#Mac McClelland

[consoledacup]

I dont think Jordan is of drinking age, but if he was, is that normal to share a drink with your college superior/coach? Or was that the shows attempt to make Jordan mention Billy in that moment, with the stash in his drawer because either way...that felt extremely out of pocket.

I don't think he is of drinking age, and I don't think it's appropriate. Normal? Maybe? No clue what goes on in the athlete world.

As much as I want Jordan to have his guy, Mac is coming on a little strong. He's either a little in love with him (fair!) or might have some ulterior motives. Because why on earth wouldn't he have Jordan pass the ball to Spencer at all?? I support spreading the ball around, especially when rivals always expect Spencer to have it. But never?? It's weird, and now it borderline feels like retaliation after Spencer declared his draft intentions.

[tetw]

10 Essential Essays about Mental Health

The Most Dangerous Idea in Mental Health by Ed Cara - The belief that hidden memories can be "recovered" in therapy should have been exorcised years ago...

Darkness Visible by William Styron - A journey through depression

Adventures in Depression by Allie Brosh - I just woke up one day feeling sad and helpless for absolutely no reason

Surviving Anxiety by Scott Stossel - How I came to terms with the nation's most common mental illness

Understanding the Anxious Mind by Robin Marantz Henig - Some people are just born worriers

My Lovely Wife in the Psych Ward by Mark Lukach - How mental illness re-shapes a marriage

Is PTSD Contagious? by Mac McClelland - It’s rampant among returning vets—and now their spouses and kids are starting to show the same symptoms

Psychopaths and the Rest of Us by Laura Smith - Searching for empathy with those society deems unforgivable

The Truth About Autism by David Wolman - Reconsidering the autistic brain

The Reality Show by Mike Jay - Schizophrenics used to see demons and spirits. Now they talk about actors and hidden cameras

[thatsrightice]

Here’s unused content from my mota Crosby x Bubbles fic “and maybe if i hold you now”, but can be read alone!!! It’s basically just some fluff of Blakely’s crew after the October 8, 1943 mission to Bremen where Just-a-Snappin’ had gone down and their crew was presumed KIA. They returned late that night much to everyone’s surprise, though several of their crew were injured and one KIA.

Bubbles pulled off the path and into a gap a few buildings down from the interrogation hut. He glanced at his watch as he got out of the jeep. H-minus 0410. Inside, Blakely, Kidd, Douglass, Forkner, and Thornton were seated around a table with Colonel Harding. Standing behind the Colonel were several other members of Group Ops and lurking in the corner of the room with a dark look on his face was Bucky. Crosby walked around the table and sat in the empty chair between Blake and Doug. Bubbles nodded to the other members of Group Ops as he took his place beside them, across the table from Crosby.

“Glad you could finally join us, Lieutenant. Captain,” Harding addressed the pair.

“Sorry, Sir,” Bubbles spoke politely, stepping forward to place a document in front of him. “Lieutenant Crosby needed to be taken to the hospital to get checked out.”

“Lieutenant?” Harding turned to Crosby, who currently had his nose in his briefcase as he pulled out his logs and maps.

“Uh, yes, Sir,” Crosby confirmed. “Just a concussion, Sir.”

“We were just talkin’ ‘bout how you and Forky missed your calling to the Red Cross,” Doug grinned, tipping back in his chair back. His hand was wrapped in a bandage and his face was bruised but he looked to be in good spirits. Crosby was sure he didn’t look any better.

“I just did what Forky told me to,” Crosby protested. He flipped open his log book and shuffled through some maps.

Douglass ignored him, instead launching into his retelling of events. “Picture this, Croz is holding Charlie’s hands and smooth talkin’ him while he’s sitting on McClelland’s chest to keep the kid from climbing back in the ball,” Dougie boasted to all the flyboys around them. “All the while Forky is packing Charlie with our open parachutes and thawing a syringe of morphine in his mouth.”

“Let’s back up a bit now that we have the navigator’s logs,” the Colonel interrupted. “Try your best to remember what happened. Crosby, I hope your logs are as detailed as I hear.” Crosby’s head shot up, face taking on a red tint. He looked briefly from Harding to Bubbles and then back down to the logs in front of him.

“They will be, Sir,” Forky assured, smiling at the navigator. Blake nodded in agreement, resting an arm on the back of Crosby’s chair.

“Of course. Now let’s start from the top…”

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“... and then Croz starts talking about lamps…”

“Yeah! What was it he said? Two lamps or one?”

“By land, or by sea,” Forky added. Bubbles snorted, shaking his head as he suppressed a laugh. The others looked at him in confusion.

“Wait, was that supposed to be a joke, Croz?”

“Maybe?” the navigator admitted, not sounding too sure of himself.

“Paul Revere,” Bubbles inputs. There was no response and everyone shrugged. “Ya know...the British are coming?”

A chorus of ‘ooohhhhhhh’s broke out amongst the group.

“Yeah, well these are the Germans and they came at us by air so make that three lamps,” Blake interrupted.

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“Up ahead we spotted another Fort with some Messerschmitts smelling around.”

“They were playing with them,” Doug grimaced in disgust.

“No chutes. Unable to ID,” Crosby added.

“Yeah, then they turn to us and the Luftwaffe, they just don’t stop coming but we took care of them.”

“That’s what happens when you have dead-eye gunners,” Crosby smiled at the man next to him. Doug leaned over and bumped shoulders with him.

“How many do you have noted in total?”

Crosby ran a finger down the page as he read the columns of his notes. He flipped to the next page. “I’ve got two for Via; two for Doug; two for Mac; two-no three for Thorny; one for Yevich and one for Nord.”

“That’s what, eleven?”

“Yes, sir. I have the IDs where observed in my logs,” Crosby confirmed.

Someone let out a low whistle.

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Crosby kept his head down as he quietly gathered his papers. Bucky’s footsteps echoed thunderously in the near-empty room, punctuated by the slamming of the front door.

“Don’t worry about him, Croz,” Kidd spoke softly, squeezing his shoulder.

“I should have paid closer attention,” Crosby shook his head.

“You did everything you could,” Blakely reassured him, lighting a cigarette. “There was so much solid flak, you could almost slice it like cake.”

“And I’m not sure there was anything you could have said that would give him the closure he’s looking for,” Douglass put a hand on his shoulder and stood. “Now, come on, I’m starving.”

[lesterplatt]

FORD 'Bronco' from Salomon Ligthelm on Vimeo.

Directors Cut

Agency: Weiden Kennedy Stuart Jennings - Creative Director Adam Crouch - Copywriter Alex McClelland - Art Director Alison Hill - Executive Producer Ava Rant - Associate Producer Anna Beth Nagel - Business Affairs Manager Jamie Robinson - Account Supervisor Mac Hall - Account Executive

Salomon Ligthelm - Director Mark Walejko - Producer Michelle Breger - Producer Pat Scola - DP Oliver Millar - DP (Additional) Spencer Goodall - 1st AC Leonard Walsh - 2nd AC Production Designer - Jason Hamilton Monty Greenlee - 1st AD Matthew Burke - Editor Joint - Edit House Blacksmith - VFX Iwan Swartz - VFX Lead Mikey Pehanich - Colorist Sound Design/Mix: Salomon Ligthelm, Matthew Burke Additional Sound Design/Mix: Defacto Sound VO: Tom O'Bedlam

[honorablecompany]

Happy Birthday Mr. President!

A beautifully restored Matthew Brady photograph of President Lincoln’s meeting with General McClellan following the Union victory at Antietam on September 17, 1862.

My Goodness, I love this man‼️

Read more. [Nerd Alert]. ⬇️

•This was the Army of the Potomac’s first major victory* over General Lee’s Army of Northern Virginia. It provided a political basis for Lincoln to issue the Emancipation Proclamation the following New Year’s Day.

•Antietam remains the bloodiest single day in American History. 22,717 men killed or wounded.

•An asterisk is appropriate after victory because, despite Lincoln’s request, General McClellan did not pursue and destroy General Lee’s army. No doubt the main reason for the meeting above, which took place on October 3rd.

•There was no love lost between the men. McClelland was often obstinate and even insubordinate to the President.

•The General went on to run against Mr. Lincoln in the Presidential election of 1864. Lincoln won every State except for Kentucky and McClelland’s home State of NJ.

•Too bad the two men are seated. McClellan - “Little Mac” - was 5’8”. Lincoln, 6’4” - without top hat.

[lily-of-elysium]

I was tagged by the amazing @mlle-julies-letter-opener! Thank you so much lovely! 🖤

Name/nickname: Manda but I’m totally open to other nicknames if you want to give me one!

Gender: Female

Star sign: Taurus

Height: About 5’4”

Time: 10:40 p.m.

Birthday: April 25th 

Favorite bands: Eisley, The Decemberists, Tegan and Sara, Metric, Young the Giant, Cold War Kids, Delta Rae, Saint Motel, flora cash, The National, Coco Rosie, Arctic Monkeys, Chvrches, Fleetwood Mac, My Brightest Diamond, Emily Wells, Stars, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Kills, Silversun Pickups, Night Terrors of 1927, Daughter, Dry the River, The Bird and the Bee, others 

Favorite artists: Lana Del Rey, Lorde, Gin Wigmore, Ivy Levan (her older work), Lola Blanc, Alex Winston, Halsey, Lia Ices, St. Vincent, Banks, Michl, Iron and Wine, Kate Bush, Loboda, Simon Wilcox, Regina Spektor, Zella Day, Melissa McClelland, Marina, City and Colour, Damien Rice, others     

I also want to list some pop surrealist artists I love in case you want to check them out: Mark Ryden, Brandi Milne, Camille Rose Garcia, Tara Mcpherson, Camilla d’Errico, Gustavo Rimada, Jennybird Alcantara, Amy Sol, Audrey Kawasaki, Mab Graves, Lori Earley 

Last movie: I haven’t watched one in the past few days 

Last show: Ratched 

When did I create this blog: In February of 2019 

What do I post: Whatever resonates with me! Art, music, fashion, the mystical,  words and my own work as well. 

Last thing you googled: A question about music theory 

Other blogs: I post my poetry and the words of others to @blackmoonmusings, I post my music to @amandasheehansinger, I post my photography to @aphelion333photography and I post my drawings to @amandasheehanart. The most active of the blogs is Blackmoonmusings. I have two other blogs that I won’t name as they are very inactive right now. 

Why I chose my url: It’s my stage name for my music (my real name is Amanda Sheehan) 

Average hours of sleep: 7 or 8 

Lucky number: I don’t think I have one but my favorite number is 777

What am I wearing: Warm black pajamas 

Dream job: In the arts 

Dream trip: Going back to Iceland and seeing the central part of it that I missed seeing during my previous trips there. 

Favourite food: BREAD 

Nationality: American 

Favourite song: Born to Die by Lana Del Rey 

Last book read: The Selected Poems of Marina Tsvetaeva 

Top three fictional universes I’d like to live in: A Haruki Murakami universe, and  I just really wish I’d lived during the golden age of Hollywood 

I shall tag: Whoever feels like doing this! I’d love to read your answers! 

[blackmoonmusings]

So sorry for being so slow to do this! I was tagged by the lovely @lesvague Thank you so much! 🖤

I'm tagging whoever feels like doing this! Please tag me if you do it, I’d love to listen to your recommendations! 

Rules are simple, choose 50 songs you want to recommend to tagged people and see what they prepare for you (if you decide to do it). You can choose only one song by certain artist! 

1. Born to Die - Lana Del Rey

2. Twilight Galaxy - Metric 

3. Winning - Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton

4. The Here and After - Jun Miyake

5. Symphony 6: Fair Thee Well & The Requiem Mix - Emily Wells

6. What Else Is There ? - Royksopp

7. Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac

8. Brightly Wound - Eisley 

9. Spark - The Bird and the Bee

10. We Were Never Young - Raised by Swans 

11. Against the Grain - City and Colour 

12. Changing of the Seasons - Ane Brun 

13. A&E - Goldfrapp 

14. Lullaby - Sia 

15. Rooftop - Melissa McClelland 

16. Another Door Closes - Jont 

17. Grey Room - Damien Rice 

18. Howl - Florence + The Machine 

19. Novocaine - Night Terrors of 1927

20. Magnetised - Tom Odell

21. Midnight Island - Harrison Brome 

22. Umpqua Rushing - Blind Pilot

23. Rising Water - James Vincent McMorrow

24. Writer In the Dark - Lorde

25. Ain’t Supposed to Rain - Welshly Arms 

26. Dark Necessities - Red Hot Chili Peppers

27. I Know I Know I Know - Tegan and Sara 

28. Where Does the Good Go? - Sleeping At Last 

29. Crooked Lines - Hey Marseilles 

30. Lover - Truslow 

31. Love Don’t Break Me - Billy 

32. Repeat - Young the Giant

33. Cosmic Angel - Grizfolk

34. Bloodline - White Sea

35. The Ghosts of Beverly Drive - Death Cab for Cutie  

36. I Love You - Woodkid 

37. Night Sky - CHVRCHES 

38. Dove Season - In the Valley Below 

39. Hurricane - Halsey 

40. Silhouettes - Of Monsters and Men 

41. Sorrow - The National 

42. Shadow Preachers - Zella Day 

43. Stillness In Woe - Purity Ring

44. Take Me To Church - Hozier

45. Black Tar - The Kills 

46. Tompkins Square Park - Mumford & Sons

47. Covered - Uh Huh Her 

48. 101 Vultures - Alex Winston 

49. Chasing Twisters - Delta Rae 

50. Winter - Tori Amos 

[netmassimo]

Mac & Beth by Aaron D McClelland is a crime thriller set in the world of drug dealers near the borderline between the USA and Mexico. 

[longform]

Reporting undercover from inside the online-shipping industry.

Gabriel Mac | Mother Jones | Feb 2012

[lyndastreaming]

Photoshop CS5 One-on-One Fundamentals

Title: Photoshop CS5 One-on-One Fundamentals ID: cd8c223a63a7a3191346e04c01e1d5cd Original Page: Photoshop CS5 One-on-One Fundamentals Released: 5/7/2010 Duration: 17h 33m Author: Deke McClelland Level: Beginner Category: General Subject Tags: Software Tags: Description: Photoshop is the world’s most powerful image editor, and it’s arguably the most complex, as well. Fortunately, nobody knows the program like award-winning book and video author Deke McClelland. Join Deke as he explores such indispensable Photoshop features as resolution, cropping, color correction, retouching, and layers. Gain expertise with real-world projects that make sense. Exercise files accompany the course.Download Deke’s free dekeKeys and color settings from the Exercise Files tab.

Topics include:

Assembling photorealistic compositions Understanding image size and resolution Correcting the brightness and color of images Creating accurate selection outlines Retouching and healing photos Mastering layers and effects Printing and exporting to the web

Course Content: (Please leave comment if course url is broken)

Welcome to Photoshop CS5 One-on-One

Making Photoshop your default image editor

Installing the DekeKeys keyboard shortcuts

Remapping Mac OS shortcuts

Installing the Best Workflow color settings

The color settings explained

Loading the CS5 color settings in Bridge

There is nothing you can’t do

The power of Photoshop

Duplicating a layer

Liquifying an image

Adding a layer mask

Loading an alpha channel

Selecting with Color Range

Making a Hue/Saturation layer

Luminance blending

Mask density

Making a knockout layer

The best way to work

Setting General preferences

Changing the pasteboard color

File handling, performance, and units

Touring the Photoshop interface

Creating and saving a workspace

Changing settings and updating the workspace

Resetting the preferences

The amazing Adobe Bridge

Making a new image

Opening an image

Opening and closing multiple images

Opening a problem image

Adding file information

Introducing Adobe Bridge

A whirlwind tour of Bridge

Adjusting the interface and thumbnails

Using the full-screen preview

Rotating images on their sides

Assigning star ratings and labels

Filtering thumbnails in the Contents panel

Moving, copying, and deleting files

Creating and assigning keywords

Searches and collections

Batch-exporting JPEG files

Batch-renaming

String substitution and regular expressions

Grouping images into stacks

Comparing images in Review mode

Playing images in a slideshow

Customizing and saving the workspace

Using Mini Bridge in Photoshop CS5

Learning to swim inside an image

The tabbed-window interface

Arranging image windows

Common ways to zoom

New zoom tricks in Photoshop CS5

Hidden old-school zoom tricks

Scrolling and panning images

Viewing the image at print size

The Navigator and “bird’s-eye” scrolling

Nudging the screen from the keyboard

Scroll wheel tricks

The Rotate View tool

Cycling between screen modes

Using the numerical zoom value

Imaging fundamentals

What is image size?

The Image Size command

Selecting an interpolation option

Upsampling versus “real” pixels

The penalty of pixels

Print size and resolution

Downsampling for print

Downsampling for email

Options for upsampling

Better ways to make a big image

Frame wide, crop tight

Using the Crop tool

Fixing out-of-canvas wedges

Crop tool presets

Previewing the crop angle

The Crop command

Straightening with the Ruler tool

Cropping without clipping

Perspective cropping

Making drab colors look better

Brightness and contrast

Adjusting numerical values

Introducing adjustment layers

Editing adjustment layers

Saving adjustment layers

Adding a quick layer mask

Introducing the Histogram

Working with the Histogram panel

Using Color Balance

Introducing the Variations command

Luminance and saturation controls

Fading a static adjustment

How hue and saturation work

Rotating hues and adjusting saturation

Creating a quick and dirty sepia tone

Adjusting hues selectively

The Target Adjustment tool

Photoshop CS5 Target Adjustment enhancements

Adjusting the color of clothing

Enhancing a low-saturation image

Refining saturation with Vibrance

Photoshop versus the real world

Meet the selection tools

Marking the center of an image

Drawing a geometric selection outline

Blurring a selection outline with Feather

Copy and paste versus drag and drop

Creating a graduated selection

Aligning one image with another

Accessing the Move tool on the fly

Invert and Match Colors

Matching colors selectively

Feathering and filling a selection

Dressing up a composition with effects

The incredible image rotation trick

The Magic Wand tool

Tolerance and other options

Grow, Similar, and Inverse

Quick selection and the Magnetic Lasso

Evaluating a selection in Quick Mask

Saving and loading selections

Placing an image with a layer mask

Eliminating edge fringing

Brushing to correct

How brushing works

Working with spacing

Changing size and hardness

The heads-up Color Picker

Flipping a mirror image

Setting the source for the History brush

Brightening details with the Dodge tool

Darkening details with the Burn tool

The Sponge tool

Backing off edits

Patching eye bags

Evening out flesh tones

Smoothing away whiskers

Reducing shadow noise

How healing works

The enhanced Spot Healing brush

Using the better Healing brush

Introducing the Clone Source panel

Cloning from one layer to another

Working with multiple sources

The layered composition

Making a new background layer

Working with “big layers”

Move, Duplicate, and Scale

Transforming a copy and repeat

Stacking order and eyedropping a layer

Adjusting multiple layers at once

Switching between layers

Making a digital star field

Blend mode and clipping mask

Dragging and dropping from your desktop

Black + Lens Flare = glow

Locking transparency

Adding gradient layers

Stacking an adjustment layer

Adding shadow and stroke

Outputting from Photoshop and Bridge

Printing an RGB composite

Customizing the subjective print file

Gauging print size

Scale, position, and page orientation

Three important printing curiosities

Introducing the Output options

Establishing a bleed

Using the Color Management options

Generating a PDF contact sheet

Creating a contact sheet template

Saving and opening a PDF contact sheet

Introducing the Web Gallery

Exporting and editing an HTML site

The Airtight Photocard site

Rules of the web

Introducing web graphics

A first look at Save for Web

Scaling a layered image versus a flat one

Incremental downsampling

Adding text, bar, and stroke

Assigning copyright and metadata

Comparing GIF, JPEG, and PNG

Determining the perfect JPEG settings

Saving metadata

Working with an unprofiled RGB image

Downsampling graphic art

Saving a GIF graphic

Antiquated GIF versus the better PNG

Until next time

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[peach-salinger]

✧･*ﾟscottish surnames

→ link to my scottish female name masterlist → link to my scottish male name masterlist

under the cut are 733 scottish surnames. this masterlist was created for all in one breath rp at the request of lovely el, but feel free to link on your own sites! names are listed in alphabetical order. ❝mac❞, ❝mc❞ and ❝m❞ are split into three sections because i mean... look at them. please like♡ or reblog if you found this useful.

abbot(son), abercrombie, abernethy, adam(son), agnew, aikenhead, aitken, akins, allan(nach/son), anderson, (mac)andie, (mac)andrew, angus, annand, archbold/archibald, ard, aris, (mac)arthur

B

(mac)bain/bayne, baird, baker, balfour, bannatyne, bannerman, barron, baxter, beaton, beith, bell, bethune, beveridge, birse, bisset, bishop, black(ie), blain/blane, blair, blue, blyth, borthwick, bowie, boyd, boyle, braden, bradley, braithnoch, (mac)bratney, breck, bretnoch, brewster, (mac)bridan/brydan/bryden, brodie, brolochan, broun/brown, bruce, buchanan, budge, buglass, buie, buist, burnie, butter/buttar

C

caie, (mac)caig, (mac)cail, caird, cairnie, (mac)callan(ach), calbraith, (mac)callum, calvin, cambridge, cameron, campbell, canch, (mac)candlish, carberry, carmichael, carrocher, carter, cassie, (mac)caskie, catach, catto, cattenach, causland, chambers, chandlish, charleson, charteris, chisholm, christie, (mac)chrystal, (mac)clanachan/clenachan, clark/clerk, (mac)clean, cleland, clerie, (mac)clinton, cloud, cochrane, cockburn, coles, colinson, colquhoun, comish, comiskey, comyn, conn(an), cook, corbett, corkhill, (mac)cormack, coull, coulthard, (mac)cowan, cowley, crabbie, craig, crane, cranna, crawford/crawfurd, crerar, cretney, crockett, crosby, cruikshank, (mac)crum, cubbin, cullen, cumming, cunningham, currie, cuthbertson

D

dallas, dalglish, dalziel, darach/darroch, davidson, davie, day, deason, de lundin, dewar, dickin, dickson, docherty, dockter, doig, dollar, (mac)donald(son), donelson, donn, douglas, dorward, (mac)dow(all), dowell, (macil)downie, drain, drummond, (mc)duff(ie)/duff(y), duguid, dunnet, dunbar, duncan, dunn, durward, duthie

E, F

eggo, elphinstone, erskine, faed, (mac)farquhar(son), fee, fergus(on), (mac)ferries, fettes, fiddes, findlay, finn, finlayson, fisher, fishwick, fitzgerald, flanagan, fleming, fletcher, forbes, forrest, foulis/fowlis, fraser, fullarton, fulton, furgeson

G

gall(ie), galbraith, gammie, gardyne, (mac)garvie, gatt, gault, geddes, gellion, gibb(son), gilbert, gilbride, (mac)gilchrist, gilfillan, (mac)gill(ivray/ony), gillanders, gillespie, gillies, gilliland, gilmartin, gilmichael, gilmore, gilroy, gilzean, (mac)glashan, glass, gloag, glover, godfrey, gollach, gordon, (mac)gorrie, gourlay, gow, graeme/graham, grant, grassick, grassie, gray, gregg, (mac)gregor(y), greer, greig, grierson, grieve, grimmond, (mac)gruer, gunn, guthrie

H

hall, hamill, (mac)hardie/hardy, harper, harvie, hassan, hatton, hay, henderson, hendry, henry, hepburn, herron, hood, hosier, howie, hugston, huie, hume, humphrey, hunter, (mac)hutcheon, hutcheson

I, J, K

(mac)innes, irving, iverach, ivory, jamieson, jarvie, jeffrey(s), johnson, johnston, jorie, (mac)kay, (mac)kean, keenan, keillor, keir, keith, kelly, kelso, keogh, kemp, kennedy, (mac)kerr(acher), kesson, king, kynoch

L

laing, laird, (mac)laine/lane, lamond, lamont, landsborough, landsburgh, lang/laing, larnach, laurie/lawrie, lees, lennie, lennox, leslie, lindsay, little(son), lithgow, livingston(e), lobban, logan, lorne, lothian, lovat, love, loynachan, luke, luther

MAC-

mac ruaidhrí, mac somhairle, mac suibhne, macadam, macadie, macaffer, macainsh, macalasdair, macallister, macalonie, macalpine, macanroy, macara, macarthy, macaskill, macaskin, macaughtrie, macaulay, macauslan, macbean, macbeath, macbeth(ock), macbey, macbriden, macbryde, maccabe, maccadie, maccaffer, maccaffey/maccaffie, maccalman, maccambridge, maccann, maccance, maccartney, maccavity, maccaw, macdowell, maccheyne, maccodrum, maccomb(ie), maccorkindale, maccormick, maccoll, macconie, macconnachie, macconnell, maccoshin, maccoskrie, maccorquodale, macclaren, maccleary, macclew, maccloy, macclumpha, macclung, macclure, macclurg, maccraig, maccrain, maccreadie, maccrimmon, maccrindle, maccririe, maccrone, maccrosson, maccuaig, maccuidh, maccuish, macculloch, maccurley, macdermid/macdiarmid, macdougall, macdui, macduthy, maceachainn, maceachen, macelfrish, macewan/macewen, macfadyen, macfadzean, macfall, macfarlane/macpharlane, macfater/macphater, macfeat, macfee, macfigan, macgarrie, macgarva, macgeachen/macgeechan, macgeorge, macghie, macgibbon, macgillonie, macgiven, macglip, macgriogair, macgruther, macguire, macgurk, machaffie, macheth, machugh, macichan, macinnally, macindeoir, macindoe, macinesker, macinlay, macinroy, macintosh, macintyre, macisaac, maciver/macivor, macilherran, macilroy, macjarrow, mackail, mackeegan, mackeggie, mackellar, mackelvie, mackendrick, mackenna, mackenzie, mackerlich, mackerral, mackerron, mackerrow, mackessock, mackettrick, mackichan, mackie, mackilligan, mackillop, mackim(mie), mackinven, mackirdy/mackirdie, mackrycul, maclafferty, maclagan, maclarty, maclatchie/letchie, maclaverty, maclearnan, macleay, maclehose, macleish, maclellan(d), macleman, macleod, macleòid, maclintock, macllwraith, maclucas, macluckie, maclugash, macmann(us), macmaster, macmeeken, macmichael, macmillan, macminn, macmorrow, macmurchie, macmurdo, macmurray, macnab, macnair, macnally, macnaught(on), macnee, macneish/macnish, macnicol, macninder, macnucator, macpartland, macphail, macphatrick, macphee, macphedran, macpherson, macquarrie, macqueen, macquien, macquilken, macrae/machray, macraild, macrob(bie/bert), macrory, macrostie, macshane, macsherry, macsorley, macsporran, macsween, mactavish, mactear, macturk, macusbaig, macvannan, macvarish, macvaxter, macvean, macveigh/macvey, macvicar, macvitie, macvurich, macwalter, macwattie, macwhannell, macwhillan, macwhinnie

MC-

mccabe, mccain, mcclelland, mcclintock, mcconell, mccracken, mccune, mccurdy, mcdiarmid, mcelshender, mceuen, mcewing, mcfadden, mcgeachie/mcgeachy, mcgowan, mcilroy, mcinnis, mcivor, mckechnie, mckeown, mclarty, mclennan, mcneill(age/ie), mcowen, mcphee, mcpherson, mcwhirter

M

maduthy, magruder, mahaffie, main(s), mair, major, malcolm(son), malloch, manson, marr, marno(ch), (mac)martin, marquis, massie, matheson, mathewson, maver/mavor, maxwell, may, mearns, meechan, meiklejohn, meldrum, mellis(h), menzies, mercer, micklewain, milfrederick, millar/miller, milligan, milliken, milne, milroy, milvain, milwain, moannach, moat, moffat, mollinson, moncrief, monk, montgomery, moore, moray, morgan, (mac)morran, morrison, morrow, morton, mossman, mucklehose, muir(head), mulloy, munn, munro, (mac)murchie/murchy, murchison, murdoch, murphy

N, O, P, Q

nairn, naughton, navin, neeve, neil, neish, nelson, ness, nevin, nicalasdair, niceachainn, (mac)nichol(son), nicleòid, (mac)niven, noble, ochiltree, ogg, ogilvy, o'kean, oliver, omay/omey, orchard(son), orr, osborne, park, paterson, patrick, patten, peacock, peat, peters, philp, polson, power, purcell, purser, qualtrough, quayle, quillan, quiller, quinn, quirk

R, S

(mac)ranald(son), randall, rankin, reid, reoch, revie, riach, (mac)ritchie, roberts(on), rose, ross, rothes, roy, ryrie, salmon(d), scott, selkirk, sellar, shannon, sharpe, shaw, sheen, shiach, sillars, sim(son/pson), sinclair, skene, skinner, sloan, smith, somerville, soutar/souter, stein, stenhouse, stewart/stuart, strachan, stronach, sutherland, (mac)swan(son/ston), swinton

T, U, V, W, Y

taggart, tallach, tawse, taylor, thom(son), todd, tolmie, tosh, tough, tulloch, turner, tyre, ulrick, urquhart, vass, wallace, walker, walsh, warnock, warren, ward, watt, watson, wayne, weir, welsh, whiston, whyte, wilkins(on), (mac)william(son), wilson, winning, wright, young

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"Dildos and iPad accessories are the most popular items that I picked, for sure." - Mac McClelland, Lady Reporter, about working undercover as a picker in an internet retailer warehouse

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How I Learned To Be OK With Feeling Sad

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How I Learned To Be OK With Feeling Sad

It wasn’t easy, or cheap.

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The first time I didn’t feel sad about feeling sad was on Sept. 17, 2013. I was in my therapist’s office. More specifically, I was lying on a table, faceup, in my therapist’s office. Maybe it sounds simple, but it was a trick I’d spent years practicing and trying to learn.

I do not mean that I take sadness lightly. Four and a half years ago, after a work-related immersion in sexual violence, I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder. Subsequently, I was diagnosed with comorbid major depressive disorder. Comorbid to all that, I was diagnosed as alcoholic and suicidal. More than $20,000 worth of treatment later, I am no longer those things, but, as an evaluating psychiatrist put it in a report last year, I have “chronic,” “recurring,” “residual psychiatric symptoms” serious enough that she ruled me permanently disabled. I’ve been an emotional gal since always — “She has a lot of feelings,” my best grad-school friend would chuckle by way of explanation when I got worked up about some topic or other in front of strangers — and my emotions now are enormous. Frustration over a failed attempt to buy a sold-out rug online ends in so much yelling and foot-stomping that my neighbors complain. The intensity of a pop song lands like a blunt punch to my chest and explodes any grief nestling there; the very day I’m writing this, Nicki Minaj made me cry in my car.

Sincerely: I do not take sadness lightly. But after a lot of retraining, I do take it wholly, life-alteringly differently than I was raised to, and than almost anyone else I know. Now, sometimes when I’m not sad and I think about sadness, that thought is accompanied by this startling one: I miss it.

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Pre-therapy, this is the only thing I was ever taught, implicitly and explicitly, about sadness: It is bad.

You do not want it. If you’ve got it, you should definitely try to get rid of it, fast as possible. Whatever you do, don’t subject other people to it, because they do not like that.

Sadness can be legitimately problematic, absolutely. If your sadness comes from seemingly no place or even an obvious place but keeps you from participating in life or enjoying anything and refuses to abate no matter how long you go on letting it express itself, you of course can’t keep living like that. But culturally, we aren’t allowed to be sad even for a little while. Even when it’s perfectly sensible. Even when, sometimes, we need it.

This is reflected in our entertainment. Watching Bridesmaids, I shake my head over how Melissa McCarthy slaps Kristen Wiig around and tells her to stop being sad, though she has recently lost her job, her savings, her home, and her best friend. (Miraculously, this solves Kristen Wiig’s attitude problem.) In the third episode of MasterChef Junior‘s second season, judge Joe Bastianich tells a contestant who has ruined her shepherd’s pie and possibly her dream of winning, the biggest dream she’s had up to this point in her life, “When things are as bad as they can be, you gotta pull it together. Wipe your tears.”

The contestant has been crying for mere seconds. She is 8 years old.

What does it say about our relationship to sadness that Joan Didion — who we can all agree is a pretty smart, educated, and worldly cookie — had to write an entire book about trying to learn how to grieve? This ethos was fine for me when mostly nothing bad happened and if it did, the accompanying sadness didn’t linger for too long. But post-trauma, it turned out to be a massive impediment to my recovery.

I had a lot of symptoms. They all alarmed me, but equally so the most straightforward one: sadness. Sometimes I cried from uncontrollable, overwhelming, life-swallowing sadness. And all the time, the sadness and crying itself freaked me the fuck out. I would start crying, and then immediately hate myself. Why was I crying? Why couldn’t I get this sadness to go away? What was wrong with me?

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I got into therapy. I’d gone before, casually and occasionally, for support with some huge changes — a new city and new job and fresh divorce years earlier. Now, it was a therapy emergency. I considered myself decently good at self-care in general, but sure, I let it slip when I got too busy, when work was too demanding, when there were things I had to do that I knew I was getting too burned out to but did anyway. But taking care of myself was not optional anymore. As a matter of survival, I had to make as much room for it as it needed.

And so, I started intensive treatment — during which my therapist had to spend incalculable amounts of time trying to convince me that it was OK to be sad. The alarm I experienced over my sadness was another terrible feeling on top of my already terrible symptoms. The energy I spent panicking that I was sad could have been better spent on coping with the sadness. It was true that I — like many people, people with clinically depressed, never-ending, or life-threatening sadness — needed a lot more assistance than just a big philosophical hug, but if I could accept sadness, my therapist kept suggesting, I would be able to experience it (long and hard as that may go on) and then it could pass. The alternative — being sad, plus condemning yourself for being sad — only heightens the suffering. And, likely, the time it lasts.

“Sadness is a legitimate emotion,” my therapist would say. “There is an acceptance you can get to with it where it’s just a sensation, and without judgment, that sensation can be exquisite.”

“LIES,” I responded to this sometimes. Sometimes I called her a hippie. Nobody accepts sadness. Everybody knows that crying girls are silly and weak. Hysterical, and overdramatic.

But as much as I didn’t — I couldn’t! — really believe her, I still really wanted to learn how to do that.

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I can’t explain, in a tight little essay, how I finally did it. It would take an entire book for me to describe how I got even most of the way there. I can sum up that it took three years to the DAY after the events that started my symptoms, and that it cost a lot of money, and time, and time off, which cost more money, and was so painful that the very memory of how painful it was sometimes makes me need to go lie down in my bed. I can point out that most people are not given the opportunity to go through this process, even if they desperately want to. Unfortunately, healing is a luxury in our society, not a right; so many who could benefit from treatment simply can’t.

And I can tell you about the moment, that September. It was sunny and in the 60s. I was in my therapist’s office in San Francisco, which had fairly bare walls, industrial carpet, and windows that let the light in. I was lying on a massage therapist’s table, because that was normal in my somatic therapy; the treatment addressed the physicality of one’s symptoms, the places and ways trauma lived in one’s body (last year, a hero of my therapist’s, the very brilliant Bessel van der Kolk, released a book about this called The Body Keeps the Score), which was often explored with eyes closed, lying down. The first umpteen number of times I got on the table and was prompted to breathe, to feel into where my tensions and disconnections were, I resisted the falling apart this awareness and reconnecting could lead to. I feared starting to cry and never stopping. I feared never being able to put myself back together, ever, sometimes metaphorically but sometimes literally writhing and kicking and screaming with my resistance to just relaxing. Feeling. To be clear: Sadness was far from my only issue. But by Sept. 17, 2013 (around which point my insurance tallied it had so far given my therapist $18,000), I was taking feeling it in much better stride.

“How do you feel?” my therapist asked.

“Sad,” I said. I was extra sad that day because I was in the middle of a no-fault eviction, and it was turning out not to be practical or affordable to stay in the Bay Area, where I’d lived for a long time. “I feel sad because we have to move.” I cried as I talked about this. I loved California. “I have to grieve a state.”

I cried harder. “It’s a bummer.”

My therapist was very calm. “That is a bummer,” she agreed in soothing tones. She told me to open my eyes and when I did, asked me what sensation I noticed. Instantly, I pictured a kid lying in a yard.

That’s me right now, I thought. A kid lying in a yard, feeling sad — but not feeling sad about feeling sad. It was what it was. It was fine. It was a peace. Me, or a kid, being just what she was: alive.

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“I’m not bummed out about feeling bummed out,” I said.

The significance of this moment was clear to us both. My therapist was speechless for a second. Then she smiled — we were often smiling, because we joked through even the hardest and ugliest moments together — and said, “People pay a lot of money for that, Mac.”

“They should!”

They shouldn’t have to. I hadn’t panicked over being sad every time it had happened in my life, say over a breakup, but I had never had that level of acceptance of it, peace-spreading, unrushed, cell-deep, certainly not as an adult. And as a person with PTSD, I had completely lost any trust in my own emotions, fearing them constantly, sadness included — or perhaps especially, as it was the most persistent. Now, I was finally embracing it.

Which is how I could come to be in a position to miss it. The interestingness of it. The difference of it from other emotions. I remembered the sensations of it: the weight. The way it slowed things down and took the space of everything else up. It was exquisite, objectively but also as evidence that I could feel, that I was open and not shut down, capable of having a whole gamut of emotions rush in, and maybe overwhelm, but move through and move me. Not everyone can. Or does. I am occasionally jealous of people whose emotions come more softly, or quietly, or less often. I assume they have more time and energy, with those not being taken up by sensitivity that makes even the widely considered “good” emotions like joy feel like they’re making their heart explode. But for the most part, I’m not. Some people are born, and then they live, and then they die, one of my doctors told me once, in an effort to comfort. You, you die and are reborn sometimes 10 times in one day. Lucky.

The next time I felt sadness after I missed it, I was reminded why it was so hard to feel it all the time. Oh yeah, I remembered. It hurt. It was difficult to work. To cook, to eat, to play. To take care of others. Exquisite it may have been, but painful, and not invigorating, and quite tiring. Still I trusted that I needed it at that time, that it was expressing something necessary. I didn’t hate or judge it. I did not feel silly or weak. They say it takes a big man to cry, and I think — unfortunately, given our collective feelings about sadness — that’s true. But it takes a bigger woman still, to feel the strength of a sob, without apology or shame. With pride. I’m the biggest I’ve ever been, the way I let my emotions run, sadness included: the way it cleanses me, tears washing my face, resolving me to continue to feel with abandon.

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Mac McClelland is the author of Irritable Hearts: A PTSD Love Story (out this Tuesday, February 24th) and For Us Surrender Is Out of the Question. She has written for Reuters, Rolling Stone, Mother Jones, the New York Times Magazine, and the New York Times Book Review, among other publications, and has won awards from the Society of Professional Journalists, the Sidney Hillman Foundation, the Online News Association, the Society of Environmental Journalists, and the Association for Women in Communications. Her work has also been nominated for two National Magazine Awards for Feature Writing and has been anthologized in the Best American Magazine Writing 2011, Best American Nonrequired Reading 2011, and Best Business Writing 2013.

To learn more about Irritable Hearts: A PTSD Love Story, click here.

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It seems a little late to be doing a Christmas book haul but I really wanted to share the books that I got for Christmas and haven’t been able to get this post together until now. As a lifelong bookworm I sometimes get one or two books for Christmas but up until I met my husband these book were always books I had asked for as most people say that they can’t buy me books because either they think I already have everything, or they think books are boring! My husband has always given me some books for Christmas as stocking fillers and I’ve always been so happy and grateful for them. This year though I got a book mountain. I think there are twenty-six books in total…

Firstly, I got this gorgeous set of eight Vintage Christmas books

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They were in a lovely set together and I’ve already read two of them. The titles are:

A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens

Christmas at Cold Comfort Farm by Stella Gibbons

A Redbird Christmas by Fannie Flagg

Dickens at Christmas by Charles Dickens

Christmas Holiday by W. Somerset Maugham

Miss Smilla’s Feeling for Snow by Peter Hoeg

If On A Winter’s Night a Traveller by Italo Calvino

Winter Holiday by Arthur Ransome

I love that some of them are more winter reads than Christmas reads as it means I can continue reading them now Christmas is over. I’ll definitely be looking forward to the more festive ones as next Christmas gets here.

I also got this beautiful Puffin hardback edition of A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett. This book was one of my all-time favourite reads a a child and whilst I still have my original copy, it’s so old and battered that I wouldn’t dare re-read that edition. I’ve kept looking at this hardback copy online but couldn’t justify buying it for myself, I’m over the moon to finally own it and will definitely be re-reading it this year!

Continuing the theme of childhood reads, he also gave me this beautiful slipcase edition of Alice in Wonderland, and Through the Looking Glass. It’s such a beautiful set and I’m looking forward to re-reading these books.

I have a pet guinea pig (called Robson), who is so adorable, so these next two books were perfect for me. I’m now wondering whether I could bribe Robson into dressing up as Oliver  Twist! Haha!

Back to serious reading now… Here are the novels that I was given:

The Age of Miracles by Karen Thompson Walker

What I Had Before I Had You by Sarah Cornwell

Romancing the Dark in the City of Light by Ann Jacobus

Lyrebird by Cecelia Ahern

The Girl from the Garden by Parnaz Foroutan

Unbecoming by Rebecca Sherm

The Whole Golden World by Kristina Riggle

The Non-Fiction books I got:

The Age of Bowie by Paul Morley

Irritable Hearts: A PTSD Love Story by Mac McClelland

Turn Around Bright Eyes by Rob Sheffield

The Girl by Samantha Geimer

There was one short story collection:

This book is called Music for Wartime by Rebecca Makkai and it sounds like such a brilliant book. I can’t wait to dip into these stories. Also, what a gorgeous cover!

It’s become something of a tradition to get me one of the illustrated Carol Ann Duffy poem books for Christmas and this year he chose Another Night Before Christmas because it is illustrated by Rob Ryan, whose illustrations I love.

  The final gifts weren’t books but they were partly related to books…

Two Penguin mugs – A Common Reader by Virginia Woolf and A Room of One’s Own by Virginia Woolf. I’m still not sure how my husband knew I adored Virginia Woolf but I’m over the moon with these mugs!

An Aladdin Sane necklace that I first saw earlier this year and have wanted ever since. I’m so happy to finally own it (and it fits with me also getting another Bowie biography). I also got a gorgeous sunflower necklace from the same company as it’s my favourite flower.

  I was very spoilt and don’t think receiving so many books for Christmas will ever be topped! It was wonderful… and my husband, who hates wrapping presents, wrapped everything individually too so it was like being a kid again having so much to open on Christmas morning!

  Did you have a nice Christmas? Were you given any new books, or have you bought some yourself for Christmas?

My Christmas Book Haul! It seems a little late to be doing a Christmas book haul but I really wanted to share the books that I got for Christmas and haven't been able to get this post together until now.

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Confessions of an Igloo Dweller: The Story of the Man Who Brought Inuit Art to the Outside World by James Houston. McClelland & Stewart, 1995. 0771042728. 322pp with numerous illustrations by Houston.  - My buddy Mac tells a lot of stories about working in Alaska, and after I gave him Michel Hellman’s graphic novel Nunavik (about his trip there from Montreal), Mac started trying to push his collection of James Houston books on me. I resisted because I don’t read many biographies. I shouldn’t have.   - Houston lived in the Arctic from 1948 to 1962, working as an art buyer seeking to create a market for Inuit sculpture and an agent of the Canadian government. It sounds like the jobs were just an excuse -- Houston was drawn to what is now Nunavut and its people, and I think he would have done anything to live there as a young man. His tales are roughly chronological, and include adventures he lived (the most harrowing of which was when his young wife had a problem with her appendix, and had to be taken by dogsled to get medical help that was days away) as well as traditional tales he was told. He makes life in the far north sound incredibly difficult, but his delight at living there with his family and friends is always clear. Bonus: Houston was an artist, and when called for, his spot illustrations clarify whatever he’s explaining to those of us not lucky enough to share his experiences. - Houston wrote many other books about life in the arctic, many of them novels for young people. At the risk of creating a long wait for myself, most of his books can be borrowed for free from the Internet Archive if you set up a free account. 

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Tagged by the amazing @fragiledewdrop. Thank you so much! 🖤

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Name: Amanda is my real name, but you can also call me Miranda, my stage name, if you like 

Gender: Female

Star sign: Taurus

Height: About 5’4” 

Time: 1:19 a.m.

Birthday: April 25th

Favorite bands: Eisley, The Decemberists, Tegan and Sara, Metric, Young the Giant, Cold War Kids, Delta Rae, Saint Motel, flora cash, The National, Coco Rosie, Arctic Monkeys, Chvrches, Fleetwood Mac, My Brightest Diamond, Emily Wells, Stars, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Kills, Silversun Pickups, Night Terrors of 1927, Daughter, Dry the River, The Bird and the Bee, others 

Favourite solo artists: Lana Del Rey, Lorde, Gin Wigmore, Ivy Levan (her older work), Lola Blanc, Alex Winston, Halsey, Lia Ices, St. Vincent, Banks, Michl, Iron and Wine, Kate Bush, Loboda, Simon Wilcox, Regina Spektor, Zella Day, Melissa McClelland, Marina, City and Colour, Damien Rice, others     

Last movie: I am currently rewatching The Matrix, and I have the biggest crush on Trinity!

Last show: Jessica Jones

When did I create this blog: In February of 2019

What I post: Whatever resonates with me! Art, music, fashion, the mystical, words and my own work as well 

Last thing I googled: The lyrics to Umpqua Rushing by Blind Pilot so I could sing it 

Do I get asks: Only every so often, I definitely welcome them though! 

Why I chose my url: It’s my stage name for my music

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Followers: See above

Average hours of sleep: 8 or 9 

Instruments: My voice, a little bit of piano and a little guitar and harp, I really want to learn how to play better!

What I am wearing: Warm black pajamas

Dream job(s): In the arts

Dream Trip: Back to Iceland! 

Favorite food: BREAD

Nationality: American

Favourite song: Born to Die by Lana Del Rey

Last book I read: In the Presence of Absence by Mahmoud Darwish

Top 3 fictional universes I'd like to live in: A Haruki Murakami universe, and  I just really wish I’d lived during the golden age of Hollywood 

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