#Love Quotes for Teddy Day status videos

[tentaran]

Teddy day falls on 10th February every year, during Valentine’s Week.  Friends and couples exchange gifts, teddy bears, roses, cards and so on. Let’s check out these beautiful

[ashutentaran]

Teddy day falls on 10th February every year, during Valentine’s Week.  Friends and couples exchange gifts, teddy bears, roses, cards and so on. Let’s check out these beautiful

[queer-starling]

Flower ask: also all of them. you get to suffer with me >:3€

oh darlin’ we’re in it now huh

Alisons: Sexuality?

homogay

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

she/they | all gender will be shot on sight

Amaryllis: Birthday?

sept 23rd

Anemone: Favorite flower?

monkshood

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

stranger things or ghost adventures

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

like? distance? a couple miles probably

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

“We are such stuff as dreams are made on, and our little lifeIs rounded with a sleep.” William Shakespeare, The Tempest

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

wild cherry capri sun

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ima change that to ‘kiss the last person u thought abt kissing’ bc YES

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

*jenna marbles voice* hell yeah!!

Baneberries: Favorite song?

waiting for the end - linkin park 

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

chaos

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

i have too many to list !!! brandi, kasey, you, liz, ivy, nick , just to name a few!!

Begonia: Favorite color?

blue uwu

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

foxes !! and opossums

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

night time babey

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

either a fox or an opossum or a raven, i think

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

i wanted to be a vet !!!

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

theyre ok as long as theyre not screaming and/or mine

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

i don’t liike vomit bc. nastey (trauma i think) and i don’t like old ppl well. i dunno why? they’re just so old and fragile and helpless and sometimes they’re really mean and idk i think it’s like something to do w death or something LMAO idk. also i just hate the idea of becoming old and having to rely on other people ?? hhh

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

i was bullied a lot

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?  

realistically? probably playing dead by daylight with my girlfriend ADFSGRHYUTR

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

happily taken 

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

ireland, scotland, alaska, greece

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

whenever my friends or family tells me they love me but esp when u text me goodmorning or when we say our goodnights sorry im gay haha

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?  

i have. uuuuhh 6

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  

no!!! i want some tho :(

California Poppy: Height?  

i think im like. 5′5 or something? give or take an inch ?

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

oh absolutely. my house is haunted as we speak

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?  

bmth hoodie and pajama pants w foxes all over them. i just woke up lol

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

yeah i always keep one on in the bathroom

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?  

my sister bc she came home from college yesterday

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

ask me in like. a little over a month from now ;)

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

FONT??? the animal crossing font

Columbine: Are you tired?

oh absolutely

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

thanksgiving, christmas, seeing my gf, magfest

Coneflower: Dream job?

idk if it’s a job but i just wanna own like. a ranch that takes in all sorts of animals and takes care of them

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

introvert 

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

ooooh yeah

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

i mean. depends on what they want/need. distance wise? i’d travel the known universe for u  

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

he was a plaid teddy bear his name was Stanley!!!! i miss him :( but now i have Little Moon God as my favourite stuffed animal 

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

Libro

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

Working in Yellowstone is something I’ll never forget

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

well. hmm. i was gonna say flying to yellowstone but maybe driving to north carolina by myself bc driving long distances alone to places i haven’t been before gives me hella anxiety (i’m better now)

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)? 

i don’t pay rent in this house to listen to their opinions lmao. 

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

you, i think, when we said goodnight last night!!! EDIT: you this morning!!

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

being bad at dead by daylight

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

dead by daylight

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

(little over a month now but uhhh) GOT A UH ......GIRL.....FRIEND ...... GOT TO VISIT GIRLFRIEND ........ and got the windshield finally replaced in my car 

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

i dont know! so far ive laid in bed now im at my computer answering this. not too bad. my shift is only 4 hours today. 

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

for the most part, i’m pretty content, yeah

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

MOVE OUT 

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

my friends, my mom, my sisters, my girlfriend, my bastard dog

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

metal   

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

what does this mean. physically, i’m very affectionate, i just. don’t show it alot bc anxiety/i overthink. that and i constantly tell ppl i love them and what they mean to me 

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

whoever is reading this

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

wake up next 2 a cute girl. take way too long to get up. go climb mountain w cute girl. vibe on mountain w cute girl. go to waffle house 2gether. gome home and vibe. play video games or watch a movies/tv w cute girl.  

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?  

i like to make art or play bideo jame

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

oh gosh i dunno. the ones i’ve known the longest are kasey and brandi, and i’ve known them both around/over a decade i think. we met in middle/highschool!

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

you, ivy, liz

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

so many 

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

idk man but i remember when you said u had a crush on me and then i posted a selfie and u were like ‘OH NO SHE’S CUTE” and like ??? idk i think that was definitely the first compliment to ever shock me LMAO 

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

6.9/10

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

my tattoos

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself? 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGGViLwHEUk

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

i liked to play zombies ate my neighbors on the sega genesis !!!!

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

eliza !!!! we lost touch a few years after i moved away :(

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

ima be real everything makes me feel guilty

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?  

aaaaaa the whole abi/moon incident 

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

my name is fox. it means i like foxes

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

northern virginia babey !!!! that place fucking sucks!!! but everyone who lives up there thinks they’re hot shit. 

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

i had a bunkbed and i think the walls were pink 

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  

😬 i’m just gonna say i’m much happier now and i’m coping with life and shit a lot better  

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

she’s sweet and funny and i love her so much!! she always does the Most for everyone, sometimes to the point where she isn’t concerned abt herself and i see where i get it from. but yeah my mom is great, my dad doesn’t deserve her 

Onions: Tell about your dad.  

source of a lot of trauma and why i have so many issues regarding men. i don’t wanna talk about him anymore LOL he doesn’t deserve the attention

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

my dad’s mom is becoming senile and i think she’s racist and queerphobic. my mom’s parents disowned her a few years ago so we don’t talk to them anymore 

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

i dunno. i don’t try to remember my birthdays. whenever i can go to busch gardens for my birthday i usually have a lot of fun there. 

Peony: What was your first job?

if you don’t wanna count working w my mom as a florist, target was my first job back in 2016. i found my name tag the other day , actually

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

WELL, i know you followed me on here first. and then twitter?? but we didn’t really start talking until stranger things 3 came out (thank u stranger things) PHYSICALLY, we didn’t meet until fursonacon (haha. i remember when u texted me that u got to the hotel and i came down to help n i saw u unloading yr car and it was then that my brain was like OH NOOOOOOOO and my heart was like OH YEEEEAAAAAAAH) 

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

physical, mental, or emotional? i play a video game or listen to loud music

Pink: Where is home?[

somewhere in appalachia i can feel it in my stupid soul 

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change? 

idk man i’m pretty content w where i’m at now so 

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

chester bennington 

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

i have a waife and we have many great pets and we live in a log cabin in the mountains or in a nice victorian in a small town or something IDK but we’re happy and that’s all that matters 

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

God

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

my mom, me best friends, my girlfriend

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

my girlfriend’s laugh because it’s THE cutest shit and then when she giggles??? oh my heart 

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

oct 23rd, 2005, we brought Fat Boy Zack home !!!!

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

July 22nd, 2016. i was 2200 miles away

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?  

to be holding my girlfriend >:(

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

hhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

those i hold dear

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

enough, i guess? 

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

my girlfriend

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

it’s fucking BORING and TOO EASY and they don’t pay me ENOUGH but i can get away with so much shit there so ima still go, ima still go 

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

all of the flannels currently in my possession

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.  

mountains, woods, forests, cabins, autumn, cryptic, occult, victorian, edwardian

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

if someone gets me a gift i’m legally required to execute them

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

this 40hr workweek i got coming up 

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

i have not read in So Long

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

Moved out away from here lol, we’ll see

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

:/

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

i’m a furry

that was SO LONG im sorry i also put you through that but THANK YOU ENJOY READING ILU

[freespiritdani]

Okay, @freespiritdani, I wanna see how brave you are... The ASK ME STUFF list. All of them except the first one and the last one. Love ya lots, Mom.

Braver than you think, dear daughter! 

You should know be better than that, you’ve known me all your life....

Here goes:

2: Age -39

3: 3 Fears - flying, heights, snakes

4: 3 things I love - motorcycles, horses, being and living in the country

5: 4 turns on - intelligence, smile, heart, laughter

6: 4 turns off - body hair not on the scalp, bad hygiene, the male of the species, arrogance

7: My best friend - @cherokeesapphicangel 

8: Sexual orientation - lesbian and proud of it

9: My best first date - November 7, 2005, with the woman who would eventually become my world and my wife

10: How tall am I - 5′4″

11: What do I miss - things I’m no longer allowed to do post-heart attack

12: What time were I born - 6:12 AM

13: Favourite color - bright red

14: Do I have a crush - does my wife count?

15: Favourite quote - “Love is too beautiful to be hidden in a closet.”

16: Favourite place - at home, on the sofa, curled up next to my precious Angel

17: Favourite food - sushi

18: Do I use sarcasm - Now whatever gave you that idea? (in other words, yes)

19: What am I listening to right now - my precious Angel’s heartbeat

20: First thing I notice in new person - body language

21: Shoe size - 7

22: Eye color - chocolate brown

23: Hair color - black, no dyes.

24: Favourite style of clothing - “provocative”

25: Ever done a prank call? - yes

(where, perchance, is #26? LOL)S

27: Meaning behind my URL - I’m a free spirit.

28: Favourite movie - Hoodwinked!

29: Favourite song - “Niki Nana (We Are One)”, Yanni

30: Favourite band - don’t really have one

31: How I feel right now - very happy and content

32: Someone I love - my precious Angel (my wife)

33: My current relationship status - happily married

34: My relationship with my parents - they’re deceased (Mom in 2001, Dad in 2019)

35: Favourite holiday - Halloween

36: Tattoos and piercing i have - yes, classified (intimate)

37: Tattoos and piercing i want - Also classified (same reason)

38: The reason I joined Tumblr - Choices fandom

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? - you could say that....

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? - from my daughters

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? - How the hell do I know? I have no clue who you last texted!

42: When did I last hold hands? - right now

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? - anywhere from 2 minutes to an hour

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? - uh, yeah!

45: Where am I right now? - lying in bed with my wife, all cuddled up

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? - the mortician

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? - yes

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? - I’m alive and they’re not, so I’m going with “no”

49: Am I excited for anything? - Yes

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? - Yes. My brother.

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? Whenever I meet an asshole that’s going out of his/her way to be annoying

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? - a few minutes ago.

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? - Not gonna happen

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? - yes

55: What is something I disliked about today? - went by too quickly

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Oh dear god, that list is too long to whittle it down to just one LOL

57: What do I think about most? - a toss up between cooking for my wife and sex with my wife

58: What’s my strangest talent? - strange to whom?

59: Do I have any strange phobias? - I repeat, strange to whom?

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? - Behind, if a camera must be involved at all.

61: What was the last lie I told? - that I had totally given up drinking about 8 months before I really did

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? - neither

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Yes and Yes

64: Do I believe in magic? - Yes

65: Do I believe in luck? - Yes

66: What’s the weather like right now? - cold

67: What was the last book I’ve read? - Cover to cover? The Rite by Jennifer Bene

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? No

69: Do I have any nicknames? - Yes, many, most of them not polite.

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? - Numerous in a car accident in 2018, most serious of which was a punctured lung

71: Do I spend money or save it? Spend. That’s why Angel is in charge of the money LOL

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? Whose tongue? With my own tongue, no.

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? *devilish grin* Yes there is....

74: Favourite animal? - Eagle

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? - cumming

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? - Artrip

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? - “Show Me How You Burlesque”, Christina Aguilera

78: How can you win my heart? - (my wife already did LOL), show me you care about me.

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? - “Here lies a girl whose only crutch/Was loving one woman just a little too much”

80: What is my favorite word? - kitten

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr - not without their permission

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? - “If your religion causes you to be a bigot, something is wrong with your religion”

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? - No

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? - healing

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? - If something happened to your wife and she died, how well would you take it?”

86: What is my current desktop picture? - See picture above question 2

87: Had sex? - Yes, as often as possible

88: Bought condoms? - no

89: Gotten pregnant? -Yes

90: Failed a class?- No

91: Kissed a boy? - Yes, unfortunately. 

92: Kissed a girl? - Yes, and I liked it

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? - Yes

94: Had job? - Still have job

95: Left the house without my wallet? - Yes

96: Bullied someone on the internet? - Not that I’m aware of

97: Had sex in public? - Yes, more than once

98: Played on a sports team? - Yes

99: Smoked weed? - Yes

100: Did drugs? - Yes

101: Smoked cigarettes? - Yes

102: Drank alcohol? - Yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? - HELL no

104: Been overweight? No

105: Been underweight? No

106: Been to a wedding? Yes

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? Yes

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Yes

109: Been outside my home country? Yes

110: Gotten my heart broken? Yes

111: Been to a professional sports game? Yes

112: Broken a bone? Yes

113: Cut myself? Intentionally, no. Accidentally, yes

114: Been to prom? Yes

115: Been in airplane? Yes, once, when I was 8 years old. Had to be sedated because I panicked big time

116: Fly by helicopter? If being life flighted from an accident scene to the nearest hospital counts, then yes.

117: What concerts have I been to? Yanni, Christina Aguilera, Melissa Etheridge

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? DUH, I’m lesbian! My crushes by definition are Lesbian

119: Learned another language? Yes

120: Wore make up? Yes

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? Yes

122: Had oral sex? Yes

123: Dyed my hair? No

124: Voted in a presidential election? Yes

125: Rode in an ambulance? Yes

126: Had a surgery? Yes

127: Met someone famous? Yes

128: Stalked someone on a social network? No

129: Peed outside? Yes

130: Been fishing? Yes

131: Helped with charity? Yes

132: Been rejected by a crush? Yes

133: Broken a mirror? Yes

134: What do I want for birthday? To be with family, especially my wife

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? Already have them, Marti and Staci

136: Was I named after anyone? First name, no. Middle name, my maternal grandmother

137: Do I like my handwriting? no

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? my teddy bear

139: Favourite Tv Show? Mythbusters (off the air now)

140: Where do I want to live when older? Where I live now

141: Play any musical instrument? Piano, violin, harp, didgeridoo

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? Heart surgery

143: Favourite pizza toping? Pineapple (sue me)

144: Am I afraid of the dark? No

145: Am I afraid of heights? Deathly afraid

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Yes to both

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Yes

148: What I’m really bad at - Taking credit for anything

149: What my greatest achievments are - raising 2 amazing daughters

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me - “The only thing you’ll ever amount to is being a pretty cum dumpster”

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery - retire

152: What do I like about myself - my body

153: My closest Tumblr friend - my sister

154: Something I fantasise about - not being so short

[wheres-the-bear]

Gentle Cottagecore Questions

🌿 Herb: What is a scent you find relaxing?

I love the smell of fresh lemons. Citrus in general, I think.

🌱 Seedling: What is something you want to begin learning?

I’ve always wanted to have a stronger hold on Spanish, so maybe not begin learning but refine what I’m already learning! That goes for all my hobbies: pottery, macramé, etc.

🥛 Milk: What is a food you find comforting when you are sad?

Mac & cheese almost every time, or good Mexican food.

🍯 Honey: What is one thing you like about yourself?

I’m a pretty understanding person, even if I come across as a little tough or hard-to-reach. Once you talk to me, I soften pretty easily.

🍄 Mushroom: What is a quote you find comfort in?

“The land knows you, even when you are lost” from Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer

☕ Tea: How do you take your tea?

Usually just with a little milk or cream.

🐄 Cow: What is one other tumblr blog you really appreciate?

I’ve been following delta-breezes for a while and always love what she posts.

🌳 Tree: What is one thing in your future you are looking forward to?

My husband and I have always talked about moving to Maryland’s eastern shore and getting a lot of land when we do - with water access and also enough to have a larger garden. I would like to have a pottery shed, and just live a more spread out life than we’re living right now.

🍑 Peach: What is a color that makes you smile?

Usually anything salmon/coral or mint/Key West green.

🌻 Sunflower: What is one thing that brightened your day today?

This sounds morbid, but getting my blood drawn. The nurse who did it was such a pro that I barely felt the needle and she was done in, like, a minute flat. Pro status!

🐓 Chicken: What is a comfort movie/show for you?

Pride & Prejudice (2005), 100%.

🧵 Thread: What is a recent creative project that you are proud of?

Anything that comes out the way I pictured it as far as my pottery goes. That’s always a big accomplishment.

🐈 Cat: Do you have any pets? Are there some pets you really want?

I have a cat and a dog. I’d like to own an Irish Wolfhound at some point in my life.

🍅 Tomato: Have you ever gardened, and if so, what is your favorite thing to grow?

I do garden. Right now, I love growing dahlias but really anything that blooms or produces beautifully feels like a win.

🍃 Leaf: What is a plant you find beautiful?

Currently, I’m obsessed with those Thai Constellation monsteras that cost an arm and a leg for, like, a rooted cutting. Lol.

🐝 Bee: What is a video game that you find comforting?

I don’t play video games.

🍞 Bread: Do you know how to bake bread? If so, what is something you’ve baked recently?

I do know how to bake bread! I have not baked anything recently, much to my husband’s disappointment, but bread is so therapeutic and rewarding when you pull that perfect, warm loaf out of the oven, cut into it, and slater it with a thick pad of butter. Few things are better.

🐇 Bunny: What’s a song that you really like?

A song I listen to for some comfort is “Coeur d’Alene” by Tyson Motsenbocker. There’s a line that always re-centers me, and it says, “It doesn’t matter what you do, we all love you.”

🌲  Pine: Do you prefer the cold, or the heat?

The older I get, the more I prefer the mild! Too cold is unpleasant, too hot is unpleasant.

🧶 Yarn: Knitting or Crocheting?

I do neither, but I prefer macramé! 

🐑 Sheep: What is a comfort item you own?

Probably my husband’s sweatshirt. There’s always a comforting sensation whenever I wear it.

🍓 Strawberry: Do you own any pink clothing?

Yes!

🥞 Pancake: What is your favorite breakfast food?

Waffles, or hashbrowns. Well, potatoes of any variation.

⛰️ Mountains: Would you rather live in the mountains, city, beach, or the forest?

I’ve grown up in the Appalachian mountains most of my life, and the thought of seriously leaving them makes me sad, but I think I would love to live somewhere like Hawaii or the Florida Keys.

🧸 Teddy Bear: Do you ever want to raise kids someday?

I’m 32, almost 33, and do not have kids. My husband and I have talked about it, and the only reason I’ve considered it is because he would make such a great dad. But, if we don’t have a kid soon, we aren’t going to be having them.

🕯️ Candle: What is something you can’t go to bed without?

I have a pillow that I hug, just something that’s wedged between my body and the mattress helps me sleep better.

[trainerangieblog]

What is AUTHENTIC SELF?

As we look in the mirror, do we see our “real” selves reflected back or do we see the self we want people to see.  You know… the self that we think is better, more accepted … the better leader.  

It’s been a tough road these past few months.  I have learned a lot about myself.

If you watch @JoeGerstant video Authentic Self (https://youtu.be/ztNtma2IEUY) he asks some pretty intense questions… “Do you hold parts of you back?  Authenticity is rooted in awareness… Who are you…explain yourself without a title? Why are you here, what is your purpose on the planet?  What is your gift, what is it about you that makes you unique?  As you start working through the answers to these questions you begin to start to find what it is that you hold yourself accountable to”… people give you responsibilities…accountability comes from within you.  No one can hold you accountable, they can give you the tools, the responsibilities… but only you can put in the hustle to make it happen!

Have you been living accordingly; have I been living accordingly?  I will admit, the COVID-19 pandemic, the subsequent lockdown, the full pivot of my business, the very sick foster dog, the inability to see my parents, my volunteer duties… have all weighed on me.  As I look in the mirror, I see which of those I can control and which ones I can only deal with… they all land on me, they land on each of us.  

I reflect back …

My awareness…

As I answer Joe’s questions I look at them as a whole…  I step out of bed in the morning with the purpose to make the world a better place than it was yesterday… while it seems like a daunting task, I do it in small bite size chunks using my gifts.  

My values… Integrity, Honesty, and Wisdom.  I have the gift of Creativity and the gift of “Gab”.  

Integrity

Do right by others

Walk away when others impugn your integrity for their personal gain

Do right regardless if others are watching

Hold myself accountable to my responsibilities

Accept consequences (good and bad) rather than blame others

Honesty

Be real without being hurtful

Recognize long term vs. short term

Separate Responses from Reactions

Keep your mouth shut if it is only going to hurt someone, not everything      needs to be blurted out

 Wisdom

Teach only when someone is open to learning

Recognize ethical dilemmas and make the right decision

Recognize when I need help

Recognize when others need help

 When I set my head on my pillow at night, I reflect back…was I my “best self”?  Did I do right by others?   Did I live up to my values?  After all, they are that by which I measure myself against.

I can say I do.  I sleep well at night, I do what I love to do, and I only have myself to blame if I don’t.  If I blame others, I lose my value of integrity.  

I have attached my story of my foster dog, Tobin.  I have learned a lot of lessons about myself, about dogs, and lungs.  I have also learned a lot about people.  

Fostering  Tobin the “Teddy Bear”

July 27th… a day not soon forgotten in my world…  I was part of the intake and foster team for Doodle Dandy Rescue…  The rescue got notice of a dog that needed help as he was coughing… a lot.  So the wheels went into motion… little did I know what and continues to come at me as a result of the sentence… we need you to pick up a dog and be its temporary foster.

Tobin is one of those dogs whose picture on the Internet gets millions of views… he’s what’s called a “Teddy Bear” dog.  Poor Tobin was far from Teddy Bear status. His coughing was bad, really, really bad.  He was inundated with fleas…we couldn’t see the pink skin because of the fleas and flea debris.  He had bumps all over… an allergic reaction to the fleas.  

The next six weeks were a whirlwind of emotions, vet and emergency room visits.  We went from thinking he had kennel cough to realizing he was one of a handful of dogs in the United States to be diagnosed and dealing with Lung Worms.  Yes, lung worms.  On top of lung worms, he was suffering with bi-lateral pneumonia and to add insult to injury he only has one descended testicle (that will come into the story in a bit). The diagnosis came as a result of an emergency room visit where they told me I may not be taking him home, ever. (Thank goodness for Doodle Dandy Rescue…they were able to pick up the tab on the foster dog… nearly $2000!)  The E.R. and their specialist did right by Tobin.

For the next 3 months he would spend a lot of his life in a small playpen area to limit his movement and maximize his healing ability.  He would be nebulized 4 times per day.  He would take antibiotics, steroids, and deworming medicines up to 2 times per day. Fast forward to November 19th… he slept the whole night, the coughing seemed less and the gunk seemed thinner… we had turned a corner.  

December 1, we are able to start tapering down his steroids.  His white blood cell count is still elevated… vets think it is the 2nd testicle… it turns out that missing testicle is floating in his abdomen and the body is reacting to it!!  Once his lungs are clear of the pneumonia, he will have surgery to remove the “foreign body” and be neutered.  

Tobin is finally able to let his personality emerge (amazing!!!)  He’s become so cuddly… up until mid-November he choked when he wiggled his body… it is so much fun to watch him experience the “puppy life”.  Sometimes I get sad when I realize that 1 or more people created a situation that let him get so sick and kept him from vet care until he was dropped off at a local shelter.

I am reminded of frailty…. Just how fragile living, breathing creatures are… we can’t navigate this world alone… we all need to ask for help from time to time… we all need to offer help from time to time.  We can’t become consumed.  We can’t smother others…we can’t tell others that things are easy or hard…we need to let them determine it for themselves.  We need to recognize that what is right for some isn’t for others…

There is no question when it comes to Tobin…the world was an awful place for him.  On July 27, 2020 Tobin was in the right place at the right time… the wheels were put in motion and we are all now believing he will survive and grow old as a healthy dog.  

It doesn’t matter if it’s a dog or a human… I will do right by them.  My only agenda is to make the world better in the places that I have influence… to quote Elton John … “how wonderful life is because you’re in the world”.   Enjoy the beauty in today and every day.

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[shortqueershakespeare]

ALL QUESTIONS!! ALLLLL (except the one you said you were uncomfy answering ofc)

welcome to my daily essay procrastination (dw it is getting done I've just written like 1000 words and I need a break from literature type writing lol) 

1: Full name - Robin, not sharing the rest (like I said) 

2: Age - 21 

3: 3 Fears - Abandonment, clowns, sleep paralysis 

4: 3 things I love - Theatre, languages, my puppy 

5: 4 turns on - Being dominated, lip biting, gentle physical contact, increasing physical contact 

6: 4 turns off - I genuinely don't know rn can u tell its been a while since I got laid lol, so I guess, being a dick, using certain terms for body parts, 

7: My best friend - Char is prob my best friend!! we currently communicate exclusively through animal crossing post lol 

8: Sexual orientation - Right this is somewhat challenging still but I'm gonna go gay 

9: My best first date - Would you believe I've only really been on two? I can't remember the first one v well but I'd be inclined to say that because all that first love shit was great 

10: How tall am I - 5' 3" i think?? 

11: What do I miss - uni 

12: What time were I born - I actually don't know exactly but it was definitely the afternoon 

13: Favourite color - Baby blue 

14: Do I have a crush - Yup 

15: Favourite quote - "The universe is seeming really huge right now. I need something to hold on to." 

16: Favourite place - I've got a few, a corner in the orchard at Hom, the nook under my window in my room, the bench up on the hill where I walk the dog 

17: Favourite food - Stir fry 

18: Do I use sarcasm - I think I was fluent in sarcasm before I was in English tbh 

19: What am I listening to right now - Right technically I cheated bc I just skipped a couple songs, but Bad Habit by Ben Platt and the puppy's snores 

20: First thing I notice in new person - Smile or voice 

21: Shoe size - 4 i think 

 22: Eye color - blue 

23: Hair color - a literal rainbow 

24: Favourite style of clothing - uhhh does generally gay count?? 

25: Ever done a prank call? - nope 

27: Meaning behind my URL - one of my friends once called me the shakespeare of nicknames as my other friend called my such a slytherin so i mashed them up 

28: Favourite movie - Moana atm, non animated either Let It Snow or Pitch Perfect 

29: Favourite song - Obv this changes a lot but the last few days, Wonderland by Taylor Swift 

30: Favourite band - Stornoway 

31: How I feel right now - Too damn warm and a lil sleepy 

32: Someone I love - my sister 

33: My current relationship status - furiously single 

34: My relationship with my parents - good 

35: Favourite holiday - when my friend and i went to austria at the end of year 13 

36: Tattoos and piercing i have - zero 

37: Tattoos and piercing i want - I want a few transition tattoos, a dodie lyric, something in russian, something watercolour 

38: The reason I joined Tumblr - Originally because it was 2013 and my friends and I were v much the typical tumblr demographic, this one to vent feelings about some shitty situations 

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other? - Pretty sure they both hate me, I don't hate them, but I hate how things worked out 

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? - Sometimes yeah 

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? - Nope 

42: When did I last hold hands? - Probably when I last went clubbing? 

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? - Depends, I have to put T on, once i'm actually out of bed probably 15 minutes 

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? - nope 

45: Where am I right now? - on my sofa in my kitchen 

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? - depends where i am, home city it'd be katherine, clubbing in cam, jules probably or char, drinking just in cam, umme or porters 

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? - reasonable 

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? - usually mostly with mum, currently exclusively with dad because quarantine 

49: Am I excited for anything? - getting this damn essay done and sleeping 

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? - yep 

51: How often do I wear a fake smile? - not that often i don't think, but i am very good at hiding my emotions if i decide to 

52: When was the last time I hugged someone? - like 6 hours ago? 

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? - not at all unexpected tbh 

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? - not at the moment, i think i've managed to stop trusting the person who would've fit this category 

55: What is something I disliked about today? - my sister got super stressed and cried and i just wanted to make everything okay 

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? - ben platt 

57: What do I think about most? - rn animal crossing or work 

58: What’s my strangest talent? - i don't think i have one 

59: Do I have any strange phobias? - nope 

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? - both, i love taking photos and i love having photos of me at important times 

61: What was the last lie I told? - god probably something dumb like no i absolutely did not just steal your cup of tea 

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? video chatting 

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? - no, yes 

64: Do I believe in magic? - no 

65: Do I believe in luck? - yes 

66: What’s the weather like right now? - decent I think?? it's like 2 am so idk 

67: What was the last book I’ve read? - What Is to Be Done? by Chernyshevsky 

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? - Fuck no 

69: Do I have any nicknames? - Bob, Bobbin, Robs, Rob, Stink, Little'un 

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? - that would probably be me getting a fish hook stuck in my thumb lollll 

71: Do I spend money or save it? - both 

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue? - the fact that this said a tongue and not my tongue is... unsettling.. but yes 

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? - yes 

74: Favourite animal? - elephant 

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? - writing the essay lol 

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? - morningstar i watch too much lucifer lol 

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? - rain by ben platt 

78: How can you win my heart? - hug me when i'm sad, send me things that make you think of me 

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? - he was there for me 

80: What is my favorite word? - mousse 

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr - okay so i have five blogs and am so tempted to just list those but sewing-and-showtunes, aeternumregina, oneoveroneisone, ballym, xx-thedarklord-xx 

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? - STAY THE FUCK INDOORS 

83: Do I have any relatives in jail? - no 

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? - shapeshifting 

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? - do i like myself 

86: What is my current desktop picture? - hamilton and laurens lol 8

7: Had sex? - yes

88: Bought condoms? - yes 

89: Gotten pregnant? - no 

90: Failed a class? - yes 

91: Kissed a boy? - yes 

92: Kissed a girl? - yes 

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? - yes 

94: Had job? - yes 

95: Left the house without my wallet? - yes 

96: Bullied someone on the internet? - no 

97: Had sex in public? - yes 

98: Played on a sports team? - yes 

99: Smoked weed? - yes 

100: Did drugs? - no 

101: Smoked cigarettes? - yes 

102: Drank alcohol? - yes 

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? - no 

104: Been overweight? - no 

105: Been underweight? - no 

 106: Been to a wedding? - no 

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? - yes 

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? - yes 

109: Been outside my home country? - yes 

110: Gotten my heart broken? - yes 

111: Been to a professional sports game? - no 

112: Broken a bone? - no 

113: Cut myself? - yes 

114: Been to prom? - no 

115: Been in airplane? - yes 

116: Fly by helicopter? - no 

117: What concerts have I been to? - dodie, stornoway, show of hands 

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? - yes 

119: Learned another language? - yes 

120: Wore make up? - yes 

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? - yes 

122: Had oral sex? - yes 

123: Dyed my hair? - yes 

124: Voted in a presidential election? - i'm british 

125: Rode in an ambulance? - yes 

126: Had a surgery? - not unless my fish hook extraction counts 

127: Met someone famous? - yes 

128: Stalked someone on a social network? - yes 

129: Peed outside? - yes 

130: Been fishing? - FISH HOOK YES I HAVE I NEVER WILL AGAIN 

131: Helped with charity? - yes 

132: Been rejected by a crush? - yes 

133: Broken a mirror? - no 

134: What do I want for birthday? - a boyfriend lol, or tbh for quarantine to be over 

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? - oh lord who knows, i like the name scottie and archie for girls 

136: Was I named after anyone? - my middle name is after my gran 

137: Do I like my handwriting? - ehhhh 

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? - my teddy bear 

139: Favourite Tv Show? - Crazy Ex Girlfriend 

140: Where do I want to live when older? - Berlin, Cambridge or London 

141: Play any musical instrument? - used to play the violin v poorly 

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? - fish hook or pets 

143: Favourite pizza topping? - pepperoni 

144: Am I afraid of the dark? - no 

145: Am I afraid of heights? - sort of 

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? - don't think so 

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? - yes 

148: What I’m really bad at - currently? being motivated 

149: What my greatest achievements are - getting into my uni, finally finding an antidepressant that works, coming out 

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me - oh yikes it's way too late at night to open that can of worms 

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery - pay for my damn top surgery 

152: What do I like about myself - I'm empathetic 

153: My closest Tumblr friend - @oneoveroneisone 

154: Something I fantasise about - going to pride abroad 

155: Any question you’d like? - I'm gonna pass this to the anons, ask me questions?

[karenmessy-blog]

MASTERPIECE

“I still fall on my face sometimes and I can’t color inside the lines ‘cause I’m perfectly incomplete, I’m still working on my masterpiece,” a woman sings it in a normal tone with her earphones on and sets it to a highest volume while sitting on a wooden chair at the terrace of her room, facing the lively green trees dancing by the wind “And I, I wanna hang with the greats got a way to go, but it’s worth the wait no, you haven’t seen the best of me,  I’m still working on my masterpiece” as she continues singing it. ‘Masterpiece’ by Jessie J is the music she keeps on playing despite those hundreds of music she has on her phone. Her room has a terrace where she stays when she wants to think or look back memories. The view is perfect to relax and reminisce old times. There are three huge Narra trees in front of it. Ten steps to the right of the trees is a river while to its left side are different kinds of flowers like daffodils, sunflowers, tulips, roses and other odd flowers which are not well arranged but look cool as its diverse colors merge together.

“What is my masterpiece?” Kartesha asked herself while listening to the song. She is tall, straight – blonde hair, pointed nose, having curled eyelashes that complement her dark eyes and has a slender body.

“What is my masterpiece?” she asked again for the second time.

She still sitting on the wooden chair, watching the birds flying and trees keep on dancing along with the wind.

“What is my masterpiece?” she asked in the third time.

“They talk that blah blah, that la la, that rah rah s**t, go with the punches and take the hits,” she sings again along with the music. “Sometimes I mess up, I f – up, I swing and miss but it’s oka—“ she stops as her mother pulls the earphones abruptly.

“I called you so many times but you didn’t hear me” her mother said in a calm tone

“I’m sorry” she answered sadly.

“I was just so stress from work and it’s been 5 years now since I last seen you guys” she added. She is still sitting.

“Is it us? Or you just simply miss your room?” her mother mocked.

Kartesha is now 25 years old and working as a successful Civil Engineer to a well – known company located in a city. She filed a leave for a week just to go back to their province and visits her family. And also she is drown with the pressure at her job and decided to have a short vacation instead.

“Mother!” she shouted and they laugh together.

Her mother knows how important her room to her for reasons that all the stuffs in there are witness of her pain, grieves and loneliness before, but every negative has a counterpart of positive and that was happiness.

Her mirror was her first witnessed of her smile, her room echoed her laughter so many times, her bed almost broke its stands as she kept on rolling and jumping because she was happy and almost tore her pillows whenever she felt butterflies in her stomach but also absorbed gallons of tears from her eyes. The four – cornered room echoed billions of shout caused of her angriness, hundreds of broken things has been displayed despite its damages because those things were blotches of her uncontrollable acts rooted by her pains. Rest room she often showered for 1 to 2 hours just to cry and let the water brought with it those tears she shed, is still looks the same. Notebooks that were filled with her burdens and written thousands of hatred quotes years ago are place on her study table sets on the right side of her bed and her color pink walls that have stains of blood from her punches and kicks has not yet erase and been stayed there for years now.

All those agonies were because of someone who dumped her after she was used and played.

“Your father is looking for you. You know how much he misses you. Let’s go out and join them. Your brothers are playing guitar along with him” as her mother invites her.

Kartesha stops the music and stood. As they both heading out from her room, she sees the pink teddy bear and remembers how special that thing to her. And her painful past immediately flashbacks.

“Now I know your favorite color.” Karl commented on Kartesha’s post at Instabook.

She posted a photo of her wearing color pink dress and captioned ‘I love pink!’ with a heart.

They were Second Year College when they met. They both studied in the same school. Karl saw Kartesha at the school library and instantly attracted to her. Since then, he always went to the library just to see her even from a distance. Later on he found out that his gay board mate was Kartesha’s best friend. He asked Marlon, their mutual friend, to help him made friend with her. Marlon invited Karl to have lunch with them, Kartesha. The two became friends started that day. He always sent sweet messages that made her looked crazy as she read it, he often called just to check her if she was doing well, sent random video clips of him singing love songs and had lunch together every day.

“HAHAHA yeah” she replied

“I’ll find something cute pink stuff and give it to you soon” he replied back

One day, she received a text from Karl.

“Can you come out? I’m outside of your classroom”

She came out even they had a class and saw Karl holding a 3 – feet long pink teddy bear.

“For the most beautiful girl exist” he said as he handed it to her. “Wow you’re so sweet. Thank you!” then she hugged him so tight.

Kartesha couldn’t help herself but to fell in love with his actions. Karl was not just sweet, he was handsome too. He was tall, no beard, pointed nose, white skin and had a pinkish lips that could make every girl droll upon starring at it.

“I love you Karl” Kartesha could no longer hid her true feelings for him so she confessed.

They were sitting at the central park inside the campus. Karl didn’t talk. He remained quiet and kept on playing online game on his phone.

“Did you hear me?” Kartesha was trying to get his attention. “Karl?!” and she grabbed his phone.

“What are we?” she asked since she was confused with their status. They were sweet to each other but had no label. She was trying to clear vague things between them.

Kartesha never experienced that kind of feeling because she rejected all those guys who tried to court her since she was avoided by her parents.Not because she was too young for love, but because her heart was too weak for that. Karl for her was different and that she couldn’t stop herself from falling

“What are we?” he bounced back the question. “Why did you spring it back? Karl, please, can we clear this?” she begged. “Aren’t you happy with what we have?” he asked. “Of course I do, but its better if we know what we are” she answered. “That’s all that matters. We are happy, let’s keep it this way” and he smiled to her.

After that confession, Karl began to cold. He never texted her first like how he used to, he didn’t answer her calls and always seen her messages at instabook that made her cry each night.

She didn’t eat sometimes, woke up late and traces of her cries were clear. She always got late on her class and at times absent. Her parents began to worry about her.

“Princess, what’s wrong?” her father asked. “Nothing, I just want to embrace the cold night” she answered.

They were sitting at the terrace of her room.

“You know we are here, your mama, to listen to you” as her father tried to comfort her. “Do you remember --“

“Papa please, I want to be alone” as she cuts her father’s words. Her father felt sad because he knew his Princess was not okay. “I love you Tesh” he said and went out of her room.

Since Kartesha fell in love, she changed. She never had time with her family. She constantly locked herself in her room and kept on checking her phone.

Three weeks she never heard anything from Karl. She asked Marlon where he was since they were board mates but then even him, didn’t know.

One day, he saw a familiar figure walking towards a classroom. She followed him. When the man reached his destination, she secretly watched him from the door and found out that she was right, it was Karl. He was talking to a girl inside the classroom and kissed her. It was long passionate kiss. Kartesha was frozen as she watched them. Tears fell instantly from her eyes. The two stopped when they heard someone’s crying. Karl was shocked when he saw her. She ran and went home.  Karl didn’t follow her. She threw and destroyed all the things she saw in her room. Punched and kicked the walls, broke her lampshade, tore here pillows and so on. She shouted and screamed how much she hated him.

Her parents heard the noise and knocked unendingly her door. They begged her to open it yet she refused. She kept on shouting and screaming until she fainted.

When she woke up, the room was unfamiliar. It was painted white and had fewer decorations. She looked at her right side and saw her parents crying.

“What happened?” she asked as she woke up. They came closer to her and tried to put a smile on their faces. “Are you okay?” her mother asked. “I’m so happy you’re awake now. I thought we’ll lose you.” said by her father.

On her 2nd day in the hospital, a sudden visitor came. It was Karl. They both talked alone. Her parents left them.

“Tesh, I’m sorry” and his tears began to fall. “You shouldn’t be here. Probably you are happy and well if I didn’t come into your life. I did this to you Tesh, I destroy you” his tears kept on falling. “That girl you saw? She is actually my life,” she could no longer stop her tears when she heard the words my life. “We just broke up because she thought I cheated. I tried to explain everything to her but she didn’t listen. I was hurt and decided to have fun in order for me to forget her and there I saw you. I also wanted to find a replacement, for her to see that I am happy even without her. I just want to make her jealous so she will be back to me” his tears were still falling while he was explaining. “When she heard about us, she realized how much she loves me and asked for a second chance and I said yes” still his tears were dropping. “I regret of hurting you. Not because I have pity over you but because I already love you” hopes for their chance began to rebuild within her but devastated when he added “but I just love her even more. I’m sorry..”

Her heart started to pump faster right after he walked out of the room. She was catching her breath and her parents just arrived, called a doctor but whatever the doctor did, her eyes closed gradually.

That was the last time he saw Karl and never heard anything about him anymore.

Few days after, she finally awakes. She was discharged and decided to give herself a hand. She continued her studies and graduated. Even it was been 2 years had passed, she couldn’t forget him so she went to the city and tried to fix herself there few days after her graduation. She left her family without even thinking what would they feel if she will leave them and lives in the city like what she wanted for her own.

“Kartesha? Are you okay?”  her mother asked her when she noticed that she stops and stares the pink teddy bear above her pillows. “Yes, I’m okay. Let’s go now. They are waiting for us for sure” and they continue heading out from her room.

“It’s been 5 years now Princess since you left here. I miss you a lot” as her father speaks while fanning the hot dogs he grills.

They are having a little picnic at their backyard. Her two brothers are playing guitar while her mother is arranging their plates. Their day is full of happiness. No cries, just laugh.

Their fun stops as her father is having a heart attack. They brought him to the hospital but it is too late.

“Why you didn’t tell me he has a heart failure?” Kartesha asked her mother. “5 years I’ve gone and all those years he was sick but you didn’t tell me? Ma, why?!”

“We decided not to tell you because we were afraid you might be in danger if you knew about it. We didn’t want you to worry” her mother explained

“Danger? How can I when I’m totally well?”

“You know love is not for you because you have a heart disease but still you did it. When you were brought to the hospital, you were actually attacked by your disease. We felt relieved when you awake after you were attacked in your room. But at the second time, after you talked with Karl, it was worst. Your heart needed to be replaced by a healthier one but we can’t find a donor so your father sacrificed his and gave it since his was compatible to you”  her tears never stop falling. How much pain he felt for Karl before was triple from the pain she has now. “And he was using yours that is why we always brought him to the hospital since the day you left. He was so worry about you that made the heart more weaker” she feels like her heart grasp with pain as she listen to her mother. “he almost died several times as the heart is poisoning his body, but he fought because he waited for you to come home and have a family bonding like how we used to before you met that Karl. That was his only wish before he goes.”

After knowing the fact, she regretted all her selfish actions. She only did what she thought was best for herself that brought her father at risk.

She then realized that her, being a successful civil engineer and all those beautiful building designs were not her masterpiece after all. It is the love from her family. A masterpiece that cannot be seen but felt, and that she can treasures it forever.

[illumi-nnaughtyy]

1-155 ahahahah

I'm petty asf so here ya go 😂 1: Name- Bailey 2: Age- 17 (almost 18)3: Fears- lol everyone y'all 4: 3 things I love- my dog, pasta, & Morgan 5: 4 turns on- kindness, intelligence, effort, & being funny 6: 4 turns off- not able to keep an interesting convo going, no sense of humor, treat waiting staff bad, and not being good w/ kids7: My best friend- MORGANNN8: Sexual orientation- just living my life homie 9: My best first date- never had one 🙃10: How tall am I- 5'1 (I'm small)11: What do I miss- Izzy💗12: What time were I born- idk I think like 12?13: Favourite color- blue or green14: Do I have a crush- a huge one send help15: Favourite quote- "Live Life For Bella"16: Favourite place- anyplace outdoors or anyplace with coffee 17: Favourite food- ANY AND ALL PASTA 😍18: Do I use sarcasm- lolololololol all the fucking time 19: What am I listening to right now- nothing, but I have headphones in which is weird 20: First thing I notice in new person- sense of humor 21: Shoe size- 6 1/222: Eye color- blue/green23: Hair color- blonde 24: Favourite style of clothing- tshirts I guess 25: Ever done a prank call? I was in middle school once so yep 26: Meaning behind my URL- I liked the song Wake me up by Avicii when I made my blog forever ago :/27: Favourite movie- not so many but atm probably The Proposal 28: Favourite song- too many to chose from 29: Favourite band- idk don't listen to a lot of bands 30: How I feel right now- happy 😊 31: Someone I love- My dog Jake 32: My current relationship status- single 33: My relationship with my parents- I'm really close w/ both although my mom & I argue a lot (about politics and religion mostly), but my dad is my fav human to ever exist 34: Favourite holiday- probably Valentine's Day or Christmas 35: Tattoos and piercing I have- my ears are pierced 36: Tattoos and piercings I want- so many tattoos omg 37: The reason I joined Tumblr- I thought it looked cool?38: Do I and my last ex hate each other? I don't hate her bc I've let go of that negativity but she probs hates me but it's chill 39: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? I have recently & it makes me heart smile bud 40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? That'd be Morgan so YEET no 41: When did I last hold hands? When my dad was driving me to take my Midterm & I was nervous so he held my hand 42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? Like 20 minutes, u less I shower then like 40 minuets43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? Yepppp 44: Where am I right now? Laying in bed 45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? Morgan probs 46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? LOUDDDD47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? Mom48: Am I excited for anything? The future 49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? My dad 50: How often do I wear a fake smile? Anytime I'm at yee yee south Paulding high school 51: When was the last time I hugged someone? Honestly so long ago it's kinda sad52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? They would be an invisible person bc I haven't kissed anyone 53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? Probably 54: What is something I disliked about today? Yes55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? Hmmmm probs lexi or obama 56: What do I think about most? School tbh 57: What’s my strangest talent? My dedication 58: Do I have any strange phobias? I irrationally hate the dark bc I'm five 59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? Both idc 60: What was the last lie I told? That I wasn't mad that my dad wasn't picking me up until tomorrow 61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Both is fine I prefer in person 62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? Def ghosts but idk about aliens 63: Do I believe in magic? Nah64: Do I believe in luck? Ehhhh not really 65: What’s the weather like right now? Cold as hell66: What was the last book I’ve read? Medical Law, Ethics, and Bio Ethics 67: Do I like the smell of gasoline? Kinda 68: Do I have any nicknames? Bai & Angel 69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? Broke my arm & my knee 70: Do I spend money or save it? Both 71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? Nope72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? My room walls 😅73: Favourite animal? My dog 74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? Talking to lexi 75: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? Trump 76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Brown eyed girl 77: How can you win my heart? Make an effort to remember the little things & make me laugh....also if you're good w/ kids 😍78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? "This bitch was lit asf"79: What is my favorite word? Content 80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr yeet too much work to do this 81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? Why are we all so hateful?82: Do I have any relatives in jail? Yes83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? To know everything 84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? Idk depends on who's asking 85: What is my current desktop picture? Trees 86: Had sex? Nope 87: Bought condoms? Yes (as a dare)88: Gotten pregnant? Nope 89: Failed a class? Nope 90: Kissed a boy? Nope 91: Kissed a girl? Nope92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Nope 93: Had job? Yes 94: Left the house without my wallet? All the fucking time ugh95: Bullied someone on the internet? No bc I'm not an asshole 96: Had sex in public? Nah 97: Played on a sports team? Yes 98: Smoked weed? No 99: Did drugs? No 100: Smoked cigarettes? No 101: Drank alcohol? Yes 102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? No 103: Been overweight? No 104: Been underweight? Yes 105: Been to a wedding? Yes I love them so much 😍😍106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? I do online college so sadly yes 107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? Lololol I'm trash so yes 108: Been outside my home country? Yes 109: Gotten my heart broken? Many times110: Been to a professional sports game? Yes111: Broken a bone? Yes112: Cut myself? .....113: Been to prom? Yes114: Been in airplane? Yes 115: Fly by helicopter? No116: What concerts have I been to? 4 Taylor Swift, 1 Carrie Underwood, & 1 one more that I can't think of 117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Lololol so many times 118: Learned another language? Like 2 years of hs Spanish 119: Wore make up? I'm an ugly toe so yes 120: Lost my virginity before I was 18? Nope 121: Had oral sex? Nope 122: Dyed my hair? Yes 123: Voted in a presidential election? Nope 124: Rode in an ambulance? Nope 125: Had a surgery? Yes 126: Met someone famous? Yes 127: Stalked someone on a social network? All the fucking time 128: Peed outside? Yes 129: Been fishing? I live in Georgia so what do u think?130: Helped with charity? Yes 131: Been rejected by a crush? Lol all of them132: Broken a mirror? Sadly 133: What do I want for birthday? Money 134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? Idk maybe 2 or 3? And I want to name them Dani, Andi, or Amelia 135: Was I named after anyone? Some bitch from my mom fav tv show 136: Do I like my handwriting? Noooo it's horrid 137: What was my favourite toy as a child? A Mickey Mouse teddy bear 138: Favourite Tv Show? Soooo many but atm scandal 139: Where do I want to live when older? Idk just not in Georgia 140: Play any musical instrument? The recorder that I learned in 4th grade 141: One of my scars, how did I get it? I have one on my knee from falling off of my bike & breaking my knee cap 142: Favourite pizza toping? Mushrooms bc I'm trash143: Am I afraid of the dark? Yes 144: Am I afraid of heights? Very 145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? Nope 146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Everyday fam 147: What I’m really bad at? Telling ppl how I feel 148: What my greatest achievments are? My academics for sure 149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me? Prefer not to say 150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery? Pay for college 151: What do I like about myself? Not gonna lie I've got some A+ boobs 152: My closest Tumblr friend? Hmmm idk 153: Something I fantasise about? Moving out of my house & being independent 154: Any thoughts on the paranormal? That it's scary as fuck 155: Free question: Any question you’d like to ask, be it rude, fun, curious, strange, sexual, random, meme related, etc! Lol one wasn't asked

[stockholmimitthjarta]

answer all of em'

Wow haha okay I’ll try my best :’) 

1:Something I fantasize about: Moving out and living in my own apartment. I fantasize about that e v e r y day2:Zodiac sign: aries 3:Three fears: losing anyone close to me, having feelings for someone and deep oceans4:Three things I love: already answered that :)5:4 turn ons: actual interest of getting to know me, smile, personality, soft touches (lol idk)6:4 turn offs: being rude, thinking your better than everyone else, socks, too pushy 7:My best friend? @hellothunderclatter8:Sexual orientation? heterosexual 9:My closest Tumblr friend: besides my best friend up there my closest tumblr friend is @tragikern10:How tall am I? 170 cm11:What do I miss? summer12:What time was I born? 23:30 ish13:Favorite color? purple14:Do I have a crush? not huge but yeah maybe15:Favorite quote? “The happiest you’ve been won’t be the happiest you’ll be”16:Favorite place? my bed. or grandmas apartment 17:Favorite food? tough one…………………. but I guess Vapiano’s pasta carbonara18:Do I use sarcasm? uh absolutely not?19:What am I listening to right now? now and later20:First thing I notice in new person? hair I think21:Shoe size? 4022:Eye color? greenish23:Hair color? red bronde24:What do I like about myself? already answered25:Ever done a prank call? yeah when I was like 1226:What color of underwear I’m wearing now? black27:Meaning behind my URL? I absolutely love Stockholm as a city (eff some people in it) but the city is so beautiful. My biggest dream is to live in an apartment in the big city one day! Stockholm i mitt hjärta is also a swedish song by Lasse Berghagen28:Favorite movie? Must be Dirty dancing29:Favorite song? of all time it must be Every breath you take by The police, Dom andra by Kent and Samma barn by Norlie&KKV30:Favorite band? Kent31:How I feel right now? already answered that32:Someone I love: My friends and family33:My current relationship status: As single as you can be34:My relationship with my parents: it’s great. They’re the best. Annoying sometimes but who’s aren't 35:Favorite holiday: I love the christmas feeling36:Tattoos and piercing I have -37:Tattoos and piercing I want -38:The reason I joined Tumblr: I was a hardcore Justin Bieber fan in my younger days so my first tumblr blog was a fanblog39:Do I and my last ex hate each other? no we don’t hate each other 40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night” texts? sometimes41:Have I ever kissed the last person I texted? yes, just for fun tho42:When did I last hold hands? I work in a kindergarten so the little kids come and grab my hand to show me things all the time 😍43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? 35-45 minutes44:Have I shaved my legs in the past three days? hahaha nope. 45:Where am I right now? in my bed46:If I were drunk and couldn’t stand, who’s taking care of me? my best friend! She’s my rock 47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? loud48:Do I live with my Mom and Dad? yes49:Am I excited for anything? idk50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? maybe51:How often do I wear a fake smile? like at work when I have to chitchat with parents when they’re picking their kids up from kindergarten52:When was the last time I hugged someone? Last night53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? Jahapp54:What I’d do if I won in a lottery: depends on how much I’d win, but if it’s a lot I would buy myself an apartment or a car55:What is something I disliked about today? I’m having a cold and I hate being sick56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? wow Idk… It’d be really cool to meet JB tbh57:What do I think about most? things I don’t have or wish I was58:What’s my strangest talent? lol idk mitt “partytrick” är att jag kan typ böja mig dubbel och stå med både fötter och handflator i golvet på samma gång om du fattar hur jag menar hahah har typ inga talanger59:Do I have any strange phobias? idk60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? both61:What was the last lie I told? The one I remember was when I told my parents that I would sleep at a friends house when I was somewhere else62:Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? video chatting63:Do I believe in ghosts? Yes 64:Do I believe in magic? Hm nah65:Do I believe in luck? I think so66:What I’m really bad at: being genuinely happy for others. I just see the things I don’t have. I try to be better and I hate that I’m not67:What was the last book I’ve read? Färjan av Mats Strandberg sååå bra68:Favorite pizza topping? shrimps 69:Do I have any nicknames? Emmis haha but only my dad calls me that70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? I don’t recall having any major injury71:Do I spend money or save it? save it72:Can I touch my nose with a tongue? no73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me? yes74:Favorite animal? horses75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM? on my way home from what was supposed to be a good night out76:What do I think Satan’s last name is? what’s his last name?77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? Öppna din dörr - Dannys version78:How can you win my heart? Show me that you really want to get to know me as a person, that you’re thinking about me when we’re not together. You remember things I’ve said and done. That you’re proud to have me79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? bye bitches!!!! (joke)80:One of my scars, how did I get it? I was hit by a boy with a stick when I was like 3, but you can barely see it now81:Play any musical instrument? I can play some chords on the guitar and the piano, I’ve also played saxophone but idk if I could play it today82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? stop being so fucking proud and tell people how you really feel about them. don’t leave them guessing and worrying about things they don’t need to worry about. life’s too short for that shit83:Where do I want to live when older? In Stockholm city84:What super power would I want? read minds, not all the time but like decide the moments I wanted to read someones mind.85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? idk tbh86:What is my current desktop picture? From when I went skiing in Trysil87:Had sex? Yup88:Bought condoms? Yep89:Gotten pregnant? nope90:Failed a class? no91:Kissed a boy? yes92:Kissed a girl? yes93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? I think so94:Had job? Yes me work now95:Favorite TV Show? right now Skam, grey’s anatomy96:Bullied someone on the Internet? sadly I think I have commented anonymous “mean” comments when I was a little shit that shouldn’t had been online97:Had sex in public? haha yeah98:What was my favorite toy as a child? probably all of my teddy bears99:Smoked weed? no100:Did drugs? nope101:Smoked cigarettes? yes102:Drank alcohol? yep103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan? no104:Do I like my handwriting? sometimes, sometimes not105:Was I named after anyone? no I don’t think so106:Been to a wedding? yes but I was like 3 so I don’t remember anything107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight? duh109:Been outside my home country? yes I have110:Gotten my heart broken? yup yup111:How many kids do I want and what will be their names? right now I don't feel like I want kids at all. but maybe in the future I would want 2 kids. I like the names Kasper and Felix for a boy112:Broken a bone? no I have not113:Cut myself? mhm long time ago tho114:Been to prom? yes omg I miss it115:Been in airplane? yes I have116:What do I want for birthday? an apartment, a car and a loyal boyfriend :-)117:Been rejected by a crush? haha like every time118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex? yeah119:Learned another language? me hablo espanol lol 120:Had a surgery? no121:Lost my virginity before I was 18? yes122:Had oral sex? yup123:Dyed my hair? yep124:Rode in an ambulance? no125: Been fishing? yes

omg that took a while. your welcome :’)

[hamee123-blog]

Here all  type of  review available  of  iPhone x back cover and  Samsung galaxy note 8 cover

iPhone x

iPhone, mobile Brand of tech giant Apple, is every tech savvy`s obsession. This fact has world-wideacceptance and acknowledgement.  Those who own it certainly offers it extra care and protection because it makes the status symbol to flaunt among peer. Those who are yet to own it, desire to have the same the soonest. The facial recognition feature of this device is remarkable feature offering maximum security of the handset against any intrusion by unknown.In both the cases Hamee India would be your partner in taking care of your handset with its unique  back covers for iPhone X which are out of the league print-wise and quality-wise.This ‘dream catcher’ theme print for

iPhone x back cover

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Samsung Galaxy Note 8 cases

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[questioning-the-way-i-am]

Bc I felt like doing it

This could be fun (or extremely depressing) 1: Name

 Haley

2: Age

19

3: 3 Fears

Growing up, Falling in love, Dolls

4: 3 things I love

Art, Music, Traveling

5: 4 turns on

Attention, confidence, hickies, when a guy pulls you into his lap

6: 4 turns off

Arrogance, lying, not respecting boundaries, being rude to my friends

7: My best friend

Idk, I have a lot of friends, but probably my home girl Terin

8: Sexual orientation

Straight

9: My best first date

never been on a date

10: How tall am I

5′7 ft

11: What do I miss

St. Louis

12: What time were I born

9:00am

13: Favourite color

it changes, but probably orange

14: Do I have a crush

idk

15: Favourite quote

“If I could I would do all of this again” Yellowcard

16: Favourite place

This river I use to go to all the time when I was 16, I haven’t been back there because I moved away.

17: Favourite food

Raspberries

18: Do I use sarcasm

yeh, a lot

19: What am I listening to right now

California by Yellowcard

20: First thing I notice in new person

Eye color

21: Shoe size

8

22: Eye color

Brown/goldish

23: Hair color

Natural hair color: dark brown/black

current hair color: blondeish

24: Favourite style of clothing

Skater/punk/hipster idk I’m a mess

25: Ever done a prank call?

when i was like 10

27: Meaning behind my URL

I misheard the lyrics from Asylum by 7 Minutes In Heaven, but I like it

28: Favourite movie

Indiana Jones series

29: Favourite song

probably With You Around by Yellowcard

30: Favourite band

Right now? Yellowcard

31: How I feel right now

idk, numb i think

32: Someone I love

my mom

33: My current relationship status

Single af

34: My relationship with my parents

pretty great tbh

35: Favourite holiday

New Years Eve

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

Just my ears

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

A camera on my wrist with The Wonder Years lyrics around it // my septum pierced

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

I was 15 and emo af, and had no friends really

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

I don’t have any exs

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

I do not

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

Have you? no

Have I? yeh

42: When did I last hold hands?

when i was completely shitfaced and walking around with this guy who was worse than myself.

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

Idk, like 30 minutes

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

yeh

45: Where am I right now?

In my room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

my friends

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Loud af

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

yeh

49: Am I excited for anything?

moving out to california

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

yeh

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

a lot

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

this morning

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

idk, like i guess I’d kinda be hurt, but like we’re not a thing so I don’t have a say

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

oh fuck yeh

55: What is something I disliked about today?

I went to his Instagram today, and I just cried because I miss him so much

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Fuck that’s hard, but either my first love, or Jack Barakat

57: What do I think about most?

what it will be like living in California

58: What’s my strangest talent?

I’m double jointed in both of my elbows

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

dolls because fuck them

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind it

61: What was the last lie I told?

that i was ok

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

probably video chatting

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

yes and yes

64: Do I believe in magic?

yes

65: Do I believe in luck?

yes

66: What’s the weather like right now?

dreadful

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

The Great Gatsby

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline

yeh

69: Do I have any nicknames?

Holly, Samuel, Jack, Kimberly

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

Cracked my rib

71: Do I spend money or save it?

both, mainly spend it tho

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

I cannot

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

yeh

74: Favourite animal?

otter

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

writing

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

idk

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

With You Around

78: How can you win my heart?

like the same music as me, make me laugh, be genuine, have swishy hair 

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

Creator, Musician, Artist, Dreamer

80: What is my favorite word?

Dreamer

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

idk

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

this world is a scary place, and life can really suck sometimes, but we gotta stand with each other to survive

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

idk, maybe

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

teleportation

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

what do you want to do with your life

86: What is my current desktop picture?

Yellowcard’s last Arizona concert

87: Had sex?

yeh

88: Bought condoms?

nope

89: Gotten pregnant?

nope

90: Failed a class?

i dropped out of college so probably

91: Kissed a boy?

yeh

92: Kissed a girl?

yeh

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

yeh

94: Had job?

yeh

95: Left the house without my wallet?

yeh

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

no

97: Had sex in public?

nope

98: Played on a sports team?

yeh

99: Smoked weed?

fuck yeh

100: Did drugs?

yep

101: Smoked cigarettes?

use to

102: Drank alcohol?

yeh

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

nope

104: Been overweight?

nope

105: Been underweight?

yeh

106: Been to a wedding?

yeh

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

probably

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

yeh

109: Been outside my home country?

i wish

110: Gotten my heart broken?

yeh

111: Been to a professional sports game?

yep

112: Broken a bone?

nope, almost tho

113: Cut myself?

yeh

114: Been to prom?

yeh, and i left 15 minutes later, crying

115: Been in airplane?

yeh

116: Fly by helicopter?

not yet

117: What concerts have I been to?

a shit ton, like too many to list

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

nope

119: Learned another language?

oui, French

120: Wore make up?

yeh

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

yep

122: Had oral sex?

yeh

123: Dyed my hair?

yeh

124: Voted in a presidential election?

nah, i got too baked

125: Rode in an ambulance?

nope

126: Had a surgery?

nope

127: Met someone famous?

yeh

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

yeh

129: Peed outside?

yeh

130: Been fishing?

yeh

131: Helped with charity?

yeh

132: Been rejected by a crush?

yep

133: Broken a mirror?

no

134: What do I want for birthday?

for my band to be successful, and an otter

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

idk, i dont really like kids

136: Was I named after anyone?

my nana

137: Do I like my handwriting?

yeh

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

probably my purple teddy bear. His name is Mr. Bear

139: Favourite Tv Show?

Bob’s Burgers

140: Where do I want to live when older?

California

141: Play any musical instrument?

Guitar, and I sing

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

A razor blade

143: Favourite pizza toping?

Pineapple 

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

I use to be

145: Am I afraid of heights?

yeh

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

haha fuck yeh

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

yep

148: What I’m really bad at

Math

149: What my greatest achievments are

getting my art in my school’s art show, photographing a concert, working on my band’s EP

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

No one cares, so stop crying about him

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

pay off my student loans and help my parents out

152: What do I like about myself

my eyes

153: My closest Tumblr friend

idk

154: Something I fantasise about

the future

155: Any question you’d like?

[offwithalicesheadx]

1000 Question Survey pt. 5

Dating and Stuff 410.) Are you involved romantically with anyone right now?: Yeah

412.) Do you wish you were with someone right now?: Yeah

413.) Do you have a secret crush?: It's not a secret

414.) Who?: My boyfriend, Jesse

415.) Do they know?: Yeah

416.) How many people have you dated in the passed year?:  1

417.) Kissed in the past year?: Probably about 4

418.) Do you know what 143 means?: I love you

419.) How many people have you said “I love you” to?: A few, like family and stuff as well

420.) Did you mean it?: Yeah

421.) If you didn’t mean it, why did you bother saying it?: -

422.) Do you say I Love You to your friends all the time?: I don't have friends, haha

423.) Where do you go out on dates?: Restaurants or the cinema mainly, or we go out to clubs together, we've been to crazy golf, museums, the sea life centre and the arcade too

424.) What’s the most fun date you ever had?: Jesse and I have been on loads of fun dates, mini golf was super fun, one time we went around the German Market just eating different foods too haha, but sometimes the most fun times can just be like lying in bed watching dumb videos

425.) If you break up with someone do you cry your heart out while listening to breakup songs and then in an hour you're fine again with a new love-buddy?:  No

Who Would Win In a Fight? 426.) Britney or Christina 427.) Justin or JC 428.) Frodo or Sam (who?) 429.) B2K or Nsync 430.) Cartman or Bart Simpson 431.) Dracula or Frankenstein 432.) Triumph or Simon Cowell 433.) Conan or Jay (don't watch either) 434.) Rosie O Donnell or Boy George 435.) Carmen Electra or Pamela Anderson 436.) Tommy Lee or the guy who’s married to Carmen Electra right now (who?) 437.) Bill O'Reilly or Chris Matthews (who?)

Inspiration 438.) Who are your heroes?: Not really sure I have any, maybe Jesse for dealing with my shit haha

439.) Why do you look up to them?: -

440.) Do you wish you could be just like them?: I do wish I was more like him in some ways, he's very optimistic and chilled out where as I'm the complete opposite

441.) State the most inspiring quote you know: I can't remember exact quotes but I remember reading something about being able to achieve things at any age and not to stress about it when you're so young, and something about how the KFC founder guy was hella old before he made bank, haha

442.) Do your parents inspire you?: In some ways

443.) Do any of your friends inspire you?:  Yeah

More Random Questions 444.) Are nutri-grain bars good or bad?:  Some flavours are alright

445.) Do you eat a lot of donuts?:  No

446.) What kind?:  When I do eat them, I like custard filled ones

447.) Do you like chocolate?:  Yeah

448.) Has your uncle ever gone to jail for unpaid parking tickets?:  Not that I know of

449.) Do you see dancing giraffes and living gnomes in your sleep?:  No

450.) Do you like headphones that go in your ears or stay out?:  Go in

451.) Do you like mini blinds?:  Um sure

452.) Have you ever broken your mini blinds with a hanger?:  No

453.) Have you ever gotten into a violent fit of rage and tried to murder someone?:  No

454.) How is this survey so far?:  Some of the questions are sort of random/dumb, it's chill though

455.) Do you like the movie Fantasia?: Yeah

What s Your Take On 456.) Life:  At the moment I just think you should enjoy each day and always keep your eye on your dreams

457.) The world:  Seems like a bit of a muddle

458.) President Bush: I don't know enough about politics back then to say

459.) Ahhhhnold: I'm thinking of Hey Arnold, no?

460.) Gary Coleman running for governor: No idea what his beliefs and stuff are

461.) Howard Stern: Who?

462.) The war in Iraq:  I despise war

463.) the economy:  I have no idea, I'm really dumb about these kinds of things, I don't really know what's going on

464.) jay-z retiring:  Um, he is?

465.) school: I heard they want to remove artistic subjects and I hate that, considering that's all I studied and enjoyed doing, people think artistic subjects are an easy way out, try doing the Drama degree I did lmao

466.) going to college:  I definitely think it helps people to grow although it was so stressful, my anxiety was constantly through the roof

467.) marriage:  I'd like to be married, I think it's lovely as long as it's honest and sharing

468.) football: Used to be good, it's a bit ridiculous now though

469.) baseball:  Never really watched it or played it

470.) people cutting themselves for pleasure:  It gets you nowhere and you'll probably be annoyed in the future for doing it but there's a lot of ignorance around it saying that people do it for attention which isn't always the case and even if it is for attention, is that not still a cause for concern? 

Do You 471.) Pick your nose? 472.) Untie your shoe laces every time you take your shoes off? 473.) Fart a lot? 474.) Burp a lot? 475.) Do stupid things in public? 476.) Terrorize innocent people on golf courses? 477.) Have random hallucinations? 478.) Wear shirts with quotes on them? 479.) Wear patches and/or pins on your clothing? 480.) Wear leg warmers? 481.) Sing in the shower? (sometimes) 482.) Play any card game? (I have done, not regularly though) 483.) Sleep with a teddy bear? 484.) Take your pet for a walk? 485.) Have a snake? 486.) Have webbed feet? 487.) Wear colorful socks? 488.) Have a life? 489.) Drink coffee? 490.) Drink tea?

Internet 491.) What are your screen names?:  I usually go for alicehobbis or alicehobbisx 492.) Emails?: I have a work email and a normal email, they're both just my full name

493.) Do you have a website?: Just my Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook etc.

494.) Do you have a live journal or dead journal?: No

495.) Do you ever get off the computer?: Yeah

496.) What are your favorite websites?: Twitter, YouTube and Tumblr

497.) What are your favorite online stores?: Asos, New Look and Amazon

498.) Do you buy a lot of stuff online?: I used to but if I need something I usually just go during my lunch hour now, I'll only order the odd thing

499.) If so, what?: Usually clothes

500.) What’s the last thing you bought online?: A dress

501.) Do you have a lot of online friends?: No

502.) Have you ever met any of them in person?: -

503.) Who’s the best person to talk to online?: -

504.) Do you ever catch yourself using computer language outloud?: Sometimes

505.) Do you use AIM, ICQ, Yahoo, MSN?: No

506.) What’s your desktop background?: Just the company's logo at work, on my personal laptop it's a picture of the Walt Disney and Mickey Mouse statue outside Cinderella's castle at Disney World

507.) What’s your AIM icon?: I don't have AIM

508.) How many hours do you spend online in a week on average?: I'll be online for maybe like a couple of hours max at work usually, and then I'll browse social media randomly for a couple of hours maybe in intervals throughout the day, not really sure

509.) Do you have a webcam or a mic?:  Both but I don't use either

510.) If your computer shut down for a week, would you die?:  No

[alien-earz]

about me

Fancy knowing anything about me?

1: Full name Kirstie Taylor King Turcotte

2: Age: 20

3: 3 Fears: deep water, creepy crawly bugs, pizza place doesnt deliver

4: 3 things I love: music, art, laughing

5: 4 turns on: if you funny, gentle, and can have deep conversations

6: 4 turns off: big ego, doesn’t show he cares, ugly shoes

7: My best friend: nobody wants to be close to me long enough

8: Sexual orientation: str8 

9: My best first date: ohhh maaannnn.... somewhere in a waterfall in a foreign country

10: How tall am I: 5′3

11: What do I miss: not having to adult

12: What time were I born: 7:30 am!

13: Favourite color: dreamy purples and green and blue and anything lovely

14: Do I have a crush: yeessssss!

15: Favourite quote: let it go, let it leave, let it happen. nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you anyway. all you own is yourself.

16: Favourite place: new zealand or anywhere with a beautiful sunset

17: Favourite food: all da food! but mostly hummus 

18: Do I use sarcasm: ....noooo :3

19: What am I listening to right now: bedroom-nostalgic feeling!

20: First thing I notice in new person: the beautiful smiles

21: Shoe size: 7 

22: Eye color: bluuuueee

23: Hair color: dirty blonde

24: Favourite style of clothing: dirty mop grungy just crawled out of a trashcan unique

25: Ever done a prank call?: pretty sure i wasted my adolescence prank calling people

27: Meaning behind my URL: i like to get high

28: Favourite movie: oh maaann! idek. the grinch probs. i know err word. 

29: Favourite song: i have a million favorite songs. but my favorite song at the moment is hodera-breathe easy because the guitar sounds so dreamy and beautiful

30: Favourite band: nevershoutnever is my guilty pleasure

31: How I feel right now: weird

32: Someone I love: everyone who ever made me feel loved

33: My current relationship status: d8ing

34: My relationship with my parents: terrible

35: Favourite holiday: halloweeny because i love being creepy 

36: Tattoos and piercing i have: i only have my belly button pierced but i have 8 tattoos and ive had a million piercings in my life time. 

37: Tattoos and piercing i want: i want to get my septum re pierced annnnndddd i want an avocado tattoo’d on my arm 

38: The reason I joined Tumblr: because it was cool af in grade 10

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: no way, we were friends for a long time before. 

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: ermm... sometimes i guess

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: yep! 

42: When did I last hold hands?: yesterday in the car with my boyfriends mom cause i love her and she loves me and shes the best. 

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: 10 minutes at the most

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: loool no? its winter. 

45: Where am I right now?: at work :(

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: probably my self or the cab driver. cabbies always pull thru. 

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: as loud as it can fuckin go

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: no!!!! im a full time adult

49: Am I excited for anything?: summer time 

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: yesssssssssss, most of my greatest friends are boys

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: mm  70% maybe. 

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: yesterday when i was leaving my friends house. noice warm hugs

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: i would be confuuused. 

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: no! i learned the hard way not to trust a distrusting person.

55: What is something I disliked about today?: that i had to get up at 8 and go to the bank to get money for my rent. and than pay my grumpy landlord. 

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: Robert Plant

57: What do I think about most?: im mostly in dream land 99% of the time

58: What’s my strangest talent? i can spread all my toes apart and it looks like i have munky feet. its pretty bad ass. 

59: Do I have any strange phobias? i dont think being closter phobic is strange. but FUCK that. 

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? both! i like to capture beauty and be apart of beauty. 

61: What was the last lie I told? i lied on my time sheet at work because i need the hours but i fucking hate working. 

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? talking on the phone is nice, it keeps the mystery going. 

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: of course.

64: Do I believe in magic?: yes! i believe we all have abilities we cannot access, only some people get to that point. 

65: Do I believe in luck?: sure

66: What's the weather like right now?: sunny, windy. 

67: What was the last book I've read? celestine prophecy 

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: i would be dead if i did 

69: Do I have any nicknames?: kerby/kerbz

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?: uhm my brother snapped my pinky in half. 

71: Do I spend money or save it?: both haha 

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no :c

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? yes! my key chain.

74: Favourite animal? red panda

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? roasting my brain on social media 

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? love 

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? heaven must be missing an angel 

78: How can you win my heart?: be sweet and semi obsessed 

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? tried my best 

80: What is my favorite word? rutabaga 

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: i dont go on tumblr enough 

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? love everyone. every leaf. every ray of light. forgive. 

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: nahhh 

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: read peoples minds 

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? how do i feel honestly. 

86: What is my current desktop picture? a red panda.. hahah 

87: Had sex? i would be pretty sad if i was 20 and still a virgin. 

88: Bought condoms? yessssssss

89: Gotten pregnant? noooo! 

90: Failed a class? ha ha ha 

91: Kissed a boy? yup

92: Kissed a girl? yupppppp 

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? heh yes 

94: Had job? unfortunately 

95: Left the house without my wallet? all the time 

96: Bullied someone on the internet? ya i was a dick in highschool 

97: Had sex in public? how public? i had sex in a park at night. and in the forest. and in a car parked on the side of the road. idk how public that is. but. 

98: Played on a sports team? soccer! 

99: Smoked weed? everyday.

100: Did drugs? yea!

101: Smoked cigarettes? ive been ciggy free for awhile 

102: Drank alcohol? if i could calculate how much vodka i have drank in my life i could probably fill an olympic pool. js. 

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? vegetarian! 

104: Been overweight? not really. 

105: Been underweight? no

106: Been to a wedding? yess

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably. 

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? when i was younger yeah 

109: Been outside my home country? multiple times!

110: Gotten my heart broken? i think my heart is in a constant broken stage now. 

111: Been to a professional sports game? yeah! 

112: Broken a bone? if my pinky counts than yes 

113: Cut myself? for a year i used to cut my self in highschool. 

114: Been to prom? i live in canada 

115: Been in airplane? yeaaaaaaa

116: Fly by helicopter? noooooo 

117: What concerts have I been to? too many 

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? mm no 

119: Learned another language? no! :’( 

120: Wore make up? sometimes 

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? i was 15

122: Had oral sex? duhh 

123: Dyed my hair? not for 2 years

124: Voted in a presidential election? i voted in the prime minister election in canada last year. my dude won. of couuuurse because hes sick. 

125: Rode in an ambulance? yea when my brother shattered his head 

126: Had a surgery? yup!

127: Met someone famous? no 

128: Stalked someone on a social network? haaaahaha i have issues

129: Peed outside? ya gotta do what ya gotta do 

130: Been fishing? yes! i caught the biggest fishy at my bf’s cottage this summer. he was pretty impressed. 

131: Helped with charity? i dated a christian guy in highschool and his parents would take us to the mustard seed to hangout with the less fortunate and feed them :) it was really nice.

132: Been rejected by a crush? YEAA! its the worst. 

133: Broken a mirror? no thats bad luck

134: What do I want for birthday? a big hug and an awesome concert in seattle to happen. 

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 2 kids. they will be boys. Atlas/Onyx. maybe Eli? 

136: Was I named after anyone? my dads highschool crush. 

137: Do I like my handwriting? yeah! ive got pretty nice writing id say

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? barbies/teddy bears

139: Favourite Tv Show? one tree hill 

140: Where do I want to live when older? somewhere peaceful, surrounded by nature 

141: Play any musical instrument? ukelele! 

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? my friend put a cigarette out on the back of my leg when i was passed out drunk. that was fun. 

143: Favourite pizza toping? pineapple!!

144: Am I afraid of the dark? if i watch a scary movie or have a scary dream. 

145: Am I afraid of heights? not really but sometimes when i look down it gives me butterflies 

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? HAHA ya. my mom is smarter than i thought i guess. 

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? all the time. 

148: What I'm really bad at: expressing myself. 

149: What my greatest achievments are: moving out all on my own and paying all my bills on my own without any help. 

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: my first love told me to go kill myself and that i was spineless. 

151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery: pay my parents debt off and move them somewhere they always wanted to go. 

152: What do I like about myself: im funny i guess 

153: My closest Tumblr friend: jen 

154: Something I fantasise about: having my life be a dream pop music video