - he religiously watches your Instagram stories. āž›notes: Another first for me - my first Monsta X fic! Iā€™ve played around with writing Changkyun for a while now, mostly because I live to torture @taetaesbaebaepsaeā€‹ (which she deserves from all the PAINFUL and RUDE Baekhyun shit sheā€™s written for me). However, she decided to actively commission her own demise, because she stays not listening to Namjoon and refuses to love herself. Iā€™m glad I finally got a chance to take a stab at writing her ult, and I hope I did him justice! Enjoy your tomfoolery, Kristin!Ā šŸ’– āž›song: Call You Mine -Ā  The Chainsmokers & Bebe Rexha | Horizon - I.M. & Elhae
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Itā€™s pathetic, he knows.
The way he canā€™t stop watching, the way he seeks your face out in an app full of millions of others. The way he canā€™t get you out of his bed, his head, his thoughts.
He fucked up, scared you off, and now heā€™s left with the aftermath of his own stupidity. Watching you through a screen to fight the withdrawals off, to keep his heart beating.
Changkyun knows you would laugh at him if you saw what he was doing.Ā 
Watching your Instagram stories is the only reason heā€™s heard you laugh in over two weeks, the only way heā€™s been able to see your eyes light up, your lips curve into a salacious grin. Things he fucking missed, thought he would have plenty of time to indulge in - until he couldnā€™t keep his mouth shut and ruined it.
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He had taken you back to his place after a few shots of whisky at the dingy local bar, hands and mouth unable to leave your skin - just like the hundreds of times before. It had been four months since you had started this friends with benefits relationship, and despite having freedom to see whomever he wanted, Changkyun found himself only starving for you. So hungry that he couldnā€™t stand another moment in that place, watching you share your smile with anyone other than him. So he had tugged you close, nipped at your ear, told you that you were so damn beautiful that he couldnā€™t stand there another minute without you coming undone around him.Ā 
You had smirked, slid your hand down the front of his pants, grabbing his cock like you owned it, purring out the words ā€œprove itā€ before following him outside, just like the hundreds of times before.
Pressed up against his wall, his pelvis flush with yours, Changkyun whispered filth in your ears as he ground up against you, swallowing your moans in greedy kisses. Desperate fingers had pulled at your top, freeing your breasts for him to worship as he worked your skirt up around your waist, thrusting his clothed length against your core until you were whining.
Changkyun always promised to take his time with you, to work you over until you were drunk on his touch and pleading for more - but you never let him, always knowing the right thing to say to get his gaze to go dark and lust to turn frantic, to unzip his jeans and press inside your dripping cunt right there in the hallway.Ā 
Just like the hundreds of times before.
You had come around him, digging your nails in his back so hard it left marks, made him growl your name against your collarbone as his thrusts picked up speed to fuck you through the high. You urge him on in the way only you can manage, begging for his release, whispering how much you want his come deep in your cunt. Biting down against the skin, he had spilled inside you with a final groan, hips twitching as he pumped you full of him, forehead resting against your shoulder.
Instead of pulling away immediately, Changkyun remained collapsed against you, breathing heavy. You had smacked at his shoulder, but he just chuckled, arms adjusting to continue a firm hold of your legs as he stayed inside of you, trapping you against his body and the wall.
ā€œWhat are you doing, Kyun?ā€ scoffing, you had grasped his jaw, forcing him to look at you. ā€œI let you fuck me dirty against the wall without even demanding you buy me food after. Least you can do is let me get cleaned up.ā€
He had gazed up at you then, eyes piercing as they looked through you, and your heart clenched tightly in your chest.Ā 
He knew he shouldnā€™t say it. Knew it would scare you off. And yetā€¦.
ā€œI would, you know.ā€ Swallowing thickly, his tongue darted out to wet his lips. ā€œTake you to go get food. If you - I mean, if you wanted. If youā€™d let me.ā€Ā 
It was like he could see the carefully crafted defenses go up, the pain etching your brow and making your eyes go cold. Anxiety flooded his veins as you wiggled out of his grasp, sliding your clothes back into place as you moved towards his bathroom.
ā€œYou donā€™t mean that,ā€ you murmured, faking a smile. ā€œYou know what this is, Kyun.ā€
ā€œI do mean that!ā€ He knew he sounded too eager, too pitiful, but he couldnā€™t stop himself. ā€œIā€™d take you out to dinner. Or,ā€ following you, he paused in the doorway, watching you appraise yourself in the mirror. ā€œWe could just get take-out and go somewhere private, drive to a park, bring a blanket and some booze, eat somewhere no one would know or bother us.ā€Ā 
Your answering laugh had sounded wrong, like it had cost you something - like it was the last thing you had wanted to do.Ā 
ā€œLike a picnic? Changkyun, youā€™re saying you want to take me on a picnic? Like a proper date?ā€
Stuttering, he tried to explain himself, but you had cut him off with a single wave.Ā 
ā€œListen, we both know Iā€™m not that kind of girl, and you donā€™t want me to be.ā€ Leaning forward, you had pressed a kiss against his mouth, your eyes somber when you had pulled away, moved towards the door.Ā 
ā€œWhat if I do?ā€ His voice broke, wanting to reach out but his arms remaining stiff at his sides. ā€œWhat if I want you to be that kind of girl, with me?ā€
Tears stung your eyes, your stomach sinking like you had been punched. You couldnā€™t do this, couldnā€™t handle the inevitable disappointment that would come when you got your hopes up.
ā€œIā€™ll see you around,ā€ you threw over your shoulder before shutting the door, and shutting him out.Ā 
Just like the hundreds of times before.
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It had been two weeks now since he last saw you in person. It wasnā€™t for lack of trying; texting you at all hours had proven fruitless, even when he tried to send the usual ā€˜you upā€™ message like he didnā€™t just lay his heart out on the line. You responded airily, non committal, and he knew what you were doing.Ā 
You were trying to let him down easy.
So here he was, phone glued to his hand as he scrolled through to find your picture, clicking on it to see if there was any update. You didnā€™t post a bunch in your feed, but you had a tendency to update your stories often - filling them with silly memes and cute selfies, little videos of you going about your day. Cuddling with your cat, attempting to cook something for lunch. His favorite was when you would do tarot readings for your followers; the way your face would turn serious as you read the cards, passionate fire in your eyes as you helped deliver the message to its owner.Ā 
Seeing you that excited and genuine did something to him, made his chest feel like it was going to explode.
He knows you can tell that heā€™s watching, can see the icon of his profile showing up at the bottom of the video under ā€œseen by.ā€ He can only imagine what youā€™re thinking when you see it - that heā€™s a loser, this friend with benefits who turned lovesick puppy, but he canā€™t make himself care. Itā€™s the only way he feels close, can pretend youā€™re still in his life.
He never thought that he would need you, now all he wants is to see you - for you to answer him, to come back to him.Ā 
Changkyun still sends texts, unable to stop his fingers from reaching out, despite knowing youā€™ll shut him down. He calls sometimes too, late at night when his blood is more whisky than plasma, though you never answer those. Instead he listens to your voicemail, eyes closed to stop the world from spinning, letting your voice lull him to sleep.Ā 
He convinces himself heā€™s fine with this arrangement, that things would be alright. He can just miss you from afar, observe you live your life through the pixels of a screen. That watching your stories is enough for him, will keep him afloat.
Until he sees you with someone else.
It was another Friday night he was spending alone, half drunk and on his phone, looking for your picture. Taking a deep breath, he had felt his heart stop when he saw the rainbow ring adorning your profile photo, meaning you had updated your story. Sighing, he tapped it, hoping that it would be a few videos so he could pretend for just a moment that he was beside you instead of wasting space on his bed.
The first clip was a selfie, your heavily lidded eyes staring seductively at the camera through your lashes, making his pulse jump and pants tighten. The caption ā€œgonna get drunk tonight!ā€ scrolled across the image, right below the pout of your lips. The next was a small video of you making a drink, giggling about the mixture of tequila and soju you were tossing in your cup, whispering to the camera how it was going to get you ā€˜all the way fucked upā€™. But it was the third clip that had his chest heaving, his lungs forgetting how to work.
You were walking out your door, a few people cluttering your front porch as you asked if anyone had a light. Some tall red headed kid - Changkyun refused to acknowledge him as anything more than that - had shouted out, and you squealed as you ran up to him, sliding directly onto his knee before switching the camera into selfie mode to capture the two of you. The next clip was you in his lap, one of your delicate hands sliding through his hair as he gave you a big dopey grin, a cigarette perched on your lips as you cooed at him and told him just how cute he was.
Fuck. He knew that look of yours, knew those moves. Knew exactly what you were doing, what you were hoping to do with that fucking Mingi kid, and he couldnā€™t stand it, not anymore.
Taking a few deep pulls directly from the liquor bottle, his fingers flew over the keys of his phone, sending you text after text -Ā  all of which were ignored. He knew calling would be pointless, that you would rather light yourself on fire than answer your phone - especially at a party - and he felt desperation creep up his throat, choking him.
Changkyun couldnā€™t let this happen. Couldnā€™t let you just forget about him.
Clicking back onto Instagram, he started sending you responses to the story video as he got dressed, throwing on the nearest pair of jeans and sliding on his boots.
<What are you doing? Why wonā€™t you answer my texts? I fucking miss you.>
<And not just fucking you. I miss you. I miss us. If you want me to stay for the rest of my life, I will. You already got me.>
<Answer me, Y/N. Or Iā€™m going to come over, see if you can ignore me to my face>
<Baby?>
<Iā€™m on my way. Donā€™t take that kid to your bed.>
It took painfully long for the Lyft to show up, and he gritted his teeth the whole route there, knee bouncing to stop himself from demanding the driver to go faster, to just hurry the fuck up and get to you.Ā 
When the car had pulled into your neighborhood, he tried to send another message, instead clicking a video. Too frustrated to change it back, he lets it record, his voice low and pained.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m on my way, please let me in.ā€Ā 
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You were alone on the deck when your phone started vibrating, the ding of an Instagram direct message making you click the app, eyes widening in surprise when you saw the number of notifications.Ā 
Changkyun, all from him.
Awestruck, you scrolled through every line, your heart throbbing with each word he had written.Ā 
You didnā€™t think he cared, not like that. Sure, he missed the sex, but thatā€™s what you expected. Thatā€™s what all of them wanted when they sent you late night texts, when they called your phone at three in the morning. Empty promises and broken vows were what kept you company in the dark, when theyā€™d predictably leave you alone with an ache between your legs and in your chest.Ā  None of them really wanted you, cared about you. After a few weeks of ghosting, theyā€™d all disappear into thin air like expected, and your heart would harden just a bit more.
But nowā€¦
Another chime pulls you from your thoughts, eyes flicking back to the light of your phone. Instead of another direct message, itā€™s a notification that Changkyun had updated his story for the first time in months.Ā 
Shaking fingers slide against the screen, your vision blurring as you take in the shadowed back seat of another personā€™s car, the only lightĀ  neon pink from the sign of the Lyft drivers decal. For a moment, all you can hear is the quiet chattering of a distant radio, of someone breathing heavily.Ā 
And then his voice croaking over the speaker, raspy with need.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m on my way, please let me in.ā€
The video fades just as a car pulls up to your curb, a flurry of movement as Changkyun climbs out, stumbles towards you. He all but collapses into your arms, his breath dripping with liquor, eyes reddened but burning fiercely.Ā Ā 
ā€œY/N,ā€ he mumbles, hands coming to cup your face, thumb dragging against the smooth skin of your cheek. ā€œI want to take you on a picnic.ā€Ā 
You laugh, though it comes out more like a sob. ā€œWhat? What are you talking about? Did you call a Lyft and come all the way across town to tell me that, you clown?ā€
His finger taps against your lips once, twice. ā€œShh. Just let me-ā€ he sighs, stomping a foot. ā€œLet me talk.ā€Ā 
He waits until you nod before continuing, words surging from his mouth as if he couldnā€™t hold back a second longer.Ā 
ā€œI came all the way here because I want to take you on a picnic. I want to buy you food and take you on cute little dates and do cheesy things that make you smile at me like you are right now,ā€ he grins, pulling you until your chest rests against his own. ā€œIā€™m here because I couldnā€™t stand you ignoring me anymore. I meant everything I said - that I miss you, that I want to be with you, if youā€™ll give me the chance. I want to call you mine.ā€
Pressing his forehead against yours, his eyes fall shut, his voice fervent and barely more than a whisper.Ā 
ā€œI love you, Y/N.ā€
Tears brim your eyes, and you fight every old wound that tells you to shove him away, to call him a liar. Instead you allow yourself to follow your gut, your heart for what feels like the first time, leaning back to give him a watery smile in return.Ā 
ā€œI love you too, Changkyun.ā€Ā 
His mouth immediately lands on yours, tongue eagerly tracing the seam of your lips until itā€™s slipping inside, tasting every inch of you, ravenous and unsatisfied until your knees are shaking. Heā€™s walking you backwards towards the door, tugging at your clothes, and you giggle at his impatience.
Pulling away, you gasp for air, palm pressing against his shoulder to hold him back for a moment. ā€œBut listen, if I give you a chance, that means you have to stop stalking my Instagram, you creep. And donā€™t try to deny it, I see you all over my stories, lurking around.ā€Ā 
He chuckles then, nipping at your bottom lip as his eyes darken. ā€œPlease, donā€™t act like you donā€™t love the attention,ā€Ā 
Pushing the door open, he guides you inside, mouth working over your neck, arms wrapped around your waist until your back is flattened against the wall.Ā 
ā€œPlus, thereā€™s no need, now that I got you,ā€ he confesses, his nose swiping against yours gently before he captures your lips between his own, hitching your legs to drape around his waist as he grinds against you, humming words of praise.
Just like the hundreds of times before, but now as his.
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jcfoxington Ā· 3 years ago
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@sambambuckyā€‹ : ā€œpls... Pastels, Peaches and Pain??? among us first draft??? marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr posts (itā€™s not an au!?!??!)
hi jo !!! Pastels, Peaches, and Pain is one of those sambucky wips i have mostly fully fleshed out in my head because of one (1) extreme moment of clarity after a rogueĀ ā€˜what ifā€™ tangent thought but havent written anything of yet out of restraint / knowing i need to finish at least one of my current sambucky wips before i start it or none of them will get done
this was the rogue tangent thought:Ā ā€œwhat if Sam is haunted by Figaroā€™s ghost and has been since he was a kid?ā€. iā€™ve changed the ghost cat to not be Figaro but thatā€™s the premise !
i refer to the fic as the cat ficĀ ā€˜cause the whole plot is based around samā€™s ghost cat companion insisting he adopts natā€™s cat Liho after endgame and then Figaro later and then [insert redacted because plot spoilers but just know it relates to Alpine]. no im not projecting my feelings about cats idk what youre talking aboutĀ 
hereā€™s some note snippets just for you:
the cat, inexplicably, takes a liking to bucky, which is really annoying bc sam doesnt know how to explain to him that all the oddly soft gusts of wind are actually sam's dead cat insisting on getting pats
bucky getting shade thrown at him by said ghost cat during all of tfatws + them making up (and not out. yet)
starts when sam's a kid & follows him as he grows up w/ a ghost kitty as a companion only he can see & interact with + angst with an undertone of comedy + getting together
he whispers to ghost kitty, who simply mmrrs happily
for the among us first draft thing, what basically happened is i saw this tweet and this videoĀ and my brain latched onto these dynamics so hard i had to write about them.Ā 
hereā€™s a sketch of my two main imposters, Black (left) and Cyan (right):
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and hereā€™s a snippet:
The thing having Cyan pause and stare out at the asteroid field is how the colors stretch to family. When they and Black came aboard, they had thought every crewmember was an adult working on the planet-change project. That the patch of off-white with a black something-pattern-or-shape signified status. In a way, Cyan supposes it does, but just not the way they expected. They had expected it to show what rank an individual held within the hierarchy of the crew, from deckhand to division leader to captain, not to show that you're family of the crew and not actually part of the crew itself.Ā 
There are innocents on this ship. Children. It was not something any of them had anticipated, and not something Cyan had been prepared to deal with. They and Black boarded this horrible place to eradicate a threat, believing each and single one of the humans were accomplishes and dedicated to the goal of destroying Cyan and Black's species, and their planet. But, now?
marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr posts... doesnā€™t have a wip title or seperate document for itself yet cause itā€™s been stuck in myĀ ā€˜story ideasā€™ document since its creation. soĀ ā€˜marvel meets warframe meets a bunch of tumblr postsā€™ is literally just me describing the vibe of an original world gjkerfkds
the world came to be for two reasons. firstly, i want to do make take on a superhero universe because the plot and complete lack of communication in both the dcu and mcu piss me the fuck off. secondly, needed a place to dump ocs with elaborate backstories or fantasy / sci-fi abilities that dont fit into any of my existing worlds
which sounds super competent but trust me, it isnā€™t. it didnā€™t gain any solidity at all until i decided to do a personalĀ ā€˜how different can i make spn castiel look & still retain the same vibe?ā€™ challenge. i have my own cas now
however, the reason i said ā€˜marvel meets...ā€™ is because iā€™ve snagged a couple of different things from the mcu, most notably: enemies to reluctant coworkers to lovers, yes our best friend have the same name. no theyā€™re not the same person, secret evil org is controlling the government, and the assassin that tried to kill you several times is now your best friend
warframe was added to the world because i got attached to my Volt build, gave them a name, and have some headcanons idk what to do with because i refuse to interact with that fandom. also because the friend i made through discussing warframe lore + plot dicked me over so it feels Bad to create for
the glue to this whole mess is that one ā€œin every friend group thereā€™sĀ a mean bisexual, an even meaner lesbian, a she/they, a he/they, a himbo, an astrology bitch, a short king, and a token straightā€ tumblr post. my main group of superheroes ala the avengers consist of these people. the token straight is the only one i havent figured out who is yet
ever since i figured that out ive been throwing story / character ideas and weirdly specific aesthetics from popular tumblr posts into this worldā€™s notes. hereā€™s some examples:
sword grandmas
that trope where someoneā€™s really nice and acts super well-adjusted to society but then they do something super whack and dangerous and you realize ā€˜oh theyā€™re secretly a little bit insane, actuallyā€™
anti-gay groupā€™s leaderā€™s wife leaves him for another woman
superhero who swore to be the best hero [city / planet / solar system / continent / ????] has ever seen ever since he lost his wife. not because sheā€™s dead but divorce just sucks & the hero-to-be is terrible at coping
dishevelled swamp witch
that one person who runs around with an amulet all the time & isnā€™t aware itā€™s cursed
an exasperated, tired superhuman assassin running after their husband and their husband's best friend. their husband and said husband's best friend both have wings. chaos ensues (yes, this one is a sambucky post)
ask me about my WIPs!
BONUS:
@sambambuckyā€‹ā€‹ : #i want to have a coffee and listen to synopses of all of these.... #i miss the discord wow #WRITING TAG #waitttt time jumping dream movie? lmao I'VE READ THIS LIST FORTY TIMES and every time i rediscover something i wanna know about #outfit doodlesss ugh i need to go
couldnt not respond to your tags because they make me go ghrkjfnerknf but in the good way. we miss you too jo !!
the time jumping dream movie was one of the first vivid dreams i had and the whole thing was so stupidly coherent and whacky i had to write it down. it grew plot, a queer love dynamic, weird sci-fi apocalypse elements, anti-military propaganda, questionable science, and a sequel while i wasnt looking and now i just. have to make it a real movie or iā€™ll combust
outfit djoodlles.png is only on there because my best friend sent me aĀ ā€˜draw this outfitā€™ meme and space kitty, my current character brainrot, stole all the outfits for himself. otherwise, that file just sits there until im feeling like designing an outfit or wanna see how a stupid thing looks on my oc patrick
hereā€™s one of the two poses-to-doodle-outfits-on of space kitty ive made so far:
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and hereā€™s one of those stupid things on patrick (that then turned into an actual outfit of his because i have no self control):
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purplecantaloupe Ā· 5 years ago
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**gif is not mine**
i was reading a calum fic just now and thought back to my old writings which sprung this idea in my head and i had to whip my laptop out and get to work. the lowercase and awkward grammar is intended ig i hope you enjoy <3
i had previously written a request for fwb!cal and as my mom would say ā€œnot my best workā€ but as i would say ā€œit fucking sucked ballsā€ so im making this kind of the rewrite for that monstrosity.
anon, if youre out there this is for you bby i hope this satisfies your soul <33
Explanation: so basically this is fwb!cal along with sub!cal and a bit of femdom!y/n which y/n gets pissed off that calum wonā€™t interact with her, conflict/resolution as some might say.
Warnings: femdom!y/n; sub!cal; this is a WHOLE lotta smut, a few minutes of angst here and there, and a little fluff at the end (bc who doesnā€™t love a happy ending?)
Also Iā€™m sorry for the spacing, I really donā€™t know what happened there :/
it was the last straw with calum, heā€™d been constantly on his phone the whole day and since it had been pouring outside for the most part you couldnā€™t go nurture your garden like you had intended. all day heā€™d been sitting and giggling at his phone, maybe the boys sending him some stupid texts or maybe it was some of his fans tagging him in memes on twitter, who the fuck knows but y/n was thoroughly annoyed. being stuck in the house all day with calum and not interacting physically with him had gotten to you, he hadnā€™t even said a word to you since breakfast! you even asked if he wanted to fuck around just to pass the time away and he just shook his head and mumbled out a, ā€œnot in the mood.ā€ needless to say, you were irritated. so irritated to the point that you stood up from your comfortable position on the couch with a huff, stalking to your room and shut the door with your foot before laying face down on your bed, finally being engulfed in silence from his constant snickers and you could hear the rain hitting your bedroom window as it gave you a sense of serenity.
after lying on your bed for what felt like maybe ten minutes, you hear the front door open and shut, assuming that calum went out for a smoke. this was the time that you took to go out and grab as many snacks and anything that youā€™d need for the whole night, having the whole weekend off from work, you decided that youā€™d be staying in your room, giving calum a taste of his own medicine. after raiding your shared kitchen, you head back to your bedroom and decide to find something on netflix to watch and drown out calum when he comes back.
after awhile of mindlessly watching something on netflix for who knows how long, you hear the door open and shut and a couple pairs of feet walking around downstairs before they make their way up them and pass your room. feminine giggles erupt from the stranger and you hear calumā€™s door shut and you knew exactly what was going to happen in the next few minutes. you thanked every god above that you couldnā€™t hear what they were doing behind the closed bedroom door, every now and then you could hear a squeal from the end of the hall which only made you turn your television up louder.
you and calum made the agreement when you started your friends with benefits situation, you would be allowed to see other people and do whatever you wanted but you had to have some type of respect for the other; if you had another friend over, youā€™d be considerate and let the other person know ahead of time. to which he did not inform you that he was having a friend come over. youā€™d tried earlier to get it on but he rejected you which made your mood skyrocket into the ground along with your heart. it wasnā€™t calumā€™s rejection that stung you but the fact that he wouldnā€™t even give you the time of day without letting out a sigh and mumbling an answer before giggling at his screen again. suddenly it dawned on you, he wasnā€™t giggling at his phone because the guys of his fans were being funny, no, he was giggling because he was texting the girl that is probably laying in his bed right now, in the same spot you were lying in just the night before. the sounds have subsided but the ache in your heart stayed the same, ā€˜guess the last few months have just been time wasted that you couldā€™ve been spending on somebody elseā€™ you thought.
this was an all new low for calum, sure youā€™d had your fair share of other hook-ups but they never were there when calum was home, you had respect for him and yourself but apparently the feelings werenā€™t reciprocated. the message has been heard loud and clear. he didnā€™t care about you nearly as much as you care about him.
you hear silence from calumā€™s side of the hall which you take as a sign theyā€™ve both passed out to which you make a break for it. jogging down the stairs and to your car through the rain that still hasnā€™t let up, you climb in the vehicle and youā€™re on your own to find yourself a meaningless hookup.
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about an hour later you have your side pieceā€™s head between your thighs as youā€™re belting out every curse word you can think of, your mind racing through nothing but tunnels as your vision darkens sans the stars you see around your head. jason was the nicest man youā€™d met since you moved to los angeles, he knew how to treat a womanā€™s body but also how to make you feel like you were floating. of course you two didnā€™t go farther than just sex, jason didnā€™t want a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship and you had calum at home so nothing would come of this affair.
jason came up and pressed his lips to yours, laying one hand up next to your head and the other was laying between your folds, collecting your orgasm before pulling away slightly and inserting his pointer finger into his mouth and sucking you off of him before he slides his middle finger into your mouth letting you both have a taste before you attach tongues again, tasting you with a bit of mint thrown into the mix. he pulls his fingers out of you mouth to blindly slide a condom on, never breaking the kiss before he slides himself in your tight walls then returns his hand to the side of your face. he definitely wants as big as calum is but he definitely knows how to use his cock, swirling his hips to make a beautiful rhythm between your bodies. much to your demise he pulls his mouth away from yours and attaches it to your neck and toying with your breasts with his free hand. he bit and nibbled on your neck, making sure to keep you stimulated, earning light squeals from you as he gently bit your throat then swirled his tongue to soothe the sting, though his hips never faltering. your hands were buried in his hair, tugging when he would do something you particularly liked which made him want to burst right there. jason was a peculiarly attractive man, he had long enough brown hair that you could grab ahold of and tug on as much as you wanted to, (calumā€™s was long enough to pull but you couldnā€™t really get a good grip on it) his eyes were a deep shade of emerald but he never really kept eye contact long enough for you to notice the little specks like calumā€™s deep brown eyes when the sun hits them just right you can see the flecks of yellow and almost auburn. jasonā€™s hands were smaller than calumā€™s, he could hold your whole breast in his hand while jasonā€™s hand was smaller and his fingers didnā€™t reach quite the same spots inside of you as calumā€™s long digits do.
jasonā€™s hips practically had a mind of their own filling you up deliciously downstairs while his hands and mouth explored your upper body, never staying in one place which had your mind reeling.
by the time you both spilled over the edge, you were putty in his hands, despite your bodyā€™s buzzing of the aftershock, you gave jason a wave and jogged to your car from the rundown apartment building that jason lived in, heā€™s a messier man than calum ever could be, never really cleans up after himself. you would never judge somebody for their income or their living style but having known ahead of time youā€™d expect him to clean up a little before youā€™d arriveā€¦ maybe he did, that thought alone sent shivers down your spine. the fact there were multiple pizza boxes and other pieces of garbage lying around the living room as you two were walking through to the bedroom; calum was one to always make sure that if anyone was coming over, even if the maid heā€™d hired came over, heā€™d always make sure the house was presentable.
once you left jasonā€™s and embarrassingly compared him to your other affair, you decided to go to home, making sure once you parked that you didnā€™t see his friendā€™s car there, which you didnā€™t and you walked up to your bedroom. on the way through the house you noticed calum sitting on the couch with his phone in his hands and his attention on the television, he hadnā€™t even acknowledged that you were home. you silently scoffed to yourself before shaking your head and ascend up the stairs to your room. in the moment you found yourself wanting calum to want you.
you found (in your opinion) your sexiest bra and panty set that you were aware that calum hadnā€™t known about; he never needed to know about your lingerie collection due to never having to really seduce him, he was the one who always started things off and tonight that was going to change. for once in you and calumā€™s relationship, you were the one who was going to show him the ropes, you are going to be in control. once you were satisfied in your outfit choice, you went to your bathroom and showered jasonā€™s funk and sweat off of you then made your way to your bedroom, and made sure you had moisturized yourself before blow drying your hair and making it look almost as if you actually were trying to get calumā€™s attention, which you were but you wanted the fact to be subtle. you changed and slid a long white shirt on top that was almost see through which you most definitely could see the dark blue lace of the lingerie which complimented your skin almost too well.
you made your way downstairs, the first floor being lit up by the spotlights on the ceiling as well as the tv, calumā€™s head was still watching the show he was so invested in until you walked past the screen and turned to look at him innocently. you turned back around to the dvd movies under the tv cabinet and bent over, your behind stuck out from under the shirt just enough that calum could see what you were wearing underneath. calum let out an annoyed sigh as he craned his neck to keep watching his show as you picked out a random movie. you stood tall and looked at him with all of the pent up annoyance youā€™d suffered with all day.
ā€œcalum what the fuck is up with you today?ā€ you say almost yelling.
his reaction was only making you angrier by the second, he barely even moved a muscle he just shrugged one shoulder and put his eyes back on the screen. you tightened your grip on the dvd case before you stood directly in front of him to block his view to which he just looked down at his phone and started scrolling through any form of social media. you grabbed his phone and laid it on the table, despite your subconscious saying to throw it as hard as you could against the wall, it fell to the table with a light clunk noise. you leaned over in front of him, hands on either side of the chair he was sitting in, giving him a good view down the front of your shirt but he stared past your eyes to the wall behind you. you gently but firmly took his chin between your thumb and index fingers and turned his face to look at you, which he looked into your eyes for a brief moment before he averted them to your legs.
ā€œcalum i swear to god if you donā€™t fucking look at me iā€™m gonna go batshit,ā€ you say, your hands trembling with rage. ā€œplease just tell me whatā€™s wrong, i canā€™t take this,ā€ your voice cracks towards the end and you damn your genes for making you so sensitive during confrontation.
calum heard your voice crack and he looked at you, finally saying a real sentence to you, which broke the crack to your heart and shattered you like the porcelain doll that was your heart.
ā€œwe need to end things,ā€ he simply said.
the dvd in your hands clattered to the floor and duke ran over and started sniffing to inspect it; this was your first time seeing duke all day despite your heart shattering you wouldā€™ve scooped him up and rubbed his ears like he loves. your eyes never left calumā€™s and vice versa. he could see your heart shattering and his was cracking straight down the middle, he never thought that this day would come but he finally found a girl that he thinks could be the one he could finally settle down with and open his heart to, that girl wasnā€™t you though, so he had to take the first step into winning this woman over.
ā€œitā€™s her isnā€™t it? the bird that you had over here today?ā€ she says, tears threatening to fall but staying at bay until calumā€™s nod confirms her heartbreak, the tears fall just as the pieces of her heart fail to stay together.
ā€œcan she fuck you better than i can?ā€ y/n says confidently, despite the tears making paths along her cheeks. calum was stunned, heā€™d never heard such words come from y/n, even in the hottest moments of passion. she kept her eyes on his as she slowly climbed up into his lap and sat upon his thighs, caging him into his seat. ā€œcome on cal, tell me, iā€™m the only one who can get you this hard, i know how to make you feel good. come on baby, tell me and iā€™ll give you what you want, iā€™ll make you feel so fucking good.ā€ he had to avoid her eyes otherwise heā€™d give in, those were his weakness, the eyes were the windows to the soul and y/nā€™s was bared to him, he was totally under her spell as he felt his hands going up her waist, meaning to push her off but only brought her lips to his. the dayā€™s activities truly only made him want her more, heā€™d never wanted to hurt y/n by giving her the silent treatment but he had no idea how to bring up the fact that he wanted to start dating someone, for real. having fucked mariah only made him want y/n more and her words, those damn naughty words only made him realize just how much this situation meant to him, sure he wasnā€™t in love with y/n, no but she meant so much to him that he couldnā€™t even remember the other womanā€™s name with y/n on top of him. y/n made him weak and she knew it.
ā€œp-please,ā€ he whimpered which made y/n smirk, he hated that she had so much power over him. she on the other hand was loving the fact that she was the alpha right now.
ā€œplease what? baby, i need to hear your words, what to you want?ā€ y/n knew exactly what she was doing, calum had done this same taunting to her many times. she wasnā€™t going to let calum get away this easily, this entire relationship was built on sex and this was the way she was going to win him back.
ā€œw-want your mouth, your pussy, your hand, a-anything, please, love.ā€ calumā€™s brain was swimming, he didnā€™t even know the words that were coming out of his mouth, his mind was in overdrive and she was driving him even further up the wall.
ā€œshould i give you what you want? i think youā€™ve been quite naughty, think you can get rid of me that easily? youā€™d be mistaken,ā€ y/n continues, grinding herself down on calā€™s cock, keeping a steady rhythm. she was not going to let her emotions and need get to her this time, she was in control for once and she wanted to revel in it.
once feeling y/n grinding down on him, he laid his head in the crook of her neck, whimpering as the uncomfortable hardening in his pants. his hands were attached to her hips like glue, trying to get her to move faster against him, anything to cause friction, y/n took the opportunity while he was distracted to take her long shirt off and show him her set. y/nā€™s breasts were perfectly hung in the push up bra, her tits almost spilling out, causing calum to stare at them as they bounced with her movements. he set his hands lower to grab onto her lace-clad ass and grip it tightly before laying a quick spank to it before he massaged his hands over both cheeks again to soothe the sting. her whimper was heard through the apartment just louder than the tv was playing, sending a rush of blood to calumā€™s cock and wetness to pool in her panties.
much to calumā€™s demise she climbed off of calum, her tits directly in his face and he sent his tongue out to get any bit of skin he could reach. she grabbed a throw pillow off the couch and sat on her knees in front of calum, her mouth watering at the sight of him hardening by the second, who knew calum was such a sub.
y/n gently tugged on calumā€™s shirt and he quickly pulled it off before she leaned up and kissed his chest gently, running her bottom lip all the way up. he tilts his head back as she uses her tongue to lead her mouth to his then leaned up and pecked his lips all so gently. if he was going to end this, she wanted to make the most of it. he of course kissed her back, grabbing the sides of her neck gently to keep her still for him, savoring the taste of her lips. they pulled away at the same time, breathless, and y/n went to work, she grabbed onto the waistband of his boxers, careful not to pinch his skin and gently peeled the boxers down to reveal him. she kissed his tip then bit her lips, licking the bit of precum off her mouth before her throat worked and spit into her hand, bringing it up to him and pumped the bit of his shaft closest to his balls before she took the head in her mouth and sucked and licked the tip, making sure he was lubricated. his head was spinning at the feeling of her mouth on him, she was an expert on calumā€™s body and they both knew it. she pulled off a bit before looking up at him,
ā€œif you try to fuck my face, i wont let you cum at all tonight,ā€ her eyes teary but dark and full of dominancyā€”heā€™d never seen this side of y/n beforeā€”he nodded and looked at her like a little kid, agreeing to anything if sheā€™d keep going. she then bottomed him out, both of her hands on either of his thighs, taking him all the way in her mouth and sitting there for a second before coming back up for air, then doing the same, her nose touching his pelvis, breathing in and then out before pulling off of him, a trail of spit connecting her mouth to his cock. The gags and deep breaths coming for y/n make calum come back to reality, her head bobbing at almost a professional pace, he grabbed onto her hand and tugged on it, she shook her head as if to say that she wasnā€™t done, he tugged on her once more before she pulled off of him and swallowed the mix of precum and spit on her tongue.
ā€œwhat?ā€ she breathed and before she could say anything else, he motioned for her to come to him, his mouth attaching to hers, this kiss was something neither of them had experienced with each other before, both of them feeling more than just the heat of the moment passion, this kiss was a knee weakening, heart stopping, head spinning passion that theyā€™d never shared before. y/n grabbed onto his face and they slowly stood up with each other, calum wrapping his arms around her thighs and she jumped up onto his torso, their clammy skin acting as glue to hold them together. calum carried her all the way up the stairs, practically kicking y/nā€™s door in and then shut it by pressing her against it. the kiss was never broken, neither of them wanted to ruin this moment, y/nā€™s dominant nature, calumā€™s conflicted mindset and both of their needs to please each other. he peeled her from the coolness of the door and her back was met with the soft fabric of the quilt on top of her bed. her hips were reaching to meet his, and he had to break the kiss, her back was caving a little so they could meet their foreheads,
ā€œiā€™m never leaving you,ā€ calum whispered as he looked deep into her irises, something only calum did when he was serious, her heart was slowly piecing back together. something told her that he meant more than he was saying but now was not the time. she gently pushed him up and laid him down against her quilt, climbing on top of him and his hands found their favorite place between her hips and her ribs, ā€œplease ride my face baby, i need to taste you.ā€ calum whimpered at her and look up at her with almost child-like puppy dog eyes.
ā€œhow could i say no,ā€ she whispered and stood up on her bed, looking down at him before sliding her blue laced panties down her legs and threw them across the room, moving up the bed and finding herself sitting right above his mouth and as soon as she was within reach, he was aiming her hole right above his mouth, his breath fanned over her wetness, cooling her heat off as he did and his tongue shot up stiff and flat as he licked a strip up her slit. he slid his hands up from her thighs, grazing her ass before holding onto her lower back holding onto her tightly as if sheā€™d float away. she ground her hips against his mouth, eliciting little whimpers from her mouth, her left hand finding his short hair and her right flew to the headboard, knuckles turning white as her vision went black, her head flew up to face the ceiling, using the headboard to keep her grounded as he sucked on her clit, nipping at it a bit which made her let out a loud squeal of his name and a string of curses. calum seeing and hearing that made him never want it to stop, he made sure to nibble her clit once more. y/n had to do something, she wasnā€™t on earth, she was on cloud fucking nine and she had to ground herself, she reached behind her and grabbed onto his cock, pumping her fist rapidly before she struck an idea.
ā€œcal, cal ssss-stop,ā€ she hissed and he immediately thought something was wrong, he looked up at her with glossy eyes.
ā€œare you okay, what did i do?ā€ he whispered and gently pushed her up to look at her, this was the same way heā€™d always done it and he was scared that heā€™d hurt her.
ā€œnothing, you did absolutely nothing wrong, that wasā€¦ perfect. i want to try something, if youā€™re down.ā€ she said and slowly moved down from near his mouth. he looked at her wearily and nodded.
ā€œwill it hurt?ā€ he whispered, holy shit he was so fucking cute right now. looking like a little puppy that lost his way home.
ā€œno baby, i want to try a sixty-nine, weā€™ve never done it before and i want to make you feel good, while youā€™re making me feel good,ā€ she says and turns around in the reverse cowgirl position but over his mouth, she looks down at him through her legs and he nods for her to sit down. she slowly sits on his mouth and he immediately starts licking and sucking at her hole and her clit simultaneously which sent her almost flying as she bucked her back involuntarily. she leaned down and kissed his tip once again, sending a wave through him which only got better as she sunk down on him, her chin grazing his lower abdomen. she let out a gag noise and gargled in her throat to keep her esophagus calm, calum practically came just from the friction and the noises she was making also from her own pleasure. she sat up pulled herself off of his tongue and turned around, ā€œsuch a pretty boy,ā€ she whispers and runs her finger down his cheek gently, ā€œput your arms up here,ā€ y/n says a little louder. she sits upon his sternum, taking his hands in hers and laid small pecks on his knuckles before she raised them above his head, laying them on the posts of her headboard, ā€œkeep your hands here,ā€ she whispers. calum nods and follows her orders. his grip tightens when she runs her fingernail gently up his sensitive shaft, he gasps and bites his lip.
ā€œplease baby, i need it,ā€ calum whimpers and looks down at her. the smirk on her face makes calum almost angry, they both know that heā€™s putty and sheā€™s drinking it up shamelessly.
ā€œare you my little slut? thinking that you can fuck another girl in our house while iā€™m just down the hall?ā€ she whispers through her teeth, anger just at her surface. ā€œdo you think you should be punished for being a little slut?ā€ y/n says, her fingernail still grazing his swollen cock. calumā€™s brain quite literally cant form a full sentence, y/nā€™s words, her touch, his guilt, his brain is swimming in mush.
ā€œplease mama, punish me,ā€ he whimpers ā€œiā€™ve been so fucking bad,ā€ he grips the posts tight, his knuckles turning white.
ā€œroll over and lay on your stomach, hands go back just as they were,ā€ she commands and sits up to let him roll over, even though sheā€™s showing dominance sheā€™s still trying to be gentle, calum thought. he feels a sting on his bare ass along with a loud smack. he grips the posts in his hands and bites his lip, his gasp is the only thing that is heard in the silence of the room. y/n gains a little confidence and slaps his ass again, biting her lip as she watches it bounce against the friction of her hand.
ā€œsuch a bad boy,ā€ she whispers into his ear. sheā€™s leaning beside his head, looking him directly in the eyes. calā€™s face flushes and she leans down to kiss his cheek, ā€œif any of this is overwhelming in anyway, please tell me to stop,ā€ she says, totally serious and runs her hand through his hair gently. he nods and she leans down to peck his lips softly.
ā€œplease keep going,ā€ he whimpers against her mouth, ā€œbeen so bad i need to be reprimanded,ā€ he says, shooting her a smirk.
y/n goes back between his legs, toying with his balls, laying another smack on his ass, making his body jolt up. she sits up, spreading his ass cheeks and spits a wealthy amount onto his puckered hole, he lets out a high pitched whimper while he anticipates her next move. looking up at him as she uses her hand that is free from his sack and uses her thumb to spread her saliva around, lubing him up nicely. she looks up at him for approval to keep going which he grants quickly. her thumb dips into his tight asshole, he lays his head into her pillows, tightening his grip on her bed posts and shuts his eyes as she stretches him out.
ā€œholy shiiiiiit,ā€ he whimpers after he turns his head back to try to get a glance at her. she slides her thumb out making calum whimper at the loss but is quickly reassured as she slides her pointer finger in, sucking his balls into her mouth, his brain is overwhelmed with pleasure and all his body can do is spasm at her touch. his orgasm just around the corner. y/n knows his body language too well and can tell that heā€™s so close. she doesnā€™t want him to release just yet.
ā€œso needy,ā€ y/n says and bites onto his ass cheek. ā€œthink youā€™ve been punished enough?ā€ she asks leaving one last smack on his ass before she nudges his hip for him to roll over.
he immediately rolls onto his back and tries to grip her hair, wanting some type of control which she slaps his hand. hard. ā€œhands back upā€¦ā€ she says taking his wrists and leans him up back to the posts ā€œ...and lean up against the headboard,ā€ she adds and helps him sit up, ā€œIā€™m gonna ride you, keep your hands on the posts.ā€ he nods, his ability to conversate has gone out the window along with his sobriety. y/n is his drug and heā€™s an addict.
she reaches up onto her headboard to use as leverage before she turns around, getting in the reverse cowgirl position then she aligns herself and slides down on his cock, sighing at how he fills her up perfectly.
calum canā€™t stop staring at her ass bouncing deliciously on his cock, the way she wraps around him so tightly. her movements start to speed up as his cock is hitting her spongy button, her body writhing above his. sheā€™s using her hands to keep her leverage which gives calum the best angle, his moans mixing with hers.
ā€œfuck, your pussy swallows my cock so good, always,ā€ he whimpers which brings y/n so close to her edge.
ā€œoh my god iā€™m so close, fuck,ā€ she moans out, he takes her vulnerability as a chance as he takes his hands off of the posts, lifting her ass up and starts fucking up into her, her screams start flowing out like water. he pulls her back against his front, bringing his hand up to her throat squeezing just enough to make her breathing labor.
she starts grinding down on him, pushing his cock into her g-spot and sheā€™s done for, her orgasm takes her over as she gasps. his hand moves from her throat to her breasts, swallowing them with his hands and before he can comprehend the squeezing and clenching of her pussy, heā€™s releasing inside of her, both of them trembling as she leans back against him and he leans against the headboard, both catching their breaths.
ā€œyou think you can just leave me for somebody else? we both know damn well that nobody else can fuck you like that,ā€ she whispers, her head leaning against his shoulder. he shakes his head with a breathless chuckle, his mind still in subspace.
ā€œgod i love you,ā€ he whispers, biting his lip.
ā€œcalum-ā€œ you start to which he interrupts.
ā€œno, y/n nobody cares like you, nobody loves like you, nobody feels like you. you are the most unique person iā€™ve ever met; I donā€™t want anybody else to have you and I donā€™t want to have anybody else.ā€ he says and runs his hand up your leg and intertwines your fingers.
ā€œare you just saying this stuff because youā€™re still in subspace?ā€ you whisper, giggling a little making you clench around him which makes both of you let out a little moan at the realization that heā€™s still inside of you.
ā€œno, iā€™ve been thinking about this for a while, i tried to distract myself with other girls but i physically cant fathom not having you in my life,ā€ he says. your heart stops and you look back at him, biting your lip, your mouth not being able to move.
calum, Calum, calum, Calum Hood, the man that you had moved in with when you moved to los angeles, the man who so graciously took you out your first night and there you met jason. youā€™d drunkenly stumbled into him and made a complete fool out of yourself, he thought you were charismatic and gorgeous so after sharing a drink or two, you exchanged numbers and the rest was history. if it werenā€™t for calum, you wouldnā€™t have met him. if you didnā€™t have that same night, all those drinks with jason, you and calum wouldnā€™t have started this whole situation together, you two wouldnā€™t be here. right now. together. his cock still inside you, warming and filling you up. that first time that you two shared wasnā€™t only the first for you two, it was the first time for you in general. he was your first and your last (a couple in between but we wonā€™t ruin the moment). he was your first passionate kiss as well, even though you shared it just an hour ago. now you can see, heā€™s the only man you could ever see or think about. in a crowded club, on stage, in your house, in your bed, he consumed you.
ā€œy/n please say something,ā€ he says his voice low, nervous, he brings you out of your thoughts. you literally couldnā€™t say anything so you did the next best thing, you reach around yourself and cup the side of his face, looking into his eyesā€”your favorite colorā€”then kiss him, the most magical, sparkle between the two of you had lit. You lift yourself off of him, causing yourself to whimper into his mouth at the emptiness in your abdomen before you turn fully around climbing onto your knees, feeling a subtle drip between your legs. he wraps his arms around your waist and he sits up with you, reciprocating the kiss as well not daring to break it. he runs his hand up your clammy back and gently lays you back into the bed, your hands burying themselves into his hair out of muscle memory.
cal runs his hands down your front, gently taking your breasts into his hands then runs his mouth down to your neck, leaving love marks into your tender skin. your eyes roll to look at the ceiling, calumā€™s touch so gentle like heā€™s afraid heā€™d break you. you both were so fragile, so vulnerable. his mouth taunts at your right nipple, his hips grinding down into your core. the heat rising in your stomach, you whimper into the quiet air.
ā€œcalum, come here,ā€ you whisper, your hand tugging on his hair and he lifts himself up, his mouth hovering over yours.
ā€œyes?ā€ he whispers, his lips grazing over yours and his breath fans over your lips and chin.
ā€œi love you,ā€ you whisper. he chuckles, his smile bright and his eyes squint. you meet him in the middle as he kisses your lips, both of your tongues dancing together.
he pulls away just for a second to look into your bright eyesā€”full of love and lustā€” for your consent. with a gentle nod he slides himself in once more, filling you up even more than before the extra full feeling being your newfound love.
you suddenly feel just how sensitive you were which causes a whimper to escape your mouth and your pussy to clench around him. he groans in your ear at the friction and he bites onto your earlobe.
his hips start thrusting at a faster pace, knowing neither of you were going to last much longer due to the sensitivity you both were sharing. he swivels his hips just at the right angle causing him to hit your g-spot and you let out a yelp.
ā€œoh god yes, please cal, fuck me,ā€ you whimper, he obliges. his hips going on the same route to meet your g-spot with his tip repeatedly, each time you clench around him. he goes even harder and faster until he has you seeing stars, your eyes meeting as you feel a snap in your abdomen, your body convulsing under him at the same time he snaps as well climaxing inside of you, his hand coming up to meet yours beside your head, intertwining your fingers and squeezing.
as he pulls out you both wince and he lays down next to you. he pulls you into his side and lays a kiss where your shoulder and neck meet. you smile dazed and hum intertwining your fingers with the hand thatā€™s wrapped around your waist. he outstretches your hands and plays with your fingertips, making you giggle.
ā€œi love you,ā€ you whisper.
calum hums, ā€œsay it again,ā€ he whispers.
ā€œi love youā€¦ i love you, i love you, i love you,ā€ you whisper right back and he smiles against your shoulder, looking at your hands as he still plays with your fingers.
ā€œi love you, too,ā€ he whispers and lays another kiss against your neck.
he was also your first love...
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(headdesk slam) Yes, that was 2/2 percent didnā€™t even realize I forgot to add it in the message until after I sent it and spent like 5 mins internally screaming at myself. Iā€™m a mess of a human being tbh. Really? Iā€™m surprised because it feels like Xi fits perfectly in this AU. Xi as accidental cryptid is the best thing, in both worlds. Thatā€™s a relief to hear. My anxiety and I donā€™t get along so I tend to go to worst possible scenario. Youā€™ll probably regret that soon enough. 1/2
Iā€™m like a magpie if something catches my interest and Iā€™ll fuss over it and go all crazy. Especially now, seeing that you did that hob oneshot and mdzs that is two of the main three bl web novels that I now of. Like, of the three Iā€™ve only fully read svsss and my mind immediately went to wonder where Xi would fit in that verse and at this point heā€™d totally be where the biggest amount of knowledge is and that my mind went ā€˜what if Xi was head disciple of Qing Jing Peak?ā€™ 2/?
But thatā€™s pretty unlikely given Xiā€™s desperate avoidance of feelings, plot, and responsibility. Though I could totally see him as a reluctant head disciple and desperately trying to avoid plot. Plus, definitely the first to notice that something would be off with this new Qingqiu. That said, bullying in his peak would not fly with him so I could see Binghe crushing on this unknown elder disciple.
3/3 Iā€™m sorry I donā€™t want to make it seem like I want to push you to write another AU when youā€™ve got enough on your hands. My mind just just went ā€˜ooh what if this happened?ā€™ And I wanted to share my thoughts with you because I think itā€™s interesting. So yeah, again feel free to ignore this. Iā€™m like that guy from the meme with the pictures on the wall and red thread when my brain goes nuts lol.
long ask so this goes under the cut
okay there are a million different ways this question could go, because like. is yrz female in this universe? is he male? is he older than the main characters? is he younger? which sect is he living near? is his family nice or assholes? which version of the story is he in? the sssvs version or the actual original demon path novel (or whatever itā€™s been a while since i read the novel)??? does yrz get a system???Ā 
because the answers to those questions change the story drasticallyĀ 
okay so lets do two versionsĀ 
one: itā€™s sssvs. yrz has aĀ ā€˜background character systemā€™ or something.Ā  heā€™s gotta have a system otherwise he wouldn't get without a thousand li of cang qiang sect. so this systems chooses him (lets say heā€™s a guy in this universe) because its low key and yrz is low key and it was like hey lets be low key together!
lol system.Ā 
lol.Ā 
but the system and yrz get along pretty well, and they get into the peak they want -- which is Wan Jian peak, because if yrz canā€™t join the library peak because of Plot reasons, heā€™s going with hsi second love. Swords! plus i donā€™t think there are literally any named characters from the story, except the peak lord.Ā 
so. timeline wise, i think that none of the peak-lords have ascended yet, so yrz does his natural thing --- he over performs and becomes the head disciple for wan jian peakĀ  as consequence and itā€™s literally just in time for the former peak lords to ascend, so yrz is like. stuck. as a peak lord.Ā 
both the system and yrz are horrified and confused as to how this happened. or, no, by then the system understands the Mistake it made in choosing yrz. on paper yrz is very unassuming! but in reality yrz has no chill. heā€™s never even heard of the concept of chill. he does everything at 110%.
I think that the bulk of this story takes place waaaay before the sssvs cannon, and lbh is sir not appearing in this fic. instead its -- liu qingge! and mu qingfang! both??? both is good! i think he meets lqg first, when he challenges yrz to a spar in the middle of a high stakes missing because lqg is a meathead jock at that age, and yrz is like. no? do your job? dumbass. (yrz has no idea who this shouty brat is, because the system is taking a nap. it wakes up and kicks itself for leaving yrz alone to do stuff.) yrz is older than lqg and kicks his ass because... well. because itā€™s hilarious really. so he gains a lqg shaped stalker.Ā 
yrz has a lot of interest in both sparring and healing, and with lqg following him around, yrz spends a lot of time at the healing peak and meets mqf there. mqf gets a huge crush almost immediately but never said anything.Ā itā€™s not surprising that yrz quickly bonds with these totally cool new disciples -- and then learns that both of the are the succeeding disciples for their peaks. oops.Ā 
system gives up.Ā 
version two: bing-ge edition!Ā 
no system this time around and yrz stays far far away from the cang qiong. he joins a small sect to learn than fucks off to have adventures by himself as a rouge cultivator. so, male version again BUT yrz gets cursed or something and gets the ability to change gender at will because thatā€™s funny and useful. also you know. porn world written by aĀ ā€œstraightā€ guy. there are reasons for that kind of curse imma just gloss over.Ā 
then the plot happens. all of immortal demon pathā€™s many, many chapters are playing around in the background of yrzā€™s life, but she manages to stay out of it -- until one night yrz gets accidentally recruited by a cult dedicated to bringing down the evil demon lord lbh, because this cult has a book yrz is after. she ends up being used as bait for lbh (because he eats virgins now according to rumors. heā€™s up to wife number 249 by now so itā€™s not wrong !)Ā 
yrz getsĀ ā€˜savedā€™ by lbh, whoā€™s kind of smirking and goingĀ ā€˜oh, no need to thank me, it was what anyone would have done,ā€™ while totally expecting sex. yrz is likeĀ ā€˜oh, cool. bye then.ā€™ and just. takes the book and leaves.Ā 
lbh: *surprised pikachu face*
and by the time he registers no sex is going to be happening, yrz is long gone and enjoying her brand new book.Ā 
after that, lbh and yrz end up seeing each other (mostly because lbh is trying to impress this woman and nothing is working) and yrz is like stop being a creep, iā€™m not interested in you. lbh needs to drink his respect woman juice and downsize on his harem a bit. yrz wouldnā€™t touch that with a twenty foot pool.Ā 
anyway i think it comes to a head when they both get doused in pa pa pa juice and lbh is like oh this is more familiar, shall we? and yrz is like bitch. and goes to a brothel in the city instead. at this point yrz and lbh are more like antagonistic buddies than anything else. lbh has too many wives and zero friends.Ā 
lbh starts developing some squishy feelings and is like what the fuck is this?? gross?? but he says nothing because he doesnā€™t get it.Ā 
then the cross over happens, bing-ge vs bing-mei!!! and after than happens, yrz is just chilling at home and lbh shows up at her place like really fucked up and subdued. heā€™s likeĀ ā€˜why him? why did he get the good teacher? what did he do right?ā€™Ā 
yrz is like... hm. emotions. ew. she trys anyway because sheā€™s finally ready to admit that she does like this trash goblin at least a little. so she takes care of him while heā€™s being depressed. lbh cooks for her and sheā€™s like. this is so fucking good. thank you.Ā 
and lbh is just in love now. itā€™s nothing like he feels for his wives, but yrz makes lbh feels safe and accepted. itā€™s a comforting and comfortable love. yrzā€™s stupid little house is more of a home than lbhā€™s stupid palaces.Ā 
look. i stand by the head cannon that all lbh wants is to be a househusband, no matter what version im talking about.Ā 
lbh vanishes for a whole night. yrz is like hm, my house feels empty now. weird! and then lbh comes back and announces that he just divorced all his wives. he doesnā€™t want to be powerful anymore so can i stay herer with you.Ā 
yrz is like... sure.Ā 
and then thereā€™s a long, long courtship and lbh marries yrz and archives his dream of just being fucking happy. the end!
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lavenderlattaes Ā· 5 years ago
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txt as high school au tropes
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ā‡’ summary: txt in a high school au setting.
ā‡’ [ high school! au ]
ā‡’ pairing: txt x reader
ā‡’ word count: 2.5k words
ā‡’ genre: fluff
ā‡’ warnings: cursing, mentions of fighting, parties, making out
ā‡’ note: hello,, yeonjunā€™s cover got me so emo last night that i knew i just HAD to finish this so i can finish the bad boy au i had started writing for him sksks. Also i only had a bad boy fic planned for yeonjun, but if you guys think i should write for the other members too, please send me an ask! ignore mistakes bc im a bit of a blind bat and enjoy!Ā  ļ¼¼Ź• ā€¢į“„ā€¢Ź”ļ¼
choi yeonjun:
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ā†³ the bad boy
YES.
Cā€™mon guys, this is badboy!!!! Yeonjun!!!!
okay, so yeonjunā€™s definitely the leather jacket wearing, motorcycle riding kind of badboy
the one that gets into all the fights (ąø‡ā€™Ģ€-ā€˜Ģ)ąø‡
the one that smokes and drinks and punches his way around bc he cannot, for the life of him, control his emotions and feelings ā€¾ĶŸĶŸĶž(((źŽ¤Ė‹ā»Ģ«ĖŠ)ā€”Ģ³ĶŸĶžĶžo
heā€™s also hardly at school
but on the rare days that heā€™s actually at school, heā€™s always punching someone or heā€™s all bloodied and bruised
like,,, dude do you wanna die N O W???
the first time you met was at the nurseā€™s office
oh wow i wasnā€™t expecting that
the nurse wasnā€™t around but you volunteered there frequently, so you were the only one there
the door opens and youā€™re surprised to see someone youā€™re not familiar with??
he wasnā€™t wearing your schoolā€™s uniform,,,
who is this dude and why is he heRE
but he looked like shit and like he was gonna die
so even if he may be part of some sketchy gang
you had no choice but to patch him up pspspsps
he was covered in scratches and bruises and his lip and eyebrow were bleeding
ffs man
you told him to go sit on a bed while you went around looking for all the supplies you needed
yeonjun was being a lil shit too, bc he wouldnā€™t cooperate right away but eventually after threatening him that he might die if he was being choosy about whoā€™s gonna patch him he gave in
so you started to patch him up and he was just
s t a r i n gĀ 
likeĀ 
āŠ™ļ¹āŠ™
D U D E
heā€™s really attractive if he just wasnā€™t into fighting all the time yā€™know
girls still occasionally wanna try ā€œbreaking his badboy repā€Ā 
all that clichƩ stuff
you get really conscious under his gaze and then he asks for your name and you ask him what happened instead psksks
he goes (ā—•ļøµā—•)
so you give him your name fAM AND HE SAYS, ā€œIā€™m Choi Yeonjunā€
pspspspp
and then he tells you that heā€™s friends with two other choi dudes who are also really well known in your school
and then it hits you
HEā€™S THE BADBOY EVERYONEā€™S TALKING ABOUT
damn y/n youā€™re so lost famĀ 
lmao so he does go to your school but youā€™ve never seen him before????
you finally finish patching him up and you wrap his knuckles in a gauze and his arm as well
hIS ARM HAD A HUGE ASS CUT btw
ā€œwhat kind of fight did you even get into?ā€ (Ā“ļ½„(Ā“ļ½„(Ā“ļ½„(Ā“ļ½„(Ā“ļ½„(Ā“ļ½„Š“ļ½„`) ļ½„`)ļ½„`)ļ½„`)ļ½„`)ļ½„`)
ā€œthe kind where I almost die???ā€ (ļæ£Ļ‰ļæ£;)
eye-
after getting him all patched up, you take a good look at him and whew heā€™s all better now
he doesnā€™t look like heā€™d die any minuteĀ 
then you smile at him like (āœæā— ā€æā— )
AND HE SAYSĀ 
ā€œI like your smile, can I call you sunshine?ā€
PSPSPSPSPSPSP
yeonjunā€™s about to leave when youā€™re still bothered by the large cut on his eyebrow
ā€œWait!ā€
you pull out a cute rubber ducky cartoon band-aid from your pocket and place it on top of the cut sKSKSKKS
after he finally leaves and says goodbye, yeonjun suddenly canā€™t stop thinking about you
and maybe, just maybe, you canā€™t stop thinking about him too.
choi soobin:
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ā†³ the rich kid
okAY so remember how badboy! yeonjun was friends with 2 other chois
Well duh who would those other two be (ā—Ā“Ļ‰ļ½€ā—)
so soobinā€™s the riCH KID!!
like, he be drippin in finesse yo
(okay that was bad)
he wears gucci, channel, louis vuitton, armani, all that shit
tO SCHOOL
jk you guys had uniforms
but thereā€™s always something expensive on him
whether it be his shoes, or his bag, or maybe a ring
AND EVERYONE LIVED FOR RICH KID CHOI SOOBIN WEARING HIS ROLEX 乂ā¤ā€æā¤ä¹‚
but he isnā€™t exactly the friendly type (ą¹‘ā—•ļøµā—•ą¹‘)
heā€™s the quiet one out of the three of them and he always keeps a straight face
ļ¼¼| ļæ£ćƒ˜ļæ£|ļ¼
Like that ^^^^
despite having literally no emotion on his face whatsoever, his lips always seem to be upturned in a pout ksskskksks
and despite his cold personality, that doesnā€™t stop the girls from swooning over him lol
so,, y/n youā€™re a pretty clumsy simpleton
dID I JUST USE SIMPLETON
and you somehow,,, idkĀ 
the world hates u
you accidentally bump into him like really hard when he was adjusting his precious Rolex on his wrist and the collision caused his Rolex...to...flyā€¦
basically you broke his watch.
sKSKSKSKSKSKKSKS DUDE
Y/N YOU BETTER RUN AWAY NOW FAM
and everyone that was there was like :000
And soobin is just ( ā€¢Ģ€Ļ‰ā€¢Ģ )Ļƒ
And youā€™re ą²„_ą²„
but he just sighs, picks up his broken watch and slips it into his pocket and walks away as if nothing happened
HNGGGGG o(ā•„ļ¹ā•„)o
youā€™re so guilty that you started to come up to him everyday asking how you could repay him and if you could,,, you know,, pay for it in six months time or some shit
and after a few days soobinā€™s had enough of you following him around
and (ļæ£ļ½°ļæ£)ļ¾‰
ā€œcan you stop annoying me? Itā€™s an expensive watch, you canā€™t possibly pay for itā€
wOW OKAY :///
ā€œBut i feel really bad for breaking it...( ĖƒĢ£Ģ£Ģ„Ļ‰Ė‚Ģ£Ģ£Ģ„ )ā€
so soobin decides to make you his ā€œservantā€
and you know itā€™s stupid ,,, just bc heā€™s rich as hell doesnā€™t mean he can treat you like that
but he wasnā€™t giving you any options so you had no choice
you followed him around now and well, somehow
you got to know the real choi soobin hiding under all that expensive clothing and jewelry
the choi soobin that built his walls up so high that no one saw except his other two friends
and now, you.
choi beomgyu:
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ā†³ the heartbreaker
YES CHILDREN
THIS BOY
steals hearts left and right
or: also known as the fuckboy
skskskksksks
he slept around and girls always fell victim to his charms
aside from the fact that he was just really really good looking and handsome and gorgeous and-
he was also really friendly and funny
youā€™d see him at parties all the time, and sometimes with soobin and yeonjun tooĀ 
thereā€™s always a random girl on his arm too lmao
beomgyuā€™s never brought a girl to bed more than once before
itā€™s always just making out for like hours and one night stands here n there
and flings here and there
never had a serious relationship ever
and all the girls at school are fighting to be the one he decides to ā€œdoā€ more than once
(惻_ćƒ»ćƒ¾
i mean,, who wouldnā€™t want to be the first girl choi beomgyu ever fucks more than ONCEĀ 
but you just canā€™t seem to share the same sentiment with the other girls at school
shouldnā€™t they be fighting over who gets to be his first serious girlfriend or sumth? the girls in your school r weird tbh
besides,, youā€™re too busy looking for new memes or something and arenā€™t fuckboys supposed to be the type to do one night stands anyway???
but you know, youā€™re the mc in this world y/n
and you caught beomgyuā€™s eye bc heā€™s always noticed you on your phone laughing at something or bopping your head to some cool new song
he canā€™t stop smiling every time he sees you do that
BC YOUā€™RE JUST SO CUTE AND OMFG IS CHOI BEOMGYU CATCHING ACTUAL FEELINGS
and get this,,, beomgyuā€™s never been the type to be all shy and flustered bc thatā€™s just so not him
but then you get partnered up for a project and suddenly youā€™re approaching his desk with a bright smile on your face andĀ 
sKSKSK heLP HIM SOMEONE P L E ASE
ā€œhi! Iā€™m y/n!ā€ you extend your hand out for him and he just
ąø…(*Ā°Ļ‰Ā°*ąø…)
seeing beomgyu all flustered makes you giggle and he breaks out of his trance and goes back to his old self
ā€œHey, y/n. Letā€™s have a great time together(恄ļ½”ā—•ā€æā€æā—•ļ½”)恄ā€
so thatā€™s how you and beomgyu become friends
even after the project ended you still hung out and you even became somewhat friends with yeonjun and soobin
you sometimes went to parties with him too
and whilst beomgyu fell deeper for you
you remained clueless as ever
you just thought it was him being friendly and stuff bc thatā€™s what he does
what you did notice though
beomgyu hardly made out or slept with anyone at parties now
he hung out with you and played games with you and with soobin and yeonjun
and he didnā€™t usually go to parties now if you couldnā€™t make it!!!
and everyone can clearly see how much he LIKES?? LOVES?? youĀ 
so yeah, maybe beomgyuā€™s gotten rid of his fuckboy ways bc of you.
kang taehyun:
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ā†³ the valedictorian
name a smarter guy in your school than kang taehyun. Go
jk never gonna happen HEā€™S the smartest
literally breezes through his subjects like itā€™s nothing
idk how it works for you guys but in my school, we donā€™t have GPAs and stuff but anyway
he has like, an average grade of 99 (*ā€¢Ģ€į“—ā€¢Ģ*)Łˆ Ģ‘Ģ‘ (and thatā€™s a 4.0 GPA right????)Ā 
PSPSPPS WHAT THE HECKITY HECK
and all the teachers love him ofc
he doesnā€™t have to sit in front to be THIS smart
he can sit at the back row and be all emo with choi yeonjun if he wanted to and heā€™d still ace a test
h o w āŠ‚ā€¢āŠƒ_āŠ‚ā€¢āŠƒ
and not only that
heā€™s got a really good voice?? heā€™s in choir omg
no,,
he has the voice of an angel ā˜…~(ā—”ā€æā—”āœæ)
he hits high notes like how he breezes through his subjects
heā€™s the type of guy you bring home to meet your parents after one (1) date bc theyā€™ll love him anyway
aND if he could get any more perfect,,,, heā€™s captain of your football team AND class president
AND I SAY WHAT
yUP
kang taehyun best boy _ćø__(ā€¾ā—”ā— )>
and you?
HAH
you guys are a match made in heaven
youā€™re his vice president, and while heā€™s in choir, youā€™re part of your schoolā€™s journalism club
plus, youā€™re smart enough to go against him but you like slacking off lmao
also
ā€œyou have all the glory in high school tae, iā€™ll kick your ass in collegeā€ PSSPPS
And if taehyunā€™s the captain of the football team, youā€™re captain of the volleyball team just bc
goals? I think so too (ļ¾‰ā—•ćƒ®ā—•)ļ¾‰*:ļ½„ļ¾Ÿāœ§
but sigh,,, yunno
as smart as taehyun is, heā€™s a bit dumb when it comes to matters of the heart
THIS IS THE ONLY TIME WE CAN CALL KANG TAEHYUN DUMB!! BECAUSE!! HE!! CANā€™T!! SEE!! HOW!! MUCH!! YOU!! LOVE!! HIM!! (;Ā¬_Ā¬)
youā€™ve always loved him, but you realized it only when you guys won the science quiz bee the year before āŠ‚( ā—œā—’ā— )āŠƒ
basically, youā€™ve loved him for more than a year now,, sigh
and youā€™re just trying to find the right opportunity to confess
wHEN BOOM you suddenly remembered youā€™re on the school paper!!!! āŒ’Ā°(ā›į“—ā›)Ā°āŒ’
v-day is right around the corner and since youā€™re editor in chief, you decided that it would be nice to have a lil fun in preparation for the event
so you got the whole school dropping anonymous love notes for their crush!!
and the club went around pasting them on lockers for the students so they donā€™t risk the chance of getting caught pspsps
totally smart idea huh !(ā€¢Ģ€į“—ā€¢Ģ)Łˆ Ģ‘Ģ‘
all for the sake of confessing your feelings for your best friend.
hueningkai:
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ā†³ the popular guyĀ 
this boi
loved by everybody
and i mean everybody
even yeonjun and soobin who seem like they donā€™t give two flying fucks about anything
like literally everybody wants to be his friend !!!
thereā€™s nothing people have to hate him for honestly
heā€™s in choir with taehyunĀ 
he follows no crowd bC THE CROWD FOLLOWS HIM SKSKS
ā€œhey, kai!ā€
ā€œey, wassup! I like your top!ā€
(ā–°Ė˜ā—”Ė˜ā–°)
heā€™s a cute babie too oomf
the girls that arenā€™t swooning over yeonjun or beomgyu or soobin are definitely swooning over him
(with taehyun theyā€™ve lost all hope bc they know his best friendā€™s the only one thatā€™s supposed!! to!! stand!! next!! to!! him!!)
kaiā€™s also really sweet and nice to everybody,, and i mean everybody
he talks to everyone, even those emo kids who sit at the back row
and even they canā€™t resist smiling :)Ā 
heā€™s that kind of popular guy thatā€™s really preppy and fun to be around
heā€™s the type to help girls carry their books, or help guys plan on how to ask their crushes out
everyone knows a lot about him bc he doesnā€™t hesitate to share and talk about his life bc he literally has no trust issues whatsoever
not in a bad way, tho!! heā€™s just really honest n stuff
but
the one thing that everyone doesnā€™t know about him is that he can play piano sksk ā™«ź’°ļ½„ā—”ļ½„ą¹‘ź’±
they know he can sing, but they didnā€™t know he played piano like???
heā€™s never brought it up before
but one time you find him playing the piano in the music room
youā€™re in the art club and you guys usually stayed behind after school to work on your paintings and stuff when you were feeling like it
and it just so happened that you were staying behind bc you entered into an art competition and you had only two weeks left to complete your painting
but lately youā€™ve been running out of inspiration and decided to clear your thoughts first before going back to your painting
whatā€™s that beautiful melody???Ā 
ć€ćƒ»_惻?怑
and it led you to him and you were surprised to see mr. popular in the room
(*ļ¾Ÿļ¾›ļ¾Ÿ)
and you didnā€™t mean to, but the door was ajar and you push it open even further to hear the song better
DUMB MOVE
a chair was resting behind the door and it screeched on the floor spsps
Kai turned around and saw you
ā€œoh! Hey y/nā€
he stopped playing and you could see a faint blush on his cheeks ā‰§ā—”ā‰¦
ā€œyou play piano? i never knewā€ you decided to just step inside bc he wouldnā€™t mind right? rIGHT???
yeah,, if he didn't have such a big PHAT CRUSH ON YOU
ā€œuh yeah, it helps me to clear my mind sometimesā€
ā€œi was taking a break too, i couldnā€™t finish my paintingā€
sKSKSK AND KAI FOUND THAT PERF OPPORTUNITY TO SPEND TIME W YOU BY OFFERING YOU HIS COMPANY TO GO AROUND
heā€™s always liked you, ever since you were lab partners for an entire year,,
you occasionally talked, but since he was on the more popular side and you had a smaller group of friends it was hard for him to find proper alone time with you
but lifeā€™s good to this baby and he finally got to spend his time with you.
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trashayfanfiction Ā· 5 years ago
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Ao3 Writer tag meme
Tagged by @puella-peanut.Ā  Hi darling <3 Love seeing your comments and likes on things.
AO3 name: TrashAYfanfiction
Fandoms: Mainly Banana Fish, I have dabbled in Star Wars. I love Hydra Trash Party (Captain America) but have a lot of anon fills I have lost track of. I didnā€™t mean to get into writing Billy/Steve Stranger Things, but it found me. I read a bit of everything. If i have watched the show, i usually dabble in fandom.
Tropes: Iā€™m an emo bitch. I like angst, drama, hurt/comfort. But I also have a hard-on for fluffy friends-to lovers. I yearn for being a young dumb teen having a good time.
Number of fics: 67 but iā€™ve been at this a while. I donā€™t feel like i write that often. Banana Fish being made into an anime might have been my main inspiration to write in my adult life, and I donā€™t know when that will happen again. (Iā€™m particularly emo atm, so....)
Fic I spent the most time on: ā€œFighting Meā€ my Stranger Things Billy/Steve fic. It was never meant to be 30k, and i have never wrote that much before, so Im very happy with it. Itā€™s also my first story with a beginning/middle/end conclusion. I didnā€™t outline it, but I was able to experience their relationship as it naturally evolved. It took me nearly 6 months! But also most of my BF fics take place in my own continuous universe, kinda the same universe as the story but with some of my own liberties. SoĀ  guess you could say they are all together one long fic.
Fic I spent the least time on: No idea. I do writing sprints, but now i edit before i upload. My early fics were written in oneshot without editing, and i kinda liked that because it was a raw stream of consciousness and emotions.
Longest fic: Fighting Me Billy/Steve
Shortest fic: One More Night (Ash/Eiji) written all the way back in 2016 (maybe earlier, might have been a re-upload from fanfiction net). 199 words, back then a 500 word fic was avenge for me, now I average about 2k
Most hits: Oh dear..... Iā€™ve never looked at this stat before. Nympho (Anakin/Obiwan) (10115 hits). Iā€™m assuming just because Star Wars is a bigger fandom and prequel/clone wars fans have their own energy? Also this is an older fic. Iā€™m a little embarrassed by this, because it was originally a fill for a kink meme and has a bunch of nasty requests.
Most kudos: Spare Key Ash/Eiji (318) This is another one iā€™m kinda embarrassed of. I think it was originally calledĀ ā€˜F*ggotā€ or something like that. And iā€™ve had the most hate comments from it. Iā€™ve been told i have a homophobia fetish over it, and well, i guess i do. Iā€™m a bi guy and there is something relatable about the vulnerability.
Most comment threads: Fighting Me (45), but probably just because it went on for so long and that ST is a bigger fandom. Second runner up is Loving Ash (38) my Ash/Eiji alternate ending that speculates issues theyā€™d have long term, so the comments were a lot of discussion of how Ash would cope with normal life. Iā€™m still really proud of this fic, even at only 3k words I think it has good pacing and timing. Itā€™s also one of the only fics iā€™ve ever wrote from Eijiā€™s pov.
Most bookmarks: Nympho (32)...goddamn i gotta check on this fic, why is this so popular, Fighting Me (30). I love when people leave comments when they bookmark, it makes me smile how they summarize it.
Total word count: No idea. Donā€™t make me add it up.
Favorite fic I wrote: Loving Ash is probably my fave. I feel itā€™s sensitive and vulnerable. I also really like Feelings of Loneliness, another alternate end where Ash escapes to the Caribbean with Blanca.
Fic you want to rewrite/expand on: I eventually want to make a part 2 to ā€˜Stupid Desireā€, which is an ash/eiji fic where Ash has impromptu sex with eiji before leaving to seduce kippard. Ash reconciling with is own desires/bodily needs with eiji and trying to differentiate if having sex with Eiji because he wanted to is any different than voluntarily seducing kippard. I still donā€™t know what Ashā€™s conclusion is, Iā€™ll need to write it to find out.
Share a bit of a WIP or a story idea youā€™re planning on:
Sadly I canā€™t, due to it being naughty. I am working on an Eiji/Yue fic where Yue has our cute boy captured. I was just really feeling femme domme. Itā€™s another dead dove, might involve drugs and mindbreak
......idk who i know here to tag. I guess Iā€™ll share to twitter
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chngbok Ā· 5 years ago
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I hit 2k a while ago now 2.2k im terrible and I never said thank you!! I didnā€™t want to open requests again as Iā€™m terrible with following through on them so!! I settled with saying thank you to those who Iā€™ve really come to appreciate + love ā™„
@linos-teeth
someone who words just don't do justice (teeth fetishist might work).Ā  youā€™ve been there longer than anyone and followed me through my many many different phases + blogs and that was all thanks for dai fucking up just a little bit (the one time Iā€™ll thank a buggy game Bioware I owe you my life). youā€™re there for me whenever I wanna talk about shit, be it me complaining or me ranting (and more complaining) OR us taking a stupid one-liner from woojin and turning it into a 50 chapter long fic thatā€™s 6 months old now!! we built a little home on discord with our all too fancy server for just the two of us, but dude your my best friend and I love you + all the weird shit that happens + all the fucking things weā€™ve made together. youā€™ve seen me at my worst and you were there when I lost others so,,, I know I say it a lot but!! I love you!! youā€™re my world and you meana lot to me!! youā€™re my best browse ~
@changbiinnbutspookier
Kirra, my idiot, my bitch, my rat, my Minecraft girlfriend. youā€™re an absolute dick but you mean well. Youā€™ve made me laugh a whole lot and that means a lot because Iā€™m normally alone a lot of the time,,, but calling with u almost all summer (literally) was amazing + we were talking most of the day and it gave me a lot to do and we fucking watched ooos which,,, im still getting over btw + that just,,,,,,,,,,, was a fuck fest tbh. Youā€™re silly and fun but youā€™re also super good at? expressing ur words,,, n u know when to be serious and u care a whole lot about a bunch of things and u take 0 shit from people and all that's really good and cool and just? youā€™re a very like,,,, functional idiot who I love a lot ok. and I know i legit never say it bc 1) u don't give me a chance with all fo the kissy noises and 2) Im a shit friend and scared to say that stuff out loud but!! I do!! i cherish you a lot and you made me really happy this summer so!! thank you.Ā 
@hauntedfelix
luna!! my angel!!!! you are a literal guardian angel please dont fight me on this for once.Ā  Itā€™s really? shocking to see how close weā€™ve gotten so quickly and I don't know,,, I know im a pretty open person but youā€™re one of the easiest people to talk to. youā€™ve let me talk about shit and itā€™s helped a lot and we have a lot of fun + ur really cute >:c *ok the rest of this is written after the thing oops* but!! to continue,,, u know how much u mean to me now lmao. you always keep me thinking ā€˜straightā€™ + know when to tell me that Iā€™m being a lil stupid + u just have all these cute lil things u do!! (like ur folder of me being stupid,,,, cute shit) Iā€™ve said a lot to you recently s o i dont wanna start sounding to repetative and I DO NOT wanna count how many times i said cute just now i d k. but youā€™re my shining star šŸŒ™šŸ§”ā˜€ļøšŸ‘­ you mean a lot to me and Iā€™m glad we have eachother.
@glowsvt
Grace!! my sweet starlight, the nations wonderful, caring and ā€˜patientā€™, gaurdian angel. now Iā€™m really shit with words compared to you,, itā€™s pretty obvious looking at this post,,, so Iā€™m sorry for not being able to express how I feel very well!! but!! you!!! are so damn sweet and supportive. You have so much love to give and Iā€™m just happy that I can be around to see and receive some of it. you have such a way with words and its really nice to see that you use them in such wonderful ways. You take every chance you get to make someone feel better and youā€™re always there for me when Iā€™m pissed or in need of cheering up. Youā€™re such a thoughtful person and I only wish youā€™d see, that you too, are worthy of all that you give out. Youā€™re even willing to help me with my korean which is really really nice as Iā€™m super slow to learn (oops) but!! u just want to do the best for everyone you love n thats super nice to see!! I love u a whole lot ok!! youā€™re amazing.
and also thank you to my other friends that I dont speak to as much as Iā€™d like to!! @littlefallenrebel Sophie, itā€™s almost been a year since weā€™ve been friends and thats legit crazy. You were one of the first friends I made when starting to make gifs and all that so thank you for putting up with me this long. Youā€™re really good with your art, even if u dont see that!! + Iā€™ll never get over the changbin u did for my birthday. Youā€™re funny + have a thing for small rappers + ur the kindest when it comes to letting me spill things so thank u!. @seungjin-chan Blake!! my writer friend,,,, I seriously admire your writing (apart from the unreadable chapter in cherry and peter + but I KNOW THATS STILL WELL WRITTEN FROM FRIENDS OK) u rly try so much with your writing and seeing u doubt urself is SILLY bc UR AN AMAZING WRITER and all ur aus are so creative and cute + all the little details are amazing.... also ur reaction memes are iconic and I always know what youā€™ll react to me stupidity with + u always wanna hear about my aus which like!! thank u ur my outlet + spoiler partner SKU GUYS @hoodiehan @00hj @kkvmi + @glowsvt , @hauntedfelix again!! u guys!! u make keeping up with skz + the great anons fun. you all do so much work and Iā€™m really glad that Stay have u guys doing the most for them!! even with how busy u all are + everyone on sku that I dont talk to as much (you all do the best and itā€™s again, wonderful to see u all helping stay + trying to help with how chaotic skz are)
and now!! (itā€™s almost over I promise) a tiny follow forever.
NATRUALLY!! everyone already mentioned!! + (Iā€™ll only do the skz blogs I follow + love a whole lot :c )
@realstraykids @devilhan @arqueritefrost @hanjisungz @mirror-mv @ifbin @skzleton @seungminsmile @bhubblemilk @abcdskz @seoschangbin @vampirewoojinnie @bamgchan @kittylixie @skzulls @chimneycloud @stray-kids @bellzy-loves-skz @hauntjin @prodskz
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aresenik Ā· 5 years ago
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dabihawks youtuber au
im just gonna put down all my ideas for my dabihawks youtuber au on here!
channels:
Hawks - 3rd most subscribed, gaming/makeup/reaction videos! Profile picture is just a selfie and his channel banner is probably a shitty meme.
Dabi - Honestly his personal channel he just does whatever the fuck he wants. Guitar vids? Check. Cooking vids? You got it. Arson? Graffiti? :)
Toga - SFX makeup, like blood and stuff! Also she has the ability to like replicate a real person with her makeup, sheā€™s really good itā€™s almost uncanny.
Shigaraki - He is a gamer. Heā€™s not AS popular as Hawks but heā€™s gained a lot of traction because heā€™s famous for raging. (Would he have one of those really annoying dubsteb intros? You know what Iā€™m talking about?)
Twice - Definitely a comedy channel, Mr. Compress - Magician, Spinner - Knive tutorials, Magne - Funny skits
Kurogiri - He has a channel that shows tutorials on special effects and video editing but he also mostly helps edit everyone elseā€™s stuff when they need it.
THE LEAGUE OF VILLAINS ALL HAVE THEIR OWN CHANNEL,,, they review videos, do illegal shit, and just have a fun time. itā€™s actually pretty popular,, not in the top ten but they have a pretty dedicated fanbase <3
All Might - #1 channel! He is a motivational pep speaker.
Endeavor - Heā€™s....#2 (though uh not for long ;)) He does gun videos and at some point just,,, a ton of apology videos.
Midoriya - An analyst channel! Heā€™s very good at figuring out how the workings of Youtube work, and heā€™s known for his extremely cultivated theories that are basically 100% proven with all the sources he sites. Midoriya is very smart ;3 I think because he likes All Might so much heā€™d also want to do some motivational stuff too
Todoroki - Crack theory channel.Ā ā€œIs Midoriya All Mightā€™s illegitimate child?ā€ is an actual video. Midoriya and Todoroki are friends and they collaborate a ton, though itā€™s mostly Midoriya disproving Todorokiā€™s theories >U<
Bakugou - he explodes EVERYTHING on his channel. bread, tables, he explodes explosions.Ā 
Kirishima - Heā€™s a channel that tests the durability of things and how long they can withstand certain things. he teams up with Bakugou a lot to see if his items can withstand his explosions.
Ochako is a space channel and Tsuyu is a frog channel!
Bakusquad DEFINITELY has their own channel where they just get into shenanigans!! Kaminari and Sero both share their own personal meme channel and Ashido does makeup and clothing hauls and all that <3
Best Jeanist does jeans.
Momo has a ton of tutorials on how to make things from scratch and Jirou does a lot of covers (and also originals)
The Iidaā€™s all share a channel where they give positive mental health talks and they also just. Go fast. Tensei is a memelord while Tenya is,,, Tenya <3
SO BASICALLY THE WHOLE THING Starts off with excerpts from Hawks video kind of? Heā€™s playing...Stardew Valley :3 And they are reviewing his channel because heā€™s literally the #3 most popular youtuber!! Shigaraki is watching his gameplay, and heā€™s played Stardew before, so heā€™s kind of just giving tipsā€¦? Theyā€™re also kind of making fun of Hawks because that is what they do. Kind of. The League is making offhand remarks about it, and finally Dabiā€™s like ā€œheā€™s hotā€ and everyone just stops. And then they all laugh and Dabi just shrugs and is like ā€œi said what i said.ā€
We cut back to Hawks thinking of video ideas when he starts getting a lot of notifications on Twitter. His followers are tagging him saying the LoV made a video on him, so Hawks gets the idea to react to their video! He watches their videos actually... and knows that they do illegal activitiesā€¦ but he doesnā€™t really care in this AU. They arenā€™t really hurting anyone!Ā 
So Hawks does the video, and he gets to the part where Dabi calls him hot and heā€™s caught off guard. So how does he react? He looks straight into the camera and is like ā€œhmu on twitter ;)ā€ except in human speak.
Memes are (obviously) made showing Hawks reaction and Dabi catches hold of it and is like ā€œokayā€ and literally texts him on Twitter! So they text for quite a while...some of it snark, others genuine conversation, and borderline flirty (? yeah)
So!!!! They eventually agree to do a collabā€¦:) except they donā€™t know what kind of collab. Dabi suggests Hawks appear in one of the LoVā€™s videos and Hawks agrees like the gamer he is.
So they do that collab (stupid stunts !! ofc) and Hawks finds himself having a lot more fun than usual. And yeah then the rest is just shenanigans and eventuallyā€¦ getting together ;)
Obviously there will be a lot of conflict because...duh. I donā€™t really have a lot of arcs planned out but I have one (1)!!!
Occasionally there will be snippets of the other channels as well!!! Kind of as intermissions.
I really am looking forward to writing this,,, itā€™s gonna be social media/actual fic and i really hope i can make it and finish it.
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longeyelashedtragedy Ā· 5 years ago
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Writer ask meme
I was tagged by the flamazing @feedingmyinsomniaā€‹ <333 and i will tag...if you want!... @perfectpiety @amethyst-fox-jv @ayerlind @sitkowski and anyone else who writes who sees this!Ā  but you donā€™t have to, just feel honored that i tagged you ;)
ao3 name: catmanu!
fandoms: currently writing in the football (as in soccer) rpf fandom, but always have other things on my mind as well.
number of fics:Ā iā€™ve written SO many in my lifetime and most have never been published anywhere.
fic i spent the most time on: technicallyĀ ā€œexit rightā€ because it took me like...a year and a half to write it?Ā  in terms of like...period of time spent actively writing itā€™s definitelyĀ ā€œtrophy boyfriend.ā€
fic i spent the least amount of time on: eitherĀ ā€œfly faster!ā€ which i wrote in like, an hour orĀ ā€œjet ski joÅ” čekaā€ which i wrote over the course of a day.
shortest fic:Ā my shortest standalone fic on ao3 isĀ ā€œthe world drownedā€ at 370 words--my ancient shireen baratheon/rickon stark futureficĀ 
most hits / most kudos / most comment threads / most bookmarks / highest total word count:Ā  ok im leaving out the drabble collections.Ā  omg without even looking i know this is all gonna be fuckin...Ā ā€œcaptivatedā€ because iā€™m The arya/jaqen person on ao3 even now.Ā  letā€™s see.Ā  most hits:Ā ā€œcaptivated,ā€ most kudos:Ā ā€œcaptivated,ā€ most comment threads:Ā ā€œtrophy boyfriend,ā€ most bookmarks:Ā ā€œcaptivated,ā€ highest total word count:Ā ā€œtrophy boyfriend.ā€Ā  sigh
favorite fic i wrote: omg i think i made a post like this recently?Ā  Ā most recently my favorite fics areĀ ā€œtrophy boyfriend,ā€Ā ā€œ5.VII.,ā€Ā ā€œĆ§a cā€™est ma dope,ā€Ā ā€œwhat we do in the Ć©lysĆ©e,ā€Ā ā€œvictory rain,ā€Ā ā€œthe heat of it all,ā€Ā ā€œsoy loca con mi tigre,ā€ ā€œchief of the armed forces.ā€Ā  in the past i love all my arya/jaqen stuff so much.Ā  i really do love most of what iā€™ve written that i posted, but these stand out to me.Ā  oh, and how could i forget--Ā ā€œmodernity towering in front of the sky.ā€ still slaps tbqh
fic i want to rewrite/expand on:Ā everything iā€™ve written is its own thing.Ā  i donā€™t usually write things that require a sequel or anything, so there isnā€™t really anything i can think of?
share a bit of a wip or story idea youā€™re working on:,Ā ok, so, ahhhh.Ā  i post a lot from my current big ass wipĀ ā€œmare liberum,ā€ but another thing iā€™m agonizing over is my Å”luka (Å”ime & luka) longficĀ ā€œwe light up the world.ā€Ā  i thought it was going to be a fun little jaunt but itā€™s killing me because thereā€™s not much of a precedent for it and i honestly have no idea how to write the pov.Ā  F in the chat for my pov.Ā  but sigh, iā€™ll stick a bit of it below; read at your own risk...
Tonight there really is a reason for him to be available and heā€™s had enough rakija on an empty enough stomach (what was the last thing he ate? How come he canā€™t remember?) to feel like putting his hand on Luka Modrićā€™s strong heroic leg and leaning into his face till their noses touched just like on Zadar beach and sayingā€¦well, heā€™s not sure what heā€™d say.Ā  But he has to pretend heā€™s sober because Luka is pretty sober and his whole family is here anyway.
Fuck it!Ā  They should have just done the grapes thing!
Å ime pulls out his phone and makes Deki a Happy New Year! video instead.Ā  It feels really good to talk to Dejan, even if he canā€™t talk back.
He gets an idea in the middle of this.Ā  ā€œHey, look,ā€ he says to his phone. Ā  ā€œLook whoā€™s here with me.Ā  Wait for itā€¦wait for itā€¦HEYā€¦CAPTAIN!ā€
At least Luka looks happy to see him, and that makes him feel warm all over, warmer than you get from drinking alone.Ā  He turns away from Vanja.Ā  ā€œWhatā€™s up?ā€
ā€œWanna say hi to Dejan with me?Ā  Say hi, Captain Luka.ā€
Luka smirks.Ā  ā€œAre you two live?Ā  I donā€™t want to be in any of your lives.ā€
Å ime clutches his heart.Ā  ā€œDid you hear that, Deki? Ā  Our captain doesnā€™t like our lajjjjjjvs.Ā  Think we shouldā€”mutiny.ā€
Suddenly Lukaā€™s bony chin lands on Å imeā€™s shoulder.Ā  ā€œHappy New Year!ā€ he yells in Å imeā€™s ear.Ā  Å ime doesnā€™t really mind.Ā  ā€œAre you back in Croatia?Ā  How many times have you bullied Davor thisā€”oh, youā€™re not live.ā€Ā  He ruffles Å imeā€™s curls.Ā  Dejanā€™s not going to be too thrilled about that, but considering he and Å ime are both, well, marriedā€”and not to each otherā€”Å ime figures he canā€™t reasonably complain about someone else touching his ljubaviā€™s hair.Ā  And heā€™ll tell Deki that if he does.Ā  ā€œYou should have told me.Ā  I feel stupid.ā€Ā  He winks.
ā€œWell...you said you didnā€™t want to be in any of our lajjjjjjvs,ā€ Å ime sings.Ā  ā€œSo, now youā€™re not.Ā  See?ā€ļæ½ļæ½ He sticks his tongue out at his video for Deki.Ā  ā€œCā€™mon, brate, Iā€™ll show you who else is here.ā€Ā  He moves away from Luka quickly.Ā  Just in case.
He isnā€™t sure how much time has passed, but heā€™s definitely helped himself to another drink or two or more than two, and suddenly Luka has appeared next to him.Ā  His hair looks so soft and fluffy and beautiful and Å ime just wants--really, really wants to take Luka in his arms and put his nose in his hair and just hold him for a long time.Ā  Rest his head on top of Lukaā€™s head, maybe.Ā  Whisper weā€™re so lucky to have you.Ā  Please donā€™t ever retire, play until your bones turn to dust.Ā  Please donā€™t leave.Ā Ā 
ā€œHey, do you want a ride home?ā€ Luka asks.Ā  All of a sudden he puts his arm around Å ime and Å ime pinches his leg pretty hard to make sure this is real.Ā  Lukaā€™s arms areā€”tricky.Ā  When you first see them, you donā€™t realize how strong they are.Ā  But when you feel them, you know.Ā  And when one of them is wrapping around your shoulders like a big, heavy snake, you really know.Ā  ā€œI donā€™t know how you got here, but you shouldnā€™t get home that way.ā€
Å ime snorts.Ā  ā€œThanks, Mom.Ā  Since when do you careā€¦Iā€™ve seen you way more drunk than I am right now.ā€
Luka is playing with the ends of his hair.Ā  Why is Luka playing with the ends of his hair?Ā  He pinches his leg again and it stings a little, but, is he dreaming that heā€™s pinching himself?Ā  Did someone put something in the rakija?Ā  He stares around the room wildly for a second, wondering who in thereā€™s trying to get him in bed.Ā  ā€œYeah, but I had people to take care of me, then,ā€ Luka says.Ā  ā€œEven if people was just you and Domo holding my legs.ā€
ā€œMmmmm,ā€ Å ime agrees, remembering much more about those days than just that.
ā€œBut especially you.Ā  You always look out for me when I get likeā€¦ā€Ā  Luka gives him a wet kiss on the forehead and lets go of his shoulders.Ā  ā€œSo let us drive you back.ā€
ā€œUhhhh.ā€Ā  Å ime stares at Luka till his eyes cross. Ā  Wow, heā€™s definitely more drunk than he thought he was.Ā  ā€œOkay,ā€ he says.
Sofia is asleep by the time they leave.Ā  Vanja carries her to the car.Ā  Their older twoā€™s eyes are closing as they walk, so Luka holds their hands.Ā  Å ime walks a few steps behind them, feeling kind of like the family dog.Ā  Itā€™s not too late to call an Uber, right?.Ā  He really should just call an Uber.Ā  He will, actually.Ā  He pulls out his phone only to realize that making Dejan a video had used up all the battery.
ā€œGo on, sit in the front.Ā  Come on.ā€Ā  Å ime blinks. Vanja is smiling at him.Ā 
ā€œNo, thatā€™s...You should sit next to Luka. Iā€™m totally cool with sitting with the kids! Theyā€™re all so awesome.ā€
ā€œTheyā€™re all so asleep,ā€ Vanja says. Å ime peeks into the car. In the back, Ivano and Ema have already passed out. ā€œTake the front. Youā€™re our guest.ā€
Å ime flops into the passenger seat. He doesnā€™t want to be rude to Vanja, or make anything even more awkward. But itā€™s just that up here Lukaā€™s cologne smells so strong and it would be so easy to reach over and just touch him while telling him he still thinks about being a Zadar kid with him just about every week. And heā€™s so bad at resisting temptation when heā€™s drunk. Mmmmm, my sinner, Dejan would say sometimes. My beautiful sinful sinner, God, my beautiful perfectā€”
ā€œHey, got a playlist?ā€ he asks quickly.Ā  If he gets hard thinking about Deki this wonā€™t get any less weird. ā€œHow about some Marice, mariceeeeee--ā€
ā€œI wish,ā€ Luka says. ā€œBut the kidsā€¦ā€Ā  Å ime watches how the streetlights light up all the interesting angles of his face.Ā  ā€œOnce theyā€™re asleep, youā€™ll do anything to make sure they stay asleep.Ā  You know how that goes.ā€Ā Ā 
Å ime swallows around the guilty lump thatā€™s suddenly appeared in his throat and he nods.Ā  He keeps his eyes fixed on Lukaā€™s face.Ā  Each time a carā€™s headlights flash across it, it changes.Ā  Sometimes he looks much younger than he is. And sometimes he looksā€¦older than 34.Ā  Like an eternal captain, like heā€™ll somehow be Å imeā€™s leader forever even after he retires.
ā€œLuka, stop talking to him,ā€ Vanja says from behind him.Ā  ā€œHe looks about as exhausted as the kids.ā€
ā€œWhat?Ā  Thatā€™s like asking me to stop playing football,ā€ Luka says. ā€œI could never stop talking to Å ime.ā€Ā  And keeping his eyes on the road, he takes one hand off the wheel to rest it on Å imeā€™s leg. ā€œWe go way back.Ā  Zadar kids and all.ā€
Suddenly words are hard.Ā  ā€œWe, uhhhā€”yeah.Ā  Itā€™s not like I knew you back in the day.Ā  We donā€™t go back that f--that--weā€¦ā€
ā€œWhat did I say?ā€ Vanja said.Ā  ā€œYour best right-backā€™s falling asleep.ā€
ā€œNo, ā€˜mā€¦ā€™m not, Iā€¦ā€Ā  And Luka is gently squeezing his knee, and--
ā€œMaybe help him get inside,ā€ Vanja is saying.Ā  Å ime blinks.Ā  Somehow theyā€™re back at his place and he has no idea how it happened.
ā€œHey, did I snore?Ā  Did I talk in my sleep or something?ā€
ā€œNope,ā€ Vanja says.Ā  ā€œI hate to say it, Å ime, but youā€™re pretty boring when you sleep.ā€
ā€œOh?ā€Ā  He yawns.Ā  What is he, an old man all of a sudden?Ā  A few drinks and this is what happens to him?Ā  ā€œDejan says Iā€™m cudd--ā€
ā€œOkayyyy, out,ā€ Luka says.Ā  Heā€™s totally covering up a laugh.Ā  Shit!Ā  ā€œThatā€™s a good idea, Vanja.Ā  Iā€™ll get him inside.Ā  Canā€™t lose a defender, right?ā€
Å ime says goodnight to Vanja, who now definitely knows he and Deki are fucking, but sheā€™s a pretty chill person, so it really could be worse.Ā  His legs wobble underneath him, and he bumps into the warm hood of the car.
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dxrkblaze Ā· 7 years ago
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Darkā€™s 2018 New Year Resolutions
I rarely do resolutions, but this year was a little different for me. Iā€™m just gonna put this under a read more bc itā€™s been a very rough 2017. Iā€™ve learned a lot about myself, and I want to try my best to be a better person next year. So, thisā€™ll probably be pretty long, personal, and therapeutic.
(if I tagged u in this, u can just scroll to the bottom if u want lmao I prob just put a lil message down there)
Iā€™m gonna stop dragging people down with me when I feel sorry for myself. I may still vent, but Iā€™m not gonna feel sorry for myself anymore.
Iā€™m gonna stop feeling negative about my creative work (whether itā€™s art or writing) without warrant. And news flash, Dark, a lack of popularity or aĀ negative reviewĀ is not a warrant.
In addition to this, if I do feel negative because of constructive criticism, Iā€™ll do my best to fix whatever the issue was and not dwell on it. If I fix it, itā€™s fixed, itā€™s done, and the work is better for it in the end. The work was neverĀ ā€œterribleā€ to begin with, no matter what I tell myself. Itā€™s simply improved afterwards, and I can feel positive about it then.
Iā€™m gonna stop treating fandom popularity as my endgame. If I ever actually get popular, thatā€™s great, and Iā€™ll be happy to share my work with a larger audience. But that will no longer be my primary goal in sharing my work.
Also, Iā€™m gonna stop comparing myself to/being jealous of those who ARE popular in this fandom.
MOST IMPORTANTLY, Iā€™M GONNA STOP COMPARING MY WORK TO THAT GOD-FORSAKEN MEGA-POPULAR SILVAZE HIGH SCHOOL FIC. MOVE ON, DARK, IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS.
I will take what my friends tell me about my work as the truth. If they say they liked it or thought it was good, itā€™s because they liked it and thought it was good, period.
Consequently, Iā€™m gonna stop trying to find ~hidden motives~ in what my friends tell me, especially regarding what they say about my art. Again, if they say they liked it, itā€™s because they liked it, dummy.Ā 
Iā€™m gonna stop picking apart every little detail of what others say, because it only makes me feel like shit and question things.
Prime example of this in 2017: I remember Ghostie tagging me in that oneĀ ā€œnew artist memesā€ post (old memes:Ā ā€˜my art is terribleā€™ vs. new:Ā ā€˜my art is terrible but thatā€™s ok bc im learning/having fun/etc). Even tho she CLEARLY said smth likeĀ ā€œIā€™m not saying ur art is bad this just reminds me of uā€, I couldnā€™t stop thinking ā€œshe thinks my art is terrible and this is the way sheā€™s telling meā€/ā€œeveryone else prob feels the same way and just doesnā€™t wanna hurt my feelingsā€, and that sent me into another negative episode. Thatā€™s fucking stupid, Dark. Donā€™t do that.
((ghostie if ur reading this plz donā€™t feel bad abt that lmfao ily and I was being a dumb))
Moreover, Iā€™m gonna stop dwelling on stuff like that. Whether itā€™s something someone says, a negative review, constructive criticism, anything. Iā€™m gonna move on.
If I get a compliment on my work, I will not deny it.
Iā€™m not gonna drag myself after every negative thought that pops in my head. Itā€™s okay to feel negative sometimes. But, from now on, Iā€™ll remember the positives too.
Iā€™m gonna stop viewing myself as inferior to everyone who createsĀ ā€œgoodā€ art, whether theyā€™re a stranger or my friend.
Iā€™m gonna stop viewing writing as an inferior talent to art.Ā 
Thus, Iā€™m gonna start striving to be better at art because I want to and it makes me happy to draw, instead of getting better toĀ ā€œbetter myself as a creative personā€/ā€œbe a better/more likable friendā€. Thatā€™s toxic, Dark.
Iā€™m gonna stop believing that I canā€™t be talented at both writing and art.
Iā€™m gonna remember that becoming a good artist is a process, just like becoming a good writer was.
Iā€™m gonna stop telling myself that my art is unbearably bad. It goes against everything anyone has ever said about my art. My art is good. My art is good in its own way, just the way it is, and I can only improve from here. Just like your friends have told you, Dark.
Iā€™m gonna remember the old me more. Like, 12/13/14 year old me. Because that person serves as proof that just because someone doesnā€™t review/favorite a fic, doesnā€™t mean it didnā€™t leave a lasting impression on them, or they felt it was a waste of time to read. I never had a fanfic/deviantart/anything account for a while, so I never reviewed/favorited my most favorite fics of all time that I still think about to this day. The worldā€™s a big place, and my work has likely inspired more people than I think.
Iā€™m gonna stop beating myself up over any of this shit, and live my life the way I did before 2017 happened.
And, finallyā€¦
If I start breaking any of these resolutions next year, I wonā€™t just run crying to someone about it. Iā€™ll reblog this post, and try my best to fix my mentality.
Thank you all to everyone who helped me through some really, really rough times this year. EspeciallyĀ @maliwarm, @lordoftheghostking28, @aurora-boring-alis, @chariat, and @weezernaut. Iā€™m sorry for the way Iā€™ve acted this year. You guys always picked me back up and made me feel better. You let me vent to you whenever I was feeling shitty, no matter what it was about, and you did your best to help me out. I was an absolute shithead at times this year, but you still listened and made me feel so much better in the end. Thank you for justā€¦ caring. You all have made me stronger for next year, each in your own way. Love you guys.
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