#Lisa Huston

[lovestobake]

Cape Hatteras Lighthouse, Hatteras Island, North Carolina

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This Brown russet-colored gown is worn on Anjelica Huston as Rodmilla de Ghent in Ever After (1998) and worn again later on Martha Howe-Douglas as Mona Lisa in Horrible Histories: Radical Renaissance (2012)

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The Addams Family 🤌🏻

Backstory: The Addams Family was created by Charles Addams in 1938 until his death 1988. Originally he drew the family for The New Yorker which stared in a 150 single panel. Charles drew just about 1,300 Addams Family cartoons which all of them were published until the 1960s editor of The New Yorker stopped publishing the cartoons due to the first live action television show The Addams Family became popular. After the success of the show the infamous family has been developed into other shows,movies,toys,games and musicals that earned them awards.

The Addams Family(Comic magazine 1938-1988)

The Addams Family(T.V.1964-1966)

The Addams Family (T.V. 1973)

The Addams Family (Film 1991)

The Addams Family(T.V.1992-1993)

Addams Family Reunion(Film 1998)

The New Addams Family(T.V.1998-1999)

The Addams Family (Film 2019)

Wednesday (T.V.2022)

*Might get updated or create a new post.

[rwpohl]

phobia, john huston 1980

[jolieeason]

WWW Wednesday: March 20th, 2024

WWW Wednesday is a weekly meme Sam hosts at Taking on a World of Words. The Three Ws are: What are you currently reading? What did you recently finish reading? What do you think you’ll read next? Here is what I am currently reading, recently finished, and plan to read from Thursday to Wednesday. Let me know if you have read or are planning on reading any of these books!! Happy…

[thebutcher-5]

The Mangler - La macchina infernale

Benvenuti o bentornati sul nostro blog. Nello scorso articolo abbiamo parlato di animazione e questa volta abbiamo introdotto la Sony Pictures Animation e l’abbiamo fatto con un film molto interessante ossia Piovono Polpette. Flint Lookwood è un inventore e appassionato di scienza che vive nella piccola isola di Swallow Marina, un’ isola che sta attraversando una grave crisi. Lui vorrebbe aiutare…

[car1y-quinn]

Things I want to see in Wednesday season 2 part 2

Lady Gaga - she can be the new headmaster or something else. But she’s too iconic to leave out

Bring Weems back- I know it will discount her death but she’s too good of a character to get rid of

Anjelica Huston (Morticia 90’s Addams family movies) grandmama. Can’t leave out this queen!

Lisa Loring- (Wednesday Addams from the 60’s tv show) also a good choice for grandmama. But would just like to see her in there somehow

Wednesdays power to be delved into more- particularly I hope goody healing her effects her someway. And that she gets more powers or more to her power

To get a better look at Enid’s wolf form

Enid in a hybrid wolf form(this one is definitely more fanon but it’s my wish)

Enid and Wednesday to give each other cute nicknames

Xavier reconciles things with Bianca

Introduce another villain(probably the stalker)

Show more of the Addams family and the home

Pubert! - Please put him in! I know he was only in the movie but Wednesday having a baby brother would be so cute!

Have a scene be done in animation- like the classic cartoon or maybe Tim burton style, or something new and unique to the show

Flesh out Yoko and Enid’s friendship more

Delve into Enid’s family and her relationship with her brothers as well as her relationship with other werewolves in general

Weeb Enid- I need Enid fangirling over some geeky stuff. It’d be so cute!

[resting-distressed-face]

Sunday's Comprehensive List of Movies to Watch in the Fall

(listed in no particular order)

The Saint (1997)

Action/Spy movie starring Val Kilmer and Elisabeth Shue directed by Phillip Noyce

The Sting (1973)

Heist movie starring Paul Newman and Robert Redford directed by George Roy Hill

Three Days of the Condor (1975)

Political Thriller starring Robert Redford and Faye Dunaway directed by Sydney Pollack

Primal Fear (1996)

Mystery/Thriller starring Richard Gere and Edward Norton directed by Gregory Hoblit

Mona Lisa Smile (2003)

Drama starring Julia Roberts and Julia Stiles directed by Mike Newell

The Addams Family + Addams Family Values (1991 + 1993)

Black Comedies starring Raul Julia and Anjelica Huston directed by Barry Sonnenfeld

The Changeling (1980)

Supernatural Horror movie starring George C. Scott and Trish Van Devere directed by Peter Medak

The Harry Potter Series (2001-2011)

Fantasy series starring Daniel Radcliffe and Emma Watson directed by Chris Columbus (Sorcerer's Stone, Chamber of Secrets), Alfonso Cuaron (Prisoner of Azkaban), Mike Newell (Goblet of Fire), and David Yates (Order of the Phoenix, Half Blood Prince, Deathly Hallows pt 1 + 2)

Dead Poet's Society (1989)

Coming of Age Drama starring Robin Williams and Ethan Hawke directed by Peter Weir

[thevelominati]

I feel like I need to re-read it but my intial read was: no, thank you. Like, there are moments where Pepose seems to get the characters, but then the rest of the time it's just a total swing and a miss. The narration boxes just don't work, it's almost like Pepose is trying to lean into a Huston-esque portrayal of MK when the dramatism that Mackay's been leaning into just doesn't quite work with that. Yes, Marc is violent but that's not all there is. There are layers and depths to what he does and why he does it and Pepose just didn't really ... hit on any of those.

I'm also, like, really confused about his reading on the Badr-MK relationship. Maybe like, 10 issues or so ago in the Mackay run it'd have worked but not so much now .

Totally ignoring the existence of Greer lmfao

And I love Layla as a character but how she's been brought into the comics just doesn't quite work for me. I'm just really not sure on how we're supposed to read the importance of his relationship with Layla vs the importance of his relationships Marlene and Frenchie, and even Lisa! And the impact each of those has had on Marc and co. as a character and his personal development. It's just so weird to be told that Layla was so PIVOTAL to Marc's past and yet - for obvious reasons - that's not been shown once over the last forty-odd years of comics. There are ways to bring in a character and have them be important but, fam, this ain't it. This just ain't it.

GOD and "every night I try to forget". NO. the point is that Marc DOESN'T try to forget. he wants to make up for what he's done and that involves NOT forgetting what he's done. like, he kept hold of the files on both himself/his activities as a mercenary, his victims and the people he worked for FOR YEARS. he revisited them periodically in the Moench run, he re-visited them in the Huston/Benson run. He can't let himself forget what he's done!!

(Which is also part of why I'm not sure Layla's introduction quite works for me. The idea that her death led him to Bushman when it's always kind of been established that Marc was awful before Bushman and he didn't really need help into falling into questionable depths, and *then* his conscience was like LOL HOLD UP A MINUTE FAM.)

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So I just finished Wednesday...finally.

Only took me all afternoon yesterday and this morning. I really had my doubts going in. I'm not a Tim Burton fan in the slightest. Some of his movies were better than others, but most were boring, to say the least. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was the most god-awful crap I've ever watched. I was terrified he would "Burton-ify" The Addams Family. Thankfully, he did not.

The show itself is really good. It kept me guessing right until the end. There was some terms that were a little too childish. "Wolf out" just sounds like "throw up." As far as casting goes, I liked almost everyone. All of the kids were great. Most of the adults. Even Uncle Fester. Armisen almost successfully resurrected Jackie Coogan's Fester. Much respect. Lurch was...not important and certainly not tall enough. But again, not important. Morticia and Gomez? I'm not sure if it was a casting disaster or a writing disaster. Perhaps both.

There's nothing to hate about this iteration of Gomez, but he lacks what Raul Julia and John Astin brought to Gomez. Burning desire for his wife, family and life. Gomez is like a child on a sugar high. That was missing from this version. The affection towards Morticia felt forced and though he was exceedingly kind and loving, he was totally not the same Gomez.

I'm not going to sugar coat Morticia. It felt like I was watching someone cosplay versus act. Carolyn Jones portrayed Morticia as kind, loving, sensitive. Angelica Huston portrayed her as a mystery and a force to be reckoned with. Catherine Zeta Jones was just dry. Her dialogue was most of the problem. It was missing that flair and dark vocabulary. Even the animated versions had that.

Lastly, I will say that this version contained the best Pugsley and Wednesday. Pugsley has always lacked. This one was a lot more lovable. I'm sure everyone has the preferences between Ortega and Ricci's Wednesdays. Most of us grew up on the 90s Addams Family movies. I see Ortega's version as a more "fleshed out" version of the character. We see more of her skills and intelligence than we did in the original movies. We even see a little nod to Lisa Loring's Wednesday dance from the original show in the Rave'n dance scene.

In conclusion, Wednesday may be one of Burton's best, in my opinion. I eagerly await season two.

(And I swear to god if something happens to Thing again, I will lose it)

[ulkaralakbarova]

A team of U.S. government agents is sent to investigate the bombing of an American facility in the Middle East. Credits: TheMovieDb. Film Cast: Ronald Fleury: Jamie Foxx Janet Mayes: Jennifer Garner Grant Sykes: Chris Cooper Adam Leavitt: Jason Bateman Sergeant Haytham: Ali Suliman Damon Schmidt: Jeremy Piven Colonel Faris Al Ghazi: Ashraf Barhom Robert Grace: Richard Jenkins Aaron Jackson: Tim McGraw Francis Manner: Kyle Chandler Elaine Flowers: Frances Fisher Gideon Young: Danny Huston Ellis Leach: Kelly AuCoin Maricella Canavesio: Anna Deavere Smith Miss Ross: Minka Kelly Lyla Fleury: Amy Hunter Kevin Fleury: Tj Burnett Prince Ahmed Bin Khaled: Omar Berdouni Prince Thamer: Raad Rawi FBI Agent: Peter Berg Kidnapper: Sala Baker 35 Year Old Son: Ahmed B. Badran Janine Ripon: Ashley Scott Haytham’s Father: Nick Faltas Izz Al Din: Uri Gavriel Abu Hamza: Hezi Saddik Aunt: Yasmine Hanani General Al Abdulmalik: Mahmoud Said Rex Burr: Tom Bresnahan Earl Ripon: Trevor St. John Maddy Ripon: Sarah Hunley Range Rover Driver: Kevin Brief Pitcher: Brian Mahoney Reporter: Merik Tadros Suicide Bomber: Hrach Titizian Reporter: Sean Donnellan FBI agent: Markus Flanagan Inner-Circle: Anthony Batarse Special Forces Officer: Gino Salvano Kidnapper: Eyad Elbitar Passport Officer: Nick Hermz Self (archive footage): Osama Bin Laden Self (archive footage): George H. W. Bush New Reporter: Robin Atkin Downes Self (archive footage): Saddam Hussein Self (archive footage): John F. Kennedy Self (archive footage): Larry King Self (archive footage): Colin Powell Self (archive footage): Ronald Reagan Film Crew: Director: Peter Berg Screenplay: Matthew Michael Carnahan Producer: Michael Mann Director of Photography: Mauro Fiore Editor: Colby Parker Jr. Editor: Kevin Stitt Costume Design: Susan Matheson Producer: Scott Stuber Original Music Composer: Danny Elfman Producer: Tim Smythe Executive Producer: Sarah Aubrey Executive Producer: John Cameron Executive Producer: Ryan Kavanaugh Executive Producer: Mary Parent Unit Production Manager: Steven P. Saeta Casting: Bruria Albeck Casting: Amanda Mackey Casting: Cathy Sandrich Gelfond Production Design: Tom Duffield Assistant Editor: Kris Cole Stunts: Zoë Bell Stunts: Sala Baker Art Direction: A. Todd Holland Supervising Art Director: Patrick M. Sullivan Set Decoration: Ronald R. Reiss Visual Effects Supervisor: John ‘D.J.’ Des Jardin Stunt Double: Shauna Duggins In Memory Of: Nick Papac Stunts: Sherry Leigh Stunts: Layla Alexander Stunts: Doug Coleman First Assistant Director: K.C. Hodenfield Associate Producer: Maria Williams Special Effects Makeup Artist: Quin Davis Makeup Department Head: Bill Myer Hairstylist: Barbara Lorenz Hair Department Head: Roxie Hodenfield Makeup Artist: Deborah La Mia Denaver Hairstylist: Deidra Dixon Makeup Artist: Michael Germain Hairstylist: Lisa Bertuzzi Makeup Artist: LaLette Littlejohn Key Hair Stylist: Melissa Forney Hairstylist: Jeffrey Sacino Second Unit Director: Phil Neilson Second Assistant Director: Jeff Okabayashi Supervising Sound Editor: Gregory King Sound Designer: Yann Delpuech Special Effects Coordinator: John Frazier Special Effects Coordinator: Burt Dalton Stunts: Kaily Alissano Stunts: Daniel Arrias Stunts: Greg Anthony Stunts: Jon Braver Stunts: Brian Brown Stunts: Chino Binamo Stunts: Eric Chambers Stunts: Jack Carpenter Stunts: Douglas Crosby Stunts: Max Daniels Stunts: Gokor Chivichyan Stunts: Steve Dent Stunt Double: J. Mark Donaldson Stunts: Eyad Elbitar Stunts: Paul Eliopoulos Stunt Double: Eddie J. Fernandez Stunts: Glenn Goldstein Stunts: Tad Griffith Stunt Driver: J. Armin Garza II Stunts: Nick Hermz Stunt Double: Chris Guzzi Stunts: Alex Krimm Stunts: Mark Kubr Stunts: Michael Hugghins Stunts: Theo Kypri Stunts: Krisztian Kery Stunts: Nito Larioza Stunt Driver: Aaron Michael Lacey Stunt Double: Brian Machleit Stunt Double: Jalil Jay Lynch Stunts: Anthony Martins Stunts: Eddie Matthews Stunts: Anderson Martin Stunts: Damien Moreno Stunts: Roman Mitichyan Stunts: Aladine Naamou Stunts: Aryan Morgan Stunts: Robert Nagle Stunt Driver: ...

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Booklist Review - A Bit of Luck

Huston we have a review! W00T! Very excited to see the Anthology I’m a part of is well recieved. Lisa Mangum did a wonderful job putting it all together and it is encouraging to see so many writers come together for a good cause and to honor Eric Flint.

[alexlacquemanne]

Septembre MMXXIII

Films

Hitchcock (2012) de Sacha Gervasi avec Scarlett Johansson, Anthony Hopkins, Helen Mirren, Toni Collette, Ralph Macchio, Jessica Biel et Danny Huston

La Cage aux folles (1978) d'Édouard Molinaro avec Ugo Tognazzi, Michel Serrault, Michel Galabru, Benny Luke, Rémi Laurent, Carmen Scarpitta et Luisa Maneri

Arrête-moi si tu peux (Catch Me If You Can) (2002) de Steven Spielberg avec Leonardo DiCaprio, Tom Hanks, Christopher Walken, Nathalie Baye, Amy Adams, Martin Sheen et James Brolin

La Grande Illusion (1937) de Jean Renoir avec Jean Gabin, Pierre Fresnay, Erich von Stroheim, Marcel Dalio, Julien Carette, Gaston Modot et Dita Parlo

Ed Wood (1994) de Tim Burton avec Johnny Depp, Martin Landau, Patricia Arquette, Sarah Jessica Parker, Bill Murray, Jeffrey Jones, Lisa Marie et George "The Animal" Steele

Madame Sans-Gêne (1961) de Christian-Jaque avec Sophia Loren, Robert Hossein, Renaud Mary, Léa Gray, Gianrico Tedeschi, Marina Berti, Enrique Ávila et Julien Bertheau

L'Éternel Retour (1943) de Jean Delannoy avec Jean Marais, Madeleine Sologne, Jean Murat, Junie Astor, Roland Toutain, Piéral et Jean d'Yd

Y a-t-il un flic pour sauver la reine ? (The Naked Gun: From the Files of Police Squad!) (1988) de David Zucker avec Leslie Nielsen, Priscilla Presley, Ricardo Montalban, George Kennedy, O. J. Simpson, Nancy Marchand, Raye Birk et Ed Williams

Le Journal de Bridget Jones (Bridget Jones’s Diary) (2001) de Sharon Maguire avec Renée Zellweger, Colin Firth, Hugh Grant, Gemma Jones, Jim Broadbent, Shirley Henderson, Sally Phillips et James Callis

Le Procès Goldman (2023) de Cédric Kahn avec Arieh Worthalter, Arthur Harari, Stéphan Guérin-Tillié, Nicolas Briançon, Aurélien Chaussade, Christian Mazucchini, Jeremy Lewin et Jerzy Radziwiłowicz

Boccace 70 (Boccaccio '70) (1962) de Federico Fellini, Luchino Visconti et Vittorio De Sica avec Anita Ekberg, Peppino De Filippo, Romy Schneider, Tomas Milian, Sophia Loren et Luigi Giuliani

Séries

Happy Days Saison 2

Richie déménage - La Nouvelle Voiture de Richie - Une fiancée envahissante - Richie est amoureux - À vos ordres Richie - Le Fantôme est de la fête - Alors Richie, raconte ! - Richie surveille sa sœur - Un beau magot - Fonzie au théâtre - Un Noël sans famille - Une soirée habillée - Fonzie va-t-il se marier ? - Le Voleur - Richie et la politique - Minuit en caleçon chez Arnold - Le Scoop - Qui êtes-vous Dorothée ? - Jamais quatre sans cinq - Des pensionnaires encombrants - Richie disc jockey - C'est beau la confiance - Chicago, quelle aventure !

Castle Saison 3

Dans la peau de Nikki - Abracadabra ! - Une nouvelle piste - Grosses Infortunes - Aveuglement - Piégés - Menace sur New York - Cruel comme un soap

Inspecteur Barnaby Saison 12

Meurtre sur le green - Toiles assassines - La Guerre des espions - La Mort au bout du chemin - Crimes en grandeur nature - Le Monte-en-l'air - La somnambule

Coffre à Catch

#131 : Jack Swagger champion + Hommages à Bray Wyatt et Terry Funk - #132 : Y'en a marre du Boogeyman, non?? - #133 - LE PIRE DES EPISODES! - #134 : Swagger VS Finlay : ce qui est bien mais pas top!

Affaires sensibles

On a tiré sur Bob Marley - Une campagne de pub inédite : « Demain, j’enlève le haut » - Le voyage de Khrouchtchev aux États-Unis - Commissaire Guillaume, Commissaire Maigret : quand la fiction se substitue la réalité - Paris la Nuit : Dans les caves et les cabarets avec les enfants de la Libération - "J'irai cracher sur vos tombes" de Boris Vian alias Vernon Sullivan - Il était une fois Walt Disney… - Peur sur la ville : les lettres empoisonnées de l’œil de Tigre - Pierre Goldman - Greenham Common, des femmes contre des missiles

Downton Abbey Saison 3

Mariage à Downton - Un dîner à l'américaine - Au pied de l'autel - Le Chemin de la perdition - Quand le destin frappe - L'Insoutenable Chagrin - Une nouvelle ère - Secrets et Confidences - Un château en Écosse

The Rookie Saison 4, 5

La Fête des mères - Remplacement au pied levé - Quitte ou double - Choix professionnels - Ici et d'ailleurs - Le choix - Le fugitif - La déposition - Tir croisé - Le collier - La répétition - La liste - Guerres de gangs - Avis de décès - Le flic sexy - Condamnation à mort - Un plan risqué - Double contamination - Le cheval de Troie - Panique dans le multivers - Arrêt sur image - Droit au but - Liquidation - Masque de la honte

Commissaire Dupin

Terrain de mésentente - Sœurs ennemies - Poison blanc

Kaamelott Livre III

Le Chevalier errant - L’Aveu de Bohort - Le Magnanime - Le Porte-bonheur - Séfriane d’Aquitaine - Le Combat des chefs - Le Déserteur - La Potion de vivacité - Le Sanglier de Cornouailles - L’Ankou - Ablutions - La Poétique première partie - La Poétique deuxième partie - Les Derniers Outrages - Guenièvre et Euripide - Unagi III - Le Fléau de Dieu II - Cryda de Tintagel - L’Ivresse II - Legenda - Le Renfort magique - Silbury Hill II - Le Professionnel - Les Suppléants - La Nuit du nomade - L’Assemblée des rois première partie - L’Assemblée des rois deuxième partie - L’Arche de transport - Les Cousins - Le Trouble - Le Tournoi - La Pierre de Lune - La Pythie - Les Cheveux noirs - Dream On - Feue la poule de Guethenoc - Le Repos du guerrier II - Les Affranchis - Les Clous de la Sainte Croix - La Corne d’abondance - Morituri - Le Dialogue de paix II - Stargate II - L’Abstinent - Aux yeux de tous II - La Potion de vérité - Le Petit Poucet - Haunted II - La Révolte II - Perceval chante Sloubi

Top Gear Saison 22

La fièvre du vintage - La course des Tsars - S.O.S Urgences - Road Trip en Australie - Les imbéciles changent d'avis

Emma

L'Entremetteuse - Malentendus amoureux - Quand les cœurs chavirent - L'Heureux dénouement

Spectacles

Joyeuses Pâques (2023) de Jean Poiret avec Nicolas Briançon, Gwendoline Hamon, Alice Dufour, Claire Nadeau, Muriel Combeau, Pascal Elso, Raphaël Duléry et Sophie Artur

Folle Amanda (1974) de Pierre Barillet et de Jean-Pierre Grédy avec Jacqueline Maillan, Daniel Ceccaldi, Jacques Jouanneau, Françoise Fleury, Sacha Briquet, Jacques Dynam, Pierre Saintons et Nicole Chausson

Livres

Une enquête du commissaire Dupin : Les marais sanglants de Guérande de Jean-Luc Bannalec

Astérix, Tome 21 : Le cadeau de César de René Goscinny et Albert Uderzo

Le seigneur des anneaux, Tome 2 : Les deux tours de J.R.R. Tolkien

Spirou et Fantasio : Tome 34 : Aventure en Australie de Philippe Tome et Janry

[thebookofagma]

Chapter 2

I remember a daycare in the woods... A daycare off highway 7 on our way to Excelsior from Waconia Minnesota. It would take a while to walk there, though as the crow flies it was actually pretty close. Into the woods on a long winding dirt road that seemed endless, to a house that lay in the thick of the forest. The forest was alive. Squirrels and birds bounced from tree branch to tree branch in blurs as fast as sun flickers from light coming through the tree tops. Sometimes it felt like the forest was breathing, pulling us in. A big white mini van was the chariot we took to that house everyday. Hmm... or was it a tan van.

I remember my dad trying to take me out of the comfy car seat as I kicked and cried for my mom to be the one to take me out. Wow. Even as a small child I was showing signs of selfishness and a lack of empathy for my father. Into a dim lit garage that swallowed us, down 13 steep stairs into the basement of Barbra Fransdahl's basement.

Barbs facial features resembled Ms. Trunchbull from the children's movie Matilda, her body as well only with a short hair cut and a modernly dressed. She shared the same temper as Ms. Trunchbull as well. She had a round figure to her. The type of body one gets from being sedentary. When she spoke to the children's parents there was an underlying tone of reticence. It would take a keen ear and a lot of time with the woman to hear the un honest laughs she would feed the parents. White, in her late 40's early 50's and the wrinkles to prove it. Her eyes were gray blue and looked as if the person behind them had went through pain, knew pain well, but also filled with rancor.

To this day in my life whether I was adequately punished or abused from the ages of 2-5, but from my research, trauma can have that affect on people. Especially kids. Trauma is unique to its owner. A person who skateboards all day, like Nyjah Huston, can fall down 15 stairs and feel no anxiety or trepidation at all. Now, if you mother fell down 15 stairs balancing on a piece of wood she might feel some apprehension towards falling and heights for a while afterwards. Unless your mother happens to be Leticia Bufoni. My daycare experience was traumatic for me, and Barb was the first human that ever scared me in my life.

There were 6 other children. Kyle and Erin. A brother and sister that were attached by the hip. A very odd, messy looking boy named Jacob. Along with my two best friends Mitchell and Lisa. A girl two years older than us. Alison. We were "pretend" married. We would pick dandilions for each other, kiss, and get fake married on barbs homemade playground. Mitchell's mom worked with my mom. Im guessing that's where my parents got the idea for the daycare because Mitchell was from Minnetonka.

To a parent, outside appearances made the daycare seem like a perfect little cozy cottage in the wood, but as we know from most fairytales, inside behind closed doors of the cottage in the woods is where the problem lies. There were very odd rules at the daycare like the kids not being able to flush the toilet after use. Which was odd, because she made all of us line up and use the bathroom at the same time. Whether this woman wanted to save on utilities or take our pee to pass drug tests for an unknown probation officer, I don't know. Either way you look at it, Barb had some deep seeded, old fashion psychological problems I couldn't begin to get in to.

All the other children served time outs on the steps, which was as rare as an eclipse, but my time outs were in the closet. Dark, dark, darker. So dark anything could've been in the shadows. The cement cracked basement floor felt like fire and ice on my tiny hands and feet. Seconds felt like minutes and hours felt like weeks. I always hoped to see my dad come through the closet door and save me, but nothing would come but anxiety for me in the corner of the storage closet.

Analyzing everything now I know that we all have days where our chest tightens, where triggers are around every corner, lurking in shadows where darkness spills into heavy breaths. To any ordinary person anxiety is a devastating thing. No matter how many times you tell yourself to "breathe," to remain calm, you feel like a ship with no sails in the middle of a storm. A three year old child in a closet for 1-2 hours. You hopefully can only imagine. I felt as if I was caught in suspension.

I remember flushing the toilet once after five kids had went in front of me. The next instant I was being dragged across the room like a rag doll by my left arm and whipped to the stairs hitting my head against the steps as Barb screamed in my face "what the fell is the matter with you?!" Once I snuck out during nap time because I couldn't sleep. "Boom, boom, boom!" A sound I never forgot. A warning that Barb was coming from the upstairs, where the kids couldn't go, to the basement where we stayed. I tried to run as fast as I could back to the room where the girls shared a king sized bed and the boys slept on cots on the floor. Again she me by the left arm again, threw me on my stomach and hit me twice on the back of my head with the end of a broomstick.

Later on in life I exaggerated the beatings to girlfriends to get sympathy but the truth is I didn't have to. What happened to me was traumatic for me, plain and simple. Maybe I exaggerated things because nobody ever believed me and I wanted other people to equally understand my pain, but I don't have to anymore. This honest auto biography will give exposure to my traumas, and little by little this exposure will help my trauma and anxiety lose its power. With the only remedy I haven't tried. Complete honesty, and a therapist in the near future. For once, this book is also for me.

pages~ 8, 9, 10, 11

[sesiondemadrugada]

Newness (Drake Doremus, 2017).

[killachuckychuck]

4 women that had my heart growing up.

I think there’s a pattern....