#Just realising that catering to social media is too demanding for me and drains me too much

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I am going to write one general post, because I am not replying to individual asks about the tags on the ask I answered before.

I was gone for more than a week, because of a lot of reasons I am not going to go on the details for, but none of those were related to my mutuals as individual humans. You can say, I just needed my own time off the social media to sort through some issues I developed and to do some things for my own well being strickly offline. Some of those were related to my art and the meaning of it and why I do this in the first place. Some sort of strong existensional crisis which was draining me for a while by now.

And while being offline for most part made me find my grip on my art again and I came to rediscover the love for that process and found new freedom in art I haven't felt in years, this did lead me to realise that... Tumblr as social media platform doesn't work for me that well. Again, this has nothing to do with people themselves, but with the whole enviroment being about having to constantly post to stay relevant and most of your heartfelt stuff (such as OCs) falling on deaf years, because it doesn't cater to fandom or algorithm ignores it. Again, not a complaint, but plain realisation of fact.

Yea, I know this might sound as me initially going "no one likes my stuff" route, but in truth I see people like some of it, but my biggest issue is that you need to constantly make things and most time it's not the things you would otherwise make. So, initially me being off tumblr lead to me drawing huge amounts of cool things I wouldn't otherwise ever have drawn, because those weren't in demand and I felt stupid (or cringe) for drawing, such as lots of pieces for my OCs and crossovers with them and funny art practices with AssCreed protags and now fanart of the animated show very dear to me I just rediscovered.

This all would be ignored on tumblr if I shared it, but to me those pieces are very very dear.

And now maybe you understand why I wrote these tags under that ask? I was gone for a week and only one person remembered I exist and sent me a meme...

Maybe that does make you understand my stance about becoming irrelevant even to people I consider friends once I stop posting? In other words, what is the point to return to tumblr and post here even if people I consider my main audience for dearest to me things just move on and forget.

And last important thing: I am not angry at you and you don't need to apologise. You don't have to cater to me in any kind of way. Quite opposite: my week long hiatus made me realise tumblr is bit too much of a grind for me anyways. I have much more important stuff I can focus on instead of spending hours scrolling this app (again not aimed at users, but as tumblr as social media site).