#Kae ask me more stuff

[frozenambiguity]

Anonymous asked:

Does he believe that he would be spurned by the archon if his heritage came out?

Ask me anything and I’ll answer honestly, but only with yes and no.

«No».

[eluxcastar]

Number 13 and 14 with Arlecchino

Arlecchino being comforted by her s/o

── ୨୧：arlecchino x reader

୨୧﹑synopsis :: arlecchino comfort drabbles yesyes

୨୧﹑genre :: sort of fluff

୨୧﹑content :: gn reader, possibly ooc because it was written pre fontaine quest, not very proofread, arlecchino is implied to have issues with self-image/perception

୨୧﹑words :: 2.2k

"I could see the worst parts of you and still think you are the most beautiful person I've met." "I'm going to ask you how you are and I would like you to answer me honestly."

IT'S HERE you guys always spoil me 13 is my favourite prompt and you are the first of two to request it. completely unrelated but this is so familiar to what Kae said a few days ago (months now omg 😭) when we were talking about One of Repetition and it fits those two so well 😭❤️

to the anon who requested furina it'll take me a minute to figure out how to write her because I haven't played the archon quest but I'll watch some cutscenes and do my best for you

I'll also be using this because I got it in the middle of writing this and thought it fit the idea I had going super well 🙏 that makes three Arlecchino requests with prompt 13 😭 also second anon you're fine dw you guys are free to do with your requests with these prompts as you like, mix them together, add extra descriptions and rambles it makes it more fun 👍 thank you btw 😭❤ feel free to give yourself a name for future requests if you want ❤️ I love having new anons

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It is not often that Arlecchino shows her doubt, maintaining that half-pleasant façade to hide it all. If all people see is a ruthless woman with no regard for loyalty, then the details don't matter. There's no need to question, no need to dwell. She is one thing and nothing more, and she much prefers for nobody to notice the hesitancy in her drastic decisions, the thin-veiled regret as she watches the children she witnessed grow up go on to become valiant children of the Tsaritsa.

If there is anything more, it is disregarded as her unpredictability. She is a roach in the eyes of others, and perhaps she's ok with that…mostly.

To hear someone say "I love you" is strange to her, though it shouldn't be by now.

It shouldn't be unusual to wake up tangled in the sheets with you by her side or the struggle it ends up being to leave that mess as you try to convince her to spend five more minutes with you. It shouldn't be odd to discover that you've gone ahead and made her tea in anticipation of the time she will wake up or to have you remind her every morning that you hung her coat up to dry after she dumped it over the back of a chair the night before or to see you wandering around going about your own job.

But those events all feel surreal to her, even though she has watched you walk your patrol path a thousand times now, and she has seen you slack off where she sits by the window of Zapolyarny when you think nobody is looking.

You are very real, there's no doubt about that.

The things you do never click with her, however.

Perhaps you are real, but she made up these fantasies after watching you loiter by that one spot in the garden a little too long.

Yet every evening, you meet her in her office after you're officially let off for the day, and you usually bring snacks. You are most definitely there, then, as she watches you struggle to get through the door without damaging whatever you found for her to try, usually only small, a pastry you managed to get that you absolutely mustn't knock from your hands.

"I tried to get something that wouldn't make a big mess all over your stuff," you usually say, sometimes hacking on a 6guilty little "But~ these just looked so good…" to try and excuse you for bringing something that would cover her desk in crumbs.

Arlecchino doesn't mind because you went to the trouble of getting her something.

She got you a special chair to pull up and everything, and anyone else who uses it can deal with the death glare they get or find a different one.

But perhaps she made that up too, conjuring the image of someone fumbling their way through her office door to greet her with a smile, sometimes with jam on your mouth from taste-testing the gifts that she'll point out to you that you hurriedly wipe on your sleeve and pretend it was never there.

Maybe she put that chair there for nothing, and it never really moves, and each time she thinks this, she is sure this fantasy will all disappear.

However, every evening, without fail, as the sun begins to set out the window and the room is dyed an orange hue, the door opens, and there you are again. Delusions can't possibly be that persistent, and you would've scowled at her when she approached you in the hallways if you weren't aware of this relationship.

So it must be real, which she's well and truly aware of. There must be a person out there who sees what she cannot, someone who, by some miracle, manages to see past the things that block out all of the good. How can a person see anything but someone unworthy of their love?

What else is there to see? 

The idea of a person who deserves to be loved beneath bloodshed has become unthinkable.

For a person who has been exposed to Arlecchino's worst sins, who has seen everything, and whose worst offence in life is a little laziness on the job, how is it possible to look at her and smile?

Arlecchino often wonders as she watches you. She how you go through your routine of placing your things down, whether on the desk or beside them, then all too happily mosey on off to get your chair and drag it over to sit across from her. She doesn't know why it's this particular day that she asks. Perhaps the fact it was weighing on her mind after a recent mission had her list of redeeming qualities shrinking further and further. It is in her job description, and there are plenty of worse people in this world.

But do you deserve to be stuck with one of them?

"Did you ever feel pressured into accepting my feelings for you?" Arlecchino asks the question so suddenly as you're halfway through walking back with your chair that she sees the exact point you register what she said, freezing in place from the shock. "Whether through status or power," she adds.

You blink a few times before all the motion in your world resumes to greet you with the image of her staring you down from the other side of her desk, patient and waiting for your response. "Sorry?" You let the chair go to return alone to her, standing in the place where you always put it. "I don't, uh…follow? I'm sorry, I just— I'm not sure what you mean?"

She hesitates, momentarily glancing down before her age returns to you and your uncharacteristic expression riddled with worry. She must've made you upset again.

"You want to be in this relationship? With me, that is…" Arlecchino struggles to think of the words, saying them as soon as they appear in her mind. "Even though you know the kind of person I am, you still want that?" 

She studies your face as carefully as she can, watching the way you react as you absorb everything you just heard and assumedly try to put a response together in your head. Arlecchino has noticed before how you take longer to speak than her sometimes, but it tends to make everything you say more thought out, though you may end it like you're unsure.

"Well, I mean…if I didn't, wouldn't I just—" you pause for only a second— "break up with you?" There's silence after you finish. She doesn't say or do anything. To Arlecchino, that strangely almost makes sense, but you must be far too bold to admit that to a Harbinger. "It's not that I want to! I'm a little--…well, I think I'm just a little bit confused where that's coming from."

"I was thinking about it." You frown when she admits that. "Some of the things you have seen of me are…" Is there even a word to encompass that? "unbecoming of a lover."

Is that the right way to phrase it?

Again, you pause, and the telltale signs of consideration cross your face. An intense focus that barely lasts, and Arlecchino waits through it all to allow you your chance to answer, intent on allowing you that much. A few seconds more, and your features relax, looking back at Arlecchino with a tender gaze. "There's not really one 'right way', is there?" Your question, though rhetorical, strikes a chord with the many impulsive responses that flood her mind, all of which she keeps to herself. "You just kind of...try your best. Things might work out, or maybe they don't— the point is that you mean well and put in the work."

"That's not enough," she argues, "you deserve better."

"I deserve what I want." Your rebuttal makes sense in theory, but what do you want? She struggles to make sense of that part, the answer muddled by all of her thoughts and lost in her doubts. 

You could ask anything of her, and she would do it. Any material possession, every feeling, more love than you know what to do with in any form you desire—physical, emotional, intimate—and yet you never do. You accept her awkward hugs, that it takes her time to relax when you lay your head on her chest, the fact she sometimes snores, that her clothes may very well be covered in bloodstains when she comes home depending on uncontrollable circumstances.

You never ask for the things she has plenty of power to give you in return for those flaws.

She shakes her head, "but surely you want more."

"I don't."

"There is a lot wrong that you deserve compensation for." 

Arlecchino clenches the pen in her hand tightly, feeling the slight distress of pressure around it. She can't articulate what, not in the way she understands it; flaws is too broad of a term to use. You would instantly know and understand what she meant in a perfect world, but the world is not so generous.

"Like what?" you question. You feel that it’s obvious that nothing Arlecchino will struggle to say will shake you. She opens her mouth, prepared to refute it, headstrong and frankly stubborn as ever, but nothing comes out.

There is silence for a moment, and no one rebuts what you say. Nobody can. The only other person in the room fights with herself to yield and give in to your unwavering loyalty. In your mind, she is everything you want. There is nothing else you can ask of her than to simply accept that you wish to remain with her if only she will allow you to through her own emotional turmoil.

"Are you listening to what I’m saying?" you ask, frown creeping back onto your face as it tugs the corner of your lips down, seemingly against your will, "I could see the worst parts of you and still think you are the most beautiful person I’ve met."

Another chord is struck, her heart beating so loud it thrums in her ears like suddenly becoming aware it’s been threatening to beat out of her chest the entire conversation. She breathes, shaky and caught up in her own surprise. Somehow, she didn’t expect you to be so sweet in your words or throw her off guard so abruptly. She finds it hard to believe them. Arlecchino’s worries haven’t disappeared, only dwindled. It helps, if not completely. There is a reprieve in listening to you.

You have seen the worst of her, every crease she hasn’t ironed out, her sometimes rotten personality, her stained clothes, the weapons she cleans in your home. You have seen her walk to greet you covered in blood and gore from a savage fight, kneel before you and hold your hand with the same hands she uses to kill vagrants and petty criminals, kiss your skin with those lips that spill the vilest of curses against her enemies.

Before she realises what she’s saying, she blurts out a question, "Do you really believe that?" 

It is quiet, reminiscent of how gently you looked at her earlier as her voice barely breaks a whisper, and she can’t bring herself to break eye contact with you once she finds the courage to make it.

"I do." 

You smile at her, hoping she will smile back. A faint smile graces Arlecchino’s lips, ever the handsome picture. Her sincerity is comforting after such a scare. You still worry, and perhaps you will never stop with the way her mind likes to trick her. How long had she thought you secretly looked at her with disgust this time? You fear you won’t have an answer again, though you desperately wish for one. As much as you notice her awkwardness, dismissing some of it and observing other parts with more scrutiny, it is hard to make her talk to you at times.

"Thank you." It is all Arlecchino can think to say in response as she forgets what else she was going to challenge you on. It will return eventually, and she will face it again, but for now, it settles. Arlecchino can reasonably bury her doubt for a time.

"Can we keep talking?" you ask. 

"About anything," she confirms with a nod.

You turn away, walking across the room in pursuit of retrieving your chair from its designated spot by the wall. You pull it along, dragging it over the floor, and set it down across from her on the other side of the desk you’ve been talking across. Your seat welcomes you as it always does as you settle into place, now comfortably at eye level with her.

"In that case," you begin, taking the pen she holds and wriggling it from her hands. She relinquishes it without much of a fight, allowing you to place it off to the side out of the way. "I’m going to ask you how you are, and I would like you to answer me honestly."

"Anything for you, my love."

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❝He Loves me not❞ || Diluc x Reader

✧A/N: NOW THIS IS A HEAVY ONE BABES, I wanted to try something different since I mostly write lovey dovey or smutty stuff. This time I wanted to try making something more on the angsty side. Read the warnings first before proceeding !

Oh! Also, this is part of a Diluc Series I'm cooking up 👀, they are all one shots tho, none of them connect to one another. So expect more Diluc stuff from me !

✧Warning/s: Toxic Marriage, Cheating, Argument gone physical, Smut

✧Synopsis: In a modern AU wherein Diluc and you have an arranged marriage  and though at first you don't have high hopes of this union, you still gave it a chance… oh how regretful you are for such a choice.

✧Word Count: 2.9k words

Minors kindly don't interact!

He was never yours to begin with. From the moment you saw the way he looked at her…you knew you had already lost. 

It was your engagement party and you have invited all of your loved ones to celebrate. Both Diluc and you are currently busy attending and chatting with the guests. Everyone kept complimenting you on how much you're practically glowing that night, that it must be good karma considering how good your life has been going so far. And you couldn't agree more, everything seems so right…so perfect. 

Despite how transactional your engagement with Diluc was, this man has somehow crept into your heart. He was quite intimidating at first yet somehow you knew there was a hint of softness in him. His face would hold indifference yet his touch was warm and gentle. And for that you do not regret saying yes to meeting him. 

You excuse yourself from the group of guests and want to see your soon to be husband. You couldn't seem to find him from the sea of people..strange considering that his red hair always makes him stand out. By the corner you see Rosaria and Kaeya enjoying some drinks and snacks while they converse with one another. You approach them to ask Kaeya where his brother could be.

“Hey Kae, have you seen Diluc anywhere? I can't seem to find him?” Kaeya quirks his eyebrow and puts the wine glass down his lips. “I believe he went that way, by the garden. I saw him going there with Jean.” Jean? Who in Celestia was Jean? Probably one of his relatives you thought. You thanked Kaeya and exited the banquet hall. 

The garden was a little wide but it was easy enough to find your way. You ended up a little deeper into the garden and started hearing faint voices, one of which you could recognize. You don't know why, but your gut feeling told you to keep your mouth shut and approach them quietly. As you approached nearer you peaked at the two people that were hiding behind some grass walls. 

Your heart sank at the sight.

Diluc had one of his arms wrapped around the woman's waist and his other hand found itself on her cheek, tenderly caressing her. His eyes…it's as if he was worshiping the very ground she walked in. And the woman…Jean, looked back at him with the same affections as she smiled at him warmly.

You retreat back to hiding behind the grass walls, yet not leaving just yet. “You're here.” Diluc spoke gently, a hint of joy in his tone. Jean gave a gentle laugh. “Yes I am, in the flesh. and I intend to stay here a little longer.” Although you cannot see what they are doing, you are most definitely sure they just share a kiss after that. Your whole body starts to shake and your eyes are getting blurry from the tears that are threatening to fall down. In that moment you can't seem to speak nor move, you felt powerless, alone and…vulnerable. 

You felt betrayed and yet did nothing about it…months later you were then wed. 

…He didn't even call your name during the wedding night. You know damn well that as he was thrusting himself inside you and kissing you passionately on the lips it wasn't you on his mind…it was her. Those sweet pet names he was giving you? That's all for her. And still you pretended as if you knew nothing of his crimes. As you both reached your climax tears were falling down your eyes. But these weren't because of pure bliss, but it was due to your husband calling out another woman's name silently under his breath while still burried inside you. 

“Oh Jean..”

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Fixing yourself in front of your vanity, you applied some gloss on your lips before giving it a pop to really apply the product evenly. You were almost completely dressed up for the party and were satisfied with how you looked in front of the mirror. You gave a satisfied nod to yourself before grabbing the clutch on your bed and heading to the door.

You grabbed your pair of black heels that were inside the shoe cabinet and  bent a bit to wear them ,behind you you could hear footsteps. “And where do you think you're going at this time and hour?” You didn't have to turn around to know who spoke.

“Just going to a birthday celebration, remember my friend Yelan? It's her 29th birthday.” “And where is this party located exactly?” You finished buckling the straps on your heels and stood up properly. “Just at her home, we wanted some space for ourselves and she's going to bring out her best alcohol.” You answered every question he had, but your tone sounded as if you didn't have any time for him. That irritated the red head a bit.

You turn around to face your husband, he was still in his work clothes, The sleeves of his button up were folded up and a few buttons were undone, and his red hair was down. His arms were crossed and he had his default resting bitch face. “Will be home by 10pm, don't worry I won't be drinking too much.” really though, It was unnecessary to tell him all this. In the end he doesn't care where you go, who you go with, or even what time you'll arrive home. It's always been that way. 

He stopped loving you the day she entered back into his life.

“I’ll be heading off now, don't overwork.” 

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Driving slowly before coming to a full stop as you arrived at Yelans house. Her house was gorgeous, very modern and yet simplistic, just the way she likes it. You parked your car just outside her house and went for the entrance to ring her doorbell. Yelan shouted “Coming!” from a distance before rushing to open the door for you. “Ah here you are, just in time.” She gave you a quick hug before welcoming her to her home.

Thing is, no one was inside the house other than you and Yelan. She just wanted a simple birthday with her best friend, throwing some grand birthday wasn't really her thing to begin with. And you're more than happy to entertain her. “Gods glad you came! And here I thought I would celebrate this precious day all alone.” She jokingly said as we walked to her mini bar. 

You hopped on to a seat as Yelan went behind the counter to make some drinks. “We both know I would definitely be coming today. It's your birthday after all! Besides, there's not much to do in that house anyways. As much as possible I’d like to get out when given the opportunity.” You rested your cheek on your palm.

Yelan gives a worried look before sighing. “Is he still hooked on…her?” She pushes a drink towards me. I scoffed and took a sip. “Yeah, he is.” Yelan rolled her eyes at that before leaving the counter and sitting beside you. “He left a few weeks ago, saying it was for business purposes…But after his trip I cleaned his bag for his laundry and found some dirty panties in one of the pockets. And obviously this isn't some souvenir he got in some stall.” You took a swing of your drink and finished the whole glass. Yelan sees this and a concerned look is on her face. You wiped any excess alcohol on the corner of your lips and continued.

“The bastard is getting sloppy.” A grim look was on your face as you're telling Yelan all this. Yelan looks at you, dead serious in the eyes. “Y/N, we both know you deserve better than this.” You look at your best friend with somber eyes. "I know, but I just—" "Ah ah stop talking for a moment." Yelan interrupts.

"I know you love him...but don't you think perhaps it's time to face the fact that Diluc doesn't love you? Because if he did, the moment he saw that woman at your engagement party he would be running straight at you, showing to everyone and to her especially that he was already spoken for."

You grip on the glass tighter. Perhaps it's not love that's keeping you in this marriage. Sure you used to love him...but all that love went down the drain the night of your honeymoon. Maybe it's guilt, guilt at the very fact that you allowed for things to get this bad. That when you had the opportunity to stop this torture sooner— you just didn't.

And now that you're married to him, you thought that you might as well finish what you've started...even though it hurts.

“...Thanks Yelan, you're really helping me through this." You gave her a quick hug. "Well anyways enough about my fucked up life, lets talk about you, yeah?” Yelan wiggled her index finger in front of you. “Oh no no no don't you dare change the subject. I'm all ears right now.” 

“What? No! It's your birthday for celestia's sake, I'm not spending your precious day complaining about my marriage!” Yelan places her hand on top of yours. “My dear, I love nothing more than shit talking, so…” She grabs her drink and raises it in front of me. 

“Drink up.”

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Time seems to be flying fast as you hadn't realized it was already late at night. Not only that but you drank way past your limit, it would be dangerous to be out and about on the road, so Yelan insisted you'd stay for the night. Not having much of a choice you flopped on the bed and immediately dozed off to sleep.  By the time you woke up it was already 8 in the morning, you groaned as you stretched and sat up from the bed, rays of sunlight finding their way past the curtains. 

You feel the hangover settle in, fortunately it's not that unbearable. You walked down the stairs and to the kitchen there you found breakfast was already made for you and a sticky note just near it. 

‘Gonna go out for a run! Here's some breakfast and a pain reliever, if it's really unbearable don't hesitate to stay a little longer ;D’

- Yelan 

You chuckled reading this before eating the breakfast infront of you. After doing so you freshened up a bit in the bathroom and cleaned up the room you just stayed in. You don't want to be inconsiderate and leave any traces of mess, especially since you're just a guest. After doing everything necessary you locked the door behind you and went to your car. You just remembered you promised Diluc that you'd be home by 10…Ah whatever, he doesn't give a damn anyways. You're even sure that by now he's still rested nicely in his bed. 

While on the road you reflect back to what Yelan said...she's right. That night could have been different, instead of heading back home earlier to cry myself to sleep, I could've celebrated my engagement party to the fullest. Nothing but smiles and joy, with Diluc beside me...proud to be called husband and wife soon...

But that's all a fairy tail. Such delusions are far from the truth and as you reach closer to home you know exactly what you have to do.

Driving back home there wasn't any traffic on sight. Though, considering that it's a Sunday morning, most people are still in their beds resting. 

After parking your car inside the garage you made your way inside your home. You threw your clutch on the couch and made your way to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. But waiting there was your husband as he was eyeing you dangerously. “What happened to being at home at 10?” He takes a sip of his coffee and looks straight at you.

You're in disbelief at his attitude, why should he even give a damn about where you've been. You divert your eyes to one of the cabinets to get a glass. “Yeah about that, I got a little too carried away with the drinks. I couldn't drive properly so I stayed there at Yelans for the night.” You poured yourself a glass of water while still avoiding eye contact. Diluc doesn't seem to like this. “Can you please look at me while talking?” 

You let out a frustrated inhale and just finished your glass of water to just leave, this morning you seem to have little to no patience for Diluc. You start to walk off but Diluc gets up from his chair and follows behind you. “Hey what's going on? Talk to me!” You continue to walk up the stairs ignoring your husband. He grabs your arm and stops you before you could enter the bedroom. “What the hell is your problem? Why aren't you answering me–!” “YOU ARE THE DAMN PROBLEM ‘LUC!”

You finally blew up. After months, even years of holding it in, you finally blew up on his face. You rip your arm off from his grip. “Don't you dare pretend you don't know. Because I know we both fucking know what’s wrong.” Only the sound of heavy breathing can be heard, both of you stood there silently as you spoke in almost a whisper. 

“I can't do this anymore, Luc. It fucking hurts and I can’t stand seeing your selfish lying face–!” “Then why?” Diluc interjects, he looks at you coldly. “Then why did you stay? Why didn't you say anything? If it hurts so fucking much then why did you let all of this happen–!” “Dont you fucking DARE make me the villain here, Ragnvindr!” 

You point a finger towards Diluc, there was no more holding back at this point. “I have foolishly led myself to believe that I might even have a sliver of chance in your heart, but it's clear now that you're only thinking about that whore of a woman!”

“DON’T YOU DARE CALL HER THAT” “WELL AM I FUCKING WRONG? THAT'S WHAT SHE IS IN OUR MARRIAGE, RIGHT? JUST SOME DIRTY SECRET YOU HIDE.” Diluc’s hand suddenly wraps around your throat, pinning you to the wall. His grip is merciless while his eyes only bore rage. He wants to be fucking angry well two can play that game.

“Ohh what's wrong? I thought we were talking this out. Did I hit a nerve?~” You were mocking him, an almost maniac smile was on your face as you're laughing at him. His attempts to shield his woman were ridiculous, he's going so low to the point of physically hurting you. Both of your eyes never left one another, as if challenging the other to look away, but neither of you faltered.

Your grin at him, enjoying the very fact that this time the roles were reversed, this time he was the one who was agitated. 

"I'm done playing pretend, so why don't you do the same." Despite how hard it was to speak, you still had some bite in you.

A vein could practically pop from Dilucs head from how angry he is, he looks at you with pure hatred– as if you are the most vile thing he has ever seen. He inches closer at you, doing his best to intimidate you more. Both of you could practically feel each other's breath– it’s hot and heavy. There were no words being exchanged yet Diluc’s eyes somehow found themselves down to your lips, they were red and plump.

You were about to agitate him a little more when suddenly his lips crashed onto yours harshly. Without thinking you accepted the kiss, his hand was still on your throat but you wouldn't have his hand in any other place. His free hand wandered down to your ass and gave it a firm squeeze, pulling you closer to him. 

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Clothes were scattered all over the floor, hands were wandering and groping everywhere. There were no signs of stopping or slowing down. At one point you found yourself on top of Diluc, straddling him and taking control instead. “Nice view, is this what she saw 2 weeks ago, hm?” You mock him, his hands are then on your hips as he forces you to push yourself deeper into him. “Shut your mouth and just keep moving.” You only go faster and deeper, Diluc groans beneath you.

While riding him you're playing with yourself to help you reach your climax faster. Diluc watches the view before him, and as much as he wants to deny it but you look fucking hot right now. All angry yet horny at the same time. 

You comb some hair out of your face and look down at Diluc, you can see that he's close, but so were you. As you quicken your pace  you grab a hold of his face and force him to look at you “When you fucking cum I want you to scream my name, for once in your damn life call out the name of the woman that made you feel good.”

Diluc scoffs at this, “In your fucking dreams.” You hum in disappointment and slow down your pace. “If you don't, then I'm leaving you here with your cock still hard.” The red head groaned at this and grips on his hips a little tighter. “Fuck– fine fine!” You smile down at him. “That's better~” Quickening your pace, both of you continue to moan and pant out in pleasure, removing every single edge and hatred from 2 hours ago. 

“Oh god I’m close!” Your thrusts are getting sloppier by the second, desperate for that release. On the other hand Diluc is panting beneath you as he looks at how you're taking him in so well. “Y/N I’m close too– Shit!” You grip onto his bare shoulders as you're about to cum. “Oh god I’m coming !” Shutting your eyes as you release, Diluc gives a strong thrust upwards as he releases his load inside of you. 

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It was already 3 in the morning as you got up from the bed. Diluc was still fast asleep, but this was the perfect moment to start packing up your necessary things and head out to the door. You’ll file for a divorce later, but for now… 

You look down at the red head as he is sleeping peacefully. You remove the ring off your finger, the ring that felt so heavy and ingrained into your skin. You can finally lift that weight. 

You head to the bathroom and get ready to leave. 

Alternative Ending

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✧˖*°࿐ 2024 tumblr wrapped

as this year comes to an end, and we revisit the memories it brought, it's only appropriate that we go through this past year in this account. thankfully, i was tagged by @monamipencil in her tumblr wrapped post, which gave me the motivation to make this post (which i otherwise would have procrastinated on) that gives me the opportunity to share a glance at this year in writing.

before we get into it, i wanna take a moment to thank everyone from the bottomest pit of my little heart: followers; fellow creators who I always look up to; every anon who's sent me an ask, even if it's just to ramble; everyone who's read any of my work and who's shown love to them. what this account is right now, is all because of your support and love. so really, i love you with every single living cell in my body.

for some basic details:

this account was created on may 14 (counting the day of the first post), so it's been 232 days of cxffecoupx!

as of the moment i'm writing this, we have 762 followers — a truly huge family indeed!

i've posted 40 works (crazy to even think about that??)

made 326 posts all together (i do yap a lot).

made a few really good friends...

...and also realised i would like to post even more in the coming year

for someone as inconsistent as me, i sure feel very surprised at the performance this year (you can actually see how low I'd expected of myself lol), and i'm so so grateful to y'all for all your love.

now, for some post specific stats:

again, i've posted 40 works this year.

top fic of 2024 — [11:18 pm]; seungcheol × reader; 2k notes.

longest fic — realising they're in love with you; ot13 × reader; 1.4k words. here for you; joshua × reader; 1.4k words .

personal fav — (you can't make me choose btw my babies >:(!!) what 2 am with them looks like; ot13 × reader. cheol as a girl dad; seungcheol × reader.

top member — seungcheol (very biased, i know).

total word count of 2024 — (idk i need my laptop to check ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ; will update soon tho).

this is all about my writing and works. again, i would like to thank every single one of you who's taken even a little time out to read any of it; i seriously cannot express it enough, i really really mean it.

using this section to dedicate some special thanks and extra love to a few people:

@simpxxstan — no amount of words would be enough to thank you. for all the times you've patiently listened to my rants and silliest ideas. for every time you've approached me to share your own thoughts because that just makes me feel soo loved. for all the times you've supported and encouraged me, not just for all the caratlife related stuff, but also personal problems and struggles. for helping me get through this semester of master's while you were going through it yourself. if i could invent a new word to convey all the gratefulness i have towards you, i'd gladly use that right now.

@seungcheorry — one of the reasons cxffecoupx is what it is today. if it weren't for your support and guidance, i'd still be using my personal account and there would be no cxffecoupx. and although it all started like that, you've only continued to show your kindness by your ongoing support and love, even during difficult times for you. please know that i'll always be here for you to reach out to. always.

@wonuumelody — the first friend i made here. the first person who messaged me to tell me how much she liked my very first post. literally gave me all the more reason to keep posting, because if not for anyone else, then atleast for her. thank you so much for your kind words that day; it still keeps me going.

@ylangelegy — where do i even begin with kae? i found the account through a coincidence and it's been such a rollercoaster ride for me since then. tbh, i look up to them as someone i'd like to use as my guiding light when things get rough. when i feel like the words i write do not look pretty, they're always the first to show me that they are. and that it more than enough at the time for me. my personal cheerleader, know that i'm always at the bleachers, cheering you on too.

@monamipencil — this is such a whiplash for me because this person was someone i used to look up to since the beginning of my cxffecoupx days,,, and then one day she interacted with my posts???? ris starstruck moment fr because i could not believe my eyes. so this will forever remain a core memory for me. truly.

@hearts4hansol — ofc i need to mention my secret santa, the one who kept me so entertained this whole month of december and gifted me something so so special that it'll remain in a part of my mind and heart for as long as cxffecoupx exists. i want to apologise again for all the messages i haven't replied to yet, and also thank you for all the silent support you've given me 'anonymously'.

@mejaemin — my only nct moot here. she has a special place in the neon green section of my heart. i love you so so much.

plus a few other people i'm sure to have left out. please don't feel i've forgotten, because someway or another, i'm grateful for your love and your part in showing support that has given me fuel to keep going on. this also goes to all the anons who've sent in their requests (including those i havent yet responded to; i see them everyday and i will most definitely get to them).

resolutions for next year?

write more — seriously. even though i feel like 40 works for half of the year seemed surprising to me, i do hope to be able to post some good stuff i can feel proud of. it's a bit difficult, but i'll try my best to reach there.

work through the requests and drafts — i have around 10-15 requests in the inbox, and nearly 30-40 little drafts (one-liners mostly, a brief clue about the idea i jotted down earlier). i would LOVE to be able to work through those and finish them up. that would honestly be so satisfying omg.

as a sidenote to the previous two resolutions, i would like to finish winter wonderland — by posting the remaining two drabbles. i know i've been pushing it for too long now, and i hate it as much as you do, honestly. so i would love to get that done first tbvh.

interact more — come across more writing blogs and make more moots. it's always fun to talk to someone (i am like this only on the net). this would also allow me to read more variety of stories and possibly learn something from them.

on a personal note — do well academically, make more friends, (hopefully) find new love, travel and explore more... might add more to this bingo card.

with this, we reach the end of my 2024 tumblr wrapped (ended up a little too long, pardon). thank you so much for this opportunity to let me take a glance back at this year, to learn from my mistakes and do better next time.

(not really tagging anyone because 2024 is almost over now, but if she's up to it, then i'd love to see @simpxxstan do it + anyone else who's interested, (i'm a little nosy and) would love to see it!!)

the time here is 23:45.

signing off as cxffecoupx of 2024.

see you on the other side.

happy new year! i love y'all <3

[grandiosetirade]

How do you view BadK and Kaeloo in general?

When i first started watching the show , i used to not like Kaeloo very much . Bad K was fine but i used to find Kaeloo very annoying…

Also When i first watched the show , i thought kaeloo was a girl that just transformed to a guy . ( i was 14 and confused about my gender as well )

But then i discovered myself that i was non binary and then i understood that Kaeloo was not a girl either !! So in that aspect of the character , Kaeloo is super important for me …

I still didn’t really liked her personality…. And i didn’t really care about Bad K either . The only think that i thought was interesting about them was their relationship with mister cat which i founded really interesting. In my human AU back then , now i see that the version of Kaeloo that i had was really changed…

Then season 3 came and i really started to actually enjoy Kaeloo character a little more . But she was still one of my least favorite character i think.

But then season 4 came out and i really started to like her . Even more with season 5 ! ( i felt like Kaeloo was more unhinged and that Bad K actually had character ) .

I dont know if their my absolute favorite characters now but i like them a lot , especially Kaeloo they are so dear to me . And their human version are so satisfying to draw !!

Now Bad Kaeloo was a character that i felt never really had a proper «  character » before season 3/4

Like yeah , kaeloo turned into him for comedic effect sometimes but like …. I use to not differentiate him from Kae . Now it’s different, i find him really cute ! Its a really interesting character with more depth now id say !

Also i have no idea if Kae/BadK are the same person or different alter/personalities ( sorry if i say anything offensive btw , i have no idea how this works at all ) but im glad they didn’t go with the cute person / crazy killer stereotype ! They could have easily go that way but no .

Anyway i love responding to questions !! If you have more about Kaeloo stuff be free to ask ^^

[neonmetro]

I am SO sorry for sending a second ask as I try to reframe from doing so, so I don't flood your inbox, but this is stuff i totally forgot to include in my last ask because I was half asleep when I wrote it 😭😭😭😭 so please forgive me.....

I would like to say......RAENA AND AZAZELLLLDGSHSHDJSJDGFYSHJK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HEH........THEY SHOULD BE HAPPYYY !!!!!!!!!!!!! *hands on head as I cry into the sky* if possible......I would like more info on those two and there relationship ( I know Raena is Kaes oc so it's okay if you can't give me much about those two ) I would also like some silly moments / fluff with those two if possible.....I just really like fluff sorry chat....

Also I would like to know more about samyaza and peneume's relationship if possible......those two intrigue me quite a bit.....

I KNOW THIS ASK HAS TO DEAL A LOT WITH RELATIONSHIPS IM SORRY 😭😭😭😭 PLEASE HAVE A GOOD DAY

-paris anon

JIDHIYFYTVJBHKLMKSJDFH YOU'RE FINE !!! i love talking about me ocs.... they are in my mind constantly...

I WOULD LOVE TO TELL YOU ABOUT RAENAZEL!!! IT IS AWFUL!!! it is fun and silly for like 5 seconds and then goes so down hill the rest of the way down (raena is @soundofastar's for those not in the know)

they met in highschool but started dating in college, raena has known azazel since before project martyr the killing game, and project martyr the stupid office sitcom. they're both infatuated with one another, but raena would do anything for azazel, and its frankly his downfall. azazel loves raena back and doesn't want to hurt him, but he serves as a very painful reminder for what kind of person they were (and are). they just... kinda stuck together

QUICK PIVOT in kescorp, their dynamic is veryyy different they're more antagonistic towards one another and raena is forced to be azazel's lawyer bc hera just likes them that much. and then raena distorts and azazel and raena are in a constant hunt for each other, forced to kill each other over and over

HOWEVER. during project martyr, he was a lawyer in peneume's firm and moved with them to work with project martyr and peneume's personal firm. raena knew the rest of project martyr by osmosis from both azazel and peneume, especially michael.... who had to deal with azazel being down bad for him...

he didn't really know a lot of azazel's internal struggles about not being that great of a person, but he showered them with as much affection as he could give and would help them financially in anyway. all he really asked for in return was a bit of their attention.

one day, azazel didn't come home, and wouldn't answer their calls. everyone in projmar was dead and raena was just ghosted and in the dark about azazel the entire time, but he was still searching for them.

until project martyr came to live television.

there, he saw in real time, that azazel was alive (maybe not well) and he did everything to rummage through every available piece of information to try and help them and started fan wikis to moderate the information said and spread about project martyr

aishire kinda just. had enough of this and just threw him in jail and limited his screentime to limit any dumb stupid shit from interfering with projmar. this wasn't really aishire's plan but like. it worked out for him. so raena doesn't... really have any opportunities to go and help azazel, despite still watching them through his television screen

azazel tries not to think about raena too much... still hurts them and reminds them of how shitty they are as a person. if they did meet, azazel would try to kill raena, just as quickly and as painless as possible.

"please die so i stop feeling like this."

UMM. UHHH. SHIT FLUFF CUTE SHIT UMMM

raena gave azazel so many sheep plushies. sheep keychain (that they put on their keys), sheep clothing (that they wear), sheep plushies (that they keep at their desk at work), just copious amounts of it !!!

azazel keeps a wolf plushie with them at all times (they miss their wife)

azazel helps out raena a lot with his appearance and helps test out makeup by doing his

azazel also made both his and raena's weapon ! (he has a very similar, albeit smaller axe to azazel's)

[kae-luna]

🌃//Writeblr Intro//🌃

Hello! Welcome to my corner of the internet. I am Kae Luna. You can call me Kae or Luna. I am pretty new to Writeblr, so please bear with me.

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(Banner made with canva)

🌊About My Writing🌊

✨Genres: sci-fi, fantasy, supernatural, action, drama, psychological, LGBTQIA+

✨Subgenres: dystopian, cyberpunk, biopunk, solarpunk, post-apocalyptic

✨Common themes: diversity, anti-capitalism, female empowerment

Links🌐

Since I like both anime art and storytelling, I'm planning to make light novels. Some of them may be short stories, standalone novels, or series. :3 Going to put some of them on Wattpad and Tapas.

I try to balance unique settings with complex characters.

🌊About Me🌊

I've been writing and drawing since I was little. And before I could write, I would tell my mother my story and she'd write it down for me. I've always had a crazy imagination. When I was a tween, I got into anime and manga, so I learned how to draw in that art style.

I am 26, queer-romantic asexual, and feminine-presenting nonbinary. I identify as both a girl and a demi-boy. You can refer to me as she/her, he/him, or they/them. I don't mind. I'm also white and have ADHD, dyspraxia, anxiety, and depression that prevents me from getting a "real" job.

I'm pretty shy and anxious, but once you get to know me, I may say some weird stuff and dad jokes. I'm a big nerd and simp as well.

I am also a Vtuber, but made this alt identity since I didn't think my work would fit that persona.

🌊About My Blog🌊

Here I am going to post about my WIP stories and some of my art. I will also reblog others' art and writing. Many aesthetics, fandoms, and other stuff may be reblogged as well with tags if it inspires my work.

Here I hope to find more creators to connect with and find some epic creations. Feel free to message me if you'd like, though I am kinda shy. :3

I am okay with:

✨Asks

✨Tag games

✨DMs. I'm happy to make friends. :3

🌊My Likes & Favorites🌊

✨Aesthetics/genres: vaporwave, cyberpunk, pastel, eco punk, nature, grunge, post-apocalyptic, solarpunk, steampunk, fantasy, LGBTQIA2S+

✨Movies: Alita: Battle Angel, Ultraviolet, Aeon Flux, Spider-Man 2, Howl's Moving Castle, Black Panther, The Matrix

✨Shows: Doctor Who, Stranger Things, Umbrella Academy, The Witcher

✨Anime: Death Note, Attack on Titan, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure

✨Games: Skyrim, Baldur's Gate 3, The Sims 4, Minecraft, Fallout

✨Cartoons: Aeon Flux, Batman The Animated Series

🌊WIP(s)🌊

Ultra Drive - Intro Post | Directory Post

Links: Wattpad | Tapas (coming soon)

✨Genre(s): sci-fi, cyberpunk, action, drama, psychological, dystopian

✨CWs: fascist government stuff, pandemic mention, gore probably at some point, discrimination and oppression, violence

When AlexiKa was a child, her world was changed forever when her family was forced to immigrate to the imperial city of Venicula after the Ebony Plague - caused by mysterious eumalyptus spores - infected her home town. Now a young adult, she works as a courier (and secretly an anti-corporation activist). When going on a delivery, she accidentally uncovers dark secrets and ends up infected with the same Ebony Plague that haunted her hometown as a child. But when she survives the illness and instead develops superhuman abilities, she joins a mutant resistance group to fight against the Veniculan Empire, the Gaia Corporation, and other mutants with immoral goals.

Adventures in Alsteria - Intro Post (coming soon!)

Links: N/A

✨Genre(s): fantasy, comedy, slice of life, action, adventure, LGBTQIA+

✨CWs: None ATM? Violence probably?

A trans femboy wood elf named Nel finds the homeland of his people - the rain forests of Falinor - and goes on an adventure to form a guild of adventurers! Still kind of in the vibes stage I guess, but I have some ideas formed for lore and characters. :> Something more cute and lighthearted for me to write in contrast to Ultra Drive.

Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don't have much that I can share at the moment due to much of my writing being lost (school assignments or lost on old computers) or attached to other identities. I also had a looong writer's/art block.

[your-local-multi-geek]

He/Him, straight, you can call me Jörmungander or Jörm for short, I am a minor so yeah. If you even care to know I'm Irish+Scottish+some other stuff

-Marvel

-Star Wars

-Book of Life

-Greek/Norse mythology

-Steven Universe (Show, Movie, and Future)

-Kotlc

-Murder Drones

-TADC

-High Class Homos

-Baby Tyrant

-Loving Reaper

-Live with Yourself

-Just Pancakes

-Homesick

-The D!ckheads

-Bluechair

-Don't read this

-Adventures of God

-Pixie and Brutus

-GoofyGodsComics

-Mafia Nanny

-A Spell for a Smith

-A Lot of Kids Shows that I don't feel like listing, just ask me one and I'll say yes/no (also do this if you want to know if im reading a webtoon, I tend to forget and not list a couple)

-MHA but I haven't watched in a long time :(

-A little bit of Harry Potter

-I enjoy science and finding out how things work

-Psych2go, It's a YT channel I enjoy

-I can put Xbox here I guess

You could call me a theater kid though I absolutely despise public speaking, I keep to myself a lot unless I'm a close friend, (which is barley anyone). I absolutely love any animal that doesnt try to kill me. Key word there is try, I'll still give a gator belly rubs as long as it doesn't try to consume me for nutrients. I enjoy a bunch of random music ranging from I Will Survie to Heavens on Fire even to You've got a Friend in me on Piano. Nothing too special about me, just an average kid pretty much. (HEADS UP: expect occasional/possible vents at random points in time)

My tags: #couch time with jörm(more to come)

Irl frens: @iam1withthepeggy @queenpiranhadon @labaguetteisdabest @cinematics06 @expvalorant @lgplayz28

Mutuals: @swans-chirping-in-the-distance @that-multi-fandom-hijabi @ch1ckpeapancake @beastimus @the-one-and-only-ginger

I am also the public test reader of Star Crossed Haters which is being written by my wonderful pals, Kae (@queenpiranhadon ) and Nyota (@labaguetteisdabest )! I will reblog all the chapters Kae posts and Ny posts wattpad links on their blogs so you have plenty of options to check out their book which I am really loving

Farewell to all who set out for travel and welcome to those who come for a rest

[heycerulean]

(Another for the OC ask game. XD)

... They were supposed to be joke OCs but I've now expanded their lore.

Basically, you got a life sized plushie who is pretty much alive. That's it. I called them "plushie clones" as a joke but I now find it unusual to call them anything else.

They're huggable and stuff. Albeit the ones who can talk tend to be... sassy to say the least. (Then again, their creator is also like that sometimes.)

The one your OCs will meet is Kae. She has pink hair and purple eyes. She's definitely more focused on tasks than talking.

Please avoid annoying her or she will throw a slipper at you. (She will not miss. Don't ask how. Her creator will be too flustered to answer how and why her plushie creations can fight with household objects. XD)

But feel free to ask for a hug. Kae will oblige. She also has a storage spell and does carry a ton of snacks with her. (Even if she doesn't need to eat.)

(I got nothing for now. XD)

thank you for the second ask! this one seems clearer to me than your last oc. i raise you: Teva E. Vaskenvae-Tetevi. She's a focused, quick-witted, softspoken person with one hell of a knack for strategy and making good tea. She has also canonically grown plants in rooms without windows. It's a magic thing. And also a spite thing. She really hated her old boss. Long story. She's the kind of person to appreciate resourcefulness, preparedness, and all of those kinds of things; and I think her and Kae would get along just great. Teva might try and teach her how to shoot a gun, though. Be prepared. thanks :)

[beecreeper]

For the Tav ask game (with all your guys if you'd like): 3, 17, and 28 >:3c

Yeeeeeeeeeah boy let's GO

Answers under the cut

3. What would their character quest be titled? Why?

Briar – Bramble and Spores (reference to her name, to her druid class, and to the tangled, thorny mess that is her brain)

Ferox – The Broken Paladin (the mystery of his broken oath and the angst around his urges are the main thrust of his quest)

Molli – Mockingbird’s Reel (sounds like a song title, mockingbird is her animal, reel chosen because it’s a style of music she likes to play and also for the homophone association with getting caught/reeled in)

Myrala – Silver and Gold (silver for Eilistraee and gold for her temptation to steal for stability/survival)

Poppy – Rider of the Whistling Skull (taken from the name of the mercenary company she grew up in)

17. Do they have any enemies outside of the main plot? Any friends?

This is me realizing in real time that a unifying theme of all of my OCs is that they are isolated and lonely….

Because like, for Briar and Ferox, their pre-tadpole lives were so completely dictated by Bhaal and the dead three plot. Neither of them had notable enemies outside of Bhaal plot shenanigans (at least not ones they left alive) and both of them deliberately avoided making friends (Briar because emotional connection is for losers and Ferox because he thinks he doesn’t deserve them)

And then Molli like. Has spent nearly a decade in a glorified closet. I mean I gueeeeess you could count the Zhentarim on the whole as an “enemy” in that it’s a group that she is deeply afraid of. And, like, the closest thing she has to a friend is her sister that she hasn’t seen in like 15 years. (Who would be encountered in Act 3 working for the guild! He’s her brother now! I love Kae I gotta properly draw him).

I think Myrala might have the most connections because she’d been living in Baldur’s Gate for a long while before getting tadpoled. She knows a bunch of drow refugees and Eilistraee converts that she’s struggling to help but they’re less like friends and more like clients? Charges? Regardless she’s not like hanging out with them or anything but she feels responsible for their well being and cares a lot about them. She also has a preexisting relationship with Nine Fingers Keene who keeps trying to convince Myrala to join the guild. The guild also does a bunch of stuff that actively hurts the drow Myrala is trying to help, like extorting from them or recruiting them and stuff like that, so Myrala’s relationship with Keene is low-key adversarial. But also, they kinda recognize each other, you know? Thief to thief. I honestly gotta dive deeper into that.

Poppy is also defined by having no lasting friendships because she is constantly on the move. She’s the type of person who will treat you like family five minutes after meeting you but she never actually *stays* friends with people. On the flip side she’s the type of person who has a billion of seemingly random connections to people, you know? She has a casual, friendly relationship with people ALL OVER the place. Poppy says “I know a guy…” at least three times a day. But almost no one is like a *friend* friend. She does stay in contact with her mercenary family and sends them letters, particularly her mother. Enemy-wise, she has a big ol’ grudge against a guy who attacked her when she was a kid (and actually depending what AU I’m playing in this guy was actually a durge. Like, he exists either way but sometimes he’s a durge.) He’s a friend’s oc named Billy and he was a member of her mercenary group who turned out to be evil and tried to sacrifice Poppy but her family ran him off in time. They all have a perma-grudge against him and spit on the ground anytime they hear the name.

28. Describe a smell that reminds your tav of childhood

Briar – chicken coops (and other miscellaneous farm smells but this one is the strongest)

Ferox – roasted dwarf 😔 growing up with goblins will do that

Molli – the smell of her dad’s textile warehouse: a mix of a bunch of different fabrics with that dusty wooden attic kinda smell.

Myrala – sewer smell. Both because she was no stranger to using sewers as an escape route and also because I imagine a Menzoberranzan slum just kinda smells like that

Poppy – dry grass in summer and campfire smoke

[diddybok]

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY WONDERFUL WONDERFUL CHIX!!!

what a year it’s been good lord. i’ve met so many lovely people too many to name them all but i will send yous a message later on (its 01:00am for me rn)

thank you all for the constant support you show by reading my work. liking it. reblogging it. commenting. sending asks. and so so much more!! i can’t wait to give you more stuff.

though i will say january - may will be INCREDIBLY busy for me. it’s my final year of university for those that don’t know and i have to make a film 😀 and give in my dissertation in 18 days that is nowhere near finished,,so wish me luck!

so i think after i get the texts out/ what’s been requested i may have to go on a small hiatus jussttt so that i can secure me actually graduating!!

but of course im here to check in where i can and reply to those who message and support the other authors on here. i’ll just slow down with the large content like the series and longer fics, but i can NOT wait until i can write without worrying about the next thing i have to deal with irl 🤗

anyways yadda yadda ya, there are almost 1500 of you…wOAHHHH and when we hit 1500 i will make a whole separate post but AHHHHH.

i hope every single person who reads this has a wonderful year full of abundance, joy, love, good health and most of all happiness!! you all deserve it so so much.

i love y’all.

see yous later x

- kae <3

[joyfuladorable]

Masterpost of my TMNT content

Easier perusal for everyone (me included). Each list is ordered from newest to oldest. IMPORTANT NOTE: I'm brushing that 100 link limit, so post series will only have the first post linked here with the rest of the posts linked in order in said posts (I hope that makes sense, lol) Also! Anything related to my Rise Casey Sr Lore is going in its own >Masterpost<

Fic:

Whumptober Warm-Ups (multi)

Scrambled (2k3)

Typical Night (Rise Capril)

Keep Your Eyes Open (2k3)

Ramifications (2k3)

Struck Match (Rise Capril AU)

I'll be Ok! (2k3)

A (Capril) Moment (Rise)

Fic Fanart:

To Fit the Crime (2k3)

Being So Normal (Rise)

Weathered Strings, Tethered Wings (2k3)

Dragon of the Sun(2k3)

Sunshine in the Rain (Rise)

nice, nice (Rise)

Of Darkness and Light (2k3)

Pretend that I Never Left (2k3)

imperfect animals (Rise)

A delivery boy! Uh, or turtle. (2k3)

Multi/Others:

Misc 03 Mikey doodles + Koya & Rise Casey

An Abundance of Angels

2012 Casey cruising with Post-Valentines candy

More Shredder’s Revenge redraws (03 & Rise with bonus capril)

Chaotic Besties (Rise Casey & 03 Mikey)

Sapphic stream doodles + Bonus sapphics

Mikey doodle requests (Part 2)

Mikey doodle requests (Part 1)

Twt doodle requests (2k3 & Rise)

Mikey snoozing on a plushie (90s Movie)

Sunset Duo Sillies (2k3 & Rise)

Mikey and Mikey and Mikey (2k3, 12, Rise)

IDW:

Nightwatcher Identity Spoilers

Character Portrait Sketchdump 2

Character Portrait Sketchdump 1

Mutant Mayhem/Tales:

More Casey Manifesting

Prom Night!

Manifesting Casey Jones

2003:

Roadtrip AU Cowboy Mikey

Capril but it’s the SSS Hitman bit

Capril and their amicable exes

Turtle Titan JF Shift Day

SAINW Roadtrip AU

Mikey Arm Injuries + Don Trauma

Mikey Victory Jump

Turtle Tots Storytime

Renetello Doodle

Go For It, Miyamoto! (Leosagi)

Turtle Titan in Terrible Trouble

Don, Mikey, & Klunk doodles

Badass Mikey Sketch

Trenchcoat Mikey

Angel Redesign

2k3 Things that Make Me Laugh (Part 1)

Boyband Album Cover

Where the Wild Thing Are

Rise (Casey Lore-specific stuff has its own post):

40th Anniversary comic redraw (capril)

Casey putting on a denim vest

Miscellaneous April & Casey & capril

Watercolor April doodle

Frirah Date (Vad’s OC Munirah/Frida)

Happy Butch Appreciation Day to Casey Jones

Yuri Day Punches (Capril)

Capril Knight & Royal AU

Kiwi's Capril DTIYS

Capril and Murder

Mini Capril Paintings

Caprisun Collab

Kae’s Capril DTIYS

Casey & Frida Post-training Art Trade

Princess Bride Capril

Western Capril Art Trade

Casey comforts Frida (Big Mama's Assistant) Art Trade

Baja Blast Duo Art Trade

Lesbian Uppercut

Caprisun KH AU

Turtle Practice

Mikey and Cats

Videos:

TMNT 2003 Kahoot Vod

Rise S2 but it’s just Casey Yelling

Rise S1 but it's just Casey Yelling

I made a video compilation of every Casey (Sr) appearance in Rise! YT won't let me upload it, so send me an Ask for the link if you wanna see it!

2k3 Book Scan Snippets:

Balloons

Parallels

Besties

[nightmarearian]

helloo i just stumbled acress your blog and if you dont mind id like to ask-

FELLOW GENSHIN LORE FAN????

if yes then what are your thoughts on the next dain archon quest-

feel free to ignore/not answer btw, no pressure ^^

FUKC YEAH LOORREEE

I’m more into Khaenri’ah/Abyss lore, than anything else tho, if i’mma be honest lol.

I’m absolutely interested in lore and stories and general though to be honest I think my attention span and sleep deprivation doesn’t allow me to make up anything to big from scratch

Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑)

But I’d love to bounce of others if it weren’t for my social anxiety so please I’d be absolutely interested in anything with this

I’m really late to answering this shit to where people have already posted the cutscenes of Caribert onto yt, which I watched because impulse control is a myth and I’m quest locked so-

If you haven’t seen it yet then by all means ignore the rest of my rambling;

So Kaeya is specifically the descendant of the founder of the Abyss Order, Chlothar Alberich. Kae outwardly says he has no idea of the origin, with how openly he handles his last name, but he also says it ties up some questions he’s had.

Of course, quote Diluc, “you can only trust half of what he says at best,” so of course taking that with a grain of salt:

At ‘worst’ that means Kae always fuckin knew/This is just the final confirmation about it, and he knows a lot more about the Abyss Order. (Also funfact: one of his first, base lines, like the ones you have access to w/ friendship lvl 1, have something asking “Is the Abyss Order bothering you?” Not to mention there’s an anecdote on “You’re scars of the dark? That’s… interesting.” Oh, and that first archon quest in the domains and stuff; Where Kaeya recognizes hilichurl aren’t this smart and looks like he’s about to talk with a Abyss Mage before adult barges in. And the. “Let’s just say I was blessed with certain… linguistic powers.” Shit, foreshadowing goes deep.)

At best: He had just a bit of knowledge about it, and confirmation opens a lot up for him.

I do doubt he’d actually turn to the Abyss Order, cause Hoyo making him essentially a villain/major (enough) antag would be… uh, unlikely to say the least. I can see some spying on the Abyss Order and double crossing them though, that fits with Kae.

And at the same time, Caribert is apparently Chlothar’s son, right? He’s obviously affected by the curse, being the hilichurl. And so if we’re going with the “Kaeya is from straight up alive Khaenri’ah, not just the ruins” that either means through shenanigans Caribert turned into Kae or Kae has a sibling.

However, Kaeya is called a descendant of Chlothar, so that’s a separation of time; But then that also brings up the question of how Kaeya knows of Khaenri’ah? His Story says things/describes Khaenri’ah in things in general that paints it as if he actually lived there.

Did he live in ruins? Then I doubt he’d have as much knowledge about Khaenri’ah as he could very well likely have (and not tell us, obviously, the little liar [affectionate]). Not to mention the paper he stole when his father showed him about “what being an Alberich” is about and stuff; embers blah blah; that doesn’t sound like ruins…? Ugh. He has a stupid amount of 4-pointed stars on his design too; There is no way he doesn’t know at least a good amount about Khaenri’ah.

Following the Caribert -> Kaeya thing;

Chlothar did fuck around with the Abyss sibling (I play Aether so I’m gonna say Lumine) to try and find a way to help Caribert with the curse and stuff. Hell, after we dig up the bodies when Dain wakes us up, Dain questions if Chlothar found a way to stop the curse or something. So perhaps Chlothar did “cure” (to some level, otherwise they wouldn’t need to do the Loom of Fate shit) of some sorts that returned Caribert?

And then due to Abyssal time shenanigans (it’s already proven to fuck with time, look at Ajax/Childe) memories got fucked and Chlothar decided it’d be best to leave Kaeya in Mond, whether as a spy or for a better life? Kaeya does still have that eyes patch, after all. And it’s not implausible that there was a name change for ambiguity.

But at the same time, a ‘cure’ for the curse would be questionable - why hasn’t it been mass produced/practiced by now then? - not to mention I don’t think Kaeya would only get away from all that with just an eyepatch covering his face. And again, Kaeya was described as a “descendant” of Chlothar, and it’s referred to as an “ancestor/ancestry” specifically, so for the time thing it’s unlikely.

Not to mention, Chlothar also has a bigger star, closer to Dain than Kaeya’s. As Kae put it “pure-blood Khaenri’ahn”.

So yeah, Kaeya is probably just more of a descendant, if his appearance contradicting the description of a Khaenri’ahn has to say anything (“Light hair, fair skin, star-pupil” Kae is one of the 3 playable characters that has a darker skin tone, he has dark blue hair, and his star pupil is small than compared to Dain or Halfdan. …Though Chlothar has black hair. Huh).

But bring up the fact that he describes Khaenri’ah like he’s lived there and the. That brings up and entire other question/argument. Then what was Kaeya’s father, Chlothar or not, doing? Was he part of the Abyss Order? Or was it just something purely Khaenri’ahn? How is he not affected by the curse; was it the fact that he’s only part Khaenri’ahn?

So much questions so little information. This is the reason I love and hate lore aaaaaaa-

Okokok

Caribert & Kae are siblings? - Again the “descendant” and “ancestry” thing, and he is suspiciously absent if they are siblings. (Huh, the abyss/Khaenri’ah is having the small theme of siblings/siblings in arms. Aether & Lumine; Dain & Halfdan as brothers in arms; hell, in the more abyss based - Childe, you know with Teucer and shit, and then Kaeya, with Caribert or Diluc.

Of course I’m in love with the head cannon that Kae is from when Khaenri’ah was actually alive lmao :,)

And that’s only Kaeya, granted he is my favorite.

Now, the travelers. (Again, Aether as traveler, Lumi as Abyssal sibling)

Right. So we see Lumine’s memories of her time traveling with Dain, in which she meets Chlothar Alberich, who she sorta-helps with his son, Caribert. Then, once she wakes up, Chlothar goes on for a bit about the abyss being the answer to the curse or something, etc.

Assumedly, this would be where Chlothar founded the Abyss Order? At least, this is the main inviting event that leads to the Abyss Order.

I think, if I’ve read this correctly, Lumine is still traveling with Dain, so it’s not like she actively helps and joins with Chlothar. If what we say as the traveler in Lumine’s memories actually did happen, she probably joins the Abyss later; Alberich, maybe partly the fact that she’s princess of Khaenri’ah and was also incredibly helpful to the creation of the abyss order, gives her the title of Princess in the Abyss Order.

Did something happen during the travel that caused her to join the Order? Or was it just the fact of mulling it over for fuck knows how long and then splitting with Dain that got her to join?

Also, if the Alberich clan took over after the fall of King Irmin, then how do Lumine and Aether go into this? Are the the kids of King Irmin? We’re they too young to rule or something; then how was Lumine old enough to see the fall of Khaenri’ah? By then wouldn’t there be enough time for at least one for the sibling to rule? Then how come there’s no mention of it?

Hell there’s even the question of just how Aether could share memories with Lumine. Technically, nothing happened there that would indicate that there’s be like.. something to fuck around with for memories. By all means it’s just a place. Did another event happen here? Was the curse from Caribert just that strong/not as specific? Am I just looking a bit too into this part because let’s be honest they probably just need to drop this lore somehow?

Also, when Chlothar is talking to Caribert on the ledge, he says something along the lines of “remember this is a new place”

Essentially: This is new from what we know, it weird. (Come back here, please)

That either means something was fucky with Sumeru making it fantastical or they just left Khaenri’ah, which is more likely.

Then how long has Dain & Lumine been travling? The ruins of Khaenri’ah are said to be underground around Sumeru, curtesy of Kaeya*.

(*Wait, for the small story Kaeya tells, he say he want to go to Sumeru to learn more of his origins - again, grain of salt for the pathological liar - but that overall implies that he’s never been to the ruins of Khaenri’ah. Of course he could just be lying and as a child he just want to go home, even if said home we’re ruins, but still.)

How recent was the destruction of Khaenri’ah, then? Cause Dain & Lumine are both treating it as if it’s been long - Chlothar says something like “your alias” which implies that Lumine has been using the name “Traveler” during her travels with Dain long enough for it to just become.. well, her deficit alias.

And if Lumine was the Princess of Khaenri’ah, why would she give Chlothar an alias? He clearly has big fuckin stars for his pupils; If the destruction of Khaenri’ah was that recent, why would she be so guarded? Was Alberich suspicious during the reign of Khaenri’ah? But the Alberich clan took over in Irmin’s stead, meaning they were trustworthy and powerful enough to keep an entire kingdom together.

Just how long as is then since Khaenri’ah’s destruction, then? If it’s been long enough to where being weary of another Khaenri’ah is just “expected”, then there’s no reason for Chlothar to remind Caribert about our go Khaenri’ah.

If it hasn’t been to long, then why has Lumine not revealed herself, relieved at the survival and… not-hilichurl-indication of her people? And why do Dain & Lumine treat/talk about their travel, even just in Sumeru, as if it had went on for an long time?

Aaaaaaa-

I’d continue but’s it’s 2 am on a school night (morning) and I have an “out-of-sight, out-of-mind” brain so just. Take this. GN and thanks for asking! :D

[zorosdimples]

kae i must know and if someone has already asked you then ignore me! but what are your fave parts of playing genshin so far (besides kaeya LMAO)? i’m also a new player and have been playing for a little bit and found myself falling down a rabbit hole with this game.

additionally do you have any selfship stuff with kaeya?

RISU I AM COMING TO THIS SO LATE I’M SORRY!

i’ve been playing genshin for 2.5 weeks and i’m done with liyue’s archon quest. i’m ar 33 and my brother says i’m progressing really quickly… but things are slowing down right now because the bosses are getting harder and i need better characters and weapons, sigh :’-)

my favorite part of the game honestly is the story! but not just the traveler’s storyline—everyone’s stories. the game is rich with lore and the characters are fully fleshed out and interesting. i’ve been impressed by how dynamic the plot is and the characters are! i can’t wait to get to know the characters better.

ohhhh kaekae… i don’t really have any concrete self ship stuff for the genshinverse, yet. i insert myself as the traveler right now, so i barely know anything about myself! i just think kaeya and i would get along so well. we have great banter, the sarcasm is unparalleled, and we both like to keep things a little ✨ mysterious and mischievous ✨ we’re intelligent and creative, so we can seem a little intimidating together (we are to our enemies), but we like to have fun!!! but i don’t have much more than that. i barely have self ship lore for my faves who have been around for 2 + years, so i’m super slow when it comes to this kind of stuff!

[alans-snz]

Okay so I'm pretty new to Tumblr and have only been on the sf forum previously (yeah, I know, I'm slow like that). I've noticed that all Ge/nshin names are written with a "/" sign in-between the letters. Again, I'm new here, so bear with me. Why do we do this? Is it to avoid the wrath of Tumblr or Hoyo? Or to avoid vanilla people finding out? Like, I'm so confused... Also, how do you search for specific characters on Tumblr if their names are spelled with a "/"?

Hey there!! No worries, this is a really good question!! It's the latter: to avoid vanilla people who are going through tags from finding our kink-related content. That's why we also use the term "snz" and a lot of our blogs are private to only Tumblr users too. We want to keep our content to the snzblr community to avoid any possible harrassment from outsiders (cause a lot of people on the internet are cruel to things they find "weird").

Regarding searching, it's definitely a lot more difficult since a lot of us mark the slashes down differently. There's even variety in how many slashes are used per name and/or just in general. Sometimes people use double slashes while others use single slashes like I do. And we tend to break apart the names differently too. I tend to break them apart as much as I can and try to avoid small words when I break them apart for extra good measure to avoid vanillas finding my content, but that's just how I do it. Some people break them up less and/or in different places.

However, I would say the best way to search is to look through your favorite snzblr pages with a character or characters you like on them. Most pages have their tags consistent so if they have and/or share multiple pieces of content for a character, you can click the tags on their pages to go to their other posts with them.

For example, you can do that with Kae/ya, Di/luc, Al/hai/th/am, Ka/veh, Tar/tag/li/a, and more here!! The best way to narrow stuff down would be looking at other specific tags first like my gen/shin or gen/shin im/pact tags and then you can go searching for character-specific tags there. Most other pages will have this as well to make it easier for people to find content of their favorite characters. They will also often have fandom tags in a pinned post for even easier searching. In my case, I have my gen/shin tag in my pinned post, but not c/el/ls a/t w/or/k since it's a newer contribution to my page, and so far, I have only covered one character there when it comes to snz. To anyone interested, I do plan to do some sort of content on Kil/l/er T from the original and maybe even some R/ed Bl/o/od C/el/l A/A2/15/3 from Co/de Bl/a/ck at some point, so stay tuned!

Hope this helps, welcome to snzblr, and thanks for the ask!!! 💕

[destisea-a]

      a semi selective , slow activity , canon multimuse blog.  with characters ranging in theme, and media. may include muses from:  𝐎𝐍𝐌𝐘𝐎𝐉𝐈 , 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇 𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐑 , 𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐊𝐀𝐈 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑 𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐋 , 𝐓𝐖𝐒𝐓 , & 𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄.  all characters are crossover friendly, as the majority of my muses are a mixture of headcanon & canon.  may contain disturbing themes, adult content, existentialism, and several more complex or difficult topics. i always try to tag things appropriately-  but if i miss something, feel free to tell me.

𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃 𝐓𝐎: @godfled / @knghted , @paramythas , @dvouer

it goes without saying but, i do not allow minors to follow my blog, or personals. any who do follow, or interact with my posts will be blocked. i also will not tolerate those who write triggering content and media including p*dophilia, or inc*st. ( I.E proshippers do not interact! )

primarily featuring:  𝐐𝐈𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐘 , from the manga 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇 𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐑

𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐒 qi/frey ( wha ) , veritas/ratio ( hsr ) , yato/no/kami ( onmyoji ) 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐘 belda/ruit ( wha ) , idia/shroud ( twst ) , suzuhikohime ( onmyoji )

𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓 / 𝐏𝐋𝐎𝐓 𝐃𝐄𝐏𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐓

primordial chaos ( hades ) , shieda kayn ( league / friends only ) , yuura ( twst mc ) tang/yun ( dis/lyte ) , poe ( bsd ) , serpico ( ber/serk / friends only )

  𝐌𝐘 𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒, 𝐏𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆:

my name is rhys, they/them or she/her.

be patient with me. notifications here are awful, so i don't always see everything or catch things right away. so long as we aren't rude, it's okay to give me a little nudge if i have clearly missed something i've been tagged in.

communication is extremely important to me in roleplay- as most of my interactions are pretty plot dependent. obviously real life comes first and is always first.

if you write or interact with saccharot ( kae ), do not follow me or block me or whatever. likewise, if you write with kiingsroar ( dia ) or any of their other blogs, i ask you do much the same. i'd be more than happy to explain what happened and why i'm uncomfortable with these users. but please, i don't want them on my dash.

if you want to ship? tell me. i will never assume, or default to shipping with people. of course i practice the same, and like to make it very clear i want to explore a particular dynamic. if things wont work then that's fine! but i need clarity when it comes to stuff like that. i really go 0 - 100 on shipping, and LOVE development, and plotting.

at the very most, i will ship romantically with up to two? of the same muse. but i like to keep that to a minimum. as plotting dynamics is something i put a lot of care and thoughts into-- and don't want my ship partners to ever feel like they're part of a collective or not unique / important to me. IF you'd like exclusivity, tell me. i am more than happy to do that if that's what you prefer. of course, i am more than ok with writing with multiple of the same muse. and exploring other kinds of ships and dynamics to see what clicks!

please, i don't obsessively hover on dash or deep dive on people. i roleplay as a hobby, and rarely prioritize being here. if someone i interact with is GENUINELY an issue, or has done something problematic and troubling- chances are i very likely do not know. or haven't heard about it, because i really only come on tumblr to rp and post art. i am okay with being corrected, or told these things. but do not spark drama, accuse me of things im not aware of, or assume i am okay with it.

pleeeeaaaaaaaase. PLEASE... TAG REALISTIC SPIDERS.