#Kinda bought it on a whim almost a year ago and now I'm getting around to playing it lols

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Heyo 👋 (Hiatus Update)

Hey! I'm still on my hiatus and probably won't be back for another week or so- no real dates or promises but more a vibe-but I wanted to pop in and give y'all a little update since my hiatus post.

I'm better, though not great- but I'm getting there. To be honest, it's kinda difficult to make this little update, and I'm not even going into details about anything, hehe.

The biggest thing I wanted to say is a huge, huge thank you to everyone. Your condolences and messages really helped me get through this, and while I'm still processing it all, I'm beyond grateful to y'all. My heart goes out to those who've lost someone beloved as well; be it a pet or a person- my heart goes out to you and your loved ones through these difficult times.

(God, and I thought 2020 was bad! /hj)

I think I'm gonna try coming back sometime in September/October? No promises but I think I'll be okay enough to return around then. How I feel upon posting this will be my deciding factor lols. I did finish the last few days of Tickletober (yay! :D) so that's something to look forward to, and I updated my Fluffy Forecast (even if I'm not on, I'll still update it for y'all- it gives me something to do, you know?)

Writing wise is still...hesitant. Some fandoms like Spy x Family and Buddy Daddies might be on the backburner due to recent events (that said, please don't be afraid to send prompts/requests in for them; I just likely won't be touching them for a hot minute), but besides that I'm slowly getting back into writing and creating again. My dad wouldn't want me to give up on my passions and life in his passing; he raised me to be strong, and I'm gonna do that for him.

Thank you for reading! Talk to you later! <3

[alpydk]

Get chaos send back from the demon 😉

Questions for the asking game:

1 , 2, 4, 5, 16, 19, 22, 25, 35

*flexes hands* - You know I love doing this.

at least two things about you, that may surprise your followers

I'm pretty fucking open about everything. Is there anything people don't know about me? Like you all know about my life and mental health and gaming etc...

I don't like coffee. Gives me back ache. Will have a nice cuppa tea instead. ummm.... I hate swimming, water, sailing etc. I almost drowned when I was 6 years old on a school trip and it's put me off since. Ironic that I married a sailor, love Gale/Chase, and include a lot of water references into my writing (subconscious stuff???)

2. Something you recently discovered for yourself and really enjoying it since than

Scrapbooking my comments and such. Like cutting them all out and sticking and doodling around them is just so nice and relaxing to do. I used to journal a lot but then just funnelled it all into fanfic instead so I guess it's kind of linked. My partner said I should write spanking. We will ignore him.

4. Something/fandom you were hyperfixed as teenager and now hyperfixing again

House. HOUUUUUSSSEEEEEE. Specifically Chase but you all know this by now and why. Honestly, was thinking about this on a walk earlier today and realised my first crush looked like a young version of him. Odd, isn't it?

I mean, just look at him. Could drown in those eyes. Also new show with him and he is bearded and I'm just fucking swooning.

5. Something you like/you have since your childhood/teenager days til now, which resembles a kind of constant in your world

My bear, Nelson. He is 31 years old? Possibly older, I bought him second hand and he's been with me ever since. Only had 12 weeks away during all that time when I was out of the country.

16. Something you like now and hated/never thought you could like when you were younger

Fanfiction surprisingly enough. After the trauma of the hobbit fic (untagged mpreg between Thorin and Bilbo) I believed that's how all fanfictions were. Just unhinged smut fests with everyone fucking and weird fucking plot twists explained through magic and shit. Didn't even cross my mind until Gale that it could be any different. Now, I will say a lot of that stuff still exists, I even read more of it, but I still don't get the appeal. Different strokes for different folks.

19. Something that was taken for granted as teenager, that you really appreciate more now because it got rare

My dad.

How much free time I just had to be me. Like studying is so easy and I excel in that environment but as a teenager I pissed it all away with drinking and skiving in the local park. No qualifications, no friends at the end of it. I wish I had more of that because those days are just gone.

Sorry, that was a horrible question.

22. Something that was easier for your younger self and seems kinda hard now

Travelling, not being anxious. I spoke about this recently on here but my anxiety has gone to shit in the last 10 years. Going from gradually being unable to do long journeys to barely leaving the house and IT SUCKS. I would honestly book a flight at random and go. I went to Berlin on a whim years ago, now I barely travel locally. Younger me was so fucking lucky in that regard and I don't even know what's changed.

Here, have this to break up the angst I'm bringing into these whimsical questions.

25. A weird fact about you that comes in your mind

Resident Evil 5 was tested on the 3ds and because it ran, they made RE: Revelations.

Short and sweet.

35. If you had three wishes, what would you wish for?

Gale to be real and to have a happy life. Even if that's not with me, he just deserves it. (Is that one or two?)

I'd like my mental health fixed instantly! (without death! Got to be clear on these wishes!)

I'd like, just, healing to be easier for people. Too many people carry around trauma and I want to fix it, and make it better and see them smile. It's not fair. Let me fix stuff with hugs!

^actual gif of me hugging someone.