#LIKE I DONT UNDERSTAND I DIDNT THINK I DID THAT SPECTACULAR BUT OK.

[elegyofthemoon]

SCREAMS

[megismorallysunny]

17/09/23

its been quite a while, i told myself in july i would talk about the barbie movie, but well that didnt end up happening. i felt awkward writing and i feel awkward now, school started 3/4 weeks ago and its been going pretty ok, ill talk more about that. so first things first the barbie movie was spectacular, i loved it so much, it was so amazing no words, speechless. i dont know if i mentioned this but i went on holiday again, i went to mallorca in june for a week and alicante in spain for 2 weeks. i grew sick of my brother after that, i hope someday we can be friends but i just cannot stand him. my mom said that i will regret not being friends with him when im older just like she did, but i just cant stand being around him. my mom may regret not being friends with my uncle then but atleast there friends now (not for long unfortunately, hes sick). Spain was pretty boring, yes i know im a lil spoilt but we went to spain cuz its cheap (cheaper than staying down the road). i started playing a lot of total drama then stopped after the start of school. Im glad that im actually able to focus on my school work better because i genuinely cannot focus, i really struggled last year cuz i did it in silence and always put it off. now i started watching qsmp along with doing my homework cuz now i feel better doing my homework, my brain just works better when its hearing something and my brain is doing something else at the same time doing my hw. i think its due to when i was younger there was never silence around me when doing my hw, there was always talking always a programme, always something. im doing higher level english, im scared about doing shit in it like every other higher subject im in. but i think im doing good in english, or atleast mediocre, my teacher said that some of my work wasnt the best, which fair nuff it isnt. but i wrote something and it was kinda cringe but my teacher said it was good, and it wasnt cringe as in furry abo type shit i wrote it was more me saying "chillingly good use of onomatopeia" omg i just felt so stupid reading it out, i figured out why it feels so invasive reading it out and its because it feels like reading a diary and your specifically asked to read out ur feelings and opinions about it, unless i say something hateful about it i dont feel comfortable saying it. im doing bad in higher maths i just cannot understand somethings but i dont want to spend more time on it so i might i might not, im scared that i just wont understand it and theres people dumber than me in there, and it feels like i shit also cuz im dumb, i struggle with comprehending things, and i just go on my phone all the time, because i just get so bored, i wish that i would be able to learn things at my own pace (fast but slow at things i dont understand) and i just wish i could learn what i wanted to, i know i can learn maths i just struggle and i dont know why. did i mention im stupid? did i? because your bound to think so now, last year in higher irish i got 23% on my summer exam, and this year i got a note from my parents to move to lower, and i went to give it to him and he gave such a good speech i said okay yeah sure, like how dumb am i?? all my friends looked aound at me and were like "that was your one chance" "why didnt you leave" it was a little demotivating but if theres one thing i can do its spite people, from an early age ive discovered people insulting me is the best power for my success, its better if it feels like they mean it. e.g i couldnt hit a ball in pe with a bat, someone tried to take it off me (multiple ppl) and they said cmon you cant do it, that was really a good motivator because as soon as they reached for it i hit the ball super high. anyways im now learning irish and im struggling really. but duolingos helping, alot. were back to talking to our french penpals and i wrote the most complicated english because i got excited she said i was a nice girl, shes so sweet i love her. i wrote way too much so im gonna go now, have a good morning, day or night.

[astrxealis]

HIIWJDIW HELLO

Idk i'm having thoughts... about maybe starting final fantasy... ?

my brother has it BUT IM SCARED OF STARTING NEW STUFF AHSHAJ

BEJQJDOWNWOQ WIAT WAIT im so sorry for the memes bUT help ahem ngl im not sure which ff you're talking abt lowkey BUT MAYBE THAT'S BCS SCHOOL ROBBEF ME OF BRAINCELLS but i will assume it's ffxiv ahem yes, /nm

under the cut bcs i mayhaps rambled a bit too much SORRY SERENITY AKDBSKDJ 😞💔

tldr: ILL HELP U OUT BB IF U'D LIKE players are friendly game fun yeet yeehaw no need to be scared issok is fun 😭😭💞

ok first ngl but. if i had a penny for people i talk to online that have a brother who has ff KWJAKD i have two pennies which isnt much. but shocking it's happened twice 💀🤚 <3

BUT JSHWKDJW YOOO dw dw maybe im biased. ngl i understand WKABDKS but if it helps in any extent !! the players are really really nice to new players in general ?? no lie at all fr like. maybe im exposing lune here. but when she played a tank class fr the first time (a defense-based role for classes that "lead" the party into battle) she didnt do so well but ppl tried to help her and even gave her "commendations" which are usually given to players in the party for doing good? even if she kinda didnt know what to do KWAJKDJS? but YUH most players are unbelievably nice 👉👈

UHM !! if it helps akbdksjs there's a japan server, which is best fr those near jp's timezone and fr the ping, but important to note many are japanese so the main english-based servers are in data center elemental! worlds tonberry and kujata are most populated im on kujata tho hehe! low level but yuh 😭

but hmm there is the north american server ! where most of the fun events happen ngl, but playerbase isn't as polite or nice as jp :0 majority is still nice? but bigger toxic population WKBSKD 😭😭 if you're starting out, i suggest not going to crystal dc? most rpers are there and it has a ... notorious reputation <//3 it's not bad tho tbh! but may be a bit too much fr someone new 💔💔💔 i'm on aether data center, faerie world! there's lots of good stuff abt joining na too? though limsa lominsa chat... ahem. close your eyes bb WKNADKJS 😨😨

last but not least is europe server! which im in even if timezone difference is so weird WOABDKS 😭😭 im on light dc, twintania world! i'd say it's quite similar to na but more chill? hmm the novice network, or chat for new players and "mentors", is not bad tbh! from what i've seen! i won't say much since i might be biased but it's nice here 💔

my main char is in eu so ksnksndks hehe :") but ngl feel free to choose whatever server you like im on all servers anyway tbh <///3 WHABSKNA if you're scared of trying new things ill help you out ! 💪💪 <33

there's also a new server coming out soon for oceania !! best fr ppl in australia, new zealand, etc, but it's not coming out for a few months or less not sure 😭😭

but WKABDKNS mayhaps i may be a bit too enthusiastic 🤥 </3 but ffxiv is rlly nice! hehe im scared of trying new things too but believe me when i say i legit. started the game bcs character customization was nice WKABKDNS 😨 but srs hehe the game is vv friendly to new players in general! the music is spectacular and the story is prolly the best ive ever seen ! a bit slow in the beginning but it just keeps getting better and better >< but ill let u see it fr urself if ever you do decide on starting! :D

ngl im slowly getting my irls to play ffxiv too WHAHDKANS getting 1 or 2 of my irl besties to play 😭🤚 and another irl who i talk to online has a brother who's now also trying to convince her to play ever since me n lune did WKANDKNS 😭😭

but uhm hi yes dont be afraid hehe I MEAN totally fine totally understandable it's seriously okay /gen but !! idk WEJBAKDS i think the feelings u'll get from the story and just the general joy from playing the game is 💪💪💪 but mayhaps that may just be me BUT then again the music is so good i have 500+ songs in my ffxiv playlist 😞 and the characters are really well written! most of them! but i think there arent even actually any characters to hate? the backstories are all vv good in my humble opinion akdjskdj 👉👈 though. someone in stormblood is... debatable :)) but NALJDSK i dont hate him either ngl 😭💔 he sux tho /srs </3

uhm we have many pretty girls and guys! in player characters and npcs both 😭 npcs as in main story characters and side ones and even normal npcs hehe :D uhm uh in my humble opinion y'shtola is ahem yes 👉👈 JSBAKD and uhm uhajdmmsj im trying not to say spoilery characters! yugiri is vv pretty... and lyna... from the guys WKABSKA g'raha is my fave but i HIGHLY suggest not searching him up huge spoilers may be seen 😭 OH lowk everyone in the fanbase is infatuated w/ pretty boy aymeric and he's actually a rlly good guy and a gentleman 💔💔 thancred is vv handsome! and so is estinien! KWJAKD im biased sorry 😭

though ngl if ever you need help if you even actually decide to start id love to help out! ive been playing only for a year WKANDKA but i think i can say im quite the veteran at this game! 💪💪 WHAKDJS a few weeks ago i cleared the current savage tier! hardest content in game aside from ultimates, though not anymore since endwalker recently hehe :D but yeah if you need anything at all im always happy to help TuT <3

BUT AHEM kanALENWKS if im embarrassing myself and you're not talking abt ffxiv but just. ff. WKANKDJS the games are rlly rlly good 👉👈 the story is spectacular always ngl tho some stuff may be a bit better than others but WKWJKDJS ff is rlly good ik im just sayign that its good but the story is just MWAH and itll have your heart in pieces in a good way 💔💔💔💞

ff10 broke my heart but i havent even finished it but i JUST KNOW it will,,, ff15 also did WKABDKA the story isnt the best for sure but the story can be rlly heartwarming! ff7... ah... vv good as well !! i love aerith she may honestly the prettiest girl ive ever seen in my whole life alwjdksjdkns,, ff8 has vv pretty characters hehe cute romance too w/ squall and rinoa! ff9 is a masterpiece, like. seriously. tho lune knows it better 😭 ff6 is likely the best in story tbh but i havent played it! ik fr sure its vv good tho <3 ff13 is quite... confusing. it's not the best either and i havent actually played it but like ff15, if it's your cuppa tea it can be vv good too :D

IM SO SORRY FOR RAMBLING WHAHAKNDOWJE mention final fantasy my mind goes haywire >>>> /lh 💔💔💔 this got way longer than i expected SIGH if only i cld write this much for school quickly orz </3

feel free to cut me off from your life if i rambled too much /j KIDDINGNSKDJSKDN but im vv sorry fr rambling so much oml im kinda embarrassed /gen 🤚🤚

anyways here 😞 dang WJBAKDNS but fr! hehe i totally understand issok, but i just genuinely very much seriously recommend ffxiv! i suggest taking it slow :o it may not be your cup of tea, as uhh im not sure if you play mmorpgs? but ngl it was my first one too !! it just rlly grew on me akdnsks im surprised myself tbh /gen :") i suggest playing a dps class first and then trying out tanks or healers if you ever want to when you're ready enough :o

oh !! and dont be afraid to search up guides if you really want to be sure! or type in the chatbox, ask questions — ngl an unspoken rule in this game is be nice and others will be nice too ^^ but in any case WKANDKS only ever start the game if you'd like to fr! i dont want to accidentally pressure you or anything /gen TuT but yeah hehe im here to help whatever the case may be if you'd like bb <3 💪

once again sorry for rambling so much have more ffxiv memes 😞💔 in the last picture is aymeric hehe OH AND girls in this game are very strong no lie vv good of them vv lovely

[spartalabouche]

books that make me start foaming at the fucking mouth. like ok heres the thing my ‘gifted student classes’ 90% of the time were me getting pulled out of my math classes (which genuinely i attribute to why i had to cheat through many of my highschool math classes) and us just goofing off in a half empty classroom with a bunch of bean bags. we would discuss like actual reading/english stuff for like 15 minutes sometimes and then just hsng out for the rest of the hour and then go back to class so this was already not a space i was conditioned to take seriously and learn in so when we got the project i dont remember what the guidelines were but i remember everyone else going REALLY BIG with their projects and every time they would ask me about how mine was going i would just lie and say i was currently reading or still working on it and for perspective on what other kids were doing around me one of them made a fucking time machine out of a big cardboard moving box and tinfoil or some shit for their book like you could go inside and sit in it and i dont think everyone else did something that spectacular but you can understand how when i literally had not read the book period this gave me a lot of anxiety to stand next to that and say sorry i couldnt make myself do anything 🥺 and we had like at least a month maybe two months to do it so this was just like marinating in my brain the entire time and i finally had a full blown anxiety attack over it and my mom happened to come in and see and if she didnt idk what i would have done because i wouldnt have been able to finish that without her we crammed so hard and i remember jack shit about it but damn if i did not get a passing grade on it when i brought it in the next day

[inanimate-insanity-headcanons]

Here is the fanfic of nickel singing with a side of bickel

crow submitted:

 The show has ended a couple years ago, and everyone was enjoying themselves.

   Suitcase won, to manys suprise. After a while though, everyone though that she deserved it. She didnt even keep it; She gave it to Oj for him to use to run the hotel.

   How sweet of her.

   Everyone is talking and interacting with eachother. Nickel is talking with Baseball while sitting on the couch. Suitcase and Balloon are enjoying their time together, Yin-Yang is fighting. Everything is as normal as it gets here.

   Until theres a knock on the door.

   Some people turn to the door, mixed emotions all through the people who heard the knock.

   “Hey, Nickel? Can you get the door please?” Soap asks.

   “Alright” Nickel responds, sliding off of the settee and walking to the door. While doing that, another set of thunks come from the door.

   He grips the doorknob and twists quickly, but before he could pull the door open it slams into Nickels body, full force, and sends him backwards. Knife catches him before he can hit the ground, though.

   “Mephone what the Fuck?!” Knife yells as Nickel holds his head and groans in pain.

   Once Knife knows Nickel regained his bearings and isnt in pain anymore, he props Nickel back onto his feet. Nickel thanks Knife, who rubs his upper back slightly with a tiny smile.

   Nickel looks at the door to see Mephone in all his not really wanted glory.   A chorus of annoyed voices rupture from the past contestants as Nickel wanders, and sometimes stumble, back to Baseball, who gently holds his face is his hand and asks if Nickels alright.

   “im fine” Nickel mutters as Baseball lets out a relaxed but slightly concerned sigh.

   They both turn back to face Mephone as he nonchalantly basks in everyones annoyance.

   “alright alright i know i know��� Be QUIET!-” Mephone yells while snapping his fingers, silencing everyone “-One question at a time please”. There is a cheeky smile on his face.

   “What are you doing here?” Soap questions, walking to Mephone. Mephones smile became more smug and nonchalant.

   “Well, i know how much you guys missed being in Inanimate insanity-” Mephone started.

   “No we didnt” Trophy interrupts, an extremely pissed off expression on his face. Mephone stared at him in annoyance, before letting out a short sigh.   “SO, i decided to have a challenge after so long!” Mephone finishes, a uncomfortably happy tone in his voice.

   Everyone either gasps or groans. Mephones grin quickly turns to a frown a everyone reaction, before, just a quickly, changing back to a smile.

   “Dont worry, its not gonna get anyone hurt, the challenge is actually pretty peaceful!” Mephone explains.

   “Whats the challenge?” Balloon asks, nervously.

   “Its a Singing competition!!” Mephone says. Everyone is suprised. Usually the challenges require people to do something physical.

   “I decided that the challenge would be easy, so here are the rules. And get into your season 2 teams and go outside!” Mephone says.

   Once everyone begrudjingly trudges outside and groups together, Mephone lets out a salisfied huff while walking outside himself, leading the teams to the stage where the old eliminations took place.

   “good! now, you much choose one person from each team to sing on stage.-” Mephone motions to the stage. “-theres no need for any coordinated outfits or dancings or anything like that”.

  "The other team members will be watching on the bleachers-“ Mephone quickly motions to the bleachers. ”-And.“

   "Who will be judging the performers?” Baseball interrupts, walking towards mephone with Lightbulb following him.

   “Yea Mr.phoneman!-” Lightbulb leans on Baseballs side. Baseball only glances at her. “Who will be judging our lovely singers”. She motions to the rest of their teammates, who are talking between each other.

  Mephone stares at lightbulb, annoyed at the nickname she used for him, before letting out a small hmph.

   “You will!” Mephone exclaims, motioning to the two of them. Baseball and Lightbulb both raise their eyebrows in shock, Lightbulb gaining a smile.

   “Wont that just let us use bias for judging?” Baseball asks, slightly concerned.   “Ive figured that out! if you guys use any bias or opinions while judging, like purposefully giving the other team a bad score, even if their great or giving your own teammate a great score, even if they suck, then your team will immediately lose!” mephone explains, pointing a finger to the team leaders before swinging his arm back so his side in a relaxed manner.

   The two people only look at the host and respond with a ‘okay’ before walking back to their respective teams.

Lightbulbs Pov~

  Once you and Baseball split off to your separate teams, you quickly begin scouring your fellow cast members to try and guess who has an absolutely spectacular voice.

   You cant choose who to sing so you play enie meanie minie mo to help you decide.

   Enie, meanie, minie, mo, catch a tiger by its toe…

   …

   And you are it!

   Your finger lands on Painty!

   “Heeeyyy Brush full of paint!” You beam at your tall friend, strolling over to them before leaning against their side. Paintbrush looks down to you, staring at you in slight suprise then gaining a curious look.

   “Can you do me a-” You make an broken ok symbol with your hand, “-Itsy-Bitsy little favor and-”

   “You want me to sing, huh?” Paintbrush chuckles. “Sure, i’ll sing”.

   You stare at them for a short while before grinning at them and hugging them.   “thank you!!!!!” You cheer, bouncing up and down before hugging them tightly. Paintbrush lets out a soft huff while smiling. You let the painter go.

   “I wonder who Baseball is gonna choose.” Paintbrush mutters to you, leaning down so you can hear it.

Baseballs POV~

  You scan over your team once again and sigh.

  Who do you choose?

   Nickel is amazing at singing but doesnt like singing in front of anyone other than yourself, Suitcase is far too anxious, Balloons voice is too high to be enjoyable, you doubt Knife will sing, Trophys an ass and you dont even want to talk to him, Soap will probably only sing the song she made herself, microphone will probably make everyone deaf, and cheesy will make puns instead of sing.

   You feel stumped.

   You decide to try your luck and ask Nickel to sing.

   You look over to where Nickel is and walk towards him quickly. He doesnt seem to notice when you stop right next to him, nor when you kneel next to him. Hes probably zoned out.

   “Hey Nickel?” You ask, gently placing a hand on his upper arm.

   Nickel goes slightly rigid under your grasp but relaxes when he turns and sees you. You take your hand off his shoulder.

   “What, Baseball?” Nickel questions.

   “Can you sing for us?” You ask hopefully. As soon as the words left your mouth, Nickels stoic yet curious face shifted to an annoyed pout.

   “Why do I have to sing?” Nickel complains, crossing his arms. You frown yourself and let out a short sigh.

   “Please?” You beg. Nickel looks away from you and lets out a hum. You hmph and think for a bit. Puppy dog eyes. They always work on him.

   “Nickel…” You plea. Nickel turns back to you and, as soon as he looks you in the eye, his pout drops as he stares into your eyes for a couple of seconds. In those seconds you can tell Nickel was struggling to not cave under pressure just by the, almost guilty, look on his face.

   “Fine! I’ll sing for our team” Nickel barks, quickly turning away from me and shutting his eyes.

   “Yes! Thank you!” You cheer quietly, engulfing his body into a bear hug. Nickel huffs, but hugs back anyway. Once you both let go, you stand up and turn back to the others doing their own thing.

   “If it makes you feel better, once we are done with this you can wear my jacket” You say, looking down to him. Nickel looks up to you with the ghost of a frown on his face.

   “I was gonna steal it anyway” Nickel verifies. You expected him to do that, so you arent surprised.

No Ones POV~

  Right after that interraction, Mephone walks to the two teams.

   “Have you guys figured out who will be singing?” Mephone questions, gaining everyones attention.

   Once the team captains both respond with an affermative noise. Mephone smiles slightly and calls for the two singers and the captains to come and meet him backstage.

  “So, here’s what you’ll do,” Mephone says, Mepad standing next to him patiently.

   “The singers go in alphabetical order, so Paintbrush will go first, and then Nickel.” Mephone says, pointing to Mepad. Mepad has the team logos, The Bright lights above the Grand Slams, displayed on his screen.

   “When the designated singer comes onto stage, one of the judges will ask the person what they are singing, the singer will tell what they are singing, and they judges will let the singers sing. easy, right?” Mephone Verifies.

   Mepad had cute cartoons of grey circles with stick limbs displaying everything Mephone explains.

   Once The four contestants give some sort of action to show they got it, Mephone starts again. 

   “The judges will then rate the singers performance based on how good the singing was out of a score of 10 each, so the highest a singer can get is 20 points. Understand?” Mephone finishes, looking at the four for verification. The four contestants all said yes.

   “Great! You will have until tonight to prepare for your performance. Dont let anyone know what you will sing.” Mephone says, waving a hand to dissmiss the others as he turns to talk to Mepad. The contestants leave.

   “soo… What are ya’ll gonna sing?” Lightbulb Inquires, turning to the other three people. Paintbrush snorts softly, Baseball laughs, and Nickel facepalms with a small, cute smile.

   “Lightbulb… Did you not hear what Mephone said?” Paintbrush asks, looking down to the blonde. They ignore the other two leaving them to be alone with Lightbulb.

   “MmmAyyybe??” Lightbulb says. She sways her hips in a playful manner before skipping to Paintbrush before they could get too far away.

   “You will have to wait until when we perform” They confirm, point a long finger and tapping Lightbulbs nose. Lightbulb giggles.

   All of the contestants talk amongst eachother, some conversations more pleasant than others, until Mephone walks infront of everyone and calls for their attention.

   “So, I gave instructions to the singers on what to do. All you guys have to do is wait for me to return later so we can hear them sing. You can go back to the hotel and do what you want, or whatever. Oh By the way, theres not gonna be a prize, since this is just for fun” Mephone says, waving his hand dissmissingly.

  The teams then start to walk, or run, back to the hotel so they can go back to what they where doing previously.

   “Im guessing you already know what your going to sing?” Baseball muses while turning away from his book, now sitting next to Nickel on the sette in the lobby.

   Nickel only responds with a hum while he sleepily leans against Baseballs torso.

 Timeskip cause im lazy ,_,

  It is just about time for Nickel and Paintbrush to perform. The two are standing backstage, Paintbrush is pacing anxiously and impatiently and Nickel fiddles with the strings of his guitar, playing a small tune.

   They both can hear Mephone giving a speech on whats going to happen in a couple of minutes, then the others chatting amongst themselves. Time seems to be passing a bit slower than normal, and soon Nickel zones out and Paintbrush sits next to him.

   “Alright, Paintbrush, Its your time to shine” Mephone says, walking up to Paintbrush and Nickel. Paintbrush quickly hops up from they seat next to Nickel, the latter snapping back to reality.

   Nickel bids Paintbrush a 'good luck’ as they walk onto the stage.

   Once Paintbrush is at the center of the stage, and their behind the microphone, Baseball and Lightbulb stop their soft conversation and turn their attention to Paintbrush. They feel a little more nervous, but they supress it quickly.

   “Hi Painty!-” Lightbulb perks up and waves.“-What are you gonna be singing for us tonight?”. Baseball lets out a very quiet sigh with a small grin on his face as Lightbulb kicks her legs back and forth excitedly.

   “uh, im going to be singing Little Lion Man by Mumford and sons” Paintbrush says, their nervousness slightly obvious.

   “Alright, you can start singing” Baseball says, sending Paintbrush a comforting smile.

   Paintbrush smiles back before the songs music starts playing. They wait a few beats, take a breath in, then they grab the microphone and start singing

        “Weep for yourself, my man, youll never be what is in your hea~art.

         Weep little lion man, your not as brave as you were at the sta~art.

        Rate yourself and rake yourself, take all the courage you have left.

      Wasted on fixing all the problems that you made in your own head.”

  Baseball leans forward slightly and Lightbulbs quietly squeals while bouncing in her seat.

                                 “But it was not your fault, but mine.

                                  And it was your heart on the line.

                        I really fucked it up this time, didn’t i my dear~?

                                               Didnt I, my dear.”

  Music plays and Paintbrush takes a few breaths. They messed up a few times, but their performance is so far really good.

    “Tremble for yourself, my man, you know you have seen this all befo~re.

            Tremble, little lion man, youll never settle any of your sco~res.

    Your grace is wasted in your face, your boldness stands alone among the wreck.

   Now learn from your mother or else spend your days biting your own neck”

                                 “But it was not your fault, but mine.

                                  And it was your heart on the line.

                       I really fucked it up this time, didnt i, my dear~?

                                  But it was not your fault, but mine.

                                  And it was your heart on the line.

                       I really fucked it up this time, didnt i, my dear~?

                                              Didnt i, my dear.”

  Paintbrush takes a deep breath as they survey the bleachers, taking a break before they have to sing again. Everyone seems to enjoy their singing.                                               

                                                   “A~h

                                                    A~h

                                                   A~H         

                                                  A~H!”

                         “BUT IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT, BUT MINE.

                            AND IT WAS YOUR HEART ON THE LINE.

               I REALLY FUCKED IT UP THIS TIME, DIDNT I, MY DEAR~?

                                               DIDNT I, MY DEAR.”

  The music stops. Home stretch.            

                                 “But it was not your fault, but mine.

                                  And it was your heart on the line.

                       I really fucked it up this time, didnt I, my dear~?

                                               Didnt I, my dear.”

  Paintbrush lets out a sigh of relief. The song is over and people are applauding. They relax and, put the microphone back into its stand. Paintbrush perks up when they hear Lightbulb talking

   “You sounded Incredible Painty!!!!” Lightbulb cheers, still clapping a few seconds after everyone else stops.

   “Thank you” Paintbrush says, rubbing the back of their neck.

   “You did great paintbrush! But i have to deduct a point” Baseball says, guilt obvious in his voice. “You sounded really good but you messed up a few times. Not too much though”.

   “well, ye, you did do mess up a few times, but it didnt really hinder your lovely singing, imma give you a nine out a ten!!” Lightbulb beams, holding up her hands, ond finger bent.

   “soo.. I got eightteen points?” Paintbrush asks, giving the judges a confused look. Once they give Paintbrush a 'yes’, they hum and walk backstage.

   Once they enter the room, Mephone turns to Nickel and motions for him to go onto stage. Nickel quickly gets up and hurries to the stage.

   Before anyone says anything, Nickel quickly lowers the mic stand to fit his height, letting out a small huff.

   “Hey Nickel! What are you going to sing?” Baseball asks, giving him a small wave and a smile while ignoring Trophys mocking comment about Nickels height. Lightbulb also waves to him, but she was a lot more energetic.

   “uh, Im gonna be singing Hallelujah by Pentatonix” Nickel responds, lightly rocking on the balls of his feet and strumming one of his guitars strings.

   “Alll Righty-do! You may commence singing!” Lightbulb Declares extending her arms as if she was presenting him something.

   Nickel nods before starting to play his guitar. After four beats of pretty notes he starts singing.

                                 “Well I heard there was a secret cord.

                             that David played and it pleased the lord.

                          But you don’t really care for music, do ya~?”

  Almost everyone stares in awe, most people gasping as well. Some, mainly the women, can feel their eyes tearing up. His voice is beautiful. Like an angel. Deep like his normal voice, extremely smooth and rich, lullaby sounding. It feels like a saint came down, straight from heaven, just to sing for them.

   Baseball only smiles lovingly.

                         “Well, it goes like this, The fourth The Fifth.

                                   The minor fall, The major Lift~.

                           The baffled king composing Hallelujah~!”

  A couple of the contestants who had tears in their eyes previously start sobbing. Mephone, Toilet, Paintbrush even Mepad, who doesnt have emotions, feels completely silenced due to how incredible Nickels singing is. Everyone feels the cant do anything; They’ve been completely mentally broken due to the gorgeous singing, unable to do anything else but stare in awe, cry, and mutter swears.                                               

                                                  “Hallelujah

                                                   Hallelujah.

                                                  Hallelujah.

                                               Hallelu~ujah.”

  Nickel takes a soft breath in, opening his eyes slightly to look at the ground. He shuts them again. After four more beats, He starts to sing again.

                            “Your faith is strong, but you needed proof.

                                   You saw her bathing, on the roof.

                        Her beauty, in the moonlight, overthrew you~.”

                                 “She tied you to, The kitched chair~!

                       She Broke Your Throne, And she Cut Your Hair~!

               AND FROM YOUR LIPS SHE DREW THE HA~ALLELUJAH!”

                                                    “Hallelujah.

                                                    Hallelujah.

                                                   Hallelujah.

                                                Hallelu~ujah.”

  Nickel relaxes more as he lets the song flow and the notes come naturally. Baseball seems to be the only one whos not paralyzed by the sheer amazingness of Nickels singing and just basks in the beauty of his voice, most likely because he has heard Nickel sing before.     

                                 “Baby I’ve, been here before.

                           Ive seen this room, and ive walked this floor.

                             I used to live alone before i know you~.”

                         “And ive seen your flag, on the marble arch~!

                                And Love Is No~t A Victory March~!

                      ITS A COLD AN ITS A BROKEN HA~ALLELUJAH!!”

  Nickel takes in an unnoticable breath.

                                                  “Ha~allelujah.

                                                     Hallelujah.

                                                     Hallelujah.

                                                 Hallelu~uJA~AH!”

  Everyones eyes, minus Baseballs obviously, widen as some peoples eyes move to cover the open mouths, amazed at the sudden shift from extremely powerful to soft.

                                                                      “Maybe there’s, a god above.

                               But all I’ve e~ver learned from love.

                         Is how to shoot somebody, who outdrew you.”

                           “And Its Not A Cry~ That You Hear At Night.

                       ITS NOT SOMEBODY, WHOSE SEEN THE LIGHT~!

                     ITS A COLD AND IS A BRO~KEN HA~ALLELUJAH!”

  Final stretch. Nickel furrows his eyebrows as he gets more and more emotionally into the song.

                                                   “Hallelujah.

                                                     Hallelujah.

                                                     Hallelujah.

                                                 Hallelu~uJAH~!”

                                                  “HALLELUJAH!

                                                  HALLELUJAH!

                                                  HALLELUJAH!

                                               HALLELU~UJAH!

                                               "HALLELUJAH!

                                               !HALLELUJAH!

                                              !HALLELUJAH!

                                              HALLELU~Ujah~”

  After Nickels voice fades from loud to soft to nothing, the only noise left is the final four beats of the song. Everyone stares at Nickel, utterly astonished and unable to bring themselves to do anything but gape at him. The ones crying continue to sob.

   The only thing that snaps everyone out of their trance is Baseball clapping. Soon, once everyone comes to their senses, everyone else joins in. Nickel stares at them, concerned and slightly flustered.

   “T-That was BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!” Lightbulb cries, sobbing violently. Baseball glances and her, then back to Nickel with a concerned smile.

   After Lightbulb shouts, all of the contestants, minus Baseball, began to scream compliments about how amazing his voice sounds and questions along the lines of 'Why havent you sang to us sooner?’ and 'Can you sing to us more?’.

   Nickel winces and backs up with uncomfortable look on his face, trying to get away from the loud group of people.

   “uh.. I think you guys should quiet down. We need to give Nickel his score” Baseball says to the crowd, looking back to them with a concerned look on his face. When the crowd quiets down, Nickel lets out a relaxed sigh and moves back to his spot behind the microphone.

   “So..uh, what score did i get” Nickel asks, strumming his guitar quietly.

   “Ten! your singing is incredible!” Baseball says, happy and loving smile on his face.

   He turns to lightbulb, expecting her to say something, but he is met with the girl agressivly trying to rub tears out of her eyes. She stops after a couple of seconds, blinking with wide eyes, before letting out a relieved sigh.

   “Dude, bro, your voice is unreal!” Lightbulb exclaims, a large grin on her  tear stained face “-I would give you a thousand if i could, but sadly im only able to give you a ten”

   “Ok, i got a twenty” Nickel verifies. Before he can turn to walk backstage, Mephone appears, with Paintbrush, next to him.

   “The Grand Slams win! By two points.” Mephone announces, ignoring the suprised stares from the past contestants.

   “You guys can go and do whatever, now” Mephone instructs, waving his hand while walking off the stage.

   Everyone stars getting up and walking back to the hotel, some stopping to stretch their legs. Nickel and Paintbrush walk offstage, Nickel stopping to put his guitar back in its case. Some of the people walking back to the hotel talk about how stunning Nickels voice is and why he would hide it.

   Baseball waits for Nickel to come and walk back to the hotel with him. Once he sees Nickel quickly walking towards him, his guitar case strapped on his back, Baseball smiles and waves to him.

   “Hi Baseball.” Nickel says, walking with the tall man back to the hotel. Baseball responds with a friendly hello. They talk as they walk back to the hotel together. Once their both situated back in the hotel, and Nickel has put his guitar down in a corner somewhere, Baseball hands of his jacket, as promised.

   “I feel like i messed up when i let you convince me to sing” Nickel muses, not not moving from where he sits, leaning against Baseball while he read.

   “What do you mean?” Baseball asks, turning from his book in favor of looking at the smaller male in confusion.

   “Everyones probably gonna ask be to sing constantly.” Nickel mutters, furrowing his eyebrows, crossing his arms, and letting himself fall down so he is now laying across Baseballs lap.

   Baseball lets out an understanding sigh as he begins to run one of his hands up and down Nickels back, returning to his book.

  "Your singing voice is really pretty, so i wouldnt be suprised.“ Baseball says calmly, "But if it annoys you, you can tell them to stop”. Nickel flips onto his back and looks up at him. Baseball stares softly at Nickel and gives him a nice smile.   “Yea, but their just gonna ask why, and if they dont ask why their gonna say 'But you have such a good singing voice’ and other annoying shit” Nickel whines.

   “If they ask why or ask you anything like what you described, you can just tell them you dont want to sing. And if they keep bugging you then ill step in and Tell them that you dont want to sing” Baseball offers, opening his arm as Nickel sits up again, wrapping is around his waist.

   After Baseball says that, Nickel utters a soft 'Thank you’ as he relaxes and gently burries his face against the formers chest. Baseball goes back to reading his book.

///

THIS IS SO GOOD??!?!? ajhgiusdhfkjdsf i love this crow you’re a blessing....love these babeys ksajdhgkjdgj

[frigfridge]

just finished rewatching toy story 1 thru 3 over the past few days, wanted to share my thoughts:

i love these movies a whole lot. the first 2 hold a bunch of nostalgia for me because i was A Baby when 2 came out and when i was also A Baby i would just watch our VHS copy of toy story 1 over and over again. this also makes me the exact age group to be emotionally destroyed by toy story 3, which came out just as i was entering high school and hit really close to home

individual thoughts:

toy story: the first thing i noticed was it still looks really nice even watching in 2019!! which i think is kind of spectacular for the first feature-length computer-animated film. it no doubt helps that the plot is mostly focused on little plastic dolls without realistic hair or clothing to animate but the semi-”cartoon” art direction means the human characters also look pretty nice without going too far into the uncanny valley.

also, the plot is WAY darker than i remember?? not because of sid and all the body horror toys, but because for like half of the movie woodys friends think hes an actual (toy) murderer carrying around the severed arm of his victim (!!) like, its hilarious, but also wow theres a LONG way to go between there and the climax of toy story 3.

the soundtrack is probably my favorite of the bunch. part of that is probably nostalgia but i just really like the consistency of having randy newman singing every song. it sort of elevates him to part of the story, like an omniscient narrator singing woodys (and later buzzs) inner monologue. 2 (and especially 3) didnt have as many musical numbers, which i can understand with a shift to a larger-scale approach to storytelling, but i really like the feeling it gives number 1. “you got a friend in me” is an obvious classic thats been remixed and brought back in just about every piece of toy story media im aware of, but “strange things” and “i will go sailing no more” deserve just as much recognition and praise. there just isnt a weak number among them

toy story 2: heres where the story started getting bigger and more existential, which basically becomes the new direction of the series. which makes sense! this one released 4 years after the first, and while theres no real timeskip in the story (maybe 6 months?) it had been a little while since we last saw woody and the gang. everybody in the real world had gotten older, and with the turn of the millennium approaching, the theme of impermanence loomed large in the collective unconscious. well, maybe not in my unconscious, because i was 2. but its really interesting as kind of a “time capsule” to what people were thinking about as the 90s came to a close.

so toy story 2 was a little more grounded, a little more focus on the human world, but it was also more fantastical in its presentation. the opening “video game” sequence (which still looks amazing!!) and woodys nightmare (”i dont wanna play with you anymore...”) show the animators at pixar really found their groove and started getting experimental. and to great result!! the fantasy sequences are a lot of fun and help 2 really stand out.

i would be remiss not to mention jessies flashback song here. its something else they hadnt really done in the first film and i think it really works. jessie in this film unfortunately doesnt get to do much other than fight with woody about whether he should stay or go (except for when she saves him in the end) but this song makes her character work. it also helps that it destroys me every time

also i think this is the movie that gave me an appreciation for the acting of kelsey grammer. i dont really agree with his politics (i also dont know specifically what they are) but he is a damn fine actor and gives the prospector a very genuinely intimidating edge after his heel turn. the casting really makes the character here, but thats nothing new for toy story-- every voice works. if i were the casting director, i probably wouldnt have pulled erudite kelsey grammer for a character named “stinky pete,” but as it is now i couldnt imagine him voiced by anyone else.

the last thing about toy story 2 is it feels like there were a lot more pop culture references? at least as far as i noticed. there are apparently even more than i noticed but i caught on to the “also sprach zarathustra” riff in the opening, and the jurassic park rearview mirror gag. and of course the extended star wars reference with zurg vs. utility belt buzz (and i guess zurg in general.) the references are cute and mostly unobtrusive but really i could take or leave them.

oh yeah also al is hilarious. just this rude, neurotic businessman whos incredibly self-important for the owner of a minor(?) toy store chain. hes such a puffed-up jerk, every time hes on-screen is a delight

toy story 3: this one kills me to death. i always get misty-eyed during “when somebody loved me” but the ending of 3 where andy introduces his toys to bonnie and plays with them one last time made me sob the first time i watched it. and it still does! thats the long game right there, thats the payoff of over 10 years loving these characters. its an emotional ketchup bomb, everything gets all messy and soggy and sweet. hopefully 4 can follow up, but im not really worried about that-- ive heard some good things. damn, its been 9 years since this movie came out, though! it really doesnt feel all that long, but i guess i havent been doing all that much

i actually dont know if i have much else to say about 3. the opening with the re-imagining of the previous films openings (woody versus one-eyed bart, buzz and woody vs. the evil dr. porkchop) is a highlight, although theres a conspicuous lack of bo peep. ive heard she has a big part in 4, but it was kind of weird to see a lot of toys missing and their absence (mostly) glossed over after the first few minutes. i miss r.c. and lenny, but i get they wanted to narrow down the cast so all of them could get in on the plot.

speaking of which, the escape scene is great too. its kind of a crystallizing moment of how close these characters are, and how well they work together. it reminds me a lot of the escape from sids house in the first movie, but there woody was working with sids body-horror toys and seemed to strike up a rapport with them bizarrely quickly. (speaking of which, i miss those toys! their designs were super cool, but i cant imagine they got much merchandise, especially babyface with the sharp, metal spider legs.) here, though, woody and the gang cooperate the best they ever have, and it really paints a picture of how close theyve become over the years, and justifies the emotional climax in the landfill. this is what i was talking about when i said i was surprised how dark toy story 1 got! these toys all hated woodys guts back then for what they thought he did to buzz. they kicked him out of a moving truck! its just weird to think about that conflict between them when you know how long they end up sticking together. but thats, like, neat, so its ok. it feels earned, its just kind of crazy in hindsight.

toy story 3 was also obviously made long after the first two-- by comparison, the lighting is way more sophisticated, the humans are a lot more detailed. theres just a lot more detail In General. the main cast is, like, super dirty for the middle 90% of the film, and it feels like, yeah, We Have This Technology Now. we can render so many individual glitter sprinkles suck to hamms ass and they will be in every single scene. the “fur tech” on lotso and buster is also an obvious clue, especially in the flashback to lotso trudging through the rain back to his owners house. its like “look! we can make this teddy bear SO wet!” and wow! yeah! you did! so wet!

lotso himself is also an interesting villain in terms of sheer bastardness. he is just a huge jerk. he could have hit that button so easily! and he was so mean to the baby! but at the same time hes a great character in how he slowly “changes” throughout the movie. he is kind of an obvious “pixar ‘twist’ villain” but again, the amazing performance by ned beatty really saves him. also he does get a nice comeuppance at the end, which was necessary because hes really the biggest villain in the series so far. hes knowingly malicious and doesnt have any greater motive, hes just an embittered megalomaniac who (apparently) has sent other toys to be broken, thrown away, and incinerated at the landfill. he honestly deserves worse than being strapped to the front of a truck but it works for a family movie.

i have a couple more thoughts on 3 (i guess i did have a fair amount of stuff to say about it) but im getting tired of writing. the music is good as usual, but the vocal stuff being entirely back-loaded (in the credits) is a bit disappointing since ive always been a fan of the songs, but i get that they were going for something different. the jokes about ken being, uh, ‘flamboyant’ felt out of place, mostly the one at the end (”uh, buzz? barbie didnt write this”) because it comes from one of the gang and not unnamed lotso goon #3, but i guess its pretty tame in the scheme of things.

overall im really looking forward to seeing what 4 does with the series. whew!

[dancinginmydressinthesun]

3 for the unusualish asks💞

Oh I will girl ( you should have NOT give me that number right after the bold type season finale)

I cannot rant about Taylor bc everythings good and I’m living for that so lets just go with my favourite show and how fucked up everything is, I am usually not someone who voices their opinion too much especially on here bc thats just not the type of person I am but anyway 

The Bold Type has been my favourite tv show and if you have never seen it I still recommend you do bc overall its still a damn good show dont get me wrong if it does not seem like that (there are several reasons to watch it and I want it to become more popular so pls do)

Well, I started watching it right at the beginning, June/July last year when the first episode aired and BOI it blew me away, like, i did not expect anything major BUT lemme just say it destroys every other show its just that good (I love the girls it focuses on individually and together, the boss is full perfection, the main ship (a bi girl of colour and a proud muslim lesbian) was breathtaking, the storylines were on point and emotional and it just idk maybe they set the bars too high)

So the second season started airing beginnign of june and you know, I WAS worried before that they could not keep up but I had SO MUCH faith (but it also seems like the writers were kind of replaced and man that shows) the first few episodes were fire alright which is even worse bc i had lost all my worries and knew I was gonna be fed the whole season but little did I know …

You know I really hate complaining too much about something about a tv show that is there to enjoy and make me happy so I’ll stop thinking about it after this post but I do get the frustration so much (but death threats and bashing the whole show is not helpful whoops I said it) 

Just a few short notes on things that anger me a little (I’m probably forgetting thigns but anyway):

1. Jane (she is one of the three main girls) I really like(d) Jane a lot and I feel like I can identify with her, we are very much alike in many ways and this especially showed in season 1. I dont “hate” her at all after this season, not even dislike her, but she they used her for almost all (?) the controversial topics as the one who makes rude and subtle offensive comments, which is not bad in itself bc she learned from it mostly all the time and apologizes but it was just too often and much for me. in the first season Jane seemed at least trying to be more understanding even when she could not really and she was relatable with her concerns and her feelings and this was not really the case for me this season. I felt like she did not own up enough for some mistakes and it did not give me this tbt feeling of happiness and goodness and wholesomeness I had after every damn episode last season????

2. Screen Time (Jacqueline/Alex/Adena) You could probably talk about everyone of them in detail now but I dont have the energy - let me just say Adena and Jacqueline are my favourite characters so maybe I am biased and I know that this whole post need to be edited probably after I rewatch the season bc I can easier give feedback when everything is fresh in my mind but you know, all we fans wanted was to have backstorys (and bc he didnt really get one either this probably applies to Oliver too) not even much, just maybe like the episode in season 1 when we got to learn more about Jacquelines family and her past in general (still crying), it was so well-written bc it was not just something thrown in there but integrated in the storyline, it had purpose, it was emotional, it gave insight into her character and I honestly saw her with different eyes after that (and loved her even more), now those 3 or 4 just are really pushed to the sides. You dont see Adena without Kat really or talking about her character without it being about her sexuality and Kat (oh hey a gay one complaining about that??  yes bc even tho I answer I am gay after someone asks me “how are you” theres more to a person and especially to someone as interesting as Adena. I love hearing non heteros talk about their love life and everything surrounding it but at least then let Adena talk about how her coming out was, what she finds interesting in other women, if she ever struggled with it (i know they tried to cover some things but naah idk i just expected more) or just talk about something else, let us see her going to the movies with friends, a childhood throwback when she was in art class, let her talk about what she likes about some types of art. AND HER WHOLE CULTURE? I am a white western woman and I never see muslim representation on tv and I feel like still havent? i forgot at some point?! there are so many non-white people watching it hoping to be represented and ofc you cannot please everyone but now it just feels like Adena is just a proud lesbian you know. And Alex? what who was that again?

3. the storylines - sooo first of all, I liked the storylines more than most people probably from what I have seen on the tag. I think some of them were hard to put in just one episode and try to talk about everything important and still have  show going on, which is why it did not work all the time  have less storylines but make them work would be better. I really did appreciate that they tried to have a lot of stuff covered and they tried to put different points in there but there were a lot of het relationship and other drama stuff to be shown so the storys were often pushed too hard to the sides. this I say having the gun episode in mind the most i felt really unsatisfied after it and I was really looking forward to it bc i think its important and brave for them to talk about it (anyway watch one day at a time, the episode on the same matter is pure gold) . idk its alright its not the same feeling its less spectacular but I’ll stop whining about that now.

4. KADENA - I’ll try to be objective here , i do get that you cannot have a happy relationship without anything going on for 10 episodes (ok you can I would love that but maybe its less wise when it comes to viewers idk?? i stan unpopular shows so who am I to know) BUT come on, not like this?? they started of as PERFECT alright and then it all went downhill, you know cheating and stuff idk, I am not happy with it, could be more original, could be less meh but whatever I was like “ ok I’lll roll with it maybe its gonna bring a new light in this, let them grow, let them learn” but man idk. it was all a mess and once they made up and everything was fine (after 3 epsiodes of pure stress for my weak heart) after 5 minutes there was something new? almost any interaction was either them arguing or making up. I liekd their conversations mostly I really did but I was tired of drama all the time, after this season I’ll just say it: If they want to continue it like that until the end of season 3 I’d rather have them not together anymore. its no fun, its stress for them and even more for me and it would not seem realistic when they make them endgame at the very last minute (which I assume they will bc they promote it like that) without using multiple episodes and time passing to really let them grow in the relationship, without that it would just feel like one day after the finale of season 3 they would have somethng else coming up to fuck them up again. I was really baffled with the finale bc I WAS NOT expecting that they really wouldnt resolve it at all let us suffer like this (I remember that Nikohl i think said that it would be like that but someone else also said recently that it really feels like a finale and that the fans would feel assured but excited for the next season but excuse me? tbt fans who are happy about that end are great. would love to meet one one day. but where they at?? suttard fans all 3 of you I am happy for you honestly. and for sutton. richard idc. i am bitter tho. 

I STILL HAVE SO MUCH HOPE FOR SEASON 3 (pls let the old writers come back, listen to the fans, there are not too many instead of trying to make it more appealing to the general public what about pleasing us again with friendship, gayness, depth and happiness?)

(& remember: I.love.this.show. i do. I would recommend it even when there would only be season 2. but it would not be my fave anymore. its like as if taylor would have the same albums with the same music, same career, same backstory BUT her not really caring about her fans. I would still love her as an artist so freaking much. but would I jump off building for her?? naah maybe if there were a balcony and a pool who knows 

Thanks for coming to my TED talk 

[buzzebee]

just a little self reflection under the cut, it just got really long so! 

hey ok so i just wanted to say that like. my life is rough and im depressed but also im in a really really really good productive safe supporting happy and loving relationship and im just. really proud of myself and how far i have come? and i just want to let myself be happy and proud of who i am and the person i have become and the things that i have learned from loving someone who loves me well and like. idk i just want to shout out to last year’s me and the year before that me and just like. past me in general. because yeah shit’s still rough and im still stressed and nothing is perfect but that’s not the point, the point is that ive actually made progress, a lot of actually measurable progress, and thats so incredibly something for me. like idk i found myself thinking really negatively and wanted some bad and negative things but i held out and i didnt do the destructive thing and instead i focused on other stuff and thats like. idk im just proud of myself and i just want to let myself be proud bc i dont usually and i don’t give myself any recognition or anything but. i did good. im doing good. i have come so far and beyond who i was and the people who made me like that. no one negative has any say in my life and i have come so far and i still only have room for improvement and im really really really proud of myself for that.

also i fucking love addy. have i mentioned how much i love addy lately? because i really really really do love addy. like not to be Like That but i owe so much of my life and my emotional well being to the fact that addy showed me what its like to deserve nice things and to deserve to be treated well and to know what it is to be loved and appreciated and to have someone care for you and be concerned about you and im not perfect and im still healing and working on a lot of stuff but addy is so patient and kind and understanding and loves me still so so much despite the fact that im a little wonky and im still healing. and i am just so amazed all the time that this actual spectacular human being is in love with me and chooses to be with me everyday. idk how i got such a well rounded, kind, compassionate, caring, loving, smart, brave, talented, funny, driven individual to pay attention to me at all let alone like, want to spend the rest of their life with me, but here i am with the love of my life and i couldnt be more grateful for all the support and understanding that they have given me to grow and learn and just. try. try every day. and i cant wait to spend the rest of my life loving addy and working together to try every day. 

anyways this was really long and gay and idk why but i needed to just like. write it somewhere. its cathartic idk. plus ig you’re the one reading this so? idk what you’re doing here either but i hoped u enjoyed my long winded paragraph. im really tired anyways its like 2am i need to sleep i have class in the morning !!!

[faltermoth]

My Unrestricted Opinions on Stranger Things 2

linking @capthawkeye as requested, im sorry this turned into such a rant :’)

First off, i loved the 80′s vibe in the first season and i still love it now its so damn good. One of those things i never knew i needed until i saw it. Like the theme song has to be one of my favorites of all time, it just captures the essence of the show so perfectly god dAMN. 

But before i talk about the rest of the  Good Shit i gotta get some stuff off my chest about this cause oooOOOHHHHH boy there was some weird shit with this season.

Problem #1.

Max served no purpose. I kept waiting for her and billy to like,,,,, do something??? Like max kinda just followed the boys around, and billy was an antagonist to steve, but like, for what purpose?? Its not even that i dont like them, its more that i dont care about them cause we weren’t given any reason to care about them. So if anything, i really hope season 3 does something about that

Problem #2.

Mike didnt do shit in this season either. I really liked his character in season 1, but in this one, anything having to do with him or his development involved him pining over eleven or some shit, and that was fine and all, it served a purpose, but i would have liked to see a little more of his development with other characters too. Like the scene where he talked with will, that was GOOD SHIT, i wish there was more stuff like that.

Problem #3.

The entire plot line with dart. HoLy FuCK. Dustin what the fUCK? Why are you keeping this horrifying lamprey-pollywog thing????????? Did you not learn your lesson about weird creature bullshit from last year? especially after you watched it sprout fucking LEGS out of the sides of its body??????? that shit aint natural!! And what the fuck are the chances of discovering a new species of that complexity in the middle of god damn iNDIANA? Amazon rain forest, i could see. Galapagos islands? For sure. But BOY sure as hell not in the middle of the US of A. But for the sake of argument, lets say he just got real excited and weirdly attached to dart (Which i know is what they were going for, but god damn that decimated the ever-loving shit out of my suspension of disbelief). So Will, obviously aware of the fact that he spit up a worm boy that looked suspiciously similar to  dart. They even show us a got dang flashback. WHY THIS BITCH AINT SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT UNTIL ITS TOO GOD DAMN LATE?????????? ooooOOOHhh that really salted my apples, like i blame that shit 100% more on will than i do on dustin. And in the last episode where dustin meets full grown dart in the tunnels and then…..,,,, i dont even know what the fuck happened? ??? ? I thought the demodogs were a part of the hive-mind? Why was dart exempt from this? Like he physically should have not been able to break from the hive mind, heckin WILL could barely break from it. My ONLY guess is that Dustin left a bit of imprinting on dart as a baby worm, but like even thats a bit of a stretch for me.

Problem #4.

Love triangles. Ive never been a fan of them, and i likely never will.

Problem #5.

The overall ost for this season was not as impressive to me as the first season’s. Like i remember specific tracks from scenes in the first season, but i didnt get any of that with this one. It wasn’t bad by any means, but it definitely wasn’t that memorable.

Problem #6.

Ok, i fully realize this is 1 000 000% a me problem, but fuck this show for getting the Stalker Song stuck in my head. Now dont get me wrong, i absolutely adore The Police, theyre one of my favourite bands, but oooohhhhhhhhhHHHHHHH why is their most popular song Every Breath You Take? I remember when my mom first showed me that ear blood and she told me how it was mega popular when she was in highschool, and it would always be played as a slow song at the dances and i was astounded by this????? Its about this dude’s creepy stalker-attachment to a girl and ahhhh?????????? why was that a good candidate for slow dance music? Also i just think it sounds like shit, especially compared to their other stuff (actually i hate their entire Synchronicity album but thats completely unrelated to this). So knowing all this, i remember sitting there watching the snow ball scene and then it dawned on me that it would 100% be a possibility that  the stalker song could play, and when it did i think i died a little bit. Like y’all couldn’t have played Every Little Thing She does is Magic??? thats the real good shit, not this schloppy garbage. The ONLY redeeming quality to this choice in song was that it acted as a really nice duality to the fact that the shadow monster is also watching every move they make as the lyrics suggest, which i thought definitely fit the song very nicely.

Ok now that i got that all out of the way i can talk about the Good Stuff

 First off, id like to just acknowledge the fact that all these kids are such good actors? like holy shit, especially millie, so god damn talented, im crying

Every scene with Hopper and eleven were so good. Their character dynamic was so good. They played off each other spectacularly, and i hope we get more in season 3. Like they were hands down the best part of this season for me, no questions asked. The scene with eleven’s psychic tantrum was my absolute favourite, it was shot so well, the dialogue was perfect, you could understand  why both of them were so rightfully upset, i just loved it.

Another spectacular scene this season was the one where joyce plays back the footage will took halloween night, and she sees the shadow monster outlined in the static of the tv screen. holy shit did that blow my mind. Gave me the same feeling as her communicating to will through the christmas lights last season, pure gold.

I also continued to enjoy all the dnd analogies they used, like True Sight was such a good metaphor for what they thought will was experiencing.

Just the entirety of episode seven honestly.

STEVE what a good father of five, i really loved his turn of character in the last season and he is such a wholesome person and im glad he and nancy broke up cause fuck nancy, she served a purpose but i never liked her character, she dont deserve steve.

I also was really not expecting to like bob as much as i did. he was just such a good-hearted person. I was also not expecting him to die. rip bob and rip joyce’s sanity.

THE AESTHETIC OF THE SHADOW MONSTER WAS SO SO GOOD HOLY SHHHHHHHH and i really loved the fake out where we thought will would be the spy into the upside down, and then it turned out the shadow monster was actually using will as the spy, that was goooood shit. like when the realization hits that will set up the trap for the lab guys in the tunnels, that was so so good.

Thats about all i can think of right now, the rest of it i thought was good, just nothing that stood out like above mentioned things. I may add more if i think of any

[teamkaiforever]

WAR OF HEARTS                    - PART VII

wiping his face with his hand. He was shirtless and Hayley was a few steps behind him trying to suppress a laugh. Finn was standing on the other side of the stair railing with a shocked expression , not because of what was happening downstairs but because of what he had heard Y/N say. “Great. My embarrassment grows by the second.” muttered Y/N. Rebekah laughed , hugging her from behind. “Nothing embarrassing about it. So … are you going to tell us how it was ?” “You want me to discuss sleeping with your brother and my best friend because of some magic charm bracelet your other brother left just to teach me a lesson ?!” asked Y/N shocked looking at the Mikaelson’s expressions. At that moment Kai screamed and Y/N’s eyes returned to the scene downstairs , widening after seeing Kol’s hand in Kai’s chest. “OK enough of this.” muttered Elijah getting ready to jump over the railing. “Got it covered.” said Y/N raising her hand making both Kai and Kol drop on the ground at the same time , holding their heads and screaming in pain. She stopped the spell making both of them look up at her. Y/N turned towards pretty much the entire Mikaelson family except Klaus who was probably with Hope keeping her away from all the drama. Surely his daughter had woken up. Y/N was pretty sure all of New Orleans was awake now. “A little privacy please?” “You know we are vampires right ?” said Rebekah. “Even if we are not in the room we will still -” “Now please.” insisted Y/N and everyone walked back to their bedrooms. She walked down the stairs towards Kai and Kol who were starring at her , then glanced at each other clearly hating the other more than before. Great. Not only I blew up my relationship with both of them but now they hate each other even more. she thought. “Y/N , I -” started Kai but she just walked past him , completely ignoring him as if he were cloaked. Kol grinned at her reaction and tried to touch Y/N , only to find himself flying across the room with a spectacular witchy headache to go with his newly bruised shoulder. “You are going to sit down and we are going to talk. Understand?” she said calmly. Kai nodded and sat on the couch while Kol sat on one of the comfy chairs on the other end of the room just so he is not tempted to try and kill Kai again. Y/N didn’t sit. She kept pacing back and forth trying to gather her thoughts. “Are you OK?” she asked Kai concerned. “Me? Yeah … I’m … I’m fine.” he replied a little confused. “Y/N I want to apologise , I don’t - ” “Not now. We are going to talk about what happened last night in a moment.” she said turning towards Kol who kept looking at the ground. “You. I get that you don’t like him and that things are beyond confusing right now but … trying to KILL MY BEST FRIEND ?! That’s not going to slide down into the ‘I’ll forgive you after a bouquet with flowers’ pile.” Kol sighed , getting up and taking a step towards her but she stepped back from him. “I’m sorry. I .. .” he said sincerely and then lost it again. “He took advantage of you! Can’t you see it ?! I am your boyfriend. You should be defending me. You should be asking me if I am OK.” “You are right.” she sighed. “I should be defending you. I should be worried if you are OK. Except Kai is not the one who tried to kill someone I care about less than 5 seconds ago.” Y/N sat on the opposite end of the couch holding her head in her hands. Her embarrassment had grown into anger seeing what Kol had tried to do and also unimaginable pain at the thought of losing Kai for good. In the Prison World , he hadn’t been able to die but here - things were different. Dead meant dead. “I am sorry … about what happened yesterday.” she sighed heavily , roughly running her fingers through her hair. “I am sorry for leading you both on. I love both of you more than I care to admit and I have been so selfish because of it. Wanting to keep you both in my life …” she said turning to her best friend. “Kai … please , go home. I will come over in a few. There is something I have to talk to about in private with Kol.” “Um yeah okay.” said Kai nervously. “See you later , I guess…” Kai managed a weak smile , glancing at Kol wishing he had been able to kill him. But even in his anger and frustration in that moment , Kai knew that way he’d lose Y/N for good. He walked outside , the streets still empty as the day was just beginning. For a while he roamed the streets , thinking or at least trying to think. Snapshots of what had happened the night before flashing in his mind - the way her eyes had glowed while moaning his name. Her lips on his , biting his lower lip when he had his fingers inside her. Kai had overstepped with the kiss , but he hadn’t been able to stop himself. Everything had felt magnified to the max. Kai was afraid she’d tell him their friendship was over. How could he be around her anymore without wanting to do those things all over again ? Minus Kol , of course. After Kai had left , Y/N turned towards Kol motioning for him to sit on the couch. “I hope  you know I would never cheat on you.” she said quietly. “I am not that kind of person. What happened was because of your brother Klaus and that enchanted bracelet he left me as an early birthday present. "I .. I don’t regret what happened because it was … amazing , really.” Kol smiled at her , feeling her hand taking his. “But ?” He could feel the ‘but’ coming from a mile away. Kol was aware he had crossed a line and was more than surprised when she kissed him for a brief moment. “No 'but’ , there is a however …” she smiled nervously. “I love you , I will probably always love you Kol. You have made me happy in so many ways and I wish I could’ve done the same.” “What are you talking about darling ?” he asked confused. “You have made me the happiest man alive. Reminded me of what love feels like. My heart was broken and you found a way to mend it.” Y/N smiled at him , feeling the pain of what she was about to say. “I love him.” she said with tears in her eyes.  "It’s always been him .. I didn’t realise it until … I saw your hand in his chest about to rip his heart out.“ "Woaw. Had I know I’d lose you to him by shoving my hand in his chest , I never would’ve done it.” muttered Kol. “I’m sorry.” she said. “I never meant to hurt you…and somehow I have managed to do just that.” Y/N wiped a few tears away from her cheeks. Kol pulled her into a hug unable to watch her suffering. Even tho it hurt him , somehow he had known it all along. “I will find a way to make it up to you.” she muttered. “I promise.” “I um … I’ll go have words with Klaus.” said Kol awkwardly getting up and heading up the stairs in vampire speed. Y/N stared after him , tears rolling down her cheeks. She curled up into a ball on the couch not even bothering to wipe away the tears. A few minutes later someone sat on the opposite end of the couch , making her look up.  It was Hayley , a small smile on her face and two packs with ice cream in her hands. “You look like someone who needs a shoulder to cry on.” she said handing Y/N one of the ice creams. “..and ice cream.” Y/N smiled through tears , slowly sitting up. Hayley pulled out a tissue from a box on the small coffee table handing it to her. “Th-thanks.” “Kol will forgive you.” said Hayley rubbing Y/N’s back in slow circles. “He managed to forgive Freya and everyone else for what happened to Davina. What you did was nothing compared to that…” “Davina ..” started thinking Y/N and suddenly got up. “Oh my God , Hayley ! Thank you for being so nice to me after everything and for the ice cream and coming to talk to me… but there is something I have to do…” she hugged Hayley and rushed upstairs. Y/N knocked on Finn’s door. He opened pretty quickly , still with a shocked expression on his face. Clearly back in his time things like a threesome weren’t tolerated at all. He was so old school but she couldn’t blame him for being shocked. “Hey.” she said. “I need your help.” *        *          * A few hours later Y/N walked to Kai’s place and knocked on the door. Kai had already compelled someone to have it fixed by the looks of it. She felt more than nervous about coming to his place than she had ever felt about anything in her entire life. Just as she was about to knock again , Kai opened the door looking as nervous as she felt. “Hey.” he said stepping aside , letting her in. “Do you want a drink ?” Y/N noticed the glass in his hands and shook her head. “I want to be sober for this and so do you…” she took the glass from his hands leaving it on the fancy table by the couch. “I’d actually rather be drunk. It would dull the pain of you kicking me out of your life for good.”  he said quietly. Y/N looked at him , he looked like a lost puppy. So sad and heartbroken. She sighed. At first she had hoped to explain to him what had happened but her heart broke seeing him like this - the glow in his eyes missing , his smile replaced by a frown. There will be plenty of time to explain things to him later. she thought  and jumped into his arms , her lips smashing against his. Kai looked a little startled at first and then pulled her closer to him until she backed him onto the couch , climbing on top of him. His hands slid up and down her back pulling her body closer to his before he pushed her away. “Is this a goodbye kiss?” “I love you.” she said suddenly completely avoiding his question. “Wh-what ?” “I love you. I have loved you probably since the day we met.” she said smiling. “It took me so long to realise it and I -” Kai smashed his lips against hers not letting her finish. He had expected her to say and do everything else but this. The night before , however strange it had been , was one of the best in his life because he had been able to touch and kiss her. Hearing her say that she loves him , meaning it in a more than a friend way , made him feel happiness he never thought possible. “I love you too Y/N.” he said smiling widely. “I love you and I want the whole world to know… I LOVE YOU.” said Kai raising his voice and Y/N had to cover his mouth. “Shhh you will scare everyone with  your shouting.” she laughed. “I don’t care.” he said pressing his lips against hers again. “All I care about is YOU. You being here.” he kissed her again “Being able to kiss you and touch you.” … and again until she had to push him away for a moment to take a breath. Kai was smiling widely and Y/N couldn’t stop smiling either.  It was the happiest she had ever seen him - his eyes were glowing and his smile was wider than ever. “What about Kol?” he asked suddenly. “I don’t want to -” “We broke up. Kai , you are the only one I want to be with.” she said softly. “Now , always and forever. I … I am sorry for all the pain I caused you -” “You haven’t caused me any pain sweetheart.” he said brushing his fingers through her hair. “In fact you have made me the happiest person on the planet since the day you walked into my life. Can I tell you something ?” asked Kai. “Yeah. What is it?” “You know the picture you gave me yesterday ? The one from the day you fell off the clock tower?” he said suddenly nervous. Y/N nodded with a curious look in her eyes. “That’s the day I knew … that I love you.” “It is ? Wh-why didn’t you tell me ?” Y/N thought back of that day , it seemed like it had happened yesterday but it hadn’t. It had been weeks. The look on Kai’s face when she had opened her eyes…How hadn’t she seen it ? “I was afraid I’d lose you.” he said simply. “You are so good , so pure. I am the exact opposite.How could you love me?” “Because you are good and pure , Kai. You might not see it but I do.” Kai brushed his palm against her cheek , a small smile showing on his face. He was looking at her with longing loving eyes making her heart flutter , sending butterflies in her stomach. “Klaus was right ..” “Yeah … ” she said playing with her hands , laughing nervously. “He has that annoying habbit of being right. Kai ?” “Yes princess.” said Kai kissing her neck gently. “There is something I want to do for Kol … and I’ll need your help.” *    *    *Y/N and Kai walked into the compound , finding Kol and a bunch of his murder victims laying around. He looked up at them , blood dripping down his chin as he was just about to drain another one. His eyes darted between Kai and Y/N who were standing a few feet apart. “You might want to go and clean yourself up.” said Y/N. “What for love? It’s not like I am going anywhere today.” said Kol letting down the girl he had been feeding on drop on the ground. “Why is he here ?” Y/N sighed , stepping over body after body listening in for heartbeats. Whenever she found someone who had survived  she bit her wrist feeding them her blood , leaving for Kai to compell them afterwards.   “One last time , just do this to me for one last time.” she smiled taking his hands. “Trust me , you don’t want to be covered in blood for what happens next.” Kol sighed and whooshed himself off the living room to clean up. Meanwhile Y/N and Kai had to drag the lifeless bodies away. “This would be so much easier with magic.” muttered Kai. Y/N laughed. “I am just saying.” “Fine. We’ll do it the easy way.” she smiled. A few minutes later everything was cleaned up as if nothing had happened and just on cue Kol came down the stairs - his face washed up , wearing a white shirt with his jeans. “Are you going to tell me what this is about ?” he asked half annoyed half curious. “Not me.” smiled Y/N as Kai wrapped his hands around her from behind , his hands meeting on her stomach. “She will.” Kol looked at her confused , realising the way Kai had wrapped his hands around her. So they are together now. he thought. “She ? Who is-?” “Kol ?” The wildest of all Mikealson’s froze on the spot , turning towards the direction the voice had come from. Less than 10 meters away stood Davina Claire with a wide smile on her face. Kol smiled ear to ear running towards her as she ran towards him. “Davina !” In a second Davina was in Kol’s arms. Kol spun her around , both of them smiling and laughing , happiness radiating from them before they kissed. Y/N and Kai watched smiling , Kai pulling her closer to him. “That was very nice .. what you did for him.” “I figured I owed him for breaking his heart. And I couldn’t have done it without you.” said Y/N turning towards him , their lips meeting in a gentle kiss. __________ MASTERLIST March / April 2017 MASTERLIST MAY 2017 MASTERLIST JUNE 2017