#LIKE mans crazy i cant T.T

[rbdbrainworms]

what is he ON abt right now oh my gooood

[brilliantfantasticgeronimo]

SIKES! PART 2!! the dr will be here until the heat death of the universe babes. trekkie plans postponed indefinitely.

gallifrey vibes

water is life…

her name is.... brindle slkdfjdlkjfldkjflksdjfdskfjd COMBO BREAKER

so much death that literally memory is dying. oof. the Social Commentary of that

(bet the man was the master)

a city that began with a b… ???barcelona??

diamonds! bingo check!

a SPOON. cry. this is so doctor who. 12/7 approved.

"and i forgot" oof. "from child to mother" oof

universal broadcast moment!!! check!!!

MEL CUDDLING WITH THE QUESTION MARK SWEATER . i CRY

"cultural appropriation" sdlkjfs well at least we're aware of it

ruby like pls doktah im so tired of watching the fucking pyramids of mars.again. dont u have anything else. dont u have some eccleston in there.

(maybe the rogue's ship is a memory ship as wlel?) bc of all the random props)

"best time of my life" t.t

sutekh driven crazy bc she doesnt know the secrets. relatable.

"you are absolutely human" mmmmmm

("it's keeping us alive bc it wants to know the awnsers" the meta of "the gods are the writers torturing the humans" intesifies")

oh noooooooooooooooo not melanieee

JACK!!!!!!!! SDLKJFDSLK OHH THE DOCTOR CANT LOOK AT THE FORBIDDEN LOST EPISODE

IM SCREAMING IM SO INTO THIS

compulsory dna testing for the whole population sdkljfsdk that sounds… worse than nukes ngl??????

"love a whistle" eyebrow raise

omg all the tardis keyssss

"but guess who invented the security" hehe. mel's smile at that-

"sutekh's servants could be anywhere" badum psss

(i think 15 knows?)

tliteral tv remote moment again……………….

"i loved you mel" "what good did love do, doctor? when did it eve help?

mel is playing him. she has to be. pulling a 4th doctor.

damn look at that bling. fashionable dog

mom???????? YESss- oH NEVERMIND

dslkfjsdlkfjsdfsdf

a-ha! i knew he knew!

haha. get great big fuckoff laser'd. bitch.

FIFTEENTH'S THEME YEES

(oh everything working out but there's still 20+ minutes. one fear)

sdlfkjsdlkfjdsfsdf get yanked bitch

(and this is what rtd wanted donna and fourteen to go through in the title sequence???? slkfjdklf)

DEATH + DEATH = LIFE. YEAH WHY NOT THIS MAY AS WELL HAPPEN

double negatives save the day. reverse the polatiy of the death flow.

GENERAL IS ALIVE YESSSS

carlaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! cherry!!! mrs flood you can go on to be creepy yesssss

kate holding hands w/ ibrahim? oh? sdlkfjsd rip ibrahim x general guy otp???

why am i crying about brindle's mom wtf . T.T

in fighting mosnters we mus tbe careful not to become monsters,,,

"i am the one that brings death" oof. metal.

still 14 minutes left mmm

kate wtf. stop hiring everyone u see wtf lkdsjsdfkjlfd

YOUR GRAN WAS TELLING ME OFF FOR NOT DUSTING

"you brought her home" TOT

IT'S HER IT'S KRISTEN TYLER FROM THE CHIPS STORE

she's a nurse"!!!

"she was important because we think she was important" bro im weeping wtf. wtf

rtd u did it again u bastard

i cry t.t

um ok but there's still 10 minutes left….

hahaha. dont touch the baby rooose realness

ohhh 15 like "im pointless now" moment????

500 HUNDRED PHOTOS

ruby dressed as david bowie omg

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa T.T

"of course you will" next season babe!!

bitch he didnt say. HE DIDNT SYA IT BACK. WHERES THE FUCKING THERAPY NOW FSDJFSD

iris? iris??? IRIS??? IRIS??????????? MRS WILDTHYME??????

"doctor who will return" bitcH WHEN

CONCLUSIONS!!

bro idek i cried so much. im distraught. NO MORE NEW ODCCY WHO UNTIL... DECEMBER (???). HOW WILL I LIVE. anyway. 1 take between my tears: this is always the most athesit way u can do "gods are real" storytelling and i love that about russel's style srsly. really need to watch the second coming sdlkfj but from what i've heard it is literally this. and also in torchwood and nuwho obvs. we made the gods, not the opposite. our lives are important bc we make them so, not for any instrinsinc thing. and also connects to ~storytelling theming bc we are all stories in the ~~end. but if we're lucky ppl will still think of us and keep us alive. bc "memory is a time machine"..... anyway. cool ep. back to crying.

empire of death thoughts+reactions part 1

previously onnnn (super short sdlkfj)

HOP ON, COWBOY

sdlkjs morris a literal 13 year old having guns on his lil' scooter thing.is UNIT ok.

omg even the vlinx TOT

the birds will sings again!!!!!!

dust of death mmm delicious alliteration

"im sorry there's nothing we can do. we're dead" vibes

loving this action sequence ngl

WATCHA TALKING ABOUT

maybe is not [insert character]. maybe mrs flood is just an old lady who is Like This.

"my true name" "ur true maker" whats her true maker if not RTD!!! / clowning

"we've got worse problems" that's gonna come back to bite him skdfljdskl

does anyone remember the clara / 1 paintdoktahwho comic "dont take that one. take the tv"

thats what im thinking ot

(askdjlad UGH my iplayer stopped so i refreshed and while skipping to the place i think i spoiled my self for susan ?? TOT sutpid internet stupid preview skipping thumbnail function grrrr) im not a tardis smasher in general but the memory tardis….. would. maybe

"remember it harder" i would be a useless companion here tbh. memory of a goldfish.i would doom the earth.

IT'S A TV SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S TELLING THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE

I MADE A JIGSAW OF YOUR HISTORY SDKLFJSLKJF

AAAAAGHHH

sdflkdfj sutekh spining in the vortex. 2 cute

the temple……….. tardis as the thing in the hill meta INTENSIFIES

"so many secrest" um TIMELESS CHILD FUGITIVE MEMORIES FOBWATCH????

oh ok i jut got spoiled for the clip OF susan sdlkfjdskl FALSE ALARM FOLKS

"never yours again, never"

my angels of death………………..

"i find that good" i feel they did this same exact phrasing once for a "death is beautiful" monster like this but i cant remember which story?

also, flux? flux anyone? 13 vs entropy itself?

"i am an extinction event" OOF

(oh this clicks on why the doctor clings sm to living / immortality despite how much it hurts)

memory is a time machine TOT idk but that Hits Harder

"sutes" dlkjfslfk cute

"and doesnt it feel good?" holy shit

yayy mel's not dead yet

MEL GRABBING SIX'S COAT IM FINEIM FINE IM FINE

(idk why but that's what's made me cry slkfjsd)

"ruby roo" sdkljsfd

lasdkj if a regular tardis is 6 people driven then a memory tardis is probably meant to be piloted by every single doctor and companion ever

"meleanie b" TOT (doctor trait unlocked: when 15 is stressed he intensifies on the cutsey nicknames)

CHEKOV'S INGELLITEN GLOVE !!!!! damn i thought for a second about putting that on my bingo card but didnt skldfj

i like that the subtext of "when disaster comes, he's there" / "the tardis is an ommen of death" & "he has one constant companion… death" isn't literally being stated as being "sutekh did it lol" lol cause that would feel a lil cheap. i think instead rtd took a smarter choices of keeping that subtext, but keeping it that stricly speaking what sutekh did was just putting the susan copies everywhere.

73 yards……………

omg wait so in a memory tardis u can remmeber anything to existence………….. what if heiimagines susan at the end

(MOLECULAR BOND ROGUE CALL BACK?)

73 yards…………. HOW DO U KNOW THAT. I JUST DO. SHE'S JUST GOOD AT CONVERTING UNITS DAMN. LET RUBY BE GOOD AT UNIT CONVERSIONS DOCTOR.

ohh wait so this connects perception filters and 73 yards. put on a pin on that (and presumably……. taking down the perception filter is what happened re: ruby? that's why people ran away? people saw beyond her perception filter to the elderitch abomination bellow?)

"you've landed on earth a 100th times" is probably a huuude understimation lol

"she was reborn stronger each time. this monumental figure" dr. who as a cultural institution meta

shots outside the tardis my beloved

1999….. the movie... 2005 …. obvious. 1066 was the fire of london right? with 5?

this is rlly working for me ngl. dr who is all about death meta but it's literal but it's not

and a lso the whole. when u are a time traveler everyone is already dead. we must be like ghosts to u . etc etc

telos… THE OOD SPHERE noooo

mel being like "well…. at least 1% of the universe is fine. that's all right then" .

this |5 "it's all my fault" beat feels a lil' weird until u remember [all the traumas] / flux trauma and then it's like yeah i getchu doc i too take everything bad that happens as proof that it is my fault even tho, factually, it makes no sense as a reaction. trauma/depression girlies united.

THE SUN IS DEAD. rip 42's sun.

omg thank u sutekh for finally fixing that over-blue colorization in the unit set. not all heroes wear capes tbh.

aaaand the end.

fade to black.

doctor who is done! we can all go home and become trekkies everybody. congrats!

[softhwas]

ive had a bottle of wine so fuck it, my favorite things about each ateez member

Hongjoong

-i love his facial features so much, like, theyre so delicate but also prominent and distinct? his mouth, eyes, and nose are all so gorgeous T.T

-hes so dedicated and really does his best to be a good leader

-can we just talk about horizon and aurora??? like hes a musical genius yall

-the way he threatens the other members lives with a smile on his face and death in his eyes when theyre pulling some dumbassery, love it

Seonghwa

-the way his eyes just absolutely sparkle, hes so pure i love him, also he has such expressive eyes (the angry bird eyebrows may help him in this regard lol)

-that shy lil smile he does? good shit 

-his general vampire vibe

-he has such a gentle aura but also had such a crazy duality that he can go from soft to cut a bitch in .2 seconds

Yunho

- i would die for him no questions asked

-he has SUCH gentle giant energy

-HIS CHEEKIES

-also this man is such a dance machine??? and hes so passionate about it, i love that he just cant help himself to smile while performing, its infectious

-admire his willingness to buss it out at any moment

Mingi

-he is literally such a fucking dork and i love it so much

-hes a pathological liar so like, i dont trust like that, but hes tall and its funny so ill forgive him 

-the way he looks tough but hes literally such a marshmallow 

-his new hair? gives me greaser vibes and lesbian vibes and i am HERE FOR IT

San

-the way he just fucking GOES FOR IT in the choreo

-his smile is so pretty, especially with his cheekbones and how his eyes crinkle

-another duality king, he goes from making anime girl noises to being posessed by the ateez demon in like a second

-his proportions? godlike

Wooyoung

-when he screams and is loud it gives me life

-i love his laugh SO MUCH, apologetically obnoxious 

-boi has a good neck, what can i say (also jawline)

-the lil mole under his eye

Yeosang

-HIS BIRTHMARK IS SO UNDER APPRECIATED, i wish they didnt always cover it up i find it so endearing

-he literally looks so intimidating and regal 10/10

-i love how fucking savage he is i need more yeosang roasts

-his voice is so smooth and the tone of it could be utilized wayyyy more in ateez songs, the day they unleash his full power on us is when i die

-his shyness in the treasure films is a big reason i started stanning ateez lol

Jongho

-i love his lil face so much, its so soft but masculine at the same time

-his disgusted face when the members show him love brings me so much joy lmao

-need i really mention his strength? wild

-hes so fucking talented, like his natural talent is so crazy and the work he’s put into harnessing and refining it is crazy. 

please excuse me, im fully in ateez loving hours

[rikusuriuri]

rgg [001] + nishiki and majima [003] :] 💖💖💖

Favorite character:

nishiki... makoto.. kiryu.. i love everyone tho they all mean so much to me

Least Favorite character:

Oda / Sagawa / Kazama(?)

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

kiryu × majima, tachibana × kiryu, akiyama × hana, ai × yuki, yuya × kazuki, saejima × women

Character I find most attractive:

majima *beats myself up* (i think mostly fashion wise/his chosen appearance)

kiryu & saejima have better bodies/natural.. attractiveness tho (saejima is on thin fucking ice) 😳

Character I would marry:

Kiryu ;_____;

Character I would be best friends with:

haruka ! or hana or makoto, i like all the girls a lot

A random thought:

i miss tanimura ):

also maybe im just autistic but these games have meant so much to me and like. i am writing again and emoting again you taught me what love is rgg0 sorry rgg0 is my fav and i wont ever ever shut up about it

An unpopular opinion:

sagawa is not sexy tachibana and oda is shitty and unhealthy majima is a homo and so is kiryu people need to stop headcanoning majima as nonbinary purely bc of [redacted] nishitani was not that interesting or cool kiryu is actually really interesting just bc he doesnt act out or do bad things doesnt make him a boring character I swear I swear there is so much to him hes like the best character and the perfect man

My Canon OTP:

does akiyama × hana count

Non-canon OTP:

k..kiryu and majima T.T

Most badass character:

kiryu purely for his morals

Pairing I am not a fan of:

Sa🤢🤢 saga🤢🤢 🤢sagama🤢🤢 i cant even say it 🤮🤮🤮

also vomit worthy: nishiki×kiryu, yumi×kiryu/nishiki, sayama×kiryu

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):

oh me and you complain so much but my mind is blank but uhh nishiki + saejima + yasuko for having like depth but was pushed aside for shitty romance reasons and also lack of addressing certain issues/traits that i thought really made them shine in place of like. focusing on other things if that makes sense

oda + mine for attempted sympathy points

Favourite friendship:

nishiki/kiryu, kiryu/yuya, kiryu/fighter, makoto/majima, kiryu/tachibana, lee/majima/makoto, majima/club sunshine every relationship makes me emo

Nishiki

How I feel about this character: 

my star my love my darling man you are loved you are loved you are loved i swear if i think about nishiki too long i start crying i love him so so so much i am tearing up just thinking about him

All the people I ship romantically with this character: 

😶 i will sound crazy if i pull out crack ships so. but nishiki is bisexual and maybe prefers girls that is all

My non-romantic OTP for this character: 

Kiryu !!!!!!!!

My unpopular opinion about this character: 

not really about him but putting the blame of k1 on nishiki unreciprocated love from yumi is dumb they should have looked at kazama unreciprocated (familiar) love instead or literally anything else even like focusing on losing yuko or just being. fucking alone and being fucked over by literally everyone why does everyone say like "uhhh its bc they both loved yumi" shut up, also people infantalize nishiki really weirdly but hes asian so., also nishiki×kiryu is gross and only freaks like it

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

Nishiki living and getting redemption, nishiki addressing his shitty dad/kazama actually interacting with nishiki for once in his life, nishiki hugging kiryu, theres so much emotion to nishiki and again i just feel like it was brushed over hes like the only antagonist who gives me feelings and garners any sympathy from me hes a really good character and i just wish he was given more of a chance and that the importance + depth of his relationship with kiryu was addressed more following k1

My OTP:

i dont. really have one

My OT3:

(nonromantic) yumi/kiryu/nishiki

Majima !

How I feel about this character: 

:smirk: i have so much to say about him and he means so much to me and i love him with all my heart and i think hes so wonderfully complex i love it it gives me so much to write out + think about and i love mask symbolism and i just *weeps* i want him to be happy and i want him to be fulfilled and i want him to be comfortable and i want him to let himself be surrounded by people who cherish him

All the people I ship romantically with this character: 

Kiryu. my mind is blank

My non-romantic OTP for this character: 

Makoto / cabaret girls / nishida / ig saejima on a technicality

My unpopular opinion about this character: 

stop calling him feral stop being weird about his gender i want to draw majima in dresses and project things but everyone here has ruined that i hate you all also hes not just completely bonkers crazy and hes also not like completely hiding everything/this is ALL an act sad like there is nuance and complexity hes not like either one side of a coin or the other im sorry im so nitpicky but some of you are so weird and im saying this as someone who is edgy and emo, also hes gay and trans and maybe does not have top surgery i have lots of opinions on him but that would take up so much space rgg fandom freaks wants what i have

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:

More time addressing his relation with Yasuko, i wish we saw more of the impact sotenbori had on him outside of makoto like i understand shes really important but there was so much that happened there and i feel it was a little skipped out on, let me punch sagawa, ik so much of his character is inferred and has to be read into to get like the actual truth which i love but addressing his obsession with kiryu/his need for power/control/how much he lies and hides things im sorry I'm obsessed with character analysis nvm i can do it myself, address his eyepatch/missing an eye more the same way they address makoto being blind or saki being mute or even tachibana missing an arm i understand he's like badass unstoppable whatever whatever but it feels lame sometimes and it could have been like. more

My OTP:

😔 kiryu.

My OT3:

Tachibana × Kiryu × Majima bc you gave me homo brain worms

(nonromatic) lee/makoto/majima

[lairofsentinel]

Ok., I'm back.

I've been… drowning myself into Mass Effect Andromeda. And man, it's a painful experience. I don't have the minimun requirements, mostly in my graphic card. :( I have a nvidia gt520 of 1 gb. The minimun required is around gt 700 with 2 gb. I have to play in narrative difficult :(. It's not much of a challenge, but when the encounter is tough (meaning, a lot of objects around and a lot of enemies) my screen freezes sometimes :(. I cry so much for this. I want a new computer T_T.

Even playing it in the lowest quality I can't do it in a smooth way. I played all the mass effect series in the hardest mode T_T to enjoy the adrenaline, but I CANT NOW T_T. It's so sad that they can't make a game for low spec. computers, with the same tech that Mass Effect 2. I don't know, but that game looked marvellous and so easy to deal with in most computers… meh.

I'm playing MEA most of the time with 5 fps. Horrible, because I can't see many animations, and when chars speaks, they desynchronizes with the sound, so … you finished listening Jaarl but then, his animation goes sloooooowly in the middle. Sad, Sad. And man, Havarl is just madness… with all that vegetation. I can heard my computer swearing at me.

I hope some day I will buy a better computer, or upgrade this one to replay this game.

Spoilers Ahead

About the game and my impressions.

So far I've gone, I spent like 50 hours in this painful experience.

Got 100% viability of Eros, Havarl and Voeld, and now I've visited Aya to talk with people around and be bbf with Evfra, but senpai is so mistrustful haha.

Fist the first: who the fucking shit suggested to give us a fucking Mako?? I lose so much time trying to go somewhere with this shitty vehicle with crazy directions and being a total bullshit to climb a land a bit steep. Argh!!!. I’m so angry with this shit. More considering you can’t go, like in DAI, without the fucking horse and enjoy the view and the banter while walking. No, you have ice or radiation AND lag as fuck to worry about. Meh.

About companions?. Hey, I knew already who were going to be of my like: Jaal and Vetra. Vetra is just so… awww. The way she open her … thigns beside her jaw. Little precious badass Vetra. **Smooch**.

I don't get along much with the humans. Cora reminds me soooo much of Casandra and the disappointment of coding a straight char as a lesbian. She even has hard crushes on the Asari, but hey… no girls. When Asari are… you know, blue women.

Gil is weird. I don't know if I like him or not. Most of the time I don't get what he is talking about. But I truly love his interaction with Kallos. I think that, being in my Pathfinder's shoes, I would stress a lot more about those two, because this is not only theoretical disagreement. Man, Gil makes modifications in the core of the ship and then Kallos undoes that…. That's pretty dangerous!!! fuckers. Stop playing with our ship like kindergarten children!.

Liam is another char I don't know much what he talks about. He is specialist in crisis, and I thought it was something related to crisis in battlefield. I didn’t see any of that. Then I thought he was kind of psychologist working with the stress of the crew, which could make sense with all his suggestions to make the crew work in a smooth way… but man, he is more stressed than anyone else – well, probably not as much as Gil -

Peebe is a meh so far. I'm a bit tired of Asadi, I guess.  I wanted Liara's father. A Half-krogan Asadi would be much better.

Vetra, I love her. I'm waiting for Reyes to check, otherwise, I will go with Vetra. She got my real-life-heart already.

:( Jaal being straight is another disappointment. Well, not much. I mean, I usually don't like to romance Aliens. It feels weird to me. Like… I love Vetra but… gurl, I can't caress you, that exoskeleton of you is so turning off, lol. Plus, you may give me a deadly allergic reaction. Less tempting.

But well, Jaal should be bisexual. I mean, all aliens willing to go into a relationship with a human should be, because as I said before, if you are into aliens, what the fuck bothers you a gender that may not follow your species' rules?. Gender across species is completely useless, because culturally and socially, different species have different perceptions. But well, there you got your highly repulsion towards gay relationships. Mass effect has been always known by that. (cough cough, ME1, ME2, and barely fixed in ME3)

Jaal being so open and free with emotions could be a nice thing to see in a gay relationship. It would be fresh air.

Suvi makes me irk. This is completely biased of my part, I know, but man… I detest creationists. One thing is to believe in something, even though you respect science. Another thing is mixing both just to fit your beliefs (something that nowadays it's such a sensitive topic). Like creationists.  

They lack of real understandment of how science works and how evolutions works. And the worst of it is the fact that she is a scientist. Not that I never heard about scientists with beliefs. I know a bunch of them, but they do not go to say this thing of “God is who created everything. I explain him because everything is so perfect, and perfection can't exist without a creator”. Like.. no. First, what we know of the world is that clearly it's not perfect. (Check DeGrasse Taylor's video on youtube talking about the stupid design of the life. It's a gem.) The good things that we see today it did it ONLY through natural process: if you can survive, you sum points into the evolution scale. You can't survive?, die. Stop  spreading your failed genes. Simple as that. Nothing of “perfection” exists here. It's basically “natural eugenics”.

But well, probably some people would like her. I feel so lack of options when talking with Suvi that I can't deal with her. Like… c'mon, I've got this conversation thousand of times, and my arguments are not even here to choose!!. hahaha. So annoying I am.

Plus, Bioware is always so worried about the “butch lesbian” stereotype, but they give a fuck about the “mystical cherry lipstick lesbian” stereotype. PFFFFFT. Another lesbian char that disappoints me :( so far. Beside, extra negativity to her because she lags like hell when I talk to her… it seems her hair has a lot of rending and my computer hates her. Haha.

Drack is so lovely. I loved 2 krogans in ME series: Wrex and this one. Besides, I feel that Drack allows you to explore a nice bound that we don't see much in videogames: the grandpa/granddaughter relationship. I still don't know how his loyal mission goes, but.. he is so wise and… you can feel his years in the way he speaks, but also that gentleness that comes from a grandparent. I love him.

Man, about the ketts and the remmants. I don't know. I feel everything is reapers.

The ketts are like a cult to reapers, to that “superior one” that the Archor itself has to follow. It seems.

Remmants looks like ancient AI, in vaults UNDER the ground. This sounds to me “the seed we planted to harvest later”. Fucking reapers. There are also many suggestion all along the game related to “how weird people felt” once they were attacked by remmants. Like…. Indoctrination!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (playing a prequel makes you play it so full of biases t.t)

Also, Angara are SO fucking similar to Prothean. I wonder if they are not protheans that evolved in another way in Havarl. They even have prothean's sculptures all over the planet… like.. please, bring Liara here, I need to talk to her about this!.

And you also saw that thing of “remembering past lives”. This is the object that Javik used to have in his room, when he asks you what you would do if you would see all the past times, the dead people alive, the old ancient skies, all again but then, returning to reality, you would be shocked by it, because all that is gone. That's exactly what that “family heirloom” does. I'm totally convinced angara ARE protheans. A different evolved branch though.

Also… did you see that fucked reaper in Eos?. The one that came up from the ground?. Fuck shit. I put s settlement in Eos, as the game forces you, but now I regret it. That fucking reaper asshole is orbiting around Eos, SCANNING it!!! WTF!!!!

But well, I will continue playing all these days ahead and keep sharing my thoughts about this.

I need to find Reyes before Vetra got me completely (I want to see if Reyes is worthy a shot, probably I won't replay this game until I have a proper computer because lag is super painful), and I have no idea when or where I will find him.

I'm still in the quest of bringing hope to the Angara and working most of the time in 100% viability in the planets I can land. I've just  been allowed to go into Aya because I saves Moshae.

I hate to work (in real life lol) and break my beautiful daydream of playing without stop.  Haha.

I will sleep so bad these days.