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f4rlands · 4 months ago

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my paycheque vs me going home early from work literally whenever im offered it

#MY PAY IS SUFFERING BUT. BUT.#ITS NOT WORTH IT

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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Burning Rotten Bridges

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mianmian #nie mingjue #jin guangyao #JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting #but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.

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lotus-pear · 11 months ago

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whatever happens, please don’t break

#god not a fucking DAY goes by where i don’t think of that one interview and this quote #does anybody have it word for word? please? i’ll pay you #literally every single time i think about how kunikida as w character was MADE for dazai. specifically to share his suffering #i actually sob into my hands because that means they were both destined for tragedy together and the long dark road they will walk #will at least not be lonely. because they have each other. they are each other’s light in the darkness.#DO YOU UNDERSTAND #bro the fact that kunikida is painfully aware of the imperfection of the world and how he still continues to fight for his ideals #paralleling dazai who finds humanity beautiful but cannot become attached bc he feels alienated from emotion #THE WAY THEY COULD HELP EACH OTHER????? SICK SICK SICK I AM SICK #i love kunikidazai sm i wish more ppl could see the potential #but some of you aren’t ready for the sheer perfection of their dynamic #also i’ve noticed that i am only capable of drawing dazai properly when it’s with kunikida what’s up with that 💀#and sorreyy i know their height difference isn’t THAT big but i didn’t realize until i was halfway into the coloring 😔💔#osamu dazai #dazai osamu #kunikida doppo #doppo kunikida #kunikidazai #knkdz #kunizai #lotus draws

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starfruitsomething · 9 months ago

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avicecaro · 9 months ago

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hate to say it, but part of ending the stigma around sexual assault means not assuming every woman blames herself. yes, female socialization encourages it, but that doesn’t make it a given, and the goal of all of these campaigns is to eventually diminish the proportion of women who do blame themselves. it is entirely possible, and increasingly common, for women to experience sexual assault and not feel shame or guilt, which we should be happy about. but instead, there are only so many times you can hear “you know it’s not your fault, right?” before it sounds like “it was your fault”. and there’s only so many times you can hear “don’t blame yourself” before it sounds like “you should blame yourself”. because it feels good to say, doesn’t it? sure, you don’t believe she’s guilty, but you do believe she should feel guilty, so that you can disabuse her of the notion. just something to consider.

#i think we are very pleased with the idea of female shame #even among people who genuinely do not believe women are at fault for being assaulted #you are still meant to pay the penance of suffering and self destruction #god fucking knows why #“i got mugged” “aww don’t blame yourself for walking around with those fancy shoes and visible wallet okay? it’s not your fault”#you’d be like girl what. i didn’t fucking say it was my fault but your mind sure jumped there fast 🤨#“my mom died” “wow. do you feel terrible crippling shame for everything you’ve ever done wrong in your life?#up to and including causing your mom’s death? because that would be totally wrong if you did”#like how could that possibly be an appropriate response #genuinely i think the feeling that i was going completely insane post-being raped because no one would believe i didn’t blame myself #was like. solidly half as traumatic as the actual event #like. it is okay not to feel guilty and shameful. it’s great actually. you’re not having the wrong response.

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felidaefatigue · 1 year ago

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We find no rest for our weary bones unless we cling to the word of grace.

#tlt #the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #forgive me religion quoting its purely in the way that gideon is a karkat is a the sufferer is a jesus metaphor #i may hate my job for being low pay as shit and very boring but it does mean this happens #cat scratches #tlt scratches #ink scratches

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llilychen · 5 months ago

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aemond thinking no one wants to help him but he doesn’t know that tyland joined a pirate polycule for his sake 🙏💞💋

#free my man #he works every day he pays the bills and for WHAT #tyland lannister #aemond targaryen #hotd #hotd s2 spoilers #the way aemond is responsible for the suffering of every person in this show #asoiaf

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sunlit-mess · 7 months ago

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noticing in your vents—

is your sister okay too?

We laugh, sure, but we both know we're not ok.

#messyr #vent post #we have separate fams and both of us are the eldest. She mostly stays at mother side and I stay at my father's although dad is never home.#The rest of the members in my father side can put quips here and there to make her feel guilty and she does get guilty mostly about money #I ALSO provide them and HER financial support while also trying to pay for myself. I'm VERY exhausted.#unlike me she's not caged up here- but with a few restrictions still #while im BOUND to my family (father side) and they always target me so that's a pretty neat deal than seeing my sister suffer the same #just thinking of it makes me want to throw up HAHAH #there are times- she does things by action or words that makes me feel like- yknow. she loves me back. that's enough for me

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iheartbookbran · 7 months ago

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lol imagine you’re Colin Bridgerton and you’ve spent the last three weeks pinning for your best friend who’s being courted by a vegetarian so now you have to jump through hoops and loops (and some finger tricks) to get her to marry you instead.

she accepts your proposal and as you’re still riding that high reality comes crashing down all around you as you realize marrying her means Portia Featherington will be your future mother-in-law…

#to the ‘colin deserves to suffer’ crowd: 1) no he doesn’t #and 2) even if he did like… look at his future in-laws. he WILL suffer don’t worry #boy will be paying for his sins in this life and also for any and all transgressions he committed in the past five #did he use to be dracula the impaler or what. to be punished so much #colin hyping himself up: god gives his hardest battles to his sexiest soldiers #anyways i really liked this ep if you couldn’t tell #but this and gregory wearing a top hat were probably my favorite parts #colin bridgerton #portia featherington #polin #bridgerton #bridgerton spoilers #bridgerton season 3

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anbaisai · 2 months ago

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Do you do speedpaints? Your artstyle is so lovely, I honestly just want to see your process ♡

Thank you! I... actually haven't ever recorded my progress because I'm rather embarrassed about it (including how long it takes me to complete stuff that seem simple at a glance 😭), if you ever watch me draw I think it'd be very frustrating because it's almost never a linear process of sketch -> line art -> colours 💦. This is because I always notice problems I didn't notice at first in my sketch and have to frequently make up for it by re-sketching (and finding refs) in the middle of lining, or do a loooot of adjusting and fixing near the end. So it looks a bit more like sketch -> start line art -> several hours of fixing my mistakes and redoing parts -> FINALLY finish the lines -> colour -> possibly more fixing.

Redoing things in the middle results in the sketch usually looking quite different from the one I initially started with, so I can't even make a proper progress post unless I saved screenshots from earlier stages. HOWEVER. I do have one example I can share because I did send friends screenshots, so here's a rough idea of how I made this piece!

This was the sketch I started out with:

And then this is after I very obviously went to the bathroom mirror to get better refs:

I care a lot about getting anatomy correct even if parts are covered in the final product, so I usually can't avoid sketching the body before I add clothes, hence the different colours just to help myself understand the pose/anatomy better. It wouldn't be this much of a struggle if I sat down and did some more drills practicing anatomy properly via figure drawing or something, but well... I'm lazy... so I always just study the pose or anatomy I need for the piece on the spot.

Line art, which is usually the stage I put the most work into:

Colours + any special effects or final adjustments:

All in all, I'd say my steps are pretty straightforward and nothing special, but hopefully this was somewhat helpful!

#asks #anonymous #every time i draw im like #i regret not practicing more anatomy #“this would take so much less time and blood and sweat and tears if i did”#but then i never learn my lesson and still refuse to practice #so i always pay for that 💀#i wouldn't consider myself GOOD at anatomy #because i make dumb mistakes all the time #but im very dedicated to it #and i have eyes that are far ahead in skill level vs my hands so i get that struggle where i notice problems #but lack the skill to fix it or at least can't easily #so every time i have to go through a looooot of pain and suffering before my eyes decide theyre satisfied #anyway im a firm believer of good anatomy by default improves ur art at least 10x #always worth it

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olive-man · 3 months ago

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this is how i kind of see them i think

#markvid #this is like a dumbed down way that i see them #i have many perceptions on the ship but this is probably my MOST fav to think abt #i love seeing mark suffer maybe that’s why #cotc #elders of the creek #they live in my head rent free i fear..like mold…#as if they’d pay rent lmfao #elder mark #elder david #i feel like im carrying the markvid torch where are y’all gay mfs i need more fanart of them please

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sossolf · 3 months ago

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Bad thoughts

#one of those nights where basil has to deal with his guilt all alone #dont pay attention to the stranger in a pumpkin on the wall XD #i initially started with him then basil suffering took over my brain #so yep. now hes stuck on his bedroom wall.#my drawing #omori basil #omori spoilers

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elenafromthesky · 2 years ago

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l o v e y o u b a c k

#charles leclerc #my art #my stuff #digital drawing #be honest #you'll pay a lot of money to see him win this Sunday #ready to suffer

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scribblesscribblings · 17 days ago

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Woe, curse of Cayden Cailean be upon ye (gives you the worst hangover of your life)

#my art #pathfinder 2e #pfkm #xioyun #ashahera #minerva #terry #the price to pay for being too mean to a silly little guy: divine punishment #linzi was spared cause she never said anything mean #as well as min the kitsune ranger who atm is more of a guest before finalizing into the team for sure #even with their punishment though xioyun did make efforts to alleviate their suffering with a baller hangover meal #and on a cuter note tristian and xioyun had a nice chat abt dragons because a toy one was found #very sweet very cute i will draw that moment up in the future

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interrogatormentors · 1 month ago

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a-ny words of ad-vice for some-one a-bout to be sent off to be-come a helms-man soon?? it was al-ways my dream.... un-til i found out what it tru-ly means - DS

ii'm not goiing two wa2te your tiime wiith condolence2 bc thii2 2hiit ii2 ju2t iineviitable for people liike u2. 2o 2ound2 liike you ju2t deciided two roll over and diie whiich mean2 you've 2ucce22fully 2kiipped over the fiir2t 2tep whiich ii2 enjoy the tiime you have left and pretend iit'2 not happeniing. bc that'2 not goiing two get you anywhere.

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Cry whIIle your lung2 can 2tIIll IInflate--

or ii gue22 you could 2ee iif a hiighblood wiill deiign two hook you up wiith a fake vii2a two the far coloniie2. never met anyone that triied two do that and liive though. once the drone2 arriive that'2 iit. my adviice ii2 two...

--a2 mournIIng the pa2t 2hall be dII2couraged movIIng forward IIn your career a2 a helm2man. DrIInk--

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...eat before you go 2o you can puke or 2ometh a2 one la2t act of rebelliion bc you're goiing two forget your own name iif the programmiing work2 riight.

--plenty of electrolyte2 2o they can fIInd your veIIn2 ea2IIer two make the proce22 a2 paIInle22 a2 po22IIble before you become part of our glorIIou2 EmpIIre

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iidk. ii'm not the be2t per2on two a2k bc ii got out. iit'2 not 2omethiing you can really prepare for.

Not 2ure why you a2ked thII2. II have been here 2o long that my corporeal lIIfe no longer hold2 relevance two me.

#homestuck #homestuck au #interrogatormentors #interrogatormentors au #askblog #sollux captor #the helmsman #the psiioniic #Helmsman Translation:#(Screaming notes ripped from the throat of mercy caterwaul to She on High who heeds not your wail nor your)#Cry whIIle your lung2 can 2tIIll inflate #(with pustulant fluid pulsing with what fury you can summon for your fury will fall upon the deaf ears of thousands #that feel your dying breath in each building block of the society of pupae left behind)#a2 mournIIng the pa2t 2hall be dII2couraged movIIng forward IIn your career a2 a helm2man. DrIInk #(deep and descend from your guiding star to take the hands of this child‚ O Sufferer.)#plenty of electrolyte2 2o they can fIInd your veIIn2 ea2IIer #two make the proce22 a2 paIInle22 a2 po22IIble before you become part of our glorIIou2 EmpIIre #(of salt and misbegotten spacetime shall fade back into fragile incandescence #as you accept this lost soul into your web of stars for me to grind into grist.)#oh my god the bad thing about psii have a similar quirk to sollux #you gotta pay REAL close attention to keep track if they do a combo move #hoo boy #i know there's an untagged bit of psii's response but it's not in binary #and mod snarky here is being a tired ass stoner so editing tags is hard #shoutout to anyone that catches the lancer reference

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blahblahbih · 1 month ago

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Qatar thots 🎙️

I DEMAND FINANCIAL COMPENSATION FOR THIS BS

Lando’s beautiful move on George, almost got the lead, beautiful work my little pookie

Oscar also going great

ok the actual race, complete mess, spent mostly under the safety car, so many cars just offing themselves

And then

Then Maxie, who already won the championship mind you, decides to be a little snitch

DROPPING FROM 2nd TO 15th!!!!!!!!!!

THEY WAITED UNTIL THE FIELD WAS BUNCHED UP

And we’re like hey you HAVE TO serve the penalty NOW

How does a 0.6 sec advantage get you a 13 place drop???

I understand rules are rules and he shouldn’t have done that, but like the punishment absolutely does not fit the crime broooooo

Praying for the Williams mechanics

Shout out to Pierre from keeping Carlos behind

Our straight line speed is nonexistent

To all the people who sacrificed my baby to the ancient deities just for zhou to get a point you better sleep with one eye open

#lando norris #oscar piastri #mclaren #max verstappen #zhou guanyu #formula 1 #qatar gp 2024 #f1 #fia when I catch you fia #I understand this isn’t max’s fault but like bro you already won #how much did Ferrari pay you to do that #overall pain and suffering #abu Dhabi you better not ruin me #my thots 🎙️#williams racing #franco colapinto

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