#Lmao... Not quite how it went but he wasnt completely wrong. My before bed thoughts are always out there man I think of many things
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mrfoox ¡ 2 years ago
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Me sharing sappy shit to others:
Them: um???? Ok....
Me: 🥺 (I'm so cringe now)
Others sharing sappy shit with me:
Them: ☺️
Me: 😳 (oh my God be normal about this come on)
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dayasbun ¡ 5 years ago
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Fame - Angus Cloud (4)
Summary- a luckily timed audition leads to you falling for your new and unexpected co-star.
Warnings- okay HI welcome to my first multi chapter series woah?! this is actually so exciting for me like wow especially since angus doesn’t have any fics yet im just really really excited- so warnings! smut for sure, bad words, lotsa fluff, angst- everything in one basically. here comes a ride and I hope you enjoy :)
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4 {reading now}
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“Fuck right there- Oh my god please-” You moaned holding his hair. “You never had anyone eat your pussy like this before right?” he said eating deeper as you moaned and squirmed. “Only you baby, this pussy is only you-”
“Yo wake the fuck up, you making weird noises and shit.”
You sat up taking in a deep breath and inspected your surroundings. There stood a worried Angus with a mug in his hand. “I'm fine...” you said quite unconvincingly.
“You sure? I went to make you some tea and came back to you rolling around and groaning and shit, thought that strange netflix monster had come to you or sum.”
“The demogorgan-”
“Yeah that shit!” He sat next to you on the edge of the bed. “Nightmare?” he asked softly as he handed you the tea.
“Well not exactly...” You took the warm mug and took in a long swig of the warm goodness. It's not like you were just going to openly tell him ‘Oh no, I just had a dream about you eating me out and I loved every second of it.’ “Actually yeah, a nightmare.” you lied.
“I hate those, what was yours about?”
“I...a monster ate me alive and I couldn't stop it.”
Angus shook his head. “Damn mamas, I’m sorry. Those suck, I know its like 2 pm, but let’s eat some breakfast and try to forget about it.”
You nodded standing up and stretching “Thanks...for the tea.”
“Of course, don’t girls love tea? Ion know, I don't really be sleeping with girls that often.” He chuckled walking into the small kitchen.
“Tea is amazing!” You exclaimed, following him and sitting on the counter. “I love tea in all seasons, it has so many benefits.”
“Yeah? What’s some of them benefits.”
“Well green tea has amazing antioxidants, and is a more naturally caffeinated drink than coffee- with not as many negative results. But don't get me wrong, I really do love my coffee- anyway! Tea can help straighten and strengthen bones, brighten your smile, and help you lose weight!!”
“Oh wow.” He laughed “I didn't even care about all that tea shit, just wanted to hear your voice. But it was actually kinda interesting.”
“Yeah- and don't worry about a lack of my voice, I never shut up.”
“You right about that; but before you get all defensive, its aight. I like hearing you blab off about random stuff ion care about.”
You felt your face grow hot as you stifled a giggle that wanted to come out. “Thank you. I think I talk too much, but hey, can't really stop it y’know?” Angus nodded as he cracked 5 eggs into a pan. “You just be going off about stuff- actually you was sleep talking a little bit.”
Fuck.
“Yeah? What was I saying?” you asked innocently, hoping he didn't say what he was most definitely about to say.
“Well it was when you had that nightmare. Was the monster a cow or sum? Cuz you kept saying ‘Angus’ so like.” He turned to look at you “I figure it wasn’t me, but it was probably like...some beef monster.”
“Oh yeah, for sure a beef monster.”
“And that beef monster was eating you huh?”
You smoothly tucked your hair behind your ear and nodded with a sweet smile “Mhm.”
Angus gave you a quick up and down look before turning around and continuing to scramble the eggs. You had to change the current topic or you'd die of embarrassment, so you decided to bring up the topic of the show instead. “Do you know which scenes we’re filming tomorrow?”
“Yeah, no sex scenes until next week. Tomorrow they finna do you coming back and me reminiscing on the old times.”
“Okay cool. I have those lines down, pretty simple...” You mumbled.
“Yeah me too.”
A butcher knife couldn't even cut the tension in the room right now. Fuck, a chainsaw couldn't either.
“So like... I’m gonna go change and I'll be right back? Sound good?”
“You can wear summa my stuff. If you want- you don’t got to i'm just offering.”
“Oh that'd be great thanks! You know my trailer is just so far away!” You joked, knowing that it was only next door. You hopped off of the counter and followed him back into the room you two had just come out of.
“You just want one big shirt? Girls be doing that alot nowadays.”
“Yeah, thanks that'd be great...”
“So the biggest shirt I got got some barbecue stains on it- ignore it. I just went off on some spicy wings the other day-”
You burst out laughing and sat on the bed “Gus it’s fine, gimme!” You pulled your shirt off and held out your hands. He turned back around to find you only in your bra and shorts.
“Yooooo-”
“Its fine, we have to be completely naked with each other next week. Titties are just titties.” You took the shirt out of his hands and put it on. After pulling off the shorts that you wore underneath the shirt; that was more like a dress- and folding them, you walked back into the kitchen and reclaimed your spot on the counter.
“Well I know one problem we won't have!” You stated with a smirk.
“Yeah, and what's that?”
“Drake was worried you wouldn't be able to ‘get it up’...but honestly, I don’t think it'll be too hard.”
“Why you think that?”
“Look down.”
Sure, Angus wouldn't let you live down the wet dream you had about him for quite a while, but you'd never let him live down the boner he got- just from seeing you in a bra.
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“So. Let's get to the real real.” Storm said pulling her knees up to her chest with a grin. “What the hell is going on with you and Angus?”
You, Storm and Daya were hanging in your trailer. You three were the only girls that didn't have scenes to film right now, Alexia, Barbie and the rest of the female cast were shooting night scenes. They had helped you set up the place to seem more homey, and now the newly formed trio you were a part of was in your bed with microwave popcorn, juicy juice, and twizzlers.
“Nothing Storm! Actually nothing I-”
“Nope, don't do that.” Z quickly cut you off. “Everyone can see it, it’s like what everyone on set talks about.”
“What?-”
“Plus, he talks about you too much, and you do the same with him! Earlier I said I wanted to pop some microwave popcorn and you started telling me about some conspiracy he told you about popcorn and microwaves, how they’re a secret way in for the government- like girl! Don't tell me you're so whipped that you're out here believing this stuff!”
“OKAY! Okay! I get it...look Gus is-”
“Gus?! You call him Gus?”
“Yeah?-”
“He literally hates that nickname with a passion. He gotta love you.” Storm chuckled grabbing a handful of popcorn.
“Okay well Angus is cute. He’s sweet and funny and caring- BUT. I won’t let anything happen between us, it’s like...business. This field is acting- and I don't think it would be good for us to do anything more, especially during filming.”
Z sighed. “Falling for your costars is weird.”
“Yeah.” Storm chimed in. “Our girl Daya been there and done that...but it never really affected her acting. She's so talented that she could keep it hidden off screen and focus on her character. I mean I know you talented Y/N...but you not my big sis like Z, so I don't really know how you'd be able to deal with it yet. Drake already seemed a bit iffy about it because he could tell you two had a little something going, but the thing comforting him is y'all are talented. So he knows you can do it- I know you can too.”
“Yeah he sent us a letter about it...it's just hard. I can't lose this role, I've come so far.”
“I don't think you’ll lose it. I think you'll be fine. Just keep a business mindset when on set. What goes on off screen and behind closed doors is your business, girl. Drake or nobody can stop that- Jesus can't even stop that!”
You and Storm giggled at Zendaya’s last comment. “Yeah yeah yeah...okay I get it guys. I got this- period.”
“Period.”
“Period...So were you one of those girls that watched all the Fez scene compilations on Youtube and drooled?” Storm teased you.
“No!” You said firmly, knowing you were lying.
“Oh she definitely was.”
“I wasn't!”
“I just don't see it! Angus is just not attractive to me, he looks like one of those guys that stop you at the gas station with a ghetto ass group of friends- he rubs his hands together and then screams ‘Hey baby lemme get yo numbaaaa!!!!’“
In response, you practically fell over laughing “Stoppp no!”
The rest of the night was filled with giggles and whispers, and by 1 AM, you, Z, and Storm were all huddled up in your little twin trailer bed. They snored softly but you couldn't seem to sleep. Just as you were .1 seconds away from drifting off, your phone buzzed next to you.
Angus☁️: u uppppp
-oh wow yeah that's not the most fboy thing ever to send at 1:27 am
Angus☁️:  see all you had to say was yes you didn't have to do allat
-can i help you mr cloud
Angus☁️: what typa help you offering?
-whatever help you need.
Angus☁️: you finna have some more beef dreams tonight?
-you finna get a boner if you see me in my bra again?
Angus☁️: maybe.
-then i'll say maybe too.
Angus☁️: you're too much
-i know i am, did you film today?
Angus☁️: ye i had some scenes wit jacob
-wit
Angus☁️: leave me alone
-you texted me
-and wow you sound really mature rn not at all like a five year old
Angus☁️: if i was w you rn id make you regret that
-was that supposed to be a threat or a way to try to make me sext
Angus☁️: both
-you should go text all the hoes you have waiting for you at home
Angus☁️: im texting them at the same time
-boy...
Angus☁️: im plAyin
Angus☁️: only you :)
-getting soft???
Angus☁️: no and i wish this was instagram dms so i could unsend it fuck
-fuck
Angus☁️: thats another thing you was saying during your ‘nightmare’
-STOP NO I WAS NOT
Angus☁️: yeah i know you wasnt lmao i just like messing w you
-you can mess w me whenever you want to
Angus☁️: oh bet????
-goodnight angus
Angus☁️: nah i want you to tell me about me messing w you
Angus☁️: damn you really left
Angus☁️: thats wrong 
Angus☁️: doing me dirty
-GTS MY PHONE KEEPS GOING OFF
Angus☁️: then put it on silent?
-NO
Angus☁️: ill stop being annoying if you come over here
-i cant, im w z and storm too
Angus☁️: shit okay well it was worth a shot
-why, what was you planning to do
Angus☁️: cuddle
-its fr time for you to go bed, i think your sleepiness is making you too soft and taking the hood away
Angus☁️: goodnight
-goodnight
Angus☁️: gn
-gn
Angus☁️: night
-night
Angus☁️: GOODNIGHT
-OKAY GN
Angus☁️: STOP REPLYING
Angus☁️: night
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skizmin ¡ 6 years ago
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Ravenclaw Seungmin
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(my sweet sunshine i hope i can do you justice)
Genre: fluffy as FUCC yo, seungmin is a precious baby, he’s book smart then falls in love and has nO fuckin idea what to do, ugh hes so cUTe, confident til you (my lovely gender neutral reader) come along type shit lmao sue me
Words: 6330 holy shit
A/N: alrighty so i put some more effort into this one bc apparently yall didnt appreciate my woojin one (lookin at you you well rested hoes) and yeah. for the love of coke please stop sleeping on woojin and seungmin it hurts my heart.
this all sorta starts in the middle of exam season
seungmin is lowkey stressed
okay possibly highkey stressed
especially when his friend hyunjin drags him out of the study hall to go see some quidditch game
“hyunjin seriously i need to study” 
but hyunjins carrying seungmin over his shoulder screaming about something called stress relief and fun
but anyway, here seungmin is in the stands very begrudgingly 
thinkin about that lil song he made to remember how to pronounce that one pet hair expelling spell lmao
when he sees you
he knows you of course, always coming extremely close to his top mark in all his classes
once, in second year, you even beat him in defence against the dark arts which seungmin felt a bit down about for 3 weeks but also he knew you had an immense interest in jinxed plants which was the topic of half of the test
rip seungmin
anyway, he’d always sorta just ignored thinking about you unless it was his competitive side coming out 
for real once he almost gave up studying for a divination in class essay but was reminded you were in that class and just nYOOMED to finish his final draft
he only ever really thought about school anyway, much to the dismay of his friends who for once just wanted to get to know him more and take him out to hogsmeade or something
okay so anyway, hes in the stands and he sees you
he doesnt exect you to be there lol like
you study just as much as he does, right? 
not only are you there, but you arent even watching the game
youre in it
seungmin chokes on his motherfuckin pumpkin juice
hes all
W-WHAT
NO WHAT
HOW
hyunjin looks at him like wtf bro
seungmins just
“Y/NS IN THE QUIDDITCH TEAM? BITCH? WHAT??”
hyunjins like what???? ohhhh y/n?? dude theyre like one of the best chasers in the damn school
seungmin just looks from hyunjin to you (trying to intercept a pass from the other team) with wide eyes
“seungmin why do you look so shocked? do you know them?”
“yeAH THEYRE THE ONE THAT BEAT ME ON THAT TEST ONCE”
“hmm? what in second year??? dude you have GOT to let that go.”
but by now seungmins not even paying attention to hyunjin, he’s watching you speed past with the quaffle and scoring almost effortlessly
seungmin had never really paid much attention to quidditch. now much at all
aside from happily congratulating his friends on their most recent win and smiling brightly along with jisung when he begins screaming about the new chudley cannons line up
seungmin never really followed the world cup or anything
he simply decided when he was sorted into ravenclaw that he would dedicate himself to his studies
and he struggled to get the grades he does even though felix’s favourite thing to say to him was “all you do is study”
but he was proud of his grades
seungmin never really paid much attention to quidditch
but now? watching you?
your house colours billowing behind you as you smiled to a teammate, listening to their instructions on your next course of action.
he was mesmerised
wholly?? fully?? mesmerised??
he didnt know why but his heart sort of ached
he thought, why would he feel like this?
he understood though that he simply felt completely and utterly inferior to you
hes fine with being inferior to you in terms of quidditch, he doesnt play quidditch
rarely has flown a broom actually, unless necessary
but in terms of school work?
he genuinely set his soul to do that
he’s wholly dedicated to studying to achieve the almost record grades he has
and you?
you were right behind him
dont get him wrong, he doesnt think you dont deserve it, not at all. he would never say someone doesnt deserve recognition for their hard earned work.
he was upset because, honestly?
he saw how often his friends practised their quidditch skills. the team practise, individual practise, game plans, codes, flying methods, opponent studies
all of it
it was very nearly the same amount of time he spent studying.
and his friends? 
he remembers the time his friends minho a few years back struggled to scrape by a pass due to his commitment to the sport. even with copious amounts of tutoring that drove him into the early hours of the morning so often
the stress ate away at him. it was a particularly busy year for slytherins team and he was on high demand. the lack of interest in school kicked in after his grades began dropping
it wasnt a good time, not a good thing to witness. eventually he passed purely on all nighters full of cramming before exams
all his quidditch playing friends struggled to get above average in their grades, no matter how enthusiastic they were about learning and magic 
how did you, who was on par with their skill, manage to follow so closely behind him whilst studying?
of course, he was prefect, but that consisted of simply once a week meetings and helping younger students with school related things. sometimes an odd counselling session here and there and some advice on how to handle situations
but that took up rarely any of his time
not nearly as much as quidditch would
he felt sort of empty, like he had lost some kind of purpose. 
how was he going to deal with this? how was he going to deal with the fact that you were so so so far above him in all ways possible? the one thing he fully applies himself to is now meaningless to him
he wants to be better 
“minnie?? the games over. y/ns team won.” hyunjin called from beside him, nudging him with his shoulder
“ah, right.”
hyunjin furrowed his brows at seungmins down attitude but shrugged it off because
it be like that sometimes
ya’know??????
,,
fast forward to one week later and seungmins friends were getting increasingly more worried. why?
his usually immaculate notes were empty, he went straight to bed instead of studying (yet the bags under his eyes were dark and prominent. one of his dormmates reports to jisung that he has been sleeping quite fitfully.), he sat for hours on the weekend in the study hall tapping his quill on the table but his paper remained blank
hell, he hadnt even borrowed a new book from the library after finishing his most recent read
it was at this point jeongin forced hyunjin to confront seungmin about it
“so uh, whats up?”
“huh? oh nothing just chilling.”
“no i mean recently, youre acting odd.”
“o-oh?? (worm)”
“yeah, so you okay??”
“definitely, just busy sorting something out.”
hyunjin smiled and left seungmin be at that
seungmin realised that was the last straw, he was going to do something about how this affected him
so the next day, after classes ended, seungmin made his way to the library. after that he walked down to hagrid’s, their groundskeeper and teacher of magical creatures’, hut. then after that he walked up to the hospital wing.
when he returned to the great hall and jisung asked him where he had been, he just smiled and shook his head
what had be been doing?
volunteering.
volunteering to help at the library and help madam pince 5 nights a week every fortnight, volunteering to help hagrid tend to the animals and feed them and give them exercise every sunday, and finally, volunteering to run errands for madam pomfrey for 5 nights every other week and to tend to small injuries that can be handled with a simple muggle first aid kit if thats what the student would like
anyway once his friends found out what he had done they were very happy!! and confused??
and also worried
seungmin had aways had this habit of overworking himself
,,,,
okay so 3 weeks later he was in the library volunteering
pushing a trolley full of misplaced books up the isle while yawning widely
he thought he was doing pretty well. he was more than confident on the two exams that had passed during the time he spent volunteering n stuff
he walked along, still yawning occasionally, blaming it on the warm cozy feeling of the library late at night
but he jumped as he felt a tap on his shoulder and whipping his head around so fast his neck couldve snapped off
and then he saw you, looking nervous as you twisted your fingers together in front of you
he swore he couldve melted right then and there
wait?????? what???????
“u-uh, hey! um. yeah madam pince she-, she told me to ask you. ask you where to find a b-book that is! ha. haha.”
seungmin watched as your face got red and his heart sorta swelled?????
“oh! u-uh yeah! sure! which book?”
you smiled at him widely, relieved you hadnt asked the wrong person. “magical mediterranean water plants and their properties???”
seungmins heart stuttered
he had never really paid much attention to you before he saw you on the quidditch pitch, thinking of you purely as competition. but recently
god, recently he couldnt stop thinking about you. your face. your smile. your laugh, remembering the rare times you would joke around in class.
was this what it was like to have you smile at him?
he would fetch you 1000 books if he got to see 1000 of those smiles
oh my oh my was his heart beginning to beat faster and faster
“o-okay, uh- follow me?” he turned around quickly and began walking. he’d memorised the library way before volunteering anyway, madam pince getting sick of him asking where books were every second day
he walked up 3 isles and turned right, walking up the middle before tugging out his wand from his robes and softly flourishing his wand
from a high shelf, a black leather book floating down gently, seungmin extended his hand to grab it before passing it to you, cheeks red
“is this it?” seungmin already knew that was the book you were looking for. he read it last term to jog his memory before a herbology test
fUCK THERE WAS A HERBOLOGY TEST COMING UP RIP SEUNGMIN
anyway
“yeah!! seungmin, right? thank you so much.” you shyly smiled at him
“u-uh yeah!! just um, ask me for help if you need it and you see me. y/n, right?” god his brain was a mess
“of course!! well, i’ll see you around yeah??”
seungmin nodded, cheeks getting slightly redder
and with that you walked away, cheeks equally as red as seungmins and hands clasping tightly around the book he got for you
anyway, in the next week you and seungmin sometimes exchanged small smiles and waves but nothing more
you highkey wanted to talk to him but you were too shy so
it was okay bc he was shy too so
but anyway, you had been in your care of magical creatures class, talking to your professor as you attempted to befriend a porlock
(a small horse guardian thing that doesnt quite trust humans)
anyway, simply you got onto the topic of how hagrid could possibly look after all his creatures constantly to which he replied with a smile and 
“well theres a ravenclaw boy that helps me now. seungmin. do you know him? he helps me care for all of them every sunday.”
you furrowed your brows, it couldnt possibly be
“kim seungmin?” you questioned
“thats the one!” 
you smiled, saying you knew him before getting lost in your own thoughts.
didnt seungmin already volunteer at the library? maybe that was a one time thing. right????
surely he wouldnt be volunteering at two places at once. thats impossible
not with his grades, he couldnt possibly keep up. how much overworking would that be?
you were taking out of you thoughts with a sharp stinging pain on your wrist
you looked down to see your porlock obviously angry and trying to escape the calming hold you had on him
hagrid noticed you gasp and his eyes widened as he saw the blood trickling down your arm
“oh no! are you alright????”
“i’m fine! just got bitten is all.”
“here let me take the porlock, you should get yourself to the hospital wing. the last period bell is gonna go anyway so take your bag too”
you were stunned at your professor being so panicked
“im sorry its just ive filled out three incident reports in the last week”
you laughed, tugging your satchel over your shoulder and holding your wrist with your free hand to stop the bleeding somewhat
you greeted you friends goodbye before climbing up the grassy hill to hogwarts on your way to the hospital wing
as soon as you reached the castle, chimes came loudly from the bell tower above
you groaned, you knew you had quidditch practise in half an hour so you began to speed walk through the halls that were filling quickly with students
reaching the hospital wing you pushed the big oak door open, searching around for madam pomfrey
“excuse me?”
madam pomfrey popped out from behind her desk
“oh! y/l/n! im just about to head out on an emergency. some kid ate sat on a firework from that pesky store. is it serious?”
“uhhhhh, no?? i can patch myself up.” you smiled at the frantic nurse
she nodded and walked passed you, calling out as she rushed through the door in a hurry
“the kits on my desk! and if kim seungmin shows up tell him i dont have anything for him to do!”
you smiled quickly to her before she was gone
wait a minute? seungmin? what would he be doing here???
anyway, you walk up to her desk and drag out the first aid kit
you knew how to use a first aid kit
you were Cultured
anyway you were looking for something to dress your arm, you found a big ol’ dressing with all that sticky shit
bitch yes
anyway as you were struggling to open the dressing up, the gigantic oak door opened suddenly and you almost dropped the dressing you were holding to see a panting seungmin
your eyes widened as he crouched over and spoke
“madam- madam pomfrey im so” large breath in “sorry im late i just-” another pant “a student asked me where vectors office was and-” 
he finally stood up, eyes widening when he saw you
“o-oh! y/n? whatre you doing here??”
“uh, porlock.” you replied dumbly. not thinking enough to elaborate bc wow kim seungmin was right there looking gorgeous n shit
“porlock?????? the animal??????” he furrowed his brows
you nodded and suddenly remembered what the nurse had told you
“oh! uh, madam pomfrey is out right now but she said theres um,,, nothing for you to do???” you asked him, sounding unsure to whether or not you heard her correctly
seungmin furrowed his brows “o-oh.”
you looked away, and began fumbling with your dressing and spoke up again “do you help out here too?”
“uhhh. yeah, i do.” he replied somewhat awkwardly
“hagrid said you help him as well. do you get any rest?” you asking, sounding exasperated
but like,,,
low key lmao
“oh uh. yeah i try my best i guess.” he sounded so??? nervous???
“wait! y/n, let me do that. its what im supposed to be doing anyway” seungmin sheepishly says as he walked up to you
oh god what now???????? uh???????? seungmin very possibly touching you and being that close??????? uh??? a bitch is scared for their health but shhhhh
“n-no! its fine!” you mumbled back, suddenly very shy under seungmins gaze
“y/n you cant even get it open, not to mention your arm and hand are still covered in blood.”
he had a point
“oh. right.”
seungmin moved you over to one side of the table as he pulled out a bowl and a washcloth from one of the cabinets next to it.
he mumbled a soft aguamenti, creating water from his wand into the bowl, smiling in accomplishment
then he dipped half of the cloth into the water and wrenched it to get the excess water out
“can i uh- can u have your arm??” he  stuttered, suddenly realising how close you were, cheeks dusting pink
you held your arm up for him and he started wiping at the blood on your skin, you didnt actually mind the cool feeling of the water at all. 
you decided to use the awkward silence to have a little conversation with him
“why do you volunteer so much?” you questioned
seungmins movements halted for a second before he started cleaning your arm again
“no particular r-reason. i-, i like it?” he replied, not meeting your eyes
“why do you sound so unsure?” your pried, wondering why exactly the question was difficult for him
“im not unsure!” he assured you, taking a glance at your face finally before dumping the cloth in the water because he was done
“alright i guess”
“i uh,” he started whilst ripping open he package to the dressing, “i didnt know you played quidditch.”
you were surprised by this, everyone knew you played quidditch
“oh! really?? i thought it was obvious.”
he began placing the dressing on your wrist, trying to make sure there was no crinkles in the plastic sticky part
(yes i dont know the actual term for it fucking SUE ME)
“ah, i dont really pay attention to quidditch so.”
“oh. how’d you find out then?” you were curious as to how he knew if he barely knew you and didnt even like quidditch
“hwang hyunjin, you might know him, hes in our year. anyway he dragged me out to watch and you were playing so.”
“ah right. hyunjin’s the slytherin right?” 
“yup!”
cue: silence
seungmin was smoothing out the dressing on your wrist 
“y-your robes...” seungmin started, picking up his wand from the desk and mumbling a short “tergeo”
suddenly your robes grew warm and the blood siphoned off of them cleanly into seungmins wand
you were now comfortably warn in your robes as you went to pull your sleeve down before seungmin stopped you gently with his hand, checking the dressing was on properly one last time
you shivered at the feeling of his cold fingers, and decided to return the favour of hhim helping you
pulling out your wand, you muttered a soft incantation of a heat charm, pointing your wand over seungmins hands that adorned a pink hue due to the cold of the water earlier
“oh my god thank you” seungmin practically groaned, rubbing his hands together in front of your wand
you laughed quietly at him, finding his satisfaction amusing before he looked up to your face and realised, blushing a deep shade of pink
okay imma keep it real with you chief
you liked seungmin a lot
idk he just??? made you feel so giddy. your stomach like,,, dipped when he smiled at you n stuff
i mean you werent the only one,, there were heaps of people in your year that fawned over the smart boy. hard-workers are always the most popular like come on
but you sorta just knew there was no chance between the two of you and you were perfectly happy being friends with the boy. his friends always hyped him up a bunch like he was some kind of god
you definitely agreed he was good company, even when you two werent necessarily comfortable around each other yet
but anyway, seeing him standing there blushing in front of you made you uwu SO HARD
and you were glad he knew you from something you loved, that being quidditch
wait
fuCK QUIDDITCH PRACTISE YOU ALMOST FORGOT
“seungmin!! im so sorry i have to go!! i have inter house practise!!”
seungmin’s eyes widened a little
i mean yeah you had to go to practise but like also
that was the first time???????? you’d said his name to him???????? excluding the time you asked him if it was in fact his name but like
oh my god seungmins blush got even darker because he didnt know he could like how someone said his name but he definitely likes him name 20 times more when youre saying it and and youre smiling and running out of the infirmary and waving to him and its all too much like his heart rn??? dead. his brain??? he doesnt know her, it turned to mush
seungmin walked over to one of the beds in the hospital wing and sat down, sighing
he was so fucked
,,,,,,,,
 “you’re friends with kim seungmin right?” you questioned jisung as you waited for the rest of the schools quidditch players to exit the change rooms
“yeah!! we’re close actually. why?” 
jisung was always so excitable and held such confidence in everything he did, he was comfortable to talk to
“oh nothing, i just ran into him at the hospital wing is all”
“hospital wing? he’s still volunteering there??”
you furrowed your brows, “yeah??? is something wrong????”
jisung sighed, scuffing his boot along the grass of the slowly filling pitch and tossing his bat up into the air before catching it nonchalantly (imagine being That Cool)
“yeah. he’s been overworking himself way too much lately. he used to only focus on studying but he’s trying to fit in all this helping staff out and he looks so tired all the time.”
looking back you do remember seungmins hair being a bit more dishevelled than usual, and under his eyes was a little bit darker
“why though? i mean its nice he is but like, he doesnt need to?”
jisung nods thoroughly at you
“thats what we all said! he wont tell us why he’s had this sudden change in heart though.” jisung pouted and you laughed lightheartedly at him
“oh well, he’ll come around right?”
,,,,
he didnt
its been 3 weeks since your conversation with jisung and you can guarantee seungmin was overworking himself to the max
he came into astronomy studies late and ended up falling asleep the other day. it was one of the easier classes to fall asleep in of course due to the whole jinxing the ceiling to look like a nights sky in a dark room n stuff but like still
seungmin never was late to class
seungmin never fell asleep in class
lately youve noticed him turning up to morning classes barely on time, tie askew and hair a complete mess
you’d find it cute if you werent worried for his health 
okay you did find it cute but YoU weRe sTiLL WoRRieD
anyway, so it was one day in herbology theory when he fell asleep again
sprout wasnt too happy but let him sleep anyway bc like. if you can sleep through her basically screaming explanations to the class due to her half deafness than yeah, you probably needed it
at the end of the class you packed your things and saw seungmin still peacefully sleeping at his desk and you frowned lightly
so you decided to let him sleep but you sat at your table for a while, using spare parchment and a scribing spell to copy your notes for him
after it was completed, you left it on the table next to him with a bottle of pumpkin juice you were saving for later, your eyebrows still furrowed
why was he overworking himself?
sighing, you just left, deciding it was creepy to be there for so long
anyway, that night you went to the library to find a book you needed for your ancient runes course test
you didnt really expect anyone to be there so late (it was almost curfew, you were forgetful)
and it sorta slipped your mind that seungmin volunteered there until
“need help?”
holy fUCK he scared you like boy you cant go sneakin up on people in an almost empty library and speak loudly like that
anyway so you violently flinched away and he started laughing whilst apologising profusely
you smiled bc he was cute adalsfafrfpi;fef seungmin omg stop
but yeah once he was done, he reiterated “sorry, but is there any book youre looking for?”
“uhhhhh yeah, ancient runes made easy??” you sorta felt dumb saying it out loud but oh well, you needed to pass this test
“follow me then!” seungmin led you out of the tall shelves confines to the middle corridor before delving into another set of shelves, this time he didnt pull out his wand to get the book down, instead he simply reached up and plucked it from the shelf
“here you go!” he handed it to you, it was indeed the book you were looking for and it was in mint condition. not surprising as basically no one took the ancient runes elective rip
you mumbled a thanks, cheeks sorta going a bit red as you stared at your feet because like
kim seungmin
(thats a phat mood btw)
“oh! i almost forgot!” seungmin started, dipping his head down a bit to try and catch your eyes. when you looked up, he smiled
“uh, thanks for what you did today. you know, the notes a-and the pumpkin juice and stuff.”
you watched seungmins cheeks get pinker as he went on
you were full on uwuing at this point
“its okay! really!” you blurted out like omgkimseungministhankingme
suddenly it fell into an almost awkward silence between the two of you
shoes shuffling on the ground and cheeks red
“um, what do you need help with in ancient runes? im all caught up. i could explain something if you want?”
and thats how you ended up on one of the large library tables after curfew with special permission from madam pince
seungmin legit took 15 minutes to explain some stuff to you but now yall were just chillin (in cedar rapids)
you began talking about nothing in particular really
seungmin asked about your quidditch, you asked about his volunteering which he brushed off almost immediately
seungmin and you felt like time didnt exist as you kept talking and talking
you subconsciously moved closer to each other until your thighs were touching
seungmins speech had slowed into a comforting lazy slurring of words, his voice getting heavier with the need for sleep. you felt the same though
his eyes stayed intently on you, even with his cheek in his hand as the conversation slowed to a pleasant silence
you yawned, a hand coming to your face. you knew you should go to bed but you didnt really want to at this point
you looked at seungmin to see him softly smiling at you and your heartbeat picked up. your obvious feelings for him going crazy
“youre really pretty y/n” he mumbled lowly, you almost didnt hear him
of how you wished you didnt hear him because now you were a mess, heart thumping in your chest and red creeping up your neck to your face
how do you reply to that? you were stumped for words honestly
seungmin didnt seem to mind though as he smiled wider, sitting up straight and stretching his arms over his head
“wait here, ill go put out the lamps and we can walk back”
you barely nodded, face still red as seungmin climbed from his seat to wander around, blowing out the candles lighting the library
on your walk back, it was silent. it was comfortable though and seungmin didnt seem to mind your lack of response to his compliment that still had your mind reeling 
seungmin waved bye to you as you parted ways, smiles on your faces
seungmin didnt study when he got into his dorm room, falling face first onto his bed and falling into a deep sleep almost immediately
,,,,
waking up, seungmin first realised he was late, only 30 minutes of breakfast left
and then, the memories of seeing you last night flooded it
mid throwing his covers off of his body, he groaned loudly, how on earth had he said that
his cheeks got red just thinking about it
this was a crisis. he dragged on his uniform and grabbed his satchel and sprinted the whole way to the great hall
once he made it, he spotted his friends at the hufflepuff table and dashed to them
“i have a problem”
jisung, hyunjin and jeongin looked up towards seungmin
“what is it?” jeongin asked, eyes lighting up with curiosity. oh did he love seeing his friends suffer
“so i was in the library with y/n last night” 
“waiT Y/N THE ONE YOU” hyunjin started before jisung harshly elbowed him in the side
seungmin loves jisung
“yes, shut up hyunjin. anyway i was really tired and not thinking straight and i called them pretty and they didnt even respond im so ashamed”
jeongin started laughing, hyunjin smiling along whilst rubbing the sore spot of his side
seungmin groans and stomps his foot, not happy with the lack of support from his friends
jisung tosses him a sympathetic look, “your problem man, i cant really help.”
seungmin pouts but sits down to eat anyway
,,,,,
okay so its been 3 days and seungmins worried
like seriously 
whenever he tries to talk to you your eyes just widen and you walk to other way before he can even get a word out
whenever he passes you in class or in the hallways, he prepares a smile only to be met with you ducking your head to look at the ground as you speed past him
his small waves in class seemingly go unnoticed
but he knows you dont hate him
how? simple. youre still leaving him notes and treats every time he falls asleep in class
so what does he do? like any other desperately in need boy he hatches a plan. 
today last period you both share astrology. he’s simply fake falling asleep and confront you whilst you left him the classes notes
seungmins game plan didnt really work tho bc he actually fell asleep like a dumbass
it was last period astrology and seungmin was lying on his books, passed out
the bell rang and you went through your normal routine, copying your notes which included your immaculately drawn sketches of the constellations you’d studied that day
you waked over to his desk and placed them next to his head, the corner of a page accidentally bushing his nose and you like,,, froze
bc he twitched and scrunched his nose up which wouldve been so cute if you werent terrified of him waking up
you put down a cauldron cake as well once he went back to looking peaceful and frowned bc
“seungmin why don’t you rest more?” you whispered
he exhaled deeply in his sleep and a piece of hair fell into his face, subconsciously you went to brush it away and carded your fingers ever so lightly through his hair
but then you halted bc like
wtf thats super creepy
you quickly turned to leave b-but uwu cliche
seungmin grabbed at your wrist yO SEUNGMINS DAINTY ASS FINGERS CURLING THEMSELVES AROUND YOUR WRIST IMAGINE
anyway
you squeaked and turned back around bc wtf it scared you
and seungmin was just sitting up now, arm outstretched grabbing onto yours, eyes wide and hair a fucking cute mess
you were like uhhhhhhhashlfbfkacbsdcbigev
“uh, dont run away, please?” seungmin said, super duper shyly aw hes so CUTE
you like just,,,, shakily nodded at him
seungmin smiled lightly and let go of you, climbing out of his set in lightning speed to stand in front of you
“i uh-, i just wanted to ask why you’ve been avoiding m-me i guess” seungmin started and you cringed
bc this was hella awkward like no 
seungmin cut you off before you could say anything tho with a 
“bc like if its because i called you pretty and stuff im so so so sorry i didnt mean to make you uncomfortable at all and i feel really bad bc i shouldnt have said it and i was really tired and my judgement wasnt the best and i accidentally made things awkward between us and i dont want that and i just feel really really bad like you dont even have to forgive me or anything i swear”
he said all that in like, under 15 seconds. eminem who???
anyway your eyes just went wide as you processed his words n n you lowkey got a bit emo when he said he said it bc he was tired n stuff n just :^((
“why dont you get enough rest seungmin?” you said blankly
“w-what?” seungmins heart rate SKY ROCKETED
“why dont you get enough rest?”
“uh-, i just um,,, i do get e-enough rest!” he was like, nervously laughing
“no you dont, you fall asleep in 40 percent of your classes.”
“i-, i uh-” “why can’t you tell me??” you questioned, eyebrows furrowing at his anxiousness towards the question
“its uh-, its sorta embarrassing” he replied, looking ANYWHERE but your eyes
“is it bad? did you get into trouble or something?”
“nO! god no!”
“then it doesnt sound that bad to me.” oooh go y/n hold ur ground bub
“uhhhh” seungmin sighed, defeated “okay ill tell you.” you just hummed in response and waited patiently
he exhaled loudly and stared blatanly at your feet before beginning
“i uh. you play quidditch really well and- and you also get near all my scores on tests and stuff and i just felt. idk, dumb or something so i wanted to prove to myself that i could do extra curricular sort of stuff like volunteering and still g-get top scores i guess.”
once he finished he looked into your eyes and you were like ????? what the fuck
you were so confused,,, he was volunteering bc you played quidditch and got good scores???
“seungmin i dont work nearly as hard as you do”
his eyes widened “what do you mean! yes you do! you’re like, on par with jisung and he practises religiously!”
you laughed a little and seungmin furrowed his brows
“seungmin, jisung is muggleborn. whereas my older sister is captain of the tutshill tornados. i dont need to train that hard in quidditch” oh seungmin
the pooor boy
after you made that comment seungmins face just went BRIGHT red lmao
“uhhhhh,,, uh,, uhhh” he didnt know what to say
“anyway seungmin, i suggest you take a break and get some rest so you dont keep saying things accidentally” you said, adjusting your satchel strap on your shoulder and preparing to leave
“what?? acidentally???” seungmin said, preventing you from leaving “you don’t mean me calling you pretty right bc like. i meant that” okay but how was seungmin now so confident especially when he said that
“w-what?” you said, red going ALL over your face lmao like everywhere
“i meant it when i called you pretty i just. i know there was a better time to say it probably” seungmin started getting shyer now like his ears going red he was so cute
‘you think im pretty????????” you were so confused like. kim seungmin?? the kim seungin? thinking youre pretty??? you discreetly pinched yourself, checking this wasnt a dream
“d-dont say it so forwardly like that!” seungmin exclaimed
“you said it forwardly first!” you laughed back at him, ngl you were feeling a little giddy 
seungmin just sorta sunk back into himself, feelin super duper shy
your face got even more red as words tumbled out of your mouth before your common sense could stop you
“f-for the record, i-, i think you’re pretty too”
oh my GOD
1) y/n sweetie thank you for telling seungmin this for all of us
2) yoU JUST CALLED SEUNGMIN PRETTY AND NOW HIS EYES WERE WIDE AS FUCK 
HE SQUEAKED
HE MCFRICKIN SQUEAKED CAN YALL IMAGINE
he brought a hand up to his mouth in surprise and by this point you were like
too shy to do anything lmfao
so you sorta just looked down at your shoes bc wow all of a sudden your black leather school shoes were immensely and intricately beautiful
not
anyway there was a bit of silence as seungmin regained composure and you were way to embarrassed to say anything at all
but then
but thEN
get ready omg
you dont even notice but suddenly seungmins  right in front of you and he’s leaning toward your face and and hes
hes kissED YOUR CHEEK
oh my GOD his cute ass lips just came in contact with your cheek, as quick as lightning but of my god it was worth it
your head whipped up and you gasped
seungmin stood there with an inCREDibly nervous look on his face and his eyes prompting you to respond
like,,,, in any way. pls y/n do something
your mind was fuzzy and the low swooping feeling in your stomach compelled you as you stepped impossibly closer to seungmin, yours and his cheeks radiating a magnificently bright red glow
and you kissed him
thanks again y/n for doing the world a good deed
you sorta squeaked afterwards and went to leap back bc seungmins face was suddenly too close and you were embarrassed and nervous and and
oh my god your heart was beating louder than ever jesus
but before you could leap back, seungmin was wrapping his arms tightly around you, hugging your body and preventing you from distancing yourself from him
his breathing was rapid as his mouth found home near your ear to stutter out a question that would make you squeal if it werent for the fear your legs might give out
“w-wanna go on a-, a date with me? maybe?”
as soon as seungmin felt you nod against him (you didnt trust your voice rn lmao) he smiled, easing into the hug more and essentially melting his heart with yours
uwu
hope you liked it!!!
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gweyson ¡ 6 years ago
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how much would u hate me if i asked u to do every single uncommon question for an oc of ur choice?
the absolute madman he actually did it
im gonna put this under the cut sdjkfhsdjfsjkl also im answering for pascal because. Thats My Boy
1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?
he’s gotten really good at it since he had to start hiding from murder robots... but even before then he was never a super fidgety person so he could sit very still !
2. How easy is it for your character to laugh?
he’s good at pretending everything’s fine when it’s all actually Rather Shit so. yeah pretty easy
3. How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)
thinking mostly.... sometimes he’ll talk to someone and drift off from there but it depends on who’s on lookout or how quiet the group has to stay
4. How easy is it to earn their trust?
he tries to remain suspicious of people he meets but at heart he’s too trusting for his own good tbh.... he does try to hold off on trusting stangers these days but hes still a little soft
5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?
yeah pretty easy. like it’s easy enough to get him to trust you in the first place but once you do something to fuck that up then good luck getting it back lmao
6. Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?
laws arent really. a thing anymore djkfhdljk but when they were he’d like... say laws are immovable and very needed and then do stuff that completely contradicted that view
7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?
cooking !! it reminds him of when he used to help his mum out with houseowrk/cooking. he. doesnt really like the feeling because it reminds him that he has no idea if his family is actually still alive or not :(
8. What were they told to stop/start doing most often as a child
“stop playing in the dirt”
9. Do they swear? Do they remember their first swear word?
he doesnt swear heaps but he does enough that it’s not super shocking whenever he does. he sweras more the angrier/more agitated he gets
10. What lie do they most frequently remember telling? Does it haunt them?
he’d regularly lie to his mum just so he could get out of the house and go to parties lol. he’s not super haunted by it or anything (& he was a pretty good kid otherwise so he figures he was allowed at least this one not great thing)
11. How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?
he’ll try to play along until he can figure stuff out but if he cant he’ll just go “what tf is happening”
12. How do they deal with an itch found in a place they can’t quite reach?
either gets someone to scratch it or uses like. a ruler or smth
13. What color do they think they look best in? Do they actually look best in that color?
he thinks he looks best in green but it’s... not his best colour
14. What animal do they fear most?
big dogs... scarey :(
15. How do they speak? Is what they say usually thought of on the spot, or do they rehearse it in their mind first?
he usually just says whatever comes to his mind tbh. idk how to properly descrive it but like... the way he talks makes him sound smart but not arrogant about it yknow. like you hear him talk and youre like “yeah this is a guy who knows what hes doing”
16. What makes their stomach turn?
not much tbh?? like before everything turned Awful he was studying forensic entomology so like. hes got a bit of an iron stomach lmao. the smell of rotting meat maybe
17. Are they easily embarrassed?
not really? if he does get embarrassed he’s pretty decent at hiding it
18. What embarrasses them?
when he’s the centre of attention in a big group and he can feel everyone staring at him and his face goes all red and aaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAA
19. What is their favorite number?
7 !!
20. If they were asked to explain the difference between romantic and platonic or familial love, how would they do so?
he’d go on a really long tangent about it and possibly not even answer the question at hand tbh
21. Why do they get up in the morning? 
to not die, mostly
22. How does jealousy manifest itself in them (they become possessive, they become aloof, etc)? 
he’ll become pretty aloof and just. not wanna talk. he’ll avoid the target of jealousy a bit as well oops
23. How does envy manifest itself in them (they take what they want, they become resentful, etc)? 
he’ll do everything in his power to one-up whatever’s making him envious. it rarely works
24. Is sex something that they’re comfortable speaking about? To whom? 
he is comfortable talking about it !! really the only thing that ever stops him talking about it is if someone else is uncomfortable with it
25. What are their thoughts on marriage? 
he likes the idea ! if he does get married though he wants to do it wayyyyy in the future he’s not ready to settle down
26. What is their preferred mode of transportation? 
before everything went shit he preferred driving, now he walks everywhere
27. What causes them to feel dread?
robots. or when astrid is pissed
28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? 
he says he’d prefer an unpleasant truth but when it actually comes time to deal with it he doesnt go too great lol
29. Do they usually live up to their own ideals? 
he tries... whether he succeeds is another question 
30. Who do they most regret meeting? 
[redacted for spoilers]
31. Who are they the most glad to have met? 
astrid !! as much as he loves everyine else in the group she’s the only one who could realistically protect him if something were to go wrong. shes just more secure
32. Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? 
not really ??
33. Could they be considered lazy? 
nah not really !! he’s always been a hard worker
34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? 
it follows him around for a loooooong time. whether it goes away or just fades into background noise really depends on the situation but it’s not easy for him
35. How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? 
he always tries to be supportive !! unless it’s something like. morally disgusting then No but he tries to support his friends even if he thinks whateber theyre talking about is kinda dumb
36. Do they actively seek romance, or do they wait for it to fall into their lap? 
he just kinda waits it out !! when the world was Not Shit his friends would be regularly trying to set him up with people so he never had to work super hard for it :’)
37. Do they have a system for remembering names, long lists of numbers, things that need to go in a certain order (like anagrams, putting things to melodies, etc)? 
i cant remember the name for it but he does the thing where like. he’ll associate thing a with thing b by finding something that connects them togehter? like a syllable in thing a sounds like thing b so. yeah. im good at explaining
38. What memory do they revisit the most often? 
either when astrid helped him bust out of the factory he was trapped working in or just miscellaneous memories of his mum & siblings
39. How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people? 
he tends to ignore people’s flaws which can lead to issues
40. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?
he tries to be self critical but he’s not really self critical enough for it to make a solid difference. usually he has to be told what he’s doing before he consciously realises it
41. How do they feel about children? 
he likes them !! he was the oldest of a lot of siblings so he knows how to handle them & he’s pretty good with them
42. How badly do they want to reach their end goal?
his end goal is to stop robots killing everything & for everything to go back to normal so id say he wants that pretty fuckin bad
43. If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so?
“hey pascal are you into--” “yes”
QUESTIONS FOR CREATORS (I wasnt sure if you wanted me to do these ones too so. shrug emoji)
A) Why are you excited about this character?
i made him for my comic which. i will start one day fdklgjdlkjgd..... also hes just fun to develop ! i gave him a bunch of traits i rlly like and also i made him like bugs a lot so. i am biased
B) What inspired you to create them?
uh. needed characters for the comic hehe.....i cant remember the exact process i went thru when making him?? i wanted someone who was close to astrid/who she could trust, plus i had the idea for a backstory (i think. like i said i cant remember my exact process)
C) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?
not really, i came up with the concept before i actually made his character
D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?
he’s always had the same appearance !! even though i should probably change it a little because he looks different every time i try drawing him but shhhhh
E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?
hes someone i would think is super cool but then. would never actually talk to jkdsfhsdjkhfsdjk. he’d be nice to my face but i’m....not sure what he’d genuinely think of me oops
F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?
THATS MY FACKING BOY BABEYEYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! also excited bc i have angst planned ^____^
G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?
he’s too gullible and willing to trust strangers. he should know better but he’s too much of an optimist for his own good !!
H) What trait do you admire most?
he’s always able to put on a happy face when he’s feeling awful because he doesnt want anyone to worry & he doesnt wanna bring anyone down !! he’s always thinking ahout everyone else before himself
I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?
i dont know what this means..... yes??
J) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?
uhh technically not ?? in his original concept he was gonna be in a poly relationship with 2 others but i cut the other members of the relationship. not because of pascal it’s because i thought the group would get too big and like. they value stealth and sneakiness. plus it’s harder for big groups to travel undetected
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haydenjjames ¡ 6 years ago
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Dear Diary, Stuffed Animals
and two crushes 
I’ve just been lying here thinking about the stuff animals that I keep on my bed. I have a black dog and a white polar bear, I always referred to my black dog as Ben, he was named after one of my “crushes” it’s such a childish thing to call him, I was in secondary school when I met him. I don’t remember the exact day that I met him, but I will always remember him in French class, I don’t know why it was just that lesson that I remembered him, in after all I'm sure was in a few more than that. Regardless I think the reason I associated my stuffed black dog was to do with the fact that they both had black hair, however my dog’s hair has gone a shade of Prussian blue over time the black has faded away. 
Now my polar bear, now he never really had a name I’ve had both the animals, nearly all of my life but I never named them until I met the two boys as they were then. Anyways I named the white polar bear after my “main” crush. Jamie. I remember meeting him and instantly feeling something inside of me. For years I would think about Jamie every single day it became quite a concern, to myself at least, he was more of the typical jerk but he was always nice to me, but then again maybe he felt he needed to after I told him I liked him. But THAT is a different story all together. The thing with my crushes is that it was never ever a sexual basis of a crush I always wanted to just be around them because both of them made me happy. Jamie didn’t just make me feel happy, he made me feel safe, whenever he was near me or talking to me I always felt completely and utterly safe. I felt like nothing could hurt me. I think I have got off on a tangent, the reason I bring Jamie up is because I always imagined myself with him, but I never imagined us to be homosexual partners, now this is only because whenever I looked at him I never saw him as a man I saw him as something that completed me, he was everything I wasn’t yet somehow we were similar, I saw us as compatible. It never even occurred to me that what we would have /could have been would be wronging the eye of many as all of my friends at the time were so supportive and I was hardly ever picked on it wasn’t really until the end of my school life that I started being called a fag, what I saw me and Jamie as was right, I didn’t see us as something that shouldn’t have been, I just knew that it wouldn’t have been because I knew that he never liked me in the same way. 
It was about 2 years after I had left school that I decided that I was going to once again reach out to him and express how felt. I didn’t expect him to feel the same way, and he didn’t, reached out him to get my thoughts out of my head needed him to know how I felt, and to be completely honest I didn’t want to be constantly thinking about him as I didn’t see him anymore. It was becoming to much for me to constantly be reminded of him, it was time for me to let go. Here is how the message went: (it is quite embarrassing actually but never mind)
“If you don't wanna see some mushy shit don't read lmao. Just wanna get sommat off me chest is all. I just wanted to write you to let you know something's I've kept inside or at least I've tried to keep inside I just wanted to share some feelings I know how gay. I just wanted to say that for as long as I can remember I had the biggest crush on you. Now before you start thinking ew this fag wanted to have sex with me, for me it wasn't like that for me it was that you were the funniest, kindest most handsome genuinely friendly guy I'd ever met and I just wanted to be around you and to be like you know "with you" but given the situation I was in I knew it was never going to happen. And thinking back I'm okay with that I didn't have a choice I had to be! That's life I've never gotten what I wanted in that way. And the only reason I'm telling you this now is because I know that it's not likely that I'm ever gonna see you around so I wouldn't have to face you after saying this lmao! Please excuse spelling errors and you don't have to reply to this completely understand and I'm really sorry for this but I just wanna move past this and this is the only way I can think of to get it off my chest you know hope you understand sorry this is late lol”
Well, like I said how embarrassing, I haven’t a clue what he must have thought, he never replied and I am unsure how to feel about it, on one hand I'm happy because I didn’t have to discuss what I had just said but then the other hand I would have liked to have known what he thought about the message. I wanted to say so much more as there is a lot more emotions that cannot even put into words, Jamie will always have a space in my heart I think and to be quite honest with you I'm glad. He unknowingly helped me through some of the hardest years of my life, and although he’ll never read this or even know. I'm glad it happened. 
Hugs Hayden x
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Ep. 5 - “Survivor: PEOPLE WHO FUCKING PLAY THEMSELVES” - Mitch
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Conf #8 (Idk if you got #7 oh well) KAREN GOT ME FUCKED UP! She said we had the votes to get Stevie and yet here we are (Incase you didnt get #7 im worried about Jay Stevie Drew & Mitch in merge and i dont want to be fuckin wit that) and yet here we are I betrayed stevie for nothing and now I HAVE TO LIE ABOUT IT SOMEHOW!!!! HOPEFULLY HE JUST DOESNT SUSPECT IT
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Brandon: Thank you guys for keeping me Me: literally no one besides me wanted to target you shut up I kind of get why Charlotte said it because like Madison voted for her so other people could have voted with her too but like Brandon didn't get a single vote and when I brought his name up was immediately shut down so like he literally was never a real target, there's no need to  thank us and make a big dumb spectacle
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Hi, my name is Mitch McCombs and I'd love to be cast on Survivor: PEOPLE WHO FUCKING PLAY THEMSELVES AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THIS CHALLENGE. I THOUGHT I COULD DO THE HARDEST PUZZLE AND GO TO EXILE AND GET ANOTHER CLUE. Not only did I look completely fucking thirsty for idol clues, I probably just made Jordan Pines hate my guts sldkdslkds Exile Island? NUT. I nutted in public. People think I'm needy as fuck for wanting to go to exile and be alone, Jordan Pines knows exactly why I wanted Exile too. Christ I haven't blown up my own game this badly since fucking NEVERLAND when I took a self vote on a tribe I didn't have majority on. I'm so fucking stupid lkdflkdfss I cannot believe I've just been ravaged by a DUCK of all animals Hopefully I can actually GET a clue so I can SAVE my dumb ASS. Honestly never sign me up for Tumblr Survivor because I'll just keep kicking my own ass
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i knew the hosts weren't going to let me stay in the game much longer. i mean allison has me blocked THE HOST HAS ME BLOCKED. classy. where did I go wrong.. maybe i should have added some of their friends to my confessional chat? either way i didnt quit which i wanted to from the second i was added to the tribe chat. and i kept my integrity even thought the hosts lacked theirs. itll be funny to see which one of their friends win. 
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Now I know I said I didn't have much faith in our tribe winning immunity last round but this time I REALLY don't have faith since all of us admitted to being shitty at puzzles. Specifically...slide puzzles. If we do go to tribal though, at least I do feel better about what will go down since I'm actually in an alliance now. Or, excuse me, TRUST CLUSTER. We got myself, Ash, Gage, Billy and Steffen! Ash asked me if I was okay with working with Steffen and I'm okay with it as long as he's okay with it and we had this conversation once we finally got our chat put together. [12:58:50 PM] Steffen Bøhn: Im us finally being in an alliance together [1:00:03 PM] Van: Turns out the year 2016 still has some plot twists lmao So, hey! I'm cool with this and if we got the majority then I don't have anything to worry about. I'd rather not vote Kevin out if we go to tribal, and I'd be a bit more inclined towards Ashley. We'll see. Now I'm just gonna hope that I don't get a slide puzzle. 
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If I fuck up this challenge because I didn't bother communicating with my tribe about what puzzle I want to do because i already did puzzle 4 Im gonna scream
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Conf #9: PUNPUN KAJDNFFKSDJF They fuckt up, but this is all stars and just cuz u fuck up a challenge doesnt mean u are going. We are for sure going to tribal but uhm wish me luck ill say that
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oh GOODIE! So I get my wish and got a jigsaw puzzle for the immunity challenge! It was a bit tougher than I was hoping but it was good fun. Then about halfway through it, my fucking laptop crashes. I was honestly about ready to cry because I've already had a bad week and for it to end that way? Yeah, sounds about right. Granted, after my laptop came back to life, I went back to finish the puzzle and I wouldn't have beaten Sam anyway. She did that puzzle in like 30 minutes and it took me about 55 so, well, eep. ANYWAY, we lost the immunity challenge hardcore and we're off to tribal. Trust Clusterfuck is planning on voting for Gabriel, and the unnamed alliance of Ashley,  Rhea, Kevin, I assume Gabriel, and "Ash" (who's on our side) is voting for Steffen. Ash already shared the screenshot of them talking about it so hopefully everything goes smoothly and we have the majority to vote out Gabriel. Granted, I would've rather voted for Ashley but hey, that's life. And thankfully tomorrow I have my two finals here and then I'm more or less done with the semester! So if there's a clusterfuck of a tribal and we have to deal with the fallout of it, well, at least I'll have time to do that now as long as it's not me going tonight.
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Ew so we're going to tribal and of course I probably have another huge target on my back because they probably think I have an idol or w.e so I wouldn't be surprised if I got votes but hopefully Steffen goes!!
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So the first time I go to exile I'm a flop and never in my life I expected to get my ass mowed by a duck.
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I'm not leaving tonight and that's well but I'llbe fucked if I know who is 
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DEAR DIARY I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING WORSE THAN BEING IN AN ALLIANCE WITH BILLY BUT I GUESS ITS HAPPENING, I’m in bed with the literal devil and his friends, but hey, gonna make friends at least and if it keeps me in the game, Im good with it, so now what, I dunno but people are targeting Gabby and I’m fine, I just rather not die
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i am so excited to watch what happens at the other tribes tribal tonight, i know that some shit has went down with steffen and billy since kanto and they both want each other dead. How do I know that? because before all stars both of them requested me for premades to help get the other out. Naturally I agreed to both alliances, cause lying is fun. Either way tonight they are on a tribe together that is going to tribal, and i am excited to see what happens
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Confessional: ummmmmm holy shit? I just got to pick tribes and set myself up wonderfully in whatever position I decide to go with, and was able to solidify a core 3 between me Billy and ash, all while forming a secret alliance with Rhea? Iconique. Wellllll not for long unfortunately. Now that we're going to tribal council, I figured out how much Rhea is playing every angle of this game. I really wanted to work with her but I guess that can't happen now. She told me she wanted gabby out but now is telling others to vote steffen? I can't have that. I'm trying to flip the vote onto Rhea because that's just who I am and I hope everything works out? I hope she still loves me after this. Fun fact she was one of the very first people I ever met in this community (and Nathan Cooper WHY WASNT HE CASTED) and she showed how awesome everyone here is. She's one of the reasons I'm still here today and she honestly has had a humongous impact on the person I am today. Love you Rhea (heart)
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This is so god damn messy. Ok so we have our alliance of me Gage and ash. Which is part of a bigger alliance of me, Gage, ash, van and steffen. I planted the seed to send steffen home because why would steffen and I be working together? So they want steffen. We want Gabby. Well Rhea comes to Gage and brings up Gabby. Then comes to me and said Gage did that to her Gage just flipped the vote to rhea and I'm honestly crying. Like wow it's hilarious. Powerpuffs are killing it and I'm so happy.
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I'm supposed to make a confessional? Probably. Anyway Steffen's going home because Billy is petty, glad to know these are the type of people Im aligned with. I like Steffen, I really do, but I'm not making waves in the game just yet because honey he's unfortunately not important enough for my game. This alliance kinda blows though. Like, it doesn't even have a name. It makes us look like total...um, losers. And like, Im really loyal to like 1.5 of these people, which is Rhea and like half of Ash but I'm wary of ash because A: her name spells half of Ashley and B: she seems like part of ashley's crew. But um yeah. Ideally a good iconic alliance would be like...me, Gage, Rhea, and Van, but idk if Rhea's willingly to flip AGAIN so soon, so. I'm just gonna hope that I get reunited with Andrew again soon and we can start wrecking the game again. 
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I don't know why but I suddenly feel compelled to be a nice person (I know, weird, why would anyone in the PI series want to be nice). So I'm voting Gabriel out of pity and if I get caught I'll just say lol I was splitting the vote for y'all just in case :3c Billy I support being petty but I also have a soul most times!!!! So
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EVERYONE IN THIS DAMN GAME IS MAKING ME CRAZY!!! WHAT IS REAL, AND WHAT IS NOT?! I AM SO FRUSTRATED.... TRIBAL BETTER FUCKING GO MY WAY, OR ELSE I AM GOING TO HAVE A FUCKING FIT! 
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