#LET ME LOOK UP 3D ANIMATION IN PEACE

[one-hell-of-a-showtime]

Am I gonna have to blacklist freaking balder’s gate

[eatmangoesnekkid]

You must water yourself and feed the tissues in your body with the light from your thoughts, perceptions, nutrition, to the things you watch, listen to, and read. This doesn't mean that you try to escape the tragedies of the external world. It does mean that you understand that your body responds to your own love and care more than anything else. Daily care and aftercare are essential during times of war and peace. As we sit with the paradox and nuance of being human and our predatory animal nature to take, pillage, and harm, we must show up for it all, including caring for our bodies. Your body responds to your daydreams, thoughts, and touch. When you touch your body, let your heart be as light as a feather...as much as possible. The light in your hands sculpt, shape, and heal your body. I told my friend the other day that my breasts sit up the way that they at 47 years old because of how much love I have given them over the last 15 years, how much I take time and care with my body, how often I lay back and just listen. So many of us with breasts carry burdens in our bodies year after year. God needs us to transmute all the shame, tension, anger, repression, embarrassment, and fear so that we can access more of our divine nature to help evolve this world by channeling raw and uncommon solutions.

Because if the voting and marching were working, we would be not be where we are in the world today. I still bow to my sisters and brothers who are on the front lines. But what I also know to be true is that we must take time to detox in order to recalibrate the hate, repression, shame, and war living in our epigenetic line that continue to create war in our bodies--the diabetes, cancer, chronic jealousy, womb aches, breasts ache, lack of sensation, and lack of full-body orgasms, and also the molestation and scarcity in the family line. These entities. We can't continue to "take in" and not let out.

Bringing More Love to Your body Changes the World Around You and Opens Up More Pathways to Love and Loving

When you live "spirituality" as a lifestyle, more of your DNA unlocks open. When there is high emotion in the collective, I transfer that energy into self-care--bathing, skin care, making good food, listening to good music, resting and caring for who and what is around me. I made a bone broth chicken soup and brought some to my massage therapist. I know what's happening in the world but I'm not constantly attuned to it in the 3D, meme after meme, news story after news story. I'm living life that around me and praying for those who are fighting for their actual lives. I do not take for granted what it means to have more freedom.

Shifting my focus in various ways over the years has kept my body more nourished and youthful than what it would have been otherwise. I priortise sweating often, lik in a dry Finnish sauna, wet sauna, or sweating while working out in high intensity classes. I have no goal to stay younger-looking. I love being grown AF. It is merely what naturally happens when we take care ourselves (our cells) and release, release, release. When we release, our tissues let go and bodies respond favorably. Our care creates the conditions that allow our bodies to flourish in ways in which we beautifully and radiantly age, but we don't age as quickly. -India Ame'ye, Author

[the-visual-journey-blogg]

Shaping the World One Frame at a Time: My Evolution as Animator

(6 minutes reading)

By Sofi Ojeda

Animation is something I once believed was too difficult for me. I always loved artistic ways of expression as playing music, painting or sculpting but animation, it is something I leaned to love doing it through the years and though getting to know it more and more. Although animation is being one of the main treats that shaped myself, just a 25 year old girl, who moved from Ecuador to Vancouver. My first drawings were of the shows I watched as a child: SpongeBob and lots of anime. I even created a little space in my room, a sort of hideaway where I could turn on my lamp, and lose myself in drawing all day and night, when I needed to scape.

I believe that aspiring animators like myself, did this because we found a safe place to be, plus the emotions that cartoons brought showing us wide worlds, making it impossible for us to look away. Ever since I fell in love with animation, I've watched small and large studios productions, independent, experimental, local, and international too. Choosing among them is a daunting task, but I've decided to focus on my top three mediums that have changed my life.

Dreamming: Avatar - The Last Airbender (2005) by  Michael Dante DiMartino, Bryan Konietzko, Aaron Ehasz, John O'Bryan

Let's begin with "Avatar: The Last Airbender". As a child who loved drawing and fantasy, I connected deeply with this animated series but not only beacuse of that. "Avatar" is probably one of the best-written script I've ever seen in an animated series. It tells the story of the rebirth of a spiritual being who seeks to bring peace to the world. The obstacles and friends he encounters along the way, along with their unique stories, make this journey unforgettable. In a world where the power of the elements - water, earth, fire, and air - exists, character development, dramatic arcs, and three-dimensionality are as precise as the fact that it explores topics such as war, peace, morality, and personal growth. I think this series grew up with its audience, making it appealing to both children and adults. And there was I, an ecuadorian little girl who needed to believe that peace could happen, but the world is more complex that that and it can be overcome.

2. Technique: Klaus (2019) by SPA Studios (Sergio Pablos Studios)

Next, I'd like to discuss "Klaus" which was the first time I discovered the revolution in animation techniques. These productions such as Klaus, Arcane or Spiderverse blend 2D with 3D in ways that shook me to the core. Sergio Pablos pushed me into a state of curiosity and research on this subject and how to achieve similar results. These experiences led me to realize that animation knows no bounds in order to convey our messages more effectively. Technique is beautiful, such as lightning, texture and color keys, but it is not transcendent without a meaning or a clear message. "Klaus" serves as a masterpiece that demonstrates that even a "cliché" theme or something that works can truly work when revitalized and improved upon.

3. Purpose: "Onions" by Anna Scott

Lastly, I need to include an indie, non-popular short film. It was a final project by Cal Arts graduate Anne Scott, so it's indie, I suppose. It seems it found me precisely when I needed it. I was on a challeging period of my life an also, the city I grew up in had a peculiar pattern of cloudy days all year. It often left me feeling uninterested in doing anything. And this piece happens on only cludy days.

This short film began to appeal to me because I saw a piece of hand-drawn animation that was exceptionally well-executed. I fell in love with it. "Onions" tells the story of flying creatures called onions, all identical, except for two who couldn't fly. This meant they had to journey through the forest to rejoin their herd for the annual migration. As the story unfolds, these two onions begin to feel different - they don't belong to their herd. But, they learn to enjoy the journey and embrace new things. Yes, it never became sunny, and yet, this short film made me want to cherish those gray days and savor them.

Conclution

To wrap up, yes, I want to change people's lives and convey emotions. But, as I mentioned earlier, the illusion of being the savior of the world is unrealistic. For me, it's crucial to be aware of the privileges I have, and the ones I don't. And choose the causes I can champion by my own artistic means. The techniques are essential too but only tracendent with a good storytelling to convey messages.

As a Multimedia graduate I collaborated with three NGOs and a foundation. Also I developed video games in a woman led studio, focused on the ancestral cultures of the country where I was born: Ecuador, the cultures that surrounded me as I grew up, and those that are slowly fading away. So that is how I want to keep walking on this animation / visual journey, and keep learning and resetting my goals.

[always--and--never]

Devlog #8: The Watcher

I made a new game! It's a short point-and-click game about a knight trying to make up a story at the last minute (wink wink), and it was made for the 2023 4th Wall Broken Game Jam. You can play it here, at my itch.io page. It's currently available to play in desktop browsers (HTML5) and downloadable (Windows).

More about the game's development (including some spoilers) after the break!

This game jam had a more lenient time frame (2 months starting from January 1st), so I started with a more ambitious version of the same idea that ended up becoming The Watcher: I wanted a more action-focused game, also focused on a knight living in a kingdom with a king / god figure obsessed with storytelling. In that original vision you had a three-hit combo, a shield and a lock-on on enemies. I did this in part because I thought it would be cool, but in a bigger part because I've been feeling pressured to make more... gamey games, with more interaction other than moving around and reading text.

The control scheme was very much inspired by 3D Zelda games, and throughout January I was able to get a player controller that felt really solid and the animations flowed well between hits, shielding, running and jumping. However, then I would have to work on a couple basic enemies to fight against and all that doing so implies (enemy AI, attacking and reacting to attacks, patrol movement, a long etcetera); I was punching way above my weight and I had noticed but didn't immediately make any decisons about it (apart from thinking about dropping the whole thing and not submitting anything). Anyways, here's a quick look at the original prototype:

In early February my attention shifted towards another game jam (an in-person one that I attend yearly) and personal stuff: a professional setback that mad me feel pretty bad, I got sick, I went camping while sick and had lots of fun. By mid February The Watcher had not been developed any further, and despite being sure that there was no chance to make the action-adventure game I had originally envisioned, I didn't really have a plan yet.

I was getting bitter because of having used so much time working on a game only because I felt insecure about my style of work and not because I really wanted to, so I decided to just drop the whole thing and start (almost) from scratch: I kept the base concept, turned it into a point-and-click game with mostly fixed camera angles, and added a lot of story elements related to how I'd been feeling lately: disconformity with my work, the cost of being true to myself, negative thoughts about how some people evaluate stories, and my own future as a game developer. I was getting bitter and cynical and I really didn't want to feel like that, but as I worked on a game that I was actually liking and enjoying to work on, the feeling of hope started coming back. I worked really well considering how little time I had left, and even had time to learn some new tricks while doing so, like lightmapping and occlusion culling. I wrote a lot of new code for my ever growing collection of reusable scripts and prefabs that I'm using to save time in each project. Also, working with camera switching and specific camera angles let me set a mood for every room and space in the game which was really fun, and something I'd been wanting do to for while.

The Watcher is the most personal game I've made in quite some time, which is saying a lot considering how personal all the stuff I make usually is. This is probably the first time I've felt peace (and not just tired relief) after finishing a game, and with a bit more time I could have added more of the ideas I had for this new version and it would have been even better. I wouldn't say it's a masterpiece or anything similar, but I'm at peace with what it is and I'm glad with the reception it's been having so far! I always feel like a hack after releasing something so it's been nice to have positive feedback, especially concerning my writing which I also think is still pretty bad... but maybe it's getting better (?) :)

Anyways, here's the latest step in my gamedev journey and despite its simplicity and rushed development, I'm satisfied and also excitedly looking forward to the next step!

[claudemblems]

Hello! Hope you had a good day~✨

If your matchup event still open may i request romantic matchup with genshin boys?

(If it too long and i make you work too much you feel free to drop this and I'm so sorry about it😔)

My eng name go by Nia, My age is 18 now hehe😊 I'm 165 cm tall weigh 45 kg girl, i have black straight hair and black eyes. I wear pink round glasses all the time and be model for online clothes. My friends tell that i have cute sweet vibe easy to talk with but hard to read trought. (Some tell me that i'm a scary person and i don't know why....😗)

I'm kind, polite and playful but strict and serious when it's come to work mode. I'm good at study and communicate in formal work (If ignore the truth that i'm introvert and i have to DO IT with no other choices ☺️) My hobbies are playing (bord) games, whatching anime movies and listen to j-pop songs (Now, i'm secretly interested in 3d model cuz of genshin✨) My dream is live in a peaceful-town with my loving single-mom, with good nature and good neighbors around us~🏡 My gold for now is study hard to find my stable jop in the future📚

*My only weakness that i feel and hard to fix is that i'm not good dealing with stressed, when i'm over-work and burnout i can't feel the need to do and don't care if it's effects me later( It's aways troublesome to fix things after THAT so i choose to careful don't push myself in to that point)

In the end thank you in advance,and congrate on your 1000 followers!🥳

Your romantic matchup is Diluc!

You and Diluc both know firsthand what it's like to have people get the wrong first impression of you. Though on the surface you two might seem scary or aloof, only those who are willing to look beyond it will see you for who you really are. You were one of those people for Diluc. It made him happy that you still wanted to get to know him even though his demeanor often turns people away. He found himself wanting to know more about you, too.

Diluc enjoys playing card games at the tavern with you and the customers. It's always a fun time, and the townspeople are always going on about how cute they think you are. Though they never would have predicted Diluc would have fallen in love with someone, especially a girl as sweet and cheerful as you, they remark how you two turned out to be a perfect match. It makes Diluc feel proud to have someone so wonderful by his side.

Diluc understands what it's like to work yourself to the bone. More than once he's neglected his health because of it. However, he won't stand for you pushing yourself to the limit. He cares about you too much to let you overwork yourself, but sometimes it's out of his control. You often get so caught up in your studies at home, and it's up to Diluc to gently remind you to rest. You're even welcome to stay at the Winery if you'd like; he's more than happy to take care of you until you're well.

He wants to give you the best future possible, and he has all the money he needs to make it happen. You are always welcome in his home, and he even offers for you to come over and use his office whenever you need a quiet place to study. Everything that's his is yours. He dreams about marrying you one day when the time is right. He wants to repay all of your love and kindness, desiring to give you all the happiness you deserve. For the first time in a long time, he looks forward to his future. With you by his side, he knows there's nothing to fear.

[mistydeyes]

Hiii this is for your COD pairing!

Appearance

- 5’7

- brown eyes

- shoulder length black curly hair

- I have 2 nose piercings and a few tattoos

- She/her

Personality / interests

- infp :)

- I am a big homebody, I love to cook, bake and read

- I’m obsessed with the ocean. I love the beach and jellyfish

- I would say I’m pretty quiet at first but once I get comfortable I literally don’t shut up

- I love to do things for people i know like giving small gifts or doing little things to make their day better

Job

- im a biochemist and I work in a research lab currently.

- I work with proteins

- I’m looking into getting my MSC

Partner type

- someone who likes to banter with me

- Will listen to my random thoughts and be chaotic with me

- Someone who will be honest and straight up with me

Tyyyyy :)))

Kyle "Gaz" Garrick (a/n WE LOVE WOMEN IN STEM!! y'all working in the lab are really the backbone to everything in health)

How you met: Civilian You loved visiting the aquarium, especially ones that had the tanks that formed a tunnel where you could marvel at the sea creatures as they swam over you. Makes sense why you were sitting in the tunnel in the London Aquarium. "Gorgeous, innit?' a young man replied as he entered the tunnel. You smiled as he took a similar sitting position to marvel at the animals. "It's my favorite place here, something about it is so peaceful," you replied as you pulled your knees in to let other guests pass. "Wonder what they think?" he postulated as he stared upwards, "'time to swim over the canyon, make sure not to fall in'" he joked and you laughed at his terrible observation. "I guess, maybe it's like when you try to avoid a body of water and try not to drown," you spoke aloud and he nodded in response. After some time making conversation and telling some bad fish puns (along the lines of Q: Where do sick fish go? A: To see a sturgeon.), Kyle helped you up. "Want to come to the touch tank with me?" he asked and as you both looked into each other's eyes, you took this opportunity to take a running start as he followed you, laughing.

A peek into your relationship: You rubbed your eyes as you examined the quaternary structure of a protein you were working on. You strained as you tabbed over from the 3D model to the results from your circular dichroism spectrometry. You had a proposal due by the end of this week and needed to quantify your results into a paper. By now, the lab was empty and everyone had gone home. Even your PI left you in the cold lab to look over your results. As you tried to label your figures, your phone buzzed. "Come down to the third floor for dinner :)" Kyle texted and you smiled. You might as well take a break. You took off your coat and quickly made your way down the stairs. As you approached the table, Kyle sat there with some of your favorite takeout. "Hey you," he smiled and motioned for you to sit next to him. "Hey, Love," you replied and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "How's the lab work going?" he asked as he watched you scarf down the second meal you've had today. "Stressful," you sighed, "my PI wants the proposal by the end of this week for my new research and I have a poster presentation on Wednesday." You rubbed your temples and Kyle massaged your shoulders. "Well I'm always here to present to, I'll be sure to have questions for you," he said and you gave a soft smile in response. "Might have to take you up on that offer," you replied. That's how at 11pm, you were presenting your research to your boyfriend as he furiously wrote down notes to ask you "very important" questions.

"Kyle, asking 'How can someone be so sexy and so smart?' is not a question I'm going to be asked on Wednesday" "Just trying to prep you, my scientist!"

[shroomyart404]

Answering these bc no one looks at my blog so might as well

1. Procreate. That bitch fucked up my pen pressure and so I refuse to use it out of spite. Also flippaclip.

2. Facing right and I’d put money on the idea it bc I draw with my right hand

3. My current OCs for the lighthouse guidebook (and in general the want to create my own fantasy story.) I was very much into mythos and fairytales when I was little, along with being read diskworld stuff before bed.

4. Arthur bloody Kirkland, can’t draw him consistently. As for subject generally, landscapes and housing, like I love them but fuck I can’t draw them

5. I post most my art, but it’s scattered across the abyss. Some bits are on tumblr, some bits are on Instagram, some bits are on twitter. What isn’t posted is things I planned to finish then never did… my sketchbook won’t be posted bc all that’s shite

6. I can never escape BNHA, in the eyes and hair I draw ot always remind me of it. That and Pokémon.

7. 3D and animation. Like that shit takes sooo much patience, y’all have my utmost respect

8. Less loss interest and more realised what I was attempting required a lot more research and plotting than I had patience for. My little polyamorous vampire comic idea.

9. Brief description of the piece, let me grab an example for you. Sometimes it’s silly shit like ‘cringe bastard’ tho

10. I think pilot jackets, they’re fun to draw. But also corsets and silly shirts. Hijabs are also fun to draw but I need to try gather better references

11. Depends. Sometimes it’s a playlist, most times tho it’s a show or a gaming stream

12. NONE OF IT ITS ALL TRICKY (noses)

13. Uhhh a lot of artwork in museums, especially a lot of pop art. I feel bad for saying it because it has shaped a lot of modern art but sometimes I’m like ‘…huh.’

15. On the bus, currently. Or at college. Just spots where I can have a little bit of peace

16. Detailings. This could be jewellery or patterns or such. Like the end products pretty when I can be arsed, but fuuuuck I always forget and stuff.

17. Usually if I am, I’m snacking, I can’t draw and eat a proper meal. So usually it’s chocolate and lucazade.

18. Not a lot actually! Which is shocking. Uhh a couple of my oil pastels are snapped and I severely fucked up my secondary schools watercolours rip

19. None of them fuck inanimate objects (maybe weapons? I’m not good but they’re fun)

20. Probably armour. I’m shit at shading metal but I’m decent at drawing it in my personal opinion

21. You know those surrealist pieces where the faces stretch? Specifically those. Also a lot of library/lineweight heavy styles

22. None because uhhh I’m stupid

23. Yes. I would be nowhere without multiple and linear burn.

24. Stock images are more for moodboards. Every so often there’ll be one that works for poses but…not usually

28. A couple dtiys things but that’s it, I wish I was apart of a zine but I’m not so lucky yet.

30. A couple pieces I wish got more love. Personal favs of mine

Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game

Didn't see a lot of artist ask games, wanted to make a silly one.

(I wrote this while sick out of my mind last year and it's been collecting dust in my drafts, I might as well let it run free) 1. Art programs you have but don't use

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

3. What ideas come from when you were little

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

9. What are your file name conventions

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

12. Easiest part of body to draw

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

14. Any favorite motifs

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

23. Do you use different layer modes

24. Do your references include stock images

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

[maximuswolf]

To everyone who loves gaming don't sleep on Satisfactory

To everyone who loves gaming, don't sleep on Satisfactory I picked this up on a whim a couple of weeks back, shortly following it's 1.0 release after being in early access for 5 years.I honestly am not even sure why I bought it. I'd never heard of it before, and 'factory sim' genre games were not something I had any interest in. I was aware of Factorio, had tried it, and frankly didn't enjoy it at all, but I saw this was in first person, and the reviews were all really good, so I rolled the dice and picked it up.And let me just say, this is the best game ive played in years.If you want to spend hours exploring the giganitc map, with one of the best looking alien planets ever done in a videogame, theres plenty of exploration to be done.If you want to spend hours just designing the look of your latest factory, and experieicing the look of it in first person 3d, there's endless fun to be had.If you don't care about pretty design and just want to progress and unlock things, nothings stopping you. There's no right or wrong way to play the game. There's no time, no limits. Just you and a giant continent to explore and build on.The AI in the game gives fun Gladdos vibes without feeling like they copied.There's no micro transactions. No season pass. No bullshit account needed to play.Like Minecraft, there's a peaceful mode if you don't want the animals to be aggressive towards you.Theres even an aracnophobic mode that replaces the spiders with cats.Just little things like that, good game design, they let you play it how you want to.Not only is the game incredibly fun, it's one of the best looking games visually I've ever played. Seriously, the lighting effects, the way reflections work on shiny panit or glass surfaces, it's legit AAA level graphics.TLDR, if the idea of a factory building game turned you off considering Satisfactory, don't let it! The game is a masterpiece of game deisgn and open world exploration and fun. Submitted October 20, 2024 at 03:43AM by 420binchicken https://ift.tt/ICAs4oQ via /r/gaming

[immortallaughter]

Become Someone Else 

I don't think I've ever really introduced myself, I'm Nat! I'm a strangely outgoing introvert (I thank my extroverts who always seem to find me and bring me out of my shell) who isn't afraid to try new things. I love all things creative: I am an artist, writer, teacher (elementary literacy tutor atm but in college again to become a high school art teacher), anime/manga lover, avid reader and book collector, lover of all music genres (shuffle on my playlists is a trip), theater kid, cosplayer, makeup artist, special effects artist, hobby photographer, custom D&D dice maker, 3d printing enthusiast, singer, licensed master aesthetician, weight lifter, very novice at crochet and sewing, and so much more since my ADHD never seems to let me pick one thing for too long. A jack of all trades if you will! 

As part of an assignment from The Art Assignment, I figured I'd take a moment to find two photos that show different sides of me.  

In the first photo, I was modeling for a roommate from my freshman year of college. I felt confident, beautiful, and playful as I posed, but I haven't always been that way. I was a quiet kid growing up, standoffish, uncomfortable sharing my interests in fear that I would come off as a nerd or unpopular, especially compared to my twin brother who was a lot more popular, athletic, and outgoing than I ever hoped to be. I didn't know if I had what it took to be noticed by anyone in any way that mattered, or if I would ever fit in with anything other than my art.  

It took years of going into the world away from my small town to realize being myself was so freeing. In a sense I became someone completely different than the reserved individual I once was. I don't need just cosplay to help me become someone new. Now I'm weird, happy, and unafraid of enjoying things from all spectrums of hobbies even if it isn't everyone else's cup of tea; I learned if I like it, not everyone's opinion on the matter meant a single thing to my happiness unless I allowed it to. It started with practicing special effects makeup like I'd always wanted to, to dipping a toe into cosplaying, to focusing on my art after a four-year hiatus away from drawing a single thing, to enjoying all the creative options that had always been of interest. 

That leads to my second photo over half a decade later.  

My insomniac brain decided at 2 am I had inspiration to try doing a technique for fake freckles. They turned out well enough it inspired an entire original elf character to pop into my head! I got out my cosplay gear for an outfit and special effects makeup, then did an impromptu photoshoot. I loved it so much it has become my go to look for going to Renaissance Faires! I have the absolute confidence to feel comfortable cosplaying on a public train, going to the store, and meeting new people in or out of character. I wish the younger me could see the amount of growth we have so she could have an ounce of the peace of mind I do now.  

Life is worth having fun and not being afraid to step away from the normal. If you always must be mindful of the judgement of others, you're too preoccupied to truly live in the moment and enjoy what really makes you happy. Go, be weird and thrive, my friends. 

[bjorkncaddel]

𝐎𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 hand, she understood why Chiara did not pick the pet. She did not have a place to live at all, she was either surf coaching in people's homes or on the streets. Neva took her out of this uncomfortable way of living. ⎯ Despite the headache of finding a place to live, she loves their home. It is calm and peaceful and it does not even look like they're in New York. It is not too far from both of their work, and the pet hotel is so close they can go by walking there. Neva watched her poor daughter having to hide, luckily when the doctor came in she was in silence in the bathroom. They don't need a headache of why her pet was there. Boo was her emotional support pet which Neva's doctor prescribed for her, when her engagement ended. ( If Boo wasn't prescribed, Neva couldn't live in a few places she lived, since some apartments did not accept pets unless is emotional support animals ).

The blonde heard the doctor, assuring her that everything was 'normal'. Neva asked to Ryan wait outside, while she talked to the doctor, she didn't want to let him worry, and she knew him well enough to know that this part could be stressful… And she didn't want to make him more worried than he already was. The Swedish complained about the bother caused by the sickness. ⎯ There was no getting better but also, she wasn't getting worse, fortunately. The doctor managed to keep her as 'stable' as she could be. After their little chat, he called out Ryan to join her.

❛ I think he can join me for the 3D scan, but for the rest, I'd rather be alone. ❜ He always went with her to all her medical appointments, and she knows how he enjoys seeing the ultrasounds. As for the rest of the exams, she asked the doctor if by chance she felt the urge to call her husband, they could call him, and he allowed. She prefers doing exams alone, but if she feels anxious, she would ask for him. ⎯ The doctor left, and she caressed Boo's furs, that was once again purring, and she watched Ryan. ❛ Yes, go ahead. Don't do it too slowly because it's ticklish. ❜ She warns him. Neva hates tickles on her feet.

The nurse came in and warned the doctor is going to pick her up for the exams, to hide Boo again. They'd start for the 3D exams. Boo was once again hidden in the bathroom, but she meowed a little. Luckily, it was only the nurse that helped with the operation, and then, they went to the room where the exams were made. The nurse adjusted Neva, to a better position in the bed, and opened her shirt, to prepare for the 3D scan. After putting the gel on her bump, the doctor begins to operate the machine, and looking how are the twins. Once he found one of the twins, he turned the screen so the new parents to be see their babies, this time with more details. It wasn't the first time she saw them in 3D but at the moment, since she is further in the pregnancy, there are more details and their babies looks more a babies now. She could see the shape of their little nose, and the features of their faces. ❛ Ohhh! They're bigger than the last time. ❜ Nils was bigger and Freja was smaller. Nils was in the right position to be born, and Freja hasn't changed the position yet. ❛ If your second baby doesn't change position we will have to do a C-Section for her. Since you opted for a natural birth. ❜ He warns the parents. Neva already said she would do whatever is better if the natural birth didn't work out for them. ❛ And I will print these scans. I know some parents enjoy having them. ❜

——her comment made him laugh, it wouldn’t be something Chiara wouldn’t want to do, but the timing was not right. “she contemplated but had a lot on her plate now,” he laughed; regardless, she was doing an excellent job at caring for the little baby, but surely a volunteer with more experience was preferred, hence why they were only temporarily fostering her. It wasn’t the first time they found a wild animal in their yard, it happened more often than one would expect, perhaps it was the location of the home, but he couldn’t tell with certainty; though it was the first time they needed to care for one or take extra action to ensure it’s well-being —the volunteers believed it had fallen of its mom, the poor thing, but there had not been any sighting of another possum all these days.

when the nurse informed them that the doctor was coming to see Neva, he picked Boo up and regretfully put her in the bathroom; they would have an issue if she was spotted there, despite it being a private clinic the rules were pretty much the same in regardless of pets, allowing only service animals ( technically, Boo is Neva’s own, providing mental support —though, sadly she is not licensed ). under different circumstances he would have laughed at her being vexed with him and hissing at him, but right now it wasn’t the time, and he truly felt bad for her getting locked inside the bathroom in an unknown place —and poor kitty couldn’t grasp why she had to be taken away from her mom in such a rush. as the doctor spoke, he was hoping that Boo would remain silent. ‘it is only natural,’ her doctor commented with a light laugh, nodding his head. of course, they had clear reports about her health as she was very closely monitored, a fact that helped alleviate some of the stress concerning her condition. ‘but other than that? are you feeling good? any pain or discomfort?’ the question prompted Ryan to think that perhaps he could have waited outside so Neva could talk to her doctor; even if he didn’t let on how stressed he was about the situation, he was certain that she knew him well enough to understand to an extent —and maybe, she wouldn’t want to mention if he is present.

‘we are preparing to run some tests in a while and then we will have the 3D scan and an ultrasound,’ the doctor spoke then, informing them, his gaze shifting from Neva to Ryan and then back at her once more. ‘the nurse will let you know when it is time.’ and Ryan waited for Neva to finish her conversation with the doctor before asking if he could be present for the 3D-scan and ultrasound; it had been a while since he was able to be present. ‘of course! If the future mother allows it,’ the doctor teased, laughing a little. ‘but unfortunately not for the rest of the exams, unless she would like a little moral support for when we draw blood.’ which, was nothing new, and Ryan didn’t ask anyway most of the time; it made perfect sense to not want anyone around, both for the shake of the smoothness of the procedures and the patient’s privacy ( even if she is his wife, that’s a different thing ). and then he left after bidding goodbye, and Ryan brought Boo out again and let her on the bed. “would you like a footbath and spa…massage thing?” he asked as picked up the flowers her brother sent to put on her night-stand; he ought to remember to ask if it would help with the swelling and the discomfort a little.

[flyingspicerack]

🤖 here!!!

Yoooo nah nah nah ur so correct on the orb heating up.... so cuteeee wahhhh

ALSO THE SPICY STUFF... 😳😳 going insane for it..... love it love it love it.

I've been feeling not too well the past couple days so ima talk about more soft and wholesome stuff.... he knows and can tell when ur anxious but he doesn't really.... know how to comfort people? I mean being around for so long and not getting close to anyone definitely did not help BDJSB. So he just kinda. Tries to make you laugh or even some fun teasing and stuff!!! Idk!!! I'm so normal about him.

Also quick note about the way his mushroom cap is animated because I'm insane: his head turns are so much more smoother than the others in the gang? Like the animation is pretty smooth regardless but his seems more refined which makes me think that either A) the animation team went really in depth to animate his body cause its different than the typical human puppet or B) its a 3D model?? Which is also my theory for the final episode of Part 1 with Bear-O, where it straight up looks like a 3D model was smacked into there. It's pretty cool.

More insane stuff I think about: Brett and Myc have soooo many parallels. Like. They were both bullied and/or outcasted and more hypersensitive to others but they went in two completely different direction and I think about it a lot? I've been wanting to post an analysis on it but. Beweh.... tired. Like Brett needs to have everyone like him whereas myc just went "Fuck you guys!" And peaced out. I'm so normal for this show.

Omg i hope u feel better! And i will indulge you with my Myc ramblings 💗

Oh he sooooo does not know how to comfort people. I think his immediate response to feeling bad and negative emotions (like sad not angry) is to retreat and get away from it, they make him uncomfortable and he wants to get out of the feelings as soon as possible! Buuuut once hes with his s/o, he eventually realizes he needs to help somehow, but he doesn't know how!!! So, he will just sit in their company, like, be around them and just hold, let them vent or wallow, and like u said, crack jokes. (Hes just like me fr)

The 3d model thing is an interesting headcanon to have! I personally dont agree and think the animation is just like that, its smooth and fluid. Comparable to how smooth all the particle effects are in the show.

AND YES! Wow! Agreed!! I also really think it has to do with WHO bullied them as well, with their reactions!! Brett, bullied by his family, HAD to trust them because theyre his family and he doesn't know any better, ALSO dealt with it in a more healthy way. Myc on the other hand, bullied by peers, knew he could leave and get away from the situation but held onto that in a very toxic way.

AHHHHHH ANON UR SO GREAT TO TALK TO THANK U

[tfw-no-tennis]

tfes thoughtz

not quite a liveblog as I am wont to do but ruth and I watched tf earthspark so I figured id write down scattered thoughts bc who KNOWS when the next eps are dropping and id love to remember what I think of things whenever that rolls around

so let me start off by saying this show is banger. we rlly like it so far awww

still also gotta say rip cyberverse, that show was SO good and died too soon :( 

but yeah I like this show a lot!!! I rlly dig how it looks, I wasn’t sure about the art style/3d animation at first but it looks really good. better than cyberverse if I'm honest (sorry cybv your budget probably wasn’t as good its not ur fault)

I loooove that we’re starting off at an interesting point in which the autobot-decepticon war is over and has been for a while, and megatron is on the same side as the bots, but there’s still conflict....LOVE IT 

cyberverse was also based for having the war going on but in a different way than shows usually did, and having the sides kind of aware of how fruitless the fighting was, and then eventually w the quintessons the two sides had to unite. anyways I have a whole separate post on cyberverse so I should chill 

the human characters are great. I feel like there's the right amount of focus on them and I really dig the family dynamic we’re getting. the kids are cute and fun and I love their relationships w/the bots...I love that mo calls OP “mr optimus” awww

I love the parents also. alex husband of the year he’s so great. and dorothy is so cool and I LOVE her and megatron. they’re like platonic malewife-girlboss. power bffs. 

LOVE how she doesn’t like OP but like megatron. SO funny. 

I really enjoy that the robots aren’t ‘in disguise’ either - the world seems to be aware of them and their existence and the war that went on. that’s cool! I like that a lot; ik the tagline for tf is ‘robots in disguise’ and all but if u think about it they weren’t really hidden in g1 even

Love that there’s comics about the tfs in canon too

I really like this bumblebee!! his design is so cute and I really appreciate that he isn’t ‘the kid’ in this, and has to assume a more mentor-like role. very cool and entertaining

ok and the terrans are adorable. theyre just babies and I love them. I looove how they were adopted into the malto family its so cute. I’m enjoying them and their antics and I feel like there’s a great mix of cute hijinks w/them learning how to be tfs, and also with other plot stuff 

LOOOOVE the plot implications. JUICY!!!!!!!!!! GHOST is so fucking sketchy I LOVE THAT. I love that OP is working for them, and has a sense of ‘I’m doing this for the greater good/this is a means to an end (the end being peace)’ but OP seems to know that GHOST is sketchy as fuck - with him hiding the terrans’ existence and bumblebee being alive from them...but also he tells megatron to give them a chance, which is very OP of him, so that makes sense, but I’m curious if it’ll blow up in his face ((it totally will))

megatron was RIGHT in that one ep where he was trashing GHOST. them having all those cons locked up is bad news. and ruth pointed out that we haven’t even seen who’s in charge of GHOST which is pretty concerning.

also I can’t believe that one agent guy isn’t voiced by will arnett bc he totally sounds like him 

I super loved the flashbacks of the cybertronian history that were animated in g1 style :’) it reminded me of in tfa where they used clips from g1 as part of the history lesson 

I loooove megatron in this show he’s so cool. he gives me some mtmte megatron vibes - he basically says that he agreed to join GHOST/the autobot side in order to protect the cons from worse consequences. I’m interested to hear more about the war and what went on. I’d love some war flashbacks personally

I like that he clearly doesn’t want to hurt the decepticons or hand them over to GHOST, and also the cons think of him as a traitor, but it seems rough for cons out there. what else are they gonna do?

I think it would be epic if they paralleled OP and megatron - with OP joining up with GHOST bc he think he’s doing the right thing for his species and humans, only to discover that GHOST is fr bad news - and megatron binding himself to service w/GHOST and the autobots in exchange for supposed safety (?or something? Not super clear what the cons/megatron got out of that bargain) for the cons, only to discover (as he basically already did) that the cons aren’t doing great out there and they think of him as a traitor

also mandroid is actually pretty interesting for a human villain. I was expecting not to like him (espec at the beginning, he reminded me of silas from tfp who ended up being a nuisance and didn’t really have a point in the plot imo) bc tf human villains are more often miss than hit but he’s interesting 

I like that he has pretty legit reasons to want to get rid of the “invasive species” (as a biologist I love that phrasing), after he got drafted into the war and then injured in friendly fire

LOVED the part where he talks about this and dot is like ‘yeah I also got injured in the war and that sucks for us but I’m judging you based on your actions and YOU suck’ that was so epic she’s so epic and cool

and he knows alex??? ?? fruity ????? are they exes??? whats the vibe. I bet alex used to work for GHOST and that’s how he and dot met

having a whole ass giant robot arm is wild tho. no way that’s how it works bro 

also what happened to swindle. he was so funny. he sounds like meowth from the 4kidz dub lmfao 

SOUNDWAVE BRO I fucking love him. icon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SO happy that his cassettes are here and actually turn into cassettes and not other more modern stuff. I love that anachronism sm 

thank god frenzy is here. I hope rumble shows up too (tho bumblebee talking about how one of the cassettes exploded ???? hi????)

we saw starscream for like 0.2 seconds but I’m ready for him to cause havoc like the annoying bitch he is <333 

super interesting that the world is cut off from cybertron and has been for quite a while. I think OP also mentioned that the cybertronians on earth are likely the last of their kind - I’m curious if that’s true or if there’s a bunch of them on cybertron a la the 1984 movie. I bet there is, no way cybertron is empty. pleaseeee I want hot rod and ultra magnus and all them I’d cry 

also congrats to skywarp and nova storm and frenzy on the transgenderism <3 

oh yeah and I LOVE arcee. she’s like Question Authority Barbie. Bite Chomp Kill Barbie. SO good. I love her design and alt mode and how she taught the kids not to blindly follow the people in charge. ICON. 

the 3 new bots are cute, but ruth and I couldn’t get over the fact that they were born and then IMMEDIATELY thrown into a conflict before even getting alt modes. omg 

ruth: ‘they already have blue hair and pronouns tho!’

LMFAO TRUTH. I LOVEEEE that nightshade goes by they/them :’) we didn’t expect that at all and it was such a good surprise 

also hashtag gay???? #GAY???? 

can’t BELIEVE that bot is named hashtag. immmmmm 

tho ruth and I both agree that the cast is full enough and having 3 new terrans might be too much, so we’ll see how that goes - I kinda feel like they’ll end up more on the periphery and only show up sometimes. we’ll see tho! 

holy SHIT the fight scenes bro. specifically in the last 2 eps, oh my GOD. SOOOO fucking juicy. I’m gonna make a separate post abt that but they were EXCELLENT. one place I think cyberverse was weak in was the fight scenes - in s1 I would say they were actively boring (sorry cybv ily) and they got better but still were a bit clunky and awkward and formulaic. I feel like it was due to animation/budget constrictions more than anything 

but yeah these fights scenes rocked. I especially love the 2d smoke and fire effects 

I just wanna know more about the war too!!! like mandroid got injured, it seems, from friendly fire - did Dot as well? is that why she doesn’t seem to like or trust OP as much? 

also megatron has been working w them for 15 years - what were the previous 15 years like? what was the war like? why were they fighting? what exactly made them stop? how many other tfs are on earth? when did GHOST start being a thing? are there gonna be combiners???? I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS. 

biggest Q is when are the next eps coming out. pls not in like 6 mos. 

also w the fight scenes. skywarp’s warping looks SO FUCKING COOOOOL I’m so glad. yesssss 

I feel kinda bad for the cons tbh. they seem scattered and lost, with no real leader, and they’re apparently disappearing (presumably mandroid) or being imprisoned by GHOST, who I'm SURE doesn’t have any ill intentions...I wonder if the show will continue to take a more sympathetic approach to the cons (kinda like mtmte, where they kinda had a point at the beginning before they lost the thread w/all the murdering and whatnot)

also I love everyone’s designs generally but I still think OPs face looks weird hgfajkdfksjndfkj whenever he has the faceplate off I'm like Put That Back On Please. 

I like that the humans are directly involved in the plot in a way that makes sense bc the human world has already been to war with/alongside the tfs, so there are a ton of different relationships that humans can have w/the tfs. this is way more interesting than st like tfp, which I think did a pretty bad job integrating the humans, or tfa, which had Sari w/a macguffin that was plot-important in order to keep her involved 

tbf that’s kinda going on w/the kids having links to the terrans but I like the way it’s played out so far. I love the suggestions of lore we’ve gotten too, w/quintus prime and stuff

also they’ve made a point of showing that symbol in the cave where the terrans were born MORE THAN ONCE, and it totally looks like those spiderbots, so I’m thinking there’s definitely a connection there. something weird is going on 

ok also SUPER fucking funny that wheeljack showed up and found out he kinda has a kid and IMMEDIATELY decides he’s a deadbeat dad hvbkjdsfbjksandfkl. I mean he came around in the end but that was so fucking funny. PLEASE SIR 

when they bonded by shooting at each other (lmao? classic tfs) and then twitch was like aww lets hug and he didn’t even notice lmfao sir plssss 

I wonder if the dinobots will show up and if they’ll still have been created by wheeljack (and ratchet) like in g1 

also kind of hilarious how megatron was like ‘no I don’t wanna hurt the cassettes’ and then when the seekers attacked he was like ‘fuck them kids’ and went all out fighting them lmao 

I’m super curious how the megatron starscream dynamic will be in this show 

oh yeah and ruth pointed out that it’s interesting that the three new terrans are bigger than the original 2 terrans and I feel like it’s bc they were created DURING an active conflict and basically got MTO’d into a fight. Ls 

firstborn vs secondborn vibes lmfao 

ok and quintus prime....r we gonna get quintessons. hello. I would LOVE that the quintessons are like my fav antagonists (especially in cyberverse they were so good. man I should rewatch cyberverse) 

I think the quintessons are perfect villains for cases like this where the autobots and decepticons aren’t fighting each other. I’d love to see the quintessons as the villains after GHOST is dealt with 

maybe the tfs on cybertron are already dealing w/the quintessons? 

omfg and the ep where bumblebee is trying to call OPs comm and megatron and then elita pick up instead ?? hello ??? polycule?????

I wanna see more of elita 1 too! shes so cool 

also I kinda belatedly realized that this megatron doesn’t seem to have the same dislike for organics/earth people as he does in a lot of other media (most notably in idw1). that’s interesting and I like that we’re exploring a different side of his character, and I like seeing humans hanging with him. he and dot are great and I hope we get more of them, including flashbacks

anywaysss that’s all the thoughts I have for now, tune in for more next time byeeee

[businessbois]

Random Business Bay Compilation (i am going to make people care about them okay)

i am so very content to pretend that it’s still winter 2019-2020 and that smpearth is in full swing and business bay is thriving (or at least not burning)

timestamps+transcripts:

2:17:38 Bedwars w/ SMPEarth Crew

Techno: “¡AY CARAMBA! ¿DÓNDE ESTÁ LA BIBLIOTECAAA?

35:31 The New Businessman

Wisp: "Keep looking, okay? Alright? Yep, alright?” Tommy: “Okay.” Wisp: “I just need you to— Tommy, you can turn around now, the second you said Business Bay, I thought ‘You know what?’” Tommy: “OHHH! OHHHHH! OHHHH!” Wisp: “‘This makes a lot of sense.’ It does, it does make a lot of sense."

2:21:46 The Dumb War

LukeOrSomething fell from a high place. Bitzel: “Oh my god. It’s happened again.” Tommy: “He just does that for hours, man. It’s his only source of income.” LukeOrSomething fell from a high place.

57:06 War against Admins

Tommy: “Deo!” Luke: “I think he just wants some food.” Tommy: (with echo mic) “DEOOO!” Deo: “Kill? Kill? Tommy: (normal voice) “Kill. Come with me, Deo.”

3:59:18 World War

Tommy: “Bitzel really— He really do be vibing though.”

52:24 The Grand Betrayal

Tommy: “Me and Wisp, we can bow spam pvp, comba— strafe, you know what I’m saying? They can’t do that. They just can’t do that.” Wisp: “And Luke can animate it.” Tommy: “Yeah.” Luke: “Yes! No, it’ll be awesome.”

1:33:54 War against Admins

Tommy: “For the love of Business Bay, leave that man alone.” Deo: “Can I start a war? Can we start a war against the admins?” Tommy: “No! Stop! Stop! We are already aga—” Bitzel: (in the background) “Can we start a war?” Deo: Can we start a war against the admins?” Tommy: (in an American accent) “‘Tommy, if I started a war would you be mad?’”

53:26 The Grand Betrayal

Wisp: (singing) Luke: (to Tommy’s chat) “’Sup guys? I have an idea. It’ll be funny.” Wisp: (singing) “There. Out in the darkness...” (normal voice) “Oh yeah, let’s see if the lava works.” Luke: (laughing) “No, no.” Wisp laughs.

22:47 War against Admins

Tommy: “Alright, claps in chat. Claps in chat.” Bitzel: (background) “Guys, I don’t have any blocks. Tommy: “Why am I...?” Bitzel: (background) “Is there a ‘/f home’? No.” Luke: “Yeah, let’s jump.” Tommy: “No, I’m not pressing my spacebar.” Luke: “Who cares?” Tommy: “Okay, it stopped.” Luke: “Oh.” (laughs) Tommy: “That was weird.” Deo: “Hi Bit.” (laughs) Bit: “Hi, I need a rescue team.” Tommy: “Bit, you want some— Bit, here you are, man.” (throws blocks) “Oh, that was awesome. Did you see it, like, bounced off the side wall? That— Well, anyway, welcome aboard.” Bitzel: “Wow, that was kinda Dude Perfect right there.” Tommy: (laughing) “Shut up.”

20:28 SMPEarth: The Finale

(Giorno’s Theme plays) Tommy: “Where is Foot?”

50:00 The Map is Down Uh Oh

Tommy: (laughing) “Wisp, you’re really drunk. You’re saying—” Wisp: “Tommy, anyone that touches you fucks with me. I’m going to fuck him up. Tommy, do you know what I realized? I’m being way too passive, I was trying to be the nice guy. Fuck the World Peace Treaty, I’m gonna to end this planet.” Kyle: “He’s had a drink.” Tommy: (laughing) “I can tell.” Wisp: “I’m gonna— I’m going to destroy this planet and bring everyone down with me if I have to.” Paul: “[?]... it means nothing.” Tommy: “Wisp, you gotta—” Wisp: (reading chat) “‘DO NOT CALL TOMMY A BOOMER, CHAT, DO NOT!”

1:34:58 War against Admins

Icebomb: “Tommy’s stupid and poop.” Chip: “Yeah.” Tommy: “Icebomb, I will kill you. I—” Chip: “Uh oh.” Icebomb: “Okay, come on. Do it right—” Tommy: (switching VCs) “We’re going to kill Icebomb. Get in my plane.” Luke: “Actually? Okay.” Deo: “Where?” Bitzel: “Okay, geez.” Deo: “Kill.” Tommy: “He just called me stupid and poop. Deo get in.” All laugh. Deo: “I’m using— I’m using Brody’s stuff.” Luke: “Okay, this is my plane. Here, I’ll drive.”

58:29 The Grand Betrayal

Tommy: “Don’t betray the business. We are a team and we’ll stay as a team. We’ll lose as a team or we’ll win as a team.”

47:48 War against Admins

Tommy: (stares at hoed square in disappointment) “Was this you, Bit?” Bitzel: “It wasn’t me.” Tommy: (turning to Deo) “Was it—” Bitzel: “No, it was—” Tommy: “WAHHH! WHAT?” Bitzel: “What the— He has a gun!” Tommy: “What the heck!”

3:08:32 Starting a Casino

Tommy: “Oh, I don’t like anything. Except you, Deo, you’re so great.” Deo: “Tommy, you should really have armor on. You know what just happened.” Tommy: “No, I’m trying to be peaceful, man. I’m a pacifist. I’m a feminist.” Phil: “‘Trying to be peaceful.’”

27:46 War against Admins

Deo: (laughing) “Bit stole his plane. Bit, leave. Go. Go. Steal it.” Tommy: “Bit, don’t steal his plane. He can de— What the—” (All laugh as Bitzel flies away.) Bitzel: (laughing) “Yes.” Tommy: “What the hell?!”

1:11:14 War against Admins

Tommy: (mouth trumpets to Super Mario 3D Land) Bitzel: (mouth trumpets in reply) Tommy and Bitzel mouth trumpet together. Luke: “What is happening here?”

[ginger-snap-talkin-nonsense]

Meet the Robinsons is a Disney film that sat on my soul from the moment I saw it in theaters. It formed something very raw and personal about myself in its theming and how it chose to go about its characters growth.

The film builds itself on the motto “Keep Moving Forward”, a Walt Disney quote, and its setting is very reminiscent of Tomorrowland in its retro future aesthetic. It’s a passion project crafted beautifully out of love for everything that’s come before it-by people who despite the good, bad, and ugly of Walt Disney and his company found drive and inspiration in what he left behind.

It’s a movie about time travel that tells you that time travel is irrelevant and foolish. Its existence in universe only matters because Wilbur has a self fulfilling prophecy to complete and because it might be fun to use someday, but it’s not something that should be used in either direction. It’s why the machine only takes us to the past once-at the end to make its point. That lingering in the past is only going to hurt you in the now.

Even if Wilbur had reached out to his birth mother how would that help him? What life does he live if this woman who had to give him up changes her mind? What happens if she tells him no? The answer is: it doesn’t matter. Because the past made you who you are today, and you have the capacity for great things because of who you are.

Languishing over mistakes and failures and how you’ve been wronged can only serve to make you miserable. Everyone loves that joke in the movie when Goob is thinking back to school “they all hated me.” But it’s important to remember that it speaks to how Goob has already let his failures in his past take hold of him. He believes his failure at baseball makes him undesirable as an orphan but that’s no more true and Wilbur’s inventive side being undesirable. He’s already convinced himself it’s too late to be loved and that there’s simply no future where that changes. So he wallows until being given a too good to be true way to “fix” the past.

You can’t fix the past. You’ve just got to make peace with it and move on. Keep looking to the future and enjoying the small things in life that make everyday worth living. The small wonders that change us, piece by piece and day by day. If you only ever worry about the past then you miss all the wonderful things you could be doing now.

It’s also gorgeous. It’s weird and kind of awkward the 3D animation is rubbery and unpolished the eyes are so different from anything else they were modeling at the time and it. Is. Beautiful. I think about the way they modeling their eyes more than anything else. They’re small and have full lids and they’re shiny but not over expressive and just a little uncanny and they make every character feel so unique. I love how the color saturation fits the times where the past is in the nostalgic sepia tone and the future is bright and shiny but the present is muted…until the very end when Wilbur rejects the ability to meet his mother and embraces the life he’s got. Then it’s suddenly so much more colorful.

And beyond all of those redundant and jumbled ramblings, I love that it’s a movie that tells kids who feel insecure and unsure that life could every really get better than it’s all going to be okay eventually. That you’re going to be amazing, you’ve just gotta let yourself fail forward enough to get there.

Meet the Robinsons is a movie that doesn’t wind up on best lists and doesn’t get 4K rereleases and anniversary merchandise. It’s by all accounts to the company, a failure. And despite it being my favorite Disney movie, I do think in a weird way that’s the perfect thing for it to be. A beautiful, funny, heartfelt, messy failure with all the bugs and quirks of a raw, unpolished love letter. It’s nothing grand, it’s nothing ornate. It’s just a Small Wonder.

Fuck I love Meet the Robinsons every time I think about it I remember just how much I love every part of that movie it is still to this day my favorite Disney movie you wanna talk underrated Disney films that’s numero uno

[regallibellbright]

… You know, I kind of DO want to play the 3DS Virtual Console version of Crystal using my original name, the Pokemon I remember of my original team (but more competently than when I was eight by virtue of… not being eight,) and finally be able to transfer *A* version of my original Pokemon up into Bank and from there Home before it shuts down. I’ve never confirmed to myself that the originals are lost on a dead internal battery on the GBC cartridge, but there is realistically no way whatsoever a game cartridge from 2001 still has a working one and I was in no way tech-savvy enough to do the elaborate workarounds to change those batteries when I realized they needed it and I was, like, twelve OR perform the elaborate hack someone figured out a few years back to somehow transfer Gen I/II Pokemon into Bank. I’ve made peace with their loss. I rarely use my past teams once I’m done with their games, but I appreciate knowing I still have my old Pokemon and can put them in Amie or picnic to play with them whenever. Recreating my originals on an emulation of their original game would be nice.

The problem is, this would require some fairly significant savescumming, because one of the Pokemon I had? Was a shiny Smoochum from the Dizzy Punch egg, which significantly raises your odds of shinies but does not have a set species. THAT’S the one I’ve really never gotten over, especially since I have perennially garbage shiny luck everywhere but Go. (My only other wild shiny encounter up until Sun/Moon was a Wooper in Platinum… in the Safari Zone, who fled. Then a Pineco in either Moon or Ultra, and I think a Mankey in Let’s Go Eevee who finally broke the streak of me getting unscripted shinies LITERALLY once a decade.) If I had the patience for shiny grinding via eggs, Smoochum’s my top priority. (And obviously a shiny from another species with the Dizzy Punch egg would make me cackle and maybe sob as I had to decide between resetting a shiny from a species I like out of existence or fully restarting the playthrough, but it would not be what I’m looking for.)

It took me like, at LEAST a year or two to realize she was shiny, is the hilarious part. Smoochum in the anime were pinker than the Crystal sprite and you don’t really encounter other Smoochum in that game so it took me WELL AFTER BEATING THE GAME, GYARADOS AND ALL, I’m pretty sure AFTER Gen III was out, maybe after FRLG even, to go “wait… do I have a shiny?” Yes you do, tiny not-yet-Regalli. Yes you do. And it will be your white whale ever after.

[corpsentry]

january: an art retrospective

i did some stuff last month (but it’s a lot of stuff and there’s a photodump + some Serious Fucking Reflection, so it’s all below the cut)

so ok, let’s start with this. here are some heads. each head has a red arrow. that red arrow is what i call the red line of the devil. it’s the slope of the face from the side of the eye to the cheekbone and then down towards the chin. up until like 2 weeks ago, i couldn’t draw it. i couldn’t fucking draw it. i would edit over that part of the face over and over again until i was frustrated and tired and i had a raging homosexual headache and it still never looked right. notice that each head is different. notice that each head looks wrong.

at the start of 2021 i finally admitted to myself, as per the image above, that i was deeply, deeply unhappy with my art. what was the problem? i dunno. but i decided i was going to fix it and i was going to do so via another one scribble a day event wherein for every day of january i would find a photo of a human head, and i would draw it.

january 1st, 2021. i was embarrassed to tweet this even on my private account where like 5 friends and a rock would see it. in retrospect, you can also see all of my bad habits emerging like dicks from a hole in the ground. it’s disproportionate. the brows look flat. the eyes are slanting upwards. the entire drawing looks flat, like this isn’t a 3d person but a caricature of one.

january 2nd, 3rd, 4th:

on the 2nd i decided to start a separate thread for doodles and applied learning. here’s the first set of tests

the rest of the week is kind of uneventful so we’re going to skip those. fast forward to january 11th

this one is especially bad. i am acutely aware, suddenly, that i am not changing anything at all. i’m stressed and miserable about it because i’m still trying to see people as people and trying to draw people that look attractive and proportionate and hot. my friend, leny, reminds me that i need to think about faces in terms of planes. i have a moment. my other friend masha sends me some links to anatomy tutorials. i have another moment.

january 11th. applied sketch

january 13th is when i start the troubleshooting process. the link above drives me mad because i’m pretty happy with the face but then i realize that there’s something very fucking wrong with the shape of the head LOL and then i realize that i’ve never had any idea what the proportion of the face to the rest of the skull is so i grit my teeth and i open a new canvas and i

bald studies. it seemed like the right thing to do. can’t draw heads? ok draw some heads. look at some photographs. i traced each photo but tried to stick to straight lines so that i could replicate the shapes more easily. i broke each face down into shapes. i thought about airplanes

i got really excited. i started doing studies, then applied studies, then stylized studies.

sketches. i’m not sure what’s going on (as always) and it’s very rough, but they look different from the sketches i did on january 2nd. that’s a start

january 16th’s daily study. looks more like a person now. juuuuuust a bit

more applied studies

on the 18th i take a break and go stare at some lips because i don’t understand how the fuck they work. again, i focus on shapes, on volume, on the fact that these things exist in 3d. holy fuck lips exist in 3d. holy fuck we are real

january 19th. i’m working on it.

january 22nd. some sketches + a daily study. it has finally occurred to me that heads can tilt up and down and that things look different accordingly. yes i was not aware of this before. yes i have been drawing for over a decade.

january 23rd. by this point after doing my daily sketch i almost always go back and do an applied study which is basically to say i drew a lot of fucking links. this one looks kind of okay. i’m kind of proud

january 25th. links. trying to make sense of everything i’ve learned

26th, 27th, 28th. daily studies

january 1st. january 31st

The End Of The Photo Dump (dab)

ok NOW i get to talk about what i discovered while studying the shit out of human beings

FIRST OF ALL, there is something precious and magical about drawing shit without the explicit knowledge that you’re going to tweet that shit out to 45 people later. it takes the burden of perception off your shoulders and that does something to you, or at least that’s my theory. i told myself i wouldn’t post any of this stuff until the end of the month (if i wanted to post it at all) and kept everything off my public social media accounts and that meant i could draw ugly as hell without worrying about who would point and laugh, which i absolutely fucking did. a lot of these are fucking trainwrecks. most of these are fucking trainwrecks. why do they look like that?? why??? this doesn’t look like the work of someone who’s allegedly been drawing since they were in kindergarten, does it?????

here’s why: because that person took a huge motherfucking swing at everything they’d ever known about art and spent a month building something new in its place. the abstract explanation is that i grew up on shoujo and weird old anime and my understanding of anatomy was unironically kamichama karin and while i love kamichama karin, when kamichama karin is your rule even if you try to break it, you’re going to end up going nowhere. “you have to know the rules to break them”, yeah? well i didn’t know shit. the abstract explanation is i’ve been miserable about my art for a few years now because i saw other people doing things effortlessly which i couldn’t and instead of going back to the basics, i tried to do what they did (not plagiarism, mind you, i mean i literally tried to copy the red line of the devil i mentioned above because i couldn’t even make that happen) and then i fucking failed.

the simple explanation is this. i had to unlearn everything, and relearn it again (like some kind of new renaissance clown, what the fuck is this?)

take this for example. all my life i’ve drawn faces in the order: eyes, nose, mouth, face shape, head. this works for some people, im aware, but it was something central to how i had always drawn, so i decentralized it. i said fuck you to the old me and changed the order up. now i start with the nose, then the eyes, mouth, the chin line, and the sides of the face. now i force myself to think about the human head as a series of parts interacting with each other instead of a bunch of disparate features which i want to look pretty.

or let’s use this zelda from last year. something about this looked wrong last october, the way something about all of my drawings looked wrong, but i couldn’t pinpoint it for hell the way i couldn’t articulate Any of my feelings about the visual arts. now, looking back, here’s what i see. that nose is sticking out far too much given how she’s not really facing very far away from the camera. that ear at the back shouldn’t be there. her forehead is too big. she doesn’t have a forehead. what the fuck is up with the shape of her head?

so apparently reject modernity embrace tradition has its roots in alt-right terminology and i’m not very horny for the alt-right (you understand), but the spirit survives here. you know sometimes you have to admit that you have no idea what the fuck you’re doing and draw people for 31 days. i’ve spent my whole life drawing stylized people and while again there are artists who have no issue with this, i veered off the track of the Good and the Holy and couldn’t get back on. i had no point of reference because i’d never thought about what an actual human being looks like, so i had no way to fix what i knew in my gut looked wrong but wouldn’t come out better.

this was hard. this was like oikawa tooru swallowing his worthless pride and admitting that ushijima wakatoshi had gotten the best of him for the last time in his high school career, but in haikyuu!! by furudate haruichi oikawa tooru fucks off to argentina and then joins the argentinean national team, and you know what, i think i’ve made it to argentina (not the team just the country). as per the golden rule of dont fucking move until you’re at least two thirds of the way through the month, i only started trying to draw Shit shit on like the 22nd or something, but i was happy with that i created. i am happy with what i’ve done. i’ve posted like 2 things this month that involve people with what i now call ~applied Knowledge~~ and they’re, like, not perfect obviously (perfection is an unattainable ideal), but i’m fucking proud of them. i didn’t spend 5 hours hunched over my laptop adjusting the red line of the devil because it’s not a devil’s line anymore. because i finally sorta get how people work. because i sat down and i said ‘we are not going to fuck with this misery shit anymore’ and then i did that. it’s just a line now.

here are 2 collages tracking my painstakingly carved out progress from january 2nd to february 2nd because i’m a slut for collages

and here’s what i’ve done to my art! the same person drew these but also Not Really! you know! for the first time in a year i don’t immediately hate what i’ve drawn. you know what guys? art is fucking fun. zelda’s forehead doesn’t scare me anymore because i know how foreheads fucking work now, and i don’t know everything, and i’m going to keep troubleshooting stuff as i go (i want to draw a skeleton. like a. i want to draw a goddamn skeleton guys) but i’m honestly and genuinely proud of what i’ve done in the span of a month, and i’m also in disbelief. i started this month-long challenge out as a last ditch effort to make peace with my art because i’ve been tired for a long time and i was ready to kick the bucket on drawing people altogether. i didn’t think anything would happen. nothing’s happened for years. i’ve been miserable for years.

this was the caption for january 1st, 2021. i was super, super fucking embarrassed and it looks like super fucking shit, but you know what, i think i did in fact triumph over the bullshit. surprisingly enough, when you put in consistent effort into something, You Will See Results. didn’t see that coming, did you? i know i didn’t.

this isn’t a success story. it’s a happiness story. i never gave a shit damn about the institute of art or whatever, i was just mad at myself because what i saw in my head didn’t match up with what was on the canvas. and now it’s getting better. now i’m calibrating the compass. now drawing not just backgrounds but also people is exciting to me, and i can stick my links in your face and tell you ‘they hot’. i’m going to keep doing that. i’m going to keep going until i drop off the side of the earth and then spiral towards mars like some kind of fairy, and then i’m going to create something beautiful.

thanks for reading. here’s a pr department link for sticking around until the end