#Like. Even if you know ur parent or someone with power over you wouldn't hurt you. Logically.

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whats in canon (fucking nothing) versus the logical results of the situation that I know of bc I'm interested in how ppl recover from the trauma abuse, how that's reflected in fiction, and am specifically interested in cult abuse and recovery as well

Anyway Suguru, almost definitely unintentionally, created an INCREDIBLY scary dynamic between him and Mimiko + Nanako.

He rescued them from an incredibly dangerous and abusive situation in which they were essentially led to believe they were going to be killed (1a BY HIM)

Before rescuing them he massacred an entire village.

They were taught that because they were sorcerers, they were inherently evil/dangerous. Suguru gives them the complete opposite- they're inherently Worth Something because they're sorcerers, and everyone else is not a person

He killed a person in front of them. Did he explain why beyond "not a sorcerer"?

This makes being sorcerers integral to their identities. Also, the general consensus is that children tend not to have a fully formed identity/personality until roughly age 8-10. This isn't like hard and fast rules but it's something to keep in mind since Mimiko + Nanako are like. Five or six. When being exposed to Suguru's eugenicist beliefs

they probably have an understanding that Suguru saved them Because They Were Sorcerers (whether or not that's exactly true him seeing them was definitely a step in his radicalization) so like

Anyway you're living with a dangerous unstable young man who is a Murderer and who values you Because Of What You Are and believes people not like you + him are Evil Incarnate

You also feel like you owe this guy your life because like. He did save you. And he tells you that you're not evil and didn't deserve to be abused (with the subtext being the only reason you didn't deserve it was bc you were sorcerers)

Like I don't wanna say Mimiko + Nanako are totally off the hook for Believing In Eugenics but. This is an incredibly different situation than Suguru's radicalization

I feel like Suguru. Doesn't process how fucking scary he is. Because he's the 2nd/3rd strongest sorcerer (idk where Yuki ranks. Suguru kinda sucks so I'll say he's 3rd) and hes constantly comparing himself to fucking Pretty Much A God On Earth Gojo Satoru so. Yeah everyone is fucking weak compared to him I guess.

Basically I'm saying that first Suguru doesn't realize that just because he's a far second/third the fourth strongest sorcerer is probably waaaaaaay behind him so like. He's canonically given the rank that means "yeah they could fuck an entire country if they wanted to"

He does not make exceptions for family

Anyway. Even if he never would've hurt Mimiko and Nanako, which I believe, he shouldn't be fucking allowed to raise them.

Idk if they were doing anything similar beforehand but the fact he was Willing to declare war on jujutsu tech. Beyong the "us vs them" of sorcerers vs ppl who Aren't, there's the "us vs them" of Cult Members and Believers vs Other Sorcerers. And those other sorcerers are, before his near death realization, FAIR GAME

What I'm saying is I think subconsciously (bc consciously they love and kinda worship Suguru) Mimiko and Nanako lived w the idea that Suguru could and Would kill them if they went against him

Cults are abusive and the fact Suguru made/took over a cult. And then raised his kids in the cult. DEATH PENALTY

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Helloo </3 🤗 can I just first say that that u are realy talented and i love reading ur fics...

Could I please request a platonic fic between Lady Lesso and Never reader where Rafal is after the student and she changes and becomes mean and starts acting out... At first Lady Lesso gets angry and tries to punish her but then she finds out Rafal is troubling the reader, just anything angsty and hurt and comfort... maybe u could make it that the reader came from an abusive family and that's why it was hard for her to tell someone about Rafal... U can change any details to ur liking...

Thank u </3 🤗

Manipulative Bastard

*Authors note~ really I mean who really likes Rafal? But I can appreciate how much of a important character he is to the plot*

Trigger warnings~ manipulation past abuse

Prompt ~ see ask^^^^^

The first time he appeared you were terrified. You didn't know who he was, he seemed to know exactly who you are tho. The only instruction was to not mention his appearance to anyone, he would tell you things from the past or what was current. Why would this stranger lie? You tried to argue at the start, looking for any reasonable explanation for his words but you came up empty. You felt compelled to do as he wished. Even though it felt wrong, you followed his every word.

Your behaviour was changing and that much was obvious to everyone. You couldn't take the pressure, the things he was telling you hurt yet all you could do was bottle it up until you lashed out. Your past coming back to haunt you, you were stuck in this horrid catch twenty two. On one hand you wanted to tell someone but you didn't want to risk angering the man, he seems scary and powerful. In your experience with men, you were nothing more than a toy. Something to use and abuse as they deem fit. If you did as they wanted then they would more than likely go easier on you. Truthfully, you couldn't deal with that pain again.

Lady Lesso, noted the dramatic change in your behaviour and couldn't work out while you changed. This wasn't like you, your shy plaint nature had been replaced by this defiant, angry student. Truthfully, she wanted to help you and get to the bottom of this issue. Your misbehaving had gone too far today, that's why she ordered you to be taken to the doom room, if you hadn't willingly come to her then it was apparent she would have to force it out of you. She knew your past so she wouldn't be unnecessarily cruel but this needed to stop.

She gave you a speech about how she was disappointed in this behaviour you were exhibiting and how confused she was by the change. You felt tears stinging your eyes, knowing that you'd disappointed her hurt, lady lesso had become a sort of mother figure for you and now knowing you'd upset her really bothered you. Suddenly it all became too much and you snapped, rambling about everything Rafal had said and how scared you were. He flaunted his blood magic and told you all the ways he could hurt you with it, told you how no one in the school truly cared for you. How you're own parents didn't even love you, the only one who could truly love you was him.

You broke down as you finished your explanation, finally feeling like a weight had been lifted off your chest and you could breathe again. Leonora was quick in her efforts to come and hold you, whispering words of comfort and praise, she knew first hand how scary it was to go against Rafal. "Hush dove, he's a manipulative bastard, I won't let him hurt you darling. You should've come to me love. You did the right thing telling me,I'll keep you safe now my dove" she murmured stroking through your hair. She held you until your tears dried noticing how your shaking didn't subside and your eyes seem to glaze over as you starred in the direction of the only window.

"Is he here my dove?" She murmured watching as you nodded before his voice rang out through the room, "Leonora such a long time it has been, you may have taken my pet but we both know it's unlovable just like you. I'll be back and I will win" he all but growled before leaving. He was gone. But the words he said were confusing and they hurt. Did people really see you as unlovable? It would explain why you've been treated so poorly most of your life and by the people who were meant to care for you from day dot.

Leonora held you until you both felt calm the words of comfort not only reassuring you but also herself. She wouldn't let him hurt anyone and she knew that she would do anything to protect anyone from his manipulation. She's only regretting not being able to save her little dove. She saw you as her very own adopted child, if your parents weren't going to protect you how they should be then she was going to make damn well sure she stepped up. You'd never be alone again, left susceptible to anyone else's warped ideas and methods of using you. Not with her around.

Word count~ 907

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I bet if ever the kids get sick, which I suppose wouldn't happen too often, either Wukong would be the panicking "OMG my poor babey" or the totally chill parent while Macaque panics

oooooh boi i had fun with this one.

Hehe so lets take a look at the parents

one is a seven times over immortal who's only family in EONS has been an immortal god. he might have been a scholar at one time but in modern days she has NO IDE what kind of new diseases or treatments there are, now she could look it all up but that would send her into a 5am spiral down google.

"NEZHA HAVE YOU HEARD ABOUT-" "FATHER PLEASE ITS 5AM YOU DONT NEED TO WORRY ABOUT EVERY OBSCURE AND RARE ILLNESS GOOGLE SHOWS YOU"

Meanwhile, there's Macaque, he is immortal yeah, I also hc when he was on Ffm he helped take care of the young ones but those were all either monkey DEMONS or regular monkeys.

Ofc bc of this he knows how to take care of bb Mk best and why he wants to be his babysitter so badly in the beginning. (look he needs something to do other than plotting revenge. he needs a fucking life and someone other than his ex-(turned partner again) in his life)

then again just like wukong he has no idea what new ailments or diseases have sprouted in the time hes been dead and alive again. he's more aware then wukong is but still, he has no clue if what the kids got is either a common cold, a stomach bug, or something that will end up killing the kids (it wont)

Nezha is immortal but not as immortal as wukong

Mei is mortal-but does live longer bc of the whole dragon thing (she might be immortal bc of the samadhi fire but i have no clue)

Mk is also a mortal(?????) no one actually knows bc of the whole "swk's powers" thing. so its like is he????? did he get ur immortalities or wat????

but because of this Macaque and wukong basically have the same reaction.

they freeze up, they panic for a moment. wukong emmedialty fears the worst and macaque just has no fucking clue what to do, even with mk he just doesnt know what to do. Macaque wants to help but what if he does something wrong? what if he makes it worse? what if he hurts them? what if he makes the little one cry? what ifwhatifwhatifwhatif.

ofc nezha is always there to snap those two out of it, even if hes sick. he'll throw a pillow at them and tell them to snap the fuck out of it. then the younger ones start throwing pillows too and suddenly it's a pillow fight and ohmygod their all idiots/ pos.

sooo yea macaque and wukong panic for a moment but once they snap out of it they do the normal sick stuff but one rule nezha has set in place "do not under any circumstances google it unless i tell you and I swear to the gods if you so much as think about using bing instead"

when Mk and mei were young and wukong and macaque were new to this whole thing they would take the kids to the doctor every time despite nezha insisting its nothing serious and that they just need something to eat, some warm blankets and some rest.

after nezha was proven right time and time again they listened to him finnaly and now they only go if nezha deems it necessary.

after the intitial panic though wukong SPOILS THEM. she will give them anything and everything they need and desire. she will faun over them and make sure they want for nothing while sick, sometimes macaque and nezha needs to stop wukong from getting/making something obscure bc one of the kids in there feverish state requested it.

i cannot tell you how many plushies mei has collected because she was sick and wukong jumped on his nimbus and came back with three in hand and a big smile on her face.

Mac is the more calm one after the panic, hes in the kitchen making something for them to eat (because if wukong tries to put candy or random fruit in the chicken noodle soup at mk/meis request again he will be the sick one) hes doing the laundry with the sick kids clothes, he's taking their temperature. (because wukong will not understand how it works) wukong is the emotional support and macaque is the one who gets the kids what they need while nezha guides the two. please he might be the older brother but they're the parents here.

Mk usually needs someone to snuggle with when he's sick, he doesn't like being alone when he's sick so one of them, usually mei. will snuggle up with him and hold him. even when he's older he grabs one of them and drags them to bed.

Mei is actually the one who got sick the most, and its because of the samadhi fire ring inside of her. its not so much sick as it is a form of heat stroke. of course its not as fatal to her but when she was young, even with a seal over the ring that wukong placed after the fire her little and young body couldnt control the heat of the ring and she would heat up much more then the average dragon. she was burning hot to the touch, wukong and nezha were the only ones able to touch her because she would get too hot. this was one of the only times wukong wouldn't panic because he knows the cause and how to treat it. they basically run a bath of cold water and they cast some ice spells. not normal ice that would melt immediately. so instead they keep filling the tub with magic ice, don't give her anything hot to eat and she'll be fine within the day. when mei gets older (24) these heat strokes slow down more and more and now that mei constantly uses her fire to beat up bad guys the excess magic buildup that caused the strokes no longer happen. She's barely gotten another stroke like that in the past seven years, it's only happened like three times.

Nezha....you'd think because he has the braincell he'd take care of himself better "I'm fine" "I'm fine "I have things to do, paperwork to finish" "(some random god) requested a meeting and I have to-"

"go to bed"

"go to bed"

"go to bed"

"go to bed"

If it was up to nezha he would be efficient during his sick time but nooooo, the only way to get him to fuckin relax is to throw his little siblings at him, they pull some puppy dog eyes shit and then hold him and they all fall asleep together.

one thing that happens all the time after a sick day is that everyone crawls into the same bed with the sick one in the middle and they fall asleep in one big cuddle pile.

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To the one that got away:

It was winter when she first came to picture, I was just an ordinary guy that worked abroad didn't know what to do no goal, ambition, or even dreams if I can consider it, Was making money but I can't feel satisfaction while doing it soulless and partially lifeless in the process, before I came home I was in a long distance relationship with someone from France and everything worked out just fine but eventually we lacked personal intimacy, to the point that were not even trying to communicate with each other just went with our days without even saying "Hi" or "Good morning" to be honest I thought that she would be the one for me and I'll be the one for her, I was greatly mistaken to have thought that, because if u truly wish someone to be with you till your last breath it must have the right amount of perseverance, the strive to push forward and not to quit and fight! One day we came to an agreement that the thing we have isn't working out anymore, so we broke up decided to be friends, just like that in a snap of a finger she was gone and so am I.

I know that it's rough on both of us but on the other hand it felt that the chemistry wasn't there anymore so it's better to leave that be.

After a month I decided to focus more on my career first since I'm waiting for my agency to call and kick me out of the country again but with a new job on a cruise ship around Us and Europe, while waiting i knew that my brother knows a lot of people here in the Philippines that has a company related to my forte so I asked him

"Man do you know anyone in the industry looking for a waiter?"

He told me that there was one here in Batangas and she was a good friend of his.

"yeah I know a place just a 5 min drive from here"

So I was excited cuz I'm going to work my ass off and forget what has happened.

So there it was "TRICIA'S" name of the workplace my brother told me about, and on December 17, 2019 I started there as a waiter, it was an open house bar kinda rowdy but in a good way but damn do these kids party hard! My shift was from 4pm to 4am and it was messy as hell always but I had fun in the process.

Then that faithful day came to place, all the stars were aligned and the soothing falling of leaves was upon me, I didn't expect any less from that day than any day cause for me it was just goin to turn out as an ordinary day, but then u came and I saw you with my best friend. 🙏 well I couldn't care less at first if u talk to me or not, but the first time you shut me down is when you were passing by my side I thought that u are going to get a menu off the bar, and I was psyched and told myself "now's my chance to like give her the menu and make small talk" Then u said "No" off the bat cuz u were just going to grab that box of tissue, boo me assumer! Then I remembered u were with my best friend so time to show off I think? Like provide them with the best service possible, bring the drinks on time, food must be hot, bucket of ice must be full all the time, no delay in anything like to the fullest service a server can give them, after all was served I was shocked that u said Hi and Hi again and again complimented my cologne called me by my nickname which wasn't really needed, I was shy just making a grin of my mouth just to show her I'm not bothered, but I'm to the fullest extent cause I already asked for ur name, checked u out on Facebook through my best friend that's why I was shy.

The u guys left. And I asked my bff

"should I add her on FB? What ya think?"

She replied with so much enthusiasm

"Gooooo! Add her, she wants to be friends with you also"

And boom it hit me like the biggest meteorite just punched through earth, I was so overwhelmed and cannot wipe the smile of my face that morning.

I'm not normal I can say that proudly in a good way of course, but if someone overwhelmed already with the thought of his/her crush wanting for them to be friends and then out of nothing she says that do you want me to bring you coffee, that would be the most awesome thing that would happen to you, you'd probably be smiling for the whole day like legitimately smiling at everyone with the upmost feeling. For me coffee is sometimes is more important than people but for what she did LFU!!! And she brought me my coffee that morning and she insisted on bringing it , on that day she already got me.

Time passed and things were going accordingly, perfectly some bumps along the way, but we were happy and contended to what we had and a few dates, I remember on the night before Christmas I was supposed to give u your present and you stood me up because of a party your family held and I understood that situation of yours, kinda sulk tho that we didn't get to meet but one of my favorite memory is when you asked me out on a date and it was Christmas, you got to meet my parents also sorry if your hills was soaked in water cuz it was pouring heavily that day. We ate at "Romantic Baboy" a Korean restaurant with unlimited pork skin, chicken strips and cheese on the sides, and you know what's my favorite part of that particular day? Is when I took a picture of you smelling a rose and thought to myself that I don't want this to end may the universe hinder us from us but I'll fight with my last breath to preserve what we have and what else will happen. Then I fucked up.

Scribbled words, nauseated, anxious, crippled, out of way, bothered, stressed,fretful,fretting, disturbed, agitated, irritated, apprehensive, to the point that I don't even want to look at myself in the mirror so disgusted to what I did, execute me if the universe wants to, the feeling of overly doubting my self worth was inevitable, brought to me by my own decisions that messed me up entirely.

Wondering what happened haunts me in the most gruesome way possible. So here it goes, I lied to her big-time which I didn't know that it was possible since I did it already not multiple times but only ONE THAT GOT ME REAL FUCKED! Is when I received a message from my longtime best friend from way back as kids, 20 years to be exact . On the message she told me

"when are you going to show urself I haven't seen u in forever"

Then I was shocked cause normally she wouldn't Pm (Private Message) like that in the past, then I told her.

"one of these days when I'm not busy cause of work"

Then she asked about my love life and u were the first in my mind so I told her about you.

"there's this girl that I'm seeing, my other best friend introduced me to her and she already met my parents last Christmas then we ate outside and we had a great time"

That's what I said then I also told her to help me find a perfect present for you.

Then on December 27, 2019 I told you that I'll be visiting a long time friend with a kid and I didn't tell you if it was a girl or a boy cause I don't want you to get angry at me but then again I should've told you that in the first place. When I was there at her house since we were long time friends we had a great time also with the kid in the picture, happy and overwhelmed at the same time, then her mother came down gave me a hug and greeted me welcome home or back to the phil, cause she hasn't seen me for over 4 years I think. After the the greetings my best friend told her mom that I'm seeing someone which is you. Well I didn't expect that she would be sly about it and drop your name so casually, so I just came right through it and said yes I'm dating this girl and she's wonderful, but her mom told me that r u taking things way to fastly you just got out of a relationship, I told them that also I was off with someone before I met you. So after they told me not to deepen anything with anyone yet, assuring that I would not get hurt cause for them I'm family also, cause her dad was the godfather of my brother that's why our families was close still to this point they are.

Then the next day came I went again to her house because I was having fun playing with her son and missed talking to her a lot, because in the longest time I had a crush on her and knowing me I couldn't seal the deal from before, but this time I thought to myself maybe this is it when she'll notice the man i have become, and you passed my memory, in me saying that I'm dating this girl and why should I break her heart? Did u deserve to be treated that way Nooooo! In fuckin million years no! But I did anyways. Without even consenting my best friend, myself and most importantly God. I messed up 😭

So then it happened the happiest'sh and the worst'sh decision in my existence trampling over someone that didn't deserve any hardships cause you were the most beautiful soul ever seen. Yeah I misunderstood the fact that she'll replace you over and over again because of the thing we had in the past like 20 years of friendship over something that just happened recently was a very wrong thought to even deliver in a person's mouth crippling fear came over me I didn't know what to do my life was in chaos lost in the path, I part take wishing it all away silently murmuring to myself that if had the power to change it all I would, I was blinded really blinded by that stumbling and staggering in every situation possible, even with work I wasn't happy anymore so I left, it's not like me to leave unprofessionally but I did cause it broke me down to my core knowing that I did something to hurt the most, I don't know if it's faith that we met or just me knocking on the door of heaven praying and longing for someone to bump in my life and there you was. But I was too blinded by the fact that I thought that she'll be the one to save me but you were there standing without flinching and with the unyielding love that a human person can give to another and I wasted it all away. Knowing that we were supposed to go to an amusement park, and guess what? That Jan 3 was the day destiny punched me in the face for me to tell you what I got in stored deep inside the dark and deep corners of my heart which was hard to let it out, but I was willing to get out of my comfort zone, break boundaries and say what I really mean.

But then again it didn't happen because of me. But why is that I don't have a perfect checklist of good things in life and almost all of it is on the bad side, really looking inside I didn't have any intention of hurting you, but when I came to see you coming from manila was one of the blurriest decision I've made cause I was going to fix everything but was still blinded, so I did see you but what I said that day when we were inside the car was all true, you mean the world to me but how dumb can a human be maybe I'm the epitome of that, knowing her and thinking she was the one was greatly poor on my side, some people are worth suffering for and I'll suffer for you anytime of the day, week, year or anywhere.

Saying this honestly you are the one with a pure heart on the other hand she also has but like only in a normal state and I thought she was a diamond but day by day she turns to coal slowly breaking and burning me in the process I don't blame her for that but knowing her I didn't expect that a shallow river is bound to drop over me and drown me, because in your eyes I saw a girl swimming in a vast ocean with many things to look after but was calm about it, and composed in a way that anything can turn out good and without harms way. Simply saying that u r different really different in a good way of course.

The self realization made it clearer than the brightest day, clarity filled up inside,b the blindness was cured and I can see far from what I saw before straightforward only walking in one path never turning right or left staying on a pace that'll last, growing abundantly in each other's presence. point here is i really know that u are the perfect illustration a right decision

I hope and pray eventually time will get us to see and feel that something happens for a reason, it's not just the way it was given but on the way it ends and begins again, hoping,praying, begging, pleading, that when that time comes even if it's on a reciprocal I will greatly cherish it and give it as grace without asking for anything in return like a river splashing water on the ground with the little weed sprouting through time, it doesn't have to be the entire ground but the important parts only, perfect timing, right alignment of stars and even if the wind blows strongly or a single rain drop I'll always bring you close by my side and wanting you to stay beside me. I just wish in time we would see each other in our arms again.

And to the one that got away.

Looking back to those days we were so happy I really wanted to tell you how much you mean to me, and the simple things u did, like looking at me with those mesmerizing eyes and the captivating depth and clarity it shown, the way you cling was warmth beyond any parka or furred jacket I've worn before saying slowly while you hug me that you'll never let go. And the way you pull your hair back showing roaring waves but calms me up to the core while the strands of your hair graze my face tingles my curiosity to kiss you in the forehead. And I never felt an urge every time you kissed me on the cheek and while you ask me to kiss you back was the sweetest tune my ears can imagine like angelic figures playing the harp or something like that. And the way we used to drive with ur friends feels like ecstasy having fun and in a euphoric way, I like seeing you laugh a lot, curse a lot at people, things or anything cause im not finding any wrong in that, because that's who you are and what you represent. Also the times we had so much fun singing those songs you recommended me. And to this particular song which made me see you in whole different level, cause you were the first one who dedicated something for me, those giggles that both of us shared is more important the . The unparralled and unrequited feeling that those gestures are simply producing, but what I say is the manifestation of genuine love is you.