#LOVES TO BLAME BY FK&C

[hiddenvioletsgrow]

its either disgustingly sad breakup songs or suicide squad album/the most aggressive hype music you've ever heard

[darkravenclaw]

hey are we only now romanticizing ballet? damn it. i spent 12 years in ballet and i stopped dancing two years ago. why now? come on someone get me a time machine!!!! i need tell my 15 year old to not quit ballet because my grades were declining. please someone. time machine!!! 

okay but i seriously love ballet; i don’t just suddenly love it out of a sudden because of dark academia don’t get me wrong. i spent 12 years in it; it’s my life and i let it go.

[ac3id]

Too Love.

everyone really is whipped for dabi lol i mean cant blame him who doesnt want to fk this burnt homeless man. 👁👄👁

yandere! dabi x reader

warnings: suggestive themes, captivity 

word count: 964

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part 2: a or b

Days were looking up for the league, from staring as just another terrorist organization that the heroes deemed ‘were going to be easy to handle’ to being feared by heroes and citizens alike. Missions were successful, they ruled the undergrounds and soon they would conquer the land above. As days went by the original members of the league gained popularity, people feared them, despised them but they couldn’t have done anything against them. The people were weak and as the rule of heroes slowly shattered, everyone became vulnerable to these beasts.

That being said, Dabi believed that in this rotten world no one was ever going to show him an ounce of affection, but when you held his hand gently and cast your spell to heal his broken wrist- his cold heart fluttered. Maybe you were just doing your job, maybe you were just this gentle with everyone who came here. There might have not been any underlying intentions to you soft displays of affections but that didn’t change a thing for him. He had fallen head over heels for you. 

To him, you were an enigma. 

On the first day, he had brought you home- you had a mental breakdown. You were scared, you hid in the closet until Dabi found and pulled you outside. 

Your quirk was rare and very effective. You had saved countless lives in the past and he had his eyes on you.

 You were terrified. 

Dabi had found you hiding in the closet, knees pressed to your chest. He had pulled you up from your hair and laughed at your face for being so pathetic, he told you about how you were going to be his personal caretaker and how he could do anything he wanted to you. You were terrified at first you want to ever get associated with a man like him but slowly it took a toll on you, you started listening to his wishes, healing his wounds like he had asked you too. Sometimes he tried to take the conversation further prying on your personal life in an attempt to get you to open up to him. But, you kept to yourself. Always. 

Slowly, Dabi got irritated by your antics. His patience grew thinner it didn’t take a lot for you to tip him off and he would explode, you grew scared of him. You avoided him, didn’t look him in the eye. 

All of this, lead to your doom. 

“Y/N?” Dabi called out, he had returned from an exhausting day at work and all he needed was to be with you.

“Hi,” you say nervously tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. He walks up to you, “How are you, baby” he searched for your eyes, and the moment the turquoise blue orbs locked with your [e/c] ones you looked away, staring at the ground instead. His stare was too intense for you. 

Dabi internally rolled his eyes as you avoided looking at him, his tongue poked his cheek as you answered him. “I’m- I want to go home-” Dabi groaned, he roughly grabbed your face and arched it upwards. He was so much taller than you, your neck hurt the ache grew stronger but you couldn’t get yourself free from his hold.  His fingers squished your cheeks and brows knit together as he looked down at you. His turquoise eyes grew darker, rage, and arousal pooled them. You felt heat rise to your cheeks as he leaned in closer to you, his nose brushing against yours.   

“How many times,” Dabi pushed your back against the wall, cornering you as harsh words left his mouth, “do I have to tell you? Don’t care about those losers. I am all that you need.” his hand left your jaw and settled on your collarbone stroking your skin. “Such soft skin, Y/N,” he called out again. Your mouth was agape and your body felt hot. “I want you, do you want me?” 

His thumb rested on your bottom lip and you looked for words to respond with.

You cannot believe what you were hearing, Dabi wants you? You never would have thought something like that instead, you thought he hated you. He was always mean to you, bullying you, embarrassing you. Was he serious? 

As his eyes bored into your soul and thumb dipped him your mouth time to time, you started thinking about him. 

He’s not so bad, he’s always been nice to me- maybe I should let him.

Deep down you knew that you should have said no but, you were far gone to care so you peacefully submitted yourself to him.

You nod your head but it isn’t enough to satisfy Dabi. “What was that?” he asks again, this time his thumb strokes your cheeks rubbing soft circles as he stares your delicate form fondly. “y-yes.” You stutter out your answer and see his lips curling upwards engulfing into a mischievous smirk his hand falls from your cheek to your chest, he gropes your tits through your shirt and you squeak, his free hand slips under your chin and tilts your face forward as he leans in his lips connecting yours,your tongue dipping hesitantly into his mouth. He kisses you roughly. You feel yourself getting hotter, you moan into the kiss and notice something hard poking at your thigh. You pull away from the kiss to breathe, panting you look up at Dabi who’s smiling in bliss, “You look so beautiful like this,” his hand which previously groped at your chest slithers down until he’s cupping your crotch. “I can make you look even beautiful.” He whispers in your and softly nibbles on your earlobe. Your breath hitches as he starts rubbing your clothed cunt. You are left breathless as you let him use you, knowing the fire building up inside you could only be extinguished by him.

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[yamlog]

feeling better after sleep. sometimes i wonder if i am too intense. do i feel too much? will i die young because of all my emotions eating away at my bones and tendons? something about a bigger fire burning out faster. but i don’t think i am a candle burning at both ends. 

and then i wonder if the reason why i wasn’t wanted in the first place was because i am ‘too much’. but i have been reminded that it’s subjective. maybe i’m not too much, maybe he is too weak, with his birth chart full of air and water, but no stability and no drive. i am reminded that i have always stood on my own two feet, fought and won all my battles, carried on and flourished in whatever environment i’m put in. i am also reminded that right now, i am accepted fully by someone who never thinks i am too much. this is thus solid proof that the problem is not me. maybe seeing anyone as a ‘problem’ is incorrect to begin with. of course ppl who care for me will see him as the problem, saying he lacks A B C all the way to Z. but i can’t really see him that way? because of love goggles. so it is not productive to see any one person as the problem. that’s wishful thinking - wishing for a simple problem-identification and problem-solution.

last night i had a dream about a story my friend told me about her grandparents. her grandpa had been hoeing around their tiny village for ages, most notably with his wife’s best friend. the whole damn town knew because HIS SHOES WERE LEFT OUTSIDE THE HOUSE. but the wife did not know until her husband DIED. and when her best friend came to visit the body to pay respects, she was distraught and she whispered something in his ear (but tbh why talk to a dead body? the soul has alr left??). and that was when her grandma sensed that something was amiss, and she asked around, and everyone was like ‘huh didn’t u know this? we all thought you knew and tolerated his infidelity because after all, you’re best friends?????’ fk, and her grandma WENT BALLISTIC at the funeral. she went and had a FIGHT with her best friend and pulled her hair and screamed and everything. 

now, i am not saying that i can understand how she must have felt because obviously the situation is not the same. but i can only imagine. if i take my feelings and magnify them by 500% percent, maybe i can start to approach the horrible hollowing nauseating feeling of betrayal. and i don’t ever want to feel that. reading about stories like this, it never feels real. like there’s a protective buffer separating your feelings from the actual horribleness of the situation. you go ‘ah okay that sucks’ as if it’s just something in a kdrama. but in person, any kind of betrayal feels earth-shattering. even when it’s in primary school and your friends threw you under the bus in front the teacher to make you the scapegoat, or when it’s in jc and your cca friend steals the guy you’ve been crushing on for ages (not my story, but my friend’s, and she has never loved again ever since. it has been 8-9 years, and honestly i don’t blame her). i think what i need to do is just to acclimatise myself to the fact, prepare for the likely future, and remember the self-questioning techniques my friends used.

okay, so what if she wants his dick? is it irreplaceable? no. is she a better person than me? from her actions, obviously not. does it matter if he thinks she’s better than me? meaning, does his opinion truly matter? no. is it my problem? no. are his problems my problems? no. is his choice of partner in any way a reflection of my worth? (tbh sometimes i feel like yes a bit but IN MY MIND I KNOW the answer is) no. am i weak or stupid for crying/ caring and wanting him to care? yes but also, no. i’m human, and i can’t force myself to heal, and i deserve to take all the time i need.

it’s surprising what a good support network can do to you when you have a brain full of self-sabotaging thoughts. 

i think thoughts are thoughts and can’t really be changed, much like feelings. but as i have also been told, you are defined BY YOUR ACTIONS not your thoughts. everyone has unkind thoughts and negative feelings. everyone, even the pope. but if you control your actions, and control what you say to people, and control your impact on others to make sure you don’t affect them negatively, it’s okay. because the point is that despite your inner thoughts and feelings, you are actively and consciously making a decision to control yourself and do no harm. 

[daemon-knight]

Allen’s Rambling: Amazing Person Award

✨💛 This is the Amazing Person Award! Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you're amazing inside and out 💛

So... I got this message from Aster awhile ago, and after (more or less) surviving the blunt of some scheduling issues at work I finally have some time to do this little chain letter. Of course, me being me, I figured instead of sending these out to people I’d make a Rambling out of it. Consider this a promo in a way, I feel it’s better to publicly let these people know how I feel than just send a chain letter. 

Now, I didn’t have eight people to tag since... well, I’m a picky little bastard and all when it comes to who I write with, but yeah, let’s get started Allen’s Amazing Person Award/People Your Should Follow List... thing.

@waywcrdsouls

So I gotta’ start with the one that gave me the message in the first place, Aster. I have a lot of fun RPing with them. I’ll be honest, I was raising my eye at first when I first followed them since Alien OC blogs were real big at the time, but I’m impressed by not only how faithful they’ve stayed with their world and characters, but make them so enjoyable to both write with and read. I’m honestly surprised by the amount of thought Aster puts into developing Syn’s world, background, powers, and character development. I have no idea how they do it. I’m attempting to do world-building stuff in two stories I’m writing and it’s a pain for me to think up certain things. Aster has a talent for that sort of thing that I don’t possess. 

And Syn’s a fun character to both interact with and read. We decided to make them rivals as a pre-established relationship thing and I’m so glad we did. It’s not everyday your greatest rival/crush is an alien from a far off galaxy. And they play a decent Reimu too. While I personally doubt I’ll go back to the Touhou RPC for personal reasons, I wouldn’t mind being Sanae back just to interact with Aster’s Reimu.

Oh, but fair warning before following Aster, they like spinach as a pizza topping. Yes, that is disgusting, but if you can get over their OBVIOUSLY INCORRECT preference of pizza toppings, then give this guy a follow.

@uncorruptedchampion

If you were to ask me which my favorite character relationship between all the people Claudia has interacted with was, I’d say Rei’s Nero without a second thought. I love the fact that Claudia actually has a mortal enemy she hates and I’m so thankful to Rei for giving me the dynamic of demon knight and holy woman I’ve wanted. Real talk, I love writing conflict and dramatic encounters, and Nero guarantees that. Claudia might hate Nero with a blinding passion, but I love it when these two cross each other. It really let’s me play up the demon part of Claudia’s moniker. Nero’s probably the only person Claudia will cuss out without a second thought and I can’t get enough of it. Maybe Allen’s a masochist or something?

Also, out of curiosity, I did try my hand at Corruption of Champions a few months back to see what it was about and get an idea of the world Nero came from, and... Lord... 

Oh Dear Lord...

Oh Dear Lord Almighty in Heaven Above, that is a GAME right there. 

Oh Sugar Honey Ice Tea, that’s a +18 game if I’ve ever played one. How the hell Nero kept her virginity in that world I’ll never know, nor do I want to. Yeah, Rei wasn’t kidding when they said that was a NSFW game. That... that was a new experience right there. I’ve been tempted to give Fallen London a peek too, but... C of C has kind of made me wary now. Rei, how you finished that game I will never know...

@kyushukishin

I honestly wish I knew Vick in real life, I really do. I think we could drink cola together in a soda bar somewhere on the countryside and probably have heavy discussions about writing and whatnot. While I’m not as vocal as they is, we do share a lot of opinions in terms of how RPing is done on tumblr. One of these days I’m gonna’ have to really pick their brain about a few things in terms of RPing and writing just to see how our thoughts align and differ. 

And Hanako, man. Vick put in research I wish I put into my Japanese-esque characters back when I was RPing them. Seriously, this guy makes me wish I kept Amber as Kohaku and just bucked up and did my research on Japanese stuff. Honestly makes me want to redo my old Rambling on ethnicity. Admittedly, I know Vick more from my interactions with my delinquent character than Clauds here, but I recommend them all the same.

@soulwitch

You’d think given my hate-boner for OP characters and general bitching about power levels I’d hate writing with a character that was essential a universe-destroying witch. Well... I don’t blame you all for thinking such, but Jeanne is probably the one exception I’ll make, and maybe the only one too. I can’t really explain it myself, I just like how entertaining she is as a character. The charisma, the arrogance, it’s all good stuff to me. Taking an ‘all powerful airhead’ approach to an intimidating character isn’t knew, but it really works for Jeanne. 

Admittedly, I haven’t RPed enough with Jeanne-mun for any real plot or conflict to happen, but I’m looking forward to plotting something. Maybe bringing back Titty War for real this time? Who knows, only time will tell.

@verfolgxr

YOOOOSHIIIIIII!!!!

Man, Chaser, it was a blast from the goddamn past seeing you on my dash again. When Aster gave that promo and I saw you’re blog I HAD to see how things were going. Haven’t seen you since I left the Falcon Knights blog. 

Ah, but old partners aside, Chaser is probably one of the few people to actually intimidate me as a writer. Okay, intimidate isn’t the right word. Chaser makes me... question how I portray my characters, as since how seriously I take them. I make it no secret that I don’t tend to take my own (RP) characters too seriously. This is usually because I save the seriousness for when I do actual story-writing, and to keep myself from getting obsessively attach to my characters. 

And... well, Allen is a shounen-obsessed action whore, so... y’know.

But anyway, with Chaser and reading some of their stuff for Yoshi, I... feel like I disrespecting their approach with my own. The thought put into Yoshi and all Chaser’s characters is something I can really feel the heart in, as dark as some of those developments get sometimes. Back when I was still active on the Falcon Knight blog I felt so bad for how serious Yoshi took her relationship with FK while the two members she was closest to didn’t act the same way. It was in character, but it honestly torn me up on the inside a little.

My misgivings aside, Chaser’s a great RPer and recommend all you guys follow them.

@solemnspear

I... honestly have nothing in depth to say about Imu-mun. While I’m personally not familiar with Legend of Mana, seeing Imu’s character makes me wanna’ try the game out somehow. 

I think Imu and Claudia have a good dynamic, both warriors of high skill, both favoring a spear, both lesbians. I think Imu’s more abrasive and blunt nature would balance out Claudia’s friendly and polite nature... when she’s not in Demon Knight Mode anyway. And... y’know, another lesbian spear warrior is always welcomed. Allen’s also a yuri fanboy trash after all.

@cyansurvivor

Anyone willing to do this shit with me is a person that needs to be cherished, loved, and followed. That is all.

@lyccris

And last, but definitely not least, Glyph. Like with Chaser, I feel a bit intimidated by Glyph the same way I do with Chaser... well there’s a bit of a difference. While the heart behind Chaser’s writing intimidates me, the power behind Glyph way of writing Anima honestly makes me hesitate to plot with, despite having a whole AU based around their relationship of knight and empress...

Wait, calm down folks, Allen ain’t gonna’ bitch about power levels here, honest!

Jokes aside though, I specifically mean Anima’s position of power compared to Claudia’s intimidates me. Glyph’s writing aside, my intimidation here is for more mechanical reasons that just Allen being a shy guy. I researched a good deal about knights a few years ago, but I didn’t get much information on their direct interaction with royalty like Anima, so keeping Clauds in character around her is a bit of a challenge. Now I can obviously just do the research now, but... well, work’s been sucking my life away at the moment and poking as Aster, Rei, and Imu-mun with Claudia’s big spear is a bit easier than poking Glyph. 

Anyway, I enjoy reading a lot of what Anima does, and seeing someone competently write someone of power always interests and impresses me. Go give this one a follow!

I know I’m technically missing one more person, but again, I’m picky with who I interact with, so... I’m a little high and dry in that regard. And... I have to admit, calling you all by your mun names feels really weird. Like, now I know why we use to call people [Muse]-mun a few years back. This feels like I’m being way too casually, and I’m the guy that’s purposely using Allen as an alias.

Anyway, give these lovely people a follow and tell ‘em Allen X sent ya’!

[cutieodonoghue]

I just realized your title of your blog is in reference to FK&C and my love for you just soared even higher. What's your favorite song by them? I love Priceless, but I also love Love's to Blame and Run Wild. (and if your title isn't in reference to FK&C then this is awkward lol)

Aw! yes I love them! And that’s what my title is in reference to haha I love all of their songs but I would have to say Priceless is my favorite. I just think it’s so valuable and important! 

[athena-jackson]

Mystic Messenger Mixtape

THE LIST IS HELLA LONG. First: the “why?”

So I like listening to music in my car every time I drive to work or school.  I even do a little karaoke.  Yet, ever since I played Mystic Messenger, I can stop paying close attention to the lyrics of the songs playing on the radio and relating them to the characters.  Many songs fitted the profile of various members of the RFA that I started texting @draerys about it.  Little did we know that a few months later we had to erase our WhatsApp conversation because we needed space for a Mystic Messenger update and all the songs we shared were taking space…

So… a few days ago, I saw a post from @sinfulinsecret listing songs that fit to Jumin’s persona. (I FK 💜 that list. So sexy)  Anyhow, @dra and I decided to post our list.  

DON’T TAKE IT TOO LITERAL.  These songs reminds us of Mystic Messenger, either because part of the lyric relates to a character, the feeling of the song fits his or her persona or HECK! even the whole song.  

There are links to the videos so you can listen to the songs.  Many of the videos have no relations to the reason why we chose the song.  They are wack😂

▼LIST STARTS BELOW▼

Death of a Bachelor, Panic! At The Disco – Jumin

Lifestyle of the Rich & Famous, Good Charlotte – Zen talking about Jumin

First Date , Blink 182 – Yoosung, our baby, on his first date LOL

Heathens, 21 Pilots – Saeran takes MC to Mint Eye on Bad Ending Day 1

The Reason, Hoobastank - Seayoung 

Animals, Maroon 5  - Zen always talks about the beast inside him🐺

Cold, Maroon 5 – When MC resets the game and goes for another route

Demons, Imagine Dragons - Saeyoung

Don’t Wanna Know, Maroon 5 – MC plays another’s route

Payphone, Maroon 5 – V to Rika (What he should’ve said to her)

Girls & Boys, Good Charlotte – Jumin and what he dislikes in women

God Must Hate Me, Simple Plan – Jaehee (the title is funny)

Hungry Like a Wolf, Duran Duran – Zen (😈)

Gold Digger, Kanye West – Glam Choi and Sarah 💅🏻💰

This Summer’s Gonna Hurt…, Maroon 5 - Jumin fighting his father’s GFs

Take Me to Church, Hozier  – Saeyoung

Gives You Hell, The All-American Rejects – Jaehee quits C&R

I Feel It Coming,The Weeknd ft Daft Punk–Jumin/Saeyoung after endings💦

That’s What I Like, Bruno Mars – Jumin changed the pancakes for 🍓🥂🍾

24K, Bruno Mars – Jumin (every time he enters the C&R building) Jaehee:😒

Lazy Song, Bruno Mars – Yoosung (Reason why Jumin called his mother)

Shape of you, Ed Sheeran – Zen (I though of Jumin bc of the bedsheets smell)

I Don’t Wanna Live Forever, Zayn & Taylor Swift – Saeyoung

Maps, Maroon 5 – A Character flirts with MC in another’s route

Love Somebody, Maroon 5 – Jumin confessing his feelings to MC

Radioactive, Imagine Dragons – Saeran (to the new age of Mint Eye)

Daylight, Maroon 5 – Saeyoung (After Ending)

I Bet My Life, Imagine Dragons – Saeyoung and Searan

Chains, Nick Jonas – Jumin’s Bad Ending 😈

Love Me Harder, Ariana Grande & The Weeknd – Yoosung trying to be a man

Suit & Tie, Justin Timberlake – Every women fantasizing over Jumin

Treasure, Bruno Mars – Zen flirting with MC

Shut Up and Dance, Walk the Moon – Yoosung on his first dance

Can’t Feel My Face, The Weeknd – Zen💋 doesn’t considers it a problem

It Was Always You, Maroon 5 – Jumin changes after admitting his feelings

Counting Stars, OneRepublic – Saeyoung ✨⭐️

Weak, AJR – Yoosung. He’s weak and what’s wrong with that! 💚

Glad You Came, The Wanted – Zen and MC at the rooftop 

Blame, Calvin Harris – Zen (Reason he doesn’t want MC to stay late) 🐺💋

Unsteady, X Embassador – Saeran (we need to hold on to him real bad)

Love Me Again, John Newman - V with Rika

Sucker for Pain, Lil Wayne – Saeran

Mercy, Shawn Mendes – Saeyoung

Stressed Out, 21 pilots – Saeyoung and Saeran

Just Hold On, Louis Tomlinson & Steve Aoki – Saeyoung

Dota, Basshunter – Yoosung with LOLO 🎮

Love Me Now, John Legend – Saeyoung after ending

You don’t Know Me, Jax Jones, Raye – Jaehee (I’m sure she has another side)

I Kissed a Girl, Katy Perry – Jaehee (Cliché… I know)

Chained to the Rhythm, Katy Perry – Jaehee feels chained to her job

Solo Dance, Martin Jensen - Jaehee goes solo on Fridays, if she could

I Love It, Icona Pop – it’s a break up song, but Jaehee imagines doing the same with Jumin when she quits lol

Can’t Fight This Feeling, REO Speedwagon – Saeyoung

OMG! Finished.

Any suggestions?