#Kai Anderson cult

[whoreofdilfs]

[missuswalker]

A kinky smut session with Kai Anderson where the girlfriend reader kinda uses pain to cope with bad stuff in her life and Kai provides it to her every time she needs it by giving her a good spanking session over his knee? 🔥👀

𝐢 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 || 𝐤𝐚𝐢 𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𓃔 summary: kai can tell something is on your mind, and he knows exactly how to distract you

𓃔 warnings: smut, spanking, mix of degrading and praise, piv

𓃔 notes: marry me

“does anyone know why i’m telling you this?” kai asks, looking around the dimly-lit living room. there’s a thick silence, almost suffocating. “fine. y/n will tell you.” kai sighs, pursing his lips. everyone turns to look at you, though you weren’t thinking about them. you hadn’t even heard kai. you’d been caught up in your own head.

a fist slams onto the table, causing you to jump. your attention is now on kai, an agitated look on his face. “what?” you ask, eyes dull and unconcentrated. his annoyance is evident in the twitch of his eyebrow. “i was asking you to explain something, but you seem to be distracted.”

you glance around the room, eyes all on you. “sorry,” you mumble, sitting up straighter. kai says nothing, but his dark eyes bore into your soul. he soon moves on with his speech, wether it was encouraging or fear fueling, you didn’t know.

winter flashes you a look, silently asking if you were okay. you ignore her, continuing to half-listen to your boyfriends plans and threats. as soon as his little meeting was over, you left to his room, dropping down onto his bed. you’d been struggling to get things done recently, thoughts constantly creeping into your mind.

kai knew this, of course, he just wasn’t going to do anything about it. until now.

“get up.”

his cold voice was enough to make you obey, sitting at his side on the edge of his bed. he glances over you, narrowing his eyebrows. after a moment of complete silence, he holds his pinky out to you. hesitantly, you wrap your own around his. “tell me what’s been on your mind.”

you think a moment, ultimately shaking your head. “nothing,” you say, your voice soft. “don’t lie to me!” kai shouts, getting in your face. “you know how this works. don’t. lie.” you nod, flinching as his spit hits your cheek. “i’m just tired. i’m not thinking about anything specific, i’m just having a bad week,” you admit, not expecting him to care.

of course he didn’t care that you were having a bad week. he did care about you, though.

he takes his pinky from yours, jaw clenched. “you weren’t listening to me at all today. i’m going to have to punish you for that.” he stared you down. as soon as you blinked, he was pushing you down, stomach over his legs, knee right under your hips. he knew exactly what he was doing.

your pants and underwear were now around your ankles, a loud smack emitting from his hand meeting your ass in a quick spank, the sting bringing a small whimper out of your. “how many do you think you deserve for your behavior today?” he asks, though he didn’t intend listening to anything you had to say, his hand meeting your ass again in a clap.

this happened eight more times before he pushed you up, kicking you backwards onto the bed. “kai, i-” before you can finish, you feel a sharp burn in your cheek. he’d slapped you. “shut up. you don’t want to talk, embarrass me in front of everyone, then you will stay fucking quiet,” he growls, spreading your legs.

your eyes flicker to his hardened dick, pushing through the fabric restraints of his pants. “you’re so smart, why do you act like a dumb, clueless bitch? huh? you made me look stupid today.” he slides the sweats down to his thighs, as well as his boxers. his cock springs free, and he wastes no time, shoving it deep into your already-slick pussy.

the sharp pain of the stretch causes you to moan, earning another salad from kai. “i said shut the fuck up!” he shouts. you cover your mouth with a shaky hand, kai giving you little time to adjust, ramming in and out of you. your mind turned foggy, the pain turning to pleasure. “you like it, don’t you? need me to distract you with my cock,” he huffs, fingers digging into your hips.

your eyes roll back, reaching up to grab his arm, trying to bring yourself back into reality, but he was fucking you senseless. the sound of skin slapping and the smell of sex were the only two things in your mind at the moment, that and kai. he grunts as you squeeze around him, his hips rocking into yours at an ungodly pace.

unplanned, the two of you finish at the same time, your silence coming to an end as you call out his name, his hot seed filling you. he continues to fuck his cum into you, finally collapsing when he can’t go on anymore. he lays next to you for only a minute, and then he’s off again, throwing on his clothes.

“get some sleep. you’ll be fine.”

me after thinking i posted this yesterday but it was just in my google docs:

ALSO, BECAUSE I WROTE IT IN GOOGLE DOCS AND COPY SND PATED IT THE FORMAT IS WEIRD?? IGNORE IT FOR NOW, ILL KEEP WRITING ON THE APP FROM NOW ON

[vi0l3tgard3ns]

Who would give their money to you

Give their bodies to you

Give up their lives for you

Consider you their god

Kai Anderson - AHS

Video credit: https://youtu.be/fUlVGjJg6f8?si=2_BWEcJdgCF-6bJm

[cxlt-lamb]

Everytime I see this man on my screen I start kicking my feet and giggling like I’m stupid in love 🥰🤭

[bosinclairsgff]

Dating Kai Anderson

Warnings : Abuse, toxic relationship and Kai anderson himself

- Dating Kai is definitely not easy. He’s very possessive, controlling and mean. If you don’t do what he says you will get punished. You always have to ask him if you can go out somewhere or who you can even talk to. He has the passwords to all your social media accounts.

- Kai even controls how much time you spend with your family. He doesn’t like you having a relationship with anyone that isn’t him. The only person you really hangout with other than Kai is his sister, Winter.

- For dates he’ll take you out to eat or to go see a movie. Always late at night, so you don’t have the opportunity to really socialize to much. He really likes to keep you isolated.

- He will manipulate you into thinking no one else but him can keep you safe. That you are nothing without him. You know you can’t leave him, you have no money and he’ll hunt you down no matter where you go.

- He gets jealous very easily. If anyone even smiles at you and he catches you smiling back…oh boy you are fucked when you get home. Even at the meetings with his followers, you aren’t allowed to say much or do anything. You just sit there next to him, making me feel better about himself you guess.

- If Kai ever hits you he makes sure to put the blame on you, “Look what you made me do y/n, why can’t you just listen to me.” He will tell you he’s doing it to help you.

- Kai doesn’t just control who you see/ talk to, he controls everything. He controls what you wear, eat and how you act. You belong to him, you will do as he says.

[ahsxual]

NSFW ALPHABET - KAI ANDERSON

Genre: Smut

Warnings: death and Kai himself, that's a warning ladies and gentleman

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex):

Kai tends to be more affectionate after sex, silently cheeking for any bruises only to take care of them after. He's extremely possessive over you, so he feels the obligation to take care of his little lamb since it's his responsibility. On good days, he will let you cuddle with him while he runs his fingers over your legs and arms softly.

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s):

Definitely your ass, nipples, mouth and vagina/penis. He likes to grab them harshly while you're having sex, and fucks every hole in your body.

As for him, he likes his veiny hands and his dick. Those body parts of his are the ones that can offer you more pleasure and make him feel powerful and desired, so they're definitely his favorites.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically):

Inside you: in your mouth, ass and vagina if you have one. He feels the need to mark his territory on you, so he definitely wants you to keep his cum inside you as long as possible.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs):

He already thought about catching you having sex with another person, and then fuck you roughly to prove who you belong to. But after that, he would fuck whoever was with you just to make you watch without touching yourself, so you feel bad about yourself and regret your actions. "Even that guy/whore made me cum harder than you ever did to me" (which is a lie, he just wants you to feel bad and make you depend on him).

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?):

After getting crazy, Kai fucked a lot of women and men, so when you met him, he was already pretty experienced. He's also a fast learner, so he knows exactly how to make you cum in a couple of minutes.

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual):

Doggy Style - that way he can change easily from hole to hole if you have a vagina, spank your ass, grab your hair, push your face against the bed or whichever surface you are against to, and have more control over you in general.

The Hook - on this position, he can go deeper inside you while watching your face. It also allows him to kiss, bite, suck and spit on your face and neck.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.):

He doesn't shave himself, not even if you asked him to (that would probably be a bad idea, since he would feel insecure which results on him being agressive and loud). If he shaves, it has to be by his own will.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc):

Kai is extremely serious when it comes to sex. He thinks sex has to be seen as something essential for humans and a very important act where two souls and bodies connect with each other. And since he has deep feelings for you, the more serious he gets about it. However, when he won the election to become the official council man, that day you made sweet love with some giggles and smiles here and there.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…):

It's rare for Kai to be romantic in sex, since he is a hardcore kinky bitch. He will grab you firmly, his hand prints being marked on your body and "love bruises" too. He likes to spank you and make you entirely submissive to him, so he's pretty rough inside the room.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon):

Everyone knows that Kai Anderson is a huge fan of masturbation and jerks off a lot. Even when he is with you, sometimes he orders you to simply kneel down while he jerks off on your face, mouth or boobs/nipples and then leaves to work on his cult meetings and future plans/projects.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks):

(Oh man, this is going to be long!!!) - Sir/Daddy/Divine Ruler Kink, bondage, pain kink, hard BDSM, choking, voyeurism, golden showers we all agree on this one lmao, hair pulling, blood kink, knife kink, dom/sub, breeding kink, overstimulation, edging, dacryphilia (watching the partner crying), podophilia (foot fetish), degradation/humiliation, innocence kink what am I forgetting.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do):

Literally anywhere. He actually enjoys the adrenaline of getting caught, so he probably prefers to have sex outdoors, or indoors with someone in the house (especially his cult members).

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going):

When you obey him and do anything for him, even the hardest things like killing someone.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs):

There's nothing this man wouldn't do, really. The only thing he probably wouldn't like is being completely submissive, watching someone he was jealous of or that he hates fuck you or someone else without him being in control of the situation lol.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc):

Let's be honest here. We know Kai, so I'm almost sure that he prefers receiving a blowjob while he grabs your hair and makes you gag on him. About his oral sex skills, I would say that he's kinda messy and rough. You probably would have to tell him to go slower on you, so he wouldn't rip your clit/dick off lmao. But, when he's feeling generous, he would go down on you and make you cum in a few minutes for sure.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.):

Definitely fast and rough most of the times. He would make you beg to stop fucking you, because of how overstimulated you were and he wouldn't give a shit. On rare occasions, where he's feeling particularly romantic, he would go at a slower pace and be more careful with you.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.):

He enjoys quickies, but prefers taking his time with you. He has a very high sex drive, so depending on how occupied he is, you could have sex 2-3 times a day.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.):

For sure. He loves taking risks when it comes to sex. Especially on public spaces, where you both can be caught anytime. He really likes to try new things, so it doesn't matter how uncommon your kinks are, he would be really excited to try them out. Just say the word and prepare to have the best orgasm of your life.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…):

Kai has a very high stamina. He could go to 2-3 rounds with you. The first round he cums fast, but the next ones...

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?):

Oh... don't let me get started. When he's feeling particularly kinky, he would tie you up and stimulate you with vibrators, anal plugs, nipple clamps, spanking paddles, anything really. He would only use them on you but if you insist, maybe he would give it a try if you're lucky.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease):

He's the worst at teasing you when he's horny. He makes you beg until you can't take it anymore, so you can be ready for him just the way he likes it. However, if he's mad or had a bad day, he won't wait for you to get fully prepared for him and will go straight to the point and it hurts

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make):

We already know Kai is very loud during sex! He would groan so much while he fucks you and make the loudest moan when he finally cums. He just can't be quiet when he's inside you.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice):

One of the thoughts that can't get out of Kai's mind is fucking you after killing someone with their body right next to you or in front of his cult members to show everyone his dominance and power over you he's crazyyy.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words):

I would say his dick is probably 6,5 inches and thick, but not too much.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?):

Like I said, his sex drive is extremely high. He's always thinking about fucking you in the most random times and places, while doing the most nasty things to you.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards):

Pretty fast, actually. Now that you've been together for a long time, he completely trusts you to sleep peacefully next to you and not betray him like the others did.

[thoughtyouwerentafraidofanything]

kai x fem reader where he rips her clothes(maybe skirt and tee) and then they have rough sex? and then maybe after they have a cult meeting so kai gives the reader some clothes of his

Rough

Pairings: kai anderson x female reader.

Summary:

Warnings: rough sex, swearing, choking, biting.

Authors note: why are you all full of such great ideas, really making me work hard writing these.

Your hands were clawing at eachother, groping, pinching, twisting, rubbing, anything that could be touched was played with through your clothes.

You had just came back from a day out with your friends. The group of you had went to a mall hoping to max out your cards and rock out of the centre with bags full of the best stuff. The smiles you had go in with had disappeared by the time you were leaving, upset you had found nothing time worthy.

You had huffed your way home, hesitating once you got to the front door of the house, you hadn't told kai where you went.

You were rather new to this cult business and forgotten to tell your 'leader' where you planned on going, when your friends had heard you joined a cult they laughed at you in your face claiming you had screws loose.

You took one last look at the calm night around you, the sky clear of clouds and streets clean of people, tucking your hair behind your ear you opened the door and entered the house.

Kai was livid.

He heard the door shut and came full force at you, his nostrils flared and face scrunched up in anger

"Where the fuck have have you been"

You were taken aback by his harsh approach, the thought of him getting so upset that you wen tout without telling him never crossed your mind.

"Shopping, I wanted to look nice for you-"

"You think I give a shit about what you wear, you tell me when you want to do something and I'll tell you whether or not I want you to go do it, got that"

Kai was up in your face at this point, why was he so mad?

When you didn't answer him straight away kai grew angrier, he pushed you by the shoulders making you stumble against the door .

"What the fuck, don't push me"

"I'll do whatever I want to you you belong to me now"

You decided to push kai back, you though he grew to big for his boots and wanted to push him down a notch.

"You are literally so fucking embarrassing kai no wonder my friends make fun of you"

You start to walk to the kitchen hoping to grab yourself a bottle of water but kais hand grabbing your hair stopped you from moving.

"The fuck did you say you bitch"

"I said your embarrassing and pathetic"

"You know what your lucky I don't fucking kill you right now"

Kai pushed you down onto the sofa and looked down at you, he began to lean down looking at you like you were some lonely puppy.

"But I need someone to fuck and look who's here"

You held eye contact with kai daring his to do anything.

"The whore"

You stood up and went to smack kai but his large hand encased your bracelet decorated wrist, his tongue licked your finger tips then your wrist all the while he made eye contact with you.

You didn't know how you felt, you hated when people thought they could talk bad about you and call you names but you joined this weird cult for kai because you were attracted to him and you still were.

"You think I'd suck you off after calling me a whore?"

You begin to laugh

"You expect me to let you go after joining the cult?"

Kai lowered down to the sofa and pulled you with him, his hands still holding your wrists.

He landed on the sofa with his legs spread wide, a tent growing in his pants, kais hands were still holding yours leading them to where he wanted them to go so when you fell down on top of him your hands were placed on his neck your finger tips brushing against the ends of his hair.

As you stabilised yourself kais hands wrapped around your back, his left hand loosely wrapped around your neck his fingers rubbing your jawline and his right hand on your lower back pushing your hips down and pressing it onto his.

His hands drew you closer his mouth attacking yours, Seconds later he forced his tongue into your mouth making sure to have felt every crevice in your mouth.

You felt kais right hand reach down to the skirt you were wearing his fingers fussing the fabric looking for a zip to undo. Much to his dismay he couldn't find one and decoded to push you off of him detach your mouth from his.

You stood up confused on why you had just let him French you after he had spoken to you like trash, you looked down at kai thinking to yourself, your eyes scanned his face you couldn't figure out why you were so attracted to him all of your friends had made it clear that they would rather kiss ass than his face.

Your eyes lowered down his body you watched in silence as kai undone his zip and reached to himself under his pants, you watched as his fist pumped up and down through his jeans and listened to the grunts he made to himself.

His left hand raised to you, his wrist flicking towards himself signalling for you to get closer to him, you obliged.

As soon as he felt the skin of your arm caress his hand he grasped down hard and pulled you down onto him, as you fell kai spun you arpund so your ass would be sat on his lap facing him.

You held onto kais knees for support as you felt him fiddle arpund woth the fabric of your clothes behind you.

Hearing some curse words you gasped as the sound of your skirt ripping flooded your ears, you looked down at your lap and saw the skirt begin to grow slack and fall off of your waist leaving you in your shirt and underwear, not to mention it was a thong.

You felt kais large hands knead the skin of your ass as he stared down at your figure, the feeling of something hot being rubbed against your back shocked you slightly, you reached your hand behind your body inspecting what kai had put against you.

Kai let you feel around, he waited until you found it and smirked as your hand clasped around it and twisted, a lewd moan left his lips as you kept hold of his cock.

Hearing this made you stop but without the relief of his boner kai was annoyed, and as punishment kai smacked your ass hard and unexpectedly.

The sting of your flesh made you clasp harder onto kais cock the feeling making him thrust up into your hand.

Now feeling impatient kai snatched your hand away from his dick and shuffled closer to you, sitting himself up his hand reached under your thong and pulled the fabric to the side.

You knew what was going to happen, would it be weird for you if you said you were ready for this?

The feeling of kai pressing himself through your thighs made your back arch slightly. You could feel how hot he was as he pulled his cock back and pushed himself against your wet slit.

You could feel the head of his dick pressing against your entrance, the pressure built as kai pushed himself inside of you, your pussy welcomed his cock swallowing the inches with your warmness.

Kai thrust into you until his hips were flush against your ass, he held your body to his, his left hand gripping your neck keeping your collar bone open to his access. His right hand reached to your chest cupping your tits.

"Tell me you won't leave the cult"

Kais breaths fanned against the back of your neck as he pulled himself out of you before slipping his cock back into your pussy, his left hand tightened arpund your neck his thumb caressing your jawline, his right hand kneaded your chest, groping hard and rolling your nipple between his thumb.

You couldn't help but release a breathy moan as much as you didn't want kai to know how much you were actually enjoying his actions you couldn't help but close your eyes and roll your hips onto kais as he thrust into you.

"Do as I fucking say"

Kais right hand moved from your chest to you shoulders holding you down onto his body, his thrusts became harsh the sounds of your skin slapping against his thumped through the room.

"Say. It. Bitch"

Every word came with a thrust of his cock.

"I-I won't...t.. leave" you struggled not to moan as you spoke.

"You won't leave me"

Kais head was laying on your shoulder blades as his hips forced themselves into yours.

"I-won't leave....y-you..k."

Something over took kai in that moment, pushing you off of his lap he spun you both around, you were now both standing up, you were bent over having to lean against the cushions on the couch to stay standing and kai was behind you pistoning his hips and thrusting his cock into your cunt.

You weren't expecting the slap of his hand coming down on your ass and were prepared for the sting it caused.

Kai watch your body move with his, with every thrust your tits bounced making him want to reach infront of you and squeeze them until you cried.

And what kai wanted to do, he done.

Before you knew it kai had you pressed against him with your back to his chest as his hands rubbed at you tits, his right hand making making you cry by pinching your hardened nipple.

You felt asthough you were bleeding when kai sunk his teeth into you shoulder, he always took marking you to the next level.

"This is all your fucking fault bitch"

Kais left hand reached to your neck forcing you to straighten your body.

"Tell me your sorry"

He ordered you

"Say you'll follow my orders"

Kais right hand moved from your breast and slicked down your body to your swollen pussy, he delivered a slap to your clit making you grab onto his body from behind you to keep yourself standing up.

"I'm sorry, please kai-a"

"Shut the fuck up slut"

Kai delivered a few more slaps to both you pussy and ass before he hooked his arms under your arms and held tightly onto your shoulders before beginning to pound into you.

You couldn't do anything, you couldn't move or speak you could just barely breath.

You stood and took kais rough thrusting, you yourself were becoming undone with kais cock pulsing inside of you but you couldn't give him the satisfaction of knowing you enjoyed every minute of him treating you like nothing.

When kai came you felt your cunt fill with his cum, the feeling of stairs emptying inside of you made your band snap and pushed you into your own orgasm, you felt full of him with his cock still inside of you gently thrusting as he rode out his orgasm.

As soon as kai had calmed himself down he pulled out of you and pushed you to the side, you just so luckily landed on the sofa but the feeling of kais cum leaking out of you made you squirm and press your worn out thighs together.

"We've got a meeting in a minute"

Kai threw his shirt at you without bothering to look at you.

"You better fucking be there"

[babydollxxblood]

i love how everyone agrees that kai anderson would use 'little lamb' as a petname

[kaisfuckingcumslut2]

Jazzy interacting with other girls 2

[whoreofdilfs]

I need him to fuck the depression and suicidal thoughts and ideations out of me

[emmyrosee]

Kai Anderson

FEAR ISN’T LIKE A VIRUS. WHEN FEAR FINDS MORE HOSTS, IT GETS STRONGER, SCARIER. 

fanfics

n/a

drabbles

Slow Kisses Filled With Passion

Make Me Blush

[cxlt-lamb]

This has me in an absolute chokehold like the quality omg??

Credits to evanpeters.loml on TikTok

Thank you for letting me re-upload it to Tumblr

[saintlucretia]

the feeling when your fictional crush is so wild you can't even defend them:

[blackroseguzzi]

The Girl Next Door Part 2

*This series will go back and forth between flashbacks, and I promise they all tie together to why the characters don’t talk anymore (but I think I might add in a few present day chapters along the way) 

Summery: Another flashback of your relationship with Kai. Angsty conversations over an Adderall deal.

Warning: Language, mentions of drugs

*Flashback* 

You slipped on your sweatpants and University sweatshirt, knowing that you had an entire night full of studying left. Caffeine was coursing through your body, but your eyes still felt heavy like sleep would be the only way to comfort you. That’s why your roommate had asked her boyfriend to hook the two of you up with his Adderall dealer. It was your last year of college, and you had to finish strong in all your classes. Of course, you had your fair share of partying and sex but you had never done drugs. A little wiggle room would be okay since you knew the only way you were going to stay up and cram for this test was to take something to keep you awake - Caffeine pills just made you shit your brains out.

“Lets go, he’s just down the street behind the 7/11. Robbie is going to drive us,” Your roommate, Sophie, called out. You checked your appearance in the mirror. You never went anywhere in your sweats, but you figured you didn’t have to dress up to go get drugs. 

“Geesh relax, I’m coming.” You both left the dorm and walked quickly towards Robbie’s beat up truck. You snuck in the back, cringing inwardly as the couple exchanged a wet kiss. 

“This dude isn’t some freak, right?” You asked as you watched the snow fall outside of the truck. Robbie’s laugh filled the air.

“I mean he’s eccentric but I doubt he’d hurt a fly.” 

“That’s what they said about Jeffrey Dahmer!” Sophie smacked her boyfriends arm playfully. They pulled into the 7/11 and Robbie pointed towards the back next to the dumpster and bathrooms. 

“Alright, He’s back there. Y/N, just knock on his window and he’ll give you what you need.” Robbie twisted himself in his seat to look at you in the back. You scowled at him, realizing they expected you to go by yourself.

You weren’t scared, obviously but you were annoyed. You gave them a tight lip smile, knowing the momentary alone time was going to be spend touching each other as much as they could.

You hopped out of the truck, the light dust of snow falling down onto your head. You pulled up your hood, and smashed your hands in your pocket where they $100 dollars in 20’s lay rolled up. 

You walked towards the back of the 7/11. There was one old black car with tinted windows. Before turning around and running away from this sketchy situation you found yourself knocking on the driver side window. You watched as the man opened the door, stepping out as he dug into his pocket and pulling out the ziplock bag of blue pills.

“Here. $100 for 6 pills.” The guy finally looked up and you felt your heart stop when you noticed his dark eyes and familiar low voice. 

“Kai?!”  You pulled back your hood, revealing yourself and staring at him like you’d seen a ghost. It had been three years since you’d last seen Kai. You two had an extremely rough ending to your friendship/relationship/friends with benefits or whatever you’d like to call it. 

“Oh wow, y/n,” Kai’ voice sounded different. He also looked nothing like the mental picture you always had of him in your brain. His hair was much longer and unkept, his eyes sunken in with dark circles around them and his clothes were much more baggy. What struck you the most was that his cheerful demeanor was replaced with seriousness. 

Speechless, you just reached into your pocket and handed him the wad of 20s. You wanted to get this interaction over as soon as possible.

 He looked between the pills and your money.

“Nah, I can’t do business with you.” He pushed your hand away, about to get back into his car. You let out a cruel laugh, grabbing his sweatshirt and twirling him back to face you. 

“Are you kidding me Kai? After four years you can get rid of the protective savior complex.” 

“Why do you need Adderall anyway?” Kai narrowed his eyes at you. He was used to your anger, especially when it came to his protectiveness over you. If you had been any other girl he would have taken that money without a care, but after all those years he still held you on some kind of pedestal, yet he’d never admit it after the way you had hurt him.  

“Isn’t your job just to take the money and give the drugs?” Eyebrows raised, you shoved the money back towards him. 

“Answer my question.” Kai growled. 

“I have a fucking test I need to study for and I’ve had a long week. I don’t think I can really focus unless I get something to help me,” You kept pushing the money at him until he grabbed your wrist. 

“You don’t need this, I’m not giving them to you.” He shoved your hand away and the money flew to the ground. 

“You’re such a fucking piece of shit, Kai. As shocked as I am to see that you’re a freaking drug dealer now, I’m glad you’ve sunken this low.” Your words hit hard, Kai’s face sunken with regret and pain as he watched you retrieve the wet dollar bills off the cement. The snow was sticking to your dark hair, and as you popped back up he could see tears brimming your eyes. You clearly still harbored the same pain as him.

“Jesus Christ y/n, just go back home. I don’t ever want to see you buying drugs again. I’ll make sure that nobody in this area deals a fucking thing to you either so don’t even try.” 

You slowly shook your head, a few tears now slowly falling from your eyes, down your cheek and onto the ground.

“Why after all these years do you still need to make sure you can control me?” You felt all your emotions over the last four years tumbling around in your stomach. Just looking at him made you an anxious mess, and it’s why you tried your hardest not to go home for holidays unless absolutely necessary, staying only a very short time without a thought of visiting the Anderson house. 

“ME, control YOU??” Kai let out a scoff and ran his hands through his long greasy hair. You wanted to know how he had gotten to this place in his life, your soul screaming that you were partially responsible.

 “Last I knew you made all of your own choices, without me.” You could see the anger in Kai’s words, his face twisted in a way you’d only seen a few times in the many years of knowing him. 

“Looks like I made the right choice,” You spit out, eyeing up and down his disheveled drug dealing state.

Kai walked up to you, his face inches from yours, his hands wrapped around the extra fabric in the shoulder of your sweatshirt. You wanted to push him away, but your body was frozen in fear.

“Like I said before..Go the fuck home. I don’t ever want to see you again.” As much as you wanted to break the stare between you two, you couldn’t help but watch his pupils glass over as his final words left his mouth. 

Everything in you wanted to retaliate, to breath out more hatred towards the man you once considered your best friend, the one who you’d grown to love, the one who you had clearly broke - but those famous words replaying in your head; “it takes two” had gotten you through a lot of guilt. It wasn’t hard to forget that he too hurt you just as much. 

You clenched your jaw as you threw the hood of your sweatshirt over your damp hair and marched yourself back to Robbie’s truck. 

“So?” Sophie turned to you, her eyes wide and her lips were tickled pink from the friction of Robbie’s.

“He ran out, said he only had Oxy and I can’t do that shit.” You avoided her glare, knowing it was disappointed.  

“What are you talking about, he said he was all good on the phone earlier,” Robbie questioned you further which deepened your anger.

“Fuck, I don’t know Robbie! I didn’t get the Adderall so please just drive me back to the dorms so I can start to study.” You pushed your head back in the seat and Robbie decided not to pry more, just turned up the radio and pulled his truck out of the parking lot. 

You were never going to be able to concentrate on studying after that interaction. 

[evanchantingpeters]

All my feminism goes out the window when I lay eyes on this man... Uff😬

[kaisfuckingcumslut2]

Jazzy in her true self when she interact with other girls.