#JulianAlexanderNalos

[ayeeyoalexis]

Seven years.

11242007. The day my life changed. The day I lost the most important person in my life. Julian Alexander Nalos. I will never forget you. I will never forget that day. I swear I can remember it like it was yesterday & 7 years later I can still feel the pain in my heart when I think about it. I was 15, you were 22. You woke me up that morning, in my dream. The image I had before waking up was me & you hanging out. The minute I woke up I needed to hear your voice. Tell you "good morning" or to have a nice day & that I love you. But you didn't pick up. 5 minutes later my whole world shattered because that's when I found out that you died. Honestly to this day I still can't believe it. You were taken away from me in an instant & I didn't even get to say goodbye. I still haven't said goodbye. I can't. How would I? I know that you're up in heaven looking down on me & guiding me to a better future. I know I'm fucking up right now, but just know I'm trying my best. Please don't turn away from me & please don't stop putting your faith in me. I promise once I get all my funds settled I will visit you. Maybe that's when I'll say goodbye.... The first time we'll meet each other. There's so much I want to say but I can't get it out of me.... Please don't stop looking down on me. I seriously love you more than any guy out here. RIP Donut